Editor's notes: Well this one wasn't easy, that's for sure! It was
conceived, and articulated by someone else-and that someone is the main
person in the story. In other words, this is about a real individual.
However, taking her small tidbits of writing, both on disk and on
paper, and combining them into a workable article was very difficult.
As well, the first draft had a lot of holes, so I interviewed her to
get more details. Here is the final draft. Some points:
1) It#s long! At 60+k, one of the longest pieces recently published on
fictionmania. It got this way, because as an editor, I couldn't cut
anything out. The parts range from the mundane to the gripping.
2) Most physical things mentioned, are in fact real-homes, vehicles,
and places are real. I've changed names, and left out some place
details to protect peoples' identities. That said, I cannot vouch for a
lot of the scenes. Some may be real; some may be wishful thinking on
her part. You can believe what you want to believe. I've only edited
the work.
3) This is a sissy tale. And I hope you enjoy it!
As I said, earlier, this was a hard edit. As well, I acknowledge the
time line may seem odd. This is one place where things seemed foggy.
I've arranged things in a logical order. It may not be correct, but
without the full, substantiated story, it's the best that can happen.
Live with it.
Article notes: basically an autobiography-as I said about, I've simply
edited, conciliated, and written out this article. It goes all over the
place. I have the interview notes, and if people want them published,
leave a note on the review page.
NOTICE: DO NOT COPY, PRINT, SAVE AND PRINT, RE-POST, OR RE-TRANSMIT
THIS WRITTEN WORK! I RESERVE ALL RIGHT TO THIS STORY, AND PUTTING IT ON
THE INTERNET DOES NOT IMPLY ANY RIGHTS HAVE BEEN WAIVED OR REMOVED.
THIS STORY FEATURES STRONG SEXUAL THEMES, DOMININCE, TRANSGENDER
THEMES, AND OTHER ADULT THREMES. IF THESE OFFEND YOU, DO NOT READ!
Now that you've been warned, I hope everybody likes:
Ruby's story
By Ruby S.
Edited and published by Bojok71
It had been quite the boring, long ride of a life. Moreover, to be
frank I was sick of it. I wanted change-these started as small in the
beginning, but then those changes grew into massive things. I want to
tell you all about my change of life. I think you'll like them! I
really do!
Well, it all started a while ago now. At that time, I was living what
was basically a normal, heterosexual male life (apologies for that
stupid start, but it's the truth!). I had no idea I was gender
different-not in any way. That part just grew out of some changes I
made around sex. So I'll start at that logical place.
I was then 42, happily married, with a 20 yr old son, and an 18 yr old
daughter. My wife and I had just had our 21st wedding anniversary. I
owned a very successful computer company with several different units
(sales, company computer lease, software, peripheral supply and lease,
and internet service). I was very successful. Or so it seemed.
The problem was I simply wasn't happy. I felt empty, and unfulfilled.
These feelings where especially strong during sex, which I hated with a
passion-I simply didn't want to do it anymore.
I began to research answers to this dilemma online. I soon found out
all about castration, which is also called orchiectomy. At first, I was
afraid of this option. But then I found a surgeon who advertised this
service online. After a few E-mails with him, I was really intrigued
with this operation.
My wife, however, was very upset when I even broached this subject with
her. She was also very upset that our sex life had declined to nil.
When I reminded her of our wedding vows, she said, "Part of loving me
is having sexual relations with me. If you don't start producing some
results, I will go and find a man who will! I'm seriously thinking
about a divorce!"
That fight continued for several weeks. We tried marriage counseling,
but it wasn't working. However, I was busy thinking. I asked myself,
"Isn't this life? Why can't I be happy? If she loves me, why isn't my
happiness figuring in her mind? I began to doubt whither I ever loved
her at all. The whole thing seemed to be made for her."
I also thought about my children. I decided that they where both
adults-I had given them everything they had needed, but they didn't
really need me anymore-at least, not in caregiver role. They could live
with me changing-as well as me and their mother splitting up.
After doing this for a while, I was finally at peace with myself. I had
to visit that city for a computer convention anyway. I booked my
surgical visit over the internet, and received a very supportive E-mail
from the surgeon. I flew there on a Monday, but didn't enjoy the
convention. I decided that, after returning home, I was going to sell
off my business, and live off the money that this would create. I could
then give all my time over to hobbies, community and myself. I realized
these where the areas of concern that really mattered to me.
I visited the surgeon's private clinic the following Monday. He asked
me, "Do you want your scrotem removed as well? It should, by rights, be
removed."
I replied, "It will just be loose skin after surgery-just remove it,
please."
He then examined me completely, noting that I was uncircumcised. "I'll
do that, too. Otherwise, the skin will shrivel, and become painful," he
explained.
An hour later, I was being prepped. A friendly nurse shaved me bare
down there, and for some reason, I liked the smooth feeling. The
surgery went off without a hitch. I spent the night at the clinic, and
was released the next day. I visited the clinic once a day for the next
four days. I was then pronounced healed, and allowed to go home.
During the flight home, I realized just how peaceful I felt. An ugly
part of me had been removed. I also thought about my wife-I was at
peace with whatever she did. I thought about whom I should offer my
company too-that would be a big decision. I also thought about a very
good divorce lawyer I had spoken too, prior to my leaving. Everything
seemed ready to go-even though I didn't want to use that last person!
I arrived home late in the afternoon. My wife greeted me with a nod of
the head. I walked right up in front of her, smiled, and dropped my
pants. She stuttered, "What the hell?" and after looking a little
closer, screamed, "Where are your balls?! What did you do...?!" She
then jumped up at smacked me in the face!
I tried to explain, but she ran to our room. She started quickly
packing her clothes and possessions. She obviously didn't want to
talk, so I simply let her rant. I offered to go to a hotel, bur she
phoned a friend of hers, and then left.
I phoned my lawyer, and explained what had happened, as well as what I
had done. She commented, "So she left. Come see me tomorrow morning, at
my office. In the meantime, don't say anything to anyone about this.
However, report that assault to the police. The documentation will help
us in the long term. Then, go and get money out of any joint accounts
you have, and suspend and links she has to your money. Then try to
relax, and get some sleep. We'll talk about this in the morning."
I followed her directions. Two policewomen came and photographed my
then slightly bruised face. I also got my money out of the two joint
accounts. Luckily for her, she had a good job as an office manager, and
most of our banking was separate.
The interview with Jennifer, my new lawyer, was both professional and
through. She seemed very interested in my case. Warning me not to
discuss my plan to sell my company with anyone until my divorce was
final. "Otherwise, you will pay. But with her income, if you play your
cards right, she will pay." She noted that I had received no help from
my wife to build my company, as well as the fact that I had paid all
the mortgage payments. She commented that all this would help me win my
case. She informed me that my kids where adults, and no court would
order me to support them. I was relieved at that-while I wanted to help
my kids, I didn't want them used as pawns by my wife.
