Synopsis
Rob Linwood, a rookie patrolman and son of a recently deceased former
cop with his own checkered past, is tricked into volunteering for
undercover street walker duty. The unexpected arrival of a mob boss -
with a grievance - at the corner where he has been placed, combined with
a potentially dangerous request, intentional misinformation being
shared, and the father's past catching up with the son, put the rookie
who now passes as an attractive female, into a life threatening
situation. There may be only one path to remaining alive, which recalls
an almost forgotten childhood dream, honors an old promise, and affects
the line of succession in the criminal organization. Rob did not want to
be a cop, but neither does he want to die.
Making of a Mafia Princess
Chapter 1
"Okay, Linwood, report to the undercover unit, vice squad, 3rd floor,"
I'm told by the duty sergeant as we leave the afternoon shift briefing
room in the precinct stationhouse.
Yes, sir" I reply and take a breath and exhale. What have I got myself
in for, I wonder, as I think back on how I got to this moment in my
life.
My father was a cop who wanted a son to follow in his footsteps,
preferably his first son. I was his second. Because of the mean,
sometimes brutal and unloving way he treated us, I never thought much of
him as a father, and definitely not as someone I would call my dad, nor
did my older brother, Joseph Jr. - or Joey - who ran away from home when
he was 17. He turned 18 before being 'caught' so he didn't have to go
back, which he didn't.
My father then decided that, regardless of my desires, I was now in line
to continue the family tradition and become a cop, too. I was the
'good' boy, I guess. But I knew I was probably too 'good' to be a good
cop. I understood that there were times you had to be a hardass, which
I knew I never could be. I also suppose in some deep recess of my mind
that I wanted him to love me, and maybe my yielding to his desires was
part of that, but I also doubted that even if I made it onto the force,
that love would ever come.
Of course, my father would say any number of times, "You're going to the
academy. They'll toughen you up. You'll turn out great, I just know."
It didn't, I didn't...and he didn't.
Besides Joey, I had both an older and a younger sister, Elena and
Angela, and truth be told, I enjoyed being around them a lot more than
around either my father or even my brother. I especially liked helping
my mother raise my younger sister, feeding her, playing with her,
helping change diapers even. And I was thrilled when my older sister
sometimes included me in her activities and with her childhood
girlfriends. They all thought I was 'cute', as I showed genuine
interest in what they were doing, without being obnoxious. I just felt
that I had more in common with them. Unfortunately, as I got older, that
all stopped, or more accurately, was stopped, rather abruptly and with a
lot of brutality by my father. What else was stopped were other dreams
and yearnings I had which I gave up, forcing myself to try to live the
life my father seemed to want of me.
I may have given my father grudging respect at times, reacted out of
pure fear other times, but from my earliest memories, I can never recall
loving him or him loving me, even as I did to some extent with my
mother, my brother, and my sisters. Any love shown by my father was
sadly minimal if not lacking, and that lack of love affected us all and
often prevented us from showing much to each other. How I wished that I
might be a part of another family where love was considered important,
where a father not only loved his children but respected them, and
showed that he actually cared about them as much if not more than
himself. I realized soon enough, it would never be part of my growing up
years.
My mother had been beaten down by my father so much regarding my brother
and me, that she seldom was able to stand up for us - which was part of
the reason my brother ran away - and then later for me. Our father did
let her raise her daughters as she saw fit. Of course, he issued some
restrictions regarding them that our mother was eventually able to get
around, but not so for us boys.
So she just learned to look away when our dad would whale on us. And I
learned to take the unfair punishments, the abuse and do what I was told
so maybe my father wouldn't beat me so much. He passed away after I was
accepted into the academy (he was on medical leave, was a heavy smoker
and died of cancer), but before I actually started. So to his dying day,
I was on track to be the successful son, following in his father's
footsteps as opposed to his loser other son, whom he swore would never
step foot in his house again. I didn't rejoice in his passing, but
neither did I mourn him. I just felt that now my mother could have a
decent life for a change. Now if only we could find her other son, my
brother Joey, and let him know he was welcome to return home.
It helped getting me into the academy, I'm guessing, that my father had
been a career officer of the law and knew the right people. He wasn't a
'by the book' man and there were many in the department who respected
him for getting the job done. The conviction rate of those he arrested
was consistently the highest in the department. The by the book ones,
just turned the other way so as not to be involved in case any crap hit
the fan, which considering - as I found out later - how my father
gathered 'evidence' or got confessions, was almost miraculously very
little.
But I was not my father, and as I also found out, he did have some, oh,
let's call them enemies, I suppose, on the force. And now that he had
passed away, I became the target of their enmity, and in a few cases,
hatred - can't get the father? Take it out on the son. Why not?
I probably was hazed a little more at the academy than most the trainees
by those who had had some issues with my father, but there were also
some who thought highly of him, so I survived. Once into street
training, it was a little different. Only a few in the precinct in
which I was stationed, harbored resentment, the others didn't really
care one way or the other as long as I did my job.
Maybe it was because his son was rejected for the academy that Patrick
Coogan, a ranking police officer assigned to the same precinct as I was,
hated me more so than any of the others. More than once, I'd pass him
in the hallway, and if no one was around, he'd mutter some sneer like,
"Hey, punk, stay the fuck out of my way," even if I was nowhere near
him. My father never talked about him directly in front of us boys, but
sometimes I'd overhear him and my mother and Coogan's name would come up
and my father would start using all kinds of expletives. Once on the
force, I did hear some rumors that Coogan flirted with many of the women
officers, even the married ones, and that he may have cheated on his
wife. But they were just rumors.
I was also aware that he was bad-mouthing me to anyone who would listen,
and as is often the case, a few would. I was unlucky in that once, I
had to ride with him in a patrol car. He told me in no uncertain
terms, "I'm watching you, punk. You just fuck up once, and I'll write
up a report so bad, you'll be bounced from the force in a New York
minute." The assignment was fairly uneventful, and thankfully, so far,
that was the only time.
But, I could only respond 'yes, sir', and try to do what I could or just
stay out of his way. It didn't make it easier for him, that I was not
like my father, but more a by the book officer, as I made sure to know
and put to use as much training as well as knowledge of the law and
regulations as I could. I could tell he was pissed when he couldn't
find anything serious on me. So what he did was, he'd scrutinize my
uniform, rifle my locker, look for any reports I had written, or
documents I handled that had even the smallest possible infraction and
shove them in my face, and then report them to our superiors.
Practically every complaint was dismissed, and the ones that weren't,
were easily rectified with a caution to be more careful. However, I
could see it wearing on the staff, and a good way to relieve that would
be to dismiss me since Coogan had so much tenure and support of the
union.
