He had an ordinary life, until a Saturday morning in November.
He'd slept in that day, as he would normally. The insistent buzz of the
door woke him from a deep sleep. He pulled himself out of bed, grabbed
his robe, and stumbled down to the front door, rubbing sleep from his
eyes. A quick glance through the spyhole told him what he expected; it
was the postman, brandishing some sort of package.
He opened the door and winced - the wind was cold, and his robe was
little protection. "Package for you, sir," the postman said, trying to
look cheerful. He held out a box, two feet square in size, brown and
sealed with tape. He took it, puzzled, and then saw his name and
address on the top. Obviously he did have the right place. Quickly he
signed for the package, and then went back inside.
Throwing off his robe, he climbed back in bed, trying to get warm
again. He wasn't trying to go back to sleep, however. The package had
brought him wide awake. Using his fingernail he slit the tape holding
the box shut, and pulled it open. On top was a sheet of paper, thick
and expensive looking. There were two words written on it, in black
calligraphic script - 'With Compliments'. Now he was even more
confused. He tossed the paper aside and found a wrapped piece of
polystyrene, the kind used to pack delicate equipment. It went all the
way to the edges of the box. Using his fingers, he felt around the
edges, and pulled upwards. The polystyrene came away, revealing the
box's contents.
He gave out a gasp of horror when he first saw inside, thinking someone
was playing a sick joke. But then he looked more closely, and became
puzzled. There was a head in the box. He was looking straight down on
the top of the skull. Brown, fine hair fell down on each side. Reaching
in, he took hold of the hair, and pulled up. To his surprise, the whole
head came out of the box, and if felt light in his hands. To his
relief, he didn't find a bloody stump where the neck should be - but he
didn't find a neck, either.
He pushed the box to one side and stared in shock and amazement at what
he held in his hands. It was a woman's head - well, a cast of a woman's
head. She had plain, unremarkable features, but her eyes were slightly
mysterious, her eyebrows low. The brown hair was cut in a bob style,
and fell down to just below the chin. In the half-darkness of his
bedroom, her eyes were just dark pits before him.
"What the hell is going on," he muttered to himself.
His name was ordinary - for the purpose of this record, it's Bryan. He
lives alone, in an ordinary flat in an ordinary area of London.
He has a girlfriend, Fay, who he's been seeing for about three months.
They get on well, like the same things, and have reasonable sex. She
works as an ad agency buyer, and he works in ad sales - so they're even
compatible when it comes to work.
He's never been into anything weird. On Halloween he stays in, but
keeps a stash of sweets for the kids who come around. He likes parties
but doesn't go to many, he enjoys good company but he has a small
circle of friends.
No-one he knew would send him a woman's head through the post. At
least, that's what he thought.
He got out of bed and pulled back the curtains, then turned back to his
new possession. When he picked it up again, he was surprised once more.
There were no eyes. He looked closer at the neck, and realised
something else; this wasn't a cast. The skin of the neck ended, and
underneath was a styrofoam head, the kind you occasionally see in
women's salons. Exploring further, he realised this wasn't a cast at
all. He looked at the back of the head, and parted the hair. Feeling
around on the skin, he found a seam, and an edge, which he tugged at.
He felt some resistance, but with two hands, he was able to pull the
seam apart. There was a ripping sound, and he realised the head was
sealed with Velcro. It separated, and to his astonishment, fell off the
styrofoam head.
Moving the styrofoam head to one side, he looked at what was in his
hands. It was soft, pliable - he held it up and sniffed it. Rubber,
latex of some kind. He turned it around and looked in the non-existent
eyes. The face stretched out when he pulled at it.
It was a mask.
A mask, which was designed to be worn. Which had been sent to him.
He began to explore more carefully. Whoever had designed it was
extremely talented, he thought. The skin was incredibly realistic
looking. The hair was attached firmly to the scalp. The eyebrows and
cheeks were realistically detailed, and the lips were round, slightly
soft and red. He turned it over once more, pulling the rear apart. The
seam ran from the edge of the mask, at the neck, right up to near the
top of the head. The hair attached covered it sufficiently, so that
when he wore it, no-one would realise it was a mask.
He stopped himself suddenly. What was he thinking? Wear this thing? He
looked down at himself, his male frame, slight bulges where he didn't
want them. As if he could ever pass for a woman. As if he would ever
want to pass for a woman. No, it was absurd.
He still picked up the mask though, and looked into the interior,
wondering what it might feel like. He could see the woman's features,
inside out, looking back at him. Surely it couldn't hurt, he thought.
After all, there was a world of difference between wearing it, and
trying to pass as a woman. He walked to his bathroom, taking the mask
with him. There was a mirror there, the only one in the flat - he'd
never been particularly vain. It was a few feet across, and as he stood
there looking at himself, the mirror's view ended just below his chest.
He lifted up the mask and looked at it in the mirror. It seemed
lifeless. Harmless.
He shrugged. It couldn't hurt. Lifting the mask towards his face, he
pulled apart the edges, and pushed his face inside. It was dark and hot
for a moment. Air rushed past his ears as he kept pulling the mask into
place. He could hear a soft rustling, and realised he had his eyes
closed. He opened them, and with his hands, began to press the mask
down over his features. His eyes settled into place behind hers, his
nose slipped into the imitation one; his chin sat comfortably where it
should. Tugging, he got the ears into place, and then pulled tightly at
the back of the mask, bringing the seam together, and pressing down on
the Velcro seal. It took hold, and he felt the mask adjust over his
head to the new feel of his face inside it.
He looked at the woman's face in the mirror. It still looked like it
had before, when it had first come out of the box. It didn't feel
uncomfortable, but instead quite relaxing, natural. He couldn't help
but smile, and was astonished to see the change in the features before
him. They moved fluidly, without a wrinkle or a line to betray the fact
that this was latex, not flesh, that was expressing pleasure. He gasped
in amazement, and watched her gasp - then smile again, widen her eyes,
and finally throw her head back and let out a cry of laughter.
It was perfect. He took a step closer to the mirror, examining the
features even closer. There wasn't a blemish to be found anywhere. He
began making faces, each one more silly than the next, just to test
this new-found face. Not a flaw.
