My Nephew
Synopsis: When Tom hesitantly becomes the guardian of his younger
brother's teenage son he has no premonition of the relationship that
will develop between the two of them, and the changes in his lifestyle
that it will bring.
One piece of advice - never have a discussion with your live-in
girlfriend about getting married when each of you has just consumed a
bottle of wine. But I'm getting ahead of myself, so let me back up and
start at the beginning of my story.
Back when I was in high school, I was one of the nerdy kids - not good
at sports - okay looking, but nothing special - grades okay but nothing
that would get me a scholarship at a good college. So in an attempt to
do something that would get some of the better looking girls to give me
at least a second look, I joined a band. And promptly found out that I
didn't have any aptitude for music. But what I did find was that I had
an aptitude for working with the guys who could read and play the music,
but didn't know squat about all those electronics "things" that made
their music sound good. So I hung out with a couple of the local bands
and whenever they needed help getting set up for a gig, a problem with a
sound board fixed, an RCA-to-XLR adapter, or some monitor speakers
scrounged up - I was the go-to guy. Never did get any of the better
looking girls to give me a second look, but at least I was having fun.
And by the time I graduated from high school, the word had gotten around
to the traveling bands that whenever they came to town, I was one of the
best locals to hire to set up and run their soundboard for them.
When I graduated from high school and was thinking about going on to
college, or maybe just the local community college, I was having so much
fun setting up and running sound systems for bands that I just put off
any further education for a year, and then a second year, and then for a
third year. And finally after another six or seven years I was now
operating a small business with several vans full of sound and stage
equipment that I rented out, and 5-10 part-time employees depending on
the season, and was having a ball.
If my life was working out pretty well, my younger brother was another
story. Marshall was seven years younger than I was and when you're a
teenager a seven year difference is, like, forever, so Marshall did his
thing and I did my thing - and the two of us really had very little to
do with each other. Other than the age difference, another reason for
that was that Marshall's "thing" involved drugs. He'd started out
occasionally smoking a little pot, graduated to the harder stuff in high
school, and I'd heard rumors that he'd moved up to dealing. Along the
way he'd managed to get his girlfriend pregnant and when he finally gave
up on ever graduating high school and dropped out when he was eighteen,
he had a pretty good drug habit and a 3-year old kid. I never tried to
keep in touch with him but every so often my mother would pass on some
news about him - his latest arrest, his latest try at rehab, six months
in the county jail for dealing, whatever. So I was kind of like,
"Marshall, I'm sorry that you fucked up your life but there's not much
that I can do to help you."
On a happier note, by then I'd met Keri. Keri was several years younger
than I was and was a pretty good singer with one of the traveling bands.
I'd gotten to know her when the band she performed with passed through
town and we had started out, like, "Hi Keri, glad to see you back in
town," and, "Thanks Tom, and can you give me a mic that doesn't make it
sound like I'm gargling this time?" But we progressed from friendly
banter, to going out for an occasional beer, and I found myself looking
forward to her visits. Eventually we started having sex and then when
she'd be in town for more than a day or so she'd stay at my apartment
instead of at a motel with the rest of the band.
Now Keri wasn't, like, you know, knock-out beautiful or anything, but
she had this bubbly, cheerful personality. I'm 5' 9" and Keri was about
6" shorter than me. But where I'm sort of lean she's got this lush body
with all the right curves in the right places - not, like, fat or even
chubby but just soft and very female and great to be in bed with. One of
my friends, after a pitcher or two of beer, described her as, "..... built
for comfort," and I guess that described her pretty well.
When her band broke up and she needed a place to stay for a couple of
days, it just seemed natural that she'd move in with me. The couple of
days turned into a couple of weeks, and then a couple of months, and
then a couple of years. My business was doing pretty well and I had
bought a small building to hold all the sound and stage equipment that I
rented out, and had two full-time employees to manage the work crews
that set up and ran the equipment, and Keri was the office manager that
kept everything running smoothly. We had even branched out and set up a
small recording studio down the block that was getting so busy that we
had to expand it several times and hire a full-time manager just for
that. So life was good.
At least life was good for me. I was having a ball with my music
businesses and was making a few bucks, actually more than a few to be
accurate, and Keri was running the office and socking most of the
profits away in various investments - most of which I didn't understand.
But the last year or so it seemed like something had changed in our
relationship. Keri didn't seem as happy as before, and less inclined to
go along with me when I'd go out with one of the bands to party after
their performance. It all came to a head one evening when we decided to
get off by ourselves for a weekend and checked into a suite in a nice
hotel up in the mountains. The second night we were there we decided to
hit a fancy restaurant and splurge on a nice dinner and that's when we
each had a bottle of wine. Later that evening when we were back in our
suite she brought up the subject of us getting married and starting a
family. If it hadn't been for the wine I would probably have handled it
better but I guess I said a bunch of things about marriage and kids that
I shouldn't have and Keri suddenly got very quiet. In bed that night she
just rolled up in a blanket on her side of the bed and ignored me. The
drive back to town wasn't much better with her just sitting there in the
car, not saying anything, and staring out the window at the passing
scenery. Back in our apartment she began to silently unpack my things
for me and I ran down to the office to check on a couple of upcoming
jobs. There were a few problems and by the time I got back to the
apartment it was early evening. The apartment felt different when I
walked in, quiet and sort of ..... empty. Keri wasn't there and neither
were some of her clothes. I found an envelope addressed to me on the bed
and it contained what I was afraid it would contain - a note saying that
Keri had moved out. Oh, she was nice about it, and wished me the best,
but ".... we're very different people, Tom, and I need to find someone who
wants the same things out of life that I do." No address where I could
reach her, no answer when I called her cell phone - she was gone.
The next couple of months were tough. I drank too much, and slept with
too many of the groupies that followed the bands - but none of that made
me miss Keri any the less. So I threw myself into my businesses, getting
way more involved in the day-to-day management that Keri had previously
taken care of - and was really surprised at how profitable the
businesses were and the value of the investments that Keri had poured
the profits into. Now, I wasn't rich or anything but I realized that I
had enough money to move out of the apartment that I had shared with
Keri - and away from the memories of her that filled the apartment. So I
decided to move some of my money from one type of investment to another
- I bought a house!
