IBE The Days Of WanderingAddendum Houston
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As one would imagine, talk and discussion and planning took over the entire household. We decided I would re-assume the identification of Johnathan Harris, because my father had access to the records needed to confirm my identity for marriage purposes. After broad discussion, we decided to invite Suzie and her husband, at her discretion, as well as Jenny and her kids if they wanted to come.
We decided to hold the marriage on Christmas Eve, in honor of my and the Maloney’s first Christmas together. Cheryl agreed to looking into getting ordained to perform the ceremony. We would decorate the inside of the old barn for the wedding. Jason agreed to be my best man; my dad agreed to give Kelly away.
Kelly wanted a dress; so I decided to get a tuxedo. Besides us, though, it wasn’t going to be a fancy affair. It was all about family and togetherness, after all. My dad also had to go home to Hornell; Cheryl agreed to go with him. He needed to make all the plans for moving to North Dakota, ready the house for sale, and all that stuff. They would be back in a couple of weeks time to start making all the preparations required for the wedding.
All of the family started in massive haste to fall all over themselves as to who was going to do what when it came to preparing for the wedding. Menus had to be made, a cake designed, an old and decrepit workshop-barn redecorated into a wedding venue, and all the other stuff that would need to be done.
It had been done before for the marriage of Samantha and Jason. That marriage had been entirely internal, however. Legally, they were adopted siblings, and could not marry. The marriage had been a celebration of their love, and their marriage was official in the eyes of the family, but it was not a legal one. My marriage to Kelly would be a legally observed one, especially since some of her benefits from her tenured position at the university would transfer to me.
I had enthusiastically participated in all this classic Clan Mahoney chaos. The truth was they loved to get together and party at the drop of a hat, and I had been through a lot of plans like this over the years. My dad was the only one who was caught a bit off-guard at the inner workings of the family. He’d get used to it; he was going to be a part of it.
Inside, though, I was beginning to falter and get nervous. This was the end of the story. Well, it was the end of one story and the beginning of another. For 25 years I had roamed the world, priding myself on no connections, being a rogue, a vagabond, a hobo. I had this family for most of them, yes, true, but a major part of my identity was going to be changed.
It was the beginning of a new story. Hopefully a great story. Johnny, the father who actually sticks around and raises his kids. Johnny the husband. Johnny the bread winner, perhaps. Johnny the guy who doesn’t just hit the road the moment he gets bored. It was a new adventure I was abut to embark on. And I was terrified.
More than terrified. I felt like this was a sort of betrayal to Rachel and some of my ideals. I mean, I was ok with that. The family I was part of, or marrying into, or however you want to actually phrase it, had morals and ideals that I could abide. They were one of the bright rays of sunshine in a dark and depressing world, and had been for me for most of my adult life. I loved them all. And I loved Kelly so much, I couldn’t describe it.
It felt wrong that I would run away from Rachel at a moment where she needed me the most, and yet decide to marry Kelly, even though she didn’t actually need it. Kelly was not lesser than Rachel, nor more. They were different. I could intellectually comprehend that. I wasn’t having second thoughts really. I just felt very guilty.
We all went up to bed, and I lay with Kelly. She wanted to make love. Somehow I couldn’t get myself into it.
“I understand, Johnny,” she whispered, “You’re not so young anymore.”
“I’m sorry,” I said. I snuggled her close, though. I loved her being with me.
“Don’t be sorry,” she said, “It’s been a long, long, day. I understand this is a little scary for you. You are making a huge change. I need you to understand that I understand that. I’m here for you, as I have always been. We will conquer this together. That’s the point of getting married. I will give you a very long leash, just as long as you promise you are mine.”
“I’m yours,” I said, “No matter what, I belong to you now, I promise that.”
“I belong to you, too,” she kissed me, “Don’t forget that part.”
We lay together, and eventually her breathing changed. She was asleep, soundly.
But I couldn’t sleep. I couldn’t sleep at all. I felt this sense of betrayal of Rachel. To Suzie a little bit, too, but I mean that had been ... we were kids. Rachel and I had bonded and promised to each other as adults. It was ... it felt wrong.
I was restless. Sleep eluded me. My mind was spinning, revving like an out of control engine. I kept thinking and my mind kept wandering to all sorts of things. It kept kicking back to betrayal. I needed to sleep, to get my mind off of all this. It was driving me batty. I kicked my covers off and tried to let the cold calm down my nervous sweating body, but it didn’t help me at all.
