A Love So Bold
By Anon Allsop
Preface: Origins of the Amulet of Asclepius
The amulet was a thin medal of hammered silver, an ancient necklace
which dated back to before the time of Christ. It first came to
knowledge with the early Greeks, said to have been imbued with great
mystical powers, forged directly by the hands of the gods. On one side
of the amulet was a clear, blue sapphire teardrop that appeared to have
a sunburst deeply etched within the backside of the beautiful stone. On
the reverse side was an engraving that looked somewhat similar to the
Rod of Asclepius, a snake wrapped around a staff. It was believed to
have been suspended on a thin but unbreakable chain, thought to have
been made from woven strands of Zeus' own silver hair.
If touched to a person, the amulet was thought to cure the individual
of any injury or illness. Should the amulet be touched to a person who
was recently deceased, and if that dead had young and dependent
offspring, there was a possibility of the amulet transforming the
holder inadvertently, just to save the life of the orphan, especially
if the child had no way of fending for itself.
It was created to be used only as a last resort to save a life, and
only a chosen few caretakers knew its true origin. Over time, several
who held onto it for safekeeping began to use it on themselves so they
could experience unheard of life spans. Their addiction to the power
left them feeling as though they too were immortal. They had begun
comparing their own lives upon equal footing with the gods! Upon
hearing of this, it was said that Zeus became furious at their
blasphemy; he took it from them and threw it into a far distant land
where it became lost to the ages ever since...
-One-
With a failed farm behind them, Ezrah Garrett and his family set out
one early April morning in 1860. Frost hung thick on the bushes and
grassy low areas, almost looking as though it were snow. They only had
their courage, a solid wagon, two good oxen, an old milk cow, and his
father's prize possession: a thoroughbred race horse.
Ezrah had grown up along the banks of the Wabash, near the small town
of Delphi, Indiana. Ezrah and his parents began their trek into the
west, following the dream of good land for the taking in the far off
Oregon territory.
The Garrett family was no different from many families who set out for
the west. Illness, lack of water, too much water, intense cold,
sweltering heat, and Indians all impacted them along their way. While
this writing includes his trip into the west, it is about a more
personal journey young Ezrah took in getting from there, to Oregon.
Tired of the constant pitching of their wagon, Ezrah eventually begged
his father to allow him a chance to ride the great black horse. His
father relented and pulled his wagon out of the line and quickly showed
him how to saddle the sleek black thoroughbred, aptly named Blackie.
Under his father's watchful eye, Ezrah rode the horse slowly alongside
the wagon, ever careful to not do something that would have this
honored privilege revoked.
"Keep it slow, boy," his father would say. "Don't want him to stumble
and break a leg. That's good, son, don't ride too close to our wheel."
"Are you sure he'll be okay on Blackie? It is a powerful horse and he
is a young boy." Mother worried as she watched Ezrah sitting
confidently upon the back of the big horse.
"He's nearly a man honey; only three months shy of his eighteenth
birthday! You mother the lad too much - besides we don't want Blackie
to turn green from the lack of riding, the lad is doing the horse
good...and I'm pretty sure that Blackie is helping the boy as well."
Ezrah could barely hear his parents discussing him in the background,
because their conversation was nearly overwhelmed by the continual
squeaking of their wagon's wheels. He pulled his kerchief over his face
for the dust being stirred up from the leading wagons made the air
incredibly hard to breathe.
"Don't go too far out, Ezrah," his mother shouted.
"I'm okay, Mother; I am only as far up as our oxen. I think they like
me walking beside them," the youth replied, then quickly drew his
kerchief back over his nose for the dust that the wagon train was
kicking up.
His father looked skyward, pursed his lips and called out, "Going to be
raining soon, keep him close."
They rolled along for a few miles; the terrain always looked the same
as what they left behind. In the distance, the sky was streaked with
rain falling from a far off cloud. A worried glance that was exchanged
from wife to husband spoke volumes, so his father finally called Ezrah
in.
The wagon was slowed and Ezrah slid to the ground and quickly tied the
horse alongside their milk cow. They only stopped long enough for the
youth to remove the small racing saddle and were quickly on their way,
once again in their place within line.
He settled in beside his father upon the hard seat, and his mother now
behind them inside the wagon. The cool storm wind had intensified and
was too much for her delicate condition. She was pregnant, nearly four
months along.
They knew of the dangers of trying to give birth along the way, but it
could not be helped. Just beginning to show, the young mother prayed
that they would be able to get close to their destination before their
baby was born. After Ezrah, she gave birth to two who died very young;
one was stillborn, the other from illness. This child would be her
third and final try to get the young girl she coveted.
Thunder rumbled long and low and lightning flashed across the sky.
Ezrah studied his father for signs of concern but he found none. The
man hid his worry well. "Just a lightning storm is all, Ezrah. We'll be
fine."
"Will it rain?"
"It may." His father glanced back toward the horse tied behind their
wagon. "I'm more worried that Blackie will get spooked. He doesn't care
for storms much."
"I don't care for storms either," snapped a voice from deep within the
wagon.
Both father and son glanced back into the wagon, turned and shared a
knowing glance and smiled.
"Pa, do you think we'll see any Indians?" Ezrah asked with a slight
amount of trepidation.
His father shrugged, "Not sure, son, but I hope we don't." He again
scanned the sky and the deepening clouds, "Ever since that fool
soldier, Lieutenant Grattan, stirred up the Indians back in 1858,
there's been hell to pay trying to head west."
"Do tell, Pa," he asked softly, the wonderment evident in his voice.
Always eager to hear about battles, Ezrah perked up and turned his head
toward his father as he continued. "Seems an old cow wandered away from
a wagon train and this tribe of Indians found it. You see, son, they
were hungry and thought it was a gift from the Great Spirit and... Well
they ate it. When the Lieutenant found out he had a parlay with them
Indians and was told that it had been eaten."
"What happened next? Was that what caused the battle?" Ezrah asked.
"Well those Indians were saddened that they ate someone's cow and
offered to give a horse in trade but the Lieutenant Grattan wouldn't
hear of it. He had his solders fire on the tribe and killed and wounded
many of them Indians."
"So then it was over?" the youth asked, leaning forward eagerly.
"Oh no, you see the chief wouldn't let his braves fire back at them
soldiers... that made Grattan powerful angry and he had his men fire at
the Indians again and they killed that peace-loving chief. After that,
all hell has broken loose and hasn't let up since." He turned back
toward the oxen and watched a small patch of sunlight race across the
land toward them.
"I guess that would make them angry at us," Ezrah reasoned.
"Like hitting a hornets' nest with a stick." He sighed and looked at
his son with a smile, "The lesson there would be?"
