The day was bright and sunny. There was a slight chill in the air on
this early summer morning, but that was perfect. I stood at the edge of
the track and looked it over. There had been some concern as it had
rained pretty hard last evening. But the morning sun and breeze had
helped to dry out some of the mud. It was turning into a gorgeous day
and I'm sure the conditions would be fine. Everything seemed so serene,
so peaceful. It would stay that way for about twenty more minutes,
until the noise curfew passed and the riders would be allowed to start
their bikes. Then the pits would be buzzing! I loved race day! No, it
wasn't an underground street car race or a drag race. This was
motocross! Twenty men racing a hilly, jump-infested, natural outdoor
track on their polished and fully modified dirtbikes! It was the thrill
I lived for! I mentally scanned over the track, imagining as if I was
already racing it. I did this from start to finish. My body was feeling
good and I was feeling confident. I knew this was going to be a great
day!
Unfortunately, all hopes of that were dashed the instant I saw another
rider coming my way. He was still in the distance, but I knew without a
doubt who this person was. The mere thought of having to deal with him
this early in the morning caused my day to be ruined instantly. Running
into Tyler Jones, my biggest rival on and off the track was never a
pleasant experience. Most of the guys I compete against I get along
with just fine. Some of them I'd even consider to be my friends. But
this kid has held a grudge against me ever since I block passed him in
a corner of the track and he went down. It was a completely legal move!
He took it to the track officials and they took my side. None of the
other racers would sympathize with him either. Some even patted me on
the back. They already knew how much of a jerk he really was. His
reputation for using dirty tactics to win races was well known amidst
the racers. He would gladly take somebody else down if it was
beneficial to his cause! Surprisingly, the past few weeks of racing
have gone by uneventfully. I credit that mostly to the fact that I have
been placing well while he has been stuck in the middle of the pack. I
can see the resentment on his face every time he throws me a glance.
Speaking of which... I watched Tyler sneer as he approached me from the
far side of the track.
"Well, if it isn't the dirtiest racer at Shade raceway... and I DON'T
mean muddy!" There was venom in his voice, yet his eyes shone with some
sort of devilish glee.
"Don't be such a whiner, Tyler. If you can't handle your own bike, then
you shouldn't be out there!" I countered.
For some reason, he smiled when he heard me say that.
"I couldn't agree with you more."
I was a little caught off guard by his quick agreement. I figured we'd
be having at least a good word fight if not an actual physical one.
He continued. "In fact, I'd say that only REAL men with REAL talent
should be out there on the track! It takes BALLS to race motocross!"
I shook my head, thinking to myself, what a sexist jerk.
"Tyler, it's no wonder no one at the track likes you. Girls have as
much of a right to ride and race dirtbikes as guys do to say... take
dance classes!"
He shrugged his shoulders and snorted. "Hell Joe, you should have been
BORN a girl! It sounds like you'd make one hell of a feminist!"
"No, it's just that I treat girls with the respect they deserve, that's
all." I said, realizing that I wasn't really fighting back or bringing
any attitude. I was always more about taking out my aggressions on the
track rather than puffing up my chest and blowing hot air. I wouldn't
be lead into a name-calling match with him. He seemed disappointed at
my reluctance to sink to his level, but then his eyes twinkled in a way
that gave me an uneasy feeling in my stomach.
He continued with much more enthusiasm, almost a newfound giddiness...
"You know, when the old man at that curio shop sold me this ring, I
thought I was just getting a good deal on a cool looking dragon ring."
He brought his right hand into view. Sure enough, there was a cool
looking dragon ring around his finger.
"When he promised me that this could dramatically change my life, I
blew it off, figuring the old man was just senile. But, now that I've
actually tried it out, I don't know how I could have gotten along
without it!"
His story was starting to bore me rather than intrigue me. I figured
this was just some elaborate bullshit setup for a prank or something
and I wasn't going to bite.
"Yeah, that's all fascinating and whatever. So you bought a pretty ring
from an old man. Did he offer you candy too? I don't have time for
this..."
I started to walk again, but he grabbed me by the shoulder.
"I should have figured you wouldn't believe me. So, I suppose I will
just have to show you. I'm really glad we had this conversation. It's
nice to know where you stand on the subject of girls." There was
definitely sarcasm in his voice, but what was even more alarming is
that there was a hint of sincerity as well. He continued.
"You see, I was just going to wish that you would lose your motocross
talent, so that I could humiliate you in the race just as you did to
me." There was bitterness in his voice, but it quickly melted into a
sweet, if not untrustworthy smile.
"But now, hell, you can keep your talent! You're going to need it after
this!"
Part of me wanted to stay put to see just what this was all about,
while part of me wanted to get the hell away from this obvious lunatic!
I should have listened to my instinct to run. Before I had a chance to
make another decision, Tyler grasped his right hand and looked down at
the ring with maniacal glee.
"Magic ring... I wish reality would be altered to where Joe was born as
a girl instead of a boy!"
Just as the words finished spewing from his mouth, I felt a momentary
sense of disorientation, my head started to spin, and then...
blackness. It's hard to explain what it was that I was experiencing. It
was like I had my eyes closed, like I was trying to go to sleep, but at
the same time I couldn't feel any part of my body! It seemed like an
eternity before I was re-awakened, but when it finally happened, the
sensations came flooding back in a hurry! The first thing I noticed was
Tyler standing triumphantly before me. He looked much taller than
before! He gazed down upon me with that same damn devilish grin I was
beginning to hate!
"Sorry about your momentary non-existence." He said with hollow
sympathy. "But, I had to give the ring some details about your new
life... Jennie!!"
"I don't know what you're..." I stopped right there. That was all it
took for me to realize that something definitely WASN'T right, because
my voice sounded similar to that of a frightened, young girl!!
"NOW do you believe me?" Tyler said while trying to contain his
amusement. "How do you like the new you? I tried to make sure you
were... well... quite pleasing to the eye."
He couldn't hold back his laughter at his own stupid joke as I looked
down to assess the damage. Damage is the wrong word for it! How about a
total train wreck?! The first obvious change was the one I couldn't get
around... literally! Protruding proudly from my chest was a pair of
soft, supple female breasts! They were big enough to be blocking the
view of my lower half! Maybe that was a sign that I shouldn't go any
further, but I did anyway. That was a big mistake. Stretching a little
more, I was able to look beyond my generous mammaries, to a well-
proportioned and completely slender hourglass figure (perfect if not
just slightly underdeveloped)! Most distressing was the obvious lack of
bulge coming from the crotch of my race pants! My mind raced
frantically. How could this be happening?! My life... completely
changed... completely ruined all in the blink of an eye!
"Enjoying the view from down there?" Tyler said, rudely interrupting my
self-examination. "You'll notice that you are still in racing attire,
albeit, the PRETTIEST racing outfit I've ever seen!"
