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Poker Ms. Jenny Ann I wrote this story and it my not be sold. It may be downloaded or shared at free to read sites only. Poker, I love to play the game. The wager or bet, win or lose, is what makes it so very nice, not that the results of a bad bet can be discounted, I tend to forget my losses and choose to remember only the wins. Not this time, however, to tell you of the result before laying the background, would be doing you the reader of this narrative a disservice. Every Friday night for the past year my girlfriend, her name is jane, jane and I would with 3 other couples would play poker. The game was a very friendly one, $20 limit. Sometimes we would win, other times we would lose. This past Friday night was different. First, there were no other couples at the game. Jane and I were the only couple at the game, the others were her friends, Susan, Tammie and Mary. I asked Mary, "Where are the guys?" Mary said, "The guys are at a basketball game, funny they did not ask you to go with them." Susan said, "They never ask him to do any guy things. Have you ever wondered the reason why that is the case?" Tammie said, "The guys must think that he would not have as good a time, as compared to staying with the girls, you do like it when you're left with us, don't you?" I said, "Of course I like it when I'm left with the girls, but you are right I would not have a good time watching a basketball game, so, they were right not to ask me to accompany them." Susan said, "It's going to be just us girls tonight, I think we should rename James to Jammie for tonight, after all, it is a girl's poker night. What do you think Jane?" I thought that jane would say no, surprise more like astonishment when I heard her say it would be fine with her. Susan looked at me and said, "Then I here by designate the name of Jammie to the newest player to the girl's poker night, you will be known as Jammie." Jane said, "Jammie you can sit between Susan and Tammie, it would not be fair to play as a team, so, for tonight you are on your own." Mary said, "I have a great idea, let's play strip poker tonight, instead of playing for cash." I said, "I don't know about that." "Jammie is chicken, not brave enough to play with the girls," said Mary. Susan said, "I think Mary is right, are you to scared to play, Jammie." It took a moment for me to realize they were waiting for Jammie to respond and I'm Jammie, so, I said, "It would not be fair, there 4 of you and 1 of me. I could lose 4 times faster." Mary replied, "Okay, to make it fair for all, the rules for the game will be only the last 2 players in a hand, will be the winner or loser, the others that fold will be absolved from clothing loss for that hand. If all fold, then the hand is a draw and there is not a loser for that hand. Are we all in agreement?" I did not want them to think that I was scared so when they agreed so did I. Now the game could begin. I was having fun, I only played 2 hands and I won 1 and lost 1. At that time everybody had lost 1 hand, we were all top-less, almost: they still had on bras. But all of us had lost our shirts, not fair I should have thought about this little longer. "Mary, I have a question, are my socks 1 and my boots 1, or are they together 1? I only ask because you girls have on bras, and I don't have one on." Mary said, "Good question, we don't have on socks as we are wearing sandals, if socks are 1 and boots 1, then we have a deficiency, however, if they are both 1 then you are right we have 1 more item. Either socks are equal to our bras, or you need to put on a bra to be fair." Everybody had a good laugh at that, but just for a moment. They were talking it over, I started to think that they were going to put a bra on me to make it fair when, Mary said, "socks are equal to a bra, okay with you." I said, "That's fine with me." A few hands later I was on a losing streak, I only had my socks and underwear left to lose. It took 5 hands for me to lose all I had left, I thought that the game was over, and I would get my clothes and boots back, I was wrong. Mary informed me, "When you win money, you give it back, no, you don't. Therefore, you no longer own any clothes, we own the clothes, as well as the boots. Girls, do you want to give Jammie his stuff." They all said, "No! We will not return any of Jammie's stuff." I could not believe it, even jane would not return my jeans. I sat there naked and I was wondering how I could go home with no clothes. Mary said, "We always play for table stakes, so, if you want to bet what you have left, we could come to terms." I said, "I don't know what I have left lose, I'm naked after all." Mary explained it to me, you have maleness, the image you show to the world. We will put up all the clothes and boots on one hand of poker, if you win, you get it all back, if you lose, then say good-bye to masculine appearance. You could try to