Dear Diary I Cheated My Husband
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Dear Diary Part 10: Questioning And Answering free porn video
Dear Diary,
Sometime ago, I joined a message board where I could talk to other
cross dressers, women, trans preps, and even male admirere about all
sorts of topics. It became a safe spot, a sanctuary for Kimberly to
express herself. I became a regular there and even befriended some
very nice people. Although never meeting any of them in person, I felt
a general closeness where I could be myself and took comfort in the
cloak of anonymity.
I had met this guy named Dalton who lived in my city on that message
board about a year ago. He sent me a nice message complimenting me all
over and I kindly thanked him a hundred fold. We started talking more
and more and it turned into something we did every night throughout
the year just as friends really. It first started on the board, but
gradually moved to emails, and when I moved out of my parents house,
Skype video chats.
We had similar interests in many things like movies, music, books,
etc. He was kind and funny. Just a gentle soul really. He told me he's
a few girlfriends in the past but that it didn't work out for various
reasons but mostly because he said that he's always had a thing for
Trans girls or Cross Dressers and that it was his deepest held secret.
He was so sweet. He never infringed on my privacy and was always
really polite and gentlemanly. He told me the other night that he
really enjoyed our conversations. He even said that he had a bit of a
crush on me. To be completely honest with you, I thought he was nice
both in the personality department and in the looks department. He was
fit and had a handsome face. He had long dark hair that sat a few
inches below his ears. He was soft spoken and and had a gentle, almost
feminine nature. He was very easy to listen to. He was also half
Japanese which I thought was wonderful because I love Japanese
culture.
A few nights ago, he gave me his phone number, asking to meet me in
person on a date. He was really sweet and romantic. His email read
like a love note from the heart. I felt so flattered but I didn't know
where I stood as far as my sexuality. I am still having trouble with
my gender identity. I was also a bit scared. Meeting somebody from the
Internet could be dangerous. But I've seen him on Skype and actually
talked to him. My mind was a Picasso. I told him I'd consider it, that
I've never dated a guy before, and that I wasn't sure about it. He
completely understood.
"I know this is scary for me too. Take all the time you need," he
said.
The next morning, Marchesa and I went on our morning jogs around the
city. I had hoped maybe the fresh air, the sunlight, and a bit of
exercise would clear my mind as I woke up still dazed and confused
about my feelings towards a guy.
Marchesa and I stopped at a local juice bar on our way back to the
condo. I had been pretty aloof most of the morning and Marchesa must
have noticed.
"Hey sweetie are you ok?" she asked. "You seem distracted."
"Oh-yeah..." I said. "I'm ok. Just have a lot on my mind right now."
"Tell me, maybe I can help," she brightly said.
I kinda sighed. "Well, someone I know asked me out."
"That's great K!" she said jovially as she sipped on her smoothie.
"I'm just not sure how I feel about it," I said.
"Well do you like this person like that?" she asked.
A valid question. "That''s the thing I'm most confused about," I
replied.
"I was asked out by a guy," I said under my breath.
"Oh.. I see now" Marchesa said. "It sounds like you're actually
entertaining the idea already.."
"I know" I said. "I don't know how I feel about it. I've only dated
girls."
"Ok.. well first things first. Do you think he's attractive?" she
asked.
"I think I find the idea of it very attractive. But I don't know if
I'm.."
"Gay?" she finished. "It's ok to not put a label on it. If you like
him then you should see where it takes you. How long have you guys
been talking?"
"A little over a year," I said.
"Wow. He must have been really crushing on you," she giggled.
I was red faced.
I told her all about how we met, how we have a connection already, how
sweet he is, how cute he is. Wait, what??
I handed her my phone with his picture.
"He's a cute one!" she said.
"Yeah and he's very sweet, too," I said.
She laughed. "It sounds like you are crushing on him too!"
"You need to call the boy back," she exclaimed. "Call him right now!"
she encouraged.
I got my phone out and proceeded to press on his number but I
hesitated at the call option.
"I can't do it!" I told Marchesa.
"Yes you can!" she pushed. "You like him! You know you do. Just call
him hon!"
I pressed call and the phone started ringing. I was so nervous I was
shaking and then I realized I needed to do my Kimberly voice because
he only knew me as that. There I was in the juice shop with a bunch of
people around me. Then he answered with his sweet voice.
"Uhm, hi is this Dalton?"
Marchesa gave me a face like she was impressed with my voice.
"Kimberly? I'm so happy to hear your voice!" he sweetly said.
I giggled. "Me too. So... I've given it some thought and I think we
should go for it," I don't know where these words we're coming from
but I was equal parts scared as I was excited while saying them.
"Is it a date?" I asked.
"Definitely!" He sounded so happy. "Let me take care of everything.
I'll text you the details very soon!"
As soon as I put the phone down, I felt a wave of electricity wash
over me. I was nervous and worried but I was also excited.
"I guess it's a date," I said stunned by the moment.
"Yay! See! I told you it wouldn't be so bad," she said.
"I'm still worried though M."
"Why sweetie?" she said.
"He wants to date me... but not me...you know?" I stuttered.
"What do you mean?" she again asked.
I struggled to find the wording. "He wants me to.. dress up like you
know..."
"Ohh ok!" she said.
"I'm just scared by it all."
"I know it must be hard. But I think you won't forgive yourself if you
don't do this because you would be hurting your friend the most," she
said.
She had a very good point. I didn't want to hurt his feelings.
"Just have fun with it hon!" she finished. "And if it doesn't work
out, it doesn't work out and you thank him for a nice evening and tell
him you just want to be friends."
We both laughed.
This could be life changing.
Nanette
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