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Author's Note: Thanks to Joni W for her help in editing. Comments always appreciated. Chapter 38 Early the next morning, Jason and his father took The Kristine out on the lake and over to their favorite cove for fishing. Once they got settled in, they baited their hooks and cast their lines in opposite directions. As they watched the sun rise to the eastern side of the lake, Jason poured them both a cup of coffee and opened up the box of Entenmann's chocolate covered donuts. They sat quietly together as father and daughter, occasionally reeling in their lines, checking the bait and recasting. "Kelly..." "Yes, Dad?" "You're sure this is what you want?" "What do you mean?" "Are you sure you want to be Kelly. Please don't take this the wrong way; there is nothing at all wrong with being a woman. But in your case becoming a woman is fraught with problems and challenges to overcome. I just want to be certain that you really understand what it means to give up being Jason. I think about you having this surgery and I just can't imagine having that cut off." "Dad, I don't know yet about the surgery. It scares me too. Sometimes I think about it and I feel just the way you are feeling. But other times I just hate it, and I just want it gone. I don't know how to make you understand how I feel. Every morning I get up and have to get ready for school. The first thing I have to do is take off my breasts; it feels like I am ripping a part of me off, I can't tell you how much I dread it. And then as I get ready and become Jason again, I feel like I'm pulling on a disguise, that I'm pretending to be someone I'm not. When I get home and can relax and let Kelly come out it is so freeing. I know that you probably can't understand that. Just think how you might feel if you woke up tomorrow as a woman, everyone believing you had always been a woman, but you knew that you were really a man. That is the only way I can describe it." "I can't even begin to imagine what you are feeling, I know that, and I'm really not discounting it. You know it won't all be as easy as it has been for you, if you do go ahead with this. Your mother and I will be with you and your Aunt Sally and Emily are as well. Julie is remarkable, but you never know what is going to happen as you grow up, she may find that she wants a husband, not a wife, or she may very well stay with you. But you are going to find that many people are not going to accept you. You know that your Aunt Jessica is not going to and there are plenty of people like Brad and his father. I can just imagine what they will say, if it becomes known. I worry about you getting hurt. You know we read about transgendered and gay people getting beat up or worse. I don't want that to happen to you." "Dad, I know you are worried. I am too; people like Brad can be dangerous. If I could wave a magic wand and suddenly be content to be Jason, I suppose that would be great, but I just don't think that is going to happen. I don't want to spend my life feeling like this. I have to do what I can, to feel right in my own body." Jason's father nodded his head in agreement and they fell back into quiet contemplation. A few minutes later, Jason felt a nibble on his line. "Dad, I've got a nibble." Jason's father turned his attention to Jason's line. "Ok Kelly... pull it in just a little. And then let it sit." They watched, and then all of a sudden the bobbin was pulled down, Jason felt the tug on the line, he gave a little jerk, and the tug became harder. Jason began reeling in the line, pulling hard against the fish. "I've got him now, Dad." "Ok, yes you do, don't lose him. Take it easy." Jason continued to work it in. "Get the net, Dad!" Jason's father grabbed the net, it took them a while but when it was done, they had landed a nice sized bass. All the awkwardness of the earlier conversation was forgotten, as father and daughter celebrated their catch. A couple hours and several more fish later, they pulled back into the dock. They tied The Kristine to the dock and headed up to the house with their catch. Jason went inside briefly, and when he came back out he and his father went to work cleaning the days catch. Julie and Jason's mother came out and joined the early risers on the porch. "Julie, I hope you like fish, because here is tonight's dinner! There is nothing like fresh caught fish, cooked over a wood fire," Jason said. "I love fish, I'm sure I will enjoy it," Julie replied. Jason cleaned up and wrapped up the fish and put it in the refrigerator. "So did you two fill up on donuts and coffee, or would you like some bacon and eggs?" Jason's mother asked. "I could use some bacon and eggs," Jason's father said. "If you are making it anyway..." Jason said. Chapter 39 After breakfast, they changed into their bathing suits, and headed out on the lake in The Kristine to teach Julie to water ski. Jason went first to