He giggled some more to himself. He was totally right. I was still
sporting my favorite brand of race gear (FOX). But, instead of my
yellow and blue jersey/pants/boots combo, it was pink and white and the
words "FOX Girl" were stretched over my jersey by my boobs!
"Don't worry your pretty little head, you are still a racer. Well, not
really, as you're a GIRL racer, but I guess in this new reality you
have won some races against the other girlie riders. If you check your
racing license, you'll see that you are now listed in the GIRLS 14-16,
80cc "b" class. Instead of keeping you 17 years old, I figured I'd give
you a few extra years to get used to your body. So... you're now only
15! Aren't I a nice guy?" He chuckled to himself.
The full effect of this nightmare didn't really hit me until that
moment. Somehow, Tyler just re-wrote my entire life story on a whim! I
was no longer a guy. I was no longer 17 years old. As much as I tried
to convince myself of the impossibility of this situation, a million
feminine sensations wracked my body in opposition to this claim!
Everything just felt wrong to me. From the way my new, longer, blonde
hair easily "swished" with each passing breeze, to my new girlish
stance, shortened height, and shrunken features. The jersey seemed kind
of baggy around my arms and upper torso, which was probably due to my
new slender, weak, girlish arms and narrow shoulders. The weight of my
new femininely enhanced chest was soft and fleshy. This alien sensation
was only surpassed by the heightened sensitivity of my nipples and
emptiness within my crotch!
Tyler rained his happiness down upon me.
"Look, just to prove that I'm not a TOTAL asshole..."
He wasn't trying to be very convincing and I wasn't buying it anyway.
He continued...
"I'll make you a deal. If you can win your moto in the girls' class,
I'll have the ring shift reality again and make you a boy once more.
Granted, I can't have you be 17 again or it would get in MY way, but at
least you'd be 15 years old and have a dick once more." He glanced down
at my flat girlish crotch just for effect.
This was all too much to take in at once! I came here this morning
focused on competing for the cup championship in the 125 cc. MEN'S "A"
class! Now I stand before my biggest rival and all I can focus on is
how my panties keep riding up my butt (I suspect it's a thong) and how
my new sports bra cuts into the underside of my boobs! I stared deeply
into his cold confident eyes, but found that I couldn't do so for very
long. I meekly lowered my gaze and looked away. I couldn't take it
anymore, so I did what any respectable teenage girl would do when
forced into a situation like this. I cried.
Tyler was quick to take advantage of this moment of weakness.
"Awww, I'm sorry. I gave you the benefit of the doubt and thought maybe
despite your obvious girlish appearance that there might be a male
brain beneath all that hair. I guess I was wrong. Well, enjoy your new
life, girly."
He started to walk away. I didn't know what to do. I was scared...
scared beyond my wildest dreams. How could I ever have imagined myself
in a situation like this?! With a trembling lip, I gathered all the
courage that I could and called out to Tyler.
"I... I'll do it. I will race for my manhood." I couldn't help but let
a whimper escape my mouth as I said that.
"I thought you might." Tyler said, beaming triumphantly. "I guess you
better get back to the pits and start getting accustomed to your new
little bike and new little body. I hear the center of gravity is
different between guys and girls and I'd imagine so, with those two
life preservers on your chest!" He pointed and laughed.
I tried to ignore it. I never wanted to punch someone more than I did
at that very moment. But, I knew I needed to stay on his good side if I
ever hoped to get my old body back. Besides, considering my new limited
strength, I doubt my punches would have done much anyway. Restraining
myself, I sighed and simply nodded at him before heading back towards
the pits. Tyler smiled as he watched my feminine ass jiggle and sway
into the distance.
Upon reaching the pits, I received surprise number two for the day.
Usually I race alone. Sometimes a friend or two might be free for the
day and decide to help me out. But I never expected this! There was my
mother, sitting in a chair, reading a magazine! Crouching beside her
was my father, wrenching on my bike! Apparently he was making some last
minute adjustments for me! My parents hardly EVER came to see me race
and if they did, they were nothing but spectators. I looked for my
truck and tools, but they were gone. Instead, my dad's SUV, tools and
box trailer (to haul the bike) were there! Tyler's words rang through
my head. In this reality, I was born a girl and was only 15!! I
couldn't have driven myself here if I had wanted to! I guess it made
sense that my parents would take interest in their "daughter's"
hobbies. I tried to ignore this added shift in reality. There were too
many other things concerning me at the moment.
Finally, I got to see my new bike. At that point, I felt like I was
just ready to just drop over dead. It was a smaller, PINK version of my
Suzuki RM 125cc! Apparently, the trademark blue and yellow plastic
wasn't good enough for my new "chick" persona. "My" new Suzuki RM 80
was covered in a customized pink and white scheme (conveniently
matching my apparel).
"God, besides racing, I must be such a girly girl!" I mumbled to
myself.
My dad greeted me by waving a screwdriver with his one hand. "Hey,
sweetie. How does the track look today? I'm almost done re-jetting the
carb... errr... I mean, making sure the gas is there when you hit the
throttle!"
What was this? Whatever it was, I didn't like it. It was obvious that
my dad caught himself in mid-sentence for a reason. Why the
oversimplification? I know what re-jetting means! It's when you
adjust... err... change... something... in the carb. Ack! For the life
of me, I couldn't figure out what re-jetting meant! That bastard Tyler
must have stolen my mechanical knowledge as well! Ooh, when I get my
hands on him!
My father waited for a response, wondering if I was zoning or
something. I managed to mumble a "yeah, thanks" before my mom decided
to chime in.
"Jennifer! Your father asked you how the track was, dear. Don't tell me
its slick! We had a lot of rain last evening! I don't want you out
there if it's too wet! You're not used to that kind of riding!" The
more my mother talked, the more worked up she got!
Thankfully daddy (daddy?) stepped in on my behalf.
"Now dear, don't get into this again. Our daughter is a great rider.
She knows what she is doing, don't ya, pumpkin? She'll be fine out
there." He smiled as though he just did me a huge favor, though I
didn't care much for the part about "pumpkin". Luckily, no more was
said on the matter.
"Ummm, guys, do you mind if I just relax a little before the moto? I
have to clear my head."
Daddy smiled. "Sure thing, sweetie. Just remember, you have to register
in the next half hour or you won't be allowed to participate."
I nodded in acknowledgement and they allowed me to pull up a chair on
the other side of our pit, facing the track.
What am I going to do? I thought to myself. Here I am, stuck in a
completely foreign body... a GIRL'S body, no less, and I have to win a
race with it if I ever want SOME chance of returning to normal! Panic
overtook my senses and I started to breathe heavily. I could feel my
chest heave with every breath.
At that moment, I truly snapped.
