The House on Sackett Street
A love Story
By
Elizabeth Jane McDonald
PROLOGUE
The long hell was finally over and the government men left the house.
I was alone at last in my new home. Alone, at last, with my new
identity, my new name, my new past, and my new future. I was happy...
and sad.
I walked around the house for a while. It was filled with nice
furniture, nice linens, and nice pictures on the wall. The living room
was complete with a couch, two nice overstuffed chairs, and a wooden
rocker. An oak wall unit completed the decor. In the kitchen were all
my nice new cooking utensils, although some of them certainly did not
look brand new. I guess that was for the image the government men gave
me.
Over the hall bookcase was a photograph of me with a man. I was in a
pretty bridal gown and appeared to be about twenty years younger. It
was taken at the altar of a church. There was a lot of dark wood with a
very impressive stained glass window behind the altar. I was carrying a
bouquet of spring flowers and had some in my hair. The man, very good
looking in a handsome blue and black tuxedo, stood next to me. We were
both smiling. I remembered when that photo was taken. It wasn't twenty
years ago.
Next to that photograph were two other pictures of a boy and a girl.
They were high school graduation portraits. Below them were the same
two, together with a man and a woman. I was the woman. The man, the
same as the wedding portrait. They were all smiling, a nice looking
house behind them with green grass and trees. A happy looking family.
Upstairs in the bedroom there was a queen sized bed, an oak dresser,
a vanity, and a pair of wooden, lyre back chairs. The bedspread was of
lilac flowers over a white, ruffled eyelet bed skirt. On the vanity was
an assortment of cosmetics, perfumes, a hairbrush, and a pair of combs.
A faint scent of various cosmetics and perfumes could be sensed. A pair
of gold earrings and a silver necklace lay on top of a small hand
mirror. In the bathroom were pretty pink and blue towels and matching
bathmat and shower curtain. All very nice and very feminine, but with
just a touch of a past male presence.
I looked into the full-length mirror on the wall. I saw what
everyone else in the neighborhood had seen the past few days as I was
moved into the house on Sackett Street. I saw a tall, middle-aged woman
with just a touch of grey in her auburn hair. Her eyes were somewhat
tired looking, but not sad. Her complexion, though not perfect, was
acceptable. She wore large glasses that complemented her face and gave
her a pleasant, friendly look. The oxford shirt, a bit too large, worn
with the shirttails out, hid the fact that her breasts were somewhat
large and a little saggy. The jeans showed that her hips were a bit
full and her waist a little thick, but not as thick as she remembered it
some months ago.
It was late afternoon, and I was tired and a bit dirty from the
moving. I wanted to take a shower so I unbuttoned my shirt, threw it
into the laundry hamper, and then slid my jeans down. Now, looking into
the mirror I still did not believe what I saw. There was still that
middle-aged woman. The simple white cotton bra held the breasts up.
The stomach was a bit saggy and there were even stretch marks visible,
ostensibly from two past pregnancies. What was even more amazing was
that she was supposed to be pregnant even now, the result of the last
lovemaking before her husband died in a terrible automobile accident
just a month ago.
I took off my bra and slipped the panties down. The breasts were a
little heavy, and the nipples were somewhat large. They sagged without
the bra, supposedly the result of those two pregnancies, two nursing
children, and age. What really amazed me was what I saw between my
legs. Or rather, what I did not see between my legs. There was a
nicely shaped patch of auburn hair. But there was no penis. There had
been a penis there for nearly 42 years, but now I was that middle aged
woman everyone else saw move in to the house on Sackett Street.
Chapter 1
I still could not believe what had happened to me over the past several
months. Actually, it had been just over a year since I 'disappeared' on
that last mission. It was to be a particularly dangerous job and I had
made some special arrangements beforehand. I was expecting to be a
wanted man by the particular cartel after I accomplished my assignment,
and I wanted to protect my family. I arranged for the service to pay my
wife and family 'insurance' money if I died or disappeared. I wanted to
be sure that they were taken care of if I could not return. If the job
went as I expected it would, I would have to disappear so they could not
find me or be likely to bother my family.
The service arranged a very effective end to my prior life. In a
very public place, and in a very public way, I 'died' in a very routine
car accident. My wife knew that I really did not die, but she did not
know where I was going. She put on a very good show of grief at the
funeral, some of which must have been real, as I was not likely to
return any time soon. I promised her that I would ensure that she and
the children were going to be taken care of and that I would keep an eye
on them. Not a happy scene, but seemingly necessary.
After I disappeared, the subject of my new identity came up. The
cartel was especially good at tracking folks like me down, and had in
fact, killed two other officers in the past couple of years. After some
discussion, I offered that it would be effective for me not only to
change identity, but to change sex, too. Now, I must admit that my
years of closet transvestism did lead me to think of that, but it
actually did seem like a good idea to keep me alive.
I grew up in the Midwest. As early as age two or three, I vaguely
remember putting my sister's blouses on and enjoying it. There were
scattered occasions of cross-dressing throughout my life. When I was
seven or eight, my sister and I would put on her dress-up clothes while
we played in the basement, all clothes our mother had discarded. Later,
as a teenager, I kept a private collection of clothing that I would wear
whenever I found myself left home alone. I even took some with me to
college, and would dress as a woman whenever I could find the time by
myself.
Many times I would dream about becoming a woman, but had essentially
proven to myself that I was only a transvestite, not really a
transsexual, although the thought was extremely arousing to me. Later,
after joining the service, I had occasional cross-dressing periods, all
at home when my wife and family were away. My wife knew about it, and
while she did not really condone it, and certainly would not
participate, she allowed it.
To make the long story short, after the contrived accident, I entered
a hospital under an assumed name. Following several months of hormone
treatments, a lot of theatrical training, work on how to wear clothes
and put on makeup, and finally, a lot of surgery, I emerged as Marcia
Stephens. I was 43 years old, the widow of John Stephens who had
recently been killed in an automobile accident, mother of two grown
children, and pregnant with a third, conceived just before my
"husband's" untimely death. I chose to move to the same town in which
my wife lived, although she was unaware at the time. The service found
me a nice three-bedroom house, and arranged the move.
The bit about being pregnant was the idea of one of the doctors at
the hospital. After some concern over whether I would be accepted as
female, should I make an inadvertent error somewhere along the line, we
decided that to be pregnant would remove all doubt in anyone's mind.
The doctors placed a balloon like object in my abdomen and would, over
time slowly inject saline solution into it, gradually increasing its
size over the course of the 'pregnancy'. My prenatal care appointments
would ensure that it increased at an appropriate rate. Extra hormones
would start my new breasts lactating at the correct time. All in all, a
nice plan and one that amazed me.
I met the first of my neighbors a couple of days after I moved in
from across the backyard fence. I had just taken the trash out to the
alley and I heard her call to me.
