After getting wet in the rain, her brother shares a story
The chance to finally seeing my big brother Tommy again was making me nervous. Or maybe, I don't know, really excited.
What I missed most about Tommy was just talking with him, well, listening really. Anytime we talked -- his voice just seemed to calm me down and make me feel SO good.
During our last phone call I said, "I really miss you."
"Oh Jackie, Please, don't sound so sad, I miss you too."
Talking on the phone is wonderful, but it's not like seeing him, and being together.
I said, "Let's figure out some way to actually SEE each other again."
Now that we are both in college, we are a long ways our home in the suburbs, where Mom and Dad still live. We always talk about how much we miss each other, and it's a big deal to try and find the time to drive all the way back to the house where we grew up. But, that night, talking together on the phone and looking at a map we figured out that about halfway between our colleges wasn't too far. We are actually pretty close to a spot that was our favorite place as teenagers. It was an easy decision to meet for a little camping trip by that beautiful lake we would visit as k**s with Mom and Dad.
Tommy said he would bring all the camping stuff, and all I needed to bring was my bathing suit.
We talked on the phone and made plans to meet at the lake, at the lovely little beach we both knew. It sounded so magical, and I couldn't contain my excitement.
"Oh my God Tommy, I used to LOVE it when we swam there, that spot is SO pretty."
"I love that place too. And Jackie, this is funny, I still have dreams about that spot."
"You do?"
"I really do, it's like a reoccurring thing, and it's always nice."
"That's so weird, I have dreams like that too. About that same spot!"
We eagerly made plans and then hung up the phone and I counted the days until we were supposed to meet.
When the day finally came, I left school after my morning classes, and got in that old car of mine. It was a long drive for me, and a little longer for Tommy, but he left last night, and drove in the dark.
During the drive I was all lost in thought. It was so troubling how much I have been missing Tommy. We have always been close, and I feel kind of empty without him. Plus, there have been so many emotional things in my life, especially about boys, and I just KNOW that Tommy can help me make sense of all my crazy feelings.
He's always been so wonderful.
As I drove, my head was spinning with all the stuff about school, but all those thoughts melted away as I got closer to the lake, and to Tommy. Getting to the parking spot up the old dirt road was easy. I grabbed what little I brought, stuffed it in a backpack, and walked into the woods. As I walked in the forest on the little trail, it was like I had entered another world.
It was late in the afternoon when I got to that beautiful lake and saw Tommy sleeping on a big towel on the little beach.
I wanted to run up and say hello, but I stopped at the edge of the woods. I was scared for some reason, I mean, just seeing him there, with his dark blue bathing suit in the sun.
I took a few steps back into the wood. I would use this moment to change into my bathing suit. I looked again and made sure he was still sleeping. Then I quickly undressed, and stood there naked and dug through my little backpack and pulled out my red bathing suit.
Putting it on I realized that it was the same suit I wore as a young teenager, when we swam together. And it was sort of tight now that I'm 18 years old. I pulled it up over my shoulders and then ran out to wake up my beautiful brother.
I stood over him and said, "Wake up sleepy head, I wanna swim!"
He looked up and beamed, "Jackie!"
And then he chased me into the lake.
Tommy swam for the college, and he just looked so BEAUTIFUL in his bathing suit, in the sun.
The next few hours were a blur of swimming, giggling and sunshine.
Finally, we got out of the lake and walked back up to his towel near the edge of the woods.
We were both wet from swimming in the icy water, and we ran back to the spot where Tom had his backpack.
As we walked, my brother said, "Sorry s*s, I only have one towel. But you can dry off first."
"Don't be silly, it's beautiful and sunny. I wanna dry off in the sun."
We got to his stuff, and we both sat down on his one big towel.
The day had been a chaotic flurry of classes, driving, hiking and swimming - This was the first instant where I could actually relax, and it felt wonderful. It was late in the afternoon, and I fell asleep almost instantly.
When I woke up, the sky was filled with ominous looking clouds. And the sun was setting, and I was feeling really cold.
I nudged my sleeping brother, "Tommy, wake up."
And he opened his eyes and looked at me, and then the sky.
HE said, "Yikes, it looks like it might rain."
We both realized we should head back to the tent, and we should hurry because we might get wet.
I said, "I can't believe we slept so long."
"Oh man, after finals and driving, I needed it. It felt great."
"How far to the tent?"
"Well, actually it's pretty far. I set the tent up on the bluff so we could get the pretty views in the morning."
"I remember that spot, I loved it!"
We put everything into our backpacks and started to hike uphill into the forest. I we each just wore our bathing suits, and chatted as we walked on the little trail.
The sun was going down, and in the dense trees it seemed even darker. It was a little bit spooky. And then it started to rain, and that made everything in the forest seem wet and claustrophobic.
Tommy said, "Oh well, we're both gunna be wet again."
I asked, "We don't have any flashlights with us do we."
"No, they are in the tent."
That made it really obvious that we couldn't dally, and we went in, deeper into the darkness.
It didn't take long, but it felt like it was almost impossible to see anything, and the rain made it worse. I just followed Tommy, and I was really worried he wouldn't be able to find it. But, sure enough, he walked right up to it. It was a small dome camping tent, and it looked tidy and nicely staked out.
By the time he unzipped the door both of us were soaked and cold. We awkwardly scramble inside.
I said, "Whew, I'm glad to be inside and out of the rain."
"Yeah, that was kind of crazy how hard it was coming down."
Tommy found the little flashlight, turned it on, and put it in a pocket on the side wall of the tent. It pointed up and created a soft red glow as it reflected on the inside of the fabric.
I exclaimed, "Hey - Your tent is cute! It's a nice little home."
"It is nice. I'm really glad I set it up earlier."
I immediately saw that Tommy had carefully arranged everything inside the tent. The sleeping pads were both inflated and lined up side-by-side. And the sleeping bags were all rolled up, ready for bedtime.
Tommy said, "Here's a dry towel for you."
"Thank you..."
"And, one for me."
Tommy said, "Let's dry off before we put any clothes on, we will just stay cold if we are wet."
We sat there in our bathing suits and tried to dry off as quickly as we could. There was some frantic energy in the tent as we both dried ourselves. I felt pretty good, like my job with the towel was done, and I squirmed under my sleeping bag.
I exclaimed, "Oh God, this feels good!"
It was just a second later, and Tommy was comfy in his sleeping bag, right next to me.
"There! We did it!"
Once again, we were snug against each other, just like on the towel on the beach. My brother felt so warm and reassuring.
Then Tommy asked, "How are you doing these days?"
I cautiously replied, "What do you mean?"
"You seem - I'm not sure, nervous or something."
"I do?"
"A little. I can tell something is bothering you, I hope it's okay that I ask."
