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"You know you're wrong right?" The voice asked.

I was confused, at first, but then I had this strong feeling that everything was going to be ok, but not only that, I felt a huge surge of excitement and butterflies. Every one of those feelings I had for my first love and never had again since him came flooding back to me to the point that I started to cry.

"What am I wrong about?" I thought.

"You're wrong about you Kaylee." The voice said.

"What are you talking about?" I thought.

"You." The voice said.

Then out of no where Mason walks out of the trees and was heading right to me, and when I saw him, all of the feelings I had for him when we dated overwhelmed me. I felt excitement and couldn't help but tear up while he came walking out from the trees and stood in front of me, takes both of my hands and stands me up. He had that amazing smile on his face, and the look in his eyes sent these amazing feelings through me. I felt peace, I felt comfort, I felt warm and I felt safe, safer than I ever had. I really can't describe what I was really feeling except that I felt everything I felt with him before he left but it was way way stronger. I was mesmerized, I was like, completely weak and, oh god I don't even know.

"I'm confused." I thought.

"When you're ready I hope you let me show you what I'm talking about." He said.

"Promise me you'll be there when I'm ready." I thought.

"I promise." He said.

"Promise me you'll come find me when you're ready." He said with so much love in his eyes.

"I promise." I said while I started crying hard.

"I'll be waiting, I'll wait for you for as long as it takes for you to be ready. I love you Kaylee, I love you more than you will ever know, I never stopped loving you and I will always love you." He said.

"I love you too Mason, I never stopped loving you and I never will." I said while I cried.

We were talking, but our mouths weren't moving at all, he was in my head and apparently I was in his. He got close to me and before I knew it, he kissed me so soft and so gentle and he held that kiss making me melt into him. It was like all of the feelings I felt for him exploded and got so much stronger than I could ever imagine. After he broke the kiss, he kissed my forehead head and he looked deep in my eyes. He caressed my face before he turned to walk away. I just stood there in a daze when all of a sudden I heard this really loud beeping. No no no no, please no, I thought when I realized that it was my alarm clock. I opened my eyes and laid there for a minute before I sat up and just sat there on my bed and cried. I ssssoooo did not want that to be a dream, but it was. I just had an amazing dream about the man that I wanted to be with, the one I should have been with. I sat there and cried for a long time especially since I had just realized that I still missed him really bad. But then it hit me, I really did have a second chance and this was it, I just needed to find him. I needed to heal because I was hurt by Tim so bad that I was convinced that I was all of the things I mentioned before. The thing was that I was hurt by Tim so bad both physically and mentally, that all I could think of was the worst when it came to Mason. What if he doesn't like what he sees anymore, I mean, I wasn't fat, I was really skinny even though I had a little bit of fat from being pregnant. I was younger than him, I was almost 20 and he was almost 24, but I still felt really ugly and worthless. What if I did go find him and he just pushed me away? Why did I have doubts about him after so long of being so in love with him?

It was then that I made the decision to look for him and talk to him, I wasn't going to try to date him at all because he lost his fiancé and he had been single ever since. That just meant that he might have been affected by her death. Not only that, but I just got out of a really really bad marriage and I was hurting, but not because I lost Tim, but because I felt that I must have been such a bad wife that I deserved what I went through. I knew that I may get hurt if he did reject me, but I absolutely had to find him, I had to and it became a first priority for me, it was number one. I made a decision that once I was settled in my new place and healed, I was going to find him. I needed his peace and his comfort, I needed him, I needed my best friend back more than anything else. I was excited and happy to get out of hell, but I was scared because I didn't have anyone out there, no one. I got up and motivated myself, so I took a shower as best as I could, brushed my teeth, got dresses, did my make up, straightened my hair and got ready.

I called mom and she came over and helped me for a while. That's when she gave me some pictures that Mason and I had taken by a professional photographer. They were way way cute and I looked happier than I had ever been in my life, and he looked so so happy. We looked like we were in love with each other, because we were! Then she helped me put my pictures away in a safe spot and I opened my front door and waited. Oh my god I was anxious! I couldn't sit or stand still at all, so I left the front door open while mom went to pack my hair straightener, the clothes I wore, and the make up I used. While she was doing that, I remembered, my book! I started to look for it and couldn't find it and I started to panic, I wanted that book that mom just gave me and I couldn't find it. Mom helped me look everywhere and I even started to cry because we couldn't find it, I had to have that book. Finally after crying, panicking, and tearing the house apart, we found it. I sat down and held that book against me, I felt so so relieved! I held it close to me for a minute before I went and put it in my purse before I unpacked my make up and fixed my face. I think I checked my purse at least a dozen times after that to make sure my book was there. Finally it was 11:30, and I was so anxious and nervous that I was feeling sick, but then I got a call.

"Hello?" I asked.

"Hey is this Kaylee?" A person asked.

"Yes." I said.

"We just wanted to call to see if you're ready to do this." It said.

"Yes I'm ready, I'm so ready." I said.

"Ok, we are almost there, is all of your stuff ready?" It asked.

"Yes, my car is packed and I have everything I'm taking by the door, can we hurry?" I asked making the voice laugh.

"You're really ready to get out of there aren't you?" It asked with a laugh.

"You have no idea." I said.

"Your mom said that you're in a lot of pain, are you going to be ok?" The voice asked.

"Yes I'm fine, I didn't take any pain pills this morning, I want out of here." I said.

"Oh wow, she is ready!" Another voice said while they both laughed.

"Well, you're about to see four cars pull up, they are our security, is there room in your driveway for us to park?" The voice asked.

"Yes, I'll move my car so you have more room." I said.

"Awesome, we'll see you soon." The voice said.

"Oh my gosh I can't wait." I said making her laugh.

"Oh Kaylee, one more thing, you have broken bones and your still hurting, all we want you to do is point out everything you're taking and let us do all the work ok?" Another voice said.

"Ok, thank you sssoooo much." I said.

"You are very welcome." The voice said.

We hung up, and after we did that, I asked if mom could park my car on the street so there was room in the driveway, so she did that for me. It was only a minute before the four cars that they said would be there got to my house, and I watched from my front door while a white truck pulled in and backed in the driveway.