Ezrah grinned, "Don't be hitting no hornets' nest with a stick." This
made his father laugh out loud; he shook his head and nickered to his
oxen. It began to rain but it was short lived, a swift storm that was
soon pushed beyond them. More of the little patches of sun racing
across the prairie could be seen, and eventually the sun returned and
the air grew still and dry.
"Can I ride Blackie again?" Ezrah looked toward his father hopefully.
"Not today, Ezrah, maybe you can ride him tomorrow sometime." He noted
the disappointment on his son's face so he continued, "I'm figuring
that it's going to be a long haul, so it would just make more sense
right now that you learn how to drive the wagon."
"Are you sure, John? He is just a lad," chimed the worried female from
behind.
He looked at his mother in frustration; at nearly eighteen many young
men his age were married by now with families of their own. He was
growing tired of her smothering him, wanting a chance to make decisions
on his own.
Ignoring her concern, he placed the reins in Ezrah's hands. "We'll have
you spelling me in no time." His wife sighed and he spoke with his head
turned so she could hear, "It'll be good, I may want to sleep or
walk... he can give me a break from time to time."
"Am I doing alright?" Ezrah asked.
"You're doing just fine, son." He leaned back, propped his feet on the
front of the wagon, pushed his hat back and folded his arms against his
chest. "Wake me when we get to Oregon."
The comment caused Ezrah to smile; he enjoyed helping his parents out
on such a long journey. His father was right - it was time that he
learned to pull his own weight on the trail, and he knew there would be
plenty enough of chances to prove himself along the way.
-Two-
The wagons continued to roll westward, as days piled upon days. The
constant groan of the wagons and lowing of the oxen seemed to make the
days drag on. The dust was unbearable; it made Ezrah itch and nearly
long for a stream to bathe in. His mother was now showing signs of the
baby. Ezrah knew they hoped for a girl but inwardly, he felt a boy
would be much better suited for this land.
At nightfall, the wagon train circled up for the evening. His father
always pointed their wagon's tongue toward the North Star so when they
woke up, they knew exactly which way to head out.
Ezrah noticed the men exchanging odd glances that evening. There was
concern in their expressions. Even though the lad was inexperienced to
the ways of the west, he knew they were in Indian country, and all of
them would have to be ever vigilant. Their very lives depended upon it.
Morning broke, and found the little family two days west of Fort
Laramie. The wagon train rolled slowly along, Ezrah was riding about a
hundred feet to the right of his own wagon. His father allowed his son
a bit of freedom to go out and come back, showing his trust he had in
him. While the father was quite sure of his son skill, Ezrah's mother
was constantly on pins and needles with worry.
Ezrah rode Blackie up a few wagons, but still within sight of his
father. He wanted to show off to his friend the big black thoroughbred
he had been bragging about the night before. He removed his hat and
wiped the sweat from his forehead, for the day was hot and very dry.
Far off to their right, dust was hanging high in the air. It was
evident to the boy that a dust storm was approaching.
Wheeling Blackie around, he trotted back to his father. "Pa, looks like
a dust storm is fixing to blow over us." He pointed as the horse
pranced, causing him to continually adjust the direction he had been
pointing.
His father rose up in the wagon, studying the area his son indicated.
"Not sure if that's a storm, son - I'll keep an eye on it though."
As Ezrah rode back up to his friend's wagon, another rider approached
his father, "What do you make of that, Lem?"
"Ezrah just showed me the same thing; he thought it was a dust storm
but I'm not sure." He pulled the cork on his canteen and took a quick
swallow.
"You don't suppose it's Indians, do you?" the mounted rider worried.
"It's probably just buffalo. They can move in a herd large enough to
kick up a big cloud of dust." He again glanced in the direction of the
great cloud and looked over at the mounted man, "Probably should let
the Wagon Master know, just in case."
As he began to ride off, Ezrah's father called out to the other man, "I
wouldn't say anything to anyone else; you don't want to spook the whole
train if there isn't anything to it."
The man slowly nodded and then quickly moved off to find the Wagon
Master. As he rode past Ezrah, the lad trotted the big black
thoroughbred over to the side of the wagon. "Keep within eyesight,
Ezrah."
"Okay Pa," the boy replied, and then looked again toward the advancing
cloud, "What did the man think it was?"
"Probably nothing... thought it might just be a big herd of buffalo."
He forced a smile to his son and continued to study the dust as it
approached.
"Maybe it's soldiers from Fort Laramie?" Ezrah offered.
His father nodded, "That's a good suggestion, son. I hadn't thought of
that."
Ezrah turned the big horse, moving slightly away from the wagon. He
wanted to see what a column of cavalry soldiers might look like, two or
four abreast with their grand pennant flying overhead, wearing their
smart blue uniforms. Perhaps it just may be a great migrating herd of
bison, as vast as his eye could see. One thing was for certain, the
dust cloud was getting closer.
The teen hesitantly glanced toward his wagon, and saw that his father
was preoccupied trying to turn the wagon and avoid hitting a large
rock. Ezrah slipped the big stallion behind an outcropping of rock and
worked his way toward the dust cloud. As he broke out around a boulder,
he knew that he was almost on top of whatever was creating the dust.
From where he currently was, he could tell that it was not a storm.
From his left and in the distance, he heard a rifle shot and then
another. The horse stepped into the open and he felt his stomach take a
sudden fall into the pit of his belly. Hundreds of Indians were
swarming the few wagons already attempting to form a circle.
As the Indians hit the wagons hard, shots rang out sounding more like a
battle than anything that Ezrah had ever heard. "Pa... Ma!" he cried as
he wheeled his father's horse back up the trail.
He stood up in the saddle, tears running down his cheeks, trying to
figure a way to get back with his parents. Just as his father had
implied, the Indians were swarming the train like angry hornets, racing
completely around and between them. They had hit the train so quickly
that the lead wagons weren't able to turn into the circle for
protection.
He sought out his parents; he could only see dust and Indians, each one
with their voices raised and whooping their call of victory. Ezrah
covered his ears and cried. Eventually as the maelstrom before him
subsided, the shooting became less frequent until there was a deafening
silence that enveloped all.
Ezrah stayed concealed until the Indians finally left, taking anything
worthwhile with them as plunder. By then it was well past dark. Slowly
he walked the big black horse down into the scene of the massacre;
everywhere he looked lay men, women and a few of the older children.
Wagons were burning, and smoke drifted across the lonesome prairie. In
the matter of what had been minutes, everything was gone.
He was trembling. "Ma...Pa!" he shouted as he walked Blackie among the
burned out wagons.
He found his parents' wagon; one of the oxen had been killed, and it
lay where it had fallen. The wagon was on its side, his father lay
beneath it. Ezrah raced to him and dug at the ground beside his father
until he could pull his body from under the long wooden bows that made
up the frame for the canvas cover. He had three arrows deeply imbedded
in his chest, these he removed, crying all the while he was doing it.
