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Lexi's Story "A Girl's Journey" CHAPTER 1 I Idolize my Mother.I always have. Ever since I can remember, I've wanted to be just like her, or even be her. She is a beautiful, classy, loving, caring, passionate, wonderful woman. Everyone loves her. I've always wanted to be like my Mom. Everyone knows how little girls like to play "dress-up" in Mom's dresses and heels. I was that little girl. Only I wasn't a little girl. My name was Alex. I was a little boy. Mom and my sister Jennie, who is roughly a year and a half older than me,always thought it was "cute". Mom never encouraged it, nor did she discourage it ,for that matter. I'm sure she thought it would pass, and I would eventually become a normal boy. That didn't happen. Mom always let me wear my hair long. Lots of boys at school did, but most of them eventually grew out if it. I never did. There were times it would reach the middle of my back.I loved my long hair. It was a way I could show a girly part of myself without being too obvious? My hair is a golden blonde with a lot of wave, even some curls. Sometimes Mom would brush it for me. As I got a little older, I would sneak into Mom's room and look at, touch, and love her wonderful things. I think I knew her room better than my own. By the time I was eight or nine, there would be times I would be left home alone for an hour or two. After school, on a Saturday or Sunday. As time went by, the panties and bras became irresistable to me. I just had to wear them. Sometimes I would wear Jennie's panties, but it wasn't the same. Mom's things were softer and prettier, though a little too big for me. That didn't matter. Eventually, by the time I was twelve or so, there was always one of Mom's matching bra and panties sets in my room. There was always something not right about how I looked in Mom's panties though. Then one day, I was looking at videos and stuff on YouTube. You must know how YouTube is. It just so happens, I started out looking at pictures of womens' underwear, dreaming of how it would feel and look on me. I discovered a video on "tucking," and had found the answer. I HAD to try it. Awkwardly at first, I tucked my tiny balls up into their pockets, anyone who has tucked knows what talking about, reached behind me and pulled my small peepee back between my legs. Pulling Mom's panties on, I was so excited to be trying to look even more like girl. And was amazed. My crotch was smooth, just like a real girl's! Then I put on Mom's bra. I had gotten pretty good at adjusting the straps by now, for a better fit. But it never occurred to me to readjust them afterward. Uh oh! One Saturday, while Mom and Jennie were out shopping or something, I snuck into Mom's room, and looked at all her beautiful girly things. Where was my father all this time, you ask? He left us when I was two. We don't talk about him, Mom doesn't allow it. That was the day I tried my first slip. And stockings. I was in heaven! I grabbed a lovely lime green bra and panties set,and matching slip, and a pair of silky nylons, and went to my room. I seemed to know how to gather the stockings up to put them on. I could hardly believe how easy this was for me. Was I meant for this? I slid the silky stockings up over my legs, to find the tops had elastic in them, so they stay in place.So smooth and silky they felt! I quickly tucked, slipped into the panties and bra. I can't say how excited I was about trying a slip! I lifted it, put my arms up, and the slip fell over my body in a silken wave. YES! I WAS meant for this! I was way too excited. In Mom's walk in closet, there were what seemed like hundreds of high heels, and I loved them all. I found a pair nearly the same color as my,which YouTube(of course) had taught me, lingerie. What a beautiful word! These high heels, which I'd come to know as pumps, had a pretty round toe, and what I estimated to be three inch heels. I couldn't wait to slip them on to my nyloned feet. I was amazed they fit. Pretty well anyhow, though maybe just a little big. Oh, but they felt fantastic! I stood in the pumps, and took a few tentative steps. I had known how it felt to walk in high heels, to hear them click as I walked. Now I knew better, and loved it! Walking in heels was something which seemed to come natural to me. Being a girl is so easy, and I'm really growing to love it even more now! I looked down and noticed how pretty and girly the pumps make my legs look. WOW! As I did this, I noticed something entirely new. The smell of a million flowers all rolled into one! Such a pretty fragrance, I almost swooned. Oh, I love your things, Mom! I want some of my own! Suddenly realizing my girly fun had lasted nearly two hours, I hurriedly , and regretedly, took Mom's heels and lingerie off,except for the stockings. They felt so nice, I couldn't bring myself to not wear them for a little while longer. Putting Mom's lingerie back into her drawer, I saw an irresistable black panties, bra and slip set. All the lace! So pretty! I gently took them and went back to my room, just as I heard the door downstairs open. That was close! Over the next months, I tried so many of Mom's lingerie sets, I began to ache to be able to wear them all the time. I started to hate my boy clothes. One Saturday, I was wearing a simply beautiful yellow bra, panties and slip set, golden brown stockings, and Mom's Lemon Yellow sling-back pumps, with three inch heels. I'm very good at walking in heels by now, and sashaying around the house. This set was so covered with lace, and pretty little bows between the bra cups and on the panties waistband. By this time I'm so loving being a girl,when I can, I'm even beginning to think like one. It's weird, but I'm starting to notice how cute some of the boys at school are. giggles CHAPTER 2 It's Friday May 28th, I'm forteen now, in Ninth Grade and I'm looking forward to the long Memorial Day Weekend. Also there are only two weeks left of school after that! I hurry home, come in the back door and drop my backpack on the floor when I hear,"Alex! Would you come upstairs please? I need your help!". It's Jennie. What could she want? "Just a second!" I yell up the stairs. I kick off my shoes and run up the stairs. When I get there, Mom is standing in the hall in front of my bedroom door. "Uh oh," I think to myself, "Something's up". Mom points her perfectly manicured finger into my room. I turn and go in,and see Jennie standing there. She is twirling my (Mom's) lavender panties around and round on her fingertip. On my bed lay the matching lavender bra and slip, a pair of suntan stockings, and Mom's black three inch heeled sandals. Mom looks into my eyes and says,"Care to explain, young lady? and she giggles. I feel my face grow hot, and I just know I'm blushed to a deep red. "Ummm...," I sort of say. Jennie says, "Me and Mom have known about this for months, Lexi. Lexi is your new name at home, by the way. Isn't it Mom? You're not very good at rearranging Mom's lingerie drawer when you've finished rummaging." "No, Lexi, you're not. You need to learn to take better care of your delicates. Do you really want to be a girl, Lexi? I've suspected for a long time, you know. I've noticed you're different somehow the past several months or so too. I couldn't quite put my finger on it, at first. Then I noticed my bra straps were strangely out of adjustment. Not all of them, just a few." I really don't know what to say, I've been caught red-handed. So,I screw myself up,and"Yes Mom, Jennie, I love to feel girly sometimes. Really though, I dream about it all the time." My face is so hot and red,my head feels like it's going to explode. "You are so honest about this, Lexi. I'm so proud of you darling!" says Mom. She hugs me and kisses my cheek. "Now I'm going to be the same with you. I've always wanted another daughter,and Jennie would love to have a sister, wouldn't