The Tutor - Part 2
Introduction
"I need your help, please, My Lady," I stammered, looking at the floor.
"Why Miss Clarke, whatever is the problem?"
Mrs. Roberts, the tall, well endowed, matron of the Roberts Mansion and
her impish 17-year-old daughter Denise were finishing breakfast at the
dining-room table. Both were wearing sleepwear from the night before
under their robes.
I shifted my weight back and forth, unsure of how to begin.
"I seem unable to control myself, My Lady. You know... my accidents?
And I was hoping that you and Miss Denise would be able to help me. I
really need to complete my service and work off my demerits so I can
return to school to complete my doctoral dissertation. Please?" I
pleaded.
"Why of course we will help," Mrs. Roberts said, warmly.
"Mother?" Miss Denise's voice betrayed a hint of alarm.
"Hush Denise. Miss Clarke has made us a simple and heartfelt request.
If she wants our help to prevent accidents, then I think we should do
everything we can to help. Don't you?"
A look of shared understanding passed between them.
"Of course," Denise said, brightening. "Miss Clarke! I promise I will
help you maintain control in any way that I can. No matter what it
takes! It will my pleasure!"
* * *
'Whew!' I thought to myself, as I cleared the table. 'That went well.'
My name is Jason Clarke and I am a graduate student just about to
finish my PhD in English Literature. To make a little extra cash, I've
taken a one-week assignment as a tutor to help Miss Denise prepare for
her college entrance examinations to Cleavage University. Only somehow
I have found myself dressed from head to toe in a maid's uniform,
complete with frilly underwear, a slip, a bra, breast forms (devilish
devices with suction cups and nipple stimulators built in!), garters,
and stockings. The uniform itself is in an old-fashioned English Manor
style, black with a white apron and collar trimmed in eyelet lace.
How had I got into this position? Why was I, a highly educated graduate
student, working as a maid for this old-fashioned matron and her
mischievous daughter?
Oh, it was all a big mix-up, of course. They wanted me to start right
away, but I didn't have any clothes with me. So, no problem, Miss
Denise gave me some of her panties to wear.
I should have put a stop to it right away! After all, a student giving
me - her teacher (!) - a pair of panties to wear? I should have just
walked out of the house right then and there.
Only I didn't. I should have, but I didn't. The reasons are
complicated, and I'm not even sure I understand them all myself. I
realize now that had been my only real chance to set boundaries. After
that, it seems like it's been one more thing after another.
Don't get me wrong, Mrs. Roberts and Miss Denise are wonderful
employers. The problem is that I'm just a few weeks from completing my
doctorate - a goal which I have been working towards all my life!
What would my parents say if I just let it go? I wondered. They were
always saying 'Just be yourself', but I could tell from the very
beginning that they wanted me to be in academia just like them. They
had both been so pleased when I was accepted at University and my Dad
kept going on and on about how it would be 'so nice to have another
professor in the family'.
What if I called him right now and said, 'Dad, I've decided I'm going
to quit University and become a lady's maid? I will dedicate my life to
household chores such as sewing, cleaning, serving the guests, dressing
Miss Denise and Mrs. Roberts--"
"Stop that!" I angrily said to myself. "That's not for me! I want to
become an man of letters and education. I want to join the academic
elite filling young minds with my wisdom on all of the latest concepts
in the world of literature."
Of course I did. And all it would take is to control my urges for just
one week. Then I could work off my demerits and I would leave with a
nice tutoring paycheck and that would be that.
And now that I knew that My Lady and Miss Denise were on my side, I
knew that everything would be okay.
Chapter 1:
"I'm so glad that you asked for our help," said Mrs. Roberts, as she
stepped out of the shower. I gulped, seeing her fully naked body for
the first time. She was a large, well-rounded, woman, but her body was
firm and perfectly proportioned, every bit the proud matriarch of the
Roberts clan.
"Thank you, My Lady," I said. Trying to avert my eyes I somehow ended
up staring at her dark brown, furry triangle.
"Look all you want, my dear," Mrs. Roberts said, with a chuckle in her
voice. "It's just us girls here. Now fetch a towel and dry me off. That
will be another one of your duties while you're my lady's maid."
Mrs. Roberts held out her arms and I did my best. I started with her
back and arms and then, with a couple of deep breaths, moved to her
front.
"Sorry my dear!" Mrs. Roberts said, suddenly stumbling forward. "Hold
on a second," she placed an arm on my shoulder, pulling me into her
naked body. "Just give me a second to figure this out."
She held me there as she shifted back and forth.
"Ahh, I see," she said, finally releasing me. "It was the floor mat.
The edge had folded over and that tripped me. You can continue now. But
please don't be shy about 'down there'. Pay close attention and make
sure everything's nice and dry."
'Crap,' I realized. I was hard already! 'Concentrate on your work!' I
scolded myself.
I knelt down, running the towel between her legs and drying 'back
there' as well. As I did, Mrs. Roberts would turn one way or the other
which always seemed to result in my face being pressed into her in her
crotch or her soft, yielding bottom.
"Oh dear," she kept saying. "Don't be shy, dear. This sort of thing
happens all the time. I'm sure you'll get better with practice."
Finally she was dry. My next chore was to spread baby powder through
all the folds of her body. This included under her arms, between her
legs, and (*gulp*) under her breasts and between her bottom cheeks.
Just being in such close proximity, not to mention stroking her body
with my hands, almost caused me to lose control right then and there.
And if I thought I was going to get a break, I was sorely mistaken. My
Lady gave me a personal tour of her drawers and closets, and I was
instructed on how to choose her underwear for the day.
"My body armor," she said smiling, as I helped her into a long-line
bra, doing up the hooks in back and then reaching into each cup (!) to
adjust her breasts. Next was a simple pair of nylon panties followed by
a girdle, which took no small amount of tugging and pulling as she held
my shoulder for support.
And oh-my-god did she smell good. I lost myself in smells of potpourri,
lady's lingerie, baby powder, and her own body odor.
When asked to fetch a slip from the closet, I chose a pretty, nylon,
peach-colored one which I placed over her outstretched arms and then
smoothed down her body. This was followed by a classic grey skirt and
stylish white blouse.
"Almost done," she said with a smile, sitting down on a chair and
placing a pillow on the floor before her. "Now just stockings and
shoes."
The stockings were simple, thigh-high, and with a band at the top to
keep them in place (no garter belt required). I knelt on the pillow,
rolled up the first stocking and slipped it over her toes. But then,
somehow, I got tangled up in her legs!
I have no idea how it happened. Maybe the pillow was too far away? I
was leaning forward rather awkwardly, and then something slipped and I
found myself lunging forward with my head in her lap!
"Miss Clarke!" Mrs. Roberts exclaimed, shocked.
And if that weren't bad enough (I was already blushing beet red from
head to toe), My Lady tried to stand up to get away (I guess), but that
just made me stumble again, with the end result that I ended up fully
under her skirts!
What a mess! And then, when she was finally able to stand, I swear I
have no idea how this happened, one leg ended up _behind_ me, and one
in front with the effect that my face was pressed directly into her
girdled and pantied crotch.
"Don't move, Miss Clarke," Mrs. Roberts said, now laughing heartily.
"Hold still while I figure this out."