show Julie how it was done. Julie got in the water next, and grabbed the rope. The Anderson's all gave her advice, and Richard made sure she was ready and throttled up. Julie started to come up, and promptly fell over. Richard pulled around made sure that Julie was ok, she insisted on trying again. It took all morning, but it finally clicked for Julie and she got up and stayed up. When they got back to the dock, Julie was ecstatic. "Mr. Anderson, thank you so much for your patience! That was fun." "It was my pleasure Julie," Richard replied. Later in the week, Jason and Julie were rowing a canoe around the lake. Another canoe carrying two boys came upon them from the opposite direction. "Damn, Julie, what do we do now?" Jason asked. "Just stay calm, Kelly. Do you know them?" "No." "Just remember, you are Kelly, and let me do most of the talking, ok?" "Ok." The boy's canoe came upon them, and the boys said, "Hello." Julie said, "Hello." Jason nodded his greetings. "I don't think we have met, I'm Kevin, and this is my brother Sean," the taller of the boys said. "I'm Julie, and this is my friend, Kelly," Julie replied, nodding her head toward Jason. "Are you staying on the lake?" Sean asked. "Yes, we are. How about you?" Julie asked. "For a few days. Our grandparents have a house here and we are visiting." "It's great up here, I'm sure you must be having a good time," Julie said. "Yeah it is, it's our first time here, and we are still getting used to everything. It's nice to see some people our age though. Say, there is supposed to be a big bonfire in the town center tonight, are you going to be there?" Kevin asked. "I don't know," Julie replied. "Would you like to come with us?" Sean asked. Julie smiled and said, "It's very nice of you to offer, but I think my boyfriend Jason and Kelly's boyfriend Jake, might object." "Oh. Of course, they would be welcome to come too," Sean backtracked. "We will have to see, I'm afraid I'm not sure what the plans are for tonight and since we are guests of the Anderson's we'll have to see what they are doing. Maybe we'll see you there tonight?" "That would be great. The more the merrier. I hope we see you and your boyfriends later," Kevin said. With that they pushed away and headed back the way they came. Jason and Julie turned around as well and headed home. "Thanks Julie. I guess I have to learn how to deal with that, but I just wasn't ready." "No problem Kelly. They were nice boys though; I hope they find some others to hang out with." "I almost lost it when you mentioned Jason, but who is Jake?" Jason asked. "I am, silly. Who do you think your boyfriend is?" Julie said. Jason raised his eyebrow and said, "I never quite thought about it." "I didn't either, but I wasn't about to tell them your girlfriend Julie would not approve, now was I. I don't really want to be a guy, but for you, well, it could be fun to try some time." "Hummm. You know, you delight in making me 'think about you' don't you," Jason asked. "Yes, I do; because when I 'think about you,' I love to think about you 'thinking about me.'" Julie laughed, then leaned over and kissed Jason. "Umm... We better get back to the house," Jason said. "Yes, we probably should..." Julie replied. They both focused on paddling the canoe and heading back towards the Anderson's lake house. The next day, Jason woke up and headed out to the kitchen, where he was promptly greeted with shouts of "Happy Birthday, Kelly!" by his parents and Julie. "Thanks." They sat down to a full breakfast of pancakes, bacon and eggs. After cleaning up, Julie and Jason got ready to go take an early swim. As they walked down to the dock, two cars pulled into the lake house driveway. Jason saw that the front car was occupied by his Aunt Jessica, and his cousin's Tom and Billy. The second car had his father's parents. Jason turned pale, as he realized he had nowhere to hide. Jason's father came out of the lake house at the sound of the cars and said, "Oh shit. Kristine, get out here." Jessica got out of the car, shouted over to Richard and said, "Surprise Richard, we came up to wish Jason a happy birthday." Jason was frozen in his tracks. Jessica looked at Julie and said, "Hi, you must be Julie, I've heard a lot about you, but who is your friend?" Jessica looked closer at Jason, and her face started out with a look of confusion, then shock, followed by disgust. She walked right up to Jason and said, "What do we have here. I should have known, I always thought you were a bit of a pansy. Tom get back in the car, and make sure that Billy stays where he is. We will not be staying." She slapped Jason on the face, turned and headed back toward her car. Richard and Kristine headed her off, and Kristine got into her face first. "How dare you! You have no right to hit my child." "Get out of my way Kristine; I will not subject my children to this sickness." "Jessica, you are the only one here that is sick. You think that you