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The Battle of the Self. By Pippa HighHeels Synopsis: Tony Andrews battles with himself to realise his true feelings and identity. His attempts at contact with others succeeds, and events rush Tony headlong into a new world. Authors note: My first story ?Absence makes the lust? was just an erotic fantasy. This story is largely autobiographical and all the background detail is wholly true, including the clothes, shoes and the toys. I am Tony and I am married to Elspeth (names changed). Our relationship is described rather bleakly here, but that?s the way I feel about it most of the time. I?m waiting for my Anna to come along, so if you live in southern England, or simply want to discuss the story, please email [email protected] Chapter 1: Monday It was 6:00 a.m. on a dark Monday morning. Tony Andrews looked at himself as he shaved and did not like what he saw. It was not the way he looked that appalled him, but the way he failed to admit to himself and everyone else what he really was and how he really felt. It was not as though this was a passing phase; he had always known, yet failed to acknowledge, what was living in his heart-of- hearts. All he had read those many years ago said the ?feelings? would never leave him. He could not be ?cured?, so the best thing was to get on with it and enjoy his life. ?Tony?, he said to himself under his breath, ?you?ve got to face up to the fact that you?re a TV and that?s all there is to it, so you?ve just got to decide how you?re going to make yourself happy for the rest of your goddam awful life?. He had had a terrible weekend, the children had been at their argumentative worst and his wife, Elspeth, seemed to criticise his every move. They had had a row about something utterly trivial and Elspeth had given him the ?silent treatment? for the rest of the weekend. As Tony drove to work he thought about all the times he had enjoyed buying clothes, shoes, sex toys and magazines and videos and all the other paraphernalia of his former secret existence; how he had, several times, thrown it all away to ?cleanse himself?, only for the urges to return. First it would be a magazine, then a suspender belt and a pair of black stockings, then a vibrator, then more magazines, a pair of high heels and soon he would be back to his former glory, enjoying his self love, only for release to turn it all to self-loathing. The cycle had to stop. At a low point, he had met Elspeth and after a whirlwind romance they had been married within 8 months of first meeting. At that point Tony was convinced he had done the right thing and that the ?urges? would never return; he held out for over 6 months before he bought his first magazine ? a softcore girly magazine. It felt to Tony as though he had been unfaithful to Elspeth when he masturbated to the girls in the magazine; he especially liked the girl in the black stockings and the high heels and he knew how sexy she must feel wearing them. He understood the feel of the sensuous gossamer nylon over the legs and the feeling of walking in high heels and he just wished? Tony and Elspeth had had a reasonable sex life, although it always followed the same course. He would lick her cunt and clitoris until she came, then he would fuck her. Sometimes they would change positions from ?missionary? to ?doggy? though had not, in truth, added many more to their repertoire. On the few occasions she sucked him he always felt she was too rough and not sensuous enough. Sure enough she would let him cum in her mouth, normally to let it run out again. Tony had only once mentioned anal sex and Elspeth had made it plain how perverted she found the suggestion. When Tony suggested he buy her a sex toy she replied with equal revulsion. Then came the children ? a joy at first, but Tony could never get used to the massive demands they made of his time and energy. Nowadays they only seemed to argue and make his life extremely unpleasant - and Tony resented it. As Tony drove on, the traffic got increasingly thick and he thought about the other pre-Elspeth sexual encounters in his life. True, there had been many girls in his twenties, but there had also been other encounters. He recalled David, his best friend at school, who had suggested they get together to wank over some girly pictures. Tony had been excited by the suggestion and invited David to his house on a Saturday afternoon, certain in the knowledge that his parents would make a trip to the supermarket for the weeks groceries. David invited Tony to hold his penis, then to suck it; Tony was amazed by the sheer power in David?s cock and how gorgeous it felt in his mouth. When David?s cream poured into Tony?s mouth it felt good, though he did not at first enjoy the taste. He remembered too how David had sucked him with equal pleasure. They got together many times over the summer in situations where they could be alone to suck and wank each other. It seemed so natural and so uncomplicated. They just did it to ?get off?. Tony was terrified he was ?turning into a queer?; David showed him books in the library showing this was normal teenage behaviour of boys who turned out to be heterosexual in adult life. Yet Tony only remembered how good it felt when he took David?s gorgeous big cock into his mouth. He remembered the time he had stayed at a small hotel on the outskirts of Bristol when another male guest had invited him to his room on the pretence of having a bottle of scotch. When he arrived, a rather drunken Tony found Peter, for that was his name, in his dressing gown, telling Tony just how randy he felt, and asking Tony if he felt the same way. Peter had laid back on his bed and let the dressing gown fall apart to show his full erection; Tony moved forwards entranced by the erect cock in front of him; before he knew what he was doing he had the knob end in his mouth. It did not take Peter long to cum, and cum he did, spurt after spurt of his cream poured into Tony?s mouth and Tony looked up into Peter?s face and swallowed the lot. Tony returned to his room terrified the rest of the guests would find out. He need not have worried; Peter left early the next morning and Tony never saw him again. Throughout his adult life he had had his secret stash of clothes, starting with suspenders and black stockings ? preferably fully fashioned ones with seams. Then he always added high heels. He remembered his first trip to ?Cover Girl? in London to buy a pair of 6 inch heeled stilettos and how nervous he was; he walked past the shop many, many times before finally entering and stuttering his request. By the time he had his own place, but before marriage, Tony had everything he needed to turn him into ?Antonia, the ultimate tart?. His wig was long and blonde in cascading ringlets, his makeup very black around the eyes and scarlet, shiny lips. He had around 10 pairs of shoes, all with very high spike heels, either court shoes or strappy sandals. He had tight waspies, basques, suspender belts and bras to accommodate some big fillers, giving him a big bust and letting him to feel the bounce when he walked. Normally he would complete the effect with a black satin mini-dress. Tony dressed to enhance solo sex ? he found the effect such a turn-on it could not be for anything else for him. He would complement dressing with a long session with his magazines, and sometimes with a sex toy. He would kneel, insert the toy and wank to an array of magazines spread in front of him. Throughout his married life he had something clandestine he kept away from Elspeth. A few clothes, some hardcore magazines, a couple of toys which were brought out on the few occasions he had the house to himself. Sometimes he felt very guilty, or he thought his