you honey? I know this can't be easy for you sweetheart. I love you. Your sister and I have talked about it, and if want to be a girl,we will help you. Would you like that, darling?" "Mom, I never thought you would accept this! I love you! You and Jennie WANT me to be a girl???" "Yes, if that's that's what you want honey." "And I bet we're the same size! We can trade dresses and tops! Lexi,I know you're going to love being a girl! Now give me a big hug, my new sister!" Jennie hugs me so tight, my eyes bug out, and I love it! Standing there , with so much love, understanding, and acceptance, I begin to cry. " Mom, Jennie, I love you both so much! I'm going to be the best daughter and sister! You'll see!" Tears are rolling down my cheeks, and Mom and Jennie both give me big hugs. "Awwww...don't cry Lexi!" Mom and Jennie say in unison. "We love you!" Later on that evening, Mom and Jennie come to me in the kitchen, where I'm sitting, barely believing what just happened. Mom is holding a lovely pair of white panties,and a very cute lacy nightie. "You're reading Vogue, honey?" She has a huge smile on her face, and I smile too."Lexi, I knew our little talk this afternoon would turn out the way it did. Jennie and I have been making some big plans for you, my new daughter. I'm absolutely sure you're going to love what is coming for you over the next few days,sweetheart. This pretty new nightie and panties are just the beginning." I feel the silky panties and hold the nightie up to see it, and almost gush tears again. They are so pretty! "Mom, wow! I get to wear this to bed?" "Yes, but only after your bath," says Jennie. "I think it will look lovely on you.Enjoy it, honey.. And sleep well. Tomorrow the work begins. Jennie and I have such wonderful plans for you!" She kisses me on top of my head, and says, "I love you, sweetheart. You're going to be the sweetest girl. I just know it!" "I love you too, Mom," tears welling up in my eyes again. I'm so happy!"Thank you so much,Mom! And you too,Jennie!" I stand and hug them both. I look at my Mom, and my sister, and see tears in their eyes too. Half an hour later, I'm soaking in the bubble bath Mom drew for me. I knew girls did this, but never imagined how great it felt. Mom lit some pretty smelling candles,and put them around the bathroom, closed the door, and said, "Soak in there for a bit, Lexi. You'll love it." And she was right. I do. "This is just another great thing about being girl. I should have thought of this," I think to myself. As I lay there, I wonder what Mom meant by, tommorow the work begins. I can hardly wait to find out. I know I'll never be able to sleep tonight, I'm way too excited. I really can't believe this has all happened. Mom knew it all along. As I drain the tub and dry off with the soft towel Mom left for me, I remember what she said. "When you dry yourself, never rub. You pat and blot. It's better for your skin, and you won't rub off your bath." I hang my towel on the rack and reach over, lifting my new panties. They're mine! I tuck and slip them over my legs, loving the feel of them. My brand new, silky nightie falls down over my head, and my freshly bubble bathed skin tingles from the feel of it. It ends half way down my thighs, the lacy trim is SO beautiful! The short, puffy sleeves are too pretty. I can't stop the huge smile which comes to my face. I hug myself, and feel so giddy and girly, tears come to my eyes...again. There is a soft knock on the door and it opens a little. Mom's hand is a holding a bottle of lotion. "Use this on your feet, elbows, and knees honey. And don't skimp. Use as much as you need. You have to keep your girly feet nice and soft," I hear her giggle, and can see her smile, in my head. I take the bottle and say through the door, "Thanks Mom!" The lotion bottle is a pretty pink. A picture of some roses are on it, along with VERY feminine lettering, "Rose Milk". I squeeze some into the palm of my hand and rub a tiny bit between my thumb and forefinger. Oh, god, it's so smooth and soft! A gentle fragrance of roses reaches my nose, and I'm in heaven! After massaging a LOT of Rose Milk into each foot, and on each elbow and knee, I think to myself, "Why stop there?" Soon every part of my body ,which I can reach, has absorbed Rose Milk, and I'm loving the smell of myself. I find hair ties and..hmm, a tube of Cherry Lip Gloss.I puy my hair up in a ponytail way up on top of my head, the way Jennie sometimes does,leaving a few wisps hanging around my face, to frame it. It's the cutest hairstyle! Opening the tube of Cherry Lip Gloss, I smooth some onto my lips, and rub them gently together. Seeing myself in the mirror this way, I know why I want to be a girl. It's SO much fun! I retuck, put my panties on, slip into my new nightie, and walk downstairs to the kitchen. The floor is very slippery for my lotioned feet, and I nearly slip and fall. Mom and Jennie both laugh, where they are sitting at the table, having cups of tea. "Oh, darling, I almost forgot! Here are your new house slippers." They are so cute! White ,very girly slippers, with pink bows on the toes. I fall in love with them, and slip them on. "I love your hair that way, Lexi, and you look cute with that lip gloss. You really are a pretty girl, sis!"says Jennie."Sis". I like sound of that. Mom agrees ,and I feel so happy. CHAPTER 3 I wake up at around 10:10 AM on Saturday morning. I did have a lot of trouble falling asleep last night, but when I finally did, I had the most wonerdful dreams. I turn in bed, remembering to keep my legs together and step into my lovely slippers. On my way downstairs, I stop in the bathroom and brush out my hair. No young lady should be seen with bed-head. giggle There is a note from Mom on the kitchen table... Lexi, darling. I am working at the salon this morning. You know Saturday is my busiest day. I'll try to be home mid-afternoon or so. I love you Lexi, Mom I read the note, and a tear comes to my eye. "Why didn't I do this before, or just tell Mom and Jennie when I first discovered my wish to be a girl?" ,I think to myself. I've never felt so loved as I do now Standing at the counter, I set up a pot of coffee, which I've drunk since I was little, I love it. As I'm sitting at the table in my nightie and slippers, Jennie and her girlfriend Heather come in the back door. Believe it or not, I'm very relaxed,and not bothered at all with someone besides Mom and Jennie seeing me this way. I've known Heather since I was like...five. She is one of the prettiest girls ever I've seen, with her gorgeous, long, wavy, dark brown hair and huge brown eyes. She is wearing white short shorts and a tank top which says, "Madonna". "Oh Hi, Alex!..I mean Lexi! Jennie told me all about you, and I'm simply thrilled for you! I think we're going to be great girlfriends!" Heather nearly screams. She is very excitable sometimes,and that's why we all love her. "You're SO cute Lexi!"and she bends over ,gives me a big hug and a kiss. I hug her back. "Hi Heather, thank you. I'm so very happy.Want some coffee?" So we three girls sit and have a cup of coffee together, then Jennie says ,"Finish your coffee, Lexi. We have a surprise for you." I follow Jennie and Heather upstairs to the bathroom, where Jennie fills the tub with about three inches of warm water. "Take off your nightie and panties and get in ,Lexi. We're going to teach you to shave your legs and underarms. Oh, don't be shy.We're all girls here." I do as told, a bit sheepishly. When I'm naked, both Jennie's and Heather's eyes get real big and their mouths are O's. "You have such a tiny penis, Lexi! You'll have no problem hiding that." says Heather. "From now on, you don't have a penis. You have a little clitty, Lexi" The girls both giggle, but I know they are just teasing. My face turns a little pink. "I know. It's easy," I smile. Jennie and Heather giggle again, and smile, both hugging me. "You're