make it home as you are if you want to take a chance that you won't get pulled over by the cops. I sat their kind of numb, I was trying to make it seem like was having a difficult time at coming to the only option I really had to me was to take a chance at winning it all back on one hand of poker. If I lost, I would be the biggest loss I have ever had, and I would not lose any money. Ha, ha, ha very funny. At long last I said, "I will play one hand of poker if you please." Susan said, "To be fair, only one of us will play the hand. Jammie, would you please give us moment we need to decide on who you will be playing the hand of poker against." I waited on them, I did not have long to wait. "Mary will play for us." My preference would have been for Tammie to play the hand, as she did not win one hand against me. However, it seems that they know Mary had been one the one girl that I had the hardest time playing against. She had won 3 of the 5 items I had on at the time we started playing the game. I said, "jane please shuffle the cards, have Tammie cut the deck and Susan will deal the cards." They agreed and the biggest hand of poker in my life was underway. I did not have a hand, if I could have folded I would have but that was not a choice. I had to play the cards I was dealt. Mary said, "It's time put the cards on the table and see who has won this hand." I had nothing my only hope was that Mary had less than I did. As we laid our cards on the table, all eyes were on the cards, I looked down to see that my one was not to be, I lost. Mary said, "Look girls I have beaten him, I think that it's time to claim our prize." I did not want them to collect their prize I said, "If you don't want prize to be short lived, I mean I could just undo whatever is done when I get home. Here are my terms for one more hand I win all my stuff back, I lose, and the prize will last for 1 month." Mary said, "You give your word of honor that our prize will last 1 month." I said, "My word of honor the prize will last 1 month." "Okay, we agree to the terms for the hand, we will shuffle, cut and deal the cards as before," Mary said. The cards were dealt, and I thought my luck had changed for the better, a full house. I must have looked quite pleased, when I looked at the girls they had the same look on their faces. "Okay Mary let us put the cards on the table," I said. They looked at my full house, queen over tens. Mary said, "I only have two pairs, but they are both fours, I guess that means I really have 4 of a kind. Girls our prize will last for 1 month." "I thought I had that hand won," I said, "go ahead and claim the prize." Naked and I just lost my masculine appearance for 1 month. What would they do to me? I was about to find out what they had in mind for their prize. They started off with waxing my facial hair, then my eye brows and the rest of my body, legs included. Jane grabbed me by the hand took me to a full-length mirror and asked me, "What do you think, Jammie?" I looked at my feminine appearance. "Except for the package down below it seems I have the impression of being a woman." Jane grabbed my hand and led me back to the others waiting at the table. As I looked at the stuff on the table and remembered what I saw in the mirror I had I very good idea of what the final prize would be. Susan handed me a very pretty pair of red panties and told me to put them on but stop at the top of my thighs before covering the male parts. Jane said, "I will show you what is called the tuck." She placed her left forefinger over my right ball, her ring finger over my left ball and pulled them up into my groin, with her middle finger she pushed the male member in between my thighs towards my ass, while she held them like that Susan pulled the panties up to the correct place, jane then removed her hand. "That is the tuck." I looked down to see that my maleness had been hidden the deception was very effective. Tammie helped me put on an all in one panty girdle with a bra. She slipped a foam breast into each of the bra cups and grabbed me by the hand. I knew where we were going, at the mirror I did not have to be told to view the appearance. I could not find myself in the mirror, I had been replaced by a woman. That's not quite right, they have made my appearance to be that of a woman. I was the woman in the mirror and I told them their prize would last 1 month. We went back to the other and Mary was quick to point out what I had just thought of "you will have to be a woman for 1 month, you promised, word of honor "she said. I looked at the girls and said, "My father told me that the only thing that I have that nobody can take from me is my word. You can only give it and when you give it you keep it. So, I will honor my word." They were very busy getting everything in order. Mary painted my toe nails with nice red nail polish, she then started on my finger nails, she told me that they were not long enough, and