security was not good enough, and would throw the whole lot away, always to re- buy and ferret his secrets away once again. And now, with the children, his opportunities for a ?session? were far rarer and he had been reduced to a relatively paltry collection, stashed away in an old holdall in a far, dark corner of the loft. With his memories fresh in his mind, Tony arrived at his work. He was a professional, graduate worker; a real expert in his field and well respected both within his company and the by his peers in the same line. His work took in the usual round of meetings, email, decisions and project plans; in everything he was self-assured and confident, able to answer questions with authority and always ask questions of great pertinence. Sometime after 5 Tony began the drive home and contemplated the evening in front of him; maybe tonight he could have a decent session on the web after Elspeth and the kids had eventually gone to bed. Elspeth was in a foul mood upon his return home; not the cheery greeting to the heroic breadwinner here, just some cutting remarks about some minor transgression. Tony tried not to listen and ate his dinner in virtual silence as the kids argued across the table. Later that night, at a time when Tony knew he should be in bed and asleep or feel washed out the following day, he logged on to the net and dived straight into a chat room. He chatted to a few regulars though most of his content was more wishful thinking than reality. Then, just as he was thinking of going to bed he had a message from a TV called Anna. It read: ?Just imagine the static from nylon on nylon and how it could set the bed aflame??. Tony introduced himself as Antonia and they began to chat. They apparently had a lot in common, were around the same age, similar background and both were professional people. Anna lived alone and dressed to please herself and ?friends?; she too liked the tarty look, adored high heels, and seemed sympathetic to Tony. He almost felt as though he were talking to a personal counsellor; he did not feel in the least disposed to exaggerate his experience or his current situation. He told Anna he was married and also told her how awful it was at the moment. He explained his angst and his periodic guilt, but also his utter joy at being able to slide his stockinged feet into a pair of high heels. Eventually, tiredness overcame him, for it was now 1:30 a.m. and he just knew how bad he would feel when the alarm clock sounded. Chapter 2: Tuesday The drive to work seemed worse than ever. Tony felt as though he had a bad hangover, yet it was only lack of sleep, coupled with the excitement of having talked at some length to Anna the day before. When he got to work he fired up his personal web-based email account (the one Elspeth did not know about). How his heart missed a beat when there was a message from ?Anna Clark? entitled ?Thanks for your honesty?. The message read: ?Dear Antonia Thanks so much for our chat last night. It was good to talk to someone who was prepared to admit the truth about themselves and their lives. If you want to see more of me please go to my web site, you?ll see more bio and pix there. Love and best wishes Anna XXXXXX? The web address followed. Tony knew he had risked more than he should by opening his personal web mail account, never mind clicking on the link. The temptation just to click and see Anna was overwhelming but he resisted. He then spent the rest of the day in a nervous sweat anticipating a session on the web that night. The day seemed to take forever; Tony kept telling himself the ?time will pass? and an opportunity will come. As Tony arrived home his wife was in the doorway, keys in hand with the children climbing into her car. ?You?ve forgotten haven?t you!? she shouted, and before he could reply she was reversing the car out of the drive. Tony recalled the school play and was relieved at not having to sit through an hour of drivel whilst dreaming of Anna. He ran upstairs to his study and turned on his computer. Eventually, eventually, after what seemed like an age, he connected to Anna?s web site. Anna was divorced, lived alone and worked in IT. She was a regular dresser, exploring the wilder side, and confessed to a ?full set of O and A levels?. Tony knew all too well what this meant. Her pictures showed her to be stunning; she looked radiantly happy, dressed in many styles. Her makeup was just the style Tony adored ? a combination of black and red ? and her clothes and underwear were just so sexy. Anna had several picture pages, some in full dress ? though mostly short skirts, some in sexy underwear. In all the pictures she wore black stockings and high ? very high ? heels. But the last set was a surprise. Anna was holding a large dildo and kissing it in the first picture; by the last picture she had it fully embedded in her rectum. Tony could not help himself; within seconds his trousers and underpants were around his ankles and he was masturbating furiously; Anna was obviously enjoying her toy deep in her arse; her smile was serene, sublime even. It did not take long; Tony could no longer hold back and plumes of thick spunk shot from his cock as he enjoyed a wonderful climax. Then panic set in as he saw the mess on the carpet; quickly he cleaned himself up and turned off the computer; then he dashed downstairs and collected cloths, paper towels and cleaning sprays to clean up the cum from the carpet and hide the tell-tale smell of semen. He checked his handiwork and breathed a huge sigh. Even now his family was preventing him from really enjoying what he had seen and done. Anna was an angel and a sexy one too, and Tony wanted to get a message to her to tell her how much she had turned him on. Tony promised himself he would be sweetness itself to his family that night in order to ride the storm of Elspeth?s anger and to retain the image of that sweet TV smile, gorgeously made up, in sexy underwear and stilettos as she rode her toy. Chapter 3: Wednesday Wednesday had come around quickly and that was a bonus, for Wednesday was the day Tony always enjoyed, the day Antonia came out to play. The idea was to arrive home just after Elspeth took the children to their swimming lessons. He knew she would be at least an hour and three-quarters which was really the minimum time for any sort of session at all. Tony arrived home at exactly 4:30. He had seen Elspeth and the kids in her car turning off the big roundabout on the outskirts of town as he was approaching so he knew he was on target. The next 15 minutes was organised with military precision. 1. Lock and chain door behind him in case of premature return; how he would explain things he didn?t know, but he did it in any case. 2. Pick up roll of kitchen paper and small plastic pot from kitchen. 