Thank goodness she's not offended! Surrounded by satin, silk,
foundation wear, and lace... I'm ashamed to admit I was in a certain
kind of heaven, and so perhaps I didn't mind letting her take her time
to figure this out.
Mrs. Roberts placed a hand on the back of my head and pushed it
forward, as she tried to work her legs around me, my face pressed now
more firmly into her crotch as her legs clamped around my head.
"Okay, I think I've got it," My Lady said, finally lifting her skirt
and stepping free.
"I'm so sorry, My Lady!" I said, standing up to face her, my face hot
with embarrassment.
"Miss Clarke," she responded. "If you wanted to spend some time between
my legs, all you had to do was ask! No need to 'pretend' to slip and
fall and have a fake 'accident'."
"But My Lady!" I sputtered. "I certainly didn't mean to, I mean... the
pillow was just placed too far away, and I must have slipped
somehow..."
"Why didn't you just move the pillow closer, then?"
"I... I guess..." I was at a loss, caught off guard by her teasing
accusations. "I don't know..."
"Well, as I said," Mrs. Roberts put a hand on my cheek and looked me
straight in the eyes. "If you want to spend some quality time between
my legs, all you have to do is ask. After all, it seems like you spent
an abnormally long amount of time in Madam Gounod's bedroom. I wonder
what you were doing there, hmmm? Is it just possible that there were
some intimate moments between the two of you?"
"I... I... I cannot say," I finally got out.
"Very good, my dear. Discretion is a lady's maid's most important
asset. I approve. But I know Madam Gounod. Oh yes, I know her *very*
well. And I can well imagine what she would do with a delicious little
thing like you in her bedroom for hours at a time!"
Blushing even more furiously, I could do nothing but toe the ground.
"But enough about that. You seem flustered, so I think now might be a
good time to check on your level of excitement. To take your
temperature, so to speak."
"My Lady?"
"Here." Rather than explaining, My Lady pulled my hips forward and
reached a hand under my skirts.
"Oh dear, this feels dangerous," she said, grasping my achingly hard
penis. "Very dangerous indeed. In fact, I might say that you are almost
on the verge!"
"Yes, My Lady," I admitted, through gritted teeth, as she manipulated
me through my nylon panties and half skirt. "Please..."
"I understand my dear. But do not fear, for I have the perfect solution
to keep you out of trouble."
"Yes, My Lady. Thank you, My Lady!"
Mrs. Roberts reached into her dresser drawers and pulled out a spare
pair of stockings. Pulling my hands behind my back, she first tied my
wrists together, and then my elbows! Each one was wrapped several times
around, and then cinched. The result was snug, not uncomfortable, but
completely secure.
"My Lady!" I said, shocked, struggling against my bonds. "I haven't
finished putting on your stockings and shoes!
"Oh pish-tush. I can finish all that myself."
"But with my hands and arms bound behind my back, how will I be able to
help around the house? How will I be able to do my chores?" I rolled my
shoulders, trying to escape.
"I agree, that is a problem. But we can't very well have you touching
yourself, can we? This way, your hands will be out of the way. And no
matter how excited you get, you will not be able to cause yourself to
have an accident. This is the best way to keep little girls with no
self-control, like yourself, out of trouble."
"But... but..." I sputtered, as I bent over struggling uselessly.
How had she known? I wondered, panting and sweating. Far from easing my
excitements and cooling my ardor, being put into bondage added fuel to
the fire!
"You're most welcome, my dear. Anything I can do," she said, smiling
indulgently. "Now I think you should head right over to Denise, don't
you? Time to begin her lessons for the day. After all, the exams are
just days away! But before you go..."
Mrs. Roberts put her arms around me and pulled me into a deep kiss,
pressing her body full against me. Her hands reached up to my breasts
where they squeezed and kneaded them. Thanks to Madam Gounod's evil
invention, this caused suction cups built into the forms to pull on my
own chest. She then took the nipples and pinched and tweaked them,
compressing a hidden mechanism which caused my own nipples beneath the
forms to be pinched and tweaked making me moan and whimper. I struggled
to pull free of my bounds so I could push her away, but could do no
more than merely squirm as she had her way with me.
"That was your reward for doing such a good job this morning," My Lady
said, breathing heavy. "Did you enjoy it?"
"Oh yes," I said, swooning. "Uh... I mean, thank you, My Lady, for
being so kind with your clumsy employee..."
"Lady's maid," Mrs. Roberts corrected me.
"Sorry, Lady's Maid, thank you for my reward, I enjoyed it very much,
and I will always work as hard as I can to earn it."
"Very good," she said, swatting me on the bottom, "now scoot."
* * *
HERE HERE
Chapter 2:
I stumbled into the hall thinking 'Oh my god'.
I was so horny and so turned on it felt like a huge steel spring,
wrapped in velvet, was coiled up inside of me, about to burst.
'The bathroom!' I thought, walking gingerly up the stairs, trying not
to make my breasts bounce. I wasn't sure exactly what I was planning to
do in the bathroom. I suppose I had a vague idea of somehow achieving
release without soiling the clothes... but how would I do that with my
hands bound behind my back?
Every step caused the evil breast forms to tug and pull, causing bolts
of pleasure to shoot through my body. Could I even make it upstairs
without an accident?
Finally I made it to the bathroom door. I stared at the door knob for a
second, before turning away and grasping it with my hands from behind.
Locked! What the fuck?
I groaned, feelings of lust and frustration washing over me. What was I
going to do? I pressed my face against the door jamb and gently started
to hump it - completely overcome with lust.
"Miss Clarke!" Miss Denise said, opening the door. "What are you
doing??"
She grabbed me by the upper arms and frog-marched me down the hall and
into the library where her books were already set out for studying.
"I'm so glad I found you!" she said. "One moment later and you might
have had an accident! And what's this? Did Mother bind your arms?"
"Yes," I gasped, my whole body on a hair trigger, having been
interrupted at the very last second from having another accident. "She
wanted to make sure I couldn't play with myself."
"Well, looks like she was only partly successful, doesn't it? I can see
that stronger measures are required! Sit right here and don't move!"
Denise sat me down and draped my arms over the back of the library
chair.
She rummaged through some cabinets on the far side of the room as I
stared at her through heavy lidded eyes, my hips still thrusting, just
seconds away from losing it.
"I think this will work," Miss Denise said, holding up a roll of wide
pink ribbon. "Now let's make sure that there's no way you can get
yourself into trouble. Okay?"
"What are you doing?" I asked, alarmed as she tied a pink ribbon around
my ankle.
"You asked Mother and me to make sure that you don't have an accident,
right?" she said. Denise threaded the ribbon around a rear chair leg,
through the stockings holding my wrists together, around the chair leg
on the other side, and then around my other ankle. Pulling it taught,
she forced my legs apart, lifting my feet up off the floor and to
either side of the chair.
"There!" she said, triumphantly as she tied it off.
I struggled against my bonds but could do nothing but squirm. The
feeling of helplessness and bondage, before this gorgeous teenage girl
did nothing to calm me down. I looked up at Miss Denise, desperately
horny.
"Now, let's make sure that you're nice and secure," Miss Denise said,
standing in front of me.
"Miss Denise!" I said, shocked, as she unbuttoned her shirt, exposing a
lacy bra holding her very large breasts together.
