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The Greatest Lie, Chapter 17 You Can't Go Home Again By Alexandra Rios [email protected] This chapter of my novel is the conclusion of my novel, which I have posted here serially over the past six years. It uses strong language and depicts explicit sex, including forcible rape. This is a work of imagination and research. Any resemblance to any person, living or dead, is purely coincidental. If you are underage or offended by this content, please do not read on. If you read and enjoyed, hated, or otherwise reacted my story, please post a comment or email me at the address above. I have another work in progress, Secondary Education, under the pen name Tyla Flowers, and your comments here will make me better able to tell Tyla's story. Synopsis: Alexandra returns to Los Angeles to live and love in stealth, and incognito. But she must reveal her transsexual identity to pursue legal custody of her daughter. She sacrifices her privacy and her freedom, and confronts the most horrific demons of her past, to forge future as Alyssa's mother. They say that prostitution is the oldest profession. I disagree. Some guy must have been a professional hunter to have gotten together the spare change to pay for that first commercial fuck. It's like that chicken and egg conundrum. Eggs definitely came first. Just as mutation precedes evolution, there had to be money before there could be whores. But like the mutated ape's sperm cell that fathered the first humans, whores were essential to the birth of the market, as the counter-parties on the first commercial trades. The tricks were the fathers, and we whores were the mothers of commerce. I'm not exactly proud of my whoring, but I do count it a necessary part of my education. I was born and brought up as a boy, so my Mom and my peers didn't train me in the art of smiling, seduction or sex. As the girl within me emerged from her chrysalis, she took an accelerated course of independent study that covered everything from streetwalking and backseat blowjobs to Internet advertising and doing business from luxury hotel rooms. It took hormones and surgery to conform my body to my gender, but it took whoring to teach me the power of my new sexuality. A couple of years of hooking should be considered a rite of passage for T-Girls, like that mission year that those Mormon boys go on, or the Peace Corps. It's a growing experience. The T-Girl prostitute learns self-confidence and how to spot trouble, and leaves the world a happier, better and more tolerant place. I learned to make snap distinctions on the slimmest evidence to discern between the violent, self-loathing pervert, the fun-loving hobbyist, the timid experimenter whose wife isn't gratifying him, the tormented closet case who's looking for?or perhaps hiding from?a secret part of himself, and using me as his mirror, and LE, law enforcement, looking to ruin my life. I have sucked or gotten fucked by God-knows-how-many different shapes, colors and sizes of cocks, and gotten paid in a half-dozen currencies. But timing is everything. I was lucky to come out at the right time. A few years earlier, and neither the surgical techniques nor the social milieu would have achieved the requisite level of sophistication. Now, trannies are a booming market, a stunning demonstration of the laws of elasticity of supply and demand. As new and prettier young T-girls come out, they inspire a new cohort of trannie-chasers, and more trannie-chasers create more demand for even younger and prettier T-Girls to get hormones and implants and pose for porn and post Websites to peddle their sexuality and meet, and increase that demand. The dynamic virtual pharmacy and brothel created on the Internet enables the young T-Girl to get advice and hormones. Trannie porn opens the minds of erstwhile straights to covertly pursue T-girls on a host of sites like eros.com, theeroticreview.com, europets.com and even craigslist, and so the cycle builds on itself. TS's are becoming big business, the fastest growing segments of porn and prostitution. In my time, I made the most of the growing popularity of the transsexuals. Italians have a special affinity for trannie whores, and the Romans have elected one of us, Vladimir Luxuria, as their representative in Parliament. My Italian cell phone rang incessantly, and my lips, boobs and pussy were constantly sore from sexual over- exertion. My first Italian client, Silvio, hired me a dozen times during my sojourn in Milan. He wanted to monopolize my time, to keep the others away. In time, it was him that I wanted to keep away. To preempt him, and distract me, I booked more dates than I could handle. When he begged me to quit, and save myself for him, I rejected Silvio's offer to become his mistress, and a dozen others that followed. It's not that I had no feelings of loss when I left him. I felt so torn that I cried real tears of regret as I rejected Silvio. I sobbed even more when he renounced and rebuked me in turn. But my heart was too restless, and my ambition to great, to be satisfied as one man's mistress. I thought that the relationship of sugar daddy and paid mistress is even more soul-destroying than operating in the open market of youth, beauty and sexuality, where the whore and her clients trade freely in cash and flesh. And besides, I had plans that didn't fit with the life of a bourgeois Italian's sugar baby. I reveled in being the most coveted flower in this garden of earthly delights. Just as I aspired to perfect myself, and so spent about half of my whore's fortune to achieve greater femininity and more a more sensuous beauty, I also sought after, and combed Europe to get fucked by the best looking, sexiest, or richest guys. I was at the forefront, and rose to the very apex of the transsexual ziggurat. I was one of the most sought after and highly compensated post-ops on Europets.com. Even the expatriate Brazilian super-travestis like Juliana Nogueria and Laisa Lins couldn't compete with me for the hearts and cocks of the trannie chasers of Italy. But from the top, there is no way but down. New T-girls flooded in from Thailand, Brazil, and Eastern Europe, and as a post-op I was, in a sense, at a competitive disadvantage to these versatile young beauties. I decided to retire at my apex, so I quit T-Girl escorting, and disappeared from the TG landscape. How the message boards mourned my demise! Rumors abounded of my death by disease or at the hands a vengeful ex lover or competitor. I ignored the chatter, and maintained strict radio silence. During my sabbatical, I invested in new silicone boobs, a nose job and secondary labial surgery. I perfected my Italian so that my accent was indistinguishable from a native Roman. In Brussels, Dr. Seghers re- sculpted my labia into a pair of clam-shell perfect curves, indistinguishable from the vulva of a GG, a genetic girl, to anyone but a gynecologist. Rhinoplasty refashioned my aquiline nose, my sole inheritance from my detested father, Dr. Eduardo Rios, into a slender Nordic ski slope. My narrower nose made my eyes appear more wide-set and my cheekbones higher. My new face possesses delicate, doll-like mien that contrasts with my audacity in the bedroom. For the first time since high school I started working out, a half hour of Pilates and the Elliptical machine, at least three times a week. My stomach flattened, my butt rose, and my arms became more willowy. With my Aryan face, bigger boobs, platinum hair and blue eyes, I came to resemble more the girl whom my father married than the boy that he begat. To prove my perfection, I toured my laser-denuded pussy across Europe as a GG whore and regained my investment fourfold. In Bolonga, I seduced a kindly but corrupt Italian magistrate who arranged for the issuance of my Italian Identity card, the Carta D'Identite Electronica, in my new