A Second Chance (inc.)
by Pyrite
Friday Morning
I had expected that today was going to be just another day for me
when I had first set out to go to my office. Just the same as every
other day had been in my routine and boring life I thought, as I sat
in the old-fashioned coffee-shop for my now, customary early morning
break. As had become my habit, I had gone into the office first and
then printed out my emails, ready to review the morning's
correspondence, and then come here to do so in an environment more
conducive to my desire. I had recently started coming here because I
found I could cope better with such matters away from the
increasingly oppressive atmosphere of the ultra modern, but soulless,
office from where I ran what was left of the family business. Five
years I had worked there, day after day without a break, and I would
now use any excuse that would get me away from there, and checking
correspondence was one of them.
I paused for a moment as the waitress put the coffee I had ordered
down in front of me, onto the table. Had it really been five years
since my father had passed away when I was fresh out of college at
the age of twenty-three? With his passing and my mother having
already preceded his demise by two years I was all that was left of
the family, therefore I had inherited his business. It had then
naturally fallen to me to either wind it up or to attempt to maintain
it. In my weakness I had chosen the latter option. The logistics and
distribution company I now ran had been my father's pride and joy and
he had spent all of his life building it - how could I be the one to
destroy his dream?
Now though, in hindsight, that might have been the best course of
action for I had known nothing about the area of business that he had
operated in, having majored in the arts in college, nor did I really
want to. The results of my inexperience seemed to speak for
themselves. Having checked the latest performance figures last night,
it seemed that I was slowly running the business into the ground
despite my best efforts to maintain it, and this had been an ongoing
trend for some time. I had seen this coming two years ago but carried
on, more out of habit than anything else, and hoped against hope that
something would happen to turn things around. Now though, it was
almost too late and I could see no way out. I wistfully thought of
the career that I should have followed; one that could utilise the
skills that I had, but what was the point? It was too late for me to
do anything about the 'what might have beens' now.
Doing my best to push these thoughts to the back of my mind I sipped
the black Americano before breaking in half the baguette that had
just been brought to me. Slowly, I took a bite out of it. This would
at least give me a few more moments of escape before going through my
printed list of emails. Any solace this might have given me though
was soon interrupted by a shadow falling across the table.
"Excuse me, would you mind very much if I shared this table with
you"?
I looked up and saw that the origin of the shadow, and the alluring
and pleasant voice that accompanied it, was a rather pretty young
girl. At first sight there was several pleasing aspects to her. She
had long brunette hair that settled atop a pair of firm and average-
sized breasts. Her body looked well kept and trim and her face,
although hardly spectacular, held a natural beauty. In all, I found
the whole package very attractive.
"N..no, not at all!" I managed to get out as I wondered what good
fortune had brought this girl to my table.
It was then that I looked around the coffee shop and saw that there
were plenty of other tables that were free. Why had she come to mine
- it didn't make any sense? She must have read the look of puzzlement
on my face as I turned back towards her, because she held one hand
out to me and spoke quickly as if to allay any questions I might
have.
"Emma, Emma Woodley" she said as I lifted my own hand and returned
her greeting, not knowing what else to do.
"Martin, Martin Kent".
"Oh, nice name - Kent as in Clarke"?
"No, as in the county, twenty miles south east from London" I
answered, possibly a little too tersely for she pulled back a
fraction.
In truth, having got over the surprise of her appearance somewhat,
whether I had offended her or not really didn't bother me as I felt
she was being way too forward and presumptuous with regards to my
acceptance of her presence here. As if sensing my sudden change of
mood she felt inside of her bag and produced a small, round, watch
like device that I immediately recognised. As she held it up to me I
could also see that it had a flashing green light emitting from its
centre, as well as bleeping quietly.
"I was just passing outside when this went off so I thought that I'd
come inside and take a look. This is only the second time that this
has happened to me and the first time - well, let's just say that he
wasn't suitable".
The sight of her device made my blood run cold for a moment as a host
of forgotten memories came flooding back to the forefront of my mind.
Most of these, once again, returned to the period of depression that
I went through, two years ago. Without thinking I undid the top
button of my shirt and reached down inside of it, retrieving an
identical device whose design matched that of the girl's. I was not
surprised when I saw that my own device was also flashing but this
time with an orange light, confirming that it was me whom Emma had
linked into.
"I..I'd forgotten that I still had this thing. It's been over two
years since I joined the programme and you're the first person that's
ever approached me in all that time" I said, still stunned at this
turn of events.
We then both fell silent, neither of us seemingly knowing how to
proceed and I wasn't really sure that I wanted to proceed at all -
this was all so unexpected! In fact the implications of Emma's
appearance were only just beginning to sink in for me and I felt a
nervous contraction within my stomach, and my head became slightly
dizzy, as I thought about where this might lead. Eventually, Emma
broke the awkward silence.
"So, are we going to discuss this then, or is there a problem"?
I waited before answering her, as a waitress brought Emma's coffee,
and watched her every movement with a morbid fascination as she
accepted it gratefully. That brief respite though was soon over and
she turned her eyes back towards me, expecting a response.
"No - no, it's nothing like that at all" I answered rather too
quickly, "it's just that this..this is all so unexpected!" I said,
repeating my own thoughts as I turned my device over in my hands and
looked at it again.
"Look, I can understand you being surprised I suppose, but I checked
quickly before I approached you and you are still recorded as being
active. Has something changed"?
"Yes - no, oh I don't know - look I'm sorry. You'll have to forgive
me. I'm not quite at my best at the moment. I..I had forgotten all
about this so I suppose I must be active by default" I stammered out
ineffectually.
Even as I was answering though, her last question was reverberating
through my mind. Has something changed, she had said? Well I suppose
that a lot should had changed since I had signed up for the SCi
programme two years ago, searching for an escape from the failing
business and my own frustrations. I would have considered anything
that might have helped me escape from that situation and I thought
that the SCi programme might be the thing to do so. Up to now though,
I had never had any contact as a result of SCi, at all. Eventually, I
emerged from my depression without their help but even now had still
only progressed to the alternating mind numbing tedium and constant
pressure that constituted my current lifestyle. What had really
changed? Nothing - zilch - zero!
Did I still want to escape, though?
The fact that I could not instantly state the wasn't the case left me
wide open to the possibility that this might still be an option.