Tears coursed down his cheeks as he tugged and pulled him away from the
wagon, until he was a safe distance from the burning flames.
He looked back and raced to locate his mother, being a smaller woman he
was able to carry her much more easily to where his father lay. As he
knelt beside them crying he felt a touch upon his arm. His eyes
followed to where he felt the touch, it was his father's hand.
"Pa? You're alive!" he quickly wiped the tears away and hugged him.
His father grasped his arm and held him tightly, "Leave us. There is
nothing you can do for us now. Ma is gone...I'll soon follow."
"No, Pa, I'm not going to leave you!" Ezrah again began to cry; his
father slowly lifted his hand and touched his son's cheek.
He swallowed hard, looking up at his son with tears in his eyes. He
licked his lips, "In the wagon...in the bottom drawer, there's a tin." He
winced and coughed, "That tin has all the money left from the sale of
our farm and what we could save, if it ain't burnt, get it." He
motioned for Ezrah to go, and within moments he had returned holding
the blackened tin.
"Open it..." His father wheezed. "There's $954.00 in there...take it, build
the horse ranch I dreamed of." He arched his neck in pain, and then
coughed up blood.
"Get back on Blackie; put as much distance as you can from here. I'll
die well knowing you are still alive." Tears began to form in his
father's eyes as he gently reached out and took his wife's hand. "Go
on, son; don't worry about us... leave before they come back."
Ezrah slowly stood and wiped his tears; his father turned his face
toward his wife and gradually closed his eyes in death's eternal sleep.
Tears flowing and barely able to see, Ezrah sought out Blackie and fell
against the saddle. When he was able to compose himself, he hesitantly
climbed atop the horse. He sat quietly for a moment looking upon his
parents for what he knew would be the last time, angry at himself for
riding out on his own, but knowing that if he hadn't he would most
likely be dead as well.
-Three-
Two days west of the attack site, Ezrah was on foot walking the big
black horse in an effort to rest it. Ever since that terrible day, the
boy used every trick he could think of to elude the roving bands of
Indians. Unsure of whether they were those who attacked and killed his
parents, yet to him, all Indians were now suspect.
He was walking through a small canyon, and the echoing of Blackie's
hooves rattled within his ears even though he was trying to keep
silent. As they emerged from the other end, he saw a band of at least a
dozen Indians riding diagonally toward him. If he delayed too much,
they reach him in no time. He quickly mounted and took off across the
prairie in an attempt to outrun them.
When he heard the loud whooping, he knew that he had been seen and it
was the second time he had heard their telltale sound. The terrible
feeling once again returned to the pit of his stomach. Lying along the
back of the big horse, Ezrah entwined his fingers in the long black
mane of the horse. Still with the reins in his hands, he hung on for
dear life. The horse ran like the wind, ears flat back, tail out and
its long ebony main flailing in the terrified youth's face.
It did not take long for him to see that the Indian ponies and their
adult riders were no match for a thoroughbred racehorse and a skinny
teen who weighed thirty pounds less than they did. He began to distance
his pursuers; the powerful muscles rolling beneath Blackie's hide were
too much for the Indians smaller ponies.
They rode at break-neck speed for almost a half hour, until the boy
could no longer see the band of Indians in pursuit. Ezrah slowed the
horse down to a walk, but constantly kept looking back.
As he stroked the big horse's side he whispered, "Thank you, God...
thank you for providing Blackie."
The sun was dipping low on the horizon and the moon was promising to be
bright. Either way, Ezrah did not want to be caught in the open at
dark. As he walked the horse, he began to look for suitable shelter.
The youth was very hungry, and he was sure that the horse would be as
well. Unless they received a miracle, they would not eat again tonight.
The sun began casting long shadows as Ezrah came to the edge of a
butte; he looked down and over a vast valley. There nearly a mile down
stood a solitary building. Even from where he stood there was scarring
damage from an old fire.
One last time he looked back and stared for a good long while, trying
to see if there was movement along the horizon. Satisfied, he slowly
began to pick his way down the incline to the bottom. As night washed
over the sky, Ezrah worked his way toward the tiny ramshackle building.
He began to look all around him fearfully because as night set in, the
valley took on a sinister appearance. Thankfully, they soon arrived at
the shack. He walked inside; part of the roof had collapsed, and arrows
were embedded in the door frame and walls, but it still appeared solid.
He took Blackie inside with him; the shack would offer both of them
protection from the night.
On the less destroyed side of the building, Ezrah found a candle and
three matches lying on the floor near the old fireplace. He ruined two
of them before he finally was able to light the candle. Placing it in
an old can, he slowly carried it through the cabin and investigated his
surroundings.
In what was left of the kitchen, he found a door to the root cellar.
Opening it, he carefully made his way down the steep ladder still
carrying the candle. At the bottom of the cellar, he began to search
the bins for a potato or carrot or something that would fill his
stomach.
He found a burlap bag that looked like it could have been oats or corn
meal; in the light from the candle he decided it was corn. He dipped
his hand in it; it seemed dry enough and not too mealy. Nearby, he
found two onions, a single potato, and an apple with one side that was
bad. All were placed in the bag.
He held the candle up, studying if there was anything overhead that may
be edible, possibly hanging from the rafters. Far above his head, he
saw the glint of something gold. Moving closer, he noticed that it was
an old necklace that had been caught between the floorboards. Ezrah
tried to reach it but it was still at least a foot out of his reach and
there appeared to be nothing that he could stand on.
He grabbed the burlap bag and slowly made his way back up the ladder
into the kitchen. Forgetting his hunger, he set the bag aside and began
to calculate where he saw the gold necklace hanging. Pulling aside
several burnt beams, he found the area where he thought it would be.
Lowering himself to his hands and knees, he began to dust the floor
carefully until he found a glint of gold lying amongst the debris. Only
a couple of the links were sticking above the floor. Into these he
inserted a straight pin that he found among the rubble, and then turned
it so it spanned both boards and wouldn't allow the chain to fall the
rest of the way into the cellar.
Using a broken pot handle, he began to pry the boards apart, attempting
to spread them enough to simply pull the necklace through. He took hold
of the pin and slowly pulled out the chain. As he began to retrieve it,
the medallion on the end became stuck in the narrow gap between the
boards.
Getting a second bite with his makeshift pry-bar, he spread them
further and simply pulled the medallion on through. He smiled as the
strange little amulet spun in a slow circle, reflecting back a tiny bit
of candle light that reflected upon its surface.
He quickly dropped it into his shirt pocket only to hear it hit the
floor of the room. Inserting his fingers into the offending hole, he
began cursing to himself as he felt around in the darkness until he
once again found the chain. Not wanting to lose it for a second time,
he slipped it on over his head, and let it dangle against his chest.
