Note to readers: This is set in the same story universe as the other
stories in the Prisoner's Dilemma word, "Curiosity Killed the Cat" and
"Separate the Men From the Boys," which contains some background
information.
Prisoner's Dilemma
Nor Hell a Fury like a Woman Scorned
Lockman University had been in turmoil since Professor Ripley had
invented the biomass reorganizer four years before. The astonishing new
creation hadn't simply thrown communities of physicists and doctors and
engineers around the world into chaos, nor had it merely made Lockman an
irresistible Mecca for those seeking instant cosmetic alterations. It
was that the student body itself, those closest in proximity to the
ongoing experiments, was among the most frequent participants in
Ripley's tests.
Professor Ripley offered five hundred dollars for each participant in
his psychological and bioalteration experiment. After all, the machine
had to be tested. It had to be perfected. Its effects had to be
rigorously investigated upon a variety of recipients. He offered a
respectable and tempting sum, and all a subject had to risk was his
gender.
The test was part game theory, part psychological assessment, and part
gender-role study. Two subjects were put into separate and isolated
booths, and each booth was equipped with a button. Each subject was
given the following choice: do you, or do you not, press the button
before you?
If both subjects failed to press his button, both subjects genders'
would be reversed, for a short duration: six months only. The reversal
would be mild, barely noticeable, and almost androgynous. If both
subjects pressed their buttons, their genders would each be reversed
more strongly, and for four times as long: twenty-four months.
In the event that one subject betrayed his companion, pressing his
button when his companion did not, the betrayer was rewarded with a
super-enhanced physique in his own gender, to last only one quarter the
shortest time: six weeks. His betrayed partner would find his gender
reversed most strongly indeed, and for four times longer than the
longest time: ninety-six months. Thirty-two seasons. Eight years.
Naturally, the subjects were then invited to participate in other
psychological and physiological tests, to verify the progress of the
alterations. These paid a much more modest sum of fifty dollars, and
most considered it only an afterthought. Five hundred dollars for the
opportunity to test your luck. Five hundred dollars to test your faith
in whatever partner you chose for the experiment. Could you trust him?
Could he trust you?
Could you find a partner willing to take the risk at all?
Many students at Lockman University could and did participate in the
experiment. The perplexity and confusion resulted when dozens of young
men and women went around the campus completely -- temporarily --
disguised as young women and men.
The next sorority sister's housing application was gingerly removed from
the manila folder and placed in the center of the table. One of the
three young women looked at it. The other two watched her, to see how
she would react.
"Oh, hell to the no," said Lindsey Wallace emphatically. "No, no.
Absolutely not." For further emphasis, she smacked the table with the
flat of her hand, making their wine glasses jump.
Andrea Newton and Roberta Graves exchanged a look of sympathetic
bemusement, and returned to their contemplation of Lindsey. She was the
elder sorority sister by one year, a junior at Lockman, and was pretty
in an unconventional way. Lindsey's face was heart-shaped, which
accentuated her large brown Latina eyes; her lustrous black hair was
easily her best feature. She would never be considered beautiful in a
fashion-model sense, having all the wrong proportions: too much in the
hips, too little in the shoulders, not enough of a bust worth the effort
of showing it off. Right now, folded into a kitchen chair and wearing
pink sweat pants with a chocolate brown tank top, she had the lean,
long-limbed appearance of a gazelle. Her demeanor bore none of the
placidity of a herbivore: the black ponytail tossed restlessly at her
shoulders, and her brown eyes flashed fire between the face on the hated
photograph and the faces of her sorority sisters.
"The next applicant," Andrea Newton carried on calmly, reading from the
form before her. "is--"
"I know who it is," Lindsey said, stabbing a finger at the photo of the
girl. Freckles, winning smile, chestnut hair, huge breasts, tight
sweater. There was no mistaking her.
"--is Brandy Booth," Andrea read, raising her voice a little to be
heard. "She joined Delta Sigma Tau in June of last year--"
"Right after she stole my boyfriend," Lindsey growled.
"--and she wants to spend her junior year in the sorority house,
starting September 2007," Andrea said.
"Not with me, she's not," said Lindsay. "God only knows why we let her
in the sorority in the first place. She's not even a woman, she's one
of Ripley's creations."
"We all voted for her," Roberta explained quietly, "last June."
"Yes," Lindsay admitted testily, "but I didn't know it was her then, did
I? I just knew it was Brandon. I didn't realize that she was the slut
that Jack was seeing until I saw them together at the Comstock Street
Tavern, did I?" She wiped at her eyes, feeling the sting of tears.
"She didn't even work for that figure, Ripley just gave it to her, and
just like that, she took Jack away from me."
"Linz," Roberta said in a gentle voice. "You don't even like Jack.
He's an asshole."
Lindsay sniffed and wiped her eyes again. "That's true. It still
hurts. You know."
The other girls did know. They had each been through a similar breakup,
each in her own way. Andrea Newton had spent a wonderful summer
vacation in the loving arms of a sparkling, vivacious girl named Gina.
It had been her first serious fling with a woman, her first experiment
in bisexuality, and it had been a short, glorious high followed by a
terrible, soul-scarring crash. Andrea had sat in her Honda for seven
hours with the doors locked, crying, calling friends and crying, calling
her sister and crying, calling Gina's number and getting only voice
mail. She had come out of that relationship swearing never to date
another woman again; from then on, she would stick to men. That pledge
had lasted only three men and six months, but she emerged wiser and more
resilient. Now, the elfin blond sat at the kitchen table and watched
Lindsey, biting her lip in concern.
Roberta had never dated a man until college, but she had quickly learned
of heartbreak during her freshman year. Her lack of experience, her
willingness to experiment, and her innocent good looks had led her into
the arms of a college senior seven years older than she. Foolishly, she
had considered herself wise enough in the ways of men to keep a cool
distance between them. She had disregarded Andrea's warnings that Aaron
was up to no good. From the very first, she found herself unable to
stop thinking of him, wondering what he might be doing, asking herself
if he might thinking of her. His face, his hands, his voice all kept
entering her mind unbidden throughout every hour of the day. Roberta
found herself noticing the prices of Aaron's favorite beer at the
grocery store, or fixating on songs she had heard in Aaron's company by
bands she didn't even like. She fell deeply, helplessly in love, while
Andrea stood by in deepest sorrow. Aaron was the first and only man
Roberta had slept with. Three nights, three times -- and that was all.
Aaron had got what he wanted, and for weeks Roberta grieved. Everything
reminded her of him, every detail about his life and interests that she
had unconsciously filed away now leapt out at her. It was impossible to
escape his absence, and the hole in her heart ached like the wound of a
dagger.
Andrea was there for her, with her soulful blue eyes and her quiet
reassurances. Never once did she say I told you so. But never did
Andrea attempt to comfort her physically, because she knew Roberta found
it awkward. Andrea was bisexual, Roberta was very straight. Even now,
Andrea wished she could give the sobbing Lindsey Wallace a hug and a
kiss, and lie in bed with her sorority sister and stroke her hair and
hold her and comfort her until the tears stopped, but she refrained from
offering. Lindsey would not reject Andrea's overtures, but Roberta was
her dear friend and she would not understand.