It also didn't help that Coogan and the duty sergeant were buddies, not
that close, but close enough. The Sarge didn't have personal feelings
for me one way or the other, I was just another rookie cop, but he had
seen the reports out of the academy and although I had passed, there was
concern that I wouldn't be tough enough to make it on the streets. So he
had few if any qualms after listening to Coogan's complaints, to put me
into potentially serious situations as a test, to see if I could handle
them. If not, I would probably have to resign, or be dismissed.
So, it came down to a few months into my on the street training, which I
was somehow passing, although barely, and we were in the assignment room
awaiting our orders for the afternoon shift.
"Okay, got some people out on sick leave and vacation, so we need a
volunteer for vice squad, streetwalker duty section," the Sergeant says,
and the room goes silent.
In the previous day or so, one of the other rookies who I only knew
casually, had mentioned to me that he heard that this kind of duty was a
piece of cake. And that it'd probably be good for any rookie, but
especially for those on the fence like me as there was little to no
chance of actually going undercover as a rookie cop. It would start,
most likely, with just backup assistance. After a moment of silence in
the room, and remembering that earlier conversation, I pipe up, in all
innocence, "Um, what does it entail?" as I barely notice that absolutely
no one has said a word, or even flinched. I did notice the Sergeant had
been focusing on me before I even said a word, but I didn't know what to
make of it.
He says, with a slight smile, quickly upon me finishing my question,
"Well, I think we have a volunteer. Not all that much, Linwood, you
dress up a little, stand on a corner, your partner will be just across
the street in an unmarked car, and you see if anyone is interested. They
make an arrest. Real simple. The undercover unit will fill you in on the
details."
"Hey, I didn't say I'd volunteer to do that," I protest.
"Too late, whoever speaks up first is the volunteer. Anyway, it'll look
good on your record that you volunteered."
"Um, I'm not so sure it's a good idea. I mean, I'm still in my
training."
"This'll be great training for you. Now enough of that, onto the next
piece of business. The Mayor will be attending a rally and needs a
protection unit. Any volunteers?"
About 10 raise their hands, as he says, "All we need is five, okay, you,
you, you, you, and you." He points at the various men.
Yeah! I guess I know which is the good duty and which is the not so
good. I also know that you don't belabor a point with the duty
sergeant. On the way out, I see that other rookie and Coogan talking
over to one side, and laughing a little. I have no time to think about
it.
So now I am reporting to the vice squad, still wondering what have I got
myself into.
After I get there and introduce myself, and still not feeling very good
about what's happening, it seems that they are somewhat pleased to see
me - or any volunteer, I would guess. They do question my experience
level, with me having only been on the streets for a few months.
The officer assigned to get me going, says, "Normally we don't put
rookies out there, but some things have come up, and, well, um, you,
you've got that...assignment." He barely looks at me as he is telling me
this.
Uh, oh, this is not what I was expecting, as he continues, "So, to make
it easier, we'll start you out on a quiet corner. See how you do.
Actually, if things work out right, this is not a bad detail. There's
always a good chance for commendations which can help with promotions.
Anyway, because of the work, the shift on the corner itself is only for
four or five actual hours. You'll need the rest of the time to get
yourself ready and get cleaned up."
"I hope it's not too bad. Is it just for one or two nights?"
"Nope, you're here for a couple of weeks, staffing issues. And if it
works out, maybe longer."
"Oh, great."
"Hey, it's not that bad. And you look like a natural, not really tall,
you have great features, you're still looking like you've got some baby
fat, you're slender, very light beard, and those high cheek bones and
um, interesting eyes, sort of a blue green, should work quite well, you
should pass easily, even better than some of the female officers here,
probably get a lot of johns interested. And a lot of arrests." I can
only roll my eyes.
I realize I have no choice as they help me dress up, very hookerish.
They apply creams to reduce my facial hair which I don't have much of
anyway, then apply lots of makeup, attach a long dark brown wig, put me
in hot pants, torn fishnet stockings, stiletto 4" heels, a red tank top,
vest, strapless bra with realistic inserts, panties with my member
gaffed, perfumed, carrying a decent sized handbag.
As they are dressing me, I recall some childhood memories that have long
been buried. Before my younger sister was really old enough to even
walk, my older sister badly wanted to play with her, so she substituted
me for her younger sister in her play activities. She would dress me up
like a girl in her outgrown clothes, and we'd have little parties, and
sometimes other girlfriends her age would come over and join in.
Dressed as I was, her friends would easily mistake me for just another
little girl, a sister, or cousin. I did not mind it at all as Elena
would even encourage the charade by giving me the name 'Robin'. Our
mother even helped a little seeing how happy I was and as long as our
father was nowhere around. Those times, of course, ended when he did
stumble on one of my times with Elena where I wasn't dressed, but I
still was severely punished. And of course, Angela soon was old enough
so that they now had each other as playmates, leaving me on the outside,
looking in.
With each article of clothing placed on me, I am reminded of the
enjoyable feelings I had back then when I could join in with my sister
and be accepted, and be treated pleasantly. But I also remember the
beatings and my vows to myself to never think of how much I enjoyed
being seen as a girl, much less even dressing up a little. And now, I'm
going way beyond that, and I find it a little frightening. What would
my father do to me if he saw me like this, I have to wonder?
With my mind drifting, they have to keep jolting me back to the present
as they say, "Rob? Rob! Come on now. We're helping the first few times,
but you'll have to be doing this yourself eventually, so pay attention.
After we finish this, we'll work on your voice a little."
I sigh, recalling and then dismissing those memories and faded dreams
from childhood, as I keep a straight face, and answer, "Okay, sorry.
Now, what were you saying?"
After coaching and a general briefing, we head to the street corner as
I'm again instructed on what to do. I'm very uncomfortable doing this.
So much might go wrong, I'm thinking. And looking at myself in a
mirror, I think, good lord, I do look like a prostitute, definitely not
a guy in drag, which was what I was originally worried about. And I get
the obligatory wolf whistles as I walk toward our vehicle.
This is all very unsettling to me because I'm now dressed and probably
will have a reasonably good chance at passing as a woman. Being in this
situation is not why I let myself be more or less coerced into becoming
a policeman. It's almost the exact opposite of where I was trying to
direct my life. And it's an internal fight to play the part, which is
what a rising to the surface part of me wants, while at the same time,
trying my best to remain a virile male with all the attendant
characteristics and expectations.
As we're going to the corner in an unmarked car, my partner, as is
standard, reminds me of most of what I've been told, "Keep your comm
unit on at all times. Don't get in the car with the john. Stay by the
window. Find out what he wants, a blow job, or something more. Ask $25
for a blowjob, and $100 for a fuck. If he agrees, ask to see the money.
Tell him he doesn't have to pay until it's agreed, but without seeing
the money, no deal. While he's getting that out, I'll quickly pull up
behind him, and we have him for soliciting. And you just back off.