she trimmed them shorter. That did not make much sense to me at the time. It became clear once she started to glue extra-long fake nails to my real ones. When she was done attaching them to both hands she said, "I don't want you mess the nail polish up, so I will wait and finish them latter." I looked at my new fake nails, they were over 1 inch long past the end of my fingers. I needed a smoke I tried to grab one from a pack on the table and jane had to help me out as she said, "Jammie is not used to having such long feminine nails, she can't even get a smoke for herself, let me give you a lite." I took both from her as I stated: I needed a smoke. As I smoked, I tried to hold the cigarette the way I had seen other women with long nails, hold on I just referred to myself as a woman and I did not think about doing it, as I was holding it the way I thought I should, when Susan said, "Look girls there is hope for Jammie, she is holding her cigarette just like a woman." I smiled at that I did do it right. "Jammie can you hear me?" Mary asked. I turned to her as if to say are you talking to me when I realized that was the name that they gave me. "Sorry I've only had that name for less than3 hours," I said. "What do you want?" Mary replied, "Check to see if your toe nails are dry and if they are put on this pair of panty-hose." I checked my toe nails and they were dry. I grabbed the panty-hose and said, "I don't know if I can, I could not even get a cigarette out of the pack with my new nails." "Okay I see what you mean," Mary said, "Susan it was your idea to have me do Jammie's nails, so, you can help her." Susan said, "I just wanted you to do her toe nails, so they would dry, and she could then put on the panty-hose." "That would have been a great way to go," Mary said, "but you did not say that." I could see that this could go on for a while, so I said, "Girls it doesn't matter now, please someone give me some help." Susan said, "I'll be right there to help you." She seems to be thinking about it for a while and then she smiled at me and I knew she had thought of a way to get the job done. She told me what to do and with some effort I did not put a run in the panty-hose or break a nail. "actually" Susan said" it's good that I could help find a way to put panty-hose on with your long nails or you would have to find an answer by yourself." I said, "Thank-you at least now I know how to do it by myself." Mary said, "So there will not be any more problems let's review what is left to do. Jammie would like me to get you a cigarette while we make our plans?" I did not want to appear helpless, so I said, "Let me try first." I used my thumb nail and forefinger nail to extract the cigarette between them, then I placed it between my forefinger and middle finger at the first joint as I pulled it towards my lips. "Could I have a lite please." Tammie offered me a lite and I took it. The girls were having a conversation about what was left and the best way to get the job done. I sat there smoking my cigarette and I wondered what their strategy would be after all I was the job they were in negotiations about and whatever they decided I would know soon. They seem to agree they have arrived at a course to get me to the end without any more problems. Mary spoke, "Here is the plan: Tammie will help you into your dress, jane will put you in high heels, and Susan will do your make-up and I will do your finger nails last." No problems with getting into the dress or high heels. I wanted to take peek at this new me, but they told me no more trips to the mirror till you're done. Susan was next with make-up. She told what type of make-up I would be wearing the shades, tints and where each type went. "Any questions on what I have told you so far?" she asked. I replied, "I know what goes where you were very good at explaining it. What I need is how I put it on." "That is what's next," she said, "pay close attention to what I tell you or when you have to do it by yourself you will be lost." She told me to open the base, it was honey beige, she went on put some on your finger tip look at the make-up mirror not at me. Start at the work your way down until you have your whole face covered. Put a little on your finger tip blend it with the first spot and repeat. Let me know when you have got that done. When I thought that I was finished she informed me under your chin too. She waited until I was done with that and told me to cover what I just did with the pressed powder from the compact. She told me that she would help me with my eye make-up by doing the left eye and I would do the right eye. One step at a time: black brow pencil, black mascara, violet trio eye shadow, and jet-black liquid eye liner on the upper lid and reused the eye brow pencil on the lower lid. We did the same with the blush for my cheeks she finished by helping me outline my lips with a very dark red lip liner she told me to finish