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Chapter Two Growing up, Darlene Simons realized she wasn't like all the rest of the girls in her class. She never found herself swooning over the boys sitting next to her like the other girls did. All the lunchroom conversation was about boys. For some unknown reasons, boys did not excite her. They did nothing for her. She liked puppies and unicorns better than boys. Darlene thought boys seemed coarse and crude. At times, she found them unbearably stupid and clumsy. She had no patience for the guys who wouldn't stop staring at her bra and her breasts like dogs waiting on a cookie. And when she heard stories from her friends about making out and petting with boys, she wanted to vomit. She'd look at their dirty nails and thick fingers and shudder. How could you get excited about making out with boys? Darlene couldn't imagine letting a boy touch her. Their wet chapped lips and weird facial hair were gross. And their hygiene was just gross The idea of kissing a boy totally turned her off. Darlene knew she lived in her own fantasy world. Even though she had a great dad and a caring, loving mom she felt odd. Her family was normal in every way. But in Darlene's private world, there were no men. It was a world populated by women and all of them were beautiful. They wore perfect clothes, their hair was styled, and they looked wonderful. And just like her fantasy world, her desire was to make sure she always looked gorgeous. And Darlene wanted to surround herself with other pretty women who felt the same way. In her mind, all her friends should look like runway models. Thank goodness she found Tiffany. As she got to know her she became her best friend. Tiffany was smart had fashion sense and was a year older.And Tiffany was beautiful too. While Darlene had long blonde hair, Tiffany's hair was jet black. While Darlene had blue eyes, Tiffany's eyes were a deep dark brown. They were both tall and slender. They both had beautiful smiles. And they both agreed on everything. Darlene couldn't understand why all her classmates weren't like her friend Tiffany. Tiffany understood her and they thought the same way. Neither of them was interested in boys. They were just fine without boys drooling on them or trying to touch them. They liked hanging out with each other. Then one day Darlene was at Tiffany's house. They'd been having fun trying on Tiffany's clothes and playing with her makeup. They were making jokes and laughing together. They found themselves on Tiffany's big double bed together. They looked at each other and smiled. Tiffany suggested they practice kissing. Darlene laughed and smiled. She moved over close to Tiffany and closed her eyes. When Tiffany placed her lips on hers, Darlene felt something special. She felt her skin flush and a gentle heat ran through her whole body. Darlene kissed Tiffany back. It felt right. Tiffany's lips were soft and tender. Darlene could taste Tiffany's lipstick. She could smell her perfume. She touched her long soft hair and beautiful skin as her hand wrapped around the back of Tiffany's head. They kissed for the third time. To Darlene, it was like kissing herself only better. Tiffany's tongue snaked out between Darlene's lips. At first, Darlene was shocked. But then as Tiffany explored her mouth, Darlene had the urge to suck on Tiffany's tongue. Darlene felt herself in Tiffany's arms. They lay together on the bed embracing. It was wonderful. That moment opened up a whole new world for Darlene. She loved kissing and touching her best friend. And as time went on, she had more fun exploring Tiffany's body and turning her on too. She would spend overnights at Tiffany's house and they'd sleep together and it was all so clean and beautiful. And when Darlene had her first orgasm it was with Tiffany. Darlene soon learned that there were other girls just like Tiffany. Tiffany was happy to introduce her to a lot of new friends. Darlene found out that all these girls had a special name. But she had to be careful because saying you were a lesbian needed to be kept secret. It was not a good thing to share. Even though Darlene felt good about discovering herself, Tiffany, who was a year older and much wiser, advised her to keep it quiet. She told her that Darlene had to be undercover and pretend to like boys. When Darlene railed against boys, Tiffany reminded her that there'd be no more sleep-overs if her parents knew what she was doing in bed with her girlfriends. There'd be no more sweet orgasms and perfumed soft bodies to kiss and enjoy. Darlene finally agreed to give it a try and Tiffany set them up for a double date. Tiffany introduced her to a nice gentle boy to go to the movies with. His name was Ted and Teddy seemed to be like an older brother. He smiled and made jokes. He smelled good and looked cute. Tiffany said he was the next best thing to having a girlfriend. Darlene liked Teddy especially when he said he liked boys the same way she liked girls. And when word got around that beautiful Darlene was dating, she got too popular too fast. The phone never stopped ringing and