Mamma's Boy
By Dauphin
[email protected]
(sorry for the spelling and grammar mistakes. I am not perfect at that
even though I do try)
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His nose was bleeding. It was just my luck. I know Cody is my best
friend, but sometimes he just gets on my nerves. Today when he called me
tiny, I decided to show him that even tiny boys could beat someone up.
Lets face it; he was only a few centimeters taller than me. I don't
understand why he wanted to wind me up. Maybe he just wanted a fight.
My name is Sonny. I am 12. So is Cody, but he thinks I am smaller,
because he is a few centimeters higher than I am. I know I already said
that. But my penis was bigger than his, and it even had some hair. Sorry
for being rude and naming that. And in case you are asking how I know,
we have taken showers before after gym class.
Back to the fight my fist hit Cody's nose and this stunned him. I was
about to ask if he had enough and could we be friends again when I felt
the teacher's hand on my shoulder. Cody and I were led into the
principles office.
Of course our mothers were called and they were on the way. This meant
trouble, as I knew that Mum would be so mad at me. This was the second
time I have been ion the principles office in the last two weeks. While
we were waiting, Cody apologized and asked if we could be friends. I
tried to cheer him up by saying that if we survived our mothers, we
would be friends for life.
Our Mothers came in. The principle told them that we were in a fight.
Then my mum said that she would speak with me. She said it in a calm
voice, which surprised me. It especially surprised me when she looked at
me and smiled, saying that we will discuss it when we get home. Then she
smiled at the principle and said that she thinks that things will change
quickly in the future. I just smiled thinking that Mum must be sick or
something. She usually gets mad at me, even if it's in the principles
office. It was just as surprising as Cody's mother was just as calm and
said that she had a plan for Cody. Of course this could be bad as we
could be grounded for the next 50 years.
When we were on the way home I heard Cody's mother say to Mum:
"He I see you got the same ring as me," she said.
"Yes, I met this East European woman called Madame Isabella this morning
and we were talking how bad boys were today. Then she said she had a
ring that would help things and show others that I understand them."
"The same happened to me. It's like a ring to show support. I think it's
a good ideal. they have a ribbon to show support against aids, we have a
ring."
"I know. The problem is that I feel tingles going through my body up to
my brain. I looked at the ring and thought that it looked ugly and tried
to take it off, but then I couldn't breath. I was Ok when I put the ring
on again."
"That happened to me."
We were in the car on the way home and I thought that the conversation
was very strange. I looked at her ring and it was a cool ring. Once in a
while there would be a light glow from it where I would see that mum
would blink very fast. That was also funny. But I didn't laugh; as I
didn't know what trouble I was in when I came home.
When we came home I stood in the sitting room. I was waiting for her to
start shouting and the usual. But she told me to sit down and wait.
Mum picked up the telephone. I could see the ring glow once again. It
was so cool when it did that.
"Hello, This is Sonny's mother. You know what we spoke about a few weeks
ago, that our husbands left us, and it's just us that are raising our
sons. I remember you complaining that your house was too big and you
wanted to move..."
".........."
"That's right. Well I suddenly got an idea. We have two spare rooms
after Sonny's father found his young secretary. Why don't you and Cody
move here?"
"...... "
"Really? You thought of the same?"
"..... "
"Yes I agree that this ring is strange. Sometimes its like its putting
thoughts in my head."
".... "
"Sure, why not. There is no better time than the present. You just move
what you need over tomorrow."
"...."
"I agree, you don't need a lot, and you can just rent out the house. I
look forward to speaking to you tomorrow."
As if I didn't guess it already, Mum came into me and said that Cody and
his Mum would be moving in tomorrow. I didn't dare ask if she's gone
crazy or what the hell she was thinking about. It seemed like it was too
soon for me. I man I could understand that he would be moving in a few
months time, but moving in the next day. I will never understand
parents. I suppose it was smart, as it was weekend. They would have time
to get settled in.
The next day they came when I was still in bed. I just put the pillow
over my head. Didn't anyone have any time to sleep a bit longer on
Saturdays anymore? I could hear them show Cody his room and where his
mother will sleep. It didn't sound like they had that much to bring. It
was basically their clothes and books and his toys and computer.
After they moved in, Cody came into my room without knocking. He thought
it was so fun that we would be living together. I suppose he was right.
He didn't even think that it was strange that it was so soon. He thinks
that our mothers must have talked about it for weeks. I doubt that. I
decided to cheer up. It was nice to have my best friend living with me.
The weekend was a blast. Cody and I had so much fun. If what it were
like to live with your best friend, then it would be great. We played
play station and seen DVDs and wrestled and everything. It was like a
half year of fun and games in one weekend. I quickly forgot that they
moved in so quickly. It was so fun that they would be living with us.
Of course, there was one disadvantage. Instead of having one mother that
was constantly bickering, now there were two mothers that bickered. Two
women that said remember to do your chores and to clean up, not to make
so much noise and to remember to leave the toilet seat down. Sometimes
it was like listening to two parrots just repeats things.
Sunday night was no different. Cody wanted to see Kim Possible, this
girl who can do everything. I wanted to see a Batman film. I had the
remote first but he grabbed it out of my hand and started watching his
stupid cartoon. Then I did what any boy would do, I jumped on him. I
grabbed the remote from him. Then we started wrestling on the floor. It
wasn't that we were mad at each other. It was that just at the time, it
was more fun wrestling. Of course the two mums came in and separated us.
That was such a shame. I nearly had him pinned down. They started
screaming and telling at us saying this and that. You have a mother; you
know the type of things that they say.
After we sat as quiet as could be, they started talking.
"They always fight," Mum said as I seen her ring glow a small bit
"I know," Cody's mother responded. Her ring was glowing as well and her
eyes were winking a bit quicker.
"Don't you wish sometimes they were born as girls?"
"I wish Cody was born as baby girl."
That made me laugh.
"So do I."
I stopped laughing when Mum said this.
"Remember that woman we met. She has dance classes for boys. I think we
should send them to dance."
"I think that is a brilliant idea."
I looked at Cody. He just sat there as nothing was said. Our mothers
have just said we were going dancing and he was just sitting there. I
looked at my mother and said I was not go dancing. She looked at me as
harshly and it looked like she was going to explode. She said that if
she decides I will go dancing, I will. If she had to drag me by my neck
and spank me all the way. I had a glimpse of hope. She did say if she
decided, so that means it has not been decided yet. But something in her
eyes and face told me that I should not push her too far.
