Chapter 11.
I woke up with an urge to pee. I went to the bathroom and stood in
front of the toilet! I lifted the toilet lid and seat and then looked
for my penis. I couldn't find it! 'Wait a second! Where is it!? Oh
Shit!'. Then I remembered. Perforce, I put down the toilet's seat and
sat and peed! While washing my face, I saw myself inside the nightie
Cindy gave me last night. It felt very wrong and embarrassing.
Immediately, I removed the nightie and also my panty. I would have
looked like a skinny boy with female traits, if I had a penis. But
without one, I looked like neither a boy nor a girl. My body lacked
certain curves to be considered female. I felt the need to take a
shower and clear my mind.
In the shower, I noticed that my body felt very smooth and sensitive,
especially around my nipples. I ran my hand along my thighs and it felt
also so soft. 'holy shit' I whispered to myself.
After the shower, I toweled myself and entered my room. I searched my
limited wardrobe and chose to wear the white panty and the pajama from
the day before. Those were the least feminine items. Once dressed and
dried, I went downstairs and found Cindy and Ben in the kitchen.
"Hey! Here is our Emma, the messy-hair celebrity!" Cindy said joyfully
and teasingly.
"Hi!" I said and then looked at Ben. "... Em.. Morning Ben!"
Cindy came to me and dragged me towards my room and said, "Let's do
something about this messy head of yours," while referring to my hair.
"It's fine Cindy," I protested.
As she was dragging me, Ben shouted. "And maybe wear something more
appropriate. Maybe one of the outfits my men brought yesterday?"
I froze and yelled, "I am comfortable in my pajama! Nobody is going to
see me since I stay inside!"
"It's not about being comfortable, Emma," he said. "I don't want to
scare you, but we never know what could happen. You have to be ready to
leave the house at any moment and as fast as possible. So, it is a good
idea to dress properly during the day. You don't need to sleep fully
dressed but make sure that you have a bag with all essentials including
proper clothes always ready."
"You mean they can find me here?!" I said terrified.
"Don't worry Emma. It's possibility is really low. But we have to be
prepared for anything," he said.
"Don't worry Ben, I make sure she is appropriately dressed," Cindy said
with a funny vicious smile and then she dragged me again.
Once in my room, she made me wear the outfit I tried the day before:
the slim jean and the top with floral prints. Then she styled my hair
as much as she could. "You need a proper haircut honey. You have a
pretty hair, but you need a haircut," she said while combing my hair.
"It's so good that you wore your hair long. Let me see... It's about
five to six inches already."
"I didn't have time to visit a barber recently!" I said. I remembered
that Luis had made a similar remark about my hair in the hospital a few
days earlier. The difference was that Luis was joking about my hair
when I was still fully male whereas Cindy was completely serious and I
was female practically speaking. Strangely enough, I could see her
point, that is: 'the longer my hair becomes, the more female I will
look and as a result the lower the chance of getting identified.'
"Maybe a pixie style?!" she asked.
I looked at her confused. She was asking my opinion about something I
never heard of.
"I guess it suits your blonde hair," she said. "The question is if we
can bring a hair-dresser here! [pause] I will ask Ben."
And that was decided. Once more Cindy decided for me and I was getting
used to that.
When she was done with my hair, we went back to the kitchen. Ben was
still there.
"Wow Emma! You look beautiful," he said and that made me red
[embarrassed] "You certainly pass as a girl."
We ate breakfast together and Cindy asked if Ben could bring a
hairdresser to do my hair in the house. Ben replied "That could be a
bit difficult! I will see what I can do! But if it works, you must make
sure that he or she doesn't suspect anything."
After breakfast Ben explained to us the details of the events of the
day before including my death and what was in the agenda for the
following days. Then he brought a folder including a number of
documents and cards.
"Emma, in this folder you can find your ID card, passport, driver
license, medical and educational certificates and so on." He handed a
folder to me.
I opened the folder and found my ID card. The picture on the card was
certainly me but more feminized. It read:
Emma Green
Sex: F
Born: 1 Aug 1991.
...
"Emma Green!?.... Am I suddenly 27 again? ," I asked surprised.
"You look even younger honey," Cindy said.
"The picture doesn't look like me!" I said.
"This is good enough for the moment. Once your transformation is
complete we will take new pictures and will make new cards for you."
I looked at the other documents in the folder. I found a manufactured
Resume. I browsed it and found that my cover had a bachelor in
organizational studies with average GAP and had worked as an
administrative assistant (aka. Secretary) for a real estate company for
3 years.
"Seriously, Ben? I have a PhD in computer science!" I said annoyed.
"Lucas had a PhD. You need to have a low profile. And a profile as
different as Lucas's," he said. "We don't want to draw attention. "
I was not satisfied with the answer.
He noticed my annoyed face and added, "Remember! This is temporary."
After a quarter of an hour, Ben left and I was again alone together
with Cindy. She did my injections. After the injection I felt tired
again and went asleep. In the afternoon, she tried to put makeup on me
but I resisted and she didn't insist. We watched the news and talked
about different stuff during the remainder of the day. The evening was
eventless and boring. Before I went to bed, she made sure that I put my
nightie again and then left my room.
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We didn't have any visitors the next day (Sunday, 20th January) and it
was even more boring.
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The day after was a Monday, 21st January. I woke up and took a shower
and went to find Cindy in the kitchen. She was super early.
"Hey there! Why are you still in your nightie honey!?" she asked.
"My jeans doesn't fit anymore," I replied. "oh!"... 'Does my voice
sound different?' I thought.
"Really?" Her eyes fixed on my hip and then she said, "Aha, Lena had
told me that you would grow around your hip. Let's go to your room and
see if I can find something for you to wear."
We went to my room and there she asked me to take my nightie off.
"Wow Emma! You are almost an A-cup!" she said looking at my chest! She
was right. I had already noticed that when I was showering that
morning. I had also noticed that my nipples were now more sensitive and
my skin were more smooth. However, I decided to ignore them. After all,
I couldn't prevent those changes.
"Let me find you something!" She went to her room and brought a small
piece of clothing and showed it to me with a big smile. It was a bra!
"NO! NO! There is no way I wear that! Don't even try," I said.
She seemed disappointed but didn't insist! "OK, as you wish!"
She went to find something for me to wear. She returned empty handed
and said, "I cannot find anything your size. I guess your hip will grow
even more and it will be stupid if we buy anything with this size."
"I can wear my pajama. It will fit!"
"That is not an option. But don't worry! I have a solution." She went
to her room and came back with a few items. "Try these!"
She gave me the items. I browse them.
"They are dresses!" I exclaimed looking at her.
She was smiling.
"I cannot wear them," I said in a low voice. I was on the verge of
crying.
"Honey! You will look beautiful in them. I am sure," she said
enthusiastically.
I sat on my bed while still holding the dresses. I couldn't hold my
tears anymore. I sobbed very loud.
Cindy rushed towards me and hugged me hard. "Oh! Honey! I am sorry! I
am sorry!"
I cried while being hugged by her for around 5 minutes. Finally, my
emotions subsided a bit and I could stop crying. I wiped my tears and
said, "Why me? I cannot take it anymore!"
Cindy who didn't know what to say just remained silent and kept hugging
me. But after a while she said, "If you don't want to wear these, we
can figure out something else." She sounded very calm and sympathetic.
"But, honey, you are a girl, a very beautiful one and girls wear
dresses."