"Linz, Brandy's a good... girl," Roberta said quietly. "She really is.
She didn't ask for Jack to turn her into Boob Goddess."
Despite Lindsay's tears, her breath hitched into a laugh. "No. She
didn't."
"And she's a sorority sister," Andrea put in. "She's got every right to
apply for residence, same as anybody."
"I suppose." Lindsey covered her nose and mouth with her two hands,
pressed palms together. "You're right. You're right. She's not the
one I should be mad at."
"Jack broke up with you before they even went to see Ripley," Roberta
pointed out.
It was more or less true, Lindsey had to admit. Her boyfriend, Jack
Munn, had informed her of his intention to visit Professor Ripley's
biotechnical research department with his roommate Brandon. She had
expressed a desire that they do it together, instead. Jack, being Jack,
had interpreted that as a constraint upon his freedom, or some damn
bullheaded rebellious line of shit like that, and had put his foot down.
No, he would not go with Lindsey, he said; he had already decided to go
with Brandon, case closed. It was yet another example of Jack's need to
assert his manly independence and reject any suggestion Lindsey had of
doing things as a couple. As usual, Lindsey declared that she wasn't
going to see Jack any further until he decided to become a mature adult,
ready to contribute to an adult relationship. Stop being a rebel child,
she had told him -- as she had told him many times before. Stop
resisting me. I'm not your mother, I'm your lover.
Their fights had always before lasted a period of days, after which Jack
came back to her, admitting some crumb of fault, promising to be more
compliant and attentive. Lindsey always thought she had seen progress
in his behavior, incremental to be sure, but visible.
This time, Jack never came back. It was serious.
This time, Jack had Brandy to bed with, whenever he pleased.
A poor young man's brain and experiences, Brandon's likes and dislikes
and habits and education, shoehorned into the body of a curvaceous
brunette, given birthing hips and a double-D bustline, and condemned to
be Brandy for eight years. She was Jack's roommate, she enjoyed
baseball, she played video games, she watched action movies, she drank
beer from the bottle. She had a woman's physique and desires and a
man's attitude toward casual sex. For Jack, it was the ultimate no-
commitment relationship, paired with the ultimate lay. For Brandy--
For the first time, Lindsey felt a pang of sympathy for the poor girl.
Andrea and Roberta were absolutely right. She hadn't asked for any of
this. She hadn't made Jack: his rebellious, independent streak was a
known quantity well before Brandy even came into existence.
Lindsey looked down at the photograph again: Brandy's winning, slightly
surprised smile; her sparkling gray eyes; her full lips, her massive
chest enclosed in shaker-knit wool, her luxurious chestnut hair,
expertly styled. Had she done that herself? No, she must have gone to
a salon. A salon. Poor Brandon.
There was still a tiny nugget of resentment in her heart, a little
bitter pill she was unable to let go. For the past nine months, Brandy
had been sleeping with Lindsey's ex-boyfriend Jack. Jack had rejected
her, for... for this artificial creature. Brandy wasn't a woman, she
was a fantasy created by Professor Ripley's biomorphic reorganizer.
Brandy was an experiment, a psychology test that had assassinated
Lindsey's feeble love life.
Andrea Newton saw the change in Lindsey's expression and read her
thoughts. "You don't have any reason to like her," she said,
interrupting the silence. "But admit it, you don't have any reason to
dislike her, either. If you need to be angry at anybody, get angry at
Jack."
Lindsey nodded, and wiped her eyes. They were nearly dry, but she
suspected they were now red and puffy. Brandy, looking up from her
photograph, was supernaturally perfect.
"You don't have to decide now," Robeta suggested. "It's March. We don't
have to decide until June, and the new sisters don't move in until
September. Why don't you try to meet her? She can't be as bad as you
say she is. Like I said, she didn't ask to get turned into... that."
"Boob Goddess," Lindsey said, breaking again into an uneven crying
laugh. "No. You're right, she's my sorority sister, and I haven't even
-- I've gone out of my way not to meet her. I've gone out of my way,"
she repeated slowly to herself, "not to see Jack. Again. Too many bad
feelings." She took a deep breath. "All right. I'll think about
Brandy. We'll hold a place for her. She can have the tiny, shitty room
on the top floor. All those stairs. And the low ceiling. And no men
allowed in there."
Andrea laughed brightly, her elfin nose wrinkling in delight, and she
snorted in an unladylike way. "Definitely no men. She'd be right over
me. You think I want to listen to that?"
"Ah," Lindsey said, relaxing, letting laughter take some of her tension
away. The tightness in her chest was going.
Andrea pushed herself up from her chair. "I'll be right back, I've got
to -- oops, wait. Too much wine. No, I'm okay." She held on to the
back of her chair.
"Too much wine?" Roberta laughed. "Not enough. Bring another bottle up
when you come back."
"Fuck you, get it yourself," Andrea laughed, weaving in the direction of
the downstairs restroom. "If I don't pee soon, I'm going to start
tasting it."
"I'll get another bottle," Lindsey offered, getting up herself. "In
fact, I'll get two. If we're going to be going over applicants all
night, I'm going to need two. Hell, since Ripley started his
experiments, I can't tell which one of them are men and which ones are
women."
Elsewhere on Greek Row, as the Brandy Booth's application was being
discussed, Brandy herself was visiting friends at the fraternity house
of Delta Eta Rho. In September, the fraternity had instructed its four
newest brothers to report to Professor Ripley's biotechnical research
department in Building 34. The fraternity was in need of money, said
chapter president Paul Dewilde, and every brother must contribute. Your
method of contribution, he told them, has already been chosen. A week
later, the research department had sent the boys four checks for five
hundred dollars each, only by that point, they were four girls.
Casey Wilcox and Dennis Usher had been given the medium sentence. Since
Dennis had panicked at the last minute and desperately pushed his
button, believing it was his only hope to remaining male, Casey had
become female. And because Casey, in his turn, had suspected Dennis
might do something of the sort, he had elected to do the only thing
within his power to minimize his punishment. Both Casey and Dennis were
given the striking bodies of attractive young women, for two years.
Dennis had begged Professor Ripley to allow him to return to normal, and
had almost cried, there in the laboratory, when he was told that the
two-year duration must be allowed to wear off without further
interference. Casey and Dennis -- Cassie and Denise -- had gone home,
awkwardly, with their fraternity sisters, wearing their oversized
clothing and ill-fitting shoes. Two years in female forms.
The other girls of Delta Eta Rho were Adrienne and Trisha, formerly
Adrian Easley and Patrick Owen. They had adhered to the pre-agreed plan
and left their buttons alone, and each had been sentenced to the
lightest, mildest gender reversal possible. With any luck, they would
be able to pass off their altered genders unnoticed. Six months? That
was nothing.