The next few days went by slowly. My wife returned to the house, and
collected the rest of her things. She blabbed, "I've got a new man
already. He's a better fuck then you ever where!" She also returned her
wedding and engagement rings to me, saying, "I don't want them. I could
pawn them, but that's too messy." I merely grinned, which infuriated
her more. I asked about settlement, and she replied, "I don't want
anything from you. I just want my life back. I can take care of myself,
thank you very much!" She then left the house.
I phoned Jennifer to ask about the legality of my wife's new
relationship. Jennifer was ecstatic with that news. "I'm getting a
private eye to follow them. You see, she's cheating on you. As well,
and a hate saying this to you, but this is awful quick. I think she
knew him before this happened. Infidelity will look very bad on her.
I've also received her tax records today-she's richer then you!"
I interrupted with, "What to you mean?"
She replied, "I think she hid money from you. I think she's been having
an affair on you. I plan to prove both points. Is that clear enough?"
I mumbled, "Yes," and hung up.
Over the next month Jennifer prepared my case. My wife had indeed hid
money from me. Jennifer's PI had uncovered my wife's relationship, as
well as proof that it had been going on for quite a long time. Any
worry I had about divorce had gone-it seemed that I could win.
And Jennifer did just that! My wife's lawyer (a cheap kid, fresh out of
school) was no match for my experienced divorce court attack dog! In
the end, I walked out with my house, a check from her for $75 000, and
a monthly payment of $425. As well, she was ordered to add me to her
company medical and dental plans-things I never really knew she had!
After paying Jennifer's bill, which was large but worth every penny, I
was free. I then pawned those rings (with the best feeling!), and spent
the money on a fancy dinner to celebrate.
However, problems where coming to the forefront. While I quickly found
a suitable buyer for my company, the free time that that decision
brought was large. As well, I soon found that a suburb was no place to
launch an artist's existence. There where no local resources, or peers.
However, I soon discovered an artist's area in a large nearby city. I
visited it, and found all sorts of resources-many of which where free!
The only problem was the commute-close to two hours, both ways.
Then one day, during a visit to that area, I wandered through the area
north of the artists' area, a place called "the Indian bazaar". I was
intrigued by all the shops, as well as the sights, the smells, and the
friendly people. Then I came to the display window that would change my
life!
The mannequin in the window was wearing the most colorful and pretty
outfit I had ever seen! It was a yellow with black polka dot "pajama"
suit. The bottom of the pant legs where trimmed with yellow lace, and
the top had a mandarin collar. I gazed on the clothing for several
minutes. I noticed other inspiring but similar clothing in the shop. I
went in for a closer look. In retrospect, I'm glad I did. I'm wearing
that outfit right now, as I am typing.
After my entry, I was warmly greeted by the shops owner, a woman named
Lada. I asked about the outfit in the window, and she replied, "Oh,
yes. That is a very pretty outfit! While it is made for a woman, do you
want to try it on? You are not the first man who has bought them from
me!" She was giggling at that.
I stuttered, "Oh, no! You, see I'm an artist! I'm inspired by the
colors and the material. I'd never wear woman's clothes..."
However, part of me did want to wear the colorful, pretty outfit. I was
really lost, but Lada said, as she smiled, "Oh I see! Well, you can buy
the clothing for that purpose! I do not mind."
As she talked, I noticed that she was wearing a similar outfit-only
hers was in a soft blue color. I noticed her flat shoes, earrings, nose
stud, and pretty hairdo. I suddenly wanted all of that. As I was lost
in thought, she noticed that I wasn't listening, and touched my arm to
bring me back to reality. I nodded that I wanted the clothing. She
disappeared into the back of the store, and then brought me out the
outfit. She demonstrated just how fully cut the clothing was- the
trousers where massive! I paid for the clothing, blushed, and left as
she said, "Good bye! Please come again soon!" I looked both ways, to
see if anyone had seen me leave. I drove straight home, at top speed.
In the privacy of my house, I could examine the clothing. I tried it
on-hell no one could see me. I felt strangely contented and somehow,
"proper" in the clothing. I felt complete in the outfit. However, I was
suddenly offended by my male underpants and shoes. I fought with my
emotions for a few minutes, and then stripped off the clothing. I was
surprised by myself. What had just happened?
I fought with them new urges for the next week. Sometimes I wanted a
whole closet of just those suits, and then I'd realize I was thinking
about female clothing! It was a hard fight.
I was also getting very upset with my neighborhood. It seemed so dull
and suburban. I longed for the artist's colony that I was visiting
every second day. I began to think again. I realized that I no longer
had any attachment to my home. I thought," Maybe, I should sell this
place, and buy in the city. But what about crime? Violence? Housing?
Services? I needed answers. So I decided to slowly explore re-location.
I know that my suburban home would fetch a large selling price (many
people wanted to live in that community, mostly young families). I
realized this was a route of exploration. Simply put-a trip I needed to
take!
I began my adventure by slowly visiting residential areas near both the
bazaar and the colony. I was surprised to discover that I actually had
many options for a house! During these trips, I was drawn to an area
that bordered those areas, as well as Greek town. It was all large old
houses on side streets. I learned that they housed a lot of families,
and the area was really very crime and noise free. As well, things like
grocery stores where close. Things seemed to be looking up for me!
I then contacted a real estate agent down there-she seemed to have
several ideas! One of which was a large old house that had been used as
a home for mental patients. The owner was now selling it. A visit to it
revealed a cockroach infested dirty hole that was falling apart: but
the house seemed in good shape structurally, and was cheap. It thought
to myself, "It can be cleaned-it can be rebuilt with all the latest
features!" I asked for a professional inspection of the house, to find
any hidden issues. I also started thinking about what I wanted in that
house-colors, appliances, and organization. I felt that I really wanted
that place as my own!
I also brought that agent to my then present home-she was very
impressed, and recommended a high sale price. She noted, "In fact, you
should make money selling this house and buying that other one you like
so much! In fact I will cut my commission on this sale to 2% both ways,
because you are helping out so many people down there! By getting rid
of that house for crack heads and crazies, you're cleaning up the
neighborhood! You can invest the extra proceeds in fixing up that
place." I just nodded agreement.
The report was given to me the next week. While it listed two and a
half pages of needed repairs, and I had added an extra page of
upgrades, there was nothing mind bending. The house would simply have
to be gutted, fumigated, and rebuilt. And the landlord only wanted $800
000 for the place. I could pay that out of profits from selling my
business! The math looked very good indeed: I was actually coming out
ahead.
The deal closed on one day-and I had the demolition people in there the
next day. I used a close, local associate of my real estate agent as
contractor. Soon the work was moving along quickly. Everything was new-
electrics, plumbing, roof and windows. I got the brickwork cleaned and
re grouted. In was soon looking like a nice, fresh home, instead of the
dump I had bought! After some weeks of this a found a buyer for my old
home-one ready to pay my price! I phoned my children, to inform them of
this-and only my daughter shed any tears. But they didn't make me hold
off. But in the end both of them accepted this. Not that that would
have changed my mind.