Maybe the fact that I had forgotten to opt out of the SCi programme
was a blessing in disguise and Emma's appearance might prove to be
fortuitous, but then that would mean? no, might I even dare to
contemplate such a thing?
Before my confusion hit overdrive though, Emma stood and handed me a
metallic card with the SCi logo emblazoned over it.
"Look, I can see that you need some time to think this through.
You'll do that better on your own. If you take this you can check out
all my details and then maybe, we could meet here again at the same
time tomorrow. Maybe then you'll feel more like making a decision.
How does that suit you"?
"Er, okay - sure" I answered, taking her card and putting it in my
jacket pocket.
"And I presume that you've still got your own card?" she asked
gently, coaxing me, as she stood her ground, all too aware of my
uncertainty and apparent bewilderment.
Embarrassed, I fumbled inside of my wallet and passed her my own
card, identical to her own, and offered up another set of apologies
which she quickly rebuffed.
"Thank you. If you're not here tomorrow I'll assume that you're not
interested and will mail this back to you" she said and then turned
to leave, smiling at me once more as she walked away.
I was spellbound as I looked at her shapely form and studied her
movements as she made her way to the door. The way that her hips
swayed and moved in time with her upper body was almost lyrical. I
wondered whether such a thing came naturally to a woman, or whether
it was learnt? An abstract part of me acknowledged that if I struck a
bargain with Emma then I might find out for myself and I knew then
that could I not deny that at least a part of me was, as Emma put it,
interested.
After she had gone I tried to put her to the back of my mind for a
while and dutifully attended to the correspondence I had brought with
me. I slowly waded through the pile but stopped after fifteen or
twenty minutes when I realised that I could not remember a single
thing about anything I had done in that time, and decided to give up
and return to my office. That proved to be no better though and I
soon found myself logging in to the SCi site with the card that Emma
had given me, and going through her life details.
* * * * * * *
Saturday Morning
I was already awake when daylight broke, having spent an interminable
night tossing and turning and considering my options, and was
grateful for the refreshing shower that helped to wash away my
tiredness. It did nothing to ease my uncertainty however, even though
I had spent all night reviewing Emma's life details. After a quick
breakfast I set off for the coffee bar, knowing that I had to see
Emma again, whatever the outcome. It was the first time that I had
been there on a Saturday, with the coffee bar being situated in a
predominately working district, and as I entered I noted that there
was only one other person in there apart from Emma,.
"So, you came then - does that mean you've consented?" she asked me
as I sat down opposite her.
She looked even better than she had yesterday, wearing an ultra short
skirt and a tight fitting top. This however, merely served to unnerve
me even further which was, I am sure, not the desired effect on her
part. I didn't answer her immediately for in truth, I didn't know the
answer, and tried to keep myself calm as I ordered a coffee.
Eventually, I turned to face her.
"I suppose if I'm here then it means that I'm at least considering
it. To be honest, having been through your details last night, I
can't imagine what you see in me to even consider me as a partner in
this venture, or why you're even in the programme"!
I had learnt was that she was the only daughter of the chairman of
one of the top family owned companies in the country and must have
been extremely wealthy in her own right.
"I'm an individual, the same as you" she answered me, her voice
carrying a hint of upset and irritation. "Why does anyone join the
programme"?
"Look, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to offend you. It was just puzzling
me, that's all. You and me - we certainly make an unlikely couple.
Besides, I'm not really sure that it's what I want"!
Her look of irritation quickly changed to one of disappointment but
she soon recovered, treating my feelings solicitously as if I might
run like a frightened rabbit.
"I see. Well I don't want to force you to do anything that you're
uncomfortable with so I have a proposition for you. I know that it's
unusual but what would you think if I suggested that we have a trial
run - no strings attached - for say, maybe the rest of the weekend.
That way if you still feel uncomfortable with the idea when Monday
arrives we can cancel the whole thing, as if nothing had ever
happened. That way, we can both still at least get something out of
this contact and will, I'm sure, benefit by the experience. What do
you think"?
Think - what did I think? I looked at Emma and thought about what it
might be like to run my hands across her soft skin, to feel her
breasts and caress the gently sloping curve of her behind. I felt my
heart flutter with excitement and knew that no true man, whatever his
preference, could turn down such an offer and not live to regret it.
After a long pause, during which Emma did her best to hide her
impatience, I finally answered her.
"I think Emma, that you have yourself a deal. I need to know though,
how can I trust you - how do I know you'll keep your word if I feel
unhappy about our arrangement when Monday arrives"?
She said nothing at first as she took out her SCi device and, with a
small pencil shaped pointer, entered a code and then showed me the
small screen which bleeped an acknowledgement.
"Okay, and if you'll look at yours then you'll see that it now reads
the same".
I took my own device from around my neck and saw that it did.
"There - that's logged the terms of our trial with SCi so they can
always intervene if you have a problem, or think that I'm trying to
pull a scam".
"Okay then - I believe you. So when do we do it then?" I asked her,
feeling momentarily ashamed for having questioned her integrity, but
I have always been of a cautious nature.
She reached across the table and held onto me with her left hand and
with her other reached into her handbag and brought out a large metal
cigar shaped object.
"How about now. The sooner we do it then the more time we have to
find out whether this is going to work or not".
Taking a deep breath I thought about it for a moment and then nodded
my acceptance. I felt my heart skip a beat as she slid the metal tube
onto my index finger and then inserted her own from the other side to
meet mine. I watched her press an assortment of buttons on the top of
the tube as she smiled and suddenly, experienced a drawing sensation
before everything started spinning and I felt myself about to black
out. Before that happened though, the world started to settle again
and as things fell into focus I saw the same smile that I had seen
just a few moments earlier. This time though, it was somewhat
different being on another's face - my own!
"Phew! That was some trip, eh! What a buzz".
I swallowed deeply, mentally searching my body for a sign that I was
now who I knew I must be, but my senses were in turmoil and I
couldn't trust anything they told me. Instead, I just looked at
myself and feebly uttered the only thing I could think of".
"Emma - is that you"?
It was strange to see the face I had been used to seeing every single
day of my life staring back at me from a mirror, from this new
perspective. Maybe it was the fact that a mirror reverses an image
and that I was seeing myself as others have seen me for the first
time, but there was something different about the way I looked, I
thought.