I finally got out of bed. I needed to shut my mind down. I put my robe and slippers on, and went down the creaky old stairs, doing my best to minimize the noise. I went to the liquor cabinet. Samantha was an amateur corn distiller, and made this rotgut corn whisky moonshine that tasted just like Fritos, actually. It was strong stuff, though.
I poured myself a very generous tumbler of it, and sat down on one of the armchairs near the fire place. I got up again, still restless, and lit a fire. Then I sat down again, sipping the whiskey. I wish I could consult Rachel about how I felt. She was dead, I had lost her. My head was still whirring, even though the whiskey was about half finished and starting to have a distinct effect.
“One ting I’ll tell yuh is yuh ain’t betrayin’ me. Yuh with me?”
My head jerked right to the other armchair, there was a silver-haired beauty, her oversized facial features, her tall and lanky body, occupying the chair with a sort of eerie glow.
“Rachel?”
“Yuh were tinkin’ Bob Dylan, maybe, or what?”
“I wasn’t there for you,” I said, “I ran, like a fucking coward.”
“I ain’t givin’ yuh a free pass on dat,” she chuckled, “But I was askin’ a lotta yuh, and I shoulda known bettah, too. Okay?”
“I love you, Rachel,” I said, “So much. I wanted to marry you, I wanted us to raise our family. I was such a coward.”
“Don’cha be sucha tragedy queen,” she hissed, “Yuh always tended tuh be, okay? Yuh axed me in Colawhado, and I ran dat time. Right? It ain’t just your fault. Yuh got me so fahr? It’s botha us. Okay? I love yuh, mawh than I have evuh loved anyone or anythin’, and I ran, too. Okay? I fawhgive yuh, I have always fawhgiven yuh.”
“Losing you has left me bereft,” I said, “For so long. You have to understand, I owe Kelly for giving me the will to carry on. Don’t you understand?”
“Oh, puh-lease,” she said, “Yuh will always miss me, butcha are de one who needs tuh unnerstand. Ya’ dig? I owe Kelly mawh than yuh do, becawze she gave yuh de will tuh carry on. Okay? Your stawhy wasn’t ovuh yet, Johnny. Yuh with me? Which means mine wasn’t, eithuh, becawze I am a part of yuh.”
“You want us to be together?” I asked her, shocked.
“Fawh goodness sakes,” Rachel snorted, “We have a child togethuh. We had a life togethuh. I wantcha tuh settle down and raise our child. Yuh got me so fahr? I wantcha tuh be happy. Right? Yuh’ll nevuh bee happy wanderin’ wit’out me. Okay? Can we at least be honest about dat?”
“I’ve been miserable wandering without you,” I replied, “That’s the gods honest truth. Every time I went to some place we’ve been, I’d just sit there being sad remembering the good times we had. Every time I went someplace new, I was miserable wishing you were there, or sad that I could never tell you about it.”
“I’ve always been dere wit’ yuh,” she replied, “I am always wit’ yuh, Johnny. Okay? I was wit’ yuh when yuh met wit’ Suzie and realized all of de realities of how tings ackshully are. I was wit’ yuh when yuh reconnected wit’ your fadder. I was wit’ yuh when yuh saw how tings had ackshully been wit’ Suzie. Ya’ dig? Butcha know what else?”
“What?”
“I was wit’ yuh tonight,” she continued, “When yuh proposed tuh Kelly, and I was scared wit’ yuh. And den I was overjoyed when she said yes. Okay? Yuh have anudder life in front of yuh, and I am overjoyed tuh be wit’ yuh tuh see it. Right? Yuh didn’t run tuh huh as some sawht of rebound. Don’t yuh get it, or what? Yuh’ve always loved huh, too. Yuh with me? I’m so glad yuh weren’t too dumb and let it happen. Okay?”
“But-”
““Fawh fucks sake, Johnny,” she hissed, “Haven’t I taughtcha anythin’? De point of life is tuh enjoy it, and I wantcha tuh enjoy it, not mope around like some love-sick dope mournin’ my loss. Okay? I’m glad I meant enough tuh yuh dat yuh need tuh mourn me, but it’s time tuh move on. Yuh with me? Live fawh me! Love fawh me! Have mawh kids, fawh me! Fawh both of us! Okay?”
“Okay...”
