Conflicts In The Heart A Tormented Passion
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BEN
MARCH 29, 2004, SOPHOMORE YEAR
"Good morning, Ben."
"Dawn!" I exclaimed in surprise. My gorgeous best friend had clearly just woken up and just as clearly spent the night here. Her sunny blonde hair was clipped into a loose ponytail. The blouse she was wearing was the same as yesterday. And she seemed to be going without a bra, her nipples hardening beneath the sheer fabric. "Still here?"
She nodded with a smug grin. "Spent the night with Adrienne."
I arched an eyebrow and glanced appraisingly at the gorgeous blonde just a few feet behind Dawn. My mind immediately was filled with scandalously naughty thoughts of Dawn and Adrienne, getting naked and rolling around my old bed sucking on tits and munching pussies. My brain even filled in the boom-chicka- wow-wow music. "Wish I was there," I joked.
"Wish you were too," Dawn sighed, sounding serious.
My eyebrow arched again as I wondered whether to take her words at face value.
"Anyways," she began, before I could really decide. "I wanted to tell you something. Got kind of lost in the shuffle with everything that happened last night."
There was a quiet seriousness in Dawn's voice, so I nodded and put down my spoon. My cereal wasn't going anywhere. "Sure."
She took a deep breath. "Ben, we've been frien-"
"Hey, loverboy!" Paige cut her off as she twirled in from the kitchen. Before I realized it, my randy redheaded lover had vaulted into my lap, squirming her naked crotch against my shorts and doing her best to shove her tongue down my throat. I groaned into the kiss and happily pawed away at her nubile body. After our incredibly wonderful lovemaking last night, I could only start imagining even more.
But a second later, I realized that we'd interrupted Dawn, and I pried Paige off me. "Later, later, Red," I said soothingly. I looked over at Dawn, who was already walking past us and into the kitchen. "Hey, what was it?"
Dawn didn't look back as she tossed a hand over her shoulder. "Nothing important."
"No, seriously." I looked into the kitchen where Dawn was already greeting Brandi and hunting for a bowl.
"Ah, just a bit of news," Dawn said while glancing back through the doorway. "Did you hear Bert and Robin broke up?"
I blinked twice. "Really? I thought they were getting things worked out."
Dawn sighed and came back out of the kitchen, an empty bowl and a spoon in hand. She shook her head and looked away from me. "No. They went on a trip together down to San Luis Obispo and to tour Hearst Castle. Hoped to find the magic again. But when they got back, Robin told Gwen and Gwen told me that they were done."
"Ouch."
Dawn shrugged. "It was the Swingers Party that really killed them. They were in a rut and thought that sleeping with other people might put some spice back. But instead it just was the final nail in the coffin. Made them both want to experience new things and new people."
I winced. "Sex always changes people..."
Dawn nodded. "They both tried to be mature about the relationship and make things work; it's why they lasted this long. But Robin said she kept fantasizing about other guys while she was with Bert and apparently, Bert was doing the same thing."
I arched an eyebrow. "Bert fantasizing about you?"
Dawn shrugged and looked down. "Yeah. Sometimes. I don't mind. He's a good enough friend that we're not awkward about it. It's nothing serious. Not like he has a crush on me. I get the impression he's had a few fantasies ever since he MET me. So it's no big deal." And with that, Dawn bit her lip and went into the kitchen to retrieve the bowl of cereal.
Adrienne flashed me a strange look, and then headed in right after Dawn.
Paige pulled up next to me, sliding her hand on top of mine. "You never fucked my ass last night, Ben," she purred into my ear, licking the lobe immediately after. "You KNOW how much I love it there. Whaddaya say? You wanna play hooky today with me and go back to your bedroom?"
I grinned. Sounded like a good plan. But just as I started envisioning pretty Paige bent over on all fours, shoving her butt out at me and whispering blasphemies, my mind shifted back about ten seconds. Dawn had a weird look in her eyes as she turned back into the kitchen, and I couldn't help but wonder why.
Then Paige was sliding up against me, pushing my bowl away with one hand. "C'mon, Ben. My hormones have started going crazy as I get into the second trimester. And my nipples are REALLY sensitive. If we're staying home today, we can eat later."
