A Well Lived Life Book 7 Kara IIChapter 38 Transformations Part II
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November, 1982, Chicago, Illinois
On the Tuesday following Halloween, when I got to the Sig Ep house, I invited Dave and Cindi to join Stephie, Elyse, Eduardo, and me for a dinner party on Friday. They agreed and when Julia arrived, the three of us went upstairs to work on our next project. So far, we had solid A’s on all of our projects. For the next two weeks, we’d be building a 4-bit adder circuit, which was the most complex thing we’d done so far.
When we finished, Julia asked me to have coffee with her as she had the previous few weeks. I had thought about Katy’s comments at the party about helping Julia, but I still wasn’t sure. The advice I was getting from my closest friends was very different from what I thought I should do. I also had some concerns about how Julia might react, not just to the offer, but afterwards. Tracey had been totally cool about it, but I also remembered Trish’s reaction.
“I really enjoyed your party, Steve,” Julia said as we sat sipping our coffee. “I hope you’ll invite me again.”
“I’m glad you had a good time. I don’t have big parties very often, but you’ll certainly be invited. I enjoyed our dances.”
“Me too,” she said. “I’m sorry I didn’t do a better job dancing with you.”
“You did fine,” I said with a smile. “As I said, I enjoyed it.”
“You’re just saying that to humor me,” she sighed, slouching in the chair. “I know I don’t have a nice body or anything. All those other girls there were gorgeous compared to me.”
My guess about her being like Tracey was spot on. She was right in the sense that she was almost flat-chested and skinny, but I was sure that what Katy and I had discussed was true — change the glasses, change the clothes and change the way she wore her hair and she could be quite nice looking. She’d never win any beauty contests, but she’d certainly be much more attractive.
“I think you’re underestimating yourself. Back in High School I met a girl a lot like you. I helped her and now she’s a transformed woman with a steady boyfriend and lots of friends.”
Once I said that, I knew exactly what she was going to say, and realized I’d just managed to put myself in an awkward position.
“How did you do that? And could you help me?”
Katy had said to just ask her, but I was sure that this was neither the time nor the place.
“I helped her by building up her self-confidence and showing her that guys would be attracted to her if she tried just a bit.”
“But who would be attracted to me? Who would want me?” she sighed sadly.
I suppressed a chuckle. Tracey had said almost the exact same thing.
“That’s exactly what my friend back home said,” I replied. “I told her she was wrong, and she invited me to the Sadie Hawkins Dance at school. I said yes, and things developed from there.”
She nodded pensively. We finished our coffee quietly, and I walked her back to her dorm. I was glad that I had managed to avoid the trap that I’d so foolishly laid for myself, because I wasn’t quite sure what I wanted to do. She thanked me for having had coffee with her, and I headed back to wait for Stephie’s class to finish. When it did, Stephie and I headed home.
At home I had a message from a Freshman guy looking for help with his computer science class and returned his call. We agreed to meet on Wednesday after my first afternoon class. Stephie was tutoring three people in chemistry and one in calculus and now I had a total of five, though four of them were ROTC guys in the same session. I felt that was pretty good, given that we’d just started this semester.
On Wednesday, I called Karin to wish her an early happy birthday, and ensure that she’d received the card and small gift that I’d sent her. We talked about the February trip, but I could sense that she wasn’t sure about making it.
“I’m torn,” she said. “I want to see you and be with you, but I know you’re still thinking about Kara. And she’s coming to be with you in the Summer, and you’re bringing her to Sweden with you. I just don’t know. You know what I want, and I had hoped you would eventually want the same thing. But I wonder if that will ever happen.”
“I can’t promise you anything at all at this point,” I said. “Kara and I aren’t getting engaged, but we’ll be living together and, I think that in the end, we’ll stay together.”
“I know. Before, I thought maybe something would change, but now I’m not so sure. If I came to Chicago, it would be to say ‘goodbye’, I guess.”
