Preface: This is my first story. All kind of comments are welcome. This
is an Indian story and has a few lines in the local language and a few
regional words.
Intro
Riya looked at her reflection in the mirror and let out a deep breath.
The makeup girl was giving the final touches. . Her face was adorned with
jewels. A big nose ring which touched her red pouty lips. A maang-tika
which sat perfectly between her brown silky hairs. Big dangling jhumkas
decorated her ears. She looked at her hands which looked lovely in the
mehendi with bright red nail polish. For a moment she couldn't believe
its all true. It was all too hazy for her. Her chain of thoughts were
interrupted by a message alert on her phone. It was her soon to be
husband Amit. She blushed as she read "Lene tujhe o gori, a rahe hai tere
sajna". The makeup was complete by now. She got up and took many selfies
with her new friend Rekha. She sent the one with shades to Amit with
#kalachashma. Rekha reminded her that the cab is ready and they should
leave. Riya found it difficult to walk with the heavy lehenga and all
that jewellery but a part of her was cherishing this experience of being
a bride.
They started from the Makeup studio, Riya sat at the back and Rekha sat
next to the driver giving him directions to the wedding hall. It was
Wednesday evening and Gurgaon traffic was moving at a snail pace. Riya
started getting tensed again started typing a message to Amit: " We are
stuck in the traffic, why did you choose a Tuesday day for our wedding.
You could have choosen weekend but you had to do this and make me late".
It was followed by some angry smilies. The bangles filling her both hands
made sounds while she typed those messages angrily, she both loved and
hated these feminine sounds. She took a few deep breaths and remembered
how Neha used to get angry with him when things didn't work out as per
his plans. Yes, he alias Vaibhav alias Riya had a complete female mind
now and even giggled at her thoughts. She remembered Neha again:the
damsel who had proposed to Vaibhav: "She might have been my wife today,
sitting here in my place and me being the hunk Amit out to get her". She
felt pity for Vaibhav, how he still lives inside her, how he has gone
quiet nowdays and wondered what kind of life he might have had if things
were different today.
The Past:
Vaibhav had came early from the office today. He had completed his 6
month training in flying colours and was waiting to be assigned to a
project. His room mates were still in office and he thought that it would
be good time to watch some porn. He locked his door and opened the
incognito window of his browser and opened his favorite sites. He always
felt guilty whenever he watched porn. He had been masturbating for almost
10 years now but the guilt was still the same. He wondered if he would
feel guilty if he also watched normal porn just like the others but he
could never masturbate over normal porn, he needed a shemale/transgender
person to ejaculate. He would feel a great excitement at watching soft
shemale porn, reading tg fiction or even browsing profiles of various
transgenders on facebook. Daily he used to search for news of people who
had sex change. It was an addiction and his common sense was switched off
during these hours.
The porn session lasted till 2 hours and was broken when his roommate was
back, who shouted "Dude, leave some porn for later and open the door
now". Vaibhav hurriedly closed the 20 tabs he had opened and made a
sleepy face while opening the door. He came back and called up his
girlfriend Neha. They had met around 4 months ago.
It all started during the training session where they were introduced by
common friends. His friend had told him that Neha had a crush on him and
almost forced him to ask her out. He never had a girlfriend before and
obviously thought that it was all a joke. Vaibhav never believed that any
girl could be attracted towards him. He had lived his whole life alone,
his school was all boys and he was a mechanical engineer which meant that
he had almost no interaction with girls. His college was also in the
same
city. Although he was physically fine, 5'10' little under weight but he
was normal in every other sense except that he admired feminine beauty
in a way different than his friends. He had thoughts about cross-dressing
but he never acknowledged them. So when he had his first date with Neha,
it gave a good confidence boost that he was just a normal guy. They
happily spent their nights in different cafes in Pune, he used to get
lost in her beautiful face and considered himself lucky.
Neha had just gotten out of a 3 year old abusive relationship. Her old bf
still used to get drunk and call her at night to abuse. He had even
beaten her many times. When she first saw the gentle, polite and simple
Vaibhav, she had an instant crush on him. They had hung out with common
friends and Vaibhav was always appeared cool and happy. One night, she
told one of her friends about having a crush on Vaibhav and the news
reached Vaibhav soon. When he had called asking her out for a date, she
was elated and called up all of her friends to inform of this new
development. Soon they became a couple and were together throughout the
training. She had cried for 2 days when the final posting came after
training and they were posted in different cities: she in Bangalore and
he was posted at a factory in outskirts of Gurgaon. It was a tough time
but they had no other choice. They soon got busy in their lives in
different cities but skype and calls kept them together. Vaibhav was
planning to visit bangalore but his salary was barely enough to survive
in a big city and the plans kept getting delayed.
Apart from a few kisses they had never gotten physical. During training
on one of the long weekends, Neha had repeatedly dropped hints that she
was ready to go anywhere alone with Vaibhav. But he ignored these hints
partly because he was not sure about himself and he was bad at reading
hints. It was all too new for him. Now over the phone they used to have
some dirty talks but he never got an erection from thinking about her
body or even seeing her naked on skype. He always needed his tg porn to
get an erection. He used to open a few windows of porn while talking with
her to get an erection. He felt really shameful about his habbit but he
had no control over it. Hours of sexting and watching her naked on skype
kept his organ limp but one good video of his favorite tg star and he was
hard as a rock.
They finally met after 8 months when Vaibhav had saved enough for a 3 day
trip on Neha's birthday. He lied to everyone at home about having an
interview at Bangalore and spent a whole week purchasing gifts for her.
He reached there after the gruelling 32 hr train journey. He booked a cab
and went straight to her flat. He couldn't hold his tears when he saw
her
in that green and red suit, waving frantically with the biggest grin.
They hugged for almost a minute and went straight to her room where
birthday celebrations were done. She hadn't expected Vaibhav to bring so
many gifts and she was really excited about the night. She had even
purchased a condom if the need arises as she knew Vaibhav was too naive.