"Miss Clarke," she breathed. "I'm just making sure that you're nice and
safe. That no matter how, -uh- 'excited' you get, you won't be able to
play with yourself."
"Miss Denise, please, no--" I moaned as she pulling my head forward
into her perfumed cleavage, my face caressed by her silk and lace bra.
To emphasize her point, Miss Denise reached down and started massaging
my chest and pinching the nipples through that infernal breast form.
"How's that?" she would ask, each pinch causing me to jerk beneath her.
"Are you nice and safe from accidents? All trussed up and unable to
escape? No matter how horny you get you'll be unable to touch yourself,
isn't that right? Unable to bring yourself the relief that you so
desperately need?"
"Miss Denise!" I gasped, trying to free myself, feeling the point of no
return approaching fast. "Please..." I whimpered, trapped between
wanting her to continue and wanting her to stop.
But there was nothing I could do! I could only move a few inches one
way or the other with my arms and ankles trussed to the chair legs. And
no matter what I did, Miss Denise continued to press her generous
breasts into my face and her devilish hands continued their evil
teasing of my bosom.
"Isn't this fun?" Denise asked, gleefully. "You all tied up with
nowhere to go. Unable to get in any sort of trouble, and unable to get
away from me. It's like Christmas!"
"But you promised..." I gasped when she pulled back.
"Promised what?" she asked, wickedly.
Denise placed a knee between my legs and pressed it forward, into my
crotch.
"Ohhhh god..." I shuddered. "Please... you promised..." was all I could
get out.
"I can't help you if you can't say what you need help with," Denise
breathed, pressing my face deep into her soft chest again.
"Please!" I moaned, my words muffled. My hips started jerking forward,
uncontrollably. I could tell I was just moments away.
"Oh, no!" I gasped, feeling myself tip in to the inevitable. "Oh!!!"
"DENISE! What are you doing to poor Miss Clarke!!"
"Mother!" Denise cried out, jumping away from me as if electrocuted.
"I... I..."
"Noooooooo!!" I was almost there! My hips desperately thrust forward
and I rolled my shoulders desperately trying to gain enough friction to
make it happen. I was so overcome with lust that nothing registered
except my need for release. The world around me was a haze of
incomprehensible sounds and images.
"I see that I showed up just in time!" Mrs. Roberts exclaimed. "You're
torturing the poor girl! You know that she's trying to maintain
control. Some, ah... intimacy is fine, of course. But if you keep that
up, the poor dear will have an accident no matter how careful you are!
Don't you remember what happened yesterday?"
"I'm sorry, Mother, I just thought..."
"Well you thought wrongly! I expect more of you, Denise. You're a lady!
Not some common strumpet with no self-control," Mrs. Roberts glanced at
me as she said this. "And you must live to a higher standard. That's
what it means to be born with respected status. I know it has been
years since you were disciplined, but unusually bad behavior calls for
unusually harsh punishment. Lean over the table for a spanking."
The room instantly fell silent. I looked from mother to daughter,
shocked.
"Mother! No!" Miss Denise pleaded, glancing towards me and then back to
her mother. "Not in front of Miss Clarke, surely!"
"I see no reason why Miss Clarke should not be here. After all, it is
because of your wicked treatment of her you are being punished. Now I
will not tell you a second time. Lean over the table and bare your
bottom. I do not want to do this, but neither do I want you growing up
into an arrogant, insensitive creature who abuses those beneath her."
"Please! Mother, no!! I'm so sorry! I... I'll never do it again, I
swear!" Denise burst into tears.
I was shocked by this turn of events. Miss Denise, crying!
Mrs. Roberts, unmoved by her daughter's display, went to a library
cabinet and extracted a vicious looking cane.
"Lean over the table," she instructed, her voice hard and
uncompromising.
Denise, visibly shaking, slowly leaned over the library table across
our work books and study notes.
"Bare your bottom," Mrs. Roberts said.
"Please..." Denise pleaded one last time. As she unzipped her blue
jeans and pushed them down, exposing her bottom in a simple cream-
colored nylon panty.
"Your panties too."
Breaking into fresh sobs, Denise slowly lowered her panties as well,
then hid her face in her arms.
"10 strokes, I think," said Mrs. Roberts, firmly.
"10 strokes?" Denise wailed, breaking into fresh sobs.
"My Lady!" I cried out.
Miss Denise's crying stopped and both ladies looked at me.
"Yes, Miss Clarke?"
Her question confused me. Had I really spoken?
I looked back and forth between Miss Denise and her mother, suddenly
realizing what it was I was going to do. Consciously realizing what my
subconscious was telling me I _had_ to do.
I couldn't bear to see Miss Denise punished. Her crying was breaking my
heart. But here I was, tied up. What could I possibly do to convince
Mrs. Roberts, My Lady, not to punish her?
"Please," I said, gulping. "Puh-punish me instead. Let me take the
punishment for Miss Denise's transgression."
"Why..." My Lady looked at me with astonishment. "Why would you do
that?"
"Because she... I..." I struggled to put my feelings into words.
"Because I don't want to see Miss Denise hurt. Because I'm afraid
she'll change if she is punished so severely - that she'll become less
fun. Have less _Joie de vivre_? But mostly because--"
I took a deep breath.
"Mostly because it would hurt me more to see her punished than it would
be to take the punishment myself."
"Miss Clarke!" exclaimed My Lady. "I am astonished. Some days I feel
that I am so old and jaded that I can never be surprised by anything in
this world, but here I am, again, surprised by you and your generous
nature. Is this how you really feel?"
"Yes, My Lady," I said, humbly. "This is how I really feel. Please let
me take the punishment in place of Miss Denise. Please let me be her...
whipping girl?"
Miss Denise was looking just as startled as her mother. She stood and
pulled her panties and blue jeans back up.
"Do you really mean it?" Denise asked. "When you said that it would be
hurt you more to see me punished, than to be punished yourself?"
"Yes, Miss Denise," I said, looking down, embarrassed all of a sudden.
"I really do. I..."
I stopped myself.
"You what?" Miss Denise prompted.
"I care for you," I finished, lamely. "Deeply." I blushed.
"You understand that this will not be a gentle spanking, like we give
you when you've had an accident?" Mrs. Roberts asked.
"Yes," I said.
"You will not enjoy this spanking. It will hurt very much."
"I understand."
"There may be marks. They may take some time to fully heal."
I took a couple of deep breaths to settle my pounding heart.
"I understand, My Lady."
"And you know that you're setting a precedent?"
"A precedent, My Lady?" I looked up.
"Exactly, a precedent. What if Denise behaves poorly tomorrow? What if
she requires further punishment? Will you accept all of her
punishments, from now on? Are you willing to be her whipping girl, not
just now, but whenever it may be required in the future?"
"I... I... uh..."
Both women were looking at me with intense fascination and curiosity.
But then I saw Miss Denise's bloodshot eyes and knew my answer.
"Yes," I whispered. "I would gladly take all of her punishments for
her. To be her... whipping girl... whenever it's required."
"Well then. Denise, untie Miss Clarke."
I stood up slowly, rubbing my wrists.
"Now Miss Clarke, lean over the table, pull up your skirts and pull
down your panties, and prepare to be caned for Denise's poor behavior."
