After the Pantomime
By Susannah Donim
Chapter 8 - Daisy's Promotion
From pregnant secretary to Madam Chairman...
We three directors were meeting to compile our list of how we proposed
to spend the Bank's first ?125k before our first Board meeting with
Margaret.
I was still Daisy, still pretending to be six months pregnant, and very
uncomfortable on a hard chair in Ruth's small, hot office. The skirt
of my dress was splayed out, as I had long ago given up trying to keep
my knees together. My maternity bra was digging into my shoulders and
my maternity knickers were riding up. I really didn't want this
meeting to go on for long.
We all agreed on the money we needed to put aside to pay salaries and
settle our debts, but that left just under a hundred thousand. This
was enough to buy the second-hand machines Eddy wanted and which he
could modify to automate most of our manufacturing process.
But Ruth wanted to spend the money on expanding our range to include
wedding dresses, theatrical costumes, and more elaborate accessories.
These would also require new machinery, as well as paying for
additional designers and a lot of man-hours writing new software.
Eddy couldn't believe Ruth's attitude. He maintained that they always
intended to automate the process. That was the whole point of
MyOwnCouture.com, its business model, and its Unique Selling Point.
That should be our priority. If we didn't do this, we would risk being
unable to meet even the current relatively modest demand.
Ruth insisted that we were starting to get attention from both the
industry and the potential customer base. We had a unique opportunity
and we needed to work flat-out to build our brand. If we didn't,
someone else with deeper pockets would come along and steal our
thunder.
Eddy argued that if we followed her approach we would end up failing
thousands of customers. At least if we did nothing, we'd only be
failing hundreds. While if we did what he wanted, we would satisfy all
our customers, and that would be a much better base to build our brand
on.
This was the first time I had ever seen Ruth and Eddy arguing about
something as fundamental as the company's strategy. It was clear they
weren't going to agree.
"Eddy, is there any way we could get the machines more cheaply?" I
asked in Nick's voice, to remind them that whatever I now looked like,
I was there in my capacity as Finance Director, not as Ruth's
secretary. "Maybe on a leasing basis?"
"That was my first thought," he said - crossly for him. "But the
current owner of the machines I've got my eye on needs a quick sale to
fund new plant. He's not interested in leasing, and he has other
potential buyers. And, before you ask, buying suitable machines new
would be three times as much."
"Well, that seems to put you in the hot seat, Nick," said Ruth,
emphasising my name. I couldn't remember the last time she had called
me anything but Daisy. "You have the casting vote."
She was so sure that I would support her. So was Eddy, which was no
doubt why he was sulking.
"When was the last time you were down in the cowshed?" I asked her.
"What's that got to do with it? A couple of days ago; I can't
remember. Hey, I've been doing my share!"
"I'm not saying you haven't. I just think you should get an up-to-date
picture of what's going on down there."
Eddy looked at me hopefully.
"Oh for heaven's sake, Daisy, just vote!" Ruth fumed.
"Come downstairs, Ruth," I said, quietly. "Now, please."
She looked angry, then puzzled. I think she knew I was capable of
standing up to her. I just hadn't for quite a while. Now I was.
"All right, all right," she said, "not that it will make any
difference."
But it did. The three of us walked around MyOwnCouture.com's
manufacturing facility together. Every surface was covered in pieces
of material, paper work orders, work in progress, finished dresses
waiting to be boxed up, and boxes waiting to be dispatched. I checked
the sweet little ladies' watch Josie had lent me. The Parcelforce van
would be here in less than an hour. We needed to stop this arguing and
work together to get as many orders ready for collection as possible.
Ruth was studying the chaos, silent and stony-faced. Her first remark
was unexpected.
"Why all the paper? I thought the whole point was to keep everything
on the computer."
"Because there are now four of us processing orders," Eddy explained.
"We were getting in each other's way when we all tried to find the
information we needed from a single monitor and keyboard. It was just
easier to print the orders out. Now when each of us finishes a job we
take the next work order from the top of the pile. Each one has an ID
number which enables us to pull down the right design data to send to
the machines." He smiled ironically. "So much for the paperless
office, huh?"
"And the fully-automated process," I added to try and rub it in.
"If we go with my proposal, it will still be 4-6 weeks before we can
automate those parts of the process that can be automated," Eddy said.
"This chaos will get much worse before it gets better."
"Turnaround of an order has already crept up from one day to three,"
said Mike.
"All right," she said, with bad grace. "I get it. We'll go with your
proposal. Call your friend with the machines."
She stomped off back to her office.
"Daisy! I've got some filing for you to do!" she called over her
shoulder.
* * *
When we got back to her office, I raised the question of my attendance
at the Board meeting.
"I'll have to go Transformations and get myself turned back to Nick," I
said.
