My Anger
Janet L. Stickney
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It was a stupid bet and we all knew it, but I was the dumbest one of
the bunch, since I took the bet. It was easy. All I had to do was
find out the password for the Registrar at school. With that
password we could get in, change grades, give ourselves perfect
attendance and so on. But my buddies wanted to make it worthwhile
for whoever took the bet. If, whoever got the password, got away
with it, we would keep him in gas for six months. If the fool that
tried it got caught, well, after the school got done with him, he
would have to become a girl every weekend for three months, serve
them drinks, food and so on, at the house of whoever held the party.
It was a wild bet, and besides being stupid, no matter who tried it,
if they got caught, wearing a dress would be the least of their
worries. Bravado is my middle name, so, sure of myself and pumped up
with eager anticipation of free gas for my car, I said I would try
it. Wearing a dress didn't even figure into it. I knew I could do
it.
Using a computer was what I do best, so, on the following Monday, I
took all three of my best cracking programs with me. All I needed
was ten minutes on any of the computers the teachers use. I caught a
free one just after lunch in the Chemistry lab. My second program
went in, broke the code, then saved all passwords to my disk. I had
it! Free gas for six months! I gleefully waited until school let out
and went home to try one of the passwords. I went through several
before I found the one I wanted, logged on, and gave myself an
almost perfect attendance record, then raised my grade point from
3.0 to 3.7. Elated with myself I logged off and surfed the Net for a
while. After dinner I called my friends and told them I was in, and
had made a few changes to my grades, and looked forward to Friday
night when my car would be filled up by them!
My joy lasted until Thursday. I was called into the office. As I
walked in I saw the Principal, my mother, and a cop!
"Those passwords you used?" the Principal said without any preamble,
"have a code in them to let us know if they had been copied, and our
computers automatically record every connection from outside the
system. Your home phone number came up during a sweep last night. I
can even tell you the sites you surfed after you logged off if you
like. That aside, your grade point was not changed, it only looked
like it to you. Our computers restored all grades prior to your
intrusion." He turned to the policeman, pointed, and, "This officer
is here to arrest you for tampering, your mother is here so that she
understands the severity of what you have done. Now then, is there
anything you would like to say in your defense?"
Scared out of my mind, it all came out. The gas, the bet, dressing
as a girl, the whole thing, almost as one word. I sat there waiting,
then watched as the policeman, the Principal and my mother all
huddled in the corner. My fate was in their hands, and I just knew
it was going to be bad, really bad.
"Terrence," mom said, "they have decided to agree to the terms of
your bet, with one small change, and unless you go along with their
decision, this policeman will have no choice but to arrest you.
Tampering is a felony. Think about that. You'll always have a
conviction on your record, you can't vote, and jobs that might have
been available will never be offered to you. The term of your bet
was that you would dress as a girl and serve your friends, as a
girl, every weekend for three months, if you were caught. With just
one change, you will complete your bet."
"What's that change?" I asked, again, stupidly.
Mom took my hand in hers and smiled at me. "You will dress as a girl
of course, but all the time, and not for three months, but until
school lets out. That's three months and one week. You will be
required to attend school, as a girl, and you will begin on Monday.
Between now and then you and I will turn you into a girl. Any
questions?"
Her words hit me like a sledge hammer. Me? A girl? Until school lets
out? I would be lucky to survive the first week! I looked at mom,
did not see her smiling at me, then the cop, who was ready to arrest
me if I said no, then the Principal. I never had a chance and they
knew it. Dressing as a girl, no matter how hard it was, was
preferable to jail any day.
"Nobody will know?" I hopefully asked.
"Everyone," the Principal said, "will know Terrence. I would have to
tell them so that nobody else tries something as dumb as this.
However, I will reflect whatever name you choose on your records,
and if you look nice enough, and do your best to try and fit in, I
will hold off on telling anyone. That way, if anyone finds out, it
will be your doing and not mine. Is that fair enough?"
Great. Now all I have to do is dress like a girl, then act like one
just to protect myself! This was worse than I ever imagined!
"I'll take her home now," mom said, "and on Monday morning she and I
will report here for your approval. Maybe her father will come along
as well, since I am sure he will have some questions as well. Is
that okay with you?"
Mom's use of feminine terms to describe me was very eerie!
"That's fine madam. I'll look forward to meeting my newest Coed."
Well, mom took me by the arm, led me out of the school, and drove us
home, rather quickly I thought. Rather than the tirade I expected
from her, she was silent, which means that she was so mad she
couldn't talk, and by the expression on her face and the firmness in
her jaw, I was in for it big time. I had no idea how mad she was
until we got home and I was sent to my room, and told to strip
naked, "I better not find one bit of clothing on your skinny ass
when I get there either," she said, pointing at the door to my room.
I went in, stripped, and sat there, waiting, scared of what was
coming next. The door popped open and both of my parents stood
there, but mom was the scary one, she had that look on her face.
"Stand up!" dad said, and I did, but held my hands to hide my gems.
"Your mother and I are very disappointed in you, and while the
punishment your getting is not what I would have chosen, it does
make some sense, since you were willing to do it anyway, just to get
a higher grade and a few gallons of gasoline. I have to tell you
that I am most disappointed in the fact that you were willing to
cheat rather than study, so, in addition to becoming a young lady
for the foreseeable future, you will have a curfew, mandatory study
time, and a whole new set of chores. As far as having you dress as a
girl, that was your idea to start with, so I have no objection to
making you live up to your commitment. Who knows? After a month or
so in a dress, maybe you'll think about your actions in the future."
Without another word, dad left the room and mom whipped out her
measuring tape. It was humiliating as she measured almost every part
of my body, making notes as she went along. Then she told me to get
dressed, but not to leave the house, she had some shopping to do.
Bad does not cover what was happening to me. Looking in the mirror,
I had a vision of the ugliest girl I ever saw, and began to cry. I
was about to start my computer when dad came in and told me to
dismantle it, then take it to his office and put it back together
again.
Confined to my room after I moved my computer, and about two hours
later, mom showed up with a bunch of bags which she put on my bed.
Names of popular stores that catered to girls my age caught my eye,
and I knew the end was near. At mom's direction I undressed again,
then she began to smear a cream all over me. It was terrible. The
stench, the itching, the redness. I was in agony before she let me
shower it all off. With mom watching my every move, I shaved as
close as possible, which took off all four hairs, then I washed my
hair. It was so short that there was no way she would ever be able
to do anything with it, so I knew that a wig was in my future. Using
a razor, mom got the few places I missed, then had me dry off and
come back in my room. The only good sign I saw was that mom wasn't
making her stone face any more. Not smiling, just less angry
looking.
"I'm sure that you might be able to dress yourself, but for a while
I am going to help you. Put these panties on, then come into my room
and sit at the vanity."