my lips by applying ruby red lipstick, that also matched my nail polish and that would be the last thing to do. After I put the lipstick on I got a cigarette, lit it, when I pulled it from my lips I could see the ruby red imprint from my lips on the filter I really liked it. As I smoked my cigarette Mary did my nails telling me to be very careful, as I could very easily ruin the nail polish before it was dry. I very carefully put the butt out and said, "May I please see the woman you have turned me into?" They all agreed, it was time for me to see the woman I promised I would be for 1 month. I walked to the mirror and it was unquestionable they completed what they wanted the reflection I saw was that of a woman and I was that woman. I walked back to the others at the table and said, "Look at the prize you have won." I got a cigarette and lit it. " Do you like the prize, is it as good as you hoped it would be?" Jane was the first to say anything, "You look great, I mean it you really do. I never thought I would be saying this, you look much better as a woman." All the girls agreed their prize was much better that they thought it would be. As I finished my cigarette I let the events of the night play back in my head, I realized that this was their plan all along that's why Susan changed my name it was the first thing she wanted to do and once that was done the rest of the plan would work. I told them what I thought, it was perfectly planed all my new clothes fit, the high heels fit, all the make-up was new just the right shades and color for me, the foam breasts and the fake nails all here ready to be used on me. Mary answered for the group "yes we had it planned. We wanted to ask you if we could give you a make-over, but you could have declined our offer." I finished my cigarette and said, "I wish you would have asked me, it would have taken me awhile, but I am sure that in the end I would have accepted." Mary said, "Tammie and I thought that you would, Susan was not sure, and jane did not want to find out. In the end the vote was 3 to 1 in favor of girl's poker night. We knew you love to play poker and that you always think no matter how badly you're losing your belief is that one more hand and you could break even." I said, "Read me like an open book and you let my own need for that one more hand, it was my downfall. After all I set the terms for the last hand" I lit another cigarette I was getting better with these long nails "did either of you girls think to get me a purse?" Jane said, "I transferred the contents of your wallet to this lady's billfold, but we all forgot to get you a purse." I grabbed the billfold from jane and thanked her for it, picked up the lipstick and compact and said, "Well girls, you need to put your money together for a purse and our first stop for our girl's night out will be Wal-Mart. Mary you can drive, as your car is the biggest and we all will fit nicely." We left Mary's apartment I said "shotgun" first and got to sit up front with Mary. Wal-Mart was only 5 miles from the apartment and we were there quickly. I think Mary parked far from the store door just to see me walk in the high heels. When we got to the store door it was Susan that said, "You don't seem to have any problem walking in those high heels, confidence in heels is something that takes time, you impress me with the mastery of your effortless gait." I thought I would give them all something to think about while we shopped for my new purse I said, "It's like when you learn to ride a bike, once you learn you never forget." We made our way over to where the purses and handbags were hanging on the racks. I said, "Tell me if I get this right, purple dress with black print flowers and black heels I think this is a nice black purse and will go nicely." Tammie said, "You're right, how much does it cost, $15." I picked out another black purse with the price of $30 I showed it to the girls and they agreed that the $15 was a good price after all. I went over to the perfume and sprayed me with what I thought was feminine. "I'm ready to go now," I said, "what do think about this fragrance?" They all agreed that the aroma was pleasant. We went to the check-out and they paid for the purse which I told the check-out girl no need for a bag, I held up my billfold, lipstick and compact. She cut the tag off and pulled the wadded paper out of the purse and handed it to me. I opened the purse, 1 of the 3 areas inside was marked make-up. I said to the girls, "The word make-up is printed on this portion of the purse, how nice of the maker of this bag to let me know where to put my make-up." The girls laughed at that with me. On our way back to Mary's apartment I said, "Stop at the smoke shop, I need to get a carton of cigarettes, if would please." Mary pulled into a space right in front of the store, I guess she knew that I was very good at walking in high heels and did not feel the need to test