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To the reader, below is a short chronicle of my actual reports back to my
Mistress after experiencing several different BDSM scenes. I willingly
placed myself in Her hands and She had full control in the activity.
These are TRUE accounts. Enjoy and maybe you will, someday, be as lucky.
holly
M'Lady, I am not sure how You would like to be addressed,
Again let me thank You for the intensity of experience. That has added a
great deal of dimension to my thoughts and dreams. In response to Your
direction to detail my thoughts and reactions to the scene we shared, I
should start at the beginning. This was even before I had arrived. Your
message with directions was outstanding and created a feeling of
submissiveness and obedience. Once there, You continued to hold the
upper hand and for me that is essential. I really need to know that I am
NOT in control of anything once a scene begins. For me, the scene began
as I prepared at home having read Your instructions. While I knew that
You were going to shave me, I did not know where or to what extent. My
habits are fairly basic in this, I generally shave in the morning and, if
I am to be in a scene, will be as hairless as possible in the hours just
before I must go. Further, I will generally make myself hairless on the
weekend, so if for instance, You wanted to explore bikini waxing, I would
have to know not to shave but not necessarily why. In fact the why is
only important to You as I am Your toy and want to be as good as I can
be as a result.
The waiting for You to come out and get me was a little set of agonies
and I loved it. I knew that You were there and were aware of me, yet You
set the tone that I would wait on You and not the other way. I do hope
that You were pleased by the fact that I carefully avoided any speech
until You indicated it was alright. Control of my speech, vision and
hearing are all very intense for me. By blindfolding me and gagging me,
You intensified the feeling. You could not have done better; I loved it
and wanted that feeling. Thank You for guiding me to the beam. Your use
of my hair as a tether is very erotic to me as I love to have the contact
and realize now just how much I do enjoy feeling the pull and control.
Your strong hand gave me total confidence that You had me under Your
hand.
At the beam, having You remove my clothing was perfect. In a forced
feminization scene, the only other thing I have added in my fantasies
would have been having my male underwear cut from my body. The fact that
You had me dressed under for the trip up was equally effective as I could
feel the hose and thong as it shaped itself to my body. For scene play I
do like a thong and have several of differing colors and materials. You
have not commented on this in the past so I am unaware of Your feelings
on this point. Your use of skin sensation is perfect. I react very
intensely to the various feelings around my body and love the fact that I
am unable to stop the assault on my body. RESTRAINT...YES!!!!! Thank You!
You are in control and it makes me very happy to be reminded. Here, as
we spoke after, You should feel free to be even more restrictive. I do
have a healing shoulder and so Your choice of the height of the arm
restraints was ideal for me. I would not have thought I would react as
intensely to spanking as I did, but yes, this was, and is good. Your
cupping of my rear cheeks was good and emphasized the curves created in
the thong. The level of spanking was getting close to my limit for pain,
but was worth every bit. As You noted, my breasts are very reactive. I
like having my nipples and breasts teased and played with. You did this
some and as You saw, got a big reaction. It really feels great.
Now the shaving!!!! Wow. I have not had another person shave my body in
.... Forever! I crave the contact with another person and Your intimate
contact was real and special. Thank You for Your choices of where to
shave. Back and chest are good. Underarms are, to me, very feminine, as
are legs. As I indicated, You can shave anything You feel appropriate
even arms, I know that You will do what will get the best effect and You
have been very good in Your interpretation. This intensified the feeling
of the silky gown flowing over my body. To feel it slide over my rear is
very smooth and nice.
When You then moved to the make-up I was in heaven. My strongest
fantasies are of the forced feminization, transformation, re-creation of
a new personality. You evoked all of these in my mind. As I sat in the
chair, in my mind I imagined my arms bound at my side so that I could not
resist Your efforts to change me into Your plaything. You have made me
up several times now and, I must confess, I absolutely love it. The
feel, the smell, the taste all create a very special image in my mind.