I made several trips to the city to pick out carpets, paints,
appliances, and plumbing fixtures. I let my creative drive make the
house-I didn't hire a decorator. If I wanted soft pink walls in my
bedroom (I took the largest upstairs room, with a window facing the
back of the house, for my private bedroom), and soft blue in my private
living room, that was what I got. I also bought all new, commercial
grade appliances (I figured they where worth it) and soft, heavy duty
carpets. Yes, it was all coming together.
I was also taking a serious look at my remaining furniture. While my
wife had taken the best pieces, even the leftovers seemed to be more
"her" then "me". I decided one night that I didn't want to take them.
After phoning my children-to see if they wanted anything-I sold
everything that was left though a series of cheap classified ads. I was
so pleased with myself: I had made some money, and didn't have to even
hire a mover! After prowling the city's furniture outlets and shops
(including some very trendy ones) I had picked out all new furniture
and electronics. I had bought only the best. Everything seemed to be
coming along nicely. The only problem was the outfit-it seemed to be
the only thing I wanted to wear. It felt "right". I wanted to wear it
in public, but was very worried about that-what would happen?
After a couple of more weeks, the house was finished. I received and
signed off on the final inspection report-everything was ready to go. I
rented a van to move my few things, as well as to take things to the
dump. All that went into the new house where my clothes. Everything
else was new.
The first few days in the new place where spent settling in, finding
the grocery store (there where three good ones a few blocks away), and
setting up the house. How I just loved the place-it had no wife signs,
no suburbs, only urban living. Everything seemed perfect!
But again the outfit came out. I was wearing it every day, but still in
private. As well, the new bed was an issue. I had bought a single, but
it felt-small. So I moved it into a spare room, and went shopping. I
settled on a soft, well-made, king size model. I also bought lots of
soft pillows for it, and new silk sheets, soft cashmere blankets, and a
very expensive, goose down quilt. While the new HVAC system would
insure a constant 23 degrees C, I still wanted a warm, cozy bed. And
what I wanted I got.
Now, back to the outfit. I was visiting the bazaar every second day. I
found that several of the shops down there had those nice clothes, as
well as soft shoes, and pretty lingerie. I was beside myself-what was
happening to me? I had never had these feelings before-why now? Then I
thought to myself," Maybe these feelings are just surfacing now. Maybe
I've just repressed them. Maybe I should act on them, if only for my
sake.". Those where life changing thoughts.
So I went shopping. I bought another pajama suit: this one was in a
very soft blue color. And I was honest with Lada-I tried this one on,
and looked in the mirror. I thought I looked very pretty. Lada never
blushed or said anything bad-I guess a sale is a sale!
Then she came with a large plastic bag. I thought it was for my new
clothes. However, she packed up what I had worn into the store. "We are
going for lunch. I will treat you to a taste of India. I think you need
to do this. Let's go!" She put her arm around me, and before I could
say anything, she had led me out of the store. She placed a "gone to
lunch" sign in the window, and locked the door. I was wearing female
clothes in public. I was so afraid but I carried on.
She took me to a shoe shop. She spoke, saying, "those runners are not
very female. We will get you some flat pumps to go with that outfit."
she chatted with the saleslady there, who soon brought me a box. Inside
where a pair of soft blue, no heel pumps. She had me try them on-they
felt funny, but I was told they where a good fit. Lada packed my old
shoes into the box, telling me, "Runners are fine for your home, or
anywhere you need cheap shoes. But for outside in public, especially
dressed like that, you need soft, feminine shoes." I handed over my
credit card, and paid for the shoes.
Then we went to lunch. I had never tasted such spicy but delicious
food! The meal was large and excellent-veggie curry, rice, butter
chicken, and greens. I ate the whole thing (washed down with a pitcher
of water!). Then, the cook came out. He was a huge, east Indian man-and
I was suddenly very scared. However, he was nice. He chatted with Lada
for a minute, and then turned to me.
"Hello, miss," he began. He grinned, and continued with, "What is your
name? At least, what is your girl name?"
I blushed, and stuttered, "I I don't know."
He touched my upper arm gently, and softly said, "I think Ruby is a
nice first name. It is very girlie and sweet. Don't you think so,
Lada?" She smiled and nodded yes. The man then hugged us both in a
strong, powerful grasp. I was surprised by the gentleness and strength
of this man. He then spoke again, saying, "You've obviously met my
niece Lada. And you, like her, can call me Uncle Samson. Or simply just
Uncle Sam. Judging from the looks of things, you need family." I was
suddenly very emotional, and started to cry as we exited the
restaurant. I went home-I didn't even get my male clothes from Lada.
"Throw them out, please. I don't think I'll need them anymore!"
The next two weeks where spent in a shopping tizzy. I bought several
more brightly colored pajama suits from Lada, and some of the other
woman's clothing outlets in the Bazaar area. I also invested in several
pairs of good flat shoes, as well as vans (good quality slip on
sneakers), soft patent leather zip up boots with a small heel, and
sandals. I bought pink silk pajamas for sleeping and lounging. I was
becoming a real girlie girl!
I also braved shopping for underclothes. Lada took me to a small shop
in the bazaar where an older East Indian woman made soft underpants by
hand on a loom. I bought six pairs (all the stock she had in my size).
I loved the soft feel and silky touch of my new panties. I also bought
lingerie for an exclusive store. I then packed up all my male clothing
(apart for a couple of sweaters) and gave it to charity. I was becoming
very womanly in appearance. I wasn't really trying, but it was just
happening.
Of course I was worried about my face and hair. Even though I was
shaving very carefully every day, I still had facial hair. After some
research, I found a woman's day spa that offered both laser and
electrolysis. After a consultation, I decided on both laser (for dark
hair) and electrolysis (for lighter hair) mixed together. It would be
expensive, but do the job in a shorter time. I started going once a
week for two hours of treatment. Soon, I began to notice a much
smoother, hair free face. I also had a technician there pierce my ears.
I then began to wear three sets of real diamond studs-one large set
first, then a small set, then finally, a tiny set to finish the look. I
also had her put two small pairs of 24k gold studs between the sets of
diamonds. After they healed, I planned to put small gold hoops in those
holes. I also had a single gold stud put in the side of my nose. I
thought it was cute but unique!
However, all this growth and personal discovery was getting in the way
of my housekeeping- the place was a mess! I decided that rather then
slow down; I would hire a woman to keep the place clean for me. But
whom to trust? I decided to approach the local community health centre
for a recommendation. After phoning, I was referred to a "Case
manager", who seemed very interested in me and my welfare. Her name was
Ruth.