It was not to be that easy. Paul Hanna had conspired with Jack Munn to
discover a way to generate even more riches for the fraternity. With a
camera, a dedicated server, and a few props, the girls of Delta Eta Rho
could become the stars in a new series of pornography shoots. Lockman
University was already famous around the world for its miracle
technology. What wouldn't people pay for a first-hand glimpse into the
kind of results it could produce?
Cassie, Denise, Adrienne, and Trisha became famous, especially around
campus. Cassie for her blue eyes, long blond hair, exquisite breasts,
and shyness; Adrienne for her stem-slender body, her serious eyes and
her endearing spectacles; Trisha for her short, masculine buzz cut,
African features, muscular limbs, and regal gaze; and Denise for her
sultry Mediterranean looks and her willingness to do anything for the
camera.
Each fraternity brother had to contribute five hundred dollars toward
the remodeling of Delta Eta Rho. By their participation in Ripley's
experiment, the four freshman girls made that instantly. With their
bodies, a camera, and a computer connection, they made that sum weekly.
Six months flew past, and the money rolled in.
"Here you go, Patrick," said Jeremy Cranbrook, Delta's treasurer, as he
counted out cash from an envelope. He had caught Patrick in the second-
floor hallway between the bedrooms and the common bathroom. "This is
the last of your back pay for the photo shoot we did in February. Sorry
we didn't get it to you sooner, but you know. Moving the server was a
bit expensive."
Patrick's teeth showed up white against his dark skin. "I told you guys
the University would notice if you ran a porn site on campus. Not a
good idea, bud."
"It sure is funny, seeing you male again," Jeremy said with a trace of
guilt. "I was getting used to seeing you the other way. You sure it's
worn off?"
"Oh yeah. Damn sure," Patrick said with a throaty laugh. His voice had
shifted back down, ever so slightly, to its previous register.
Throughout these past six months, his change had never been that obvious
on the outside, not to others. He knew, of course -- to himself, he was
unmistakably female. Small-breasted, to be sure, and less muscular, and
lacking certain male equipment, but female. "First thing I did when I
changed back, I went and checked out some of my porn shoots. Bud, I was
smoking hot."
"You look the same to me," Jeremy said, puzzled.
"I know," Patrick smirked.
Jeremy chuckled. "I gotta say, I never expected this to take off the
way it has. We're going to profit more from this site than I'd
imagined. I thought Jack's idea was pretty crazy, to tell the truth."
Patrick's smile faded. "Don't get me wrong, bud. It is crazy. Forcing
four guys to become women, to become porn stars, just to raise a little
cash? It's not right. Jack should've done it himself."
"He tried."
"So he says. I can't think of anybody who'd want to be Jack's partner
in that booth. You saw what had happened to Brandy."
In June of the previous year, Brandon Booth and Jack Munn had gone into
Ripley's laboratory with the agreed intention of leaving their buttons
alone and walking away with a fistful of bills each. Brandon had kept
his promise. Jack hadn't.
"I guess you're right."
"Damn right I am," Patrick said. "Now, if you don't mind, I've got to
go put this money to some good use. There's black girls lined up to go
on a date with me, and I ain't been on a date in six months."
"Six months?" Jeremy asked blankly. "Why not?"
Patrick rolled his eyes. "Come on, bud, why you think? I've been a
girl for six months. You think I was going to go on a date like that?"
"Sure, why not," said the Delta treasurer, scratching his scalp in
confusion. "Hell, Denise goes on dates all the time. She fucks guys on
camera. What's the big deal?"
Patrick, formerly Trisha, just shook his head. "If you haven't done it
yourself, then I couldn't even begin to tell you. It's just different.
Walking around without your cock, knowing guys are trying to get in your
pants. It doesn't feel safe."
"I wondered why you never did any hardcore for the website," Jeremy
said, nodding with understanding. "I mean, it paid really well."
The young black man's eyes narrowed as he scrutinized that sentence for
any possible threat. Was Jeremy suggesting that Patrick wasn't wealthy?
No, it appeared to be an entirely innocent comment. With a grunt, he
said, "Yeah, it paid well. But I did do one of the hardcore once,
though, you remember?"
"You did? Oh yeah -- you had the strap-on. You and Denise. I remember
that one. It's one of our more popular hardcore pictorials, you know.
It's still getting two hundred hits a day. How was that, by the way?"
Patrick laughed, and hooked his thumbs into his belt. "Wearing that,
you mean? Nah, didn't do much for me. I'm glad I have the real thing
back."
The treasurer shared in the laughter. "Say, do you ever regret that you
never tried it? I mean, tried... it."
Between them, the question hung in the air. Patrick poked at his lower
lip with his tongue before answering slowly. "No," he said, "no, not
really. No, I don't regret it."
"Well, if you ever want to try again--" Jeremy began.
"Hell no, bud, not with you."
"No, not that," the hawk-faced young man said, almost blushing. "No, I
meant, if you ever want to try again, there's good money in it."
Jeremy grunted again. "Don't bet on it."
The treasurer departed with his envelop for the upper floor, where
Denise's room had been placed. It was the only room on the top floor,
usually reserved for the chapter president, but it also had a private
bathroom, the most windows, and the best light for shooting, and since
it was more easily locked against intruders, it had been given up to the
only remaining long-term Delta girl who still lived on-site. Cassie,
fortunately for her, lived in the private dorms, and Adrian had always
lived in his own rented apartment in town, both before becoming Adrienne
and after returning to normal. The arrangements made the men of Delta
feel as if they were contributing to her first line of defense, and made
Denise feel secure. Any man coming into the frat would have to get
through the Delta men to get to her. In truth, the arrangement was as
much to protect the girls from the men within the fraternity as from
intruder coming from outside it.
Until two weeks ago that had been Trish's room too. The two girls had
stayed together there, and every night for six months, Trish had
faithfully locked the door. Now that every part of his male anatomy was
back in place after the reversion, Patrick had moved his things down to
the second floor.
He pushed open his new bedroom door and stowed his wad of crisp bills
into a rolltop desk. It had a lock, which any Delta for the past twenty
years could have opened with a flathead screwdriver. Nobody ever put
anything truly valuable in it, which made it a perfect hiding place.
Patrick didn't intend to leave the money there long, anyway.
Just as he was lying down on his bed, allowing his body to relax, he
heard the downstairs door slam and a familiar clack of high heels.
Technically, a woman was supposed to be present in the fraternity only
if accompanied by a responsible Delta brother, but Brandy Booth was not
technically a woman -- not that any Delta brother would bar the door to
a pair of breasts like hers.
Patrick made his way downstairs to visit her. It was getting late, and
he took the creaky stairs gingerly.
She was wearing a ridiculously tight summer dress in floral print,
offering up about an acre of cleavage, and trying to remove her gray
woolen jacket in a demure manner. Patrick smiled at her attempt,
noticing the way her arms became caught in the sleeves, forcing Brandy
to twist her torso to and fro, gently shaking her breasts, as she tried
to free her hands. He appreciated the motion of her flesh in ways that
were brand new to him, all over again. It was good to be a man.
