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The Society
By Lauren Summers
Chapter 1 - Help
I just couldn't go on with it anymore, I felt like a total failure as a
man and knew I had to do something about my situation; I was beginning to
feel quite depressed about the whole situation of these male and female
feelings rattling around in my brain. The constant cycles of dressing,
purging then shopping again had taken their toll on me and I was in
desperate need of help. Finally I took the plunge and decided to call
someone and ask for help, this takes a great deal of courage especially
when you are telling them you're most intimate secrets. But as we all
know the journey of a thousand miles begins with that first step, and I
knew I had to sort it out. I had seen their site posted on the internet
and as it was somewhat local to me, plus they offered private counselling
and other services I took the decision to call them.
So it was that after my initial call to the society I found myself
attending a private meeting with Dr Tina Moss who was a councillor for
the society at their offices, in a rather small manor house on the
outskirts of a small Cambridgeshire town. Tina explained what the society
was about, "The purpose of the society or an association as I like call
it, is a place where those who cross-dress have access to a means of help
and communication between staff and members, so that all the stress and
guilt can be removed and give them a stable base of information and
instruction so as to form a basis for which ever direction or path is
right for you". She further explained what they did and the more social
aspect of what the group did. Then it was my turn to be open and honest
with her. "I am a transvestite, I think I have been all my life, I enjoy
wearing women's clothes, I enjoy fashion, make-up and beauty, in fact the
whole female package. But then there is my work person where I exist in
my male role and can function here for a period of time before compulsion
and stress drives me back to my female side". "Do you have a pill to cure
me" I asked with a smile. Tina smiled and said "thank you for be honest,
and now let me be honest with you, in simple terms no - there is no pill,
but what we can do is help you to manage this situation so you will start
to feel better, and I can assure you that you will".
The meeting concluded after an hour and half and I was asked to return
for a day of testing, both psychometric and medical. She explained that
this would help her and the other staff members map out my life choices
or roadmap as she called it. I was a little concerned at the medical
testing but she explained that for safety grounds it was a requirement.
But at the end of the meeting on the whole I was very relived , to have
been able to discuss with a real woman, how I felt and know that she was
not going to chastise me in anyway for being honest and truthful about my
feelings and circumstances was literally a huge weight off my mind. But
she caught me off guard just before i left when she asked me to bring
some of my clothes to change into next time, she said it was part of
seeing the female persona that I projected, and not to worry about makeup
and hair they would cover that part. I did felt a little scared at this
because I was going to be dressed in women's clothes in front of them
next time but I figured it was required.
I returned a week latter for a day of testing and was met by Tina who
escorted round the office and introduced me to some of the staff I would
be seeing latter that day. After the tour we sat down and had coffee and
discussed if I had any issues or questions based on our last meeting or
what I had seen so far today. My only real question was regarding the
fees for my treatment and the tests I was to undergo, but Tina explained
that they were a charity and had donations from wealthy individuals and
that their work with the media and press brought in a steady stream of
income, although I could donate if I wanted to at the end of my diagnosis
and consultation if I liked.
The first test was my medical; Dr Rebecca Shaw took down all my details,
weight, height, eye colour, and many more. I was measured all over, then
she proceeded to do a blood and pressure test, urine, and the dreaded
anal and cough test. She explained that all this testing was a
requirement to ensure the staff and members were not at any risk from
disease as well as the patient, and that given that the stress caused by
my situation it had not harmed me in anyway , I felt reassured by this
statement . The questions continued, I was asked a series of medical
question regarding my life so far, had I ever taken drugs, had any
serious illness, been in hospital, the questions were endless. But
finally just after midday she said we were done, and she would start
processing the information. Obviously any one after this battery of test
and questions would have some small doubt, but she made me feel at ease,
and said it will all be in the report in a couple of days and not to
worry.