name, Alessandra Fiumi. The notorious transsexual Alexandra Rios, like Alex before her, had disappeared from the face of the earth. I had been reborn a woman, and a citizen of Europe. **** When first encountered Ronaldo's photo image on a newsstand in Milan, I had all but forgotten about him. I stared at his image smirking smugly from a glossy magazine cover for ten minutes until I connected him with my past. Our paths crossed when his football team toured Thailand. My Thai-Am T-friend Tran and I were about to get our new plastic pussies installed in Phuket when she arranged a bed-soccer match that pitted the two of us against Ronaldo and the Italian national team. When the sun rose the next morning, it was agreed by unanimous consent that Tran and I had won the Phuket Cup. It was just another crazy night, one of many for these soccer stars, and for me and Tran. In the intervening years Ronaldo had become a big star in Italian football. He and his soap opera actress wife Rafaela were all over the celebrity rags. Paparazzi and breathless gossip columnists recorded their every shopping trip, party, argument, separation, and reunification. I envied his fame and lifestyle, but their tumultuous romance made it obvious that Ronaldo remained a sexual adventurer. I surmised that was still just as available, and vulnerable to my charms, as he had been in Phuket. I scheduled one of my own escorting tours of London to coincide with his team's tour of England. I picked him up at the bar at the Restaurant Gordon Ramsey and let him take me to his room. We made love for an hour. He didn't even recognize me until we were languishing in bed after a bout of athletic sex, when we started speaking in English. Then, he recognized my voice. He was so turned on by the concept of having fucked me before and after my sex change that he got hard and fucked me again. I even let him finish in my booty to make the comparison more exact. When we both returned to Italy, he became my most loyal regular. He hired me for a short session after a bitter loss and overnight after a crucial win. His team won their league championship, and he took me to the post-game party. I met a lot of hot soccer players, and made a bunch of lucrative connections. Later on, as my homage to his victory, I comp- ed him a weekend, a treat which, at my rates, was worth five thousand Euros. He took me to the Grand Hotel Villa Serbelloni on Lake Como. The crystalline sapphire sky, snow-capped Alps, aqua waters of the lago and the earthy but celestial Barolo made me forget my professionalism. I felt like I was falling in love. I knew, of course, that in reality, I was only a weekend away from his wife and kid. When the dreaded Rafaela called him at the hotel, he shushed me and ordered me to sit alone in the bedroom. I listened in miserable solitude and silence as he baby- talked to his darling son and lied expansively to Rafaela about how much he missed her. I swaddled miserably in the damp sheets and clutched the pillows, hiding my sorrow and pain as I remembered how my father had goo-goo talked to me over crackling long distance connections from adulterous bedrooms around the globe. I cringed as I imagined my own abandoned, and half- forgotten child, Alyssa, crying in a dirty diaper, drinking sugary juice alone on tortilla chip-littered carpet, her grandparents too stoned or drunk to care, or oblivious to her. Wasn't I lingering too long in profitable and pleasurable exile, becoming, in the process, an even worse parent than my own had been to me? Memories of frigid streetwalking in Minneapolis, and of the months in poverty or on the run in the dangerous squalor of Thailand and Burma, made me cautious. I had become accustomed to comfort, money and privilege. I was habituated to the thin mountain air, the deep tissue massages, the mountain herbal facials and body wraps, and the state of the art elliptical machines, the thick towels and soft, warm robes at the fitness center. Our weekend turned into a fortnight, and culminated in a Cristal-soaked celebration the night that AC Milan sold Ronaldo's contract to the Los Angeles Galaxy. The blowjobs on the stern of the Lake Cuomo tour boat, and the fucks on the veranda of our lake front room must have addicted him to me as much as I was addicted to his life style. The next morning, Ronaldo called his agent and declared that he would not report to the Galaxy unless the team also hired his personal assistant, Alessandra. With millions of Euros in agent fees hanging on my fate, it was no surprise that I got a Bordeaux-red biometric Passaporto and H-2B visa. My international criminal career was safely behind me. As the Italian Alessandra, I could safely return home and plot my strategy regain my reputation, and my child. But I was not his mistress. I was an employee, and he was my boss. He could, of course, make love to me whenever he wanted. But since he had Rafaela, I too could have whomever I chose, as along as it didn't exclude him. And indeed, some of my athletic trysts included not only Ronaldo, but his teammates. But, he insisted, I must take a hiatus from commercial sex while I worked for him. Although the meager salary that the Galaxy offered was hardly compensatory, I agreed. I needed a career change. I had been working so hard that I had gotten to the point of regarding men as ATM machines with penises attached. With Ronaldo, the pay and the perks came with regularity. And I had an agenda to accomplish in America that was incompatible with whoring. I wanted to become a mother. The older Thomas Wolfe wrote a brilliantly titled but overrated novel called You Can't Go Home Again. Wolfe was wrong. You can always come back to LA, where the orange grove becomes a parking lot becomes a strip mall becomes a luxury condo hotel in a movie montage of demolition and construction. LA becomes a different town with every passing season, if there actually were seasons in LA. I could come home because, like LA, I had been reborn. Alessandra Fiumi's doppelg?nger, Alexandra Rios, was on a watch list for terrorists because of her suspected role in the assassination of a Thai military intelligence officer on the Burmese border. The Department of Homeland Security had searched her home, intercepted her email and phone calls, confiscated her computer and interrogated and spied on her friends and family. Alexandra is a girl without a country. But as Alessandra, she can come home. She will be a visiting alien, and, but for her employer, the Los Angeles Galaxy Soccer team, all alone in a foreign land. But Alessandra is a girl who knows well how to find a sponsor. **** I jolted awake from my Ambien-induced reverie and took off my Chanel shades. I grappled the depths of my Chanel bag and found my mirror. I glossed my lips and moisturized my cheeks. My high-altitude pallor softened. I admired Alessandra's resculpted nose, narrower and straighter than Alexandra's Hispanic hook. I fluffed back my platinum, shoulder-length hair and refreshed my eyeliner. My eyes shimmered like a tropical sea through my colored contacts. Alexandra's 375 cc saline implants had become Alessandra's Maxtor 400 cc high-profile round- textured silicone boobs, gravity-defying, cantilevered teardrops, but soft as gummy bears. I love my new boobs. The larger, more contoured implants necessitated nipple realignment procedure. The aftermath had hurt like hell, but when healed, my areoles were more even intensely sensitive. They are large and malleable, so they can encircle even the biggest cocks in a perfect boobfuck tunnel. And I love cock play on my breasts. The flicking of a cockhead over my well lubricated nipples is enough to bring me to my own orgasm, especially when a guy shoots cum over my breasts. At the moment, my boobs hadn't been fondled for hours, and they were itchy from inattention. "We're on weather hold for Los Angeles. Our on