I don't know what it was specifically that caused me to snap. Maybe it
was how my long, now blonde hair constantly kept falling into my eyes.
Perhaps it was the burning desire I felt to cross my legs while sitting
there. Maybe it was the sense of total helplessness as I stared at my
new slender, weaker arms. Who knows? (Though my money is on the way my
panties occasionally brushed smoothly against my new feminine mound)
Whatever it was, at that moment, I felt myself fill with determination!
I WILL win this race! I HAVE to win this race! My entire present and
future life depended upon it!
But, what if I were to fail? I reluctantly considered.
The window of doubt was just big enough to let all sorts of nasty,
feminine-oriented thoughts into my mind. I'd be stuck as a female for
the rest of my life! I'd have a lifetime to get used to wearing pretty
clothes and underwear, sitting to pee, periods, feeling weak,
breasts... There were an endless number of reasons why I couldn't let
that happen! Don't get me wrong, I'm sure girls who were actually born
girls grow to enjoy and embrace their femininity! But, my still very
much male mind was rejecting it with fear and intensity!
Lifting myself from the comfy chair, I felt a new sense of purpose. As
I began to make my way towards the signup station, I had a spring in my
step. It was a feeling I only experienced as a guy, when I was excited
about an upcoming race. Somewhere between that chair and the sign-up
sheet, I abandoned my fear and doubt and I WASN'T about to let it come
back to haunt me!
Of course, finding myself sign in as "Jennifer Ann", definitely didn't
do anything to help my confidence. As the ink flowed onto the page, it
felt as natural as could be. "I guess Tyler made me more comfortable in
my new life than I thought." I grumbled to myself. Also, running into
several of my former racing friends on the way back didn't help matters
either. It seemed like every time I'd see one, I'd catch them checking
me out! This sickened me beyond belief. But, to be fair, my former male
self would have considered a good looking female motocrosser to be a
total turn on. I tried to keep these thoughts out of my mind as I re-
entered the pits.
At the time I had no idea that I was being followed. It wasn't until I
saw my mother look at me and then past me that I bothered to turn
around. As my head swung around I was just in time to see several of
the boy racers heading the other direction, pretending as if they were
actually heading somewhere nearby. I sighed. Is this what its going to
be like? I thought to myself. I sat back down in my chair and cringed
as I saw my mother smiling and pulling up a seat next to me.
"So, which one do you think is the cutest?" She smiled and what was
that... a wink?! I don't believe this!
"Mom, I'm really not ready to have a conversation like this!" I snapped
back, my brain on feminine overload.
"Oh honey, sure you are. You're fifteen now, soon to be sweet sixteen.
It's natural for you to think about boys. You do think about boys,
don't you?" She persisted in a loving, motherly tone.
I knew what this conversation was all about. I had it with dad when I
was like thirteen. But he pretty much just told me not to be stupid,
use a condom and left it at that. This was different somehow. My mother
was talking to me in a voice that was sweeter than I ever heard as a
guy. Maybe that added "X" chromosome brought me closer to her in this
life. I briefly contemplated about how to best answer her question. I
don't think the honest answer of "No, mom, I love and think about girls
all the time" would have gone over so well. So I faked it.
"Yeah, mom... ummm... of course I do. But, its race day and I have to
keep focused, okay?" I hoped this would buy me some time.
"Sure sweetie, we can talk about it later. But you know, I think the
cute blonde haired boy goes to your school. I've talked to his mother
before at the supermarket. They seem like such a nice family. Why just
the other day..."
"Mother..." I chimed in. I couldn't take much more of this.
"Yes, okay dear. Go back to your pre-race prayer or meditation or
whatever it is you racers do. We'll talk later."
I could tell that she was momentarily satisfied having at least brought
the subject up. I'm sure she was looking forward to resuming our little
talk that afternoon on the way home. But if I got my way, by this
afternoon it would be as if this conversation never took place!
The rest of the time before the race passed like molasses through an
hourglass. I tried to take my mind off of things by reading a magazine.
My mother quickly offered up some girlish teen magazines that she had
brought along for me. I declined them as politely as possible. Luckily,
my dad had the new edition of DirtBike. So I spent the better part of
the morning perusing that and sipping on Gatorade. I used to love the
magazine, but paging through it and only seeing male riders quickly
reminded me that I was now a part of the minority of this sport.
Thankfully I was brought out of my miserable thoughts by my father
tapping me on the shoulder. He informed me that he had finished the
preparations on my bike and that the scheduled practice for my class
was soon to begin. I would finally get the chance to take it out for
the first time. I dropped the magazine and headed over to my new girly-
cycle.
I had hoped that my transition to the girls' mx class would go smoothly
being that I still (supposedly) had my racing skills and that the bikes
were smaller. But my illusions were quickly shattered as I experienced
my first and quite obvious disadvantage... the bike-to-girl weight
ratio. The bike felt like it was made out of lead when I went to lift
it off of the work stand. Imagine my shame as my father quickly came
over and lifted it off for me! I never would have had this problem as a
guy! Apparently, even though the plastic was a girlish pink, the bike
still weighed as much as any other 80 cc. race bike. It was obvious
that my new petite frame was ill-equipped to be throwing around a
machine of this weight. Luckily, I was just barely tall enough for one
foot to touch when I got on it. I later found out that my dad actually
shortened the suspension slightly from stock and had some of the foam
cut from the seat (at least my new girlish butt should have some extra
padding to it). I wasn't going to let that news deter me though.
Ricky Carmichael, one of the all time greatest motocross riders was
pretty short. I conveniently tried to ignore the invading thoughts of
yeah, but he's a guy and he's got a lot more upper body strength than
you. I tried kick-starting the bike (dirtbikes without electric start
need to be started by placing your right foot on a lever and kicking
downwards violently). I groaned at how much more difficult that simple
task seemed to be. It took me a couple of tries, but I finally managed
to get the bike to fire. At that point I made some mental notes. Okay,
so I am at least tall enough to put a foot down and start the bike. Now
if only I can handle the weight issue. I tried to console myself with
the concept of how when the bike is in motion, it will be a LOT more
manageable! But I didn't even want to think about what would happen if
I were to drop it.
When my time to practice arrived, I nervously and cautiously brought
the bike to the starting gate. Luckily, we all didn't have to start at
the same time. I saw some of the other girls take off ahead of me and
that was alright by me! The less of an audience I had for my first moto
flight in this strange body and strange bike the better! I took the
bike slowly around the track at first. I felt a small victory at
realizing that I still remembered how to ride! I didn't put it past
that bastard Tyler to actually steal my riding ability and/or knowledge
(especially as he had already depleted my mechanical aptitude). I
started to feel good until I heard my dad shout out from the spectator
stands.
"Honey, are you alright? Is there a problem?"