She sounded sad and resigned. I felt terrible, but I didn’t see what else I could do.
“It’s up to you, Karin. I still love you very much.”
“I know. But that doesn’t seem to be enough. I’ll let you know by the end of December, OK?”
We talked for a few more minutes, then hung up. I felt bad, but in the end, there wasn’t anything I could do because I wanted to be with Kara. That meant all the girls had to fall away, as they had been. Karin would likely be the next. Then in May, it would be Stephie. Tatyana wouldn’t fall away until I actually got married, though my relationship with her would change.
On Thursday I finally finished reading The Art of War. I took a few minutes to call Anala after karate.
“I wondered when you would call,” Anala said brightly.
“I’ve been super busy and I have to prioritize class, homework, and work.”
“Do you still want to get together and talk about the books and Eastern philosophy?” she asked.
“Sure, but it will have to be after Thanksgiving. I might have Thursday mornings free. Right now I’m tutoring some ROTC guys, but that possibly will end the week before Thanksgiving. If it doesn’t, we’ll have to wait until after the New Year.”
“Whenever you’re ready, just let me know. It might just make sense to wait until January, with break and stuff. You could come over for tea. I have some stuff you’ve probably never tried.”
“Good tea is an offer I can’t refuse,” I chuckled. “Let’s plan on January.”
On Friday afternoon, I completed my last exam. Mid-terms had gone well for Stephie, Elyse, and me, though we wouldn’t get our grades back for at least a week. Both Stephie and I were keeping straight A’s, but Elyse was struggling with her creative writing class. She was holding a B but wasn’t happy with the way her writing was being graded.
That evening, Dave and Cindi joined us for dinner, as did Eduardo. I made fettuccine Alfredo with grilled chicken and served it with salad, bread, and a dry white wine.
“What’s with the oil and Parmesan cheese?” Cindi asked.
Dave laughed, “It’s a Mediterranean thing — we don’t use butter, we use olive oil and cheese with our bread. I’m sure Eduardo knows! Where did you pick this up, Steve?”
“From my friend Joyce back home. She’s Italian and I’ve picked up a few things from her, including adding just a bit of sour cream to my Alfredo sauce and, most importantly, right now, she’s my booze supplier.”
“Dave, where is your family from?” Eduardo asked, curious.
“Greece. All four of my grandparents moved from Greece to New Jersey in the mid 20s. My parents run the family bakery back home. They wanted me to take it over, but I really don’t want to. That’s been a source of conflict for years. On the plus side, my older sister is interested.”
“I can totally relate to you not seeing eye to eye with your parents,” I said with a nod.
“It wasn’t just the bakery thing. My High School sweetheart was Jewish, and that caused my parents and grandparents to have a fit. We’re Greek Orthodox and go to church every Sunday and that just didn’t fly. In the end, we broke up over that. Cindi has a Greek grandfather, but I haven’t been able to get her to go to church with me yet.”
“I don’t have much use for church, really,” Cindi said. “My parents are Presbyterian, but I haven’t been to church since I was about twelve.”
“Sounds about like me. I was raised Catholic but haven’t been to church since I was fifteen. I don’t have much use for Catholic doctrine.”
Cindi smiled, “Me either! Nor Orthodox, for that matter.”
“I’ve read some interesting stuff on the Orthodox Church by a Greek Orthodox bishop — KALLISTOS Ware. I got into it because of a Russian girl I’ve dated off and on.”
“How about the rest of you?” Cindi asked. “I bet Eduardo is Catholic and Stephie is Baptist, but I have no clue about Elyse.”
“I’m Catholic, but the last time I was in church was at my aunt’s wedding when I met Steve,” Elyse said. “You’re wrong about Stephie, though. Despite the drawl, she’s Catholic, too.”
“Yes,” Eduardo said, “I’m baptized Catholic, but I haven’t been to church since my confirmation when I was twelve.”
“I’m the only church-going person here?” Dave said. “Now that’s a surprise!”