3. Run upstairs and turn the computer on. 4. Undress and put working clothes away. 5. In partial dress, retrieve bag of goodies from the loft. ?Oh Antonia!? said Tony, ?It?s time to come out and play. I know what a wonderful filthy whore you are and I love you for it?. He wriggled into her tight basque and pulled the drawstrings tight at the front; then she gathered up the sheer black stockings and unfurled them over her hideously hairy legs and clipped the suspenders. The stockings felt warm and sensuous over her legs, the fine nylon fabric feeling like a million spider?s legs. One of Antonia?s greatest wishes was to be able to shave her body and especially her legs; she was sure that wearing stockings would then be one huge continuous orgasm. Antonia slid her feet into her highest stiletto courts, the cool leather feeling like pure lust against her stockinged feet. She raised herself up and felt the muscles behind her legs tighten. Antonia loved the feeling of walking in heels. They were just so sexy he wondered however women were drawn to complain about them. Antonia slipped a DVD into the computer and then chose a hot scene ? a girl dressed in less than Antonia was being fucked in the arse, balls-deep by a well hung stud. Antonia paused the film while she extracted her big rubber dildo from the bag and stuck the big sucker on the wooden chair. She then lathered the dildo with lots of lubrication and wiped the excess over her anus. She then teetered off to the bathroom to wash the rest off her hands. Excitedly she returned and teased the end of the dildo into her arse; she was quite used to it and enjoyed it more every time she used it. She inserted the dildo a small way then eased it out again; then in again until it was comfortable and little by little, took the monster all the way. When she was sat on the balls she started the film again, trying to match the porn star stroke for stroke as she rode the big toy. Antonia moaned with such joy. Oh, she waited all week for these few precious minutes when she could be alive and free and be the girl she always wanted to be. Antonia watched in awe as the big stud ploughed the girl?s asshole; then he pulled out to show the deep tunnel into her body before burying his cock in deep again. ?Oh how lucky you are!? moaned Antonia, riding her dildo with even more vigour. Eventually, the stud pulled out and the girl wheeled round to face him and take his full blast of cum in her mouth. At this point Antonia grabbed the small plastic pot, rubbed her stiff cock some more and caught the spurts of thick creamy cum in the pot. Then, with the toy still deep inside her, she raised the pot to her lips and let all the cum slide into her mouth; she held it in her mouth as long as possible to savour the unique taste before swallowing the lot with great relish. Antonia had to go and hide for another week; already she wanted to play again. Chapter 4: Thursday Tony had had an email from Anna; he could hardly wait to get home to read it. It seemed as though the world was conspiring against him; that night he had a whole host of jobs to do until he could eventually get on the computer and read Anna?s mail. She was replying to his message from Tuesday when he had been so turned on by her picture. The message was: Dear Antonia Thank you for your kind words. I?m so pleased you were turned on by my pictures; I do like my toys and have a large collection. It?s good to meet another TV who also enjoys them. Maybe we should get together sometime; I live in ____ by the way. I?ll be in the chat room tonight so do stop by and say Hi! Love, Anna Tony?s heart leapt again; Anna was only 30 miles from where he sat and only 12 miles from work! Tony switched applications and was straight into the chat room. Anna was there; Tony?s hands began to get sweaty. They exchanged the usual pleasantries then the ping-pong of their chat went as follows: T: I never realised you lived in ____. That?s only 12 miles from where I work. A: Maybe we can meet then. T: Yes I want to but I?m scared as well. A: You have to be very careful when meeting others from a liaison on the net. I have to be and u have 2 be 2. I understand and respect that from both sides. I assure u I am civilised; I?m regarded as very sensitive and I?ve always chosen my intimate friends with extreme care. I?m squeaky clean 2. T: The only way we?re going to know is to meet; I know that. A: So tell me more about yourself ? interests, hobbies, etc ? and your academic achievements ? it?s all important to get a picture of the person u r wanting 2 meet. Tony explained how he was a classical music enthusiast and had a large collection of classical CDs; he explained how he loved to read contemporary fiction; he told Anna about his evening class and how he had gained his Master?s degree and the broad area of his professional expertise. Then Anna sent this: Come to the south entrance of the park in ___ tomorrow at 12:30 exactly. I will be sitting 2 benches to the right as you enter the park, reading The Times. Night-night and sweet dreams. A XXXXXX Then she exited the chat room without another word. Tony?s mind flooded with doubts and excitement at the same time. Could he do it? Could he conquer his nervousness? Why had Anna pulled out of the chat room so abruptly? Was she trying to see if he was genuine or a time-waster? How would he explain to his colleagues that he couldn?t go to the pub ? after all it was Friday, and they always went to the pub on a Friday. Tony went to bed and lay besides the gently sleeping Elspeth; his mind was a whirl. Could he, should he? His moods went from ?I can?t do this, I can?t do this? to ?Why shouldn?t I meet Anna? What on earth have I got to lose? I?m a big boy now. Bloody well take a grip of yourself man?. His mind echoed these sentiments until exhaustion got the better of him and he drifted into a fitful sleep only to wake well before the alarm-clock in a full sweat. Chapter 5. Friday. The drive to work was a mixture of panic and pleasure. His mouth was dry; he could hardly get a word out to Elspeth he was so nervous. He said he had to give an important presentation that morning, but his words had no conviction. Elspeth seemed confused by his mood. He had made sure to put on his smartest business clothes, even though it was Friday. At work, Tony rushed into the toilet as soon as he arrived to try to get rid of his nerves. Then he attempted to engross himself in his work to take his mind off what was to come. ?Coming to the pub at lunchtime, Tony?? enquired his boss. ?Err, no I have to do a spot of shopping?? he replied. ?Well, that?s a first, you - going shopping? Elspeth must have really got you under her thumb? said Tony?s boss as he walked away. Tony estimated that if he left just before 12:00 he should be just in time. Anna had said exactly 12:30 so he did not want to be a second late. Tony went to the toilet again; and was careful to check his tie and hair. The drive to the next town was nerve wracking; he kept trying to tell himself all would be well and that there was nothing to worry about. Tony drove on the edge of his seat, vigilant against speed cameras and other cars. Eventually, the Gods smiled on him and he found a parking space just outside the park. 12:27. At 12:29, with legs like jelly, Tony passed through the park gates and turned right. As he walked up the narrow path he realised he did not know Anna?s male name; surely she would not have come en femme? As Tony passed a large chestnut tree he saw the bench beyond it and the slight figure casually reading what Tony assumed to be The Times. Tony hesitated and the figure turned and said, ?No need to worry, Tony, I won?t bite you know!? Tony went around the other side of the bench and the men shook hands warmly. ?I?m sorry? stammered Tony, I realise I don?t know your male name?I?m sorry?I hope I?m not late?I?m sorry? ?Please, please, Tony. Calm down, please. There is no reason to apologise. What?s the big deal? You?ve come to meet a friend you?ve never seen in the flesh, that?s all. Take a deep breath and relax. My male name is Alan, OK?? Tony nodded rather pathetically and took the deep breath; it seemed to be good advice. Alan smiled calmly, and for the first time Tony looked in his clear brown eyes. Alan was around 5 and a half feet tall and had a slim build; his face was handsome for a man with a slightly sharpish nose. He had very smooth and unblemished skin; Tony noticed the slightness of his eyebrows ? the only sign at all of his alter ego. He was dressed in a jacket, pale blue shirt with open neck and casual trousers. ?I hope you weren?t expecting to meet me as Anna and are now hugely disappointed?, said Alan. ?Not at all?, said Tony, now