There was a promise and a husky need in Paige's voice. And with a little smile, I let her pull me to my feet and back into my bedroom.
To my credit, I had tried to slow Paige down by telling her that we needed to talk about this before taking things any further. But stubborn girl that she was, she pointedly ignored any of my protests before jerking my shorts down and trying to suck my cock. I even tried to put my hands against her shoulders and head to keep her at bay, but she batted my hands aside and just kept coming. I didn't have the fortitude to use any more force against such a small girl, and a pregnant one at that. And once she got her lips wrapped around my shaft, I knew I was a goner.
There were no more protests by the time Paige moved up and sat on my prick, cooing as the shaft ascended upward into her vaginal canal. And for perhaps the first time, she looked like a young woman about my age instead of a little girl.
Paige's dark auburn hair was loose and flowing over her shoulders, framing a pretty face with elfin, but mature features. She looked like a professional seductress wearing my dress shirt, unbuttoned from throat to tails. And I was fascinated to see the curvature of her three-and-a-half month pregnant belly protruding out just above our joining.
But in a mild panic, I looked up at her and asked, "We're not ... hurting ... ah, the baby ... are we?"
Paige giggled and shook her head. "No silly. She's well insulated with lots of padding and shock absorption. The doctor said sex would be good for me. I just haven't been getting it lately."
I blinked a couple of times. "She?"
Paige nodded. "It's a girl. I just know it."
Biting my lip while she rode me slowly, I sighed, "I just can't help the thought that there's some little human being in there, with undeveloped eyes watching my dickhead zooming right up to its face and then backing away."
"You KNOW my cervix is closed, Ben." Paige rolled her eyes. Then she leaned over to my nightstand, pulled open the drawer, and pulled out a familiar tube of KY. "Besides, if it really bugs you, getting my pussy fucked wasn't exactly what I had in mind right now."
The pregnant little nympho smiled impishly and then proceeded to reach back and lube herself up while continuing to fuck me. Five minutes later, she was on all fours, grunting as my cock burrowed deeper and deeper into her extremely tight asshole.
"Fuck me, lover," Paige crooned. "Take my ass ... I'm your slutty, sinful bitch! Cornhole the hell out of me and then blast me full of scalding hot cum!"
"Oh, god," I couldn't help but groan as her words egged me on. I held onto her womanly hips, and then slammed the last two inches into her rectum in a single thrust, jerking her body forward.
"Unngh!" Paige grunted and then clenched down with her anal muscles, trapping me momentarily while she absorbed the sensations of my cock fully embedded inside her nether hole.
"Oh, Paige..." I whimpered.
"Fuck me..." she crooned. "Fuck me..."
"Oh, Paige..."
"Fuck me, Ben. I missed this so much ... I missed YOU so much. Fuck me, lover. Pound me. Sodomize me. Blast my nasty ass full of your spunk!"
"Unngh!" I grunted as I rammed my cock in and out of her ass a little harder.
"Brimstone and Hellfire! Fuck!" Paige squealed and rammed her hips back at me. "This is so naughty! So sinful! I'm fucking pregnant and my lover is ramming his dick up my ass! Fuck me, Ben! Never stop fucking me! I'll be your slut forever! I'm your sinful, lustful slut! Fuck me! Anytime you ever want for the rest of our lives just fuck me! Grab me and throw me down and I'll willingly spread my legs for you! Shove it in my ass! Cream inside my pussy! I don't care! Fuck me, lover! I'm yours for all time!"
"Arrrghhh!" I grunted, at the edge of climax. I was gripping Paige's hips and pounding her with an uncontrollable fury. Her anal sphincter was stretched as wide as it could possibly go, and she'd put enough jelly in there so that there was minimal friction.
"FUCK ME!" Paige howled. "FUCK ME! FUCK ME!"
"ARRRGHH!" I howled with her, ramming my pelvis forward one final time and holding it there. My cock was buried to full depth up her ass and I let fly with a massive load of spunk, filling up her bowels with jet after jet of creamy jism.
"Oh, GOD!!!" Paige screamed as she felt the hot splatters against her bowels. She'd waited for my orgasm, and only now did she throw her head back and scream to the heavens, "JESUS FUCKING CHRIST!"