I could hardly sleep that night. The talks about dance made shivers go
through my back. After a few hours of thinking I thought it would make
me very popular if everyone could see I was a hip hop dancer or break-
dancer. A smile came to my face. I could break dance in the middle of
the hallways and everyone would be cheering me on, or maybe I could
dance hip-hop on the teacher's desk. Imagine that?
The next day we got into trouble. It wasn't really our fault. It was
during Lunch break and this girl was standing in the corner of the
playground where we were. Then we saw a puddle beneath her. We started
laughing when we seen that she peed herself. I mean she was a girl our
age that peed herself. That is totally strange. So we started calling
her names and I tried lifting her skirt to see her wet panties. This was
a mistake, because as I started doing this, a teacher came up and took
Cody and I by our shoulders.
We sat in our usual chairs outside their principles office waiting for
our Mums to come.
This would be bad for us. We were there last Friday and already they're
a few days after. I was sort shaking because I knew this was twice in a
row and Mums temper would clearly explode.
That didn't happen. Mum and Cody's mum came in and heard what we did.
Then there was silence. The silence was as painful as if the two mums
started screaming and knocking down walls.
Then Mum said, "I promise that this time will be the last time that
these two boys will be here in the office. They are starting at dance
today. It is at Isabella's school of dance. She has a special class for
boys."
"I heard about that. Two other boys from here will help. I hear she is
from Eastern Europe. In fact I have spoken with a principle pal of mine
that said she worked in his town, and the changes in the boys she had
there was spectacular."
"That is why we are sending our boys. Something tells us that she will
help our boys. They are getting out of control."
"Well as they are starting at dance, I will see if that works. They will
not be suspended. But I do not want to see both of them in my office
again."
"Don't worry, you won't"
With that we were left school. The two mothers and us were quiet in the
car. Learning how to dance was an easy punishment. I couldn't understand
what the punishment was. I mean at the least, it would make me even more
popular if I could dance hip-hop. Maybe do the moonwalk. I saw that on
some oldie music video. As long as it wasn't ballroom dancing, I
wouldn't care. You had to wear geeky suits and dance with girls that had
ten inches of make up on and a false smile, and not to mention the old
fashioned music.
We got at the dance studio. It was not that big. There was a huge mirror
on one wall with a bar going across it. The floors were wood and shiny.
It looked OK.
Cody and I walked into a changing room. We saw two boys from our school.
They were Andrew and James. They were in the class above us. That was
OK. They were quite popular at school and always got into trouble. We
put on shorts and a t-shirt. It looked like we were going to play
football without shoes, as there was a sign that said we could only wear
socks when we were dancing. I thought that was strange, but maybe she
did not want any streaks on her floor.
After we got in, we stood like 4 excited people waiting for dance to
start. Then I laughed when the teacher came out. She looked exactly like
Madonna in the "Hung up" video. She had white tights and pink leotard.
She even had the long wavy hair like Madonna.
She told us to stand against the rail and to try bending down keeping
our legs together and knees forward. This was easy. But we had to do it
so many times, even with our arm straight out. I was always good with
balance, so I had no problem. It was funny watching Cody stumble a few
times. Then we had to raise our legs in all directions. She would say a
word that sounded like it was French or something, and we would know if
we would move our legs to the side or front or back. This was basically
our first lesson. During the lesson I thought when would we get to dance
to some cool music.
At the end she said that we were excellent, and will be great ballet
dancers. I think I was about to faint when she said this. Was all this
ballet? Were we going to ballet dance? I could not understand it. I
wanted to hit something. This was the worse punishment that Mum could
ever give me. How could she? I felt like telling the police. I felt like
telling the FBI. Even CNN!
I didn't say a word to Mum for the next few days. Cody was just as mad
as I was. We supported each other in how hard it was. We felt sorry for
each other and ourselves. What happened if the others at school found
out? We would be the laughing stock in the whole school.
When I tried speaking to Mum about it, she just responded that she
already paid for it and I would have to do it.
"Mum, I don't want to do ballet."
"I already paid for it. You have to."
"I never said I wanted to do ballet."
"But you did the exercises at the bar."
"So-"
"You didn't complain then."
"So-"
"So you did ballet and didn't complain."
"I know but then she said it was ballet, and I don't want to do ballet."
"Well tough, you will continue doing ballet."
"What if I don't?"
"Then I will punish you by taking your computer and your play station
and TV and a few other things. I don't see what you are being such a
sulking baby. Cody already told his mother."
I lost the battle, and I agreed to give it a chance for 3 months. I
didn't want to make mum mad. But I told her that I would do no shows or
show anyone how I dance and mum promised she wouldn't tell anyone, not
even my grandparents.
I didn't know at the same time that Cody's mother was talking with him
about the same. He got even madder than me and got more threats.
So the week after, we were back at ballet. It was still the 4 of us. The
exercise was the same. We just stretched our legs and went up and down.
Then she told us to sit down.
"I am so happy that you have come back," she started. "I know you are
disappointed that you are doing ballet. I know you think it's for girls.
But do you see any girls are here? No some of the most famous ballet
dancers are men. Look at yourselves, you are wearing shorts. You all
look like boys. Even if you were wearing a leotard and tights, you would
still be boys. It is how you feel inside. Ballet will make you all into
better boys. I am so happy that you are here. Next week you will get a
present and we will have a party instead of practicing."
I laughed when she said we would still look like a boy if we wear
tights. I would look like a sissy. But next week we would be having a
party, so I didn't have to worry about doing ballet.
The week went by quickly and believe it or not, we didn't get into
trouble at home or at school. Mum got some one to put a mirror up and
bar in the basement. I watched him when he was putting up. He was a bit
annoying because he kept asking where's my sister, the one that does
ballet. I didn't want to tell him that I didn't have any sister and that
the bars were for me. I just let him ask and didn't answer. After he
asked what seemed to be a thousand times, I said that it was Cody that
did ballet. The workman laughed and said it was strange for a boy to do
ballet.
The next ballet lesson came. The day was changed to Thursday, instead of
Monday when it usually is. Our mums were allowed to be there. I noticed
that all four of them were wearing the same rings. There was also
another woman there and she was standing behind this chair you would see
in the dentist shop. I hope we will not be playing musical chairs or
something like that. I mean how childish would that be?
Isabella started by welcoming us.
"Welcome my pretty boys and their mothers. Today is the first day in
your new life. Ballet and the gift you will get is the baptism you need
to be the new boys that your mothers deserve. There is a glass before
you, lets cheer for our new future and your future selves."
I looked at the glass; it had this blue liquid in it. It looked quite
disgusting. I took a sip of it and it tasted like pee. I looked at Cody
and he was squinting his eyes as well. I wanted to throw the cup down
but something told me that I had to taste more. I tasted more and didn't
mind the taste. I could see our mothers on chairs, looking at some
catalogues with ballet clothes. When I looked at the cover, it had a
picture of a ballerina girl. They were probably looking at new shorts
and things. The more I looked at them, the blurrier it became.