"Hello, there," she said.
I looked up and saw a pretty blond woman looking over the fence,
smiling.
"Hello," I was still unsure of my voice, although the operation on
the vocal cords had raised the pitch somewhat.
"I'm Marcia."
"Hi, Marcia," she answered. "I'm Barbara. Barbara Thomas. I hope
your move went okay."
"Just fine. Nothing broken or anything."
"That's good. Where did you move from?"
"Los Angeles," I kept to my new story line. Actually it was the
truth, but some details were slightly modified.
"What brings you here?"
"Well," I launched into my story, "My husband was just killed in an
auto accident, and I had to leave Los Angeles. Too expensive."
I could see here face sadden immediately.
"I'm so sorry. I shouldn't have asked."
"No, no. It's all right. The funeral was last month."
She was still standing there with a sad look on her face.
"Would you like to come over for a cup of tea?" I asked, smiling
again.
"I would love that. Can I bring something?"
"Oh, no. That's not necessary."
"I have some crackers and some cheese. I'll get that and be right
over."
I nodded and hurried inside to straighten the living room a bit. I
was as nervous as I had ever been. Here I was, going to entertain a
woman in my own house for the first time. I didn't know if I could do
it. All the training had led to that event, but it was still the first
time.
The room did not need much straightening, just a magazine or two out
of place. I saw her walking up the sidewalk. I looked at myself in the
mirror. I looked fine. I felt nervous, but I looked fine. The
doorbell rang.
"Come on in, Barbara," I said as I opened the door.
"We'll go into the living room. I just put the teapot on. It will
be a few minutes."
I was so nervous I was talking ninety miles a minute.
"Oh, you have such a beautiful home, Marcia. And so soon after you
moved in. You must be exhausted."
"The movers did most of the work."
"Still, I had boxes all over the floor for weeks after I moved in."
"Here," I pointed to one of the chairs, "you can sit here."
We sat down and began chatting.
"So, Barbara, do you have a family?"
"Yes. I'm married... to Phil and have three children... Mary, she's
twelve, Martin, he's ten, and Rebecca, she's two."
"Well, maybe I can get some of your baby things from you."
"Oh?" Barbara looked at me.
"I'm pregnant. I found out just after John died. I'm about six
weeks along."
"Oh, that's wonderful!" Barbara was gleaming. "Of course you can
have some of the baby things. Let's see, that means you're due in...
April, right?"
"That's right. It's been so long since I was pregnant, it will
almost be like the first time for me again."
"Oh, nonsense. Just like riding a bicycle."
She laughed and I just had to as well. Barbara was a wonderful
person and would be a good neighbor.
"Are those your children?"
She was looking at two photos on the wall.
"Yes. That's William, he's 21 now, and the other is Maria, she's 19.
They're both away at college."
"Such nice looking children. Aren't you excited about having another
baby?"
"It's a bit late in life, but, yes, I am glad."
She got up and walked over to my wedding photo. She stood in front
of it silent for several seconds.
"He was very handsome," she said.
"Yes," I agreed. It was funny, but I had actually only known that
man for a couple of hours while we were taking the pictures. He was a
nice looking man, and had been very friendly during the photo session.
"Your dress is so pretty," Barbara went on.
"I thought so. I haven't seen it for a long time."
"Do you have it wrapped?"
"At my sister's house. I didn't move it here."
"Very pretty."
She moved on down the hallway, looking at the other pictures. There
was a formal portrait of me. I was wearing a red suit and a red and
white hat. I looked very serious, but it was a good photo.
"This one is very recent, isn't it?" Barbara asked.
"Yes," I answered. "Only last April. The one of my husband was
taken at the same time."
Next to mine was one of my 'husband', also in a suit, and also
looking very serious.
"We were so serious when we had those taken. I don't know what we
were thinking."
"They are very good portraits. It looks exactly like you."
"Well, thank you."
"Maybe I'll come over and borrow that suit, some day."
"You'll have to gain too much weight for that, I'm afraid."
"Nonsense. I'm at least thirty pounds more than I should be."
"You are very kind," I said, laughing at the same time.
Barbara was a good three inches shorter than I was and a good thirty
pounds lighter. I was a size 16 and she was more likely a 12. Still,
she made me feel good.
I heard the teapot start to whistle in the kitchen.
"The hot water is ready. I'll go get the tea going," I said.
"I'll go with you."
We went into the kitchen, took the teapot from the stove, got down
the tea bags and a pair of teacups. We sat at the breakfast table in
the kitchen and made our tea.
"This is such a nice kitchen. It is so much more roomy than mine,"
Barbara said, looking around.
"It is nice. I've never had one this big. And only for one person,
now."
"We'll have to use it for Thanksgiving and Christmas. I'm sure we
can find enough people to make it crowded."
"That would be fun. I hardly ever really cook a meal. Maybe twice a
week if I'm energetic."
"I'm sure you're a great cook," Barbara smiled at me and then took a
sip of tea.
"I absolutely love Constant Comment," she said.
"So do I," I agreed. "Constant Comment tea and Orange Cappuccino
coffee."
"You, too?"
"Me, too."
"I think I must buy three cans of Orange Cappuccino every time I go
to the store."
"Sounds like me. I probably have that many cans in the cupboard
right now."
We talked for hours and emptied the teapot twice. Barbara left well
after dark with much laughter and cheerful conversation. I had a good
friend. One who would stand with me for many years.
I had been up since seven that morning, and having worked at putting
things away most of the day before Barbara came to visit, I was tired.
I went to my bedroom and undressed. I pulled a cotton nightgown over my
head, sat down at the vanity, and brushed out my hair. I looked at
myself in the mirror. I was still looking at a middle-aged woman. She
was just sitting there in a demure cotton nightgown, looking back at me.
I was a better person, though. I had a friend, now, in that house on
Sackett Street.
Chapter 2
Sunday was a beautiful day. I got up early and started to get ready
to go to church. I had wanted to go for some time and this was the day.
There were a number of reasons for going. One, it was the right thing
to do. Two, I wanted to meet some people and make friends. And, three,
I knew my wife was there and wanted to see her. She didn't know I was
in the area and really had no idea about me. I didn't think I would
actually go up and talk to her, but I did at least want see her.
I took off my nightgown and got into the shower. The warm water felt
good as it ran down my shoulders and back. It felt great to soap up and
caress myself. It made me feel so much better and ready to start the
day.
I turned the shower off and stepped out. I quickly toweled off and
then pulled my robe on. Slipping on my horseshoes, I went out into the
kitchen to make a cup of coffee and some toast.
After the quick breakfast, I went back to my room to get dressed. I
had decided the day before to wear a new suit. It had a black, slim
skirt that came down to mid calf. The top was a blue tunic with gold
buttons up the front. I would wear a white satin, high collared blouse
under it. The waist was pulled in with a wide, black leather belt with
a large gold buckle. I had a pair of thin, black leather gloves I would
wear with the outfit.