We trembled and shook on top of the bed for a full minute together, me squirting out the last gobs of cum into Paige's asshole while she quivered in the aftershocks of her climax. But no matter how much Paige may have wanted to collapse after that, some maternal instinct prevented her knees from buckling and dropping her onto her stomach.
Instead, she held on until I extracted myself out of her asshole and then reached over for the baby wipes. And only then did Paige roll onto her side and pant for oxygen while tenderly cradling her swollen belly.
Seeing her do that brought me crashing back to Earth quite quickly after the heavenly (or is that hellish?) pleasures we'd both just felt. The simple fact was: I'd told myself that Paige and I wouldn't resume a sexual relationship; that I was here to be her friend and support in this time of need. I loved her, but like a little sister. And no matter what else she meant to me, I just didn't have that romantic chemistry with her that she may have wanted.
Closing my eyes, I realized that I'd let my dick lead me on ... again. Last night, I'd given into my lust and need for comfort after getting dumped by Cadence. That one time, I might have forgiven myself. But now, after having had the chance to think about it, I'd let myself be seduced again.
"Paige, we need to talk about this," I said quietly.
She didn't answer me for a long time, her back turned to me as she lay on her side still cradling her belly.
"Paige..." I said softly again, briefly wondering if she'd passed out or fallen asleep.
Just when I was about to reach out and touch her, she rolled over to me, a sheen of moisture in her eyes and a world of sadness on her face. She pleaded with me with just her eyes, big doe eyes just the way Eden and Emma always looked at me when they wanted me on their side. And without a word, she reached out to my now-cleaned off cock, took it in her small hands, and bent over, suckling me back into her mouth.
"Mm!" I jerked at her warm, wet touch. Possessed of its own mind, my dick started stirring in anticipation of a second round, if not third or fourth or whatever. But I gently put my hand to her cheek and tried to direct her off me. "Paige, seriously. We need to talk about this."
"But I love you..." she whimpered and resumed sucking.
"I know," I sighed, continuing to try and direct her off.
"And you said you loved me..."
I grimaced and averted my eyes. Of all the things we'd done last night, I hadn't forgotten that part. "Yeah..." I began slowly. "About that..."
Paige abruptly stopped sucking, her eyes rolling up to mine. I'd stopped trying to pry her off my dick, but she didn't continue trying to give me the blowjob.
After another second, though, a tear rolled down her cheek and she pulled off my cock. And she gave me the most heartbreaking puppy-dog look I'd ever seen, my baby sisters included. "Please, Ben? I swear to God we'll talk when we're both done. But I'm not ready for this to end just yet. Please let me do this. Please, let US do this. And when we've both had our fill, when we're both too tired to continue, I promise we can talk all you want."
I blinked a few times, just processing everything she was saying. Paige decided to help along my decision process by bending over and slowly bobbing her head up and down my growing prick, filling my brain with pleasurable little lightning bolts. Her eyes were turned upward, watching me the entire time. And in the end, I just sighed and nodded.
We could talk later.
DAWN
"Fuck me..." she crooned. "Fuck me..."
"Oh, Paige..." Ben groaned in response.
With tears rolling down my cheeks, I sat on the couch, my knees pulled up to my chest while I wrapped my own arms around my legs and rocked slowly. I could feel my heart cracking with every moan that emanated out from that bedroom.
Adrienne was right beside me, her arms wrapped around my body, squeezing fiercely. "Dawn, Dawn," she soothed and rubbed my back.
"Of all the fucking people he had to rebound with, why HER?"
"They're just comforting each other," Adrienne tried to rationalize, not looking entirely convinced herself. "You said Ben got dumped by Cadence. Paige got dumped by her parents. They spent the night together ... Both of them are feeling hurt and needy ... And you know Ben does most of his morning thinking with his morning wood."
"Fuck it," I spat. And then I stood up and started back into Adrienne's bedroom. I'd have to retrieve the clothes I left in there. "This was a mistake. This whole thing was a fucking mistake. I don't know what the hell I was thinking."
"Dawn, where are you going?"
"To my apartment. To change. And then to class. I AM a student, remember?"
"Fuck me, Ben. I missed this so much ... I missed YOU so much. Fuck me, lover. Pound me. Sodomize me. Blast my nasty ass full of your spunk!"