After a glass I asked if I could have more. My voice sounded slurry and
I felt so dizzy. Everything was blurry. I remember thinking that the
drink tasted so bad. Now I thought that it tasted so good.
So here I was, I was so I couldn't really see anything, as everything
was so blurry. I think that I even seen butterflies flying around. I
tried reaching after them, and then they changed into rainbows. I could
hear myself giggling. This was so funny. It was like I was in a world of
magic.
Then I heard this voice that sounded like a angel say "come with me its
your turn". It wasn't like anyone else's voice, it was an angel's voice
that filled my head when she spoke, and sounded like an echo. It was
like the voice controlled my body.
I tried to stand up, but my legs were like jelly. Then the angel with
the strange body lifted me up. I heard her saying that I was so small
and light, I would be easy in the future. This words echoed in my mind,
and Even though I was fighting to understand what they meant, I really
didn't care because the voice was so soothing. Besides the chair I was
sitting in was like a cloud.
The next thing I knew was that everything went black.
When I woke up I was home. I woke up and felt so good. To be honest, the
last thing I remembered was that I had a drink that I did not like. It
was at ballet class. How did I get home? I looked at the clock. It was
9:44. I was in a panic. I must have overslept.
I rushed into the kitchen asking my Mum to drive me to school. She
started laughing saying that it was weekend. I have been asleep for two
days after the party. I just shrugged my shoulder and said sorry to my
mother, I don't remember what I did at the party, but it must have been
one huge party. Mum told me that Cody's mum was in his room as he woke
up a bit earlier.
I said I would brush my teeth and clean myself. Mum said that would be
great.
I took the toothpaste as I usually do and then thought why did God
create teeth if we had to brush them every day. Then I looked in the
mirror and started brushing my teeth. Then it struck me.
There was something wrong with me.
My hair looked a lot longer. Halfway down to my neck. It was also a bit
lighter than my usual dark hair. Sometimes this happened during the
summer. But it was a few months until summer.
Then I saw it. It was my ears. I had earrings. Not one, but two. I know
what everyone at school said this meant. It is OK for a boy to wear one
earring, but wearing to of them means that you like other boys or you
are a sissy. I looked closer at the earrings that have a small silver
flower that was flat and a gold butterfly on top of it. These was the
strangest earrings I ever seen, but how did they get there?
"Hi Sonny. I have seen you woke up," Cody said as he barged into the
bathroom, without knocking as he never did. "Wow, your hair grew as
well."
"Did you see these earrings we have? Someone pierced our ears," I
shouted struggling to hold back my anger as well as a tear
"I know. I have the same."
"In both ears. Only puffs have them in both ears."
"I don't know. They look sorta pretty."
"Listen to what your saying. Only girls say they are pretty. These are
for girls. How me any boy that wears earrings in both ears!"
"Look in the mirror," he said.
I rushed down to my mother and showed my earrings and complained for a
half an hour. Mum expected this to happen and said that at the party, I
said I wanted them. I said that I didn't remember anything, and the
drink was probably whiskey or something that got me drunk. That made Mum
mad and said that she would never give me alcohol and if she ever seen
me drink it, I would be so red in my bum. She said that I said yes and
that was it. She also said that Madame Isabella said not to take the
earrings off otherwise there would be consequences.
I didn't go out all day. I tried doing other things but all I could feel
was my ears. I went into Cody's room and he wasn't doing much. I asked
him why he just accepted that he had earrings. He explained that he had
to wear them because he asked for them. I tried being reasonable with
him telling him that he doesn't remember asking and it was probably some
magic drink. Cody just laughed and said there's no such thing as magic
and to stop bothering him.
I went into the bathroom and looked in the mirror. I was not going to
have any earrings. I tried to take them off. Just as I did this the face
of Madame Isabella in the mirror. The image of her looked mad as she
said, "There will be consequences." With that the whole room went white;
I felt myself go dizzy once again and fainted on the floor.
When I woke up, I noticed that I was in my bed. I looked around. This
must have been a bad dream. I put my hands to my ears and noticed that
the earrings were still there. It was like my heart dropped. It was no
bad dream.
Mum came in and told me that she warned me that I am not to take the
earrings off. I said I tried but it was like I was hit by lightning. I
said I thought I seen Isabella in the mirror. She looked mad. Mum said
that Isabella also said that they couldn't be removed. I told her that
Isabella must be some sort of witch, I means how is it that I cannot
take earrings out. Everyone should be able to take them out.
Mum said just forget they were there and to go in and take a nice bath.
As I walked in I already seen Cody there. He had loads of bubbles in the
bath with some Rose petals. I had to look at him twice as he looked like
a girl in the bath.
He asked me did I want to join him, I said no as politely as I could.
Then he said that he was finished. I reminded him to empty the water, as
I didn't want to smell like perfume or roses.
I started taking off my clothes as I usually do. I looked in the mirror
and could see that my hair was now longer than Cody's. It was nearly
down to my shoulder. He noticed me looking at that and said that
Isabella said it would grow to remind me not to take my earrings out. I
laughed bravely and said at least I can cover the earrings with my hair.
This made Cody a bit upset and said why would I ever do that, he thought
they were so pretty.
I did what I thought was best to do. I tried to forget that I even had
them. If anyone would tease me at school, then I would just say that
they were modern now and only geeks and nerds didn't wear them. I had my
plan. I hoped it worked.
Cody was now drying himself and nearly all my clothes were off. I could
see him staring at me. I asked him why was he being so weird, then he
just pointed and said look. He was looking at my nipples. I became weak
in my legs when I seen them. They were browner and pointed out. It also
looked like my skin was a bit swollen around them. Then I realized that
they looked like boobs. I started to breath heavy. Then Cody said don't
worry; you could hardly notice them, except my nipples were a small bit
bigger.
I tried to calm down thinking that I would be wearing something over
them. The last few days have been very weird, and I wondered when would
weird things stop happening to me? Then I saw Cody staring at me again.
He was staring at my thing. He was sure acting gay today. Why was he
looking at that? I looked down and then seen what his lips was saying
but without any words.
My hair above my thing, it's gone! I was now hairless just like Cody
was.
I fell to the tub and called for Mum to come. Of course Cody's Mum came
as well so I had everyone looking at me.
"Mum look at my nipples and my hair down below is gone."
"It's all about growing up."
"Mum, I'm supposed to grow more hair, not less. And only girls grow
boobs."