His voice oozed with a parental concern that I never heard before. I
say "oozed" because this public display of offspring affection was
royally embarrassing me! He must have noticed that I was riding
excessively slow and his first instinct was that I was having trouble
with the bike or something! I noticed some of the boy riders (who had
dropped by to mostly make fun of the girls) chuckle. I shook my head,
hoping he would take it as meaning that there wasn't a problem. But
there was a problem and I wasn't alright! I was stuck on a girlish bike
in a girlish body being mocked at by boys! I was at least glad that no
one could see how beet red my face was under my helmet. I couldn't
believe that my father was adding to my humiliation. In retrospect
though, I should have thanked him after practice. It was just the kick
in the pants that I needed!
Enough of this bullshit. I thought to myself.
I cracked open the throttle and heard the whine of the engine as it
kicked to life. The front end got quite light and I had to lean forward
a bit to keep it down. I was actually somewhat surprised by just how
much power I had at my disposal! I should have asked my dad to help me
with my bike as a guy! The feeling of the tires spinning up mud and
dirt liberated me. I always feel better after a good ride, so I tried
to make this one last as long as possible. I didn't want to get off the
bike and think about a life trapped in lingerie and dresses, periods
and cold toilet seats. I wanted to stay in the warm saddle of my bike
forever. But with my practice nearing a close and with a deep sigh, I
finished up a few crucial, well-ridden laps and pulled off into the
pits. I knew this track like the back of my hand. The only question
that remained was, could I get acclimated to my new body and bike fast
enough to compete with my fellow female competitors? I was soon to find
out.
As I entered the pits, I was bombarded by a thousand questions from
both of my parents! "How was the track?" "It wasn't too slippery for
you, was it honey?" "Did the bike seem okay?" "Are you warm enough? I
think you should wear a jacket over your jersey, it's a bit nippy out
there!" "How did it handle the ruts?" "Did you notice that cute blonde
haired boy was watching you practice?" I think you can discern for
yourself who asked what. Mostly though I think they were just making
sure their precious little girl was okay and wasn't experiencing some
sort of "moto stage fright" or something. I assured them that I would
be fine and went back to twiddling my thumbs until the race was about
to begin. Normally I would have checked out some of the other races,
but due to my current circumstances, I figured that would have only
depressed me more.
So I waited around for my turn at the track. Well, that wasn't ALL I
ended up doing before the race. Do you want the gory details? I spent
fifteen minutes assuring (read: lying to) my mother that I did indeed
have an interest in boys and wasn't allowing motocross to turn me into
a tomboy (I began to suspect that she was the main reason my feminine
persona seemed likely to be a pink loving, boy band crazy, sleep with a
teddy bear kind of girl! Ugh!). Another fifteen minutes were spent
trying to ignore the stares and blown kisses from several passing boys.
Earlier in the day I could have kicked these boys' asses for even
looking at me cross-eyed! Now I felt embarrassed at being the apparent
object of their affection! Finally as the dreaded race quickly
approached, I felt my body fill with fear. Unfortunately, that wasn't
the ONLY thing filling! I could feel my bladder starting to fill from
all the Gatorade I had been drinking! Ashamed and humiliated, I made my
way to the little girl's room on the other side of the track.
This journey was mostly the same as when I went to sign in earlier.
Everywhere I went I seemed to draw the attention of the teenage boys.
It was unbearable! How could I blame them though? I was helpless to
keep my hot, tight ass from swaying enticingly and my 32 C breasts
(DON'T ask how I knew that was the size!) from jiggling with each step!
Compound that with the fact that I was dressed in pink motocross gear
and it was a guaranteed hard-on for any die-hard, teenage motocrosser!
But the ultimate indignity was when I had to drop my panties and squat.
It was the first look I got at the new me down there and I wasn't in
the least bit impressed. I gingerly wiped for the first time after
peeing, pulled my panties and race pants back up, washed my hands and
hastily exited the port-a-potty (well what did you expect? This IS an
outdoors race track!). What could be worse than this? I quickly had
that questioned answered though as I exited the stall and saw Tyler
standing there waiting to use it next!
"Oh. Hi there, sweetie! Enjoying your new plumbing? I hope you didn't
forget to wipe! I'm sure you don't want an infection down there!" He
virtually giggled with glee after each degrading, sexist sentence.
"Look, would you just leave me alone? Haven't you done enough already?"
I could feel the tears welling up inside of me. I wanted to act tough,
I wanted to show this asshole that he couldn't get the best of me, but
it was far harder than I'd imagined. My body's feminine emotions were
starting to show.
"Sure thing, hot cakes. I'm not worried. I'm sure that having to spend
the last few hours in that girlish body has done more damage than
anything that I could possibly say!" He searched my face as if to
confirm his assumption.
I tried to hide my true feelings. I tried to stay strong. But the
single tear that began to roll down my cheek betrayed me. His grin
widened in response.
"Well, I guess I should let you get back to your training..." There was
a wicked gleam in his eye, as if he was building up to something. "...
your training... BRA that is! Would you like that? I could make your
boobs smaller if you think that would help."
I almost fell for it. I almost begged him to do that. I wanted so badly
for him to do that. If he wouldn't take them away, he could at least
make them smaller, make me somehow less feminine. But, I quickly
realized that this was just a test of my willpower. I knew deep down
that if I gave in to him, things would just get worse. He would know
that he had broken me and that he owned me. Hell, he probably would
make my boobs bigger just out of punishment for being so weak-willed.
No, I wasn't going to play into that.
"They are fine the way they are... just how nature intended them to
be." I almost couldn't stomach my response.
"Spoken like a true, proud, girly girl. Fine, I hope you enjoy them so
much when you start getting back pain or sore nipples. Then we'll see
how fond you are of your boobies!"
With one more annoying cackle, he disappeared into the port-a-potty. As
I walked away, fighting back the tears, I couldn't help but here him
shouting out through the thin walls of the john...
"Ahhh, that feels good. It's so nice to be able to stand to piss.
Whoops, done already. My, that was quick. Well time to put him..."
His voice trailed off as I broke into a run, trying to get as far away
from that jerk as possible. This is what it is ALWAYS going to be like!
Unless I win this race, this will be my life from now on! It was almost
too horrible to bear! I jogged all the way back to the pits. My mom and
dad saw that I was crying and came to ask me what was the matter, but
before they could get to me, I jumped into the box trailer and closed
the doors. After a few minutes of trying to coax me out, they heard me
having a good cry and just let me be. I had to get this out of my
system. I knew that I did, so I just let the tears roll. Ten minutes
later I came back out, composed myself and just told my parents that a
boy I had run into was very mean to me. I didn't go into details and
they didn't press, so for the moment the entire subject was dropped. I
cleared my head the best I could, relaxed for a couple more minutes,
and finally received the sign from my dad. It was time for me to race
for my life.