I clenched my eyes shut and balled my hands into fists. Without another word I went into Adrienne's bedroom and picked up my discarded bra. I started pulling off my blouse so I could get re-dressed.
Adrienne appeared behind me and closed the bedroom door for privacy. The extra barrier helped to muffle the sounds of Ben and Paige buttfucking a dozen feet away. She looked at me seriously, with almost a pleading expression. "Dawn, this doesn't change anything we talked about last night. You still need to talk to Ben about your feelings and-"
"No!" I cut her off. I fastened my bra and then started pulling the blouse back on. "Thinking THAT was my mistake. Ben and I are different people now. We're not little kids playing in sandboxes anymore. We're not even teenagers at camp anymore. We're young adults, both of us almost 20, in the real world. We're at school. And we're friends."
"But you can be MORE. Ben accepts you as friends out of respect for you and Ryan. But he wants more from you. If you just tell him the way you really feel-"
"I can't do that." I interrupted.
Adrienne whimpered. "Well, if you can't, then maybe I can talk to him and-"
"NO!" I cut her off. "You do NOT tell Ben."
"Dawn..."
"Swear to me, Adrienne. Swear to me you won't tell him or I'll never forgive you!"
"But if you really love him..."
"I don't know that anymore. I love Ben as a friend. I know how much of a horn dog he is and that he's got a wandering eye. As friends, that doesn't bother me at all. But he's not right for me as a boyfriend. And I don't know that I can ever love him again like one."
"You don't mean that," Adrienne pleaded. "You and Ben are soulmates. You belong together."
I shook my head. "That's just wishful thinking ingrained in the both of us by our parents. My mom and Ben's mom always dreamed of having shared grandkids. It's a nice fantasy, but it's not practical. I bought into it, I did. But the fact is, the Ben I've dreamed of and the Ben I'm in love with is a fantasy too. It's not the real Ben. The real Ben is in that other room, FUCKING ANOTHER FUCKING GIRL'S ASSHOLE!" I yelled the last part.
"Dawn..."
I finished putting my jeans on and flung my hair back over my shoulders. "Nuh-uh. I don't need all this drama. I don't WANT all this drama. I've got a loving boyfriend who clearly adores me and wants to spend the rest of his life with me. He's stable. He's dedicated. He's handsome and hard-working and I know for a FACT that he'll never cheat on me or ever give me any reason to worry about him. I'm tired, Adrienne. I'm tired of dealing with all the shit around Ben. He'll always be my friend. And I will always love you and everyone in your family. But I think I'd like to just settle down and be happy, you know? And Ryan will do that for me."
"As happy as you'd be with Ben?" she asked.
"Maybe Ben could make me happier ... maybe. But subtract away all the drama and headaches and worrying and all that crap I'd have to go through with him? No, I'm choosing Ryan." Then I turned and walked out the door.
BEN
"Nnnghh ... nnnghhh..." Paige panted softly while I shafted her from behind. We were lying on our sides, spooned together with my cock imbedded in her tight pussy. This was our third go-round. I'd already dropped a load in her ass and another in her mouth. The desperate urge to cum was gone and for the moment, we were pleasantly making love.
We'd started this last round missionary-style, Paige holding me close to her. But I'd panicked about putting too much pressure on her belly and so we'd switched to doggy-style. But as the sex session wore on, we ended up on our sides to conserve energy and playfully cuddle while I continued to slowly pump into her from behind.
Paige always had nice tits, proportional to her petite size. But they'd been doing some growing over the past few months, filling up into a very pleasant handful. I knew this because her right breast was currently filling my right hand as we made love. I used it for a handhold while enfolding myself around her smaller body. And our hips came together and then drifted apart with a metronomic rhythm that suited the both of us.
Paige wasn't cursing anymore. This wasn't a wild, aggressive fuck. It was just a peaceful expression of love and pleasure, and she sighed happily while feeling me so intimately connected to her. At her moment of climax, she trembled in my arms while I kissed her right shoulder. And about two minutes later, I sped up into short thrusts and then released myself into her, filling up her vaginal cavity with wriggling sperm that would never find their way into her womb.
"That was nice," she sighed.