I watched as mom applied foundation first, then a powder before she
brushed away the excess. Then came eyeshadow, eyeliner and blusher.
When she said she was done I was amazed at how I looked! Not at all
like I had pictured myself. Back in my room a bra was put on me,
then she showed me how to pull on the pantyhose. A waist nipper was
wrapped around me and made tight, then a short slip was pulled over
my head. Small bean bags were stuffed into the bra before a short
red dress was pulled over my head.
"The woman said that your shoes related to this size. Try them on."
The shoes were taken out of the box, and as my slid into them I knew
that they were the right size. Black, they had what mom said was a
short heel, only an inch and a half. As I stood there I looked in
the mirror and saw a girl with very short hair standing there
looking back at me. Sitting in my chair, mom pulled the wig on my
head, made a few adjustments, then used her brush to make it the way
she wanted it.
"All we have left to do now are your nails, but we should do that in
the kitchen. Come with me."
It was all I could do to make my feet move, afraid that I would fall
in those shoes, but I didn't, and it turned out to be fairly easy to
walk in them. Having my legs naked more than half way up my thigh
was bad enough, but the skirt on the dress flared out with every
step I took, and that was very disconcerting. I thought that my
panties would show with every step. Mom used to work as a
manicurist, and she knew exactly what to do. One by one she cleaned
my nails, trimmed them a bit, added a paper to each finger, then she
mixed a bunch of things together and began to smear it on my nails.
Using an orange stick, she smoothed it out, filling and making my
nails longer. After the stuff dried, she began to file and sand
until at last she said she was done. Then came the color. Sort of a
plum with red in it, three coats with a clear sealer over that. I
had to sit there for almost half an hour before she finally smiled
at me.
"Now that we have that done, I will tell you that those acrylic
nails won't come off easily. That makes it so that you are unable to
dress as anything but a girl. Now all we need to do is select a name
for you. Do you have any ideas, or would you like me to select one
for you?"
If I let mom do it there was no telling what she would come up with,
yet I had a case of being brain dead. Every fiber in my body, all my
senses were on edge, especially when I saw myself in the mirror.
Almost no trace of the boy I really was looked back at me. Instead,
there was a kind of cute girl with really great legs looking at back
at me.
"Terry seems to be the obvious choice, but that's what everyone
calls you now. You can use it if you like, or maybe you would like
something just a bit more feminine."
"I might as well use Terry, since everyone in school will know about
this the first time someone figures it out, and I figure that's
going to be about twenty minutes after I set foot in the school."
"As you wish," mom said, then told me to go get the mail.
The mailbox is across the street, and of course, it would be my
first time outside as a girl. I looked at mom who pointed at the
door. I got up, went to the door, turned the knob, and froze in
place. It was only when mom told me to get the mail again that I
actually opened the door. I was sorely tempted to dash out, get the
mail and run back, but that short dress made me very aware that I
didn't have much on under it, so I walked to the mail box and back,
doing my best to not make any mistakes. It was the longest five
minutes I could ever remember. Mom just laughed at me when I handed
her the mail, then told me that since she had only bought me one
outfit, that she and I would be going shopping, either later that
day or the next. Gee, I could hardly wait. I was watching television
when the doorbell rang. Mom told me to get it since she was in the
kitchen. I opened the door and saw who it was.
"Aren't you the prettiest little thing," Grandma said as she walked
in the house. "And what is your name dear?"
"Terry, Grandma, it's still Terry."
"That's nice dear. It will be easier to remember that way. Now let
me look at you!"
Grandma did her little inspection, then asked me how many outfits I
had. I told her this was the only one, but mom had told me that we
were going shopping for more, sometime later. She went to talk to
mom. Leaving me there as if seeing me dressed as a girl were the
most common thing in the world. I went back to watching television.
While I was in one room...
"Terry looks very cute Mary. How long are you going to make him
dress that way?"
"Until school lets out. He was very lucky that I was able to talk
the Principal into letting me do this. Terry would have been
arrested for sure, especially after that boy in the other high
school broke into their computers. That's when the law was changed,
remember? While it's possible that we might have got him out of it,
what lesson would he learn from that? He made that bet, so he must
have been prepared to dress as a girl anyway, so all I did was make
sure that was his punishment. Neither of us are fond of the idea
that Terry will be wearing dresses, but what else could we do? It
was this, or a conviction and possibly jail although I doubt that.
We think that after a few days in a dress he'll do almost anything
to get out of them, but Jeff says that since we set the punishment,
we have to enforce it, so I guess Terry will become a young lady for
the next three months."
"But what if Terry begins to like it? What if he decides he likes
being a girl and doesn't want to give them up? What then?"
"Terry!? That's unlikely, but we'll cross that bridge when we come
to it."
"Mary, Terry is your son, but under all that macho stuff beats the
heart of a softy, and it would not surprise me to hear that he will
learn to like it and might not want to give up his dresses. Just
keep that in mind."
"Okay mom, I will. But I think your wrong."
As I sat there watching television my hand rested on my now nylon
clad and very smooth leg, and I got the shivers every time I rubbed
back and forth. It was scary that it felt that good. Mom and Grandma
walked out, Grandma gave me a kiss, then left, leaving mom and I
staring at each other. Me in shame and her, well, I'm not sure.
"Terry, sit over here so we can talk." I moved to the couch. "If you
put your mind to it you can get through this without a lot of
hassle, and even though you think this is cruel, it really isn't.
Think about this. All the girls in the school wear skirts or
dresses, and nobody thinks the worse of them. If you want to become
the class doofus or clown, you can, but wouldn't it be better to
dress and act like all of the other girls? If you do that all of the
kids will quit bothering you and you can simply go on with life. I
have decided that you and I together will buy you some clothes, not
a lot, but enough to get by on for now, and I'll even let you pick
them out. You know what the girls wear better than I do, all I
insist on is that you will not be wearing slacks of any kind, even
jeans unless it is absolutely freezing outside. Now, if you agree
with me, we'll go to the mall and get you a few things."
So there I was. Mom had laid it out clearly, but I had come to the
same conclusion she did. If I went to school this way, and acted
like a chump, I would be an outcast from the first day, but if,
after they found out why I was dressing this way, and did my best to
act and look as good as the rest of the girls, maybe, just maybe,
everyone would leave me alone and I could get this over with. It
wasn't as bad as I thought it would be, but there wasn't any way out
of this short of running away or killing myself, and both of them
were out. I nodded my head yes, and mom left to get me a purse she
said. Ten minutes later she and I were on the way to the mall.
"What you need most are bras and panties, another pair of shoes, a
few skirts and a couple of dresses. If we see anything else you need
we'll get it. Also, makeup that is better suited to your coloring,
maybe a small makeup kit and some earrings and other jewelry, but it
all depends on what things cost."
