Spring Break Incognito
By Enigma
I rolled off Sarah to lie naked, panting, beside her,
trying to catch my breath. She snuggled up to my cooling
body and was first to regain the power of speech.
"That was fantastic, Jeff. I love you!"
"Mmmm..." I pulled her tight to me. "Yeah, it was, wasn't
it?" I managed to wheeze. "I love you too, honey." I
glanced over at the lighted digits of the alarm clock that
showed it was a little past 1 AM, "But we both have early
classes tomorrow." I kissed Sarah passionately and settled
down to sleep.
The phone woke me early the next morning, and I groggily
noticed it was 6:30. My sleep-clouded mind eventually heard
Sarah as she chattered on the phone. Morning people! Her
words finally started making sense, and I realized she was
talking to one of her friends about the upcoming spring
break. Damn! I was really upset about these plans they were
making.
"Yeah, that sounds good, Julie! Marci and Kelly are
confirmed? Great! I know Sherry and Lynn are in. Oh, you
heard from Sue? Super! How about Jenn? Still nothing, huh?
OK, you keep trying, and I will too. Good! Luv ya, Jules.
Talk again soon."
Sarah hung up the phone, and turned over to face me.
"Morning, sleepyhead!" This was followed by a kiss that
drove more of the cobwebs from my mind. "Things are really
coming together! We have all but Jennifer lined up to go.
The reservations are all set. This is going to be a great
spring break!"
"Humph" I grumped. I was not crazy about my fianc? going
off without me to Lake Havasu for spring break with her old
friends from high school. They were eight really gorgeous
ladies, and I had heard the stories about the wild parties
and stuff that went on there. "Sweetheart, are you sure
about this?"
Sarah put a cute little pout on her beautiful face. "Jeff!
Not this again! Come on, we've talked about this till I'm
sick of it! You know I love you, honey, and we are going to
be married this June, right after graduation. This is my
last chance to get together with the gang before that.
Don't you trust me?" She was stroking my body, getting me
hot again, which was pretty amazing after the way we went
at it last night.
"It's not that I don't trust you, Sarah. It's all those
horny guys I don't trust! I'd feel a lot better if I was
coming."
"Jeff, sweetheart, you know this is an all girl thing. Just
me and my friends. With us scattered at schools all over
the country, we hardly ever get to see each other any more.
Besides, the place is booked solid. We've had reservations
for months, and there is no way you could get any place to
stay now."
"It's just ..."
"Shhh. I know sweetheart. I love you too. And nothing is
going to happen to change that! I know you'd like to go,
and I would love to have you there too." She got a
speculative look on her face, and seemed lost in thought as
she gazed at me for long moments. "Unless..." she almost
whispered, then suddenly giggled.
"What?"
"Nothing! I just had a silly thought. Never mind."
"No, Sarah. I want to know!"
"Jeff, it's really silly."
"Sarah!"
"Ok. It just flashed through my mind there is a way you
could go."
"Super! How?"
She giggled again. "You sure you want to know?" I nodded
emphatically. "Ok, I tried to warn you! You know there are
eight of us, right?" I nodded. "And we've got rooms for
eight." I nodded again. "Well, we haven't been able to get
hold of Jennifer. She was having some problems a couple
months ago, and Julie and I haven't heard from her since.
We can't confirm she is coming. That might leave an empty
spot for another girl!"
I was puzzled. "How does that help me?"
"Well, I just had this silly thought that you could be that
other girl!"
I was speechless! Me? Go as a girl? This was crazy! But
there was a niggling little voice in the far recesses of my
mind that was saying, 'You could, you know!'
"See, I told you it was silly. I just thought of the part
you had in that play last year. Remember, when there
weren't enough girls in the class to fill all the parts,
and you got to do that small role as the girlfriend? You
looked and sounded really good, and that was what brought
this on."
I just glared at her, and the subject was dropped.
Maybe a little background would be good here. Sarah and I
entered the university the same year, both majoring in
Theater Arts. We became aware of each other sometime during
our freshman year, but were not much more than mild
acquaintances. Sometime in our second year, I really began
to notice how pretty she was, and what a great personality
she had. Finally, just into our junior year I worked up the
courage to ask her out. Later I learned that she had
wondered what took me so long.
We got on great, having lots of fun in school and with
recreational activities, and eventually discovering the
joys of sex. We decided we would live together our senior
year, and found a small apartment not far from campus. Just
this last Christmas, I finally proposed marriage to her and
she gleefully accepted. I have been on cloud nine ever
since.
Until recently, that is, as the plans for spring break
began to take shape. I guess it was my insecurities getting
the best of me. But I was really afraid of losing Sarah to
some hunk out there in Havasu. I'd heard the stories: the
wild parties, the drinking, topless girls, endless sex. I
have always been the quiet type, never getting into the
party scene, whereas Sarah and her friends had always been
pretty wild. I guess I just never could figure out how I
got lucky enough to land Sarah. And I was afraid if she got
back to that kind of atmosphere she would realize that I
just didn't measure up.
As I said, everyone in Sarah's crowd are knockouts. They
had been friends all through high school, and then had
spread out across the country, with only a couple attending
the same college. This was going to be the first time since
the summer after high school that they got back together to
relive their wild days of the past.
Sarah herself is 5'6", with wavy red hair, a beautiful face
with clear alabaster skin, deep green eyes, a cute little
upturned nose and a smattering of freckles that made her
look deceptively innocent. With C cup breasts (34C-24-32)
she is the smallest of the eight in that department. In my
humble opinion, she was also the prettiest of them all. Not
that any of them were dogs. But I was just sure that this
assembly of busty babes was going to attract guys in
droves.
Then there is me. I am fairly short for a guy at 5'9", with
a slender build. My skin is naturally lightly brown, my
hair jet black and straight, and my eyes are an unusual
gray with just a hint of an oriental shape, thanks to my
mixed ancestry. Not that I was ugly by any means, but I had
never been able to build up any muscle bulk, in spite of
all my trying. The best I could say about it was that I was
fit and sleek. I am quick, deceptively strong, and have
been described as graceful, but I have never, ever been
called a hunk. My build is what got me drafted into that
female role in last year's play.
Another week passed. There were calls from several of
Sarah's friends as plans were finalized. We were in January
now, and the trip was inexorably approaching in early
April. Sarah would talk to me about the plans and her
concerns about the still unaccounted for Jenn, but was
getting really touchy about any comments I made, even when
I went out of my way to try to be helpful.
Sun Jan 16
Finally one Sunday evening when she got off the phone I
asked, "Still no word from Jenn?"
Sarah just blew up. "Damn it, Jeff, I've had it with your
jealousy over this trip. I have tried and tried to reassure
you that it is you I love, and you have absolutely nothing
to worry about!"
"Wait, Sarah, no! I am trying to accept it. I really am. I
know you are worried about Jenn. All I want to do is be
there for you right now."
