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Sarah Carerra
By AngelJedi
(Released: November 8, 2010)
Chapter 15 - Mary, Me, and Ethan
After the show, the band followed us home and we spent the day in Sarah's
room. We worked on finishing the songs that I had written. We managed to
get two of the songs fleshed out and decided to meet again Saturday
afternoon to finish the last one. We were scheduled to be in the studio
on Monday and Tuesday to record them, so we were on a deadline to finish
them.
By the end of the day I was exhausted. But I felt better than I had at
the end of any other day this week. It was apparent that I was regaining
some of my energy, even if it was happening slowly.
I awoke Saturday morning excited to talk to Mary again. She had been out
of town for much of the last week, and I hadn't had a chance to talk to
her about anything that had happened since my collapse two weeks ago. She
had told me before that I could call her at any time, but I didn't want
to disturb her vacation with my own problems.
Either way, I felt relieved when I hopped into my car to drive myself
over to her office. It felt liberating to be able to drive myself. I saw
the concern in the faces of my parents as I grabbed my purse and headed
for the garage. I knew they were concerned to have me driving in the city
alone, but I also knew that it was something I could handle. I was
growing up, and that was something that they would have to get used to.
Mary's offices were only about 20 minutes toward downtown LA in Saturday
morning traffic, and soon I was sitting in her waiting room, waiting for
my turn to see her. It didn't take long before she followed a young girl
out of her office and turned toward me.
"Good morning, Megan," she greeted me with a smile.
"Morning," I smiled back and put down the magazine I had been reading.
Then I stood up and followed her back to her office, taking my regular
seat. Mary closed the door.
Once she had sat down, she started our session. "No parents today?" she
asked.
"No," I replied, my smile growing larger. "I drove myself this morning.
Sarah bought a car on Thursday."
"Congratulations," she said.
"Thank you," I replied. She smiled at me for a moment before turning to
the caring look that I was all too familiar with. I might not have talked
to her about what had happened, but it was obvious that she had heard
about it.
"I understand that you've had a pretty tough couple of weeks," her
concern for me was clearly evident in her words. "I'm sorry I wasn't here
last week. You know you can call me anytime you need to talk, right?"
"Yeah," I replied. "It was pretty bad last Saturday, but it all turned
out okay in the end."
"How so?" she asked me. She seemed surprised that I would describe the
events of the week in that way.
"Did you see me on 'Wake Up!' yesterday morning?" I asked. She shook her
head. "Well, I was really down after the press conference - you heard
about that, right?" This time she nodded. "But all of that turned into a
really good song. I performed it on 'Wake Up!' yesterday and I think it's
going to be a big hit. I wouldn't want to go through that type of press
conference again, but I'm glad that I DID go through it."
I jolted at my own words. I was GLAD that I had gone through this? I had
learned this week that for the sake of the song I was glad that I had
gone through it. But as I sat in Mary's office and pondered this, I
realized that there was more to it than that. Like my song implied, I was
now a better person because of what had happened. I had fallen into the
pits of despair a week ago, but now I had climbed out and it would be
much harder to push me back in.
Mary sat in silence, watching me as I came to this realization. I looked
back up at her and nodded. "Yes," I said with confidence. "I AM glad that
this happened."
Mary beamed at me. "You are an amazing young woman, Megan. I was hoping
to reach this point before the end of our session. I wasn't expecting to
sit silently while you figured that out yourself. I can see now why you
are so strong. That will definitely be an asset in your life."
"Thank you," I smiled back at her. I decided then and there that I was
going to put this episode behind me! Brady Townsend had unintentionally
given me a gift when he confronted me at the press conference. He had
shown me that I was strong, that I was confident, and that I could
overcome the negativity that the media can throw at a celebrity. They
couldn't hurt me!
"Do you want to talk about it at all?" she asked me.
"No," I replied truthfully. "I think I'm okay with what happened."
"Okay," she sat back in her chair. "Is there anything that you do want to
talk about then?"
There was, but I didn't know how to broach the subject. Ethan was coming
home from his summer camp today, and I still didn't know what I felt
about him. I could really use someone to talk to.
"It's Ethan," I finally managed to say.
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My two best friends were sitting on my porch as I pulled into my
driveway. I'd had a good, long talk with Mary about this, and I felt I
was ready to face Ethan. I still wasn't completely sure about what my
feelings toward him were, but I felt that I had a better understanding of
what was going on between us.
I stopped in the driveway instead of pulling all the way into the garage.
Ethan had stood up when he saw me pulling into the driveway, and I knew
he was definitely eyeing my car. He had always wanted a nice car like
this.
I opened my door and stepped out, as both Emily and Ethan started to walk
to me. I tried to catch Ethan's eye, but he was staring at my car
instead.