After discussing the events of the past month, she said, "Well, yes, I
agree you're changing. As well, I agree that should come first. I'll
get a cleaner to visit your house every day, and take care of both you
and the house. As well, I think I can help you too. Help out with
things like bill paying, for example." When I asked about cost, she
shook her head and said, "You are dealing with a large set of mental
health issues. Don't worry about paying. Let the system work for you! I
mean you are paying for it!" I agreed with her. She the told me that,
"You will get to meet some ladies that do housekeeping after I've
arranged it. Then, after you've met them, you can pick the ones you
think you will like and trust. Is this all right?" Again, I could only
agree with her.
After a tour of the centre, and meeting most of the staff, I was asked
if I needed anything else. I was curious about the foot doctor, or
chiropodist, who I then saw. He was a very friendly man who expertly
cut and filed (with a dremal motor tool!) my toenails. He then tended
to my feet, removing any buildup of old skin, and massaging them. I was
in heaven! He then shaved a few odd hairs from my feet, and painted my
toenails a soft mauve color. I thanked him for all his work, as my feet
looked perfect. He instructed me to: "Return and see me every three
weeks for foot care. You have a badly ingrown toenail, which I want to
treat. In fact throw out any toenail clippers that you own! Do you
understand?" I agreed and we left him to his next patient.
Ruth then returned and offered me a doctor's care. "If you want hormone
treatments, or other feminization, we can certainly help you. In fact,
I think you need those things. Please let us help you out!"
I told her I would think about those things, and we would talk about it
more during my next visit, which was only in a week. I left with more
on my mind then ever. What was happening to me?
As I returned home, still thinking about the days events, I took a good
long look at my car. It was a five-year-old Chevrolet. I remembered I
had bought it with my wife. It was suddenly so old and ugly. I said to
myself, "I need new wheels. Something that is downtown, something that
shows me. So what do I want?"
I spent that evening at the car lots. In this city, all the lots are
located in one part of the city. So off I went. After reviewing a few
choices, I realized that I, in fact, need two cars-a small one for
neighborhood stuff, and a larger car for longer drives. After reviewing
several Japanese, European, and American cars, I settled on a good size
Mercedes-Benz for large drives, as it handled like a dream. I also
bought a small Smart car from the same dealership. After trading the
old one, and signing some forms, I had two new cars. Over the next
week, I brought both cars home-I was lucky that I had had the foresight
to have a large new garage built during the house renovation, because
now I needed the space! Indeed, these where good choices. Wither I'm
going out for an elegant meal, or going for groceries, both cars work
in tandem. I'm very happy with them both.
By this time, my hair treatments had removed most of my facial hair,
and my earrings had healed. I had my hair trimmed into a soft full
style, and dyed to cover some grey. That grey had never worried me
until now, but my stylist easily covered it up. I was starting to hear
more "madams" then "sirs" in public. I guess I was just looking good!
Then I interviewed, along with Ruth, some housekeeping help. I picked a
21 yr-old Chinese woman named Emily who seemed very nice, and not
scared of my gender state. It had been decided that the centre would
pay 60% of her wages, and I would pick up the rest. She was both bonded
and insured, so I had really no worries about her. She would do my
housekeeping only, for a start. It seemed all right.
I also agreed to try a hormone treatment program from one of the
centre's doctors. After an examination and blood test, she started me
on a low dose of hormones. She commented, "As you are already
castrated, there is no need for a lot of drugs. Just take your pills
every day with food, and you'll be OK." She then listed the side
effects of hormones, including weight gain, breast and bottom growth,
and the very slim possibility of blood clots and liver damage. "But
those risks are very slim, and as we are monitoring you every three
months, we should catch any problems before they cause trouble."
After filling the prescription, I went home, and that evening, I start
hormone therapy. After a little while, I noticed much smoother skin,
breast buds, and weight gain-without any help from me. These changes
accelerated as my hormone doses where increased over a short time. As
well, my hair started to really grow. While I wasn't at all balding
before this started, my hair was now growing both quicker and fuller.
Indeed, I soon needed a hair trim every few weeks.
As well, Emily was really working out well, but she seemed to be doing
more and more, as she found more and more to do. Soon she was working
in my house almost every day, often for several hours at a time. She
started calling me "honey" and other pet names. We became very close!
She was soon not only doing housework, but cooking and freezing good
quality meals. I soon learned she was also an excellent cook! It was
however; after she did some laundry that I learned she could be quite
dominant. Not that I mind now, but then it was a surprise! I guess I
should explain.
I was relaxing in my private living room while she did some laundry. As
soon as she started the load, she appeared in my room, saying, "I'm
sorry but I cannot do that wash-it is disgusting! I found something in
your underpants that..."
At that I blushed and cut in, offering, "Oh dear, I'm so sorry! You
don't have to wash those! I'll do those, I'm sorry!"
She then frowned, and replied, "It's not that I don't want to wash your
delicate panties, because I do. If you kept up your hygiene, we
wouldn't even be having this chat. I guess I'll have to tend on that as
well, sweetie."
My face must have shown my confusion, as she grabbed my hand and took
me to the washing area. She was very strong, as I was learning. She
donned a pair of latex gloves, and held up a pair of my silk
underpants. I simply nodded my head in confusion. She then pulled
something out one of the seams, and held up a long, dark pubic hair!
She then explained, "Honey, I find this is very butch! If you where the
woman I thought you where, I wouldn't find this in your panties,
because the hair there would be mostly shaved, and the rest would be
very short and trimmed. I'm very disappointed in you, sweetie! So
here's what WE are going to do: I'm leaving for now. I'm returning
tomorrow morning first thing, with proper trimmers and shaving
equipment, and that big bush is going bye-bye! If you refuse, I'm going
bye-bye! And I think you'd have a hard time replacing me! But I don't
think you're the refusing type, are you sweetie?"
I started to blubber and cry. I was upset at this, because I had never
even thought of that! She then took a Kleenex from her pocket, and blew
my nose.
"Oh, stop crying! I'm not leaving you-if you co-operate with me.
Besides, you'll feel very femme after I'm done."
She then put her hand down the front of my pajama bottoms. She felt
around, and then pulled the bottoms down. She looked at my heavy, thick
pubic hair in disgust. She spoke, "Are you an animal? Only they should
wear this much fur! It's a good thing I caught this, now before you
found, oh, say, a man. He'd be very disgusted by this. As am I!" I felt
awful! She pulled my bottoms back up, and said, "It's all over soon. It
will be better tomorrow!"
At that I felt a little bit better. We went upstairs, and she showed me
the chicken dinner she had left for me to heat up. At the door, she
instructed me, saying, "Now don't you even think of shaving yourself-
the result will be ugly! You just relax, and try to sleep. I'll deal
with everything in the morning. By the way, tomorrow should be my day
off, but duty calls! Now eat and go to bed! And honey, I'll see you in
the morning."