He settled down and removed the onions, potato and apple from the bag,
then made an improvised feed bag for the horse using an old rope. As
Blackie sat quietly munching on the corn meal, the boy cut the bad
spots from the onions and potato and began eating them. While he
chewed, he inspected the apple, cutting off the bad portion from it.
After cutting a piece of it for himself and finding it over-ripe, and
much too soft, he fed the remainder to Blackie.
While he didn't care for the onion like he would have a fresh apple, he
thought fondly back to the onion sandwiches that his mother would make
for his father and him early on the trail. The memory of those
sandwiches and the special times he had with his parents carried him
through. It was in no time before he realized that he was quietly
chewing on the potato.
His meager meal would not be fit for a king, yet it sufficed and helped
quell his hunger. He remembered praying to find something for Blackie
and him to eat while out on the prairie, and here was his miracle. He
drifted off to sleep shortly afterward, very tired, but no longer
hungry.
-Four-
Morning broke and young Ezrah awoke with a shaft of blinding sun
directly in his eyes. He groaned and slowly regained his feet. There
was a small portion of the corn meal that Blackie couldn't get in the
very bottom of the bag, so he emptied this into his hand and fed it to
the horse.
While still in the old ramshackle shack, he saddled Blackie and
carefully walked through the rubble to reach the outside of the
building. Eagerly he mounted the back of the horse and once again,
started riding with the sun at his back. It was already very warm and
sticky, and he knew the day would be hot.
As the sun climbed higher in the sky, Ezrah stood on the ground and
wiped the sweat from his eyes. He had seen no sign of Indians all
morning, and was thankful for it. For the moment, he was trying to
locate a place in the shade for them to cool down and wait for dark.
About two hours later, the pair stumbled across an old creek-bed. As
Blackie began digging with his hooves, water began to seep into the
hole. The two then took turns drinking the dirty water until their
thirst was sated. The teen wished he had searched the house for
something that he could have carried water in; instead they had left
without giving it nary a thought.
Once again they set out, still heading west. Ezrah was on the ground
walking slowly in an attempt to keep Blackie fresh if they should need
to flee. He broke over a rise and saw wagon tracks in the grasses;
there had been many through this very spot over the years. He only
hoped that he could find a train to hook up with.
For miles, he continued to follow the tracks, the scene only changing
when he would pass a discarded piece of furniture or a grave. Seeing
the crudely made crosses saddened him, for it tore at his mind and soul
that he never buried his parents. However, he knew that his father had
been right; had he remained much longer he might have lost his life
too.
As the late afternoon sun lengthened the shadows, Ezrah came across a
wagon. There were several arrows embedded in its structure. He quickly
dropped to his knees behind a clump of tall prairie grass, forgetting
the black horse that stood only feet behind him, towering over his
head.
He scanned in every direction around him, searching for any sign of
their attackers. He gradually rose up and began walking toward the
wagon. In the distance another wagon was laying on its side; it too had
several arrows within it.
The lad hesitantly inched his way to the first wagon he saw. Its
contents were of household items, nothing he could use. The second
wagon had a can of peaches that had been wedged under the frame of the
wagon.
He found a canteen lying in the tall grass, only about ten feet off the
trail. There was a dent in its front but it didn't look punctured, from
the heft, it seemed to be holding something. Ezrah pulled the plug and
cautiously took a sip, but the water inside was extremely hot and quite
brackish. Immediately he spit out the water, and then he reluctantly
poured out the remainder on the ground; he hoped that this act wasn't a
mistake and he would be able to locate cleaner water soon.
He hung the canteen on the horn of the saddle, and then continued to
walk among the debris of the two wagons. He found two graves near the
second wrecked wagon, each marked with a crude cross. From their looks
of the young weeds that were already starting to grow, Ezrah guessed
that the graves were a couple of weeks old.
He continued on, afraid of loitering for too long, in the area where
two more lost their lives to Indians. There were still tracks moving
westward, and he followed these on foot, allowing Blackie a chance to
rest...well into the setting sun. With miles from the last attack behind
him and the moon nearly full, Ezrah again climbed upon Blackie and
started to ride in the cool air of the evening.
In the haunting shadows of the dark, Blackie pulled up short and
silently stood like a great sentential in the night, ears turning to
pick up something he had heard. Ezrah strained his ears, trying to
listen for anything out of the ordinary. Suddenly the big horse's' head
swung and its ears perked straight up to catch every nuance of sound.
Ezrah turned his head in the same direction; he too thought he heard
something far off, a strange sound faintly carried by the wind. A slow
chill ran up the lad's back. He fearfully looked toward the trail he
had been following, then again looked into the darkness toward the
sound he had heard. It sounded like deep sobbing; it was far off but
unmistakable.
Again the strange sound repeated itself and he shivered in fear. He
tried desperately to convince himself that it was just the wind. It had
almost worked, but on the second instance of what he heard, he knew
that the sound was quite human. Again he looked toward the west where
the trail met the starry night sky, but slowly turned the horse toward
the sound.
He and Blackie carefully worked their way toward a line of trees near a
rocky outcropping. Ezrah estimated that he was a mile from the trail he
had been following. He climbed down and quietly picked his way through
the grasses, weeds and rocks.
Again his horse froze, ears perked and turned toward the rocks. Ezrah
cautiously approached as wild stories raced through his mind. Stories
of the sounds the Indians made to draw unsuspecting people to their
traps. He neared a tree and tied Blackie's reins to a branch, then
hesitantly continued toward the rocks.
Like a banshee's cry, the sound echoed around the rocks and to the
boy's ears. He stumbled and fell trying to return to the horse's side.
No attack came, no pursuit from a grim reaper closed in. Swallowing
hard, Ezrah regained his feet and inched his way toward the rocks, his
mind a whirl as images of what it could be raced through.
Again there was a softer sound, much like a young infant would have
made. He tipped his head, hearing it for a second time, slowly working
his way around a large boulder. He felt that on the other side, would
be the creature that he thought he was hearing.
Just peering around the edge of the great rock, with only the moon and
stars for light, he saw what had been making the sound. It was a woman;
even in the moonlight he could see that her hair was brilliantly red.
As he looked on, he realized that she had a great bloody patch on the
bodice of her dress, with an arrow shaft protruding from her chest.
Forgetting the reason that he was trying to be cautious, he raced to
the poor woman's aide. Kneeling beside her he examined the shaft of the
arrow; it looked as though it was buried near her heart or possibly a
lung. She was still breathing, but barely alive.
Not too far from where she lay, Ezrah saw a very small pool of water,
the remainder of an earlier rainstorm. He quickly scrambled to his feet
and raced back to the big black horse; he untied the reins and led it
to the water-hole. As he retrieved his found canteen, he promptly
rinsed it out and refilled it with the clean, cool water.