"I guess I'm okay. I feel sad sometimes."
"About what?"
I couldn't answer, and Tommy knew I was avoiding his question.
He said, "Please, it's okay."
I eventually got up the nerve to say, "Well - I really worry I'll never have a boyfriend."
"Oh Jackie, don't feel that way."
"I can't help it. What boy would like me?"
Tommy told me, "Please believe me, you are super attractive - Remember, I'm a boy too!"
"Thanks for saying that, it helps me."
"Good, your too sweet to feel sad about anything."
The sound of the rain on the tent fabric was comforting. And there was a smell - a sweetness to the rain in the forest. There was something fresh, and it was haunting.
Then I nervously asked, "Tommy? Have you ever - I mean, are you - are you a virgin?"
He replied, "Is this about how you've been feeling? About not having a boyfriend?"
"Well - maybe - a little bit."
He was so insightful. I don't know why but my nervousness about sex stuff can make me so sad.
Tommy leaned in and gently kissed me on my forehead and said, "It's okay. And - Yes, I'm still a virgin."
"Really?"
"Yes, but I feel just fine about it, I'm not in any hurry..."
I was surprised, and asked, "But what about Suzy?"
Suzy was Tommy's girlfriend from last year at college. She was really kind to him, and I liked her a lot. Suzy transferred to a different school a few months ago, and Tommy hasn't seen her since she moved away. But I understand that they still talk on the phone pretty often.
Tommy said, "Suzy was really always so nice to me, and I cared about her in a very deep way. But we never - well - we never did that. We never went all the way, so I'm still a virgin."
"But, I'm sorry - I just thought you - might have, you know, done it..."
"Well, we did SOME things, but we never did, well - that."
Tommy asked, "You met Suzy just that once, when we came home to meet Mom. You remember?"
"Of course I remember, it was just last year when I was a senior in high school."
"You liked Suzy, didn't you?"
"Oh c'mon Tommy - You know I did, she was really sweet, and I could tell she absolutely LOVED you."
"And I think I loved her too."
"Go on."
"You could see the way she was, I mean, that Suzy was sort of nervous about things, and she was so shy around people."
"Yes, I saw that in her. But she was SO sweet, too."
"Well, we talked a lot about that, how shy she could be. And I really tried to be as supportive as I could, in every way. And I think I was helpful. Suzy had a lot of fears and worries, and she told me about them, and I felt honored that she shared that with me."
"That's really kind of you."
"It was nice for me too. I felt like I was important to her."
"Oh Tommy, I know you were super important to her."
"Well, she was really worried about - well, about sex. I mean, she was so shy and vulnerable, and it just seemed so scary to her."
I thought to myself how much this described me, and my preoccupation with fears about sex.
I said, "Go on..."
"I knew that this subject was really hard for her, and I was very careful NEVER to put any kind of pressure on her."
"Oh Tommy - Good for you..."
And my brother spoke quietly for a long time, and I was really interested and would ask questions, and I could tell he did my best to answer them as honestly as he could.
Then I said, "I'm sorry, I feel bad, when I asked you - before..."
"What?"
"I asked if you were still a virgin, I mean - I just blurted it out."
"Oh please. Don't feel bad at all."
He smiled and hugged me, he seemed content and at peace.
And then I nervously asked, "What did you and Suzy do?"
"Well, we kissed, and..."
"And what?"
Tommy said, "Well, Suzy would ask me to do certain things, it was - Can I tell you this? Is it okay? I mean - it's sorta personal."
I giggled and said, "Yes, it's okay, we can talk about this, we're brother and sister!"
"I worry, I mean, it's very, well, very sensual."
"Oh come on - I've told you plenty of personal stuff about me, so don't worry - Okay?"
"Are you sure?"
"Yes, I really wanna hear it. Go on - What did you two do?"
"Well..."
Actually, my big brother seemed so excited to talk about this stuff. But he was also acting confused too. We both sat in silence for a moment.
I whispered, "Can I ask you some questions?"
"Sure..."
Finally, I nervously asked, "Did Suzy ever - Well, did she give you an orgasm?"
I think he could hear the tension in my voice, but he calmly replied to my intimate question.
"No, she never did..."
I asked him another question, "So, you've never had an orgasm?"
He laughed, "Of course I have! Just not from Suzy."
I was genuinely curious, and I asked, "So with who?"
"With - well - no one - you know."
"No, how?"
He smiled at me and said, "Well, how do YOU have you orgasms, like that, silly."
And I think I just looked at him with a kind of blank expression.
He said, "Wait a minute. Oh God, I'm sorry - you mean you've never - had an orgasm?"
I didn't answer, I couldn't say anything.
"Oh c'mon - Haven't you ever, you know."
I couldn't answer, right then I felt totally embarrassed.
I finally whispered, "No."
He realized that I was really uncomfortable, "Oh my God, Jackie, I'm sorry."
I could tell it was hard for Tommy, he knew, right then I was feeling really vulnerable - and I didn't want to act too scared. But he had no way of knowing just how much I despaired about the whole orgasm thing.
He tried to soothe me, "Jackie, I didn't mean anything, really."
I awkwardly mumbled, "No, please - it's - it's not - your fault."
I thought to myself how it's been such a weird issue for me. I realized how sad I seemed after listening to him share things about something so personal and - well, so secret.
"Jackie, I hope talking about this isn't upsetting."
"Oh God, I don't know - it's SO scary."
"Try not to worry, okay?"
But I couldn't help but worry.
"Please Jackie. I actually think it's good for us to talk like this - it helps."
I meekly asked, "Why am I so freaked out about this topic?"
"You mean, about having an orgasm?"
"Yes."
Tommy smiled and said, "It's a little bit funny. I feel like I have some practice talking about this. Suzy and I would talk about it too."
I looked up at Tommy, and I was just swallowed up in such fear. I quietly answered, "What do you mean?"
He calmly said, "I think I understand, about you, and how you feel. I really do, because Suzy didn't think she would ever have an orgasm either."
"Really?"
"Yes, when Suzy and I were alone, we talked about it a lot, exactly this same thing, about being worried - about having an orgasm - just like you, so I think I understand it - at least a little - from her perspective."
"Really?"
"I told Suzy that that I would help her - I would do anything if she wanted me to, and it really helped to talk about it. We talked a lot, and I KNOW it really helped her."
It felt sort of comforting - to know Suzy and I had this in common.
I thought to myself about how much I liked Suzy. She was so nice, the one time I met her, when Tommy brought her to the house, I just loved her. She stayed in my room during that weekend, she actually slept in my bed with me. It's funny, I never thought about it until tonight, but she was a lot like me.
We are about the same height, and we have really similar bodies, we have the same hair color, and I cut my hair last week - so now it looks a little bit more like the way Suzy had her hair.