time arrival has been revised to 8:20 p.m. Sorry, folks; there are fires all around the LA basin and no one is getting in right now." I feel that warm glow of an attentive male gaze. I looked over at my neighbor. "Ah, she awakens at last. Do you want your cookie? I saved it for you." "I am still sleeping off the last cookie I ate." I yawned in what I hoped was a provocative way. "A hash brownie?" "No, only an Ambien. Better living through chemistry, I always say." He laughs and nods. "Mine wore off over Pennsylvania, but four hours is not long enough for a second dose." He pulls from his seatback a chocolate chip cookie ensconced in a Styrofoam cup. "Thanks, I am starving." I took a bite, and put the rest aside. He has a chiseled jaw, cleft chin, and a sharp nose. His jaunty manner, crisp white shirt, jeweled cufflinks and Zegna tie proclaimed wealth and power. His face was so perfect that I imagined he too may have had a cosmetic nip or tuck. The flight attendants offered champagne as compensation for our delay, and we took a couple of glasses. "To homecomings." He clinks my plastic cup. I detect a little extra emphasis on "comings" but I ignore it. "I love my home, but this is travel for me." "Really? You sound American." Alexandra had re-emerged in conversation with her new American friend. It's easier to inhabit a false identity in a foreign land. But Alexandra faced danger, especially as she approached U.S. Customs. I re-oriented frantically to Alessandra, and started lying. "I went to part of high school and started college in the States. My Dad is American, but my parents are divorced, and I live with my mom in Italy. I'm not even a citizen. I'm here on a work visa." His eyes told me that my deceptions are plausible. He studied me closely, though. "You look so familiar. Is it possible that I recognize you from the internet?" I fight off a blush. "Maybe you do. The internet is big. What's your favorite site?" "If I'm not mistaken, I've seen you on a quite a few, and even read some of your reviews. You have quite a following." "I am lucky to have many friends." "And I was lucky to have had your company on this long plane flight. I would love to see more of you." "I am happy to have such a perceptive and loyal fan. But I am a little embarrassed of my notoriety, to be spotted on a plane." "Don't worry. Remember, I had about twelve hours to think about it. I didn't make the connection until we were over Denver. Will you give me your number?" I looked down at the circle of white skin left by his wedding ring. "Are you sure your wife won't mind?" "She and the kids are at the villa in Tuscany for two more weeks. I had to fly back for some meetings this week. So I own my evenings for now. Could I own one of yours?" Ronaldo hadn't yet joined the team, and he and Rafaela were vacationing in Turkey. I bit my lip demurely. "I'm really busy. I've got to find cars, a condo, and furniture for my boss and for me. I have a regular job, and am not here to escort. My boss won't allow it, and your American laws are too strict for me to risk my visa." "I'm sorry. That was very improper on my part. I was just coining a phrase." "Yes, but the phrases we choose matter, don't they? Your First Amendment doesn't protect solicitation, does it?" "You're right, of course, and I apologize. But if you give me another, chance, I can help you. I know everybody who's anybody in the LA real estate business. And anything else I give you, you can think of it as a welcome home gift, not payment." He was good looking, and incredibly charming and persuasive. I hesitated, and he took it as affirmation. "As a guideline, let's use your European rates with Euros converted to dollars at the exchange rate quoted in tomorrow's 'Wall Street Journal." "OK, but with the understanding that everything is on a voluntary and philanthropic basis." "Spoken like a lawyer." "I want to be a lawyer some day." He smiled and whispered in my ear. "Whores and lawyers have much in common. Our hourly rates, our loyalties, and our moral codes have more similarities than either of us would probably like to admit." "I studied and worked with some lawyers where I went to school, in Minneapolis. They weren't greedy or sleazy." Professor Edelman and Brad Whitman had cared for me as a human, and had defended transsexuals' rights based on their principles. "You are talking about some professors in Podunk. This is LA, show time, baby. If a case doesn't reward the lawyer in money, power or fame, then only the most incompetent or desperate lawyer will take it." I was going to need lawyers to help me get custody of Alyssa, and to fight back against the slanders that the Thai police were smearing me with. "Not all lawyers are the same." "Nor are all whores. Some bring something special to the bedroom. That's what all the reviews say about you." "I don't know. I never read them." "And some day, my dear, you will be as great in the courtroom as you are in the bedroom." "Thank you." I put my hand on his forearm. "I may need a lawyer. Could you help me?" "I can't afford myself. I doubt you can even if you plastered yourself all over Eros, which I don't advise. Immigration Detention facilities are pretty ugly places." "I've retired from that life. What do you suppose I should do?" "Maybe I can get my firm's my firm's pro bono department to take you on. We'll get a bright young associate to salve his social guilt in his copious spare time after he's billed his 2400 hours per year. I'll supervise." "You've proved my point. Not all lawyers are driven purely by ambition and greed." "Point taken. And it will be a good story for me to tell St. Peter, in case there really is a God and Heaven." I leaned across the seat to gently kiss him, just barely grazing his cheek, but making sure my boob brushed against his forearm. He turned, and tried to return my kiss, but I shushed him. His countenance had transformed from that of a predatory wolf to a timid Pekinese. From that moment, I possessed his desire. When our eyes met, I knew that he was mine. And, I knew, that after I had him for a night, I would possess him for as long as I needed him. The plane jolted through turbulence as it approached LAX. As the plane swooped its final turn toward the runway, I clasped my new friend's hand and peered through the plane's window. LA's lights sparkled like a carpet of fallen stars. I, too, would be on the ground soon. I felt gravity spiraling me downward, like the last sparkle of a star sucked back into a black hole. It felt like a homecoming. ***** He pointed his finger at the limo driver with the sign reading "Jason Crockett." "Now you know my name. Call me JC, though." We followed the limo driver to a white stretch Hummer. The driver silently loaded our luggage, closed the door behind us and, without a word, rolled up the privacy screen. As he eased the car onto Sepulveda, a bottle of champagne lolled in an ice bucket. JC poured and toasted. "To Serendipity." I clinked his glass with mine. "Or is it karma?" "That's a more satisfying explanation." He leaned toward me, stroked his hands through my hair and pulled me toward him. Our torsos touched. His firm chest grazed my breasts. I threw my head back, and he lunged toward me, kissing my neck and cheeks, seeking out my lips. I turned toward him, parted my lips and let them yield and tremble beneath the press of ravenous mouth. His breath billowed into my chest. When his tongue sought mine, I curled mine to the back of my mouth, to tease him. When he found it, I unfurled it twirled it around his. His groped for my breast and fondled me through my cashmere sweater. I rolled my shoulders back, offering them to him. He broke off his kiss and looked at me. "You know, this is like a dream come true. A long flight beside a beautiful woman, ending in a spectacularly satisfying fashion." "But I'm not satisfied, yet. Are you?" "I'm