"Trish!" Brandy bubbled, seeing him. "Oh -- I mean, Patrick! That's
right, you were due to change back, weren't you? Help me with my coat,
my arm's stuck. Jeremy called and said he had our back pay. Did you
get paid for February?"
Patrick nodded, as he helped extract Brandy's arms from the jacket.
"Just now, yeah. I'm gonna miss having that extra spending money, babe,
I'll tell you."
Brandy gave him a perky smile. "I'll bet," she said, and leaned in for
a quick kiss. "There, I got to be the first girl in school to kiss you
since you changed back."
"Too late. Denise already did."
"Well!" she said, mock-offended. "All right, I can be second. Unless
there's something else I can be first at?"
Patrick chortled at her arch stare and inviting hands-on-hips posture.
"You know, Brandy, don't take this the wrong way, but I'm glad I only
got the light treatment. I don't know if I could do what you're doing."
"What? Be a woman?" Brandy waved him off with one little hand.
"You've been through the machine. You know what it's like. It just
kind of changes your brain around."
"I know, babe, I know. But you got a double dose."
"At least," she said proudly, angling her cleavage for him to see. "And
I'm the most popular one on the website, Jeremy says. Five hundred hits
a day. This girl can make some money."
"This girl made quite enough money, thanks."
"Really? You could've made a lot more if you'd done a little hardcore.
I bet you might really have liked it," Brandy suggested. Even for
Patrick, who had been through the process himself, it was hard to
remember Brandy as a converted man. Her behaviors, her frankness, were
all so very masculine, but the body-- "Anyway," she went on, "I know I
do. Have sex, get paid. What's the problem?"
"The problem was Jack Munn. He seemed to think he was the porn star
everybody wanted to see." Patrick lowered his voice, though many of his
fraternity brothers were studying attentively or sleeping. "I didn't
agree to do any hardcore, because I didn't want Jack to have anything to
say about it. He kept trying to get some of the guys to go down to
Ripley's lab with him, and get him pumped up into a super-stud body
again, but nobody would, because--" He broke off, embarrassed.
"Go on, say it," Brandy said brightly, unashamed. "They wouldn't do it.
For Jack to get his stud body back, somebody else would have to end up
like me."
Patrick's dark face was nevertheless flushed. "Yeah. Nobody wanted to
do that."
She touched his forearm and laughed. "Can't say I blame them. I've got
seven years of this left, myself. I'll just be getting used to it, by
the time I change back. Maybe in a couple of years, you could join me
again. You made a sexy girl."
Patrick's voice dropped further. "I don't know. Maybe. Maybe once
Jack's graduated."
The young woman's eyes became bright and intrigued. "Oooh, you're
thinking about it, aren't you?" she asked in a buoyant, delighted
whisper. "Starting to have regrets? Wondering if you want to have
another try?"
It took him a long time to answer. "Yes," he said, finally. "I do want
another try."
"So go again."
"It's not that easy. I don't want Jack to have another try at me."
"Get another light reversal. They'll never know."
"Of course they'll know. I'll have to move back up into Denise's room,
on the top floor."
Brandy smiled up at him mischievously, and her eyes twinkled. "Then
don't tell them."
The third weekend in March was the end of Spring Break, when most of
Lockman's students were breezing back into town. Many brought with them
care packages from home; many had suitcases and luggage from visits with
parents. Some students had spent the time more socially, at the beaches
along the coast, or at the bars in the town of Tilmont.
Residents of Tilmont weren't quite sure what to make of Lockman
University. It was a major local employer for the tiny town of only ten
thousand, and the students generated a certain amount of trade with
local merchants. Since the invention of Ripley's device, Tilmont's
hotels and restaurants had been doing brisk business, but with the kind
of unusual patrons that make small-town folk nervous. Tilmont had been
a college town for years, serving the trendy varieties of mocha and
cappuccino, low-carb vegetarian dishes, and gourmet microbrew ales that
college students discovered away from home, as well as the cheap, hearty
meals of starch and fat that they could more easily afford. It had
three used book stores, two vintage clothing shops, five decent bars,
and three dives.
It was at one of the more respectable taverns on Comstock Street that
Lindsey Wallace met Brandy Booth, more or less by accident, on a Sunday
evening just before the resumption of classes at Lockman.
Lindsey had spent all day driving back to Tilmont from a distant visit
with her sister Rose and Rose's new baby Aiden. Lindsey was weary, both
of driving and of babies, especially the expectations of her mother to
produce one of her own, once college was finished, and had she met
anyone at school yet, and wasn't it a good thing that Jack was gone, but
maybe there was some other boy in her life? The conversation was always
the same: Lindsey's mother wanted more grandchildren. Although Lindsey
adored Aiden -- the way his little head smelled, his tiny pink fingers
and toes, the way he yawned and tried to rub his eyes with his fat
little hands -- she wasn't ready. She might never be ready. Babies
were something Lindsey could appreciate, to borrow, to hold and to look
after while Rose had a well-deserved nap, but she couldn't actually
envision having anything to do with one of her own. She lacked the
mothering instinct.
The Comstock Street Tavern seemed like a perfect place to address the
gnawing hunger in her stomach after six hours on the road. Lindsey
parked her aging Saturn on the street, backing into an angled space by
the sidewalk, and went inside. She hadn't showered, she felt frazzled
and punchy, and she was sure after six hours in the car that she smelled
foul.
Her bedraggled state of mind made it all the harder to deal with Brandy
Booth, sitting at one of the large tables with two of her girlfriends.
Perfect Brandy Booth with the exaggerated hourglass figure: ripe, lush,
hair teased just so, every eyelash curled.
Brandy recognized her immediately, of course, having met her the
previous year before her... change. She bounced to her feet, obviously
in a way designed to attract the eye to the matching bounce of her
bosom, and waved Lindsey over to their table. There was one chair. Did
she want to join them?
Of course Lindsey had a choice. She could sit anywhere. It was the day
before Spring Break ended. All the students were back on campus. The
Comstock was nearly deserted. The old oak bar was polished to a high
shine for lack of customers. A bored waitress stood idling near the
pull tabs and rolling a cigarette. Even the jukebox had stopped playing
requests and had gone into its low-volume selection of uninteresting 70s
hits. Only the neon signs continued their merry march, blinking on and
off in sequence.
Lindsey put on a smile and sat down with Brandy and her two friends.
"Hi, I haven't seen you for ages," Brandy gushed at her. "It's really
great to see you. The last time we met, I think we were here at the
Comstock, weren't we? That must be a year ago, now."
Oh, God, she was going to be bubbly. "Yes," Lindsey said, not sounding
up to a Brandy-like level of cheer. An image came to her unbidden, a
short mental home movie, of the last time she had seen Brandy. It had
indeed been at the Comstock. Lindsey pushed away that mental picture
and searched for a diplomatic answer. "That was back when I was dating
Jack."