This is so funny - and I can't believe I never thought about it until now, but she even tried on some of my clothes, and they fit her perfectly.
We even have almost exactly the same glasses.
And it felt so GOOD to know Suzy was nervous about all the emotions surrounding the whole orgasm thing too. I thought I was the only person in the world with that kind of anxiety. It felt like a relief, to know she went through the same thing, and it helped to know she found someone as caring as my brother.
Tommy snapped me out of my pondering, "Jackie, what are you thinking?"
I stammered, "I just - it's just so..."
Tommy urged me to continue, "It's okay, don't feel bad, just say what you are thinking..."
"I'm freaked-out. It's about the whole orgasm thing."
"I know, it must feel confusing."
"I should probably tell you something."
"Okay..."
I spoke nervously, "Well - I mean, I - Just once - well, I - I don't know, I was alone and I tried to - you know - give myself an orgasm, but - I just felt - I just couldn't and I stopped."
He calmly reassured me, "That's good that you tried."
"Really?"
"Yes, you should try again - it could be really nice for you."
Hearing him act so supportive was such a relief for me.
I actually wanted to tell him more, to really explain just exactly what I did, and how sensitive I felt when I tried. But I just felt too overwhelmed.
The tent felt like a secret sanctuary. We lay there on the soft mats together in silence for a little while. My thoughts were all spinning in my head, and I felt so vulnerable.
I was suddenly concerned that this was too weird for him, that my confession was TOO personal.
I looked over at Tommy, and I whispered, "I feel bad."
"It's okay. There's nothing to feel bad about..."
"Are you sure?"
"Yes, I'm totally positive. It's okay."
I was worried. But, at the same time I really wanted to hear him talk more, about how he helped Suzy.
I nervously whispered, "Is it too much to ask - I mean - can you tell me some things that happened with you and Suzy?"
"I will if you think it would help. Are you sure?"
I whispered, "Please, I really want you to."
He spoke calmly, "Okay, right when our relationship started to get serious, I knew something was bothering Suzy, and she was hiding it from me. Eventually, she told me she never ever had a - well - an orgasm. She said she was REALLY embarrassed about it."
"She was embarrassed?" I replied, with surprise in my voice.
"Yeah, and it was something she REALLY worried about."
"Wow - it sounds just like me," I spoke in way that sounded - well - really eager. "I told her I cared, and I offered to help in any way I could."
"What did she say?"
"She wasn't sure what to think, but I tried to assure her that I was being honest. I would do ANYTHING she asked. And - well, she seemed so relived and calm that I offered to help."
I asked, "Can you tell me what happened?"
"Well, it's really personal."
"Please..."
Oh my god, it felt so good to know that Tommy was being open and honest about his experiences with Suzy.
He started explaining, "Everything happened really slowly, and it took a long time for her, for both of us really, to get comfortable enough to try and, well, as best as I could, to try and help."
"Oh God Tommy, you are SO sweet. What happened?"
He carefully explained how he and Suzy proceeded. And most of it was him being patient, supportive and kind. She was so nervous, that it took him a long time, with just tiny little advancements, each getting longer and a little more intimate.
I asked, "What would you do? I mean, during all of this time?"
"Mostly just cuddling and holding her. Suzy was really worried about where I put my hands, so I would just rest them, or massage a little, and I would get closer to her - well - to the area between her legs. And I waited until she said yes, and let me move closer."
"And did she say yes?"
"Little by little she did."
I wanted to know everything. I was fascinated and he was careful to not hide anything. It was a funny feeling, I was honored to hear all of this, but at the same time - it was VERY intimate.
And in a strange way, it was helpful for me. Suzy was so tense and fragile, and it was reassuring to hear him tell me that he was patient and kind. It helped a lot; it made me feel really good.
It kind of gave me faith in the world.
Finally, I asked, "Did Suzy, I mean, with all of your help, did she ever - finally - have an orgasm?"
He looked at me with a serious expression, "Yes, it took time - But yes."
I felt my heart quicken, I was utterly fascinated.
"How, I mean - what did you do?"
And Tommy explained, and it was obvious he was NOT going to leave out anything.
"Well, I guess it happened right after Suzy's 18th birthday, and it was really wonderful. She finally let me take her pants off, and her underwear too. She was so shy, she wanted the lights out. So it was dark..."
"So, you didn't, I mean, did you?"
"What?"
I nervously asked, "Did you see her without her pants?"
I could tell I sounded worried about this, maybe even scared.
Tommy replied, "No, I actually never did see her naked. She was so shy, and wanted the lights off. But, I felt it, with my hands."
I asked, "Did YOU want the lights on?"
"Well, yes, I wanted to see, I thought it would be beautiful to see her."
My mind was racing. I thought how sensitive my brother was, but how - if it was me - I would WANT someone to see me, it would be so thrilling to have a boy see me naked.
I begged him, "Go on..."
"Okay - Here's how we started. Suzy would lay on her tummy, and I would sort of kneel along side of her, right up close."
I interrupted, "Was she naked?"
"No, she wanted to keep a shirt on."
"But her pants were off?"
"Yes."
"And, were you - were you naked?"
He thought for a moment before quietly answering, "No."
I could tell this was somehow awkward for him, and I asked, "Did you want to be naked?"
"Oh God - I did, yes, I really did - but Suzy was so scared, she asked me to stay dressed."
I could hear the emotion in my brother's voice. It was sad for me to realize how much devotion he had for Suzy, and how frustrating it must have been for him.
I whispered, "I'm sorry."
"Oh no, don't be. I was concerned for Suzy, about helping her."
I was surprised that Suzy was scared to see my brother naked, it didn't make any sense. I mean, he's been a competitive swimmer since he was a little boy. And he has an amazing body.
I asked, "How did it feel for YOU, I mean helping her?"
"Oh God - it felt wonderful."
"Really? You liked it?"
"Yes! I loved it!"
I was really delighted to hear Tommy sound so enthusiastic.
"When - when she finally came - did she - did she..." I stammered, sounding really scared.
Tommy tried to be as reassuring as he could, "C'mon, it's okay, you can ask whatever you need to..."
I thought for a moment before I inquired what I really wanted to know.
I nervously stammered, "When she finally came... Did she, I mean - Did it help her - Like, emotionally? I mean - well - when she climaxed? I mean - Did cumming make her, well - less tense? "
My brother heard the seriousness in my voice, and I could tell he wanted to give me as honest an answer as he could.
"Yes, I think it helped her a lot, it was so good to hear her achieve something so - I guess, so fulfilling. And it was good for her in a lot of other ways too, it really eased her nervousness. And, quite honestly, it simply a big relief for her. "
"Was there - anything else?"
"I think it brought us a lot closer together."