Leaving the horse to drink, he raced back to the woman and lifted her
head to allow her to drink. Even in the light of the moon he could tell
she had blisters from lying in the sun, he poured a slight amount into
his finger, then dabbed the water across her parched lips. She stirred,
moaning in pain.
Ezrah supported her head and held the canteen as she sipped the water.
Slowly her eyes fluttered open and she looked up at the boy, partially
in surprise, partially in relief.
"You'll be okay, lady; I promise I won't leave you alone out here." He
again allowed her to sip the water, pulling it away only as she began
coughing.
As she coughed, little flecks of foamy blood fell against her bodice.
He didn't need to have a doctor beside him to know that she had been
shot through the lung. "There are some trees here, I can probably rig
up a travois like the Indians use and we can..." He began to prattle as
she gently touched his arm.
"I won't make it, we both know that." She wheezed, "I'm grateful...
that you came though."
"No, lady, you'll be fine," he replied, trying to sound convincing.
As he sat holding the canteen, he heard a soft sound coming from beside
the injured woman. He then noticed movement and the woman gently pulled
a portion of her skirt aside, revealing the baby that was concealed by
the material.
Instantly, the boy realized that this revelation would compound the
issue even greater. He glanced toward the mother; she was young perhaps
in her early twenties. Her pretty face was sad with regret. "Can... can
you hand her to me?" she softly asked.
Ezrah gently lifted up the child and placed it in her mother's arms.
"Did you have her out here?"
She weakly nodded and replied, "Months back... along... the trail." then
began to unbutton her bodice; her fingers no longer with the dexterity
necessary to function in her weakened state. Her hands dropped to her
side, "Please." she whispered, "I can't... myself."
"Lady, I..." Ezrah stammered, afraid of what he thought she was asking.
"I'm dying... she needs to nurse... one last time." as she spoke, Ezrah
stepped to her side and slowly fumbled with the buttons. This was the
first time he had ever been this near to a woman's exposed breast.
As he finished with her buttons, he aided her by raising the baby up to
the exposed teat where it could nurse. The opposite side of the bodice
was pinned to her bloodied chest with the arrow.
There were tears in the woman's eyes as she watched her daughter nurse,
perhaps for the last time. The ashen color of the woman's face spoke
volumes to Ezrah, it was of the same color that his own mother wore the
last time he saw her.
Turning away, Ezrah did not want her to see him crying. He had
witnessed death before and did not want to watch this woman die. He
walked to the water, knelt, and splashed it onto his face. He took his
kerchief that had been tied around his neck and rinsed it in the cool
water. He stood up and moved Blackie to a tree that would allow him
shade, come daylight and still be near enough to the water, should he
want to drink. There he removed the saddle and hung it over a large
rock. While casting a backwards glance at the woman as she shared her
last moment with the baby, he brushed Blackie down with wads of dried
grass.
After he finished he washed his hands and moved to the bag he had taken
from the shack. He removed the can of peaches from it and began to cut
the top open with the blade of his small pocket knife. Carrying it
carefully to the woman he settled beside her and offered her a peach,
"Excuse the fingers, lady."
She smiled and took a tiny bite, her eyes closed as if she was savoring
her final meal. Ezrah's mind was trying to figure out what he would do
with the baby after she passed, because there was no way he could care
for her without the mother around to feed her.
"So, you was attacked by Indians on the trail?" he spoke as he offered
her another bite of the peach.
She nodded, "They came fast... on us before we knew they were there."
She commenced to coughing deeply, with each one the shaft of the arrow
bounced viciously. Sighing, she leaned her head back and looked into
the sky.
"Find my family, take her to them." She began coughing again.
"Lady, I don't even know your family's name! For all I know, they was
killed by those same Indians that got you!" he shouted in frustration.
As he sat there mulling over her plea, he felt ashamed for yelling at a
dying woman.
"I'm Hannah... Hannah Shepherd... my baby... her name is Emma... named
after Gideon's mother." She again began coughing profusely, so the boy
held the canteen for her to take another long drink that seemed to
quell it for the time being.
"You said 'Gideon', is that your husband?" She nodded in response, and
looked down at the infant nursing. There were tears in her eyes.
"I have a son... he's four... Cade." She looked up at Ezrah, and then
looked out across the prairie; tears were beginning to fall down her
cheeks. "I should have been a better wife...to him...I was so spiteful and
angry."
"Spiteful? Angry?" Ezrah asked, thinking this poor dying woman could
never possess a spiteful bone in her body.
She continued, "When the Indians came...I jumped from the wagon...with
Emma...I ran." Her gaze was still off in the distance, "I ruined
everything..."
"You can't talk that way, Hannah," Ezrah reasoned, "By running - you
may have given your family a chance to escape."
She coughed and turned toward Ezrah, her voice remarkably clear and
determined. "Promise me that you will find them." She studied the lad's
face for several long moments. "You promise me, boy..." She suddenly
realized that she never had asked the youth's name, her questioning
look said what her voice could not.
"I'm Ezrah."
"Promise me, Ezrah..." She again demanded, grabbing him forcefully by
his shirt, "Promise me that you will find Gideon!"
There were tears clinging to Ezra's cheeks as he nodded, "As long as
there is a breath in my body, I will find your Gideon. I will take your
Emma home." As he sat looking down at the woman, her eyes slowly
drifted downward and her grasp on his shirt relaxed with the onset of
death.
-Five-
Ezrah quickly reached down and untangled the deceased woman's thumb
from his necklace, then reverently placed Hannah's hand by her side.
The infant had finished nursing and he gently lifted the baby from
Hannah's arms, sitting her down upon the portion of dress material that
had originally been covering her.
As he sat back upon the ground with hands upon his knees, he began to
take notice of her face. It looked subtly different. He knew some of
what happened after one of God's creatures passed, how time would break
down the tissue until nothing but bones were left. But... this was
different. Something strange was happening right before his eyes.
He was he puzzled, as he could actually witness changes to her feminine
structure right as it happened; it was miniscule, but was happening in
front of him nonetheless. As her shoulders began to widen and her arms
lengthened from her half-sleeves, he looked around in fear and quickly
stood holding her child as if to protect her from whatever was going
on.
He backed away as a lump, halfway down the front of her neck, began to
grow outward. It seemed to be forming into an uncharacteristically
misplaced Adams apple, especially on a female as pretty as she had
been. As the shock of what he was seeing overwhelmed him, he clutched
the baby tighter, backing even further away. Almost as an afterthought,
his own hand felt for the bulbous Adams apple of his own. In panic he
frantically felt again, fear of what was happening to her perhaps
infecting him. He could no longer feel his Adam's apple upon his own
throat!