Ever watch of those house-hunting shows on TV where the couple starts
out with a budget that they can't exceed? And the nice agent that
they're working with just keeps showing them houses that are, "..... just
a little above your budget but I just want you to get an idea of what a
few more dollars will get you." And of course, the nice young couple,
like, totally blows their budget and gets a place that's bigger, fancier
and way more expensive than they every planned on. Same thing happened
to me.
So now I own a place up in one of the canyons outside of town with a
great view of the city spread out below, a big swimming pool, three
bedrooms and a huge kitchen, a big stone fireplace with a pair of
antlers hung over it in the living area, lots of privacy from my
neighbors and a huge mortgage. Packing up and moving was kind of tough
because Keri had left behind a lot of clothes and personal items when
she moved out and I just didn't have the heart to dispose of them so I
had them packed up and stored in one of the bedrooms in the new house.
Now, I hadn't really had any contact with my younger brother Marshall
for many years, almost thirteen in fact, the last time being around the
time when Marshall was eighteen and had just dropped out of high school.
Occasionally Mom would let me know what was happening with my younger
brother - never anything good, of course. So I wasn't too surprised when
she told me several weeks ago that Marshall had finally used up his last
"get out of jail" ticket and had been sentenced to 27 years in state
prison for a drug deal gone bad where he'd shot and killed another
dealer. Near the end of the conversation she mentioned that she and Dad
were going to ask the court to let Erik come and live with them. "Erik?"
I asked, "Who's Erik?"
"Oh you know," she replied, "Marshall's son Erik. He's nineteen now and
with Marshall in jail, Social Services needs to put him in a foster home
till he's twenty. So we're going to take him in with us."
"Uh, yeah, whatever," I replied, just glad that Marshall's problems
didn't have anything to do with me.
At least till I got another call from Mom a month after that. It turned
out that the court had denied Mom and Dad's petition to become Erik's
guardians. Something about the fact that my parents were in their
seventies, Dad was beginning to show signs of dementia, and Erik was
considered a "troubled youth" - whatever that meant. "But Social
Services told the court that they wouldn't have any objection to you
becoming Erik's guardian, you being a stable adult and all that," she
said. I was, like, "What the fuck? You want me to be responsible for
some screwed up nineteen year old kid?" (Well, I didn't say that to
Mom, but I thought it.) So we had a long conversation with me refusing
to have anything to do with Erik, and her crying, and me refusing again,
and her crying some more, and me finally agreeing that Erik could come
live with me - just for a year till he was twenty. After we hung up I
thought, "Oh great! I'm going to have some teenage problem kid around
the house!" Little did I know!
Guess I should have expected it, but I was still a bit surprised when I
received a call from a lady at Social Services - they needed to come out
and inspect my house! After a short discussion with her on the phone
("Oh, but you can understand how we must protect our little kiddies by
making sure they're placed in a safe environment") I agreed. (I
restrained from asking, "Little kiddies? You're asking me to care for
some baby goats? I thought we were talking about my nephew?") So anyway,
about 30 minutes late for her appointment my doorbell rang and I opened
it to find a short and grossly obese young woman wearing a strange
looking dress that bulged amazingly in places, a white pasty face with a
spray of pimples across her forehead, lank tangled greasy hair that
really needed a shampoo, and breath that hinted that she was on a garlic
diet. But I let her in and followed her as she waddled from room to
room, amazed that one so short could have an ass so wide. She asked a
lot of questions, took lots of picture of the bathroom (but no other
room), and among other things, measured the height above the floor of
all the light switches ("Mustn't let the little kiddies hurt their backs
by stretching?" I thought to myself). Finally she said that of course
she'd have to write up her report and have it reviewed but she thought
that I'd be approved to act as my nephew's guardian (all the while
scowling, grimacing and licking her fat lips as if it pained her to give
me good news), and waddled off to wedge herself into her tiny car,
leaving behind greasy fingerprints on everything she touched and a
lasting aroma of garlic hanging in the air.
I did get approved, and so several weeks later the doorbell rang mid-
morning and I opened the front door of my house to find the fat lady
from Social Services standing on my doorstep with a slight teenage boy
standing sort of hunched over behind her. Other than that my brother had
fathered a kid and named it Erik I really know nothing about my nephew -
never met him before, no photographs, nothing - so I wasn't sure what to
expect when I met him - except that when he followed the fat lady into
my house and I could get a better look at him, he was nothing like I'd
imagined he might be. With a name like Erik I'd assumed maybe a big
muscular teen with red curly hair - or something like that. What
followed the fat lady as she waddled into my house was actually a slim
youth, maybe 5' 7" or so. Actually, "slim" wasn't right; he was
downright skinny with a narrow waist and a rather pinched underweight
face. I immediately realized that his mother must have been oriental as
Erik had vivid deep black almond-shaped eyes, a triangular face, small
nose, full lips, high cheekbones and a shaggy mop of long black hair
that looked like it hadn't been washed for a long time. As he drew
closer, I noticed that he also smelled - kind of a funny musty smell,
like when you toss a damp towel in a corner and then pick it up several
days later. He didn't say anything but shyly extended his hand, to shake
mine and I noticed his long slender fingers as I took his limp hand in
mine, not quite knowing whether to shake it, hug him, or whatever. The
embarrassing moment was broken by a cloud of garlic breath from the
Social Services lady as she announced, "Well, I'll leave the two of you
to get acquainted. Didn't have a chance to eat breakfast this morning
and I'm dying to tackle a big plate of pancakes. I'll check back with
you two every so often" and she turned and waddled out the door, leaving
Erik and myself to "get acquainted."
An embarrassed silence followed for several moments as Erik and I just
stood there - I was examining him and he was turning his head to look at
as much of my house as you could see from the entrance. In addition to
his slight build, I now noticed the several-sizes-too-large stained T-
shirt (advertising a popular boy band) that he was wearing, a pair of
baggy, ragged and torn jeans, and a pair of sneakers that were in the
process of falling apart. I broke the silence with, "Okay, why don't I
show you around the place and which bedroom will be yours."
"I get my own bedroom?"