"I don't want to be a girl," I said with a cracked voice.
"I know honey. But you have to at this moment. When you pass this
period, you are free to be whoever you want to be. Now, you need to be
a girl. I know you can do it!" She paused a bit looking into my eyes.
"And I think, you take it very hard on yourself! You should take it
easy and perhaps you will enjoy it! Think of it as a prank!"
She was right! The whole cover thing was temporary and my life depended
on it. I didn't have to take it so hard on myself. I looked at her and
then looked at the dresses. I browsed them; there were three dresses:
one was a very short black dress, one was a stripped black and white
dress and the last one was a more decent green dress. I picked the
green one and I said, "I wear this one." A very big smile formed on
Cindy's mouth.
She helped me wear the dress and then dragged me to the mirror. When I
saw myself in the mirror, my jaw dropped. "Is that me?" I pointed to
the girl in green dress in the other side of the mirror.
"Yes honey! You are beautiful!" she said. "But something is missing.
[pause] your nipples are visible honey. You need a bra!"
I pouted. I could see my nipples as well and she was right. She handed
the bra again. I took a deep breath and removed my dress. She helped me
with the bra and then helped me wear the dress again. Surprisingly, my
nipples weren't sensitive anymore against the fabric of the dress. It
felt good.
"Now, let's go and eat breakfast!" she said with a big smile.
It was a weird feeling to walk while wearing a dress. I was feeling
naked and vulnerable.
After breakfast, Cindy said, "Tomorrow, a hairdresser will visit us and
will cut your hair."
I didn't comment on that. What could get worse? I was wearing a dress!
The remainder of that day went uneventful except that I had really
weird feeling wearing a dress and there were moments where Cindy had to
remind me that I was wearing a dress.
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In the next morning, I woke up early. While taking a shower, I noticed
that I literally have boobs. They were bigger than yesterday. Besides
that, my hip was also wider. Again, I decided to ignore the changes.
After the shower, I wore my green dress and went downstairs. Cindy and
I had breakfast and talked about different but general topics. After
breakfast, Cindy told me that the hairdresser will be there in half an
hour.
Half an hour later, as I was watching the news [which was mostly about
Lucas, PMDS and ZIS in general], I heard someone knocking. It was the
hairdresser.
Cindy opened the door. "Hi, you must be the hairdresser! Come in!" she
greeted her inside.
"Hi, I am Amanda," the hairdresser said. She was around 40.
"I am Cindy." Cindy said and then she looked at me and introduced me
"And here is Emma whose hair need to be stylized."
"Hello Emma!" She approached me and said, "Wow, you are beautiful! Your
hair is also beautiful! We will make you even more beautiful today!"
I felt awkward again. My face became red again. I have never been the
center of attention this much. "Thanks!" I said shyly.
"Oh, how cute! She is also shy! Do you have a date sweetheart!?" Amanda
asked. Cindy immediately giggled.
"No! I don't have a date!" I kind of protested.
Then we all went to Cindy's room. There was a makeup desk there. They
made me sit there.
"Do you have anything in mind honey?!" Amanda asked.
I looked at Cindy confused.
"Anything that suits her works... girly but not too feminine..." Cindy
said giggling. "Her boyfriend visits us soon. I want him stunned when
he sees her." I looked daggers at Cindy. She giggled again. She
obviously enjoyed the fact that I couldn't complain in front of Amanda.
"I'll make sure she will be stunning for her boyfriend." Amanda said
smiling. She start working her magic on my hair during which she asked
a number of questions:
Amanda: "What is his name?"
Cindy: "Nick."
Amanda: "He must be handsome to have such a beauty as his girlfriend!"
Cindy: "He is super handsome. Around 6'4," with super build body!"
Amanda: "Wow! You are a lucky girl!... What does he do?"
Cindy: "I don't know!"
Me: "He works as a researcher... er... but he want to quit and start
his own business."
Amanda: "here you go. She also speaks!"
.....
When she finished working on my hair, I looked completely like a girl.
I couldn't see Lucas anymore. Everything about me was Emma. And that
scared me a lot.
"Wow! You look adorable!" Cindy said to me cheerfully.
"I told you she will be stunning," Amanda said.
Amanda left half an hour later. The rest of the morning was ordinary
except I kept getting shocked whenever I looked at the mirror.
In the afternoon [around 4pm] when Cindy and I were watching TV, a car
parked in the front yard. Cindy jumped and checked through the window.
"Who is it?" I asked nervously.
"Guests," she said smiling. I thought 'She obviously likes whoever the
guest are! That means it is safe!'
"Ben?" I asked.
"Ben and... the Mr. boyfriend," she said.
I jumped out of my chair with the news! "Nick?! No! No! He cannot see
me like this! Not like this!" I said panicked. I started to flee to my
room.
"No!" She blocked my way and said, "You don't go anywhere!"
My heart was about to burst. I felt like it would explode. I couldn't
move! I just froze there. A few seconds later Ben and Nick entered. Ben
greeted Cindy and looked at me super-shocked! Nick greeted Cindy and
then came towards me.
"Hi, I am Nick... er... Nice to meet you!" He stuck out his hand for a
hand shake.
I couldn't flee anymore. I was frozen like a statue. I shook his hand.
"Hi!" I said looking down.
He wondered a bit about my awkward way of greeting but eventually he
ignored it. Then he suddenly turned back to Cindy and said. "Where is
Lu... er... Emma?"
Chapter 12.
'Oh! He didn't recognize me! Seriously!?' I thought. 'Maybe, that is a
good thing! Maybe I can change to something else!'
I was shaking my head signaling to Cindy and pleading her not to reveal
my identity. I hoped that I could get back to my room and change back
to something less feminine. But my efforts were in vain.
Cindy giggled and decided to ignore me. She then pointed at me with her
head and said, "You just met her!"
Nick turned to me again. This time, he looked deeper in my eyes and
studied my face more carefully! I wanted to curl up and die. "MAN! This
is you Lu... er.... This is you Emma!" he said loud and obviously
shocked. "You look like a real girl!"
"Where are your manners Nick! She looks stunning!" Cindy said, "and of
course, she is a real girl!"
Cindy's comment made me way more embarrassed! She should have been
awarded a PhD in 'making me embarrassed'.
"Eeeem... I mean... she is very.. beautiful!" Nick stuttered while he
was checking me out heat to toe! Although I had already wore a dress
for a day, I never felt that naked until that very moment. I would give
everything to just disappear!
"It's an improvement Nick! But you could improve!" she said.
Ben, who was silently watching us since he arrived, looked at me and
said, "You have improved Emma. I must confess, I never thought you
would look this convincing this fast. And I am very happy. You know,
you made my job easier now!" and then he added "Let's have a coffee and
talk about the plan."
Cindy asked Ben. "Have you bought what I asked you?"
"Yes... they are in the trunk," he replied.
"Yeeeey! I cannot wait to see them! Give me the keys," she asked ben.
Ben gave her the keys.
I was still frozen and Nick was distracted by Ben and Cindy's
conversation. I wanted to flee before they could bring the attention to
me again so I said, "I go make some coffee," and left towards the
kitchen. Ben and Nick went to the living area and sat on the couches in
front of the TV.
