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BEING ME
(FOLLOWING YOUR BLISS, BEING HAPPY WITH THE WOMAN IN YOU)
MYSELF TODAY
Today, I'm an executive of my own company and recognized in the field
under my true self, a woman. It is a great joy to interact with others,
no more hiding or living two lives. The most important part is that
even those who knew me, in my previous gender accept me and I accept
myself.
I have found that most important part is making yourself happy, as
opposed what others want you to be. It is interesting, when someone
goes in the hospital, even when you have a business, the first thing
someone at the hospital will tell you, the business can wait - you
cannot. You need to do things for you, by putting it off that is why
you are here.
Something I like about shopping is that I found a company that carries
wonderful fashions in my sizes. Also, my new year's resolution is to
improve my fitness. Currently, I walk about five miles a day.
The most important part that I like about myself is being able to
follow my bliss completely. In the past, when I was trying to live in
the wrong gender, I could only follow my bliss part of the time and
that is hard. Also, in relationships, I was apprehensive about showing
my total self, know I'm not. Currently, I am dating, someone who I met
at work, and he is very supportive and make me feel comfortable along
with encouraging me to continue with my projects.
Recently, I started watching "The Apprentice" and would love to meet
Donald Trump. His management style reminds, a little bit, of what my
father taught me. Also, the best part I like about the show is the
summary and the questions he ask along with his two advisors to solve a
problem.
A little bit about myself is that I am corporate attorney focusing upon
Intellectual Property. Intellectual property includes software,
hardware, art, and creative expression which is protected by patent,
copyright, trademark, and "sui generic" in the European Union, and in
the United States with regards to works similar to the process, time,
money, and effort to developing computer chips. My clients accept me as
I am as well as my established clients.
To anyone starting or wondering about coming out, you should do it
sooner rather than later. Also, remember those who want to work with
you, will work with you and work with you more when you are happy. Life
is too short to live in frustration.
TAKING THE FIRST STEP - COMING OUT AT 20TH REUNION
From talking with others I knew on internet, I learned that one of my
girlfriends came out at her 20th High School Reunion. She was afraid at
first, and happy she did. Based on her success, I decided it was time
for me to come out as well.
The first part of my coming out process was completing a reunion
questionnaire as some things had changed since 1982. The first items
were my first name and my gender. Also, came the part of submitting a
picture for the yearbook, which was put on page one!
When I first submitted the questionnaire with a photo, I did receive a
phone call. The first impression was to make sure that they matched the
information of my past self with my current self from the reunion
organizer. After a brief phone call, he realized the information is
matched correctly and congratulated me on following my bliss. Everyone
who knows me realizes that I always follow my bliss, and it is an
important part of me.
As the class reunion approached, I needed to decide upon an outfit.
Also, since I was not dating at that time, would I go alone or go with
an escort? With the outfit, should I go all out, really feminine,
casual, or a formal? I decided to casual wearing a white pantsuit, with
patterned white stocking and heels and auburn wig.
As I came to the reunion, the first surprise I received, a happy
surprise, is the hugs and kisses I received. Everyone was glad that I
came, as in high school I was shy and sometimes did not go to as many
dances as I would have loved to. It is a wonderful feeling to know that
people who you went to school to with, and knew you as one gender,
still accept you today as you are! The feelings of joy I had that night
was something I had not felt in a long time.
The biggest discussion during the reunion was not of my reason to
change my gender, but of all the things I have done in accomplishing
and in business. It was as if my classmates knew along that I was
really a woman now and then, although trapped in man's body. That night
was the happiness day in my life, and showed the achievement of my
transition arc that I have started in 1999.
INITIAL WORK ENVIRONMENT ENCOUNTERS
( I )
After the reunion, where I worked prior, I started to express my new
gender more and more. It was not something really radical, but some
clients started to complain. At one point, there was a meeting of
myself and two other people that I went something like this:
"Some customer's have complained about your shirts, and being too
dressy," said one manager at a former company I worked with.
"Other customer's are afraid of your changes, we want you to be more
conventional," a personnel person said.
"Well, I don't see the problem, but what are you suggesting that you
do?"
"We want you to stop wearing cuffed shirts and the white flowered
shirts, although they were not, the shirts were French made shirts with
the traditional Cavalier symbol." The result of which mean that part of
the position was what I could wear. In the resulting conversation, it
was decided I would dress as the local area dressed, although they
dressed down a lot.
After that initial work meeting, I changed my work outfits to meet the
so-called local code of dressing. From that point on, thing went well.
But, as when you started to make a change, some will like it and some
will try to stop you. It is important that you do what is right for
you!
( II )
A second example that I ran into the former place of employment, is
that of being called "gay." Something to know, is that in most states,
it is considered a civil rights offense and hate crime to call someone
"gay" in that manner. For example, since 1982, that type of behavior
has been a civil rights crime and from 1997 it has been a hate crime.
The main point is that everyone has to work and a right to work. If
someone is harassing you verbally, emotionally, physically, or other
methods, then you have a right to redress and grievance. Usually, most
people will ask for a transfer or leave the position. However, you do
not have to do that. The most important thing is to keep a history of
the events, as in a notebook, or a tape recorder with each tape dated
and indexed. Then, you can provide sufficient evidence for them to
cease and desist or with one case, call the State Attorney General.