“Do it all, Johnny,” she continued, excitedly, “Raise your family, make love tuh Kelly, connect wit’ your fadder. Move on! Okay? Start a business, and hire othuh good hobos and help dem along! Okay? Pay it fawhward! Okay? We didn’t just kill people and hurt people, Johnny, we helped people. Yuh with me? Yuh know dat. Dat’s de part dat mattered. Ya’ dig? Help people, and help yawhself. Ya’ dig?”
“I remember,” I said, knowing she was right.
She picked up my glass of moonshine, and took a sip, then coughed.
“And fawh gods sweet sakes, I know it ain’t yuh family’s ting, but sometimes go out and enjoy some bettuh hooch den dis rotgut,” she laughed, “A 20-year-old single malt, or at least a 12-year-old. Okay? And a good bottle of wine, not dat concawhd stuff. Yuh got me so fahr? I taughtcha how tuh live a little, so live a little, fawh me. Okay? I love yuh, Johnny. Yuh with me?”
“Always with you, Rachel,” I said looking at the fire, “Wait, how the hell do you drink my whis-”
I looked back at the seat, and she was gone.
I felt a whole world better. I didn’t really need Cheryl’s permission, but I ... I needed Rachel’s. And she had just given it to me. I stuck my tongue out at her, though, and poured more of ‘dis rotgut’ and drank it down.
Rachel had taught me to be happy, and it was time I listened to her teachings. I was still nervous, but she had been right. I had been miserable wandering without her. I was looking to bring our magic back. But our magic had been the stuff I had been avoiding mostly. Pay it forward, help other people, move the world along. And yes, if I was gonna be living here, we needed some better liquor. And a job to pay for it, too.
I had a whole life to look forward to, with a family I loved. I had nothing to be scared of. They had been helping me live for over 20 years, unconditionally and without hesitation. They would help me make my new challenge a breeze. We’d be working together, to build a better life for all of us.
I stumbled up the stairs, and back into the bedroom. I took off my clothes, and got back into bed with Kelly. I held her. She was still naked. I was finally hard, no longer worried. I snuggled up to her back, put myself between her legs, and hugged her close to me. I felt so warm and content, so happy. I fell asleep, very content.
Perhaps unsurprisingly, a dream came to me, a bit of a scary one. It was part of a little trip we had been doing in the late fall in Washington state.
We had bought a 1982 VW Vanagon in poor shape somewhere near Portland and we were sort of drifting up the coast with it. Somewhere in its life its seats had been removed, and we had built a platform on it and threw down a little mattress. It was tight, but it made for an ok makeshift camper. It was in several different colors, orange and green mostly, and had clearly been in more than a few fender benders.
Rachel was nervous. She was convinced a mid-to-late 80’s Chevrolet Caprice in white was following us. I kept trying to calm her about it. I wasn’t seeing one constantly, and white Chevy Caprice sedans were not exactly uncommon vehicles. The shore in northern Washington state was rather pretty, and the roads were enjoyable to drive. We took turns. Her hair was still brown then, and she was mostly happy. We were intending to turn inland and drive to Spokane over the next few days. The van seemed like it would be able to run pretty far.
Still, at the moment we were taking in the scenery on the Washington state coast, which was winding and fun, albeit slow going in the last of the air-cooled Volkswagen vans. The two liter, air-cooled, horizontally-opposed four-cylinder engine made a mere 70 hp. At over 3000 pounds, and with the aerodynamics of a brick wall, the van was four inches longer, just as wide,13 inches taller, and slightly heavier than the Dodge Caravan, but with an engine 24 hp down on even the smallest engine from that van.
It was slow, with the only saving grace being the four-speed stick, which gave it the ability to actually climb hills ... albeit slowly. Also it was vague and worn out, same as the steering, the suspension, and everything else on the 230k mile rust bucket. It was, however, only a few hundred bucks to buy so it sorta worked.
The further along the route we drove, the more I was beginning to suspect that Rachel was not being paranoid. Really, I should never have been thinking that. It was not a normal part of her personality. Anxious to be anonymous, yes, but that’s not paranoia. With the way we live our lives, being fingered as what we were would be a disaster that would probably land us in jail or a sanitarium. It’s not paranoia if they are really out to get you.
“It’s not a Caprice, it’s an Impala,” I said, “White, missing a hubcap on the driver’s side, mud covered front plate.”
“Yuh see it tuh, huh?”
“I do now,” I responded, “I’ve seen it a few too many times over the past 30 minutes. Bear left up ahead onto the Mukilteo Speedway.”
