Rebecca's Revenge
By Constance Grant
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Copyright (c) 1999 by Constance Grant Manasquan, NJ all rights
reserved
This is a work of fiction, any resemblance to actual persons or events is
unintended.
If it's illegal for you to read this - DON'T.
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Do not forget little one,
when one is given great gifts,
a great price may be extracted.
Demonology (1206)
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Chapter 1 - In the Beginning
All things truly wicked start from an innocence.
Ernest Hemingway (1899-1961)
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. . . I had ridden this trail a hundred times; Marshal, the horse I was
riding could navigate it at a gallop by the dawn's half-light. But today he
slowed to a walk near the lily pond near the rear of the estate, you know,
near the fieldstone wall. It was a soft morning, seemingly too warm for
the wisps of mist clinging to the lake's surface. I heard a horse whinny in
recognition of Marshal's presence.
At thirteen my first impulse was to sneak up on whoever was there and
shout boo. When I left the new stable a half-hour ago, the other five
horses were still their stalls, so whoever was here must have just arrived.
I looped Marshal's rein around a low branch, and walked up to the bluff
overlooking the pond, and the Hudson River shimmering golden in the
distance.
Christina was standing in the soft light of dawn, far more beautiful than
any model; she was even more beautiful than God's dawn. I stood
admiring her beauty, it was a minute until she sensed my presence, and
turning to me she said, "This is so beautiful Nicholas. Do you come here
often?"
I untied my tongue, it seemed to take forever until I could finally say,
"Yes Christina, but without you it will never again look the same to me."
She smiled, and then sitting down on the watcher's stone she requested,
"Come sit by me, we will enjoy the view together."
So, Becky we sat together for a good hour, and after a while, she held my
hand. I was so absorbed by her presence I can't remember what we
talked about, I guess as they say in the books everything and nothing.
Becky I know it's unrealistic of me, very foolish, but now I'm just fifteen
and I have never wavered from that moment two years ago. I love her so,
sometimes so deeply it hurts. You must be sick of my telling you about it
by now, but thank you for not saying so, as it gives me joy to share my
feelings with you.
The most wonderful thing happened early this morning, a fantasy
extension to that memory. I would die if she knew, but I have to tell you,
as you are the only person who will understand that I love her, and am not
just telling a dirty story. I'm not thinking impure and licentious thoughts,
because, regardless of what Brother Mark says, those two words can't
exist in the same context as Christina.
Just before I woke today I was reliving my favorite memory half-awake,
half-asleep, but this time, in my dream she kissed me after holding my
hand. Then we were hugging and lying back on the cool moist grass. We
were kissing so our tongues were probing each other's mouths, just like
in Hemmingway's 'For Whom the Bell Tolls.'
Somehow my pants were open and dickey was very hard, I've told you
how that's been happening to me a lot, even when I'm not thinking of
Christina, sometimes at the most inappropriate moments. Anyway, in the
dream it was most appropriate. We were holding each other warmly and
dickey was in the most wonderful warm place, I think between Christina's
legs, but I think not in her pussy.
Then this feeling of total ecstasy, a wonderful sensation unlike anything
that I have ever felt overcame me, and just as wave after wave of feeling
washed over me, I fully woke up. I must confess my jockey shorts were
a yucky mess. I know it's called a wet dream; the other boys talk about it
like it's a joke, but let me tell you it's truly beautiful. I just wish I could
share my ecstasy physically with Christine, it is entirely too wonderful to
keep to myself.
Thank you for letting me share this moment with you, I need to post this
now and I hope I will find a letter from you.
As ever, your devoted and loving brother.
Nicholas, May 20, 1998
PS: I can't wait until I see you in twelve days for a whole summer, I'm
literally counting the hours - 284 as of now!
PS: Don't give into to Alexis; I'm sure Aunt Jen is on your side. I will
lend my voice when I get home.
It surely isn't how I expected life to unfold when I wrote that letter to
Becky many years ago, but if I don't reflect too deeply, it's better.
Let me start at the beginning. I the first of a set of twins born about seven
AM on April 19, 1983, unfortunately my mom died minutes after my
sister was born. As we got older dad, Robert Vincent Hayes, explained
that mom had died from a previously undiagnosed heart condition - and
that we should not blame ourselves, but Becky and I always felt that deep
down he did, I know we did. Nevertheless, he named me Nicholas
Robert after his dad, and my sister Rebecca Anne after our mom.
After mom's death, dad led a carefree life of adventure. He was a
photojournalist and traveled much of the time to various places throughout
the world - chasing one hot story after another. His twin sister, Jennifer
Marie Hayes-Ravlon, Aunt Jen to me, joyfully took over the task of
raising Becky and I, just days after our birth. Aunt Jen's daughter Nicola
was two days older than Becky and I, and Aunt Jen insisted on nursing us
all as her own for the first months of our lives, and always referred to us
as her children. We had joint birthday parties each April 18 as if we were
triplets - as we truly felt we were. I was their brother, and they were my
sisters in every material way, if not biologically or in law. Often it seemed
we children could read each other's minds and feelings, Becky and I were
particularly close, and we could not mask the truth or our actual feelings
from each other.
In addition to raising us, Aunt Jen continued with the active management
of the Hayes conglomerate. After mom's death dad chose not to partake at
all in the active management of the business, and in fact signed over his
half interest's voting rights to Aunt Jen. However, as I got older, I was
made to understand those rights and attendant responsibilities would
devolve to me whenever Aunt Jen thought I was worthy.
Mike Ravlon, Aunt Jen's husband, focused on the Ravlon division, which
had been a subsidiary of Hayes since just before their marriage. I always
thought it smacked of joining of great houses, or alliances of blood
between countries, but then I always had a very active imagination.
Raising children is never easy, but the family was especially wealthy,
which eased Aunt Jen's task immeasurably. The household staff
numbered nineteen, eight of whom lived in. Our Nanny Heidi, her
helpers Jose and Sally, Aunt Jen's personal maid Jody, the head
groundskeeper Kyle, the chauffeur Giles, the head housekeeper Mrs.
Hammer, and her husband the chief, Chief Robert as everybody called
him.
We were brought up in a lovely home, the same home where dad and
Aunt Jen were raised, as well as seven previous generations of the Hayes
family. Physically the mansion was located a few miles south of Nyack,
NY, and was a sprawling Edwardian structure set in fifty acres of pristine
land overlooking the Hudson River.
Aunt Jen is a warm and loving person, she took a real interest in raising all
of us, and I always considered her my real mom. While she was very
active in business, from the time we were infants she would read to us
each night, and when we were old enough we would each read to her.