Once I was in the kitchen, I sat on a chair and thought a bit! 'Why did
I let her dress me like this? Why did I let her... What will he think
about me? He will never think the same anymore!.... FUCK... '. I bended
my neck and lowered my head, then held my head with my both hands and
continued thinking 'We used to played soccer together. We used to hit
on girls together!... '. I might have got crazy if I had continued
thinking about Nick and the messy situation! I decided to ignore the
bad thoughts and busied myself with making the coffee.
"There are so many bags!" I heard Cindy yell from outside.
"I didn't know which one would fit, so I bought one from each size!"
Ben yelled back.
'What did they buy this time?' I thought 'I bet, they are for me!' and
I shook my hand as a sign for my disapproval. But nobody was in the
kitchen to see that.
"Wow, they are beautiful," I heard Cindy say.
"Choose those which fits her and she likes. The rest must be returned
before tomorrow." Ben said.
"I am so jealous!" she said, pouting.
"Don't make that look! You can choose one or two pairs for yourself!"
Ben said.
"Yeeeey!" Cindy screamed and jump up and down a few times.
'He must have bought me some pairs of shoes! I guess I cannot use my
old ones!' I thought. Cindy's scream made me curious and I wanted to go
out and see the new items. But I didn't dare to confront Nick again!
"Emma! Where did you go? Come SEE these!" she yelled.
"I am making coffee!" I yelled back.
A few seconds later she came in the kitchen and dragged me outside.
"Coffee can wait!" she said.
Nick stood up and said, "I'll take care of the coffee, Emma." Then he
went to kitchen.
"Thanks," I said shyly.
"Come look at these beauties." She showed me the pile of around 30
pairs of women shoes: heels, sneakers, loafers....
She then made me sit on a chair and forced me to try each one of them.
I first tried the sneakers and the loafers and separated those that
fitted me. Each time I tried a pair of shoes, she asked me to walk a
bit to see if it's comfortable. It was unbelievable how much she
enjoyed the show. I was her living doll!
While I was trying different shoes, Nick came back. Ben and Nick
watched TV and drank coffee but sometimes made some comments about the
shoes I was trying. I was still extremely uncomfortable in my dress but
I couldn't do anything about that.
After I tried all sneakers and loafers, she gave me a pair of black 3,"
high heels and asked me to try them. I protested "I cannot wear them
Cindy!"
"Why not? They go with your dress honey!" she said.
"I will fall," I reasoned.
"That is not an excuse sweetie. I will help," she insisted.
I pleaded her with my eyes. I didn't want to embarrass myself more.
In reaction, she looked at Ben and Nick "What do you think guys...
Should she wear these?" she held the pair in the air in front of her.
Ben was indifferent. He just shrugged. Nick, on the other hand, looked
at the pair and then at me and said, "I think you should wear them,
Emma."
"Nick!" I yelled. "Which side are you?"
"Er.... Your side!" He upspoke. He paused and said, "I think you will
look beautiful in those!"
"The boyfriend approves. You have to wear it now!" Cindy said
cheerfully.
"But..." I wanted to protest.
"No but! You heard him!" she said.
I was cornered again. Defeated, I sat on the chair and wore the heels.
They fitted perfectly. When I stood up, I almost lost my balanced, but
Cindy helped me keep my balance.
We went to my room where I practiced walking in heels. I was relieved
that she didn't make me to practice in front of Ben and Nick. Once I
learned how to keep my balance in heels, she made me walk all around
the house in my heels for around half an hour.
"Wow! you are a fast learner, Emma! You walk perfectly in those heels
now!" she said.
Suddenly ben called us. "Cindy, Emma, would you please come here!"
We join them a few seconds later. I was still in my heels. Although I
had already walked for half an hour in heels, I could still hear the
click-clack of my heels as I walked.
Ben who saw us approaching the couches, pointed to the empty couch and
said. "Would you please sit for a moment! We need to discuss
something!"
I felt something must be wrong. That idea made me terrified. "Is
something wrong?" I said terrified.
"No! everything is fine!" Nick, who saw my freighted face, immediately
replied.
"Everything is fine!" Ben said. "Something came up though and we must
change part of our plan."
"Change?!" I asked curiously. "Which part?!"
"Nick just received a call from the owner of the new house!" Ben
explained. "He decided that he is willing to rent out his apartment and
have you as tenants. However, he needs to see both of you in person to
finalize the contract. Apparently he is a very strict person who only
accepts decent couples and families as tenants. [pause] Nick agreed
that you two visit him around 6pm in the new house."
"But you said I cannot leave the house!" I said.
"I said when you were Lucas!" he said. "Now, you are clearly Emma. No
one will doubt for even a second!"
"It is too dangerous!" I said. "What if somebody recognize me! What if
one of those groups kidnap me!"
"Nobody will recognize you honey!" Cindy said. "Even Nick couldn't!"
I was not ready for this. I was not ready to go out. I got terrified.
"I cannot be out there all alone!" I said trembling.
"Relax, Honey! Nothing will happen! Nick is with you!" Cindy said while
holding my hand.
"Why can't we go tomorrow?" I asked desperately.
"Because, the owner didn't have time tomorrow and the day after
tomorrow is already very late! We need some buffer in case it doesn't
work at the end! I need to find a new place and that will take a
while!" Ben said. "Your meeting with the owner will probably take 15
minutes and then you are free to do whatever you wish!"
"Where should we go afterwards? Do we come back here?" Nick asked
curiously.
"You can take her to a date! A fancy dinner and perhaps a fancy dance!"
Cindy teased. I immediately stared at her with a very serious
threatening look.
"Yes! You have to come back here!" replied Ben.
"OK!" Nick said.
"You have to leave now!" Ben said. "Otherwise, you will be late... "
"But she is not ready yet!" Cindy complained.
"She looks ready! She needs a coat though. It might be chilly outside."
Ben said.
"Wait a second!" Cindy said and ran to her room.
Nick and Ben stood up and went towards the entrance door. I was
terrified and still seated on the couch. Cindy came back to me with a
coat and a purse.
"Let me help you wear this," she said. I stood up and she helped me
with the coat. I would let her do anything in that moment since I was
completely occupied with my paranoid delusions.
She also gave me a purse. I said, "What is this?"
"Your purse!" she said.
"I don't need one!" I said.
"Every lady needs one. Besides I had to put your injections somewhere,"
she said
"I don't need them with me! I will come back in an hour or two!" I
said.
"Ben said, your injections should be always with you," she said, "Just
in case... "
"Ok!" I took the purse from her.
Once in front of the door Nick opened the door for me and said, "Ladies
first!" That was strange. I didn't know if he was serious or he was
joking. I stared at him a few seconds but I couldn't read his mind.
Anyhow, I went out first!
We both went towards the car and I saw him get in the car before me.
'Thanks god! He didn't open the door of the car for me!' I thought.
As I sat, I smoothed the back of my dress and positioned its hem. Cindy
had taught me how to sit in a dress the day before. The drive to the
new house was eventless and rather silent. Gradually, my fears has
subsided and I was more relaxed. During the drive, I asked Nick if he
had contact with my parents but he said he didn't.
Once Nick parked in front of the new house, my fears returned. I was
about to be seen in public in a dress and most importantly, I was about
to be seen in public after Lucas's disappearance. I was scared again.
"Nick! Can we go back please?" I said in a low voice.
"NO!" said Nick. "Nothing will happen! You worry too much!"
"Please!" I said trembling.
Nick took my hand in his hands and looked at my eyes but I was looking
down. "Emma," he said, "Look into my eyes."