"Well then, do not try to against Isabella. Do what she says, otherwise
she will punish you more and more."
"Is this her fault, I told you she is a witch."
"Or you are disobedient for trying to take your earrings off."
That night I could not sleep. My nipples were so sensitive and I felt
like my pjs were too heavy. When I took the PJ trousers I thought I was
cold. That night was the longest night in my life. I didn't sleep for 10
secs.
The next day was Monday. It was Ballet day. I woke up and told Mum that
I didn't sleep and told her why. I could see her ring start to glow
again. She advised that I talk to Isabella today. Then she said I could
catch up on my sleep with the kindergarten when they had naps. Before I
could complain, she was already ringing to the kindergarten teacher
explaining that I did not sleep and I would need to have a nap so I can
dance after school.
As I guessed everyone teased us about the earrings. Cody didn't really
mind, and no one believed me when I said it was now the fashion in New
York and even Paris. They called us sissies and things like that. I
could fear my eyes become wet. I didn't understand anything anymore. If
they said this a few weeks ago I would make their nose bleed and visit
the principal. Now I could feel myself nearly cry.
When it was Lunchtime, I walked slowly to the kindergarten class. It was
like a spy mission. I kept on looking to see if anyone could see me. I
sneaked into the room with a load of small children. The teacher showed
me a mattress where I could lie on. It had a blanket with Winnie the
Pool and the thinnest pillow I ever seen as well. On the pillow there
was a pink pacifier. Maybe she thought that I was much younger than I
was. I lied down on the mattress and closed my eyes.
At the start, I couldn't sleep. Then the teacher came and put the
pacifier in my mouth. I spit it out and she just put it in again. Then I
drifted towards sleep. I had a weird dream. I was a girl. I had long
hair and had a dress on in school and all the boys fancied me. When I
woke up I was a bit confused. That was the worse nightmare that I ever
had.
The teacher said goodbye to me and said she was sorry for the pacifier.
She was just used to the younger children. I was polite and said that it
helped.
That afternoon we had ballet. It went pretty much like the other times.
The other boys also had the same earrings. We tried some dance steps
sway from the bars. I was pleased when Isabella said that I was the
best. I knew that that Cody would be upset over this because he seemed
to want to please Madame Isabella the most.
After the ballet, Isabella said she would like to speak with me.
"I hear that you have tried to take off your earrings," she said.
"Yes, I mean look at them. Only girls wear earrings."
"You don't understand sweetie. Boys can wear them too. The flower in the
earring represents the beauty in you, how sweet and kind you are. The
butterfly shows how unique you are. How graceful you are. This is a
great present from me, and yet you tried to take them off."
"Sorry."
"What happened when you took them off?"
"I lost my hair above my... well-"
"Your privates."
"Yea now I look like a little boy. My Nipples are also sensitive and I
can't sleep."
"Will you try to take them off again?"
"No."
"Well I can't do anything about the hair. I can do something about the
sleep. I would also like to warn you that if you go against my wishes,
there will be consequences."
"Are you- are you- are you a witch?"
"No. What I do is what your mother wants and is for your own best good.
Now open the pack and see now that you will be able to sleep."
I opened the pack and it was some nightclothes. I folded it out and once
again I could feel the banking of my heart when I seen a picture of
Tinkerbell. She is the little fairy from Peter Pan. I was about to say
that this was a girl's nightdress, but I decided not to make Isabella
mad. I mean she might make me bald or something like that.
She was right. That night Mum helped me put the nightdress on and it
felt so nice. You know like when you wear a superman costume and the
feeling when the cape flows in the air. The Nightdress was the same, as
if I could feel the fresh air going up it and telling me sleeping would
be like sleeping on a pink cloud. I mean cloud.
Of course Cody came in and seen it. If he called me a sissy or any other
words like that I would pounce on him. The only thing he said was that
it was so pretty and he started begging his mother for one. I couldn't
believe my ears. Was he under Isabella's spell that he was begging for a
girl's nightdress?
Needless to say, the next night he was wearing a Barbie one. What was
the world coming to? He said to his Mum that he would lie in my bed for
a while and talk before he went to bed
"Now we both have pretty night dresses," he started.
"I don't know why you even wanted one. They are for girls and I only
wear one because it helps me with a problem I have."
"But it is a gift from Madame Isabella. If she thinks it will make you a
better dancer then it will also make me a better dancer."
"Why do you care what she thinks?"
"I want to be a better ballet dancer!"
"Why? Ballet is for girls. I agreed to do it for a bit and then I am
stopping."
"I will never stop. I love ballet. It is the best time during the week.
I always look forward to it and when we don't have ballet, I love
practicing."
"You would never have said that a few weeks ago."
"I know, but things have changed. I don't understand why you are being
so stubborn."
Cody put his hands around me and started hugging me. I thought he was
just trying to make me feel better. He started caressing my back and
this made me feel a lot better. Nothing was said. It was just one friend
trying to console another friend, or at least I thought it was. That was
until I could see his face come closer to my face, and the next thing I
knew was that he was trying to kiss me. I was in shock. I pushed him off
and got mad at him saying that I was not gay. This made Cody cry. Of
course I felt sad that I pushed him off, but I had to show him that I
was not gay. He could give me a hug, as long as it was not a gay kiss.
The next day, Cody was hardly speaking with me. I think he was mad at me
because of the night before. But at the end of the day, I decided to
walk into his room. I was surprised that he was so happy. It seemed like
he forgot all about the night before. He asked me what I thought of his
new posters. He explained that Mum has also bought some for my room.
I looked at the walls. They were pictures of body builders, and boys our
age that were just in speedos. There were also pictures of boys our age
wearing dresses or even diapers. They looked so weird. I mean how many
12 year olds wear dresses and diapers.
He asked me what I thought. I just said that I think there should be
pictures of women in bikinis and the room would be much nicer. Again his
answer shocked me. He said it's much nicer to look at them than some
stupid pictures of women. I think that he was going cry.
The next week at ballet was pretty much easy. Isabella was nice to me
because I told her that I was using her nightdress and I was sleeping
well. Otherwise we practiced on the bar and moving around on our feet
while trying to look at graceful as we could.
At the end Madame Isabella said, "I hear that 3 of you have decorated
your walls with posters of men. This does not mean that you are gay. It
is Ok to look at other men and think that they are cute. It is even Ok
to masturbate when you look at them. I see nothing wrong with that. I am
sure the boy that has not redecorated his room will do it soon. There is
one thing that I am telling you all. Remember if you do not there will
be consequences. You all notice that your hair is growing and is now own
to your shoulders. You are not allowed to cut your hair. Your parents do
not want it and neither do I? You are allowed to cut your fringes in
what they call a page style."