Even if she expected company, she would sit with us through our supper
meal in the clubroom, most often eating her supper with us. When Uncle
Mike or dad was in town, we would all take our meals together in the
formal dining room. By example, she taught us to be polite and witty,
discussing the day's activities and world events during meals. Even
though I had to shower first, and wear a jacket and tie, it was a treasured
time of day for me.
Aunt Jen insisted on truthfulness from us in our dealings with her, and if
we told the truth we were seldom punished, however if we lied to her it
would go worse for us. In fact, most of the time we were smart, and told
Aunt Jen the truth.
Once, when I was about seven, I cut down several prize roses in the
hothouse while imagining I was John Paul Jones defending Old Ironsides,
and I lied about doing it to Aunt Jen at the dinner table. Becky knew the
truth, and of course said nothing, but after dinner, she asked me what I
was going to do now. We talked it over and decided the right thing was to
tell Aunt Jen at dinner the next evening.
The next night, as soon as we sat down I told Aunt Jen in front of
everyone that I had lied.
She told me, "Nicholas I'm very disappointed you found it necessary to
lie to me, but I am pleased that you rectified your mistake. To help you
remember the lesson in the future, I would appreciate your bringing me a
dozen fresh roses to my room every morning before school, for a month.
Further, I would like for you to personally select, cut, and arrange the
flowers for me - without wearing gloves."
At first, Becky helped me select the roses and directed their arrangement in
the vase, but I cut and handled the roses myself. The first day my hands
were a mess with many scratches, no matter how careful I was, it seemed
a thorn was always in the way. However, by the end of the month my
touch was so controlled I could do the whole job myself without a scratch.
The last day of my duty Aunt Jen held my scratch free hands and kissed
them saying, "I see you have learned more then one lesson dear, I'm very
proud of you." So was I, and even after the punishment I would bring
her roses frequently.
Uncle Mike, and dad when he was home, spent a lot of time with me, 'To
rescue you from all the damn girls in the house!' Uncle Mike would
boom. Chef Robert spent a lot of time with me as well, and I became a
pretty fair chief by the age of ten. I always felt like a boy, as Aunt Jen
made sure I joined cub scouts and later boy scouts, little league, I even
took karate achieving a black belt. I was an excellent horseman and
practiced polo, often with Uncle Mike. Uncle Mike and dad took me
hunting, deep sea fishing, and shooting at every opportunity, they saw to
it that I had golf, tennis, squash, hell you name it, and I took lessons, and
enjoyed doing it. Occasionally dad took me on trips with him if they
promised to be short, and was in a safe location.
On rainy days I often played dress up with my sisters, they loved to dress
me in a tux and pretend I was the bridegroom of one of them getting
married, in return they played with my trucks, cars, and trains. In all we
were very happy growing up in an atmosphere of mutual love, and
deprived or mistreated in no way.
That all changed, after our tenth birthday - on June twentieth dad
remarried. Alicia was a well-known television journalist specializing in
foreign assignments. They had met on several common assignments; she
was gorgeous, bright, and totally disinterested in raising children.
Nevertheless, Becky and I moved in her large Manhattan apartment with
them. Shortly thereafter dad decided that we would be far better off in
boarding school, he had gone to boarding school and maintained, "It
builds character, it may take a few weeks, but you will both love it."
In fact, Becky and I overheard Alexis shouting to Dad late one night,
"Either you get those whiney brats out of here, or I'm out of here!" What
the hell did she expect, whenever dad's back was turned, she was always
pinching us.
I was sent to Saint Bernard's Academy in northern New Jersey and Becky
to Saint Mary's outside Philadelphia, PA. To say we were unhappy is a
gross understatement, but no matter how many buckets of tears were
shed, two months and one week after dad remarried we were installed in
our respective schools. In retrospect, the only thing that made our time
apart bearable was our letters to each other. Every week without fail,
mostly three or four times a week we exchanged letters. Long candid
letters in which we held nothing back from each other.
In truth, our schools were very good and the respective staffs of nuns or
brothers cared for us and educated us, but they did not love us - except in
the generic biblical sense. We were both very intelligent, I found out my
IQ by sneaking a look at my records - during a session when my guidance
counselor was called out of the office - it was one hundred and sixty six.
Moments later, Brother Clement caught me looking, he smiled and said,
"When your IQ is that high, the test numbers are totally unreliable. I don't
want you to get a swelled head, but over several different tests your
results are consistently the highest I've ever seen."
Becky and I appeared to be doing very well, seeming to adjust and I'm
sure dad never doubted for a moment that he did the right thing by us. We
were out of Alicia's sight, and that was all she cared about. Between the
two of them, they spent most of the time on assignment, and it turned out
that from the time they were married the only holiday we spent with them
was a few days at Christmas, and a week or two in the summer. Some
years not even that.
Fortunately Aunt Jen more then filled in for them, I was closer and could
reasonably come home most weekends, Becky made it every other
weekend, and of course, every holiday. On the weekends Becky came
home, Giles, Aunt Jen's chauffeur would pick me up at school early and I
would ride to St. Mary's with him, then Becky and I would hash all the
events that transpired since we parted on the ride home. I saw more of
Aunt Jen then Becky, but I faithfully wrote to her all about everything,
and she said that she felt that she was there with us.
When I was just thirteen Uncle Mike died of a heart attack, and as the
family was very prominent, the details made the papers in dribs and drabs.
Everyone tried to keep them from us children, except our schoolmates of
course. It seems that Uncle Mike died while in the act, with his fifteen-
year-old mistress, at the time he died. Aunt Jen was upset, but her grief
was overshadowed by the ongoing revelations - within two weeks of his
internment, she just looked damn angry to me.
A few weeks after his death Nicola and Becky got their first periods and
Aunt Jen had them refer to her as Jennifer from then on. She became
closer to the girls and frequently went shopping and things with them.
Nanny Heidi developed a kidney infection about that time and Miss.
Christine Maxwell was brought in to help her out. Tina as we called her,
at fifteen was exceptionally beautiful and bright. She had long golden
blond hair, green eyes you could fall into, the face of a model with the
grace and poise to match. In a bathing suit, she was breathtaking.
Becky told me Christina had some sort of a rare health condition and she
didn't attend regular school, but had private tutors, and saw a doctor three
or four times a week. At the time, we thought she had some sort of a
blood disorder, however she looked and acted just fine to me.
We all loved her, as you noted, I more than the others combined did. She
in fact became a companion for Nicola and Becky (when she was in
residence,) not a Nanny's assistant, and at thirteen, I fell hopelessly in
love with her. Of course, the only person I told was Becky, and
frequently in my letters, I would pour my heart out to her when we were
parted and in person when we were together. She must have tired hearing
me out, but she never gave the slightest indication that she had.