Vaibhav had initially planned to stay in a hotel but Neha's roommates
happily accommodated Vaibhav for their special day and gave the couple
their much needed room. As soon as they were alone Vaibhav started
kissing her lips. He wanted to get as wild as possible tonight and wanted
to boast of this night to his friends. The kisses moved downstairs and
he
started playing with her boobs. He tried to push them out of the top and
bra and even bit them. Neha loved this and took off her top and now she
was only in bra. He loved this sight and started kissing again and took
of his clothes. Neha was a bit sad at seeing his limp dick. But he was
making it up with his tongue which was all over her body. He asked her to
take off her bra and played with her boobs for while and then kissed all
over her stomach. He then touched her pussy and gave it a little rub.
She
felt a surge of pleasure. He unhooked her jeans and slid her panties and
enjoyed the lovely sight of her vagina. He started kissing all over the
vagina and soon Neha was moaning with pleasure. Vaibhav was trying his
best to makeup for his dick which was still dead. He kept cursing
himself. Neha waited for him to unleash his dick on her but it didn't
happen. Finally, she took the matters in her hands and asked him to lie
down. He nervously obeyed her, she felt angry after seeing his limp 2'
organ and went down from a blowjob. He felt a little pleasure but all he
could get was a very soft erection. Neha tried to rub her vagina over
this but it wouldn't go inside. She was left unsatisfied and irritated.
and gave up after half an hour of trying. Vaibhav was buried in his guilt
by now and kept cursing himself. He had never felt this embarrassed in
his life. They talked for an hour after which she was again ready for
another round but Vaibhav had given up by now. He couldn't speak anything
and somehow avoided breaking down. He feigned tiredness from a long
journey and slept.
Neha couldn't sleep at all for the whole night, she had tried ignore the
fact that Vaibhav's dick was almost half of that of her always horn ex-
bf. But she failed to understand why Vaibhav couldn't get it up. She was
pretty by all standards and had admirers everywhere from the society
building to her office yoga group. It had to be Vaibhav, how can a guy
sleep so quickly after getting a naked lady for the first time in his
life. She remembered how her ex wouldn't even let her rest after 4 times
when she had lost her virginity. She had big doubts about Vaibhav now.
Was he secretly gay ? Or he has some health issue. She cannot possibly
ruin her life by marrying a gay or a diseased man.
She could have dealt with all of his health issues if they were already
married but why would she knowingly enter into a relationship knowing all
this before. It was like walking into a trap knowingly. All of her love
for Vaibhav failed to convince her to continue this relation. She decide
to end this in the best way possible without hurting Vaibhav.
The next morning they wake up and had breakfast and spent the day
shopping and watched a movie. Vaibhav was trying to be extra romantic to
make up for the last night. She was trying her best to play the part of a
good girlfriend. By evening she starting complaining of getting cramps
and insisted on going home. She faked her periods and told Vaibhav to
book a hotel for himself. Vaibhav acted sad and angry but was happy that
he was saved this time. He went to meet her again the next day but she
kept lying on her bed for the whole day. She had told her roommates about
her plan to avoid Vaibhav and one of them asked Vaibhav to leave early
to
let her rest. Vaibhav, being a good guy thought of everything as truth
and left early. Initally they had planned that Neha would come to airport
to drop him off but as expected Neha was too sick. He went to her flat
and they had one final kiss and Vaibhav came back.
Neha started avoiding Vaibhav now. She was always busy in office work or
with her friends. Over the next year the call frequency dropped to
almost one few minutes call per day. Because of his guilt Vaibhav could
never confront Neha and kept agreeing to everything she said. They talked
whenever she wanted, Neha had almost no feelings left for Vaibhav. It
was
just a habbit of talking that kept them together. It was always a one-
sided conversation with Neha telling him about her problems. She was
least interested in his problems and always ignored him. Vaibhav had the
least priority in her life. She skilfully avoided any plans to meet.
Vaibhav remained busy in his masturbation and porn. He worked like a
zombie in office and worked enough to avoid being thrown out. His mind
and heart were always searching for new tg material. He couldn't help
himself but this was the only way to get rid of all the shame and
failures of his life. His social interactions were almost nil. But he
still loved Neha and cared about her. He blamed her for not giving enough
time to their relationship but he also knew that his failure to perform
was behind all this. He had never considered porn as a problem. For him
it was the only pleasure in life. He convinced himself that it was all
Neha's fault.
Finally, the dreaded day came. Neha had received a marriage proposal from
one her colleagues. She thought of giving Vaibhav a last chance but her
mind refused to ignore this new man, who was a good friend of hers for
the past one year and had often helped her in office work. His salary was
almost was almost double of her and Vaibhav combined together. Her life
would be so easy if she married this man. She decided to date this man.
This charming new man quickly occupied her life. All leftover feelings
and love for Vaibhav had disappeared now. Her phone was busy at night and
she never replied to Vaibhav. A distraught Vaibhav came to know about
this new relationship through a common friend. He had never been so
disturbed in his life. He felt these great surges of anger and
helplessness. He cried for the next few days and finally called Neha from
a different number. He started abusing her, called her a whore and cried
on the phone. She was in no mood to care about Vaibhav now. When she
could no longer take his abuses she shouted back: "If only you had a
working dick this would have never happened." Vaibhav almost collapsed on
hearing this. She told him that he had no place in her life now. Vaibhav
kept crying and she kept telling him how he was not manly enough for
her.
Vaibhav was completely torn and told her the truth about himself. He told
everything about his porn and masturbation problem. Neha was shocked but
she had no feelings left for Vaibhav to care enough. She told him if he
had told this earlier she would have helped him. But now she didn'care.
Vaibhav kept crying on the other hand. When the conversation ended, Neha
thanked the gods for saving her from all this. She was happy to have the
new man in her life. She hated Vaibhav even more now for lying to her
since the beginning. She decided to happily move on now.
Vaibhav kept crying that whole night. He became depressed and cared about
nothing in his life. He was appraised very poorly at office. The only
time he felt normal was when he searched for porn. He had no feelings
now, only cravings for more porn and more masturbation. Days spent doing
same old shit at office and nights spent for searching for newer tg
profiles and pics and stories.
He felt that he would die alone and was almost sure that even if he got
lucky and had an arrange marriage, his wife would leave her as soon as he
failed at sex again.