beginning to calm down. ?Have you met a TV before, Tony?, asked Alan. ?No, never?, said Tony truthfully, ?but I?ve always wanted to ? or rather Antonia has?. Alan started to question Tony gently but carefully; Tony felt as though he was applying for some sort of job. Alan was being careful; Tony thought Alan well-prepared, and admired the thoroughness of his questions. He was probing Tony closely, looking for contradictions in what he had been told today and before in the chat room. Tony was then invited to question Alan, and did ask a few, but eventually his brain froze with nerves. ?Good!? said Alan standing up. ?Would you like to meet me again?? ?Well, yes? said Tony, slightly taken-aback, not knowing what happened from here, if anything. ?Good!? said Alan again with feeling, ?I should very much like to see you again. Let?s meet here at the same time one day next week, but I think we should bring some items with us to prove to the other we do have the same likes and desires. How about Thursday? I guess you?ll have thought of all sorts of questions by then.? ?Fine by me? Tony replied. The two men shook hands again and then half-embraced. ?See you next Thursday, bye!? As he walked away, Alan said ?Oh, I?ll send you some photos you might like?. As Tony walked away, he felt excited, and not at all guilty or disappointed. Anna/Alan was everything he expected?and wanted. He suddenly had a pang of fear. Where was this leading? He drove back to the office in good mood and eventually realised he had a massive headache through the tension of the morning. Chapter 6: The following week. On Tuesday he received e-mail from Anna, but could not open it until his Wednesday session. There were 3 large JPEG files attached. The message read: ?Antonia I have wonderful feeling you are a filthy whore who would really enjoy to join me in activities in the attached. Ensure you open them in order. See you on Thursday and don?t forget to bring some kit. Love, Anna XXXXXXXX? The first picture showed Anna dressed very tartily, holding a very large dildo to her lips so as to kiss it. He second showed Anna kneeling with the large toys deep within her, the expression on her beautifully made-up face was again joyous and serene. The last picture showed a close-up of Anna?s hole after the dildo had just been removed, gaping wide and slippery with lubrication. It was an utterly gorgeous picture and Tony was already erect. Then Tony began to wonder who had taken the picture? Thursday came and again Tony awoke with a knot of terror in his guts. He had enjoyed his usual Wednesday session, but retained his shoes and his largest toy securely locked in his briefcase. He left the office without comment to anyone and arrived in a state of some agitation. As he walked through the park gates he literally checked his stride and thought ?Why am I doing this??. His hesitation was brief. Alan was in the same spot as the previous week, casually reading his newspaper but with no case or bag to be seen. The usual greetings were exchanged. Tony felt awkward with his large briefcase on his knees. ?So, what have you got to show me?? asked Alan with a degree of anticipation, almost like a child about to open presents. ?But you?ve nothing to show me?? asked Tony with some concern. ?We?ll just stroll across to my flat if you don?t mind the short walk. We can?t show that sort of thing out here in broad daylight now, can we?? Tony rose with some trepidation. He was about to enter the home of a transvestite and someone who had shown him some very intimate pictures of himself. As they walked across the park Alan was alert, as always, to Tony?s apprehension. Alan held Tony?s arm, came close and said in a very calming but non-patronising way ?Tony. No need to worry now?OK. Breathe deeply and regularly and relax, you?re with a friend. I understand?. Alan?s flat was immaculate. As Alan made some coffee, Tony admired the good taste of the d?cor and how clean, open and comfortable it appeared. Tony took a seat on the large settee, placed his briefcase on the large coffee table, and, without being asked opened it wide. Alan came in with their drinks. ?My oh my, now that?s a beauty?and they?re gorgeous too??. Alan put the drinks down, reached over towards the case. ?May I?? he said. ?Of course, please do?. Alan picked up the huge heavy black dildo, a replica of a real super-cock. ?This is a Bam isn?t it? I have one too. I adore it. Can you get it all in?? Alan stroked the huge toy with real relish as though it were real and he wanted to excite it even more. ?No?, replied Tony truthfully. ?This is my most recent purchase and I can get it in after using others but can?t get it far or hold it for long. I adore it though; I shall keep using it when I can. The problem is I don?t get enough opportunity?. ?Indeed? agreed Alan. ?Tell me. Do you love this gorgeous dildo more than Elspeth?? ?No? answered Tony, ?but Antonia craves it, begs for it, lives for it?. ?And these?? said Alan, reaching over for the pair of stiletto court shoes Tony had in the case. ?These are Antonia?s other fetish. Again, she craves to wear these and higher. She will only wear the highest, spikiest heels, because she is a total tart? confessed Tony. ?You must be wondering what I have to show you?? said Alan rising from his seat. ?Come with me?. Alan led the way to the bedroom. Again the bedroom was immaculate with clean, open lines. There was nothing laying about or out of place. There was a large double bed with a huge mirror on the wall behind the bed-head. Alan opened one door of the built-in wardrobe. In the open shelf space at the top there were around 20 pairs of high heeled shoes, all in a style Tony approved of. In the hanging spaces there were assorted dresses, skirts and tops. Without a word, Alan opened drawer after drawer of sexy underwear. Then Alan went over to the chest of drawers and extracted the top drawer. The drawer was lined with cotton wool and smelled of talcum powder. In it lay around 50 to 60 sex toys of all sizes and types, including all of the ones Tony had used before. ?Is this a Rambone?? asked Tony pointing to a thick, meaty dildo nearly 18 inches long. ?Yes, it?s another adorable thing? said Alan, ?Please feel its wonderful power?. Tony reached into the drawer and brought out the monster that had obviously been carefully washed and powdered before being put away. Tony held it up to his face in a loving way, then kissed the end, before realising where the end had previously been. ?Don?t worry, it has been scrupulously cleaned? said Alan. ?Well, what do you think, Tony?? enquired Alan in a lets- wrap-this-up way. Tony was amazed. ?I think you are very, very lucky. You have obviously had the guts to be you and not pretend to be someone you aren?t. You are obviously very sensible, careful, and clean. You seem to have your life under control. Frankly, I admire you and am extremely jealous.? ?How would you like to come and have lunch with Anna next week?? offered Alan, his eyes sparkling with life. ?Wow. I wouldn?t miss that for the world. ?Would you really??. ?Of course?, chirped Alan, ?I take it you won?t be offended?? ?Offended! I?m speechless?. ?I?ll check the dates when I won?t have a video-conference later in the day and let you know, OK. Then I can stay as Anna for the rest of the day?. Tony and Alan embraced in the narrow hallway and Tony stepped out into the lunchtime sunshine. Tony felt numb but overjoyed as he walked quickly across the park. It was like the start of a love affair; he just couldn?t wait for the next contact, the next email. How could he think about things other than Anna and the wonderful things he?d seen in her home; how could he possibly address the problems in his other, horrible, normal, boring