Kyle and I became close after Mike's death. He had played professional
soccer in England, and when I showed a real interest in Soccer he coached
my junior team, and as there were no other men available he became my
de facto driver, companion and as I now know, bodyguard. He was head
groundskeeper and had the eight men working for him organized like a
military unit, and in fact, he had a lot of spare time to devote to me without
the grounds suffering one iota.
On the most exciting day of my fourteen and a half years, he saved my life
and I saved his. The car we mostly used was a big old white Mercedes,
affectionately nicknamed the tank. We were on our way back from the
Paramus Fencing School, late one cold Saturday afternoon in early
November 1997. Snow was falling and the roads were icing when a car
seemed to deliberately cut us off forcing us toward the river. Kyle
recovered beautifully, and avoided hitting anything and regained the road.
The car attempting to cut us off was not as fortunate and became stuck in
the slush near the river.
Kyle continued without stopping, another car pulled up in the passing lane
and I saw what looked like an Uzi machine gun pointed at us from the
passenger's open window. I yanked the wheel to the right shouting to
Kyle to duck, Kyle had a firm grip on the wheel and we only swerved a
little, but it was enough for most of the bullets to miss him. However,
they shattered the windshield and his window raining glass on us. With
two powerful swipes of his gloved hand, he cleared most of the remaining
plastic and glass from the windshield.
There were quite a few cars on the road, but despite the other cars, the
wind and wet snow pelting our faces, Kyle accelerated and began to pull
away from the other car. A mile on we hit a slick of ice just as Kyle had
to swerve to miss a head on collision with an oncoming car, itself in an
out of control skid. We ended up off the parkway in a ditch.
We both piled out and raced to the rear of the car; I had the presence of
mind to grab my equipment bag where a cell phone was stowed. The car
chasing us stopped and two men got out and began to fire at us with Uzi
machine guns. To my surprise, Kyle pulled out a gun and fired back
hitting one of the attackers immediately.
As shots were exchanged I crouched down behind our car and hit the
redial on the cell phone, it happened Giles picked up on the first ring. I
succinctly explained what was happening, and where we were, but just
then, Kyle was hit, and it looked bad to me as he dropped like a rock. I
passed that to Giles, he told me to hang up, and he would get help to us,
and call right back.
I picked up Kyle's gun from the snow and looked around our car, two of
the attackers were down, but a third man holding a pistol was getting out
of the back of his car. I fired at him twice and the slide of my gun locked
back indicating it was out of cartridges. Fortunately, whoever the dapper
man was, he didn't like to be shot at, he hastily got back in the car, and it
pulled away. I ran up and memorized the license plate and make of car as
it pulled away.
Then I looked after Kyle. He was shot several times; the most obvious
was a neck wound that was bleeding heavily. I made a compress out of
my handkerchief and held it to the wound slowing down the blood flow
appreciably.
It seemed forever until a NJ Highway Patrol car screeched to a stop, and
within minutes, an ambulance arrived with paramedics a car length
behind. I wanted to go to the hospital with Kyle, but as I was uninjured,
the State policeman insisted that I stay with him. Within minutes, there
were a dozen police cars on the scene, and as I wasn't very nice to the first
patrolman, I was locked out or reach of my phone in the rear of his patrol
car.
Then Giles pulled up in the limo, and soon several other men pulled up
and conferred with him; at least one of which was a family lawyer. I was
brought to the State Police barracks, and gave a complete statement with
our lawyer present. Because the (overbearing)first State Trooper on the
scene had not paid attention to my attempts to tell them what had
happened, the attackers got clean away. Except for the two Kyle had
killed. I did have the useless satisfaction of having every part of my story
verified, including the description of the dapper man in overcoat and the
attacker's car, which had been stolen and was found ditched in a mall
parking lot.
Late that night Giles drove me to the hospital and we saw Kyle briefly, he
was going back into surgery and it was the last time that I would see him
for several years. I missed Kyle badly, as we had really grown quite
close.
Earlier, when I reached Giles he was on his way back from Kennedy
airport after dropping Jennifer off. She was on her way to Japan over the
polar route and could not be reached for nearly twelve hours. I went back
to school Sunday night and didn't see her for two weeks. Outside of
complimenting me for keeping a cool head, it was years before she
mentioned the incident to me again.
On the way to school, I rode to Philadelphia with Becky and we hashed
the whole incident every which way. Our conclusion was that it was an
aborted attempt to kidnap me, failing that to kill me, but outside of being
rich, we couldn't figure a motive. Becky could see that I was upset and
began to tell me details of her Saturday morning, shopping, hairdresser,
and such with Jennifer, Nicola, and Tina. The normalcy of her day
calmed me, and I always wanted to hear every detail of what Tina did.
On the way back to my school when we were alone Giles only said I
would not be that exposed in the future, and not to worry. He also told
me Kyle would live, but that he had a million dollar wound, and as soon
as he was able, he was returning home to Scotland to recover. He had me
tell him all the details and was very interested in my description of the
dapper man, but he told me little more than I knew. He did say that it
would be best if I didn't talk to my classmates about the incident - I didn't.
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Chapter 2 - Tragedy's Aftermath
When you close your eyes to tragedy, you close your eyes to greatness.
Stephen Vizinczey (b. 1933)
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I was almost fifteen and at school when it happened, while watching a
little league game Nicola was hit in the head by a foul ball. Mrs. Hammer
called me at the academy and I immediately went AWOL, hitching rides to
get home, but by the time I arrived, Nicola had died from an embolism in
her brain - a million to one occurrence the doctors said.
Becky hitched too and showed up a few hours after I, and between us, we
helped Aunt Jen get through the worst of it. I went back to school a few
weeks later, just in time for finals, and had no trouble making up what I
had missed. Hell, even though I was in the most advanced classes offered
I was a good year ahead in my books anyway.
Becky refused to go back to St. Mary's demanding to stay with Aunt Jen.
Dad approved (they were in South Africa at the time covering a story) but
Alexis vetoed the idea, before the issue was resolved summer vacation
was on us, and Becky was still with Aunt Jen.
A few months later tragedy struck again, it was three weeks before school
started for the fall term. Dad and Alicia sent for Becky, so that she could
spend a week with them in France. I was to come the following week. In
Alicia's words, "So that the children could individually reacquaint
themselves with us." Becky finished Alexis' thought, "And I can break
your legs, chain and lock you up in Philadelphia."
To which I replied, "Yeah, the inconsiderate bitch, don't you give in to
her! I don't believe Aunt Jen will make you - not when push comes to
shove, and believe me I'll make sure that it will. 'Reacquaint
themselves...' gag me with a damn spoon. Stupid woman, we would
much rather be on vacation together."
It happened on the sidewalk outside the American Embassy. Sudanese
terrorists made a statement with a bomb - and Becky, Alicia, and dad was
killed.