"It is but maybe it's better if you don't call me that anymore. My
name's Martin now and you'd better use that name, at least for now,
and I'll start calling you Emma".
The calm and casual way that she had said this shocked me but I tried
to calm down a little, not wanting to be labelled as a hysterical
woman in the first few moments of my new acquired female existence. I
took a deep breath as I had done already so many times today, and
tried to compose myself.
"Okay, I suppose that makes sense, but it's my soul - my still very
male soul - that's here in this female body of yours, so you'll
forgive me if I slip up occasionally. This is going to be an effort..
it'll take some getting used to".
"Don't take too long though, we don't want to cause any complications
for ourselves".
"I know, but it..this all seems so strange. It's all happened so
fast"!
I could tell that Emma, I continued to think of her as a 'her'
despite what she had said, wasn't having the same problems with this
as I was. She seemed to be ignoring me almost, as she flexed her arms
experimentally, whereas I hadn't even looked at the body I was in,
yet. I was still in shock at seeing my own body under somebody else's
control - it was so confusing!
"Yes - it does feel strange. I can feel the power of being a man
already, really feel it, even though you could hardly call this body
strong".
I felt myself prickle at what I saw as her implied criticism of my
body but shook that aside quickly. Suddenly, I wanted to get away
somewhere - somewhere where I could be on my own.
"So what? what happens now?" I said, looking down at my own inherited
body for the first time.
It felt so strange to be looking down at Emma's - my - breasts from
this angle. They looked even bigger than they had seemed before and I
became so focussed on them that I almost missed what Emma was saying.
"Here - take this card back, the one I gave you yesterday. You've
already looked at it so you'll know that it contains everything
you'll ever need to know about me and my life. It shouldn't take you
too long to learn enough about me to get by".
As I took the offered card I watched numbly as she reached inside of
the handbag she had left on the table and took out the card that I
had given to her yesterday. Of course, she would need it for the same
reason that I needed Emma's. She then took a piece of paper and wrote
something on it before handing it to me.
"That's the address of the hotel where I've been staying. It's
already paid up for another four days so you don't have to worry
about a thing. All meals and drinks are included".
"Oh, thanks" I answered, feeling numb once again at the speed of
events.
It seemed that Emma had thought of everything.
"Okay then, I'll be going now. I want to find out all about you and
what it's like to be a man in a man's world" she said, and leant
across to kiss me, platonically, on the cheek.
"Don't forget, ten o'clock Monday - prompt!" was all I could think of
to say, trying to sound decisive but my voice only sounded 'squeaky',
and I watched, what had only minutes ago been, my own body walk out
of the coffee bar.
* * * * * * *
I sat in the coffee bar for what seemed like hours, cradling the
half-empty coffee cup that Emma had ordered earlier, but in reality
it could have been no longer than a few minutes. As I held the coffee
cup I found myself sipping at it automatically, as I wondered what I
should do next. As soon as I became aware of what I was doing though,
and looked at the lipstick stains that adorned the cups edge, I
experienced a feeling of extreme revulsion as I realised that someone
else's - Emma's - mouth had already been there. I knew that my
feelings were illogical as the lips that had left the imprint were
now the very same ones that I now controlled, but I couldn't shrug
away that first feeling and put the cup down on the table.
I decided that I wanted to get away from here and managed to pluck up
the courage to try standing in the heels that Emma had put on this
morning. I'd have preferred her to have worn something more
manageable to make things easier for me, but I suppose that never
occurred to her. As I raised myself and made to take a step, I
expected to go crashing to the floor but surprisingly enough, had no
problems at all. I then remembered the claims of the SCi process.
According to them the SCi device transferred all of your life
experiences and memory, along with your soul, to the new body, but
the host body retained all of its low level subliminal 'body'
memories to allow it function normally. Without these the 'new owner'
would be virtually useless and in an almost baby like state until it
could learn how to co-ordinate its new body properly. Well, it seemed
as if they hadn't been exaggerating because I was soon walking and
swaying my hips as well as any woman born, and I quickly made my way
to the Ladies restroom. I had already decided that my first action as
a woman would be to go to that most hallowed of female sanctuaries. I
had always wanted to know what it was like in there and now seemed as
good as time as any to find out.
I entered the restroom with a feeling of anticipation but that soon
faded and as I looked around, all I felt was disappointment. Apart
from having a couple of different dispensers hanging from the wall,
and the lack of any urinals, it was no different really from the
Men's room. True, the mirror was larger and better lit than its male
counterpart, and it seemed generally to be more designed to make you
feel comfortable, but that was it. These observations were minor
though, in comparison to what stared back at me from the large mirror
as I started to appreciate Emma's body all over again. Could that
gorgeous reflection really be me or was this all some fevered
hallucination?
Of course, intellectually I knew there was only one answer to that
question but intellect is only a part of the mix that makes us human,
and the emotional side of me demanded physical proof. Still watching
my reflection, and feeling almost voyeuristic as I did so, I felt
across the front of this woman's chest and gently squeezed her
breasts. It was completely unreal, watching this girl feeling herself
up and at the same time experiencing the resulting sensations from
within my own body. The more I did so however, then the more I came
to accept it as fact and I began to acknowledge the girl in the
mirror as myself, or at least as the possessor of this body. Once
that initial hurdle had been overcome I tried to analyse what it was
that I was feeling. As a man I would have become incredibly aroused
to be doing to a female body what I was now doing to myself. My
actions though, were not sexual in nature, they were more curiosity,
and the reality was that it wasn't unpleasant though neither was it
particularly nice. It was just some extra flesh moving around where I
hadn't been used to having any before and was about as erotic as if I
had fondling, as a man, my flaccid, unaroused penis.
Maybe there wasn't such a difference between what men and women feel
after all, I thought to myself!
Feeling a little bolder now, following my initial foray into this
previously unknown territory, I started to hike up the skirt I was
wearing, lost in the moment and forgetting where I was. I was quickly
reminded though as I heard the sound of footsteps approaching and I
could hardly stop myself from gasping as I saw a woman entering.
Irrationally I suppose, I felt a mild sense of panic at sharing such
an intimate room with a female and only just managed to smooth the
skirt back down in place just before she saw me. I felt myself flush
and as soon as I saw her enter one of the cubicles I made a quick
exit, deciding to wait until I could get a little more privacy before
I went any further with my explorations.