"Yes, My Lady."
I did as instructed, feeling a flush of embarrassment as I exposed my
bare bottom to Mrs. Roberts and Denise. I lay down on the table and
placed my face on a textbook. I reached back to hold up my skirts.
Soon I felt the cane tap gently on my buttocks, as My Lady measured the
length of her stroke. Then with a vicious *swish*, she began the
punishment.
Oh my god, it hurt!! I stoically held my composure as long as I could,
but after the first five strokes I began to cry out, and by the end I
was openly sobbing - a wreck. I had no idea I could feel such pain! -
more pain than I had ever felt in my life.
But somehow, knowing that I was doing it for someone - for Miss Denise
- made all the difference. Knowing it was for her made it easier to
bear.
"Oh, Miss Clarke!" Denise said, when it was all over, pulling me into a
hug as I sobbed. "You are so brave! So much braver than I would have
been! Thank you so much for taking that punishment for me!"
"You continue to amaze, Miss Clarke," My Lady said, stroking my hair as
I gradually calmed down. "How we ever got so lucky as to find you, I
will never know."
- - - -
I thought a lot about what I had just done, becoming Miss Denise's
'whipping girl', as I sat tied up in the library chair all afternoon.
Miss Denise was back to being a good girl, studying hard for her
upcoming entrance exam to Cleavage University. I directed her as best I
could, trussed up as I was (with the same pink ribbon), and gradually
we worked through the material and the exercises.
Afterwards, I felt foolish about it. So taken with Miss Denise's
obvious distress at being caned, I gallantly stepped in and offered to
take the punishment 'for her'. What a fool I was! What a shmuck! Not
only did I take the spanking for her just now, but I also committed to
be punished for all of her future sins as well! What an idiot!
But then I looked over at her, studying away, twirling her hair with
one finger while she tapped the pencil on her book, deep in thought
trying to solve a problem with logarithms, and I felt something melt
inside of me.
'Why?' I asked myself, furiously. 'Why do I feel this way? I should
hate her! And her mother too! I should just stomp out of this house and
just leave, and then worry about all of my clothes and wallet and
everything later! Just leave!'
But I knew that I wouldn't, and not just because I was tied to a chair
with pink ribbon. Analyzing my feelings more carefully, I realized
something.
I really did care deeply for Denise. In fact I almost might say that
I...
No. I stopped that thought before it could fully form. There was no way
I was going to finish that sentence. Not even to myself.
'But it makes no sense!' I shook my head in disbelief. 'All she has
done is manipulate me, and make me wear women's clothing and make me
clean up her room and brush her hair... and now here I am being
punished for things that _she_ did wrong! I should hate her!'
'But isn't it precisely _because_ she does those things to you that you
like her so much?' said a little voice in my head. 'And her mother
too,' the voice continued. 'Don't you care for them so much precisely
because they control you, and manipulate you, and turn you into their
obedient maid? Isn't that _exactly_ why you stay? To be put under their
thumb?'
And just then I was struck by a sudden insight. "So that's why I had to
take the punishment for her," I said, out loud.
"What was that, Miss Clarke?" Denise looked up, her eyes bright and
innocent.
"Nothing, Miss Denise," I said. "Go back to studying."
"Are you sure? You said something about punishment."
"Really, it's nothing."
"Okay."
'You understand now, don't you?' said the little voice in my head.
It was because I needed Miss Denise to be, simply, 'Miss Denise'. I
lov-- no! I mean I felt such great _affection_ for her precisely
because of who she was, and how she controlled me.
'And if she had been spanked in front of you...' prompted the little
voice.
'Then her position would have been lowered,' I realized, and then
suddenly everything made sense.
She would have been embarrassed and humiliated and punished in front of
me. And so I had to take the spanking for her. I _had_ to be the one
who was punished. Because that's the _only_ way in which I would have
been able to maintain our relationship. With her as my superior. With
her as my better, and with me as her humble, adoring, subservient maid!
I was floored by this revelation.
"Are you _sure_ you're okay?" Miss Denise looked at me with concern.
"Of course, Miss Denise," I said brightly, my heart suddenly filled
with sunshine. "Thank you, but I am fine. Now let's take a look at your
answer, could you hold it up so I can read it?"
- - - - -
Chapter 3:
"Now I have a number of nice feminine things for you to wear to bed
tonight, to keep you as snug as a bug," said My Lady, gesturing to a
mound of cream-colored silk lingerie.
I stood before Mrs. Roberts, naked except for a bra and my breast
forms, feeling *very* exposed with my hands tied behind my back by a
simple ribbon. I was both thrilled and dreading what My Lady had in
store for me.
I was of two minds. On the one hand, I was glad I had (so far) avoided
an accident. But on the other hand, I prayed that I might be allowed
some relief since the entire day had been pure, unending, sexual
torture.
Which is ironic, actually, because it was Miss Denise who was doing the
teasing by constantly hugging me, playing with my breasts, or stroking
my legs - all with me tied up in "pink ribbon bondage" in one position
or another.
"Just to keep you safe," she would say with a giggle, as she untied me
then tied me up again, in some other awkward position, like with my
arms behind my head, or kneeling on the floor with my wrists tied to my
ankles, or standing with the ribbon looped over an ornamental post high
up on the bookshelf.
'Why me?' I wondered for the eighth time, as her mother looked in on
the two of us.
"Looks like you two are having fun!" Mrs. Roberts would say, during her
occasional visits.
'But wait a second!' I kept thinking. 'Wasn't Miss Denise supposed to
be punished for teasing me earlier?'
'And then what did you do?' asked the little voice in my head.
'I became her whipping girl,' I admitted. 'I took the punishment for
her.'
'So wait,' continued the little voice in my head. 'Are you saying that
she was going to be punished for sexually teasing you, and instead you
took the punishment? That means that *you* were punished because *she*
was teasing *you*?'
'Uh...'
Damn it! Everything had become so complicated! How did I get into this
position?
And then to make matters worse, Miss Denise got it into her head that
she needed a 'reward' every time she got a problem correct.
"And for my reward, I want a kiss!" she proclaimed, gleefully.
"A kiss?" I asked, eyes wide.
"Yes, a kiss! I love kissing! And you like it too, don't you?"
"Well yes, of course, but..."
"So it's a reward for you too, isn't it? And that makes sense, doesn't
it? After all, you're the tutor, and so if I get a problem correct,
then it's as much thanks to your awesome tutoring skills as my efforts,
isn't it?"
And so, every time she got a problem correct, Miss Denise would sit in
my lap and give me a long, deep, soul-kiss which would leave us both
breathless. And it seemed that every time I was able to settle down, to
cool my excitement a bit, she would successfully complete another
problem and we'd be kissing again.
It was insane. Pure, blissful, and exquisitely frustrating.
But then she got a problem wrong.
"Oh my gosh," she said, "I never thought about what to do when I got a
problem wrong. Shouldn't there be some sort of punishment for that?"
Miss Denise asked, thinking hard.
"Well I don't know about that..." I started, wondering what she had in
mind.
"But wait, you're my whipping girl, isn't that right? That means that I
should be punishing *you* every time I get a problem wrong. Shouldn't
I?"