His question surprised me a little so I just responded, "Uh, yeah, sure"
as I led him through the living area and toward the hallway that led to
the bedrooms. As we passed through the living area and he saw the pool
outside and the view of the city below I could see his eyes grow wide
with surprise although he didn't say anything. Finally we reached his
bedroom and I opened the door saying, "This'll be your bedroom. The
sliding door opens onto the patio and the pool area. The bathroom is off
to the right there. You can get your things unpacked and I'll go see
what's in the refrigerator that we can warm up for lunch. Sound okay to
you?" He just nodded.
So I'm in the kitchen, trying to remember what I liked to eat back when
I was a teenager, and finding that most of those things I didn't have,
and wished that I'd given more thought to getting ready before the fat
lady and Erik showed up this morning. I finally settled on potato chips,
microwave pizza, and some ice cream sundae cups I remembered that I had
in the freezer. Lunch, such as it was, prepared, I went to Erick's
bedroom, tapped on the door and receiving no response opened the door
and entered the room to find him sprawled on the bed sound asleep.
Relaxed in sleep he appeared even more slight and thin and I was
beginning to wonder what sort of life he had led with my younger
brother. I approached the bed, gently shook his shoulder to wake him,
and was surprised when he snapped awake and jerked away from me with a
look of fear on his face. He saw the look on my face and said, "Uh,
sorry, you just ..... sort of ..... surprised me."
"No problem. There's some food ready if you're hungry."
Man, hungry didn't describe him as he gulped down everything in front of
him and I had to drag out some leftover potato salad and a half of an
apple pie from the refrigerator before he was satisfied. As he sat at
the countertop I noticed that he leaned forward, sort of hunched over as
he had been when he entered my house and I was wondering if he just had
bad posture.
"Best meal I've had in a long time," he said as he polished off the last
of the apple pie.
"Just leftovers."
"My Dad wasn't big on keeping food in the apartment - just drugs."
I wasn't sure how to respond to that, so I paused for a moment and then
asked, "You need any help unpacking? The bedroom's yours so you can
rearrange things if you want. And you've got the run of the house
although it is about a 5-mile hike to get down into the city from here
and I'm usually working six days a week."
"I'm good. Looking forward to relaxing and not worrying about the fights
and guns."
Man, I knew that my younger brother had been into dealing drugs, but
what kind of a life had this kid been living? So I dodged that comment
as well. "Kind of hot this afternoon. Pool's there if you want to try it
out."
"Never learned to swim. It got a shallow end?"
I assured him that it did and he seemed like he might give it a try, so
I went off to the small office in my bedroom to work on getting out some
invoices to my customers while Erik used the pool.
I was a little nervous about Erik being alone in the pool, him not being
able to swim and all that, but my office had a window looking out into
the pool area so I could keep an eye on him if he did decide to use the
pool. I'd been working my way through a pile of paperwork when I noticed
movement outside and looked up to see Erik come out onto the patio from
his bedroom. Talk about ratty clothes! His "bathing suit" looked like it
was made from pair of men's workpants, worn almost to the point of
falling apart, cut off at the knees and held up by a cord through the
belt loops that bunched the worn material in folds around his slim
waist. He was also wearing what looked like an old sweatshirt, arms torn
off, the fabric worn thin and, again several sizes too large for him.
Erik looked around as if to see whether anyone might be observing him.
The heat-reflecting film on the windows in my house gave them a mirror-
like appearance from the outside so he didn't see me watching him as he
gingerly slid down into the shallow end of the pool. After a minute or
so he got used to the water and began playing like a little kid,
splashing, swimming underwater, floating on his back, hanging onto the
wall of the pool and kicking with his feet to send sprays of water up
into the air. Once it was wet I noticed that his shaggy hair was longer
than I had thought as it formed thick wet bangs on either side of his
face and hung down at least six or seven inches below his shoulders.
There was also something else that I wasn't quite sure about - the
fabric of his sweatshirt seemed bunched up on his chest in an odd way.
Once I was sure that Erik would stay safely in the shallow end of the
pool I turned back to my paperwork and ignored him for what must have
been an hour or so, turning my attention back to him only when I noticed
that he seemed about to dry off and go back into his bedroom. He looked
around briefly to again see whether he was being observed, pulled off
the wet sweatshirt that he had been wearing, and began to dry off his
hair with one of the pool towels. With Erik's back to me and without his
sweatshirt I was surprised to see how really skinny he was - I could
easily make out his individual ribs under his skin. After several
minutes of drying his long hair, he turned and began to walk toward the
sliding door that led to his bedroom, allowing me a view of his side
profile and then the front of his chest and I was shocked to see that
Erik had breasts!
While not large, I'd guess them no larger than about an A cup size, he
had two soft rounded areas on his chest, topped with large puffy dark
brown nipples. As he walked toward the door to his bedroom I could see
his small breasts jiggling up and down just a little and realized that I
was developing an erection as I saw this slim youth walking past my
bedroom window. "Oh come on," I thought, "He's your brother's son," and
that brought me back to my senses.
Remembering how hungry Erik was at lunch, I decided to grill some
burgers for an early supper and was glad that I cooked eight large
patties, for Erik seemed as hungry as ever - loading up and wolfing down
six of them garnished with cheese, lettuce, tomato, mayonnaise, ketchup,
pickles and whatever other condiments could be found in the
refrigerator. He polished off most of a half gallon of Cookie Dough ice
cream for dessert. While he was still wearing the ratty clothes that
he'd arrived in at least his face was clean and glowing from his
exposure to the sun. And he had pulled his long hair back into a
ponytail and secured it with a rubber band - it was still on the messy
side but much better than the tangled mess he had arrived with. As he
was walking and sitting I noticed that he was still hunched over, to
hide the shape of his chest I now realized, but I didn't bring the
subject up. After supper he volunteered to clean up and wash the dishes
- and did a pretty respectable job of it. I noticed that he was yawning
and after he finished cleaning up, he said that he was pretty tired and
asked if it would be okay with me if he went to bed early. "Sure. No
problem," I responded and he flashed me a big smile and headed off to
his bedroom.
To tell the truth I was kind of tired myself but decided that I'd at
least browse through the packet of information that the fat lady from
Social Services had left with me. Reading through it actually took me
several hours that evening but by the time I finished I felt that I had
a better appreciation for some of the things that Erik had to deal while
living with my younger brother as shown by some of the comments from
Social Services personnel:
" ..... subject's father keeps a tight rein on his son, allowing him to
attend school but engage in no other activities. Requiring him to come
home immediately following school and perform housekeeping duties in the
apartment such as washing clothes, cleaning and cooking meals. He is
allowed no contact with other youth his age outside of school."