When You called forth Holly it was a fitting part of the whole scene. As
I sat there waiting for You after, I found myself moving to the music and
in a very different head space. To be honest I was ready to go into an
intense scene. At the same time I was both thankful and grateful that
You had taken so much time with me.
Random thoughts:
Things that I find intensely feminine are the fact that a woman's body is
smooth and soft. Being shaved and rubbed with body cream is part of this
feeling. The smell of a woman is special, in this I do not necessarily
mean the sexual smell of a woman; it is her perfume that I refer to.
Women smell nice and as You have seen, I have a number of scents. I also
associate jewelry and earrings with femininity.
Without a doubt, one of the most feminine features of a woman to me are
breasts. I have taken herbals to enhance and have also used suction to
enlarge. Recently I have also used low doses of estrogen to further
growth. This has been effective and since I am not using an anti-
androgen, I have full function and sensitivity. A warning would be that
in my private play, I use breast/nipple stimulation as an integral part
of my play. This is very intense for me. I have, in my toy bag, small
suction cups for nipples and this can be very effective. Additionally,
the body features I also associate with the feminine shape are hips and a
flat front, and a rounded rear. Women have curves and I find I want some
myself. Also I associate fingernails with femininity. I am trying to
let mine grow out for the next social so that they will be natural and
real. Hair is another special thing.
Should You desire, You should feel free to further demand colors of
panties toys in particular You may wish to play with, and so forth.
Here, as we have spoken before, is not necessarily what will be used but
sets a psychological level of expectation and dominance. My mind is very
active and when You say be sure to bring a flogger or cane, my
imagination will begin to work on how it will be used and create a level
of excitement that will drive me to total distraction. I do have several
butt plugs for instance, but have not had any in me for some time. The
last time was the smaller. The medium has not been in my body for many
years now and I would have to be conditioned to it before it would be
practical.
As You have seen in our discussions, the transformation of male to female
is a fundamental part of my fantasy life. Mixed with this is
mummification. Here my imagination creates a scene in which I am
transformed by being wrapped in a cocoon. While wrapped I am made up and
teased. My breasts are massaged and enlarged and prepared for a Lady to
infuse my body with her essential transformation potions.
Bondage devices I would like to experience include the bondage chair.
This has intrigued me from the first time I saw it. The thought of being
bound to it while I am teased and transformed is very erotic and deeply
rooted. If I were to be bound in the chair, I would want to be bound
such that my breasts are lifted and separated with a crisscross of rope.
To me there is nothing attractive about a beautiful pair of breasts that
have been crushed by rope or other things. This was the first time I had
experienced a bondage beam and it also was very good. I have imagined
what it would be like to be held in chains and it was put to good
practice with Your use of the beam. I have been bound to a cross but
would like to be more restrained. When I have been bound in the past, my
feet have been free while my arms were bound. Being bound either facing
in or out from a cross has been excellent and each have their points. I
have never been bound to a bondage bench, but would be intrigued by it.
There is a hazard though and that is that I have a mild case of acid
reflux which means that I must have taken my Zantac before the scene. If
I am forced over a horse which places a lot of pressure on my stomach, it
can raise acid. As a result, I generally sleep on my back.
While I would not have thought myself to be interested in impact play,
both Cat and Marie and Fran have used various implements on me and I have
found this to be pleasurable. Floggers and cats have been used with good
effect. Marie and Fran have caned me and it was very good. Marie has
also used a single tail on me. This requires a little more warm up and I
can take some, but not a lot. Nipple clamps of various types have been
used on me and I find I wish I could take more. With my efforts to
sensitize my breasts, the nipples can't take the pinching they used to be
able to take. I may be able to build up to this, but have thought that
suction may be the most effective as it will further raise and engorge
the nipple and then the nipple can be teased. I have also invested in
new clamps and may find these workable.
My very first scene experience was waxing. I loved it and would like
more. I am promised that Nia will do this some day, but it has not
happened yet. Along with this is hair removal waxing. I have
experienced a variation on this and would like to experience more.