Pretend like you don't know what's goin' on, in case anyone else is
lookin'. Stay alert, if it goes south, I may need help. But, keep the
comm unit on. If something goes wrong, we can always track you by that.
And keep your weapon totally hidden, only use it if things get out of
hand. Got it?"
"Uh huh, I guess."
We park part way down and before I walk back to the corner he says,
"I'll be parking just across the street away from the street lamp over
there," he points to across from where I'll be standing, "and we have a
backup within a block or two, so you have plenty of protection. You
look really good, we should be able to pick up two or three tonight at
least, maybe more."
"Um, don't these girls usually have some kind of a pimp? What do I do
if someone like that approaches?"
"I think that was mentioned but to refresh, if you suspect or find out,
give the code word, 'honeypie', and me and the back-up will be right
over. But this corner doesn't have a regular. We ran the last one here
in a few days ago, told her not to come back, and she's out and probably
elsewhere. So here we are, I think you'll do just fine."
"Okay, will do," I sigh a little as I walk the few steps to my assigned
place.
I stand a little back off the edge of the street, near the corner,
wondering if I'm doing the right thing, as my partner pulls away from
the curb and into the left lane to make a quick u-turn to park his
unmarked car across the street in the shadows a little. I notice one or
two other working girls down the street a little way. However, some
traffic coming against him seems to pop up out of almost nowhere, which
slows him down. And almost immediately as he is pulling away a big
black limo pulls up to the curb, now just a few feet from where I'm
standing, but I can't tell who's inside as the windows are all tinted,
and it's mostly dark now, with only the single street light nearby. At
the same time, about two or three cars pass by slowly, between the limo
and the unmarked squad car. That's a little surprising.
I'm also a little surprised by how soon a john has pulled up, almost
like he was waiting for me. I take a breath and walk over to the car
as a back window does start to roll down. I'm figuring by the time we
work something out, my partner will be ready to make the bust, or as
hopefully, this john will just drive away. I do wonder a little that
whoever is in the back seat is being chauffeured, and why would someone
that seemingly wealthy be looking for street sex. It takes all types, I
suppose. Anyway, I bend down to rest on the outside window sill and say
in as sexy a voice as I've been practicing, "So, sugar, what can I do
for you?"
At that moment, the front passenger door swings open very quickly as the
door I'm leaning against also starts to open, and a very large man
quickly gets out of the front seat, and grabbing me, throws me into the
back seat before I can do much of anything. Since I am expecting
absolutely none of this I'm taken by complete surprise. At least one
other man is waiting inside and immediately reaches for where I have my
comm unit like he knows all about it, grabs it, shuts it off and smashes
it. He also seems to know where my weapon is and takes that away from
me.
"There we go, boss, all taken care of," he says.
I'm barely inside the car as it quickly takes off, leaving me sprawled
on the floor seemingly entangled in several pairs of legs and feet.
It's been like maybe six to eight, maybe ten seconds at most, and last I
saw of my partner, he was still trying to make the u-turn with those
cars sort of blocking the view between us, and I can imagine that when
he does, he will look back over to where I was standing and see nobody.
He'll then try to radio, but no one will answer. He'll probably try to
track me down by foot, but there will be no trace of me. And with those
other cars around, he probably never even saw the limo. For all intents
and purposes, I have vanished. The only voice I hear is another deeper
one, saying to me, I assume, "Keep your fuckin' head down, bitch."
Which I do, as I was trying to at least steady myself.
Considering how I look and how they are treating me, it appears that
they just assume me to be a female undercover officer, and they also
appear to be now preparing to severely treat me as such. I am too
scared to think of anything else to do but what they demand of me. I
know enough to acquiesce in situations like this. It does help, I've
been trained, to prolong one's life. I'm then roughly brought to my
knees, and one of the men lashes my hands behind my back. Glancing
quickly at the three men, not trying to make any eye contact, I can see
that the two on the outside are probably in their 40's, the one in the
center in his 50's. All three are well-built and they are wearing
expensive suits, shoes, shirts, two are clean shaven, one with a small
mustache. He is the one in the middle and has dark hair and dark eyes,
a roundish face, receding hairline, a few wrinkles, a slightly darker
complexion, but it could be because he is tanned, I'm not sure.
This man in the middle, referred to as 'boss' says, "Ok, sweetheart,
here's how it's gonna be, we know you're a gal cop, so you're gonna suck
me off, and my two friends here, and then we'll let you go. We ain't
gonna rough ya up, no bruises or nothin' like that, but no funny
business, or it'll become real painful for ya. An' you go right back to
headquarters and tell 'em what went down. Unnerstan'?"
Quite terrified by what's happening, as he undoes his pants, I can only
nod my head, and murmur an 'Uh huh', as my eyes dart from one to the
other. My god, three blowjobs, this is really bad. In a moment, his
manhood is right in front of my face. From this position, it looks
huge.
"Now, open wide," he says as he grabs my head, shoves his penis deep
within my mouth so I almost gag, and begins pumping. I'm in a panic as
I'm scared to death, and besides what he's doing to me, I'm afraid they
may still find me out. And this is absolutely the first time I've ever
been even close to anything like this. He quickly sets up a rhythm
forcing my head to be a part of it. His grip is firm but not painful.
It feels like, with every thrust, he'll shove it down my throat and I'll
gag, but he pulls back just as it gets to that point, and then shoves it
in again. In a moment or two he cums, and as I feel the liquid slide
around in my mouth, I can barely swallow it as he keeps his penis firmly
planted there. I cough once or twice as he says, "That's right, bitch,
take it all. Great havin' a gal cop suck me off. Almost as good as
that other time. Maybe better." He laughs as he turns to the other two
men, who nod and smile back.
The car continues to drive around, and when he's finished, I'm roughly
pulled over to the second man and it starts all over again. Finally,
the third takes me, both as forceful as the first. I have little choice
but to comply, so I try not to think about what's happening to me. Of
course, that's almost impossible as I wonder what a girl would be
thinking, or doing if she were here. I just try to accept that this is
happening and hope that it will soon end, like a nightmare. Yet,
thinking back to my childhood dreams, I wonder how girls deal with this
kind of intimacy with someone they like, where it's voluntary. While I
realize there is one other option, I do decide that I certainly don't
like these men.
When the third finishes with me, the one in the middle grabs my head and
forcing me to look directly at him says, "Nothin' personal, sweetheart,
we're just sending a message to your unit. Tell your boss that we
didn't like 'em runnin' in the girl here last week. We got an agreement
and it better be honored. Next time we won't be so gentle. Got that?"
"Mmmm hmmm," I nod feeling quite numb about what has just happened. I
now wonder how I'm going to tell any of this to either my partner or
anyone back at the precinct station. I can imagine that it would be
easier if I were a female, although I surely wouldn't wish what has just
happened to anyone. I could just say they roughed me up a little, I
suppose. That would be enough.