"Hi, guys," I said, hoping to break his reverie. Apparently it worked,
because he looked up at me. "Hi, Ethan," I purposely said to him.
"Hi, Megan," he replied, eyeing me instead of the car now. I hadn't seen
him in over two weeks, and I was glad to have him home.
That's when I did another stupid thing. Thankfully, I didn't kiss him
this time. But I got nearly the same reaction when I wrapped my arms
around him and gave him a quick hug. I hadn't even thought about doing
that; it seemed to be some sort of natural reaction.
"I missed you," I told him after I had let go and stepped back. He
grimaced at my words, and I realized he could have taken them wrong. The
truth was I didn't really know what I had meant by them. "I mean, I
thought we were friends. I know I made things awkward when I kissed you,
but you could have at least told me you were going to camp."
"I'm sorry," his shoulders slumped with his words. "But you really threw
me for a loop, Megan! I didn't know what to do!"
It was my turn to grimace. I knew exactly what he was talking about. I
never should have kissed him! The only thing that gave me hope that I
hadn't ruined our friendship was the fact that he was standing in my
front yard.
"I'm sorry too," I replied. "I don't even know why I did it. I certainly
didn't plan it beforehand."
I could feel tears threatening to spill out of my eyes as I dropped my
head. Ethan had been my friend for a long time. How could I have done
something to jeopardize that? How could I have been so stupid?
We stood in silence for a few moments before he finally spoke. "It's
okay," he said. "You surprised me, but it was my own reaction that scared
me." I raised my head to look up at him. He had a wide smile on his face.
I felt the corners of my own mouth tug against the frown that was still
on my lips. It didn't take long before I was smiling back. "Megan, you
know that I had a crush on Sarah before I learned about your secret.
Having her, you, kiss me...that was very unexpected and I felt those same
feelings bubble up. I don't want to jeopardize our friendship!"
I jolted at his words. I didn't know if I had those types of feelings for
Ethan. Obviously there was something there or we wouldn't be in this
situation. But his words almost felt like he was slamming shut a door in
our relationship that I wasn't sure I even wanted to have open. It
sounded like he didn't even want to entertain the possibility that we had
feelings for each other.
"I don't want to do that either," I finally responded. No matter what, I
didn't want to lose Ethan. I knew that throwing sexual attraction into
the mix between two friends of opposite genders could really screw things
up. Before Megan, that had never been a problem among Emily, Ethan, and
me. But with the changes that I had gone through, the dynamic of our
friendship had changed significantly.
And that was that. Whatever we felt for each other, we were going to be
friends first. Only time would tell if something else developed. As we
stood there in silence after coming to this realization, I wondered if
this was the right thing to do. Would it be better to find out if there
was anything between us? Would that destroy our friendship like we
feared? Did I even want to go down that road?
"Nice car," he said to break the tension in the air. It worked, and I
started laughing.
"Thank you," I replied once I was capable of speech again. "It's Sarah's,
but I get to use it too."
"You're making me jealous," he said, staring at the car once again. I
started to laugh once more.
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Emily and Ethan spent a few hours with me before the band was scheduled
to come over. But the two of them opted to head home instead of hang out
with us while we worked on finishing the last song for the album.
As I worked with the band, I kept dwelling on my feelings for Ethan. The
last song that we had left to finish was 'Love?'; as we worked on the
song, the words and feelings that I had first applied to Josh Holliday
now took on a whole new meaning when I thought about Ethan. Ethan and
Josh almost seemed interchangeable.
I was confused: either my feelings for Ethan didn't seem to be as
pronounced as my feelings for Josh, or I just didn't recognize them.
Thinking about Josh still brought a warm and fuzzy feeling to my heart. I
had a similar reaction when I thought about Ethan, but I had always
associated that feeling with our friendship. Was it possible that those
feelings were being transformed from friendship into something more
without Ethan, Emily or I noticing? Perhaps it was possible, but had that
really happened in our relationship?
I wasn't sure. I'd tried to understand this with Mary, but we concluded
that we didn't have enough information. I didn't think that I was in love
with Ethan. But there was definitely a difference in our relationship now
than what we'd had before I had become Megan.
Ethan had been as close to me as a brother while we had grown up. In some
respects, he was closer to me than Austin was. Were these feelings the
same feelings that I had for Austin now? Or were they more?
I was so confused as I got ready for bed that evening. If I thought
becoming a girl had been hard, then I was kidding myself. Doing that had
been child's play compared to what I was going through now.
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After church the next day Ethan and Emily came by my house again. I
struggled the whole time we were together to try and determine what to do
about Ethan. I knew that we said we would be just friends, but I kept
thinking that there was more there than that. It seemed almost like both
of us wondered if there was more to our relationship than the friendship
we had formed while we grew up together.