" ..... was not allowed to learn how to drive a car or obtain a driver's
license as his father felt that would give his son too much freedom and
possibly loosen his father's control over all facets of his son's life."
" ..... developed a severe case of Gynecomastia at an early age, possibly
enhanced by a hormonal imbalance of unknown origin. Father refused
medical treatment of this condition and the resulting growth of breast
tissue resulted in subject being taunted and picked upon at school and
further isolated from other youth his age. Subject had to be removed
from Physical Education classes after several instances of abuse by
other male youth."
" ..... father has taken the absolute minimum required number of
treatments for his drug addiction that will allow him to remain out of
jail. Although hard evidence has not been found, it is suspected that
the father has progressed from using drugs to dealing them to obtain
funds to support his addiction. There is some anecdotal evidence that
the father forces his son to participate in some aspects of his drug
dealing but no evidence exists that the son has taken drugs himself."
"..... It is understandable that in an environment such as this the youth
is unaware of what a normal home environment and father-son-
relationship should be, and feels that it is normal that he be abused
and threatened by the adults he comes into contact with outside of
school ....."
And the most disturbing observation, "..... while it is obvious that the
home environment for this youth is less than ideal, and actually harmful
to many aspects of his development, management of Social Services feels
that documentation of these issues does not yet rise to the level of
detail that would justify removing the youth from his father's
household. To the extent that other heavy caseloads allow, the situation
will continue to be monitored and action may be able to be taken at some
point in the future ....."
Wow, what a life Erik had led! And Social Services had been aware of the
problems but had done nothing until forced to by my brother's
incarceration? If I had only known what was happening I might have been
able to get involved and help out years earlier. And am I really
qualified to care for him now, given his background? I didn't sleep well
that night as I tossed and turned as thoughts such as those kept me
awake.
The next morning the door to Erik's bedroom was still closed when I left
for work at 8am. Not wanting to wake him, I left a note explaining that
I was at work, a phone number where he could reach me if necessary, that
I would return home around 5pm, and that he should feel free to use any
of the facilities at the house in my absence. I wasn't sure how to sign
the note, "Love, Uncle Tom" sounded too, uh, friendly, "Uncle Tom"
sounded too cold, so I finally just ended up with "Tom" and drew a small
smiley face after my name.
I was a little late getting home from work and it was close to 6pm by
the time I arrived home. I was surprised to see that Erik had a light
summer supper of tossed greens, pasta salad and hot dogs to grill,
waiting by the pool for me. "Wow, looks like you've been busy," I said.
"I did all the cooking for my father, as well as the laundry, cleaning
the apartment and stuff like that. As long as I'm going to be living
here I thought I should help out somehow."
I was about to reply when I noticed that there was something different
about Erik. His clothes were still the ratty old ones but at least now
they looked freshly laundered. And other then the clothes his appearance
was a little different. Finally I realized that his hair looked much
nicer than it had yesterday. Now it was fuller and a glossy black,
parted over his right eye and swept down on either side of his face,
partially covering the left side of his face. As I drew closer I noticed
that it had a pleasant fragrance to it as well - a strong fruity-floral
blend with a note of musk. "Hmmm, smells nice," I said.
Erik drew back with a look on his face that might almost have been fear.
"I, uh, I found a box of bath stuff and cosmetics in one of the closets
in my bedroom and used some on my hair. I hope I didn't do anything I
shouldn't have."
No of course not," I reassured him, "Anything you find in those closets
you should feel free to use. Now, I'm hungry, can we get the grill going
and eat?" Erik smiled at me as I prepared to grill the hot dogs.
As the grill was warming up, I went back into the house, got a six-pack
out of the refrigerator, brought it out to the patio, popped open a can
of my favorite dark ale and took a big gulp - nothing like the first
swig of cold beer on a warm evening. I saw Erik looking at me and
offered him one. "Uh. No thanks," he said, "beer was my dad's favorite
drink, whenever he wasn't stoned, that is."
"So, uh, you want something else?"
"You got any wine? A white wine maybe?"
That brought back memories as a chilled dry white Riesling had been
Keri's drink of choice and there were still several bottles in the
refrigerator. So I brought one out, uncorked it, and poured a glass for
Erik. As we were sitting there the aroma of the wine brought back
memories so I went back into the house, brought out a second wine glass
and poured some of the Riesling for myself. It was pleasant to sit there
by the pool with him, smelling the aroma of the hot dogs on the grill as
we sipped our wine. As we ate I refilled our wine glasses and I realized
that Erik wasn't sitting hunched over as he had in the past but was much
more relaxed, leaning back in his chair as we ate and talked. I also
noticed that in this posture, two small "tents" were visible in the
front of the pullover hoodie that he was wearing. Either Erik was
unaware of what he was "exposing," or he didn't care, and I wasn't about
to say anything as I enjoyed the view, knowing what was causing the
"tents." After we'd finished eating Erik asked if he could take care of
the cleanup and do the dishes, and I agreed.
As Erik cleaned up the kitchen I found a reality show on one of the
cable channels, "Teenage Vampire Lesbians in Las Vegas" or something
like that. When the kitchen work was finished Erik came in and sat next
to me as we watched a horde of teenage vampire lesbians destroy the
largest casino in Las Vegas - the plot never made it clear why they
wanted to destroy it, but you don't watch shows like this for the plot.
As the casino was burning and exploding as the teenage vampire lesbians
danced around with their exposed breasts bouncing up and down, and all
the casino employees were themselves being turned into vampires (even
though they were neither teenage nor lesbian), I asked Erik if he didn't
feel kind of lonesome up her in the canyon while I was at work during
the day, being five miles out of town and without a driver's license and
all that? His answer surprised me.
"Oh, it's just kind of nice to be able to just stay up here and relax
and get away from things."
"Things?"
"Oh, just stuff ..... with my Dad ..... and some guys."
"Uh, maybe I shouldn't ask but what kind of stuff?"
There was a pause and then, "Okay. Well, you knew that he was using and
dealing drugs, right?"
"I'd heard that."