Darlene hated it. Darlene didn't want to talk to boys. She thought it was a waste of time. She wanted to talk to Tiffany and Rose. She wanted to kiss Angela not Brad. She continued to double date with Teddy and some of her special girlfriends. Eventually, the boys learned that she was a cold fish and left her alone. This made Darlene happy. She still had her sleepovers and her best friends. She and Teddy would go out when it was necessary but only then. Darlene had it all. She was content. But Darlene never told her special girlfriends about her fantasies. Regardless of the girl she had in her bed, in her fantasy they were all Ashley Howard, a tall, slender redhead with the amazing green eyes. Ashley Howard was her dream girl. Ashley was one of the most famous runway models in the country. She was a teenager just like Darlene. She was in fashion ads and runway shows all over the world. Darlene made scrapbooks of all the magazines that had her pictures. Darlene saved all her magazine covers. On her computer, she had folders full of Ashley Howard pics. Every time Darlene made love to one of her girlfriends, she'd pretend they were Ashley Howard. In her mind all of her sleepover pals were Ashley. She'd have make-believe conversations with Ashley and they'd talk about modeling and designers. It was something she had fantasized about for years. But now Darlene was really floating on Cloud Nine. Beautiful Ashley Howard, the woman of all of her fantasies was sitting on her bed kissing her. She felt like she was still dreaming. It wasn't a fantasy. Darlene was covering the real Ashley's ears, eyes, and throat with passionate kisses. Darlene was dizzy with excitement. She was so turned on feeling Ashley's hands touching her that she was wet and her body was overheating. She wanted to make love with Ashley so badly. Ashley was getting her so hot she felt dizzy. They were sitting there together on the edge of her bed and it was just like heaven. It was hard to believe that this minute, right in her room, she was enjoying the real Ashley Howard kissing her nipples and caressing her breasts. Darlene was almost hyperventilating. She was thrilled that she was here with her idol. She couldn't stop hugging her and rubbing her body against hers. Ashley was more beautiful than she dreamed and felt even better than she could ever imagine. Howard couldn't believe what was happening. He was sitting in a dorm room with a young woman who knew all about his crazy story. And she was still interested in being with him. It was crazy, he thought. This gorgeous woman named Darlene knew the person she was kissing was not female and she didn't seem to care. To Howard, it was a total, unworldly, would-never-believe-it-could-happen moment. He'd always dreamed of being with a woman. He never thought it would take place. Yet here he was with a blonde beauty who was totally enjoying the moment. To him, this was absolutely awesome. He was dumbfounded. Darlene Simone knew his backstory and hadn't laughed or rejected him. And by all the touching and kissing they were doing, Darlene obviously enjoyed the moment too. On another plane, Howard was feeling frustrated. His attempt at his male look hadn't worked very effectively. Darlene had recognized Ashley right through Howard's efforts. He wondered what were the odds of that happening again? Was Ashley Howard that well-known or was it just coincidence that Darlene recognized him? Just because his first day efforts had failed he wasn't going to give up trying to resurrect Howard. Six months ago he'd decided to leave the Ashley Howard life he'd led. He was going to start college and he wanted to return to his male self and go forward as Howard Ashly. He really wanted to try being a guy again. He'd left Howard behind when he was fifteen. He had a lot of success becoming Ashley. When he signed his big modeling commitment, there was no time for Howard anymore and Ashley became a full-time entity. It hadn't been hard to make the transition. He'd been doing his girl fashion model efforts for so long that becoming Ashley Howard full time was easy. No one around him questioned whether the young teen Ashley was real. He had so much Saturday practice being a girl that it became second nature to become a full-time teenage girl. Ashley was his persona and he never went off script. He was even Ashley at home. Wither the multi-million dollar offer on the table His mom never questioned his decision and Ashley became very three- dimensional. At five foot eleven and one hundred and ten pounds, Ashley became one hundred percent real. From that moment on, Ashley made a good living as a runway model. But she made decisions that would eventually backfire. Ashley's adoption of pharmaceuticals continuing to advance the charade. She'd started anti- androgens at fourteen to delay Howard's puberty and keep her genderless. Her mom never knew that she continued taking them against the doctor's advice until she was eighteen. As a result, it caused permanent changes. It had crashed Howard's endocrine system and he'd missed the boat when it came to becoming a man. Without