But outwardly it seemed like any other day that we got together before
the concert. We lounged around, and played some games. I even performed
some of my new songs for Ethan. But I did not perform 'Love?' though,
because that would have been too much right then.
Then we listened to the countdown together. The very first time that
'Intuition' had been featured on the American Top 40 show we had been
right here in Sarah's room. This time my friends were there when the song
dropped from its spot on the top of the list.
'Intuition' had spent three weeks on top of the countdown - three weeks
that left me reeling that people liked the song that much. But just like
I had done to Josh, somebody had pushed me off the top after only three
weeks.
Granted, the song still came in at Number 2, but I couldn't help but
think that its time had come. I knew that 'Intuition' would slowly make
its way down the list until it dropped off completely.
The sad thing was that I knew 'Ever After' didn't have what it took to
get back on top. As my second single, it was a good choice. But its
targeted audience wasn't as wide as 'Intuition'. 'Ever After' would not
appeal to as many people. I loved the song dearly, but it wasn't going to
put me on top again.
But 'You Can't Hurt Me' might. Like Sophie had said the first time I
played it for her, it was powerful. I wished with all of my heart that we
could release it as my second single instead of 'Ever After'.
Emily and Ethan left shortly after the show ended, because they had
dinner plans with extended family. I was left wondering what to do.
Should I talk to Dad about changing which song we made the second single?
Was it too late to change all of the plans that had been put in motion?
I thought for the most part that it wouldn't be a problem. There may be
some marketing material that had already been created, but the second
single wasn't scheduled to be released until the album came out. That
would give us plenty of time to get everything done.
But there were a creative director and a producer chomping at the bit to
make the 'Ever After' music video. I had seen a script with some of his
ideas on it, and I agreed that it would be a good video. How hard would
it be to shift to making a video about 'You Can't Hurt Me'? I was scared
to even ask.
I stood up from Sarah's couch, determined to ask my dad. But I couldn't
find him. He wasn't in his office and his car was not in the driveway.
Instead I found Austin sitting in front of the TV in the front room. That
gave me time to resolve the other matter that had been nagging at me for
a few days.
"Hi, Austin," I greeted him while sitting down on the other end of the
couch from him.
"Hi," he replied but his eyes never left the TV. I didn't think that he
wanted to talk to me right now. I figured now was as good a time as any
to discuss the matter anyway. The show he was watching looked more like a
time waster than anything he would really care about.
"I'm sorry about the other day," I said, forcing him to think about what
had happened. "I didn't know that you had anyone over."
He sighed and his shoulders sagged at first, but then he finally sat up
straight on the couch and turned toward me. "It's okay. I know it wasn't
your fault. I probably wouldn't have asked her to come over if I'd known
you were going out as Sarah."
"Still, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to interrupt anything." The smile on my
face was inquisitive, and he laughed at my implied question. "Who was
she?"
"Just a girl I know from school," he replied. I was hoping for more, but
he didn't seem to be forthcoming.
"And..." I prompted. The smile that broke out on his face was enough to
confirm the suspicions I'd had about his true motives. He DID like her!
"Okay, okay," he said while turning really, really red. "I like her. I
invited her over to listen to some music. I didn't know that she was such
a big Sarah Carerra fan, though. She was truly impressed when I showed
her the room."
My mouth hung open at his words. "You showed her my room!" I yelled!
Immediately the dreamy look dropped from his face. "No," he responded
quickly. It was an obvious lie though. "I'm sorry, Megan, but she had
just met you. What was I supposed to do?"
I grimaced. I knew that if our situations had been reversed, I might have
done the same thing. If I'd had a boy over and his idol had a room at our
house, I would have shown it to him to impress him. I couldn't blame
Austin for doing the same. But..."She didn't take anything, did she?"
"No!" he responded immediately, mollifying me slightly. "I wouldn't even
let her touch anything!"
"When do you see her again?" I asked slyly. I was going to milk his
embarrassment for all it was worth.
"We were supposed to go to a movie on Wednesday, but Dad won't let me now
because I had her over with no parents home. I don't know when I'll get
to see her again."
"Wednesday, huh?" I pondered the day over my head. Then an idea formed.
"We're supposed to be shooting a music video on Wednesday; do you want me
to talk to Dad about allowing you to bring her to that?"
I saw him break into one of the largest smiles that I had ever seen. I
knew that he hadn't liked it when I took her attention from him, but he
wasn't beneath using Sarah to get closer to Susan. Bringing her to the
filming of Sarah's music video would definitely get him points in her
book.
Austin nodded vigorously, and I smiled back at him. I still couldn't
believe that my brother had a girlfriend.
Now, if only I could figure out what was going on in my own love life.
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