"Good, now we'll drop you off a block from your corner, and we'll let
your partner know you're coming. But, ya know sweetcakes, you are kinda
cute. If you ever want to pick up hookin' on the side, come see me, I
think I can get you some high-class clientele, much better than the low
lifes you'll find here."
I nod in understanding and he says "No hard feelings, I hope."
I shake my head as I'm thinking they still do believe I'm a female. And
if I speak up too much, it might give me away. Regardless of what I've
just been forced to do, I'm inwardly greatly relieved that they're just
going to drop me off, and they haven't found my secret. I can live with
what happened, well, I have to, but at least I'll still be alive. I
just have to keep playing along.
All of a sudden the guy in the front seat who threw me into the car,
says, "Hey, boss, Coogan said we could all get at her. I get a turn,
right?"
The 'boss' in the back seat immediately turns violent, shaking his head
and pushing me to the floor, "You fuckin' idiot, now she knows our
contact. Shit...shit! Well, there goes that." And he signals the man
next to him who quickly hits me on the side of the head with something
hard and I suddenly see stars, followed within a second, by a huge pain,
and then followed immediately by me losing consciousness as I'm starting
to put it together that Coogan told them where I'd be and now I know way
too much, and I wonder if I'm to die now. Probably.
I come to in some kind of building, a house, a hotel, an office, I'm not
sure. It becomes quickly apparent that they have already found out some
from my id's and are planning on finding out more. I have no idea how
much they do know, only that I can't believe they think I have much if
any knowledge of anything important and I wonder if that will help or
hurt me.
I've been placed on a chair, with my hands tied behind my back over the
sides of the chair back, and my legs tied together. I slowly realize
that I'm still wearing the complete hooker outfit.
"Okay, come on, let's wake up now," I hear a voice saying as a hand
grabs my chin and is shaking my head a little. I also feel a little
cold water being splashed on my cheeks as I slowly regain consciousness.
"Ohhhhh," I moan, more than a little confused for a moment as to where I
am and what's happening. My head still feels quite sore from whatever
hit me up there.
The hand on my chin forces my face upwards so as I focus, I'm looking
directly into the eyes of the man I remember being in charge from the
car. What is going on? My last thoughts were that I would probably be
dead by now, yet somehow I'm still alive. But I'm thinking I'm probably
still in a really bad situation maybe more than I was in that car. I
notice there are two different men in the room beside the one talking to
me, different from the previous two in the car. And, they all look like
they could beat the crap out of me. Why do they need three, I wonder?
One of them walks behind me.
Good, you're awake," the 'boss' sighs and then continues as my eyes
focus on him a little more, "So, kid, here's the deal. The cunt that
used to be on that corner works for one of my pimps. Now, I do not
normally become involved in the business at this level, but I happened
to be in the neighborhood after talking to one of my associates and
based on some information we were given, felt I should see for myself.
I try to do the right thing, and make sure there's no trouble, and I've
nicely paid off the cops around there to not bother her or any others.
But, here they go, they run her in, lock her up for a while, and tell
her she can't work that corner no more. And then they replace her with
you. Without so much as a word to me or my associates, until we're given
certain information, which is a total surprise to us. That just ain't
right, you know what I mean?"
I just nod in agreement still not sure what is going on, shaking just a
little, and still having that pain.
"I mean, I pay a pretty hefty sum and I expect some kind of respect for
that. Am I not right?"
I nod again, not wanting to upset him in any way. But I'm not at all
sure where he is going with telling me this. He seems to be telling me
some of the workings of what I'm guessing is a criminal organization.
And that he's high up in this organization. Why am I so lucky? Will he
kill me after he finishes? I have no idea.
"So, once my associate let it out who the contact of that information
is, well, I really had no choice but to off you. Couldn't have you
runnin' back to the precinct knowin' that. Bad for business. And it
would have to be thought out, you bein' a cop. Can't just leave your
body lyin' about neither, also bad for business. Gotta be worked out
just right. But, my associate was correct, he had been promised, and to
make it up to him, we were gonna let him do you before we make you
disappear, forever. Imagine our surprise when he takes your panties
down and there is somethin' between your legs we was never expectin'."
He looks at me sort of funny, and I just murmur with a questioning look.
I'm confused now, really confused. Is he playing with me? He now knows
I'm a guy underneath, and he's told me a lot, Coogan's an informer,
there are payoffs going on, is he going to torture me? I am even more
terrified right now than I was before.
He laughs, "So we discover you're not a gal at all, but a guy cop and
from your ID's a real young one. And considerin' the way you look, and
how things went down, figure maybe we gotta learn a little more about
this, while we're decidin' how to get rid of your body. Anyway, pretty
good job they did on ya, kid. Now I gotta ask some questions, while we
figure all this out, so don't go tryin' any shit on me. Ya got that?"
"Uh huh." My god, he's still going to kill me. Gotta think of something
to do, to say, prolong it, maybe talk my way out of it. I don't want to
die.
"I just want ya ta know, this ain't personal. So, how long ya been on
the force?"
Just keep him asking questions, I guess, for now, "Um, I've been out of
the academy about two months?"
He does almost a double take with that, saying, "Two fuckin' months?
What the hell is goin' on here? A fuzz-faced pure rookie doin' street
walker duty? So, what're you doin' on street detail? You bein' punished
or some shit? They don't take no baby-faced rookie, that's for fuckin'
sure."
"Um, I was tricked into volunteering, and they liked how I looked, and
said, where they put me would be a real easy corner to start with?" I'm
now putting it together about that rookie who mentioned this as an easy
detail, and him talking to Coogan. I'm wondering if I was really set
up, based on what I now surmise.
"Hmmm, ya know, thinkin' this through, I can see that may be right," he
sighs, and looks into the distance and then turns back to me,"but geez,
kid, you had us all fooled, we all were convinced you was a real gal
cop. And probably the best lookin' one we ever seen. Weren't told at
all you'd be a guy. I wonder why?"
Got to keep talking, keep him wondering, I guess. I shrug my shoulders
and say, "I have no idea, I mean those on my shift knew, a few others
but I didn't tell anyone else." And as I am thinking more clearly now,
this has got to be Coogan's doing, I can see him trying to get me to the
corner, but why didn't he tell everything? Maybe that's why I'm still
alive. They were told or encouraged that I'd be a female and to take me
and have me give blow jobs. I can imagine what Coogan was hoping for.
But maybe if they knew it was a guy, I would've been beat up or
something worse instead. I can see Coogan wanting to humiliate me, but
not necessarily have me be seriously hurt. But the one guy giving
Coogan's name out changed all that, then they found out I was a guy, and
a little too young, and it all just didn't add up, so here I am.