"Hi Kaylee." One person said while they got out of the truck.

"I'm ready." I said while they all got out and opened the back of their truck.

"Ok, so what do we have?" The driver asked.

"All of this and that's it, everything else she's taking is in her car." Mom said.

"This is it?" The front passenger asked.

"Yes it is, I wanna get out of here fast." I said.

"Ok let's go." The driver said.

It all started moving really fast! There were four people that were taking my stuff to the truck and I tried to help, my mom and the three girls. I grabbed my purse and held onto it after I looked to see if my book was still there. It only took like, five minutes to get all of my stuff in their truck, and once we finished going through the house, I went to my car and mom walked me to the car so we could say goodbye. Saying goodbye to her was one of the hardest things I ever did, but at the same time, I knew it wasn't going to be the last time I talked to her but after we said goodbye she left. The security guys were really happy that it didn't take very long at all and they even shook my hand because I had everything ready to go like I did.

"Do you know how to get out of here fast?" The driver asked.

"Yeah I do, do you wanna follow me?" I asked.

"Yes, but drive fast." The driver said.

The person that was in the back seat of the truck got in my car with me and we were off, and I drove really fast because I wanted to get out of there. We got out of town, and after that I got behind the white truck and we ended up driving for a long time, it was well over an hour maybe two. All I know was that it didn't feel like it was that long at all, and when we got to where we were going, we pulled into this really nice gated apartment complex and up to a town house. The people took me into the house and walked around with me before we unpacked everything from my car and the truck. And that's when it all hit me, I was free! I was free from the prison I grew up in, I was free from the complete control that the order had on me and I was free from the people who only married other wives for sex! I was free from it all! It was so overwhelming that I couldn't hold my tears back anymore, I started to sob. I was free, I was free! The people that helped me stayed with me and when I was able to get my composure back, I hugged all of them for helping me get out of hell. Those people were my angles, they were my saviors from the life of hell that I was born into, from the life that broke me in more ways than one, starting from the day that they took my first love away from me. I ordered dinner because mom got into my bank account and gave me some of my money, and we all ate and I told them everything that happened to me. And after a while, one of the people looked at me.

"So tell us about this Mason guy." One girl said making me feel all warm.

"You're blushing." Another said.

"I can't help it." I said with a giggle.

"Your mom says that he was your first love." The one that rode in my car with me said.

"He was, I loved him so so much. My life ended when he got taken away front me, it ruined my life." I said while I started to tear up.

"Did he love you?" The first girl asked.

"Yeah he did, he loved me as much as I loved him. You know how 14 and 15 year old girls get married all the time in the order?" I asked.

"Yeah, that's happens all the time." The third one asked.

"I really really didn't wanna get married that young, but when Mason and I fell in love like we did, I changed my mind, I loved him that much." I said.

"How old was he?" The second girl asked.

"Eighteen." I said.

"So did the order say anything about you two getting married?" The first one asked.

"He was the first boy on my list so they approved it and told us to start planning our marriage." I said.

"So was Mason ok with marrying you?" The third girl asked.

"At first he wasn't because he didn't wanna marry a girl that young." I said.

"But you changed his mind." The first girl said.

"Yeah I did, we really really loved each other." I said.

"What would you have done if he married his second wife?" The first girl asked.

"It never would have happened. He loved me so much that he was going to wait till I graduated high school and then he was going to run away with me so he wouldn't have to worry about that." I said.

"So he didn't want to marry anyone else?" The second girl asked.

"No he didn't. He said that I was all he wanted, he only wanted me to be his wife." I said.

"Wow, he was really in love with you." The first girl said.

"I know." I said.

"Would you be ok with running away with him?" The second girl asked.

"Oh yeah, I was ready to. We were planning our marriage out already, but when it was just me and him, we started to figure out where we were going to run away to. He even helped me look at different colleges that I could go to and we looked at apartments near those colleges." I said.

"He was going to let you go to college?!" The first girl asked all surprised.

"Yeah he was, he was even going to work and help pay for my college tuition and he was going to let me have a real career." I said.

"Oh my god, he really really loved you, that's so amazing!" The third girl said.

"I loved him just as much, he was so so amazing." I said.

"You still love him don't you?" The third girl asked.

"Yeah I do." I said while I wiped my tears.

"Clearly, so has it always been like this with him?" The driver asked.

"Well, yeah it kinda was. We actually started talking at my birthday party and we became really really good friends after that, he was my best friend in the whole world. I could tell him anything, we laughed all the time and we did everything together. He never tried to court me at all during that time, he was just an amazing friend, but some time during all of that I like.." I said.

"You fell in love with him." The first one said.

"Yeah, I did." I said.

"When did he fall in love with you?" The third girl asked.

"The same time I fell in love with him." I said.

"Did you guys ever go on a date?" The first one asked.

"Oh yeah but we didn't go on a date till after we were best friends for the longest time but yeah we finally did, he asked my mom for permission to take me out." I replied.

"So how did you guys find out that you were in love with each other?" The second one asked.

"On our first date, we were playing mini golf and I was watching him. We were playing a game to see who could distract who the most, and I just had to tell him that I was in love with him, I had to, so I just told him that I was." I said.

"What did he say when you told him that you were in love with him?" The first one asked.

"He kissed me." I said.

"Really?!" The third girl asked.

"Yeah, he kissed me." I said.

"Look at you, you're glowing." The second one said.

"Did he tell you that he was in love with you too?" The first girl asked.

"Yes he did, he told me that he was in love with me before that night." I said.

"So did you guys like, know each other before?" The one that rode with me asked.

"Well yeah, he's my cousin." I said.

"You really fell hard for him didn't you?" The driver asked.

"You can say that." I said.

"Do you still love him?" The one that rode with me asked.

"I don't think I'll ever not love him like that." I said.