Even his younger brother had a gf now, he discovered his sexual escapades
through messages on his phone. He felt even more guilty now. How would
he
face the whole world. All of the other guys around him had no problems in
their sexual lives. They were all normal men who loved girls. But here
was he, caught in the web of tg fiction. He knew there were many others
like him from the internet. He often wondered if he was transgender but
he liked girls and had no feelings towards guys. Was he a lesbian
transgender ? What was he ? Yes, he longed to wear all feminine jewellery
and admired the transgenders who were bold enough to come out. How he
would love to have a payal in his feet, dangling earrings in his ears,
kamarband on his waist. Kangan on his hands, nose rings and even toe
rings. He loved those jewellery advertisements where women wore all kinds
of ornaments possible. But all these thoughts were limited to the time
he
wanted to masturbate. So he wondered about his sexuality.
For many days he tried to understand himself, and finally when his
parents started pressurizing him for marriage he sought the help of a
psychiatrist. He spent many days looking for the best counsellor and
finally settled for the one who had office the furthest from his home.
The counsellor was Mr. Kapoor, most of his patients were young men and
women with depression. He tried recommending medication wherever possible
as that gave him commission from medical shops. He also had few
experiences with transgenders, but those were effeminate guys who had no
doubts in their mind about sexuality. They were just looking for a stamp
to move on their final surgery. Almost all of these transgenders often
had decided on the clinics where they will have their further surgeries.
He had received promises of good commissions from these clinics for
recommending surgeries to these clients. And Mr. Kapoor had done that
without fail, for he had to pay for the rent and fees of his children. He
just ensured that the patients had no other ailments to safeguard
himself.
When Mr. Kapoor first saw Vaibhav, he thought of another work related
depression case. Initially Vaibhav told him that he was an addict but he
was very hesitant in telling the form of addiction. When Mr. Kapoor
insisted that they cannot make any progress until the addiction form is
disclosed, Vaibhav started crying uncontrollably. The doctor tried his
techniques and he calmed down and Vaibhav promised to open up in their
next session. Vaibhav felt lightness in his heart during his journey
back to the flat. He had still not decided on the next session but he
felt better somehow. Mr. Kapoor knew from his experience that this was a
case related to a sexuality.
Vaibhav came before time on their next appointment. Vaibhav was ready
this time and started from the beginning: from the first time to
masturbating over wanting to be bride, he didn't even knew it was called
masturbation back then. How he learned about transgender people and how
they excited him. How he became a hunter of tg material and just
masturbated his life away. He wanted to portray all this as an addiction.
He couldn't hold back his tears but this was the first time he had an
unbiased audience. Mr. Kapoor handled it like a professional, over the
years he had learnt to be balanced and firm towards all of his patients.
But this case tested his nerves. He felt sorry for this young man who
never knew who or what he was. How he has managed to have a job and a
relationship and still being something so different inside. The
appointment was over and Vaibhav was happy this time. He felt a new
energy in himself and was cheerful for the whole week. Mr Kapoor was
confused on the other side, he didn't knew what was right for Vaibhav, he
even consulted a few experts in this area who were his friends. Most of
them told him to earn commission by recommending Vaibhav as a
transgender. But Mr. Kapoor wanted Vaibhav to solve his addiction issues
first. If even after that he had these feelings then he would tell him
the truth.
On the next appointment, Vaibhav was told to stop watching porn and
replace his habits with other materials. It was very tough for him as he
had spent almost 15 years now, masturbating every day. Over the next two
months he could go for a maximum stretch for two weeks. Mr Kapoor was
getting frustrated at Vaibhav's progress. Vaibhav was again depressed
with his weak will power but it was like changing his whole life. Vaibhav
went good for 2-3 days but soon gave in to the intense cravings. Mr.
Kapoor had got calls from a few clinics enquiring about new transgender
patients but he had avoided them. Sometimes he thought he was wasting his
time with the weak willed Vaibhav. But he really wanted to help this man
both personally and professionally and they kept trying new ways to
fight
Vaibhavs addiction.
Six months later during an appointment, Vaibhav started crying again. He
had no control over himself and his life. One after another his friends
were settling down but he was cursed with this addiction. He was nothing
but an addict, a slave of his feelings of addiction. Mr. Kapoor decided
to try something he new. He called up his friends and arranged a meeting
of Vaibhav and one of the famous transgenders: Ms. Anu. Anu had
transitioned in her 30s. She was a state level boxer before she decided
to hang her gloves and become the woman she had always been inside. She
was tall and beautiful. But she never found true love after
transitioning. All the men in her life treated her as a fetish and wanted
to test her surgical organs. She had started helping young transgenders
and often met them to make them understand about the real problems of
post operative life.
Vaibhav had known about Anu for a long time. He stalked her facebook
profile often and was both worried and excited about meeting her. He even
thought of proposing her but that sounded stupid in his mind. They met
in
a cafe, Anu was dressed in a beautiful yellow suite with matching earring
and purse. Vaibhav felt excitement in his organ but controlled himself.
At first he was very nervous but Anu made him comfortable and told him
that he needs to accept himself. She patiently listened to his story. He
again tried to portray himself as an addict but Anu knew it all. She had
listened to such stories before and knew these were attempts at avoiding
acceptance. She told Vaibhav to be patient and promised friendship. She
invited Vaibhav to a transgender meet next week . He was angry at this
and insisted he was just an addict, not a transgender. Anu told the
invitation was open for him and he can do as he wishes. She handed over
her card to Vaibhav and departed.
Anu had met a lot of tg girls, she hated the kind of girls like Vaibhav
who keep fooling themselves and all other around them pretending to be
normal. She hated the word normal. She had seen the animals in perfect
normal men who treated life as a sexual pursuit. "Nobody is normal, its
all an act" she murmured under her breath and made a firm resolve to make
Vaibhav stop his pretence of being normal.