never satisfied." "I could tell we have a lot in common." I swallowed my champagne and put my glass in a cup holder. The alcohol made me warm and relaxed. I turned and let my lips meet his again, parted them, and invited his tongue to become a ravenous aggressor. I put my hand on his thigh, and explored upward, an inch at time, until I found his cock, which had slipped free from his boxers and was trapped along the inseam of his trousers. He was embarrassed. "You made me have sexy dreams. It's been like that all night." "That must have been uncomfortable. Let me help you with that." I loosened his belt and unzipped him. He adjusted his position, and it sprang forth through the fly. I massaged his circumcised cock head, and bowed my head toward him. To my surprise, he restrained me. "Wait until I shower." "I can't wait. I have to suck you now." I drizzled a few drops of champagne into my hand and rubbed it over his member. I looked up and smiled playfully. "There, now it will taste like Dom Perignon." "You mean Cristal." "Even better." I leaned across his lap and steadied his penis in one hand and cupped his balls in the other. I trilled my tongue across the tip, and slipped my lips over the beveled rim of his cockhead. I puckered my lips over the helmet-like tip, and teased him with gentle tugs. He stroked my hair away from my cheek, and watched my labors intently. "God, that's good." "Yummy," I said, taking a breath and another swig of the Cristal. The effervescence tickled my throat. I took off my seat belt and knelt on the floor between his legs and gazed up worshipfully. The floor of the limo was plushly carpeted. The seating compartment of this behemoth gas guzzler was ideally suited to motorized sex: it seated four, in facing seats, providing plenty of legroom. I had plenty of space to work with. I looked up at the tinted windows. "Is it OK to make love here?" "You're violating the seat belt law, at a minimum, but in this traffic, we're barely moving. And this limo's big enough to crush anything that gets in our way." JC face had the happily idiotic smile that I have so often elicited with my oral ministrations. His hands clasped my head above my ears and he guided his cock into my mouth, like a smart bomb to its target. I curled my lips over my teeth and puckered my cheeks, tongue and palate snugly around his penis, to form a tight, wet, and smooth cavern. I bent down, gazed up, slave to master, and began pulsing my head up and down. He slid in and out, bumping the cushioned barrier formed by my tonsils and pharynx, and then pulling back. "Oh, baby, that's so good. Keep going, baby." His body felt relaxed and his voice was mellow. After he was accustomed to this level of stimulation, and my own mouth and throat had become warmed up and supple, I decided to take it to a higher level. I tilted my head back, opened my epiglottis, and forced my throat down over his shaft. Instead of bumping to a halt at the back of my mouth, his cockhead popped over the narrow passage formed by my tonsils, glided through my pharynx and slid through my esophageal cervix another three inches, and plumbed deep into my esophagus. I blinked and breathed away the gag reflex and pressed him deep into my thorax, until tickling of his pubic hairs in my nostrils made me recoil. Then I gently reversed my peristalsis, and his cock retracted. His cockhead snapped back through the narrow, but flexible cervical inlet that joins the mouth and throat. His body jolted as though hit by lightning. I gave him five exquisitely slow, careful deep repetitions of my special form of deep throating. Exhale, pop, slide, snap, breathe, exhale, pop, slide, snap, breathe, exhale, pop, slide, snap breathe, exhale, pop, slide, snap breathe, exhale, pop, slide, snap breathe. When I had completed this homage, a little tear had formed in my eye. I wiped it away as I looked up and made a weary, but winsome smile. "Is that OK?" "God, no, don't stop. That's the most amazing sensation of my life. More, please." His voice sounded as though he were half-strangled. I took hold of his hips, caught my breath, slithered my tongue from his balls to his glans, and teased his urethral orifice. Then I let my throat engulf him again, and again, and again, a hundred slow, steady swallows and releases. The insistent tickling of the pubes in my nostrils made my nose stuffy, but I fought back the waves of fatigue, nausea and fear of strangulation, and relentlessly worked his cock. As his groans of pleasure coarsened into insistent demands for gratification, I gradually increased the pace. He gripped my head by two improvised pigtails and jammed my head down on him as he thrust his hips upward with ever-growing urgency. I squinted through eyes dewy with exertion and saw his face contort with flickering waves of sensation and emotion. As he spasmed toward a climax, I made my throat loose and soft. Hot spurts of semen spewed deep in my abdomen. I gulped, squeezing him deep inside me down my gullet, I clamped my hands on his testes, squeezing them like ripe lemons. A molten torrent gushed and spattered into my belly. I let it sink deep inside me, and milked it with leisurely gulps before letting him pull out, inch by inch. He was soft and drained by the time I kissed the tip of his cock goodbye. He spiraled collapsed and nearly unconscious, on the leather seats. I carefully pulled on his boxers, hitched his pants, zipped his fly and buckled his belt, and then took a long draught of Cristal. "That was great, the best oral sex of my life." "You were great too. You lasted really long, and your cock is the perfect size for me. It really fills a girl up." "I wanted to save it for later. I couldn't help myself." "Don't worry. We'll have plenty of time for more fun." Through heavy-lidded eyes he watched me refresh my lip gloss and brush out my tousled hair. "You are the most beautiful girl I have ever been with, and the most naturally sexy. I could watch you primp all day." "Thank you. I try not to get obsessed with appearances, but I do like to maintain them." JC and I had not even driven the distance from LAX to his home, and he was obsessed by my appearance and addicted to my sexual performance. He was rich, and a lawyer, and he fit perfectly with my plans. And he had no idea that I was a "change." I relaxed a bit. He had only seen my GG ads. Alexandra could remain in exile. Alessandra could accomplish her mission. The traffic eased, and the limo accelerated. I watched as JC's head lolled from side to side as we sped up Mulholland, the ridge line road that separates the sparking basins that make up Los Angeles. We turned right and went through the gates of Beverly Park, the sanctuary of mega mansions carved from the Santa Monica Mountains to house the newest and richest of the nouveau riche. I had found a powerful sponsor, and I had started near the top. The driver carried our bags up the sixteen granite steps into the grand foyer. We staggered behind him, swigging the dregs of the Cristal from the bottle. JC flipped the switch to illuminate the Murano chandelier that dangled from the vaulted ceiling of the entry. He handed a hundred to the driver and waved him away. "Let's relax in the guest bedroom. We can shower later. I'll get some refreshments." He waved me to a room with a sixty inch plasma and king size bed covered in a flowered quilt. He flicked on the remote. Tony Soprano was watching strippers at the Badabing Club. I found a bathroom, peed and brushed my hair and teeth, and took a shower. I found a blow drier and blew out my hair, and moisturized carefully. I put on some eyeliner and lip gloss. When I finished, I was yawning. The tube was muted, and the scotch in JC's cocktail glass was diluted. The bottle of 18-year-old MacCallan was half-drunk. I sipped from the glass of fragrant, amber liquor that he had left for me and took a house