I hung my robe up on the back of the bathroom door and went to my
dresser. I opened my top drawer, took out a pair of light blue panties,
and quickly pulled them on. I still wasn't used to not having to do
something with a penis. It felt a bit strange to pull the panties on
and have them fit so well.
I took a bra from the next drawer and put it on. It was of matching
blue nylon lace and, for being so fancy, as well as being an underwire,
was one of my more comfortable bras.
Next I got out a pair of black pantyhose and, sitting on the bed,
pulled them on. Over all that I pulled on a slip, of the same blue lace
as the bra and panties. As I often did, I looked at myself in the
mirror, still amazed at the transformation. I then walked over to the
closet.
First I took the blouse off the hangar and put it on. It was of
white satin, with long sleeves and a high collar, buttoned up the back.
The black skirt slipped on easily and I hooked it at the waist, tucking
the blouse in carefully. I enjoyed seeing the lace of my slip just
barely visible through the translucent material of the blouse. Then, I
took the blue tunic from the closet and slipped it on, buttoning the
five gold front buttons. The tunic fit very well, having been tailored
to hug my curves very closely without being tight. The high collar of
the blouse rose above the round neckline. I buckled the black belt. My
waist and hips were accentuated nicely.
? The suit was very pretty, and I loved to see myself in it. It was
at once professional, and attractive. I looked over at myself in the
mirror and liked what I saw. I walked to the dresser and quickly
brushed my hair out. After a little makeup, I put on a pair of simple
pearl earrings and put a pearl pin above my left breast. I slipped on a
dressy gold watch to compliment the gold buttons.
Going over to the closet, I picked out a pair of navy blue leather
pumps. They had very high heels and I liked the way they make my legs
look. I knew that my feet would be sore by the time I got home, but I
would wear them anyway. I put on my gloves, picked up my purse, made
sure I had my keys and billfold, and headed out the front door to my
car.
The drive didn't take long, only about five minutes, but I enjoyed
the trip. The sun was out, a warm breeze was already blowing, and I
could smell flowers. I was happy, yet nervous about seeing Debbie. She
had been out of my life for over a year. I wondered if she would
recognize me for who I was. I was different, but was I enough
different. I wanted her to recognize me, yet I was afraid she would.
I pulled into the driveway of Village Presbyterian Church and quickly
parked. I got out, looked around a bit, and walked slowly to the front
door. I could see many people around, from children to older folks.
They were all smiling, and seemed to be friendly. I kept an eye out for
my wife. I knew Debbie had started coming here after I disappeared. I
walked in the front door of the sanctuary and was greeted by a pleasant
middle-aged couple that shook my hand and handed me a bulletin. I
walked inside the sanctuary down the center aisle. It was a beautiful
church, with lots of dark wood and colorful stained glass windows. I
found a seat near the aisle and sat down. A young couple sat just down
the pew from me with an older woman sat just beyond them.
The service was very nice and only took about an hour. I had looked
for Debbie all through the service, but she evidently wasn't there. I
could only hope she would come for second service and I was prepared to
stay if that was what it took to see her. I had no intention of talking
to her, but I just had to see her. I had to see if she was all right.
Once the service was over, the congregation went out onto the patio
for coffee. It was all very friendly, with several people coming up to
me and introducing themselves.
I chatted with the couple that sat in my pew, learning that they were
newly married and just starting out life together. I met the minister
briefly, who invited me to come back the next Sunday, and I met his
wife, a very friendly woman, who I decided I wanted to get to know.
Then I saw her. Debbie was walking onto the patio. She was alone.
She had apparently just arrived, probably intending to attend the second
service. It was all I could do not to go over to talk to her. I hadn't
seen her in nearly a year. I just stood there and watched her from a
distance, drinking coffee and chatting with a woman who had just come up
to see me.
"I'm so happy you decided to worship with us," the woman said. Her
nametag said her name was Marian Tolliver. She was about 50 years old
and very pleasant.
"I think I will enjoy coming here," I answered, stealing a glance
toward Debbie. She was with a small group of two men and a woman, just
talking.
"Well, I think so, too," Marian continued. "We have a wonderful
choir and the women's circles are lots of fun and interesting."
"I saw the list in the bulletin," I said, trying to be attentive to
her. "I see one or two I might check out."
"Please do," Marian was smiling. She saw me look over at Debbie.
"Do you know her?" she asked me.
"She looks like someone I know."
"That's Debbie Watson. She lost her husband last year. Very active.
Do you want me to introduce you?"
"No, thank you." I answered. "I'll go over myself in a little
while."
"I have to go, now," Marian said. "Do come back."
"I will. I'll be here next Sunday."
I walked to the coffee table to refill my cup. I stirred in some
cream and sugar and sipped as I watched Debbie. It was wrong for me to
walk up to her, then, so I just drank my coffee and watched the people.
Finally, it was time to leave. The crowd had thinned out.
Debbie went into to church, and I was nearly alone. I started
walking toward the parking lot to leave.
"I haven't seen you here before, have I?"
It was a male voice from behind me. I turned and saw a graying,
50ish man wearing a very nice three-piece suit.
"No," I answered. "This is my first time here."
"Welcome to Village Church."
"Thank you. Everyone has been so very nice."
"We like to think so. I hope we will see you again."
"I am sure you will. I'm Marcia Stephens."
I held out my hand and he gently shook it.
"I'm Ed Tucker. Nice to meet you."
I shivered slightly as he held my hand. I looked at his eyes. They
were friendly. His hand was gentle. He had a gentle look to him. I
didn't know what to think.
"This is such a friendly church. I am so glad I decided to come."
"Very friendly," he answered. "Do you have a family here with you?"
"My children are all grown, and my husband died in July."
"Oh, I am sorry to hear that. My condolences."
He was genuinely sad for me. I could see it in his eyes.
He reached out and held my elbow as though to support me.
"Thank you," I said. "I have a home of my own not too far from here
and I get along quite nicely, now."
"Very glad to hear that. Would you be interested in having breakfast
after church sometime? We often get a group together after the first
service and go to a little place just down the road."
"That sounds very nice. I'd like that."
"In fact, we have a group going this morning. Would you be
interested?"
I was taken aback. I didn't know if I was ready for that, yet. A
man showing interest in me.
"I think not today. Perhaps next Sunday."
"Next Sunday, then."
"Well," I said nervously. "I really should be getting home."
"I'll be looking for you next week."
"Thank you. I'll be here."
I turned and walked out to my car and got in. As I started the
engine, I realized I was shaking. I was actually excited and nervous
from having spoken to a man who seemed to like me. It was almost too
much to experience. I started the car, pulled out and drove home.