Erik was silent for a minute or so and I thought the conversation was
over with, but then he continued, "Well, sometimes he didn't have enough
money to pay for the drugs ..... and ..... and, uh ..... I'd have to help
him."
"Help him?"
"Well, sometimes the guys he owed money to would use me and that would
make up for them not being paid."
This conversation was getting pretty weird and I almost wished I hadn't
started it, but after a another minute or so of silence I figured that
it had gone this far and might as well continue so I asked, "Use?"
"Use. You know. Sex stuff. Like how a guy uses a girl ..... and ..... and
other stuff ..... some of it ..... uh, some of it I got to like ..... but some
of it I didn't ....."
And Erik's voice sort of tapered off and I realized that he was silently
crying at first and then sobbing more loudly, so I pulled him over
against me and wrapped my arms around him to try to comfort him, and we
just sat there till his sobs finally subsided. I was shocked by what
Erik had just told me, but after he stopped crying I just enjoyed
sitting there, his slim body pressed up against mine, his head resting
against my chest and smelling the floral scent of his long hair as I
gently stroked it with my free hand.
I was surprised when I looked at my watch to see how fast time had
passed and that it was now past midnight so I gently leaned away from
Erik and told him that I had to be at the office early in the morning
and needed to head off to bed to get at least a couple of hours of
sleep. As I was standing to leave he asked, "Tom, if I make up a list of
things that we need could you pick them up on your way home?" I assured
him that I could and went off to bed, feeling a bit disappointed that I
wasn't able to sit there with Erik snuggled up against me, with my arms
around him any longer.
The alarm going off at 5:00am was an unwelcome surprise but I remembered
that I had to leave the house by 6 so I rapidly showered, shaved,
dressed and grabbed a container of yogurt from the refrigerator for
breakfast. As I was standing at the counter eating the yogurt I noticed
the list of items that Erik wanted me to buy, noting that it was written
in a flowing, pretty, almost dainty script. I read through the long list
of items - from food and drink to cleaning supplies, and even a few
items I questioned such as the candles, but I needed to get on my way to
the office, pausing momentarily on my way out the door to quietly open
the door to Erik's bedroom and gaze for a moment at his sleeping form on
the bed before I silently closed the door and left the house.
It took me almost an hour after work to purchase all the items that Erik
had requested and it was a bit after 6:30pm by the time I reached the
house. Upon entering I immediately noticed that the air had a slight
floral scent and as I walked into the living area I saw several vases
around the room filled with freshly cut flowers. Erik came into the
room, saw me looking at the flowers and said, "I found them growing
outside and I thought that they might brighten up the room a bit. I hope
that you don't mind?"
"No, of course not," I answered, but what really surprised me was not
the flowers but Erik's clothing - he was wearing a pair of white linen
shorts, a yellow blouse tucked into the shorts, and a pair of white
sandals on his feet.
Noticing me staring at him he got a wary look on his face and hesitantly
said, "Oh ..... I, uh ..... I hope that you don't mind me putting on some
clothes I found in the closet in my bedroom. Mine were so old and
ragged, and these are much newer and in better shape. And you did say I
could use anything I found in my bedroom?"
Well, I did remember saying that, although I really wasn't thinking
about Keri's clothes when I said it, but if he wanted to wear some of
her clothes I guess there was nothing wrong with it - except that they
were a little large and baggy on him - so I said, "No problem. What's
for supper?" And was rewarded by a beaming smile on Erik's face when he
heard my response.
Turns out that Erik had a pretty good Italian dinner waiting for us, and
as the weather was very warm and sunny we took everything outside and
ate by the pool on the patio. I was surprised that he had been able to
make a decent antipasto, linguine with carbonara sauce, and with a kind
of almond pastry for dessert. When I complemented him on the meal his
comment was, "Oh, I just found a cookbook in one of the closets in my
bedroom and the pages for this dinner had been folded over and marked up
so I thought maybe it was one of your favorites." That brought back
memories of Keri cooking this same meal for me on special occasions.
Erik had also found a bottle of valpolicella amidst several bottles of
wine I kept in a cooler in the kitchen and had that opened and breathing
so we both started our dinner with a glass of wine. At first I thought
that Erik had prepared way too much food but as I watched him go back
for seconds, and then thirds, I realized that there would be few
leftovers. "You sure have an appetite tonight," I said at one point.
He looked over at me as he slowly licked some sauce off his full lips
before he smiled at me and responded, "Habit I guess. There were some
days when the kitchen at the apartment was pretty bare. So when there
was food I got used to eating as much as I could. Old habits are hard to
break, I guess."
"Oh no, I'm happy to see you enjoying yourself. But at that rate you may
need some larger clothes eventually," and in fact his face did look just
a little bit less pinched and malnourished than when he had arrived.
"Oh, not much chance of that. There are so many nice clothes in my
bedroom that I haven't even tried on yet," and he giggled a little as he
poured himself another glass of wine.
By the time we'd finished the main course the sun was beginning to set
so Erik cleared the table and brought out dessert, and a second bottle
of valpolicella as I lit some candles around the pool to provide a
little light. We sat there for a while, sipping our wine and watching
the lights come on in the city spread out below before Erik exclaimed,
"Oh damn, I must have splashed some of the sauce from the pasta on my
clothes, I'd better go in and rinse them off before the stain sets," and
he got up and went into the house. I was slowly sipping my wine and
enjoying the view of the city below when he returned several minutes
later, moved his chair over next to mine by the table and sat down. I
glanced over at him and ..... SHIT! He didn't have any clothes on! Well,
he wasn't completely naked as he did have a pair of Keri's panties on.
He saw me staring at him and said, "Uh, it seemed so nice and warm out
here that I didn't think that I needed to put on a change of clothes. Is
that okay?"
I wasn't sure what to say as I looked over at Erik, sitting there next
to me with his chest fully exposed and his small perky breasts with
their puffy nipples shimmering in the flickering light from the candles.