I didn't say anything all the way home in the car. I just thought that
now Isabella has gone to far. I mean now we weren't allowed to cut our
hair. I could hear the two Mums say that they think it's a good ideal to
let our hair grow, as we would look cute. I even would look cute with a
ponytail. That was the last drop. Isabella was only supposed to teach us
how to dance. Now she was telling us what to wear on our ears and in
bed, what to put on our walls and now not to cut our hair. I wasn't
blind. She wanted us to look like girls in some play she wanted. Then
everyone would laugh at us, and after we could be boys again but have no
friends. And how she could brainwash and control our mums and Cody and
the other boys showed also that she was a witch. I could hardly go to
the police claiming she was a witch. They would just laugh at me.
I decided what I was going to do.
When I came home, I rushed into the kitchen and took a scissors. I took
some pillows in the bathroom and put them on the floor just incase I was
hit by some lightning or fainted or some other punishment by Isabella.
I started cutting my hair. It was actually quite cool. Each time I cut a
piece of it off some sparks came from my head. After I cut it and cut
it, I looked in the mirror, and I looked like a boy.
I looked in the mirror. No Isabella.
I looked at the floor. I didn't faint.
I survived Isabella's latest threat. I smiled looking at the mirror. I
looked nearly like my old self again.
I should not have smiled. A bright light shone under the door. It was a
bright light with pink stars. It looked so cool, but the light was so
bright, I had to cover my eyes. Then everything started to shake like it
was an earthquake. I was being swung from side to side. I thought it was
the end of the world. An earthquake! The light coming under the door
must have been heaven or something.
After what it seemed to be like a lifetime, the light vanished and the
shaking stopped. I looked in the mirror.
My hair was back. It was like I never have cut it. I looked down at my
body at noticed that the sleeves were much longer and the legs in my
trousers were flat on the floor. While I looked as tall as an 11 year
old a few moments before (Eventhough I was 12), I now looked as tall as
a 9 year old.
This made me so mad. What did Isabella do now? Why does her consequences
always have to be like this. What will everyone say at school when they
seen me this age?
I walked out of the bathroom and Mum was standing there. I could see
that the ring on her finger was glowing a lot.
"I see that you tried to cut your hair. When will you ever do as your
told? The only thing that Isabella told you to was not to cut your hair,
and as soon as you got home, you had to cut your hair. You don't see
Cody coming home and cutting his hair do you. No he does what Isabella
said. Now look at you. You look like a little boy. I suppose this is the
best punishment, as you are just acting like a little boy"
I knew I dared not say anything to Mum as she dragged me into her room.
I stood in the corner with a tear in my eye. Maybe I looked like a
little boy, but I will be strong enough not to cry. Isabella would never
make me stoop that so low as to cry.
I was wrong.
Mum went back and forth saying that she hoped it would never come to
this, and Cody was standing at the door with tears flowing down his
cheeks. Boy, he looked so tall! But why was he crying? I wasn't about to
be executed.
Then Mum came towards the bed. She emptied some baby powder on the bed
and threw a disposable diaper on the bed. As soon as I seen this I ran
towards the door. But she caught me by my arm. One problem that I shrunk
was that I was no longer as strong as I was. I was a little weakling.
She threw me on the bed where she tried taking my clothes off. I
screamed for the police and social services and anyone that would help
me. I started crying and begging my Mum to please let me alone and I
will do whatever she said.
It was to no avail, she just held my kicking legs down until I had no
energy to fight anymore. The pampers or whatever they were plastic and
thick I thought. They had some girlish cartoon in the front and some red
hearts at the elastics at the top and around my legs. At least they
could have used boy diapers instead of these stupid pink ones. I was too
tired of fighting and my head was beginning to hurt after all the
crying.
The diaper was on and Cody was going on about how nice it looked with
all the pretty cartoons and colours. I didn't even have the fighting in
me to stick my middle finger up at him. Something that I was smaller and
now had a nightdress and diaper on me made me feels smaller. I was no
longer the wild 12-year-old boy; I was the 9-year-old boy with a diaper
on.
Then Mum lifted me into my room, which was no longer even looked like my
room. It looked like a babies room. It had a crib and a blanket in the
middle of the floor with loads of toys. Not my play station but baby
toys. Mum lowered me in the crib and gave me a bottle saying that I must
be thirsty.
My brain was so empty that I just put the bottle in my mouth and started
sucking. The warm milk was quite nice and I just stared at the ceiling.
I was looking at the sign in the crib. It was a metal sign who made it.
There was the name of the company and the Roman Numbers when it was
made.
Time passed as drank from the bottle and listened to some Hannah Montana
Music. I used to hate her, as she is only for little girls that like
dancing before a mirror.
As more time passed, I looked back at the sign in the crib. What did the
letters at the end mean? Oh yes, they were Roman numbers. But why can't
I remember what the number was? I used to know what they were.
Or did I?
The next morning I woke up. Mum lifted me out of the crib and took my
diaper off. I thought that she would put some boxers on me now. But
instead she started putting a diaper on me. I started kicking and
everything, as I did not want to wear a diaper to school.
Mum said, "Listen darling. There are a few things we have to talk about.
Remember that there are consequences to the fact that you tried to cut
your hair. You know now that you are the size of a nine year old. You
will also find out that you have forgotten many of the things that you
used to know. So now, you will have to be in the same class as the 9
year olds."
"Mum, they will laugh at me."
"No, they will just think that you always went into that class."
"How is that?"
"Isabella can do things that we never can imagine. You will have new
friends and the old ones will think you are one of the younger ones."
"Can't you see that she is a witch?"
"No, and besides that your room has been changed to a nursery until you
can learn to do what adults say."
"I noticed that but I don't want to wear a diaper to school."
"That was not Isabella's punishment. That was mine. If you can't act
your age then you can be a baby and wear a diaper to school."
"I don't want to."
"Let me think. OK. If you agree to take naps every day at the
Kindergarten then I will let you wear briefs."
I thought about it and agreed to the nap. I hoped Mum would forget about
it after a few days.
I went to school. Cody did not sit with me. He knew that I was really 12
and not 9, but he did not want to sit with me, because now he was
convinced I was a small kid. This made me mad. Maybe I was smaller, but
I was a better dancer and I did not have posters up of half naked men.
Otherwise the day went quite well. I suddenly had new friends that
didn't use all their time to talk about girls. The teacher was nice, but
it was a bit hard what she taught us. How much did I forget?
At Lunch, I tried to sneak past the kindergarten and play football with
the others. The Kindergarten teacher caught me by my shoulder and asked
did I forget that I needed a nap. She also said I was to pretty of a boy
to be playing football.