"Hello," he said to himself, in his own voice. Her lips moved smoothly,
forming the sound that came from his throat. "My God... It's
incredible," he said, touching his cheek as he looked at himself.
Smiling, he blew himself a kiss - and that was when he realised, he was
beginning to get extremely aroused.
He didn't know what it was. He'd never cross-dressed before, never had
any urge to do so; but he did know that he loved watching women dress,
loved watching them get ready to go out. Fay was often amazed, if she
left after they made love, that he would jump from the bed ready for
action once more, after watching her pull up her tights and slip into a
skirt. It just turned him on. Perhaps that was part of what caused his
erection then. It was the creation of an illusion. Just like when he
watched a woman put on lipstick, or pull on a stocking. Now he was
creating the illusion.
He half-ran to his bedroom and grabbed his robe, threw it on, and ran
back to the bathroom. With the robe wrapped tightly around him, up to
his neck, he could pass for a woman. It was a woman's face, a woman's
hair before him. He tossed his head back, felt the hair fall around his
neck. he smiled to himself, blew himself kisses, let his finger fall
provocatively on his lips. He was driving himself into a frenzy.
He took a step closer to the mirror, and without taking his eyes off
the beautiful female image before him, he reached inside his robe with
one hand and began to jerk himself off. He started with long, steady
strokes, but he could feel he was ready to come, and soon. He whipped
the robe aside, and moaned in anticipation, which caused him even more
excitement as it was her who moaned, her who threw her head back and
cried 'Yes', her who bit her lip, and her who groaned and shuddered as
he came, shooting his milky semen into the basin below the mirror.
He stood for a few moments, panting, trying to get his breath back,
glowing with satisfaction. Finally he looked up at the face that had
gotten him so hard. It was still there, breathing heavily. He felt a
pang of guilt, but wasn't sure why. Unconsciously, he reached up, and
pulled apart the seams of the mask with both hands. With a Velcro rip,
they came apart. He closed his eyes and pulled, and the mask slipped
off easily. he opened his eyes again and saw his own face in the
mirror. His hair was dishevelled, his eyes gleaming - and there was a
smile on his face.
He didn't throw away the mask.
Instead, he carefully packed it back into the box it came in. It was
less than three hours before he took it back out, put it on once more,
and brought himself to climax again. He did the same thing four times
more that day.
When he woke Sunday morning he knew that this was trouble. Nothing had
ever done this to him - no woman, no image in the media. Nothing. And
now he had in his possession this mask, this thing, that drove him wild
whenever he put it on. He began to wonder how long he could wear it
for, what he could wear with it to complete the illusion. He couldn't
believe the thoughts he was having. A day previously, the sexiest thing
he knew of in the world was watching Fay put on her lipstick, as she
sat at her dressing table in bra, panties and hold-up stockings. Now he
wanted to be in that position himself. He wanted to be the creator of
the illusion.
Late Sunday night he pulled on the mask once more, and lay in bed with
it on, feeling how the hair felt against the pillow. He soon became
hard again, and after he came, he fell straight asleep.
He woke up on Monday morning and almost screamed aloud when he saw
himself in the mirror. Ditching the mask, he ran the hottest shower he
could stand, and then doused himself in cold for two minutes before he
jumped out, shivering. That kept him under control long enough so he
could pack the mask away and go to work.
All that day he found himself staring at other women. He didn't look at
them in a sexual way, even though he found many of them attractive.
Instead he was looking at them as objects, staring at their faces,
their movements. He wanted to know how they made their faces look that
way, how they dressed. He did this in a casual way, almost removed from
his own reality. It was only when someone spoke to him that he
remembered where he was, what he was doing.
He thought about his own feelings for a long time that evening. He
finally realised he had come to the cross-dressing experience from the
reverse angle. Transvestites spent their time trying to perfect a
female image, but the one thing they couldn't alter, without the aid of
surgery, was their faces. That, he had covered. Now he wanted to see
what the rest of the experience was like. What it might be like to
really be a woman. To complete the illusion, and live in it, even for a
short while.
He started to formulate a plan. He would ask Fay to come over, spend a
weekend or two with him. Then he'd suggest, subtly of course, that she
start leaving a few things behind, make it easier for her. Finally,
when she'd left enough things, he could try to pass as a woman for
real. He was convinced that with his mask, he wouldn't have any
problems.
As soon as he arrived back at his flat, he went straight to the
cupboard containing the box. Quickly, he pulled it out and pulled off
the polystyrene - and saw nothing. The mask was gone.
He frantically checked the rest of the box, wondering where the mask
could have gone to. He found a few scraps of latex, almost like
scrapings. It was if, except for the mount it had come on, the mask had
just disappeared into thin air.
He checked the front door - it was solid. All of the windows were
locked and seemed untouched, and nothing else in the flat was missing.
But the mask was still gone, leaving only the styrofoam head behind as
evidence that it was ever there at all.
By the end of the week, he was almost beginning to doubt his own
sanity. Fay had been around several times, and they'd had some average
sex each time; it was only the one time she stayed over, and he watched
her preparing for the day, that he pulled her back into bed. They made
love urgently then, his thoughts only on the mask.
Saturday came around again, but this time, he didn't sleep in. He'd
been watching the postal delivery that week, and had realised that
there were several different people who deliverd. That meant he could
get a different postman on a Saturday - and perhaps it would be the
same one as last week.
Sure enough, the buzzer went off, and he ran down the stairs, flinging
the door open. The postman almost jumped at his appearance. Bryan
recognised him immediately - it was the same man as the previous week.
"Er, hello. I've got a letter for you to sign." He handed out a
clipboard to Bryan, who took it, looking suspiciously at the postman.
"You delivered here last week, didn't you?" Bryan asked. The postman
nodded. "Do you remember what you gave me?"
The postman thought for a moment, then nodded. "Yeah, it was a big
package, wasn't it? Light, though."
"Yes, yes it was," Bryan said urgently. "I'm trying to trace the sender
of that package. Is it possible to find that out?"
"Yeah, I s'pose so. You'd have to go down to the local sorting office."
"Where is that?" The postman gave him the address.
"Don't forget the letter," he reminded Bryan before he closed the door.