Hair began to tickle his neck, in panic; he reached up he felt the
growing tresses as they fell over his collar. "What is going on!" he
cried in fear, his young voice echoing against the large boulders that
surrounded them. Each desperate cry slowly began inching up in octave
until he could no long recognize his own voice! He retrieved a lock
that had begun snaking down the front of his shirt and pulling the ever
lengthening hair out to see; it was brilliantly red, just like the
young mother's had been!
"What have you done to me?" he cried aloud at the body of the woman, as
more and more of the red hair cascaded over his narrowing shoulders.
"No! Please no!" he cried as he realized that the pants he had been
wearing no longer fit. His waist now began to grow narrower and the
pants became very loose as opposed to his hips where they became snug
as the time progressed. His shadow cast upon the ground was
unmistakable, his hips were somehow widening!
He stepped back a few more feet, stumbled and fell onto his bottom
hard. He narrowly escaped injury to the baby in his arms as he was able
to hold her in front as he fell. Tears were coursing down his cheeks as
he desperately tried to remove himself from whatever strange magic had
somehow befallen him.
As Ezrah placed his hand upon the ground for support, trying to regain
his feet, he slowly stood. His eyes never left his fingers, holding
them out in front of him; he stared in wonderment as they gradually
morphed from his stubby round nails to slender fingers with long,
tapered nails that extended slightly past their respective fingertips.
His hands were slowly mirroring a woman's!
His terrified eyes darted toward where Hanna lay in death. Ezrah
hesitantly stepped closer. What was it about her that looked so
familiar? As the horror of the situation suddenly washed over and
enveloped him, he realized that Hannah was slowly beginning to
resemble... him!
In fear he staggered to the water-hole and peered over the edge, using
its surface like a mirror. What he saw in his reflection, made his
heart fall, seemingly only to crash into the pit of his stomach. There
was no denying what his eyes were seeing - he was slowly transforming
into an exact copy of Hannah! That fact was being driven home by the
gradual expanse he was witnessing upon his chest. As if being filled
from within, his chest was enlarging, drawing upon his skin, pulling
outward and down by gravity. Hanna's haunting green eyes looked back
from the reflection as terror etched into Ezrah's slowly transforming
face.
"This can't be happening..." he cried as he tried to push them back in,
but painfully had to cease for fear of dropping Emma, and the
discomfort he felt by pressing against them. In anger he ran to her
side, the shaft of the arrow still standing out from her chest, and
placed her child on the ground beside him.
Falling to his knees beside her he cried out in agonizing pain, as his
breasts continued to expand, now filling with the life giving fluid
that her baby needed. "NO!" he shouted, and then fell prone onto his
side in despair. His confusion only compounded by the changes he could
see on both Hanna's corpse and on him. His head fell forward and
copious amounts of wavy red tresses fell like a shroud around his face.
Deep racking and very feminine sobs were emitted from his throat, as he
looked upon the form that he once claimed. Only now for him, there was
a shaft from an Indian's arrow sticking straight from his chest. He
reached out with a slender trembling hand and touched the shaft of the
arrow. Tears began rolling down his feminized cheeks as he realized
just how very real this had become.
His head became light, swirling black tendrils seemed to engulf him. He
fought hard, but as the sweat began to bead his upper lip, he began to
lose consciousness. Trying to stand only made it worse. He fell in a
faint, laying only inches from where Hannah had died. Her young baby
lay in between them.
-Six-
As Ezrah dreamt, far off he could hear the sound of a train whistle.
The closer it came to him, the louder it became, sounding much like he
was laying right there on the tracks. The shrill train whistle
screaming like a banshee woke him and caused the youth to bolt upright,
his now unfettered feminine breasts seemed to have a life of their own.
As they settled he looked down, a great wet spot saturated the front of
his chest, right at their very summit.
"Oh shit!" he cursed as he sat up and felt the front. There was no
mistaking that by becoming Hanna, he was now lactating. He looked over
at the baby fussing and crying, and tried desperately to ignore her,
but it was no use. It was the baby crying that made him dream of the
train, and it seemed the more she cried, the wetter Ezra's shirt
became. As he sat up, his eyes came into contact with the body of the
woman, although she was an exact duplicate of what he had once looked
like... only wearing the bloodied dress.
Ezrah stood and took stock in his own changes. He could no longer hold
claim to the male vernacular, no - he was now a she. He had somehow
transformed into Hannah! His shadow, now growing longer in the
afternoon sun, was unmistakably feminine, and even he could see that.
From head to foot, he would never pass as a boy again.
Ezrah glared at the baby crying, and stepped over the corpse with the
arrow shaft and cautiously grasped it and with a slow steady pull,
attempted to retrieve it from the boy. It was all he could do with his
diminished strength. All of a sudden, the shaft broke and he fell
backwards to the ground hard. As a male, he often found that his
strength nearly matched that of his father, but now... he was a
pitifully weak female.
It was quite shocking to see his former body, lying in death and
wearing the trappings of the young mother. He was completely perplexed
on how any of this was possible. He could think of nothing that would
allow this to happen in either nature or science, and yet it had... he
was a direct result of it.
Again the young baby began to fuss; again he continued to ignore it. He
leaned over; the long red tresses seemed to have grown even more and
slid off his narrow shoulder and hung before his face. In one sweeping
motion, he flipped it behind his neck. He imagined that if he would
have been watching from a distance, the movement would have been
decidedly feminine. He paused and placed his tiny hands against his
temples, "Just how far will this transformation take me?" He spoke
aloud, but the more he thought about the possible answer, the more it
scared the hell out of him!
He leaned across the body and tried to move the arm of the boy, but it
was evident that rigor mortis had already set in. He stood and brushed
the dirt from his knees, and the movement again set his unwanted
breasts in motion. He stood and walked to the water hole, completely in
a funk on what his next step would be...or should be.
He sat down on a large rock, facing his former self and the tiny baby
as she fussed and cried. "How is this even possible? How can I get back
to my old self?" he asked himself. His shirt grew more and more
uncomfortable with an ever-expanding area of wetness. He looked down,
and sadly shook his head, again sending the luxurious red tresses
swinging.
His eyes returned to the corpse, the ashen skin reflecting the death
state it was in. He could not fathom how strange it was to see the
'dead' Ezrah lying so near, wearing the dress the woman had died in. He
frowned and looked down imagining the emptiness of his own crotch. He
knew without a doubt that there was nothing between his legs now...
although that wasn't entirely true, he now possessed the female
equivalent of what he once had claimed.
He anguished over what he had to do, but it was needed. Slowly he stood
and returned to the side of the corpse, bent down and gently picked up
a rock. Slowly and methodically, he began to cover the body, and as he
did, he bawled like the woman he had suddenly become.
As he finished, he stood, his shirt was saturated from chest to waist.
His new feminine breasts ached painfully, and try as he might he could
not ignore them any longer. He unbuttoned his shirt and took it to the
water.