"Argh! I can't take any more of this. Jeff, either put up
or shut up. You're either in or your out, and I won't put
up with any more negative vibes from you!"
"Hunh? What do you mean?"
"Either you're the eighth girl, or you just stay out of
this!" With that she stomped into the bedroom and I heard
the lock click.
I tried the knob, then knocked lightly. "Sarah! Let me in,
sweetheart. I'm sorry!" There was only silence in answer.
I spent a cold, lonely night on the couch, the first since
we had moved in together, and it was not something I was
anxious to repeat.
Mon Jan 17
I woke stiff and chilled the next morning after a restless
night when Sarah came out of the bedroom already dressed
for class. I stumbled into the kitchenette as she brewed
coffee, and tried to kiss her on the cheek.
She avoided my attempt and just looked at me. "In or out?"
I looked at her pleadingly. "Come on! Give me a little
break here! At least tell me what it really means to be in
or to be out. Please?"
"In, you dress as a girl for the week, participate in the
preparations and help make the week fun for all of us. Out,
you stay here, you keep your petty jealousy to yourself and
you quit trying to spoil this for me." Her voice had steel
in it unlike anything I was used to from her.
I sighed, "Sarah!" She just turned and walked out the door,
skipping breakfast.
I had a rough day, and couldn't concentrate at all in
class. I was mortally afraid I had damaged our relationship
beyond repair, but I just wasn't quite sure how. I couldn't
figure out what to do. I didn't think there was any way I
could make everyone believe I was a girl for a week,
especially as close as that group is going to be during the
trip. But I was almost more afraid that rejecting the idea
would have the effect of driving Sarah away even further,
since she reacted badly to almost everything I said
anymore.
Sarah wasn't home yet when I dragged in after my last
class. Normally she would have been there and fixing
something for us to eat by now. I put my books away and
started putting together a dinner for the both of us. Sarah
came in when everything was almost ready, and went silently
to the bedroom. She came out a few minutes later, and we
sat down to eat the simple meal in an uncomfortable silence
neither of us seemed willing to break. After we'd put our
dishes in the dishwasher, she faced me.
"Ok, Jeff, what is it going to be?"
I had been dreading that question, and gave a big sigh.
"Sarah, I love you. I just don't know what you want from
me."
"What I want is for you to be a little supportive. This is
a big thing for me, and I want you not to ruin it before it
even starts!"
"How can I be supportive when you bite my head off for
everything I say? In case you hadn't noticed, I have
stopped questioning the trip. I am trying to be supportive!
But it seems like everything I say is wrong."
A tear trickled from each of Sarah's eyes. "Maybe I'd
better move in with Debby till spring break. Then we won't
hurt each other until this is over."
"No!" I looked at her pleadingly. "Please." I heaved a big
sigh and said quietly "I'll do it. I'll go with you." My
best hope now was that Jennifer would show up and bump me
from the trip, but I was desperate not to lose Sarah.
She just looked at me blankly for a while. "You sure?" I
nodded. "And you'll really try to make this fun for all of
us?" I nodded again. She looked at me as if to judge the
truth of what I said. Finally she came to me and hugged me,
whispering in my ear "Thank-you!"
I hugged her for all I was worth. "You'll have to help me,
though. Being a girl in a play isn't the same as living as
a girl for a week. You have to help me make sure I can do
this!"
She gave me a tentative kiss on the lips. "I will."
We didn't make love that night, but at least I was back in
the bed with Sarah, and we cuddled together till she
drifted off to sleep. My slumber did not come easily as I
held the woman I loved and pondered what I had gotten
myself into.
Tues Jan 18
Sarah was almost back to her old self the next morning, and
I enjoyed the affection we shared while getting ready for
class.
"Jeff, lets plan on spending time after class this
afternoon seeing what help we can get from the theater
storeroom, OK?"
I felt my insides twist, but put a cheerful face on, afraid
of pushing her away. "Sure. What do you have in mind?"
"Oh, I just thought we might be able to borrow some props
to help us out."
I was getting a little worried here. "Um, don't you think
the school might object?"
"All we can do is ask!" as she pecked me on the cheek.
This was Tuesday, and in the afternoon we were both in
Professor Hanford's class, which was currently
concentrating on costuming. Jane Hanford is an attractive
thirty-something lady who is a whiz at training
recalcitrant young wannabes as potential stars and/or for
supporting positions in theater and movie production. She
has a wicked sense of humor, and has a knack for getting
her students to not only understand what is needed, but for
getting them to do it.
I managed to survive the morning classes, and was
disappointed when Sarah did not show up at the union for
our usual lunch together. I waited outside the classroom
for her to show, but slipped inside just before the start
time when she hadn't. Moments later, she walked in with
Professor Hanford. They stopped near the front of the room
and spoke quietly for a moment before Sarah came to sit
with me with a mysterious smile on her face. I noticed the
professor glance my way with a somewhat quizzical
expression, but then we got into the projects we were
working on, and I was too busy to worry about it.
As the room started to clear after class, Sarah found me
and pulled me forward to where Professor Hanford was
waiting. She greeted us and asked how our current projects
were going. We chatted about that until the room had
emptied.
"So, Jeff, I understand that you and Sarah want to take on
a special project for the next few months. How do you feel
about this?"
I looked nervously at Sarah, who was smiling encouragingly
at me. "Um, I guess I am really nervous about this,
professor. I want to do it, but I am really worried about
pulling it off without getting into hot water."
She stood back and gazed speculatively at me for a few
minutes. "I don't think appearance is going to be a
problem. It's more likely your behavior that could give you
away, and then of course, any, shall we say, more intimate
encounters where your costume would be difficult to
maintain?"
I blushed furiously and mumbled, "I don't think I have to
worry about intimate encounters."
"Nonsense! What will the other girls be wearing when they
go swimming?" She looked at Sarah here.
"I know I will be in a bikini, and it would surprise me if
any of the others wore anything else."
Geez! That hadn't even occurred to me. The furthest I'd
gotten was thinking of jeans, shorts, and maybe skirts.
Professor Hanford pushed on relentlessly. "And where will
the girls be getting changed into and out of swimwear?"
Sarah was looking downcast. "Normally we would all change
together in a dressing room, or a cabana, maybe the cabin
of a houseboat. Maybe this isn't such a good idea." She
looked sorrowfully at me, and I felt a twinge in my gut. I
wasn't sure if it was relief or regret.
I was shocked when the professor responded, "Don't be
silly! But it does depend on how much you both are
committed to this charade?" She made that last into a
question.
Sarah looked a bit more hopeful. "What do you mean?"
Professor Hanford considered before she spoke. "There are
many ways that Jeff could be made to appear a woman. He has
the basic build that will make it easier. The techniques
range from makeup to appliances to cosmetic procedures,
even hormones and reassignment surgery. It all depends on
the depth of the masquerade. And of course, some of those
are more permanent than others. You also have to consider
the expense."