After eating (and finding I had little appetite) and trying to sleep
(which was very hard-and even when I dozed, I imagined Emily doing
scary things to me) after a very long night, morning came. A small part
of me wanted to run away, but then I thought, "No, she's right. I am
femme. And this kind of help shows hoe dedicated she is to my welfare.
And on her day off even!" I then looked forward to her visit.
She arrived promptly in the morning, with some shopping bags in her
arms. I was in sleeping pajamas when she entered the house. "Go up to
the spare bedroom, honey. We'll do it there!" We entered the room, and
she set to work. Emily placed a new blanket on top of the bed, followed
by a large, thick cotton towel. She then opened a small paperboard box,
and removed an electric hair trimmer. She opened a small plastic box,
removed a battery and placed that into the trimmer. She then placed a
pink can of woman's shaving cream and a bag of pink razors on the
nightstand. She then took a big plastic bowl and went to the bathroom,
returning with in full of warm water. She plugged a small heating coil
into the wall socket, and dropped the coil into the water. She then
turned to talk to me, asking, "Did you sleep well last night?"
I replied, "Yes," and she said, "Those bags under your eyes tell me you
are lying, sweetie. Don't ever lie to me. And you should trust me-I'd
never hurt you. Now strip, and lie on the towel, please."
I obeyed her. After I lay down, she donned latex gloves, and used her
fingers to trace the outline of my pubic hair.
"This is huge, and hugely ugly! One of the biggest bushes I've ever
seen. Now imagine this hairy thing sticking out of the leg holes of
your pretty panties. No more! Imagine this bush against the silk in
those panties-no more! Well, time is wasting, so I'm going to get
started. Just relax, and trust Me," she said in a clear, controlling
voice.
She picked up the electric trimmer first, and trimmed the mound. She
then lifted my small penis, saying, "Honey, you can afford a full
change. Go for it!" She then trimmed between my legs. The vibration and
buzz of the trimmer where both scary and exciting. She then placed my
feet flat of the towel, and forced my legs apart and up at the same
time. She then did the area around my anus, and between my scar and
anus. I was humiliated, but she said nothing.
After finishing, and replacing the towel, she had me lay down again.
She put a wet, warm washcloth on my freshly trimmed parts, commenting,
"You should get laser on this after your face is done! Otherwise, it's
going to be once a week, honey. Pick your poison!" She then picked up
the can of cream, and sprayed in right on my mound. After working the
cream with her fingers until the whole area was covered in a thick coat
of cream, she picked up a safety razor. "Now sweetie, this blade is
very sharp and fresh. Just relax. It's me between your legs-just
remember that!" She then shaved the whole thing smooth, working from
top to bottom. She replaced the razor twice, to insure a fresh blade.
She pulled skin taunt, then shaved it, always checking for the
smoothest job. Eventually, she finished up. But she was not done.
She then washed the area with fresh water from the bowl. She then took
the third towel (they came in a big plastic zip bag, three in a
package), and patted me dry. She then took a bottle of cream skin
conditioner (the pink label advertised, "With aloe and cocoa butter and
protein") and generously worked a lot of the cream into my now smooth
pubis. She was singing to herself as she finished. She seemed very
proud and happy. She spoke as she beamed, "Now that wasn't bad, was it?
That huge ugly bush is now a smooth shaved pussy. You're a lot closer
to girlhood now! Now that is something to be proud of! I know I'm proud
of you, honey. It may feel a little different today-so don't wear any
panties if you don't want to." She then giggled, "And please don't
expose that to anyone. Keep it a secret-the world doesn't want to share
this great moment!"
She then cleaned up her stuff, taking the new towels to the wash. She
then took me back to my main bedroom, dressed me in fresh pajamas, and
put me to bed.
She commented before she left, "Now you should have complete trust in
me! You can discuss anything with me. I know you pretty completely now.
So sleep. I'll see you tomorrow! Take care!" and with that, she smiled
and left. I quickly fell into a deep, sound sleep.
I was awoken a few hours later by the telephone beside my bed. I
groggily answered it. To my surprise, and horror, it was Ruth at the
other end! After exchanging pleasantries, she asked how I was doing.
"Oh, fine," I sheepishly replied.
"You know I don't believe that. I mean you must be traumatized! I mean
that in the best way, but still, I know you've been through an
important milestone today. I want to see you, and discuss it."
I gasped, and cried, "How do you know about that? Oh god, don't punish
or fire Emily-I couldn't live if that happened! Please, don't hurt her
or me!" I was beside myself with grief and shock.
"Please calm down, honey! Where do you think the money to buy those
lovely towels came from? My petty cash fund, that's where! And how do
the think Emily got the ability to do what she did? Because I told her
to, that's why! I want to encourage you, and build up your self-esteem,
that's all. Now let's be very positive from now on, ok?"
I agreed with her. She told me that she was going to pick me up in 45
minutes, and take me for lunch. "I've already booked the mocha house
for us. Is that OK?" she asked.
I replied, "That's very pricey, can you afford it?"
She exclaimed, "Yes, I can afford it! It's booked for both of us! Don't
worry about prices-don't worry about anything at all! Understand?"
I agreed, and we said good bye.
I dressed in a bright pink pajama suit. As it was cool out, I added a
cable knit, pink sweater, and a pink hat. The feeling of silk panties
on my smooth crotch was different, but very nice. I added pinkish white
flats, and went to wait for my ride. I wondered what she was going to
discuss.
She arrived promptly, with a small Toyota. We drove down the street,
and parked behind the caf?. She held my hand as we entered the caf?. As
soon as we entered, we were whisked to a private seating area at the
back of the caf?. We sat in large soft leather recliners. A young woman
brought us a large platter with many different kinds of sandwiches on
it. She then left, returning the first time with a plate of Italian
bread that was steaming, next, with a plate that had several different
ice-cold bottles of fruit juice and soda pop.
Ruth smiled, and said, "Now I know you're famished, so eat up!"
I needed no instructions, as I was very hungry. I ate several
sandwiches, as well as some of the bread. It was all very good, and
soon my hunger was gone. Ruth then raised her hand, and the young lady
returned, and cleared the dishes. She then returned with another large
plate, this one of large cookies, tarts, and squares. She then returned
with a big jug of coffee, and cups. After a leisurely dessert, she
offered me a wrapped box.
I commented, "That's to pretty to open." But she told me to. I gasped
as I opened the box, because inside was a delicate gold watch. A piece
of paper inside attested that it was a genuine woman's Gucci watch!
"How did you afford this? I can't accept this!" I exclaimed.
She grinned, and offered, "Well, that gift is from a fund the centre
has. It's for me to buy gifts for major events in people's lives. You
just had a major event, and today, we celebrate! Now open this next
one, please." She gave me a small box. Inside of that one was a razor
phone. It was already activated, and on. She explained, "The phone is
so that you can contact me, the centre, or Emily at any time. Again
from a centre fund-I told the boss that I was worried about your
safety, so I was allowed to buy you that phone. The only thing it will
not do is long distance. However, the access code for long distance is
in the phones' memory, so you can use that, and you don't pay for
anything! Don't we take good care of you?"