small all over , Lexi. How tall are you and how much do you weigh?" ,Heather asks. "I'm five feet three inches and around a hundred pounds" "Well, hopefully you won't grow much more than two or three more inches, and stay thin. That would be perfect for such a pretty girl as you." says Heather. "By the way, I love your hair." I blush and giggle, and so do they. As I step into the tub, Jennie gets a ladies' pink razor and a pink spray can of shaving foam. "OK, Lexi, get one of your legs good and wet. Shake the can ,spray some out in your hand, and spread it on your skin. Then just take the razor and shave it of. Long, sure strokes. Not choppy or short. And don't press too hard. You have such little hair, it will be easy for you. Be careful, don't cut yourself. You don't want scars on those pretty legs." I do this on the front of both my legs, then lift one straight up, shave the back, and the same to the other. "Wow Lexi! Are you sure you haven't done this before? That was perfect!!" Heather nearly screams. "No, it just seemed the right way," I say,as I tap the razor on the edge of the tub to knock out any hairs. "Well, you are a natural" "OK, now your underams.This is a little trickier, Lexi.So, splash water into your undearm while holding your arm straught up, and apply some foam. Good. Now take the razor, you have to sort of twist your head to see, and this works a lot by feel too," Jennie instructs. So, I shave my underams. It's so very easy. Jennie and Heather both take a close look, and Jennie says,"Perfect! You're such a good girl, Lexi! The first time I tried it, I had the hardest time. You really ARE a natural! We're so proud of you! Now remember, sis. You have to do this at least twice a week. No stubble is allowed in this house, girlie!" We all three laugh and giggle at that. I'm so glad to have such understanding ,helpful girlfriends around, and tell them so. Jennie and Heather both give me big, loving hugs as I sit in the tub. "Now get out and lotion your legs, Lexi. That's an essential part of it. Shaving can really dry out your skin. I'll get the antiperspirant, and we'll be done!" Jennie brings a pretty blue plastic can of "Secret Powder Dry Roll-On Antiperspirant/Deoderant" from the medicine chest. While I am putting lotion on my legs, I...OMG! I don't quite...it feels so good to be hairless in this way. Not that I have much body hair anyway, but this feels amazing. WOW! I suppose I'm lucky, not having much hair. In fact, I have only like six hairs on my chest, and I've been plucking them. Anyhow, while I'm doing this, Jennie and Heather have left the bathroom. So, I put on my antiperspirant. Oooh, I love the way it smells. Suddenly, I hear Jennie scream from her bedroom, "Lexi! Put you your hair up like you did last night! You looked SO cute with it that way! Then please come in here with us?" I brush my hair in the bathroom mirror and put it in a ponytail way up on top, and leave a few tendrils loose, to frame my face. I smile at myself in the mirror and tilt my head slightly to the side. I'm loving this SO much! And it's only been one day! I see a just lovely panties and bra set laying on Jennie's bed when I enter. I love Jennie's room. I wish mine was just like it. This bra and panties set is one I've worn before! It is the lilac set that I love so much! The one with all the lace around the waistband and legs of the panties,oh, and the panel is also lacy. And the bra is so beautiful! The cups are covered all in lace, and trimmed around the edges. Even the straps have lace along the edges. I get all tingly inside, when I remember how this set made me feel. "Put them on, Lexi! We want to see how pretty you look!" I bend over slightly, and tuck. I've done it so much, it's automatic anymore. The girls look at me with amazed looks on their faces. "So THAT'S how you do it!" screams Heather. I reach for the divine panties and slide them on. Then in one smooth motion put my arms through the bra straps and do the clasp in back, then quickly adjust the straps. Again, Jennie and Heather are aghast. "You're good sis," says Jennie. "Lexi, my sister, I love you. This set is your welcome gift from me. I want you to have them. It's obvious how much love them, by the look on your face when you came in here. They are yours, sis. I hope you enjoy them. I always have." She bends closer, gives me a huge hug, and a big kiss on my cheek. And of course Heather joins her. "You look so beautiful in your undies, Lexi! I'm proud you are my sister!" ,says Jennie. "I'm so happy you are my girlfriend Lexi!" says Heather, then she hugs me again, almost squeezing all the air out of me, and I hug her back just as hard. "Jennie my sweet sweet sister, I love you. Heather, my new girlfriend, I love you. I'm going to LOVE being a girl! I already do!" And then those darned tears fill my eyes again, and we all laugh. It's 4:00 in the afternoon, me and Jennie are sitting at the kitchen table having tea. I have my hair up as before,and am wearing the Cherry Lip Gloss again. Jennie is letting me borrow her short blue denim skirt. It fits a bit loose at the hips,Jennie says that's OK for now until I can grow into it. ???? I'm wearing a cute baby blue top with cap sleeves which she also let me borrow. I found a pair of pretty blue sandals with one and one half inch wedgie heels. "I'm sure Mom won't mind you wearing them, sis." Jennie told me. I feel so very cute and girly at this moment. "You are absolutly beaming! You look SO cute, Lexi!" Jennie said, when I finished dressing. My bra is stuffed with toilet paper. I giggle at the thought. Mom comes bustling in the back door carrying all sorts of bags. She's obviously been shopping...or something. I see some of them are pale blue, with big letters saying "VENUS,"and underneath that, "salon, spa, and nails. Your one stop spot for all your beauty needs". Venus is Mom's salon. She has six other girls who work for her,and does a very good business, with regular clientelle. Mom's salon is actually kind of famous in our town. There are also some bags with no logos on them. "Whew! I made it in without losing anything!" Mom giggles. "Good afternoon, girls! How has your day been? Did Jennie and Heather take care of you Lexi dear? You look very pretty honey." I blush a little, and say, "Thanks Mom, I feel very nice.It's been a great day so far!" I tell her all about what me, Jennie and Heather did and can't contain the big smile from coming to my face. Jennie has her elbow on the table, her chin in her hand,gazing at me,smiling, with nothing but love in her eyes. Mom beams at me. "I can just imagine all the fun you girls had!" I'm so happy Mom considers me a girl now,and I tell her so. She smiles, slightly bends and kisses my cheek. "I love you, darling," she coos. "I'm sure you girls are wondering what all this stuff is?" Then she begins emptying all of it onto the table. I see makeup, brushes, shampoo, conditioner, pretty soaps, cotton balls, swabs,tiny sponges,skin cleanser, moisturizer, mask,...an impressive array of totally girly things. "We are going to have SO much fun making you as pretty as you can be!" She bends and hugs and kisses me again. The unmarked bags are sitting on the floor, I'm anxious to see what's in them. Next Mom opens one of the unmarked bags, and shows me a box, holding it up for me to see. "Silicone Breast Forms. B Cup". "These are for you to wear until you grow your own real breasts, love." ????? "OK, stand and unbutton your top, Lexi.Let's get them in your bra. You'll love them." She opens the box, inside is a plastic tray, with two things which look sort of like fried eggs, but you can see through them. I do so, Mom snickers a little and reaches into my bra, taking out the toilet paper. "Toilet paper, honey?" she says and smiles. "You'll like these much better." They are very cold, and I shiver. Once they warm though, they feel nice. Mom says, "Button