“I don’t think so,” Cindi said. “Most people like us don’t go to church. I think I’ve run into two or three people at IIT who go to church regularly in the year and a half I’ve been here. It’s just not a big thing for most college students.”
“I think you’re right,” Elyse said. “I haven’t run into many, either. And of Steve’s friends, only Kara — that’s his girlfriend from back home — and his friend Larry, go to church regularly. None of my friends did.”
“I think we’re at the leading edge of a trend that’s already hit Europe,” I said. “Most of my Swedish friends have only been in church for their own baptisms and confirmations, and for funerals or weddings. I only knew one person under fifty who went to church regularly.”
“That’s also true in Spain. Except for old ladies, and a few devout old men, almost nobody goes to church every Sunday. A lot of families will go occasionally.”
“That’s the same in Greece,” Dave said. “But I like going to church. I love the rituals, the incense, and the hymns. It’s kind of comforting.”
“I’ll take a sauna, a glass of bourbon, and a lover as far more comforting than an hour in church on Sunday morning,” I said.
Cindi laughed, “That sounds about right! But I prefer vodka to whisky.”
Dave frowned slightly, but quickly recovered. I sensed a serious rift between him and Cindi over religion. I knew that I, too, had a reckoning coming in the future over that issue. In my case, it seemed that Kara was moving towards my position, or at least moving far enough that we’d be able to work something out.
“Well, I got all that covered!” Stephie grinned. “The Yankee here keeps the wine stocked, and he’s no slouch in the love department. I ain’t never been in no sauna, though.”
“That is the one thing I have to say. I miss both from Sweden and from back in Milford,” I said. “A friend of mine has a sauna that I can use any time I want. I need to find one here that’s co-ed and clothing optional.”
“Good luck with that!” Cindi laughed. “I don’t think Americans can deal with your clearly European sensibilities about nudity.”
“Scandinavian, I’d say,” Eduardo said. “In Spain we do have beaches where women take their tops off to sunbathe, but we are not casual about nudity the way they are in Sweden or Finland.”
“What do you think, Dave? If I come visit you in Cincinnati, are you game for a sauna with Steve?” Cindi asked with a twinkle in her eye.
“I’m not sure that’s a good idea, babe,” Dave said. “Have any of the rest of you done that?”
It turned out that nobody else had, though Stephie and Elyse both said that they would do it without question. Eduardo was unsure.
“Looks like it’s just you and the girls, Steve,” Cindi said, winking.
“Like THAT hasn’t happened before!” Elyse said, laughing.
“So there’s more than meets the eye with the mild-mannered guy from Ohio?” Cindi asked.
Stephie smirked, “And you just keep those thoughts to yourself! No Yankee girl has a chance against me!”
Dave looked pained, but kept a smile on his face.
“Oh, I wasn’t talking about ACTING on it, but I do love a good story!”
Elyse laughed, “Steve’s an open book. All you have to do is ask.”
Cindi smiled but didn’t ask any questions. I figured that was because she’d noticed that Dave was a bit uncomfortable with the conversation. Personally, I thought he would loosen up a bit over time, so I didn’t worry about it, and changed the subject.
“Dave, on Tuesday, you mentioned the Detroit Tigers. How the hell does someone from North College Hill, who’s lived there their whole life, become a Tigers fan?”
“I can’t explain it, really. I’m a Tigers and Lions fan, but I’m also a Reds fan. Aren’t you a Penguins fan? I see the team pennant hanging in the kitchen.”
“Yeah, but I can easily explain that. When the NHL absorbed the WHA in 1979, the Stingers were left out of the deal. Being a hockey fan in a town without professional hockey sucked, so I looked at the closest options — St. Louis, Chicago, Detroit, and Pittsburgh. I chose the Penguins.”
“And that’s his favorite animal, too. He has to be the only nineteen-year-old guy with stuffed animals on his bed and in his room!” Stephie teased.
“Now I’m even MORE intrigued,” Cindi said.