Thoughts about feminization:
I have a deep and abiding respect and appreciation of women. I do not
want to be a parody of a woman, I want to give the best impression
possible and look good. I do not view feminization as humiliation.
Rather it is an opportunity to connect with another part of myself. To
be able to feel things I would not necessarily be able to feel as a male.
You have understood this from the beginning and made me look and feel
right and comfortable. I like having the right curves felt and smoothed.
(legs, hips, breasts, neck, wow the whole body). Having my hair done has
proven to be very special and I would not have realized that in the past.
You awakened that feeling in me. Having my nails done is another special
thing. I keep my toes painted at virtually all times; I have wondered
what it would be like to have a pedicure. To capture a thought from
above is bikini wax. The scene might start with getting a call to meet
at a salon and when I arrive I am taken into the back and waxed. Unlike
another story I heard, I would not want this connected with humiliation.
Blindfolded or otherwise surprised is good.
You asked how I would like to be treated. I would like to be treated
with respect as a person. I am not a thing, an it or an animal. I
always treat my partner with great deference and respect because it is
through her that I am allowed to experience these special things. I am
very sensitive to humiliation and can think of no faster way to end a
scene than going down this path. That could change in time, but not for
now. I value my feminine clothing, some of which I have made and more in
the future, so things that would damage my cloths would not be attractive
to me. The only exceptions to this may be related to nylons. I am
intrigued by the thought of being bound by my nylons. When I am in Holly
persona I would like to be thought of as Holly. I need to work on voice
and mannerisms. In a scene, I rarely want to talk, I do not normally
communicate verbally and so to talk in a scene can bring me out of the
headspace since I have to think about what to say and what it means. But
being talked to in a scene is another thing. Being told what is to
happen to me, especially if the scene is sensual torture and I cannot
see, is a big part of my fantasy mind. I am constantly being told by the
Lady of my fantasy mind that She is going to do thus and such and I will
submit to this because I have no choice and not control in the matter.
She tells me She is going to transform my body, changing me into a lady
and I will become her toy to play with and enjoy. She is always a Lady,
She is controlling but feminine and I want to obey her and make her happy
and pleased with my efforts (even if this is not the case at first, I am
always brought over to Her way of thinking).
You asked what I would like done to me. Here I am at a little loss.
There is so much I would like to experience that I don't even know where
to start. But certainly everything you have done to date. Add to this
bondage, mummification or cocooning, sensual caning, flogging and
touching. Massage, cupping, electricity, violet wands, TENS. Waxing,
hypnosis (feminization, obedience). I have wondered what it would be
like to be placed in a state of sensory deprivation and then feminized as
a way out of this. I am like a kid outside a candy store. I know there
are wonderful things inside, but I can only see what is in the window and
so can only imagine what I have seen. I believe that I would be a
willing participant in many things, but hard limits do exist and these
all surround bodily fluids and scaring.
Holly and Hank are clean. Neither has ever had a sexually related
illness. Neither could abide blood, scat or showers of either type.
Tattoos that are permanent are not a direction I would like to go in at
this time. Non-permanent transfers are another thing, but it would best
be tasteful. Having SLUT tattooed across my body would be ugly to me and
not in keeping with how I would expect to be treated by another person.
In a discussion with Dave, I realized the difference between humiliation
and submission in my mind is the condition of the ego. Humiliation is
the destruction of the ego, it does damage, while submission suborns the
ego for a time but does not do permanent harm. Other things: I have had
an enema, but did not find this particularly pleasant. I have been
catheterized, both internal and external and done in the right context,
is workable. (i.e. as part of a medical transformation or long term
cocooning). While Cat did use a knife with me, it was not sharp; I would
have a hard time with any breaks in the skin. I can scar and do not want
to ruin the best appearance of my skin for feminization. I would not
want to have my head shaved since this is part of feminization, but every
other part of my body is ok.
M'Lady, I have gone on for a while and think it best to close here and
wait Your further inquiry to answer what You may still need to know.