testosterone in Ashley's delicate system, she's grown up neutered. It kept her fresh looking and made it easy to stay slim. Without a gender, it was easy to continue being a runway model. Then in an effort to keep Ashley looking good as she matured, Howard started taking estrogen to fill out her figure. It worked well. Ashley has an attractive waistline, pretty legs, and a nicely shaped figure. It was fun to see her petite breasts and pink nipples. At nineteen she pulled back on all the medications when Ashley successfully looked like the other girls walking the runway. She realized those feminine changes were not reversible but it didn't seem important. Her mom watched the changes and assumed that Ashley had decided to permanently make the transition. As long as she was healthy and happy, it didn't make a difference to her. She figured she'd go forward with her last surgery when she turned twenty-one. But now, Ashley was exhausted and wanted a break. She wanted to morph back into Howard and give attending college a shot. She had invested her money wisely and didn't need to work. She wanted to forgo the modeling money and return to her roots by becoming a guy again. She knew she couldn't use the word man and certainly was too old to be called a boy. Howard sighed. He would have to work on his appearance. He needed to have more confidence in trying to pass as a guy. So far he'd failed. But he wasn't giving up. Ignoring all his doubts he decided to work on that problem tomorrow. Right now Howard was loving being in the moment. All this kissing and petting with Darlene made him want to scream with joy. It had been a long time since he could relax and let himself go like this. Howard frowned. Unfortunately, the moment of truth was at hand. Soon, he'd be taking off his clothes. Thinking about showing his penis scared him. For him, this was a real leap of faith. He tried to think it all through. It was going to be very strange. He wanted to make sure that it wasn't going to go south in a really bad way. Ashley had walked this tightrope for many years. How do you explain to someone I'm not what I appear to be? How do you say I'm a freak? How do you tell someone that deep inside this beautiful red-haired, green-eyed female model is a guy? Ashley had to be careful with everything she said and did. In social settings, Ashley always reminded herself not to appear too excited by or interested in anyone. Her gestures had to be contained and conservative. When working, the crew and models often went out for lunch together. Most models flirted and encouraged the guys hoping they'd pick up the tab or invite them out for drinks. They'd coyly touch an arm, or lean in close and whisper confidently. But that wasn't Ashley. She wasn't into freaking people out with her personal truth and so Ashley made a point of just not dating. She didn't want some twenty something guy pursuing her. It was always so sad when a guy spent all his time trying to convince her to go out with him. Ashley got anxious and never enjoyed the texts, the calls, or the flowers. Whenever this happened, Ashley could only imagine how the nightmare would all end. Sure, she knew that guys wanted to date models, especially ones like Ashley Howard. She knew what she looked like. After all, it was her business to look her best. And since Ashley had been successful for most of her life, she knew her job was looking as glamorous as possible. And she played the part well. That was the problem, playing the part. Howard had been Ashley full time for over six years. He was Ashley. But Howard really had hoped that this college thing might turn his life around and allow him to become a guy again. He had thought about it for the past six months. Life would be a lot easier if Howard was attracted to guys. When he was young he did experiment with sex and found that he didn't get turned on with guys. The doctor pointed to the lack of testosterone in his system causing his lack of libido. Now he was starting college and hoping for a new life. In his mind, if he could become Howard again he could lead a life as a real person without any of the hiding. He still wanted to be the anonymous wallflower that could enjoy life without attracting any attention. He figured he really wouldn't have to worry about getting hit on if he was his self as a guy. He was pretty serious about trying to make it as Howard. He figured if it worked out he might stay that way and let Ashley disappear. It seemed like a plan. So the first thing Ashley did was call her stylist and make an appointment. When Ashley went to her salon and told Heather she wanted a crew cut, Heather freaked. As Ashley sat in the chair looking at the mirror, she watched her hold up Ashley's beautiful hair with two hands. It was full and perfect. Ashley's hair came down into the center of her back. It was part of her trademark. Ashley smiled. "I'm going to donate it all to Locks Of Love. So I need it washed and then braided. Then we can chop off the whole thing to help some cancer patients who want a pretty wig." Ashley smiled at Heather, the woman who had been styling