After a moment I realized that something else was exposed, or almost so,
as I glanced down and saw that his panties were just barely covering a
large, thick penis. The other thing I noticed is that from what I could
see, other than the hair on his head, he had little or no body hair (I
later found out that he did have a small patch of curly black hair just
above his penis, but how I found that out is another story.). Erik
turned and saw me staring at his breasts and said, "I can go put some
clothes on if it bothers you." He was silent for a moment and then
continued, "Some of Dad's suppliers liked to touch them," and he reached
over, picked up my hand and placed it gently on his right breast. OH
SHIT! Here I was, sitting by the pool at my house and with a near naked
youth exposing himself to me and as much as asking me to play with his
breasts. I could feel myself getting hard and then as Erik shifted
slightly in his chair and I felt his warm and soft breast moving gently
under my hand I couldn't control myself, gasped, groaned and ejaculated
into my underwear. Erik looked over at me, was silent for a second and
then gasped out, "Oh Tom, I'm so sorry," burst into tears, ran into the
house and I heard the door to his bedroom slam.
Things were happening way too fast and I sat there for some time, trying
to sort out my feelings and what to do next. Eventually I decided just
to go to bed and see what developed tomorrow so I picked up the dishes
still on the patio table, took them into the kitchen, went to my
bedroom, stripped and crawled into bed. With the thoughts rushing
through my mind, sleep did not come quickly and I was still half awake
when the door to my room opened and Erik entered, walking slowly and
hesitantly. He knelt by my side of the bed and whispered, "Tom, I'm so
messed up. You're the best thing that ever happened to me, and I made
you mad, or something, and I'm afraid that you won't let me stay here
any longer. I just can't stay in my room. Alone. Can I get in your bed
just for a few minutes? I promise I won't try anything funny. Please?"
Half asleep I mumbled something that Erik took as a "yes" so he moved
over to the other side of my bed, crawled under the covers, and lay
there, as far away from me as possible.
The next thing I remember was when I awoke in the middle of the night to
find that Erik had shifted position and was now lying next to me, or
rather, partially on top of me. He lay oddly positioned, his upper torso
diagonally across my chest, face in a pillow, cheek against my right
shoulder, his slack right arm hooked around my neck. His long slim legs
were sprawled down there, off to my left. My right arm was pinned, but
my left arm was free, my hand resting on the small of his back under his
long black hair. At first I tried to figure out how I could work myself
out from under him without awakening him. And then, realizing that
wasn't possible, I decided to just let well enough alone and enjoy the
feeling of his slight body on top of mine, his small breasts pressing
against my chest. The next thing I remember was the glow of the sun
beginning to show around the edges of the window shades, noticed that
the clock by the bed was displaying 6:13AM, and Erik was still
positioned across my chest. I was going to have to get up soon to go to
work anyway so I just lay there for several minutes, feeling Erik's
chest slowly rising and falling as he breathed, and felt myself
developing this huge erection. Turns out I wasn't the only one with an
erection as I could feel Erik's hard-on pressing against my left thigh.
"Well," I thought, "Hate to waste a hard-on, either his or mine, but
I've got to go to work shortly," and I slowly extricated myself from
under Erik who gave a sleepy mumble, rolled back over onto his side of
the bed, and promptly went to sleep again.
I guess after that first night when Erik slept in my bed he took that as
approval to convert "my" bedroom to "our" bedroom. I couldn't really
complain about loss of closet and dresser space as I had ample of that.
And in the process of Erik moving everything from "his" bedroom into
"our" bedroom, he organized all my items of clothing neatly, caught up
on my laundry, threw out my items that were too old or worn to wear, and
gave me lists of some new items I needed to buy. It was kind of a shock
the first time I mistakenly opened Erik's closet and found it full of
Keri's clothes. But Erik had been gradually wearing less and less of his
old clothes and more and more of Keri's clothes and within several weeks
of moving into "our" bedroom all his old clothes were gone and he was
wearing girl's clothing exclusively. In addition to her clothing he had
also begun wearing some of her jewelry - rings, bracelets, necklaces,
earrings and the like - and also her cosmetics, make-up and body care
products as well. After a month or so anyone who didn't know that Erik
was a boy would think he was a pretty girl in her early 20's - a bit on
the thin side perhaps, but his dress, speech and mannerisms had all
slowly become more feminine.
As far as our sleeping in the same bed, that had gradually progressed as
well. The first week or two Erik generally slept on his own side of the
bed, occasionally tossing and turning during the night and sometimes
ending over on my side by morning. But we gradually started going to bed
and rising in the morning at the same time - crawling into bed together
at night, exchanging good night kisses, and then falling asleep in each
other's arms. One night though, as I was falling asleep I felt one of
Erik's hands slowly slide down to my crotch and, when I didn't protest,
he gently begin to stroke my penis. As I hardened in his grasp he began
stroking harder and more swiftly, shortly bring me to an orgasm and
spraying my cum onto our bodies. I felt it only my duty then to reach
down, grasp his larger penis and stroke it till he added his semen to
mine and we could lie in our sticky embrace as we went to sleep. Erik
was aware of my fascination with his tiny breasts and one night he
gently guided my head down to his chest where I could lick his puffy
nipples and then take them in my mouth and suck on them as he moaned in
pleasure and played with my cock at the same time. So Erik and I
eventually developed an active, if not conventional, sex life.
Right around that time Erik decided that he did want to get his driver's
license after all, so he studied a little, practiced a little, and
passed the tests with flying colors. I suspect that he just didn't like
my driving as I have a tendency to start thinking about what's going on
with my businesses and lose concentration on my driving:
"Uh, you knew that you didn't stop for that stop sign."
"There was a stop sign back there? Guess I missed it. But nothing bad
happened."
"Nothing bad unless you think about that lady pushing her kid in a
stroller in the crosswalk that you almost clipped."
So whenever the two of us are out in the car now, Erik will be driving -
and I have to admit that it's nice to sit back and relax and let him
worry about ladies and kids in crosswalks.