The huge breasts of Hannah's seemed to defy gravity, standing straight
out painfully. Ezrah winced as he brushed his engorged breast when he
removed his shirt. He knew what was needed but he would be damned if he
would stoop to such a low state, baby or no baby. He knelt at the side
of the water and slowly washed the milk from his shirt, continually
casting hateful glances at the orbs that adorned his slender chest.
To him, they were huge! Giant feminine globes that had no business on
his chest! As he squeezed the water out of the shirt, he frowned as
each breast seemed to conspire to get in his way. Each was painfully
bouncing against the other with every simple movement. As he again
dipped the shirt and began ringing it out, tiny droplets of milk leaked
out from each nipple and fell into the water.
"NO, DAMN IT!" he screamed. "I won't do it!"
Yet the pain and discomfort only continued to worsen. He could ignore
the screaming child behind him, and he could even ignore the way each
breast swung and bounced with movement, but he could not ignore the
pain as it was nearly bringing tears to his eyes.
He sat back on his haunches in defeat, crying from the ache that he was
feeling, his hands sadly attempting to both cover and conceal them in
embarrassment. He looked down at the large protuberances that extended
outward from his chest, their blue veins clearly visible to even his
own eyes. And somewhere within that globe, the little ducts that
created the milk were working overtime, conspiring to make Ezrah's life
miserable.
He looked at Emma in defeat, then slowly raised himself up and laid his
shirt on a boulder to dry. To him, walking the few steps toward the
baby was much like walking toward the gallows. He knew that if he broke
down and performed this necessary function to ease his own discomfort,
he would be stuck doing it until he was able to figure out how to
change back, if he even could. Or worse yet, until she could leave Emma
her with her father
He sat down beside the pile of rocks, the shade once again stretching
out beyond the little water-hole. He frowned as he picked up the crying
Emma; almost as soon as he had she calmed down and turned her tiny face
toward the leaking teat he offered, it was as though the infant could
smell the milk. Her tiny mouth began making the motion of sucking
before she even closed upon the teat. Once she had a firm grasp, Emma
latched on and began her rhythmic sucking much to Ezrah's
consternation.
He winced as her little mouth began moving in earnest, her tiny tongue
pressing against the teat forcing the milk into her mouth. The pain he
endured was almost as unbearable as the fullness he had felt. He bit
his lip as she continued on and on, so hungry had she been. He tried to
occupy his mind, watching birds soaring high overhead, a lizard
scurrying across the ground... yet, strangely his gaze kept coming back
to the child at his... no, nursing at her breast.
She realized that as she looked now, even in the old boy clothes, she
could never pass as a male. Yet it was too hard to think of herself as
anything other than Ezrah. She sighed deeply as she continued to watch
Emma nurse, the slight movement of her temples and jaw the only portion
of her that moved. Her tiny nose so close to the warm skin of the
exposed breast.
Looking down at the top of her head, the slightly reddish tint to her
blonde hair, she realized that without her in this current form, Emma
would most likely die. Forced to continue wiping the exposed nipple of
the breast opposite to what the child was currently nursing with a
slender finger, she noticed that the little necklace she had found was
gone.
Her eyes darted toward the huge pile of rock that the corpse lay under,
somewhere under all that weight probably lay her necklace. Frowning and
realizing that there was no way he was about to remove all of those
stones to locate the lost item, a cheap trinket that probably wasn't
worth more than a silver dollar.
"I guess it wasn't meant to be, was it, Emma," she quipped, his voice
now much higher of a timbre and soft like Hanna's had been. She moved
the child to the other breast and wiped the one Emma had been using,
all the while wondering if this is what life had become for her. "I'm
nothing more than a milk cow for you, isn't that right, Emma," she
complained to the infant at her breast in a sing-song voice.
She needed to make some decisions now, decisions that could prove to
shape the remainder of his life. 'His?' he thought. Stifling a laugh
she glanced down at the two unfettered globes she now possessed. "I
can't claim to be a male anymore - that's pretty obvious."
It irked her how her voice now sounded, almost mocking her in its
femininity, softly sounding like the woman she had become. Again she
looked down upon the infant nursing at her breast, what would she do
now that they were alone? She had promised to Hannah that she would try
to find Gideon, but that was before... this.
And what of Emma, she thought to herself, should she raise the infant
as her own in the meantime? She frowned, as she watched the little one
nurse, "Anyone who sees us will be certain that you're mine."
She shook her head and sadly looked toward the heavens; the early
evening sky was washed with hues of pink and yellow. A cool breeze blew
over her teat; it caused her to look down. Emma had dropped off to
sleep; her hold on the nipple had become lost.
Using her slender finger, she wiped the little drop of milk from Emma's
chin. She raised the baby up to her bare shoulder and began to softly
pat her tiny back. She felt lost, having no clue on how to be a parent,
let alone a mother seemed unfathomable to her. What she needed to know
wasn't taught in schools, so she would have to learn on the fly.
Normally a woman would have a lifetime to prepare, where she only had
minutes! Hopefully it would be as his mother had once said, "Anything
that doesn't kill you only makes you stronger."
-Seven-
Placing the baby on the soft grass, she stood and touched the shirt she
had worn as Ezrah, trying to see if it had finally dried. Gathering it
up she quickly threw it over her shoulders, as a boy she would have
preferred to go buck naked... now that she actually thought about it,
there was a pang of embarrassment of seeing herself with no covering.
The sleeves were slightly long, but buttoning them fixed this slight
problem. The shirt was big in the shoulders, and as she buttoned it up,
horribly stretched over her new breasts. She looked down at the open
gaps between the puckered buttons, sighing.
She hefted the canteen, pulled the cork and took a drink. While it was
nearly full and moderately refreshing, it was not cool in the least.
Pouring it on the grass, she refilled it with the cool water from the
water-hole, and then re-corked it.
Bending over and low, with her hands in the water, she realized that
she needed to pee badly. She stood and leaned the canteen against a
rock and turned toward the brush to relieve herself.
Quickly undoing the buttons that held together the fly, she reached in
to retrieve her penis. The shock of finding nothing in contact with his
hand made him momentarily panic. Then as her new reality set in, it
came as no real surprise. He groused to himself as he was forced to
completely remove his pants and urinate as would any other female.
Without a normal woman's years of practice, the entire necessary chore
was well beyond her comprehension.
She placed her feet far away and very wide apart, then slowly leaned
her shapely bottom against a large boulder. The surface was quite rough
against her soft feminine skin. It was an entirely different set of
muscles to control; eventually she knew that she succeeded as her urine
splattered against the rock and the backs of her legs.
With a groan she looked down at the ground, sighing in defeat at her
hopeless predicament. Tearing at a handful of grasses she wiped the
unfamiliar area and attempted to clean her legs where she splattered
them. She pushed her large breasts aside and stared at the junction of
her legs, afraid to touch it for fear of something else nearly as
terrible happening. Casting the grass aside she slowly pulled up her
pants and refastened them. All the while wondering how a woman could
put up living like this... and now she would be stuck as one for the
remainder of her life unless by some miracle she could figure out what
had caused the unwelcome transformation.