When he said that, my heart just soared. It sounded so beautiful and sweet.
I was quiet for and kind of amazed. I mean, it just felt so funny to have my brother share all these private details with me. But, I was SO curious. I mean, partially because it seemed like Tommy knew something I didn't. He had solved Suzy's anxieties, he knew how to help her. And that secret just seemed out of reach from me.
I whispered, "Okay, I feel like I need to hear everything. Please don't leave anything out."
He told me he felt good talking about this, and he was eager to share what happened.
"Good."
"I was gentle, and she told me what felt good. And eventually, after a lot of time - we both understood what felt best, and what she needed."
"You mean - like - would she would tell you what felt good?"
"Yes, but I could sense it too."
"What did you do?"
"You want me to tell you EVERYTHING, don't you."
"Yes, please - I want to understand."
"Okay - well, it's very intimate."
"Please Tommy, I need to know."
And then, the rain outside got even harder. And the beautiful noise it made on the tent got a little louder. Tommy moved just a little closer to me on his mat so could hear him more easily.
"Okay, here's what happened the night that it finally happened. I would sit next to her, in the dark. We were on her bed. Her pants were off, and I just did what she told me to do. She knew that I was there to help, that I wanted this for her. And I would do exactly what she told me felt best. She started out on her tummy, and she would hug her pillow."
"That sounds nice..."
"She needed help to get relaxed, and I would give her a back rub, and then..."
"Please, I wanna know."
"And then, I would massage her bottom."
I kind of gasped, "What? You massaged her butt? With her pants off?"
"Yes."
"And her underwear off too?
"Yes."
"Really? Did she like it?"
"Yeah, and she really seemed to love it. I did it for a long time, maybe a half an hour. It helped, it really did."
I giggled, "Wow, she's a lucky girl. Go on."
"As I was massaging and her bottom, and - she would spread her legs - when I knew she was ready - I would gently cup my hand, and let it cradle her - her..."
"Go on, it's okay - I really want to hear this."
"I would reach in - between her legs - and use my hand to cradle her vagina..."
Right then, I sort of squealed, "Ohhhh!"
Tommy asked, "I'm sorry - Was that okay, to say that?"
I replied, "YES! I mean, it just surprised me, to hear you say - well - THAT word."
"You asked me to be honest."
I begged, "I know - I know - it's okay, go on - Please."
"Okay. I would rub as slow as I could, and I would carefully build up speed, and she would tell me how fast and how hard to rub."
"Go on..."
"As she got more, well - more turned on, I could feel her clitoris. Oh God, I'm sorry - Is it okay that I say this?"
I answered, "Yes."
But, it was so weird, I mean - it kind of freaked me out - to hear my brother say 'vagina' and 'clitoris' but at the same time, it was really heartwarming, I mean - I just felt so CLOSE to him.
Tommy kept explaining, "Okay, I could feel her clitoris. It was easy to find, she was getting - well, aroused - and it felt sort of well plump, and she was VERY responsive. Does this make sense?"
"Yes, I think so. But - How responsive? How would she act? What happened?"
"It was obvious what felt good from her breathing and her voice."
"Really?"
"Oh my God yes."
"Go on..."
"And - and she..."
"What? Tell me..."
Tommy said, "That's when she told me to go faster."
"Faster, Like - how fast?"
"Well, uhhhm - should I show you?"
"Show me, how?"
"I mean, here - look at this."
Then Tommy reached out from under the sleeping bag and, in the pale glow of the flashlight, he showed me his hand and how he would wiggle his fingers against Suzy's clitoris. The image was really captivating.
I whispered, "Oh my God. Really?"
"Yeah, and she asked me to go faster and push harder."
"Like - How?"
"Here, look at my hand."
Then he moved his hand closer to me, and held it near my face for a better view in the dimly lit tent. Then, he sort of palpitated it, just like he did with Suzy. He held his palm cupped, and his middle finger was pointed almost straight up.
Tommy calmly said, "I held my hand like this."
I asked, "Wait, I don't understand. Suzy was on her tummy, and you were behind her, and you reached UNDER her, between her legs - with your hand like that?"
"Yes, and I was rubbing."
"How fast."
"Like this."
And he showed me, he moved his hand and the motion was surpassingly rapid.
I gasped, "Oh my God - you moved your hand THAT fast?"
"When Suzy asked me to - yes."
"I didn't think - oh my God, I thought it was supposed to be slow or something."
"It was, I mean, it started out nice and slow, but as it went on, this is what Suzy asked me to do, she said felt good. And she was getting wet."
"Really, she was got wet?"
"Oh God - Yes, she got really wet."
Hearing Tommy say this - about Suzy getting wet - was so weird for me. I don't know why, but it just felt so flustered. I think it was because the one time I tried to - well - to masturbate, the thing that made me stop, and sort of scared me was that I got SO wet.
I was SO curious, and I asked, "Like - How wet?"
"It was enough to make everything feel slippery, and I could tell it helped Suzy, it was like the wetness helped the sensations feel more intense."
I impatiently begged, "But - I wanna understand - How wet?"
"Well, it's hard to say, but it was sort of incredible. After it was over, and we turned the light on, there was a BIG soggy spot on her bed."
"Really, how big?"
"I'm not sure."
"Was it like, as big as a quarter?"
"Oh God, no. It was a LOT bigger than that. Like maybe, two feet around."
I was shocked, and I think I sort of gasped.
It just felt so WEIRD to hear about all these details. And - I was surprised at how moving it was to imagine Suzy's soggy bed, and to think that it was from her.
"I need to know - when you rubbed fast like that - was that when she - when she finally - climaxed?"
"Well, no. It wasn't like that."
"But you said..."
"That's how we started."
I literally begged, "C'mon - Tell me - Pleeeeeease!"
"Are you sure?"
"PLEEEEEASE!"
"Okay - but be patient with me, this might be hard for me to explain."
I squirmed in closer to my brother and asked, "I'm sorry for whining, but I really NEED to hear this."
"When I did that, what I just showed you with my hand, the fast rubbing, she seemed to get really close to - well, to cumming. But, it just wouldn't happen. I could tell she was getting frustrated. And I knew she really NEEDED to - to - well, to finally achieve this important thing."
"I didn't know what else to do, so I stopped rubbing with my hand, and I gently rolled her over, onto her back."
As he spoke his tone had changed, like this was something so meaningful, and important for me to hear.
I asked, "You did? What did she say?"
He took a deep breath and went on. "She didn't say anything, but she didn't stop me either."
"Keep going."
Tommy whispered, in a hunted way, like a confession, "And then - I spread her legs and I leaned in, and put my mouth against her - her vagina."
I let out a little gasp, but Tommy kept talking.
"I kissed, and licked - and it took some time, but eventually, she came."
"Don't just stop, I wanna hear more."