“Steve’s a pretty interesting guy for sure,” Elyse said. “Hang around him and you’ll find out. And so long as you aren’t a prude, you’ll have a lot of fun!”
“I don’t think there are any prudes here, though Dave can be a bit stuffy at times,” Cindi said, leaning over to kiss him on the cheek, causing him to smile.
“And Cindi can be a bit too free when she’s in company she’s comfortable with,” Dave said. “You should all take that as a compliment, by the way, because it means Cindi likes and trusts all of you!”
After dinner, the six of us went for a walk to get ice cream and then came back to the apartment. Stephie and I cleaned up while Elyse made tea and coffee. We relaxed in the living room with music playing softly in the background.
“Three CS majors, a Chem-E, an Economics major and, Eduardo, what’s your major?” Dave asked.
“Business. I want to eventually get an MBA. I’m looking at going to Wharton for that. Then I’ll go back to Spain.”
“You don’t want to stay in the US?” Dave asked.
“I don’t think so. I came here to go to school, but my whole family is in Spain. Things could change, but for right now, that’s my plan.”
I nodded, that fit with Elyse’s thinking of not getting too seriously involved with someone. Any relationship with Eduardo had an expiration date, much like my relationship with Stephie.
“Dave, you said you didn’t want to take over your parents’ business. What do you plan to do when you get out of school?” I asked.
“I’m totally intrigued by compilers. I’d love to work for a place that focused on developing and improving them. But any interesting programming job would be cool. How about you?”
“Programming, for sure. I like working with microcomputers — BASIC, C, or Assembly would be cool. Cindi?”
“Programming for sure. But I’m interested in large systems, so I’m taking the COBOL elective next semester. I’m guessing you aren’t?”
“Nope,” I said. “I’m not interested in a computer that fills a whole room or working for a big corporation.”
Cindi and Dave stayed until about 10:00pm, then headed back to IIT. I had the impression that Eduardo was staying, but about 11:00pm he left, though he and Elyse exchanged a kiss at the door.
“Dave and Cindi aren’t long for this world,” Elyse observed, sitting back down on the couch.
“I got the same idea,” I said. “I don’t think they can come to a middle ground because he’s clearly devout, and she’s not at all interested in his church.”
“That sounds familiar, Yankee,” Stephie said.
“Yeah, yeah. I know. But, at least in my case with Kara, she’s moved towards my position. I can move a bit towards hers, and I think we can find something that will work. I don’t mind going to church, per se, it’s just I can’t deal with evangelical Bible thumping.”
“I still think that’s going to end badly, Steve,” Elyse said. “Even as much as you think she’s changed, that thinking is pretty solidly ingrained.”
“I’m not so sure about that. Her mom once told me that Kara has always been a free spirit, but was constrained by her environment. I set her free, so to speak.”
“You’d actually go to church, Yankee?” Stephie asked. “That just doesn’t seem to suit you.”
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November, 1981, Milford, Ohio On Sunday, I spent the morning with Stephanie swimming and eating breakfast, as well as making my call to Karin. I had lunch with Larry before heading over to Don Joseph’s house. The weather wasn’t good enough for bocce, so I sat with Don Joseph and his friends and talked before dinner and with Larry and Joyce after dinner. When it was time to leave, Joyce followed me outside. “Can I come spend the night with you?” Joyce asked. “Sure. I’ll see you at the...
July 1982, Chicago, Illinois On Sunday morning after breakfast, Kara packed her things, said goodbye to her mom, and followed me to my car. I drove to the Spencers’ to pick up my things, where I thanked Trudy and reminded her that I’d be back on Friday. Kara and I took my bags to the car, loaded them in the trunk, and set off for Chicago. As usual, the drive was uneventful. I had encountered neither traffic nor an accident, nor been pulled over a single time despite all the back-and-forth...