I looked at his eyes as instructed.
Then he said, "I will never let anybody hurt you. Don't worry! It will
be fine! Now, Let's go!"
I knew, if we got attacked, he probably couldn't do much either. But
magically and strangely, his words kind of made me feel safer.
As we were passing the street, Nick held my hand in his hand and walked
beside me. When we arrived in front of the door, I took a deep breath
and rang the bell. A old guy opened the door.
He looked at Nick. "Hi Nick, nice to see you again!" and then he looked
at me and said, "and this very beautiful lady must be...."
"Emma, my girlfriend," Nick introduced me.
I got red. I couldn't distinguish if I blushed or I got embarrassed. It
was a mixed feeling.
"Nice to meet you Emma. Please come in," he invited us inside.
Once inside, he asked me. "Emma, Nick has already seen the house. But I
wish to show everything to you as well."
I was confused. I looked at Nick.
"She has seen some pictures!" Nick said and then looked at me and said,
"Go honey! See if you like the place!"
"What!? I am a 'honey' now?!" I whispered.
He smiled.
I joined the owner and visited every room in the house: the kitchen,
the two bedrooms, the living room, the bathroom, the toilet and the
dining room. At the end, the owner said: "I really liked the two of
you! We can sign the rental contract the day after tomorrow! Does 4pm
suit you?"
"It is fine with me!" Nick replied.
Visiting the owner didn't take long. Around 6:30pm, we headed back to
our safe house. When Nick's cellphone rang, he was driving. He handed
his phone to me. "Would you please check who is it?" He asked.
I grabbed his phone and said, "It is a private number!"
"It must be Ben!" he said. "Answer it please!"
"Hello?!" I said.
"Emma, would you give the cell phone to Nick!" Ben said over the phone.
"I cannot! He is driving!" I said.
"It is important! I don't know! Ask him to stop the car if necessary!"
Ben shouted.
"Ok!" I said to Ben. Then I looked at Nick "It is Ben! He wants to talk
to you. He says it is important!"
Nick immediately reduced his speed and drove to the side of the street
where he could park the car. I gave him the cell phone and he started
to talk to Ben. Only Ben talked during the conversation because Nick
didn't say anything except a very few words like: 'WOW! Really?!',
'OK!', 'No!', 'Yes, I know where it is!', 'Is she...' 'OK!' 'OK!',
'Yes!', 'OK, take care!'. After three to four minutes, he ended the
call. His face looked shocked.
"Is something wrong?!" I asked curiously.
He looked at the streets around us and also in the mirror and then
said, "I will explain later. We have to stay in a Hotel tonight!"
"What?! What happened?!" I said surprised. I was starting to get
scared.
"I will explain in the hotel. I know a nice hotel close by! Let's go
there!" Nick said. I knew something is really wrong because he was
behaving very strange. We drove towards the hotel.
I was dying out of stress and fear! "Nick!... Did they find us?" I said
terrified.
Nick replied "No Emma! Nobody found us! I am just cautious!"
That was not a good explanation. I knew something was wrong! I asked
again. "What did Ben said!?"
"I said I will explain in the Hotel. Let's get to the Hotel as soon as
possible!" Ben said, annoyed.
Five minutes later, he parked in front of a Hotel. We went inside and
directly towards the receptionist.
"Good evening. We would like to book a room!" Nick said politely.
"Welcome!.. em.. Right away! Can I see your ID?"
Nick showed his ID. Then she asked "Alright! Would you like a double-
bed room?"
"No.." I wanted to say. 'NO!' but get interrupted by Nick.
"Yes, a double bed would be the best," Nick said, smiling.
I looked daggers at Nick and mouthed 'What the fuck!?'
A minutes later, the receptionist lady gave us the digital keys to our
room and asked a janitor to show us our room. "Follow me, please," said
the janitor.
The room looked very fancy and clean!
"Why the hell didn't you ask for a twin-bed room?" I asked angrily.
"Let me tell you what Ben said over the phone," he said that a group
attacked the safe house!" he said in a very serious tone.
"What!?" I suddenly totally ignored the twin-bed vs. double-bed
discussion.
"They managed to flee but...." he said.
"But what?! How?"
"But [pause] apparently Cindy has got shot!" he said with a deep
sadness!
I got shocked with the news! Uncontrollably I sat on the double bed and
asked, "Is she dead?!"
"No! but she is in a serious condition! Hopefully, she will recover."
The news was very sad and shocking! I knew the only reason that she got
shot was because she was nursing me. Although she often made me
embarrass during the last few days, but I knew she was trying to
protect my cover. Moreover, she was always super kind and I liked her
so much. Sad emotions overwhelmed me and I started to cry very loud.
A few seconds later Nick came and sat beside me and I felt his huge arm
hugging me tightly. I would have pushed him away but I was too much
overwhelmed by the sad news that I simply couldn't react. Instead, I
buried my face into his shoulder and cried louder. He didn't say
anything, he just held me tight.
Being hugged for a few minutes, I felt much better. I looked up and
said to him, "It is my fault!" and then cried again!
"Hey! It is not your fault! You didn't want any of this!" he said.
I knew that I needed to break our hug, but it did feel really nice to
be held like that! I just ignored the dilemma and stayed in his arms! I
didn't want to think about it since I had bigger issues to resolve at
that very moment.
Two weeks ago, in any circumstances, I would had never let myself cry
in front of Nick. Two weeks ago, I would had never let any other man
hug me that way! Two weeks ago, I would had never been so vulnerable.
I asked "How did they find the house?!"
"Ben said that they probably had followed me!" he replied.
Without breaking our hug, I rose my head out of shock and asked, "That
means they are following us now?"
"No, I don't think so! They certainly saw us leaving the house. And the
fact that we haven't been attacked yet confirms that they haven't
suspected us... they haven't yet! But, we have to be careful! At least
for a few days! That is why I had to reserve a double-bed room!"
'Oh! Yeah! Double-bed! I had forgotten about that!' I thought.
"What should we do now?! Can Ben provide us another safe house?! Who
are these people?!"
"Whoever they are, they haven't bought the story that Lucas is actually
dead. Maybe now that they have attacked the house and have found
nothing, they believe the story! maybe not! According to Ben, there is
a very little possibility that they have actually found out about you
since you look so female. That means our cover is most likely not yet
blown and so our only chance is to continue with the original plan. But
we will not see Ben anymore. It's not safe anymore to be in contact
with anyone. From now on, it is just you and me."
"I am scared!" I muttered.
"I know honey!"
'What?! he said honey?... This is going too far!' I thought. Despite
the nice feeling of being held, I ended our hug, created a small
distance between us and yelled "I am not your 'Honey'!"
My annoyance somehow made him a bit amused. He wanted to laugh but
resisted. "The irony is that you must be! You don't have a choice!" he
said teasing.
I looked daggers at him. But that made him more amused and he chuckled.
When he couldn't control anymore, he started to laugh.
"This is all your plan to make me your girlfriend! Also, the double-bed
is a part of your plan!" I said, "You cannot stay here tonight!"
He was still laughing. A few seconds later, he stopped laughing and
said in a serious tone, "Ok! I leave if you wish!" And then he went
towards the door!
Chapter 13.
Nick left the room. At first, I thought that he was joking. I wouldn't
think he would leave me alone. But after a few minutes when he didn't
come back, I started to doubt, a kind of doubt which brought an immense
feeling of terror.