I went to Aunt Jen's room as soon as I heard the news, and she was
inconsolable, regardless of physical distance, she and dad telephoned and
wrote frequently - they were very close; she was in such a state a doctor
was called and gave her tranquilizers.
I spent a lot of time with her until I went back to school, she seemed to
enjoy my reading to her, and I spent hours in the sunroom reading poems
and short stories. I was terribly sad and missed Becky so very much, the
only good thing was that Christina spent a lot of time with me - just
riding, walking, and talking. At the time, Tina didn't replace Becky by
any means, but she did draw me back from the depression I was falling
into. I suggested to Aunt Jen that I delay further going back to school, but
she insisted dad would want my education continued.
Reluctantly, and with a heavy heart I left for school in mid October. It
was awful for me there, my mailbox was mostly empty, and each day as I
passed it, it reminded me with a knife in my guts, a knife bearing the
message 'never again.' To keep my mind off my loss the Brothers roped
me into one time-consuming assignment after another. While I'm sure
they were well intended, it didn't work, and it just kept me from going
home.
As Thanksgiving neared, I firmly refused any new assignments; I cleared
leaving school on the Friday before Thanksgiving with the rector and
called Mrs. Hammer. She sent the limo for me, during the ride home
Giles told me Aunt Jen was still inconsolable. He was clear that they were
all very worried about her withdrawal from everything - he was visibly
very upset at her condition, and that was not like Giles to show any
emotion.
He wasn't exaggerating; when I first went into her room, I didn't
recognize her. She was a beautiful woman, and normally she was
tastefully made up and fastidious in her appearance. Two years before
when Mike died, after a short, but decent interval, she'd successfully
resumed the day-to-day management of the conglomerate. Even after
Nicola's death she resumed work after a few weeks, but now, months
latter, she hadn't even looked at the two-foot high stack of papers marked
'Urgent' waiting on her desk. I looked at her closely, noticing that she
was drawn and had lost considerable weight. She wasn't a heavy woman
to begin with, but at five seven, I doubted she now weighed ninety
pounds.
She smiled when she saw me, but when I asked if she would like me to
read to her, she replied, "Not now dear, maybe later." Attempts to draw
her into conversation were also fruitless; in fact, she fell asleep in mid
sentence talking to me.
After supper, I had a momentous talk with Christina in the study.
"God, but I'm glad you are home." She said with real feeling.
"Isn't there something we can do, anyone can do?"
"There have been a gaggle of doctors and priests in and out, but nothing
they do seems to snap her out of it. The medication stops the crying, but
doesn't seem to help her otherwise. She is just wasting away. If
something isn't done, I'm afraid she will die from a broken heart or
worse. Giles told me she requested a pistol from him, some nonsense
about possible burglars."
I thought of Great-grandfather Hayes, who had shot himself in this very
room. "Christ, so that's why he was so worried about her, he didn't tell
me about a gun."
"Yes, she has it in the night table on her side of the bed. Giles gave it to
her unloaded, but she asked for the cartridges a day later and he had to
give them to her."
"When was that?"
"Just this Wednesday. Look Nicholas, that woman means more to me
then you can possibly imagine. I know you love and care for her deeply -
its up to us, we must do something, and soon!" She leaned over and
gripped my leg for emphasis, sending totally inappropriate shivers of
desire to my brain.
"Ok, clearly we have to make her focus on something besides her grief,
something to absolutely demand her attention, something she can't
ignore."
"I have tried everything I could think of, I even dressed up like Nicola and
then Becky and tried to engage her, but she looked at me a long time
finally saying, "Thank you dear, I truly love you, but you aren't my
blood." That hurt me, but it's true."
"Shit."
"I even tried inventing problems with Mrs. Hammers help, but Jennifer
just said listlessly, "Handle it yourselves.""
"You were on the right track, we just have to come up with something she
can't ignore."
"Say your voice hasn't changed yet, are you up to try something drastic?"
That cut me to the quake, but I had to admit it was true. I swallowed my
pride and said, "What did you have in mind?"
"I think I was on the right track with the impersonation idea, Jennifer did
perk up for several minutes at first, then she crashed. You basically have
a strong family resemble to Becky and to a lesser extent to Nicola, I think
I can make you look a lot like either of them in the right clothes."
"Damn, besides my feelings, which are summed up in one word - 'yuck,'
would Becky want me impersonating her?"
"I know she would want to help Jennifer any way she could, besides
when you were kids didn't you play dress up with the girls?"
"Yeah, but I dressed up in a tux and married them, or in Ken outfits and
they wore Barbie things, I can't remember ever dressing in girl's clothes."
"Are you willing to give it a try?"
"If you think it will help, and if I get caught by anyone, you must promise
to be my witness that I'm doing it for this reason only. Promise?"
"Of course, we have to get started now if you are to bring her breakfast to
her as Becky tomorrow."
"Er, how come. I'll just find a dress that fits and just bring her breakfast
to her."
"It's not that easy, if you are going to be convincing, and not a travesty,
you have to get into your role as a girl, you need to prepare."
"Are you sure this will work?"
"No, but it's the only idea I have, and if you are as cleaver with her as I
think you will be - yes I do believe it will work. I will be with you the
whole time helping you get ready, but you will have to see and convince
her alone." She put her hand on my thigh again.
That was the clincher.
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Chapter 3 - The First Time
A single day is enough to make us a little larger or,
another time, a little smaller.
Paul Klee (1879-1940)
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"I think its best that you stay in Becky's room and imagine that you are
her. At times I used to help her with everything, and I will do the same
for you."
I felt a terrible sense of loss as I entered her room, but then I thought I felt
a hand, Becky's hand in mine, and I felt welcome.
"Please undress while I run your bath." Tina continued.
"Damn, are you sure this step is necessary?"
Undressing in front of women was not embarrassing to me, after all Aunt
Jen and nannies had cared for me all my life, but Tina was different - at
least I hoped to make her so.
"Yes it is, don't be embarrassed, I had brothers and have seen
everything." Not the answer I was hoping for.
While Tina was fussing in the bathroom I made up my mind, ok I will do
what it takes to get Aunt Jen back on track. I grinned at my reflection in
the mirror thinking, 'I guess this qualifies as anything.' I matter of factly
undressed; this sure was nothing like the seduction fantasy I had been
building in my mind for many months.
Tina came back in the room appearing to take no notice of my nakedness
and saying, "Lets see what fits an what doesn't."
First, I tried on several pairs of shoes but all of them were very snug.
"I guess that shoots down this idea." I said hopefully.
"No, not at all, Nicola's feet were larger than Becky's. Wait a minute I'll
be right back. Oh, please watch the tub for me."
I went into the bathroom and thought at first it was overflowing, but it
was just the suds from the bubble bath. However, I sat on the hamper
and watched it as it filled. The sound of the water relaxed me and took my
mind off what we were about.