"Mmm..." I hummed, slightly delirious post-ejaculation.
"I'd love to have that feeling every morning."
I sighed and pushed my forehead into her hair. I hugged Paige's naked body against me, squeezing her close before releasing her and slowly pulling back.
My semi-hard cock was trapped in her narrow pussy for a second before tugging free, followed by a slow trickle of cum. I fetched some tissues to help blot her up and then rolled my chest up against her back once again. And stroking her arm soothingly, I said, "Paige, maybe this wasn't such a good idea."
"It was a great idea," she sighed happily. "I got to feel you in me again. Do you know how long I've been waiting for that?"
"Paige..."
"Since we broke up almost a year ago. I mean, I know I broke up with you. It was the biggest mistake of my life."
"It was the right decision."
"No it wasn't," Paige shook her head. "I was a stupid girl making an impulsive decision. We'd been together for what, three months? We weren't even exclusive; you were Adrienne's boyfriend at the same time. And I was expecting you to be madly in love with me and want to marry me and be Happily Ever After."
I winced and averted my eyes again.
Paige took a deep breath and exhaled slowly, lowering her own eyes. And in a somber voice, she admitted, "But you were right: feelings don't work that way."
I just looked thoughtful and waited for Paige to continue.
"Intellectually, I realized all that. I told you I still wanted to be friends. But then we went away for the summer and I really, really missed you. I started overthinking things and I resented you for not loving me the way that I wanted. I was still madly in love with you, but you weren't there, and I started resenting you for it. I wanted to prove to myself, and prove to you, that I didn't need you. So I met new people. I went out and got laid. I tried a couple drugs. It was fun. It was exciting, and you know how much I love 'exciting'. I figured I could handle it."
Paige's voice trailed off and then she looked down and patted her distended belly. "I was wrong."
I reached out and rubbed her arm reassuringly.
Paige sighed and continued, "Things just snowballed. One minute, I'd be so happy and thrilled I felt like I could fly. The next, I'd be crying without having any idea why. I'm not bipolar. I enjoyed the rushes. But I think it was the drugs I was taking that were really messing with my head. And I started craving bigger and better highs. I started doing crazier and crazier things. My life was spinning out of control, and there was no one there to stop me."
She looked ready to start crying again, and I drew her naked body to mine, holding her firmly. I didn't speak, but I reassured her with my embrace that I was here and that nothing bad could happen to her while she was still in my arms.
"I never stopped loving you, Ben. I hated you at the same time, but I was always in love with my White Knight. You were the first man I ever really loved. You were my First, virginity-wise. YOU were the man who protected me from everyone, including myself. I just know that if I'd stayed your friend, none of this crap would have ever happened to me. You wouldn't let it."
I patted her arm and rubbed my nose into the back of her head.
She took a deep breath and then sighed. "I realize now that I wasn't a very good girlfriend. I thought I could make you happy by letting you fuck me whenever you wanted. I thought that's all a guy wanted. But when I looked back at the way you were with Adrienne, with Dawn, with everyone around you, there's more than that. They don't just LET you do things to them, they share with you. They have their concerns for you. They make themselves available to give you advice. It's an equal partnership. You love them, protect them, worry about them, and they do all the same for you. They want to MAKE you happy just as much as you want to make them happy. And I didn't do that. I was only ever concerned with making myself happy."
I sighed, deciding to speak up. "You made me happy, Paige."
She turned in my arms, twisting her face around until she could look up at me. "Only momentarily. Through sex, I gave you momentary highs, just like me and the drugs. But the drugs didn't love me back. The drugs didn't think about what was going through my mind and think about what they could do to make my life better in the long run. And I didn't do any of those things for you, either."
"I wasn't expecting you to. We didn't have that kind of relationship."
"That was the problem. How could I expect you to love me when all we had was physical and casual? I showed up, we fucked, and we hung out together. There was nothing deeper than that; and I never had any interest in getting deeper than that. That's what I want to change now. I love you. I want to make YOU happy. I know that's going to be tough now that I'm pregnant and I've got all these complications in my life. I won't lie: I NEED you now, more than ever. My parents abandoned me yesterday. I don't have any real friends, no one else I can really depend on. I'm desperate and I'm clinging on to you, in part because I simply have nowhere else to go. But I don't want to just... leech off you anymore. I want to give back. I want to make you happy."