have all the answers don't you. Well you don't. If you want to leave, than leave, you weren't invited anyway. You and I both know this was just an excuse to come and use the lake house and you couldn't care less about Jason, or his birthday." Billy was shouting, "But I want to go swimming, and play with Jason. Mom you promised!" Tom was pulling Billy back into the car. "What the hell is going on here?" Jason's grandfather said. "Your grandson is a faggot. He's over there dressed like a girl. In a one piece bathing suit with boobs!" Jessica shouted, then looking at Billy said, "Billy get back in the car. We're not staying." "What? Richard, what is going on?" "Dad, you and Mom come inside, Kris and I will explain it to you. Jessica, if you are willing to listen and be polite, you can come inside as well, otherwise, the road is that way." Richard said. "There is nothing to listen too. Your son is going to hell and you are obviously encouraging it. I'm not subjecting Billy to this. Don't let Jason come near my son again or I will file molestation charges," Jessica said, and she got back in her car and drove away. "Richard?" Richard sighed and said, "Mom, Dad, come on in. It's time we had a talk. Kelly, you and Julie better come inside too." Jason just buried his face in his hands. Julie hugged him and said, "It's going to be ok, come on let's go inside." Julie led Jason into the house, followed by his mother, father and grandparents. "Will someone please explain what is going on around here?" Jason's grandfather said. "Why is Jason dressed like that?" "Dad, I promise we will explain, but give us a few minutes. Julie, please take Kelly into her bedroom, I'll be right in," Jason's mother said. Julie led Jason into his bedroom. When the door was closed, Jason's mother turned to her in-laws and said, "Mom, Dad, please sit down. I know this was a bit of a shock and believe me we didn't plan on you finding out about this like this. Obviously, if we had known you were coming, this would not have happened. I need to go take care of Jason, but will be back out as soon as I can. Let Richard fix you a drink, I'm sure you are going to need it." "Come on Mom, Dad. Have a seat, and tell me what you want," Jason's father said, as Kristine headed into Jason's room. She found Jason lying on the bed in a fetal position, rocking back and forth. Julie was holding him and trying to calm him down. Kristine went over and sat next to them. "Kelly. It's going to be ok. Shhh... Honey, it's ok. We, Julie, your father and I are all right here for you. It's going to be ok." After a few minutes, his mother mouthed to Julie, "Help me to get her to sit up." Julie said, "Kelly, come here... sit up and let your mother and I hold you," as she gently tried to pull him towards her. Jason allowed her to pull her in and she put her arms around him, his mother moved in closer and hugged him as well. Jason just held onto Julie as tightly as he could and wept. The three of them just held on to each other until Jason was wrung out and simply could not cry any more. "I'm sorry. I knew that Aunt Jessica was not going to react well, but I just did not realize how much it was going to hurt. I can only imagine what awful things she is telling Billy about me. You know, Tom is not going to keep quiet about this; he has friends that go to our school. I'm dead." "Kelly, we will deal with this as a family. We knew this was likely to happen eventually, if it gets out, then we will face it. Julie, I don't know what this will mean for you at home." "Don't worry about me, Mrs. Anderson. I will not betray Kelly. It may force me to have the conversation I've been dreading with my parents. I hope they are half as good as you at accepting me." "I'll do what I can to help." "Mom, why did Aunt Jessica say she would file molestation charges? What does that mean?" Jason's mother's expression turned to extreme anger. "She means that she will accuse you of inappropriate sexual contact with Billy. She means that your behavior is perverted and that you would naturally go after her child. It's utter nonsense and it is an awful thing to charge someone with, especially one that is innocent." Jason looked ill. "I would never do anything like that! How could she even think such a thing?" "Because she is a religious nut, Kelly. She has no grasp on reality. Everything is black and white to her. Look Kelly, this is her failure not yours. Don't let it worry you. You are going to be just fine. Now, I need to get back out to your grandparents. Your father is probably ready to kill me for leaving him alone with them." "Oh god, what must they be thinking about me." "I'm sure they are concerned, they got quite a surprise coming upon you like this. But they did not storm out of here, so I would take that as a good start. You two stay in here for now, Ok?" When Julie and Jason both acknowledged with a shake of their heads, Kristine got up and headed out