As she had expected, Vaibhav came on time for the meetup. There were
other girls and few tg admirers. Vaibhav had not expected any admirers
here. The girls also took him for one of their new admirers. He was very
feeling uncomfortable. But this was business for Anu, after leaving
boxing her earnings had dried up she earned too little from these tg
counselling sessions to maintain her lifestyle. Most of the people knew
she was a transgender and avoided giving her any real jobs. She had tried
working as a boxing trainer but people never took her seriously. She had
resorted to sex work before coming up with idea of TG meetups. All the
expenses were borne by the admirers. One of her long time sex client
hosted these meetings. The admirers were heavily charged. It was a good
outlet for some TG girls who were always in need of money for their
surgeries and some who just wanted a company.
Vaibhav was feeling very uncomfortable, he was introduced to everyone
jovially by Anu as both an admirer and transgender to which he quickly
clarified that he is just an admirer. Everyone had a good laugh at this.
Few of them knew Vaibhav's fate and enjoyed his nervousness while it
lasted. Vaibhav sat alone in a corner looking at these girls and their
admirers. All girls looked like decorated preys and he found a hunter in
all admirers who had lust in all their actions. Vaibhav felt sad at the
fate of these girls. Disowned by their families, boycotted by society and
government, still judged by draconian laws of 18th Century. A simple
raid here would give the police a chance to sexually harass them again
freely. Anu sent a girl to talk to Vaibhav, she introduced herself as
Priya. Priya was petite and beautiful and Vaibhav found no sign of a boy
in her. She introduced herself in fluent english. They shook hands,
Vaibhav felt mischief in her eyes and soon they were engaged in small
talks. Vaibhav felt comfortable now, Priya made no mention of her past
and Vaibhav didn't care to ask. They discussed topics from politics to
sports. They enjoyed their formal conversation. Priya was planning to do
MBA from a good institute and had a boyfriend. She had no plans to settle
down soon. Vaibhav admired her courage and confidence. Priya was helped
by Anu during her initial days and it was only for her that she still
came to these meetups. Priya invited Vaibhav to the bar where there were
a few people chatting away. Vaibhav greeted everyone and shook hands
with two other girls and three admirers. They were talking about a case
of police harassment faced by one of their friends.
Vaibhav focussed more on the drinks now, he was given some company by one
of the admirers named Amit who was a giant and must have been atleast
6'4'' tall, he had a receeding hairline, a bit of tummy but strong
muscular hands and broad shoulders. Vaibhav was the next tallest person
after him and Amit said that us giants should focus on drinks only.
Vaibhav laughed and had another shot. He joked about how the beer looked
like a cup in Amit's hand. They both laughed. Anu came and commented on
this new drunk friendship. She enjoyed a tequila shot with the hunks and
moved on to other clients. Vaibhav soon started feeling dizzy and decided
to leave. He tried to book a cab but his fingers betrayed him. Amit
laughed and asked him where he lived. Vaibhav hesitated but he had no
other option so he told him. He passed out soon after that.
Vaibhav woke up in an apartment. The bed was very comfortable. For a
moment he thought he was back at his home in Almora but soon he felt the
sharp headache and pain in his body. He removed the blanket and saw that
he was completely naked. He frantically started searching for his clothes
but found none. He opened the door and rushed to the drawing room where
he found Amit running on a treadmill with earphones. He thought of
slipping out silently but found Priya coming out of the kitchen with
breakfast. She laughed at the naked Vaibhav and told him how he had
passed out last night. Amit had carried him here and he had thrown away
all his clothes shouting that he was a girl and wanted to be free now.
Vaibhav felt like jumping out of the balcony. He could say nothing and
meekly asked for some clothes. Amit also joined the conversation and said
that it was difficult carrying him up naked through the emergency stairs
avoiding other people. Vaibhav thanked Amit again and again, he asked
for
some clothes so that he could go back and reach office on time. Amit
gave him a shirt but he couldn't find a pant which would fit Vaibhav. He
sat there on dining table and tried to cover himself up from Priya who
was constantly smiling and enjoying his ordeal. Amit told Vaibhav to take
leave for today and that he would drop him later that afternoon. Amit
was
a lawyer at High-court. Vaibhav had no option but waited with Priya who
was busy doing all the household chores. He tried to help her with
breakfast. Priya complimented him on these skills to which he replied
that living alone has taught him all the household chores. Priya and
Vaibhav decided to make Amit's favorite dish today as a gesture of
gratitude for his help yesterday.
By afternoon Vaibhav was comfortable in the new company, he learnt that
Priya and Amit were a couple earlier but she had no plans to settle down.
Whereas Amit wanted to settle down as soon as possible. Priya wanted to
study more and remain self-dependent but Amit wanted a housewife. Also
Priya was just 5'2'' and looked like a midget with Amit. She said that
Vaibhav had the perfect height to be Amit's partner. Vaibhav blushed at
this idea. They made butter chicken for lunch and Amit loved it. He
wished Vaibhav was his cook. Vaibhav joked that he would love to move
into such a comfortable apartment. Amit said that he was looking for a
partner as Priya would be moving out soon. Vaibhav sadly replied that he
could never afford the rent at such a high class apartment with his
current job. Priya interrupted and gave the idea that Amit could do all
the household chores and pay the same rent that he was paying in his
current apartment. Amit readily agreed and joked that if Vaibhav backed
out now he would kidnap him. Vaibhav felt like he had no choice, he
couldn't refuse a person who had almost saved his life yesterday. He
might have passed out in a cab or on a road somewhere but Amit saved him.
He only had respect for Amit in his mind right now.
Things moved quickly and soon Vaibhav found himself cooking and cleaning
at Amit's house. They shared the same bed but he got up early and
prepared breakfast and tea, served the tea and then took a bath. He
prepared the bath for Amit after his workout and prepared their lunch and
tiffins. Amit used to drop him daily in his BMW to his office. Vaibhav
came home earlier than Amit and prepared the dinner. His life had became
more organized now. He was always planning the next meal or chore and
started hating the office work. But he still took out time to masturbate.
He still met Dr. Kapoor who tried convincing Vaibhav to embrace his
sexuality. Vaibhav had never mentioned Amit, out of shame infront of Dr.
Kapoor. The doctor still tried to play his part and finally convinced
Amit to try crossdressing. If Vaibhav didn't like that it would be clear
to him and doctor that he was just an addict. But if he liked dressing as
a woman they would take things accordingly. Vaibhav had choosen a date
when Amit had to go out of the city to avoid embarrassment.