There wasn't anything to say, so I didn't. I just went along with
her. By the time we reached the mall, and since school had not let
out yet, I didn't see any of my friends. Mom went straight to the
lingerie section of a huge department store, then right into the bra
section. She said I wore a size 34A, and began to look around. Just
about the time she had picked one out, I saw her look up and grin. I
looked over and saw the picture. "Breast forms! All sizes, new and
improved, now on sale!" the sign said. Without a word mom took my
hand, then we were at the counter. The woman spoke to mom, assuring
her that the breast forms were very life like, and offered to let
mom try one on, which is when she said they were for me!
"Terry is just so flat chested, and it's making her very unhappy. Do
you have something in a size A?"
"Of course! If you will come with me I'll show you, and if she likes
them, she can wear them out of the store."
"That will be fine," mom said as she took my hand again.
In the fitting room I was humiliated as I had to remove the blouse
and my bean bag filled bra, but the woman merely smiled and picked
out a pair of forms for me. After checking the color, and without
asking, she attached them to my chest! The glue smelled pretty
strong to me, and I was right when the woman told us that she had
used the long lasting adhesive, and I would not have to worry for at
least four months! Four months! I looked at mom, then into the
mirror. Those babies looked as if they were my own! I now had a pair
of very nice, perky, size A breasts coming out of my chest!
"Don't you worry a bit honey, not even your boyfriend could tell the
difference!"
Mom and the woman went out front, leaving me to get dressed,
fighting the bra as I struggled to get past the new obstructions on
my chest. On the way out of the changing room mom stopped me and
handed me a panty of some kind and told me to just pull up the dress
and slip it on for now. One look was all it took for me to realize
that I would have wider, rounder, and fuller hips and bigger and
rounder bottom. With a sigh I did as she told me. The woman loaned
mom her a tape, and she measured me again, then told me that now
that she had the right measurements, we could go ahead and buy the
right sizes. By the time we left the store, I had three skirts, two
dresses, three bras, two nightgowns, slips, both long and short, and
a dozen panties, all of which mom and I picked out.
From there we went to a shoe store and bought three pairs of shoes.
White gym shoes with pink trim, flats that were taupe, and black.
From there, as we walked out of the store, mom saw one of those
costume jewelry places, and we went in. I had one ear pierced to
match the other one, then mom stocked up on some inexpensive
earrings, necklaces and so on. She even bought me a hair band! In
another store, sitting right out in the open, a woman redid my
makeup after she wiped away everything mom did. I was sure she was
going to say something, yet all she did was start in on me. It took
her about half an hour before she said she was done. One look in the
mirror and I not only saw how I looked, I knew that it was going to
be a lot easier for me to attend school as a girl. I hated to admit
it, but I looked really great! Perfume was added to the bag of
makeup, as well as some skin lotion and bath oils. Mom said that I
should learn how to take care of my skin.
It was obvious, even to me that mom, in a very short time, had made
it impossible for me to dress as a boy any time in the near future,
then, by accident I hope, some woman that didn't even know me
extended my time by a month! Then of course mom was getting into the
idea of having a girl in the house, something she always wanted, and
began to treat me differently somehow. It was the way she talked to
me, asked my opinion on colors and so on. Nothing definite, yet it
was there. By the time we left the mall mom was excited, and wanted
me to try on several of the outfits for her. How could I say no? I
wanted to see how they looked myself. Mom wanted to see how pretty I
was while I wanted to see how exposed I would be. I dragged
everything to my room and changed into the first outfit, and almost
had a heart attack. The pink skirt was short, about mid thigh on me,
the pullover top, white stopped just short of my bellybutton. The
pleats accented the shortness of it while the top hugged me tightly
and showed off my boobs. The material was thin enough that you could
see my bra right through it! I put on the white flats and walked
back down the stairs, just in time to greet my buddies as mom let
them in.
"Gentlemen, this is the new Terry. As you can see, she is completing
her portion of your bet, with one small change. She will be
attending school with you until the end of the year." As they all
stared at me, mom looked them all in the eye. "I expect you to pay
close attention to what I am going to say next. All of you came very
close to wearing dresses yourselves, and we expect you to make sure
that Terry doesn't become the object of someone's biases, and you
WILL treat her as you would any young lady. Am I clear about that?
Are there any questions?" Turning to me, she told me that we could
all go out on the patio.
They all stood there, staring at me until mom left, then I turned
and walked out the back to the patio. Now it was do or die. I had to
convince them that they had better do what mom said, and that I just
turned out this way. But as I turned to go, and I took my first
step, my boobs bounced in the bra and I just knew they had seen
that, especially Kenny. In for a penny, in for a pound, I added a
little sway to my walk, and led the way, my skirt flaring as I went.
As we all sat down I heard Jon say to Kenny, "Damn! She looks better
than my sister!", and I felt a little better. I tried not to smile
when I heard that.
"You, ah...look real nice Terry."
"Yea, I agree with Kenny. You don't look at all like yourself.
Pretty hot if you ask me."
"Just remember," I said, "what mom told you. This is going to be
hard enough as it is, so I need you guys to help me."
"Just how can we help you?"
"Easy Jon. Don't let the rumors spread."
"Looking the way you do, there'll be a lot of rumors for a while,
then the guys will start hitting on you!"
"Knowing who I really am? I doubt that. I don't have a choice, and
all I can do is try my best to fit in, and hopefully, they'll leave
me alone."
Kenny sat up in his chair, grinned, and asked me how I liked wearing
a skirt. I asked him how he would feel and he shut right up. We
talked for about another half hour then mom told them go to home.
When dad came home mom made me stand there so he could look me over.
His eyes went up and down then back before he spoke.
"You look very nice. I just hope that you learn something from
this."
"Your father is right Terry, I want my son back, but we'll all have
to wait won't we?"
We all traded stares for a moment then mom spoke up. "Terry and I
went shopping today, and there was an accident of sorts. Neither of
us knew it, and didn't ask, but when I bought some breast forms,
just to make it easier on her, the woman never asked how long Terry
needed to wear them, and used a glue that will make it impossible to
get them off for four months. I was shocked of course, but it's only
three weeks longer, and I'm sure that by then we'll all be so used
to her being here that it won't matter, will it Terry?"
No matter what I said it would be the wrong thing to say, so I went
with the lesser of two evils and said "No mom, it won't matter." Dad
didn't like that at all, and mom only less so, but I was the one
stuck with them. Under dad's gaze, I wanted to cry. I had just told
him it didn't matter if I spent another three weeks as a girl, the
implication being that I liked it.
"Well then", dad said, "if it doesn't matter, perhaps we can make
sure that you have plenty of time in dresses. After one day and your
telling me that it doesn't matter!"