She let the name sink in as a not-so-gentle hint, and to Brandy's
credit, she immediately picked it up. Transformed man or not, Brandy
was as perceptive as any woman Lindsey had met.
"Oh, Jack. I'm so sorry, I completely forgot," Brandy said, and she
sounded entirely sincere. "Everything has been so crazy since that day.
I want you to know I'm really sorry about Jack breaking up with you, but
I didn't have anything to do with it. He didn't even tell me until
after I got changed. You were the only reason I convinced him to go in
the first place."
Lindsey felt the weariness holding her brain back, and she blinked.
"Wait, what?"
"Oh!" Brandy said, and held up one of her manicured hands. "First, I
want to introduce you. Lindsey, this is Cassie Wilcox and Denise Usher,
they're two girls from the Delta frat who got changed also. Cassie,
Denise, this is Lindsey Wallace, Jack's ex-girlfriend. You'll love her,
she's a total sweetheart."
Despite herself, Lindsey felt her anger being slowly disarmed by
Brandy's charm offensive. "Nice to meet you both," she told the young
women beside her. They bore only a few hallmarks of transformed men;
their well-maintained manicures, professional hairstyles, and
understated makeup didn't give them away, but their lack of accessories
was a subtle hint. No pierced ears, no rings, no necklaces. Only
Brandy appeared to have a purse; Cassie carried a woman's wallet, and
Denise must have an ID stowed on her person somewhere. Five hundred
dollars didn't go very far to filling out a woman's fashion and makeup
needs.
Cassie was a gorgeous blond with wild hair and a shy smile, dressed in a
modest maroon turtleneck shirt and gray slacks. She had one hell of a
figure, Lindsey noted with some interest -- not like Brandy's, which was
simply unreal, but certainly statuesque. She found herself reflecting
curiously where she might have seen that pretty, Nordic face before.
The other girl, Denise, was definitely giving Lindsey the eye. Bi, was
she? Not everybody who went through Ripley's machine came out straight
on the other side. This one looked definitely interested, with her
inviting hazel eyes, sultry smile, and sassy black bob. There were
definite possibilities with this one, Lindsey thought to herself. A
nice roll in the hay with a girl once in a while could be great fun.
This one, too, had a distinctly familiar--
It suddenly struck her that she'd seen both these girls before, on
Delta's website, naked. Denise had been considerably more exposed than
merely naked, and had in fact been frolicking with a striking slender
black woman with a strap-on. Those images had been quite delicious,
Lindsey recalled.
She felt a blush coming on. "Oh my God, you're the ones on the website,
aren't you?" Lindsey said, covering her mouth with one hand. "I just
realized."
"Oh, you've seen it?" Denise asked with a naughty smile. "What did you
think?"
"You're all gorgeous," Lindsey assured the girls. "I wasn't really
looking for that -- okay, I was -- I wanted to see what Brandy looked
like. Now. Not naked, I mean --"
Brandy laughed delightedly, and the waitress finally appeared to notice
the table had sprouted a new customer. She sauntered over and took
Lindsey's order with some half-hearted display of customer service:
Cobb salad, extra breadstick, red wine.
"What happened to your website?" Lindsey asked. "It went down for a
week."
"We had to move it. The school didn't want us running a porn site on
their network," Cassie explained. "We tried to tell them it wasn't
using their bandwidth, but they didn't care. We set it up at Adrian's
apartment in town, somewhere that the guys at the frat can't get their
hands on it. The girls pooled our money and bought a server, so we can
control what goes up and what doesn't."
"Plus," Denise said, "now that's becoming better known, there's lots of
other girls on campus who want to put their stuff up on our site. This
could become quite a little side industry for us. At least for the next
year and a half, anyway. Then we change back. But we made our five
hundred bucks and then some, didn't we?"
The blond Cassie nodded eagerly. "Paul said -- he's the president --
that we each had to chip in five hundred dollars. We cleared that
amount the minute we got paid for the experiment. Then the website
started to get hits, and we started to rake in money like you wouldn't
believe. The guys said they wanted to get a share of it, that it was
their idea, and we said no."
"Good for you," Lindsay said, and meant it.
"You mean you said no," Brandy gushed enthusiastically. "I cannot
believe you did that. When you first got to Delta you were so shy!"
"I've learned a lot," Cassie said simply. "I've had to become more
confident."
"Taking your clothes off on camera will do that, I bet," Lindsey agreed.
"You should've been there," Brandy continued with bright eyes. "Cassie
said, you said everybody had to pay five hundred dollars, and they said
yeah, and Cassie said, well, we've already paid our five hundred so all
the rest of this profit belongs to us. And Paul and Jeremy tried to say
that the website belonged to everybody, and Cassie said, if you want to
be on it, you know where Ripley's lab is. None of them would go down
there and get turned into girls. Especially not Jack, and it was his
idea."
"And," Denise laughed, "since the server belongs to us, we basically
control the site. We do all of the photo shoots now on an hourly basis.
If they want to see us do another shoot, they have to pay."
Lindsey shook her head and laughed along with them. "Oh, this sounds
like one of Jack's ideas. He likes being able to stand in the shadows
and manipulate other people into doing his bidding. I can imagine the
look on his face when you told him you were keeping the money."
There was a moment during the laughter that Lindsey realized in
bewildered horror that she had let her guard down to Brandy, and that
she had allowed herself to start liking her. Perhaps it was simply
because she was too tired. Brandy was the enemy who had stolen Jack.
She took a deep breath, fixed her smile in place, and summoned the image
to her mind again, the picture of the last time she had seen her and her
ex-boyfriend at the Comstock. There was a girl, completely shit-faced,
eyes half-lidded, ruby lips pronouncing slurred protests in between
confused giggles. There was the man, his massive bicep wrapped around
her waist, forearm propping up her massive breasts, holding her off the
ground against his hip as he left the bar. She was obviously too drunk
to walk, stand, or even speak, but she continued to try. Red wrap
dress, lots of cleavage -- too much cleavage, because his locked arm was
forcing her breasts to spill upward into the cool night air, barely
contained in her brassiere. She reeked of tequila, the man of gin. He
was a mountain of a man, all bare shoulders and exquisitely detailed
muscles, each gleaming in sharp relief to the neon tavern glow. His
left hand was fumbling in his pocket, looking down, so the first face
she recognized was that of the girl whom she had just voted into their
sorority, and that's when he looked up and she saw who he was...
Lindsey would be surprised if Brandy remembered seeing her that evening;
the girl had been pretty far gone. She tried to keep that image before
her, of the Boob Goddess filled with tequila and draped over Jack's arm.
It would make it much easier to dislike Brandy if Lindsey continued to
remind herself the girl on Jack's arm should have been her.
A clatter of plates disturbed her thoughts. The waitress had brought
out plates for Brandy, Cassie, and Denise. She placed a decent glass of
cabernet sauvignon before Lindsey and mumbled something perfunctory
about being right back with the salad and breadstick. Lindsey let her
smile fall away into an innocent and inquisitive expression, as Cassie
and Denise chattered about some guy named Brett. Whoever it was,
Lindsey gathered, Denise was fairly attracted to him.