I LLLLOVED that they all kept asking questions about Mason, I loved it! And because of that I ended up talking about him for thee longest time. They could see that I still loved him, I mean, it was pretty obvious. I don't know how long it was after we got there that they left, but I was so tried that I went to bed. I tried to sleep but I couldn't because I was hurting again. So I got up and took some pain pills, then I went and got my book out of my purse and laid back down. I laid there staring at the book with Masons name and thinking about what I was going to say to him. I didn't realize that there was so much that I wanted to say to him until then. I wanted to tell him that I wasn't mad at him for leaving me the way he did, I mean like, I was mad at him at first because I felt like he abandoned me. I was mad at him because if he wouldn't have left me the way he did, I wouldn't have gone through everything I did with Tim, I wouldn't have even courted him at all. But after Tim beat me up so bad that he killed my baby, I started to understand why he beat his dad up for beating his mom and sisters up. I get how he must have felt when he walked into that house to what he did. I wanted him to know that I understood why he did what he did, I just wish he wouldn't have been taken out of the order because when they took him away, they took a huge huge part of me away with him. While I was trying to figure out what I was going to say to him when I saw him again, I fell asleep and I had the exact same dream about Mason that I did the night before, and just like the last one, it seemed so so real.

Months and months went by and I wish I could say that things improved after I escaped the order and from my soon to be ex, but it wasn't all that amazing. I wished that I was as happy as I hoped I would be, and I wished that I wouldn't be hurting so so bad. I wished that my life was never ruined the way it was. It was amazing, I loved my life and I loved everything that was going on with me, and it was all because of Mason. I suffered from depression really really bad, and it was so bad that I was starting to get suicidal. I started drinking like crazy just so I could numb the pain that I was feeling, and it only worked while I was drunk. I hated getting drunk, but at the time it was all I could think of to do to stop hurting. I got a job, and I had a lot of boys that wanted to be with me, but I was never interested in any of them because they weren't Mason. I never went on any dates and I wasn't interested in going on any unless it was with him. I was still living in fear too because Tim still hadn't been found, so I lived my life looking over my shoulder even though I had my own security. I tried, I really tried but every time I did, I would fall on my face. I would live outside of the order and be miserable over going back and living in fear and getting beat up by men any day, so going back to the order wasn't even an option for me.

I was physically broken but that all healed for the most part. My bruises were gone and my collar bone was healed and all my swelling was gone, but my arm was still healing. I didn't have a hard cast anymore, but I did have some kind of brace now. The problem was that mentally and emotionally, I was still broken and I was still bleeding really bad. I thought the worst of myself and it was so bad that I was almost convinced that I was not good enough for Mason. I was almost convinced that he needed to find another girl that was way better than I could ever be. I was convinced that he would be better off without me because I was the worst girlfriend and wife anyone could ever have and my last marriage proved that to me. Mason was incredible, he was amazing, he was my life, he was my world, but I was almost convinced that I didn't deserve a guy like him because there is no way that I could ever make him happy. I failed miserably as a wife this time, and I was convinced that I would fail as a wife to the man that I loved more than life itself. And since I loved him, I felt like I needed to let him go so he could be happy and not miserable like he would be with me. I couldn't do that to him because I loved him way too much.

The other thing was that I looked for Mason as best as I could, but I couldn't find him and I ran out of places and ways to look. I still really really loved him, he was still the love of my life and when I got drunk, I would always think about him and sob because I wanted to be in his arms, I needed him more than anything in this world. I don't know how, but I just knew that if I could find my Mason and we were able to become best friends again, my life would get right back on track, I would be happy again, I needed him more than anyone could ever understand. I sobbed so so hard and for so long almost every single night because I couldn't find him. It hurt, but I was not about to give up even though I just knew that I didn't deserve him. I was in a really bad place in my life, and it's not a place that I ever thought that I would ever be. I hated, and I mean I hated myself, I didn't like how I looked and I didn't like me in general. I was starting to think that mom was wrong about everything when it came to me and Mason, I really did and I was giving up hope a little.

I hated myself so bad for being such an ugly horrible person that I seriously thought that the world would be better off without me. And even though I never gave up looking for Mason, I was starting to think that I was never going to find him. Besides he would be better off without me because he wouldn't have to look at me, and he would never have to worry about me ruining his life like I did the man I hated, the one I was married to. And after a longer time, I was starting to seriously think that mom was wrong about me having a second chance with Mason, I really was. And for the first time since I started looking for him, I started to give up hope, I started to think that it was never going to happen. There was one good thing that happened since I escaped the order. And that was that Tim was found hiding in a different state by the US Marshals Fugitive Task Force. And the day he got arrested, he was sent back to the state that he almost killed me in and put in jail and he was served with divorce papers the day he got there. Even though that happened, I still didn't feel any better at all, I was still really really depressed and really sad.

I still never so much as wanted to go on a date with any of the boys I knew then, and I didn't like any of them like that at all. All I knew was that even though I wasn't in the order anymore, I still had standards. I have always been taught that having sex outside of marriage was a huge sin. And all the guys I knew just wanted to have sex with me. And since I didn't, they stopped talking to me and started talking about me behind my back and that just made me feel worse about myself. They always said that I was hot and sexy as fuck, but they never told me that I was beautiful, and they always said that I was a bitch. I didn't care what they thought, I wasn't going to compromise my values for anyone, especially since I still had a tiny little bit of hope that I would be with Mason again. I wanted to be clean for him if we ever got back together and I wanted him to be the only one I had sex with after he and I married, maybe even before we got married. He was thee only one I would compromise my values for and that's it.

Almost seven months after I escaped the order, I found myself more depressed than I had ever been in my life. I was so so drunk, oh my god I was drunk. I woke up and called in sick at work, I worked at the mall and after I did that, I spent the whole day feeling sorry for myself. It got so so bad that I sobbed and sobbed all day long. I hated my life and after a while, I was so so depressed that I decided that I needed to end my life. I was really really drunk but I still knew what I was doing. I went and filled my tub and almost fell a few times before I went to my kitchen and went into my junk drawer. I grabbed my bottle of alcohol after I found a razor blade and went back to the bathroom. I pulled my long blonde hair back, put it in a bun and turned the bath water off. I started sobbing again and the whole time I sobbed, I thought about Mason. I thought about how happy he made me, how amazing he was to me, how amazingly handsome he was and how he made me feel the whole time we courted before the order took him away from me.