Dad was about to erupt into one of his tantrums, and that was the
last thing I wanted. "Mom! Please!" I said, hoping that she could
talk some sense into dad. She tried.
"Calm down! This is not Terry's fault! We just explained how it
happened, and all I said was that rather than take the chance on
tearing her skin, waiting another three weeks isn't so bad. And
given that it is her skin, she agreed, that's all! Now hush up and
listen!" Dad fell silent and mom went on. "Now then. None of us
really wanted Terry in dresses, but that is the only punishment that
policeman would accept, so we all have to live with it. I'll help
her because she doesn't have a clue on how to dress or act, but as
time goes on she'll get better and be able to do things for herself.
Your job," pointing at dad," is to support her. This is going to be
very hard on all of us as it is, and we don't need you running off
on a tangent, making it worse."
It was tense all that night, and knowing that I had just two more
days before I had to set foot in the school, I had nothing but bad
dreams about what was going to happen. If dad was the example, I
would be lucky if I survived the first day. The next day mom spent
some time with me, teaching me how to do my own makeup. She said she
wouldn't, or might not be available every day to help me. I also got
lessons on how to put on the bra, what to wear with what, then the
rest of that day and the next just learning how to sit, walk and so
on. By the time it came to the eve of my debut as a fool in a dress,
I was a wreck, and those thoughts of mine kept playing in my mind.
Running away was simply out of the question, because no matter where
I went, I would still have the breasts stuck on my chest. In the
morning, tired from all of the pressure, mom watched me get ready,
then, when I was dressed, she looked me over. A simple round neck
pink blouse with a tan skirt and white flats, and a white purse. I
wore pink and white earrings, and of course, the padded panty. When
she said I was ready, she and I went to the car and she drove me to
school.
Under the very stern gaze of my mother I got out of the car and
joined her as we walked to the office where the Principal was
waiting for me. After he looked me over, he told me to go ahead and
go to my first class. With both of them watching me, I stepped out
of the office and into the realm of the unknown. My homeroom teacher
must have been told, because when I walked in and saw about half the
kids, she pointed to my usual chair. Every eye was on me as I sat
down, and believe me, I was very careful about how I sat down. By
the time everyone had shown up the murmur was getting louder. It was
hell.
Fortunately, the teacher took a silent roll call and began the first
class, which was math. As usual, she would write a question on the
board and ask one of us to solve it. I got the third question.
"Terry, would you do this one please?"
If anyone was stupid enough not to know who I really was, they knew
right then. I stood up, and heard the snickers behind me, gave an
answer and sat back down. It was wrong of course, but the teacher
admonished everyone that since I was undergoing some punishment, she
would not tolerate any teasing. That brought things down a bit. When
the bell rang and I had to go to my next class, it was all I could
do to stand up again. As the new students filed in, I had to leave,
and grabbed my books, leaving my purse on the floor, which the
teacher reminded me to take. I walked as fast as possible to my next
class and endured the same stares, giggles and twice, someone
pinched my bottom. By the time lunch time arrived everyone knew all
about me. About the only good thing was that I sat alone at a table
and was able to gather myself for the second half of the day. Kenny
and Jon avoided me like the plague.
By the time school was over for the day I was on edge. All I wanted
to do was go home where there was some safety and relief from the
stares and giggles. It was a six block walk, and I started out,
trailing behind some other kids. Nobody wanted to walk with me. Jon
was in the group ahead, and I know that he saw me, yet he let me
walk alone. Some friend. Nobody asked me how school was, and right
after dinner I went to my room and stayed there. The next day and
the day after that were the same except that now the skinheads were
starting to crowd around me wherever I walked. That afternoon, on
the way home it happened. I was about three blocks from home,
walking alone again when the skinheads struck. There were four of
them. They jumped me, then beat me so bad that I fell to the ground.
Names like Faggot, queer, and others filled the air as I was kicked,
punched and stomped on the head. Someone kicked me right in the
groin which made me pass out.
Nobody saw it happen of course, and I lay there for hours before my
parents became concerned and started to look for me. My dad found
me. He called 911 and I was whisked to the hospital. 4 broken ribs,
a broken arm, loss of hearing in my left ear, 29 stitches to close
the gashes in my side and head, and that wasn't the bad news.
Because I had "tucked," myself that morning, when I was kicked in
the groin, the pressure drove my testicles into the pelvic bones and
crushed them both while leaving a tear on my manhood. I also had a
concussion. Contrary to what the woman said, the doctors were able
to remove the breast forms and nails before attending to my wounds.
Dad was really angry and wanted revenge, but also, he wanted to know
what I did to entice those boys!
If I could have, I would have smacked him in the mouth myself and
taken the consequences. I was having a hard time talking, but I let
him know in no uncertain terms what I thought of him and his
"enticing," statement. At that moment all of the pent up anger I had
about this punishment sent jackhammer like throbs pulsing through
me, and my father was the object of my hatred. It was all I could do
just to be at that school dressed that way, and he thinks I was
trying to hit on some skinheads? I was hoarsely yelling, but getting
so loud that the nurse came in, gave me a shot and threw dad out of
the room. As I drifted back to sleep I smiled. I had let dad have
it, which was exactly the first of one times in my life that I had
talked to him that way. What he said to me was wrong and he knew it,
or he should have.
The next day mom showed up with the Principal, dad and the cop. All
of them were all apologetic and concerned, but I was still angry.
Dad stood behind them as I glared at him, his weak kneed response to
my injuries and what seemed like his lack of caring about my health
still glaring like a bright light in my mind. But I wasn't as angry
at them as I was at the skinheads that did this to me. All of them,
the cop included, said the same thing. Due to my injuries, my
punishment was suspended, and as soon as I was able I could return
to school in my regular clothes. Dad was extraordinarily quiet, and
I knew that if I was ever going to get his attention and become my
own person, now was the time. I glanced at mom, then the Principal.
"No."
"No what dear?" Mom asked.
"No, I will not go back wearing my own clothes. I am going back as
Terry the young girl." I turned to the Principal and stuck him real
good. "Do you arrest the boys I named? You also have the authority,
but no. You said there wasn't enough evidence, yet here I am. Your
son is a skinhead isn't he? Is that the reason for your cowardice?
Are you afraid of your son and his friends? I thought school was
supposed to be a safe place." Turning to dad I let him have it
again. "You said I enticed those boys, and that means you think I
did or said something to make them think I wanted them in some way.
Did you tell the Principal that? Is that the reason nobody is doing
anything to put those guys in jail?" Then it was mom's turn. "And
you made sure that the only clothes I had to wear were so short that
I stuck out like a sore thumb. Only a few of the other girls wear
skirts that short. Sure, you helped me look okay, and tried to make
me learn a few things, but you also made sure that I would look like
somebody's idea of date bait. Well, someone took you up on it, and
here I am, just like you all wanted. Now leave me alone, and put my
clothes back in my closet, because when I get out of here I am going
back to school, as a girl, just like you told me, and when I am
attacked this time, maybe you'll finally get it!"