"Where did he go!?" I murmured. Then I wend and looked through peephole
and inspected the corridor. No one was there. I started to feel alone
and certainly not safe. Following the earlier events, I was afraid that
the gangsters or other hunters were after me or Nick.
"What am I going to do now!" I said. "I can't believe he just left me
alone!"
After a minute of dilemma, I finally mustered enough courage to open
the door and check the corridor. As I expected earlier, he was not in
the corridor. I returned quickly to the room and locked the door. I was
trembling out of fear. He was gone and I was all alone. What should I
do now? Then I thought, 'He will be back. He will not just leave me
here!'.
Fifteen minutes after he left me, I was totally terrified. I didn't
know where did he go. 'Perhaps he is booking another room in the hotel'
I thought. So I picked the phone in the room and called the reception.
"Hello!" I said.
"Hi Miss! how can I help you?" the receptionist said over the phone.
"I am Emma Green. We checked in a few minutes ago! I was wondering if
you see N... er... my boyfriend around!" I said and immediately felt
embarrassed. I rarely had to use that expression! 'my boyfriend'!
"Oh! Yes, I saw him leaving the hotel ten minutes ago!" she said.
'Oh Shit! He left me!' I silently screamed! 'Why would he do that?!'
Then I thought about what happened earlier: the attack and everything
related to it. I thought 'Maybe he doesn't want to risk his life
anymore! Well, if that is the reason, I would understand! But what
should I do now?'
"Miss!? Are you still there?" she said.
"er... Ah! Yes!" I replied.
"Anything else I could do for you?" she asked.
"No thanks!" I hung up the phone.
For the 15-20 minutes, I was just walking around the room non-stop. I
didn't know what should I do. Any noise made me feel more terrified. I
was reviewing my options. I had none. I was homeless, I was without
money and I was insecure. I hadn't felt so vulnerable in my whole life.
Suddenly, I heard something in the corridor. It was obvious someone was
approaching. I assumed that it was a guy. He stopped on the other side
of the door.
'Could it be Nick?' I hoped. I wanted to go and look though the whole
again but didn't. Instead, I ran to the bathroom and hide there as if
the bathroom is somehow safer!!!
I thought, 'What if someone is here to kidnap me?'
"Please be Nick, Please be Nick," I whispered as I was in the bathroom.
I heard a knock on the door and but I remained silent with my hand
closing my mouth to avoid any instinctive noisy reflex or scream. I was
trembling like a little scared girl.
Whoever was on the other side of the door also had keys. I could hear
him open the door, enter the room and put down some stuff. Ten seconds
later, he said, "Emma, where are you?!"
'Nick!!!! He is Nick!' I thought and suddenly I felt very safe and
secure.
I opened the door of the bathroom. And I saw Nick. I must have looked
terrible because it ruined Nick's smile when he saw me. I cried "Nick!"
and I ran to him and hugged him as strongly as I could. And then I
cried and cried and cried.
He didn't expect my sudden reaction. Nevertheless, he hugged me back.
"Hey! What is wrong?! Did something happen when I was out?" He asked
and he was worried as hell. I could sense that.
I looked up to see him. "You left me alone!" I barely uttered as the
tears streamed down my face.
"No honey! I will never leave you alone!" he said.
He called me 'honey' again. But other things were more important at the
moment.
He said with a concerned smile, "I had to buy some necessary stuff!"
"Huh?!" I said.
He ended our hug and picked up some items he bought. "Looked, I went to
buy these." He showed me different kinds of items. Tooth brushes (an
orange one and a blue one), pajamas (a white and pink hello kitty
pajama and a black and white men pajama set), two sandwiches and some
other preserved foods, and a baggage.
I wasn't crying anymore. But I was feeling bad. I was feeling somehow
annoyed. "But! Why did you leave like that? You said you were leaving
me and then you disappeared!" I uttered. And then I punched him in his
arm as strong as I could. It didn't hurt him at all and that made me
feet weak, small and delicate. Comparing to me, he was super strong and
very tall.
A hour later, we had already changed to our pajamas. Obviously, I got
the pajama with the hello kitty print and Nick got the other one. We
had also eaten our sandwiches. I was checking different channels on the
TV and Nick was trying to set up the new iPhones and iPad he had bought
in his short shopping trip. Then we heard a knock on our door. Nick and
I looked at each other! We didn't expect anyone at this hour! Nick went
to open the door. He seemed to be a bit stressed. He looked through the
peephole and then looked back to me with a relaxed face and said,
"Emma, relax! It's the janitor who showed us the room!"
Nick shouted at the door! "Who is it?"
"I have a package for you, sir!" the janitor said.
"From who?" Nick asked loud.
"From a guy named Ben. he said, it is for you sir!"
Nick immediately opened the door. It was a rather big package. Once the
janitor left, I ran towards Nick. We inspected the package carefully
and then opened it. The first thing drew our attention was a gun!
Instantly, Nick tucked the gun in his waist band (in his back). There
were also some other items. One was a pocket of documents including a
new ID and credit cards for Nick:
Nick Bowman, 30 years old, computer scientist.
"Look, there is a letter!" I said while showing the letter to Nick.
I opened the letter. It was from Ben. We read the letter together.
"Dear Emma and Nick,
I wanted to inform you that everybody is safe at this moment. We have
increased the security of Emma's parent's house. Everyone is fine at
this stage, except Cindy who got shot earlier today, but it seems that
she will recover smoothly.
After today's attack, I don't think it is a good idea that I contact
you two anymore. Things are getting really complicated and scary... and
I think many people in the government are also getting too much
interested on Emma. That is why, I have to cut my connection with you.
But I will monitor you from distance.
But, don't be afraid. I strongly believe that nobody is suspicious on
your identity at this moment. Otherwise, they would have already found
you. As far as everyone is concerned, Emma is Nick's new girlfriend and
I highly recommend you to keep that relationship intact.
Together with this letter, you will find a gun and necessary documents
for you to start a new life. My suggestion is that you travel to a
different city and start over.
Take care and good luck,
Ben"
I was afraid. I was very afraid. "What should we do Nick?"
"I don't know, maybe we go to LA! I have some friends who can help us
there," He replied. I could see that he was also worried. As I didn't
have any better alternative, I agreed.
"What do we do there?" I asked.
"I will try to start a company there and you can look for jobs! We will
find new friends!" he said.
The rest of the evening went eventless. I watched a movie and Nick
contacted his friends in LA and booked two plane tickets with our fake
IDs for the next morning. The idea of actually using those fake IDs was
terrifying but LA was too far away to just drive.
Around midnight, we decided to sleep. However, I didn't like the idea
of him sleeping with me in the same bed. But I also didn't want to
force him to sleep on the sofa. I brushed my teeth and returned to the
bed and saw that he was preparing the sofa for the night. That made me
happy and relieved.
"I am sleeping on the sofa!" he said.
"Thank you!" I said smiling.
Chapter 14.