Moments later I stood on the line with all the other racers. Actually,
fidgeted would be a better way to describe it! If I wasn't messing with
my goggles, I was trying to keep my arms loose. If I wasn't shaking my
head (and that huge mass of hair spewing out of the back) I was
adjusting my chest protector. Above all I was trying to keep my mind
off of how much heavier the bike felt to me now or how much taller it
seemed to my slender shorter legs. I tried to keep focus, but
everything just seemed wrong. Everyone gets the pre-race jitters, but
this is the worst I have ever felt. Before all I had to lose was the
race. But the stakes were unimaginably higher now. Every rev of the
bike reminded me of the new strange sensation in the "saddle". I
scanned my competition. I used to love watching this class attempt to
race. No offense to them, I always admired their determination to
succeed in a man's sport, but I knew very few of them would ever be
fast enough to compete with my (former) class. It just takes too much
physical strength at times to muscle the bike around.
But now as I looked around, I noticed most of the girls were actually
taller and more athletic than my new petite body. I scanned the crowd.
As typical with this class, most of the spectators were friends and
family of the racers... proud mothers and fathers of their little
girls. Oh sure, some of the other racers were there, but not to learn
any new lines or riding styles. It was typically just to take in the
eye candy (which I now unfortunately was a part of). These brief
moments felt like agonizing hours as the butterflies in my stomach
began to flutter. I glanced upwards and felt a cold sweat begin. The 30
second board had just turned sideways.
For those of you who are unfamiliar with motocross, there is some
terminology that you may not pick up on right away. Like "I laughed my
ass off when the guy who roosted me out of the gate and stole my
holeshot cased it on the first tabletop." However, the 30 second board
means exactly what it sounds like. In less than 30 seconds the gate
would drop and the race would begin! I felt my hands tremble in
anticipation as I assumed my stance and increased the throttle. A
harmonious buzz of engine revs erupted as each and every racer assumed
their stance and rolled on the throttle. This was it, the moment of
truth. Was I really talented in racing motocross? Or was it just the
fortuitous design of my body that allowed me to excel in this sport? I
took a deep breath, closed my mind and ears to all surrounding me, and
set my focus straight ahead. The gate dropped and the roar of bikes
could be heard all through the valley.
Every sense of femininity was purged from my body as my bike rocketed
down the straightaway towards the first turn. A volatile mixture of
adrenaline and horsepower had managed to cleanse me (at least
temporarily) from all self-doubt and pity. I was racing! The one love
in my life that I could never deny! I threaded my way through the horde
of competitors at my side, running bar to bar with them down the narrow
opening of the starting stretch. As I power-slid through the first
turn, I made a miraculous realization. I got the holeshot! I was in the
lead! After a brief mental celebration, I clenched my jaw and regained
my focus. I was not one to rest on my laurels and it's a good thing
too. For as I was preparing for the first set of jumps, I took a brief
glance behind my shoulder and saw the 2nd and 3rd place riders running
side by side just behind me.
I hit the face of the jump with power and determination. I was afraid
that even though my body and bike were lighter, I might not have enough
power to clear the double. The displacement of my engine was now much
less and I hadn't raced this small of a bike since I was twelve. My old
man didn't let me down though. I hit the jump and I soared over both,
landing on the downside face of the 2nd jump. For the first time in the
last couple of hours, I felt in control of my life... of my destiny!
This was my race to lose now and I wasn't going to go down without a
fight! I tried to keep my excitement level in check as best I could. It
was to be a long race and I needed to keep my stamina for as long as
possible! I flew into the 2nd turn with a newfound drive and
confidence! However, part of that confidence was immediately sucked
away as I exited the turn. In all my excitement I had lost my
concentration for just a split second and that was all it took for me
to make a poor line choice. Due to the heavy rain the previous night,
the track was muddy at spots. As I rounded the turn, I found myself in
a rutted line. My smaller bike and shorter body made it more difficult
to get through the deep rut and as powerful as my new bike seemed, it
definitely lost a bit of speed when forced to spin through the gooey
muck.
Breaking into the straightaway, I took another glance back and found
that the 2nd place rider had distanced herself from the 3rd place, and
she was still right on my tail. I couldn't allow myself to make any
more mistakes. It was too dangerous. Unfortunately, the ruts were
nothing in comparison to the next obstacle I was to face.
Screaming down the straightaway, my focus remained on that rider right
behind me. I knew this was no way to race. I knew that to be successful
I would have to ride my own race. But the threat of permanent
femininity suddenly began to resurface in my mind and cloud my
thoughts. I was quickly snapped back to reality though when I realized
what new obstacle was lying ahead of me. I cringed and braced myself
for the rapidly approaching series of "whoop-de-doos". Just to clarify
matters for the non-racers here, whoop-de-doos are a series of smaller
jumps, more like several humps placed tightly together. Imagine trying
to ride a bike over the backs of several unusually large camels, lying
in a straight line. It was the type of obstacle that required a precise
rhythm to manage if one expected to make it through without going over
their handlebars. Under normal racing circumstances I would have had
the composure to set myself up for these without too much difficulty.
But, with the threat of wearing tampons for the rest of my life still
knocking on the back door of my mind, I knew I just had to hang on and
pray for the best!
I barreled through them, and clung tightly to my handlebar grips for
dear life! Cursing under my breath, I realized this to be another
situation where my shorter legs and lack of arm strength put me at a
severe disadvantage. Luckily, there was a factor I didn't take into
consideration when I hit the first whoop. My lighter body and bike
helped to keep me from sinking into the depths of the whoops and wiping
out. I adjusted my style on the fly and my timing turned out better
than I could have imagined. I found myself skipping over the tops of
the whoops, almost better than I would have done before the change!
After my bike skimmed the top of the last whoop, I took a mental sigh
of relief. My confidence began to grow steadily, knowing I just turned
a potentially disastrous section of the track into my new strong point!
Minutes passed like seconds. My domination continued for the next
several laps. Every time I cleared a jump successfully or made it
through a technical section unscathed, my confidence grew. I had even
managed to distance myself from the 2nd place rider. The entire race
was going by in a blur. Apparently my dad must have pushed me in my
physical training as well. We were on lap fifteen of twenty and I was
barely winded. Granted, it definitely helped that I was lucky enough to
escape from the pack early and leave them battling amongst themselves.