life; his work, his wife, his kids, his house, when Antonia wanted to live freely? Chapter 7. Anna Tony waited expectantly for Anna?s email. She could not make any day the following week and suggested the Thursday of the week after; nearly 2 whole weeks to wait. How could she tease him like this? Tony wanted to reply in a way begging her to bring things forward, but in the end thought better of it, just thanked her for the invitation and said how much he was looking forwards to meeting Anna. What would their meeting be like? Should he expect any sex? Or would they just eat, drink and chat about their lives and likes? How was he going to ensure his busy schedule was kept free of meetings ? he was going to take at least 2 hours that lunchtime, come what may? Should he make some excuse for his long lunch hour ? an appointment at the dentist for example, or should he just go? This and thousand more questions flooded his mind; it made him moody and irritable at home and apparently occupied at work. At one point, his manager had him in his office to give him the ?If anything is bothering you, my door is always open? speech. Tony confessed to nothing more than having a bit of a ?rough patch? at home and being rather tired as a result of it. Home, indeed, was rough; that was no lie. Elspeth had noticed his moodiness and the way he shouted at the children at the least provocation; at one point she accused him of not loving her any more. Tony denied it vehemently, but secretly wanted to agree with her. He tried hard to relax himself for he recognised his own state of agitation. When the great day came, Tony felt almost relieved it would soon be all over yet wanted the time with her to last as long as possible. As he walked across the park towards her apartment he just knew the next hour ? for that is all he had ? would be the quickest of his life. He ensured he was clean, fragrant and smart. On the way to work he thought whether he should take flowers, after all that was the sort of gift one took when visiting a lady. Tony decided it made a nice touch and bought a large bunch from the filling station on the way. His heart raced as he pressed the entry buzzer. Almost immediately there was an indistinct reply and Tony stuttered his name and the door opened for him. Up the stairs quickly and he stood before the door to her apartment, flowers held in front of him. He took a deep breath and knocked on the door. Tony saw a light at the tiny spy-hole and then the door was opened for him. Tony stepped through into the hall of Anna?s apartment, and Anna, mostly hidden behind the door, closed it behind Tony. ?Tony, oh thank you, sweetheart, you shouldn?t have brought me flowers. How kind you are?. And with that she kissed him on the lips for the first time. ?Anna, let me see you properly? implored Tony, following her in the lounge. ?You look absolutely gorgeous?totally ravishing?.and you?ve done this for me?how can I thank you?? ?Tony, Tony.? replied Anna, standing very close to him and running a finger down his cheek. ?Anna comes out to play whenever she wants?. Anna had the type of husky voice which just smouldered. She was dressed in a shoulder length black wig in gorgeous cascading ringlets; her makeup was divine, being very black around the eyes, subtly shadowed and with very scarlet shiny lips which she licked provocatively. Her tight white top had a polo neck yet was cut high to reveal bare hairless arms and shoulders; her bust was shapely without being big. She wore a tight black mini-skirt that clung and stretched over her bottom; her superb legs ? for they were as slim and shapely as any real girl ? were encased in the sheerest black nylon. And, to Tony?s great delight, Anna had chosen to finish the look with a pair of plain black patent court shoes with sky high slim stiletto heels ? at least 5 inches high. A slim gold anklet adorned her left ankle. ?Come and have some lunch, Tony dear, you must be hungry?. Food was the last thing on Tony?s mind, yet he followed dutifully. In the kitchen, Anna had prepared a spread of salad, cold meats and cheese. Anna?s heels tapped delightfully on the kitchen floor as she brought dishes to the table. ?Those shoes are just SO sexy? said Tony, ?you must feel fabulous wearing them?. ?Indeed I do?, said Anna seductively, ?you know what they say?the higher the heels the sexier the girl?. ?In that case you must be a very dirty whore indeed, Anna?, said Tony looking deep into Anna?s clear eyes. ?Ohhh?, moaned Anna, ?call me that again. I like it. To me that?s the greatest compliment you can pay me, to be thought of as a filthy whore, willing to indulge a man?s deepest fantasies. Come, bring your plate and I?ll show you one of my new DVDs?. They returned to the lounge and Anna slipped the disc into the machine. Skipping to the track she had in mind, Anna said ?Now this girl really enjoys herself?. The star of the scene was a young blonde girl in her early twenties. She was surrounded by 5 naked men; all looked very well hung. The girl proceeded to suck each of them to full erection in turn; then they started to fuck her, first in the cunt, then anally. She was very eager and took them all in turn. When she took two cocks in her cunt at the same time, Tony was fully erect and soon felt Anna?s hand cover it. ?Why don?t you undress Tony dear?, suggested Anna, ?then we too can have some fun?. Tony didn?t need telling twice and quickly removed all his clothes. ?Please, just sit down and relax and enjoy the movie. The girl is really hot don?t you think? I would love to do all that with 5 guys at once??. By this time the girl was kneeling with one man beneath her fucking hard and another taking her rectum in the doggie position; another guy was being sucked. Anna knelt on the floor and took Tony?s erect cock in her delicate hand, then kissed up its full length before taking all the knob end in her mouth. She looked up at Tony and smiled. ?My beautiful whore?, said Tony, and was rewarded with a deep sensuous suck down to the root of his cock. Anna was sucking so slowly and sexily, building Tony up gradually; she knew the slower she brought him to climax the better the result. Up and down his length she went, moaning with pleasure. Tony watched her beautiful scarlet lips caress his cock and glanced at the girl in the DVD who was taking showers of spunk into her mouth. It was all too much for Tony and with a great cry of joy he came with massive power into Anna?s mouth. Spurt after spurt shot into her mouth, but she held her head in place; she was not going to pull away after the first spurt ? she wanted the lot. When she removed her mouth from Tony?s cock, she just looked up at him and swallowed. Then she licked the excess from Tony?s knob and said ?That was delicious, thank you?. Tony was drained, physically and mentally; he had never, never, never had such a powerful cum as the one he had just experienced. He sat up and started to kiss Anna?s face and mouth, his hands explored her body and stroked her stocking tops. ?Oh, Anna, Anna, darling?? he started. Anna unleashed herself from Tony?s grip and stood up. ?It?s not that I want to throw you out, but I?m afraid I have work to do and I guess you should be going too?. In the entrance hall, Anna kissed Tony deeply on the mouth and her tongue snaked in his mouth; she ground her groin into his and Tony thought he detected a stiff muscle beneath. ?And now I want to meet Antonia?, she said, ?Here, two o?clock a week next Saturday ? don?t be late ? and bring all her toys too?. And with that she opened the front door to the apartment and ushered Tony out. Chapter 8. Antonia Now Tony had a real problem. His Thursday experience had left him shell-shocked; Anna had blown his mind as well as his cock. How