The nap was like the last time. I slept in a little mattress and the
pacifier helped me to sleep. Which was no problem. Usually I could stay
up all day, but I was so tired.
Of course the others in my class teased that needed a nap, but I didn't
hit them. I would probably have teased if I were them too. I just said
that I could dream about playing football on the moon.
When I came home, Mum asked was I wet. I said no. Then she put me on the
bed and put a diaper on me. I didn't complain, as long as I didn't have
to wait until school.
Cody was totally different now that I was a 9 year old. OK, I know
should be 12, but I looked and lived like a 9 year old, so I was
starting to consider myself as a 9 year old. Of course I was a 9 year
old with diapers and a crib, but others didn't know that.
Cody was meaner. The frustration that he had since he found Isabella
thought I was a better dancer than he was. Now he was teasing me that I
was a baby, and always asked me if I was wet. Usually I would have
jumped on him, but something stopped me. I didn't want to really fight
him. I just ran to a corner and hid.
Later that night, I was lying on my stomach on the floor watching some
cartoon that Mum put on. A few weeks ago. I would have been boring. But
now I was deeply interested in the cartoon. It was about a girl that
lived on a farm, and her father had no money. Now the father wanted to
sell the horse and the girl did all she could to keep the horse. My eyes
were a bit watery, because the story was so sad.
Just as it came to the most important part, Cody said that he could see
my diaper. I looked back and could see that my nightdress was a bit too
high and that the diaper can be seen. I opened my mouth, as I was about
to give him what was on my mind, but as soon as I opened my mouth, tears
came out. I don't believe it, I was crying like a little girl. Cody
tried saying he was sorry, but it was too late. All evening, he was
teasing me about diapers and the way he ignored me at school. The tears
started flowing through my eyes and Mum came and put a pacifier in my
mouth and said that its time that relax in my bed. Or she could have
said crib.
I was taken to my refurnished room and mum helped me in the crib. She
hung a new thing from the ceiling. It was some lights and when she
turned a button they turned around. You could see a trail of stars
follow them as they turned around. Then she turned on some Hannah
Montana Music and then made sure the pacifier in my mouth. I was just
staring at the lights turning around and listening to the music. I
couldn't take my eyes off of it. Even when my eyes were becoming heavy,
I just had to say.
I hardly heard my Mum go while she said good night princess.
Princess?
The next morning was the same as the day before. Mum asked me if I
wanted to wear a diaper to school. I said no. It was a diaper and
besides that it was a girls diaper. Everyone would laugh at me. Mum said
that it was up to me. If I think I was wiser than her, then I could try
it, but warned not to blame her if something bad happened.
The morning went fine. The classes were a bit hard, but I was doing my
best to keep up with what the teacher was saying. At times, I thought it
was unfair that I had to learn the same things twice, but I have noticed
as time went, I was forgetting about who was and have forgotten the fact
that I was 12. I was now 9 and that's all I knew.
At Lunch I went to the Kindergarten class and without being coaxed put
the pacifier in my mouth. I spit it out a few seconds later when I
realized what I did, but that didn't last long. I needed it in my mouth
to sleep, so I slept with the pacifier.
When I woke up, the teacher pull down my jeans. I was about to scream
when she explained that I had a little accident when I slept, and not to
worry about it, lots of children my age does. She had a problem that she
did not have lots of changing clothes. In fact the only ones that she
had was these jeans from a girl is now 12 that used to have the same
problem. Suddenly a bit of my memory came back, I realized that this was
the same girl that Cody and I laughed at weeks earlier for peeing
herself in the playground. I had no choice but to wear her clothes. It
was some white panties with daisies as well as jeans. They had roses go
down the back of the legs as well as around the pockets. I felt the
tears once again when I realized that I was getting girls trousers on.
I sneaked back to the class, and of course everyone was staring at my
trousers and asking if I a girl or boy. They couldn't really see,
because my hair was so long, I had girlish earrings and now I was
wearing girl's jeans. I said that I was a boy. The teasing became worse
as I became more frantic and said that I was a boy. They insisted that I
was a girl and called me names like sissy and princess and puff.
I challenged them that if they wanted to see if I was a girl or boy,
they could have a fight. I was relieved when Declan came up. He was the
weakest boy in the class. I gave him one of my knockout punches that
always winded someone. That didn't happen this time, he just laughed and
said that I hit like a girl. Then he punched me and it felt like I flew
through the air for several feet. I doubt that happened as I just fell
back.
The worse thing was that I could feel myself peeing again. I tried to
stop, but I couldn't stop. The new jeans I got were totally wet. One
thing about jeans, you can see when they are wet. I couldn't have! I
did! I peed myself in front of everyone. While everyone was laughing was
teasing, I was sent to the nurses office. She said that she already
spoken with my Mum and she told me to wear one of the school diapers. I
was about to get mad and shout and even cry when the nurse stuck a
pacifier in my mouth and quickly removed my wet clothes and before I
knew it, I had a diaper on me. While I was staring at the diaper and
also wondering why it was a girl's diaper, I got the same story that she
only had some clothes from a girl that wet before. It was like this girl
was haunting me. All my problems started when I teased her. Now I was in
the same situation. The Nurse said she only had leggings. What were
leggings? I soon found out as they were just like tights. You could see
every curve in my legs and of course you could see my diaper.
I wont tell you what my classmates said when I came back. Use your
imagination.
When I got on the bus, Cody saw me. He smiled when he saw my leggings
and the diaper budge in them.
"I like the trousers you're wearing. They look a bit like tights."
"Stop teasing."
"I am not teasing. I really like them. I wish Mum would buy me them."
I looked at him, thinking that he was very strange. Why would any boy
want to go around with leggings on? He was so strange. The men on his
wall, the fact that he liked nightdresses and now leggings. I wonder
what was wrong with him. It was at the tip of my tongue. But I forget
what it's called.
As you can guess, when I came home. Mum found out that I wet so many
times at school. She became quite mad and said that I should listen to
adults. She told me that this would happen, and told me that she didn't
want to hear any complaints that I would be wearing diapers from now on,
except when I dance. Then I could wear briefs or boxers. For some
reason; I didn't complain or feel like arguing with her. She seemed so
much bigger than me at the moment.
Three months have passed, and I forgot all about the 3 months I told my
Mum that I would give ballet a chance. I was now used to my new life. I
think it's about time to tell you all that my life was at this point
At this time, I was now a 9-year-old boy. The more time that went by,
the less that we remembered that I was once a 12 year old. At the end we
totally forgot about it.