me again. I went in and chose to buy eve menthol 120's, and I got a pack of cigarettes out, took the wrapper off the pack and placed them it my purse. I liked having a purse it was much better than trying to cram stuff into pockets. When I returned to the car I said "I don't know about you girls, but I am famishment. If you girls don't mind let's go grab a meal at the 24-hour truck stop, it's on the way back to Mary's apartment, my treat." They all agreed that it was a good idea. The old saying is true: nobody turns down a free meal, at least not from one of your girlfriends and that's what I am now. Mary parked and said, "I cannot get closer to the door this time. We'll all have to walk from here." We got to the door went inside and were seated the girls looked at each other, then at me: they were going to make me be the spokeswoman for the group. I spoke as if I was used to speaking for the group. I said, "At a round top table." When the waitress came over she said, "Must be girls night out, what can I get you ladies to drink?" "Sweet tea, if that's alright with you girls." They agreed to that. "And you're right it is girls night out, the guys wanted to go to the basketball game. So, we decided that it would our night to have a little fun by ourselves, isn't that right girls?" The laughter as they agreed was my triumph. "This will be on one check." Susan was the first to say something after the waitress was out of ear shot. "Flabbergasted, I had no idea that you were so in tune with the group mind set." Mary and Tammie were more akin to astonished, either of them would have said what I said. Jane was not surprised that I was in touch with the group mind set, she pointed out that I have been more like one of the girls, as I spend more time with them then with the guys and that was why she did not want this night to happen. She said, "Now is not the time or place to go in to all of the consequences of wining our prize. Conclusions that will be brought about by this night can wait until we get back to Mary's place, agreed." When the waitress returned with our sweet tea, she took our orders and went to place them. Chitchat nothing of any importance, I could not wait for a heart-to-heart with jane when we returned to Mary's apartment. The waitress brought us our meals and there was not very much conversation it seems that the girls all had some revelation, a disclosure of which they agreed with jane that this was not the place to have such a presentation and the conversation would wait until later at Mary's apartment. The conversation even though it was limited to about the meals was very good for me to attempt to fit in the group as just one of the girls. We finished our meals and I knew that I had a problem, I could not wait until we were back at Mary's apartment to use the restroom, I need to go now. I told Susan that I had a problem and she said, "Jammie and I are going to the lady's room, do either of you girls want to come?" I thought there was no pausing, I remembered that I always stayed behind when they would go as a group to the lady's room. They all said "yes", except jane she said, "She would stay at the table, so the waitress would not think we were trying to skip out on the bill." On our way to the lady's room with the rest of the girls and being the newest member to the group I said, "It's nice not to be the one left at the table, I always felt left out." Mary opened the door to the lady's room and I had my first access to the room that I thought I would never use as part of a group. I had used a lady's room once at a gas station when the men's room was 'out of order' and it was meant for single use and locked from the outside, so I knew that nobody was in the room, this was different it was meant for more than one woman to be in the room as there were three stalls with doors I was glad for that. All three were empty and there were 4 of us, I quickly went to the first open stall, now I realized what was different about this room no stand-ups, women always sat down. I closed the door to the stall and I noticed that the woman that used this stall must not have wanted her ass cheeks to touch the seat as there were drops of piss on the seat, I took some tissue and I dried it off. I very carefully pulled my panty-hose down then my panties and pulled my dress up as not to pee on it and sat down to take my first piss in the lady's room, with other women in the room with me and it felt great. After I finished I wiped myself dry and I did the tuck that Jane had taught me as put my panties back on and my panty-hose up and was quite pleased with my first attempt in the lady's room I left the stall to wash my hands at the sink, when Susan burst my bubble by saying, "Jammie do you feel a draft?" I said, "I do feel a draft." Pulling the bottom of my dress out of the top of my panty-hose Susan said, "That is what we call a back-draft, that's one of the reasons we go in