tour. His wife had spent a small part of his fortune decorating this McMansion. There was bric-a-brac everywhere, and along with some very serious looking abstract impressionism. She was a vivacious but fading USC Song Girl with blonde hair going ashen, and her fresh face wrinkling from too much leisure in the Southern California sun. JC Junior had innumerable soccer trophies and, seemingly, every video console and game ever made. Mommy's little girl's room was entirely pink, themed to Hello Kitty. It was no doubt redecorated to match every tweener fad. In a Subzero the size of my last apartment I found an unexpired tub of Trader Joe's Hummus and some whole wheat crackers. I wearily found my way back to the guest room and lay down next to the snoring JC. I sipped my Scotch and watched a silent soccer match on Telemundo. I still don't really get the game, although I had gotten one of the stars. The MacCallan dissolved the haze of jet lag, and brought a moment of lucidity before the new fog of intoxication replaced it. I had effectuated my illegal entry to my homeland, had a job, and some well- connected patrons. But Ronaldo and JC were only means to my end. Alyssa was hidden in the haze that blanketed the basin below. How would I find her from these heights? I needed to rediscover the squalid underbelly of Los Angeles. I nervously parked my leased Prius at the corner of 113th Street and Compton Avenue and approached the bedraggled park where Alyssa was playing. A drunken gaggle of baggy-clothed Latino teenagers screamed Spanish obscenities from the nearby baseball field. Police sirens whooped on the next block. Helicopters buzzed tight circles over nearby felonies. Uniformed school kids hurried homeward in the dusk. Soon, some of these classmates would change into colors take up arms against one another in a deadly game of gangland chess. I wondered which gang claimed the pocket park upon which I was trespassing. JC's private detectives had ferreted her out for me. Alyssa pranced across the littered, scruffy little park as if it were her own private paradise. White ribbons flounced in her curly blond hair as she galloped over the threadbare grass. Her scuffed Mary Janes kicked up little clouds of dust, but her white frock was spotless. A squat, dark- skinned woman sat on a bench nearby, barely noticing her, squawking Spanish into her cell phone. She looked up at the darkening sky nervously, and cast a baleful glance in my direction. She looked up when I took a seat at the opposite end of her bench but she paid no heed to me until I addressed her in my perfect Spanish. "What a beautiful child." Alyssa looked like the toddler I would have been if I had been born a girl. Her skin, eyes, hair, chin, and mouth were all mine. She even had my old nose. The woman studied me. Her eyes were tired but wise, trained by a hard life to expect little and observe much. "Who are you to say such a thing?" "I knew her mother." "Her mother is dead." "I know. The little girl has her smile." "It is all that we have left of the mother. She left this neighborhood and tried to become a gringo, but the gringos threw her back, and then the beasts that live here devoured her" "How did she die?" "The one they called El Lobo. When he was still a human being, they called him Miguel. He claimed her as his chica, but he was never good enough for her. So he killed her." "Is he in jail?" "If Mexico is a prison, then he is in jail. He is running his gang from Tijuana, and is richer and more powerful than ever. He sends us money for the little one." "And you take blood money from your daughter's killer? " "How else will I feed this one? We have five others, and my husband spends all his money on whores." "I'll help you." "Why should I take money from you?" "Do you know who I am?" She looked back and forth between me and Alyssa, as though she were cataloging our similarities. "I have an idea. You are the travesiti, the one who seduced her first as a boy, and then as a woman. You are the father of this child, and of our misfortunes. You took Marta and the child away to live in luxury, and then, when you had tired of them, returned them, to be slaughtered." I cursed my stupid, selfish mother, whose obsession with her possessions had wrought Marta's demise. "I am so sorry. I had to leave on a long voyage, from which I have only now returned, and left Marta and Alyssa in the care of my own mother. She failed them just as she always failed me. I have come home, to make things right for this beautiful child." "What good are your good intentions make now, when it is too late.?" "I want to help you, to make up for your loss. I loved Marta too, you know. And of course, I love the child, for she is as much mine as Marta's." "When I look at this little one and you, it is obvious that were the one. Only the nose is different. That's why Miguel killed her, over the shame of being cuckolded by a maricone." "You know what a beast he is. And he knows that she is mine, and not his. When Alyssa is older, he'll rape and perhaps kill her too. You must let me take her away, to safety." Alyssa had stopped frolicking and is standing at my feet, staring up into my face. She smiled at me and clasped her chubby little arm around my calves. She studied me, and I looked into her eyes and stroked her hair. She smiled and called me "Mama." My heart thumped and my brow beaded with perspiration. Being called "Mama" somehow validated all of the trials and sins of my life as a transsexual. I was thrilled with the sensation of being called a mommy, and overwhelmed at the duties that went with the status. Maternity was something that, without realizing it, I had craved. I glanced over at grandma, hoping that she had not overheard Alyssa or detected my response. She staggered to her feet and gathered Alyssa in her arms. "A travesti cannot be a mother to this child. God will not allow it." "I am not a travesti. I had the surgery. I am a woman now." "Only God can make a woman, or a mother. You were made by devils. Go away from us." She yelled something in a dialect I didn't understand. The baseball playing gang bangers glared ominously in our direction. Two of them broke away from their game and ambled toward me. "Alyssa belongs to this neighborhood, and to this family, and not to you. If you come here again, you come as our enemy. And my family has allies here." She stalked off, dragging the crying Alyssa behind her. I backed away toward my car, eyes on my pursuers, who had climbed the fence separating the baseball field from the park. "I'll send money for her." "If you do, I'll give it to my husband for his whores. Perhaps he can spend some of it on you. He loves to fuck the travestis." I ducked into my car and drove away in the dusk, squinting through my teary eyes and searching for answers in the lengthening shadows. I rode a crowded elevator to the 50th floor of the gleaming, downtown skyscraper, accompanied by a sweat-shirted bicycle messenger whose eyes shifted from the elevator news to me. My white cashmere V-neck sweater clung to me and offered a tiny peak at my breasts. My skinny jeans fit like they were painted to my slim legs and tight, round butt, offering his vivid imagination copious intimations of the taut flesh which lay beneath. I avoided his inquisitive eyes and concentrated on the flat screen in the elevator, which announced another 58 dead in Baghdad, and then flashed word of Lindsey's latest DUI. He had hard eyes, shaved head, stubbled chin, dragon tattoos circling his thick, muscular arms, and an insouciant, bad-boy manner. He was exactly the type to whom, a couple of months ago, I would have given my phone number and met later for an anonymous afternoon tryst. But today, I haughtily ignored him, meeting his eyes only once, and rolling my eyes dismissively. He looked away, defeated and abashed, but he murmured "Nice boots" before