of the room. Chapter 40 "Is Kelly ok?" Richard asked Kristine as she came into the living room. "She will be. She is just really hurt by Jessica's reaction," Kristine replied. "Why do you keep referring to Jason as Kelly? What the heck is going on here?" Jason's grandfather asked. "We learned several months ago that Jason had been hiding this need to express himself as a girl. He was feeling terribly guilty and ashamed of his feelings. We have been working with a psychologist since then. Jason is transgendered," Kristine said. "What do you mean? Trans what? Jason is a boy, he is a good ball player, loves to fish, he is not effeminate. What about this Julie, did she do this to him," Jason's grandmother said. "No Mom, she didn't. We found out about this before he and Julie got together. Julie has been very supportive of him, but she is not the cause. I know that it is hard to understand, hell, I still don't fully understand it, but there is no doubt about it. Jason is far happier as Kelly then he ever was as Jason," Richard told his parents. "And what does this psychologist say. Surely with his help, Jason can be cured of this foolishness? And why are you letting it go on?" "Dad, it isn't foolishness. Look, we have had to do a lot of research on this recently. This is more common than you would realize. We could forbid Jason from expressing this, but the research shows that forcing transgendered people to suppress their inner selves leads to serious depression and worse. I would much rather have Jason become my daughter Kelly, then for him to sink into depression and possibly kill himself. That is what happens," Richard said. Jason's grandmother gasped. "So what exactly did this psychologist recommend?" Jason's grandfather asked. "That we give Jason the time to figure out what is right for him. He said that some, though not many, may grow out of it. But he also told us that most never do. The important thing is to figure out just how far he needs to go with this. From what we've seen, Jason is not going to grow out of this. He is Kelly. Looking back, he has always been Kelly; we just didn't realize it. Kristine and I are fully behind him... No... Kristine and I are fully behind her." Richard looked at Kristine, reached over and took her hand, giving it a loving squeeze. Kristine returned the squeeze and smiled at him. "Mom, Dad, I know this is a lot to take in. But I also know that you two love Jason and want him to be safe, healthy and happy in his life. He needs this to be happy. I know in my heart that we are doing the right thing for him. He is going to need as many people to help him face the challenges ahead; as many as possible. We know that Jessica will never come around and that is unfortunate. I hope that you will give Kelly a chance, because she certainly wants you to be a part of her life. She is in her room right now, worrying about how you are going to react. Are you going to be like Jessica and disown her, or are you going to be like Sally and accept her for who she is?" Kristine asked. "Ira, I am not going to reject my grandchild and neither are you; and you know it. Jason has always been a wonderful grandson and I'm sure that Kelly will be a wonderful granddaughter. Kristine, I want to meet my granddaughter." "Lizzie..." "Ira, I mean it. You know Richard and Kristine are good parents. If they tell you that this is the right thing for Jason, you know that it is, to the best of their ability. We are not going to add to their problems. Jessica is going to get an earful from her mother tonight, because her behavior was not very Christian in my book! At least not in the way I was brought up and not the way we raised her either." Ira sighed, looked at his wife, his daughter-in-law and son, and said, "Of course, Lizzie. You're right." "Kristine, introduce me to my granddaughter and her girlfriend please." "Mom, it will be my pleasure," Kristine replied, and led Lizzie toward Jason's room. They knocked on the door and then went in. Jason and Julie were sitting on the bed holding hands, with Jason's head on Julie's shoulder. Julie was trying to keep Jason calm. They both looked, with slight trepidation, at the two women that had come into the room. "Mom, this is your granddaughter Kelly," Kristine said. "Don't just sit their girl, come and give me a hug!" Jason's grandmother said. Jason expression showed his relief as he got up from the bed and went to his grandmother and hugged her, saying, "I love you Grandma." "Shhh... It's going to be fine. I love you too, Kelly. Now how about introducing me to your girlfriend. Julie, I believe, isn't it?" "Ohh... I'm sorry, yes, Julie this is my Grandma Anderson." Julie came over and said, "Hello Mrs. Anderson, I'm happy to finally meet you." "Please call me Lizzie. It's a pleasure to meet you as well, Julie. I'm sorry that things got off to a rough start here today. But we're going to put all that behind us and get on with