He handed over a plain white envelope. Bryan shut the door and pulled
open the envelope. A sheet of high-quality paper fell out. He ran
upstairs, and pulled the sheet of paper out from the box. They were
identical. With shaking fingers, he unfolded the sheet he'd just
received, and read the flowing calligraphic script that was on it.
Dear Bryan,
You have had a taste. I'm glad you enjoyed it. There is much more to
come, but only if you are prepared.
This is just the beginning. You have three months. Look for a parcel in
February.
signed,
A Friend.
Bryan's mind raced. Who was this person? How did they know him? How was
he supposed to prepare, and how would it take three months? He was
baffled by the note. At the same time, however, he was intrigued. He
knew that whoever had sent this note had sent him the mask. If he could
find out who that person was, he would have the key to the mystery.
His first port of call that day was the local sorting office. Like most
bureaucracies, they were less than helpful. Eventually, after tipping
the right people, he managed to see the log of deliveries in his area.
To make sure a package could be delivered, there had to be a return
address in case there were problems. He flipped through the log book
until he found his own name, and there, alongside the date, was the
name and address he'd been looking for.
Ms Tree
23 Cherry Tree Drive
London
E14 3WE
He smiled to himself. 'Ms Tree' - mystery. Cute, he thought. Making a
note of the address, he left the sorting office and headed straight for
the Underground.
Cherry Tree Drive was a relatively affluent street in part of the
revitalised Docklands area. All of the buildings looked relatively new,
and Bryan smiled to himself when he saw a plaque proudly proclaiming
that one building had been erected in 1987. Ten years is a long time in
finance, he thought.
Number 23 was at the end of the street, a medium sized house with a set
of steps that led up to a front door. He didn't know what to do, at
first, but he decided there was really only one thing he could do.
Besides, he reasoned, he was a salesman. He could talk his way into
anything.
He pressed the doorbell hard for just a moment. Nothing happened for a
minute, then he saw a shape inside move towards the door. It opened,
just a crack. He saw a woman's eye staring at him.
"Hi," he said, with his best smile. "I'm really sorry to bother you,
but I was wondering if you could help me. I'm starting up a
Neighbourhood Watch scheme in the area, and I was wondering if you
wanted to join." The gap widened until he could see her entire face.
She was young, he figured not much above 25, with pale blonde hair
pulled back from her face. He couldn't see what she was wearing, apart
from a baggy black t-shirt.
"Have you just moved in?" she asked. Her accent was hard to trace -
public school, he guessed, but with a hint of London regionality.
"Uh, yes, I have - number 5." He'd spotted the For Sale sign on his way
to the house. "Would you be interested?"
"Perhaps." Her face and tone were non-commital. "Would you like to come
in for a moment?" He was surprised, but nodded. This only confirmed his
suspicions. He figured no-one would let an almost total stranger into
their house unless they had an ulterior motive. Now he just had to
discover what that motive was.
She opened the door wide and he stepped inside. She led him through the
house, which looked tidy and unremarkable, to the kitchen, where she
gestured for him to take a seat at a small table. He did so, glancing
around at the surroundings. They were neat and trim, which to his eye
looked normal enough.
"What did you say your name was?" she asked, moving to the kettle and
switching it on.
"I didn't," he replied.
"Coffee alright?" she asked casually, as if she hadn't heard his reply.
"Fine thanks, Miss...?"
"It's Mrs," she corrected. "Mrs Barnes. My husband's out - doing the
shopping."
"I see," Bryan said. She went about her business, apparently ignoring
him. There was silence for a moment. Bryan decided to push his luck.
"Will he be long?"
"Hmmm?"
"Your husband. Will he be long, shopping."
"Oh, a couple of hours, yet. He always nips off to the pub afterwards
for a quick pint and a stare at the barmaid. Thinks I don't know." She
glanced at him. "But I'm not stupid."
"No." Bryan couldn't figure this woman out. If she knew him - if this
was where the packages were coming from - then she wasn't alarmed.
Surely she would have recognised me by sight, he thought.
Unless, he realised, it was the husband who was sending the packages.
But why? "So, that gives us plenty of time to chat," he said, grinning.
Mrs Barnes poured out two coffees and brought them over.
"Yes, I suppose it does," she said, placing the drinks down. Bryan
could see she was wearing jeans with the t-shirt now, but as he glanced
at her body, he saw she kept in shape. A couple of hours chatting with
her could be very enjoyable, he felt.
"So.. this is a nice house," Bryan said as he sipped. He knew it was a
lousy line, but he didn't think she really wanted to talk about his
bogus Neighbourhood Watch scheme.
"Mmm, it is," she replied. "We've not been here long. Do you want a
quick tour?"
"I'd love one." Leaving the cups behind, she took him by the hand, very
casually, and led him around the rooms of the ground floor in a flash.
Her touch was so light, so unassuming, that he didn't think too much of
it.
Then she brought him upstairs. Her tour ended at the master bedroom, a
large, open room with a dressing screen in one corner. Bryan's interest
was immediately piqued. Dressing screens, with all their associations
with preparation and illusion, had always turned him on. Suddenly, he
felt her hand entwining with his. He turned to look at her, and saw she
was looking deep into his eyes. Without thinking, he kissed her. She
returned his kiss with a passion, grabbing hold of him and pushing him
hard against the doorframe. Her leg lifted up and around him, and he
grabbed hold of her, kissing her hard, reaching behind her and cupping
her ass with his hands. She moaned in pleasure, but as he pulled her
inside the room, aiming for the bed, she pulled away.
"Wait," she said breathlessly. "Let's do this right." She reached up
and began to unbutton his shirt, slowly, her fingers lingering on each
button. Bryan threw off his light jacket, then let her finish with the
shirt. It was soon hanging out of his trousers. She took hold of his
belt and unbuckled it, then pulled it off with a whipping motion.
Pushing him down on the bed, she straddled him, and unzipped his
trousers. His cock sprang free, and she smiled in pleasure at its just
above average size.
His mind was going haywire as she finished stripping off his clothes.
Some part of him was trying to remember why he'd come here, trying to
remember the mask, the letter - but most of him was just caught up in
the moment, in this insane, twisted adventure he seemed to be embarking
upon. He felt like this had been planned, as if she - or her husband -
had expected him to come, and this was all a set-up. If it was, it
wasn't something he was going to complain about.