I had shocked all of them, except for the cop. My angry outburst had
bought the nurse again, but I waved her away as everyone but the cop
left. He just sat on his chair grinning at me.
"What?" I said, waiting for him to jump on me as well.
"Nothing, well, almost nothing. Those boys that did this to you are
well known to us, and while we're sure that what you said is true,
your father and the Principal both refuse to press charges. Without
that there isn't anything we can do. And you do know of course that
by returning to school, dressed as a girl will draw them out again
don't you?"
"Yes, but I'll be ready for them this time."
"You cannot protect yourself from people like this. When you least
expect it they will pop up and ruin your day again. They might even
kill you."
"Then you wouldn't need my fathers complaint would you?"
"You're certain this is the best idea?"
"Probably not. I don't even want to dress as a girl as a matter of
fact, but if I don't, they win and I'll still get stomped again
anyway. By dressing up they'll know that it didn't work."
"This isn't about those boys and you know it Terry, its about your
parents. Your father is one of those he man macho types that thinks
that anyone not like him is either a bum or Gay. Your wearing a
dress threatens his sense of being Terry, why provoke him?"
"Your right about my dad. Did you know that for the first and only
time in my life I yelled back at him? He was shocked, so he didn't
say anything, but he will, when I get home. I guess I don't care any
more. This isn't about him, it's about me. If I let those guys stomp
me and don't go back, what kind of person does that make me?
He told me there might be a better way, and told me what it was. I
was grinning when he left, then I fell asleep. The next morning when
I got up mom was sitting there, waiting for my eyes to open. I saw
her but ignored her for a minute, then stared at her until she began
to fidget.
"The cop says that dad refuses to press charges. That's great. I'm
so glad his reputation is intact. Now leave me alone."
Mom didn't say anything for a few minutes, then...
"He was afraid."
"Afraid! The great macho man himself was afraid? Of what? That he
might take it into his head to wear a dress? Give me a break mom.
All dad thinks about is what other people think. He could care less
about me, and maybe even you!"
"That's not true and you know it. He just doesn't know how to show
it, that's all. He loves you, he just has a hard time admitting that
because then he might have to give in to you. That's not his way."
"Yeah mom, I know his way. My way or the highway he always says. But
he isn't going to get his way this time. I am going back to school,
dressed as a girl, and I am going to stay that way until I decide
that he has had enough! Mom, they used a sewing machine to stitch me
up, I have more broken bones than a butcher shop, my gonads are
seated up around my shoulder blades, and all dad, and you for that
matter, can think about is yourselves. If you cared at all you would
have pressed charges that night, but not the great macho man, not
him. Well he can kiss my black and blue ass!"
"I see. You think your father will accept you back in a dress?"
"He isn't going to have any say this time mom. He either agrees and
leaves me alone, or I go live with Grandma. At least I know I'll be
safe, and she won't be on my back all the time!"
"What about me? I'll admit that I didn't like the idea of my son in
dresses, but I never expected this! I thought you might have to take
some teasing for a while, but never a beating!"
"Then why all the short skirts and dresses? You knew that the girls
in school didn't wear that kind of stuff very often, yet that's what
you bought. Not one thing came even close to my knees! If I had to
do it, then why not make it possible for me to at least fit in? Dad
doesn't know that first thing about fashion, what girls wear or any
of that. You do, and you're the one that bought all the clothes! You
and dad together made sure this would happen, then the great man
lets me get my ass beat and doesn't do a thing about it. As soon as
I can, I'm leaving. I can't take any more of his he man macho
bullshit. As far as I'm concerned he can stick it!"
Mom went silent and I saw a tear in her eye, but as far as I was
concerned she earned it. Both of them earned a big fat smack in the
mouth, but it wouldn't come from me. I wasn't able to, and wouldn't
anyway. My anger had dissolved and become determination. I was not
going to be threatened by those thugs or intimidated by my dad, not
any more, and the only way I could strike back was to return as a
girl. The problem was that by the time I get out of the hospital,
school will be out. That would mean that if I stuck to my word, I
would become a girl for the summer, all the way to when school
started again, and probably longer. Mom just sat there, not talking,
as I lay in that bed waiting to mend. About two hours later a doctor
came in and sat next to my bed.
"Good news and bad news I'm afraid. The good news is that you are
healing nicely. The bad news is that your testicles are now
nonfunctional. They were totally crushed, and we had to remove them
to protect you from other possible side effects. That means that you
will never father a child. Complicating that is that at your age,
with the damage you have suffered, your testosterone levels will
fall and you will begin to develop some minor secondary feminine
traits."
"Like what?!"
"Well, your breasts might begin to get a little larger, you'll
probably gain wider hips, smooth hairless skin and maybe, experience
a lack of beard growth."
I began to laugh. The irony of it all was too good to miss. The
beating I had taken for dressing as a girl was now going to make me
develop like one! The doctor didn't understand, but that was fine.
He didn't need to.
"I can prescribe some medication to replace your bodies natural
testosterone. 5mg a day should do it."
I looked right at mom, then shook my head no. Having a hairless
body, wider hips and boobs would make it easier for me to make my
point. I could always take the pills later, after everyone learned
their lesson. Mom did not say a word.
"The changes might be more than a little, you understand that don't
you?"
"Sure doc. Just hold off on writing that prescription for now. I
have something to prove."
He left, then mom moved to sit in the chair next to the bed. My
anger towards her wasn't quite as much as I said, but I was still
right and she was still wrong, and she knew it. Without a word she
took my hand in hers and just sat there for about twenty minutes
before she spoke.
"The doctor said that you'll start developing like a girl. I guess
that means that your father won't have much to say about it will he?
I mean, it will be the result of your beating. He can hardly take
that out on you can he?"
"He'll try mother. You know it and I know it. If I start to develop
boobs he'll go nuts. He'll accuse me of all kinds of things. I'm
going to call Grandma and ask her if I can stay with her, and I want
you to say it's alright. Otherwise I'll simply call the newspaper
and tell them my little story. I wonder how the Principal, you and
dad will look when they get done with you?"
"You can't do that, you're not old enough!"
"I have it on very good authority that I am, and I will do it unless
you call Grandma and let me talk to her, in this room, alone."
"Your father isn't going to like this Terry!"
"You know what mom? I don't care any more. I hope dad realizes what
he has done, but that won't happen in his lifetime, so why bother
worrying about it? I don't want to hurt you, but you're the only
one. Now, can I stay with Grandma?"