your top and move around, shake it up, honey. You'll know how it feels to have breasts." "Wow! They're kind of heavy. I love the way they move.This is much better than toilet paper. I love them! Mom! Thank you!" I can't control the tears that come to my eyes...again. Mom's big hug makes me really feel my breasts, I love it! "Lexi, you look so feminine now!" says Jennie, and she stands for a hug and a kiss. "OK, girls, we have a mess to sort out here.,"says Mom. We start to sort all the makeup into piles of like items. There is a big pallette of thirty eyeshadow colors, two mascaras, one brown, one black. Two types of eyeliner, pencils and liquid. Again, one brown, one black of each. Eyebrow pencils, and sharpener. I see several lipsticks, and pick each one up, reading the names of the colors. "Petal Pink," "Fuschia," "Pampered Peach," "Coral Gables," "Strawberry Creme,""Red is Red," and "Plum Pie". I love the names, and can hardly wait to try them. There are two shades of blush, a pink and a coral. There is foundation makeup, liquid and powder. There is a powder compact, too. There are so many tools! Several different types of brushes, for lips, powder, blush, an eyebrow/lash comb, eyeshadow applicators... A hairbrush and comb set in tortouise shell. I see a curling iron, and a lighted makeup mirror with two sides. One side is normal, the other magnified. Tweezers. There is a slightly scary looking thing,it looks like scissors, with a clamp on the end. "What's this, Mom?" , I ask. "Oh, that's your eyelash curler, darling. One tool absolutely every girl can never do without. I'll show you how to use it in a little bit. Be patient, I know this excites you,honey. Once you see what makeup can do, you'll never want to go without." "Now, that didn't hurt a bit ,did it darling? Now look at your mirror, compare your lashes. See the difference between the two? The one I curled is much prettier now. Lexi, you have very long lashes. They're really going to look lovely with a bit of mascara." "Oh, Mom. Yes. Please do the other one?" I giggle. And so, half an hour or so later... Mom gushes, "OH, Lexi! You are beautiful!You can look at yourself now." I turn and look in my mirror, and am stunned. Is that girl really me! "Mom! I DO look beautiful!" I think to myself, "please no tears! please no tears! I can't ruin this!" "OH. MY. GOD!" Jennie screams. "Lexi, you are absolutely gorgeous!" I can't stop smiling at the beautiful image in my mirror. There I am, my green eyes look so much bigger, my blush really brings out my cheekbones, and I love my pink lipstick. "I want to wear makeup every day, Mom! You were right. I don't ever want to go without it." I feel like crying again, but I can't ruin this feeling. "Mom, I love you! Thank you for showing me how pretty I can be." "You'll learn to do it all by yourself very soon,Lexi," smiles Jennie."I'll help you!" "You know, Lexi darling, you have very pretty skin...and no facial hair. You're lucky in that respect. I'm taking you to see someone tomorrow who can make sure you stay that way. Would you like that? Darling, even I have facial hair, a little anyway. You have absolutely none.," Mom smiles. "I'm sure, with the way you look ,and how you really want to be a girl, which is quite obvious,you will get along very well with Dr. Jensen. You remember Ellen Jensen, don't you? She is one of my regular, long time clients down at the salon? She is a Gynecologist, a Gender/Sex Therapist, a surgeon, among other things. She has agreed to see you privately, and help you become the girl you want to be. She is even opening up her office on Sunday, just to see you!" "Oh, yes! Please take me, Mom! I would do anything to live this way forever!" "Yayy! I knew you would say that,Lexi!' Jennie smiles. "What will Dr Jensen do to me, Mom?" "Well honey, you'll just have to wait until you see her at nine tomorrow morning. Ellen is actually very happy to see you darling, and she will help you make your dream come true." CHAPTER 4 I wake up at 7 O'Clock on Sunday morning. I'm so anxious and excited for my visit to Dr Jensen. I roll out of bed, slide into my slippers, and rush downstairs in my nightie. I really don't need any coffee, I'm so excited, But I'll have a cup anyway. Mom is up, sitting at the table when I get there. "Good morning Mom," I beam, and kiss her. "Good morning, Lexi darling. Have a cup." I pour a cup of coffee, set it on the table. Smoothing my nightie, I sit and cross my legs. I smile brightly at my loving Mother. "I love you, Mom. Thank you again so much for accepting and helping me. I don't know what I would have done otherwise. I was to the point I didn't want to wear boys' clothes anymore, eventhough I had only worn lingerie. I would rush home everyday and slip into panties and bra." "Lexi darling, I would have confronted you eventually, if not this past Friday. Eventually. Actually, it was your sister's idea to do it then. Honey, I am all for everything that makes you happy. I can honestly say you've been happier, more open, and more honest about your feelings the last two days than I've seen you for a long time. I think you honestly do want to be a girl, to change your gender. I see a huge change in you, and I like that change. You are much more loving, much closer to me and your sister than ever. Sitting here looking at you, it's hard for me to believe how far you have come in just two days." I take a sip of my coffee, and say to Mom, "I AM much happier, and more content. I think I'm more in touch with my feelings. I truly want to be a good daughter to you, and sister to Jennie. When I think back, I'm sure this was what I really needed, even before I knew it, do you know what I mean? As Alex, I was always closed up, in a way. Now that I'm Lexi, and I do love my new name, I think I can open up to people, show my family and friends how much I love them, and be a better person." "Honey, I think I do know what you mean," Mom says and takes a drink from her cup. "I am your Mother, after all.," and we both giggle. "I'll finish my coffee, then go upstairs and shower. Jennie lent me another outfit to wear today. OK if I look in your shoe closet for a pair to wear? Please?" And I smile my sweetest smile. Mom squeezes my hand, and says,"Of course honey. From now on, you don't have to ask." I finish my coffee, stand and kiss my Mom, and say, "Thanks Mom.Oh, wish me luck with my eyeliner and mascara. I want to look pretty this morning for Dr Jensen." After showering with a delightful body wash, shampooing, conditioning, and blow drying my hair, I go to my room. I gaze lovingly at the beautiful white undies my darling sister has lent to me to wear for today. I quickly tuck, and slip into my panties and bra. I love the feeling of this set. I've never worn it. I gently lift my breast forms from their tray,and insert them into my bra cups. I love the way they make my look. I slip into the pretty white capri pants Jennie lent to me. They are a bit loose in the hips, but it's OK. I'm getting so good at tucking, my crotch looks exactly like any girl's. Smooth and clean. My slightly oversized,but not too, T-shirt is pink with big glittery letters across my breasts, "LOVE". I've decided to wear Mom's blue wedgie sandals again, since they were already in my room. This finished, I go back into the bathroom, put my hair up in my favorite style, a ponytail, with a few wisps left loose around my face. I use a bright pink hair tie. "Ok, here goes," I say to myself. I take the cap off of my brown eyeliner pencil. Leaning close up to the mirror, opening my left eye very wide, I draw a line above my upper lash and one below the lower, not too heavy. Not bad, I'm pretty satisfied. The right eye goes just as smoothly. "Hmm," I think,"This isn't so hard." Next I drag my mascara brush out of it's tube, remembering how Mom did it last night. I brush a few srokes over my lower lashes, then my uppers. After sticking the brush back in it's tube, I fan my lashes to dry the first coat, then apply another. Using my lash comb, I I comb my lashes to remove any clumps, and to straighten them. Then I remember I forgot to curl them first. DARN IT! Oh, well. I'll remember next time. I smooth a nice coat of Cherry Lip Gloss on my lips, and take a good look at myself. 