( III )
When I started my first position after college, I like the position
originally, but it changed in later years. The main reason was that, at
first, the person who I worked with was from the San Francisco area
working in Milwaukee in the late 1980's and early 1990's. My first
experience with working people from San Francisco is that they are
nice. Also, two of them encourage me to express my thoughts in writing
as well as in programming which led me to becoming an attorney in
Intellectual Property law rather than just an engineer and software
development.
As long I as acted as this director did, I was accepted. This director
had a tendency to be hyper aggressive, overly male even to a point when
he saw my parents hug me after returning from lunch he became angry and
went into a rage. The rage being so bad, he would call me into his
office to say I and my father, now deceased, to be manly.
After the first incident, three researchers who I worked from Europe
from West Germany, remember this occurred before the Unification,
Italy, and France, saw the raging me he had me attend. The three people
being one woman and two men were shocked at what happened and decided
to talk to DDE themselves. They explained to him, that even though I am
an American, there are still some European customs my family practices,
and these practices are not abnormal, gay, no matter what he thinks. In
addition, his actions, based on someone who traveled through Europe
imply that he did not learn anything about cultures and being accepted
to them. They tried to explain it to him nicely, but it was his way or
no way.
Since I would not change my family customs, the retaliation was to deny
me promotions or advancement. For a while, I played along, but I
started looking for a transfer to new section or a new position. After
trying for 1 year for a transfer to a new section or position, I
decided it was time to go out on my own as a consultant.
That April afternoon, I left the research facility with my parents
coming to pick me up as they were shopping in Brookfield. When I left
the Research Park, I left for good. Also, as I waited, I stood in a
public area so that I would not be bothered further from DDE. I see a
few people who I worked with, from time to time, one of them decided to
leave the research field and being a full time mother, she told me that
the whole group left after I did due to the intolerance.
STARTING AS A CONSULTANT
When I left the research park, I did not have job lined up, as one
should do. Due to an aggressive meeting, I decided it was time and it
was over! This relationship was not working and I needed a change, and
a break. This decision was made at the immediate time, again following
my bliss.
One last act of my former boss towards my decision to transition to my
true gender was to withhold my last paycheck. He withheld it for two
weeks past the date in was supposed to be given. In fact, I had to
prepare papers to contact the State Attorney General to get it, before
they said it "was lost," which was the reason for the delay. Remember,
when you leave an employer, they are obligated to pay you your last
paycheck at the current pay period time as when you did work for them.
It took me three months to restart my consultant practice. During that
time, I took time to get things ready for my transition, new outfits,
letterheads, and office. In September, I received an offer to be
President of a large activity.
What did I go different in my new gender? First, I decided I would do
what it good for me, first, and not be affected by what is said on talk
radio, or other propaganda sources. Two, before agreeing to something,
I would check it's legality and my rights on the issue. Three, the same
thing I have done, being creative and friendly.
When I started, some client would ask about my voice, as it is low. I
would originally say that I had a cold. Now, I do not make excuses and
say "Speaking" when asked to speak with me. It is important to accept
yourself first, before others will accept you. Also, others can tell
when you have accepted yourself.
PREVIOUS HISTORY - CHILDHOOD - SKATING OUTFITS
I had known since age 8 that I was the wrong gender for my body. The
reasoning being is that although I played boy games, I preferred to
play girl games and converse the ways girls converse. The realization
did not come until a few years later.
During my early childhood, I liked skating and we would go to a local
mall in Wauwatosa, which had an Olympic rink inside of it. On one side
was a McDonalds where you could others ice skating. My father and
mother would watch me skate and compliment me on my development.
Then, one day, as I walk to the rink from McDonalds in the mall, a
skating shop opened showing various skating outfits. When I saw the
outfits, I stopped and starred for a long time, it was then that I knew
I was the wrong gender. However, then, I did not know what to do.
Later, in life, I would find out from my mother that she thought that I
was always meant to be a woman - she said it was something mothers
could tell.
COLLEGE - PART TIME
In college, I started reading book on Male to Female transsexuals as a
way to diagnose myself. The most common book I read was by a Dr. Green,
which had interviews and analysis. I would compare those interviews
with how I felt and it would verify my wish.
In college, I would dress half male and half female, wearing female
outfit ensembles as much as possible without actually wearing a dress
or skirt. In short, during the late 1970's and early 80's in
southeastern Wisconsin, radical feminism was very high. So, it was
common for women young and old, not to wear skirts or dresses, but blue
jeans with dressy tops - which is how I dressed.
The college I went to accepted my cross dressing. Also, they seemed to
realize that due to extreme philosophies of the late 1970's and early
1980's, there were others who were trying to resolve it while trying to
find themselves.
MAKING THE DECISION
The decision to go full time into transition period is not an easy one
to make. However, it the most important decision you will make
regarding your well being. Some issues to consider are do I still live
a dual life along with the emotional problems that causes, do I remain
true to myself or put myself second all the time, and do I follow my
bliss.
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