With a final flourish she pulled off his socks, and he was completely
naked, lying on the bed. She walked over to a bedside table, reached
into a drawer and withdrew something that gleamed; a pair of handcuffs.
Bryan's gut shifted.
"No, I don't think so," he said firmly. She raised an eyebrow, and then
reached down and tossed him his trousers.
"Then you know where to go," she said. She dangled the cuffs in one
hand, smiling at him, and playing with the edge of her t-shirt,
exposing her midriff at him.
He was too aroused, and too intrigued, to stop now. But he wasn't going
to go ahead without getting something in return.
"Who is Ms Tree?" he asked. She shrugged her shoulders.
"I don't know."
"Then forget it," he said, sitting up and getting ready to pull on his
trousers. She stepped forward, put her hand on his shoulder.
"Wait," she said. "I remember now. She used to live here. But I think
she left, not too long ago." He glanced at her. Her expression seemed
honest enough. "Perhaps my husband would know," she said.
"Can I talk to him, when he gets back?" Bryan asked. She nodded.
"Of course. Although, you might want to get dressed first."
"I think there's time for that later," he said, smiling, and reaching
for the cuffs. She grinned, and snapped a cuff over one wrist. Working
his way up the bed, she threaded the cuff through the iron-wrought
railing at the head of the bed, and snapped the cuff onto his other
wrist. He was well secured.
"There, that should do," she said to him. She stepped back and admired
her handiwork. Bryan looked at her expectantly. She didn't say
anything, but just moved to the dressing screen at the end of the room.
She gave him a seductive glance as she moved behind it.
He was beginning to get his erection back, and wished that there were
lights behind the screen to give him an idea of what was going on. He
decided to try and get a play-by-play commentary, instead. "What are
you doing?" he called out.
"Getting ready," she replied.
"I know that... I just wanted to know.. uh...." He tailed off. He
didn't know what to say. He felt like he was revealing himself to this
woman, who he hardly knew. But then, he figured he'd never see her
again after today.
"Know what?" she asked.
"Uh.. know what you were doing. To get ready."
"Know what I'm doing? What do you think I'm doing?"
His mind could fill in many of the details, but he was cursing inwardly
that the screen was spoiling the show. "Getting undressed, I hope," he
said hopefully.
"On the contrary," she replied, stepping from behind the screen. "I'm
getting dressed." His eyes almost came out of his sockets when he saw
her standing before him. The t-shirt and jeans were gone; in their
place was a black basque, garter belt, stockings, and a filmy black
robe around her shoulders. Patent high heels, also black, completed the
effect. She reached up and freed her hair, letting it fall about her
back. "Well? What do you think?"
"My God," he managed to whisper, "you look gorgeous."
"I thought you'd say that," she replied, stepping back behind the
screen. "After all, this is your thing, isn't it Bryan."
He paused. He hadn't told her his name. "What? What do you mean?"
"It turns you on," she stated, matter-of-factly. "You enjoy watching
women dress. Isn't that right?"
How did she know this, Bryan asked himself. He was bewildered. "Well,
everyone enjoys that," he said, trying to feign a casual air.
"Not as much as you," she said, as she stepped from behind the screen
once more. She was wearing the same outfit, but held a lipstick in her
hand. She came towards Bryan, and slowly, deliberately, straddled him
on the bed. Her crotch touched down lightly over his own. He looked up
at her, her gorgeous face, and watched as she slowly extended the
lipstick, and puckered up. Slowly she began to apply her lipstick.
First she did the top lip, then the bottom, and went around once more,
all over. Bryan loved every minute of it, and showed his appreciation
by getting an even harder erection. She looked down at this and smiled.
Leaning down, so close he could smell her perfume, she kissed him
slowly and sensuously, rubbing her freshly minted lips all over his
own. He thrust upwards, rubbing against her pubic mound; but she didn't
react. Instead she just finished her kiss, and got off of him once
more.
"God, I want you," he groaned.
"I know. But I have one more thing to put on... or is that take off?"
She walked behind the screen once more, and Bryan heard a rip, then a
rustling sound. Just as he began to wonder what it might be, she
stepped out into his view.
It was his girlfriend, Fay. In her hand, she held a mask of Mrs Barnes
face.
She walked towards him, slowly, and raised one dark leg onto the bed,
right next to his face. She reached down and dragged the Mrs Barnes
mask over his face, the tendrils of hair just touching him. Tossing the
latex face onto the bed next to him, she reached down and unclipped her
stocking, a wide smile on her face.
He was still too shocked to speak, until she'd moved the stocking over
her knee. "What.. Fay? What's.. You're her? You're Ms Tree?"
She shook her head. "No, Bryan, I'm not. I'm not, and nor is Mrs
Barnes, here," she said, indicating the mask. "Nor is Mrs Barnes
husband. I'm afraid you're not going to uncover Ms Tree this easily.
Did you really think we'd just let you find out by tracing one parcel?
Do you think we're that unprepared?" She finished with the stocking,
pulling it off her leg. She lifted her other leg up and began to repeat
the operation.
"Who.. who are you? Who are they?"
"Too many questions, Bryan."
"Please.. I have to know. How do you know so much about me?"
"I'm your girlfriend. Don't you think I would know these things?"
"But you don't!" Bryan protested. "You don't know, you've never
known...."
"You're right," she admitted, as she removed her second stocking. She
stepped back from the bed a couple of feet. "That's because I'm not
your girlfriend." She turned her back on him, and reached up behind her
head. Bryan realised with shock what she was doing. Her hands searched
for a seam, and found it, tugging at it insistently for a moment. With
a slight ripping, the Velcro came away, and the mask of Fay's face
parted at the back. Bryan saw a glimpse of dark, cropped hair, and then
she leant forward, pulling the wig and mask off in one movement.
She dropped the mask to one side, and Bryan looked at it, wide-eyed.
His girlfriend's face was lying, distorted and misshapen, looking up at
him from the bedroom floor. He glanced back at the woman before him -
he didn't know what to call her now - and realised why she had removed
her stockings. She was pulling one over her head. With it on, she took
hold of the second stocking, and pulled it over the first. It was only
then that she turned back to him. With both stockings in place, her
face was completely hidden from his view - her features darkened and
unreadable.