May 1982, Milford, Ohio On Monday morning, I followed my usual routine for being in Milford and had lunch with Trudy Spencer after our sauna. That afternoon, Krista and Beth were coming over to talk about business. Kara would join us as well. Beth arrived about 2:30pm and Krista and Kara walked over from the school campus and arrived about 2:45pm. The three of us were very happy with how things were going. We had a total of twenty-two veterinary clients paying a monthly support fee, about a...
March, 1982, Milford, Ohio “What’s the craziest thing you’ve done, Tracey?” “That one’s easy! Asking Steve to the Sadie Hawkins Day dance!” “What?!” Kara said, looking askance. “Think about it. I was a frumpy, shy girl with no self-confidence. I asked the school sex god to take me to the dance, knowing full well I’d probably end up losing my virginity, though I was worried he wouldn’t do it with me. Boy, was I wrong! Not only did he do it, but he spent the entire next day with me doing...
July 1982, Milford, Ohio Kara and I awoke, and she took a quick shower before we drove to my parents’ house so I could swim and have breakfast with Stephanie. My dad joined us for breakfast before he had to leave for work. After cleaning up the kitchen, we went to my old room to hang out with Stephanie for about an hour before heading back to the Spencers’. Nobody was home and there was a note on the fridge that said that Frank, Trudy, Pete, and Melanie were out for the day because Frank had...
July 1982, Milford, Ohio Sandy came into my room and shut the door, shaking visibly. She leaned against the door and didn’t move further into the room. “Relax, Sandy,” I said gently, trying to ease her nerves as best I could. “Are we going to do it now?” she asked, her voice cracking with emotion. “No. We’re just going to talk,” I said. I could see visible relief. That confirmed to me that she was very nervous about doing this and I needed to be very cautious. “Talk about what?” “About...
October 1981, Chicago, Illinois I went to my room, closed the door and dialed my old number in Milford and Stephanie answered. “Hi, Stephanie!” “Hey, Big Bro! How’s Chicago?” “Pretty good. A lot of stuff is happening. But I have a favor to ask. Well, really, it’s a favor from Ed. I’m coming home this weekend and I was wondering if I could borrow the keys to the apartment.” “You and Kara? On Saturday? I’m sure the answer is yes. Where are you staying?” “I was going to call Mrs. Spencer...
March, 1982, Milford, Ohio On Wednesday morning, I swam with Stephanie and we ate breakfast together. I avoided talking about Saturday or what we might do. I still had no clue what I should do, and the implications of my decision were huge. I wondered if Stephanie could handle the conversation about the deep meaning behind what she was asking, and I wondered if she understood the implications. The fact that she and Jennifer were talking meant that she and Jennifer could have discussed this...
February, 1982, Chicago, Illinois On Monday morning, while Stephie and I were driving to school, she asked what I was doing for Valentine’s Day. I let her know I was going to Ohio, but that I’d be happy to celebrate with her either on the 11th or the 16th, because I was taking the three-day weekend in Milford. “I guess that will have to do,” she sighed, “because it does make sense that you would be with Kara on Valentine’s Day.” “Are you going to be OK, Peaches?” I asked. “Do I have a...
December, 1981, Milford, Ohio As I drove to Kara’s house, I thought more about my conversation with Bethany. And the more I thought about, the more I realized that I had totally missed the signs. I had fallen in love with Kara without feeling the connection — in a sense, our kisses, and even our first lovemaking, didn’t feel different from many other girls I’d been with. But it was different. It was different because I loved her. And, eventually, we HAD felt the spark of the connection. We...
December, 1981, Milford, Ohio I pulled into the driveway at the Spencers’ and went inside. Melanie was halfway up the stairs and turned to say hello. “Want to spend some time in the sauna with me?” she asked. “Only if you promise to behave. I need to make a phone call first, and it may take a bit of time.” “I do. And I’ll wait. If you want privacy, use the extension in my room. I can read while you’re on the phone.” I nodded and walked up to her room and shut the door. It hadn’t changed...