I could only agree.
I finished the cookies, and talked with Ruth about small stuff. Then
see got serious, asking me if I was satisfied with the job Emily had
done. "I don't want you to feel are rough spots, loose hairs, or
stubble. Is that all gone? If there's any problem, tell me now, and
I'll get a centre nurse to fix it! So, any issues?" I nodded no, but
she said, "I want to see for myself."
We went into the woman's bathroom, and she locked the door. After I
dropped my pants, she examined the job, before declaring, "Yes, it's
perfect. I just wanted to see for my own self. Looks good!"
We then returned to the car, and drove to the centre. Inside, I thought
we where going to her office, but instead, she stopped at the front
desk. After getting a disposable toothbrush, and a tube of toothpaste,
we went to a locked bathroom. Inside, she told me to brush my teeth. I
obeyed, cleaning my teeth until she was happy. She looked in my mouth,
then said, "It's a shame I can't get dental care for you without a
board approval. You're mouth is ugly-filled with metal fillings. If we
could get you dental care, all those problems would vanish, and you
would look so much better."
I replied, "I think, and I'm not sure...but I think that my ex-wife was
supposed to provide me with dental insurance. But I'm not sure."
Ruth then said, "If that's true, and I believe you, then I'll find out
what you can get. How does that sound?"
I begged her not to, saying, "I'm afraid of her finding out where I
live! I don't want her to know any of that! And I don't want the
money..."
At that she cut me off, saying in a loud voice, "What money? If you're
owed support money, I'm going to get you every dime! You deserve it
all! And don't worry about her knowing anything about your house-she
doesn't have too!"
A minute later, she calmed down and spoke, "I'm sorry about that
outburst-it's not your fault. Things like that upset me. And you've got
to learn to trust me totally, and not hold back anything from me, so I
can help you, and plan for you. I only want what's best for you. You
got to believe that." She then gave me a big hug. I felt much better
after that.
By then it was getting late, and the centre was quiet. As Ruth was
showing me to her car to drive me home, a large man with grey hair, and
wearing a shirt and tie appeared, and started talking to Ruth. I was
very afraid-he was a man, with obvious power. I went to hide, but Ruth
gently held me. She said to me, "Ruby, this is Alec, my boss. Don't be
afraid. He already knows all about you from case conference. And he
only wants to help and support you. Don't you Alec?" I caught him
grinning out of the corner of my eye, and looked at the floor,
trembling. I was very scared of him.
He spoke in a soft voice, "Don't be afraid. I'll never hurt you. I only
want to help you. I think I know something that will help us get to
know each other a lot better." He led both me and Ruth into a large
office. He went into a closet, and returned with a large brown teddy
bear. He handed me the bear, and I instinctively hugged it. He then
spoke to Ruth, "Now, how can I help her? What do you need me to do for
her, or for you to help her?"
At that I gasped, and Ruth then dutifully told him all about the
insurance and support money issue. "No problem, I'll get started on
that tomorrow. I'll get her what is hers." He then turned to me,
saying, "You can keep the bear. In a little while, will start having
long chats, too. I want you to have nothing but trusted friends in this
building, including both male and female. Now, I'll bet you're hungry.
Can I take you for something to eat?"
At that Ruth hugged me, and said, "I think that's a good idea-you can
get to know Alec a bit better." She then winked and continued, "He buys
very good dinners, too." At that she touched my arm, and left.
We went out to his big car (a Lincoln) and he drove us to a Greek
restaurant. We went in, and ate a large meal. We made small talk, but I
was very reserved, and still a little afraid. He commented, "I know
what you've been through-it's all been very hard on you. But you can
trust me. I know that will take time, but remember, I'm not going
anywhere. Now, do you feel any better around me now that you've had
this meal with me?"
I told him, "Yes, a little. It's just that you're a man. I'm afraid of
you simply because of that."
He said, "I understand that. But I want to understand you. And
remember, I have a lot of sway over the funders and the board. I can
get you all kinds of supports and services, but you need to talk to me-
and to trust me. Is that OK?"
I said yes, and he took me home. As I cuddled up to sleep with the
teddy, I wondered about him. He seemed nice, but it would take a while
before a trusted him as much as Ruth or Emily.
A week after that, Ruth called that Alec had completed my insurance and
support claim. While she phoned me every day to check in on me, this
one was serious. She said, "We found her, and sent her a letter of
claim. The court is enforcing your support order! Now, I can get your
teeth fixed! I already picked an excellent dentist to do all the work,
and you're first appointment is next week. I will fill you in the rest
of it during our weekly outing tomorrow. And by the way, your checks
will be coming here-this is the address Alec used on the paperwork. So
no worries about being found out, OK?" I wanted to talk, but she said,
"I'm very sorry, but I have to go. I'm going to hang up now, OK? Good-
bye." I said good bye and hung up as well.
Later that day, after Emily had left, I started to think about the
earlier call. Why did she hang up? Why did she abandon me? I decided to
call Alec to complain. He wanted a friend ship with me. I phoned him
and voiced my displeasure about it!
He listened intently, then said, "You really need her support don't
you?", and I agreed. He continued with, "Well I can see you need her.
I'll figure something out. Now don't worry about it."
Before I could hang up, he asked, "Oh, by the way, how would you like
to go to the zoo? How about the museum?" I joked that he shouldn't date
me, but he explained, "No silly, I don't want a date! But we have a
fund here at the centre to run community outings for those who need
them. And I think you need them. What do you say? I've already
mentioned it to Ruth, and she thought it was a good idea!" I told him
I'd think about it, and hung up.
Ruth and I had our weekly outing the next day. After a diner lunch of a
massive cheeseburger with onion rings and salad, we went for ice cream.
She was urging me to take advantage of Alec's offer. "While I can't go
with you, Alec is an excellent caregiver. Just give him a chance, he's
great!" I finally agreed to try one trip to the zoo.
All of the next week was spent at the dentist. He cleaned and polished
my teeth on one day, drilled out and replaced my old fillings with
ceramic and porcelain the next day, removed an old wisdom tooth two
days later, and finally fixed a gap in two of my front teeth two days
after that. After a small amount of swelling went down, I realized that
I now had a perfect smile. As well, it was all pre-paid! I looked very
good. He instructed Ruth to, "Bring her back every three months for a
cleaning and a check up. That way, her smile will stay pretty for a
long time!"
My first trip in the community with Alec was coming up. The thought of
it made my knees buckle, but I went. I wore a bright yellow pajama with
black flower outlines printed on it. The zoo was very interesting,
seeing all the animals, fish, and birds. We watched a show put on by
the elephant trainer, which was fun. Alec had a lot of energy, and we
saw a lot of the zoo. But when we sat down at a bench on a deserted
pathway, I wondered why.