Anu was contacted and she happily obliged and took this responsibility.
Anu, Priya and Vaibhav went for shopping and brought a pair of bras,
panties, bangles, clip on earrings and some other artificial jewellery.
It was decided that Vaibhav would wear Anu's saree. A blue saree was
selected. Vaibhav took a months leave from his office to recover from his
feminine avtar. He was taken to a beauty parlour. He got a padicure,
manicure, some nail work and facial. He loved his soft features but his
manliness started troubling him. He asked Anu if it was right, she
replied that it would clear the doubts that he had since eternity. A
confused life will never give him peace. She reassured him and made him
ready for waxing and threading. Vaibhav couldn't bear all the pain and
had tears in his eyes. Priya told him that he can cry freely as a woman,
there is no shame in it. Vaibhav loved his smooth skin and this was
followed by a long makeup with nail polish, a wig and jewellery and After
this he went into changing room and wore the bra and panties. He was
unable to hook his bra and had to take help of Anu. The panties could
barely hold his manly organ inside. He wore the blouse and petticoat and
went out blushing and hiding his boobs. All girls laughed on seeing this.
After this wrapped in the beautiful saree. He looked at his reflection,
he thought he looked like a beautiful hijra. But somewhere he felt very
peaceful. He had feeling of satisfaction that he had always missed in his
life. They went home where Vaibhav did all his work in the saree. He
found it difficult to walk and work in saree. His movements were
restricted now, he had to take short steps, he had to hold things
differently. He loved how his earrings brushed against his neck. The
feeling of bra. He was intoxicated with his femininity. Anu and Priya
left later in the evening. The new girl was free now. She watched few TV
serials and felt sleepy. She changed into the new pink night gown and
decided to sleep with all his makeup on.
The next morning she felt someone sitting next to him. He opened his eyes
and saw Amit admiring her. She felt really ashamed and blushed and tried
to speak but words failed him. Amit said that "My trip was cut short and
I entered through my duplicate key. At first I was confused seeing a
beautiful woman sleeping in my bed but then I recognized you." He then
got up and said "Anu had told me about your problems. Its your life
Vaibhav but I think you would make an amazing girl. Any guy would be
lucky to have you. I hope you find peace soon" Vaibhav just sat there
dumbfounded with his head burried in his hands. He felt like throwing all
his feminine clothing out and cursed his fate. He wished he was just a
normal guy. For a long time he just sat there. Amit entered with a coffee
cup.
Vaibhav took the cup and started sipping the coffee. Amit sat next to him
and started reading a novel. He kept staring at Amit, wondering if he
was
behind all this but then he felt guilty about doubting the man who had
always helped him. Even today he could have thrown him out and called him
a sissy but he accepted everything. Amit spoke again "So how do you
feel?" Vaibhav honestly replied "I feel an inner peace which I have never
felt before". Amit told him to continue this for a few more days.
Vaibhav
had already decided the same. Amit continued "But I cannot call you
Vaibhav in these clothes. I'd rather call you Riya" Vaibhav laughed and
accepted the name given by Amit. Riya was a beautiful name. Riya informed
her friends Anu and Priya about her new name. Riya stayed for a whole
fortnight. He even went to Dr. Kapoor dressed as Riya. Dr Kapoor almost
didn't recognize her. He noted the changes and recommended what Riya
already knew. He should take the next step. Riya was told to begin HRT.
Vaibhav her male ego, again stepped in and asked if it was reversible and
safe but Riya wanted to stay.
It was decided that Vaibhav would take 1 year sabbatical from work and
undergo HRT. Amit readily agreed to support her. He had developed
feelings for Riya but he never showed them. Riya started the daily
tablets and injections. Her skin was getting softer and her libido
diminished. The next month she felt an increased sensation on his chest
and she loved the little sensitive lumps. She had already purchased the
training bra and was waiting for the day they breasts were big enough.
She also started admiring Amit even more. She was just like his housewife
now. She did all the household and kept herself pretty. She learned how
to take care of her nails which were now long and beautiful. Few months
later her hairs reached her shoulders and she loved keeping them in a
bun.
Her wardrobe has also increased. Almost half of whatever Vaibhav had in
his bank accounts was spent in buying clothes and accessories for Riya.
Beautiful suits, night gowns and undergarments. Priya often accompanied
her on these weekend shopping sprees. On her birthday Amit had gifted her
a gold set and she had cried on seeing it. Riya had kissed Amit on his
cheeks in excitement that day. It was the 7th month when the nipples had
became too sensitive and had to be covered in bra. Although the bra made
her comfortable but she waited to take them off at night so that she
could sleep freely.
Soon, it was Amit's birthday and she was unable to decide the gift. She
asked Priya for tips who suggested an iphone. But she wanted to do
something different for her best friend. She decided to gift him a watch
finally and planned the whole day. She wanted to dressup in a beautiful
yellow chiffon saree. It was almost his birthday eve before she could
finish all the preparations. She finally took a bath and waited for Amit
to be back. Anu, Priya and Rohit, his childhood buddy would come at 12 to
complete the surprise.
Amit came back as usual at 10PM. A drop dead gorgeous woman greeted him
at the door. She was Vaibhav dressed in a beautiful yellow saree. He
spent a few minutes just watching the beautiful girl infront of him. No
one could doubt that Riya wasn't a girl now. He was amazed at how Riya
had embraced all the feminine mannerisms. She was still infront of him
smiling with a tilted neck. How he could read love in her eyes which were
decorated by a thick kajal. Riya said "Do you want to come inside or not
?" It was Amit's turn to be embarrassed now. Riya enjoyed teasing him.
She then remembered that Amit would be hungry. So she went into the
kitchen and asked him to freshen up and wait at Dining table. Amit
pretended to listen to her while enjoying her beauty. He just wanted to
hug this beautiful woman and make her his wife forever. He liked
transgender girls but never thought Vaibhav would become so beautiful.
Initially he had helped him because felt bad for the confused boy. But as
Riya appeared and Vaibhav disappeared he started getting more and more
attracted towards her. He decided that he would profess his love tonight
and propose her for marriage before the end of the year before Vaibhav
comes back and tries to take her away.