"I'm not sure what more I can say?"
"Where did you put your hands?"
"I caressed her as best I could, I touched her tummy, and her..."
"Please..."
"...and I played with her pubic hair. And finally, what felt best for her, I put my hands under her bottom, with my fingers sort of in her bum crack."
"How could you tell she liked that?"
"Oh, I could tell, she was really moaning at that point. And..."
"What?"
"It felt really wonderful, I mean, at this point she was getting REALLY wet, and the way it dripped down, it all just trickled down into her bum crack, and it made my fingers feel all slippery, and I could kind of massage her bottom - the inside of her bottom - with my wet fingertips."
"Oh my GOD, that sounds amazing!"
"And Suzy LOVED it!"
"I can only imagine!"
"It was wonderful, I loved it too."
"I don't know what to think - I have so many more questions."
"It's okay, just ask them."
"Are you sure?"
"I'm sure."
"What did it taste like?"
"It she tasted well, it's hard to say -- it was - really wonderful. I mean, it was moist warm against my tongue, and sort of well - salty. I loved it."
"And the smell? What did it smell like?"
"It was - it's weird, I mean -- it effected me - I think the smell made me even more turned-on, it was really causing me to get even MORE excited."
"What did it feel like?"
"That's hard to answer, I mean - Suzy would respond so intensely to certain things."
"Like what?"
"I was really - well - I had sort of abandoned myself - and I was really getting into it. And..."
"Please, I need to hear this."
"I felt like we were so connected, that I somehow JUST KNEW what Suzy wanted. And - I tried to push my tongue as far as I could into her vagina. And she definitely seemed to respond intensely to that."
"Oh my god?"
"I'm sorry - was that too much?"
"NO!" I gasped. And the powerful emotion in my voice kind of scared me.
I went on, trying to sound calm, "What was it - I mean, what were you doing -- with your tongue - when she finally, when she came?"
"When she came, I had my lips against her clitoris, and by this point it was - well, sort of hard - like erect, and I was licking it. Well, it was more like sucking. You know how a baby sucks a nipple on a baby bottle? It was sort of like that, I could suck her plump clitoris. But, little by little, I did it a lot faster, and ..." "Tell me!"
"It's hard to know exactly. But I'm pretty sure this is what finally made her climax -It was my fingers, the way they were, I rubbed with my fingers, massaging the inside of her bottom - her bum - everything was REALLY wet and slippery, and I wiggled my finger tips against her wet little - her little bum hole."
"Oh - my - god..."
"...And, when I rubbed her slippery little bum hole - that's when she came - I could feel it, with my tongue, I mean, she sort of shivered. Her whole body. It felt so wonderful."
I had to catch my breath.
Finally I said, "Oh Tommy, that was SO beautiful for me to hear. Thank you..."
The emotions in my head were kind of spinning, and I literally felt dizzy.
I had the most deeply heartfelt love for my brother. I was just so overwhelmed at how kind he could be. Everything he did for Suzy, and how wonderful he was to tell me all these beautiful details. It was a strange and powerful moment.
And I couldn't help but think how lucky Suzy was, to have Tommy as a boyfriend. He was so attentive and caring. I couldn't help but feel REALLY jealous.
"It's hard to know exactly. But I'm pretty sure this is what finally made her climax -It was my fingers, the way they were, I rubbed with my fingers, massaging the inside of her bottom - her bum - everything was REALLY wet and slippery, and I wiggled my finger tips against her wet little - her little bum hole."
"Oh - my - god..."
"...And, when I rubbed her slippery little bum hole - that's when she came - I could feel it, with my tongue, I mean, she sort of shivered. Her whole body. It felt so wonderful."
I had to catch my breath.
Finally I said, "Oh Tommy, that was SO beautiful for me to hear. Thank you..."
The emotions in my head were kind of spinning, and I literally felt dizzy.
I had the most deeply heartfelt love for my brother. I was just so overwhelmed at how kind he could be. Everything he did for Suzy, and how wonderful he was to tell me all these beautiful details. It was a strange and powerful moment.
And I couldn't help but think how lucky Suzy was, to have Tommy as a boyfriend. He was so attentive and caring. I couldn't help but feel REALLY jealous.
I wanted to keep talking, but I realized I needed to pee soon. And the feelings building inside me created a sort of impatience.
I had to ask one more question.
"Did Suzy ever, well - help you have an orgasm?"
He thought for a moment before quietly responding, "No, she never did."
I asked, "Was it - well - okay with you, that she never - well, helped you?"
"What do you mean?"
"I mean, were you upset that YOU didn't get the same - well, kindness, in return from Suzy."
"I don't think so, I mean, when she finally had her climax - it was really rewarding for me."
"But, weren't you - well, sort of turned-on or anything?"
"Oh my god - Yes!"
"Well, what did you want, I mean for yourself."
He kind of seemed surprised at my question, and he just sat there.
I asked again, "Please, what did you want, for yourself? I'm really curious."
He said, "I think we were both so scared about getting pregnant, that we couldn't even consider - making love, like that."
"I know that feeling. I think the reason I'm so awkward around boys and dating. It's because I'm so freaked out about getting pregnant too."
"Just like Suzy."
"But - I'm still curious, what did you want"
Tommy looked worried and awkward.
The rain outside the tent was creating a sort of building tempo. And at the same time, I was getting desperate to pee. But I didn't want this beautiful conversation to be interrupted.
I said, "Please, it's obvious you wanted something. I really want to know."
"But, it just seems so - I don't know, so perverted."
"Oh Tommy, pleases...." I begged.
"Okay, but don't think I'm some kind of a weirdo because of what I say..."
"I know you too well to EVER think that."
"You know how much I loved Suzy, and I thought Suzy was really pretty, and..."
"I thought Suzy is really pretty too, I thought so the first time I saw her when she came to visit."
"I thought that she had really lovely, well - I thought her breasts were really beautiful."
For some reason, I thought it was so warmhearted to hear Tommy praise Suzy like that, about her breasts.
I thought to myself how much Suzy and I looked like each other, and we even had the same bra size - she even borrowed on of my bras when she was at our house. She stood in my room and changed, and she seemed so nervous. But I remember, I saw her with her shirt off, just for a second and I was surprised how much we looked alike - I mean - our breasts were really similar.
I said, "Keep going..."
He went on to tell me how he had never seen her breasts, how she was just too nervous to ever let him even touch them. It was something that she was sort of confused about. It was like a deep problem for her. He sounded really understanding, but I could tell it was frustrating for him.
I said, "Oh God, Tommy, that's sad for me to hear."
"You're right, maybe it is a little sad."
I said, "If I had a boyfriend, I would let him see my breasts, and play with them too."
That was supposed to be a joke, just to lighten the mood. But Tommy still looked so serious.