he exited at the 48th floor. I looked down at my burned ochre knee-high boots, fresh from the Fred Segal sale, and said "Thanks, sweetie," as left the elevator. I enjoyed watching him stop short, turn around and take a last glimpse of me. But the doors had closed. It was too late for him to claim me. The reception area of JC's law firm is a glass eagle's aerie overlooking the LA basin. Mount Baldy glistened with icy grandeur on one side, the Griffith Park Observatory peered down from the Hollywood Hills, and the cool Pacific shimmered to the West. I told the receptionist that I was to see "Marcia Richardson," the associate to whom JC had assigned my new pro-bono matter. I waited alone in the reception area and watched topical fish cavort amid brightly colored coral in a giant aquarium placed by the law firm to calm nervous clients as they waited to learn their fates. I guessed that most of this mega firm's clients weren't civilians like me. Marcia was a heavy set African-American. She greeted me with a smile and a refreshing lack of attitude. "Let's go to a conference room, so none of the other partners can find and distract me. JC tells me that you are an immigrant on a work visa. I must tell you that I don't know much about immigration but I am a quick study." "There's more to it than that. Now, before we get started, everything I tell you is privileged, right?" "Yes, but this is technically an intake interview, so our representation is subject to your clearing our firm's check for conflicts of interest. Of course, there are exceptions for ongoing crimes, frauds, threats to public safety. Our retainer letter will explain all of that." We took seats across the table in one of the dozen glass walled conference rooms that girded the reception area, each looking out on its own quadrant of Los Angeles. Ours looked over toward LAX, and planes streamed toward us from its runways in ominous reenactments of 9-11. "I'll never get used to that." Marcia cocked her finger at 767 banking away from us, seemingly moments away from a fiery collision. "I have a child and the grandparents took custody while I was out of the country. I want to reclaim custody of her." "Why did the grandparents get custody?" "Her mother was murdered." Marcia paused, and looked down at her notes thoughtfully. She looked up at me, and then back down. "You did say the mother was the one murdered." She made some more notes, looked up again and said "You're going to have to help me out on that. I'm guessing we are not talking about Immaculate Conception here." "Far from it. I was a boy at the time. I'm transsexual." "Wow, I would never have guessed. You're so perfect, I guess I should have known." "Marcia, I'm far from perfect." "Don't worry, no one is. It makes for a really interesting case, though. Does JC know what the firm's getting into here?" "Does he need to know?" "I won't tell him, because it's privileged. But in a case like this, everything's going to come out eventually." "I know, but I have to do this." "And I'll help you. But tell me who's on the other side. I have to clear the conflicts first." I wrote down the names, the grandparents, Gonzalez-Lopez, and my worst enemy, Miguel Carranza. This firm didn't look likely to have many clients with Spanish surnames. "Are you OK with representing me on such controversial issues?" "Girl, I am black and a woman and I think that as woman I get worse discrimination than as a black. I salute the courage of anyone who would choose to become one of my sisters." She scanned the names of the adverse parties and told me she would run searches in the firm's data base and get back to me. She validated my parking, shook my hand, and said "I hope to be speaking with you real soon." The bicycle messenger was loitering outside when I exited the building and walked to the parking structure. I didn't even respond to his whistle as I strode by. My cell phone vibrated on my bedside table. I groped for it in the dark. It was Ronaldo. "Hi baby. Are you still up?" "Ronaldo, it's 1:00 in the morning. What are you doing? Don't you have practice tomorrow?" "Yeah, that's right, it's only practice. That's what I told the bitch when we wanted to have a party. She threw us out anyhow." He slurred exuberantly, as though proclaiming a triumph over Rafaela, the wife upon whom he alternately doted, and cheated. When the tequila subsided, this episode would become yet another domestic crisis to be resolved with yet another bauble. I heard laughter in background. "Who are you with?" "Marco, from AC Milan. They were playing an exhibition in San Diego. I'm showing him a good time. We need to come over." "Where are you?" "Brentwood." He mentioned the name of a bar less than a mile from my rented condo. "OK. But no more drinking." "I just want to show Marco a good time. And the bitch kicked us out." "Just be quiet when you get to the garage so you don't awaken the neighbors." I douched and jumped in the shower to freshen myself. JC had already come and gone, and while I hadn't offered any promises of monogamy to Ronaldo, I didn't want to offend his sensibilities with the obvious aroma of another man on my flesh. Ronaldo had returned to LA two weeks ago. I had rented him a beautiful town house on the fashionable north side of San Vicente Boulevard. For me, JC arranged a tiny one bedroom condo a few blocks north of Wilshire on the congested, but still costly south side of the Boulevard. I lived walking distance from my choice of Starbucks or the Coffee Bean, the take out counter at the Whole Foods or the sushi bar at Katsuya. I could have spent my annual salary in one afternoon at the eateries and boutiques on the block of San Vicente from Barrington to Montana. I didn't know how the yoga mat toting idlers I live among made their livings. But I was all to aware that the crappy salary I got from the Galaxy and the allowance I got from JC weren't enough. The cost of living large in Brentwood was depleting my finances. I toweled off, spritzed on some Chanel and glossed my lips as the door rang. I was a little embarrassed to be seen without makeup, but I decided they couldn't possibly have expected a fashion show in the middle of the night. I buzzed them through the front gate, pulled on some panties under my bathrobe, and hurriedly opened the door before their boisterous banter aroused my inquisitive and intolerant neighbors. They staggered across my threshold and into my kitchen. Ronaldo opened the refrigerator and stared blankly. "There's no food in here." "There's some edamame, hummus, chevre, apples and soy milk. And I have some cashews and almonds." "I meant human food, not bird food. We're hungry." "That's all I have. You should tell the team to give me a raise." "You need to try harder to please the boss. Maybe I should just have one of these." He moved with an athlete's grace behind me and wrapped his arm around me, gently cupping each of my boobs in his hands. "How perfect, one for each of me and Marco." He pressed his muscular frame against my back. His hard cock nestled between my buttocks. "What's that?" I pushed it away teasingly. He rubbed it against my behind. "An old and very close friend." I recognized Marco from the Italian celebrity magazines. Ten years ago he had been a star for Brazil's national team, but now he was playing for money rather than glory. The Brazilians had sold his contract to the Italians, just as the Italians had sold Ronaldo to the Americans. Even as a faded star, Marco had been favorite of the Italian soccer groupies and paparazzi. "Marco, meet Alessandra." I smiled and pursed my lips and said, "Agrad?vel," enchanted in Portuguese. Ronaldo released me from his playful grip and gently pushed me toward Marco, who bowed and kissed my hand as I approached. I pulled him to his feet and kissed his full, African lips. He embraced me, and then lifted me gently off