"So wait a minute, Denise," she said, when there was a pause in the
conversation. "You got turned into a girl, and suddenly you like guys?
How does that work?"
Denise spoke from behind her napkin to conceal her unfinished bite of
food. "It's Ripley's machine," she said, and swallowed. "It completely
reverses you. Before I went in, I was totally freaked out about the
idea of being a girl. I was a guy, I liked being a guy, I didn't want
to get in that booth. When I came out, I had a completely different
brain."
"Not so fast," Cassie said with an impish smile. "When you came out,
you were pouting. You asked Professor Ripley to undo this goddamn thing
right now. That's what you said."
Denise conceded the point graciously. "Okay, yeah, I was still scared
for a little while. That's because when you go through that machine,
all your points of reference change. I got shorter, and lighter, and I
saw differently, smelled things differently -- and I worried a lot,
right at first, that I was even thinking differently, except since I was
thinking differently, I couldn't tell how differently. It's like..."
Denise popped a cucumber from her salad into her mouth and chewed
thoughtfully for a moment, while the other girls waited. "It's like
waking up and finding all your furniture has been moved around, but it's
still your house." She saw she wasn't getting through, because Lindsey
wore a quizzical expression, and in desperation Denise turned to Brandy.
"It's exactly like that," the Boob Goddess agreed. "You know when you
move things around, you find little dents in the rug where your
furniture used to be, and little bits of fluff that were under the
couch? And you take a painting down, and you see a white spot on the
wall where it used to hang? It's like that, only inside your head. All
those little leftover bits of the old way are still there, sort of but
not really. You know you used to sit here and see things this way when
you watched TV, only now you don't. And you can't go back to the old
way, you just know it used to be there."
Lindsey pursed her lips. "I think I get it," she said, hesitating. "I
guess maybe you have to do it to know for sure, though."
"You should try it," Denise suggested. She reached out to touch
Lindsey's right arm, and her warm fingertips lingered there. Oh yes,
whatever else that machine did to poor Dennis, it certainly made her bi,
Lindsey thought.
"I don't know," is what she said to the transformed men before her. "I
don't want to end up... something strange."
Brandy smiled, not taking offense. "It was the last thing on my mind,
too. I just wanted to try it. I didn't intend to get stuck like this
for eight years. Jack betrayed me."
"Betrayed you?" Lindsey felt a twinge of sympathy, and deliberately let
the image rise again: girl, completely shit-faced, ruby lips
pronouncing slurred protests...
"That's what Ripley calls it, when one person pressed the button, and
the other doesn't. Jack and I agreed not to. That was the idea,
anyway." Brandy took a drink from her water glass, leaving a neat half-
moon of red lipstick on the rim.
"You said a minute ago," Lindsey recalled, "that I was the reason you
convinced Jack to try in the first place."
"I wanted to try being a girl," Brandy repeated. "You know, walk a mile
in someone else's shoes. I didn't exactly hope for a marathon in them.
Anyway, if Jack hadn't pushed his button, we both would have ended up
girls, only for about six months. And nothing like this," the bubbly
brunette said, indicating her exaggerated curves with a manicured hand.
"It would have been subtle."
"Oh, no," Lindsey said with well-meaning irony. "Big double Ds are all
about subtlety."
The former Brandon laughed ruefully. "Anyway, I had told Jack that he
might like being a girl, because... you might like it."
"Him? I don't get it -- oh, you mean me." Lindsey stopped to consider
that, until she noticed her mouth was hanging open. "Jack, a girl?
Huh. I guess that would have been... interesting."
"He said you were bisexual," Brandy said delicately, "but I didn't
really believe him. Jack does have a tendency to make up a fantasy life
when the real one isn't very interesting."
Lindsey nodded. "So how did you end up with Jack? How come you're
dating him, if he betrayed you?"
"Dating him?" Brandy's smile was wide, pleasant, and disarming. "Not
really. We just fell into bed together a couple of times until it got
to be a habit. I don't really love him. He's kind of an ass, to be
honest." Her grin became even wider. "You want him back?"
That came so suddenly that Lindsey had to fall into peals of helpless
laughter. She pressed her elbows into her sides and groped for a water
glass. "Oh my God," she said through paroxysms of mirth. "Oh God no, I
do not want him back. You can have him."
"He's pretty good in bed," Brandy urged her, as if trying to sell her a
particularly noxious breed of horse. "And he doesn't smell bad when
he's had a shower. Are you sure? We could split him, sometimes. Every
other weekend, how's that?"
"Two out of three," Lindsey said, wiping away tears from the corners of
her eyes. "No. No, really, I do not want him back. I'm surprised you
want him at all."
Brandy blushed, and for the first time Lindsey saw that the poor girl
was embarrassed to be associated with Jack. "Remember, when he first
came out, he was... really studly. He'd been buffed. That's why he
betrayed me, to get that super-manly body."
"I've seen something like it," Lindsey admitted.
"And of course, Jack says we shouldn't really be dating, not officially.
Just friends with benefits. Let's have an open relationship, he said,"
Brandy explained. "Of course, looking like he did, I didn't have any
objection to hopping onto his dick once in a while. And looking like he
did, he didn't have any trouble finding other girls on his own. But the
thing about those buffs," she said with a sly look and an arched
eyebrow, "is they don't last forever. My body is going to last eight
years. His buff only lasted six weeks, and then he was back to normal.
Back to the old Jack, going a little bald Jack, bad teeth Jack with the
creaky knees."
"He used to play catcher," Lindsey said, apropos of nothing. "All
through high school."
"Even back then he was calling the shots for other people, I guess. But
I had this body," Brandy said, gesturing again with perfect scarlet
nails. "Suddenly, Jack didn't want an open relationship any more. He
wasn't Mr Studly, and he couldn't pull the girls like he could before,
while I could still have any guy I wanted. Every time I go out with
some other guy, I remind Jack that the open relationship was his idea."
Brandy smirked.
Lindsey sat back in her chair happily, admiring Brandy's beautiful face
and smug smile, and for the first time all day she really felt at her
ease. She was still weary, but it was as if a weight had been lifted
from her. Brandy hadn't stolen Jack, because Jack had never been worth
stealing. Jack had walked away from the relationship because he'd
spotted an opportunity. And now, evidently, that opportunity had
vanished. "You know," Lindsey said, "I'm really glad I stopped by here
on the way home. It's been really wonderful getting to know you,
Brandy."
"We'd met before," the brunette reminded her.
"I know," Lindsey said, "but that was ages ago, when you were still a
boy. Even then, I have to confess, I thought you were cuter than Jack."
Brandy thanked her meekly.
Lindsey finished her wine, and leaned forward in her chair again to
place it back on the table. "So," she said. "What's it like?"
"Going through the machine?"
"Being a man," Lindsey said. "You remember, right?"