Sarah and I were both speechless, but she recovered her
voice first. "Jeff is my fianc?! This was never meant to be
permanent!"
"No, of course not, I was only pointing out the options.
But consider. Even with costuming changes that are not long
term, there is a certain amount of conditioning that must
be done. Jeff would have to learn to, for instance, walk
like a woman, and practice it to the point that it was
natural and unconscious. Afterward, that conditioning might
surface at embarrassing moments, at least until he is
reconditioned to a male gait. The same applies to speech
and mannerisms. The result could be that some people might
assume he was gay until the feminine behaviors were all
unlearned."
Sarah and I exchanged a worried glance. I was pretty sure I
wanted out of this, but I planned to leave it up to Sarah,
as I didn't want to alienate her again. I hid my immense
relief when she spoke up, "Maybe we shouldn't. Sorry to
have taken your time, professor."
I was dismayed when she responded, "Let's not be quite so
hasty. I didn't want to scare you off. I just wanted you to
be aware of the effort involved not only before, but after
this task. Actually, I think it would be a great learning
experience for both of you, and could help you greatly in
your careers."
"Can we think about it and get back to you?" I asked.
"Certainly! I would be disappointed if you didn't think
this through before jumping in."
Sarah piped in, "Just for the sake of argument, what would
the costuming involve. Not that I am saying Jeff will do
this. Just that we need to understand what he, um, we might
be getting into."
Professor Hanford pondered a moment. "Fair question.
Actually, not too much." She looked me over critically.
"Jeff has a slim build, which is a good starting point.
He's taller than the typical woman, but not too tall. If we
were to put him in a dress right now, the first thing
people would notice is that he has no breasts. Given the
extent of the deception you are considering, the best
choice short of implants would be breast forms that are
attached with an adhesive and removed with a special
solvent. If selected properly, they would be virtually
indistinguishable from the real thing, even letting him
wear a bikini top. But those are not cheap."
I gulped, but managed to say, "Ok, that doesn't sound too
bad yet. What else?"
"In a dress, the next giveaway would be hair. Yours has
good luster, and is marginally long enough, but is in an
obviously masculine style. With some trimming, it could be
made quite feminine, then after the week, a simple haircut
would return it to a male style."
I grinned just a little. "That one sounds easy." I noticed
Sarah had a hopeful little smile as well.
"Speaking of hair, body hair is another problem. Use of a
depilatory and/or frequent shaving can handle that, and of
course it would grow back fairly quickly after."
Oh boy, another relatively easy one! "Ok. What else?"
"Various things around the face would make a remarkable
difference. Eyebrows plucked to a feminine arch would grow
back over time. Pierced ears would help a lot, and would
heal in a few months it left empty. Makeup, obviously, done
in such a way to emphasize the cheekbones and eyes. Why, if
you gave me an hour, from your neck up I could make you
look like a very attractive girl right now."
"Um, I don't think I'm quite ready for that. But that
doesn't sound too bad, if we do this." I thought Sarah was
looking kind of encouraged.
The professor thought some more. "Your body shape is not
great for a girl, but there are many attractive women that
don't have much more of an hourglass figure than you. And
then there is the problem of genitals. That would be a dead
giveaway in a bikini bottom, or even possibly in tight
girls' jeans or shorts. Hmmm." This topic made me blush,
but she plowed onward. "I don't have personal experience
with it, but I have heard of a device that is available. It
is like a latex panty that can add fullness to the hips and
rear, and accommodates the male genitalia while appearing
to be a female vagina on the outside. The edges glue down
just like the breast forms, and make it very difficult to
tell it's not natural. Oh, and if you lost maybe ten pounds
and did some exercises to slim your waist a little, that
would help too."
That one was kind of freaky, but I was curious. "Why would
something like that even be available? And where would you
get it?"
Professor Hanford grinned just a little. "Why, just for
what you are thinking of. Do you think you're the only man
that has thought to disguise himself as a woman? Actually,
it is more common than you might think. Ever heard of
female impersonators that do stage shows? How about
transvestites? Even transgendered females could use them to
help pass as their desired gender."
I blushed uncomfortably. "What is transgendered?"
Sarah stepped in here. "Isn't that when a person believes
that their brain is a different gender than their body?"
The professor agreed, "That's pretty close. And many of
these people feel the need to appear as their internal
gender." She frowned now. "Some even end their lives unable
to resolve the conflict they must fight." Then she
brightened a bit. "As to where to get them, I'm sure you
could order one from the internet. There may even be a
store in town that could fix you up. That would be better,
since they could match skin color and texture to make it
less noticeable. Again, the better it is, the more
expensive."
We had a lot to think about. We left with a promise to let
her know what we decided, and with her offering to do some
research on sources for breast forms and the vagina thingy.
We didn't talk much as we walked back to the apartment,
each lost in our own thoughts. Dinner was quiet as well. We
made a great team in the tiny kitchen, with almost no words
required to cooperate on fixing the simple meal.
After we cleaned up, Sarah brought the subject back up for
the first time since we left the professor. "Can we try
just a couple of simple experiments to see how it goes?"
I was definitely nervous about this. "What kind of
experiments?"
"Oh, I thought maybe you could try on a few of my clothes,
just to see how they fit. And maybe you would let me make
up your face to see what we have to work with?"
I wasn't all that comfortable with the idea, but I wasn't
ready to be the one to back out of this yet. Not when Sarah
was being nice to me again. "Ok."
"Great! First, go shave really carefully, and then come on
into the bedroom." I went and shaved, not that I had much
beard to remove. When I entered the bedroom she got a
lecherous grin on her face and said "Strip!" I did.
She tossed some silky panties to me. I looked at them and
then back at her, blushing. "Go on, put them on. It's only
clothing!"
So I slipped them up my legs and over my narrow hips.
"Hmmm. I think maybe you should tuck yourself back between
your legs for this experiment." I grumbled as I did that,
pulled the panties up tight, then looked down at an almost
feminine-looking crotch. "Stick your arms out." She slipped
a wispy bra over my arms and struggled to fasten it behind.
"I can see you will need the next size up. But it is
fastened now, so we can try this for tonight." She stuffed
a rolled up pair of nylons into each cup, and suddenly I
had medium small boobs.
She handed me a pair of her jeans. I thought about how she
looked in them as I pulled them up my legs, and my trapped
manhood gave a twitch. It was a struggle to fasten them
around my waist, but I managed. If I lost the weight
Professor Hanford suggested, they would probably be just
right.
Sarah spoke, "They are a bit loose in the hips and bum, but
that is kind of what I expected. Otherwise, they look
pretty good."
I thought they hugged me like a second skin! "You call that
loose? And aren't they a bit short?"