my feet, and then slowly lowered me to my tiptoes. My breasts raked the length of his muscle girded torso. My nipples sizzled with sensation, and then Ronaldo sandwiched me from behind. We formed a triptych of sensual delight. My exhausted body and sated libido reawakened in anticipation of an imminent erotic combat. I knew what they had come for, and I welcomed it. I wanted both of them inside me. Ever since my hockey playing classmates Rick and Randy ravaged me in my freshman year at the University of Minnesota, I have always been a complete slut for jocks. But I would never marry or even be a long term GF to a jock. The chaos and discipline of sport are great in bed, and terrible in the home. The incessant training, drill, and competition of sport harden their bodies and spirits, rendering them immature and unreliable as lovers, but both demanding, and satisfying, as sexual partners. I am, in my own way, a sexual athlete, so in a way, the jocks and I are ideally suited for one another. But every sporting event must begin with a bit of sparring. So when Ronaldo sat on my couch and pulled me toward him, I deftly escaped and scampered away. "Not on my living-room furniture. It's all leased with security deposits, so I don't want lube or cum stains on it. Let's go to the bedroom." They followed me there. I let my bathrobe flutter open and fall. I yanked back the rumpled covers as Marco and Ronaldo wordlessly stripped. I sat on the side of my bed, opened my bedside table to display a bright array of condoms and lubricants. I dabbed a few drops of lubricant onto my fingers and moistened my pussy and ass. Even as a girl I still subscribe to the Boy Scout motto: "Be Prepared." With fingers shiny with KY, I beckoned them to draw near. "Now, I just have to suck both of those big cocks." I was all too familiar with Ronaldo's circumcised, eight-inch cock, but I had not seen much else that compared with Marco's jet black penis. It was long, uncut and under the foreskin, his glans bulged ominously. It swayed and bounced off his muscular thighs as he approached me, swaying like a cobra poising for a strike. I cupped their scrotums, one in each hand, and pulled them to my face. I turned side to side, letting their cocks bounce off my cheeks, as I looked up and sang "Eeny, meeny, miny mo, catch a penis in my mouth." I chose Marco's and popped his cockhead between my lips and gave it ten quick pumps as I circled my slippery fingers around Ronaldo and stroked him. Marco's foreskin pulled back and released an overwhelming umami flavor. My mouth watered, and I tried to deep-throat him, but his cock banged against my tonsils and glottis, too thick to penetrate into my inner throat. I was on the verge of gagging. I switched my mouth's attention to Ronaldo's penis, and circled the fingers of my other hand around Marco for ten pumps. When I switched back to Marco, the lube's cinnamon flavor had replaced his natural flavors. Now they both tasted like my favorite Starbucks latte. I alternated between them, suck to the left, suck to the right, and then I took them into my mouth together, and rolled them like two logs against one another. I looked up, and from one to the other. They had wrapped their arms over one another's shoulders, and the rapture in their eyes suggested how much they were enjoying this camaraderie. "Do Marco and I make a good team, Alessandra my love?" I pushed their cocks out of my mouth. "You're champions in every way. But I have sucked enough for now. It's time for us to make a sandwich." Marco looked confused as I got up. But they both complied as guided them to either side of my bed. But by the time that I grabbed two condoms, more lube and hopped over Ronaldo to take the spot between them, Marco had figured out what kind of sandwich I had in mind, and had joined Ronaldo in masturbating himself to maintain his erection. I slipped the condoms between my lips and rolled them down first Marco's, and then Ronaldo's cocks, and then slathered them with lubricant. Marco's cock was too thick and long for my Thai-made pussy, but I had had cocks of his length and girth in my ass many times before, although not recently. I knelt astride, facing outward, and wiped more lube onto my ass. "Are you sure your booty big enough for my thing?" "There's only one way to find out. If you know, me, you know I'll try anything once." I opened my ass as best I could and pointed cock at the tiny opening. I slid the bulbous tip, which was throbbing with blood and energy, around the rim of my butt. He thrust upward impatiently. I felt like a tropical fish about to be attacked by a hammerhead shark. I settled his hands in my iliac crest. I love anal sex and have a lot of experience with it. I part company with the purported experts who emphasize slow, careful penetration. You know it's always going to hurt at first, no matter what. Doesn't it make sense that delay only prolongs the pain? Better to get it over quickly, and get on to the fun. I recommend a quick, two step penetration Force it in as far as you can, until you can't take the pain, then take it out, relax, and start over. A brief respite, followed by a second pop, usually accomplishes the objective, and I get the whole thing inside me in less than thirty seconds. But usually I need one escape from that initial blaze of pain. So I like to make that deal before the fun starts. I looked back at Marco. "Hold me there, but let me be in control, for the first few strokes, OK?" Marco nodded. Ronaldo nuzzled and licked my breasts. I channeled the pleasure from my breasts to my butt. I took a few deep, calming breaths, and then I dipped my ass down onto him. His cockhead bounced against my rim like an acrobat on a trampoline. I steadied him, aimed carefully, opened my muscles with all my energy, and it slipped with a pop through my butt's outer ring. I felt myself stretched, but OK, until he slid through my inner sphincter and into my colon. None of my sex toys could prepare me for intrusion of Marco's mushroom- like cock. It felt as though razor sharp teeth were devouring me. I kept him inside for ten excruciating breaths, but I couldn't get the shark-like monster more than half-way in. It devoured me from inside, as though a demonic animal had been let loose, and was running amok, tearing at my organs. I couldn't take it, and had to take it out. As the massive snake exited, my ass popped shut and sent scorching radiations of pain through me. I breathed heavily, like prey that had miraculously escaped its predator. "You're too big, you beast. It hurts." "Come back. It felt like paradise in there, all squeezy and wet." I put some more lube on his cock and my butt. I settled back on him, determined to climb Mount Marco on my second attempt. My ass was burning, my breath was short, I was moist with sweat. I concentrated on Ronaldo, whose lips were nibbling my breasts and nuzzling my neck, waiting patiently to complete our amorous tableau. I forced myself down on Marco's giant plug once more. I channeled the pleasure of Ronaldo's delicate nipple pleasuring, and the memories of a thousand pleasurable anal trysts, to my newly rent-open anus. The spherical glans abraded my internal walls as it traversed my inner spaces. It straightened the delicate curve of the sigmoid, ascended the sinuous cascade of the descending colon, millimeter by agonizing millimeter, until it banged into soft ceiling of my transverse colon. I reached back and touched the taut rim of my butt. His cock was fully imbedded in me. I wriggled my buttocks, and looked back at Marco, whose eyes were shuttered with bliss, and rose off the massive black pedestal. The flesh which had grudgingly admitted this intruder now loudly protested its departure. I pulled until the beast was half expelled, and then descended again, then up, and down, five more times until the friction brought forth a