I woke up very early and saw Nick still sleeping on the sofa. I decided
to take a shower before Nick wakes up. While in the shower, once again
I became very aware of the extreme changes on my body: my breasts were
somewhere between a A-cup and a B-cup, my waist was thinner than ever,
I had lost a great amount of muscles in my arms and legs (which I had
severely lacked in the first place), my skin felt really soft and
smooth and so on. I looked down at my groin and inspected my healing
new pussy and then washed it carefully. Getting aware of my body
changes, I felt really petite and delicate. A strange feeling
overwhelmed me: I felt weak and helpless and being aware of the fact
that I was constantly in danger didn't help. I thought about how more
terrifying the whole situation would had been if Nick had left me. I
thought about how secure I had felt when he was holding me. The
thoughts about having Nick around me continued until I started to think
about how my body strength was nothing compared to his and how petite
my body was compared to his unmistakably athletic and muscled body.
Muscles!
Yes, I was thinking about his muscles! I thought 'His arms are probably
three to four times thicker than my arms! They are probably thicker
than my thighs'. As I was thinking about Nick (more specifically his
body), I was also gently washing myself. I was gently washing my
breasts when another shocking fact hit me: my nipples were standing out
and were extremely sensitive. 'Am I aroused?' I thought! Immediately, I
was aware of other things. I felt the moist inside my vagina!
I didn't know what should I do! I just froze there under the running
water for a few moments and then I shouted, "No! this is not
happening!" By 'this', I meant 'getting aroused whiling thinking about
my best friend'. I needed my aroused body to return to its normal state
as soon as possible. So, I tried to think about other stuff but it
didn't help a lot.
After the shower, I put my panties, bra and pajamas on. I noticed that
I seriously need to go shopping. 'I need a few panties, bras and less
revealing outfits,' I thought. When I left the bathroom, I saw Nick
waiting for me. I immediately felt awkward as I remembered myself horny
in the shower. Hopefully, I hid my awkward feelings pretty well.
"Finally! Can I use the bathroom now?" he complained.
"Morning Nick! How long have you been waiting for me?" I asked.
"About half an hour!" he said as if it is apparent.
He rushed into the bathroom and said. "Get ready, we have only two
hours!" and then he closed the door. A few minutes later I heard the
water running in the shower. Then he was singing. 'Oh my god! He is
terrible at singing!' I thought. Meanwhile, I was drying my hair and
getting ready. By the time Nick left the bathroom with the towel
wrapped around his waist, I was ready in my green dress and black heels
(I didn't have any other options).
"Wow! You look stunning." he said with a genuine smile. "I will be
ready in a few minutes!" And he left to wear his cloths. He first wore
his khaki pants and then his white shirt.
"Nick!" I called him.
He looked back at me.
"I need some stuff to buy!" I said.
"What kind of stuff?" he asked.
"Well... mostly cloths. Most of my things were in the safe house." I
said. Somehow my answer made me embarrassed. Somehow, I knew, 'I need
cloths' means 'I need female cloths' and that thought made me
embarrassed in front of my best friend.
"We don't have time now. Once we are in LA, you girls can go shopping
as much as you want!" he said, kindly smiling. But there was one piece
of information in his answer that made me confused! 'You Girls!' I
repeated silently with myself. There were two problems. One, he was
thinking of me as a girl now! And Two, who are the other girls?
"Girls?! I am a girl now?!" I asked.
He hesitated a bit to reply but finally he made serious look and said,
"Yes, you are EMMA!". Obviously, he was not happy that I was not taking
my role seriously. In part, he was right: one mistake could have cost
our lives.
I could see his point. "Who are the other girls?"
"Which girls?" He was confused.
".. that I go shopping with," I said with a lower voice. Again, I felt
embarrassed. Somehow the idea of going shopping with other girls made
me aware of my forced femininity!
"Aha!" He laughed (but I couldn't guess why!?) "you know her! Jenny!"
Jenny is Nick's younger sister who lives in LA. She visited Nick many
times during the last few years. Once she stayed longer for a couple of
months. I used to hang out a lot with her during that period. I can
even say that I kind of liked her but I never asked her out for many
obvious reasons! Maybe, not too obvious!
"Jenny! Your sister?!" I asked shocked.
"Yes! My father and she will pick us up in the airport!" he said very
calm.
"Your father?!" I asked even more shocked now! "Do they know about what
happened to me?!"
"Yes, my father like everyone else in the country knows what happened
to Lucas. But he doesn't know anything about Emma!"
"Why did you tell them that we are going to LA?" I asked still in a low
voice but I was certainly annoyed! "You put everyone in danger!"
"Last night, I thought a lot about what Ben said yesterday. Nobody
knows that you were Lucas, otherwise we would have been captured by
now. So, I thought you can just be a random girl, who is called Emma
and happens to be my girlfriend. This WAS and IS the plan. Right? So, I
thought, if this plan should work, everything should be as natural as
possible. And therefore, if after a long time I visit my parents for
the first time, they will come and pick me up in the airport. This is
just natural. Also, I didn't use the fake ID to book the flight!
Because, that could raise more suspicious!"
'What! He didn't use the fake ID?' I thought. My head of spinning. I
sat on the bed and then looked at him! I was angry! "How can he be so
careless?! They will follow you! They will find me!" I shouted very
loud. My voice had developed a way higher pitch during the last week so
it looked like that I was screaming.
"Don't worry!" he came towards me and sat in front of me looking
directly into my eyes. "Try to be calm Emma! I know! They may be
monitoring us at this very moment. They probably hope that I contact
Lucas, which I haven't as far as they are concerned. The fact that we
are not captured yet says a lot." he said in a calm tone.
"You are saying that they have probably found us but they think I am
your girlfriend?!" I asked calmer. Although, I was calmer but hormones
work in strange ways. I was all choked up.
He nodded with a very kind smile.
"How can you be so sure?!" I asked as I was fighting back my tears. I
think he somehow felt my insecurity because he decided to sit beside me
and hugged me firmly. As a result, I silently started to cry.
"I am not honey." he said. "But, I think this is our best chance. You
know that I would never do anything to harm you." I wanted to shout
back at him, "Don't call me 'Honey'," but it somehow felt so good to be
held like that and to hear that I am not alone in this and how much he
cares about me. So I stayed silent. As he was holding me He continued
"If I use my fake ID, it will raise suspicions soon or later. If I use
my own ID, they don't have any reason to be suspicious."
"But what if [sniff] someone recognizes me?" I asked with teary eyes.
"God [was he getting tired of my insecurity?]! Emma! Even I haven't
recognized you the first time I saw you as Emma!" he said.
A minute later, I was not longer crying. I freed myself from his tight
hug and looked at him and said, "Thanks for taking so much risk for
me!" I said and formed a smile.
"I would do anything!" he said while smiling back at me "Besides, I get
to be with the MOST beautiful girl in the world," he joked.
I didn't liked his joke and I hit him on his arm. I don't know if I can
consider that as hitting! There was no way I could hurt him; he was
simply way stronger that me and I knew it. He had been already way
stronger even when I was Lucas. He didn't retaliate, which made both of
us chuckle.
Before leaving the room, Nick did my injection and the we headed to the
lobby. After we checked out and when we were waiting for the taxi in
front of the hotel, Nick surprised me by saying, "I meant it!"
"You meant what?" I asked confused.
"That you are REALLY beautiful!" he replied.
It felt strange, being complemented like that by my best friend who
made my new feminine body aroused during the morning shower. The
complement brought a mixture of feelings. On the one hand, the
complement reminded me of my new femininity and that was very
embarrassing. On the other hand, the fact that he didn't disgusted me
was nice and calming. Yet, I wanted to protest and thus I looked up at
him (even in my 3-inch heels, I was around 3 to 4 inches shorter than
Nick so I had to look up at him). He also looked down at me and for a
few moments we both were speechless. I was speechless. I couldn't even
breathe. Like magic!! Was it because of his eyes? I don't know!