By the 16th lap, I had amassed a comfortable lead. For the first time
since my transformation, I felt as if everything was going to be
alright. I had challenged the odds and had defied them! Four more laps
and Tyler would be forced to hold up his end of our agreement and
return my masculinity. Of course that bastard was going to keep me as a
fifteen year old, but after what I had to deal with today, as long as I
had a dick between my legs once more I knew I could be happy. I would
just stay out of his way from now on. I knew that I wouldn't be able to
race here again. I mean, he somehow has magical powers! I don't think I
could take another change of this magnitude! I shuddered at all the
possible changes he could make to me and quickly tried to put it out of
my mind. But the more I tried to ignore it, the angrier I got. I
started slamming the bike a little harder into each turn. Continuing to
think about what Tyler had done, how he had literally stripped me of my
masculinity, fired me up more and more! How dare he try to get away
with this? Ultimately, I knew it didn't matter. I was just minutes away
from getting my old life back! I don't know about the rest of these
chicks, but at least I proved that one could race motocross
effectively, no matter what their gender is!
Of course, that is when it happened. That is when my world came
crashing down in a spinning pile of metal and plastic. Through my
heightened rage I slammed into one corner a little harder than I wanted
to. I wasn't able to cut for the turn and I had to hit the brakes! My
tires gripped onto the dirt and I lost my momentum completely, leaving
me teetering on the high side of a berm (the ridge of dirt that forms a
corner). Unable to put my feet down, the bike tipped over on its side,
sending me rolling off to the ground. I could hear the gasps of the
audience as I tried to regain my bearings and get back up.
Thankfully, the only part of me that was hurt was my pride. I scrambled
back to the bike. A flagman quickly came out to warn the upcoming
riders that I was down. I yanked at the handlebars with all my might
and my worst fear was realized. It's too heavy, I can't lift this! I
struggled and struggled, trying desperately to get it upright. The
tears began to streak down my face, I knew what it meant if I couldn't
get going again. I could see the inside of my goggles begin to fog up
from my outburst. I even grabbed at the flagman, trying to get his
help. He gave me an apologetic expression, but just kept waving the
flag. Deep down I knew that he couldn't help me. It would have been
cheating. But I was desperate. Suddenly the race went from going super
fast to extremely slow. Every painstaking moment that I spent trying to
get going again felt like an eternity. This is it... it's over. I have
failed myself! Soon the 2nd place rider overtook me. I watched her go
by, examined her slinky feminine form as it clung tightly to the bike,
and realized that I would forevermore have a similar shape and build!
Life as I knew it was now over.
Have you ever heard the stories where a woman lifted a car to free her
hurt child from the wreckage? It was speculated that a sudden rush of
emotion and adrenaline could enhance a person's physical strength
substantially. As strange as it may sound, I was now facing a very
similar situation. The trapped child in this case was my manhood. It
was trapped under this bike and unless I could get it out, it would die
a quick but miserable death and I would be guilt-ridden for the rest of
my life! As the third place rider passed by, I threw all of my weight
(95 lbs?), hope and prayers into lifting the bike! I don't know if it
was adrenaline or what (sadly, I knew it couldn't have been from
testosterone), but miraculously it budged enough for me to get my body
underneath it.
I was on both knees, using all my effort to keep the bike from slamming
back to the ground. I knew that if I couldn't get this to work, the
upcoming years of my new life would probably have me on my knees quite
often. That final terrifying thought gave me the inspiration and power
I needed to extend my arms and body and bring the bike back to being on
two wheels. I huffed and puffed, feeling quite exhausted from all the
effort, but I knew I had no time to rest. I quickly slung a short,
shapely leg over the seat and started to kick. Four kicks and one race
position later, the bike screamed to life. I slammed it into gear,
checked to make sure no one was coming and began to climb this
tremendous pit I had foolishly just dug myself into.
Fifth place. I just went from a nice size lead to dropping into fifth
place with only four laps to go. I began to ride like a... well, a
woman possessed. I was feeling the exhaustion of my struggle with the
bike, but I didn't care. I may have been six minutes away from giving
myself a heart attack, but as long as there were only five more minutes
left in the race, I was going to stick to that pace! It didn't take me
long to catch the 4th place rider. But getting around her was another
thing. I didn't have time to practice passing with my new bike and
body, but as a guy, that was one of my specialties. Within two corners
I squeezed my bike on the inside of hers and made the pass stick. At
least that was somewhat painless. The chase was now on for a podium
spot.
Lap 16 3/4. My riding was beginning to get a bit sloppy, but whatever
section I couldn't finesse my way through, I pushed through with sheer
determination. I finally was on the heels of the 3rd place rider, but
she proved to be much shiftier than the 4th place girl. I could tell
that I wasn't going to get her in a corner. Every time I took an angle
to set her up for a corner, she would adjust her line to block me. She
seemed to excel at anticipating the moves of her pursuers. She seemed
like the type of rider who just needed a good start to get a win. I'm
sure she moved her way up from a weak start and the middle of the pack
(as opposed to starting in 2nd behind me and being passed). I wasted a
good half of the lap being stuck behind her. I knew that I was faster,
but there just wasn't a good place to pass. Fortunately for me, we
finally came to my sweet spot... the whoops section. If you would have
told me before the change that a girl's favorite section of a track
could be the whoop-de-doos, I would have laughed. It just doesn't make
sense. A section such as that favors taller riders, whose legs can soak
up some of the shock from those small, yet deep jumps. But throughout
the course of this race, I had found a quick way over them. Every lap I
fine tuned my stance and style as I skipped over the tops.
As good as the 3rd place rider was at blocking, her pace was no match
for mine through this section. I think I caught her off guard as I
started to pass her. She quickly tried to adjust and cut me off, but I
just made it by before she could get the angle on me. In fact, her
quick cut over the whoops nearly caused her to lose her timing and wipe
out. Damn women riders. I quickly apologized for that thought though.
She had given me one hell of a run for my money! But I still had NO
intentions of staying as one myself!
Lap 18 1/4. Time was running out. I needed to catch this 2nd place
rider and FAST! Unfortunately, we just passed the whoops section (it
helped me to catch up this much on her), and I knew I couldn't wait
until the next lap to make my move. It was hard for me to gather my
thoughts and be strategic at this point because I was so physically
exhausted! I just had to let my instincts take over and hope for the
best.
We began to near the section of track that I dreaded the most... the
long, choppy, downhill section. Motocross tracks consist of mostly
natural terrain, with some man-made jumps thrown in to make it more
challenging. Most of this track was built on the side of a hill. The
track steadily winds uphill, but then drops back down into a long,
steep downhill section. It's the fastest section of track being that
there aren't any jumps built into it. However, if your momentum is fast
enough at the top, you can spend half the trip down being airborne. The
part that worried me most was the lower part. That damn storm had left
sections of the track rather washed out and muddy. The promoters of the
race had done their best to try to dry out and groom the area, but
after a few races, it started to develop some crossing ruts. I had
managed to go through it smoothly when I had the lead, but that was due
in part to there being minimal pressure on me. Now that I was being
pushed to my limit, there was no telling if I could make it down
without wiping out. As we hit the straight section of track leading to
the crest of the hill, I was about to make the "ballsiest" move I had
made since losing them.