Sarah looked. "For a guy maybe, but they look just fine for
a girl. Here, put this on." She handed me one of her tops
in a pale blue color and I pulled it over my head and down
to my waist. Or rather, I tried. It was just a little
short, and left maybe an inch of skin showing above the
jeans. I looked at Sarah, and she was smiling in a way that
made me kind of nervous.
"Ok, let me try a bit of makeup. Nothing garish and I
promise, nothing that won't wash off." I relented as
gracefully as I could, and sat in the chair by her vanity.
She turned me toward her so I couldn't see what she was
doing.
"I should use a foundation to even out your skin tone
first, but our skin colors are so different that mine would
make you look pasty, so we'll skip that tonight."
She had me close my eyes and I felt a light brushing
sensation across my eyelids. Then more pressure along the
edges of my lids as she told me she was applying eye liner.
Then I felt a sharp pain in my eyebrow and jumped. "Hold
still. I just want to get rid of a couple of stray hairs.
Nothing noticeable." A couple! She must have pulled out at
least a dozen. She used some kind of pencil on my brows.
Then came some mascara for my lashes.
She brushed something on my cheeks, moved back to look
critically, then brushed a little more. Next, she outlined
my lips with a pencil and filled them in with lipstick.
Finally, she coated my lips with a gloss and moved back to
check the overall effect. This couldn't have taken more
than ten minutes, so I wasn't expecting too much.
She grabbed her hairbrush and did something with my hair.
No trimming or anything, just brushing it a little
differently than I normally do.
"Ok, let's take a look." I started to turn to look in the
vanity mirror, but she stopped me and pulled me toward the
closet. "Ready?" I nodded and she opened the door to swing
the full length mirror on the inside around to face me. I
wasn't ready for what I saw. There, framed in the mirror,
was a tall, slender girl. She was no beauty, but was at
least attractive. The hairstyle was a bit butch, but not
bad when seen with the rest. I studied my face, trying to
see me in there, and finally made out how she'd changed my
look. The clothes added to the overall effect, even though
they were not overtly feminine.
"So, what do you think?"
"Wow!" was all I could say.
"Yeah, wow! You know, I really think you could do this."
I gazed in the mirror. "I never thought I could look like
that!"
"Oh, honey, that's with just a few minutes work. With some
of the other things the prof talked about, you could look
fantastic!"
"You think?" The actor in me was getting kind of curious
about this. "I still don't know about lasting a week with
your friends though."
"I think you could. Tell you what, how about we work on
this for a while, and see how it goes. If we get close to
spring break and you decide it isn't going to work, we'll
call it off. But if we plan for now for you to go, at least
we won't be fighting about this trip all the time."
I was nervous, and just a little excited about the
prospect. "Ok. We can try it. But what about the cost?"
Sarah spoke hesitantly. "I'll pay, since you're doing this
for me." I knew she could do it, but it made me
uncomfortable. I was getting through school OK, what with
loans and a few grants, but there was little extra in my
budget. Sarah and I shared expenses, and after a couple of
initial 'discussions' she only paid her part of the costs,
and we lived carefully. I knew that with her scholarships
and the allowance she got from her folks, she could have
lived much better, but she was happy with the way things
were and never complained when our food was a little less
exciting than it could be. She knew what I was thinking,
and got a pleading expression on her face. "Please?"
I knew she would get her way. She normally did, so I gave
in gracefully. "OK. But let's not get carried away here!"
She launched herself at me and kissed me passionately with
her arms wrapped around my neck. "Hmmm. This is
interesting. I've never kissed a girl like that before."
She giggled and pushed me down on my back on the bed, and
suddenly her hands were roaming all over my body.
After the last couple of nights, it felt great to make love
to Sarah again. The strange feel of lipstick on my lips
faded to the background as our passion grew. It was late
before we settled down to sleep. "Oh, I almost forgot! We
have to get our makeup off before we sleep. Come on!" She
dragged me to the bathroom, and soon I was learning the
female nighttime bathroom ritual; makeup remover, cleanser,
moisturizer, along with my normal tooth brushing. One more
difference was that Sarah made me sit to use the toilet
instead of standing, all the time giggling about not having
to worry about the seat being left up anymore.
Back in bed, we cuddled and I started to settle down to
sleep.
"You know, we can't call you Jeff while you're incognito.
What would you like to use as your girl name?"
I pulled myself back from sleep. "Dunno. Hadn't thought
about it. Any ideas?"
"Well, it would be confusing to use any of my friends'
names, so let's avoid those. Let me try a few, and see if
anything appeals. Melanie, Sandy, Barbara, Alice, Allison,
Diane, Deanna, um, Gail, Marissa, June, April..."
"Wait," I interrupted. "Marissa... I kind of like the sound
of that."
"Ok. I hereby christen you Marissa. We can use Rissa for
short. I like that too!"
This time she let me drift into slumber.
Wed Jan 19
"Wake up Marissa." I heard the quiet voice through the fog
of sleep, and it meant nothing, so I drifted off again.
There was a poke in my ribs, "Wake up, Marissa, time to get
out of bed, sleepyhead!"
"Hunh?"
"Come on you lazy girl, time to get a move on!" I felt
smooth arms wrap around me from behind, and the feel of
warm, firm breasts pressed into my back.
"Mmmm. I could get used to this." I sighed.
"Not today you can't! Get that cute little butt in gear,
missy." I suddenly found myself on the floor beside the
bed.
"Hey!"
Sarah was already on her way to the bathroom. "Come on!
Let's stop by Professor Hanford's office before your 9
o'clock class and see if she's there."
By the time I got to the bathroom, Sarah was already
toweling herself dry from the shower. Before I got out of
the shower and arrived in the kitchen with just a towel
around my waist, Sarah had the coffee ready and fruit and
cereal waiting for me.
She giggled as I walked in. "Not like that, silly!" She
came to me, and before I realized what she was doing, she
had the towel off me. "Hmmm. What have we here?" She
stroked my quickly hardening manhood, and then wrapped the
towel around me just under my arms. "A girl has to protect
some different real estate than guys do," she laughed.
I tried to sit to eat my cereal, but Sarah giggled again,
and pointed out that I was showing off something I maybe
should keep secret. I looked down, blushed, and slammed my
legs together, tugging the towel down to cover me. Which of
course caused it to slip down my chest, making Sarah laugh
all the harder.
We finally got to the prof's office, and found she was
there and alone for the moment. Sarah explained that we
were going to give this a try, with me having the option to
back out before spring break if it wasn't going well.
She tapped her chin. "Well, looks like we have our work cut
out for us. I did some checking on the internet. Be
thankful you chose a school in a reasonable sized city
instead of out in the boonies. It happens there is a store
here in town that can custom fit Jeff with color matched
breast forms and the vagina panty. Here is the address.
According to their web site, it takes about 4 weeks from
the time of measurement until the custom-made items arrive
from the fabricator."