I thought about how the order destroyed me as a person, and how they hid my husband after he killed my baby, and almost killed me. I thought about how worthless I felt, and how I needed to do Mason and the world a huge favor and kill myself. I was tired of hurting, I was tired of being so so depressed and I was tired of living, I was done. I sobbed so hard that after I got naked, I fell on the floor and sobbed. Then I went to my room and wrote a note to Mason while I sobbed that read:

Mason,

If you're reading this letter, then I'm already dead. I want you to know that I'm so sorry for what the order did to you, and I want you to know that I don't blame you at all for what happened, I blame the order cult. I want you to know that I love you more than anything else in this world. I never stopped loving you and I will always love you. You were the love of my life and you were my everything. I miss you, I miss you so much that it hurts. I want you to be happy, I want you to live an amazing life because you deserve it more than anyone I know. You're an amazing man Mason, and I feel blessed and I feel like the luckiest girl in the world for ever knowing you. You are and always have been the love of my life and I hope that you will never forget me. I'm writing this to say goodbye, I'm ending all of this, I'm ending the pain that the order caused me when they took you away from me. I just can't do this anymore.

I love you forever and always.
Kaylee.

I walked out to the dining room and put the note on the table and went back in the bathroom, then I got in the tub and called my mom.

"Hello, Kaylee?" Mom said while I cried.

"Mom, I can't do it anymore." I said while I sobbed.

"Hun, what's wrong baby, talk to me." She said.

"I'm done mom, I can't do it anymore, I'm tired." I said.

"What are you talking about hun?" Mom asked.

"I just wanted to call and say I love you, I love you mom. Thank you, thank you for everything you've done for me." I said.

"Kaylee, don't do this honey, please don't do this." Mom pleaded.

"Bye mom, I love you." I said before I hung up and dropped my phone in the tub.

I sat there and sobbed so hard that I shook, and it was a long time before I started to do something really really bad. I took another drink of my alcohol and put the bottle down and grabbed the razor blade I had. I sobbed and sobbed while I cut my wrist really really deep, and I cut it several times before I started to cut my other wrist the same way. I watched my cuts open wide and blood start to pour out and I could feel the sting of the razor while I cut myself. I put the razor down and sunk into my tub while I started to bleed really bad, and that's when I felt a presence in my bathroom. I opened my eyes and it was the cops, they somehow got in my apartment and were standing there. I tried to fight them when they tried to grab me to help me because I wanted to die, I wanted to rid the world of me. I wanted to save Mason the misery that I might have caused him if I found him. I tried to fight them, but I was too drunk and too weak to even fight them. And the next thing I knew was that the ambulance people and fire fighters came in and wrapped my arms up after they got me out of the tub. They covered me up and they carried me out of the bathroom and put me on a stretcher, and out to the ambulance.

I was way too drunk and weak to fight them too, so I just went with it and that was also when I knew that I really really messed up. I still wanted to die, so it wasn't because I tried to kill myself and it didn't work, it was because I called my mom and she must have called the police or someone who did. When I got to the hospital, I was taken into the emergency room and they started to work on me but I was screaming at them because they wouldn't let me die. And after a minute or so, I felt a needle get pushed in my arm and that was all I remembered. I was out for the longest time ever, and when I finally woke up I was in my own hospital room. They had me restrained and everything, and after a while, the doctor came in to my room and started to talk to me. I told her that I wanted to die and that I did want to kill myself, I opened up to her a little but not that much. I just laid there in bed and didn't talk or look at anyone for the rest of that day or the few days after that. And after a while, the doctor that talked to me told me that they were moving me to another hospital to get some help. I was so depressed that I just didn't care about anything or anyone, I was done with everything, I was done living. I didn't even eat while I was in the hospital because if they weren't going to let me kill myself the way I tried, I was going to starve myself to death.

I wasn't happy about the fact that they were sending me to another hospital at all. They said that they were suppose to have some people there that were suppose to help me through what ever I was going through. The problem was that I didn't want help, I wanted to die so I wouldn't have to hurt anymore, I was tired of the pain that I had been dealing with for so long. They somehow got me some of my clothes from my house and after a while, they said that my ride to the other hospital was on the way. I got dressed and I seriously thought about ripping my IVs out and running away so I could end everything, but there were too many people around so it wouldn't have worked. I laid back down on my bed after I put my shoes on and waited for my ride to the next hospital. I planned on talking and acting like I was better so I could get out and go home so I could try again. After almost twenty minutes, I heard the nurses talking to someone and I started to get a little mad because I just had this gut feeling that it was my ride to the other hospital.

After a few minutes, I saw this lady walk in that had a uniform on and EMT was on the back of that uniform shirt. She came into my room and looked at me and smiled.

"Hi there. I'm Kendra, what's your name?" She asked.

"Kaylee." I said, I won't lie, I was kinda rude about it.

"Well Kaylee, it's nice to meet you, we are going to have the IVs taken out and then we'll be on our way ok?" She asked.

"Whatever." I said.

Then I looked up to see this really, really tall guy with arms that looked like the person worked out a lot standing in the doorway with his back to me, only his uniform said PARAMEDIC, and under it, it said critical care, only it was in smaller caps. I heard his voice, it was a very deep manly booming voice but not loud. He had long thick straight hair that went to the middle of his back and it was light brown and I could see red highlights and streaks in it, he had it pulled back in a pony tail and he had it going through the back of the hat he was wearing. I won't lie, I honestly thought he was a girl at first because he had amazingly beautiful hair. Could be anyone, I thought. I was so depressed and mad that it didn't even register at all, but when he turned around and looked at me I saw the look on his face. He started walking while he stared at me like he knew me mixed with shock and it was starting to make me mad. Then I watched his eyes get a little bigger and it looked like he wanted to cry, it was like he recognized me. But I didn't recognize him at all and I was on the verge of being way rude to him. I was going to ask him what he was staring at, but before I could say anything he started to talk while he handed a folder to Kendra.