"Now hold on--"
"But what kind of punishment? I can't cane you. First off, Mother's the
only one allowed to do that, and second it would take too much time to
untie you all the time. How about I just pinch your nipples?"
"My nipples?"
"Great!"
And so just like that, every time Miss Denise got a problem wrong, she
would reach over and give my nipples a pinch. First they were light
pinches, making me moan in frustration and then later hard painful
pinches which caused me to squirm in my bonds.
Something about having your nipples pinched and being given kisses
while tied up just emphasizes the fact that you're in bondage. Every
time Miss Denise completed a problem, I would struggle against my
bonds, squirming and submitting to her kisses and pinches until I was
panting and on the very edge of having another accident. But somehow
she always knew when to pull back and stop before I lost control. It
was an excruciating day of endless torment.
And I loved it.
- - - - -
"My Lady, may I ask a question?"
"Why yes, Miss Clarke. You may ask any question you like."
"Why did you let Miss Denise tease me all day long? You know,
especially since the first time you caught her you were so angry?"
Mrs. Roberts blinked a couple of times as if confused by the question.
"Why Miss Clarke, I just assumed that you were okay with it. After all,
why else would you have asked to be her whipping girl? Why else would
you have taken the punishment for her? A very admirable thing to do!
But I had just assumed that you didn't mind being teased, by her, or me
for that matter," she grinned, "and that's why you so graciously agreed
to be caned in her place. Was I wrong?"
"Well... ah... "
"So you *are* okay with how she teased you all day long? You wouldn't
mind if I did it? Or one of our guests?"
"No! Well, I mean..."
"Because I rather thought you were enjoying our attentions," My Lady
said, as she pulled me into a hug, her satin skirts and linen and lace
blouse pressed against my naked body.
"You do enjoy them, don't you? Our attentions?" She asked, softly, in
my ear as her hand drifted down to cup my naked bottom.
"Yes..." I sighed, melting into her arms. "Yes, I do... "
"Good! I'm so glad we have this all straightened out. You are such a
sweet, sweet girl!"
"I am?"
"Yes, of course! To allow Denise and me to tease you and play with you
to our heart's content? It must be terribly frustrating for you!
Especially since you've asked us to take steps to ensure that you don't
have any more accidents. Only a rare and wonderful girl would agree to
be placed into such a compromising position, to endure such unending
torture, to be used for the amusement and delight of her employer."
"But that's not..." I tried to interject.
"Shush," My Lady put a finger on my lips. "What's done is done. Now
let's get you dressed for bed. I have something special planned for you
tonight."
"Special?" I asked, tremulously.
"Yes, special. Not only to help you prevent accidents, but also some
pretty and delicious things to wear. It's a 'thank you' for being so
nice to my Denise today."
"That's not necessary," I demurred.
"No, no, I insist! But first, let's bundle you up, down there."
My lady first pulled out a single sheer silk stocking which she then
proceeded to slip over my penis.
"My lady!" I said, shocked. I struggled to push her hands away, but of
course they were tied behind my back.
"Now dear, just hold still." Mrs. Roberts worked the stocking over my
growing hardness, rolling up the cuffs to remove the slack. "I want to
be sure you are nice and 'enclosed' down there."
Elastic in the stockings gripped me snug at the base such that my penis
and balls were firmly gathered up into a tight little package.
"And now a second one, for added security."
The second stocking joined the first, covering my private bits in a
second layer of pretty, sheer silk stocking. "But is that enough? I
wonder."
Mrs. Roberts went over to my dresser drawers and rummaged around.
"Ah, here we go." Mrs. Roberts held up a pair of pink, ankle socks.
"Let's put one of these on and I'll feel better." She slipped one of
the socks over my member and pushed it down all the way. "Now I'm not
expecting that you'll have an accident, but if you do, since girls like
you often have a hard time controlling themselves, even in their
sleep(!), then you'll be fully protected. Especially since I also have
this pi?ce de r?sistance!"
Mrs. Roberts pulled out a cream-colored silk bag with a drawstring. It
was small, the kind you might see at wedding receptions to hold small
favors. She slipped it over my bundle, made sure to push it all the way
down, and then tied the drawstring closed, firmly at the base, so my
balls and penis were now trapped inside. The draw string was arranged
such that everything was now held firmly in place: the stockings, the
sock, and the silk bag itself.
"How does that feel?" she asked, running her hands over my penis, now
encased in four (!) layers of slippery fabric.
"Oh..." I moaned, as her fingers moved back and forth, gliding the
outer layer of silk smoothly over socks and the silk stockings
underneath, all of it wrapped around my (now fully hard) member.
"That's... very nice," I gasped, leaning into the bed post to steady
myself.
"Good, glad you like it," Mrs. Roberts grinned, stopping before things
went too far. "Now let's get you in some stockings."
"More stockings?"
"For your legs this time. Just simple ones. They'll caress your legs
all night and make them nice and slippery. You'll love it."
"I will?"
"Oh, I'm sure you will."
And so my legs were soon encased in a pair of "Sheer Caress" stockings
with a rubberized elastic band that gripped my thighs firmly and held
them on nice and tight.
"Nice," I said. "But do I really need to wear these to bed?"
"Of course not. But that's not the point, now is it? This is supposed
to be a special treat. Now for the 'Directoire Knickers'."
"What are they?"
"Here you go," she held them out for my inspection. They were long-
legged bloomers, made of a slippery, silky nylon fabric, with lace
panels down the side and lace around the leg holes.
I stepped into them, thrilled at how they felt around my legs. Mrs
Roberts pulled them up . They were loose, and soft, and delicious with
a bit of elastic at the cuff.
"And now, how about some ballet slippers?"
"But My Lady," I said, now completely confused. "Aren't I dressing to
go to bed? Why would I wear ballet slippers to bed?"
"Why, to keep your feet all nice and bound." she said with a warm
smile.
"But why?"
"This is not about what makes sense. It's about an experience. An
experience that is my gift to you."
"Your gift?"
"Yes, my gift. You were so brave today, to become Miss Denise's
whipping girl and to take that first caning. I was so impressed that I
wanted to do something extra nice for you."
"Extra nice? Ballet slippers?"
"Yes, dear. I think I know you very well by now, my dear Miss Clarke.
Very well indeed. You see, I see many similarities between you and
other servants I've had."
"Other servants, My Lady?" My mind boggled at the thought.
"Yes indeed. Including a maid that I had growing up as a girl. Clara. A
lovely girl who was found by my mother and then groomed to be my
servant. She used to be a boy, like you, before she discovered that
her true place in life was in serving others as a girl."
"What happened to her?"
"Oh, life, I suppose. She fell in love with a Turkish diplomat and is
now with him."
"Did they get married?"
"Oh no, of course not. He has a wife and family. She's their household
maid now, and blissfully happy, I hear. She and the wife are best
friends. Maybe more."
"Oh my gosh," I said, my mind unable to comprehend what she was saying.
A boy, now a household maid in Turkey? Did such things really happen in
real life? Was it possible?
"Of course I was devastated to have to let her go and never really
found a good replacement." Mrs. Roberts looked me straight in the eye.
"That is, until now. But I have other plans for you."
"What plans?" I asked, trembling.