"I'll arrange it Terry, and I'll call Grandma and have her stop by
and see you."
Grandma came later that afternoon, and we talked for hours, about
how I felt, what the doctor said, my parents, and my threat,
proposed by the cop, to go to the papers. She got it all,
unvarnished and ugly in its reality. She was so shocked at what dad
had said that she insisted that I come live with her. I didn't have
to ask her. I was released two weeks later, with my Grandmother, not
my parents there to take me home. It was another week before I could
walk without the pain. My ribs had healed up, the bandages removed,
and for the first time I was able to bend at the waist without pain.
During those weeks I began to see the hair dropping away from my
body, leaving my legs and arms silky smooth. Grandma had done
nothing but feed me and let me heal until I was able to walk around,
then she told me that my mother had sent my things over, and it was
time for me to get dressed. Handing me the bag I went to my room.
I opened the suitcase, and right on top was an envelope. Under it
were all of my girl clothes. I opened the envelope.
"Terry,
Your father is devastated by your decision to stay with your
Grandma. I told him what the doctor told us about your condition and
the possible outcome, but I did not tell him about the possibility
of taking a pill to restore you to health. As much as he hates the
idea that you might develop like a girl, he knows that it is not
your fault, and believes there is nothing that can be done. He
admits that he hates it, but he swears that he would not hold
something against you that you had nothing to do with and cannot
control. I have enclosed a check for $3000. Use it to buy a wardrobe
that you feel is appropriate.
Love, mom"
Dad would not hold it against me because I had no control over it?
What the hell was that beating I took? I crumpled up the letter and
tossed it. Then I slowly went through the clothes, all of them
familiar except one. Still in the bag, I held it up and saw what
looked like a dress. I took it out of the bag and saw that it was a
knee length shirtwaist. I hung it on the back of the door. It took
me several hours to get through it, but I got dressed. I wore it
all. Panties and the padded pantybrief, pantyhose and the bra,
slipped in my breast forms, then did my makeup and added the wig.
The dress was last, and for the first time I felt as if I looked
like a normal girl. Adding lipstick and some perfume, I took one
last look and walked out of my room. Grandma was in the familyroom.
"Oh my!" Grandma said as she stood up. "You are much prettier than
the last time I saw you! Come and sit next to me dear."
Grandma did not act judgmental, and simply accepted me that way I
was. I was tense, but soon relaxed as she asked me all sorts of
questions, then, when I told her about the letter and the check, she
asked me if I wanted to go shopping with her the next day. She said
that we could stop at her salon and see if the was some way I could
wear my own hair. When I started crying she took me into her arms
and held me. All of the stress, the pain, and the anger had finally
welled up inside of me and erupted in a burst of tears I was unable
to control. Grandma just held me. As we sat there it came to me that
maybe, with Grandma along I could bring my mother to understand why
I was so angry at her. I never wanted to be a girl, but she had made
sure that I hated it more than anything while making sure that
someone would try to hurt me, "By teasing you," she said. She had no
way of knowing that I would be attacked, but she also didn't press
charges either. It was Grandma that told me that I might want to
include her in this transformation.
Since I could already feel the tingling in my chest, and the slight
swelling that I felt in my breasts were all were signs that I was
developing fuller, feminine breasts. Just like the doctor had told
me in a private conversation, there was a very good possibility that
I would develop a figure akin to that of my mother, and it might not
take long, and even taking those testosterone pills might not stop
it, only slow it down. That's when I decided not to take them at
all. If this was going to happen to me, then I wanted it to happen
now rather than later so I could get on with my life. Grandma was
the only one that knew that besides myself. Now she wants me to tell
mom. "Not yet," I said, "I want to grow a bit more, and get some
proper clothes first."
The next day Grandma and I went shopping, and I bought skirts and
blouses, suits, panties and bras, waist nippers, garter belts and
perfume. I also bought shoes and earrings, better makeup, coats, and
a swimsuit. Then we went to her salon. My hair was nipping at my
collar by then and was real long on top. The stylist removed the wig
and told me that it was going to be easy, and I let her have her way
with me. I also had my nails done again. Grandma was outside while
they worked on me, so I had to make the decisions myself, like what
hair color. I selected blond of course. Why not? I was making a
statement, and I wanted it to be heard loudly, then have it
reverberate throughout the family. When I saw myself for the first
time I was astounded, then the girl suggested that I have my
eyebrows thinned. "just a bit", and I agreed. She used wax, and
while it stung, it didn't hurt all that much. What hurt was when she
asked me if I wanted my upper lip done and I said yes. Now, that
hurt! But the results were worth it. I walked out of the salon
feeling great, confident that nobody would bother me again. That's
when I saw mom standing there, all alone by the potted fern.
"You look lovely Terry!"
"Yeah. Thanks."
"You know that it's a mother's job to help her daughter as she grows
in life don't you?"
"Some help you were mom. It got me beaten half to death."
"That was tragic Terry. Nobody thought that would happen, and you
know it!" I stood there, unwilling to say what was on my mind, then
I remembered what Grandma told me. "Terry, let me come with you. We
can have a fun day together. Talk a little, clear the air maybe."
"I do not trust you, so I buy what I want mom, not what you want.
Okay?"
"That's fine dear. Now let's find Grandma."
We walked side by side, those lessons she gave me so long ago still
working as I noticed that we were in step. Maybe it was how I felt
now. We passed several shops, then came to a lingerie shop. Mom
wanted to go in, so I went with her and began to look around,
fingering the satin panties and bras, looking at the corsets and
slips. Soon, mom found me and we left, but she had a bag in her
hand. I didn't ask her what she bought. Then we looked in a dress
shop where Grandma said she would be, but didn't see her. I started
looking, and made several selections which I put on the counter. I
paid the bill, then saw Grandma and mom talking outside the shop. As
I moved closer, I could hear them talking and quickly ducked into a
rack of dresses.
"I'm telling you that Terry is almost a full A cup now, and her hips
at noticeably larger! She has almost the same figure you did when
you were her age!"
"Then why did she buy a B cup bra?"
"Because she'll need them before long that's why! I'll bet that in a
month or so she'll fill out that B cup bra easily. Didn't you go
from an A to a B almost overnight?"
I knew, or thought I knew, that Grandma was fibbing about my bra
size, but listened anyway.
"Jack wants her to come home mom. He says it doesn't matter how she
dresses any more."
"Terry does not trust him, and I can understand that. He hurt her
deeply and that isn't going to go away any time soon, if at all.
Tell him not to get his hopes up, but I'll talk to her."