To make matters worse for him, she walked over to the window and shut
the curtains. There was very little light left in the room. She strode
over to the dressing table behind the screen and put on a light there.
By that weak light Bryan watched as she walked back over, and sat down
beside him.
"Now," she said, in a voice slightly deeper than before, "let me clear
some things up for you." She pulled open another bedside table drawer,
and pulled out something that Bryan couldn't quite see in the half
light. "As you've now realised, I'm not Fay. I wore the mask to
demonstrate a point; we can be anyone. Anyone, Bryan. Friends, co-
workers, family members... even lovers."
She let that sink in for a moment before continuing. "Fay doesn't know
anything about this. However she could, if we wanted to. If you turn
your head to the left, you'll see a large mirror. Behind that is a
video camera, that's been on all the time we've been here. There will
be some more interesting footage on the tape once I've finished with
you, though." Something glistened in the light next to Bryan's head. He
swivelled his eyes and saw the woman flicking the end of a hypodermic
needle. Before he could react she injected it into his arm. He winced
in pain, but it was over in a minute.
"Why.. why are you doing this?" he muttered.
"That's just a mild concoction, Bryan. It'll make you drowsy, but won't
send you to sleep; I need you barely conscious, otherwise the tape will
never look convincing."
"What.. tape...." Bryan could feel his eyelids trying to close, but
with a supreme effort of will he could just about stay awake.
"The tape we're going to make together, Bryan. The one we can send to
Fay if we ever even suspect you've told her about what's going on. Or
if you ever go to anyone else about what's going on. That tape will
show you having a great time with Mrs Barnes, Bryan. She's a vixen when
she wants to be."
"Jesus.. all this just for blackmail...."
"No, not blackmail. Call it insurance. We've invested a lot of time and
money in you, Bryan. You're perfect for us. We just don't want you to
screw it all up one day because you get too many guilt pangs. This way,
you'll stay on the straight and narrow."
"Straight and narrow," Bryan repeated, hazily. "What...."
"Do you have to do? Well, it's fairly simple, really. Follow the
letter's advice, Bryan. Get prepared. Spend the next three months
training yourself to be everything you want to be. To be everything
that those dark desires, those desires you've kept hidden for so long,
have told you to be. We know what the mask awakened in you, Bryan. We
want you to embrace that, now. Because if you do that...." She leant
down and whispered in his ear, the fine mesh of her stocking mask
rasping out her breaths. "You'll become all that you've ever wanted.
And much, much more."
"I don't want it... I don't...."
She chuckled, and stood up, retrieving the Mrs Barnes mask and facing
away from him once more. She pulled off the stockings, and in a swift
movement, pulled the face of Mrs Barnes onto her own. Turning around
she smoothed out the face onto her own features, and then secured the
Velcro at the rear. The transformation took only a few seconds. She
looked down at him, at his engorged member, and smiled.
"I think we both know what you really want, Bryan," she said, walking
to the end of the bed. She leant down and slid up to his cock, taking
hold of it with one hand. "But I want you to say it to me."
He groaned, shifted slightly in his bonds. Without saying a word, she
placed her mouth around his cock, and began to suck him off. He
writhed, kicking out weakly with his feet, but she shrugged him off and
continued to suck, taking him down deeper into her throat. He felt
himself rising, his body reacting to those rubber lips even though he
didn't want it to. He knew, somewhere in the haze of his mind, what she
was asking of him; she knew that they - whoever they were, whatever
they wanted - knew him better, in many ways, than he knew himself.
"What do you want, Bryan," she asked him, licking him now, driving him
wild with desire with flicks of her tongue. He moaned, gritted his
teeth, but he could feel the answer coming up from his subconscious.
"What do you want.. what do you desire... what do you need... what
Bryan, what...."
"No - no - "
She stopped sucking him, and abruptly moved up, sliding her dark-clad
body over his cock, and resting on his chest. She kissed him, hard, and
the feeling of her face, now that he knew it was rubber, turned him on
even further. "Tell me," she said between kisses. "Tell me. Admit it to
yourself. Tell me what turns you on."
It was torture, sweet, exquisite torture. Bryan shut his eyes and
thought of Fay, thought of his normal girlfriend, his ordinary life -
but all he could think of was this woman on top of him, this woman that
had looked like his girlfriend, who had worn his girlfriend's face -
just like - just like -
He felt the rubber moving over his face before he could react, and the
seal being moved together before he could cry out. The rubber flesh
pressed down on his, and he almost cried out in agony and ecstasy. He
opened his eyes and saw Mrs Barnes, the woman he'd called that, smiling
at him wickedly, knowing that he was helpless before her. He felt her
hands grabbing his cock, guiding him into her dark, wet place, and as
he slid inside, and she threw back her head and moaned aloud, he almost
came.
He knew now what he had to do. He knew now this was his destiny. He
knew what he had become. Lying there, with a mask of his own girlfriend
over his face, he cried out "I WANT TO BE YOU!" and then came in a
mighty explosion, bucking and writhing, his eyes tightly shut and his
thoughts only on one thing.
The next three months passed slowly and painfully.
They passed slowly because each and every day was a nightmare of
paranoia and indecision for Bryan. He knew that these people - whoever
they were - had something in mind for him. He just didn't know what. He
did have something to go on, though - he had a name for their group.
He'd found it when he'd woken up. The room was empty save for the most
basic of fittings. He awoke lying on the carpet, naked. The bed was
gone, the dressing screen, the mirror - everything. He could have
believed it was all a dream, or at the very least a party gone badly
wrong, but when he stumbled down to the kitchen he realised it had all
happened.
Lying on the kitchen table, next to his clothes - which had been neatly
folded - was a videotape. There was a small card on top of it, with a
stylised logo and two words on it - The Veil. He searched the whole of
the house, but could find nothing else beyond the ordinary. The entire
place, it seemed, had been set up for him.
Taking the videotape with him he left the house, returned home, and
watched the contents. It was fairly sordid stuff. Apart from several
scenes of charged sex between him and 'Mrs Barnes', who made sure the
camera got a good look at both of their faces, there was also footage
of him dressed in much the same outfit that she had worn - stockings,
basque and garter belt. He looked at his semi-comatose form on the tape
and wondered how they ever managed to fit him into the clothing. But,
he had to admit, he didn't seem to make a bad woman.