Riya was preparing warm Chapatis for Amit. Vaibhav was shouting at the
back her mind "What am I doing trapped in this body. I am a man for gods
sake. I dont want to be trapped in this house with a man. I am a man
myself" Riya felt tensed for a moment but she had learnt to deal with
these outrages over the past six months. She was free now and loved her
new life. A part of her felt trapped with Amit's gratitude and wondered
how she will ever live without his support. What job she would do
afterwards. But she focused back on Amit's birthday. She watched as Amit
enjoyed her hand made dinner. Amit ate almost all the food and she
happily served him everything. She even lied so that Amit could eat as
much as he wanted. She sat watching Amit who was staring back at her.
After dinner he made her sit next to him on the sofa and grabbed her
waist. Vaibhav started getting tensed again but Riya was lost in the
moment she gave in to the advances and buried herself in Amit's arms. She
sat on top of Amit. They sat in each others arms for what felt like
forever. He finally lifted her face and kissed her on the lips and the
clock struck 12. The door opened and all their friends caught them with
their lips locked. Riya felt really ashamed but everyone gathered around
Amit which gave her the space to gather herself. Amit cut the cake and
gave the first bite to his love. They had a blast and everyone left after
some time. Amit loved the watch gifted by Riya. She changed into her
night gown and prepared for the bed.
Today, Riya felt ashamed at sleeping next to Amit. Amit sat there smiling
and she walked in shyly. Amit got up and hugged her again and said " I
love you Riya". She couldn't believe her ears and started crying. Amit
consoled her and she buried herself in his chest. They kissed again and
Amit lifted her in her lap and took her to the bed. She held him tightly.
Amit quickly undressed himself and pounced on her now. She was reluctant
initially but it was Amit and she gave in soon and allowed Amit to have
her. He was kissing all over body and biting her nipples. She loved the
touch of the muscular body, she loved when he rubbed his rugged beard
over her soft skin. She focused on her breasts as she felt little
sensations at her limp dick. Her dick was just dead meat now. Amit
continued his blizzard of kisses and soon Riya had tears in her eyes.
Amit's hand touched her bottom now and he suddenly remembered that she
still had male organs. His senses returned and he controlled himself on
seeing Riya crying. She on the other hand felt guilty of not having a
vagina for her love. She tried to go down to give him a blowjob but Amit
stopped her and hugged her again
Amit whispered in her ears "I love you so much Riya and I cannot wait to
make you mine forever". Riya smiled back and told him: "But before that I
want to become a complete woman for you". Amit smiled back
mischievously:
"And I cannot wait to take away your virginity", she blushed and they
slept cuddling each other.
The Present
It was her wedding day. She had dreamt of becoming a bride ever since
she had first seen a bride almost 20 years ago. This long cherished dream
which Vaibhav had always kept hidden in some corner of his heart had
resurfaced with Riya and today it will come true. She would be dressed in
that beautiful backless red lehenga and choli for the main reception.
For
wedding rituals she will change to yellow saree and finally she will slip
into those sexy laced satin violet innerwear for her first night. She
had
spent the past six months searching shopping for this special day. Each
detail was meticulously planned with help of her friends and relatives.
Amit had also worked hard to get in perfect shape for today. His tummy
was replaced with abs. Riya had picked sherwani for him while he had
choosen her lehenga.
Riya got up and quickly completed her daily rituals. She had the longest
day of her life ahead. She took a bath and used the biggest dilater to
prepare her organ for the pounding tonight. She giggled while thinking
that this dilater would of no use from now onwards. She got dressed up
and checked her phone. There were wishes from everyone in the new family
and a single message from her mom: "All the best beta, I will always love
you no matter what". Riya wiped her tears and missed her mom. After
avoiding her family for almost an year, she came out to them via a
conference call. Her parents didn't even knew the meaning of the word
transgender. Her father has not talked to her since then and tells
everyone that his son died during a foreign trip. Her mother accepted her
after 3 months, she had came to visit her brother, Vikas who had stood
by
her like a pillar. Her mother was not able to recognize her son and had
even mistaken her for Vaibhav's gf. Her mother kept crying all the time.
Riya's mother was against the idea of a sex change operation. She thought
of everything as a phase which would pass and Vaibhav will go back to
being normal. She was completely distraught at the idea of the permanent
sex change which will make Vaibhav a eunuch. She told her not to trust
Amit who could leave her anytime, she pleaded with Riya to change her
decision and even tried black mailing her with death threats. Riya had
sent her back after a few days, if Vaibhav was there he would have never
gone against her parents but this was Ria who knew what she wanted. She
had came too far to go back.
She had gone ahead with the SRS at Thailand, Amit and Vikas took the best
care of her during this time. She had even called up Dr. Kapoor and
thanked him for everything before the operation. She went through all the
pain of surgeries and the hectic dilation schedule. Amit had tried to
get
a taste into her new vagina as soon as 2 months were over. But this time
she had firmly said no as she wanted their wedding night to be special.
Amit had no option but to wait till the D-day. On the insistence of Amit
she had agreed for breast implant and upgraded to a D-cup from her
natural B-cups. She loved her big boobs and how they bounced when she ran
on treadmill. She had always loved boobs and to have a pair just under
her eyes meant so much for her. The facial feminization surgery had
changed her facial features and it was tough to find traces of Vaibhav on
her face now.
Her chain of thoughts were broken by a call from Rekha, her sister in
law, who was coming to pick her up. Riya had lived with her brother since
her operation last year. No one in Amit's family was told the truth
about Riya. Most of them lived outside India and will hardly meet the
couple again after marriage. Rekha was to be with her Bhabhi through all
her bridal makeup. She also had to take pics every few mins and send to
Amit who could hardly hold his excitement for the wedding night. Riya
would reach there in an hour and she had to arrange all the clothes by
that time including all the jewellery. She had made a list and every item
was checked twice. Riya arrived and both of them reached the makeup
studio after having lunch.