groups, we watch out for each other, consider how you would have felt if you walked back to the table before you found out about the back- draft." I thanked her for having my back and washed my hands and I did a touch-up to my face with my compact and lipstick. I made sure I did my part to check for back-drafts and the group made our way back to jane who had been waiting at the table by herself. Susan couldn't wait she had to tell jane that I had my first back-draft and she laughed, I had to admit it was funny but only because Susan fixed the problem, if not then it would not have been funny, at least not to me. The waitress had left the check on the table and I picked it up. "Not too bad $45 should cover the bill and tip, I'll leave the money and check for the waitress," I said, and we left to go back to the car and return to Mary's apartment. We arrived at the apartment where Mary lived and wasted little time going inside. This was the time and the place the conversation that everyone of us wanted to have at the restaurant and had agreed to put off, was going to take place, but first I said, "Mary could you make some coffee for us, I think that this may take a while." Mary said, "Coffee is a very good idea and I agree that the conversation may take quite a while, the coffee will be done in a few minutes." Susan was the first to ask a question. "I noticed that you are very good at walking in high heels, where when and how?" I said "I knew that you would ask that one. Jane is not the first girl that I have dated. When I was 13 years old I was going out with a girl named Lynn. It was Lynn's older sister who put me in high heels just to have a laugh at me as I tried to walk in them. I said, "These shoes are really too big for me and I have never worn high heels before, you know I can't walk in them." She told me I looked cute in them and to try again. I tried, and I fell on my ass and she thought that was so funny. I took them off and left, I was made not so much that she put them on me, more that I fell on my ass. As I was walking about I ran into sally she asked me what was wrong, I told her what had happened, and she said, "I can help you get even with her, make it so she could never laugh at you like that again." I like that idea and wanted to know how she could help do that, get even. She informed me it was not my being the high heels that was so funny to Becky, Lynn's big sister, it was funny to her to see my fall while in them. She said, "With my help I can teach you how to walk in high heels just as good as any girl and when she tries get a laugh at you can put her in her place." I said, "I like that put her in her place, you could teach me to walk in high heels and no girl could ever laugh at me if they thought that it would be funny to see me fall in heels." "It will not be easy," she said, "but if you are willing to come over after school I can teach you. It may take time to get as good as you would like, but if you stick with it the last laugh will be on Becky." I came by every day after school I fell a lot the first week, I mean 1 hour a day is not much time. The second week I only fell 1 time. Sally noticed that I was getting better she said, "See I told you that if you really tried you would get better." The next week she gave me some bad news she could not help me as her dad had changed shifts and would be home and he would not like seeing me in heels, her mom didn't seem to care. She said, "I am going to do the only thing I can, gave you your own heels so you can wear them whenever your mom and dad go out and leave you home to babysit." I thanked her for the gift. I wore them as much as I could I the next month when Becky thought she would have a laugh on me I got her good. I said, "If you put a pair of high heels on me that really fit me, I'm sure I won't fall." She said, "Lynn has a pair that will fit, and I will laugh so hard when you still fall." Lynn brought me her heels and they fit me, I was about to stand, Lynn said, "You don't have to do this she can be mean at times." I said, "No need to worry, watch this." I got up and walked down the hall to the door and back without one single miss step or loss of balance. Becky got mad that her joke did not work this time and I said, "Looks like the joke is on you." Then I laughed. Susan said, "I knew you had worn high heels before, I just knew it." Mary said, "Back then you knew that learning to walk in high heels was not something a boy would want to do, didn't you?" I replied, "I did not care if it was something a boy would do, I just did not want to be laughed at by Becky again. At first it was more to get back at Becky, but that changed: the more I wore the high heels, I began to like the way they looked on my feet, the way my feet felt while I was wearing them as if they belonged in heels, the way that my ass cheeks would sway from side to side just like a girl and they made me taller. I decided then that