I said, "What is it, there's more isn't there?"
"Yes."
"Please, you can tell me."
"Don't think what I'm going to say is too much, or too weird, okay - please."
"I won't - really, I won't"
"I wanted to climax too, I really wanted it, but it never happened with Suzy, and - deep down - I know it sounds weird, but I really needed it."
His voice sounded so emotional, I was worried he may start to cry.
I said, "Oh Tommy - That doesn't sound weird at all - that sounds like something beautiful you wanted to share with Suzy."
"But..."
"Please, it's okay, you can tell me."
"Oh Jackie, you don't understand, it's the WAY I wanted to try and cum."
"Tell me..."
He was trying to collect his thoughts, and I waited anxiously.
I wanted to comfort him, "Tommy, please - you are so kind and tender, nothing you could say would be upsetting to me - really."
He smiled, like he understood and then said, "I thought Suzy had such lovely breasts, and I used to just dream about taking her shirt off, and taking her bra off - and finally seeing them, and touching them..."
"Don't feel bad, that sounds nice."
He spoke quietly, "Suzy's skin was so pale, and her breasts must have been SO soft."
Oh my god - there was such longing in his voice, and it just broke my heart to hear him sound - well, so needy.
I said, "Please - That isn't perverted, so don't feel bad."
Finally, he whispered, "When I thought about cumming, it was..."
"Go on."
"I wanted to take all my clothes off..."
"Don't worry, that's normal."
"And - I wanted to be naked - so bad - and for her to see me...
"Please, go on."
"...Her breasts must have been SO perfect and smooth, I wanted to rub myself - against her soft breasts - I wanted to cum like that."
"I don't - understand?"
Tommy spoke so seriously, "I wanted to rub against her soft smooth skin, of her breasts - until I came."
I cautiously asked, "Do mean, you wanted to rub Suzy's breasts with your - well your - penis?"
He meekly replied, "Yes..."
"And you wanted to - try and cum like that?"
"Yes. Oh god, I wanted it SO bad."
He sounded like he was ashamed to say that, but it somehow sounded really lovely - the way he told me. But it broke my heart to hear him sound so distressed.
I didn't want him to feel bad, I wanted to help him.
I said, "Oh Tommy, that sounds like it would be SO nice. I mean it, please don't feel bad about that - It would be really beautiful."
"I shouldn't feel ashamed?"
"Oh no. I understand. It sounds beautiful."
My mind was suddenly flooded with the powerful image of my beautiful brother, naked and rubbing against Suzy's breasts. It was vivid and overwhelming.
And, it was so strange, how much Suzy looked like me.
He sat silent for a moment, and then said, "Thank you Jackie, I could NEVER have told Suzy that..."
"It feels SO good that you could share that with me, I feel honored."
"I'm glad."
He sounded a little like a heavy burden had been lifted, and - for some reason - it made me feel wonderful.
"I'm glad too."
The picture in my mind, of Tommy and Suzy, was so vivid and overwhelming. I could SEE him naked and rubbing against Suzy's breasts, and it seemed so beautiful. Suzy's delicate breasts would jiggle, and - Suzy looked so much like me.
Tommy leaned in and gently kissed my forehead.
He whispered, "Thank you..."
I realized how sensitive my brother really was.
And at the same time I realized I was squirming under the sleeping bag. I really needed to pee and I couldn't hold it in much longer.
Then he asked, "Did I say too much? I'm sorry, I wanted to be honest, but I felt like - maybe I was TOO honest."
Right then I wanted so badly to reassure my beautiful brother that he didn't say anything wrong, but I had to pee, and it wasn't going to wait.
I squirmed as I said, "Tommy, don't worry at all, your honesty is wonderful. But - well - right now, I gotta leave the tent for a minute."
"Leave the tent? But it's raining really hard?"
"I know, but REALLY I need to pee, and I can't hold it any longer."
I was all warm under the sleeping bag, and I was still just wearing my red bathing suit. I was dreading stepping out into the dark and the rain.
Tommy asked, "Can I do anything to help?"
"I don't think so."
And then I sat up and climbed out of the sleeping bag, and unzipped the tent door. For some reason, right at that instant, it seemed like it was raining even harder.
Tommy asked, "Do you need the flashlight?"
"No, I won't go far."
I hesitated at the door, it looked cold and scary out there, but I knew I couldn't wait any longer. I looked at Tommy, and he just seemed so vulnerable.
I leaned over and kissed him on the cheek, and said, "Thank you SO much."
And then I slipped out of the tent. My bare feet were instantly freezing as I stepped on the wet grass. All I was wearing was that one piece bathing suit, and I was getting wet again.
I only walked a few steps, just far enough away from the tent that I thought Tommy couldn't see me thru the misquote netting on the door. From out here, in the inky darkness, the tent was glowing like a small orange sanctuary in this huge wet inky wilderness.
I was just about to burst, and I stood looking back at the tent, and I could see Tommy sitting there. I was about to just pull the fabric of the suit, between my legs, off to the side to pee. But, it fabric just felt too tight to squat and pee like that. And, I was worried I might get it all over my legs. I realized I had to pull down my entire suit, all the way to my ankles.
I looked at Tommy, and I felt pretty sure he wouldn't be able to see me out here in the dark, even though I was still pretty close to the door of the tent.
I was cold, and I tried to move quickly. I pulled down both shoulder straps and then squirmed to get the wet fabric down. I felt my breasts jiggle as I pushed whole suit down to my ankles.
There was an extra second where I stood there, naked and looked at Tommy in the tent. And then I squatted down to pee.
As I sat there, hugging my knees and staring at my brother, I was swallowed up by such haunted feeling. With my bathing suit down at my feet, I was pretty much naked, and - I don't know why - but that was somehow really sad and worried.
Then I let myself pee, after holding it in for so long, it was SUCH a huge relief.
The warm flow splashed between my feet, and that little bit of heat on my skin felt so wonderful. And then I realized I was crying, and there were warm tears on my wet face.
Oh God - Why was I crying?
I felt so worried and scared that Tommy would see me crying. I realized the rain on my face would hide any tears, but I still felt confused.
I finished peeing but I just stayed there, in that sitting pose, crying softly in the cold rain. There was enough light from the tent that I could look down and see myself, I looked at my own breasts. It felt so strange, after listening to Tommy confide in his deepest secret about wanting - needing - to see Suzy - and...
Just then, Tommy hollered from the tent, "Jackie! Is everything okay?"
I answered, "You don't need to yell, I'm right here."
He sounded surprised, "Oh, you're closer than I thought. I can't see you."
"I'm - I'm fine, I'll be in a second."
"I have the towel ready."
"Thank god!"