"Kaylee?!" He asked while he actually started to cry but he was trying so hard to hide it and it was pretty obvious.

That's when it kinda started to sink in, I started to recognize him but I still wasn't sure who he was because he had a really nice beard and mustache and long hair now, so I just looked away and tried to ignore him.

"It's me Mason McCarthy, are you Kaylee Roberts? We were in the order together and we courted when I was 18." He said while his partner looked at me with a really surprised look and covered her mouth.

That's when it hit me so hard that I started crying really hard like, immediately. It was Mason, my Mason! I covered my mouth and stared at him and I started to sob like crazy because it finally hit me that it was him! I couldn't talk since I was bawling my eyes out, so I nodded my head yes and I got out of my bed and started walking to him. I held my arms out for him while he almost ran to me and once he got to me, he leaned down and I wrapped my arms around his neck and he picked me up. I wrapped my legs around his waist and hugged him really really tight and he was holding me so tight like he didn't want to let me go. I started to sob so so hard and so loud that I knew everyone on that floor could hear me, but I didn't care, I was in Masons arms, I was in his arms again, he found me! I felt him cradle my head gently and I heard and felt him crying pretty hard too. After a long long time of sobbing in his arms so hard and loud that I was shaking, I lifted my head and put my hands on his face and on his soft beard and looked in his eyes to make sure I wasn't dreaming this time. And when I did, I saw him crying really hard, and that made me sob even harder. His tears were pouring out of his amazing green eyes, down his cheeks, and into his beard like crazy.

"It's really me." He said while I put my thumbs in his tears and looked in his eyes.

"It's really you." I said through short huge sobbing gasps.

"Yes. It's really me, I can't believe I'm holding you again." He said while he cried like I was.

"I missed you, I missed you so bad." I said quietly through short and sharp sobbing gasps.

"I missed you too, you really have no idea." He said before I buried my face in his shoulder and sobbed more.

I couldn't stop sobbing, I was relieved that he was there and for the first time in a long time, I felt like I had somebody and like I wasn't alone. Seeing Mason was the best thing that could have happen to me, and while he held me and cried with me, I couldn't help but think that maybe my mom was right all along, this has to be a sign. After like, forever, I lifted my head and looked in his eyes and he pulled my head against his and looked deep in mine, then we started wiping each other's tears.

"Hi." I said while I cried with a smile.

"Hi, oh my god you're so beautiful, damn you're beautiful. I missed you more than you will ever know. I'm here now, I'm here and I will be from now on" He said while he cried with me.

"I know, I know you will." I said.

"I'm going to put you down and I'm going to take that IV out of your arm, are you ok with that?" He asked making me nod my head yes.

"Ok." He said while he walked me to my bed and put me down.

"I'm going to go ahead and pull this." He said while he looked at all of the nurses and wiped his eyes with his arm.

I looked at them and saw that they were all crying too, they were in my room the whole time watching us. Mason already had some blue gloves on, and when he got on his knees, one of the nurses handed him a cotton ball and some wrappy thing while she cried.

"Are you ready?" He asked.

I nodded my head yes, and when I did, he put the cotton ball on the place that the IV went into my arm and pulled my IV tube out of my arm.

"Hold this for me, and make sure you put pressure on it, can you do that for me?" He asked while he looked deep into my eyes like he always did when we were courting.

"Yeah." I said while I held the cotton ball.

Then he wrapped that thing around my arm and then he cut it using the scissors he had in his pant leg pocket.

"Is it ok if I have a minute with her?" He asked while he looked at the EMT lady and all of the nurses that were crying while they watched us.

"C'mon guys, they need a minute." The EMT lady said.

They walked out of my room and closed the door.

"Come here." He said while he started crying again.

He hugged me tightly and held onto me like I was going to get away.

"I've been searching for you, I've been searching for you for a long long time." He whispered after a minute.

"I've been looking for you too, I've been looking for you since I escaped the order."
I said.

"I guess the search is finally over now isn't it?" He asked while he backed off and looked in my eyes.

"Can I just go home with you?" I asked.

"Oh my god Kaylee you have no idea how bad I want to take you home, but this is all out of my hands. I can't even though I want to. But if you're willing, and only if you're willing, I'd like for you to come and stay with me when you get out of the hospital." He said.

"I wanna go home with you now." I said while we both cried.

"I know baby, I know you do and I want to take you home with me right now, but you need to go heal first. And don't you worry, I am going fight this with you, I'm here now and I will stand right by your side and help you through this, I'm not going anywhere and now that we've finally found each other, I am not going to leave you again, I promise you that right here and now." He said making me cry harder.

"You don't know how bad I needed to hear you say that." I said while I started sobbing again.

"Baby look at me, look at me." He said making me look in his eyes.

"I mean it, I mean it Kaylee, we need each other right now, so please let me take you to the hospital so you can start healing. You'll be in the hospital I know, but I'm still going to be here with you all the way through this, I'm not going anywhere." He said.

"Ok, I'll do it." I said while I held his face and looked in his eyes.

"Thank you, I can't loose you again Kaylee, I don't think I'll be able to live anymore if I do." He said while he cried really hard.

"I never stopped loving you." I said while I sobbed.

"Look at me baby, look at me." He said while he lifted my head by my chin making me look into his amazing eyes.

"I never stopped loving you either Kaylee. You were my first love, you were my everything, you were my life and they ripped me away from you. My life has never been the same since." He said while he cried really hard.

"Oh my god I missed you." I said through sharp and short sobbing gasps.

"I've missed you so bad." He said while he held me and we both sobbed.

After a long long time, we let go of each other and he looked in my eyes.

"For the record, no I'm not married and no I do not have a girlfriend." He said while that smile I fell in love with started to form on those lips I use to kiss all the time when I was 14.

"That's the best news ever." I said while I smiled.

"Please tell me you're single." He said.

"I am, I'm divorced and I have no boyfriend." I said while I smiled.

"Oh thank god." He said making me smile bigger.

"Goddamn you're so so beautiful, good god." He said making me feel all warm.

"You grew your hair out and grew a beard." I said while I smiled.