he had managed in the office during the Thursday afternoon and the Friday he never knew; it was as though he was in another world. And how, just how was he going to be able to get to Anna?s the following Saturday, and how was he going to manage to do it with all the kit out of the loft? Perhaps he should just forget it; he had got this far and enjoyed it deeply; was there any need to go the final mile? Anyhow, how could he be Antonia when he only had some underwear and shoes? He was hardly going to have the same level of transformation as Anna. Elspeth detected Tony in a state of deep agitation. The more she questioned him about his obvious disturbance, the more he denied anything was wrong. Again she questioned his commitment to her and again he denied it was anything except complete. Tony tried to relax, but he found it difficult as his mind always turned to same problems. He wrestled with the logistics of getting out with the ?full kit? on the following Saturday; nothing seemed to work ? each plan was spoiled by a compromise of his security. Then, on the Thursday morning whilst he was eating breakfast, Elspeth said ?I think I?ll take the kids over to Mother?s for the day on Saturday ? you don?t mind do you?? ?No, no, not at all? spluttered Tony as a surge of adrenaline shot into his body. ?What time were you thinking of going?? ?Oh, around 10 I should think, then we can spend the whole day there. You can come too if you want. but I thought you might like the time to relax here. I know how you?ve been stressed of late.? ?You?re very thoughtful? said Tony sincerely. Inside, his guts were screaming for the toilet. Saturday came and eventually Elspeth and the children drove off with fond waving. It was now nearly 10:30. Tony went inside and closed the door behind him. Stressed she had said and stressed he was; he was going to wear his clothes in front of another guy and maybe use his toys. He was terrified and his mind a complete whirl of emotions. He forced himself to sit down, take several deep breaths. Tony ran up the stairs and then climbed up into the loft. He retrieved his bag from the back of the loft and stowed it away in the boot of his car. Then he went back inside and stripped off in the bathroom. He squatted in the bath and screwed the end off the shower head and then turned it on such that the flow was modest and the temperature just warm. He held the end of the shower to his anus and relaxed, feeling the water flood his guts; he held the hose in place for as long as he dare. Then, he hopped out of the shower and tried to hold the liquid before eventually giving way to the inevitable and expelling all the unwanted matter down the toilet. He repeated the process four or five times until he was convinced he was as clean as possible. He ate a little of the lunch Elspeth had left him, but put most of it down the waste disposal. Then at one o?clock he locked up the house and started the car on his journey to Anna. As he strode over the park towards Anna?s apartment, Tony suddenly stopped. ?What the hell are you doing?? he asked himself sternly. ?Are you really trying to fuck up your marriage or what..?? Now, he was shouting at himself. ?Stop it, Tony. Antonia demands release. This is a wonderful opportunity for Antonia to come out and play. You?re an adult now and capable of making your own decisions. Don?t you think you deserve some fun after all the shit you?ve taken from that bitch of a wife of yours in the last few years. You must not be scared now so get on with it?. His other self had reassured him and he walked off with his bag of goodies, smiling to himself for the first time that day. Tony had arrived, more relaxed than he had been at any point that day, and rang the doorbell. Tony stepped into Anna?s apartment and smelt her seductive perfume. She looked gorgeous and Tony was quick to say so. Her make-up was perfect; her black-lined eyes and scarlet mouth were framed by the long blonde shoulder-length wig. She wore a tight red top which showed the curve of her bosom, a tight waist sporting a broad black patent belt and a knee-length black satin skirt with a large slit at one side. She wore the sheerest, smoothest barely-black stockings, for the slit gave a flash of suspender. On her feet she wore shoes that gave Tony an erection just by looking at them. Tony had never seen such high slim heels without a platform; they were at least 6 inches high and a simple black patent court design. But the heels were just so high and looked so dainty on Anna?s feet, Tony just couldn?t stop looking at them. ?Yes, I know they?re sexy, Tony. They?re 17cm high ? that?s just under 7 inches. Don?t you like them? Don?t you think they make me look like a complete whore, because they certainly make me feels like it.? Anna looked at him with eyes that called him like a siren drawing sailors to their doom on the rocks. ?Anna - they, and you, are the most seductive things I have ever experienced? said Tony, raising his bottom from the settee to show the bulge in his trousers. Anna leaned across and kissed him deeply, her hand enclosing over Tony?s cock. Anna pulled away and said ?Please Tony, show me the things you?ve brought?. Tony unzipped his case and laid the 3 large super-realistic dildos on the coffee table ? the Kong 8 inches long and nearly 2.5 inches thick with its bulbous head and knobbly body ? the John Holmes over 10 inches long and as thick as the Kong ? and the Bam, a monster black dildo with huge head, nearly 3 inches thick and 12 inches long. Anna leaned over and picked up the Bam holding it lovingly to her face and lips. ?Tony, if you love yours as much as I love mine?I worship this thing?it sends me wild?. ?And I love these too? said Tony as he extracted his basque, stockings and shoes from the bag. ?Yes, it?s time to see Antonia?. In a few seconds Tony had stripped off and was doing up the dozen or so clasps on the bodice of the silky black basque. Anna said ?That could easily go tighter, lets try?. She drew in the drawstrings at the back, made Tony breath in and re-fastened the laces. Tony?s breathing was restricted, but it felt good and his waist had new definition. ?May I suggest a further improvement?? Anna said as she kissed and held his erect cock. ?Of course, anything.? said Tony, puzzled. ?Let?s get rid of these? Anna held a bunch of hairs on his legs, causing Tony to wince. ?Come sit by me again, Tony?. Tony did as requested. Anna came very close and held his cock again. ?You like to wear stockings don?t you, Tony?? ?Yes, you know I do?. ?Well, Antonia adores them but never gets to feel how really electric they are, don?t you think she deserves the real thing?? Anna was speaking at her most seductive, running her tongue over her lips whilst looking at Tony?s cock. ?Of course, I?d love to. But?? started Tony. ?I?m not talking to Tony, I?m talking to Antonia now? insisted Anna. She led him into the bathroom and before he knew it she had lathered his legs and was starting to shave the black curly hairs from them. Tony?s head was in a panic. ?Oh my God, what will?? ?Antonia will love it? interrupted Anna. It did not take long. Suddenly, Antonia felt very naked; as she pulled up her seamed black Aristoc stockings she realised how right Anna was. The stockings had always felt sexy to her but now the feeling was multiplied manyfold. ?Oh thank you?this feels?so sexy?. ?I know? replied Anna, ?The first time is always so mind- blowing. I know it was for me. Let?s see if we can really coax Antonia out fully, but first let?s see those heels of yours?. Antonia ran into the lounge to slip on the wonderful elegant shoes she loved so much and felt very proud and very wicked as she walked back to join Anna. ?Oh, yes, I do approve? said Anna as she