I stood up and faced my brother, so close yet I was hidden in the dark. The stretchy fabric of the soaking bathing suit was tight around my feet. I was just as wet as I had been while swimming, but I was freezing cold.
And then I pulled the wet bathing suit up again, and it felt so tight and wet against my body. It was hard to pull it up, and it felt like I had to force it up over my breasts.
I bent down and awkwardly climbed back inside the little tent, and it was so comforting, it was cramped and warm.
I was dripping wet and I sort of had to climb over Tommy to get to my sleeping pad. I felt worried that I would drip on him.
Tommy said, "Here's a towel for you - and I'll use the other one to dry your feet."
I sat down on the sleeping mat, right next to him.
I took the towel and started to dry my hair, and I guess I wanted to cover my face, so my brother wouldn't know I was crying. Then I felt the thick feeling of his towel on my feet. It felt so good after standing in the cold wet grass.
He whispered, "There now..."
I was amazed at how good it felt, his hands on my feet.
Tommy held my foot in his hand and calmly said, "You got a lot of grass on your feet, I'll clean them for you."
I whispered a shaky, "Th-Thank you..."
As he carefully picked the bits of grass from my feet he asked me, "Jackie, were you crying out there."
I couldn't lie, "Yes, I was - a little."
"Was it because of what I said - I mean - about Suzy?"
"Oh NO, it wasn't that, I loved hearing about that. It sounded beautiful."
"What was it?"
I replied in a jittery voice, "I don't know why, I think - maybe - I was upset about - well, I'm not sure."
Tommy calmly reassured me, "Don't worry. It's okay."
To sit up, and to let Tommy clean my feet like he was, I had to sit sort of indian style, with my knees wide, and my feet right up near my - well - right up close to my body.
Suddenly I was transfixed by the sensations of Tommy's gentle touch on my feet. He carefully pulled each wet blade of grass off, and the feelings just made tingles run up and down my spine. It was magical.
I whispered, "Tommy, What ever you're doing, it feels wonderful, it's like I'm melting."
The impression I was getting from Tommy hands as he touched the towel to my feet were so gentle and tender, it was like he was calming me down - almost hypnotizing me - just from his touch. All the stuff he told me about how he helped Suzy seemed so obvious, he had a gift.
After cleaning my feet of the little blades of grass, he took the towel and dried my feet, one at a time, and then my ankles.
I quietly spoke, "When I was peeing, when I cried, I couldn't help it - I just couldn't keep it in any longer..."
Tommy said, "I'm sorry."
"Don't worry, I feel better now, really I do. This helps."
He worked his way up, slowly and deliberately, from my ankles to my knees.
And then, I watched as Tommy gently dried my thighs with the thick towel. And I was somehow all lost in a calming trance.
Then, he was drying the inside of my thighs, with the same slow rhythm, and I was overwhelmed with this intense desperation. Every soft touch made my whole body tingle.
It was so beautiful, just watching him. I had to set my own towel down. Watching Tommy, and feeling - really feeling - his attention was almost mystical.
I looked down at my self, and my nipples were incredibly hard and they were SO distinct under the thin fabric of my wet bathing suit. Maybe it was the wetness and the cold night had made them so erect, or maybe the tingling sensations from Tommy's attentive touch, but I had never seen them so stiff.
Then, I felt his towel was gently gliding along the inside of my thigh, in slow soft motions.
The sensations were so wonderful and dreamlike, it was as if I was surrendering to the delicate touch of his hands.
I don't know how, but I was suddenly pushing my self, my groin, against the towel in Tommy's hand - I was rubbing with an anxious sexual motion.
My hips pumped as I stammered, "Oh - Oh God..."
I couldn't help it, I just HAD to do it.
I looked at Tommy, and I expected him to be angry or surprised, but instead, his expression was gentle and tender. He looked at me, right in my eyes, with a deep glow of compassion.
With that, I pushed my self just a little harder into the towel between my legs.
I stammered, "Tommy? I'm - sorry..."
My brother didn't pull the towel away, he just held it firmly in place between my legs as I rubbed myself against it.
I didn't know what to do - the sensations were SO wonderful - and seeing Tommy looking at me with such devotion, I just couldn't hold back.
I whispered, "I'm sorry, I can't help it..."
He looked at me and calmly said, "It's okay..."
Then I leaned a little forward, and put my hands on Tommy's shoulders. This pose, with my legs spread wide and leaning toward my brother felt better, like I could rub a little easier against the towel in his hand.
After a moment, I realized that my brother was rubbing me, and I relaxed, and simply let him gently caress me with the towel. It was a soft slow motion, and it felt absolutely bewildering.
I leaned in and rested my head on his shoulder, and nestled my face into his neck, like a kitten trying to snuggle.
I whispered, "Oh Tommy, when you told me - everything you told me - I was SO jealous of Suzy."
He replied with a calming, "Shhhhhhh..."
"I couldn't help it - I want that same thing SO bad."
"Oh Amy, don't worry."
"I feel so good right now - this feels SO good."
"I'm glad."
I nestled my forehead into his neck and hugged him a little tighter.
Then, I cautiously asked, "Can you - help me, like you helped Suzy?"
And then he stopped rubbing me with the towel, it was like I scared him somehow.
And he replied, "Oh Jackie - I'll do ANYTHING you need."
I watched between my legs as Tommy pushed the towel aside, and then he carefully placed his fingertips against the slick wet fabric of my bathing suit, right against my vagina.
Instantly, the sensation of his firm finger against me just made me gasp, it felt SO much more intensified than the towel. He was tender and cautious, but he was pressing precisely where it felt the most sensitive.
I gasped, "Oh God, YES, right there..."
The feeling was so amazing, and I held my brother by his shoulders, and I began to breath a little faster.
He quietly asked, "Does this feel good?"
"Yes."
I closed my eyes and simply allowed myself to FEEL my brothers caressing.
The way was both sitting, the pose we were in, was so reassuring for me. I had my head snuggled close in Tommy's neck, and my hands on his shoulders, he felt so strong and devoted. And I was sitting on my bottom with my legs wide, and he was on his knees - and his fingertips were pressing against me - so deliberately - and so perfectly.
I opened my eyes, and I rested my forehead on my bother's shoulder.
Tommy was on his knees in front of me, and all he was wearing was his bathing suit. It took me some time to notice, I mean I was so entranced by what I was FEELING, that I was sort of surprised when I realized that I could see the big shape of his penis pressing against his bathing suit.
It kind of jolted me a little, and I flinched when I saw it.
I jostled the tent when I flinched, and the little light in the pocket was suddenly pointing down, lighting us up. I was suddenly squeezing Tommy's shoulders even tighter.
In a concerned voice, my brother asked, "What is it? Should I stop?"
"NO!" I replied, a little too loud and too emotional. "No, please, it's just..."