'OK! I'm ready!" , I say to myself. I wish I had some earrings to wear. I'll have to get Mom to pierce them for me at her salon. Maybe today? If I'm sweet enough? Mom and Jennie are at the kitchen table when I come in. They're both dressed and ready to go. It's 8:15 , and I am very anxious to get going, but we have plenty of time. So, I sit and cross my legs. I say good morning to Jennie and ask if she slept well, and thank her for lending me my outfit for the day, including my undies. "Lexi, my dear sister, you're welcome any time. You know that. And you look very cute in it! Did you do your makeup yourself? You did a great job. Very pretty!" Jennie smiles. "Good job on your liner and mascara, honey. You look very nice.," Mom smiles at me. I can't help but just smile, and love my Mom. Jennie giggles, and says, "I think those capris and T-Shirt fit you better than they do me, Lexi. Would you like to keep them? You can if you want." "Are you sure, Jennie?" , I ask. "I would love to have them." I rise, and hug her. Then I air kiss my sister, as not to mess my lip gloss. And she giggles, "You got it Lexi. Don't mess up your makeup." and she giggles again. Mom sits there and laughs. "Oh my God," she says. "You really are a girl. Only girls air kiss.," and she giggles. Mom, Jennie,and I, the three ladies of the house, have a good laugh over that. Have I said enough times how much I love being a girl? Or how much I love my Mom and sister? When we arrive at the clinic, Dr Ellen Jensen is waiting for us at the door. "Good morning ladies," she says. "Jill, it's so good to see you. How's business? You look nice this morning. Hello Jennie, I haven't seen you for quite a while. You're looking very pretty. And this is Lexi , formerly Alex. I'm so glad to meet you, my dear. Let's go inside." As we enter I see what looks to be a typical medical office. "It's very nice to see you too, Ellen. Is it time for a new cut, or maybe a perm?" giggles Mom. "Awww, Jill. Always trying to drum up business. But you're right. It is about time for a bit of a change. I'll stop in and make an appointment some time." Mom just laughs, and lovingly regards her friend. "Thank you, Dr. Jensen.," says Jennie. We come to a small waiting area, with a few chairs, and some pretty plants. "Have a seat, ladies.," the Dr. says. We all sit in a sort of circle, around a table. There are lots old magazines. Dr. Jensen reaches over and takes my hand. "Your mother tells me you're very interested in transitioning from a boy to a girl. She also says you are very serious about it. I am willing to help you, Lexi." "Yes, ma'am, I am. I need whatever help you can give me. I do want to be a girl...badly, in my being. I'm so afraid I'll become more masculine, and I don't want that. I need help as soon as possible." "I will help you as much as I can today.Ladies, follow me." We walk through double doors to what looks like a normal exam room. "OK, Lexi. I'm not going to ask you a lot of questions, since your Mother has already filled me in on the specifics." Dr. Jensen then explains to me about "testosterone blockers," "estrogen therapy," and other female hormones. Testosterone blockers usually come in pill form, and estrogen can be in a pill or injections. She says at first she can give me a sort "super hormone" shot to jump start my therapy, and pills, which I'll have to take three times a day. I tell her that's what I want. I look at Mom, and she says, "OK darling, if that is what you want.," and nods. She then expalins, "As a result of your female hormone injections and pills, you body will take on a more feminine appearance and shape, your skin and hair will become softer,and smoother, which you should notice in only a few weeks. Within two to three months, you should begin to notice subtle changes. Your pelvic area, hips, buttocks, upper thighs will begin to take on a more female shape. Your penis may shrink." I think to myself, My 'little clitty' which Heather called my penis, will get even smaller?" This idea brings an inward smile to my face. So this is what Jennie meant by , my hips growing into skirts, and my white capris. "You may notice yourself becoming more emotional,catch yourself crying ,things like that, more than usual." At this ,I think. That's already happened. "Also within that two to three months your breast area will become very sensitive, and you may experince slight discomfort. Don't let this worry you, Lexi. It is completely normal for a girl going though puberty. And truthfully, puberty is what you will be experiencing. Your feminine body is going to begin to develop very soon, Lexi. Many girls like you become VERY buxom and feminine, others not so much. That all depends on your geneology, your chemistry. Judging by your Mother,and your sister, I think you have the right genes to develop into a very feminine and pretty young lady, Lexi. Some girls develop much quicker than others, too. All we can do is wait and see how your feminine development unfolds." Dr. Jensen stops us , and says,"There is another option, which is more...permanent. If you were to choose it, you wouldn't need the testosterone blocker and there would be absolutely no chance of any male characteristics "bleeding through," you might say. It is a simple procedure, an Orchiectomy ,or "Orchy' for short. It involves a simple outpatient procedure which takes only about an hour. Lexi, your testicles would be removed, through a small incision, one on each side of your scrotum. They are only about half an inch long. Your testicles are removed surgically. That's what I mean by "permanent". It is irreversable. Would you be interested in that? If so, we can do it today. I would only have to call my anesteseologist. I'm certain she would come in." I look at Dr.Jensen, then at Mom, pleadingly, "That's what I want," I say. "I've heard of that before. I've seen videos and such on the internet about it, and other girls like me who have done it are always very happy with it. That's what I want. Please Mom? I want this so badly." "Are you absolutely certain about this honey? Ellen says it's permanent." "Yes Mom, I'm sure." "Maybe you should think about it for a week or two?" "No, Mom. I'm sure it's what I want. Can we do it today? Please?" Mom thinks for a few seconds. A few loooong seconds. Then she says. "OK honey, if you are absolutely sure about this. Ellen, let's do it. Would you call your assistant please?" After only about two minutes, Dr. Ellen is back."My assistant, Linda,will be in in a half hour or so, ladies. Then we can begin. Are you alright with this, Lexi? I imagine you are a little anxious and nervous, but you can relax. You're going to fine.," and she smiles at me. I say, "Yes, I'm fine, Dr." "OK, now I'm going to give you your "super hormone" injection ,Lexi." She moves to a cabinet, brings out several pill bottles, and a HUGE looking needle,and fills it with some clear, though a bit cloudy, liquid. She walks over to my Mom,hands the bottles her." Now Lexi, these pills are estrogen, 20 mg apiece, which doesn't seem like much, but it is very strong stuff.We all know strength is a distinctly feminine trait, don't we ladies?" and she giggles. "You will take two pills, three times daily. I've given you a two month supply. I expect to see you once every month, to see how you're coming along, Lexi. You will recieve another injection at that time, each month." We are finally home. What a day it has been! I feel a little lighter, and different, somehow. I feel some discomfort from my surgery, and a bit light-headed, but