"Oh, I know who told us about an undercover cop bein' there, and
suggesting what we might do, but we just assumed from what was said,
you'd be a gal cop, not a guy. I gotta wonder," he shakes his head,
"gotta wonder. So, anyway, what's your name again, kid?"
"Um, Linwood, Robert Linwood?"
He stares at me for a moment then says to the man behind me, "Darmi la
sua identificazione.", I see the man pass what looks like my police ID
card to the 'boss'.
He looks at me, saying, "Says Roberto here."
"Um, I go by Rob or Robert, but my mother was Italian and wanted that
name."
"Hmm, Italian," he nods with a slight smile, then continues, "but,
Linwood, Linwood...hmmmm....wait, I know that name. You related somehow
to a Joe Linwood?"
"Um, yes," damn, I think, I hope this doesn't make it worse.
Before I can say anything else, he says rather emphatically, "Oh, shit."
Then he looks around the room for a moment, saying, "Voi due, uscire di
qui. Ho bisogno di parlare con questo uno solo per un momento."
I now really wonder what's going on, as the two men quickly leave. How
did I get so important? How does he know my father?
Once they're gone with the door closed he turns back to me and says
again, "So, I'm guessing you're the son of Joe Linwood, the cop?"
"Yes, his second son," I say not knowing whether that's a good thing or
a real bad one.
"Well, fuck. A rookie cop, and Joe Linwood's kid. We got a real fuckin'
problem here."
His response is not what I was hoping. I just knew it would turn worse.
But what could be worse than being killed, but I have to try something,
"Um, you could let me go, I promise I won't tell anyone."
He shakes his head with a wry smile, "Come on, kid, we can't do that.
You know way too much as it is. You know about Coogan, and....wait,
that's it! Coogan hated your dad, I remember now. Oh, shiiiiiiit. That
explains it. This is fuckin' not good, not good at all. Fuuuuck!"
"I mean it, I won't even tell him," I had thought for a brief second
that I might get out of this, but now I feel like they will surely kill
me.
"No, kid, it's worse than that. It's not good business, offin' a cop,
they don't like that, unless there's a real good reason. This ain't
one. And a rookie cop, too. How do I handle that? But more important,
I owe your father. See, a year or so ago, he knew you were coming on the
force and told me, to even up a debt I owed him, if it ever came down to
it, to give his kid a chance. I can't off you, cause I'd be dishonoring
your father and my debt to him, which others know about, too, not that
it makes that much difference. But, I know it." He takes a breath, then
says, "Your father always kept his word, and I gave my word. And,
besides, if your death was traced back to my organization, well, things
could get bad real quick."
He pauses to think about it for a moment, then continues, "But I can't
let you go, cause I don't care how much you promise, you go back, Coogan
will want to fuckin' know what the fuck happened, and you'll have no
recourse but to tell all. Shiiiit. Can't let you go, can't kill you,
can't even drop you off somewhere else, you'll eventually find a way
back. Got no choice but to keep you close to me, to keep you alive, to
pay back your dad. Yet, it can't be as his kid. Someone'd figure it
out, someone who might know Coogan. And how do I get around killin' a
cop, a rookie, and all the shit that comes from that, but not killin'
him, neither? Gotta think this through." He pauses and then says
almost under his breath, like to himself, but out loud, "That asshole
Coogan." So, it appears someone else besides my father doesn't think
much of him.
"I...I'm sorry," I can't believe I'm causing all these problems. I'll
never ever volunteer for anything again if I ever get out of this.
He looks at me for a moment, rather intently, all over, almost like a
guy ogling a girl, and it makes me look away in a little embarrassment,
before he finally says nodding his head slightly, "You know, you ain't a
bad lookin' cunt, all dolled up like that. And not that tall, neither.
Some definite possibilities. And thinkin' about it, I got me maybe
another problem, and maybe you, bein' Italian and all, just might be
able to help solve that...too. Or maybe not. Too much at stake. Gotta
give this some thought. I'll be back."
He leaves, and I wonder what is going to become of me. One of the other
men enters but just stands there ignoring me. I guess I'm to be guarded
at all costs, even though there is absolutely nothing I can do right
now. I'm still dressed as a street walker, securely bound, no idea
where I am, but I hope if they don't kill me, that they'll at least
eventually let me change back.
Anyway, my wondering if I have any chance of living, even though my
captor seems in debt to my father to keep me alive, goes on for at least
an hour it seems. I'm now just barely hoping it might happen, but, with
no chance of being let go, I'd have to say my chances are very slim of
getting out of this in some kind of decent shape.
Eventually, he does come back with a couple of glasses and what looks
like a regular bottle of water and says, "Hey, kid, no hard feelings, ya
know? Gotta do what I gotta do, but I'm not gonna hurt ya. I know I
told ya earlier, this ain't personal. I was wrong. My mistake. It is
now. Anyway, you're probably real thirsty. Here's some water, enjoy. At
least this won't be painful."
And he pours the contents into each cup like we're both going to drink,
and holds the first to my mouth as I say, "Oh, thanks." I'm thinking,
well, if I don't put up any fight, nor cause any problem, and do what he
asks, maybe I might just make it out of here. He seems to be saying
he's going to keep me alive, so I pretty much doubt he's going to poison
me after all that. But, of course, I really have no clue. He could do
it, I suppose, but what exactly can I do. And anyway, I never thought
I'd make it this far. Oh well. I take a sip and within seconds, I pass
out, with my last thought - I am going to die.
Chapter 2
When I awake, I'm lying on a bed, with my head a little elevated on a
very soft pillow. I'm no longer bound; my arms and legs are free, which
as I slowly comprehend it, feels wonderful. And, as I try to get my
bearings and understand what's going on, I first realize that I'm alive,
which is a shock in itself as I was sure, regardless of what I was told,
that I was going to die. At least I hope I'm not dead, but I have no
idea where I am. I just take several breaths and relax for a moment as
I am happy I'm still alive.
It is bright wherever I am, as I can barely open my eyes without
squinting, so I just keep them shut, working on gradually getting used
to the light, and concentrate on how I am. As the shock, and thrill, of
being awake and still alive starts subsiding, I then realize I have no
bump on my head from being hit there. They don't leave in a day, I
know, as I gingerly feel around there with my fingers, which themselves
feel sort of odd, but I don't have time to think about that right now.
Maybe a real slight bit of tenderness there, but how did the swelling go
down so quickly? And the pain practically evaporate?
I then start thinking about the rest of my body, and for some reason, it
feels different. I sense a little tingling in my throat, but I swallow
and it doesn't seem that significant. But I now find a lot of other
things are different. Like a lot different. Like a whole lot.