"All in good time, my dear. Now I'm thinking that you'll just love
having your pretty little feet in a pair of ballet slippers for the
night. Don't you agree? They're satin and have lovely pink ribbons
which will be wrapped around your calves to keep them nice and secure.
Doesn't the thought of having this beautiful footwear wrapped around
your feet just seem delicious?"
I looked at the ballet slippers in her hands and swallowed hard.
"Yes, My Lady," I said, my entire body tingling. "Yes, it does seem
delicious."
"Well then, let's put them on."
Mrs. Roberts slipped the pink ballet slippers on my feet. They were
made of soft satin and molded to my feet perfectly. She then
crisscrossed and wrapped the wide satin ribbons around my ankles and
calves, pulling them snug and tying them off in a knot in such a way
that everything looked nice and neat.
I looked down at my feet in astonishment. They looked exactly like a
professional ballet dancer feet! They felt wrapped, embraced, and
_bound_ by the intimate satin of the slippers and ribbons. I took a few
tentative steps and grinned up at My Lady.
"I knew you'd love them. Now remember, this is a special occasion. My
gift to you."
"Thank you, My Lady," I said, humbly.
"You're most welcome, Miss Clark. Let's continue, shall we?"
I was already wearing my bra and breast forms, and so next up was a
long, clingy slip. After (finally!) untying my hands, Mrs. Roberts
helped to slip it over my head, pulled it over my breasts (causing the
breast forms to squeeze and suction my chest, of course!) and smoothed
it out. It had a form-fitted bodice with bra-cups built in that
enclosed my upper body in a sheath of shiny satin.
"That's gorgeous," Mrs. Roberts said, admiringly. "I'd forgotten how
beautiful that slip was. I'm glad it's finally getting some use! And
for such a good girl," she said, lightly pinching my cheek.
"Opera gloves?" she continued. "Yes, I think it would be best if we did
your 'special opera gloves' tonight. Here we are. 16 button length with
a little special something of my own." Mrs. Roberts grinned slyly as
she helped me to slip each one on.
It soon became apparent what the "little special something" was: the
fingertips were all sewn together! Mrs. Roberts carefully worked each
of my fingers into its little satin prison, did up the buttons at the
wrist, and then did an extra button ("for security, dear") at the hem
which was fastened about four inches above the elbow.
"But why are the fingers sewn together?" I asked, thrilled that I was
being further bound but curious as to where this was all headed.
"You did ask for us to help you avoid accidents, didn't you?"
"Yes..."
"Well then, I think the answer is obvious. We don't want these little
fingers to get in trouble, now do we?"
"No, I guess not, but..."
"Hush now, too many questions. Would you like to put on the gown now?"
"Yes, My Lady," I said, nervous but excited, eyeing the huge pile of
delicate fabric on the bed. I was so overcome by tingles now that I
could barely breath.
"This is one of my all-time favorites. I guess it's vintage now."
Mrs. Roberts held it up for me and I slipped into it. It was a
beautiful, flowing nightgown with gauzy chiffon outer layer and a
sumptuous nylon inner layer. It had a high, square neckline and long
sleeves. The sleeves, the neckline and the hem were all trimmed in
multiple rows of lace.
"Oh, My Lady," I gushed, twirling around and admiring how it floated
around me. "It's beautiful! I'm... I'm... _honored_ to be wearing it."
"Tell me what you're feeling.
"What I'm feeling? My Lady?"
"Yes, I want to know exactly how you feel right now. How do these
clothes feel and how do they make you feel?"
"I don't know if I can say."
"Aren't you an English Literature major?"
"Yes, My Lady. Okay. I'll try."
I took a moment to connect with my thoughts and my body.
"I feel the gloves first, My Lady," I began. "Being unable to separate
my fingertips feels so... unnatural. So constraining. And then the
glove itself is so tight, it compresses my arms all the way up. It's
not uncomfortable, just very noticeably tight. I can't bend my wrist or
elbow very much."
"And how does that make you feel?" My Lady prompted.
"Helpless," I said, looking at the floor. "Dependent. A little like a
mannequin who cannot do anything for herself, but must depend on others
to do things for her."
"Excellent. And do you enjoy this feeling?"
I blushed.
"Yes, My Lady," I finally admitted. "Yes, I like it very much."
"Do you really?" My Lady asked, arching her eyebrows. "Are you saying
that you enjoying feeling helpless and dependent?"
"Yes, My Lady."
"I'm sorry, Miss Clarke, I couldn't hear you. Could you speak up?"
"Yes, My Lady," I said, louder this time.
" 'Yes, My Lady,' what?" she asked, mercilessly.
"Yes, My Lady, I enjoy feeling helpless and dependent," I admitted.
Somehow, having to admit this to Mrs. Roberts out loud made me feel
even more helpless and dependent.
"I can tell that you do," say My Lady, with a satisfied smile. "Now
tell me more. What else are you feeling?"
"I feel the weight of my breast forms, and how they sway and bounce
whenever I move. Those built-in suction cups are tugging at my chest. I
feel how the bra cups squeeze them and how my nipples are pulled into
that small cavity deep inside. I feel my bra straps digging into my
shoulders. And when I roll my shoulders I feel how the bra lifts and
moves my breasts around."
"How delicious! And do you enjoy that feeling? Does it make you feel...
womanly?"
"They..." I thought about it for a second. "It does feel like I have
real breasts, not just forms." I placed my hands, bound up by the
fingertips in the opera gloves, on my breasts and gently massaged them
as best I could. "They're so sensitive, it's amazing really. They do
make me feel womanly. More than anything else, actually. Like I'm a
woman with a woman's body. It's... it's... really nice."
"How wonderful. I'm so glad you have a nice curvy body. It suits you,
don't you agree?"
I looked away blushing all over again. "Yes, My Lady."
Mrs. Roberts stepped close to me and caressed my body through all of
the slippery layers of chiffon, nylon, satin, and silk.
"And don't you just love how _this_ feels?" she asked, her voice husky.
"Yes, My Lady," I breathed.
"I'm so glad you," she said. "It's so important for you to want this.
Want this with all your heart. To want to be a woman with a woman's
body and a woman's curves. You do want it, don't you?"
"I... I..."
"Now Miss Clarke! You must be honest with me."
"Yes... My Lady," I sighed.
"Yes, what?"
"Yes... I do want to be a woman... with a woman's body and a woman's
curves."
A little something inside of me clicked into place when I said that.
"Now tell me more," she prompted, taking a step back. "What else are
you feeling?"
"My feet," I said. "The ballet slippers are less flexible than I
thought they would be. They are wrapped so snugly so that I can't flex
my feet much at all! And I can feel the ribbons all the way up my
calves. Like bindings."
"And how does that feel?"
"Nice, My Lady," I said, taking a few steps, pretending to be as
graceful a ballerina. I looked up at Mrs. Roberts, beaming. "Very
nice."
"Oh, I'm so glad! I just knew you'd like your gift. And can you feel
the stockings? And the slip? And the dress?"
"Mmmm, yes, My Lady," I said, as I ran my hands (bound in opera gloves)
over my body, feeling the layers of chiffon, nylon, and satin all
slipping against each other. "I can feel the hem of the dress tickling
over my stockings. I can feel the slip as an extra layer around my body
and how it's wrapped around my breasts, and it's all the way down to my
legs. And the dress, I can hear it and I love the way it tents out as I
twirl and move. See?" I demonstrated by twirling around in place.