Sarah took the slip of paper from her. "Ok, we'll visit
them this afternoon. We don't have a lot of time to spare."
This was making me nervous. "Um..."
Sarah interrupted, "What do you think we should work on
first? Clothes, speech, walking, mannerisms ..."
Again I was left on the outside of the conversation as
professor Hanford spoke to Sarah. "All of those. I can help
with some of it. I can get her started with walking and
using feminine gestures, which you two can practice
together. There is a speech therapist here at the
university that we can probably enlist to get her voice
training started. Sarah, you will have to work with her in
your apartment to get her used to the clothes, makeup, and
feminine hygiene. You also need to develop a history for
her, so you don't trip each other up when the inevitable
questions come up."
"Whoa. What's with all the feminine pronouns? I'm still a
guy here."
Sarah spoke up, "Hush, Marissa. This is all for your own
good, so be a good girl and let us work out the details."
"Marissa? I like that. And, by the way, since we will
probably be working together quite a lot on your 'special
project', maybe you should call me Jane when there aren't
other students around."
"Ok, Jane." Sarah smiled, "and thanks for doing this."
I left for my class, and Sarah said she had to do some
shopping, and would see me back that the apartment for
lunch.
I couldn't have told you afterward about anything that
happened in class that morning. My mind was still in
turmoil over what was happening to me. When I arrived back
at our little apartment before lunch, Sarah hardly let me
set my books down before she'd dragged me out the door.
"Let's grab a quick salad at Garden Express. We have some
errands to ru, and I don't want to take time fixing lunch
here."
By that time, we were already in the car and driving, and
it didn't seem worth the effort to respond, so I just went
along like a good little boy. Lunch was pretty light, but
my gut was worked up enough that I mostly poked around in
the salad, and didn't finish it completely.
Sarah misinterpreted that one, though. "Good!" she said as
we hurried out the door, "I'm glad to see you're taking
this seriously. Losing a bit of weight will really help out
the disguise."
Oh, well. At least she wasn't snapping at me, so I just
kept quiet and let her think what she wanted. She would
have anyway, but I might have disrupted the peace if I'd
let her know what I was really thinking.
Sarah parked next to a shabby looking little shop in one of
the older parts of town. The sign over the door read
"Images", and when we got inside I could see that there
were an unusual variety of feminine clothing, shoes,
lingerie, wigs, jewelry and other things I could not
readily identify in the subdued lighting. Sarah looked
around the store for a few moments while I hung back.
Before too long, a slightly plump middle-aged woman came
through a curtain from what must have been the back room.
"Hi, I'm Nancy. Can I help you?"
I just looked toward Sarah, as I had no clue what she had
in mind.
Thankfully she stepped into the lead role. "Yes. We're
majoring in Theater Arts at the university. My fianc? here
has a part playing a girl in a play we are doing in a few
weeks for one of our classes, and we want to do up his
costume right. Our professor, Jane Hanford, said you could
supply us with some of the things we need to make him look
really good."
Her smile was grandmotherly and knowing, "Yes, you've come
to the right place. Do you have something in mind, or would
you like me to describe what we can do for you?" She
glanced over at me and I felt my face warming.
"We need breast forms for him, the kind that glue on and
are hard to distinguish from the real thing? Some of his
costumes are pretty revealing so we'd like a pretty good
match on skin color. Umm..."
"That should be no problem. We'll measure and fit in a
minute. What else were you thinking?"
Sarah hesitated, "Well, Professor Hanford talked about a
panty of some kind that can give him curves, and hide his,
uh, his manhood."
"We can do that too. A gaffe will tuck him away nice and
secure, and a panty brief can add some curves to his hips
and bottom. We have some over here if you'd like to look?"
Sarah was even blushing by now. "Um, no... What we had in
mind was something that could, uh, make him look more like
a girl down there."
"Ah, I see! You want to go the whole route. Nothing but the
best for your cutie here. We do sell one item that we
special order. It combines the functions of the gaffe and
the panty brief, has a molded in vagina with a tuft of
pubic hair, and is made of a similar silicon to the breast
forms so it looks pretty realistic. But it's kind of
pricey."
"Yes, that's what I had in mind. How much?"
When she quoted the price, I suddenly felt faint. I tried
to catch Sarah's eye, shaking my head vigorously, but she
ignored me.
"You can match it to his skin and hair color, and shape it
to give him a better figure?"
"Uh, Sarah..." I began, but she silenced me with a glare.
"Yes, we custom measure and can do an excellent job of
matching the colors. Follow me into the back room and we
can have some privacy to take his measurements."
Moments later my full body blush was on display for Nancy
and Sarah, and Nancy was wielding a tape measure and
notepad, and becoming almost as familiar with my anatomy as
Sarah is. As a matter of fact, I think she poked that
measuring tape into places even Sarah has never explored.
"Come over here, Sarah. I can show you some pictures while
Jeff cools off a bit so we can match his skin color better.
You can put your briefs back on now, Jeff."
Comments like that weren't helping the red flush disappear.
After a few minutes of quiet discussion across the room,
Nancy returned with a book of what looked like paint chips,
and turned on some brighter lights. She looked at me
closely, then flipped through the book, and started
comparing chips to the skin above my briefs. After a few
minutes she nodded and noted the color number on her
notepad. Then she moved that chip up to my chest, shifted a
few chips over, and wrote down a different number.
"Ok, we've got the measurements, now we need to decide how
big he is going to be up top."
Again I looked to Sarah. She grinned mischievously and
winked at Nancy. "How do you think he would look with a
pair of double-D's?"
Nancy smiled. "I think that would be great! Hold on just a
moment." She disappeared into the front of the store.
"Sarah!"
"Hush, Rissa! Let us girls take care of you!"
"That's what I'm afraid of!"
Nancy reappeared, carrying a couple of bras with her and
handed them to Sarah. Here, put one of these on him." Then
she went to a shelf and took down two boxes. Returning, she
opened the boxes and I glimpsed two very lifelike, very
large breasts. She popped one into each of the cups of the
bra Sarah had installed on me, and I almost fell over
frontward.
"Stand up straight, Marissa!" Sarah said sternly. "What do
you think, Nancy?"
I broke in, "Well I think they're huge!"
Nancy studied me. "Hmmm. Looks pretty good to me." She and
Sarah exchanged glances, and then both burst out in
laughter. She pulled the forms back out and put them back
in the boxes. "Sarah, switch to the other bra." She
returned the boxes to the shelf and returned with two
different ones.
"These are B-cup. I think they would look pretty good on
her."
Sarah and Nancy stood back and looked me over. At least I
could keep my balance with these. B-cup? They still seemed
huge, sitting there on my chest. I looked toward Sarah. It
was hard to tell from this angle, but I guess they were a
little smaller than the ones I loved on her.