"Paige..."
"I'll be here for you every day. I want to take care of you the best way I know how. I'll cook. I'll clean. I'll make myself available to talk about your day. I'll make love to you with such passion, and I won't be jealous if you want to seek pleasure with other girls. I'll love you unconditionally, completely and totally unconditionally. I don't have much experience being a good girlfriend, but I'll try. I swear to God I'll try."
"Paige..."
"I LOVE you, Ben!" she whimpered. "And last night you said-"
"I was hurting last night," I interrupted her. "I didn't-"
"-mean it," she interrupted me. "I know." She bit her lip and looked away again. Then she took a deep breath and gave me the puppy-dog look again. "Ben, I'm going to do everything I can until you mean it. I'm going to love you like you've never been loved. I'm going to show you every possible-"
"PAIGE..." I put a finger over her lips to quiet her. Her eyes were wide but she obediently quieted down. "You can't force love," I said solemnly. "It has to grow on its own."
She blinked and waited for me to pull my finger away. She whimpered for a moment and looked down before saying, "Don't leave me, Ben. I need you. Please, don't abandon me too. I have nowhere else to go."
"Paige, of course I would never abandon you," I said reassuringly.
"Then just let me stay here with you. I love you and I won't try to hide that. You say love needs to grow on its own? Then fine. If it grows it grows. I'll do my best to help that process along. But I won't demand anything of you. Just let me be here ... near you ... and whatever happens, happens. Fair enough?"
I sighed and thought about it. She was madly in love with me again and I didn't feel the same way. Logic said I should keep her at arms length as much as possible, while still trying to give her the support she needed in this very difficult time.
But I was lonely, too. Brandi was still keeping herself aloof from me as she tried to figure out a new balance in our relationship. Adrienne was gone half the time as her modeling career took off, plus her sorority commitments. And Dawn was still with Ryan. Now that Cadence had broken up with me, I felt a big void and a deep craving for affection and love.
I knew I was rebounding a bit. I KNEW it. But that didn't make Paige's offer any less tempting. She just wanted to love me and learn how to think of ME. Why would anyone NOT want that?
"Okay," I said softly and then leaned in to peck Paige's forehead. "Okay."
"Hey," I greeted quickly as I slid into my chair. Bert looked over and nodded at me while Dawn just focused on her notes. A second later she glanced up and gave me a little wave, then turned back down to her notebook.
"You just get up?" Bert asked curiously as he pointed at my still damp hair. It was after lunch, a meal that I normally ate with Dawn and Bert before we all came to our Sophomore Business Seminar, and a meal I'd missed today after spending the entire morning in bed with Paige.
"Something like that," I drawled and then before Bert could reply, Professor Ice walked through the door like an Imperial Queen.
The room quieted down quickly and class began.
A little over an hour later, the three of us waltzed out of the classroom and started heading across campus down to Dawn's and Ryan's apartment. I moved over to Dawn and asked, "Did I miss anything important this morning?"
Her eyes flashed with ... something ... before she shook her head and said coolly, "You can copy my notes when we get to the apartment."
I nodded and then frowned as I evaluated my best friend. "You okay, Dawn?"
She shrugged and answered, "I'm fine. Relationship issues."
"Ah," I smirked. I glanced at Bert, walking along a couple of feet away. Whispering a little more softly to Dawn, I asked, "Want to talk about it later?"
"Not really. I'm fine. It'll pass," Dawn assured me.
I blinked a few times, continuing to stare at my best friend. Whatever it was, she WASN'T just fine. But I didn't want to press her with Bert around and so in the end, I just shrugged and continued walking.
Bert filled the awkward silence by slapping my shoulder lightly. He looked over and asked, "Oh hey. What's the latest on Paige? I asked Dawn this morning but she said I'd be better off asking you."
I explained about her parents disowning her and abandoning her at the school. I explained that she was handling things pretty well, all things considered. And since she had a full-ride scholarship with all her basics taken care of, room, board, medical, etc., she wasn't desperate just yet.
"That's during the school year," Bert pointed out. "What happens in the summer?"
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