The final shot of the video was the most haunting, however. The woman
involved had just finished an extensive fellatio session on him, with
grunts and groans that he could only assume were added in post-
production on the soundtrack. That over, she stood and walked away from
the bed, coming towards the camera. She stood there for a moment,
licking her lips. Then, Mrs Barnes reached up, and felt at her chin for
the seam of her mask. She found it, and gradually pulled it back,
exposing slightly lighter skin beneath. She kept pulling the mask,
rolling it up her face, and with a final tug, the entire thing came
free. The face beneath hers was revealed.
It was Bryan. He looked at his face, on the tape, and watched as it
spoke, with his own voice.
"Remember, Bryan. Anyone."
He'd thought for a long time after he switched off the video. He was
deeply fearful of The Veil now. They were able to assume any
appearance, it seemed, with the minimum of effort. They had the raw
material for an entire series of blackmail videotapes. And they seemed
to know his innermost secrets.
He didn't know what to do. He felt he couldn't go to the authorities;
they'd never believe his story, for starters - there was no physical
evidence. He hadn't checked, but he was willing to believe there was no
Mrs Barnes at 23 Cherry Tree Drive. There was no mask. There was only a
box, and this videotape, which any layman would assume was just
Hollywood trickery at work. No, he quickly realised he only had himself
to rely upon in this situation. And it seemed that the only forward was
to co-operate. If he did anything else, he feared the consequences.
That led to the pain. Bryan knew what the woman had been referring to,
and he knew what the 'preparation' entailed. He had to give in to those
dark desires The Veil had apparently awakened in him, and be ready to
do their work for them. Which meant he had to be able to become a
woman.
The first thing he had to do was lose weight and change his body shape.
He went to a nutritionist, a doctor, and a physical fitness instructor
and got himself enrolled in diet plans, vitamin regimens and training
programs galore. He didn't enjoy too much of it, but at the end of the
first month, he'd lost almost two stone, and his body was much slimmer.
He saw no need for any surgical procedures, as it appeared The Veil's
skills with mask-making prohibited the need for it. However at the
beginning of the second month he began to tentatively explore the
transvestite scene in London. The first month might have been
physically challenging, but the second month was a test of other types
of willpower.
At first, he only just managed to go to the shops and browse. He
couldn't get up the guts to say anything, and wished desperately that
he still had the mask. It was only when a sales assistant remarked how
slim he was looking that he felt flattered enough to ask some basic
questions. From then on in, he was educated in the ways of feminine
illusion.
He always stopped short of the practical element, though. He was
waiting until once more he could pull on a female mask, and then would
he make his full debut as a woman. In the meantime he learnt to wear
bras and how to use breast forms, how to use a gaff and how to walk in
heels, but he never went out in drag, nor did he own any items in his
flat. He always just got help from the many people he met on the TV
scene. They thought him a little strange, but money dropped here and
there usually ended any questions.
The third month came, and he was pleased to see that he was approaching
his target weight and desired physique. It had been an intensive
training period - more intensive than an athletes, he guessed - but it
had been worth it. Now he could stand in front of the mirror and feel
proud of his body, and also imagine what it might feel like to actually
complete the illusion he'd been striving for.
As the end of the third month came, and February began, he was
increasingly nervous, but excited, too. He had not been contacted by
The Veil at all during his three months of training, although he
couldn't be sure he hadn't been watched or assisted by one of them. He
was still seeing Fay, although with a decreasingly regularity. Their
sex was urgent and unemotional now, more of a release for Bryan's pent-
up frustrations than true love-making. He hadn't told her anything, but
his paranoia kept him wondering if perhaps she'd seen the tape, or part
of it, and was keeping it from him for some reason. She never even
asked about his rapid loss of weight.
He watched the mail like an over-enthusiastic family dog. He forced
himself out of bed to be ready when it arrived; he woke early on
Saturdays to make sure he picked up the mail fresh, and he spoke to the
post office, asking them to be sure to deliver all packages to him,
personally.
Then all he had to do was wait.
His life changed once more on a Saturday morning, the first in March.
He'd almost begun to give up hope. It seemed like no packages were
going to arrive. But then, out of the blue, he was awoken once more by
a buzz on the door. This surprised him, as he'd been getting up
consistently before the postman arrived for a month.
Running down to the door, he took a deep breath and then swung it open.
The postman stood there, brandishing a box - and larger than before.
What on Earth could it be, he wondered. Looking at the man, he realised
it was the same man he'd been greeting every day for a month.
"Early start this morning?" Bryan enquired casually. The postman
nodded, smiled, and extended his clipboard. Bryan signed, not even
caring about just who this man might be, and shut the door, running
upstairs.
He was prepared for this moment, or at least as much as he could be
within his self-imposed rules. He had prepared a plain, casual outfit
for himself - jeans, t-shirt, a light jumper. He had also managed to
'borrow' one of Fay's bras. It just about fitted him. He didn't have
breast forms yet - some small part of him still wondered if this was
all a joke - so he had to make do with conventional rolled up socks.
Still, he figured with a long coat and a mask, he'd be able to pass for
a woman.
That was, of course, assuming that the box contained a mask. Like a
schoolkid prolonging the agony of waiting for that special present, he
took his time, showering and changing into his outfit before he began
to open the box. Then, carefully, he cut through the tape seams and
opened it.
It was about double the length of the first box he'd received, but the
same height, and as he opened it he realised there could be multiple
masks inside. The prospect thrilled him, and he moved quickly to get
the inside layer of polystyrene removed. It came back to reveal
something he didn't expect.
There were two masks inside the box, each one sitting on a wig block.
The one closest to him was what puzzled him most. He reached in and
pulled it out, holding it up before him. It was a male face. The face
of a man, around his age, with black hair and a thick moustache. He
looked the mask over for a moment, examining the detail, which looked
as good if not better than the first mask he'd been sent.
Puzzled, he put the male mask to one side, and with rising excitement,
picked up the second head. It was female, but much more glamorous than
the first mask he'd worn. A wave of golden-blonde hair fell down to the
bottom of the box, and as he picked it up and turned the face towards
him, he realised the hair was so long it would fall about his
shoulders. The face took his breath away. Even cast in rubber, without
his own features to animate it from inside, this was a beautiful face.