Sarah broke the silence. "I agree. Those will do nicely."
"Ok," Nancy said, "She will need a 36B bra, so you can pick
out some for her before the custom forms and panty show up.
What else do you need?" She pulled the smaller forms from
my bra to return them to the boxes and placed them back on
the shelf.
"Do you have any inexpensive pads we can use till the real
breast forms come?"
"Sure. Here." She pulled two foam pads from a drawer and
Sarah stuffed them into my deflated bra.
"Ok, those will do for now."
I got dressed while the ladies went out to the front room.
By the time I got out there with the bra and pads, Sarah
had already paid, so I never saw the total. I was pretty
sure I didn't want to.
On the way home we stopped at Wal-Mart and Sarah proceeded
to pick out a few simple white bras and a package of plain
cotton panties. Then she wandered through the section
looking at the frillier things, eventually adding a couple
of bra and panty sets that I would love to see her in.
Maybe I would get to see that when this was all over. But
for now I was resigned to wearing them.
Thankfully Sarah drove back to the apartment then. I had
had about all I could take for one day. Once inside, I
asked Sarah if she could start dinner while I got started
on homework for tomorrow.
"We'll get to that. First, though, you need to try on what
we just bought, to make sure we have the right sizes."
"Now?"
"Yes, now!"
"Sarah!" She glared at me, so I gave her a mischievous
grin. "Ok, I'll make a deal with you. I'll try them on if
you model the fancy ones for me first."
She pulled me into the bedroom and stripped. First she
slipped on the deep green satin bra and panty set. Even
using the tightest hooks, it was a little loose, but her C-
sized boobs almost overflowed the smaller bra cups. The
contrast of the color to her skin tone, and the sheen of
the satin, not to mention the fantastic cleavage were
getting me pretty worked up. She twirled for me, and struck
a few poses.
"That do?" she asked.
"Yeah, that will do just fine!" I reached for her, but she
danced away.
"Tut, tut. No time for that just now!"
She switched to the pink lace set. The size problem was the
same. This bra had lace cups that did little to hide
Sarah's nipples. She strutted up to me, and I brushed my
fingers lightly over her lace enclosed mounds.
"Mmmm. That's nice!" she whispered, then stepped back.
"Your turn," she said brightly.
I grumbled and started pulling off clothes while she opened
one of the plain bras and the package of panties. I pulled
on the panties and struggled with the bra.
"You'll need to practice this" she said as she fastened the
hooks for me. "Every girl can do up her bra by herself!"
She slipped the foam pads into the cups, and then slid her
finger under the band of the bra. "Size seems OK." Then she
stepped back and gestured me to the mirror.
What I saw was a slender girl reflected back at me ? if you
ignored the head. My face fell. "Sarah, I don't know about
this."
Sarah took my hands and led me to the bed, seating me
beside her. I noticed a tear trickle down her cheek. "I
guess this isn't going to work out, is it Jeff?"
"It scares me, Sarah."
"I won't make you do this, sweetheart. I love you." She
leaned over and kissed me tenderly, then rose and walked
toward the kitchen. At the bedroom door she stopped, and
looked back at me. "Jeff, I don't want us to fight like we
were. I'll talk to Debby tomorrow about spending the next
few weeks with her." Then she disappeared.
I looked after her, and thought about being without her.
From the kitchen came sounds of Sarah starting dinner. I
tried to see it from her point of view, and realized how
selfish I had been. How focused on my needs, instead of
hers, or ours. Then I thought about how I had behaved since
promising her I would be her eighth girlfriend for spring
break. And it seeped into my brain that again I had been
selfish. I had worried only about me, and had dragged my
feet every step of the way.
It was time to make a decision, and stick with it, go with
it full throttle. Was I going to chicken out of this
masquerade, and let Sarah move out temporarily, or was I
going to put us first and just get on with this?
Funny how when you think about something the right way, the
decision becomes so obvious. Sarah means the world to me.
She is the woman I want to spend the rest of my life with.
That means doing what it takes to make that happen. And
right now, the way to make that happen was to throw myself
into being her best friend, as a man, but for now,
especially as a woman.
I looked down at myself in the simple white bra and
panties. I guess now is the time to start. Standing up, I
stripped out of the plain lingerie. Sarah still wore the
pink lacy bra set, so I took the green satin panty, still
warm from her skin, with the faint scent of her, and pulled
them up my legs. Then the satin bra, filled with the foam
pads. Looking around I tried to think how to impress this
on Sarah.
My gaze paused on Sarah's vanity, and I quickly sat down to
look over her makeup. I had watched her dozens of times,
loving the way she started with her beautiful face and
enhanced it before my eyes.
Looking at my own face, I realized my eyebrows were too
bushy, even after the few hairs Sarah had plucked
yesterday. I took her tweezers and removed some more along
the bottom edge, thinning the arch of my brow. That left it
closer to the feminine ideal, but was not so obvious I
couldn't get by as Jeff for the next few weeks.
Remembering the steps as she had made me up yesterday, I
started doing my best to imitate her work with the pencils,
potions, brushes and powders. I had to start over several
times before I got something I felt was acceptable. I
decided it was good enough for tonight.
I started brushing my hair, stroking it till it shone a
lustrous ebony, trying different arrangements, looking for
a feminine style. I settled for a bob that hung smoothly
just above my shoulders, curling in slightly at the bottom.
It looked right with the slight Asian cast of my features.
Pulling some of the hair down over my forehead, I used
Sarah's scissors to trim the bangs above my eyebrows. When
I was satisfied, I brushed it back into my normal style,
and was happy to see that the trimming was not too
noticeable, then returned it to the girly look.
Thinking for a minute, I then went to her drawers in the
dresser, and poked around for a few minutes till I found
her sheer white baby doll. I slipped it on, and then walked
to the closet. I found Sarah's high-heeled slippers, and
squeezed my feet into them, realizing I would have to buy
slightly larger footwear for myself. Trying to negotiate
the tall heels, I staggered to the full length mirror, and
saw an attractive, sexy girl with her deep green lingerie
peeking through the near transparent outer garment.
Standing in front of the mirror, I thought about what I was
doing. Did I want this? Not really. Was I going to do this?
Definitely! This was what I needed to do for Sarah right
now. End of discussion.
I spent a few minutes walking around the room, trying to
get comfortable walking in heels. Concentrating on how
Sarah walked in them, I adjusted my gait until I felt I had
a pale imitation of the flowing movement I so admired in
her.
I took a deep breath, and made my way to the kitchen.
Pausing at the door, as yet unseen by Sarah, I watched this
beautiful woman move about the kitchen in just the sheer
lacy pink bra and panties, and felt a twinge in my crotch.
God, she was beautiful.
I stepped into the kitchen and Sarah turned at the sound of
the heels on the hard flooring. She froze with a startled
expression, staring at me.