Brandy sighed. "A little. I wish I could explain it. I guess it's
something you just have to do for yourself."
"I don't know if I'm that curious. A little curious, but not eight
years curious."
"Then," Brandy said, and fixed Lindsey with a very direct look. Her
gray eyes were penetrating, her chestnut hair perfect, and her lips
moist and glossy red. "Then, in that case, perhaps you should ask
yourself exactly how curious you are."
Twice during the week after classes resumed, Patrick Owen stopped by the
biotechnical research building. He hadn't allowed himself to
consciously schedule an appointment with Ripley and his machine. He
hadn't told any of his friends or fraternity brothers he was
contemplating another turn in it. The idea merely lurked in the back of
his mind like an unwanted guest, dissipating like smoke when Patrick was
occupied with classes and studies and dates, and returning from the
shadows when his brain was quiet again. You could just try it, the idea
whispered. It's only six months, if you get the light treatment. Your
friends will never notice.
Twice during the week, Patrick had left Building 34 in his own body.
There hadn't been any singles in the third-floor commons; everyone had
reported there in pairs. Once in a while he ran into a lone man or
woman, evidently waiting for friends, but those were often previous
subjects of Ripley's. I'd love to go again, they'd say sadly, but not
until this body wears off.
Did they know anybody who was looking to try the experiment? Patrick
always wanted to ask them, but hadn't worked up the nerve.
His post-restoration celebrity lasted a few weeks, and in that time he
picked up a few dates. One girl, Tammy, had heard about Patrick's six-
month sentence and was full of questions. Another date, Shawna, was
glad to see him restored to his male self and didn't even want to
discuss his previous experience as a woman. Didn't he know that she
thought it was weird? Honestly, Shawna thought he intended to stay like
that, and what kind of way was that for a man to behave? Only Connie
had never mentioned it at all, thankfully, but even that date had been
unsatisfactory; Patrick found himself being privately critical of her
mismatched necklace and earrings, and her poor mascara lines.
What's wrong with me? he asked himself. All I did was spend six months
in a woman's body. It's not like I asked, either.
What was wrong, of course, was that his horizons had expanded. His
world was suddenly larger, and his experiences broader, than most other
people who had never bothered to try it. Shawna's rejection of the
experience, even the idea of the experience, was discouraging. Tammy's
eagerness, her inquisitive probing without active follow-through, seemed
hollow. Had she truly wanted to learn, she could have gone herself.
And Connie, sadly, had just seemed so very limited. How could she
identify with Patrick, as he could with her, unless she had been through
a similar sentence?
On any other occasion, Patrick avoided the Biotech building. He had no
classes there, and no earthly reason to enter that building. Even when
it was the shortest route between Pre-Calculus and Organic Chemistry
Lab, he went around. He was perpetually concerned that the boys -- or
the girls -- of Delta Eta Rho would catch him there.
Who, me? Here in the Biotech building? No, I wasn't headed for the
third floor, I was just meeting someone. I was just on the way to
class. I just stopped by for no reason. It looked like rain.
Patrick was not the kind of man to make excuses; when he was challenged
he tended to become defensive, to be prepared to fight. Just being near
Building 34 made his spine stiffen and made him see ghosts in his
peripheral vision. It made him twitchy.
On the Friday after spring break, Patrick found himself walking the
familiar sidewalks in the direction of Biotech and Ripley. It was eight
in the evening. Most of the lecture halls and labs were locked by this
time, except for a few toward the Student Center where night classes
were taught by the Vocational Learning instructors. The library, too,
would be closing. If anybody asked him, Patrick would say he was simply
out for a stroll. That, of course, was why he wore his bulky blue ski
jacket. It wasn't to hide his transformed body. The very idea! He
hadn't any particular business here. Why, everything was--
The biotechnical research center still had its lights on. The third-
floor commons, visible between the angled white girders and along the
length of the glass wall, gave off a yellow aura. Was anybody moving
about? It was hard to tell, through the tinted glass.
If anybody asked, I'm just checking to see why the lights were on.
He passed through the automatic doors and ascended the steps. These too
were white girders, between which were stretched concrete slab steps.
His footsteps sent metallic echoes bouncing off the girders and
throughout the first floor. Dimly, above, a voice could be heard in
low, urgent discussion.
Patrick climbed the last steps to the third floor and looked into the
deserted commons. Only three figures were here: Ripley stood near the
information desk, clipboard in hand, holding a quiet discussion with a
female student. His assistant sat by, alternating his gaze between his
PSP handheld game and the clock on the wall. Clearly it was time to go;
equally clear, this girl didn't want to leave without satisfaction.
Professor Ripley's gaze fell upon Patrick from across the room, and
glanced dismissively away again, but the girl had noticed the brief look
and turned. She pointed, and her words echoed across the commons.
"There, there's somebody coming now. I'll ask him."
Without waiting for an answer, she strode away from the neat little
professor and his pressed white lab coat. The girl's pace was brisk.
After a few paces she broke into a run.
She was pretty, Patrick could see. Perhaps not a supermodel -- not with
those hips. The young woman was a Latina with a heart-shaped face, dark
hair, and a ponytail which bounced behind her as she jogged his way.
"Hey," she called to him across the carpet as she approached. "Are you
here for the experiment? Prisoner's Dilemma? Ripley won't let me go
without a partner."
Patrick was momentarily taken aback, unable to formulate words either in
acceptance or in defense. Of all the things he had expected upon
arriving at the commons, a direct proposal wasn't among them.
"Come on," the young woman said. "It's after hours and you're up here.
Do you want to go? I want to try this thing out, I've heard so much
about it."
"It's pretty fun," Patrick said, finding his voice. He put on a show of
confidence. "I tried it for six months. Ended up as a pretty good-
looking woman, babe, I gotta tell you."
"So that was you," the woman said, with a sudden smile. "I thought you
looked familiar. When you were a woman, did you do some photos for
Delta house?"
He smiled. This question had long since ceased to embarrass him. "Yes,
that's me. It's the hair, right? I kept the haircut."
"So you've been through it before, you know. Look, I'm not going to do
anything weird to you in there. I know somebody who got burned like
that once, and, well -- let's just say I'm not happy with the guy who
did it. My name's Lindsey," the girl said, offering a hand.
Patrick took it firmly. "I'm Patrick. I know a guy, too. Some guy in
our frat did that to somebody, walked out of the booth with a buffed-up
stud body, sent the other guy home as a chick."
"In your frat," Lindsey said, and smacked her forehead. "You wouldn't
be talking about Jack Munn?"
Patrick nodded. "Yeah. That's him. Now he's sleeping with the girl --
guy -- he did it to. Brandy. You know her, too?"
"We've met. Look, like I said, I'm not interested in getting stuck in a
man's body for years. I just want to try it out. I've been asking
around... I don't need to explain it to you. All I want is the six-
month deal. What do you say, do you want to partner up with me for
that?"