otherwise, I feel good. We are all sitting at our kitchen table, big cups of tea in front of us. I am in my nightie, and Mom's powder blue bathrobe. It's SO warm and soft! My hair is in a bun on top of my head. Several bottles of nail polish are on the table, and one clear, "Sally Hansen's Hard As Nails". There is also a black plastic box containing an ear piercing kit. I begged Mom to pierce my ears today, and she said yes! I am now wearing tiny stud earrings! Mom is sitting in a chair facing me, my foot is on her chair, between her knees. She has filed and shaped my toenails, pushed back the cuticles. She is painting my toenails a beautiful pink color she calls "Soft Fuschia". This is SO much fun, and I'm loving it. Mom soaked my fingers in her nail bath, removed any dead stuff, pushed back my cuticles. After filing and shaping my nails, she applied three coats of "Sally Hansen's Hard As Nails". I need to keep it on all the time, and it can also be used as a base for color, and topcoat. As my nails grow out, they will be stronger and stronger. "What girl doesn't simply adore being pampered in this way?" I think to myself, and giggle. "Simpy adore?" What a feminine expression that is. "What are you giggling about, honey?" Mom asks. "I'm so happy, Mom. As I said this morning, was it just this morning? I've wanted this all my life, even before I wanted it. Mom, Jennie ,I love you both so much." "awww...we know that, Lexi.You just sit back and relax. We'll take care you.," Jennie tells me. "Me and Mom are very happy too.," and she blows me a kiss across the table. Suddenly, I'm disturbed by a scary thought."Mom, I really don't want to go back to being a boy for the rest of school, even if it is only two weeks. I'm going to hate it.," and I feel like crying. "Since Friday, I've been Lexi, I don't want go back to being Alex." Mom smiles, and says," Don't worry honey. I'm keeping you out of school this week. You do have some healing to do. And the last week is only three days. That Wednesday will be only half a day. Don't worry, honey. After, you'll never have to pretend to be Alex again." "Never?" "Never," smiles my Mother. Mom has me stand, holds out a cloth measuring tape. "We'll take your measurements once a week, to keep track of your progess." She does so, and writes down the numbers on a small notepad. CHAPTER 5 Ten days later..Wednesday...12:10 PM OH! Thank God that's over! Before I go inside ,my battered Converse All- Stars and those horrible socks go straight into the trash."Good riddance! I'm NEVER wearing those again." I drop that ugly boyish backpack on the ground, float (yes, float) up the three steps to the door, get out my key, and go in and plop down into the chair. Running my hand through my long hair, I think to myself, "I suppose it hasn't been so bad, but I'm SO glad it's all over." Actually, thinking about it, the last three days of ninth grade were kind of interesting, in a weird, funny sort of way. Even in Alex's clothes, I still felt like Lexi. The girl in me is there unconsciously or maybe even subconsciously now, the real ,natural me. I don't think about it anymore. It's just who I am. It's been less than two weeks since my "coming out', but it's almost like that boy Alex never actually existed. He's gone forever, he's never coming back. I can't, and wouldn't venture to try, to count the number of times I caught myself sitting with my legs crossed, straight backed, at my desk in class. Or how many times I had to force myself to walk like a guy in the hall, or outside during lunch, or wherever. Or how many times I had to carry my books at my side like a guy, and not up near my breasts. Or all the times my hand would come up to my chest, or to my lips. I noticed some almost knowing looks from some of the girls. Natalie Morrison, who I've known since third grade, though we've never really been close, was one who asked me, "Alex, are you OK? You seem different somehow." I almost blurted it out, before I caught myself. "Sure, I'm fine. Why?" "I can't quite put my finger on it, but you ARE different. You even look different. And you know, I like it, and am interested." She tears a a page from her notebook and writes on it. "Listen, I would like you to call me this Summer. Please? Here's my phone number." I'm a bit shocked by it. "Look Alex, I have to run. Please call me sometime? Oh, and by the way, I like your little earrings. They're cute." She turns and walks away, looks back over her shoulder, and waves. "Wow". I think to myself, "She must sense something." I resolve to call Natalie, sometime over the next few days, in fact. Lisa Wilkes, another girl I've gone to school with for years, was another. I'm standing at my locker on Tuesday afternoon, and another one of those moments I had to remind myself to be Alex comes up. I looked around a little self consciously, and she is standing behind me. "Hi Alex," she smiles. Lisa is one of those cute, petite girls all the guys flirt with, and all the girls wish they could be like. " I noticed your earrings yesterday, and wanted to say I like them. You look cute with them." I smile, hopefully not too girlish, and say, "Hi there Lisa. Thanks." Lisa looks at me sort of quizically. "I noticed, maybe sensed, I don't know, some sort of change in you yesterday in Math Class. I thought about it last night. We've known each other a long time, Alex. I've always thought you were a...strange boy, but have always liked you. You've always come across as a bit shy and sweet. I don't know what's different about you. You seem to carry yourself with a different sort of air and...,"she puts a fingernail between front teeth, "Alex, are you gay?" My eyes go a little wider, she looks up at me. "No, Lisa, I'm not gay. A number of the other kids,mostly girls, have commented on how I seem "different"." "Look Alex, whatever it is, I'm a bit puzzled. It really is pretty obvious you've changed...somehow. Listen, you know where I live, right? Only two houses down from you. I know we've never really seen each other much ,except for at school, and around the neighborhood, but I've always thought we are friends. I want you to come see me at my house sometime. Please? I really am intrigued to find out what it is that is different about you. I can see you don't want to talk about whatever it is at school." As Lisa turns and heads to her next class, I have a comforting thought. These girls somehow instinctively know what is going on with me. I can feel it. They want me to be their girlfriend. Not only is it a comforting thought, but also very exciting. My incisions are actually healed very well. I'm kind of surprised at how quickly they did. Even the weird dissolving stiches are mostly gone. I haven't had a nice bubble bath in what seems like forever and it feels fantastic. There are candles burning around the tub,and as I lay back, I'm thinking about the changes in my life so far. I'm so much happier than I used to be. I can hardly wait for my breasts, hips, and butt to grow, but I know I must be patient. It's going to happen. I joyously splash my feet in the bubbles, loving my pink nail polish, and smile. There is a soft knock on the door. "Lexi, are you in there?" It's Jennie. "Yep! Come in, Jennie! I'm just soaking!" "Hi honey!" Jennie bends and kisses me. "How was your last day at school? I'm so glad we're out for Summer. We're going to have lots of fun together, sis! And Mom too!" "I have a couple of new girlfriends from school. Natalie gave me her phone, wants me to call her,and Lisa, who lives on our block, asked me to come visit her." "Lisa, the girl who lives just a couple doors down? And Natalie Morrison? You've been in the same classes since like...third grade? Did you tell them?" "No, but they both have noticed some "change" in me, and want to find out what it is." ,I giggle. "Other kids, mostly the girls, did too." "Are you going to? Oh, Lexi! I'm so happy for