"Very nice," Mrs. Roberts smiled. "I can tell you are enjoying
yourself. And what about underneath? You know, under all those layers?"
"Oh!" I blushed. "My Lady... it's... well, a little... how shall I say?
I can feel how the stockings and socks, and you know, the fabric that's
covering my... my..."
"Passion?" Mrs. Roberts suggested.
"Yes, thank you, My Lady, my... passion. It's very, uh, stretched right
now, since my passion is so... well... _passionate_. And so things are
a bit... compressed. But also, in a strange way, slippery with all of
the silk and nylon slipping back and forth against each other. And the
tie at the base of my... umm... _passion_, is well, a bit binding."
"As well it should be," Mrs. Roberts grinned. "Okay. I think it's time
to get you to bed. Hold out your hands."
I did as instructed. Tugging and pulling, Mrs. Roberts put a very tight
nylon sock (light pink) over each hand, effectively turning them into
mittens. I tried to flex my fingers, but could only separate them just
a smidgen.
"There," she smiled, "just a little more security. We don't want those
hands doing anything they shouldn't, now do we? Okay, let's have you
lay down in bed so I can make everything nice and secure."
"Secure, My Lady?"
"Oh yes. Must keep little girls out of trouble, mustn't we, Miss
Clarke?" she teased, helping me to arrange my nightgown and slip
properly. "Now let's tie these on."
Mrs. Roberts took four very long, wide ribbons, unrolled them and laid
them over my stomach. She took the first one, tightly wrapped it
several times around my right wrist, tied it off, and then tied it to
the bed post in a big bow that hung down behind the bed, pulling my arm
up and over my head in the process.
"How's that feel?" she asked. "Too tight?"
"It's not too tight, My Lady," I said.
"Good. And is it secure? Will you be able to escape?"
I tried my best to slip my hand free through the ribbon bondage, but it
was impossible. The ribbon was wrapped too many times around my wrist
and had no give whatsoever.
"No, My Lady," I said. "There's no way that I'll be able to escape.
It's nice and snug."
"Excellent. No purpose in even trying then, is there? Might as well
just be a good girl and just enjoy being our captive tonight. Isn't
that right?"
"Yes, My Lady," I said, my heart skipping a beat at the word 'captive'.
Mrs. Roberts repeated the procedure on my other hand, wrapping the
ribbon several times around my wrist, knotting it firmly and then tying
the loose ends around the bed post, pulling my right arm up over my
head.
"And I'm sure you know what these are for, don't you?" she asked,
pointing to the final two ribbons.
"My legs, My Lady?" I asked.
"Yes, indeed," she said with pleasure. After wrapping the ribbons
around each ankle and then knotting them off, she pulled the loose ends
down to the bedposts at the foot of the bed and pulled them (and my
legs) taught before tying them off in loopy bows.
I struggled a bit, testing the ribbons which held my arms and legs
spread and extended, enjoying the feeling of being securely bound to
the bed. After a moment I just lay back and let out a sigh of deep
pleasure.
"Thank you, My Lady," I purred. "I... I never expected..."
Mrs. Roberts sat down next to me on the bed. Her hand stroked my cheek.
"Never expected what, Miss Clarke?" she asked.
"I never expected that you would be so nice to me," I admitted. "My
Lady," I added.
"So nice to you?" Mrs. Roberts said, with a mocking smile. "Tying you
up hand and foot?"
"Yes," I blushed, pulling on my bonds again to emphasize. "I love them.
And letting me wear such pretty, feminine things. Thank you. How did
you know?"
"I used to play these sorts of games with my first maid. Oh, she just
loved to be put into petticoats and bondage and would do just about
anything for the pleasure! And since I just loved to have her like
that, under my thumb..."
Mrs. Roberts reached over and grasped one of my nipples, obscenely
visible even through four layers of fabric, between her thumb and
forefinger, slowly applying pressure until I was squirming and gasping.
"My Lady!"
"Oh don't be coy with me, _Miss_ Clarke," she retorted. "I saw you and
Denise all day long. You loved being pinched and kissed as she got
problems wrong on purpose."
"On purpose?" I said, shocked.
"Oh dear, you are such a darling girl, but so naive. Yes, on purpose.
Denise is such a little manipulator. I wonder where she gets it from?"
Mrs. Roberts moved to my other nipple. As she pinched the nipple on the
breast form, the mechanism inside transmitted that pinch directly to my
own nipple, sucked as it was into the special cavity lined with rubber
rings. Trapped.
"Ohhh..." I moaned, rocking back and forth, futilely trying to escape.
After a few more moments of pinching and squeezing, Mrs. Roberts pulled
away from my breasts.
"Ohhhhh...." I moaned, struggling in my bonds, breathing hard but
grateful for the respite. "Thank you, My Lady."
"You are most welcome, Miss Clarke," Mrs. Roberts said, smiling
indulgently. "Now there is one last thing I want to ask you before I
leave you for the night."
"What is that?" I asked.
"Well, it's actually quite simple. Where do you belong?"
"My Lady?"
Mrs. Roberts traced a hand down my body. It came to rest on the bulge
between my legs.
"As you fall asleep tonight, I want you to think about what makes you
happy. About where you feel most 'right'."
"Yes, My Lady," I gasped as she gently squeezed and manipulated my silk
and satin encased member, her fingers slipping sensually over the
fabric.
"Do you enjoy feeling trapped and helpless under the control of strong,
domineering women? Do you feel most fulfilled in serving others? In
being a servant? In doing what you're told?"
"My Lady, I--"
"No, don't answer right now," Mrs. Roberts said, placing a finger on my
lips. "I want you to think about it. Think very hard all night long.
Where do you belong? Where do you belong in life? What is your purpose
in life? Is it to achieve greatness? Or is it to help others achieve
greatness?"
"Yes, My Lady," I said, through gritted teeth as Mrs. Roberts fondled
my package even more aggressively, slowly jerking me off.
"And then, when you feel you have your answer - when you feel, deep
inside, that you know exactly where you belong and who you are, then I
want you to come to me. And then, depending on your answer, of course,
I may have another delightful surprise for you."
"Another surprise? My Lady?"
"Yes, another delicious, exquisite surprise for my darling lady's
maid."
"My Lady!" I cried out, feeling my orgasm building quickly.
"I'm sorry, Miss Clarke?" Mrs. Roberts asked, slyly, manipulating me
some more.
"I... I..."
But just then, moments away from release, as I thrust my hips
desperately forward, she let go and pulled away. I continued thrusting,
desperate to cum, but with all of the silk and satin surrounding
everything, I could get no friction at all. Perched just on the edge, I
slipped back, gasping for air, ultimately defeated and unfulfilled.
Again.
"Goodness, that was close, wasn't it?" Mrs. Roberts said, with a wicked
grin. "Oh well, at least we avoided an accident. Just like you wanted!
Now you go to sleep and think about what I said, and I'll see you in
the morning."
Mrs. Roberts gave me a gentle kiss on the cheek, and then got up and
left the room, turning out the light as she went.