Riya enjoyed each and every moment of her bridal makeup. She had seen a
lot of bridal makeup videos and had choosen this place and the package
after a lot of research. It was the high definition airbrush package from
a senior makeup artist. But even after all this she was unsure of the
and
kept advising her. Rekha was also helping them. Soon her face started
glowing like diamond. Her forehead was decorated with both small and
large bindis. The mascara and kajal made her eyes awesome and her lips
were glossed up. She took a few selfies pouting with Rekha. They moved on
to her nails now. She was having a hard time believing that these were
her own hands since bridal mehendi was applied on them. She was turned on
by her reflection in the mirror. The jewellery was added after this. Her
whole life was flashing in front of her eyes, all memories of Vaibhav
were making her nervous. She called up Vikas who told her about the
arrangements at the Wedding hall. Talking to him brought back their
childhood memories and she started crying. Vikas told her not to spoil
her costly makeup by crying. She giggled and gathered herself again.
She looked at her reflection in the mirror and let out a deep breath.
The makeup girl was giving the final touches. . Her face was adorned with
jewels. A big nose ring which touched her red pouty lips. A maang-tika
which sat perfectly between her brown silky hairs. Big dangling jhumkas
decorated her ears. She looked at her hands which looked lovely in the
mehendi with bright red nail polish. For a moment she couldn't believe
its all true. It was all too hazy for her. Her chain of thoughts were
interrupted by a message alert on her phone. It was her soon to be
husband Amit. She blushed as she read "Lene tujhe o gori, a rahe hai tere
sajna". The makeup was complete by now. She got up and took many selfies
with her new friend Rekha. She sent the one with shades to Amit with
#kalachashma. Rekha reminded her that the cab is ready and they should
leave. Riya found it difficult to walk with the heavy lehenga and all
that jewellery but a part of her was cherishing this experience of being
a bride.
They started from the Makeup studio, Riya sat at the back and Rekha sat
next to the driver giving him directions to the wedding hall. It was
Wednesday evening and Gurgaon traffic was moving at a snail pace. Riya
started getting tensed again started typing a message to Amit: " We are
stuck in the traffic, why did you choose a Tuesday day for our wedding.
You could have choosen weekend but you had to do this and make me late".
It was followed by some angry smilies. The bangles filling her both hands
made sounds while she typed those messages angrily, she both loved and
hated these feminine sounds. She took a few deep breaths and remembered
how Neha used to get angry with him when things didn't work out as per
his plans. Yes, he alias Vaibhav alias Riya had a complete female mind
now and even giggled at her thoughts. She remembered Neha again:the
damsel who had proposed to Vaibhav: "She might have been my wife today,
sitting here in my place and me being the hunk Amit out to get her". She
felt pity for Vaibhav, how he still lives inside her, how he has gone
quiet nowdays and wondered what kind of life he might have had if things
were different today.
They reached the venue on time. The barat had reached the gates and Riya
was taken to the bridal room. All her in-laws were present there. Her
mother in law kissed her forehead and Riya touched her feet. She asked
her to give her grandkids soon and everyone had a good laugh. She was
meeting many of her in-laws for the first time. The Barat had reached by
now and almost everyone went to see it. Only few of her friends and her
brother was there with his girlfriend. They were the only people from her
side. Riya controlled her emotions and posed for a lot of pics with
them.
Soon the call came that everything was ready for the Jaimal ceremony.
She was led by her brother to the wedding stage, Rekha, Anu, Priya and
few other girls accompanied her. Amit was completely awe-struck on seeing
Riya. He had seen the pics before but this he had not expected. A fairy
from heaven was walking towards him to be with him forever. His friends
told him that he had hit a jackpot but he just kept admiring her beauty
as she slowly came towards him. Riya also loved the sight of her love
Amit in that awesome sherwani. He looked like a prince today with a sword
and pagdi. As she reached the stage, Amit came down from the stage and
went down on his knees and took her hands. He carried her to the stage
where they exchanged the garlands. This was followed up by a long session
of pics with all the relatives. Afterwards they were lead to the dinner
table where they ate from each other hands. Riya had to move her nose
ring up as it was obstructing her mouth but she didn't want to remove for
even 1 second today.
She changed into the yellow saree and the main wedding ceremonies were
done. Her brother did her kanydaan and gave her away to Amit. He filled
her maang and tied the mangalsutra around her neck. She was his property
now. She started crying uncontrollably when the time came to leave
wedding hall. She cried for a long time with Vikas. Amit consoled her and
tried to cheer her up. They sat in a car and went to Amit's ancestral
home. Amit's mother was already there to receive the couple. After a lot
of ceremonies and rituals they were finally free. Riya was led to the
special room prepared for tonight. She was very tired from all the
rituals but still she was very excited about the day. She remembered her
night with Neha and thought about how fate had brought him in the
opposite end today. Was his failure to perform that night the main cause
of all this. Amit entered the room and closed the door behind him. He had
waited for a long time for tonight. Ever since Riya was born, he had
waited for this day.
Riya sat with head covered and hands around her legs. She was holding the
milk glass which she offered to Amit as he lied besides her. Amit lifted
removed the veil and led out a deep breath. He wanted to have a final
memory of Riya on this day and spent a few moments adoring her beauty.
She was still looking down and blushing. He lifted her chin up and bent
down to kiss her. The nose ring obstructed this kiss so he removed it
with own hands. He kissed her again and removed the saree while kissing
her. This exposed her new large boobs which made his male organ stiff as
a rock. He almost tore apart her blouse and bra and started biting her
boobs and nipples he pressed them as hard as he could and started kissing
her all over her beautiful face. He gave her multiple love bytes all
over
her shoulders and neck. He started rubbing his hard dick against lower
body and he pushed her back in missionary position.
There were waves of pleasure erupting in her body originating from her
breasts. She was completely buried under the large muscular body of Amit.
It was even hurting her at some places but she was loving each and every
bit of it. She led out soft moans as amit played with her boobs. She
longed to kiss his long thick male organ which was pressing against her
lower body. She whispered in his ears: "fuck me Amit, fuck me as hard as
you can". This unleashed the beast inside Amit. He removed her saree and
removed her petticoat. They were both completely naked now. The sight of
his dick made her lose her mind, she had dreamt about it ever since she
had started planning her wedding. And her it was in all its glory, a
thick 8'' tool, hard as a rock she wanted to fill her mouth it but Amit
wanted to fuck her first. So he started rubbing it against her clitoris.