celebrating Jas... I'm sorry, Kelly's birthday. Kelly, I'm sorry, but I suspect that the gifts we brought are not quite appropriate now. We will just have to go shopping soon and get you something better." "I haven't changed that much, Grandma. I still like the same things I always did," Jason replied. "Well, I don't think the shirts and pants I bought are quite right now. Besides, you know I love shopping for my grandkids. If you tell me that you don't want to go shopping for some new clothes, I'm going to wonder if you really are a teenage girl," she said with a wink. "Oh, no... I can always use some new outfits." Julie laughed at that. "See, she really is a girl. You should see her trying to figure out what to wear when we go out." Grandma Lizzie chuckled. "Ok, I have to ask, are you Kelly's girl friend, or Kelly's Girlfriend?" "I'm both. I don't care if she is Kelly or Jason, she is my best friend." "Fair enough. Well Kelly, are you ready to meet your grandfather? I promise he won't bite, but he's probably going to take a while to warm up to you." "Yes, I guess so." "Then let's go." With that, she took Jason by the hand and led him out to the living room. Chapter 41 "Ira, come meet your granddaughter." Jason watched as his grandfather came over to him. Jason closed the gap and went to hug him, his grandfather hesitated, opened his arms, as he looked down at Jason holding him, he sighed and returned the hug, softly at first, but then with feeling. "Kelly. Happy Birthday." "Thank you, Grandpa." Jason squeezed him tightly one more time and then said, "Grandpa, this is Julie." "Hello Mr. Anderson," Julie said. "Julie. It's a pleasure." "Julie, you can call him Ira," Jason's grandmother said. "Oh... Of course, thank you Lizzie. Julie, please call me Ira," Grandpa said. The rest of the morning and afternoon, they spent in various activities. They had an early dinner, followed by the birthday cake, which said Happy Birthday Kelly. After cake, Jason opened his presents. From his parents, he got a necklace. Julie gave him a pretty top. "You have to tell my Mom that I gave you a nice shirt." Grandma Lizzie said, "As we discussed, we will go out for something when you come home." Soon after opening his presents, his grandparents had to leave to go home. "Kelly, I have watched you all day today. I see how happy you are and I want you to know that I love you. You're Grandmother and I will be here for you." "Grandpa, you don't know how much that means to me. Thank you! I love you!" And he gave them both hugs and kisses. Chapter 42 "Jessica, I was ashamed of you today." Lizzie said to her daughter, later that night, on the phone. "Mom, I am not going to expose my children to that perversion." "Jessica, you claim to be Christian and you would not even give your own brother the benefit of hearing him out. You slapped your nephew!" "Somebody needs to tell him that it is not ok. But no, my brother just lets him do it because he thinks he wants it. It's a sin; it says so in the bible." "Really... it does? Where?" "Mom, I'm not debating it with you. You know as well as I do that the bible condemns faggots." "Don't use that kind of language to me! And no, I don't know that. I know that your husband and your preacher interpret certain passages that way and that they ignore those things that are prohibited that they don't want to give up. But even if it is, Christ said, 'love the sinner, hate the sin.' You should be supporting your family, but instead you wrap yourself in self-righteousness. Don't pull that nonsense with me. I brought you into this world. Your beliefs do not justify the act of hatred you exhibited today." "That wasn't hatred; it was an act of love. I was trying to wake up my brother, so that he can save his son from eternal damnation. Jason needs to understand that it is not acceptable and then he will quit this sinful activity. He is just looking for attention. Well he got it." "You know Jessica, it's love like that that got Christ crucified. If you weren't my daughter, I would really love to be there when you meet him. As it is, it would hurt too much to watch him reject you the way you rejected your nephew today." "That is blasphemy. I will not sit here and listen to you blaspheming my Lord and Savior." "Fine. I'm done. But if you or Tom cause problems for Jason, you are turning your back on your family, your father and I are supporting him fully." "Jason has made his own bed; he will have to lie in it. When all is said and done, I hope he comes to his senses, better a bit of problems here on earth, eternity is a long time." "I'm not bluffing, Jessica." "Neither am I, Mom. Goodbye." Jessica hung up the phone. "Damn!" She slammed the phone down on its hook. "Ira!" "What?" "Where the hell did I go wrong with her. She is a self-righteous bitch." "You did not let me shoot that bastard that she married." Lizzie laughed, "Well yes, that probably was a mistake." "I take it