* * * * * * *
Friday Afternoon
Once out of the coffee shop I found that Emma had left me plenty of
money in her purse, and decided I would take a taxi to the hotel
where she was staying and try and make some sort of plan for the
weekend. I had to get myself organised and that seemed the best place
to start. The trip across town gave me a chance to reflect on Second
Chance inc. and what I had signed up for. I seemed incredible that it
had only been seven years since they had started up as a business.
Such had been the impact of their arrival on the worlds' culture that
it seemed far longer than that!
There had been general disbelief at first when the nameless founders
of SCi announced that they had made an amazing discovery, one that
allowed two consenting adults to transfer memories and whatever it
was that constituted the soul, between each other. In other words,
they had invented a genuine body swapping device. SCi have always
vehemently refused to reveal how the exchange was facilitated, and
that remains so to this day, other than it was biologically triggered
and that it needed two people to make it work. There was certainly no
upload and downloading of memories into a machine and then making a
transfer - nothing like that. It needed two honest to goodness human
bodies linked it via their central nervous system else nothing
happened.
I thought back to the first version of the Sci device that was
revealed to the public. It had been the size a desktop PC but this
had been trimmed down to the cigar shaped tube device like that which
Emma had used with me, within four months of the first public
release.
Initial demonstrations of the device did nothing to convince the
sceptics who insisted it was all an elaborate scam, claiming that the
individuals used to test the device were all SCi employee. This, and
their early refusal to allow anyone outside of the pilot programme
team access to the device, reinforced the doubters claims. Disbelief
though, soon changed to first incredulity and then acceptance after
one of the older male sceptics from the science community, a
professor Otten, exchanged bodies with a popular female model of the
day live on national television. Despite the ensuing scandal as the
former male tried to later abscond with his pert, young body before
being forcibly returned to his own, there was an overwhelming demand
from a large part of the population. Once fully established, entrance
to the SCi programme became a much sought after item.
Initially there had been teething problems but these were of a social
nature rather than anything technical. For instance, the number of
men who wanted to exchange bodies with women outnumbered them by a
ratio of ten to one. This was possibly because it seemed as if there
were more men who had the money to afford the exorbitant sign-up fee
than women. Equally possible was that there were more men interested
in becoming girls for some reason, than the other way around.
Whatever the reason, that was the way it was and it led to female
programme members being constantly harassed by men, desperate to have
their bodies. To get around this problem SCi introduced an
identification device for all programme participants. It worked on
the basis of a small local transmitter that would indicate when a
fellow participant was within spitting distance, approximately twenty
feet.
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It operated as a two tier system whereby females could identify
likely male and female exchange candidates but men could only
identify other males and would have to wait for a female to approach
them and offer a body swap. That was why Emma had been able to detect
my device, but I was unaware of hers until she approached me.
That wasn't the end of the problems though for soon after the
inception of the programme there followed all sorts of legal issues
about who owned what once a body swap had taken place following a
couple of high profile lawsuits, not to mention religious protests.
These were dealt with swiftly though, too swiftly in some peoples
minds. The religious protests quickly died a death due to a general
lack of interest, the church holding little influence, and a ruling
that stated the body would retain any assets, debts and anything else
that the original owner had acquired, came into law. It was not
universally popular but generally accepted. Of course, this required
that people knew the full background of whoever's life they were
taking over before they changed, but even that didn't totally
eradicate the protests.
There were soon claims that the impossibly high sign up fees, for
most people, were a violation of human rights, and that it was every
human's right to have a second chance in another's body. For my own
part, I had only managed to afford it as a result of the life
insurance policies that I had inherited along with my father's
business, else I could not even have entertained the idea.
"Lady, we're here now".
The cab driver announcing our arrival caused me to snap out of my
daydream.
I was a little taken aback at being referred to as 'lady', but that
didn't last as I looked at the hotel where we had stopped. It was one
of the most expensive in town. I paid the driver, giving him a
generous tip before letting myself out, and walked nervously into the
hotel lobby.
"Hello Miss Woodley, I trust you are well" one of the doormen said to
me as he went to summon lift.
I wasn't too sure how to answer at first. Did he expect me to answer
him by name - just how well did Emma know him? I soon found out that
one of the advantages of being a pretty young woman is that it didn't
really matter. A simple smile and a 'fine, thank you' was more than
enough to keep him happy and I was soon taking the lift up to the
fourth floor where her room was situated. I closed the door behind me
and sighed with relief. I couldn't believe that I had travelled half
way across London wearing a short skirt and heels, and that nobody
had noticed anything unusual. I think I would have laughed out loud,
hysterically, if I hadn't been concentrating so hard on stopping my
legs from shaking.
There were only two thoughts going through my mind now as I
recovered. The first was the obvious one; the one I had been
interrupted with in the Ladies restroom, earlier, when I had been
about to explore what was now lay between my legs. The second was my
continued puzzlement about why Emma had chosen to trade bodies with
me. My thoughts regarding SCi during the taxi ride had brought it to
the forefront of my mind again. Sure, I knew that I wasn't bad
looking or anything, but I was hardly hunk of the month, either.
Moreover, I knew that she must have, by now, examined the details on
my own card and seen that I was facing slow, but sure, financial
ruin.
Unbelievingly enough, that second question was now the most prominent
and I found myself taking out her card once again, and inserting it
into the terminal on the wall. It took only a second before the
screen kicked into life and as with the first time, a hologram of her
body appeared in front of me, slowly rotating so that I could see her
from almost every angle. Despite the fact that it was me that now
possessed that body I could still appreciate the natural beauty being
displayed but this time it was the series of facts depicting her
status and life history scrolling alongside her that I was more
interested in. I could look at her real body now, anytime I wanted,
and in more interesting ways than any hologram could show. This time
I paid much more attention to her life history, noting that at
eighteen, she was the youngest child of a wealthy family, having one
elder brother, Thomas. Further details revealed that she had been
well educated at a private school and, as I had suspected, was
independently wealthy.
Wow, she seemed to have it all! I ran my hands down my body as I
continued to read the ever growing list of details and then chose the
print option so I could read it all again, more comfortably, and at
my leisure. As I skimmed her details again I began to feel a growing
concern. For the life of me, I couldn't understand why she had joined
the SCi programme or why she was seemingly prepared to give up
everything she had just to become a 'soon to be' impoverished male.