Chapter 3
I was as excited as a teenaged girl. At least I think that's what it
was like, not having had any teenaged girl experiences. But, it sure
was exciting. I was going to a wonderful formal dinner party and I had
a brand new dress to wear. It was specially purchased just the week
before and fitted to me exactly. As I came from the shower I saw it
hanging on the
green satin. The bodice was of an even darker shade of green velvet.
It had a collar of green satin that outlined the low cut that would show
the tops of my breasts to their best advantage. Around the waist was a
green satin bow that sat at the small of my back. I just couldn't wait
to get it on.
I reached into the top drawer and pulled out a pair of white lace
panties. I slipped them up my legs and up around my bottom. They were
pretty with lace all over the front. Then I took out a garter belt,
also of white lace, pulled the straps through the panties, and then
attached them to a lovely pair of dark stockings with a cute lace design
in them. Next I put on the brassiere. It was white with the same lace
as the panties and garter, and it pushed my breasts up into a nice
cleavage that I knew would keep a lot of eyes busy that evening.
To pull my somewhat thick waist in, I then put on a sexy corset of
white satin with lace overlay. After I laced it so tight that I could
hardly breath, I had a figure I could die for. Then I put the
petticoats on, two very full petticoats. I could hardly wait for the
dress.
I walked over to the phone and dialed my neighbor's number. She
picked up after only one ring.
"Barbara, I'm ready for you to help me with the dress."
"I'll be right there."
She was over in a few minutes. I opened the door for her.
"Oooh, I love the corset. You must be dying in there."
"True," I nodded, "but the men will love me for it."
"So true."
We went upstairs and into my bedroom where the dress was hanging. I
slipped into a pair of heels and got ready to put the dress on.
"I just love your dress, Marcia."
"It is pretty, isn't it?"
"Very pretty. You'll be good enough to eat with that on."
She went to the closet and took the dress off the hangar. She opened
the back zipper and held it out.
"Okay, are you ready?"
I walked over and held my arms out. I slipped my arms under the
skirts and up into the top, then pulled it up over my head. My arms
slipped into the sleeves and the dress fell down around me. It was
quite heavy but felt good. Barbara zipped up the back and it fit
perfectly. Then she worked on the back bow and then announced me
dressed.
"You're perfect. Scrumptious."
"Help me with my hair a minute."
"Sure, it's just mussed a little. Where's that bow you wanted?"
I pointed to it on the dresser, and she quickly picked it up and
pinned it to the back of my hair. I looked at myself in the mirror and
shuddered. I was pretty. Not a svelte young thing, but I did look
good. Good enough that a man would want to dance with me, perhaps.
Good enough to want to have a romantic evening, perhaps. What about
sex?
"What are you thinking, Marcia?"
"Oh, nothing," I lied.
"You were, too," she smiled. "You are very pretty and the men will
want to be seen with you. Don't worry about it. Just smile a lot,
laugh at their jokes and don't drink any alcohol."
"Good advice," I smiled back. Barbara was a good friend.
"When is your ride coming?"
"Oh, he's probably out there already. I'm late, as usual."
"Well, he'll be glad he waited."
Barbara smiled and headed out the door to check the front.
I looked at myself in the mirror once again. I was giddy with
excitement. I was going to have a great time tonight, and I was going
to have sex with a man. I knew it would happen. Ed was a nice man, I
liked him a lot, and tonight was the night. We would go to the party,
dance, and have a good time. He would take me out to eat, then some
drinks and then I would invite him to spend the night with me. Just
like that, and we would make mad passionate love all night long.
"He's here, Marcia," Barbara called.
"Okay, I'll be right there."
I walked out of the room and around the corner and there was Ed,
dressed in a great looking black tuxedo. He was so handsome. He was
holding my cape and had a big smile on his face. Ed and I had hit it
off immediately after we first met. We couldn't wait to see each other
at church each Sunday, and he often asked me out to breakfast or brunch
after services. I had been nervous, but accepted and it began a great
romance. It was really strange, since I still felt like I was married
to Debbie, but since I wasn't really a man any more, I couldn't see
worrying about that too much. Besides, he was so nice to me, I just
couldn't say no.
Ed walked over and helped me put on my cape. Then, the sweet guy, he
leaned over and kissed me. My knees nearly buckled, but I kissed him
back and we headed out the door.
The evening was as expected. The party was great, with lots of
friends, and fun dancing. I especially liked to slow dance with him.
He was so smooth and I felt like he was softly carrying me across the
dance floor. He would pull me close to him and I could feel him getting
aroused. It was exciting thinking that I was causing his arousal.
Dinner was super. I ate as lightly as I could, but it was hard to
turn down such wonderful food. It was all I could do but to look across
the table at the wonderful man who was doting over me so romantically.
He ordered wine, a nice burgundy, and we toasted each other several
times.
After dinner came the real surprise. He drove me downtown and we got
out in front of the Symphony Hall. The billboard hailed the
Philharmonic Orchestra and billed a nice concert of Beethoven and
Tchaikovsky. I was thrilled.
"Oh, Ed," I exclaimed. "This is wonderful."
"Just for you," he responded.
We entered in splendor, Ed escorting me on his arm, he in his
handsome tuxedo, and me in my new gown. He showed the ushers the
tickets and they led us to the greatest surprise of the evening. They
showed me to my seat in a loge, overlooking the stage from the side of
the hall.
"Ed," I was nearly speechless. "This is marvelous. A loge seat is
just so romantic."
Ed smiled and helped me to sit down. He eased my cape off and laid
it over the back of my chair. When he sat down next to me I reached
over and took his hand. I looked into his eyes and realized that this
man was truly amazing. He leaned over and kissed me lightly on the
lips. I was beginning to melt inside.
The rest of the evening at the concert went like a blaze. The music
was superlative, and I was falling head over in heels in love with Ed.
During the intermission we went to the lobby where Ed introduced me to
several of his acquaintances. He brought me a glass of wine and we
tasted a few samples of cheese.
"Ed," I whispered to him as we walked back to our seats, "How on
earth did you afford all this?"
"Hush, pretty lady," he said, in mock horror. "One does not ask such
things of a gentleman."
"Pardon me," I blushed. "I love you for all this, though."
He stopped just before we got to the loge. He held me by the waist
and kissed me gently.
"I love you, Marcia," he said. "I want only the best for the best
woman in town."
I melted entirely. I leaned up and kissed him. I felt him hold on
to me and pull me closer to him. His strong arms wrapped around and
held me close, our hips pressing to each other, our mouths desperate for
more of each other.
I don't remember any of the rest of the concert, except that it was
beautiful and that I held his arm through it all, leaning on his
shoulder. The evening was incredibly romantic. I had fallen hopelessly
in love and had only eyes and ears for Ed.