At home Mum still punished me like I was a baby, by making me wear
diapers all the time. My room looked like a nursery, which meant that I
slept in a crib and had some toys that no one would ever want to play
with. I did. I had an imagination. I really loved this play telephone. I
used to pretend that I was ringing to everyone on the planet. I used to
talk with people like Santa Clause and the Easer Bunny. Mostly at home I
would just wear a t-shirt and diaper. Which was OK despite the fact that
Cody teased. The worse bits was when Mum or Cody's Mum were very mad at
me and threw me in the back yard with nothing but a t-shirt and diaper
on.
At school. I tried being normal. I didn't have many friends. Many of my
friends were girls as they thought that I looked and in many ways acted
like one. I loved playing house in which I always was the baby sister. I
didn't mind that. At least I had some friends. During the break time, I
would take my naps at the kindergarten class. It became more of a
routine and something that I liked. Some of the younger ones thought
that were funny that I had to take a nap, as well as I slept with a
pacifier and a diaper, a girls diaper. I was teased, because my hair was
so long and that I worse a diaper. Many said I was both a boy and girl.
They also said I was a diaper boy and always asked if I was wet. But I
became used to it.
Cody was also strange. He really liked pictures of men on his wall. When
we went shopping for clothes, he would look at the girl's section and
say everything was pretty. In fact the used the word pretty quite a lot.
This annoyed his Mum and would by unisex clothes; you know the ones that
could be worn by boys and girls. He was of course teased in school,
because his hair was long, he wore the same earrings and there were
rumours that he was looking at boys in the showers. He still teased me,
but I think that's because I was better than him at ballet.
I often thought about the way that Mum treated me. You know she
basically treated me like a baby. Especially when she put me in the back
yard in just a girl's diaper. Who would let their son wear a nightdress
and earrings? Deep down I think that Isabella was making my mother hate
me. Why else would she do that? At times I missed the way we were.
Normal, and I knew that my mother loved me. Now I think deep down she
hated me. I knew that love was greater than any magic. I still loved my
mother so much and I loved myself.
It was time to go to Ballet as usual. This time we were changing into
our shorts when Isabella came in. She hardly ever came in. I mean was a
woman supposed come in to boys changing rooms? Then she took some tights
and gave them to us and told us to put them on under our shorts.
You should have seen Cody's face. Ever since the day he seen me in the
leggings, he has been obsessed by girl clothes. Now he had a chance to
try them on, and it was clear what he thought of it.
"It is like heaven on my legs. It is like a smooth rose blushing against
my skin. It is like when I take them on that they become part of my
skin. It is different when you have socks on. You forget that they are
on. When you have these tights on, you know that you are wearing them
all the time. Why is it only that girl can wear these? This is the best
thing that happened to me in some time."
I asked them did they think that only girls wore tights. Like robots
they all answered that this was what Isabella wanted them to do. She was
thinking how they could be better dancers, and I should have more trust
in her.
I started putting the tights on very carefully, thinking that I didn't
want to destroy them. I wonder how they actually made them. Cody was
right, they felt nice. But we probably looked like clowns.
Ballet went well that day. I now loved dancing. It made me feel like a
bird flying and I forgot all about the way Mum hated me or the teasing
at school. When I danced, I was free.
After ballet, we were taking off our shorts and what we thought was our
dancing tights, when Isabella came in. She said that we would have
noticed that our Mums were not there when we were dancing. In fact they
have been out buying a present for us, and we were to wear these
presents all day, unless it was very hot. All the boys were smiling, but
not me. I knew that every time she came with a message, that it was not
good.
When we got home, both Cody's Mum and my Mum had a small bag with them.
Cody snapped his from his mother and then sprang the bag open. Tights
fell on the table. So many tights that I thought they bought the whole
shop. Cody nearly tore his trousers open and started putting on his
tights. His Mum had to calm him down so he didn't tear them. After he
had the tights on, he gave his mother so many hugs and said thank you a
few thousand times. I wondered how he would thank her if he were given a
bike or even a car.
I opened my bag. No surprise, there were enough tights to last a life
time. With a small smile, I took some white tights with butterflies and
slowly put them on. I gave my mum a small hug and whispered thanks. Mum
said that I put them on too early, as we had to put my diaper back on.
From that day on, tights became part of my life.
A few days later, Cody bought home a friend. His name was John. He was
Cody's new best friend. They seemed to always hang around at school. By
this time, Cody was like a big brother for me. It was hard to believe
that he has only been living here for a half year.
John and Cody came barging in my room just as I was getting changed. I
could hear him and Cody talking.
"Does he wear Diapers?"
"Yes, he pisses himself, and he has that cot because he falls out of the
bed. I know that he is 9, but he gets treated like a baby."
"Doesn't he get mad?"
"No, he is a baby, so why should he."
"Is that a nightdress on the crib, and why is he wearing tights?"
"Why does he wear girls things?"
"Have you not noticed that everyone calls him princess and sissy at
school?"
"Yes, but I didn't think it was this much, and how cute, he also uses a
pacifier."
"It keeps him from crying."
You can imagine how embarrassed I was at this, and how mad I was. When
Cody was acting all tough towards John, he had the same earrings that I
had and he had even had tights on. It was hard for me to keep quiet, but
for some reason I did. This made me mad at myself as well. Why did I
just not stand up for myself? Why did I let them tease me like that? I
should have sprung up at Cody and punched him where it hurt. I don't
care if they were right, that I was a baby or whatever. Cody should have
supported me, not to try to impress some boy.
I found out later why he wanted to impress John. He came into my room
after John went and tried to apologize for what he said. I said that I
would pay him back. Cody went on and on about how much he likes John and
even went so far as to say that John was cute. I laughed at him and said
that sounded so gay. Then started teasing Cody that I would get him
back. I also knew how I would get him back.
He just shrugged his shoulder, and said I didn't dare, because Isabella
would do something! What she would do. I didn't know.
The next day, Mum got me ready for school as usual. I had my diaper on
tights on. Then she put my normal boys clothes on, and said that my hair
was no too long. She started playing with it and doing her best to make
it look a bit tidier. Then she took this hair band that had little
plastic flowers in them. She used it to put my hair in a ponytail. I
looked in the mirror and was shocked. I looked just like a girl.
Cody came rushing down to breakfast and I could see that his Mum had the
same with his hair. I was also surprised at him. He looked like a girl
as well.
This can't be good.
And it wasn't. At school everyone teased about my hair and said now I
looked like a little princess. Who would blame them? Even I was shocked
when I looked in the mirror.
The next ballet class was also strange. It was like Isabella was seeing
how far she could push us. This time she stood in the changing room when
we came. I figured that she either liked looking at us or wanted to see
who was wearing tights. It was good that I was wearing tights, as she
would have hit me with lightning.