Ashley's hair for years. After much discussion, Ashley settled on a pixie cut as the hair stylist kept looking at her very strangely. Heather finally blurted out. "Why the fuck did you want a crew cut?" Ashley laughed. All these years with Heather and she had never said anything about her real life. Heather worked with Ashley Howard and never knew there was a story to be told. And now, Howard hoped the story was coming to an end. And even if Ashley wanted to do more modeling, Howard knew that his pixie cut wouldn't make any difference on the runway. They'd provide Ashley with any hairpiece the designers desired. Then Ashley told her agency she was taking some time off. They weren't happy. Fifteen percent of six months of her salary would amount to a three hundred thousand dollar loss to her agents. But, she had given them six months notice and they just stopped booking her. Howard wanted to take the time. He'd just turned twenty-one and wanted to shake things up in his life. He yearned for something different. He was looking forward to just living a quiet life. Being a pretty woman could be a real pain. He didn't mind the daily effort of watching his weight and what he ate. He enjoyed going to the gym and working out. But, he did not like being hit on. Sometimes he wondered what guys saw in him. He was as skinny as a toothpick. He had a very slight figure. And without makeup and his hair pulled back or under a ball cap, he thought he was the plainest thing around. Howard understood how it was the in-thing to be seen with a pretty woman on your arm. That was a status symbol in the big city. But, he didn't want to date guys. He had no desire to be on someone's arm and be rumored to be having an affair. He didn't socialize. He didn't want to see Ashley on page six of the Post. Howard had a nightmare where he'd be beaten up or killed when a guy discovered that what was between Ashley's legs. He wasn't in denial. He was a guy, but it wasn't like he wanted to wear a sign that said 'Ashley is a fake'. Ashley took the easiest and safest path. She didn't have a social life. Ashley didn't have friends. Ashley's life sucked. In the early years, he'd risked fooling around with a few partners. Early on, when he was younger and really hadn't become well known, he'd played around with other models. He really liked kissing and petting. Since he didn't have much of a sex drive, stopping at that point suited him just fine. But most people wanted more. Howard had learned that he needed to go the extra mile for his partner whether it was a guy or a girl. He'd learned to please someone and what it took. It didn't bother him. As long as he didn't have to take his clothes off and reveal his true self, everything was fine. Today, with Darlene, this was all new ground. All his rules had changed. First, he came right out and said that he wasn't female. Then he explained his limitations. This had been very difficult. After all, when your dick never grew up and your testicles never inflated, revealing yourself was always tough. Sitting there making out with Darlene, they were taking each other's clothes off. Howard was having such a great time that his normal shyness wasn't slowing him down. Howard finally took off everything except for his underwear. Even though he was dressed in his male outfit, his underwear were simple satin bikini panties. He'd long ago gotten used to tucking and enjoyed the comfort of underwear that fit him so well. Boy underwear didn't follow his curves properly. He had a small waist, slightly flared hips, and his rear was rounded. Howard wasn't wearing a bra. He really didn't need one for support. He had developed into a double A cup when he stopped taking estrogen. A designer had accurately described Ashley's breasts as diminutive. Ashley had beautiful feminine nipples and aureolas. They were large and attractive. For his thin frame, they looked perfectly natural. Whenever he walked the runway, Ashley would wear a padded bra. A lot of the runway models padded themselves in all sorts of places. Ashley was pleased that she was not just a flat board like some of the women she worked with. While she was being made-up, dressed, and ready for the runway or the photographers she was proud that her body passed as female. She had a nice rounded rear, her hips flared out, and her waist was nipped in. The estrogen had done the trick. No one who looked at her questioning or ever thought she was a man. The worst she could be accused of was being too skinny. Howard was enjoying this foreplay with Darlene. While he had a problem with achieving orgasms he was very oral. His idea of a good time was using his mouth. So, kissing and nibbling was his favorite escapes. Darlene started to tug on his panties. Howard reached over and held her hand. He stopped her. "Can we wait on that?" Darlene smiled and nodded. She was so happy that she would have done anything her idol asked. She gently stroked her on top of her cute satin briefs. "Is this all right?" Howard nodded. He wanted to postpone the moment when he would be under a microscope. He had seen himself a million times