Soon Tina was back with an armful of shoes and called to me, I turned off
the water and joined her in the bedroom. Over a pair of Becky's knee-
highs these shoes fit perfectly - I was distressed to note.
Then Tina looked in Becky's underwear draws and selected several items.
The first she tried on me was a boned waist cincher with garters, which
while snug was not too tight, Tina nodded with satisfaction at the effect. I
remembered Becky complaining about having to wear one for some
outfits, and my quick answer of how grown up it made her look - what
goes around, comes around.
Then Tina ran her hands all over my body observing the little blond hair I
had on my body was unnoticeable, embarrassingly, dickey was coming to
full attention, something no one beside myself had seen. She was
squatting in front of me checking my legs for hair when she said, "Now
that's much more then I expected." Seeing my red face she quickly
continued, "Don't worry, its very normal and healthy, I'll help you with it
later."
Still blushing I tried on a bra, I was surprised to note it was padded,
smiling Tina adjusted it saying, "Becky needed a little help last year, and
this is just what you need to start with." While she helped me off with it I
remembered Becky telling me how grown up she felt at the time. Dickey
was bobbing at full attention now.
"Good, the basics fit, get into the tub, and begin to imagine that you are a
lovely girl."
I was glad to get in the tub and hide dickey under concealing bubbles, it
may not have embarrassed Tina, but it sure as hell did me. Tina told me to
lean back and she would do everything for me, she folded a towel to
pillow head telling me to close my eyes as she stroked my head. In
minutes, I felt the tension drain out of me as the fragrant bubbles and her
caress worked their magic.
She must have been in tune with my body, as no sooner had I relaxed
completely, she had me stand and started to rub soap filled sponges all,
and I do mean all, over my body. But it only served to further relax me,
and I found it unbelievably pleasant. I knew Becky took a bubble bath
every night, sometimes with Tina or Nichol assisting, and I was thinking,
'Why didn't she tell me, really tell me, how very fine this is?'
Soaping over, Tina had me sit back in the tub while she shampooed my
hair, rinsing with the aid of a spray hose. Then she told me she was
applying rinse to it. Finally rinsing that pleasant smelling concoction out,
I said, "That's silly, rinsing the rinse."
She giggled, "So much of what we do to be beautiful is, but Becky, you
will see it works." Tina wrapped a towel around my head like I had seen
on Becky hundreds of times. I stepped out of the tub and Tina insisted on
patting me dry with a fluffy warmed towel. Then she did the most
amazing thing, she rubbed my whole body down with a fragrant body
lotion, and dickey went wild when he received his share, but she just said,
"Becky dear, what's his name?"
"Name?"
"Yes."
"Er, I call it dickey."
"Ok dickey, just wait your turn, I promise you it will be worth it."
My senses were in overload, I didn't know if I could wait, but Tina led
me into the bedroom and said, "Wait a minute." She went into Becky's
draws again and returned with a robins-egg-blue short cotton nightgown
and a pair of matching panties. First, she powdered me all over with a big
fluffy puff, and then she had me step into the panties pulling them up snug
and slipped the nightgown over my head. The material was much softer
and sweeter smelling then anything I ever wore. Going to the closet, she
brought out a blue satin and lace robe with matching slippers, helping me
into them. I looked into the mirror and was amazed at my resemblance to
Becky - this was her favorite before bed outfit.
"Wow Tina, this might just work. What do you want to do now, watch
TV or read until bedtime?"
"No, I'm afraid there are a few more things we have to do before bed. I
need to curl your hair, do your nails, and prepare for your makeup in the
morning. I always like to do as much at night as possible, and Jennifer
seems to wake early these days, I suspect she just might not sleep very
well. Here sit down at the makeup table."
First Tina brushed out my hair, which was longish, as it hadn't been cut
since before Becky's death. She parted it several ways experimenting,
cutting a few strands as she went. From a drawer she removed a box of
rollers, and from another a squeeze bottle proceeding to put my hair up on
rollers.
As she started on my hair it felt very strange, but I knew Becky had done
it most every night, almost immediately Tina said, "To help you get in
role, let's talk a while like you are Becky. She wrote to you all the time,
can you talk to me as she might, you know, as if you were she discussing
things with me?"
It was awkward at first, but I had reread all her long letters sent to me the
past three years many times since her death, they were filled with every
day minutia, her likes, dislikes, hopes and plans. I found reading them
brought me closer to her, and mitigated my sense of loss. Soon I was
conversing with Tina and exchanging girl talk as I mentally read between
the lines of Becky's letters.
My hair took almost a hour, as Tina had to redo and snip parts as she went
along saying, "Becky, your hair is great, it's not exactly Becky's shade of
blond, but it's close enough - this will work out perfectly." About
halfway through my hair Tina got a bowl of warm water and had me soak
my hands in it.
I was so busy talking I didn't realize Tina was through with my hair;
suddenly she was trimming cuticles, filing and shaping my fingernails. I
hadn't bothered with them in a week or more (nothing new) and she had
something to work with. As we continued talking, she applied a coat of
primer to my fingernails and started on my toenails, ending up by putting
a cotton stick between each toe and applying a primer coat to them. In
total all twenty of my nails, received primer, two coats of color (cherry
red, Becky's favorite) and a coat of super gloss finish.
Then she started on my face, specifically plucking my eyebrows, looking
at a large picture of Becky's face for guidance, filling them in with light
pencil, which she removed with cream when she was satisfied with the
effect. Then she applied sweet smelling face cream, massaging it in, I told
her how fantastic that felt. Smiling she squirted perfume in my hair,
behind my ears and under my arms and grinning broadly my crouch. All
the while, we chatted, by the time she put a pretty night net over my
curlers, I felt just like I was sure Becky felt after such treatment.
Tina said, "Wait here I want to get you something." I examined my
painted nails and toenails, looking in the mirror I couldn't believe I was
sitting there, I remembered Becky writing often about just this kind of
moment. Tina came back several minutes later with a glass of milk and
another bottle of lotion. She locked the door saying, "Its time for bed
now, get in, and I will give you the surprise I promised." For the first
time I looked at the clock and it was almost ten, where did the three hours
go since I stepped into the tub?
Once I was in bed Tina sat on the side and asked, "Have you ever been
with a woman before? Sexually I mean."
I blushed deeply, but answered truthfully, "No, they don't even give us a
chance to play with ourselves in school!"
"Then just relax, I will tell you what to do, and I hope the way we do it
will reinforce your feminine image too. What we will do is a lot like two
girls might do together."
Lying there with curlers in my head dressed in my sister's nighty, I could
believe her. She slowly unbuttoned her blouse and took off her bra. I
gasped at her inviting breasts, I could see the nipples were hard and I
wished to take them in my mouth.