"Yeah, I'm trying to look ugly so girls will leave me alone, I'm trying to look homeless." He said making me laugh for the first time in months.

"How's that working out for you?" I asked while I laughed.

"Not all that good unfortunately, it's pissing me off." He said while we both laughed and he stood up.

"It because you look way way wwwaaay hotter like that like, damn." I said making him blush and smile.

"You think so?" He asked with his amazing smile.

"Yes, I mean, you've always been the cutest and most handsome boy I've ever known, but now you're just sexy. If you wanted to look homeless and ugly, you probably shouldn't have been working out like you obviously still do, and you shouldn't be taking care of your hair and keeping your beard trimmed. You don't look homeless at all, you look really really really hot." I said before I could stop myself.

"Ok then, I guess we don't have to worry about wether or not you're attracted to me still." He said with that amazing smile I missed so much.

"Oh god no, you look amazing." I said while he walked to me and got back on his knees.

"You were and are by far the most beautiful girl I have ever seen in my life and the amazing part of that is that you have gotten even more beautiful than you ever were. You're all tanned up now, wow you look amazing." He said making me start swooning for him again.

"Thank you." I said.

"I mean it." He said.

"I know you do because I can feel it when you tell me." I said.

"I hope so." He said.

"Thank you for saving my life." I said.

"You're welcome." He said.

"Oh my god I'm so so glad you're the one taking me to that hospital." I said.

"I was not expecting my patient transfer to be you at all." He said.

"Mom was definitely right." I said.

"Well, we have to get going so tell me about that on the way ok?" He asked.

"Ok." I said.

"You still have that amazing long ass blonde hair, oh my god you're so beautiful." He said while he brushed my hair out of my eyes and caressed my face while I giggled and smiled, he was making me feel really really good.

"My hair is longer than yours." I said while I giggled and looked at him while I touched his face.

"Yeah, it is but that's ok, we need people to be able to tell which one of us is the girl am I right?" He asked making me laugh again.

"How can they not tell? You're like way way tall and you obviously work out all the time cause you look like this, it's kinda easy to see that you're a man." I said.

"Well, I guess there is that, that and there aren't many women with beards and mustaches like mine, at least not that I'm aware of." He said making me giggle.

"I love your beard and mustache, and I love your hair, you look really really really really good." I said.

"Thank you." He said with that smile while he stood up.

I took his hand while he looked so deep in my eyes that I could feel his energy again, I don't think you'll ever understand what that did to me. I couldn't believe that I was smiling again! I felt amazing, but he was right, I needed to get better and I needed to heal from all of the hurt and pain I went through for so long. He held my hand while he went and opened the door to my room, and when he did that, I saw all the nurses and the EMT lady, they all were still crying.

"Oh my god! She's smiling!" One of the nurses said.

"You have a beautiful smile Kaylee." One said.

"Thank you." I said.

"You did for her in twenty minutes what we've been trying to do for several days." Another nurse said while she looked at Mason.

"Well, I can't take all the credit, she deserves a lot of it too." He said.

"Is it ok if we hug you Kaylee?" Another one asked.

"Yeah." I said while they all started to hug me.

"I'm sorry I was so rude and mean to you guys, I'm really sorry." I said while I started crying again.

"Hey hey hey hey, it's ok, don't apologize it's ok." One of the nurses said.

"You are in amazing amazing hands with this guy here." One of the nurses said.

"I know I am." I said.

"This is the girl I've been telling you all about for hell, a long time." Mason said.

"Yeah, we kinda figured that out already and you're right, she is really beautiful, especially when she smiles." One of the nurses said, she looked right at me when she said "when she smiles".

"He's talked about me?" I asked with the biggest smile since before he got taken away from me.

"You're glowing, aaaawwwww!" One of the nurses kinda squealed and started hopping up and down and clapping her hands.

"Yes he has, he's been looking for you for a long long time." The EMT lady said at the same time.

"Kaylee, this is my partner Kendra, you've already met." Mason said while she walked up to me.

"I'm going to hug you, is that ok?" She asked.

"Yes that's fine." I said before she hugged me.

"It's really really nice to meet you, I've heard so much about you that I feel like I know you." She said making me start crying because I realized that Mason must have talked about me all the time, it made me feel like he still loved me.

"It's nice to meet you too." I said.

"Don't worry, he'll take good care of you." She said.

"I know." I said.

"I'll drive Mason, you can ride in the back for this one." She said.

"Thank you, we should get going." He said.

"Can I just walk out?" I asked.

"You can if you want, but it'll be easier if you ride on the cot, it's up to you." He said.

"I'll ride on that." I said while I pointed at the cot.

He took my hand and led me to the cot, I had no idea that that's what they called it, and lowered it for me so I could sit on it.

"Put your booty right here, and put your feet that way." Kendra said before I sat down and laid back.

"Hey Mason, congratulations on your masters, When are you going to come work here full time?" A nurse asked.

"We've been over this Jacquelyn, I love it out in the streets." Mason said, but he said her name funny, like jay-quell-Lynn or something like that.

"Well, it's just a thought, you'de be a really good nurse." She said.

"I, I am a nurse." He said sarcastically.

"Well I know that, you know what I mean smart ass." She said.

"He just got his masters in nursing science Jacquelyn, so he's right, he kinda is a nurse." A nurse said while everyone laughed at her.

"Where the hell have you been?" Another nurse asked while she laughed.

"You were in my study group for god sakes!" Mason said at the same time as everyone else was talking.

"Leave me alone!" Jacquelyn said while she and everyone laughed.

"Thank you for taking care of her ladies, I really really appreciate it." Mason said while he started to cry a little.

"You're welcome, oh shit, we forgot to change her dressing." A nurse said.

"We gotta do that before you guys leave." Jacquelyn said.

"I'll do it guys, no worries, I'll do it on the rig." Mason said.

"Are you sure?" They asked.

"Yes I'm sure, no worries." He said.

"Ok, Kaylee, I'm serious when I say this. Best of luck to you, I really hope you get what you need and that you get better, you're beautiful, oh my god you're beautiful." A nurse said.

"Thank you." I said while she walked up to me.