Rachel made the turn at the last second without signaling, causing the van to veer a little bit and rock from side to side. Stability was not a feature of the VW Vanagon. The Impala went the other way. We pulled over at a coffee shop, and got cups of coffee.
“I told you,” I said, “You’re being paranoid.”
“Maybe,” she said, “But I got a bad feelin’, yuh know what I’m sayin’?”
We pulled back on to the road, and passed 80th street ... where a white 1984 Chevrolet Impala with a missing front drivers hub cap pulled onto the road behind us.
“You’re not paranoid,” I said, “There it is again. Who the hell would be following us?”
“Maybe its a coppuh?”
“No way,” I said, “It’s too old, cop cars aren’t in service for 8 or 9 years. And they replace fallen off hubcaps, and they don’t leave dents in them, either.”
Also, if the police were interested in us, they wouldn’t be following us in just one car. This was the only car that kept popping up on my radar.
“There’s a ferry at the end of this road, take it.”
“What if he follows us on tuh de ferry, or what?”
“That would make it interesting, wouldn’t it?”
“We need tuh lose dis guy! Okay?”
“We’ll lose him, trust me.”
We got to the ferry terminal just as the half-hourly ferry was boarding at the Mukilteo terminal. We bought the ticket and drove the car onto the ferry. I watched behind us and the Impala followed us onboard. It was only a twenty minute ride, and we elected to stay in our car. So did the Impala driver. They were four cars behind us, so I was hoping I could lose them when we got to the other end of the ferry.
“Who de hell is he, or what?” Rachel asked, “I mean nobody knows who we are, who de hell could he be?”
“Your guess is as good as mine,” I replied, “Probably somebody we messed with somewhere. I guess our anonymity isn’t good enough.”
“Maybe I could sneak back dere and-”
“If he’s following us,” I said, “He’ll be watching our van carefully. He’ll see you.”
“It won’t mattuh if I stop him from followin’ us,” she countered.
“The ferry is too crowded, and you can’t kill everyone you suspect might be following you. We’re not even 100% sure he is.”
“Like 99%, okay?”
“Me too, but its 1% too little.”
The ferry came in and we booked it, but he was right behind us as we kept following state road 525. It wasn’t hidden anymore, it was an open tail. It was outright scary, actually. 525 became 20 at Keystone, and I was scared of taking the next ferry, so we continued going north. He was now making us fully aware he was following us, which means whatever his intentions, he would not be so subdued.
The scenery was still pretty nice but was getting wasted on us as we were afraid of him catching us at this point. We knew nothing about him; we didn’t know if he had a gun. We didn’t want to bring our knives to a gun fight. We didn’t know his intentions. We just knew he was clearly following us.
We got to an intersection near Whitney and made a way-too-sharp and fast turn against traffic onto Bayview-Edison Rd. We finally made a left onto the Samish Island Rd, and he followed. He had gotten a bit behind us at the veer onto Bayview Edison, but his car seemed to have the police-package 5.7 V8, meaning it had at least double the horsepower our van had. I was frankly relieved he hadn’t tried to ram us, yet.
We finally came to the end of the road, and a currently abandoned Camp Kirby. It was late fall, and I guess the camp was seasonal. Anyway, we were at a dead end, so we were going to at least figure out who the devil he was.
I was no longer 99% sure, of course. I was now 100% sure that the person was following us.
We both got out of the van and faced the Impala. We both recognized the man immediately when he got out of his car. The little bearded southern man stuck well in our memories. How the hell he found us on the other side of the damned country is a better question.
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True story.The time is Southern California 1982, the bay of Coronado.I was stationed as a Navy sailor at one of the local bases and took to the ocean and the great weather of California. I grew up in the northern and much colder states so any chance I got I was outdoors and on the water.By great luck I found a sailboat that was ready to sail and at a price I could afford. The sail boat was a 21ft bay sailor, great for one person operation with a single mast and only one main and one stay sail....
100% fiction! Whilst Emerald Bay was working at her job as a Care Assistant, she was talking to one of her work Colleagues about sunbeds her colleague told her about a local hair salon which had a sun capsule. So the next day when Emerald Bay had her day of work and Emeraldbay paid a visit to the salon and booked a sun capsule session of 35 Mins at the rate of £25.00,after the session was booked Emerald Bay was in the sun capsule every other day then going of to the local bar for a Latte or a...