but was still shy about someone examining him for the first time. He was so small and inadequate that it was a distraction. He spread his legs and allowed her to stroke his body through the panties. As she caressed him, he purred in response. Darlene discovered Ashley's penis and was caressing it gently through her panties. Inside Ashley's green silken panties her penis was sweet just like she was. It was a girl's penis. It was slim and small. It was delicate and soft. Darlene used her fingers to rub it gently. She found the head and paid more attention to it just like she would a clitoris. She liked the way Ashley moaned when she caressed and squeezed. Her penis was just like Ashley, very special. In Darlene's mind, this was just perfect. It had been a very long time since Howard had been with someone else. He thought he knew what worked on his body and what didn't. He was surprised as he felt himself fill with blood. Most of the time, when he tried to manipulate himself, nothing happened. But, even when he was responding it was nothing compared to being a real man. He sighed. A real man. It would always be something that would elude him. It wasn't meant to be. The endocrinologist had told him that it was too late to charge up his reproductive system with testosterone. He'd been on the anti-androgens for too long. He'd forever be sterile and impotent. His testicles had long ago left town and took his scrotum with it. All he was left with was a tiny reminder. No matter what he chose to do, having a full-sized set of organs would forever elude him. Howard was enjoying Darlene's touch as she stroked him through the satiny material. He was very sensitive. Howard's fingers were between Darlene's legs manipulating her clitoris as they kissed and rubbed their bodies together. As Darlene moaned, Howard's fingers dipped into the folds of her vagina and used her wetness to lubricate his touch. He was enjoying her. Howard really wanted to use his tongue to help her achieve orgasm. Darlene begged him for more. Howard slowed and gave her a chance to catch her breath. Darlene looked up at him with her beautiful blue eyes and pulled him down to kiss his lips. "Oh Ashley, you're wonderful. Can I kiss you there?" She squeezed her penis. Howard nodded. "First, can we get under the covers?" Darlene grinned. "I have the greatest comforter in the world." She kissed him on the lips as she sat up and pulled her spread around them. They scooted under together and once again wrapped themselves in each other's arms. As they played under the blankets kissing each other's face, neck, and ears Howard felt himself warming up inside and out. He'd never had an experience like this where he could relax and be himself. Darlene kept tugging at his elastic waistband encouraging him to take his underwear off. Finally, Howard sighed and slid them over his hips. Darlene lifted the cover and looked at him still in her hand. "It's pretty." She held his small penis up and kissed it. "Pretty?" Howard was looking at her and trying to shoo her back under the covers. He wanted to be warm and comfortable. His boy part embarrassed him. One time, a model he was working with referred to a transgender coworker as a she-male. There were a large number of gay or trans people in their business. It was a strange term that he didn't like the sound of. Darlene kissed him hard on the lips and smiled. "Well, I was expecting something kinda awful. I mean you made it out like it was all crazy or something. I think it's really pretty." "I've never heard of it described as--" Howard stopped talking as Darlene wet her fingers and started to fondle him. Obviously, she had a real urge to please. "Oh, that's nice. That's really nice." He whispered. It was great. Suddenly he was enveloped in the warm, wet environment of her hand. Darlene was applying the perfect amount of pressure on it's sensitive head. Her delicate hand was wonderful. The two of them went back under the covers. As their bodies twined and created wonderful friction, Howard took the lead. He knew what he was capable of. Darlene looked up. She smiled. "I like the way it's getting hard. The way you talked, I didn't think you responded." Howard shrugged. "That's not the usual state of affairs for me. I guess it must like you an awful lot. Howard smiled. He wanted to reciprocate. He spun his naked body around and spread Darlene's legs. Howard used his tongue and fingers to stimulate her. It was something he really enjoyed. The two of them were nestled together caressing each other. Howard pulled the warm comforter over them. Darlene moaned and tried to take Ashley completely into her mouth. Darlene liked the way Ashley was growing and getting harder. There was something special about making love with her dream, Ashley Howard. Even her penis seemed wonderful. Ashley was so amazing. Even with her new short pixie haircut, she was still the most attractive woman she had ever seen. Everything about her was perfect. And here she was naked between Darlene's thighs. She shivered with excitement. She continued to lick Ashley's little part the best she