He was careful to enough to insert it slowly at first. She led out a soft
moan of pleasure and pain when the hot dick entered her body. His dick
was huge and it was hurting her initially. None of her dilations had
prepared her for this. But the pleasure, oh the pleasure, Riya was
getting wave after wave of pleasure from each of his stroke. His strokes
starting getting faster and faster and so did the levels of pleasure in
Riya's body. The hot dick was hitting hard against her vaginal walls. She
felt heavenly and wanted the pleasure to never end. Her moans became
louder and louder and at one moment Amit had to cover her mouth to stop
her. Amit kept pounding her and Riya wrapped her legs around his body,
she buried her hands deep into back and started kissing him wildly. The
waves of pleasure had broken some pleasure barrier inside her body and
she felt ecstatic. She knew she had orgasmed. She felt so happy and felt
that all the pain was worth this pleasure. Amit also soon came inside her
and now her vagina was dripping with cum. Amit also lead out a loud moan
and crashed beside her on the bed. She kissed him again. They both were
too tired from all the rituals and decided to sleep.
Next morning she found herself in his arms. She carefully tried to getup
without waking up but the sounds of her bangles woke him up. He gave her
a large grin and caught her in his arms and said "you made me the
happiest man in the world yesterday". She replied " I want each day to be
better now. Only you me darling. Now let me go as everyone will be
waiting for me downstairs" He made a sad face and let her go. She quickly
gathered her clothes and went for the bath. She sat down in the washroom
to pee. There were cum stains all over her vagina. She missed peeing
standing up. She took a bath and got ready for her first day at sasural.
She felt Vaibhav staring at her from some corner when she applied the
sindoor on her forehead and wore a pink saree. She went out and woke up
her hubby with her wet hair. Amit grabbed her again and they kissed
again. Her lipstick was all over his face. She laughed and decided to
give a blowjob to her husband. He was still naked but his dick was still
sleeping. With a few kisses it was erect as a pole again. She thought of
it as an ice cream and tried licking it in every way possible, all the
porn videos that she had ever watched but not once had she thought that
one day she would use those poses here. Finally she took it all inside
and took it inside her mouth. She almost choked at one point. He finally
came in her mouth and she tasted sperm for the first time. He was almost
mad from the pleasure. He laughed at her face dripping with cum. She felt
really ashamed and ran to bathroom and took a bath again and brushed her
teeth as hard as she could. A voice shouted inside her "What have you
done Vaibhav ? How could you do this to yourself." She had left the door
open and amit entered and grabbed her from behind. She tried to calm
herself when Amit said: "You don't have to do it baby if you don't like
it. I will never force you" Riya covered his mouth and said "It was the
first time. I will get used to it honey".
She finally dressed up again as a newly wed bride with mangalsutra,
bindi, sindoor, toe rings, big earrings, nose ping, payal and a pink
saree. She covered her head and touched the feet of all elders. Her
mother in law joking asked about last night and said that her glowing
face was telling everything. Riya blushed again and hugged her new
mother. Her mother in law told her to get up early from tomorrow whenever
she is at home as there are a lot of household chores. Riya treid to
help
and did whatever she could but most of the people told her to rest. The
rest of the day passed quickly with all the guests leaving and by evening
she started packing for their honeymoon which began on the next day.
They
had the time of their lives in Mauritius. The days were spent in fun
activities like parasailing, snorkeling or diving and nights were filled
with wild sex. The week passed very quickly and soon they were back at
their apartment.
Although Amit had told her to start looking for a new job but Riya wanted
to remain a housewife for now. She didn't want to enter that corporate
world again. She was happy being a devoted wife to Amit. She woke up
before him, woke him up with tea. Prepared all the breakfast and did all
the cleaning. She prepared the lunch and always drove to Amit's office to
deliver his lunch. She loved her weekend trips to the beauty parlour and
loved getting her eyebrows plucked and nails shaped. Six months passed
and Riya was a full time housewife now. They had started thinking about
getting a child now. They went for a surrogate child with Amit's sperm..
The kid made her extremely busy. All day was spent in caring the child or
the father. Both Amit and Junior Amit were same in her eyes.
One of these days she received a letter addressed for Vaibhav. She became
extremely worried wondered who could be the sender as only a few people
new her past here. The letter read:
Hello Vaibhav,
I know you are reading this with your manicured nails, wearing a saree
with ornaments decorating your ears and nose. I know you love your visits
to the beauty parlour and how you love to be Amit's arm candy in all
social gatherings. Isn't a woman's life wonderful ? And to top that being
the trophy wife of a strong successful man. Even I am jealous of you
Riya
and believe me: half of the women who see you are jealous.
I still remember when I met you for the first time. You had fooled
yourself for your whole life trying to be a normal man for the society. I
had resolved on that day itself that I will end your pretence one day.
And look at what I did for you. Vaibhav would have never lived the kind
of life you have today. He would have still been in the same apartment,
working at the same company and sucked the same at life. He would have
spent his life masturbating to same old shit and probably died alone in a
single room apartment.
Yes it was me who turned you into a butterfly from a caterpillar. I made
you Riya. It was me who had convinced Dr. Kapoor to make you cross-dress
and you never looked back after that.
Yes Riya, it was also me who had arranged for the meeting between you and
Amit after Priya was leaving him and he had came to me looking for
someone. And do you remember when you woke up naked at his apartment. Yes
Riya, that idea was mine and we had drugged you and removed your
clothes.
Now that you know the truth, its upto you to decide what to do next. You
can go out and file a case against me and your husband and take your
revenge. Its a huge burden off my chest as I always felt bad cheating a
good guy like you. But now that I see you, I think I have done the best
thing that could ever happened to you.
Yours faithfully,
Anu Saxena
Riya wiped her tears and looked at Junior Amit staring at her and then
stared for a long time at the huge wedding pic of her and Amit at the
centre of their drawing room. She went to the kitchen where she was
preparing milk for her baby. She took the letter and burnt it on the Gas
burner. She picked the ashes of the letter and threw them down the
balcony and went inside to feed her baby again.