Driving home, I leaned over and laid my head on his shoulder. He
kept talking to me about how lovely I was and what a great evening he
had. We drove to a park where we could look over the city. It was a
pretty view. He parked the car and reached over to me. He leaned over
and kissed me. It was wonderful feeling his tongue flick inside my
mouth. I kissed him back. I slipped my hand to his thigh and felt his
leg. His left hand came across and he held my waist. Then I felt him
move his hand upward along my side. I kept kissing him, not daring to
discourage any move he might make. His hand reached up under my right
arm and then moved to my right breast. I moved so that it fell fully
into his hand. He rubbed it through the material of my dress. I moaned
slightly and moved my right hand further up along his thigh.
He pulled his hand away for a second, and then I felt his fingers
touch the skin on the top of my breasts. Downward they crept and then
inside my dress. He slipped his fingers further downward and then
underneath my bra, just brushing the nipple on my right breast. I moved
just slightly and he was able to slip his entire hand inside the cup of
my bra, holding my breast. The feeling was wonderful.
My right hand moved further up his thigh, then landed on the most
wonderful feeling hard spot. I had felt that hardness all evening and
now wanted to get closer to it. He moved his hips as soon as I touched
it. It was almost completely hard as it stretched against the material
of his trousers. I rubbed the palm of my hand against it and I could
feel it pulse. I wanted to see it. I wanted to taste it.
I reached over with my other hand and quickly unzipped his trousers.
He moved his hips slightly to help and unhooked the waist gripper. I
reached inside his white underpants and there it was. It was hot. It
was wonderful. I pulled his underpants down and I saw his hard penis
reaching up for me. I leaned down and kissed the tip.
"Oh, Marcia," he moaned.
The taste was a bit salty. I had never done that before. I had
never believed I would actually be holding a man's penis in my hand and
kissing it. I could feel the warmness starting to spread in my own
abdomen, though, as I became excited at how I was obviously affecting
this man. I had made this wonderful erection happen. It was me that
made this man want to have me sexually. I could see that there was
semen starting to come out the end. He was already wet. I opened my
mouth and took the tip inside. He immediately pushed against me forcing
a bit more in. He groaned. His hands began to hold my head and play
with my hair. He leaned his head back. Taking it out of my mouth I
licked the entire length, holding his testicles in my hand. Then, I put
it back in my mouth and began sucking on it softly, moving my head up
and down, up and down, slowly feeling the soft silky skin of his
wonderfully hard penis slide past my lips and tongue.
Ed's hips began to move more quickly now. He arched his back and
began pushing against me with his hips, raising his penis higher and
higher, forcing more and more into my mouth. I kept licking and
sucking, and then, with a loud groan, I felt a gush in the back of my
throat.
"Oh, my God," was all he could say as he bucked against me. My mouth
filled with a salty liquid. I let it drip from my mouth down along his
penis and into his pubic hair. I kept licking until he reached down and
held my head with his hands.
"Oh, stop, Marcia," he moaned. "I can't stand any more. You're so
wonderful."
I sat back, knowing that my face must have been a fright, with his
semen dripping from my mouth, but he leaned over and kissed me on the
mouth. Kissed all that wonderful semen he had just given me. I wanted
more of it, but I wanted it somewhere else. I wanted it somewhere else
tonight.
"I love you so much, Marcia," he said, looking directly into my eyes.
"I love you, Ed. You are such a wonderful man to love me."
Then I said it.
"Ed," I spoke. I wasn't even nervous. "Spend the night with me."
I looked up at him.
He was silent for a second.
"Please, Ed. Spend the night with me. I want you to."
"I'd love to, Marcia."
I was happy.
We went into my house and he helped me take off my cape. I hung his
jacket up in the front closet and watched him take off his tie.
"I know you love me in this dress," I said, "but I have to get out of
what's holding me inside it. It's killing me."
"Can I watch?"
"I want you to watch. Come with me."
I took his hand and he followed me to my bedroom.
"Unzip me," I turned my back so he could reach the zipper of my gown.
He carefully ran the zipper all the way to the bottom. He detached the
large bow.
"What should I do with this?"
"Just lay it on the dresser."
I slipped the top of the dress off and let it fall from my arms.
Then I let it fall from my hips and I stepped out of it. Ed just looked
at me. I was standing in front of this gorgeous man in a corset, my
breasts held out for him, with a sexy lace petticoat. I untied the
petticoat and let it fall on top of the dress. He kept looking at me,
now with just my lingerie between that wonderful man and me.
"Now, help me out of this corset. It's killing me."
I turned my back to him and felt his hands begin to untie the laces.
It felt immediately wonderful when I loosened the laces and even better
when it came free. I was now next to this sexy man in just my panties,
brassiere, garter belt, and hose. My heels were still on, and somehow I
thought he would think that sexy. I turned around to look at him. I
leaned up against him, wrapping my arms around his neck and kissed him.
He moved his hips against mine and I immediately felt the wonderful
hardness of his erection against my belly. I wanted it so badly it was
all I could do to keep from tearing his clothes off.
"Now lets get you undressed."
I didn't take long and he was naked in front of me with a wonderfully
large erection. I moved my hand down, took hold of it, and heard him
suck in his breath. I knew that feeling, but this time it was
different. I wanted that hard thing inside me. I wanted to taste it
then wanted it to push up inside me so I could be one with this
wonderful human being who had been so kind to me. He didn't even care
that my breasts were a little saggy, that my waist was a little thick,
or that I had stretch marks. I thought he was wonderful.
He reached down and slipped his hand inside my panties. His fingers
crept down between my legs, toward my private spot and then I felt it.
I felt a feeling I had never before experienced. He moved his finger
inside me, slipping up inside my vagina. I instinctively opened my legs
and let him reach further in, letting him slip his finger inside me. It
felt so wonderful. I had never felt this before. I was glad I had
moistened my vagina earlier in the evening.
His finger moved in and out ever so slowly and gently. I rubbed my
hand over his penis and down under to cup his balls. He leaned down and
kissed me. His tongue reached inside my mouth and my knees buckled. He
slipped my panties slowly down my legs, running his hands along my
bottom and along my thighs. I was trembling with excitement as I
stepped out of them. He held me closer to him and I felt the warmness
of his erect penis against my belly. I pushed against it as though to
drive it directly into my belly where I wanted it so badly.
He held me and laid me on the bed. Ever so gently he lay down next
to me and continued to rub his hands all over my body. He slipped a
finger just inside my bra and rubbed it over my nipple.
"Take my bra off and lick my breasts"
He reached down quickly and before I knew it had unsnapped my bra and
whisked it away. His mouth was full on my right nipple and I reveled in
the feeling. My wife always said there was a direct connection between
the nipples and the clitoris, and I now knew what she meant. My legs
spread and I could feel my vagina opening. The vaginal jelly I had
placed inside earlier was melting and running down between my legs. I
was wetter than I could ever remember being before.