To Mistress from holly, her thoughts and feelings as a result of our
scene:
The overall effect was truly mind-numbing. My memories are focussed on a
number of sensations all occurring at once. As You has already known, my
body has become very sensitized to sensations in and around my nipples
and of course my rear. The feelings are intensified when coupled with
bondage and restraint and further heightened when blindfolded and ears
plugged. This combination is very powerful and as You began the scene
with bondage and hood, I was moved into a state of transcendence. The
real faded to a new reality contained within the hood. I very much
enjoyed the bondage that drove the knotted rope into my crotch. This
found key points and when the vibrator was added to the knots, I was
bombarded with intense feeling.
The crisscross bondage causing my breasts to be more prominent is a
fantasy come true. I am very glad that You did not compress them as I
would prefer they be large and inviting for You.. The use of the cross
as the opening stages was very good. I have wanted to explore the
various elements of the dungeon more and was so glad that You were able
to use this to Your purpose. I know that I will need to add more padded
cuffs to the dungeon however. This will make the restraint more
comfortable in the future. I do not complain here at all, only make an
observation. As You bound me to the cross, my mind flashed to a number
of possible methods and wondered which You would do. I knew that You
would add the sensations of impact and of course the thought of being
bound face out always adds the fear of breast torture. The anticipation
is the key and You used it well. I was surprised how much I was able to
take and it added to the level of sensual excitement. I realize that
there are so many options for You that I am always pleased and surprised
by what You will do.
The use of intense cold and heat was a real surprise and one I would like
to experience again. I know that this was the first time You had done
anything like this to me and I am also aware that this was not something
that Toby would have done normally without Your influence. You gave me
sensations that I have not felt and would like to explore some more. I
know that Toby was a bit surprised at the level of response You were able
to generate from me. I will say that while I knew some of it was
possible, I have not felt that level of intensity for a long time.
The real surprises came with the transition to the table and the added
anal stimulation. At first I thought You were done, but that thought
changed rapidly as You moved to the new venue. It has been a very long
time since I had any anal stimulation with plug. There was a time I
could take more, but I am very tight at this time and You worked with
great care, but still it was a very large feeling. Thank You for
changing the plug You were going to use. I suppose that if we are to do
this again, we will need to start me on some training to enlarge and
relax these muscles. Even so, the new, smaller plug was very workable.
When You inflated it I realized which one it was and it was one that I
had wonted to play with for some time now. Being bound and then adding
the intrusion of the plug sent me over the top. Your continual
manipulation keeping there and causing multiple climaxes was mind-
numbing. I have never been held at that level of feeling for so long and
the only way it would have been possible was the combination of maximum
intensity from the butt plug, the vibrator and then the restraint. As
You used to Your advantage, the tighter the restraint, the greater the
limits to movement, the more intense the feeling. While I knew it was
possible for me to have more than one climax in a session, it really has
been many years.
As You can tell from the above, I was truly moved by what You and Toby
did. I have never before had so intense a feeling from anal stimulation
and look forward to more of this at Your hands. I find myself wondering
what would happen with a strap on for instance? I do not even know if I
could stand it, but Holly is curious. The knotted chord through my legs
was also a first when You coupled that with the vibrator. You have not
used that before and it was incredible to feel the ropes themselves
vibrate as You moved it about.
As is often the case, the aftermath of a scene causes me to consider so
much. First I am reminded how fortunate I am to have someone that cares
enough to give me so much pleasure. I realize that I cannot expect to
advance in my own training and ability without giving more to You than
You currently have. I cannot expect You to know without my helping by
providing the understanding I derive from the feelings and sensations
that You have created.
Dear reader, I have been in the BDSM scene for a long time and have other
stories, and reports, but I would not want to bore you. If you would
like to read more of holly's life and times do review and tell me. As
you can see, these reports are not about sex, they are about the real
Dom/sub relationship, a relationship and exchange built on trust.
Hester
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