It just didn't make sense! Maybe she was just using the trial as an
excuse to see what it was like to be a man and was intending to
change back to herself when Monday arrived, anyway. Yeah - it must be
that. With her money she could afford to enter the programme again
and then choose someone more successful than me and more to her
liking. That I could at least understand.
Convincing myself that this must be what she was planning put my mind
at rest a little, although I still had a few nagging doubts. I forgot
about these though, as my attention came back to the body I now
possessed. I went to the full length mirror inside the bathroom and
stared at myself again. What must it be like to actually be Emma
Woodley, to really be a woman, I asked myself?
I looked at the skirt that I was wearing and remembered the unashamed
stares from men that I had attracted, when I had been outside. I was
well aware of them examining my body, not caring whether I was aware
of what they were doing or not, and in all honesty I would have
probably done the same had I been in their position. After all, it
was an extremely attractive body. I knew though that this was just a
small part of what it might mean to be a girl and something inside of
me was scared of finding out what else I might discover. My first
instincts were that I couldn't really imagine spending the rest of my
life as a female having to go through that, and I knew that I would
have turned Emma's proposition down flat without the option of a
trial period first. Why was I being so negative though!
Trying to change my mood I tried smiling at myself and then turning
my body to one side to admire the curve of Emma's behind - my behind.
I addressed my concerns by restating that this was just a trial after
all, and it would need my positive consent to make this arrangement
permanent. For now though I had access to a large amount of money, a
beautiful body and the rest of the weekend to see how the other half
lived.
I lifted my smooth and refined hand and pulled the top over my head,
exposing the bra and the firm breasts that I had played with earlier.
Removing the bra I stroked my nipples gently and noticed the
difference from when I had done this earlier, in the restroom. - this
time they felt incredibly firm and sensitive. I started to become
aware of other parts of my body responding in kind and smiled once
again, watching myself in the mirror as I did so.
"Who knows - I might even get to enjoy this" I said to myself as I
started removing the rest of the clothes Emma had put on this
morning.
I had done enough thinking for one day and wanted to find out a
little more about the body I had acquired - intimately!
* * * * * * *
Sunday Evening
It had been my first complete day spent as a female and as I sat in
front of the dressing table mirror and looked at myself, I tried to
analyse my thoughts and feelings. What would I say to Emma if he/she
asked me whether I had decided to agree to make the transfer
permanent? How had I truly found my experience as a member of the
opposite sex?
I weighed up the pros and cons, or at the least the ones that I had
managed to discover in the course of a day and a half. I knew that
these could not possibly be representative of the total experience of
what it must be like to live as a female from day to day, but it
would have to do for now - it was all I had. Besides, I already knew
what my answer was going to be but I wanted to mull it over a little
so that I could answer Emma as confidently and in as honest a way as
possible. I still suspected that she was just using the trial to
spend the weekend in a male body, but I didn't want to give offence
by not giving it any thought.
First the pros.
I had to admit that Emma's body was far more sensitive than the one I
had grown up in. The feelings I had gone through when I had caressed
my own aroused breasts, and particularly my nipples, would be
indescribable to a man. I suppose the nearest that I can get to it
would be to compare it to having two miniature erections and the
sensation you get from gently stroking underneath the glans. That
really doesn't do it justice though, not what from I have felt inside
a genuine female body. What makes the sensations that I felt that
extra special and superior to a man's equivalent, is the fact that at
the same time I was playing with my nipples, my clitoris was also
responding and becoming so hyper sensitive to my touch that I almost
hit the roof the first time I tried it. I just hope no one heard me!
Of course, I had also entered myself, feeling inside my body with my
fingers. I had been nervous about doing that but ultimately, found it
impossible to resist, at least once, but the experience was far less
satisfying that playing with my other parts. I had begun to
understand why penetration was not the be all and end all that men
make it out to be.
What else was there? Well, I suppose that it actually feels quite
nice to walk along a street knowing that you look good and that
others appreciate you for doing so, once you get used to being a girl
in public, that is. That's something that a man never really gets.
There is also the fact that a pretty female receives far more
courtesy such as having doors opened for you, chairs pulled back by
waiters, and many other similar occurrences, even in this day and
age. There was also the undeniable freedom of being able to wear
whatever you wanted and having it accepted by all, whether it was a
pretty dress, a pair of trousers or even shorts. Emma had a full
wardrobe with her so I had plenty of choice, although I settled for
wearing either a dress or skirts. I had initially intended to make
myself feel a little more secure and wear trousers, something that I
was used to, but then I thought if I was going to be a female over
the weekend, I should at least try to maximise the experience.
Apart from that though, I really couldn't think of much else.
The list of cons come far more easily to me.
For one thing, although my masturbatory experiments had been
wonderful, I had still wanted to feel the sensations of penetration,
with me being one doing the pentrating! Maybe it was just a lifetime
of male conditioning that couldn't be eradicated overnight, but
somehow, just playing with my female sex organs only left me
partially satisfied - I still wanted to penetrate! Also, the thought
that if I stayed this way then I would be the one being penetrated
was abhorrent to me.
It wasn't only the sexual side that had int's cons though. In terms
of the courtesy shown and of people admiring the way I looked, I have
already admitted that I enjoyed it at times. The downside though was
that it left me feeling very vulnerable. It seemed men in particular,
were always staring at me and being a man myself, at least mentally,
I could imagine what they were thinking and it scared me. I found
myself wanting to be where other people were all the time, scared to
be alone in case I might be overpowered. Is this what it must be like
for all women, I thought, always feeling there physical inferiority?
And, of course, wearing skirts and dresses did nothing to lessen
those feelings. They might give more freedom in many ways but they
had always left me feeling exposed and accessible.
I suppose I could go on listing the cons, but what was the point? Did
I really need to go on about waiting in line to use the restroom and
when you did finally get there, having to practically undress
yourself before you could perform the most basic of human acts? Do I
have to complain about how difficult I had found it having to cope
with make up, and how I gave up in the end, preferring to go au
natural?
No, not really. I had already made up my mind about what I wanted to
do so I would just have an early night and then tell Emma that I
wanted my body back.