"Touch them very softly, just like your fingers are feathers." I did as she
sat next to me, even though my hands were quivering and dickey was
pushing my panties out. As I touched her, she touched my nipples
through the soft material. Noticing dickey, she freed him by pulling my
panties down, allowing him to stand straight up. We touched each other's
breasts and she said, "Follow what I do to you as closely as you can, be
very gentle, imagine your hands are mine."
We played follow the leader for almost fifteen minutes, touching with
increasing sureness, and I couldn't believe the delightful sensations her
touches and kisses were causing me. And judging by her quivering and
little moans, for her too.
"Is this how girls feel?" I asked her.
"This is how true lovers feel." She moved and removed her skirt and
panties keeping on her stockings and garter belt, and kneeled over me.
"Yes Becky, see this," spreading her lower lips to revile a tiny finger like
organ hidden within. This is my clit, it's a lot like your dickey, please lick
it and these very lightly, follow the leader, until I have my organism, and I
will be doing the same to your clit, I mean dickey."
I followed her instructions and we did kiss, nip, and lick each other, I
mirrored her every move. Her musk was incredibly erotic, but somehow
dickey behaved and we spent several minutes doing each other, I really
was arousing her - her clit and lips became swollen and quivered at my
touch - and of course I was far beyond overload. At the end she took my
clit fully into her mouth, and I filled it with my seed which she swallowed
saying afterward, "That is so sweet of you to share your love with me
Becky, you are a wonderful sensitive lover." We waited a few minutes
holding each other, she got a washcloth and wiped my face and dickey off
thoroughly, and then powdering it's sleeping form she pulled up the
panties and the nighty down.
Tina gave me a pill, explaining, "This is one of Aunt Jen's sleeping pills,
you might need it as the curlers in your hair will likely keep you awake
until you get used to them." I took the pill and drank the milk while Tina
turned off the light and closed my door.
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Chapter 4 - A Dream
The distance that the dead have gone
Does not at first appear-
Their coming back seems possible
For many an ardent year.
Emily Dickinson (1830-86)
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I have no proof if what I'm about to relate happened in reality, but I firmly
believe that it did. It was the first, but by no means the last time Becky
came to me like this.
***
It was very dark and I couldn't see the clock, my eyes focused on a small
bright spot, which seemed to grow in size until it formed a portal, and
Becky stepped out of it into the room. She sat on the bed, but I couldn't
feel the bed move. 'Becky is that really you?' I thought.
'Yes, it's really me.' Becky's voice said in my head. 'This is a
wonderful unselfish thing you are doing Nicholas, we are proud of you
here.'
'You mean you can see us. Great God, you saw what we did just did?'
'Yes, and it was pretty nice wasn't it?' She said with a smile.
'You guys did that too?'
'No silly, but it's right for you two.'
'I hope it is, it's the most wonderful thing that ever happened to me, you
know how much I love her. How are you doing, I've missed you
terribly.'
'It's nice here; our real mom, Alicia, and dad are all here together. Don't
worry about doing things with Tina, what you did wasn't bad, in fact it is
necessary if you are to take my place. If all goes well I will live in your
body beside you.'
'That would be great, but doesn't dad think I'm weird doing this?'
Dad stepped through the portal with a woman I don't ever remember
meeting, but I knew was my mom from pictures.
'Son, both mom and I are proud of you, impersonate Becky as well as
you can and Aunt Jen will get well, and by then you may be surprised as
well.' They all stepped back into the portal before I could say anything.
***
I went back to sleep feeling very warm inside, and if it were a dream, I
remember every detail perfectly, even decades later as I write this.
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Chapter 5 - Sweet Metamorphoses
Being a sex symbol has to do with an attitude, not looks.
Most men think it's looks, most women know otherwise.
Kathleen Turner (b. 1956)
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I woke in the morning to Tina's smiling face saying, "Rise and shine
sleepyhead. Ms. Becky the world awaits your debut."
I glanced at the clock as I swung my feet over the side of the bed, it was
five o'clock, and Tina put Becky's slightly elevated slippers on my feet. I
lifted up her face and asked, "May I kiss you darling Christine?"
She smiled and said, "Yes after you brush your teeth and have your
makeup on, I will show you how girls in love kiss.
Do you still want to go through with this? I don't want to force you."
"Yes, let's do it."
I started to do the necessary.
Tina looked in and said, "From now on sit down when you do that, and in
some dresses I might have to help you."
I looked at her quizzically but she didn't elaborate, then I showered with a
large puffy shower cap on and brushed my teeth.
Out of the shower, Tina patted me dry and powdered me, and I put
Becky's robe back on. Back in the bedroom, I sat at the makeup table and
Tina tied a bib around my neck.
"Today I will do it all for you and explain every step as I go, remember
it's taken me years to perfect the techniques, but you will learn quickly if
you practice in your spare time.
Becky, this is foundation. This particular selection is extremely sheer, as
your skin is already very good; it will just make it look a little smoother.
This powder will set the foundation and absorb any excess oil in your
skin. Feel your cheek, now feel my cheek... see just the same." Dickey
leaped to attention. Noticing Tina smiled.
"I like to do my eyes next, for daytime makeup it's fast, two minutes or
so, but evening makeup can take upwards fifteen minutes.
For daytime, I skip the eyeliner steps. Now a light eye shadow, a pastel
blue looks nice on you. Look; see how I feather it so it blends in.
Add a little mascara. Now you have to stop blinking every time I
approach your eye with the brush! Use some willpower I won't hurt you!
There, that's much better; you will be doing this yourself in no time.
Notice the color is light brown, but see how it brings out your lashes,
which by the way are beautiful and totally wasted on a boy.
Now I'll bring out your eyebrows with this pencil, see, I did get it right
the first time.
Personally, I always use a long lasting lip liner, that way I can apply my
lipstick the rest of the day without worrying about exactly hitting the edges
when I touch it up. This is an important step and is almost an art. Your
lips need to be a tad fuller so put a dot here, then one here and on the other
side, connect them using a smooth arcs like so, the same with the lower
lip - like so. Now you fill in the color, like so, using a conventional thin
lipstick." She filled in my lips, "now purse them like so and the first
application in the morning blot and color again. Ok, I like to wait a minute
or so before blotting the second time, doesn't it feel creamy and yummy?
I love lipstick. That's about it except for the blush, it highlights the
cheekbones, but yours are already very good, so just a little like so.
Blend it with a tissue, now blot your lipstick like so. That's excellent,
look at the result." Becky looked back at me from the mirror; I had to
stick my tongue out to be sure it was I.