"Yeah," Patrick said slowly. "Yeah, babe, I can do that. Nobody
touches nothing, we both walk out with six months."
Lindsey nodded. "It's a deal."
Professor Ripley was not so happy with them as they crossed the commons
carpet toward the information desk. "Mixed-gender couples," he said
sternly, "are not among the demographics in the current study. All the
accumulated data points are for heterogeneous couples only. Boys with
boys, girls with girls."
"Then maybe you need to branch out into a new study," Lindsey suggested.
"There's lots of couples who would want to try this."
"Of course there are," said Ripley. "I am already well aware of several
such couples who have advanced this argument. However, this
psychological experiment was not designed for couples to... play? Amuse
themselves? Frolic? It was designed -- fool around, that's the phrase,
not designed for couples to fool around. Our funding is not meant to
contribute to weekends of debauchery. You should certainly be aware of
this yourself, Mr..."
"Owen," Patrick supplied.
"Yes, Mr Owen, because you have already been through the process once
before."
"And don't you think that is a data point worth studying?" Patrick asked
curiously. "I mean, here I am, back for more. Don't you suppose that
when some guy gets up the nerve to come back and try again, that maybe
you guys should be interested in that little tidbit?"
Professor Ripley opened his mouth, and shut it again. He was an
unextraordinary man with little silver spectacles and iron-gray hair
that looked as if had been parted with a ruler, but his eyes were
windows into a steel-trap mind. "A fair point," Ripley said. "If you
would care to return with another partner--"
"If it's the funding you're worried about," Lindsey offered immediately,
heading off that objection, "I don't really need it. And--" she looked
at Patrick with pleading in her liquid brown eyes.
"Yeah, you can skip the five hundred bucks this time," Patrick offered
generously.
Professor Ripley paused again, calculating. The biomatter reorganizer
was his baby. It was his life's work. It had to be tested. And yet
the protocols of the testing must be adhered to. The paperwork must be
signed, the waivers must be obtained. "I will consult Dr Kessler,"
Ripley concluded reluctantly. "Together we will refer the matter of the
funds to our oversight committee. It may well come to pass that the
sponsorship board approves release of the funds and extends the study
into mixed-gender couples. In any case, we will follow all necessary
procedures this once and consider tonight's result an extraneous data
point. Mr Knowles?"
The student assistant looked up from his game of Zelda. "Yo."
Professor Ripley adjusted his glasses. "Get them admitted before you
go. I'll be in the lab."
Patrick and Lindsey didn't have long to wait while the student at the
desk entered their demographics into the database.
"I really appreciate this," Lindsey told Patrick. "I'm serious. I'm
not going to touch that button at all if you won't."
"Neither will I," Patrick said. "I want the light version for sure. I
don't exactly want Jack finding out I'm a girl again."
"I can understand that. Of course, I told the girls in the sorority
house that I was coming tonight. I just couldn't find anybody willing
to come with me."
Patrick gave her a squint. "How come you want to try being a man?"
"Because of Brandy, I guess. And because of Jack. I just have to try
it. Anything," Lindsey said with a rueful shake of her head, "anything
is better than having my mother call me every two weeks and ask if I've
found a husband yet."
The student assistant called over from his station, already engrossed in
his PSP. "Okay, you guys, go on back. It's down the hall and to the
left, then take the second door. Follow the yellow stripe on the
floor."
They left the commons together and followed the hall deeper into
Building 34. Patrick noticed that Lindsey was close on his right side,
looking around at the darkened halls. Most of the lab equipment in the
rear corridors had been shut down, and most of the laboratories
themselves had been locked. Only the commons, it appeared, had remained
lit. Even as they departed for the lab, they could hear the sounds of
Knowles gathering his coat and books from the desk and tramping down the
steps.
"Nervous?" he asked.
"A bit. You've done this before, I haven't."
"You'll be fine," Patrick assured her. "You'll be surprised how easy it
is."
They entered the lab.
"My God," Lindsey said, staring at the neatly divided stacks and
shelves. "It's like something out of Star Wars."
"Preferably not," said Professor Ripley distractedly from his position
at the keyboard. "For one thing, the science in Star Wars is much less
supportable than in, for instance, Battlestar Galactica. Newtonian
space flight, for instance. And everything in Star Wars was dirty, of
course." He sniffed.
Patrick and Lindsey exchanged a look, and Patrick essayed a small shrug:
meh, what can you do?
Nevertheless, the lab was crowded with identical supply tables, each
piled with computers, coiled with cables, and adorned with monitors.
The yellow tape on the floor led directly to a cordon of yellow tape
that surrounded two gray plastic booths on the left-hand wall. Tape of
other colors subdivided the room further, barricading one experiment
against the encroachment of another. Massive trunks of bundled cables
snaked behind the tables toward the power outlets.
"If you would care to step into the booths," Professor Ripley said,
indicating the gray cabinets to their left. "One of you in each."
Patrick held out a gracious hand, allowing Lindsey to go first, but she
hesitated. "Does it matter which one?"
"They are identical, so it shouldn't matter which you choose," Ripley
said, and added cryptically, "Although this is a psychology experiment."
"Great," she muttered, and entered the left-hand booth.
"The left. Interesting," Ripley said in a mild voice.
"What?" Lindsey asked, turning around in the booth and looking out with
alarm. "What? What's interesting?"
"For every five people that choose right, nine people choose left. Most
fascinating."
She put her hands on her hips, made an annoyed face, and sat down.
Patrick waved to her and sat in the other booth.
"If you have no questions, permit me seal the doors and we will
proceed," the professor began.
"Wait. Wait, yes, I have question," Lindsey said. Her nervousness was
beginning get the better of her, and she struggled to find the question.
"Will it -- will it hurt?"
"Interestingly," Professor Ripley said, "the sensation of the passage of
time during matter reorganization is highly individual. I haven't yet
collected enough data to fully rationalize it. Some subjects report a
very intense series of sensations during the actual matter
redistribution, while many others -- a majority so far -- report almost
no sensation at all. There is an exit questionnaire and several follow-
up visits during which we administer additional interviews, but let me
not get ahead of myself. After all, in ten minutes you are sure to have
an entirely new battery of questions for me."
Lindsey waited carefully during the ten-minute countdown, wondering
anxiously whether she would feel pain during the... what had Ripley
called it?... the reorganization of her body. She wondered if Patrick
was as nervous as she was. She wondered what Andrea and Robeta would
say to discover her brand-new anatomically correct toy.
But she never wondered if Patrick could be trusted. It never occurred
to her at all.
When Lindsey emerged from the isolation booth, he felt a strange sense
of focus. Somehow everything seemed to be directly before him, right in
the center of his vision, with nothing on the periphery to distract him.
The sounds of the lab were placed precisely, just so, in the stereo
spectrum. Even the laboratory itself seemed sharper and better defined,
more solid. The tables were more compact, the walls were straighter.
He hadn't gained much in height, perhaps not even an inch -- his pink
sweat pants were still ankle-length, and his dark blue Lockman U hooded