"What!" I breathed in the imitation girl's voice I had
practiced for last years play. Sarah still made no move.
"Did I mess it up that badly?" I pouted.
Sarah finally shook herself, and started breathing again.
"No! I'm just... You look great! You just surprised me."
I gathered my courage. "Sarah, I want to apologize for my
behavior these past few weeks, and for the way I behaved
this past day, too. I promised I would play this part, and
have done nothing to be helpful since. I've thought about
this. I don't want to lose you, not even for the few weeks
till spring break. From right now, I will be Marissa, when
I don't have to be Jeff for school. I will learn and I will
make you proud of me as your girlfriend."
A smile slowly formed on her face, and another tear
trickled down her cheek. She whispered, "Thank-you!" She
moved to me, and pulled me into a fierce hug, then kissed
me fervently. She started pushing me back toward the
bedroom. "Can you be at least part Jeff for a little bit?"
as her hands moved over my body, and my breath started to
labor.
Dinner was forgotten that night, but I suppose it was a
good thing for my waistline. Of course, what kept me
occupied that night was not exactly learning to be a girl!
Thurs Jan 20
The next day, Jane Hanford introduced me to Karen Watts,
the speech therapist she knew, and my voice lessons started
on the spot. That same day I spent a couple of hours with
Jane learning to walk like a girl. Sarah took me shopping
for a few things, including a comfortable pair of tan
women's flats, white heeled sandals, and some moderate
heels in black. She also bought a pair of low-rider women's
jeans a size larger than hers, though she had hopes my diet
would make hers fit well enough in a few weeks.
At home, Sarah handed me a bottle of depilatory, with
instructions to use it all over my body except for my pubic
hair and on my face and head. Twenty minutes later I
watched my sparse hair swirling down the shower drain.
Following her instructions, I washed my hair with her
flowery shampoo and used her cream rinse. Then I shaved
carefully, even though I really couldn't find anything to
shave, given my slow growing, sparse facial hair.
Remembering Sarah's teasing, I wrapped a towel around my
chest and tried to use one like a turban around my hair,
but had little success with that. Sarah giggled when she
saw my failed attempt, then showed me how to do it right.
She patted my body dry and applied a sweet smelling powder,
then sat me at the vanity and had me do the makeup myself,
giving me pointers and making me redo it when I didn't meet
her standards. The final result was worth it, though. It
looked much better than my feeble attempt the night before.
I dressed in the jeans, the flats, and a peasant blouse the
left a hint there might be cleavage where I really had
none. Sarah brushed my hair back into the bob I had adopted
the night before, and snipped a few more hairs, then sat
back to look me over. With a decisive nod, she pulled me to
the mirror. The girl staring back was beyond attractive.
There was no way this slender girl was me!
We went to the mall, and I couldn't help but be nervous.
Sarah talked to me, encouraging, comforting, cajoling, and
I talked back, practicing my voice lessons, working out my
tension. First came dinner, such as it was, at the salad
restaurant in the food court. Then on to the cosmetics
department at a large chain store. The girl at the counter,
no older than I, studied my skin tone and face, and then
settled in to showing me the correct colors and techniques
that suited me best. When we left there, we carried a
sizeable chunk of change in the form of cosmetics in our
shopping bags.
Next was a little shop where Sarah had my ears pierced,
thankfully only once, and I left with stinging ear lobes,
understated little gold studs, instructions on care for the
piercings, and a half dozen sets of earrings.
"We are close enough to the same size that when you drop a
little weight we can share a lot of clothes, but you need
some of your own. You need a style that is unique to you.
It would look odd if you were a carbon copy of me," Sarah
mused. We window shopped through the mall, occasionally
entering a store to look closer. Sarah had me try on
several things, but we bought only a few, not really
knowing what style suited my looks or my self image.
All this time, people looked at me and treated me as if I
was just another pretty girl, my confidence grew, and my
nerves calmed. I even began to have fun, looking over the
clothes, talking about styles and colors, our classes and
the upcoming trip. In one window, there was a silk dress in
an oriental style, with the subtle pattern of a dragon that
wrapped around the body. I held Sarah from walking past as
I gazed at the dress. When she saw what had stopped me, she
smiled and pulled me into the store. We left that store a
while later with the dress in my size in sapphire blue with
shadings of lighter blue to highlight the dragon. We also
had several tops in silk, also reminiscent of Asia, as well
as a pant suit that followed the motif. At least for the
moment, I had found a clothing style to set me apart from
Sarah.
The next weeks seemed to fly by. Classes seemed unreal, and
became more so, as that was the only time I spent as Jeff.
From the time I got home till the next day when I left for
class I dressed as Marissa, and practiced the feminine
speech, gestures, movements, makeup and dress that Sarah,
Jane, and Karen were drilling into me. I submerged myself
into the role, until it seemed it was harder to act the
part of Jeff than to be Marissa. Sarah kept me in heels
most of the time until it became natural walking in them.
It got to the point that wearing flats seemed strange and
vaguely uncomfortable. Several times I almost embarrassed
myself when in guy clothes by catching myself doing girl
things.
We went everywhere together, just a couple of pretty girls
doing what girls do. Except, of course, in the privacy of
our bedroom, when I did decidedly ungirly things with
Sarah. We watched what we ate, concentrating on healthy,
low fat foods, and we attended an aerobics class the
college provided. Sarah had trimmed down a few pounds, and
I had lost about eight, tightening my waist by a couple
inches by the time Nancy finally called from Images, to let
us know our special order had arrived.
We went to the store Friday afternoon, after classes,
figuring I would be able to wear my new appliances all
weekend, to try to get used to them. Getting into the
silicon panty was a struggle, but when I got it on and
Nancy showed us how to glue it in place and mask the edges
with makeup, Sarah giggled and clapped her hands excitedly.
Looking in the mirror, I saw, from the waist down, a
shapely nude girl, and blushed brightly. I quickly pulled
my panties on. Hmmm. My panties. Never thought I'd be
thinking that!
Next, Nancy showed us how to attach and blend the breast
forms. I was surprised at the weight pulling down on my
chest, after using the foam pads for a month. I shook my
shoulders and watched the very realistic movement of the
masses that now seemed part of my body. When I looked in
the mirror now, I saw a shapely girl wearing only panties.
I modestly crossed my hands over my bare breasts and Nancy
grinned knowingly.
I was amazed at the difference in fit of my clothes now.
Things hugged my new curves and showed the world what an
attractive figure I now sported. For a while, the added
weight on my chest, and to a lesser degree on my hips and
fanny, threw off my balance, and affected the way I moved.
It didn't take long to make the adjustments, though.
My confidence increased, now that I possessed the classic
female curves, and Sarah noticed, commenting on it. It took
a little while to get used to peeing with the silicon
enhancement in place. The feel was so different than I was
used to. And, of course, I now had no choice but to sit,
which did funny things to my mind, even though Sarah had
made me sit on the toilet ever since this had started.