November 1982, Milford, Ohio After dropping Elyse in Glen Este, I headed to the Spencers’ to drop off my stuff and then drove to Kara’s house. Kara hadn’t been clear about me staying every night at her house, so I didn’t want to assume. “Hi, Snuggle Bear!” she said when she opened the door. “Hi, Honey!” I said, pulling her into a hug and kissing her. “Do you need to get your stuff?” she asked. “I wasn’t sure from our last conversation which nights I could stay here, so I dropped my...
January 1982, Chicago, Illinois Bethany and Gene arrived just before 10:00am on Sunday morning. The apartment was full as both Warren and Stephie had spent the night, and Kurt and Kathy were staying the weekend. The plan was to have a big meal together around 3:00pm so that Gene and Bethany could get back to Madison before 10:00pm. Bethany was in great spirits and seemed very happy. I hadn’t had much chance to talk to her in the past few weeks because both of us were busy with school, and I...
July 1982, Milford, Ohio Joyce, Kara, and I sat quietly on the lower bench while the steam built in the sauna. I was really going to miss the easy access to a sauna when I went back to Chicago. IIT had a steam room that I could use, but they required towels and it wasn’t ever quiet. It also wasn’t co-ed. “Joyce, I didn’t see Terry at your grandfather’s house yesterday,” I said after about five minutes of silence, other than the steam hissing and our breathing. “He’s sort of upset with...
July 1982, Milford, Ohio Thursday, Friday, and Saturday were nearly identical — swimming and breakfast with Stephanie, spending the day with Kara, finding time for a sauna, and making love in the evening. I did end up sleeping alone on Saturday night because I took Kara home so she could go to church in the morning with her mom. She would drive to my house after church to help set up for the party, which was starting at 2:00pm and might even continue after fireworks, depending on how...
February/March, 1982, Chicago, Illinois I made good time on the drive back to Chicago despite the light drizzle that I ran into just south of Gary. I walked into the apartment to find Stephie and Elyse stretched out on the couch, each one leaning on an arm and their legs alternating so they could put them out straight. “You two look comfortable,” I said, taking off my shoes and coat and dropping my bag. “Hi, Steve,” Elyse said. “Hi, Steve,” Stephie echoed. Neither of them moved to get...
November, 1981, Chicago, Illinois “How are things going?” I asked. “Amazing!” Kathy said with a huge smile. “He’s just what I needed. Last night was the first time we could sleep in the same bed. Doing that with you was always my favorite thing!” “Oh, really?” I chuckled. “Actually, yes. You holding me in your arms while we slept was the most amazing feeling. Don’t get me wrong, the orgasms were out of this world, but feeling safe, secure, and loved; it’s the best thing there is. And I...
November, 1981, Milford, Ohio We made good time, arriving at Kathy’s house about 2:00pm. She and Kurt thanked me for the ride and we agreed that I’d pick them up at noon on Sunday so we could be back in Hyde Park by 5:00pm Chicago time and they could be back at Northwestern by 6:00pm. We agreed to have lunch on Wednesday, then I said goodbye, got back in the car, and pulled out of Kathy’s driveway to head to the Spencers’ house. Melanie and Pete were there waiting for me, and I got one of...
December 1981, Chicago, Illinois I really should have guessed that what Jennifer was saying was prompted by a girlfriend who saw me as a competitor, but I had to know if it was just Jocelyn, or if it was from Jennifer’s therapist as well. “And not your therapist?” I asked. “No. The reason Doctor Clauson didn’t want me to come is because she knows how I feel about you and that you’re in a serious relationship with Kara. She’s afraid that I’ll have a serious setback, or do something stupid...
April/May 1982, Chicago, Illinois I made very good time driving back to Chicago, assisted by the radar detector, and arrived at my apartment before 6:00pm Chicago time. As usual, Stephie and Elyse were sitting on the couch when I walked in. “Well, another fantasy up in smoke!” I teased. “Get your mind out of the gutter, Yankee!” Stephie exclaimed, getting up to hug me. “Did you have a good weekend?” “I did. How about the two of you?” “Same as always, though I didn’t have a date on...