"Hey! Taxi has arrived!" Nick interrupted our long eye contact.
"Oh!" I exclaimed.
Nick walked a bit faster, opened the back door of the taxi and then
held it open as I got in. The drive to the airport was very awkward,
during which I said no word and mostly was looking down at and playing
with the hem of my dress.
We arrived at the airport one hour before the flight. Nick paid the
taxi and we marched towards the entrance of the airport, hand in hand
(I had to let Nick hold my hand! I had to play my role). While entering
the airport, I noticed a few men looking at me. That made me extremely
nervous. I separated my hand from Nick's. Instead I walked closer to
him, held his left arm and whispered very nervously. "Nick, people are
looking at me!"
"Who?" he whispered back.
"Those men on your left side!" I whispered. I was trying to hide myself
behind Nick.
Nick, made a quick glance and then whispered back, "They are not!"
"They were looking! I swear!" I whispered.
He chuckled. "Honey! Stop being paranoia! They were looking at a
beautiful girl!"
'Honey' again! I wanted to protest, but I couldn't. I was terrified of
being recognized. I had to play the boyfriend-girlfriend game and try
to attract as little attention as possible! So I just made a fake
smile.
Once we got inside the plane, I was more relaxed. The flight was long
and I felt tired as the result of the injection, so I decided to take a
nap. Nick said he would stay awake and read some stuff related to his
future career. A few minutes later, I was asleep.
Chapter 15.
I woke up a few hours later with the plane shaking as a result of
turbulences. My head was resting on Nick's broad arms. I pictured
myself in that position. A very attractive girl -in a pretty green
dress and a matching purse on her lap- rested her head on her
boyfriend's shoulder. It felt weird. So, I immediately took an upright
position and that drew Nick's attention. "Hey there! You are awake!" he
said joyfully. "I got so bored."
"How long was I asleep?" I asked sheepishly.
"About 4 hours!" he replied.
"WOW!" I said, very surprised. "This drug makes me sleep all the time."
Nick nodded. But then he joked, "It is actually turning you to a
sleeping beauty!" Then he added, "And I am not complaining!" with a big
grin.
I have to admit, it was funny! So I giggled. But he made a serious
face. For some strange reasons, I didn't protest to be called
'beautiful'. I reasoned, I could be called worse things like 'weirdo',
'freak', or even 'ugly bitch'! But the feeling was still as awkward as
before. It was awkward that my best friend, with whom I used to go to
bars, watch football, and hit on girls, was referring to me as
'beautiful'; not once, but multiple times. 'Does he really think of me
as beautiful?' I thought. Generally speaking, it is extremely difficult
to read Nick's mind. I can never know if he is serious or joking.
About two hours later, the plane landed in LA. Before exiting the
airport, in the corridor, we were walking hand in hand. Nick was
walking with bigger steps and -since I was wearing 3-inch heels- it was
really difficult for me to walk side by side with him.
"Nick!" I said trying to catch my breath. "Could you please walk a bit
slower!?" I asked.
"Huh!" he exclaimed. He was comprehending for a few moments during
which time he was looking at me head to toe. Once he noticed that I
were wearing heels he said, "Of course, honey!" with a kind smile.
A few minutes later, as we were exiting the baggage area and were
entering the arrival area, I saw Nick's sister and dad were waiting for
us (or only Nick). Once they noticed Nick, they waved at us and Nick
waved back. A few seconds later, we joined them and they greeted Nick
with hugs. Once Jenny hugged Nick, she said, "I am so sorry for what
happened to Lucas." With a very sad look. He replied "It is fine sis!"
I could see that she is surprised by Nick's indifferent reaction. Then,
his dad looked at me with a mountain of curiosity.
"Aaand, who is this beautiful lady?" Nick's dad asked while looking at
me and then at Nick.
"Aha, This is Emma!" Nick said.
"Wow! You never mentioned you have a girlfriend!" Jenny asked surprised
and enthusiastic. "Oh my god! You are so beautiful!" she was always so
nice to people. 'She was very nice to me when I was Lucas.' 'WAS! Damn!
The whole role play thing confused my mind as well! Do I think that I
am no longer Lucas?!' I thought!
The she approached me and introduced herself. Of course, I already knew
her and her dad. I have attended Susan's [Susan was Nick's twin sister]
funeral.
"Let us leave already! Your mom couldn't just wait to see you!" said
Nick's dad. "Where are your luggage?"
"No luggage! Errrrr!" he looked at me. "A...Apparently they are lost!
They will call us when they find them." Nick replied.
"Really?! Shouldn't you submit a form?" said Jenny.
"I have already...!" Nick started to say but then he paused. "Let's not
wait here too long! I will explain everything when we get home! OK?!
Let's go," Nick said and we went towards the car.
In the car, Jenny who was sitting on the passenger seat turned back at
Nick and me and said. "Nick, you didn't mention over the phone why you
suddenly decided to visit us?"
"I wanted to visit for a long time already! I needed a break!" he said.
"You know! with my job -how I hated it- and with what happened to Lu...
!" I looked at him very surprised. 'Is he going to tell them the
truth?' I thought 'no he can't do that!'
Hopefully Jenny interrupted him. "You did the right thing! We really
missed you and we were really worried about you! Plus, now we get to
know your lovely Emma!" Then she was smiling at me.
I thought 'Oh, she thinks I am HIS Emma! Not just Emma!'. The thought
made me blush (or just embarrassed [I couldn't differentiate]).
Half an hour later we arrived at Nick's parents' house. It was a big
house with many rooms. His mother was waiting for us in front of the
door. She hugged Nick for a long time. While hugging him, she had a
brief eye contact with me over his shoulders.
"Hi!" I said very shyly. I had seen his mother during his sister's
funeral and had talked to her many times during the period that Nick
had a very difficult time! But now it was different. I should play
Nick's girlfriend.
"Hi," she said with a big smile and then she looked at Nick. I could
see the sparkles in her eyes. She had told me [when I was Lucas] that
she was so worried that Nick hadn't dated anyone after Susan's
accident.
Nick introduced me. She shook my hand and greeted me with some kisses.
Then she welcomed everyone inside.
When we were settled inside, Nick asked everyone's attention and said,
"I have to tell you something and I am going to go straight to the
point... I know you have followed the news and I also HAD TO lie to you
when you called me during the last week... But Lucas is alive!" I
didn't expect that! 'What is he doing?!' I thought.
"WHAT?" Said Jenny as she leaned forward! His mom and dad were
speechless and obviously shocked.
"Well, it is a very long sto..." He was trying to continue where I
interrupted him. "Nick, can we talk first?!"
He looked down at me and said, "Don't worry honey!" and then he put his
both hands on my feminine shoulders and said, "We have to tell them. We
need their support and help. Do you trust me?"
He was waiting for my reaction while I was looking up at him. I had
confusing thoughts. If my identity was revealed to them, I could be
Lucas around them. I wanted to be Lucas and be treated like a Lucas.
But that was not guaranteed. I thought that they would probably hate me
for being a freak! Plus, I didn't want to risk anything that could blow
my cover because the thought of being kidnapped was extremely scary.
After a few seconds, I shook my head but didn't say anything.