I found one disadvantage to the panty prosthesis that
night, however. There was no way to do boy things to Sarah
while it was glued in place. That didn't stop Sarah,
though. She explored my new curves and crevices lovingly,
and with that exploration found the spots that were close
enough to my manhood to arouse wonderful feelings, even
though there was no room to get stiff. It was disappointing
that there was no sensation from the breast forms, though,
because Sarah had fun playing with those as well as my new,
imitation lower plumbing.
While Sarah worked away at my unfamiliar territory, I
explored her familiar terrain, and eventually, after her
third climax, she found the formula to set me off as well.
We cleaned up from my explosion, and then cuddled together
like a couple of satisfied lesbian lovers, falling asleep
in each others arms.
Male-female coupling became pretty scarce for a while, as I
got used to the appliance, until it became an easy routine
to remove and reapply it. Then our love became a mixture,
giving us the best of both worlds.
Finally, three weeks before spring break, Jennifer called
Sarah. By this time, I was pretty into my Marissa persona,
and when I heard who Sarah was talking to, I felt a little
sick in the pit of my stomach. I needn't have worried,
though, as I later found out that Jenn had made an
unexpected trip to Europe, and had been injured in a skiing
accident in the Alps. She was OK, but had finally resigned
herself to the fact she would not be back in time to go
with the other girls.
Sarah had hinted to her buddies about taking a girlfriend
in Jenn's place if Jenn could not come, and after hearing
from her absent friend, passed the word on to the other
six, convincing them to let her college friend Marissa come
along to fill the vacancy. So, I was in, and suddenly
nervous in a way I had not been for weeks. It had become
too real, and I was going to have to live with Sarah and
six other girls in very close quarters for a full, wild
week.
Sarah had suggested a background for Rissa, and we
practiced it and honed the details as I worked to master my
feminine behavior. To cover any slips, I was the only girl
child of a widower with four sons, so had been raised
without female influence since I was a little kid. Sarah
had befriended me at school, and had taught me most of what
I knew about being a girl. That part, at least, was so
true! That should cover any blunders into masculine
behavior that I might suffer, as it could be explained as a
throwback to my days at home. In addition, in spite of
spending my childhood surrounded by father and brothers, I
was very shy around other boys, explaining my reticence
about getting too close to any during the party week. We
picked a little town in Oregon as my fictional home, far
from any of the colleges Sarah's friends attended. We chose
that place because I had spent one summer there with my
real family, so I knew at least a little about the area.
Sarah had continued to fill in my wardrobe with the things
that were inconvenient to share, even though most of her
clothes fit me as well as they did her now. I had my own
lingerie, some of it quite sexy, and I had some clothing to
establish my independent style. There were a couple of one
piece swim suits that while they covered me well, hugged my
curves so closely I might as well have been naked. Sarah
also brow beat me into getting a couple of bikinis, even
though I couldn't imagine me wearing them. She had to force
me to wear them to the college indoor pool so I could at
least be used to them, just in case. Let me tell you, that
was an experience! I had never been so uncovered in front
of so many people in my life. But I survived, and privately
I thought I looked pretty damn good in them, too.
For the last couple of weeks, Sarah got me out into public
as much as she could. While it made me really nervous, she
even set up a couple of dinner dates with some guys she
knew. They knew she was engaged, and that she was off
limits, so there was no problem there. That didn't stop
them from scoping me out, though, and I had to fend off a
little more male attention than I was really comfortable
with. It did a lot for my confidence, though. It made me
realize I could pass as a girl in pretty close quarters.
About a week before the break, Sarah sat me down to have a
serious talk.
"Rissa, we need to understand some things before we go, and
there are a few things left for you to practice." I hadn't
a clue what she was talking about. "Rissa... no Jeff, I
love you. And I am going to marry you when we graduate. But
for this week, with my friends, we are a couple of girls
out to have fun." I felt a knot starting to form in my gut.
"That will mean being around boys, partying, swimming,
drinking. There will undoubtedly be times when it is
appropriate to get a little friendly with a guy. This is
not love, I don't plan on having sex with anyone but you,
but I do expect I will kiss a guy or two, and maybe do some
making out during this week. That is part of the fun of
spring break with a group of girlfriends. Are you going to
be able to handle that?"
There was a really sick feeling in my tummy by now. "I
don't know, Sarah." I looked down, not wanting to meet her
eyes. "This is what had me so upset when you started making
these plans. This is what I was afraid of."
"Jeff, look at me." She forced my chin up and looked deep
in my eyes. "Never doubt that I love you. I will marry you,
and you are the only guy I want to spend my life with. Can
you believe that?" I nodded uncertainly. "Really?" I tried
to look down, but she wouldn't let me. She kissed me
lovingly, our lipstick coated lips meeting, and caressing,
tongues probing, and I finally sighed and nodded. "Good.
Because it is the absolute truth. Nothing is going to
happen this week to change that. Understand?" I nodded
again, and kissed her with more than a bit of desperation.
She hugged me tightly and said "OK!" After she held me a
minute, she went on. "There's more, Rissa." I noticed the
switch in names, and felt dread again. "For this week, you
are my girlfriend any time we are not alone together, and
for safety, most of the time even when we are alone. But
what that means is that, as part of your role, you will be
with guys too. And there may be times when they expect a
hug, and maybe even a kiss. You are a pretty girl, and you
will attract a lot of attention. Girls always have the
right to say no when attention goes too far, but too far is
in most cases well past a kiss. Do you understand what I am
saying?"
I had started shaking my head slowly while she spoke, but
she gripped me tightly. "Jeff! Stop! Remember your role
last year? In that role you had to kiss your 'boyfriend' a
couple of times. You did it, didn't you?" I nodded
hesitantly. "Well, this is no different. You are playing a
role, and the script may call for a kiss or two, and maybe
a cuddle. You did it last year, you can do it now! Right?"
I looked pleadingly at her. "Right?" I slowly nodded.
I might have to kiss a guy? What would that do to my male
image? What would that do, at least on a subconscious
level, to Sarah's perception of me? My heart was pounding
and my mind was in a whirl. Sarah saw the beginnings of
panic and shook me. "It's just a role, Jeff! Just a role."
I sighed, and nodded my acceptance.
Sarah set up a double date for us to see a movie with
another couple of guys she knew. It was Tuesday night, just
a few days before we were to leave. Bill and Dave were tall
and ruggedly handsome, something I could never lay claim to
as Jeff, and I felt immediately intimidated. They were
polite, and solicitous, opening doors, getting
refreshments, escorting us by the arm as we walked, and
their chivalry disarmed me, so that I started to relax. In
the movie, Bill put his arm around my shoulders, but did
not hold me tightly, so I let it go. Partway through the
show, he pulled me lightly