August 1981, Chicago, Illinois We ended up not getting crazy that night. We made love and fell asleep in each other’s arms. We woke up the next morning and repeated what looked like was going to be the pattern for the school year — I jogged and Elyse showered, I showered, and then we ate breakfast. “Bye, Honey! Have a good day,” she said again. I headed to IIT and after parking I walked into the Stuart Building for Computer Science 200. I’d been permitted to skip CS100 because I already...
March, 1982, Milford, Ohio Tuesday started off like usual days had when I visited Milford and after Stephanie went off to school, I played some video games and practiced pool until it was time to go and meet Susan Pollard for lunch. We met at Skyline just before 1:00pm and both of us ordered Five-Way chili. We started out by catching up on our lives. It had been a really long time since we’d talked and said more than just a brief greeting. Susan was attending Clermont Community College and...
September 1981, Milford, Ohio Friday was routine until lunchtime. Afternoon classes had been canceled for both Elyse and me because of the Labor Day weekend, so I drove back to the apartment instead of having lunch on campus. Elyse and I packed our overnight bags and waited for Kathy and Bethany, who arrived as planned, and we left Chicago just before 4:00pm. It was my goal to make the trip to Milford in just under five and a half hours, which I could do if we grabbed fast food on the way...
December, 1981, Milford, Ohio On Tuesday morning, I swam and ate breakfast with my little sister and hung out with her until it was time to head out to see Anna. I was still surprised that she’d called out of the blue, and was really curious as to what it was that she wanted. Even though I hadn’t driven to her house before, I’d been there enough times to remember how to get there. I parked in the driveway, then walked up to the front door and rang the bell. Anna opened the door almost...
December, 1981, Chicago, Illinois I made good time on my drive back to Chicago, arriving just before dinner. Other than one stop for gasoline and the restroom, I had driven straight through. When I pulled up in front of the apartment, I didn’t feel like cooking, so I parked, dropped my things inside, and then walked to the Chinese restaurant and got takeout. I took it back to my apartment, retrieved two weeks’ of mail from the mailbox, then went inside. I set the food on the table and sorted...
July 1982, Milford, Ohio It was getting close to the time that both Kara and I had to leave, and Kara was still crying softly as I held her in my arms. I simply held her tight and occasionally kissed her hair and whispered that I loved her in her ear. “Kara honey, are you going to be OK to have lunch with your mom? Do you need me to call off my lunch with Anna and stay with you?” She sniffed, “No. I need to pull myself together. Mom’s expecting me and I don’t want her to worry or be...
March, 1982, Milford, Ohio At the Spencers, I quickly changed clothes, then headed to pick up Kara. Our evening followed the usual pattern for this week — dinner, lovemaking, a sauna, and then cuddling on the couch in the basement until I had to take her home. On Thursday, I swam and had breakfast with Stephanie, and after she left for school, I headed back to the Spencers’. I went to my room and wrote in my journal. I sat down in the beanbag chair to read my history text from school. I was...
April 1982, Chicago, Illinois and Washington, DC Sunday evening, after dinner, I excused myself and called Joyce. I knew she’d have good advice for me, knowing the full situation. “Shit,” Joyce said, “That is really bad. Some of those guys don’t care about age. In fact, they want the teenagers because they attract clients and they can actually charge more. Grandfather absolutely forbids his guys from using girls who are under eighteen. One time he found out about a girl who was only...
September/October 1981, Chicago, Illinois When we walked in, the light on the answering machine was flashing. I pressed the button to listen. It was a message from Bethany asking me to call her. I picked up the phone and dialed her dorm. They put me through to her room. “Hey, Bethany, what’s up?” “Can I come see you next weekend?” “Kathy will be here, but sure. Why?” “I just need to talk to you face-to-face.” “Is something wrong?” “No, I promise. Nothing is wrong. I just need to talk...