- - - - -
Chapter 4:
I lay in bed that night, bound hand and foot and practically swimming
in luxuriant fabrics, thinking about the questions that My Lady had
posed to me.
Where do I belong?
Do I feel most fulfilled serving others?
Do I enjoy feeling trapped and helpless?
That last question was easy. I pulled against the ribbons holding me
tight to the bedframe and squirmed with pleasure. There was no doubt I
was enjoying my current predicament. But was this merely fetish, or
something deeper? Something lasting?
"Be your own man!" my mother is always telling me. "Be independent!
Make a name for yourself!"
Why do all of her old exhortations feel hollow now?
I've known since I was ten that I was a disappointment to her. I was
never smart enough to really stand out and not enough of a leader to
inspire.
"Be the moth and not the flame," she told me one day. This was when I
was in high school. Janice (my best friend) had just asked me to be her
campaign manager as she ran for class president.
"_You_ should be the one running for president," Mom declared. "Why
would you go around helping others to be great? She should be helping
you!" She forced me to say 'no' to Janice, which meant I had to watch
from the sidelines as Janice went on to win and become the most popular
girl in the school. It broke my heart.
I wonder what my mother would say if she saw me now?
"Don't you know that they're just using you for their own selfish
needs?" she would most certainly say. "Don't you have an ounce of self-
respect?"
But then, why doesn't it _feel_ like abuse? Why am I having such a good
time?
After all, I was smart enough to understand exactly what was happening
to me. I am almost a Doctor of Philosophy, after all. I know when I am
being manipulated.
And it's not just about being tied up. Not at all. It's about having my
rights curtailed and my movements controlled. I can even feel them
working to control my thoughts, as they gradually modify my speech
patterns to say things like "My Lady" and "Miss Denise". I can feel
myself giving up my freedom to these two strong women almost hour by
hour. What will be next?
Already they are telling me what to do and how to dress. My world is
becoming narrower as well - focused entirely on the needs of these two
amazing and demanding ladies and the household. It has been three days
since I've watched TV, used the internet or read a paper. The outside
world is becoming more remote.
Worse, I am becoming more and more dependent on Mrs. Roberts and her
largesse. I have no clothes of my own (none that I can access, anyway),
my identity is locked up who knows where, and where the heck is my car?
Do I even have a car anymore?
It's funny that I hadn't wondered about that until now.
But there is something so undeniably attractive about My Lady and Miss
Denise. Their power, self-confidence, quick intelligence, and
vivaciousness - these all draw me towards them, like an iron filling to
a magnet. I am entranced. In their thrall. Will it wear off? If it
does, would it then be too late?
Such worries and fears gnaw at me.
But then , every time My Lady enters the room, it is as if I feel this
pull on my heart, as if gravity has shifted, lifting me up and
depositing me in front of this majestic woman so that I can happily
receive her next instructions.
Until Mrs. Roberts, I had never really understood the word "charisma",
but she has it. Maybe it doesn't work on anyone else but me? Am I
especially prone to her type of magnetism? Is this some deep seated
need of mine that had been dormant all this time, just waiting for the
right person (or people) to unlock it?
And then I thought about Miss Denise and how I had asked to become her
whipping girl.
All I had to do is say her name, "Miss Denise", and my heart would melt
a little. She was just such a bright, mischievous, intelligent, open,
friendly soul. How could anyone resist her?
I thought about that for a while. After all, becoming her whipping girl
- willingly accepting her punishment so that she wouldn't have to -
that was already pretty extreme. How many people would do that for
someone else? Not many, I imagine.
But what more would I do for her? I was already letting her dress me in
women's clothing and maid's uniforms. I was doing her laundry and
brushing her hair, and now, apparently, helping her to dress in the
mornings.
Where would it all end?
- - - -
The door opened a crack.
"Miss Clark?"
"Miss Denise?"
"Oh good," she said, "you're awake." Miss Denise slipped into the room,
closing the door carefully behind her. "May I come snuggle with you?"
"Uh..." I looked around, suddenly embarrassed to be trussed up. "Sure,"
I said, finally.
"Oh good. Mother told me and I just had to see for myself. Oh-my-god!
Mittens and ballet slippers and everything! I bet you can't move an
inch!"
"She told you...?"
"Of course, silly," she said. "We tell each other _everything_. Are you
comfortable?"
"Yes, reasonably," I said honestly. "but my nose itches..."
"Does this help?"
"Other side."
"Here?"
"Ahhh...." I sighed. "Thank you."
Denise snuggled in next to me, our noses touching.
"I'm sorry to disturb you like this. It's been a long day, hasn't it?"
"Oh my gosh, Miss Denise, it sure has."
"When you spoke up and asked to take that punishment for me... wow, you
could have knocked me over with a feather. That was so amazing."
Denise's hand drifted down and started making gentle circles over my
stomach.
"I... well..."
"Do you like me?" she asked, suddenly.
"Yes, of course!"
"I mean, really, really like me? Like best friends? Like Best Friends
Forever who will do anything for each other, forever and forever?"
"I... I...," I paused, hesitating. "Yes," I admitted. "I do."
"Then why are you leaving me??" she said, a catch in her throat.
"What? What do you mean?"
"Well, here you are, trying to finish your demerits as quickly as
possible, and I just don't understand. Aren't I a good student? Don't
you like mother? Don't you like me?"
"Of course I do! You're amazing. You both are."
"But then why do you want to leave so bad?"
I sighed.
"It's my doctorate," I said, finally. "I've been working on it for six
years now and I'm almost done. I've already submitted two drafts to my
professor and I just have some cleanup on the bibliography and I'm
done."
"I see. I can understand that. I guess."
"I'm sorry."
We lay together like that for a while, Miss Denise's head on my
shoulder.
"It's stupid that a dumb doctorate is getting in the way of us being
together."
"Miss Denise..."
"Mom wants you to work here full time. Did you know that?"
"Really?" I was surprised.
"Yeah." Denise's hand moved up and was now tracing light circles around
and between my breasts - the breast forms somehow transmitting even
this light touch to my own skin.
"She called you a 'priceless gem', and said we'd never find anyone like
you again."
"Oh, well..."
"If you didn't have to finish your doctorate, would you stay? Would you
work for us... full time?"
Denise switched to gently massaging my bosom, causing the suction-
action in the breast forms to gently pull and grip on my own chest.
"I... I guess so."
"You would? Really?"
Denise flicked my nipples, making me squirm
"Well, I have no real plans after completing my degree. I guess I
figured I would bum around the country or something for a few months,
you know, enjoying my freedom before applying to be a teacher
somewhere."
"Do you like teaching?"
"Not that much, to be honest. But what else does one do with a
doctorate in English Literature? Maybe it will be different when I'm an
actual professor and not just as a grad student."
"But what about me? Do you like teaching me?"
"Oh, Miss Denise, of course I do! You're amazing! I *love* teaching
you."
"Oh, I'm so glad," she said, snuggling in closer. "I was worried! But
maybe if you like teaching me so much, then that's what you were meant
to do? You know, being a tutor instead of a college professor?"
"I don't know. Maybe."
"What about being a _maid_?" she asked, boldly placing a hand on the
satin bulge between my legs. "Do you think you would like being a maid
more than being a stuffy old professor?"
"Uh..."
"Don't you like being a maid? A lady's