your call did not go well?" "No, she can rationalize anything she does. It's God's work." "Is she going to out Jason?" "I think she is going to let Tom do it. He may have already done so. I told her we were fully supporting Jason and that if they cause problems for Jason, they were turning their back on the family. She did not care." "I guess we'll find out when Richard, Kristine, Jason and Julie get home, just a couple of more days." Chapter 43 Tom sat at his computer, looking at the picture from his camera phone. Seeing Jason all dressed up as a girl made him sick to his stomach. He attached it to an e-mail, and addressed it to two of his friends that lived in Jason's town, and hit send. Kathy and Sue looked at the computer screen. "Oh, shit," Kathy said. There, in an e-mail, that had been forwarded over and over again, probably to three quarters of their classmates already, if not all, was a picture of Jason standing next to Julie. Jason was wearing a one-piece bathing suit, with long hair, and of course breasts. The caption clearly labeled it as Jason, and while that might have been questionable, there was no question that it was Julie, and since people knew full well that the two were dating, no one was going to question it. The phone rang. "Hello John. Yes, I just got it. No, I don't think it is doctored. Look, come on over, we can talk it through here. Kathy is here too," Sue said. "Oh this is going to be fun. He is not a happy guy right now." "I'm sure he isn't." A little while later, John was sitting in Sue's kitchen. "What the heck is going on? Did you know about this?" Sue sighed. "Yes, we figured it out a few weeks ago." "And you didn't tell me!" John said. "John, it had nothing to do with you and it was too risky for Jason. It would have been better for him, if we had not figured it out. I don't betray my friends." "But you know everyone is going to assume that I knew! They're going to think that I'm gay." "But you are not gay and Jason isn't either. He is not interested in boys. He and Julie really are together," Sue said. Kathy had been quiet till now but she said, "Look, Jason has been your best friend for years. If it wasn't for Julie and him getting together, you would not have Sue here, have you forgotten that. The fact is, it was because Julie found out about Jason that they got together in the first place. She likes it. Jason is a great guy and by the way, a nice girl too. So are you going to be a friend, or are you going to turn your back on him." "I don't know. I don't know what to think. I've known him most of my life and we have been friends forever. We have shared a room together and this whole time he has kept this to himself. I feel like he has been lying to me our whole lives." Sue said, "John, I understand, but try to put yourself in his place. You know how people are going to react to this. He only told his parents a few months ago, he surely couldn't have told you before them. He didn't tell Julie, or us, we caught him. Julie saw him buying girls shoes with his mother and remember we told you that they had told us that he had a cousin Kelly, well he is Kelly. He fought this for years and is only now coming to terms with it himself. Please John, give him a chance. They will be home tomorrow; he's going to need all the friends he has." John looked at them both, let out a sigh and said, "Ok, I'll try." Chapter 44 They pulled into Julie's driveway. The whole town knew about Jason. Her mother had called last night, after having been called by one of her friends. Her mother originally wanted to come up and get Julie and bring her home right then. However, considering the hour, and the fact that they were coming home in the morning anyway, she consented to allow her to stay the one final night. Her mother would not listen to her attempts to explain. After much discussion, Julie had told Jason's parents that they could push her mother to talk to her about her own sexuality. Richard opened the trunk and got Julie's bag out. The front door opened and Julie's mother came out. She was clearly upset. "Julie, go inside," she said. She started to reply, but her mother cut her off, "Don't say a word. Go inside, now." "You and Kristine have a lot of nerve. How could you keep this a secret from Ken and me? We trusted you to keep Julie safe." "She was safe." "Oh... then why is she in a picture with your son dressed up like a girl? What does that make her and how safe will she be in school. What chance will she have to find a real boyfriend? No boy will want to be with her now, because everyone will assume they are gay, like your son." "Jason is not gay. He is transgendered. There is a difference. Trust me we are all just as upset as you are about that picture being circulated. The one thing I do know is that Jason is going to hold his head up high and face it. You need to speak with your daughter and listen to her. There is a reason that she and Jason