Things pretty much went on like that for a number of months. I was busy
at work. Erik was busy keeping house. And in the evenings we spent time
together. As Erik got into this routine he became a more efficient
housekeeper and found that he had several hours of free time in the
afternoons. So whenever the weather was good, which is most of the time
in Arizona, after his chores were done he'd strip off his clothes,
slather on a thick coating of SPF lotion and sunbathe by the pool on the
patio. His normal Asian yellowish-tan skin tone slowly darkened to a
deep mahogany color. And with his long black hair, vivid black eyes,
mahogany skin, and full red lips often parted in a smile which revealed
his bright white teeth, he really looked ..... well, exotic. Often when I
came home in the evening, if he'd been sunbathing on the patio when I
emerged from the house he'd jump up and run over to me with his girl
breasts bouncing and his long cock swinging back and forth and slapping
against his thighs, and give me a greasy embrace as he held his face up
so that I could kiss him. Of course after that, I'd have to strip off my
stained clothes so that they could be laundered and then Erik and I
could frolic in the pool till it was time to prepare dinner. That first
time we did this was when I noticed that he had this cute little patch
of pubic hair just above his penis, on his otherwise hairless body. I
was so fascinated by this little patch of hair that often when we were
in bed after that, I'd gently run my fingers through it to tease him and
get Erik excited and then we'd have sex. As I sucked on his breasts and
he played with my cock, or as we played with each other's cocks I
couldn't help but think about how beautiful his cock was and how much I
loved looking at it and holding it in my hands.
Eventually I noticed that over time Erik's prodigious appetite had an
effect. He had gained weight. Where I could previously have counted his
individual ribs they were now hidden under a soft layer of padding. His
face was fuller and more rounded and while he could not be called fat,
or even chubby for that matter, Keri's clothes that had formerly fit him
loosely now tightly molded themselves to his body, showing off his new
shape and curves. His "flat" boy's rear end had developed into a
luscious girl's derriere which bounced and jiggled as he walked. And his
breasts were also larger, at least a B-cup now and possibly even a C-
cup, that instead of sticking out in perky cones, now settled down on
his chest as rounded globes of soft flesh. Erik must have been aware of
the changes as whenever he was wearing clothes, he chose them to show
off his new shape to best advantage. His shorts were tight and low cut,
revealing two soft bulges of flesh swelling out beneath them. And he
chose his low cut tops to shape his breasts so as to reveal a truly
amazing amount of cleavage that threatened to burst out in a tidal wave
of soft breast tissue whenever he bent forward - which he often did for
effect.
As long as Erik would drop me off at the office when he wanted the car
for some errands, and then pick me up later on, he began coming into the
office and helping out a little to pass the time till I was ready for
him to drive me home. It turns out that he had a real flair for
Microsoft Office and the accounting software we used. And as he was
closer in age to many of the younger workers he developed a good rapport
with them and began making work assignments and solving most of the day-
to-day issues that came up without even needing to ask me for help. It
got so that there were usually several days a week when I didn't feel
like going in to the office and Erik could go in and run things, leaving
me free to relax and putter around the house, doing some cooking,
cleaning and lounging by the pool. And if there were any errands to be
run, or shopping to do I'd just make up a list for Erik the night before
and he'd take care of all that the next day.
A month or so ago we had been in bed and preparing to masturbate each
when he said, "Uh, Tom, could we try something different tonight?"
"Guess so. What?"
"I'd like to have you give me a blow job?"
Man, that set me back for a moment. I was kind of okay with touching
another guy's cock, especially if he was playing with mine at the same
time, but taking his cock in my mouth? That was way different than
anything that I'd done before. But I looked over at Erik and he looked
back at me with his beautiful almond eyes, licked his pouty lips with
his tongue and whispered, "Please? Pretty please?"
How could I refuse a request like that and so several minutes later Erik
was naked and on his back on the bed and I was kneeling over him with my
face inches from his big cock. I looked at it for a moment and Erik must
have been getting turned on by the anticipation of feeling my mouth on
it as I could see it swelling and beginning to lift up and point toward
my mouth. I slowly bent down and gently kissed its tip. Erik gasped and
his body flinched as if from a shock. Feeling a bit bolder I leaned
farther forward and began to lick its head with my tongue, then take the
head into my mouth and gently suck on it. Erik was now moaning in
pleasure as I took it deeper and deeper into my mouth and began to suck
on it, harder and harder. His cock was now glistening and lubricated
with my saliva as I began to move slowly up and down on it, helped by
Erik who was now thrusting his body upward, driving his hard cock deeper
and deeper into my mouth. Finally he let out a loud gasp as his body
jerked with a spasm and I could feel jet after jet of his hot cum
squirting into my mouth and down my throat as I struggled to swallow it.
Both exhausted by our efforts we just lay there for many minutes, Erik
on his back and me with my mouth down in his crotch, gently licking and
sucking on his cock as it slowly shrank back to its normal size.
That was the first time I'd ever given someone a blowjob, and it was not
to be the last! In a way it was almost embarrassing, for after that
first time when I went down on Erik and enjoyed it so much, I became
obsessed with guy's cocks. Whenever I was out shopping or at work and
saw a guy wearing tight jeans with a bulge in the crotch, I couldn't
keep my mind from wandering to the thought of what was hidden inside
those bulging jeans and I'd get horny and feel myself getting an
erection. Or if I was watching TV and happened to see a guy with a big
"package" I'd get so horny that I'd hunt up Erik and help him strip off
his clothes so I could get my mouth around his cock and immediately suck
him off.
I woke up before Erik several weeks ago and as we were lying in bed I
looked lovingly at his beautiful boy-girl's body lying next to me. After
some minutes Erik awoke, saw me looking at him and said, "Huh? Why are
you looking at me? Am I drooling or something?"
I giggled as I answered him, "Of course not, silly. You're so beautiful
that I just like to look at you."
"Okay, so I'm beautiful. I'll grant you that. But what's my best
feature? My tits? My ass? My cock?"
"Oh, they're all fun to snuggle up to and play with," I answered, "But I
think your big eyes and long lashes top the 'beauty list'."
I was silent for a moment and then Erik said, "You're beautiful yourself
..... but ..... and don't take this wrong, but you could be even more
beautiful if you used some makeup." I guess I looked a little doubtful
as he continued, "Come on, let's shower, and shampoo your hair, and then
I'll show you what I mean."