I cracked the throttle open just seconds before we were to hit the
drop-off. This allowed me to pull right beside the 2nd place rider. She
looked determined not to let me get her position that easily, but I had
an advantage over her. It was a question of who wanted it more and this
race meant EVERYTHING to me. At the final second, she backed off the
throttle. We both soared over edge of the hill. Without as much
momentum, her front end dropped quicker than mine and she landed about
a quarter of the way down the hill. As for me, I felt like I really
could fly as I soared through the air. Not even in my old body with my
bigger, more powerful bike, had I ever jumped this high coming off of
this hill. For a brief moment I felt as if I had just set myself free
from the world. I was free from the limitations and expectations of
this new body, free from sexual humiliation and prejudice. Free from
all the foreign sensations I had to endure for the past few hours. But,
the moment was brief and I quickly returned to reality. I still had a
huge weight upon my shoulders, or perhaps even more fittingly, upon my
chest. I knew the first step in making it disappear was to land this
jump.
I muscled the bike as best I could in the air, tapped the brake to
bring the front end slightly down, and braced myself for the landing. I
had soared over halfway down the hill and I knew the landing was to be
a rough one. It was like jumping into a mine field and praying that you
wouldn't explode. If I landed awkwardly on one of the ruts, there would
be no way of saving the bike. Finally my wheels made contact with the
dirt. After the initial contact, my bike began to sink! My life flashed
before me (my old life, not my new one). I thought I was soon to be
rolling on the ground in a tangled mess of long hair, boobs, and silky
smooth legs. But I quickly realized what was happening and I guided the
bike through it. It seems that I was fortunate enough to land on one of
the few firm areas of ground on that hill, but immediately afterward,
my bike dropped into a nearby rutted line.
Fresh from feeling like I just experienced a miracle, another
catastrophe was looming. As I rode this rut out, I realized it ended in
a crossing pattern (where this rut ended, two ruts crossed over in
different directions). Which should I choose? I was already near the
right edge of the track. If the right rut went too far, it could easily
send me off the track. If I would go through the left one too slowly, I
could end up colliding with the rider I just passed. Unfortunately, it
takes much longer for me to write this and for you to read it than the
actual amount of time that I had to decide. I went with the left rut,
praying that I had made enough time on the other girl to make the pass
stick. Maybe it was the best choice, maybe it wasn't, but the important
part was that I managed to ride it out and make it to the corner
unscathed. The other rider fell in behind me, but was no longer able to
keep up. A few turns later I was making my way over the finish line
jump. I was in 2nd place now. Most people would be satisfied with that.
It would place me on the podium and I would receive a trophy for my
efforts. But, I knew this race was all or nothing. I had two laps to
gain one more position or all would be for naught.
Luck plays a part in every race. Skill and determination can only
accomplish so much. Lady luck always seems to have somewhat of a say in
the final results. So far she had stripped me of my confidence by
allowing me to hit one bad corner and wipe out. But, she had also
helped me exit that hill on my bike rather than the inside of an
ambulance. It seems that she takes great joy in being disruptive. The
key is to try to avoid situations where she can be influential. My
anger and rage towards Tyler allowed her to sneak in and affect my
concentration. My desperation helped her to push me into making that
downhill leap. It turned out to be good luck for me, but bad luck for
my competitor. Though regardless of how much lady luck influenced this
race, I knew one thing for certain. It was no fluke that the first
place rider was still leading this race. The girl had to have talent.
For as frantically as I rode and no matter how desperate my situation,
I was barely gaining on her! The roles had been reversed. She was now
the one with the comfortable lead. She was now able to set the cruise
control, while the rest of us were scrapping with one another. Even
with doing all the double jumps, hitting the whoops smoothly and
managing the hill section (I backed off from the last lap, but I still
made it through in decent time), I could still see that she was a full
straightaway ahead of me. I jumped over the finish line jump and saw
that ugly flagman, waving that ugly white flag.
Usually that was a good sign, for it meant that there is only one more
lap left in the race. But to me, every wave of the flag felt like a
hammer striking the nails in my coffin. I could even read the
inscription on the tombstone. "Here lies Joseph Straub" Then just
beneath that. "May his manhood rest in peace". I couldn't let THAT
happen! I gathered myself for the final, fateful lap.
I flew by the pit area and noticed my parents were still there,
cheering me on. My father had been holding out a pit sign for me to
read as I went by each lap. After reading it the first couple of times
and seeing things such as "Good job, Jennie", "Don't push too hard,
sweetie", and "That's my girl", I realized that my father was much
better as a mechanic than as a motivational pit crew member. I didn't
even want to think about what they must have written after my crash.
Probably something like "Are you ok, pumpkin?" But for some reason, on
this final lap, I did glance up to see what feminized words of wisdom
they would have waiting for their little daughter. I felt somewhat
shocked as I read the words "We are proud" on the pit board. My parents
and I always had a decent relationship, but I would never have
considered us emotionally close. Maybe this new life at least had one
benefit to it. But, I couldn't see that as being enough to justify the
loss of my "Y" chromosome. I pushed onward.
Halfway through the final lap, I knew I was doomed. I still had barely
managed to gain any ground on the leader. I wasn't even close enough to
read the name on her jersey. I didn't need a mathematician to calculate
how much faster I needed to be going to make up enough time to win. It
was easy for me to tell that I just wasn't getting it done. If only I
wouldn't have crashed! I cursed myself for being so stupid! If I just
would have had the chance to race head to head with this girl, I KNEW I
could have taken her in the end. Hell, I was blowing her away until I
went down! My frustration started to rise, but I knew I had to relax.
Until all was said and done, I was in a race. I couldn't let myself get
emotional now! I noticed some of the spectators started making their
way away from the track. It seemed pretty obvious what the finished
results were going to be. With just a few turns remaining, the leader
was in prime position to finish off my masculinity.
Of course, that is when it happened. Lady Luck decided to play her one
final Ace. Halfway through the last jump-filled straightaway, the lead
girl lost her rhythm. I know because I was just entering the
straightaway as it happened. Could this be the chance I've been waiting
for? My mind was too frantic to think. It appeared as though her rear
end clipped the top of one of the jumps. The front end of her bike got
sent into an endo (basically she was momentarily balancing on the front
tire) as she was coming down the face of the jump. She didn't crash,
but it was enough to stop her completely in between two of the jumps.
As I started on the jumps myself, she got started again. I was gaining
on her! I doubled the first set of jumps as she was stuck having to
single the remaining two. I kept my momentum up, hoping beyond hope
that I could beat her to the corner. I am in control of my life, you
can't force me into panties! I know that I shouldn't have been angry
with this girl. After all, she was just trying to win a race. But it
was hard not to take anything personal when the stakes were this high.