Like...Okay, I know I was still wearing that prostitute outfit when last
I was conscious, but now most everything feels so totally different than
that, yet with some strangely or vaguely similar feelings. I'm feeling a
tightness around my chest going to my stomach like it's being
constricted somehow. Whatever I have on beneath my outer clothes around
my lower abdomen below my waist feels very small, like not much there.
And that's just the beginning of lots of other strange sensations.
I wonder about that as I finally get my eyes open enough to see and I
glance down at myself. I'm more than a little surprised to see that I'm
in a white almost slip or sundress, lace at the breasts with just two
little straps over the shoulders. I'm still dressed as a female, I
grasp, but in totally different clothes, and I sigh a little. And I
wonder, just a little unsure if what I'm seeing is really real, why
would they do that? Those various men I was with last time I was awake?
I then look down a little more carefully and I realize that the breasts
I now have are noticeably bigger than I remember the inserts being. Not
huge but definitely significantly bigger. Like they might just bubble
over the top of the dress cups and threaten to spill out. And so real
looking! Taking a breath, I hesitantly touch them and they feel...real
and I can feel where my fingers press against the apparent flesh, my
flesh, which would appear to be part of me. I'm not sure I can believe
this at all.
I catch my breath, close my eyes, and open them again, just to make sure
I'm actually awake. And I am, or at least seem to be, and everything is
still as it was a moment ago. This can't be right....can it?
I then put my hand down into one of the cups of the dress as well as
what seems to be a bra I'm apparently wearing and feel a nipple,
definitely larger than I remember, and to my shock when I give it a
little squeeze, it feels very real, as does the other that I instantly
feel for. Totally real, like, they're a functional part of me.
Like...they're me! Breasts, nipples, and all. And I realize looking at
them carefully, that my fingernails are now longer and better looking,
like possibly professionally manicured. What...is going on?
Forcing myself to breathe, as my mind races as to what's happening, I
then feel around on my body and discover besides the dress which looks
like a very attractive sundress, underneath I'm actually wearing a very
form fitting strapless braselette which is obviously holding my now
sizeable breasts up. I'm also wearing panties that when I feel them,
feel like they're not much more than thongs as I feel the underneath
strap pretty far up into my butt cheeks. I'm thinking I should check my
crotch out, but before I can, I glance at my hair which is gently
hanging down on either side of my face.
I then run my hand through it realizing that while it's about as long as
the wig I thought I was wearing, I can see as it falls around my face
when I look down, that it's no longer dark, it's blond, very blond,
almost platinum blond. I start searching for the cap, an edge, something
to suggest it's still a wig or hair piece, and to my shock, it's all
mine, fully attached, at the scalp it seems, as I trace a few strands to
their base or roots.
It's all I can do to keep breathing as I drop my arms to my sides,
totally shocked by all that I'm experiencing. After a moment, I then
look at my fingernails again, studying them and they are much longer and
very pink and very real looking, polished, not the press-ons I was
wearing. Gel? French tips? Something like that, I can only guess. I also
realize that my eyelashes are unusually thick and maybe even longer than
I had thought.
This can't be happening. I must be in some kind of dream state. I know
I've had a few dreams that seemed so real, but I usually woke up not
very far into them. Everything about this experience screams that I am
awake, that there is nothing to wake up from, that what I'm experiencing
is actually true. But can it really be true? How can this happen?
Wasn't it like just last night that I was taken by those men? What has
happened to me? Yet, some little part of my mind is saying 'Isn't this
what you used to dream about, all those years ago? Isn't this what you
wished had happened before your father forced you to deny it could ever
happen? How?
I take some more breaths and begin again looking over what I can see of
myself. I notice on my right forearm, the fading scarred remnants of
what look like some kind of puncture wounds. Um, was I given some kind
of...shots? Some kind of IV? And I feel lighter for some reason. More
and more puzzlements, for which I have no answer.
I finally force myself to glance around me, look over the room, and I
see that there is nobody else is in here which appears to be a bedroom,
sort of average sized, I guess, and looking at the only window, I can
see it's barred. It has sheer curtains with a thicker pull drape which
is now open. No use trying to get out that way, but why even think about
escape. From where? To where. And why? But it is light outside,
apparently a sunny day. The bed I'm on looks to be queen sized, fresh
looking blankets, and I can smell that clean smell of freshly washed
sheets, which from the top look patterned with pastel colors. But I
don't recognize this room at all. I have no idea at all where I am.
All I know is that I'm still dressed as a young woman. And of the
features that I can see and feel, I'm somehow more of a young woman than
I was last night. I have no idea why, or what else has happened, or
where I am or anything. I close my eyes and just continue lying there,
trying to think of some logical explanation. I cannot think of anything
that has even the slightest semblance of a rational reason behind all
this.
Not sure what else I can accomplish by continuing to lie on this bed, I
slowly get up to a sitting position, and run my hands and fingers over
my whole body. It feels so different; I am completely mystified by
what's going on. Besides this rather large bust, I now have a smaller,
more slender waist then I remember, and wider hips with my ass cheeks
rather rounded and full also. I look down at my feet and noticing the
open toed high heeled shoes I'm wearing, I see my toenails are all
polished. I feel dangly hoop earrings brush the sides of my head and I
bring my fingers up to touch them and realize my ears have been pierced.
I can just smell some perfume as its odor wafts to my nostrils from
various places on my body. It quickly again becomes just too much to
try to comprehend, and I close my eyes and take some deep breaths,
trying my hardest to understand everything, wondering again if I'm
somehow dreaming. Something isn't right about this whole thing, where I
am, how I feel, how everything looks, but I'm a little scared to think
too much about it, like maybe I might actually be dead and this is some
kind of strange afterworld. No, I can't think that. Too much of what
I've touched and felt, seen and smelled is so real. But...still.......
Opening my eyes again, I finally get the nerve to sit up on the side of
the bed, putting my feet on the floor, and then after a moment or two to
let the little dizziness recede, I stand and try to walk over (well,
almost totter as I'm wearing a different pair of very high stilettos,
maybe 5" now, from what I was wearing on the street, and besides, my
body now has totally different areas of mass that I've never
experienced) to a rather full length mirror over a dressing table.
The vision staring back at me takes my breath away. It's of what I would
consider an absolutely gorgeous platinum blond young looking woman with
a just off center part to her hair with short bangs part way across,
hair coming down fairly straight outlining my face, to over my
shoulders, curved a little forward, with some body at the ends, flawless
makeup, eyeshadow, liner, mascara, pencil, eye makeup so perfect, sort
of full pouty lips, a glistening shade of pink on the lips, definitely
fuller than I remember, large breasts, long looking legs. Except for two
parts of my body, I also look - and like before, feel -considerably
thinner than I was, and I wasn't particularly heavy to begin with. I am
just astounded and I touch myself, again and again, to make sure I'm
actually awake and what I'm touching is real, or really me. And even
when I just stop to look at the reflection, it takes me a few moments to
tear my eyes away from the image I see.