First TimeAfter a while I got called back to Flying Arrow. Tony, Eric, and the Commander were fairly confident that they wouldn’t need all of our soldiers to take the citadel. They wouldn’t be sure until they actually saw Safety Bay, but if their new information was right they could release a lot of the transports to go with us on our sweep around the island. I appreciated the heads-up, and we modified our plans accordingly. The whole fleet would all go to Safety Bay, which was a inlet on the south...
As the summer breeze blew gently across the bay, Dixie knew that their weekend retreat was coming to an end. Tonight would be the last night her and Drew would spend in the secluded little cabin away from the hustle and bustle of the city, she thought as she walked along the bay shore. As the sun began to set, Drew watched as Dixie’s silhouette walked at the water’s edge. The sun cast colors of reds and oranges across her white cotton dress, as the breeze cast sprays of water upon her...
Note : This story is completely fictional!In nineteen forty six Thelma Lou Anderson was married with three kids. Linda was the oldest. She was sixteen. Guy and George was ten and Guy seven. Thelma owned a beauty shop in Kansas City. She suspected her husband Lawerance was cheating on her again. She followed him one day when he thought she was at work and saw him go into a house. A woman opened the door and he went in. That was all the proof she needed. She went home and packed her suitcase and...
IncestMother Ethel always enjoyed the short walk to the train station. It was beautiful Autumnal morning and Mother Ethel took the opportunity to walk to the train station as she knew that she had a very busy day ahead. Those that saw Mother Ethel along the way bowed reverently,they knew that Mother Ethel was a Nun of the Monastery of Repentance and when a Nun or a Monk walked past it was polite to bow, for many knew what the Nun's and Monk's of the Monastery were capable of. As Mother Ethel strolled...
Dot, Dorothea, and Dick Chapter One Dear sister: I found this letter among some others, scrolled up and tied with purple ribbon, in a chest belonging to our great grandfather. The name Charles has belonged to several in our family line, but I believe I know the one who received and saved this letter, and kept it preserved for so many years. I believe the letter speaks for itself, so I will now offer it up to you. Dearest Charles: I hope this missive finds you in such good...
The planning sessions of Admiral Maynard with Sir Hew Dalrymple and other Army officers were indeed plagued by Sir Hew’s indecisiveness, and Asia‘s crew enjoyed a full two weeks at anchor in Gibraltar. Tony made the most of it, spending much time with his family, but he also saw to it that Asia received as much repairs and cleaning as was possible. Bilges were fumed, water casks cleaned and refilled, and the seams between the planks carefully patched. When a second week of deliberations...
Who doesn't know The Pirate Bay, aka TPB? But, do you remember Napster? How about Bear Share? Kazaa? Lime Wire? Back in the early aughts, programs such as these are what introduced me to a whole lot of fun. I remember the feeling of excitement that came with downloading an album or a movie from one of these programs back in the day. I was young, too, so it was a little tinged with nervousness. That nervous excitement led to a fuck ton of burned CDs (full albums and customized mixtapes) that...
Porn Torrent SitesAuthor’s Note: This is my submission to Lit’s Summer Lovin’ Contest. I hope you enjoy it and votes and comments are appreciated. ============================== I worked like a dog for that company for eight years and what happened? They fired me. Bright side? Nice severance package. So screw it. Instead of diving right back into the overcrowded pool of job hunters, I decided to take it easy for a while. I deserved it, I’d barely taken a day off for the last eight years, so I was going to...
Tiberius licked his lips as he watched his newly bought slaves walk off stage. They would be a nice addition to his household. As he was being carried to the palace in his litter, he thought of his niece Mara and what she would be like. Just recently her mother had asked him to admit her into his clan, no doubt to gain political power over him, but Tiberius didn’t care. I will take her to Capri he thought to himself after I break my new slaves in, and he smiled wickedly at the thought....
FetishOur Last Day of School. I can’t believe it. This is my last day of school, I thought, not sure how I felt now that the long awaited day was here. Stepping out into the beautiful sunny afternoon, heading toward the group of waiting yellow school buses I breathed a sigh of relief. I was glad school was finished. Throughout High School like a ship at sea, I had plotted my course, studying hard. However, the Scholarship that many felt I had rightfully won had somehow ended up going to one of...