"One more thing." She said while she leaned down and held her hand up and touched my head with the side of it and got really really close.

"He is still madly in love with you." She whispered.

"He is?" I whispered in her ear after I motioned for her to get close.

"Let me put it this way, his fiancé was going to call their engagement off before she died." She whispered in my ear.

"Why? I whispered in her ear.

"Because she couldn't compete with you, you had his heart and she knew it from the very beginning. He always talked about you and he was searching for you the whole time they were together." She whispered in my ear.

After she told me that I couldn't help but smile so big it hurt, it had been so long since I smiled like that and it felt so so good.

"I'm still madly in love with him and I've been looking for him too." I whispered in her ear.

"That's so amazing." She said before she leaned down and hugged me.

"You can't say a word about this conversation to him or anyone at all." She whispered in my ear.

"I won't." I said while she stood up.

"Pinkie promise?" She asked while she held her pinkie out for me.

"Pinkie promise." I said while I hooked my pinkie with hers.

I looked over and saw Mason surrounded by nurses and his partner and they all were pretending to tell secrets like the nurse and I were.

"What are you guys being so secretive about?" The nurse asked.

"What, no, no secrets, we have no idea what you're talking about." Mason stammered jokingly.

"Nope, you're just seeing things." Kendra said while she nodded her head no.

"You guys were whispering and looking at us." The nurse said.

"No, no we weren't I swear." Mason said making me laugh.

"Look who's talking." Jacquelyn said at the same time.

"You're laughing!" One of the other nurses said while she looked at me.

The nurses all came up to me and gave me a hug and told me to get better while Kendra put some seat belts on me, but when the nurse that told me that Mason was still in love with me hugged me again, she whispered in my ear again.

"Get better so you two can be together like I'm convinced you're suppose to be." She said.

"Thank you." I said.

"Alright guys, we'll see you all later." Mason said while he lifted the cot by pushing a button or something, it was an electric cot.

"Bye Kaylee!" They all said while Mason and Kendra took me to an elevator.

I couldn't help but watch Mason, he's way beyond handsome now, I thought while I watched his long hair move. Once we got outside I watched Mason take his shades off of his head, or hat and put them on.

"I'm such a baller." He said out of nowhere while he put his shades on making me and Kendra laugh pretty hard.

"Well that was random." Kendra said while we laughed.

They got me in the ambulance and Mason got in the back with me before Kendra went up to the front.

"Ok, let's go ahead and get these dressings changed." He said while he stood up as best as he could, he was tall as hell remember, to get some bandages and stuff.

I couldn't help but sit there and admire the man that he had become, he wasn't just a boy anymore, he was an incredibly handsome handsome man. He looked so so amazing that it wasn't funny! Think of all the really hot famous guys that all girls like, like Chris Hemsworth and other guys like him that make all of the girls drool and stare, yeah, that's how amazing Mason looked! I was still beside myself and shocked that he was actually with me in the ambulance. Like I said, I didn't want to live, I wanted to die and I planned on killing myself once I got out of the hospital, only I wasn't going to call anyone at all, I was just going to let someone find me dead. But after he came to my room and hugged me, cried with me the way he did and said that he never stopped loving me, I don't know. All I knew was that I really felt how much he really loved me, I knew that he cared about me more than anything else. Do you remember when I said that if I could just see him and be in his arms again that my life would get better? Well, it happened. I was happy, I was excited, and I felt like I belonged. I didn't remember the last time I smiled and laughed as much as I did that day, I didn't. I went from hating everything about myself and hating my life so bad that I was determined to end my life. I went from being rude, horrible, depressed and sad to sobbing so hard in Masons arms that I just knew that everyone on my floor could hear me, to smiling and laughing. It's like, I don't know, it's like I hit rock bottom and when I did I hit so hard that I bounced off of the bottom. Then right when I started to fall back to the bottom again, Mason reached down, grabbed my arm and pulled me out, then he held me so tight that I almost couldn't breath and he cried and sobbed for me for so long.

I changed my mind right then and there, I didn't want to die anymore, but what helped me make that my final decision was what that nurse told me. And believe me, I still felt that way about him, only I was like, way way way way way way (and on and on) more attracted to him because he was so so much better looking than he was when he was in the order with me, and he was the cutest boy in the world to me then. I sat there and watched him cut my bandages off and when he saw the stitches in my wrist, he started to cry again but I could tell he was trying to hide it.

"Why are you crying?" I asked after I sat up and put my hand on his face touching his soft beard while I did.

"Because." He said before he started to break down.

"Because why?" I asked while he put some kind of Neosporin type stuff on my still fresh wound and hundreds of stitches.

"I'm not sure why." He said while his voice broke up.

"Tell me please." I said while I lifted his head to look in his eyes.

"I feel responsible for this." He struggled to say making me start crying.

"Look at me Mason, look at me." I said.

"How are you responsible for this?" I asked.

"I fucked up." He said while we cried.

"How, how did you mess up?" I asked.

"I got kicked out of the order Kaylee, I did something bad and it got me kicked out of the order. And because of that, they tore us apart, then your ex husband almost kills you and now you're here with this." He struggled to say.

"Baby look at me" I said making him look in my eyes again.

"This isn't your fault, it isn't. I don't blame you at all." I said.

"Yeah it kind of is Kaylee, you never would have gone through what you did if I didn't fuck up as bad as I did, you wouldn't be here in my rig like this. I hurt the one girl that I loved more than life itself and you don't put the one you love through this, you don't." He struggled to say while he looked down again.

"You can't blame yourself, you can't because this isn't your fault." I said while I cried.

"You're five years too late for that." He said.

"Listen to me carefully babe, look at me." I said making him look in my eyes.

"I do not blame you at all, get that through your head please baby. I blame the order, I blame the highers and I blame your step dad, I blame my dad. It's their fault and its my soon to be ex husbands fault. They are the ones I blame Mason, not you." I said.

"That helps a little, thank you." He said before he hugged me.

I held him for a minute before we let go of each other and he finished my one arm and started to do the other one.

"Thank you." I said when he got done.

"You're welcome." He said.

"Um, is it ok if I call my mom?" I asked.