That was my cue, and I walked out before mom could answer. The three
of us did the whole mall, buying shoes and earrings, nightgowns and
robes, then I had my makeup done by a pro and bought lots of what
she used on me. Both Grandma and mom said I looked spectacular. That
made me feel good, and when I looked at the entire new me in the
mirror, from my hair to my toes I looked just like a 17 year old
girl. No trace of the old me could be seen. As we stopped in the
cafeteria area I saw Kenny and Jon sitting there. Both of them
looked right at me, stared a bit, then ignored me. They did not
immediately know who I was, then they saw mom and must have known.
Given that neither of them came to see me in the hospital, I had no
urge to talk to them. Nobody suggested that I go back home, but mom
did tell me, twice, that she thought I looked real nice before she
went home, leaving Grandma and I alone at the table.
"You're mother enjoyed the day today. She wants to make things up to
you Terry."
"She can drag my old man down to the police station and file charges
against those guys. Until that happens, how can I even begin to
believe that dad wants me to come home, and accept me as a girl? I
heard you tell mom that I'll be a B cup within a month. Is that
true?"
"It might be. Your mother and the boob fairy must have been on good
terms, because she blossomed almost overnight, and that might happen
to you as well. Have you noticed that those breast forms are real
tight now? That's because you don't need them Terry. You have
breasts of your own now."
"Dad's going to cause an earthquake when he finds out Grandma."
"Then we might as well wait until your done growing shouldn't we?"
The days passed, growing into weeks, each day a challenge as Grandma
made me practice my walk, hand gestures, sitting and so on, all
mixed in with learning do my makeup as well as the woman did it at
the mall, She showed me how to do my hair in several different
styles as well as how to sew and knit. My hair got longer and I now
went to the salon once a week for a trim and have my nails attended
to. I also learned what a pain a romper suit is, how it feels to
wear a women's swimsuit, the tediousness of having to almost undress
to use the bathroom, which is why women take so long in the
bathroom, and also, the joys in looking nice as a girl. Through it
all I felt myself becoming more and more feminine, and no longer
held my anger for my parents quite as close as I did before. About
this time I found a site on the Internet that sold a prosthetic
vagina that would allow me to look and function like a normal girl,
and after some careful detective work, I ordered one custom made for
me. The day it arrived, I went to my room and pulled it on, trying
it for fit before I attached it with the adhesive. Naked, I looked
in the mirror and now saw a complete girl. My breasts were without
sag, full and perky, the nipples slightly extended in the room air.
My waist size had fallen to 25 inches and my hips no longer needed
to be padded. I stood there, staring, locked onto the vision in
front of me and did not hear the door open.
"Oh my God!"
I turned, and saw my mother standing there! As calmly as possible, I
turned to face her in all my nakedness, then waved her into the
room, before I reached for, then pulled on my panties before
reaching for my bra. As she watched, I fastened the front hook and
adjusted my breasts in the cups to my best advantage.
"Hello mother."
"You've changed!"
"I told you, it's the new me. I just decided to quit waiting."
"I see that!" As I pulled on a skirt, mom went on. "Your father
wants to see you honey. He promises not to make a scene."
"Mom, I'm not going to be a boy again, not now. You saw me, just how
could I?" It was the first time I had ever said that, even to
myself, and I was almost as surprised as she was. "Mom, I have a
36B-25-36 figure now, and no amount of testosterone is going to
change that, and I'm not even going to try. If I agree to see Dad,
he'll see me in all my glory, and he'll either accept things as they
are or I am staying here and he can go to hell."
"Name the date Terry."
"Saturday, seven o'clock at Fours. I'll make the reservations, and I
am bringing Grandma. Tell dad he's footing the bill."
"We'll be there."
Saturday. Two days from now. All hell was going to break loose or
our fractured family would heal up. I was the catalyst in all this,
and I had no choice but to put dad right in his place or go on
living with my anger. After mom left I told Grandma what I was going
to do. She knew why. She and I talked for about an hour, covering
all angles, then she made a few suggestions that I agreed with. The
next day Grandma and I went shopping, and I bought the perfect
dress, shoes to match, earrings, a belt, handbag and made an
appointment with Jeri at the salon. Dad was about to get the whole
girl stuck right in his face. There is less than a month before
school starts, which is perfect. If it goes bad I'll attend a
different school as I will be living with Grandma. If it goes well,
the threat will be gone because dad will have to press charges
against the guys that beat me.
Grandma and I both had the works. Waxing, a new cut and style,
eyebrow trim, then our nails and makeup done. We were home by three
and I went straight to my room and began to get ready by taking a
bubblebath. The oils in the water made my silky skin feel even
better, then I shaved the few places I still had hair. I no longer
had a beard, the benefit of a minor bit of electrolysis, and went
back to my room. I carefully selected what I needed, putting them on
the bed before I started to get dressed. I started with the black
satin French cut panties, the lace trim accenting the leg opening
while the thin front showed my vagina clearly outlined in the soft
fabric. Instead of a bra I wore a black satin corsolet that hiked up
my boobs, pushing them together to form a prominent and very
feminine cleavage. I pulled the laces tight, making my waist a trim
23 inches, then sat on the bed and rolled on my hose before I
attached them to the garter tabs. If I put my heels on and added a
top hat I would have looked like a famous movie starlet. Without a
thought I pulled the dress over my head and zipped it up, making a
few adjustments so that every inch of my new figure was on display.
Three inch black heels, black and gold chandelier earrings, a
pendant necklace and a gold and black bracelet, then my best perfume
and finally, the brightest red lipstick I had. When I looked in the
mirror I had to smile. My blond hair was full and wavy, caressing my
shoulders while the bangs swept to one side gave a certain aura to
my total look. The dress was low cut to display my boobs of course,
with two thin spaghetti straps at the shoulders to hold it up,
tapering to my narrow waist then flaring out to end just a bit above
my knees in an elegant sweep of black chiffon and satin with black
Irish lace trim. My legs were as good or better than many I had
seen, and as I filled my new handbag, I was well aware of the impact
I was going to have on everyone, not just Dad.
When I saw Grandma I was impressed! Not that old, she looked almost
ten years younger in her royal blue sheath. We smiled at each other,
hugged, then I drove us to Fours, the most expensive restaurant in
town. The valet got a good leg shot as I got out of the car, but why
not? I had good legs, why not use them? We were escorted to our
table, and as we approached, I saw my parents at the table. My dad
stood up the minute he saw us. His eyes bugged out and he went
silent as Grandma and I sat down. Mom was the first to speak.
"My goodness! You look simply beautiful Terry!"
My dad, still tongue tied, simply stared at me, specifically my
boobs.
"You look...so...different," dad finally said, "like a..."
"Woman? Dad, I am a woman now. Ask mom if you don't believe me. This
is the new me. I'm a woman, and I'm proud of it!"