A stirring to her left startled her. She turned her head quickly, her
long wavy red hair flipping out from the motion. It had been the infant
moving, yet Emma was soundly sleeping in the grass. The new Hannah
walked over to Blackie, she moved him closer to the saddle that Ezrah
had removed earlier. Soothingly speaking to the huge horse now made
even more imposing because of her diminished size as a female.
Blackie kept sidling away from the unfamiliar woman, yet her
persistence paid off and she eventually got the blanket on him. She
turned and lifted up the saddle, and stumbled due to its greater weight
compared to her weaker muscles. For nearly fifteen minutes she wrestled
with the saddle and horse until she was finally able to place it on its
back.
Gently massaging the feeling back into her slender arms, she decided
that they could not remain here for much longer; the water was a
Godsend, but what meager food she had was almost gone. Hanging the long
strap of the canteen on the saddle horn, she stood back looking at the
huge horse, and then glancing toward the tiny baby... somehow she had
to get both Emma and herself up upon that saddle.
Walking Blackie to a large rock she held him there as she bent down to
scoop up the infant. It was a precarious situation in her weakened
state trying to mount the horse with one arm, and maintain her grip on
little Emma, yet she managed.
Settling in the saddle she inwardly thought of how high she now felt,
not to mention just how wide the saddle had become since her
transformation. It wasn't uncomfortable, just very wide. Placing a
slender arm around the baby, she held the reins in her opposite hand.
With one last look back at the grave that marked Hanna... no in truth
it was Ezrah laying under those rocks... in a dress. They began their
journey; the unlikely pair began riding, as the first twinkling stars
were visible in the night sky.
-Eight-
Tears filled her eyes as she rode into the dark, back toward the trail
where she had found the canteen. In the bright moonlight, she found the
trail and once again headed west. Behind her she left her former
identity, a corpse forever clothed in feminine garments.
She glanced behind her; the trees and rocks were only a blackened
shadow upon the horizon. Ezrah's passing was now only marked by the
pile of stone covering the young mother's body...it was too confusing!
Grimly she wondered if hundreds of years from now, some archaeologist
like those who have stumbled upon the strange bones of past monsters,
might locate the altered bones of... Ezrah. What might they think about
him, wondering why he was clothed as he had been?
She sighed, and looked down at the tiny charge asleep in her arms. She
felt sorry for herself... to be so young and saddled with such great
responsibility. She knew that women all over this great big world have
been taking on responsibilities like this for thousands of years, so
why should she be any different?
The situation she found herself in was overwhelming; her mind became a
vast turmoil of emotion. She constantly sobbed in desperation as the
baby and she rode slowly in the dark. Her legs ached because in her new
form she was slightly shorter than Ezrah had been; this made the
stirrups too long, and forced her to dangle her legs from each side
with only her toes touching the stirrup. She had forgotten to adjust
them prior to leaving, and the added weight of her legs hanging was
causing them to become numb.
To alleviate the tingling feeling of numbness, she was forced to stand
from time to time, but it didn't help for very long, as she was only
able to rise up on her toes to alleviate the numbness for only a short
while. She knew that at some point when she climbed down from the tall
horse, she had to be extremely careful with Emma or she could fall.
As night wore on, she had to stop in the middle of nowhere, long enough
to nurse the child. After her earlier lesson back at the water-hole,
she did not want a repeat and as much as it loathed her to admit, it
did provide necessary relief from the discomfort of being 'full'.
It had become cloudy during the night so as morning broke, she and
little 'Em' rode on. She had given the child the 'nick-name' while she
nursed her during the night. It wasn't as formal sounding and to her
ears, would be simple enough to use from day to day.
As the day wore on, she became hungrier and hungrier. Blackie was fine
because there was plenty of grass for him to eat, and nursing Em would
take care of the immediate need of the infant. But what had her
concerned the most is that if she couldn't eat, and it was prolonged
for more days, it meant that her body would produce less and less milk
for the baby. Even though she could hold out for a day, she needed to
eat for the both of them. She worried as she contemplated what needed
to be done; already she loathed thinking like a 'responsible' woman.
Again her mind returned to the newness of responsibility, it was more
important to her now than ever as Ezrah. All he ever had to worry about
was whether he fed the animals and cleaned their stalls before bedtime.
Now as Em's... surrogate mother, she literally held the fate of the tot
in her hands.
Always she would scan the horizon looking for sign of Indians or better
yet, other settlers headed west, abandoned wagons... anything that may
help her and Em live another day. As the afternoon approached, with
arms aching from continually holding the infant, only gaining a moment
of respite when she shifted her to the opposite arm. She spied an
abandoned wagon down in a shallow ravine. Cautiously she rode Blackie
to it.
It wasn't a wagon as she had initially thought; it was a small two
wheeled cart. It was just about all she could do to lower herself down
from the large horse without dropping baby Em, thankfully she was able
to step into the tongue of the cart and remain there until the feeling
returned again to her legs.
She placed Em in the front of the cart; the back end was high into the
air with all the weight resting on the tongue. She slowly walked around
the little cart, examining it, looking for any reason why it would have
been abandoned. She guessed that it couldn't have been there for longer
than two weeks as the harnesses were still on the ground where they had
been dropped. Slowly she moved Blackie to a tree and tied the reins
fast, removed the saddle and blanket, putting them into the back of the
little cart.
She moved back to the harnesses and stood examining them, making sure
that everything was there. Meanwhile, it began to sprinkle. She picked
up Em and then noticed a wooden box under the seat. Inside of it was a
bottle of liquor and a bag of pipe tobacco, and underneath the tobacco
were three home-canned jars of bread and butter pickles.
The rain grew steady, so Hannah moved Em and the box beneath the cart,
and then crawled beneath it. As the rain continued to fall she took
time out to clean up herself and crudely changed Em. With the onset of
darkness, she had pried open one of the jars and using her fingers, and
ate the contents within. The first few bites she was unsure if she
liked them, but the combination of onion, dill and cucumber floating in
a sweet liquid proved to be quite tasty. As she contentedly ate, she
nursed Em; not far off Blackie had been tied to a tree and was quietly
munching on grass.
-Nine-
Far off a rumble of thunder rolled. Its constant drone made the
surrogate mother and child sleepy, giving them welcome rest. In her
dreams, young Ezrah found himself sitting on the ground, wearing a
dress. His embarrassment was compounded when he realized that he had
wet himself. The coolness of his 'accident' slowly came into the
forefront of his mind. In his dream, as he put his hand against the
ground to raise himself up, his hand landed in about tw