I started to undress myself, unable to stop looking at my reflection
as I did so, and admiring Emma's body once again and wishing I could
have been here and enjoyed it as Martin, rather than being in it. I
could feel my nipples harden and the first signs of dampness from
between my legs at these thoughts. Unconsciously, I ran my finger
down and spread the moisture around my slit, shivering at the
delicious irritation I received as I did so.
"I suppose that I'd better make the most of this while I can" I said
to myself, seductively.
Even as I fell to the bed to enjoy Emma's body once again, I knew
that this would definitely be the last time that I would do so. There
was no way that Emma would ever let me do this to her body once she
was back in possession of it.
* * * * * * *
Monday Morning
It was with a mixture of apprehension and relief that I walked into
the coffee bar this morning, although it was mainly apprehension that
I felt at this moment. I've never felt comfortable in confrontational
situations, one of the reasons I suppose why I've struggled with the
running of the business, and I knew that's what this meeting might
turn into if she wanted to keep my body. I wasn't looking forward to
this at all.
"Hello 'Emma', take a seat" she said, looking up from the pile of
correspondence that she was scanning.
I balked when she called me Emma but I was impressed, despite myself,
with her attention to detail. She had obviously taken note that I was
dealing with office work when she arrived here and saw me on Friday,
and she had a similar pile of papers in front of her.
I nodded in response, not wanting to refer to her using my own birth
name, and sat down as gracefully as I could manage. As I did so I
looked in the mirror that was placed on the wall behind her, still
not used to the reflection that stared back at me but wanting to see
it this way for the last time. I rubbed my chin nervously and felt
its smoothness, still remembering how weird it had felt the last two
mornings, waking up and not having to shave.
"So then, how was your weekend? I hope it was as interesting as mine"
she started, sparking my curiosity as to what she might have been
doing.
"It..it was unusual, shall we say" I answered, suddenly finding it
hard to talk.
Emma nodded, although she seemed a little preoccupied as she looked
at the watch on her wrist and then around the coffee bar. I followed
her gaze and noticed that the place was almost empty, just as it had
been on Saturday.
"Well I had a blast" she continued, "and I would have told you all
about it, but I think we need to get down to things. A business
doesn't run itself, you know".
I nodded again and waited for her to start, not knowing how, what
might be, be bad news as far as she was concerned. I was starting to
get an ominous feeling about this though, as her interest in the
business seemed to indicate she wanted to keep things as they were.
It wasn't going to be her choice though. It would need both of us to
enter the code into SCi device, giving our positive assent to this
change, to make it permanent and I wasn't about to do that.
I tried to relax myself but still felt tense as she looked me
straight in the eye.
"I'll cut to the chase. I've decided that I'd like to keep this body.
I love being a man and having the freedom to be able to do things
that I could only have ever dreamed about before, and especially for
the sex - it was incredible"!
Her boldness and the frank admission that she had used my body for
sex shocked me. She had actually gone and had sex with a girl, I
presume, and in my body! I felt violated, even if I was being a
little irrational.
"Look, I..I'm sorry, I hardly know how to say this," I stuttered,
"but I want my body back. I've gone along with the trial period but
I've found out that I really don't want to be female, even with all
the advantages of wealth being you would give me".
There, it was out. I had said it. I felt an enormous sense of relief
as I watched Emma reach inside of her jacket pocket and take out the
transfer device that she had used to change us on Saturday morning.
Thank the Lord, it looked as if she was going to accept the situation
gracefully without trying to persuade me to change my mind. I watched
her as she put her finger inside of it and then did the same with my
own.
"I am really sorry if I've disappointed you but as I said, it just
really wasn't for me!" I said, suddenly wanting to talk and finding
my voice with ease now as she powered up the device.
"Well of course I am disappointed. It would have been so much easier
all round if you'd have been happy in my body. I'm afraid though,
that the end result will be the same" she said as she pressed a
button on the device.
The minute that she did so I froze, literally froze in position as my
body became paralysed. I inwardly started to panic as I used whatever
willpower that I could muster to shout or scream for help, but not a
muscle moved from either my lips or anywhere else.
"I'll bet that you're wondering what's going on" Emma said as she
slid her finger out and then pulled it away.
AS it left my hand I could see that there was now a narrow ring on my
index finger where the device had been.
"Of course, you can't answer can you - how silly of me to forget.
Look up at me" she said, and to my horror I felt my head moving and
then my eyes refocusing and looking at her just as she had
instructed.
"As you might have gathered, I modified the SCi device a little to
hide that ring inside of it. That ring, by the way, has a tiny needle
that has now entered your nervous system and allows me to control
you, completely. You can no longer do anything other than what I tell
you to do, and when I give you an instruction, you can't do anything
but obey me. Now, why don't you relax a little and look more
comfortable. I don't want anybody to see anything unusual".
I tied to will myself to ignore her command but knew that I was
completely in her power when I felt the tenseness in my muscles that
I had been feeling, slip away completely. I think I might have wet
myself had I been able, but even that action would now require her
command!
"That's better. Now I can explain what this is all about. You see,
although you might think that I've had a sheltered life the reality
has been a lot different. Oh, there's always been as much money as I
ever wanted available to me and it might be hard for you to
understand why I would want to give that up for the little you had to
offer me. Well, there's more to life than money, I can tell you. Have
you ever heard the story of the bird in a gilded cage"?
There was nothing I could do to respond to her question so I just sat
there with my body totally relaxed but with my mind as highly strung
as tightened steel wire.
"Oh, I forgot - you can't answer, sorry. I'll assume that you know
that although the bird's cage is made of gold, it's still a cage and
that the bird is still a prisoner. That's how I felt. I was born into
a wealthy and successful family but there was one thing wrong with
them - they were living in the dark ages. To them, it was always the
son that inherited everything and a girl was just there to provide
breeding stock and to use if some family merger was needed. Can you
imagine how that must feel, ten years into the twenty second century?
You don't need to answer, even if you could, because you'll soon have
a far greater insight into what it was like than you might ever have
imagined".
I listened to her words with growing trepidation, having no doubt now
that she had planned this all along, to steal my body.