came together. I know you know what I'm talking about, because Ken told me about your concerns. I'm sorry that Julie has been brought into this and we will do whatever is necessary to protect them both. I know you don't think so right now, but we have come to really care for Julie, we don't want her hurt, any more than you do." "You and your family will stay away from Julie. Do you hear me?" "Yes, I hear you. Speak to her." Richard closed the trunk, got into the car and drove away. Julie's mother went inside and sent Brian out to get Julie's bags. She went up to Julie's room and found her lying on the bed crying. "Julie. You are not to go anywhere near that boy again. You stay away from him; you don't talk to him, no e-mails, no contact. He does not exist, do you understand?" Julie sat up, looked at her mother and said, "No. I understand, but no. I will not desert him. Especially now, when he is going to need me the most." "Julie this is not open to negotiation. You will not have contact with Jason." "You're right about one thing; it is not open to negotiation, I am not going to turn on him." "Julie, you have already seriously damaged your reputation. It's going to be difficult to overcome this and until you do, no boy is going to want anything to do with you. The longer you stay with him the harder that will be." "I don't want any boys. I have never wanted a boy. Don't you understand; I don't like boys that way. I don't like girls that way either. That is what got me interested in Jason in the first place. I caught him buying girls shoes and it was like a whole world opened up for me. I confronted him with it and that is why I got invited to their house that first night. So his mother could find out if I was going to use that information to hurt him. I used to think I was going to be alone my whole life, than I met Jason. I don't know if he and I will still be together when we get older, but I know what I am looking for now." Julie's mother looked like she had been punched in the stomach. "You don't like boys? So you are gay?" "I don't know Mom. I don't like boys, I kind of like girls, though I'm a little bit grossed out by the thought of touching a girl down there. Though not as much as the idea of being with a boy. Yuck. But Jason is a little bit of both and I have to tell you, I really like that." "Julie, you are too young to know that. You just think you're gay." "You're not listening Mom. I don't think anything, but I know how I feel. It isn't going to change. I know you love me Mom and I know you don't like things that are outside the norm, but you are going to have to accept me as I am. You know, one thing I did learn from the Andersons, they accept people as they are. Mr. Anderson had a lot of trouble with Kelly, but he never lost sight of the fact that he loved his child and that her happiness and well being were the most important thing. I hope that you and Daddy can open yourselves up to accept me. This is who I am, Mom. You can either accept me, or reject me, but you cannot change me." Julie lifted her head up as she was speaking. Her eyes watering, but defiant. "Julie..." "Mom, I love you, but that's the choice; accept me as I am, or reject me. Can you meet me part way? Are you willing to try to accept, I don't need unconditional acceptance this second. If you are willing to try, I have the phone number of Jason's psychologist. He can work with us as a family to help you and Daddy, and frankly me to learn to accept me. If you are not willing to try, then I will have to leave." Julie's mom sat down in Julie's desk chair. "Leave? Your fourteen years old, where do you think you would go. Did the Andersons put you up to this?" "No, they didn't. I'm sure they would give me a home though, while I tried to work things out with you and Daddy. But I also think that Kathy or Sue's parents would put me up. None of them would let me go live on the street. Should I leave?" "No, of course not Julie, I don't want you to leave, and neither would your father. I don't know what to think. I'm very upset about this picture and I'm furious that the Andersons knew about this and did not think it was something we should know about." "Mom, they did not have much choice. I made them promise and they could not tell you without putting Jason at risk. They had to trust me and I had to trust them." "They still should have told us." "Mom, they couldn't. Please, can we call them and arrange to get together and clear the air. We're all going to need each other to get through this. The whole town knows about Kelly and me. Kelly is going to have a really tough time of it. Now that it is out, I think that Kelly is going to go full time. She has nothing left to hide." "I don't know... Damn, oh alright, I will call them." "Thank you Mom. I do love you, I hope you know that." "I do, Julie. I love you too. Do you have any more secrets I need to know about?" "No, I think this one is big enough."