Tina handed me an eight by ten of Becky explaining, "The cosmetologists
at Jennifer's Ravlon subsidiary selected Becky's basic makeup and gave
her photos of each for day, evening and formal. This picture is a mirror
image, just as you see yourself in the mirror." I moved up close to the
mirror and the resemblance was unsettling. "It is especially important
your make up is perfect, as cosmetics are one of the cornerstones of the
companies business, Aunt Jen was quite particular about that for you
girls, and herself before her illness.
Now I'll let your hair out." Tina removed the rollers and fiddled with it,
frowning slightly, "We have to get you to a hairdresser soon, the color
isn't quite right and it needs a professional perm."
"Hey, can we reverse all this when I have to go to school next week?"
"Sure, and besides nobody pays that much attention to the color of a boy's
hair." I sure as heck didn't.
"Now lets get you dressed." I noticed on the bench at the foot of the bed
several undies laid out. I took off my robe. "Lets get your cinch on,
don't frown, besides nipping your waist it will remind you to sit straight,
you need the reminder, you were slouching at the makeup table. Just
imagine I'm hugging you, giving you a gentle reminder that you are
Becky now, and that you must sit up straight. Don't worry we will work
on one thing at a time, the real Becky tended to slouch a little too. Just
remember how straight my posture is, and emulate it. You like the way I
look don't you?"
"God yes, you are gorgeous."
"Well, good posture is one of the reasons I project that impression."
Dickey was at attention, Tina kissed me lightly on the ear, and whispered,
"I will help you with that in a minute, it mustn't show in your dress."
After last night, I wasn't embarrassed at all, just hopeful. "Put your
stockings on now, bunch them like you have seen Becky do and slip them
on." After two tries for each leg, I got them on and fastened the garters; I
stepped back into the slippers and put on a bra, with Tina fastening it for
me. The sheer stockings felt strange, nice strange; I smoothed them - very
nice strange.
"Becky most girls don't wear stockings these days, in fact they wear pants
and not skirts, but I like to wear stockings and skirts. I find they make me
feel so much more feminine, besides Jennifer preferred you girls dressed
this way, at least at home." I knew Becky had mixed feelings about this;
on the one hand, she liked how she looked in skirts, on the other she
wanted to fit in with her friends. "Come into the bathroom with me."
Standing before the mirrored wall Tina said, "Look at yourself dear, sexy
aren't you, just imagine we are two girls in love, now for your kiss."
Carefully, slowly our lips touched, I know I felt a spark of electricity. We
remained like that for a minute, our lips lightly engaged, and our tongues
gently probing each other seductively, our hands roving.
"What I want you to do now is to touch your breasts lightly through your
bra, use your nails and finger tips, remember last night? Imagine I am
doing yours and you are doing mine, look at your painted nails tweaking
your titties through the bra, now look at how sexy you are." Dickey was
quivering, Tina stood behind me, and reached around to run her nails
lightly up and down dickey, I molded myself to her moaning with
pleasure. She put some fine lotion on dickey, it was terribly erotic to
watch her small hands stroking dickey while I was dressed in Becky's
undies, imagining Tina's hands loving my nipples through Becky's bra.
After a minute of ecstasy dickey erupted, as I kneaded my breasts and
nipples Tina continued milking until the last of my seed was ejected
splattering on the mirror.
I leaned back into her and she wrapped her arms around me, I gasped "My
god Tina, where did you learn to do that."
After our breathing slowed down she said, "Someday I'll tell you, but
right now you must get dressed."
Back in the room, I stepped into panties and a full slip, followed by an
amber plaid dress with a full skirt short puff sleeves.
Tina zipped it for me saying, "This was Becky's favorite day dress, do a
twirl, and model it for me." Laughing, I did as asked before the full-
length mirror. "Now curtsey, like this, again." We did it together several
times until I got it right. "Let me help you with your shoes." I lifted one
foot at a time and she put pumps with two-inch heels in a matching color
on my feet. "Perfect, let me see a curtsey now, it feels a little different in
heels, doesn't it." She said smiling.
Next came a necklace with a delicate gold and emerald cross.
I said, "I remember the Christmas two years ago that Aunt Jen gave this to
Becky, she loved it and wore it all the time." A dozen or so thin gold
bracelets on my left and a watch on my right wrist, followed by little gold
and emerald clip on earrings.
"Oh Becky that's just perfect, lets go down to the kitchen and get Aunt
Jen's breakfast tray."
"Yikes, I just thought, what will everyone else say?"
"I've told them you are Becky, and the word of your death was
premature. Only Mr. and Mrs. Hammer know, and they are fully behind
this plot."
When I went downstairs everyone called me Becky with not a single
strange glance, only Chef Robert smiled, and said, "We are still the best
chef's in the house - eh," with a big wink.
There were no flowers on the tray, so I walked out to the greenhouse for
some roses and baby breath. The breeze rustling my skirt was a strange
feeling, pleasant, but at the same time, I felt very exposed. I remembered
Becky explaining the feeling to me, but I never really understood it until
now. Back in the kitchen, I brought the flower-adorned tray upstairs.
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Chapter 6 - Change of Heart
It appears I am destined for something;
I will live.
Robert Clive (1725-74)
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Tina knocked on the door to Jennifer's suite, opened it for me, and I went
in alone to see Aunt Jen. She was in her sitting room near the windows,
slouched in a ladies armchair. Several lamps and track lights were on, but
the bright early morning sunlight streaming in deepened the shadows, the
double doors to her bedroom were open and I could see her bed was
unmade. I don't really know what I expected her to say, but a matter of
fact "Put the tray down over there." wasn't it.
I put the tray down on a table several feet from her and waited. While I
was bringing up the tray I though of what I should say, and I had what I
hoped was a good idea, but the ball was in her court now.
Then she looked at me carefully, "Is this some kind of a not so funny
joke?"
The real Becky called her Jennifer, and I always called her Aunt Jen, "No
Jennifer, its an attempt to salvage both our lives." I said seriously.
"Both our lives?"
"Yes, I really need you. I'm easily just as depressed as you are." I
walked into her bedroom and opened her night table draw and took the
gun out saying, "I've thought about this too, and if you were gone, well I
just don't know."
"That isn't here for that, I was worried about burglars."
I just looked at her for a full minute, I hoped just like Becky looked at me
when I tried to pull a fast one on her. Finally, Jennifer said, "I shouldn't
lie to you either, should I?"
"I don't think we can successfully lie to each other."
"Why are you dressed like this?"
"Seeing Becky in the mirror gives me hope and relives my despondency
over loosing her and Dad. If you let me I can fill a void in your life too, it
was quite clear yesterday Nicholas couldn't."
That exaggerated the case for me, as I was handling my grief pretty well,
and while I did enjoy seeing Becky in the mirror - especially after the joy
of last night's visit - I had been getting along just fine without dressing
like her.