could. It was the first penis she had ever touched. Darlene's dream of Ashley Howard turned out to be everything she imagined and then this one little addition, too. This little extra which she currently had between her lips was just as sweet as the rest of her new lover. It wasn't some rough, uncaring, stupid boy's thing in her mouth. This was Ashley Howard's and it was wonderful. It was pretty and oh so sweet. Ashley's kissing and sucking brought Darlene to orgasm. She closed her eyes and let herself go completely. Ashley didn't stop and Darlene was excited to feel more and more pleasure bursting from deep within her body. As Darlene felt the pleasure rush through her body, she decided that she wanted to feel Ashley down there inside her. She kept a firm grip on it and turned herself around until she could kiss her lover on the lips. As she kissed Ashley's ears, neck, and eyes, she murmured, "I want you in me." She continued to squeeze and caress the sensitive tip and was pleased that it seemed to be staying erect. Howard heard her words. He'd never been so turned on. He wondered if his physical response came from this atmosphere of honesty. Darlene didn't flinch at his story. She listened to his every word and didn't seem to care about how messed up his life had been. Darlene lifted her legs up and wrapped them around Ashley's torso. She squeezed gently and continued to shower her with kisses as she pulled her close. Darlene loved the feeling of her petite breasts and hard nipples rubbing against her body. The whole experience was exciting her and bringing her to a frenzied state. Her skin felt hot and flushed. Then Darlene pulled Ashley inside her. As Ashley entered her, Darlene used her muscles to contract down on Ashley's little penis. Howard was surprised that he didn't shrink up but felt the blood in his body rush down to keep him full. In all his years he'd never felt this overwhelming passion. It was a moment he'd never envisioned happening. Here he was having intercourse with an amazing woman. Howard had a newfound purpose. He wanted to please Darlene. He was no fool. Sure, he looked like a babe and had been living as a girl for way too long. Had it really been six years, he thought to himself? Yeah, age fifteen to twenty-one. And in all that time, no one had ever questioned his feminine gender. Yet, his brain still said he was a guy. Maybe it was the fact that he still had a dick. A dick that shot blanks when it did shoot. Those shooting moments were far and few between, he mused. But, coming back to reality, this day might be one for the record books. For some reason, Darlene was able to push all his buttons and make him function like a man. Howard felt himself inside the wonderful Darlene. He was slowly riding her as carefully as he could. Howard was afraid of falling out and going limp. Darlene was contracting the muscles inside herself to caress and hold him tightly. It was amazing. Howard was actually fucking a beautiful babe just like a real guy would. Here he was having real sex. The whole idea encouraged him to increase his tempo and push more vigorously. Darlene was exposing herself to him and using the friction to bring herself to another orgasm. She was urging him on and begging him to fuck her. Darlene was enjoying the feeling of being filled with her dream girl. As they exchanged kisses and rubbed their bodies together, Darlene was begging Ashley not to stop. She squeezed her legs and her hands spastically flailed all over her beautiful partner's back. She was having one orgasm after another and loving it. Darlene was so high on sex she was close to blacking out. After she felt like she couldn't have one more orgasm, she slowed down and stopped. Darlene pulled Ashley down on top of her. She wrapped her arms and her legs around her. She squeezed her lover tightly showering her with kisses. As Darlene reached down and pulled her out she decided that Ashley's sweet girl penis made her even more special. She loved everything about her new girlfriend. Later, as Darlene lay there, she realized that her sweet Ashley had not had her own orgasm. She felt bad and hoped that she could help her lover find as much pleasure as she had. Darlene had wondered if she'd miss her girlfriends back home? She knew she'd find the kind of girls she liked here on campus. But, now there wasn't any urgency. She felt like she'd discovered the love of her life in Ashley Howard. She thought about Ashley and smiled. It had been wonderful to lose her virginity to someone this very special. It was a dream come true. But Darlene wanted to see Ashley writhe and spasm like she had. She wanted her lover to have multiple orgasms like she experienced. As they lay there together, Howard whispered in Darlene's ear. "Do you have any sex toys?" Darlene hugged her and smiled, She opened her nightstand drawer. to the readers - thank you for reading this chapter. as you know, I write one chapter at a time so feedback is always appreciated. also, if you have any ideas you'd like to see happen in this story, all it takes is a mention. I appreciate hearing from you. thanks SS