Remembering what I had started a few moments ago, I then hesitantly put
my hand between my legs sliding it up under my dress to my crotch and I
discover what I am now guessing and fearing even more. There is no
tell-tale lump, nothing sticking out or hanging down, and as I slip a
finger into my thong, I feel a vertical opening that certainly wasn't
there last time I checked. I wonder, what in heaven's name is
happening, as I feel faint, and I stagger back to the bed and sit down.
I've got to breathe, that's right, in and out, just relax. Just close my
eyes and relax. This is so impossible to believe. How did this happen?
Has it been just a day? How have parts of me disappeared? And other
parts been dramatically changed? Does magic exist? I cannot accept
that, as I cannot accept that I might be dead, but I have no plausible
answers to the myriad of other questions I now have.
Getting my strength and breathing back after a few moments, and not
knowing what else to do, I look around, and start to look over the room.
There is some familiarity there; some laws of nature seem to be working
correctly. I see three doors, so I slowly get up again, walk over to
the first, and try it as it looks like it may go somewhere. Although
besides the handle, there's a locking lever like a dead bolt on this
side, I can't open the door which I try several times, as the knob seems
to be locked from the other side, I guess, with no way of unlocking it
from this side. I think I hear the sound of footsteps walking away, but
I'm too scared and confused to say anything, or try to communicate with
anyone, so I just ignore them.
I try the next and it's a closet door which does open, and inside the
closet are two hanging racks of what I discover are very feminine
clothing as well as a shoe rack behind with maybe two dozen women's
shoes of various styles and colors. The clothes include dresses,
skirts, tees, camis, tank tops, blouses, sweaters, shorts, all neatly
hung up or folded on some built-in shelves next to the shoes. I linger
a little, looking at several of the dresses and hesitantly fingering
them, skirts and blouses, wondering how they might look on me. But, I
stop short, thinking that I shouldn't consider this, I don't know
anything about what's going on. Yet, they all look very attractive, I
must admit.
I reluctantly leave that room and check the last door on the other side
and it opens to a fairly decent sized bathroom, with a small window, not
barred, but too small to bother with. Inside is a toilet, small sink
and vanity with doors and drawers, what I think may be a bidet, and a
tub, as well as a separate walk-in shower. I look at the vanity and open
some drawers. Makeup, brushes, combs, hand mirrors, moisturizers,
lotions, perfume, soaps, buff pads, hair dryer, applicators, tissue,
several kinds of pads, all women's things. I glance out the window and
see that I'm apparently on the second floor of some building, which
seems part of a group of buildings, with a wall in the near distance.
Some of the buildings appear whitewashed, the others are pastel colored.
I see greenery beyond the wall, and within the wall between and around
the various buildings are flower beds, small clusters of trees and
shrubs, small grassy areas and a drive.
Seeing nothing else that catches my attention, I return to the bedroom
and notice a single chair near the dressing table with the mirror and
drawers. I open the various drawers and find panties, briefs, and bras
of various shapes and colors, including thongs. There's also a small
chest of drawers against the wall with, I guess, a tv on it, and a
remote, and a wireless house type phone.
I look through the various drawers of the chest, and they're filled with
pantyhose, stockings, what looks like gym outfits, warm-ups,
sweatshirts, a few swimsuits, one and two piece and bikinis, babydolls,
chemises, etc. One of the smaller drawers has a case which is filled
with jewelry - earrings, bracelets, necklaces and such. There're a
clock and lamp on a bedside table, a few magazines scattered about. The
time says 1:32. I would say it's afternoon for sure. If the clock is
correct.
The walls are a very light shade of green with white accents, a vase
with flowers is on the dresser and they look fresh, and sniffing them,
they actually smell rather nice. There are pictures, wall hangings, of
a seashore, and of flowers and the like. I'm definitely in a woman's
bedroom and from what I can tell, all the clothes do look like they
might fit me. I cannot imagine what has happened since I was being
questioned. I'm having a hard time accepting what I now am, and as the
moments go by, an even harder time believing that there was some
previous moment when I was not this very attractive young woman. I'm
thinking, is this a dream or was what I thought my previous life to be,
a dream? How can they both be real?
I finally sit down on the bed again, trying to keep my sanity. I appear
no longer to be a male, but a young rather voluptuous woman. In a few
moments, while I'm still trying to understand everything that has
happened to me, the door to the hallway is unlocked and a man who I
recognize who was referred to as the 'boss' from the car and who talked
to me in some room, peers around the now open door, sees me and smiles,
a rather gentle smile - for some reason - and walks in. I remember
from, when? Yesterday? That I don't particularly like him.
He's wearing suit pants without the jacket, no tie, and a white shirt
unbuttoned at the top. As I recall and notice again, he looks maybe mid-
fifties or so, thinning dark hair with some gray, tanned or medium dark
complexion, maybe a tad overweight, but not fat, actually sort of
handsome for his apparent age, I suppose.
I now look up at him rather fearfully even though he seems to have that
disarming smile and an almost casual demeanor. Last time I saw him, I
think he gave me some kind of knockout drug, and the time before that, I
gave blowjobs to him and two other men, told I might be killed, and was
knocked unconscious. Not exactly good times, I'm thinking. I wonder if
he'll want me now for some kind of additional sexual pleasure. Looking
like I do, I can't imagine anything different. Why else would I be this
way, except to provide pleasure to some man? Or maybe to a lot of men.
Maybe he has made me into a real prostitute. But a lot better looking
than most the ones I've had a chance to see. I don't like him and I'm
afraid of him. But what can I do?
"Good afternoon, figlioccia," he says holding the smile which does look
real, and not forced.
I'm not really sure what I want to say or respond and I don't understand
that last word at all, so I just sit there barely looking at him.
He tries again, "So, how ya feelin'? Ya doin' ok? Um, you mind if I
sit?"
Considering how I'm thinking about him, I'm totally surprised by his
apparent courtesy and can only nod my head with a minimal shrug of my
shoulders. Why is he asking me? I'd think he should be able to do
whatever he wants. He has so far where I'm concerned. He pulls up the
chair and sits down in front of me, not extremely close but at a
respectful distance. He's very imposing, and I feel rather weak, and
afraid, although the tone of his voice is anything but menacing, almost
parental or close-friendly like, sort of like he actually cares about
me. I glance around but quickly realize there is no place for me to go,
so I just remain sitting on the edge of the bed, and I bring my eyes to
meet his gaze. I do for some reason, gently pull the hem of my dress
down a little. Why did I do that, I wonder?
"Thanks," he says to my nodding and continues, "You're lookin' real
good. Nothin' causin' you problems?"