you! You need your own girlfriends to have fun with, do each other's makeup... stuff like that." "Well, I suppose I'll have to wait and see what kind of reaction I get from them before that can happen. I'm hoping so. I think they actually know what's happening with me, just like you and Mom did.It must be a girl thing."Feminine Intuition?" and I smile. "That could be, sweetie. Have you been remembering to take your pills?" "Of course. How could I possibly forget?" "I love you sis. When you're finished, come in my room. I want to try something," and she kisses me. "Oh, and bring your breast forms." I'm standing in Jennie's room in white lacy panties and an adorable white strapless bra. My breast forms fit in it beautifully. They feel a bit heavy, and the bra being strapless, seems strange, but I like it. Jennie is holding a pretty pale blue sundress up in front of me. It's so cute! It has a fitted bodice, and spaghetti straps. It reaches to just below my knees. There are little pink roses all around the hemline and up around the top. Oh my God! It's beautiful. "Step into it, and I'll zip you up. Those panties and bra are Mom's and fit you great, Lexi! Woohoo!" Oh, God! I feel so pretty in this! I do a little spin, and the skirt rises as I do so, almost so my panties show. "Careful, Lexi," Jennie giggles. "Sit at my vanity, and I'll do your makeup and hair for you. Oh, first." She reaches up and removes the stud earrings I've worn since Mom first pierced my ears. She takes a cotton ball, splashes a little alcohol on it, and cleans my earlobes. "You're going to love these earrings." I look in the mirror and see dangly earrings. Each has a small pattern of tiny pink roses. "Oh, Jennie! They're so pretty! I DO love them". I shake my head a little, and the earrings swing. I like it. "Don't ever forget your lash curler,"then she gets started on my makeup. When she is finished I look at myself in her vanity mirror, and can't believe what I see. My hair is loose around my shoulders, held up above and slighty behing my ears by the prettiest little pink barrettes. My blusher is perfect, and just a little understated. On my eyes, brown liner and mascara, pink eyeshadow. My green eyes look so big and beautiful! My lips are a lovely pale pink. "Oh, Jennie! Thank you! You've made me beautiful." Tears almost come to my eyes, but I quickly stop them. "You are beautiful, Lexi, my wonderful sister. It is nothing but fun for me to make you pretty, and to see how much you love it. Now put your sandals on, and we'll go downstairs and wait for Mom to get home. She'll be here soon." These sandals are flat and strappy. And bright pink. "I would love a cup of tea, but I'm afraid it will ruin my lipstick." Jennie giggles, "You just have to learn to take little, dainty sips. That's how ladies drink. REAL ladies anyway, like us. Why do you think we carry purses?" "So we can touch up our makeup. Even I know that," and Jennie laughs. "I'll make us some nice tea, and we'll wait for Mom. Let's have a little girl-talk too, while we're waiting,"and she brightly smiles at me. "Hi girls! Lexi, you look lovely. I really like your dress, and your hair looks beautiful," and Mom bends and kisses my cheek. "What do my two wonderful daughters say to going out for dinner and celebrating Summer?" Jennie and I both say,"We would love to, Mom!"and we both laugh. We really are sisters. We think alike, and I'm so very happy. "We'll go in just a few minutes. I need to freshen up a bit.," smiles Mom. An hour later, we pull up in front of a cute little restraunt. A pretty sign says "Josephine's". We step out of the car. I'm carrying Mom's little pink shoulder bag. Nothing is in it but my powder compact and lipstick,but I feel fabulous carrying it. It's my first purse and it makes me feel just that much more the girl. I can't stop smiling. Our hostess shows us to our table. There is a pretty candle in the middle of the white tablecloth. A folded blue napkin sits in front of each of the four chairs. I smooth my skirt and sit. Jennie sits next me, and Mom on the other side. Our hostess hands us each a menu,and we thank her. "Would my ladies have something to drink?"she asks. "Iced tea please,"I answer. Mom and Jennie each order Diet Coke. "I'll be right back with your drinks,"she says, and saunters off. I'm a little nervous, but am feeling great. "Oh my God , Mom, this is so wonderful! Do you realize this is my first time out?" I'm absolutely giddy at being called a lady along with my wonderful Mother and sister. "I love you both so much. I'm a little nervous, But I'll be fine once I relax a bit." My smile is huge, and Mom reaches across the table to touch my hand. "Lexi darling, Jennie and I are proud to have you with us. We love you too, honey. My daughters are both wonderful, and I love you. I'm going to have a nice salad. How about you girls?" "I think I will too," Jennie and I say at the same time. We both giggle. We order after the Hostess brings our drinks. I tell Mom about Lisa and Natalie. While we are eating, Mom asks me how I feel about seeing my friends Natalie and Lisa. I tell her I'm very excited, but a little nervous about it. I'm kind of worried about how they will react. "Oh, don't worry, honey. I'm sure they will love you. You are a darling girl, and they will see that. You said you think they both somehow know what is 'different' about you, and I think you may be right. 'Feminine Intuition', you called it. They will either accept and welcome you, or not. In my honest opinion, I think they will. I know Lisa a little, and she is a little sweetheart. Natalie has been in my salon with her Mother and sister, and they are very nice ladies, all. I really don't think you have anything to worry about, sweetheart." She reaches, takes my hand,"Lexi, my darling daughter, you are going to develop into a beautiful woman, and I am VERY proud to be your Mother. Natalie and Lisa, and whoever else you meet and become friends with are going to see you for what you are. A sweet, loving, compassionate, beautiful girl. You are going to have many friends darling. Both girlfriends and boyfriends. Just be yourself, you'll see." I giggle at the thought of boyfriends. "Well there ARE a few boys at school who are kind of cute. I'm not quite sure I'm ready for that yet though, Mom." She and Jennie both have a good laugh over that, and I join them, though I'm blushing. "I can only hope you're right, Mom. I do want to be a normal girl, and I hope Natalie and Lisa accept me as I am. I need girlfriends. It will really help me become more myself. I am Lexi, I am a girl!!!" When we've finished our salads and drinks, Jennie stands and takes my hand. "Come with me ,sis. Let's find the Ladies' Room." Mom looks up and smiles as we make our way. It's amazing. The entire place is pink. Along one wall are four stalls. I look into one, and even the toilet is pink. Along the other wall is a long counter with four pink sinks in it. Above that is a huge mirror with a row of bright lights above it. In front of us on the back wall are some small vending machines where ladies can buy tampons, pads,that type of thing. The pink wallpaper is covered with pink flowers. Suddenly I really have to pee. This will be the first time I've ever used the Ladies' Room. I really do have to pee, really bad. I'm so nervous though, I can't. Not right away, anyhow. I have to sit there for a minute or two and relax first. "Are you Ok in there Lexi?" I pat the end of my clitty with a wad of toilet papar, flush, retuck, and pull up my panties. When I come out, Jennie is laughing. "Is this the first time you've used the Ladies' Room? "Yeah," I say,and giggle,"I'll get used to it." Jennie is still laughing. "Oh, come on," I say, "It's not all THAT funny." And I laugh along with her. We freshen our makeup in the huge mirror. I powder my nose, chin and forehead, then re-apply my lipstick. Jennie does the same. We