Rounded, sensual lips were complimented by wide, expressive eyes, and
high eyebrows. He couldn't wait to get it on, to once again experience
the clinging feel of rubber which he'd dreamt about for three months.
Walking straight to the new floor to ceiling mirror he'd had installed
in the bedroom, he looked carefully at the rear of the mask. There
didn't seem to be any seam this time. He was slightly confused by this,
but pulling at the rubber at the rear of the mask, he guessed he'd be
able to squeeze his head in without needing a seam. Perhaps, he
thought, the first mask was one for 'training' - this one was the real
thing. He smiled at the idea that he might now have 'graduated', but he
had a feeling there was still much more to come.
Looking at himself in the mirror, he smiled, and then raised the mask
up in front of him. "No time like the present," he reasoned, and began
to pull it on. His hands were pushed inside the mask's confines, and he
raised them up, pulling both of his wrists apart. The rubber spread
obligingly, and the top of his head fitted inside easily. Carefully he
withdrew his hands, and began to tug down at the side of the mask, an
inch or so at a time. He closed his eyes and felt his excitement rising
as gradually, the mask descended onto his head.
Within a minute or so it was on, although he'd been cautious. Now he
went to work on the features. He still had his eyes closed as he
pressed down his new nose, and snapped his ears into place. Finally he
ran his hands all over the face, smoothing out the neck, cheeks and
forehead. As before, the mask seemed to be made perfectly for him; the
features slid on easily, and the fit was natural and not at all
uncomfortable. He opened his eyes, and smiled at the result.
"Hello, gorgeous," he said to himself in the mirror. The woman facing
him was young, perhaps in her mid-20s. She had a very attractive face,
with high cheekbones, full lips, and dark blue eyes, like Bryan's own.
Her hair fell down over her shoulders, and when she moved her head, the
hair moved with it in flowing waves. Bryan knew he'd find her
attractive, and that fact just made him even more excited.
Relief flooded through him, and arousal too. Finally, after all his
hard work, he was back to where he'd begun. It hadn't been a dream, it
had been real; and the question was now, where would it lead him.
Right then, he didn't care. He had some serious shopping to do for his
new female persona.
Stepping outside of his flat was a test in itself. He spent a few
minutes looking at the mask closely in the mirror, checking it in
different lights, talking to himself, watching the way it moved. He was
once more astounded by how realistic it seemed to be. He could have a
conversation with someone and they'd never know he was a man.
That is, he reasoned, if they were deaf. While his male voice wasn't
deep and butch, it wasn't particularly feminine either. But with some
experimentation, and some whispering, he was able to passably imitate a
female voice after not too long. He just hoped he wasn't going to have
to use it too often.
He'd prepared for this moment, so took with him on his shopping trip a
substantial amount of cash. He didn't want to have to try and sign a
card payment slip with a male name on it. He didn't have a handbag or
purse yet, so he had to make do by putting the cash inside his coat
pocket. With that onboard, he was ready to go.
One nerve-wracking walk later, where at every step he expected to be
decried by some member of the public, and he was on the Underground.
Sitting in a relatively quiet carriage, he kept his head down and tried
to be unnoticed until the train reached the city centre.
His first stop was at a major department store. Grabbing a basket he
went wild in the aisles, piling high lingerie and clothing of all
types. He bought everything in one size from one store, then moved to
another and bought a second set of clothing in a slightly different
size. There was no way he was going to try anything on, and while he
had receipts he figured he was safe.
After a couple of hours, he struggled back to the Underground with his
purchases, and took a cab from the station nearest to his flat. With
the door finally closed behind him, he slumped down on the sofa and
pulled off his shoes. Rubbing absently at his sore feet, he wondered
what he'd wear first. He fumbled in one of the bags, and smiled to
himself. There was no contest, really. But first, he had to prepare.
It took an hour to get ready before he could dress. Before he did
anything else, he slowly removed the mask. He wanted it to be the final
part of his preparations, so he took it off and placed it on the
styrofoam head. Then he took a long hot bath, and shaved all the hair
he could manage, except for around his groin. He didn't plan to be
showing anyone his panties, anyway. Then he waxed his legs for an even,
sheer feel. Finally he stood before the mirror and began to dress.
The first step was to hide his masculinity. He didn't want to be
particularly restricted in his feminine guise - after all, a good part
of the reason he was doing this was the sexual excitement - but at the
same time he wanted to look right for the part. The best compromise he
could come up with was to flatten his balls against his body, and then
pull his penis straight up. He laid a panty liner on top, and taped the
whole thing down with surgical tape. Then he took a pair of black, silk
panties, in a large size, and stepped into them. They slid up his legs
smoothly, and he felt a rush of excitement flow through him.
With just the panties on, he removed a pair of tights from one of his
bags. They were sheer, with added Lycra, and called Barely Black by the
makers. Unfolding them from the packaging, he realised his hands were
trembling as he let the legs drop in front of him. This was the moment
he'd been waiting for. He sat down on his bed and bunched up the left
leg of the tights. When all he had in his hand was the foot of the
tights, he slipped his left foot inside, and pulled the tights over his
heel with a smooth gesture. He bit his lip at the feeling as he slowly
pulled the tights all the way up to his knee, relishing every second.
The sheer nylon and Lycra mix made the tights smooth and soft, and he
could feel his arousal straining in his new panties.
Moving quicker now, anxious to get the illusion complete, he bunched up
the other tights leg and pulled it on. Carefully he pulled up the
tights, working them up his legs, until the crotch settled over his
own. With a snap, he let the waistband hug him securely. He looked at
his new legs in the mirror and smiled. All that time on the exercise
bike and stair-climber had paid off. His legs were slim, rounded in the
right places, and now, covered by the Barely Black tights, they were
sexier than he had ever imagined.
With his legs finished, he went to work on his body. First of all he
attached two breast forms to his chest with adhesives. He couldn't
believe how realistic they looked when he watched himself in the
mirror. His female shape was beginning to form before his eyes. Next he
picked out a bodyshaper which went over his tights and the breast
forms. It constricted his waist sufficiently, giving him a convincing,
hourglass figure. He turned this way and that in front of the mirror,
examining his reflection. Everything looked fine so far, he reasoned.