I shake my head, as I certainly don't feel anything bad, and start to
speak, "I...I guess n.....oh...Oh!" which is all I can answer as I
realize my voice sounds different, very different, and I put my hand
almost involuntarily to my mouth in pure surprise as remember that
tingling. I now have to add my voice to the many things that are a lot
different.
"Heh, heh, very pretty voice," he smiles as if he knew what would come
out, then he continues, "Well, let me tell ya, you sure come out lookin'
real good, better'n I hoped, real classy. And ya seem to be recoverin'
all nice like."
He sighs, shifts a little, maybe waiting for me to say something, which
I'm still in too much shock, and finally continues, perhaps a little
more purposely and in a very direct manner, "Now, missy, you listen
carefully to what I hav' to say, and if you're a really good girl about
this, you got a long life ahead of ya. Screw this up, and there ain't no
second chance. I told ya I owed Joe Linwood, Roberto's father, and this
is the best I can do. You unnerstan?"
What he says, surprises me and the confusion returns as I have no idea
what to say. So, he tries again, still holding a sort of smile, "Do ya
unnerstand?"
"I...I guess," I softly reply really confused that he's referring to me
as if who and what I was is someone else and now I'm here and I'm not
Rob.
"Okay, so listen up, you got no male parts no more. You got tits and a
cunt, and a nice ass and lots of other things have been done, like
fixing your voice. You're a girl now. Your name is Annalisa Scorisi,
remember that, Annalisa Scorisi, very important, and you're my
goddaughter, my figlioccia."
I look at him with obvious shock in my eyes, as he continues, "So, tell
me your name."
I pause not knowing what to think as I finally say in almost a whisper,
"Um, Annalisa Sc.scorisi?"
"Yep, good, very good, that's who you are, and again, I'm your
godfather, your Padrino. Your parents are dead, died 10 years or so
ago, and I'd taken over raising you for the past 8 or so years. You
were born here in Italy but your parents took you to America when you
were real young. You're 20 years old, you been taught and schooled and
boarded at a private convent, but you're done with all that, and I've
brought you back to Italy. When you got here, you had a little medical
problem and spent some time in the hospital, but you're better now.
"Over the next several weeks, you're gonna learn Italian, take Catholic
lessons, you're gonna become a good little Catholic Italian girl.
Basically, like you're my family, like my ward. That's how I'm gonna
honor the debt to Joe Linwood. He ain't your dad no more, get that
completely outa your head. I know he's passed, but you gotta
understand, he can't be your dad no more, like from before and to
forever. It's gotta be me, your sorta stepdad as it were. Nobody's to
know who you were, or where or what you were. Only who you are now. We
ain't in New York no more, and for all intents and purposes, Roberto
Linwood has disappeared. He'll be declared dead...um, deceased in time."
He noticed that I winced hearing that. I close my eyes then and let out
a sigh.
"I'm sorry, but that's the only way this'll work, keepin' you alive, but
nobody knowin' that. But, and this is important, too. As long as you
do what I'm askin' and you're alive, we'll make sure Joe's widow, Mrs.
Linwood, is well taken care of, see to her needs, her health, her
comfort, whatever we can. But she ain't your ma no more neither, you
can't ever contact her, or her two daughters, or their brother, that is,
if anyone finds him, cuz we haven't, yet anyway. Anyone finds out who
you were, I got no choice but to eliminate you and whoever finds out.
Too much is at stake now. You follow directions, do what's expected, and
you gotta good life ahead of ya. You unnerstan'? You capiche?
After a few seconds of trying to digest all this, I murmur an, "Uh huh."
I am still very frightened right now and too afraid to say anything
else. But, at this moment, I'm thinking I'd rather live than die,
having fully expected it to have happened before this.
He pulls some stapled together papers out of his back pocket and hands
them towards me which I take not knowing what else to do, "Good. I know
it's a lot to take in, but ya gotta do it. No alternatives. I am
sorry, but I can't see no other way. Now here is who you are, the
details of your life, Annalisa Scorisi, your background, and so on.
Learn it, all, as soon as ya can. Ya got that?"
I take them and glance at the top sheet. It's single spaced, sort of
small print, and I start reading it.
"No, not now, later when there's more time. But ya understand, ya gotta
learn it quick like. An' make sure you put these away. These are just
for you to see, read, keep. No one else. Anyone else sees these it
might cause problems. And some time in the future, we'll destroy them."
I can see he's looking for a response, so I can only answer, "Uh huh,"
again, putting them on the bed beside me.
"Ok, good. I should say, it's fortunate for you, well, me, too, Mrs.
Linwood was Italian, with you half Italian, it's makin' things...a
little easier. Anyways, nobody here knows who you were before, only
that you're my goddaughter, an orphan, and I brought you here from that
convent which is up in the mountains of New England. Oh, and they now
have records of you bein' there.
"My associates from the car you were in a while ago, are not anywhere
near here, but they might come by sometime in the future. Forget you
ever knew 'em as they won't know you; only my associate from the front
seat who spilled the beans knows you were a guy, and he thinks you're
dead, and he ain't never comin' here. Those two men when I interrogated
you? They don't speak English. So them and none of the others really
know too much if any of Roberto's relationship to Joe, and who and what
you were, and I aim to keep it that way.
"The docs who did your surgery, they also have no idea where ya came
from, or where ya are now. Besides you, I'm the only one who knows your
whole story, an' if I were you, I'd make damn sure from now on, I knew
only the story of Annalisa. And kept it that way."
"Now, I've gotta go in a bit, and I'll leave the door unlocked from the
outside, permanently. You can lock it from in here whenever you want,
it'll be your room for a while, an' this'll be your home, anyway, maybe
a year, or more," he shrugs his shoulders, "we'll see. The window there
has bars but they open from the inside. You'll find a latch on the one
side, like if there's a fire or somethin'. The bars are to keep people
out. That phone over there only works in this part of the country.
You'll eventually learn how to use it. Maybe in a few months, I'll get
you a cell phone, when you start goin' out, good for Italy, but nowhere
else.
"The door over there is a closet and the one over there goes to a
bathroom, both for your use. Lots o' nice clothes in the closet there."
"I...I know, I looked there and in the bathroom."
He nods like he appreciates it, "Very good, I'm glad. They're all yours.
Now, you're free to walk around the house, too, there are some locked
doors you can't go through. Now, you're gonna have Italian classes from
nine to noon daily, and your Catholic lessons will be one to three
daily. After that, a girl'll come in and teach ya how to take care of
yourself, makeup, clothing and styles, take ya to the gym for workouts,
things like that for maybe an hour or two each day, maybe more. She
only knows you as a girl, Annalisa, my goddaughter. Now, you shower
each day, wear a different dress, look good. Just remember that you're
a youn