We sat together, and looked at some pictures he had taken using a
digital camera. He then asked me, "Can we discuss something that is
very serious? Don't worry; it's not a bad thing! Not in the least!" I
was puzzled, and asked him what it was. He smiled, cleared his throat,
and talked, "I've been thinking about you and all your needs. I've
decided to create for you both a circle of support, and a circle of
friends. I've also been thinking about you and me, and our
relationship. I've decided that the way to break down barriers is
simple: create a family relationship!" I was very puzzled, and asked
him what he meant. He explained, "It's very simple, really. Can you
call me daddy? Can you see me as a father figure? Can you accept that
in your life right now?"
I imminently went into shock! Then I started bawling on his broad
shoulder. I continued crying and sobbing for a little while, as he held
and comforted me. I finally stopped, and asked, "Do you really mean
that? Can you love me like a daddy should? Can I call you that all the
time?"
He then answered, "Yes honey-yes, and yes, and yes!"
I felt my heart grow by about 150% upon hearing that, but me mental
state was as thing as an eggshell! I think he sensed that, because he
said in a soft voice, "I know you've been badly hurt by people who you
thought loved you. I know I'm asking you for a massive act of trust.
But I think the pros for you outweigh the cons. Just give in to your
heart, and you'll feel a lot better."
I blurted out, "Ok, daddy!" We then walked up to the seal show, and sat
together and watched it. He had a protective arm around me, and
whispered cute comments in my ear. I just giggled. As we left the show,
we stopped at a booth selling souvenirs and stuff. He held up a small
stuffed seal toy, and asked if I wanted it. I cuddled it, but the price
tag was $25.00! I said, "That's too much-I can't ask you for that!"
He replied, "You're right, it is a little small, and cheap!" At that,
we asked the attendant for a large stuffed dolphin toy that was hanging
on a line. He bought it, and then handed it to me. I was in shock as he
asked the female attendant what else she had to offer. She held up a
big soft yellow sweatshirt with pictures of the sea mammals on it. He
bought that, as well a pink sun visor hat. He handed the bag to me as
we left. I whispered, "Alec, you shouldn't have! This is over $100.00
in stuff! I can't accept this."
He frowned, and said, "My name to you is daddy or papa from now on! And
daddies like to spend money on their daughters! Now let's go get some
ice cream, and then ride the zoo train, Ok?" and to back up his point,
he placed his index finger over my lips so I couldn't speak. After the
ice cream and ride, we returned to his car.
I said, "Oh daddy, haven't we had a lovely day? Thank you!"
So it seemed to me that I was on a role, with good caregivers, a new
father, and a safe house to live in. I decided to attempt to restore at
least a friendship with my ex and kids. After peeking in my file while
Ruth was in the hall, I got her numbers. Then I tried to call her from
a pay phone. After being told by her work that on no uncertain terms
did she want to speak to me, I tried her home phone number. She
answered, and I tried to talk. But she said, "Look, I'm very happy for
you! If you want to be a baby and do god knows what, fine. But I don't
want any kind of relation with you! Do you get it? Don't ever call here
again? Now, fuck off!" and she slammed the phone down. My kids had both
disappeared-gone on to new adventures. It was hard to take, but
everything came through. I was happy, and I had no right to interfere
in their happiness. Besides, I had good people all around me. That
thought comforted me.
Then one day soon after, I was visiting daddy in his office. After some
warm small talk, he mentioned that a local community recreation centre
had received a large grant of city money to run free programs for poor
people. I shrugged my shoulders and asked what that had to do with me.
He replied, "Well, I know the executive director of that centre, and he
owes me a bunch of favors. I've called in some of those favors, and
guess what?" He then smiled at continued, "You're going to learn ballet
and dancing for daddy. You will have private lessons down there with
one-on-one instruction. As well, you're going to learn some guitar
playing. We need to tap some of your creative abilities. As well, as
your new daddy, I never got to watch you dance ballet. I'm going to
change that now. Ruth will take you shopping for a pretty dance outfit
tomorrow. Is that OK?" He then answered his own question, saying, "I
know it is. Now go and get ready!"
While my new daddy was becoming very involved in my life, it seemed OK.
Part of wondered where it would stop, and part of me wanted it to go
into a legal, permanent place. I just decided to ride the wave out, and
enjoy it. I was going through a hard time, and in dealing with that a
little dependence wasn't a bad thing.
The next day Ruth took me across town to a large, expensive dance shop.
I figured I would only get tights and a simple leotard. But before I
could say anything, Ruth had instructed the saleslady to bring me
everything! When I went to protest, Ruth simply covered my lips with
her finger, and whispered, "Don't worry about it! I've got it covered,
so relax! OK, sweetie?" Following a hug we continued. I simply let her
talk for me, as she seemed to have a plan. She always both had and has
a plan! I guess that's why I can't imagine life without her guidance.
Soon the nice saleslady had everything laid out on a table. There where
pretty pink leotards, with soft grey tights. A soft white short sweater
and matching leggings where also laid out on the table. After measuring
my feet, the saleslady brought ballet slippers. Ruth then said, "How
about some spandex underwear? She needs those, too." The saleslady
apologized, and got the underwear, along with soft pink socks. I then
tried the outfit. I felt ridicules, but went out. Ruth praised me,
saying, "You really look girlish now. You are going to be such a great
dancer!" The sales lady smiled and nodded her agreement. After the
clothes where packed, we checked out.
Soon I was learning ballet. It was in fact fun, and good exercise. My
instructor, a pretty Italian woman named Sylvia, taught me privately
twice a week. She commented to Ruth that I should do a recital for all
the people in my life. Ruth commented, "Oh, yes. After proper training,
we all want to watch her prance around the room, and dance for us. But
that will not be for a while."
Sylvia then said, "Well, you could do that. But with her life, and I've
read the notes you gave me, it would be better if she performed every
couple of weeks. It would really build up her confidence and self
esteem. And that is want we want, isn't it?"
Ruth agreed, commented that she hadn't thought of it that way. While I
hated guitar, and quit it after telling daddy and Ruth I hated it, I
carried on dancing. I still dance in that program.
By then, it was getting very warm outside. The air conditioning tech
had turned everything on, and Ruth had arranged for a community
gardener. But the heat, even when wearing a thin pajama, was stifling.
I complained about that to daddy, who suggested that I spend an
upcoming long weekend with him at his house. "It will be another
growing experience for both of us. We will have fun!"
Soon the weekend came. Daddy picked me up early on the Friday morning,
and we drove to his massive, private home in the country side. I
noticed a large pool, but realized I couldn't go swimming. As well,
because my dear Emily had taken a few days off that week, I was very
stubbly between my legs. I figured I'd have to tough that out. However,
I was getting itchy!