"Come inside me. Come inside me, now."
I was on my back, dressed only in my garters and stockings. My shoes
were still on. I spread my legs, almost instinctively, and pulled at
him.
Ed moved on top of me. I could feel a little of his weight, but he
was careful. He slipped his penis in between my legs. The warmness of
it thrilled me. The hardness of it excited me. I reached down and took
hold of it and felt it pulse in my hand. It was almost like a separate
living thing.
Carefully I moved my hips and with my hand I guided it into my
vagina. I had never had a penis in there before. I had practiced with
a dildo, but this was the first time with a man. It was so warm, almost
hot. I loved it as it slipped inside so slowly. I could feel my
insides filling up. I could feel a wonderful sensation just filling my
belly as he moved his warm erection in and out slowly. I reached up and
pulled him down to me to kiss him. I pulled him against me as he began
moving faster and faster. I could feel his testicles tickling my
bottom. I could feel his penis reach deep inside me then pull almost
all the way out. His breathing was getting shorter and shorter and he
was moving faster and faster. Suddenly he held his breath and pushed in
as far as he could.
"Oh, I love that," I said.
I spread my legs as far as they could go, then wrapped them around
him. I wanted to hold him to me as tightly as I could. I felt the
heels of my shoes touching his back. I squeezed as tightly as I could,
feeling his wonderful hard penis pushing in and out of me.
"Oh, Marcia."
He pushed even harder and, with a shudder, I felt a warm gush between
my legs as he came inside me. He gave me his wonderful seed. His
wonderful seed with which I could do nothing, but I accepted it as a
sign of his love for me. I was now a real woman being loved by a real
man. I hugged him tightly to me.
He moved slightly, starting to pull out, but I held him in. I wanted
to keep feeling him inside.
"I want to do you," he murmured softly.
"Just stay inside me," I answered. "I love that feeling."
He kissed me and kissed me again. His hand reached down between us.
I could feel his fingers reach my pubic hair. I moved slightly and his
hand reached down between us and touched my clitoris. I reacted like
touched by fire. I kissed him madly and pushed my hips up against him.
It felt so good. He moved sideways, pulling out, and ran his hand down
fully between my legs. His finger slipped inside then quickly back out
to rub softly against my clitoris. I arched my back and moved my hips
up, pressing my pubis against his hand. I was coming and suddenly I
felt it all release. It spread all through my belly and outward like a
warm rush. I strained every muscle and then relaxed them all. I
grabbed his head and kissed him hard on the mouth. I had masturbated
before, but never had I felt such a wonderful feeling, climaxing as a
woman. Climaxing with a man making me come. I wanted him inside me
again.
I frantically reached down to find his penis. It was still hard. I
pulled him, urging him to move on top of me again. He slid over quickly
and that wonderful hard penis slipped inside once again. I was complete
again. I was so happy. I could feel tears and I began to cry. I just
lay there as he moved his hips slowly, just barely moving his manhood in
and out, in and out, just making me feel wonderfully fulfilled. We fell
asleep.
I woke up the next morning and reached over to find Ed still asleep.
I slid my hand along his belly until I found his penis. He had a
wonderfully hard erection. I couldn't resist, so I carefully sat up,
slid over on top of him, holding his penis in my hand, and slowly sat
down on him. I was still very wet inside, with two loads of his semen
still inside me.
With one finger I separated my labia lips, and then, nearly taking my
breath away, I slid that wonderful hardness inside my open vagina. I
sat down all the way, driving him as far into my belly as I could make
it go. I rocked my hips and felt my clitoris rub him slightly. A
shiver went completely through me and I let out an involuntary moan.
He groaned slightly and then opened his eyes. He smiled and pulled
me down to him, licking my breasts as he lifted his hips to drive
himself deeper into me. The feeling was absolutely wonderful. I felt
so full and fulfilled at the same time. I moved my hips and slid up and
down, up and down along his hard penis.
He kept kissing my breasts and held me close. He began pushing
harder and harder. He nearly lifted me completely off the bed with his
hips and he drove his penis deeper and deeper inside my very willing
vagina. I was hot, and wet and wanted more. I could feel him tensing,
and then with a loud groan, he pushed hard one last time with his
powerful hips and came inside me. I could feel the warm moisture
spreading inside. I leaned forward and kissed him, driving my tongue
deep inside his mouth. He held me close. I felt his penis still inside
me and I kept rocking my hips, back and forth. I could feel my clitoris
rubbing on him and I was getting higher and higher. I couldn't believe
the control I had over the situation and I just kept moving, nearly in
automatic, not able to stop.
Ed ground his hips up at me, answering every move I made, and then I
felt the uphill climb grow steeper and steeper. I closed my eyes and
felt my climax coming. I pushed one last time and with a loud cry fell
over the top with a magnificent orgasm. I had never felt like I did
just then. I was exhausted, yet exhilarated. I wanted more, yet I
couldn't go on. I thrashed for several seconds, driving my mouth onto
Ed's and whimpering out of control. Finally I fell exhausted onto Ed's
chest. As Ed ran his hands over my body, rubbing my back and my bottom,
we fell back to sleep, together.
Chapter 4
I was nervous as hell. The day had been planned for weeks and it
wasn't supposed to be a surprise for anyone. But I knew it would be
hard. Hard for me. Hard for my wife.
Or was it ex-wife. We hadn't divorced, but as far as the world was
concerned, I was dead and she was a widow.
The service had arranged the meeting. They had approached her after
I had insisted, and they had told her everything. She had not taken it
well, but was really glad I was still alive and well. She wasn't too
sure about the sex change thing, though.
The meeting was arranged to take place in a park in a city near where
we both lived. At that time, she did not know that I was living in the
same town as she. I would tell her today. I got out of the car and
closed the door. It was a bit chilly. I was wearing a grey wool skirt,
white cotton blouse, and a long, red, cardigan sweater. I didn't want
to dress up too much. Be too feminine. I just wanted to look
comfortable and very normal. I decided to wear a pair of grey leather
low heels, not too flashy. My hair was getting long, but I had pulled
it back with a black bow. I wore a simple set of pearl earrings and a
matching pearl necklace.
The park was not much more than a city square. There were lots of
trees, old cottonwoods that spread out and shaded the ground from the
summer sun. The grass was still a little green, but was starting to
brown slightly around the edges of the sidewalks.
I saw her standing next to the water fountain that had been
identified as the meeting place. I walked slowly toward her. I
recognized her immediately. She was wearing her hair exactly as I had
remembered. She wore the blue trousers I remembered, and the white
blouse with the lace around the neck. I could hardly continue, but
something drew me onward.