it did not matter if I was more like a girl because I liked to wear high heels, they were my feet and I should be able to wear them if I wanted, just because other boys did not wear them was not a good enough reason to stop me. I guess that was the beginning of my willingness to do, or to have traits more in common with girls than boys." Tammie said, "I see now why it was so easy for you to fit in with us" she stopped to sip some of her coffee "fitting in with us, in a way is why we thought it might be fun to transform you into a woman, after all, except for being dressed as a woman you have been more like one of the girls than one of the guys." Jane said, "I knew that you could be at times very much like a girl, but I thought if I had enough time I could stop that, and make you be more like the other guys, you know manly." I said, "I know that you were trying to change me and a part of me wanted you to succeed, that's why whenever I would push towards a more girl like image, I would let you tell me that what I had done made me more like a girl and I would stop it for a while, then I would do something different and we would have the same old song and dance about it." Susan said, "Jane, now I know why your vote was no, on 'girls poker night'. You knew that if we pushed Jammie over the line, you could lose James in the process. When we stripped the hair off James, we removed the only thing that had a hold on the image that kept him from becoming her. When I look at her I see Jammie and she looks a woman very much, no trace of a man is left, and you cannot push her back when there is nothing to go back to, sorry but I think Jammie is here to stay." "What about that Jammie?" Mary asked. "Do you want to be Jammie from now on or in 1 month return to being James?" Tammie was quick to point out I gave my word of honor and no matter how I felt I agreed to be the prize, and that prize is to be a woman named Jammie. I drank my coffee and lit a cigarette, got up from the table and walked to the mirror. I considered my options and contemplated while I viewed myself in the mirror. I did not see a man, I saw a woman and I realized a truth that I could not avoid, I appeared to be better looking as a woman and I liked that I did, I wanted that reflection, the representation to be the way I would be seen: I wanted to be a woman from now on! I returned to the other girls at the table knowing that what I was about to say would forever change my representation of my persona from masculinity to femininity and as they say 'the shit was about to hit the fan'. Stalling for time I got another cup of coffee, they knew I had something to say, they were all looking at me, all eyes on me as I sat down and took a sip of my coffee, I turned to look Jane in her eyes and I knew that she already knew what I was going to say before I said it. "I'm so sorry Jane, I'll never be the man you want, when i looked at myself in the mirror all I saw was a woman." I put my cigarette out and I quickly lit another and took a sip of coffee, before I continued. "I can never be happy as a man now that I know that I want to be a woman. Full time and all the time, I don't want to be James anymore." Jane said, "I knew this could happen, I want you to be happy but right now your happiness is too painful for me to bear, I want to go home, and I don't want to be near you, but you're my ride." Susan came to her aid offered her a ride home, Tammie was also going to leave as Susan was her ride, they said their good-byes and left. Mary turned to me and said, "You will ruin your make-up if you start to cry." I said, "I know I just can't help but feel sad that what should be the happiest day of my life, will be a day that will remind jane of what she lost, I never thought that tonight would be the first day of the rest of my life." Mary said, "Don't worry about jane, she will be alright. We talked about this, when we were planning tonight, jane knew that this could be the result of our winning the bet and that was why she did not want to do it. I told her that if we did not do it, you would at some point try to do it yourself and if the result was not as good as our outcome, you might end up unhappy." I said" I see the point you are making, I have tried often to make myself look like a woman, but I never was able to put it all together like you girls have done and each time I tried I would feel let down when I realized that I could not make myself look good enough." Mary seemed to be deep in thought as if trying to remember and then she smiled saying, "Every time that you shaved your face you would seem to be little down, now it makes sense, you tried and did not like the outcome." I replied, "You could tell that I was unhappy, I did not know that it showed that much, I mean you never told me." Mary went on to explain that she could tell that something had me down in the dumps, but it was not until now that she put the two together.