"This," she said, putting her hand on my arm, "this body was my own
gilded cage and my body became my own prison. Although I am older
than my brother it is him that's being groomed to take over the
reigns, not me - just because I was a girl. It is so unfair. I have
studied and passed every exam I have taken with distinction,
specialising in business studies. To my parents though, that means
nothing. I was a girl so I shouldn't have to be worrying about
complicated things such as business - I should be spending my time
keeping myself pretty and hoping for some rich man to snap me up and
keep me in the life that had been planned for me".
A silence descended as Emma paused for breath, and then compose
herself as I sat, still unable to do anything but wait for her to
continue.
"I made myself a vow that this wasn't going to be the life for me.
Maybe I had more of my father's blood in me than they realised but I
was determined that I wasn't going to end up like some Stepford wife,
doting on her husband and then wheeled for display like some trophy
when he needed me. Just because it was good enough for my mother
doesn't mean it's good enough for me"!
Despite my predicament, I felt myself getting wrapped up in this
story and would have even felt sorry for Emma if I hadn't suspected
that I was going to be the 'fall guy' at the denouement.
"I have spent most of life rebelling against my parents and I think
they tolerated it because they thought I would change when I got
older. It became obvious to them, once I graduated, that this wasn't
going to be the case. In fact, I suppose to their eyes, I actually
became more pig-headed and got worse. It was two days after my latest
spat with them that I overheard them discussing their concern and
what my father had planned for me. Therapy - that's what he called
it, I'd call it something else though - brainwashing. That's what
they intended to do to me - brainwash me into becoming the good
little girlie they had always wanted. They could do it as well, if my
father says he can do something then I know he's not exaggerating.
Hell - maybe that's how he got my mother to dance to his tune all
these years, as far as I know!
That's was when I ran away. It was my only chance. Runing away
wouldn't be enough though. I knew that wherever I went I would be
tracked down eventually, however long it took. My only escape would
be to assume someone else's life and get them to take my place and
that was when I entered the programme. It was a t that point that I
also decided that changing bodies wouldn't be enough for me, either.
After all I had been through and suffered as a result of my gender I
wanted a complete change and that I wanted to be male. The way I see
it, being male would give me all the advantages I need to succeed in
business, which is what I really want to do with my life, rather than
trying to fight the system as just another female, and that's where
you came in".
I became horror stricken, watching helplessly, as she took each of
our SCi devices and entered another code, presumably confirming that
our exchange was now permanent, and then drop them to the floor. She
followed this by grinding them with the heel of her shoe until they
were completely unrecognisable. Any hope I had of persuading her to
change her mind had been wiped out by her actions and I felt total
despair as she looked back at me, her face carrying a satisfied
smile.
"In case you're wondering why I didn't just leave with your body
after we exchanged on Saturday, that would not have served my
purpose. I didn't want to take over your life as it was; I deserve
something from my former life to compensate me for what I've been
through. Before we swapped I transferred a million euros to your -
now my - bank account, and I intend to re-build your business and
make it successful again with that money. Oh, and there's also the
little matter of letting my parents know where they might find their
little daughter so that she can return to the bosom of her family and
assume the life destined for her".
I had hoped that she might have freed me, now that there was no
chance of us changing back, but it seemed that even that small
comfort was going to be denied to me. I followed where I estimated
her eyes were looking by the mirror's reflection and saw the coffee
shop door open and two people walk in. There was a late middle-aged
distinguished looking man and a woman and I knew who they were before
Emma whispered it to me. The woman looked exactly like an older
version of Emma, although she was better groomed and more expensively
clothed than what I was sitting in.
"Please don't think too bad of me - I had no choice. Now you just be
on your best behaviour 'Emma'. It won't be so bad - really! By the
time their programming kicks in then you won't want to be anything
else other than a dutiful daughter and a loving wife. Even though
you'll always remember being Martin Kent, that life will seem less
and less real to you by the day. They're coming now so I'll say my
last goodbye and hope that. Somehow, you can find it in your heart to
forgive me. You can never reveal your true self to anyone - from now
on you will only answer to Emma".
Her final words had sealed my fate and like a tethered lamb I watched
and waited as Emma's parents approached and then joined us at the
table.
"Mr. Kent I presume" the man said, and then shook Emma's hand as she
confirmed his assumption.
"You've done well. I am in your debt".
"My privilege sir. I know how upsetting it is for a family to have a
runaway child so when Emma confided in me what she had done, I felt
it was my duty to inform you".
"And you did the right thing for poor misguided child. She will learn
to understand eventually, that there is no substitute to having a
loving family to care for you" he said, as I felt him ruffle my hair
'affectionately'.
"Quite" Emma replied, "and as soon as we can settle the matter of ..
er, my reward then I'll hand over control of Emma to you. I've got a
business to run and can't spend too much longer away from my office".
"Of course, or course dear boy. I understand completely" Emma's
father replied as he took out a PDA and punched a few keys.
As he did so Emma felt in her pocket and extracted what had once been
my own PDA. I knew that they were confirming that the funds had been
transferred and once that had been done to their satisfaction they
shook hands again.
"Thank you - so that was five hundred thousand euros and the
guaranteed patronage of your business over the next two years, just
as you promised" Emma said, smiling.
"I always keep my promises my boy, " he said, looking at me
sinisterly, leaving me to worry just how much Emma had upset him!
Emma then instructed me to accept orders only from my parents and to
do anything they asked of me, without question and I felt a shift in
my thinking to accept that command, despite my reluctance to do so.
The effectiveness of the ring was then demonstrated, once again.
"Stand Emma, and smile as if you're happy" I heard 'my' mother say to
me, and I felt myself rising instantly and a warm smile appear on my
face.
Satisfied that she now had control, Emma's mother continued to
instruct me.
"Thank Mr. Kent dear, for all he has done for you and courtesy,
graciously".
"Thank you Mr. Kent, for everything you have done for me" I stated
without any delay, and then bobbed, pulling the sides of my skirt as
I did so.
I was then Emma's father's turn to take control as he took me by the
arm and started to lead me towards the door.
"Oh, it's so good to have you back darling. I DO so much love you,
despite how much you've hurt me. Now tell me that you'll never ever
do anything so silly again, and that you'll always be your father's
little girl".
I made one last effort to scream but instead found myself repeating
what I had been told, telling him that I would always be his little
girl.