"I'm sorry I gave you that impression dear." She looked like she wanted
to say something, so I waited for her to complete her thought, after a good
minute she continued, "but you're probably right. You look amazingly
like Becky, come closer, and let me see you.
I put the gun away, laughing like Becky would, and I twirled toward her
ending up in front of her curtseying. I held it until she said, "Amazing,
the resemblance is uncanny."
"You may not believe this but Becky, daddy and my real mom appeared to
me in a dream last night and said I definitely should do this. Becky said
this would give her, as well as you, another chance at life."
"Sounds like wishful thinking to me." Aunt Jen said with a frown.
"Maybe, but its undeniable that I feel a hundred percent better this
morning." Remembering Becky's pragmatism, I moved her breakfast tray
to the table next to her saying, "Heck Jennifer, while you finish your
breakfast I'll tell you what happened in Paris while I was there."
I'm sure in spite of her rational mind's objections, Jennifer just smiled at
me as she picked up a piece of toast, "Ok, if you insist."
The last letter I received from Becky was posted hours before they were
all killed - it was over thirty pages long. "The weather was great and we
walked just about everywhere. Alexis and daddy have been here
hundreds of times - you have too, haven't you?"
"Not hundreds dear, just forty or fifty - and once was on my
honeymoon." She said and sipped her orange juice.
"Well we saw all the tourist things, like the Eiffel tower the Louvre and
scads more...."
I continued for almost a half-hour, long after Jennifer had finished her
tray. She looked animated quizzing me, like her old self. I had read all
the books available on Paris in the school library in anticipation of my
own trip in addition to Becky's letters, so she didn't stump me once.
Finally I asked, "May I call down for some breakfast myself, I came up
here without eating."
"Yes dear, by all means do. If you don't mind I would like some more
toast, and the fresh mixed fruit was particularly good this morning,
perhaps some coffee, I haven't had any in ages."
I called the kitchen and ordered for Jennifer, and what Becky would have
ordered, not the bacon, eggs and hash brown potatoes waiting on the
stove that I was dying for.
Jennifer looked at me sharply, "You brought me roses, atoning in advance
for a lie?"
"No atonement, I just thought your breakfast tray looked drab without
them." I held out my hands, "See, I haven't lost my touch, not one thorn
prick. I may be skirting reality a bit, but we both know what I am doing -
and it is working for me, and for you, isn't it?"
"Yes. Yes it is!"
"While we are waiting, I didn't know your honeymoon was in Paris.
Please tell me about it."
"Frankly I don't like to talk about it dear, the last few years of our
marriage were very difficult for me."
"But your honeymoon wasn't, was it?
"No, but the later years tainted it."
"Nonsense, throw those bitter memories in the trash now, if we are to
survive together, we must forget the bad things and take strength from the
good memories. You don't think I like Alexis one little bit do you. She
really fouled up Nicholas' and my lives, but on the good side daddy loved
her and she really brightened up his life. He is gone now, and I am happy
he enjoyed her while he could. Your life and mine are what we make of it
from this day on."
I was surprised that came out, Becky and I hated boarding school, but
from dad's point of view it wasn't a punishment. He had survived it
himself; he was eight years in the same kind of colorless places we were
put.
"Do you really think that way?"
"Yes, I really do, now tell me about your honeymoon - what did you wear
that first night together?" Whoops, she is staring at my legs, why? You
are wearing a skirt dummy, keep your legs together, and sit up straighter.
A glint of approval registered as I corrected my posture and then her eyes
misted over with memories, "I haven't thought of that in years, it really
was nice you know...."
We talked about everything, remembering Becky's letters I answered from
her point of view whenever possible. I was thinking and talking to
Jennifer as Becky now, not a few times her old sharpness surfaced, and
she asked me questions about math and science. Becky's IQ was high,
but languages were her gift and math and science gave her fits. Becky
couldn't answer Jennifer's questions in a million years - but I decided to.
Sometime during this exchange, a new light came into Jennifer's eye, and
stayed.
My breakfast came with Jennifer's second and both were devoured, and a
few hours later lunch met the same fate. After lunch I said, "This room is
enough to cast gloom in anyone's heart, get dressed and let's blow this
place, then call a interior decorator." It looked fine to me, but that just
came flying out too - then I remembered Becky telling me that she hated
this room's decor.
Jennifer looked around and said, "Your right, but Christ I look like
absolute hell."
I joined her at the mirror, "Nothing that a few good meals and some
exercise won't fix. Look, I'll start your bath and call Tina to help you."
She thought a few seconds, "No Becky, Tina is your friend, I will call
Jody back after the holidays, I gave her paid leave to visit her family in
California. In the meantime I would appreciate you helping me, you are
Becky, aren't you?" She said with a twinkle of amusement in her eye.
Christ, looking at the way she perked up, I guess for now the answer was
definitely yes. Then I remembered the pictures of Jennifer nude on the
beach in Cannes, the ones we had snuck in and looked at as kids, and I
realized it wasn't a big deal for her regardless.
"Absolutely, we are going to be a team together." With that we walked
into the bathroom and she peed while I started her bath, somehow we kept
chatting and I didn't blush - I think.
Remembering how Tina did me, I repeated the procedure for Jennifer's
bath, I found that I enjoyed the process of caring for her in a totally
asexual way, and even while I applied lotion all over her body, dickey
snoozed without a twitch. I was even careful of my dress as Tina had
been of hers last night, and I kept my touch very gentle, as if Jennifer had
thorns.
Jennifer selected an outfit from her vast closet and asked my opinion. I
shook my head saying, "No way, too drab!" After looking, laughing, and
bickering over dozens of candidates, we agreed on a bright cheery red
dress, its print even suggested thanksgiving.
She dressed herself with my helping with the hooks and zipper, and then
she applied her makeup in nothing flat. I realized I had a lot to learn from
this lady, and at the time, I had no real idea of the depth of her intellect and
complexities of personality. I checked myself in the mirror and decided I
needed to touchup my lipstick and had to pee - but not in that order.
She was still shaky from the effective forty day fast, so I held her arm
until she was seated in the downstairs sun porch. It was a clear, cold, and
sunny November day, and the heated glassed in porch was quite pleasant.
Excusing myself, I quickly ran upstairs to my room, Tina was reading,
but she put the book down and came into the bathroom with me. 'Christ
lady, I got to whip it out and pee really bad.' Instead she showed me how
to hike up my slip and skirt forward so as not to let them get wet from the
plumbing and to pull down my panties and hold them with my thighs so
they didn't get wet on the floor.
She admitted, "This floor is so clean that you could eat off it, but you
must practice for public rest rooms, which are often a disgrace."
Then with a big grin, she insisted on holding dickey down for me so he
would squirt into the bowl, while I held my skirt up. She asked me stand
whi