"You're still talking to her?" He asked.

"Yeah I am, she helped get me out of the order." I said.

"Your mom helped you get out?!" He asked with a look of surprise on his face.

"Yep. Tim beat me up so bad that he almost killed me and after I got out of the hospital, mom made a few phone calls and helped me escape." I said.

"How long after you got out did you escape?" He asked.

"Four months." I said.

"Have you been up here this whole time?" He asked.

"Yeah I have." I said.

"Wait, so I've been searching everywhere for you and you've been here for the last six or seven months? He asked.

"Yep, I didn't know you were here either." I said.

"Like I said, our search is over, do you have your phone with you?" He asked.

"No, I don't have one anymore. I kinda ruined it when I did this." I said.

"Well here, use this." He said while he took his phone out of his pocket and his Bluetooth out of his ear and handed them to me.

"I promise that I cleaned my ears out this morning so there's no wax in that." He said making me giggle.

"Thank you." I said while I put his Bluetooth in my ear and took his phone.

I tapped the button to bring his screen up and saw his lock screen picture, it was of me and I was looking at him with the biggest smile. Then I unlocked his phone after he gave me the code, and when I saw his home screen picture, I almost started to cry, it was a selfie that he took of us, I remembered when he took those pictures, it was back when we were courting. He does still love me, I thought while I looked at him with a huge smile and watery eyes.

"Sorry about that, I can't seem to get myself to delete those." He said.

"Don't be sorry, I had these same pictures as my home screen picture too." I said.

"You don't think I'm creepy for keeping those do you?" He asked with a little hint of fear in his eyes.

"Really Mason? You honestly think you could ever give me the creeps?" I asked sarcastically with a smile.

"Maybe." He said with a little smirk.

"Well you can't, I think it's really sweet that you still have these, I love that you still have them." I said.

Oh my god I almost told him that I was still in love with him because like, I really was, and laying in that ambulance looking at him really started to bring all of my feelings I had for him back like, really bad. It didn't help that he was looking at me the way he always use to when we were courting. I had to shake it off so that I could concentrate on calling mom to let her know that I was ok. So I dialed my moms number and waited while it started to ring.

"Hello?" Mom asked after the third or fourth ring, she sounded really bad.

"Mom it's me." I said while I started crying.

"Kaylee?" She asked.

"Yes mom." I said while she started crying.

"Oh my god Kaylee, you're alive, are you ok?" She said while she cried harder.

"I am now, I feel better." I said.

"Are you still in the hospital?" She asked.

"I'm being moved to another one right now." I said.

"They said you cut your wrists." She said while she cried.

"I'm sorry mom, I'm so sorry." I said while I started to cry.

"Baby listen to me, it's ok, it's ok I'm not mad. I'm worried sick about you. I know you've been through hell and I understand that you felt that suicide was the only way out, I get it, but it's not Kaylee, you have to be strong and find a way to get through it. I thought I lost you, you don't know how much it hurt me to think that I may have lost my baby girl." Mom said while she cried.

"I know and I'm so so sorry mom." I said.

"Stop apologizing hun please, it's not your fault, non of this is your fault." She said trying to make me feel better.

"Yes it is mom, I tried to kill myself." I said.

"No baby, listen to me, I understand that you tried to kill yourself and I get why. You went through hell baby, you have never been the same since the highers took Tree away from you. You still hurt from that and you hurt from what Tim did to you and now you're in a whole new world." Mom said.

"I wanted to die mom, I wanted to die so I wouldn't hurt anymore." I said.

"And I understand that baby, trust me I do. Did you try getting some help?" She asked.

"I didn't have anyone." I said.

"But you have me, you have me." She said while she cried.

"I know mom, I just didn't think about that at the time, and I'm sorry." I said.

"I just thank god that you're alive and that you're ok, I'm so so relieved." She said after we sat there crying for a minute or so.

"Well, I just want you to know that I don't wanna die anymore, I want to live and I want to heal and get better, so I'm going to the hospital now and I'll be there for ninety days." I said.

"What are you going to do after that?" She asked.

"I don't know yet, all I know is that I'm going to do what I have to do to get better." I said.

"Promise me you won't try something like that again." She said.

"I promise mom, I promise." I said.

"Promise me that you'll call me the next time you feel like you want to kill yourself, promise me." She said.

"I promise mom." I said.

"Promise me that you'll do everything you can to not do that again, that you'll call me if you ever get that depressed again." She said.

"I promise I'll call you if I feel like that again." I said.

"You don't understand how good it is to hear you right now, I was going to come to see you at the hospital but your dad wouldn't let me, plus he moved your siblings and me to a smaller house because you left so I was moving." She said.

"I'm so sorry about that." I said.

"No, don't you dare apologize for that Kaylee, don't you dare. You needed to get out of the order and hide because it's dangerous for you, and I don't want you to live this life. They've been looking for you. They want you to be Tims brothers third wife since Tim is in jail right now. I refuse to tell them where you are because I want to protect you and keep you away from these people and if that means that I live in a smaller house then so be it." She said.

"It's not easy out here mom, it's so much harder than I ever thought it would be." I said.

"You need to find Tree baby, you need to find him." Mom said.

"I've been trying to find him mom, I need him and I ran out of ways to look for him." I said.

"He's a paramedic hun, if you have to, go to all of the places that have ambulance services and ask them if they have a Mason McCarthy working for them." Mom said.

"Ok I'll do that." I said while I smiled and looked at Mason who was doing some work on a computer.

"I'm serious, now I don't know why and I don't know how you'll feel about this Kaylee, but I feel like you really need to hurry up and find him as soon as you can. I have dreams about it all of the time and every time I dream about it it's different. The order wants you back, they want you to remarry in the order and they want you bad so they've been looking for you. I don't think you'll be able to have much control over wether or not you come back if they find you. I feel like you need to find Tree and be with him wether or not you guys court again, he's your protector Kaylee, I don't know how, but I know that he is your protector and that the order won't stand much of a chance if you're with him. They're scared to death of him, they actually fear him, so you need to find him and you need to do it fast. It's not going to be long until they