If faith is the force of life, then I had all my faith in the way I
looked and acted, and was ready for whatever came next. Dinner was
served and the table talk was about everything but my
transformation. Dad was clearly awed by the changes he saw in me,
but still, he said nothing. Music started, the small band playing
softly in the background, and I excused myself to use the ladies
room. On the way back to my table a guy about my age asked me to
dance! With a nod of my head I said yes and we stopped by the table
so that I could leave my purse. Holding his hand we walked out on
the dance floor. His name was Greg, and he was a very good dancer,
which made it easier for me to follow him. We were on the second
number when my dad cut in.
I was tempted to refuse, but didn't.
"You look very nice Terry."
"Thanks."
"Those boys? The ones that attacked you? They were arrested
yesterday."
"Yeah? Who pressed the charges against them?"
"I did."
"I see. Well, they have time on their side now, don't they? I mean,
you waited so long that they might beat the rap. That's great."
"I was wrong Terry. I couldn't see past my..."
"I was beaten to pieces, and your first concern wasn't for me dad.
That tells me a lot, but I should have known that all along."
"We want you to come home. I promise you that nothing will happen to
you."
"You know that I am a woman now don't you? I mean, look at me. Do I
look anything like a boy to you? I've grown up watching how you
treat mom, and as a woman I can hardly expect any better from you
can I?" His eyes were wide open now. "If I do come home, I'll tell
you this much, you won't intimidate me like you do mom, and I'll do
whatever I need to do in order to make you treat her better."
Dad was silent during my tirade, and when he realized that I would,
and could, make his life miserable if he didn't change his ways, his
mouth turned into a straight, angry line. He wanted to threaten me,
slap me, something, but didn't dare. There were enough men there
that would probably whoop his ass if he did. But he got the message,
loud and clear.
"If those boys are arrested, I want my own attorney to represent me
at their trial, if there is one, and after they are convicted, maybe
I'll think about it. Right now I want you to take a good look at
what you have created. You and mom managed to turn me into a girl,
all on your own, and now you'll just have to live with it." Dad and
I moved to the patio, but stayed where everyone could see us. "Mom
says that you won't hold turning into a girl against me because I
have no control over it." He nodded his head yes. "Then that means
that you think it was my fault I got my ass beat. I had no control
over that either, did I? What's different now?"
Without a word dad went back in while I stayed outside. I had to let
myself calm down. Ten minutes later I went back to our table and sat
down. That's when mom told me that the Principal had committed
suicide. It seems his son was involved in my beating. I didn't know
that! It came out when the police started questioning the boys that
I had identified. His son's involvement meant the end of his career,
and of course, his ambiguous response to the beating would always
leave doubt about his participation in a cover up, and even if he
did not know, how could he ever prove it? Dad sat there grim faced
as mom told me what had happened, then turned to him and let him
have it.
"I want Terry to come home, and I am going to do whatever I have to
do to make sure that happens, and if and when she does, you will
treat her with respect or you'll just have to leave. Terry has
opened my eyes to a lot of things, and the way you have treated me
for the last twenty years is just one of them. That stops now. You
can see that she has become a woman Jack, and there isn't anything
we can do about it. You'll just have to accept that, but if you
cannot, then you'll leave or we will both be living with mother."
It was the harshest thing I had ever heard my mother ever say to
him! My spirits went up when I realized that my mother had finally
taken a stand against his idea that men rule and women obey. He
looked ashen, as if struck by lightning. His eyes went wide, then
narrowed as he looked first at me, then mom, and finally Grandma. We
must have presented a solid looking front of females as he went from
one face to another, then,...
"Am I so wrong to want my son to be a man? Or that I want my wife to
keep a clean house?"
"No Jack," mom said, "All you wanted was a maid to clean the house,
a whore in bed and a debutante to take to dinner. Terry is none of
these things, and neither am I. She is a beautiful young girl, our
daughter, and she is not going to be your slave, maid or point of
resentment."
"What about you?" Dad asked, "You were the one that decided what she
would wear and how she would look!"
"Terry and I have discussed that. She and I are past that Jack. What
about you?"
Dad got up and stomped away, leaving us sitting there! Mom used
dad's credit card to pay the bill, then the three of us went to
Grandma's house. Nobody said a word on the drive over. Mom stayed
with us, and just like Grandma told me, mom and I grew closer. When
it came time to go back to school I enrolled at a different high
school. About a month after school started I was called as the
principal witness in the trial, but by then my attorney and I had
talked many times, about the crime, my status as a girl, how I ended
up dressed as a girl and what I wanted out of this. We both knew
that the main defense was going to the way I was dressed that day.
There was no way to get around it. I would have to nail my parents
to the wall. The fact that I had developed as a girl was a matter of
medical certainty given my injuries, and there wasn't much their
lawyers could do about that. Mom also knew what was going to happen,
and accepted her fate with grace. She knew that I would have to tell
it like it was or the boys would get off.
At school, once it got out that I was the one that got beaten for
pretending to be a girl the rumors began. But I had made friends
with some of the girls, and they had seen me naked as we changed
clothes for gym. That had them confused of course, and I wanted to
tell them something, anything, just to counter the rumors. I took
one girl, Jill, into my confidence, but I told her at Grandma's
house, with mom and Grandma sitting there. Jill listened, then
started to laugh! Then she told me not to worry so much. Almost
everyone knew about the skinheads, and nobody believed that I wasn't
yet a girl. The best rumor going was that I had been surgically
altered to be a girl because of the beating. She told me that she
would see to it that became the truth, as far as anyone else knew. I
hugged her and cried a bit I guess.
During the trial their attorney's went after me hard, accusing me of
dressing as a girl because I wanted to be with boys, that I had
enticed them just by dressing that way, and had brought on the
beating when I had told them no. After a few minutes of that, the
judge called everyone into his chambers and lit into the defense
attorneys without mercy. They knew the true facts as well as anyone,
and told them to lay off. That was when they went into a huddle and
with the Prosecutor, arrived as a sentence. I never had to smear
mom, dad, or anyone else. The boys all drew 18 months to three years
for aggravated assault. After the trial the judge asked to speak
with my family, which is when my dad got a lecture from the judge.
But mom stopped him. She told him she had filed for divorce. Dad was
shocked but said nothing and left without a word to mom or I.
The divorce went well enough I guess. I lived with Grandma until I
graduated, rarely dating, while mom moved to a small apartment and
dad took a transfer to another state. Grandma was right about the
boob fairy though, she came again and I blossomed to a full C cup,
my waist grew smaller and my hips and bottom got fuller. I no longer
worry about my femininity, I am a woman and that's enough. I began
to see a doctor, and he has scheduled my completion date. At the age
of 18 I will be a whole woman with a fresh outlook on life, but I
have learned a lot in all of this. We all have. My dad never calls,
but I see mom almost daily now, and we are starting all over again.
Maybe we'll get closer, like a mother and a daughter should be. Dad
can go to hell.