"Wait a second!" Jenny said confused and very curious. "What does she
have to do with Lucas?"
Nick looked at me speechless! He was waiting for me to say something.
Perhaps he was waiting for me to change my mind.
"NO WAY! NO FUCKING WAY!" Jenny shouted. "You ARE Lucas!"
I just froze. Jenny and I were having a very long eye contact. 'What
should I say now? What is she thinking? How could she recognize me? How
did she guess? Is it that obvious?' I thought.
"She was Lucas! She is now Emma!" Said Nick. I looked daggers at him. I
was furious. Very furious. I didn't see it coming. I was betrayed by my
best friend and I felt strange [angry for sure; but also embarrassed or
just uncomfortable; I cannot be sure] in front of his family.
Nick's parents were so shocked! They were just looking. They didn't say
anything. I thought 'They think I am a freak!'
I couldn't hold myself anymore. I was very hormonal. I was on the verge
of tears. I managed to excuse myself and left to the room Nick's mom
had prepared for us. Once inside the room, I loudly shut the door.
A few seconds later Nick knocked. "Emma, what happened? Are you ok?"
"Go away!" I shouted.
"Why? Can I come in?" he said.
"I SAID go away!" I shouted louder.
I could hear Jenny talking to Nick, "You need to let her be alone for a
while!" And then they left me alone.
For the next ten minutes, I was crying and crying until I heard another
knock. Emma opened the door and said, "Emma! Can I come in?"
She was always really nice to me and she didn't do anything wrong. I
couldn't be possibly mad at her. Honestly, although I didn't want to
confess, I needed someone to conform me. So, I nodded.
She came inside and sit beside me. After an awkward moment of silence,
she said. "I am so happy that you are alive." And then she hugged me.
The hug made me cry again. She hugged me harder and her breasts met
mine and that brought a strange feeling. The feeling was not sexual. It
was rather feminine and comforting.
A few minutes later, I was done crying. "Thanks," I murmured.
"No problem, Honey!" she said. "Just tell me if you need anything! Ok?"
Jenny also started to treat me like a girl or a child. I remained
silent. To answer her question, I just nodded 'YES'.
"Ok. You are not angry with us! Right?" she asked in a very calm and
comforting tone.
"No, not you! Only Nick!" I replied. "He always makes decisions for
me!"
"I know... Nick is often a bit bossy around people he cares a lot!" she
said with a pout. "He just told us everything about your cover and also
about the safe house and stuff. I think that it is a good idea that he
shared this with us! We can help, honey!"
"Look, he doesn't ask me! He just told you everything without asking
me!" I said angry.
"Wouldn't you want to share these with us!?" Jenny asked.
"I don't want to put you in danger. The more you know, the more you are
in danger," I replied.
"But don't you think we would be in more danger if you haven't told
us?" Jenny asked.
She had a point but I was still angry with Nick. I put my hands on my
face and said, "I don't know Jenny, I am still angry with him. I feel
betrayed. I would probably agree if he had asked me, but he didn't!"
"You are right! That is how Nick sometimes behaves!" she said. "He
wants to protect you!
"Protect me? I am not a child!" I said surprised.
"I know honey! I think he just loves you so much! He cannot help it!"
she said.
I rolled my eyes. "WAIT? He Loves me?!"
"I am not sure if he is IN LOVE with you honey!" said Jenny. "But he is
obviously so crazy about you!"
"He cannot love me! I am a boy!" I said.
"Emma! Honey! I know you are confused a bit about your condition. But,
you are certainly a girl. You look like a girl and you act like a girl.
And there is nothing wrong with that." Said Jenny.
I was feeling drained. I thought that I could be Lucas for Jenny and
her parents at least for a while, but she already thought of me as
Emma. Besides she was thinking that Nick might be in love with me.
'Nick can't be in love with me!' I thought 'He just plays his role!'
Then she reached a bag on the floor and gave it to me. "Here are some
more comfortable things for you to wear. I think they will fit." And
then she looked at my outfit. "Or do you want to stay in that pretty
dress of yours all the time?!" she teased.
"Thanks," I said as she was handing me the bag. "I can't wait to get
out of this dress and these shoes are killing me!"
"Oh! I'll bring you some slippers!" she said and left the room.
I looked into the bag. There were a pink (with white patterns) sleeping
pajama set, a black leggings and a long white shirt with a red print on
it.
I didn't want to sleep yet, so I removed my dress and put the leggings
and the white shirt on. It was way more comfortable. A minutes later,
Jenny came back and brought me some pink slippers which I put on.
"You look perfect," she said with a happy tone. "The dinner is almost
ready. Let's go downstairs!"
"Is Nick still there?!" I asked.
She gave me a puzzled look! "Of course, he is there! Where can he go?"
"I don't want to talk to him!" I said.
"Just for dinner!" she pleaded.
"Fine! I join!" I said.
We went downstairs. Nick and his dad were watching some sport and
Nick's mom were in the Kitchen. The dinner's table was not set yet. I
didn't want to join Nick, so I just went to Kitchen together with
Jenny. Nick's Mom [whose name is Michele], hadn't talked to me since
she knew I was actually Lucas. I didn't know what she was thinking
about me, so I was a bit nervous as I was entering the kitchen. All my
worries subsided when she approached me and hugged me as hard as
possible like a mother would hug her daughter. And then she cried. 'Why
is she getting so emotional?' I thought.
I was surprised by Nick's mom reaction! "She couldn't stop crying since
she heard the news that you are dead!" Jenny explained. "You might not
know it but you were kind of a part of our family since we met you!
Nick was always talking about you! We all love you because the support
you gave Nick!" It was really nice to receive such a positive emotional
feedback specially when I expected it the least.
I helped Jenny and Michele to set the table. And we chatted about
different things. I was informed that I am almost the same size as
Jenny and I could borrow cloths from her. Jenny and I even planned a
few shopping trips and we talked about other arrangement.
Once the table was set, Michele invited Nick and his father [Robert] to
join us. I sat as far as possible from Nick. Nick smiled at me but I
gave him a blank look.
Before dinner when our wine glasses where full, Robert raised his glass
and said. "To our beloved guest, Emma." Everyone did raise his/her
glass and then he looked at me. "Emma, you are welcome here as long as
you wish."
I smiled and thanked their hospitality and kindness.
The dinner went on smoothly. Jenny and Robert joked a bit about their
jobs. Robert was an Surgeon and Jenny was a final-year medical student.
Nick and I were silent. The silence between us was getting more and
more awkward. Hopefully, the dinner finished soon enough. After dinner,
I excused myself saying "I feel very tired, if you don't mind, I go to
our room and rest a bit."
As I left to my room, while I was on the stairs, I noticed that Nick
was also following me. So I quickly ran to the room and closed the
door.
"Emma, I want to talk!" he said from the other side of the door.
"Not now Nick, I am tired!" I said. I was less angry. Part of me even
wanted to talk to him but I decided that the time hasn't arrived yet.
"Where should I sleep?" he asked sounding annoyed.
"I don't know! Not here!" I replied with an indifferent tone.
Chapter 16.
Hi guys,
I must apologize for leaving this story for months. The problem was I
became super busy for a while and didn't have time to write as much as
I wish I could. Things will become less busy in the future, I hope. I
try to write shorter chapters but I will definitely want to finish this
story.
I hope that I receive many of your constructive remarks
regarding the story, the plot and my language mistakes :)
Enjoy :)