saw Antonia in her 6 inch stilettos for the first time. Anna pulled Antonia to her. ?Come on you fucking gorgeous whore. Llet?s go and have some hot hole action. I want my ass fucked by a big one, don?t you?? snarled Anna, crushing Antonia with a tongue probing kiss. ?Oh, yes, darling Anna, anything you want. Let?s fuck each other, again and again?? Anna led the way to her bedroom. The bed was already thick with towels to avoid soiling her expensive bedding and all her toys and lubricants were laid out. Anna undressed to her underwear and stockings; removing her tiny panties, Antonia saw her erect cock for the first time and immediately wanted to suck it deeply. Anna was amused how Antonia?s gaze followed it as she climbed onto the bed and sat up resting on the pillows; then she opened her legs, placed her hands under her bottom and opened up her hole. ?This is for you Antonia? said Anna, ?do you like it?? aaaaaaaaaa ?That?s so beautiful?? gasped Antonia, laying front-wards on the bed to get closer to her gaping hole. This was obviously a well used hole and Antonia found that all the more attractive. ?May I kiss it?? whispered Antonia. ?I insist upon it? said Anna, ?if you are a true whore like me you would kiss my hole without the least hesitation?. Antonia leant forwards until her lips were very close to Anna?s asshole and the planted her lips on it in a huge kiss. Never had her cock been so stiff. ?Oh, that was good? said Anna, ?but give me some deep cock action?. Antonia grabbed a bottle of lubricant and covered Anna?s hole and surrounding area, then slipped one, then two, then three, fingers easily up her ass. Then she lubricated a modest dildo, quite this with large bulbous head and lots of ridges down the shaft. She teased the toy against Anna?s ass, easing it gently to open up the willing hole. With lots of lubrication, working very slowly, she saw Anna?s beautiful hole open up more and more as she probed with the toys head. Anna was going wild, begging to be fucked; as her hole opened to take the knob-end she sighed with lust. Antonia eased the toy out only to tease her again; this time it opened easily and slid half way in; the next time she took it to the very hilt. Antonia saw Anna, eyes closed in pleasure. ?Oh, Antonia, darling, this is the most wonderful feeling?. ?Let me make it even better? said Antonia as she changed position to kneel over Anna?s erect cock. Holding the dildo fully in place with her hand, Antonia stooped over Anna?s cock and started to tease it with her lips; she could not resist ? it had been so, so long without a cock in her mouth she savoured the full length with relish. Anna moaned ?Oh, that?s so good Antonia. But don?t finish me yet. Fuck me with the Bam first, then take a load?. Antonia was very willing to comply, and soon resumed her position but this time with the black monster in her hand. She had to tease Anna for a long time for the girth of the dildo was a challenge for the most practised and devoted users; but Anna was both these and soon her hole was opening to receive the great head. With a massive groan, Anna took the whole knob; Antonia held it for a few seconds and then removed it again, amazed at the sight of her distended ring and beautiful hole. ?More, please, please, more? begged Anna. Antonia introduced 4 inches of the huge cock into her hole, held it longer this time, then removed it again. Antonia immediately re-introduced the Bam, going deeper once again and holding it longer. She repeated this procedure many times until, eventually, after half an hour, the great rubber cock was fully in Anna?s amazing hole. Antonia left it in place and massaged it in and out very gently, then changed positions such that she could kiss Anna ?Oh you fucking beautiful whore I adore you?. With this, Antonia changed positions again, and, with her hand gently moving the huge toy, started to suck Anna?s cock with regular motion. Antonia could not believe sex like this could be so good, so exciting. Her own cock had rarely been so erect and she hadn?t even had any attention. Antonia was enjoying the silky feel of Anna?s cock as she bobbed her head up and down over the full length, slurping the warm welcoming wetness of his mouth over the cock in steady rhythm. Anna continued to moan; Antonia was amazed that Anna could not only take the full size of the Bam, which Antonia continued to massage gently in her arse and maintain a full erection at the same time; yet this was her greatest turn-on and now she had found a soul mate who she believed would enjoy the same thing. Anna moaned and groaned and swore like a gutter slut. Eventually, she arched her back, stuffing herself deep in Antonia?s mouth and cried out ?Oh, here it comes you fucking whore, don?t you dare spill a single drop?? and with that the first of many plumes of gorgeous spunk splashed into Antonia?s more-than-willing mouth. Pulse after pulse of Anna?s cock cream sprayed into her; she held firm, and when Anna was well and truly finished slipped the wilting cock from her mouth and swallowed the full load. It was a very long time since Antonia had enjoyed that feeling; yes, he had many, many times drunk his own ? that was full part of his ritual ? but to enjoy another?s cum was simply divine. He wondered why he had hidden his true feelings all these years. Antonia gently removed the dildo from Anna?s rectum; it had left a huge gaping tunnel that was gradually closing. ?God that was so good? declared Anna, ?you give good head too. Did you enjoy it, you seemed to ? and you didn?t gag ? I?m impressed. I?d saved you up quite a load there. Here, come and lie up here with me before I give you as much pleasure as you?ve given me. By the size of your cock over the last hour I?d say you were desperate?. Antonia did as requested and laid back on the pillows. ?Believe me, that was amazing for me too. I?d suck you anytime, anyplace?. Anna kissed her, snaking her tongue around Antonia?s mouth to get a taste of her own cum. ?And what do you think of this?? Anna got up and knelt, her head at Antonia?s feet, then moved her hands back and held open the cheeks of her arse to display her distended ring. ?It?s even more beautiful than before, Anna? said Antonia softly. ?I wish mine could look the same?. ?Leave it all to Anna, now just relax in the same position as me. You don?t need to do a thing, just concentrate on the feelings and the pleasure.? Anna came and sat beside Antonia and stroked her head. ?Now I want you to relax, deeply and completely; please trust me I know what I?m doing. You remember that email about nylon on nylon and setting the bed on fire. Aren?t you glad you?ve experienced what you have? Just let me guide you again, and you?ll be so glad I did?. Antonia gushed some thanks, wondering what was to come. Anna got Antonia to do some deep breathing exercises; then she manipulated his shoulders and legs to relax the muscles and ease any tension. Antonia almost felt she could doze off, she was so comfortable and warm and all was well. Then Anna took her wrists and with a pair of old stockings, tied her to the bed head; Antonia did not resist. She was still comfortable and feeling good in Anna?s expert hands. Anna opened Antonia?s legs and kissed the cock back to full erection; then she cupped his balls on the way down to his hole. She spent a long time just probing it and playing with it, before licking around it with her tongue, all the time getting nearer her hole. Finally, she kissed Antonia?s hole which was starting to relax and open. The more Antonia wanted Anna to hurry, the more Anna sensed it and slowed things down. ?Antonia ? remember the pleasure is not only the end, but the journey there too ? relax and let me pleasure you, otherwise I?ll stop all