"What? Tell me."
"Tommy, I can see - your bathing suit - I can see that - you're hard."
He said, "Oh God Jackie - I'm sorry."
"No, don't feel bad, please."
"I couldn't help it."
"No - I'm just - surprised..."
"I couldn't help it. It was - when you came in from the rain, when you peed."
"No - Please..."
"Jackie, I'm sorry."
"Don't feel bad - I just - I've never seen a boy, when..."
And then I couldn't say any more. It was just TOO intense.
And with the light shining down on us, I could really see the big shape pushing out between his legs. And I could see my self too. Oh, my god - my nipples were SO hard under my wet bathing suit. And, I could clearly SEE the outline of my plump vaginal lips. Right then, I was overwhelmed with a kind of joy, I felt SO pretty, it was magical.
And I spread my legs, just a little wider.
The desperately needed to let my brother press his fingers between my legs again. The urgency was overwhelming,
I asked, "Please - don't stop - it felt SO good."
"Jackie - are you sure."
I whimpered, "YES!"
His fingertips were back in between my legs. And I squirmed a little as I tried to arch my hips to make it easier for him to rub.
"Tommy, it's - I need to - I can't help it..."
And then he spoke, it a beautiful and haunted whisper.
"Jackie - This is so beautiful."
His gentle voice has always calmed me down - all my life, but right then his voice just melted my heart - I felt completely weak and helpless.
He moved a little bit towards me.
I whimpered like a little girl, "I think, I it might happen - I feel it - I think might finally cum."
He just whispered, "I think so too."
Tommy whispered, "Don't worry, it's okay."
"I can't help it."
"Oh God - Jackie it's okay - please."
Then Tommy wriggled under me, I kept hold of his shoulders and he pulled his hand away from my between my legs.
He asked, "What is it?"
I stammered, "Tommy - I need you to..."
"What is it?"
I asked, "Is this like, when you were with Suzy?"
He automatically replied, "No. It's not."
"It isn't?"
"Suzy was... She was so scared, I was worried - and I had to work SO hard. This is so much more - effortless."
I thought to myself about everything Tommy had tried to explain. Especially about his own needs.
There were things he said that seemed so sad, like when he told me he was never naked with Suzy. I could hear it in his voice, that he really WANTED that. And - I was feeling so much love for my brother, and I wanted to help him.
And at the same time, I wanted to see him.
I whispered, "I think - I need..."
He replied, "Tell me, I'll do anything."
"It would help me, to climax - It would help me - to cum if..."
"Please, you can tell me."
"You said Suzy never saw you with - with all your clothes off."
"No. She never did."
"That - I think that would help."
"Jackie?"
"Please, it would help me cum..."
And then - and I don't understand what happened - it seemed like it was some sort of dream, but my brother rolled onto his back, and arched his hips up off the tent floor - and pulled his bathing suit off - and Suddenly he was naked. Right then, right in front of me - I saw his penis - it just seemed to spring up - Oh God - it was hard and straight, jutting upright and throbbing.
I gasped, "Oh God - Oh God..."
I have never EVER seen a boy naked. It seemed unimaginably huge and hard.
Tommy whispered, "Oh Jackie..."
And he slowly got back up and on his knees, directly in front of me between my legs.
Right then, time had stopped.
I hadn't moved, I was still sitting with my upright with my feet spread wide on the floor of the tent.
I was frozen in amazement. All I could do was stare at my brother's bewildering erection in the soft light of the little flashlight.
This moment was absolutely magical, it just felt so powerful, so tender, and so beautiful. Tommy was frozen too, lost in a haunted trance.
And it was ME that made Tommy so excited. Oh God - it was ME that made his penis so huge. Right then - I felt SO beautiful - in that magical timeless moment - I was awash in love.
My position - with my legs spread wide, facing Tommy felt so gratifying, I could look at us - both of us - and see everything. My nipples were hard, they were erect and prominent under the thin fabric of my bathing suit. Somehow, so close to my brother, I felt unbelievably beautiful.
I stared intently at my brother's long hard penis, waiting.
Then, in a kind of soft whisper, Tommy stammered, "Oh God, Jackie - I need to... "
"What is it?"
"Jackie - can I touch you..."
"Yes..."
And I watched as Tommy reached up and carefully touched the shoulder strap of my bathing suit.
He cautiously began to slide it down my arm.
It took me a second to realize what was happening. Oh God - he wanted me to take it off, so I would be naked - just like he was. I was on fire with emotion, and started to help him, I pulled both shoulder straps down.
I spoke softly, "Let me - please - I can help..."
He stammered, "Jackie - I - I love you..."
Hearing him say that - Suddenly - I was frantic and squirming, trying to help Tommy pull the top of my red bathing suit down. I pulled one arm out, and then the other. It was still wet - and tight -and I really needed to wriggle to get it off.
I saw the expression on Tommy's face change when my breasts were no longer hidden, his eyes were wide with excitement.
Just seeing my brother so excited made me sort of delirious. I was squirming feverishly - and I could feel my breasts jiggle - I had to lie down on the soft mat to get my bathing suit off.
I said, "I'm sorry, it's kinda tight."
"Please, I can help."
I actually had to point both legs straight up, and Tommy helped me pull the damp skintight fabric up toward my toes, to get it off my feet.
And the tent was so tiny, that we were so close, and when my legs were straight up, I could feel my brother's erection bump into my thigh. It sent a tantalizing jolt through my whole body.
With my wet bathing suit finally off, Tommy just let it fall on the floor of the tent.
It seemed like we had both just moved in slow motion, but now I was naked - just like Tommy - and he was breathing so deeply his whole body kind of trembled.
Tommy stammered, "Jackie - Oh God..."
And - right then - Tommy was seeing me completely naked - and I was squirming from my desperate attempt to make sense of a flood of emotions - I could feel so much longing, it was almost too much.
Tommy looked at me as I squirmed, - my eyes, my small breasts, my nipples - my tummy - and my sopping vagina.
Tommy moved forward, toward me until I needed to spread my legs wider, because he was sitting between my knees and I was on my back.
He gently leaned over me and helped set my head was on the sleeping bags, like a giant pillow, so I could watch him.
Part of me wanted desperately to hug my beautiful brother - but instead, I just let Tommy look at me.
I desperately WANTED Tommy to look at me.
My pose -I felt so BOLD and excited - it allowed Tommy to see me. I arched my back and pushed my hips a little bit forward to let him get a better look between my legs.
Tommy was staring at my wet pubic hair and my vagina lips.
It felt so good - I began to squirm.
I whispered, "I feel SO pretty..."
Tommy moved so his erection was closer, straight up, aligned with the wet lips of my vagina. Right in front of me.
In a serious tone he said, "Jackie, please, I'