feeling of warm and moistness inside me, and his cock felt like the bow wave of a barge lapping the shores of a warm, dark canal. Now Marco's eyes bulged with lust. "Oh, that's good, baby. That's so good." I leaned back onto his chest. My bowels twinged again as they adjusted to our horizontal position, but his upward thrusts now aimed directly toward my shrunken, but still sensate prostate. His toned muscles kneaded the soft tissues of my slender back. I placed his hands on my boobs, and rocked over him. His thick, up-thrust member visibly distended the outer wall of my flat belly. Ronaldo was now between my legs, playing his cock over my labia. "I'm ready for you baby. You two look, and sound, so hot." I looked up at Ronaldo and pouted. "Fuck me, baby." He straddled Marco's prone legs and spread my thighs. He diddled his cock over my labia, found the warm, damp opening, and slipped his cock into me. It compressed the thin wall of flesh that separates my pussy from my ass. I gasped as the two members squeezed together, but grabbed his buttocks and pulled him inward until the pressure spread upward, to where my vestigial boy parts, the prostate and vas deferens, remained. My pussy had self-lubricated from Marco's intense entry, so Ronaldo's cock penetrated me easily. His eyes were shuttered with bliss until his pubic bone collided with my vulva, and I let out a moan. He looked at me. "Oh, baby, that feels good. Your pussy's even tighter when you got Marco's big dick in your booty. How does it feel." "I feel like I have got two giant cocks in me, and I'm getting squeezed, and fucked, to within an inch of my life." Marco's baritone answered. "We'll leave you a millimeter, and take you for the rest." I slowed my body's dance atop Marco to let Ronaldo get in rhythm. I accustomed myself to the pressure of their two cocks inside me, and being compressed between two strong, masculine bodies. It was the fantasy that I most often relied on when I masturbated, and when you have the right guys, it's an erotic feast that cannot be matched. Ronaldo mashed downward from above, smothering my lips and neck with kisses, crushing my breasts with his chest and my vulva with his pubic bone, and filling my pussy with lunges synchronized with Marco's cock plumbing the depths of my tummy. Marco supported me from below, holding my buttocks with firm hands, plowing into me with powerful, trained muscles, while Ronaldo raked me from above. They batted me back and forth effortlessly, like a football in practice. The wall of flesh between my vagina and my anus compressed to a delicate membrane, and their colliding cock heads pummeled my prostate from above and below. Together, they squeezed juice from that forgotten fruit which the surgeons had abandoned inside me. Their thick, probing cocks were the rescuers I required to release it from its captivity. I felt my insides go warm and gooey from the pressure of their bodies below, above, and inside me. To speed me to my orgasm, I summoned my every erotic memory of my thousand and one nights of whoring. I thought back on the thousands of guys who had lusted after, paid for and used me. I had willingly served them all, and in every encounter I wanted them to use, fuck and dominate me. I had craved them all, even the cruel, fat and ugly ones, for they had made me what I am. I dreamed back to my Prom Night, when Miguel and the others had gang raped me. It had my most dreaded memory, one of the ones that made me cautious in my commerce. But until that night I had been a boy. On that night, I transformed into a girl. Just as I had conceived the child Alyssa in Marta's womb, Miguel, in his cruel way, had conceived the girl Alexandra from in the ravaged flesh of Alex Rios. The rape had changed me forever, and set me on my path to my sex change, to my life as a privileged courtesan. I had feared and resented Miguel, but I was wrong. I should have been grateful. It was that night of rape and degradation, and path of prostitution that led from it, that had refashioned me from geeky, arrogant boy whom no one liked, to a beautiful woman whom everyone desired. I remembered the disdainful, arrogant Miguel, fucking my ass and coming inside me, and I knew that I wanted him again, forcing me to suck him and fucking me in the ass and the pussy, and cuming on my tits. As Ronaldo and Marco surged inside me, pounding their ways to their own climaxes. But in my mind it was Miguel fucking the virginal me, and the two cocks on my shrunken prostate were his and one of his tattooed posse. I begged, and cried for more, more, more, fuck me harder, deeper, longer, and then the image of the helpless, ravaged virgin exploded into a million molten droplets that exploded inside me and suffused every cell of my body with hot, transformative fulfillment. I had to choke myself to keep from screaming out Miguel's name as my senses pulsed with release. I returned from my reverie to the throbbing flesh which enveloped me. Ronaldo and Marco were in a race now, competing to see which one could fuck me harder and longer. I let myself melt between them, a soft vessel for them to fill with their sacred offerings. They sprinted to the finish, first Marco, who came with a fierce shriek, "goddamn fucking whore," and then Ronaldo, who uttered "Mama, mama, mama." I suppose, in a way, that we all had meant the same thing, that in fucking we had tried to reclaim lost parts of our souls. When they had stopped throbbing, I disentangled myself from their sweaty bodies, pulled the condoms from their softening phalluses, and washed up as they fell into their post coital slumbers and dreams. As I showered and douched, I worried about Alyssa, and wondered about my psyche. Why was I still obsessed with Miguel? I hadn't even seen him for years, he had no idea where I was, and he was a fugitive from a dozen warrants. Why did I even care? The next morning, after they had gone, I fired up my laptop to pay some bills and check the news. I scrolled down past the war news, the politics, and the business news. Normally, I skipped the sports, but I saw a thumbnail of Marco, so I clicked the link. I led me to a story on TMZ, entitled "Soccer Star's Hot Night With Sexy Nanny." There was a fuzzy shot of me taking Ronaldo's kid to his preschool juxtaposed with a fuzzy, long distance shot of the three of us posed, nestled like spoons, in my bed. I stared in disbelief for a second, and then picked up my cell phone and dialed Ronaldo. I got his voicemail. "Hi Ronaldo, it's me. Give me a call. I think we have a big PR problem." The Stanley Mosk Courthouse in downtown Los Angeles is a ramshackle factory-like structure cowering on the corner opposite the gleaming titanium spires of Disney Hall. The sheriff at the metal detector made me empty my purse. I was thankful that I was carrying only two condoms, and returned his flirtatious smile with a haughty "not in your lifetime" glare. I was relieved it was only two; yesterday, I'd had four assorted Trojans in my Coach bag. The court's corridors have the same echoing clamor of an overcrowded and dangerous high school. The accused, their lawyers and the jurors dodged and scurried around one another as they hurried over the same worn tiles, and up and down the same rickety escalators. But virtually all of the gang bangers in their shackles looked up from their feet, and all of the lawyers chained to their Blackberries glanced up from their tiny keypads, as I passed by. In my black Chanel suit, white silk blouse, Prada pumps and borrowed pearls, I blew like a fresh breeze through the musty halls of justice. The scuffed wooden bench seats in Courtroom 55A looked like they could have been recycled from a defunct Greyhound bus terminal. Marcia handed her card to the clerk, an obese, graying Latina with a large mole or her forehead that I could not stop looking at. It was 9:00 am, and the cou