She told us to strip of all our clothes. We did without even asking her
why. At Ballet she was the Queen, and we were her slaves. You could say
that she was our Queen all the time even at home, because she had our
mothers in her control.
She all told us to look at each other's body. She said pay special
attention to each other's privates. She asked us does this make us funny
looking at each other. Cody was breathing heavy and admitted it did. He
told Isabella that he felt like touching it and even doing more. I felt
like I was going to vomit. I knew all the time that he was gay. If he
came close to me and tried anything like that, I would cut his hand off.
I don't care if Isabella changed me to a frog.
Then Isabella explained that it is OK to fancy another boy. Some might
say its being gay, and she admitted it was. She explained that gays tend
to be full of compassion and are very kind people. Otherwise men treat
girls like sex objects. She explained that some men and boys would
consider us sissies, and we should be happy to be a sissy, because it
shows that we are not afraid to show that we are really girls deep
inside and would love to have a man show affection towards us. She
looked at me and could see my defiant face. She explained if ever in
doubt if we are sissies, or want to be sissies, we should just look in
the mirror.
Cody then admitted that he loved girl's things and the way he looks now
compared to how he did. He told us all that often he felt like he was a
girl, and this made him feel bad. Now he felt good because he knew that
he was a sissy. I stared at him wanted to laugh my head off as he
admitted all this, despite the fact that it must have token a lot of
courage.
I decided that I was not a sissy.
Then Isabella told us that it was time to get ready for class. She
explained that in order that we can dance better and be better sissies,
it was time that we wore panties all the time. I looked at her in
disbelief and said now she was going to far but as usual she was one
step ahead of me and said that some of us would not need panties all the
time, as we wore diapers, and they are already girls diapers. Everyone
looked at me. How I hated her at this stage.
You could see that Cody rushed and put his panties and tights on. If he
wanted to impress us that he was a sissy, he was doing a good job.
It took me some time to put mine on and I must admit that they felt
nice. I would rather wear panties than wearing diapers.
When we got home we were talking to our Mums while we were drinking a
glass of milk. Cody was bragging to his mother that he was a sissy and
he was proud of it. His mother said that it was ok and that she loved
him no matter what. She also said that she noticed that he was nicer to
others and was doing better since he started becoming a sissy. When last
has he been in the principal's office?
His mother said that she has removed all his briefs and boxers and now
he only had panties. Nothing could surprise me when I seen how happy
Cody was about that.
Mum asked me did I consider myself a sissy, and she warned me to think
about my answers because there are always consequences. I looked her in
the eye and said what I thought, "I am not a sissy, but I am being made
one."
Then before anyone could be shocked, we heard thunder. Then the
furniture shook a small bit and I dropped my glass. At first I thought
it was just because I was afraid of the lightning, then mum gave me
another glass and for some reason I could not hold it in my hand.
By the time we were eating dinner, Mum got mad at me spilling my drink
all the time and refused to refill my glass. She went into a cupboard
and took this babies bottle. It was of course pink. Was this Isabella's
consequence that I could only drink from a girl's baby bottle? Isabella
was so mean.
Now I was more of a baby. It was obvious that the more that I could
choose between being a sissy or a baby. While Cody was becoming more and
more sissy every day, I was becoming more and more a baby.
That night I surprised my self. I was in the crib looking at the lights
going around and listening to the music. Once again I was in my own
little world where I asked Mum if I could have my bottle. I couldn't
believe myself, I was asking for a bottle. But looking at the lights and
listening to the music while drinking made me feel so good. I didn't
know this at the time, but the bottle would be a great comfort for many
years ahead.
Some days went by, and nothing spectacular happened. We lived in a weird
house, where one boy was a sissy and another one was a baby. I was still
sure that Mum hated me and I was sure that Cody thought I was too small
to play with.
I decided to try to be nice to Cody and walked into his room. I forgot
to knock and by the way he never knocked when he came into my room.
I seen John on top of Cody saying, "I know that you want me to do this,
you sissy. I know that you fancy other boys and you want to be their
girlfriend. Is that why you have such long hair and earrings as well as
panties. You are just a sissy and you want to me to do this to you."
Cody was just staring dreamily into John's eyes, and nodding at all
this. One thing was that they were naked lying on top of each other, but
then they started kissing. It looked so gay and so gross. I just shut
the door and hid in my room again. How could Cody even kiss a boy? Boys
are supposed to kiss girls.
I needed to do something about this. I decided to ring To Isabella and
tell her to stop making Cody a sissy and gay. I did this and there was
quietness on the telephone.
Isabella said with her funny accent that she was proud of Cody, that he
was accepting his role and hoped that he pleased and made John happy. I
shouted that it was gross. She simply asked do I remember what she said
and that we are sissies and sissies are supposed to make other boys feel
good. I said that this is wrong and she just warned me not to tell
anyone else.
The next day went as usual. Some teasing and the usual nap at school.
On the way home there was no place in the front of the back, so I walked
towards the back. I am sure that Cody would let me sit with him. When I
came towards the back of the bus, Cody totally ignored me. There was an
empty seat next to him and I tried sitting there. By now everyone
thought we were just brothers, and I think Cody thought this as well,
because he just shouted that he was waiting for John to come, and he
would rather have his friend sit there rather than a diaper boy.
This was the last time he would insult me. Now I was tired of it and
him, so I shouted at the top of my mouth that I know that he wanted John
to sit with him, because they like being naked together and kissing each
other. The effect was good everyone was calling Cody gay and laughing at
him. I saw that he started to cry. Deep down I felt sorry for him.
Then I started coughing and coughing. The words of Isabella went through
my mind. Do not tell others. I broke another rule. Now it was time for
the witch's consequence. At first it felt like a small worm in my
stomach, then the pain grew more and more. I held my stomach and
crumbled to the floor. I was crying in pain and screaming. The last
thing I seen was Cody leaning over me crying, begging me not to die.
Everything was black
I woke up. The pain was still there. I could hear ambulance sirens.
Everything was black.
I woke up and I was being pushed through the hospital on a bed. It felt
like there were 10 snakes in my stomach. I thought that this was it. I
disobeyed Isabella and now she was going to kill me because I never
listened to her. As I was suffering with the pain; I was accepting that
I would die. I would be in peace, away from a witch, a mum that hated me
and being forced to be a baby.
Maybe death is not the worse thing.
But it doesn't take courage to die. It takes courage to live, to find
out who I am and not what Isabella or mum wants me to be. I wanted to
live.
I closed my eyes.
"Your daughter should be awake soon. We ar