My humiliation was complete and my spirit broken but I continued to
smile happily, as I had been instructed as I was taken outside and
into a waiting limousine. I could only guess as to my destination but
knew that wherever it would be, it would result in my becoming Emma
Woodley to all intents and purposes, programmed to live her life,
forever".
* * * * * * *
Epilogue
One Year Later
It had been a long and hectic day for Martin and he was starting to
get weary. The preparations for today had taken weeks and he had been
in constant demand by well wishers and organisers since he had woken
up this morning. At this precise moment though he was grateful to be
left alone, at least that is what he had thought until he saw his
father-in-law approaching him.
"Martin, at last. This is the first chance I've had to see you on
your own my boy. I just wanted to say how delighted I am to welcome
you back into the family".
The younger man took the proffered hand and then raised his drink,
puzzled at his companions choice of words, but shrugging it aside,
too emotionally drained to give it his full attention. As he put his
glass back down he looked over towards the beautiful young woman who
was talking to some of her friends and laughing, gaily. He fellt
excited by her - she looked an absolute vision, wearing her going
away outfit that she had changed into immediately after the wedding
banquet. All he wanted now was to get away with her, to get her on
his own and he could help her out of it. First though, he would have
see out this conversation with his new father-in-law. He turned back
and forced a smile to his face.
"Thank you, and I must congratulate you for producing such a lovely
daughter and one who I'm now proud to call my wife. It is hard to
believe that it's the same rebellious girl who you took away last
year. Although I've said it before, I must confess to being impressed
with whatever treatment it was that you arranged for her. She seems
to be positively glorifying in the womanhood that previously, she
seemed so anxious to deny"!
"Yes Martin, she has responded well and is the complete daughter,
although it was expected. Over the years I have found the therapy to
be an effective way of dealing with those who feel inclined to oppose
me, in whatever situation. That wasn't why I wanted this quick talk
with you now though. I wanted to tell you how impressed I've been
with how you've grown your business during the last year. It is very
impressive".
Martin's face flushed with pride at this compliment, for he knew that
Mr Woodley was not one for handing out praise, lightly. His pleasure
was guarded though, for he hadn't missed the earlier implications
from his father-in-law earlier comment regarding how he might deal
with opposition and wondered how many others he had used it on.
"Th..that's most generous of you sir, although you had no small part
to play in that yourself. Why, without your patro..".
"Nonsense, I merely gave you a reward to help you kick start whatever
it was you wanted to do. Believe me, if you hadn't made a success of
things then there is no way you would now have my daughter's hand,
whatever the circumstances. I would have made sure of that"!
Martin lifted his glass and swallowed another mouthful of drink,
having no doubt whatsoever that this would have been the case and
feeling grateful that he had not got on the wrong side of this man.
He then stole another glance at his bride as the older man continued.
"No, I've been most impressed indeed. You've proved ruthless where
you've had to, pruning away the dead wood where you found it,
rewarding those who would bring you most benefit, and also taking
measured risks that have yielded their own rewards. No, as I said -
I'm most impressed. In fact, I can recognise a lot of myself in you
and would say that you are a man after my own heart"!
"Th..thank you sir" Martin replied, feeling a shiver run down his
spine at his father-in-laws words, knowing that he was nearer to the
truth than he could have imagined.
"Yes, I think it has worked out rather well. You do make a better
son-in-law than a daughter, don't you agree 'Emma'"?
Martin felt his heart drop and the world start to spin around him for
a second at the unexpected turn this conversation had taken. Somehow,
the man who had once been his father knew who he really was, but how?
"Don't try denying it, I've been lied to by far more qualified people
than yourself. Quite honestly, it was the only part of your plan that
you hadn't really covered very well. I guessed that something wasn't
as it should have been - I've got a keen instinct you know, and it
was quite easy to counteract any command you might have given her
once I had control of the ring started her treatment".
Martin mopped the perspiration that had suddenly dampened his brow as
he feared what was going to follow this revelation. He'd rather kill
himself than be returned to his female body and be turned into
something so feminine and ladylike as his father had done to the
original Martin.
"So you know then. Wh..what are you going to do now"?
Mr Woodford put his own drink down on the table, felt inside his
pocket, and then produced a metal case. Martin started to quail,
trying to imagine what kind device it was that his father-in-law had,
and what he was going to do with it.
"Here, take one of these and then I'll answer your question".
Martin's hand were shaking as he took the cigar that Mr Woodford had
taken out of the case and it took a moment for him to steady himself
enough to allow his father-in-law to light it before then lighting
his own. He then had to wait a moment as the air between them filled
with smoke, before he received an answer.
"I'm not going to do anything my boy, nothing at all. The way I see
things are that any man that will allow a woman to steal take his
body and then allow himself to be converted into a simpering female
deserves all that he gets. Oh sure, she did put up some token
resistance at first, but after three months of conditioning she
seemed to think that becoming my doting daughter was the best thing
that could have possibly happened to her, not that I gave her any
choice" he laughed, without humour.
Martin looked at Mr Woodfords determined and steely blue eyes,
silently thanking the heavens that he had managed to escape his
former body before he had been captured by his father, otherwise the
new Emma's fate would have been his.
"I also decided that if you were so independent and determined to
succeed in business, even if it meant trading the body of your birth
to do so, then I would give you a chance to prove yourself,
monitoring your progress as you did so. Once it was obvious that you
were doing well then it wasn't hard for me to arrange for you to meet
the new Emma again, and I was delighted when you in love with her.
Let me reassure you though, that part wasn't down to my programming,
in case you wondered. I had nothing to do with that. I merely set the
playing field and let nature take its course. Of course, with each of
you being in the others body there was a natural attraction for each
other, albeit one that you could be described as slightly
unconventional, so it is not that surprising".
"Wh..why you - I can't believe this! You manipulating, old..".
"No need for flattery by boy", the older man cut Martin short,
patting him on the shoulder. "As I have said, it has all worked out
well. I have the daughter I always planned to have and I also have a
son-in-law who is more competent and more likely to be able to run a
major company one day than my real son will ever be".
Martin sat quietly, not able to take this all in as his father-in-law
continued.
"Yes - my son. I've been worried about Thomas for some time. He might
have been your elder brother once, but he's shown non of your acumen
in any which way. I'd been trying to groom him to take over the
business, much to your consternation, I know, yet he has failed eve