His underwear was finished, so now he turned to outerwear. He'd
selected a thin, pencil-line skirt for his first outfit; charcoal grey
in colour, it looked business-like but still passably casual. He
stepped into it quickly, leaving it loose around his waist. Just like a
man, he thought. He always put his trousers on first, but whenever he
watched Fay, she put on a blouse first. That was what he came to next,
picking up a silk, cream coloured blouse that he pulled on and buttoned
over his new breasts. Tucking it in, he zipped the skirt up the side,
and then picked out a pair of shoes. He'd seen a pair of black high
heels in his size, and bought them immediately. It was lucky he had
small feet, he thought, otherwise getting shoes to fit him would have
been a nightmare. The pair he'd settled for weren't too high in heel
size - about an inch - but enough to give him a feminine calf and
accentuate his walk. He slipped his feet into them and walked around
for a moment, enjoying the feel of the tights on his feet, the
increased height the heels gave him.
He turned and strode over to his reflection. From the neck down, he
looked like an ordinary woman, dressed for business perhaps. Sure, his
hands needed a little work, but that was nothing a little makeup and
nail polish couldn't cure. He took one last look at his male face, and
then walked over to fetch his mask. Bringing it back to the mirror, he
lifted it up high, spread the rubber apart, and pulled it down onto his
head.
It engulfed him, and as it did, he felt like he was passing through a
gateway. Everything before this had just been playacting, working with
a false face, a different look. Now, with all his work completed, his
female guise finally perfected - now he was becoming someone else.
Someone different. He didn't know much about that person, yet, but he
knew he was going to find out.
The rubber contracted around his head as he withdrew his hands, pushing
the edges of the mask down against his neck. Using the adhesive that
worked with his breast forms, he stuck down the edges of the mask, and
then moved the blouse about his neck to cover things up. Then he turned
and looked at the woman before him.
Her name was Mary, he'd decided that now. "Hi there, Mary," he said.
"Hello, Bryan. Pleased to meet you," she replied. Her voice was
breathy, a low tone, and immediately turned Bryan on. The way she
stood, with her hands resting on her hips, was a turn-on too. She
smiled invitingly to him, tossing her golden hair about her head. Then
she turned slightly away, walked over to his bed, and lifted up one
leg. Placing her foot on the edge of the bed, she looked seductively at
him in the mirror, then leant forward, running her hands over the
tights she wore. She let her hands roam, all the way up her leg, and
threw her head back with a moan of pleasure as her hands came to the
top of her leg. She knew how to turn him on, and she was doing it
expertly.
The door buzzer smashed Bryan's fantasy into shards. He started,
dropping his leg down and looking in the direction of the front door.
It couldn't be Fay, he thought. She was out of town for the weekend. He
wasn't expecting anyone else, and he didn't have friends who were the
type to drop in, unexpectedly. He paused for a moment, wondered what he
should do. If it was someone he knew, he couldn't go and meet them
dressed as Mary. If it was a stranger....
He walked to the intercom and pressed the talk button, speaking in a
voice that was half him, half Mary. "Yes? Who is it?"
"My name is Reeves. I'm a friend of Mrs Barnes."
Bryan's hand shot back from the intercom in shock. He hadn't heard Mrs
Barnes' name in over three months... but he knew it could only mean one
thing. Whoever it was downstairs, they were from The Veil.
It was a man this time. He was short, stocky, with a large leather
jacket over his frame. He eyed Bryan with suspicion as he came into the
flat, but didn't say anything. Bryan felt extremely nervous as they
stepped into his lounge. If this man was from The Veil, then he assumed
he knew Bryan was in disguise. But something about the man made Bryan
suspicious of him.
He sat down casually, indicating for Bryan to do the same. Bryan
carefully lowered himself into a chair, crossing his legs as he'd
practised for so long. He got a slight thrill as he felt the nylon of
his tights brush against itself. The man looked at him without a trace
of emotion for a good minute. Bryan felt like he was under inspection,
and found himself touching his hair and hemline almost unconsciously.
"A good job," the man said suddenly, after what seemed like an
eternity. He smiled at Bryan. "Most guys end up wearing outfits that
make them look like hookers, first time out. Nice to see you resisting
that urge."
"I.. I just wanted to look fairly normal," Bryan said in his Mary
voice. His thoughts went to the fairly risque outfits he had, still
stashed away in his shopping.
"You've been working on the voice, too," the man continued. "That's
good to see. Too many people forget that. Keep it up."
"Thank you," Bryan said demurely. He wondered what else the man was
here for, apart from congratulating him.
"You're almost through now, you know. You don't have much further to
go."
"Go with what?" Bryan asked. "I still don't understand properly what is
going on. I mean, so far this just seems like some sort of wild sexual
fantasy that I never knew I wanted to have."
"Well, at least you're enjoying yourself. I wouldn't want you to feel
like you weren't having fun."
Bryan eyed the man carefully. "I get the feeling you knew, anyway. You
knew about.. something. You knew this would work. That woman, she said
I was perfect. Perfect for what?"
"For our line of work," the man said casually. "That's all."
"That's it? That's all I get to know?"
"Right now, yes."
Bryan sighed. "So, what's next?"
"Your first assignment. Your passing out, if you will. With that over,
you'll be formally initiated."
"Into what? You make it sound like some sort of exclusive club."
"It is," the man said. "Very exclusive." He leant forward, and began to
remove his jacket.
"Okay, what do I have to do?" Bryan asked.
"Simple," said the man. "You have to do this." He reached up, and with
both hands, he grabbed hold of the skin just under his chin. He pulled
sharply, and there was a tearing sound. The mask came free, and he
pulled it upwards while at the same time, dipping his head forwards. In
one practiced motion, the mask came off - and long, blonde hair fell
down about his head. Then he looked up, and became a she. Bryan was
looking at a woman, under the mask. She shrugged off the leather jacket
and pulled open her shirt, revealing her breasts, which were held down
by bandages. She proceeded to remove her shirt and then go to work on
the bandages.
Bryan sat opposite, stunned into silence. He'd seen enough masking by
members of The Veil to take it for granted now, but such a radical
transformation was still amazing to him. And now, it seemed, the same
was expected of him. "Tell me more," he said to the woman now opposite
him. She smiled and began to relate his instructions.