gather our purses and head back to the table. "That was an adventure," I say to Mom when we get back. "A lot different than the boys room at school. Much prettier," I giggle. "Oh, that WAS your first visit to the Ladies' Room right ,honey?" asks Mom. "What did you think?" "I loved it." "Ooooh! These are cute." We are standing at a rack of matching jeans and tops. The jeans come in all sorts of pretty colors, as do the tops, which are in flowery patterns. They really are beautiful. "Can I try some of these on, Mom? Please?" I ask. " Sure, Lexi dear. Take a jeans and top,and take Jennie in with you. She can help." We come out of the fitting room, I am wearing yellow jeans and top. The top has short, slightly puffy sleeves. There are three pretty little buttons to close it near the neckline, which is fairly low and round. A beautiful pattern of tiny yellow daisies cover the entire top, on a lighter yellow background. I love it. "Can I please have them, Mom? They are so cute!" "Of course, darling. If you would like, get three of each. You're going to need them." I walk around the display, and notice there are shorts, all in the same colors. "Can I get some shorts too, Mom?" I get the yellow set. Then I pick pastel pink jeans. The flowery pattern of the matching top is made up of tiny pink roses. The top to match the light green jeans is patterned with leaves, instead of flowers, on a pastel green background. I also get the matching shorts in each color. Mom and Jennie both tell me I have good taste. I smile, "I'm glad you think so," and smile again. I think to myself, "I like shopping, but then , what girl doesn't?" And I giggle to myself. I so love this. Back out on the mall concourse, Jennie takes my hand and drags me along. "You're going to love this shop, sis." In "Baubles," which is a costume jewelry store, Mom buys for me a silver and a gold pair of "Love Knot" earrings. They are very pretty. I wear out of the store my new bangle bracelet, which is a made up of eight thin rings ,all in different colors, joined by a pretty silver clip. I look at it on my wrist,my nails are starting to grow out, and my bright pink nail polish is so pretty. My hands are actually kind of pretty and feminine. "Oh my God!" Mom says suddenly, "Girls, look at the time. The mall is going to close. We'd better go." I've had such a nice time, my very first night out as Lexi. Dinner was wonderful, and I've been shopping with my Mom and sister. I'm so very thankful to be who and what I am, and filled with nothing but love for them. I have a huge smile on my face, and am absolutely giddy as we head home for the evening. Later that evening, Jennie and I are in her room. She is letting me wear her satin nightie. It is purple, with spaghetti straps, and so short, it barely covers any of my thighs. I am also wearing my prized lilac panties. My feet are bare. Jennie's vanity stool is very soft and comfortable. She is brushing my hair for me, a luxurious feeling ,and very relaxing after such a wonderful evening. I am admiring my newly polished nails. Jennie had commented, "Sweetie your nails need done. I'll do them for you, just relax. Let's try this color,'Cherry On Top'. Isn't it pretty? Girl , your nails are growing out nicely." "Oh, please keep brushing my hair, sis. It feels wonderful. I'm loving it." She kisses my cheek, "Lexi dear,I'm really enjoying having a sister, someone I can pamper and love. Do you realize it's been less than two weeks? I almost find it hard to believe. You come so far, honey... You have beautiful hair, did you know that? The gold in it really shines." I am so relaxed, I'm only about half awake. I'm SO loving this. "Jennnie, I can't say enough times how happy I am that you and Mom accept and love me for what I am. I feel so much love for the both of you. Oh no, I'm going to cry again!" The tears start to roll down my cheeks and I try to rub them away. There are too many of them. Still, there is a big smile on my face. "Oh, Lexi, my sister. You are precious to us. We love you. No matter what happens, Mom and I will always be here for you. I'm so very happy things are turning out the way they are. You are much more yourself now, way more than before," she kisses my cheek, "I love you, sis. Dr. Jensen said your Hormone Therapy would make you more emotional, and she wasn't kidding, was she? Don't worry, you are going to be fine. Me and Mom will take care of you," and she hugs me. CHAPTER 6 "Hello?" "Hello? May I speak with Natalie?" I'm trying to sound like Alex. I recognize Natalie's voice. "This is she." "Hi Natalie, it's Le...Alex." "OH! Alex! Hi! I've been hoping you'd call! What's up?" "I'm calling you," and I laugh, trying not to giggle instead. "Well, I'm glad you are. You know Lisa, right? We've been talking about you. Would you like to get together with us tomorrow afternoon at her house? It's just down the street from yours, so you'll have no problem getting there." She and Lisa have been talking about me? At this moment, I'm sure they do know. "Sure, I would like that," I say. "What time?" "Oh, how about two o'clock? We want to talk with you about something. Can you make it?" "Sure, I'll be there. I'm looking forward to it." "Me too. See you then ,Alex. Bye for now." "Bye Natalie," and I hang up. "Wow, I wonder how this is going to turn out, and what I should wear? I'll ask Jennie what SHE would wear if she was me,"I think to myself. I must really be on my way, if my first thought is what to wear, and I giggle. Upon hanging up, Natalie thinks," I sure hope he comes dressed as a girl. I'm dying to see how she looks." Jennie ,who is at the kitchen table, asks, "Well, how did it go? I heard you almost say 'This is Lexi'," we both giggle at that. "Great!". I take a sip of my iced tea. "I'm going to Lisa's house tomorrow at two o'clock. They'll both be there. I wonder if anyone else will. Jennie, what should I wear? I want to look really nice, but not flashy or anything like that. Natalie said she and Lisa want to talk to me about something. Maybe I'm developing that 'feminine intuition'. Somehow I could feel, through the phone, that she knows. It's weird." "Why not wear one of your cute new outfits we bought at the mall? I think the yellow one would be perfect. We'll find some shoes in Mom's closet to match. It would bring out the shine of your hair, and your pretty green eyes. Lexi, you're going to knock them out. You're so pretty!" beams Jennie. "I hope so. I know I'm going to be scared to death. I hope they don't laugh at me." Jennie reaches, put her hand over mine, "They won't, honey. You just be your sweet self,and they are going to love you. I just know it," and gives me a big smile. "Confessions of a Shopaholic,"by Sophie Kinsella. OMG, this book is so funny! The main character, Becky Bloomwood, is a clueless mess, but I can't help but love her. She's so cute! Some of her schemes to get out of debt are so unrealistic,...I love this story. I mean, she's going to win the lottery to pay off her massive credit card debt and bank overdrafts? Right, good luck with that one honey. I'm relaxing on the sofa reading ,when Mom comes in. "Hi darling!" she bends and kisses my cheek. "Hi Mom! How has your day been?" "Wonderful, though hectic. We barely kept up with all the cuts, perms, nails, ,facials and stuff we had to do. We got through it, though. Whew! Oh I love that book! Becky is so cute! Are you enjoying it, honey?" Bookmarking my page, I sit up, my feet and knees together. "Oh, yeah. It's great. I'm reading girly romantic comedies now," and I giggle. "Well, what else would one expect? Those are the kind of stories girls like." "I talked to Natalie today. We set up a time for me to meet with her and Lisa tommorow at Lisa's house. Two o'clock in the afternoon. I just know I'm going to be scared out of my mind. I'm SO looking forward to it, though. Jennie told me to just be myself, try to relax, and