“What’s wrong? What’s wrong?”Anthea looked up at her mum as she sat down at the dining table. “Nothing is wrong,” Anthea responded watching as her mum hurriedly dried her hands with a tea towel.“Is the baby okay? Are you okay? Is Jack okay?” she asked as her husband came into the room and pulled up a seat at the table.“We’re all fine Mum,” she responded exasperated with her mum’s anxiety. “I have something to tell you.”“Sit down Helen,” her dad snapped. “Give the lass a chance to speak.”Anthea...
Before I get into the details of our next recreated character, I'd like to give some general updates and information on my women so far. One impression I'd like to correct is that we all got along all of the time. We actually do get along very well, given the variety of people living in the house, but there have been some noticeable arguments and even one catfight. However I hadn't recreated any characters who were mean-spirited or thrived on conflict, plus we had a special advantage when...
My Golden Summer with Blythe – Part 2 Josh’s childhood dream girl visits him in San Francisco. The Return of Blythe Coming from a small farming community, San Francisco proved to be everything Josh had ever imagined – and then some. He loved the freewheeling atmosphere – the friendliness – in short, he fell in love with the city by the Bay. Because of early retirements, and dedication to his work, he had advanced much quicker than he had ever expected. Arriving at his chic little Apartment...
Uther By Ellie Dauber (c) 2006 Introduction According to the legends of King Arthur, Merlin changed Uther Pendragon into a double for Duke Gorlois, so he could spend the night with Ygraine, the Duke's wife. Ygraine and Gorlois had three daughters: Elaine, Morgause, and Morgan le Faye. During their time together, Ygraine became pregnant with the child who was to become King Arthur. Uther's men killed Gorlois that same night. This is my TG (of course) version of what...
Chapter 11: Althea, the School Girl The infernal screeching of the alarm clock awoke Cal from his reverie. He had been up for about a half-hour, but he had only been lying in bed next to the love of his life. Althea's arms were still clutched about him as he stealthily clicked the snooze button, assuming that it was six o' five in the morning, his usual waking time during the school week. He had been thinking long and hard about the previous two nights. Evan... what have you become? He...
edited by Master Ken Wednesday, September 4th, 2013 "Hi, I am Miss Blythe," I said to my class, writing my name on the whiteboard with a red dry-erase marker. "I will be your World History teacher." It was the first day of the new school year and, as I launched into the course syllabus, my thoughts kept drifting to that day in June at the end of the last term, when my Living God, the Holy Mark Glassner, walked into this very classroom and changed my very outlook on life. I didn't know...
The the wind howled around the quayside as I stepped onto terra firma for the first time in weeks, the wind threw sharp shards of ice to sting our faces as we looked up at the sails as they were finally furled and stowed as our captain grinned at our discomfiture, "Au revoir!" he joked as if he knew we should soon be recalled. Those such as were left, and we were few enough, I shuddered. My best uniform packed securely in my Valise, awaited me, and just a few more duties before I...
As he approached one of the hall's long mirrors he stopped to inspect himself. It was a familiar sight, the flowing, billowy French maid outfit surrounding his body. His arms and legs were outlined in silky, white stockings and arm-gloves. He wore pearl earrings and the lacy white collar around his neck was adorned with a beautiful pendant. It was a gift from mother that he wore every day, without fail. Jon's painted red lips and neatly applied eyeliner and blush were evidence that he was...
PREFACE:There are no sex acts in the story but the patient does have an orgasm as a result of the Ther****t’s physical examination. Part 1 is the Sex Therapy appointment from the patient’s point of view and part 2 is the same examination seen through the eyes of the Ther****t. I don’t think it matters which one you read first.I hope you enjoy it and will let me know what you think in any...
Katherine stepped into her elegant living room and took a book from the shelf. She sat in a plush lounge chair, specifically selecting a chair in the back corner of the room next to an old dumbwaiter that was once used to ferry delicious meals from the downstairs kitchen to the dining room table. She planned to read the book for a short while, but she already knew her attention would soon be diverted. Tonight the dumbwaiter would once again be placed into service, except this time it would be...
CUNTANAMO BAY Part 1 of ?by SensoryOverlord, 2007 Time:? September 2012Place: What was once America. Timeline-------- 2007-2008???? 110th Congress Jul 3, 2008?? 911 Truth Riots across USA. President Bush declares National Emergency, invokes????????????? special powers. Aug 10, 2008? President Bush????????????? Executive Order: Strengthening Federal Efforts to Defend the Security of America Nov 4, 2008?? Rudy Giuliani (GOP) wins presidency; in shock move offers VP to Hillary (DEM),...
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