As she finished the final jump, I was a split second behind, doubling
the last two on the inside of her. She hit the throttle as soon as she
found flat ground and tried desperately to out-run me to the corner.
But, just as men are physically more powerful than women, my bike was
more powerful than hers! As she took the outside line for the final
turn, her only chance to beat me to the corner, I began to set her up.
I maintained my inside line and tried to get the perfect angle for the
block pass. Only I never found it! Despite my recent fortune, I still
wasn't ahead enough to make the pass stick in the corner! I still had
the inside line, which gave me a chance. But it really only left me
with one option. The only way to win this would be to let my bike drift
wide into her's and force her off the track! My stomach churned at the
thought, but what other option did I have? We both flew into the corner
with speed and passion. The girl went wide and stuck firm to the
corner. I dove on the inside. Contact was never made. The girl cleanly
made it around and over the finish line jump. I followed her across by
a split second. What have I done?!!!
I slowly made my way back to the pits. I should say, Jennifer Straub,
the new me slowly made HER way back to the pits. It was over. I
couldn't bring myself to sink to Tyler's level of racing. I couldn't
make the dirty pass when it counted the most. What would have it
mattered? The girl would have been pissed, sure, but its not like she
was being transformed into a guy because of losing the race! My good
sportsmanship (sportswomanship?) had screwed me over. The 1st place
girl rode over my way and congratulated me on a great race. I could
barely mutter a "thanks". Of course the second person to congratulate
me on my 2nd place victory was Tyler.
"My oh my, isn't this something?" He gleamed.
"Please... I just want to be alone." I whimpered back.
"Humor me for a moment... so there you girls were, all locked in an
intense chicky battle and such... you HAD the perfect opportunity to
pass her at the end, but you wussed out! How fitting!" He really seemed
to be enjoying himself.
"It wasn't like that... it... it just wouldn't have been right..." I
countered.
"Oh but you could take me out in the corner when you still had your
balls, right? It sounds to me like you were listening to the whimpers
of your new pussy. All the girls I know seem to have that problem. Tell
me, does the vibration of the seat get you all wet and horny and
stuff?" He chuckled in delight.
"N... no, of course not!" But I couldn't deny that riding my bike DID
feel strange with my new crotch. It was a sensation I knew I would have
to get used to in the upcoming years. I sighed noticeably.
"What a sweet day! My greatest rival is now stuck as a teeny-bopper
chicky and I'm free to dominate this race! Hell with this ring, I could
be king of pro supercross and motocross! Why should I stop there? I
could even become the king of the world!" He looked towards the skies,
imagining the possibilities, as his eyes filled with a sinister shine.
Feeling rather scared, I began to try to sneak away.
"Where do you think, YOU'RE going? Get off your bike this instant!" His
voice had a bold, masculine strength to it. It was a sound I knew I
would no longer be able to emit. I shivered from the mere forcefulness
of it and quickly got off my bike.
Hmmm... so what now, sweetie? Should I turn you into an insatiable
slut? How about a nice bimbo? Wanna have the world's largest tits?" His
power-crazed gaze had me frozen with fear.
"Please, let me go... I promise I'll stay out of your way from now on!
I beg of you!" I couldn't believe how degrading this was, but I knew it
was my only choice.
"Well... okay, I guess stealing a guy's dick is pretty rotten enough
itself. I'll leave you alone if you agree to say some certain words for
me out loud in that cute, sexy voice of yours." He whispered in my ear
and I felt my skin go pale. Tears started to flow from my eyes. I tried
to stare into his cruel, cold eyes, but I felt my gaze drop in
submission. I knelt on both knees and in my warm, gentle, female voice
I began to speak...
"Tyler is a god. He dominates all who oppose him and can bring any girl
to their spreaded knees. I am a girl now and forevermore. I don't
deserve to be a man. Tyler did me the greatest favor ever. I love him
for it."
Feeling satisfied with himself, he patted me on the head.
"Okay, I'm sure your parents are looking for their precious daughter.
If I were you, I'd take special care that our lives don't cross paths
again. Who knows what I might feel like doing then?" He looked up and
down my girlish body, making me blush in feminine embarrassment. I
quickly got back on my bike and made my way towards my parents.
I was still shaking by the time I got over to the pit area. My parents
were excited for me that I had placed second, but as soon as they saw
my face, they knew I must be disappointed by it. They did their best to
console me, but they could tell that I was in no mood to speak. Usually
placing on the podium would have me feeling excited and proud of my
efforts. But as I stood on the podium with the other girls and received
my trophy, I only felt more and more reminded about my permanent
plight.
I held the trophy in my hands and looked down at it. It was an aluminum
rendition of a rider going over a jump. More specifically, you could
tell that the rider was a girl. I've never received a trophy that had
breasts before. But as we packed up my bike and started home, I
anticipated seeing a lot more of them in my new room. I was terrified
to ever go back to that track. I heard on the radio that Tyler won the
race. Lying in my silk nightgown, gripping onto my pink pillow,
surrounded by my boy band posters and stuffed animals, I cried myself
to sleep that night... and many nights thereafter.
*** 18 Years Later ***
I stood on the line with all the other women. Actually, fidgeted would
be a better way to describe it. If I wasn't messing with my sunglasses,
I was trying to keep my arms loose. If I wasn't shaking my head (and
that huge mass of hair spewing out of the back) I was adjusting my
jersey. Above all I was trying to keep my mind off of how much I was
dreading the dropping of the gate and the impending race. I knew this
very well may be the most important race of my life (even compared to
that fateful one years ago) and I wasn't sure if I was ready for it or
not. My body may have looked reasonably calm to anyone passing by, but
inside I was experiencing an overdose of the pre-race jitters! My
stomach was tied in knots. Was I making the right choice? It was too
late to turn back now.
I saw the 30 second board turn sideways, heard the familiar harmonious
buzzing of the motors around me and braced myself for the start. Just
as the metal gate contacted the dirt I closed my eyes. When I re-opened
them, the other bikes had already launched themselves down the
straightaway and were heading for the first turn. I took a deep sigh of
relief as I saw the pink FOX chest protector and jersey of the number
17 rider safely make it through the first turn. My husband Joe
(ironically enough) held me tight as we watched our 12 year old
daughter Emma take a clean start in her first ever co-ed motocross
race!
Sure, she had been a phenom in the 8-11 year old 60 cc. Girl's class.
But this was a nice sized leap to the 12-14 year old 80 cc. class. Add
to that the fact that 2 years ago the rules had been amended to allow
girls race with boys and you can understand my reservations! As
hypocritical as I knew I sounded, all I could think of was how MY
little girl could get hurt racing against the bigger boys! Her clean
start in this race allowed me to breathe a sigh of