After a nice barbeque dinner of sausage and hamburgers on the deck,
daddy took my into a large basement room. Inside, the room was dirty
and dusty (as compared to the immaculate state of the rest of the
house). We sat down on an old couch and he got an old photo album from
a shelf. He showed me a picture of a smiling woman with a teenage girl.
He cleared his throat, and finally said, "That was my wife and
daughter. They where both killed last year in a car accident. It wasn't
their fault, because the other guy was very drunk. After that, I
started to think about my love. Before I gave it to them-now I give it
to you. I love you as I loved them, because you are family. I think
that part of you still doubts that. I want to expel those doubts, and
have things completely open and honest between us. To have a
relationship with you that has no secrets at all. I think that would be
very special and beautiful! Can you do that for me, please? I know you
can!" By then, he was sobbing, and he held me close. I felt very
special, and honored. The moment was so very special.
After a few minutes, he spoke, saying, "So no more secrets, ok? And you
can ask me for anything you want. I'm going to spoil you rotten, as
only a daddy should!" He then hugged me again, and we went out onto the
grounds of his home. As we walked we held hands and chatted. Hr caught
me scratching myself once, and asked about it. I replied that it was
nothing. We then returned to the deck, and sat down. He spoke in a
miffed voice, commenting," I thought you meant it about no secrets
between us. Or at least what you thought was a secret!"
I replied, "Oh daddy, I'm so sorry! But what are you talking about?
What did I hide?"
He looked me square in the face, and said, "It's that special service
Emily provides you. I know about that, and I know it hasn't been done
in a while. And to think I bought your favorite towels, and all new
shaving supplies just for you. While I never had a chance to change
your diapers, I thought shaving you would make up for it. But you'd
rather hurt daddy, who really loves you. Why do you do that?" By then
he was weeping, and felt very low.
I hugged him, and finally said, "I'm so very sorry daddy. I didn't even
know you knew about that! Or that you'd be willing to do that for me!
It seemed so base and female, and you are a man. But I guess...so..."
He then spoke, "I know everything that you do with my staff. And this
is not a 'guess so'. A 'guess so' is a proper response to a pizza
topping that you're not crazy about. This one has to be a, 'go for it!'
and given out of love. Straight for the heart, if you will!"
At that I suddenly felt very inspired, and said, "OK, daddy! We can go
for it! Just be very careful and complete. Please be very gentle,
daddy!"
He then tickled me, and I giggled out loud. We watched the sun set, and
then entered the house. He kissed my cheek, before sending me to my
room to strip. He instructed me to wear a t-shirt, and meet him by his
bedroom door. I quickly complied, and he emerged wearing and old track
suit. He led me by the hand to an extra bedroom where he set about
getting ready. After showing me everything, so that I knew it was the
same as Emily used. He set up a small digital camera at the foot of the
bed to capture everything. He explained the images where only for us.
Then he used scissors to cut my t-shirt just below my breasts, which
where growing. He then laid me on towel-covered bed, and rubbed my
tummy, thighs, and hips.
He commented, "You are very tense, and not relaxed. But daddy knows
what to do!" He then went to the bathroom, returning with a pill, and
some water. He explained, "This is a mild sedative. It will relax you.
It wouldn't put you to sleep, but will make you a little spacey.
Because I'm only giving you that pill, instead of mixing it with some
other ones, you will see strange things. It's just like a cartoon. Now
here."
I took the pill, and after a few minutes I started to relax. Then,
before my eyes, a white sheet seemed to decent. I started groaning.
Daddy noted this, and set to work. "Boy you really are hairy down here!
I guess those hormone treatments don't do everything we want them too!"
He spread my legs wide, and pushed my feet up under my thighs. He then
used a wet washcloth to wet me down, before spreading a large glob of
thick, pink shaving foam all over my pussy. As I was moving my hands,
he gave me a small teddy bear to hold, and he hushed me. He then shaved
my mound, before moving down to between my legs. He then rolled me onto
my tummy, and placed my hands on my butt cheeks. I was under the full
effect of the pill, and basically out of it (there where to large baby
blue balls laughing and jumping before my eyes!) but he ordered me to
hold my cheeks apart. When I couldn't respond, he pulled my hands out
from underneath me, placed them on my butt cheeks, and pressed them
apart.
He then said, "Now you just keep them like that."
I instinctively obeyed him, and he praised me with, "That's my good
girl! Just think tomorrow you can go swimming or run around the yard
nude. Doesn't that sound fun?"
His voice seemed very loud. I gurgled something while he shaved around
my defenseless anus. After he was finished, he rolled me over again,
and then he gently washed me, and patted me dry. He then rubbed skin
cream into my freshly shaved skin. He commented, "See, no razor burn
now! I'll bet this feels good, doesn't it?" After completely checking
his handiwork, he pulled the towel out from underneath me. He then
wrapped me in a blanket, and plumped my pillow. I was starting to come
out of the first pills' effects when he left, returning a minute later,
with another pill. "While daddy doesn't want you to get hooked on
anything, daddy also knows what's best for you. This is a sleeping
pill. It will insure a good deep sleep tonight, and that's all!" I took
the pill, and daddy checked the AC, turned out the light, and closed
over the door. I was soon fast asleep. I dreamed all about my strong
daddy, and his love for me. It was all so beautiful!
I awoke to find sunshine in the room. I got up, and marveled at daddy's
mixture of strength and gentleness. There was no more itching, and my
crotch was perfectly smooth. I owed this one to daddy! But then I
remembered that my clothing was in another room. I tried to cover
myself with my hands as I moved through the house. But then I felt two
large hands start to tickle my back and bum! He playfully took me down
on the carpeted floor. Soon I was laughing and rolling on the floor.
Daddy spoke, saying, "And how are you this fine morning? How is
everything? How is my precious daughter today?"
I finally answered, in a giggling voice, "I'm fine daddy! I just want
to get dressed."
Daddy responded, "Oh, no, you're not. Daddy wants you to go around nude
for a while. Daddy wants you to learn about trusting him fully and
completely. It's about understanding that I would never hurt you-even
when you're totally defenseless! Do you understand that?"
I nodded, yes, and daddy took me into his room. He rubbed more skin
cream on my shaved crotch. Then he removed my t-shirt, and hugged me.
Soon he asked again how I was doing. "I'm fine daddy! Why do you ask?"
I said.
He replied, "You seem peevish. Did you go poop yesterday? Are you
hungry? Honest answer, please!"
I stared at him for a minute then answered, "No and no. but I'm seldom
hungry in the morning."
He then picked me up, and carried me into his bedroom. He then locked
the door to the hall, and opened the door to his private bathroom. He
went in, and returned wearing latex gloves. He set a few things on his
night stand, and placed a funny sheet on the bed. He ordered me to lay
on it. And he lifted my feet up. I soon realized he was inspecting my
anus! I asked what him, "What are you doing?"
He answered, after a minute, "Daddy is now going to make you poop.
DON'T FIGHT DADDY! UNDERSTAND?"
I was afraid,