together?. Anna then placed a blindfold over Antonia?s eyes. ?Now, relax and enjoy the sensations I give you?. ?But, but?? stuttered Antonia. ?Yes, I?ll come to your butt in a moment? joked Anna, ?but you?re going to have to learn to relax and to trust. The last thing I want to do is to hurt you. I want you to experience pleasure on a higher plane, by removing your sense of sight, and the anticipation that brings, you can concentrate on enjoying what I do to you?. Anna manipulated Antonia until she was happy with his position ? laying back on deep pillows, bottom very raised on more pillows and legs wide apart. Antonia felt very exposed and not a little apprehensive at what was to come. Anna had been so confident and assertive at all they were doing ? as though it were the most natural thing in the world, yet Antonia was enjoying herself as a clandestine pleasure ? stolen sweets in stolen time. Anna got her to do deep breathing exercises again and relaxed her without any play at all. Then she gently started applying lubricants in and around Antonia?s hole, then opening it up gently with her fingers. Then she started to gently nuzzle her hole with something harder but smooth; it felt strange to Antonia not to be able to see what was about to raid her hole, so she did as requested and concentrated on the feeling of her hole being opened and released, this time more, this time less. Anna gave a running commentary, along the lines of ?You beautiful filthy fuck-whore Antonia, I know you adore it up the arse ? it?s the only way ? you and I know that for certain ? up the arse, up the arse, up the arse?? And with that she relaxed enough for the head of the big vibrator (for that is what it was) to pass through the gate for the first time. Anna eased it out, then in again, each time going slightly deeper than the time before. Antonia was moaning with the exquisite pleasure she was being given; then she felt the vibrator slide most of the way. Anna turned on the vibrations; the toy was deep enough and Antonia?s bottom raised high enough to prevent the toy slipping out. Anna was confident to let go of the toy and pay some attention to Antonia?s cock. Then, leaving the vibrator still buzzing away, she left the room. Antonia?s mind was a whirl with emotions, thoughts, and most of all, the sensations she was experiencing. Here she was, after only meeting this ?guy? for the fourth time and she had let her tie her up and do amazing things. Alternately she was scared and elated; certainly she would look back on this day with great memories. Anna returned, having left Antonia with the big vibrator for a good ten minutes just gently buzzing away inside her, causing her cock to pulse and twitch as it stimulated her insides. Anna removed it and replaced it with a dildo, much thicker than the vibrator and probed deeper than before, gently pushing, pulling and twisting the toy to conform to the bends and turns in her gut and find its path through. To Antonia this was just the most gorgeous feeling; again Anna left it in place to pay some attention to Antonia?s hard member. Then Anna withdrew and approached Antonia at the bed head, teasing her lips with something monstrous. ?Do you recognise it, Antonia; do kiss and caress its huge knob end. Do you know what this is?? Antonia opened her lips to the toy; she could not take all the knob in her mouth. ?It must be?the Bam...oh, I want it all, but can I take it? Don?t hurt me, don?t hurt me?. Anna said: ?You and I both revere this gorgeous thing because of its sheer size and power and because it satisfies what we both crave. I love it and you love it. We love it more every time we use it. We?re high-heeled spunk sluts who crave to be fucked in the arse by something huge like this fantastic dildo. Relax, babe, let?s take our time.? Anna eased the existing toy from Antonia. It had done it?s job of opening her up deeper and preparing for the Bam. Anna squirted more lubrication up Antonia?s arse and then applied a lot more to the Bam. Anna teased Antonia?s hole with its huge head, opening up more and more, opening up, holding in place and relaxing. Anna got Antonia to do her deep breathing exercises to relax. Eventually, her hole was so relaxed, the enormous knob end slid in and was clamped by her distended ring. Immediately, Anna stopped and removed the toy; just as quickly, her ring was opened again and in went the Bam. Antonia groaned; she had never had it in for long before, such was its size; but she had never had time, space, help, or relaxation either. Each time Anna probed, the Bam went ever deeper. Antonia groaned again, her cock twitching with the pleasure in her arse. Again, deeper and this time, two strokes; again deeper and it was held in place for a full minute; then it was removed, re-lubricated and inserted deeper again. Oh, this was just superb. Anna really knew how to get the best out of this thing. Antonia was going wild with the superb feeling. Then four strokes fully in and out ? oh, yes, she was being fucked by the Bam ? and it felt SO good. Again it was removed and reloaded, then ten long, deep strokes, then twenty. Then it was left in whilst Anna changed positions; she knew Antonia couldn?t hold out for long now. With her right hand she held the end of the huge toy, fully in Antonia?s reamed arse. Then she knelt over Antonia?s cock and took it fully in her mouth; whilst gently massaging the dildo gently in her arse she sucked slowly and sensuously. Within seconds, Antonia gave a huge shout and felt her spurts of joy last so, so long as she flooded Anna?s mouth with her cream. Anna pulled away. ?That was gorgeous, thank you? she said, swallowing everything. Anna carefully removed the Bam. Antonia was gently sobbing behind the mask. ?Oh my God, oh my God, oh my?? she wailed breathlessly. ?That was just the most amazing?? Anna came to the top of the bed and removed the mask. Antonia took a short while to get used to the light, to focus and to get over her experience. Then she saw her; Elspeth was there, digital camera in hand. ?I?m so glad you have enjoyed yourself. I?m also sure the divorce settlement will be very acceptable to me?. She looked at the camera knowingly. ?Thank you, Alan, for confirming what I had suspected for a long time. I?ll let myself out?. And with that, Elspeth strode out of the bedroom and down the hall to the front door and out. Tony felt the deepest sense of self-disgust and loathing. Alan/Anna knew this was going to be the moment of greatest danger and trauma. Tony sobbed and sobbed, removing his shoes, stockings and underwear and throwing them away from him with contempt. He hardly spoke or knew what to do. Eventually, Anna came to sit by him, attempting to console him. ?Did you tell her??, shouted Tony. ?How could you, you?ve betrayed me?I?ve lost everything, everything thanks to you. I suppose it gave you another thrill?. ?No, it gave me no thrill, but I had to do it for you and your wife. I could see that you would never break free. You can?t deny it. Let?s face it ? denial has been your worst enemy over the years ? you can?t deny that you did not enjoy what we?ve experienced today. Now you?re free to do exactly what you want, with whom you want, when you want? explained Anna, calmly and softly. ?My family, my job, my house, my investments?.?, blubbered Tony. ?Remember your mental shackles and the years of denial. I?ll help you sort things out. You can stay here for a few days. Don?t worry about your job. Elspeth is not going to spoil the source of her income and you?ll be able to get some happiness back in your life, as long as you stop denying the things that give you real pleasure. Life is not a dress rehearsal, so you might as well enjoy it. Too many people live with too much guilt a