So we showered together, and Erik did help me shampoo my hair, but the
best part was when I got down on my knees and sucked on his cock while
the warm water sprayed down on our soapy bodies in the steam-filled
shower. After we got out of the shower and dried off Erik put
conditioner on my hair, brushed and combed it into a new style and then
stood in front of me as he applied various cosmetics to my face and
eyes. Then he stepped back and said, "There now, take a look at the
result." I turned to the mirror, looked at my reflection, and
immediately burst into tears I was so happy. I looked so different I
couldn't believe it. My shoulder-length hair had been styled into a
series of waves that framed my face, bright red lipstick made my lips
look full and glossy, my cheeks radiated a pink glow, my eyebrows were
thin and arched, and the eyeliner and eyeshadow made my eyes look so big
and luminous I couldn't believe the change. "See," Erik said, "Who said
that you're not beautiful?" I threw my arms around him and showered
kisses on his face before he drew back and said, "Now you've smeared
your lipstick, you silly thing." and I giggled and laughed at that.
Once I realized how much better I could look, I began wearing makeup on
a regular basis and started spending an hour or so every morning making
myself beautiful for Erik.
Lately, whenever Erik was lying on his back in our bed and I was
kneeling over him with his cock in my mouth he'd begun to slide a
lubricated finger up into my asshole and stroke that in and out as I
sucked on his cock, which drove me to even greater levels of excitement.
Eventually one night he asked, "Uh, Tom ..... uh, could we try something
else tonight where ..... where I'm on top and do most of the work."
I had no idea what Erik was talking about but I was so in love with him
that I was willing to try anything so I just whispered, "Uh. Yeah. Sure.
But just be gentle with me, please?"
Erik smiled and had me roll over on my stomach as I heard him getting
something from the nightstand by our bed and then felt something
pressing up against my asshole. I realized that it was his cock and as
he pressed it harder and harder against me I felt its head pop inside me
and then its lubricated length begin to slide into me, deeper ..... and
deeper ..... and deeper. I couldn't control myself and began squealing in
pleasure as he began thrusting in and out of me and I began to hump my
ass up to meet his thrusts, forcing his huge cock even deeper into me.
After several minutes he gave one huge thrust and I could feel the
pressure inside me as he shot his cum into me as I gave one last squeal
of delight and he collapsed on top of me.
While I really liked getting Erick's cock in my mouth and sucking him
off, having him fuck my ass was a whole new experience for me and I
realized how it got me turned on way more than sucking on his cock. So
while I still sucked Erick's cock whenever he'd let me, our sex began to
consist more and more of me lying on my stomach with Erik on top of me,
thrusting his cock deeper and deeper into me as I squealed in delight.
While both Erik and I liked the results of the effort I was putting into
looking nice these days, even with my makeup, hair style and all, I was
disappointed that Erik had much prettier clothes than I did. Erik had
the wardrobe that Keri had left behind and which now fit him perfectly.
I'd tried on items of Keri's clothing but I was too tall and, uh, skinny
in the wrong places for them to fit me well. I think Erik sensed my
disappointment for when he returned from work at the end of the day he'd
frequently begun bringing me gifts of clothing. The first time he
brought me a pair of panties I was so happy that I immediately stripped,
pulled on the panties, and wore nothing else around the house for
several days! Shorts, blouses, slacks and several miniskirts joined the
panties and I was soon able to relegate all my "boy's clothes" to a
storage box in the garage and wear my beautiful girl's clothes
exclusively. The only disappointment was that the bras he brought me
didn't fit well for obvious reasons, but Erik solved that problem by
bringing home some silicone breast forms a week later. With the breast
forms, a bra and a tight tank top that clung to what appeared to be C-
cup breasts, a skimpy pair of shorts and my bright red fuck-me pumps
with the 4" stiletto heels, I finally felt beautiful as I strutted
around the house.
When Erik came home from the office last week he brought me a present -
a small box with Victorias' Secret gift wrapping. I squealed with
delight, "Oh? For Me? What is it? Pretty please?"
Erik just laughed at my eagerness and responded, "Well, the only way to
find out what it contains is to open it, you silly thing."
So I opened it and found several pairs of silk panties. But ..... but .....
they had an opening in the front, like there was no crotch. "Are they
supposed to be this way," I asked, "Or is there something wrong with
them?"
"Try them on silly, you'll see why they're made that way."
So I tried them on and it felt really funny because my dick poked
through the hole. Now my dick isn't as big as Erik's but there was still
4 inches or so of my dick poking through the hole and dangling between
my legs. So I'm standing there with my dick exposed and when I walked
around it just kind of waggled back and forth. Of course, it was just
Erik and me at the house so I soon got over my embarrassment and decided
that I liked the bright red pair with the white lace trim (even around
the opening in the front) best and began wearing them most of the time.
Erik even came up with this game where he'd come up behind me, reach
around and grab my dick and tug on it gently while he said, "HONK!
HONK!" And I'd giggle and stop whatever I was doing and drop to my knees
on the floor in front of him and give him a blowjob. What a neat game -
we play it at least once or twice a day!
It suddenly struck me this morning while I was cleaning the bathrooms
after Erik had left to go to work, that I haven't left the house for
several months. Well, I've left the house to sit on the patio, sunbathe
or swim in the pool, or stroll the grounds outside the house. But I
haven't had Erik drive me down into town or go to either of my
businesses for quite some time. It's not that I can't - I'm sure that
Erik would take me with him when he goes in to work every day if I just
asked him - but I just don't have any interest in that anymore. It just
seems so much easier and less complicated not to have to worry about
driving, shopping or business stuff - plus if I'm going out where other
people will see me I can't parade around in my crotchless panties, or
dress up in the fuck-me "hooker's clothes" that Erik has been buying for
me lately. And I really enjoy keeping the house looking nice for Erik,
and keeping it clean and doing his laundry and having a nice meal
waiting for him when he comes home from work. And I can spend lots of
time keeping myself looking nice for Erik. My hair now falls to almost a
foot below my shoulders and after using the bleach, platinum hair color
and home permanent supplies that Erik gave me as a present several weeks
ago I've now got this huge mass of tight platinum curls that frames my
face. Caring for my mass of platinum curls takes me several hours every
morning but Erik likes the way they look, he calls them my "hooker
hairstyle," so that I don't mind spending the time. And then of course
since Erik likes my body so soft and smooth I have to shave every
several days and then apply scented lotion to keep my skin soft and
glowing. Add in the time for makeup, manicures and pedicures and all
those things you can see how I really have a very busy schedule these
days. But I find time to get everything done and greet Erik at the door
when he returns from work and we can play HONK! HONK! before supper and
then he can fuck my ass later on in bed!
I am So happy!