After lunch it was time to start a serious of written test, all of the
multi-choice verity and with a couple of the dreaded rapid answer
psychometric types thrown in. I was left at a small desk in a room of the
entrance hall with the papers and allowed three hours to answer all the
questions, one of the papers was very interesting as its questions were
aimed at trying to identify which category I fitted into. But after a
hundred or so questions latter, I had no idea and had given up trying to
read between the lines. Finally just after four I put my pen down and
returned to Tina's office with the test papers. We had afternoon tea and
we chatted about the day so far then she escorted meet Ms Carol Lee who
was their beauty and image consultant, she would help me dress and then
assist me with my appearance prior to my final interview with a Dr Shaw
and Tina.
Carol put me at ease straight away, chatting about what kind of clothes I
liked to wear, where I shopped, what colour wigs I had at home,
basically she was extremely kind at put me at ease before I had to
undress and show her what I had brought. I was concerned but really
shouldn't have been she loved it, I had packed a plain red wrap around
dress with long sleeves, black boots with small heels and a plain pair of
red panties with matching bra. Having got changed, she again chatted as
she worked her wonders on me her makeup skills. Started to imagined
what real girlie chats must be like and in no time at all she was done.
Finally she produced a medium length black wig which had bangs that
cascaded on to my shoulders; it was a very good match. "You look amazing"
she said, and I agreed she had done a better job than I could. "Yes, but
you have an eye for style and what suits you" she replied. I thanked her
and with that we were on our way up the corridor to Dr Shaw's office.
I was momentarily taken aback as I walked in because, as it turned out Dr
Lucas Croft was a man, I had not seen any men on my tour or during lunch,
but Tina was also their and she lead me to the settee and made sure I was
comfortable. Dr Croft then gave me what I assumed was his standard
welcome speech and explained that he was very happy to see me here and
that he was very pleased that I had taken the decision to seek support
explaining some of the more unfortunate cases he had worked on outside of
the society were men had been unable to face up to the truth about
themselves. Tina then took over and we started with a serious of light-
hearted questions before Dr Croft asked me some soul searching questions
including questions regarding my sexual orientation; "Did I like women,
did I like Men, had I ever had sex with Women, had I had sex with men". I
felt a little awkward but explained " I did like women but felt they just
didn't like me and that the relationships I had had in the past were
short and not very fulfilling to either party". "I have not had sex with
men and have never had any thoughts in this area". "When you are dressed
at home do you feel", relaxed I replied, "Do you masturbate", "yes
sometimes", "Do you take part in any online fantasies", "No i have not
done that", "What do you do on the web what interests you", "I look at
other trans-oriented sites, read maybe, mainly fiction or watch some
videos clips or look at pictures". "Do you imagine yourself or every
wonder what you would do if it was you in that scenario", yes sometime I
have". Although it was painfully personal I answered his questions
honestly for over an hour, but finally he said he was satisfied and that
he was sorry to ask such personal questions but it was essential for his
conclusion. He then thanked me and bid me farewell.
Tina escorted me back down the whole were a small gathering of women had
assembled, she explained that this was just a small social gathering of
members and that I was invited to stay for a while. I thanked her and she
left me to chat with someone else. But as soon as she had left me, Carol
appeared next to me and was curious to find out how I had got on with Dr
Croft, she smiled as I answered, "He can come across as a bit stuffy but
once you get to know him you will like him and his methods". I hope so I
replied. We chatted for about twenty minutes and then I asked her if I
could get changed and leave, "absolutely, you must be feeling a bit tired
from all this today", I replied that I was and she lead me back to her
room where I stripped, showered, and changed back into my male attire. I
said my goodbyes to Carol and then with Tina, whilst making an
appointment with her for my next visit and my results a week later.
Dr Croft turned off the video monitor on his desk, and sat back in his
chair. Moments later Tina poked her head round his door, "What do you
think", "I think she will be a perfect addition to our society", "Yes
that's exactly what I think ",Tina replied. "I know we can help him".
"Indeed we can" smiled Dr Croft, "indeed we can".
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