She turned around when she heard my footsteps and looked at me. I
could see a look of amazement on her face, and then a look of fear.
Then she went blank and just stared at me. I continued to walk up to
her. She just stood there.
"Debbie?" I said softly.
"Mark?" she spoke tentatively.
"Yes," I nodded. "Except now it's Marcia."
"Marcia?"
I nodded. We were standing about six feet away from each other.
Each of us had our purses clutched in front of us, just staring at each
other. I was so nervous my knees were shaking. I was glad I wasn't in
a pair of really high heels.
"You have been going to Village Church, haven't you?" Debbie asked.
"Yes," I answered. "For quite some time, now."
"They told me a little about all this."
"I know that," I answered. "I told them to. They didn't want to,
but I insisted."
She just nodded.
"Can we sit down, Debbie. It might be better."
She didn't say anything, but we moved to a park bench not too far
away. I sat at one end, she at the other. We were still on guard with
each other. We nervously held our purses on our laps with both hands.
"How much did they tell you?"
"They told me about the car accident. And they told me about the
operations. And they told me about the plan to keep you undercover."
"That's pretty much it. Did they tell you where I'm living, now?"
"No," she shook her head.
"Just a few blocks away from you. On Sackett Street."
She just looked at me.
"I don't know whether to be happy or angry," Debbie said.
"You know that I would be dead if I didn't do this."
"That's what they told me. But that doesn't change my feelings."
"I still love you. And I have missed you a lot."
"Don't say that," she was almost angry, and she turned away.
"Okay," I went on. "but it's true. I made sure everything was taken
care of. Is everything okay, now?"
"Oh, yes," she was crying now, "All that stuff is just fine. Nice
house. Lot's of insurance money. But you aren't there, and you should
be."
"We can still be together."
"How?"
"I'm here. We can still be together."
"But you... you aren't Mark any more."
"But I still know all our secrets and you know all mine. We still
have a lot of good memories. And we could have more."
"What, as girlfriends?"
"Or sisters, or whatever."
"But I want a lover."
"We can do that, too."
"Oh, get real."
"Okay, but it's true. You know it's really me, despite what you see
on the outside."
"Well, I need some time, Mark... or Marcia, whatever."
"Okay," I nodded, and stood up. "Do you want my phone number?"
She nodded her head. She was still crying.
I pulled out a small card and handed it to her. It had my new name,
address, and phone number on it.
"Is it safe for me to know this?"
"I think so. They stopped looking for me a while back."
She just looked at the card.
"Marcia Lynn Stephens," she read from the card. "Mrs. Marcia Lynn
Stephens?"
"That's the story line. I'm supposed to be a widow."
"Oh that's funny. You and me, too."
"See," I tried to smile. "More things in common."
She smiled, but still had not stopped crying. She stood up.
"Will you be in church Sunday?" Debbie asked.
"Yes."
"Does anyone else know anything about all this?"
"No one except the government people who are handling the case."
"No one at church?"
"No," I assured her. "No one at church."
"I'll see you at church, then."
"Okay," I answered. "I'll see you between services."
She nodded, still looking at me.
"You pick nice clothes," she said.
"Thank you," I responded, a little surprised. I did not know how to
answer.
"I'll call you in a day or two after I've thought this over some
more. I will call. Don't worry."
"Okay."
She turned and walked away. I watched until she got into her car.
As she drove away I thought about all the years we had lived together.
Lived together as husband and wife. Then I walked back down the
sidewalk thinking how different things were. The click of my heels on
the pavement, the swish of my skirt, the bounce of my breasts all
serving to point out how very much different things really were.
Chapter 5
Debbie did call me. It was two days later. I was at home, working
on paying bills, and the phone rang.
"Hello," I said.
"Mark?"
"Debbie?"
"Yes," she answered. "I just can't bring myself to call you Marcia,
yet, I guess."
"That's alright," I said. "Just between you and me."
"Can we meet again?"
"Yes. I'd like that."
"How about now. Before I chicken out."
"Alright. Where?"
"I'll come to your house. Is that alright?"
"Yes, of course," I said. "Come on over. I wasn't doing anything
important."
"Then I'll be over in about an hour."
We hung up and I my heart started fluttering. I was suddenly
nervous, again. I looked around the house. It was neat. It never got
messed up. Just a few magazines to pick up. A few minutes to clean up
the bathroom.
I went to my room to make sure it was straight. I made the bed
quickly and put a few scattered clothes away. I saw myself in the
mirror. There she was again. That middle aged woman I saw every
morning, looking back. What did Debbie see? I saw that I needed to
brush my hair a bit, and to touch my makeup a little. I was wearing
slacks and a white cotton blouse. Nothing fancy. Probably best that
way.
The door bell rang almost exactly an hour after Debbie called me. I
went to the door and opened it.
There she was, my wife, and she was beautiful. She was wearing a
lovely red dress with a black leather belt and black patent leather
heels. She was absolutely gorgeous. I was stunned.
"Oh, Debbie," I stammered. "You look wonderful. Come in."
She walked in without saying a word, just looking around.
"I should have put something else on," I said.
"Oh, you're just fine, Marcia. There I said your name."
What was going on?
"You have a lovely home."
"Thank you. Please sit down. Can I get you something to drink?"
"Just water, thank you."
She sat down on the couch, neatly crossing her legs, setting her
purse on the couch next to her. I quickly grabbed two glasses and
filled them with ice water from the refrigerator. I put the glasses
down on the coffee table, then sat on a chair facing Debbie.
"I'm glad you decided to call me," I said.
"I wanted to get to know you, again," Debbie was actually smiling.
"Well, here I am. What you see is what you get."
"Oh, I doubt that, Marcia."
"Well, I guess you're right about that."
She smiled, picked up the glass of water, and took a sip. I noticed
her lipstick was especially bright. A smear of red was left on the edge
of the glass.
"So, Marcia," Debbie sat back on the couch. "Tell me about yourself.
Tell me about your new life as a woman."
"Hmm," I started slowly. "The operations were over about two months
ago and they moved me in here. I've been keeping the house and writing
stories."
"Still writing?"
"Still writing."
"Do you like being female?"
"I don't have any choice, now. But, yes, I like it. I get along
quite nicely. People treat me well."
"This is kind of right down your old line, isn't it?"
"You mean the cross dressing?"
"Yes. It sort of fits right in."
"That's true. That came to mind when we were looking for a way for
me to hide from the cartel. They had found and killed the last four
agents who were hidden. So far, they haven't gotten close, and I
understand they have given up. They think I'm dead."
"You seem to keep the same kind of clothes you did before. A bit
conservative."
"Yes, but being a 40 something widow didn't seem to call for anything
else."
"A widow. Did they do up a full story on you... family, husband,
children, everything?"
"Yes," I nodded. "See the pictures on the wall."
She stood up and walked over to the wall where the 'family' photos
were hanging. She saw the young man who was my "son", the young woman
who was my 'daughter' and a photo of me with a handsome man, my
'husband'.
"Nice looking family," she said. "What happened to your husband?"
"Car accident. Sound familiar?"
She nodded, then walked further down the hall to look at the rest of
the pictures. She stopped in front of the wedding photo.
"Is this you?"
"They can do miracles with makeup, can't they. Made me look like I
was twenty."
"Beautiful dress. Did they let you keep it?"
"No. That went back to the store. Too hard to explain a brand new
dress that's supposed to be over twenty years old."
"I suppose," she turned back to me.
"I never saw you dressed as a woman before," Debbie said. "I didn't
think I wanted to."
"The counselor didn't think it was a good idea."
"It probably wasn't then," Debbie was looking at the photograph of me
with my 'husband' and 'children'. "But you look so...normal...you know.
Not at all like I thought."
"I want to look normal."
"Oh, you know," she looked at me for a second. "All those books of
the transvestites looking like prostitutes or dressed up like little
girls."
"I've never been like that."
"Some are."
I nodded.
"Of course," she went on, "I saw the kind of clothes you always kept
in the closet. Nice things."
"You commented on that when I first showed them to you."
"Mark...Marcia," she was stammering, now.
I just turned toward her. I said nothing.
"Marcia," she had regained her composure, again. "I need to know
something. It will be hard for me to hear it. It will probably be hard
for you to say it, but I have to know. I promise that I will not get
angry, or leave, but I have to know. I think I know the answer."
"Alright, Debbie," I said softly.
"Are you a complete woman? I mean, did they do everything to you?"
"I've had complete sex reassignment surgery, yes."
"So, you don't have a penis anymore?"
"No."
"And you have a vagina?"
"Yes."
"Have you... have you ever... uh... had sex with a man?"
I didn't answer right away, but I could see that she already knew the
answer.
"Yes," I nodded. "I have been going out with a very nice man I met
at church."
"And you have been making love?"
"Once we did."
She turned away from me for a second. She looked up at the ceiling
and took a deep breath. Then, she turned back around.
"Is it possible that we could get back together?" she said, looking
me in the eye.
"Of course we can get back together. You're here right now."
"No," she shook her head quickly. "I mean that I have missed you. I
want to have sex with you. I miss being together with you."
"But I don't have a penis anymore."
"You told me that. I want to feel you against me again. I want to
kiss you again, and I want to feel your hands against me again. That
won't have changed."
I just stood there for a second. Then I reached my hands out and
took hers. Her hands felt so good. Just like I remembered. Then we
moved together and we hugged closely. Even that felt the same as old
times.
"Oh, this feels good," Debbie said.
"Yes, it does," I responded. I couldn't believe how good it felt.
"Does this make us lesbians?" she asked.
"Who knows? Who cares?"
I leaned over and kissed her. She tasted just as I remembered. She
responded just as I remembered. It was wonderful. Her hands went up my
back just like she always did, and I moved my hands along her sides and
up to touch the sides of her breasts. She moved to allow me to fully
hold her breast and she kissed me deeper.
"Oh, Mark," she had her eyes closed. "It's been too long. Just like
after one of those long deployments."
"You are wonderful. You are beautiful."
"You're not half bad yourself," she moved back from me a little and
looked at me.
I took her hand and led her down the hall.
"Come on. Let me show you the rest of my house."
We walked down the hall and I showed her the dining room, the
kitchen, the front room. Then I showed her my office and the spare
bedroom. Then, a bit nervous, I showed her my bedroom. She walked in
and looked around.
"Very nice. Nice furniture."
She walked over to my closet and looked in. The door was open and
she could easily see what was hanging. She reached in and moved a few
things around, obviously curious as to what was in the closet.
"I'll be glad to show you everything in there."
"Oh, I'm sorry," she pulled her hand back quickly. She was blushing.
"It's alright," I said as I walked over to her. "Here, I have lots of
nice things. Dresses, skirts, blouses, slacks."
"Nice. Did they buy them for you?"
"Some of them. The rest I got myself."
"You do have good taste."
"I hope so," I said, holding a blouse in my hand as she touched it.
It was my favorite blouse. White, sheer nylon with a lace collar and
lace cuffs.
"It's so pretty," Debbie said. "I don't have anything that pretty."
"I know that's not true, Debbie."
"Well," she smiled back at me. "Maybe I do have something that
pretty."
"And your dresses," she was looking in the closet again.
"So many. And evening gowns, too?"
"They are pretty, aren't they?"
"They are gorgeous. Do you get to wear them anywhere?"
"Ed took me to the symphony."
"I bet you were beautiful."
"Ed thought so."
"Is that the night you first made love?"
I did not answer immediately. She caught me by surprise with that
question.
"Yes, Debbie," I finally told her. "We did make love that night."
She stopped and just gazed at the clothes in the closet. Then she
turned and looked at me. She looked at my face, my body and my feet.
"I just can't believe it's really you."
"It's really me."
"Let me see you. Let me see what you really look like without the
clothes."
"Right now?"
"Right now."
"Okay," I smiled. "Does this mean I get to watch you undress, too?"
She smiled.
"You always used to say that."
"True," I smiled, too. "See, I'm still in here, somewhere."
I started unbuttoning my blouse. Debbie was watching carefully. I
pulled the shirttails out and then slipped it off. I was wearing a
simple bra, but it was obvious that the breasts inside them were very
real. I then unbuttoned my slacks and slipped them down, kicking my
shoes off in the process. I was wearing pantyhose over a pair of
panties. She could see that my hips were wider than before, and that I
had a waist, although certainly not as thin as hers.
"Your turn," I said. "I'll show you mine if you show me yours."
"Very funny," she laughed, although I could see it was still hard for
her. "You have bigger breasts than I do."
"I'm a bigger woman than you."
She nodded, then unbuckled her belt, dropping in on a chair. Then
she began unbuttoning the gold buttons that ran the front of her dress.
As she stepped out of it, I saw the pretty underwear. It was pink, and
very lacy. She always liked to wear that sort of thing when she dressed
up. She was standing in front of me in her slip.
I leaned over and started to roll my pantyhose down. I quickly got
them off and tossed them onto the dresser. Now I was only wearing my
bra and panties.
"Not as fancy underwear as you have. I didn't know you were going to
dress up. I have nicer underthings."
"I wanted you to remember me as something sexy."
"I remember you as something sexy, alright."
"Take your bra and panties off. I want to see all of you."
I quickly unhooked the front clasp of the bra and then slipped the
panties down. My breasts fell down, shaking slightly. I stood naked in
front of my wife, goose bumps starting to form on my arms and legs.
"You really did have the operation, didn't you."
"Yes," I started to walk toward her. "What you see