"You don't have to go to all that trouble. You can dial in from the
Manor House. In fact, perhaps you'd better move back there for a
while."
"If that's what you want, but I think it's a little immature of you to
blame me because you can't have what you want this time. You know this
is the right decision."
She glared at me, too angry to speak. She did know it was the right
decision. She was just cross because someone else had seen it before
she did.
"I told you I wanted us to be equals," I went on. "I may have to be
your secretary for the moment, but I'm not your servant. I've never
lied to you, and I will always tell you the truth, even when you don't
want to hear it."
"Oh, go to hell!"
That evening I went back to Ruth's flat while she was still in the
office and filled a couple of suitcases with Daisy's clothes. I left
my key on the kitchen table.
I went back to my annex at the Manor House and my empty rooms. While I
was still stuck (literally) with my breasts and abdominal prosthesis, I
would have to continue to dress as Daisy, but I would arrange an
appointment at Transformations to turn back to Nick as soon as
possible. I felt I had fulfilled my commitment to Ruth but it seemed
she no longer wanted me - as Daisy or Nick.
* * *
It turned out that Margaret Villiers was a tricky so-and-so. We were
expecting her on Friday for the Board meeting, so naturally she turned
up on Thursday afternoon. I was there, as Daisy the secretary, sitting
outside Ruth's office finalising our proposal. Ruth hadn't spoken to
me all day. She looked tired and angry. She looked terrible for her.
I don't know how Margaret got into the barn. Someone must have left
the door open downstairs. That was always happening; it didn't close
properly by itself. I goggled at her like a rabbit in the headlights.
"Ruth mentioned she had a secretary now," she said. "So do I call you
Daisy or Nick?"
I couldn't think what to say. Deny everything? Ridiculous! Try to
laugh it off? Eventually she took pity on me.
"I recognised you as Sarah the Cook in those pictures Ruth showed us at
our first meeting. Not that Daisy looks like Sarah, but they both look
a little like Nick," she laughed.
I tried to be cool.
"You'd better call me Daisy, I suppose," I said, "seeing how I'm
dressed. But this isn't what you think."
"I don't think anything actually. Was being the Panto Dame something
to do with you living as a woman now?"
"They're not... unconnected."
"Are you transitioning?"
"No... really." She looked sceptical. I sighed. "It's a long story."
"Well, I don't care as long as it doesn't affect the profitability of
MyOwnCouture.com."
"Quite the reverse, actually. Nick only ever dropped in from time to
time, but Daisy is Ruth's full-time secretary. So in effect we have
additional staff now - as Mr Latham recommended."
Ruth appeared. She must have heard the voices outside her office and
come to investigate.
"Oh hello, Margaret, how nice to see you!" she said.
Margaret noticed immediately that Ruth wasn't looking her best.
"Are you all right, Ruth?" she said. "You look... tired."
"I'm fine. You've seen from our reports that orders are booming.
We're all working flat out. Coffee for two, Daisy!" she snapped.
These were virtually the only words she had said to me since 'Go to
hell', yesterday.
"Yes, Ruth," I said with a smile concealing gritted teeth. Just this
once, I swore to myself. "How do you take it, Margaret?"
"White without, please."
I stood up to go down to the kitchen. It was now Margaret's turn to
look surprised.
"Pregnant?" she said. "Why on earth...?"
"It really is a long story," I said.
"I'd love to hear it," Margaret said, "but maybe later...?"
Ruth ushered our guest into her office. Five minutes later I was
knocking on the door carrying a tray with two coffees and a plate of
assorted biscuits. I went straight in without waiting for an answer.
"How's the proposal coming along?" Margaret was asking.
"Daisy?" said Ruth, her eyebrows raised.
I put the tray down on her desk.
"Just finished. Shall I print off some copies?"
"Yes, please."
I went back to my workstation. I printed three copies of the proposal
and handed one each to Ruth and Margaret.
"Please stay, er... Daisy," Margaret said. "I may need you - or Nick -
to explain your proposed investments."
I swept my skirt under my inflated bottom and painfully lowered my bulk
down into the uncomfortable office chair. Margaret picked up her
coffee and took a custard cream. For the next half an hour we went
through the proposal. She asked a few questions and requested a few
minor changes, but seemed happy enough with the big picture.
When we had finished, she said, "I'm sorry about turning up
unannounced. I thought it would be a good idea to come down a little
early and see how things are going - informally. Then tomorrow's
formal Board meeting should be straightforward. By the way, you know
it has to be minuted?"
"Daisy can take the minutes," said Ruth. "She is my secretary, after
all."
"Actually I don't think she can. She's Nick's proxy, isn't she? She -
he - they would have a conflict of interest. Can you suggest someone
else?"
"It would have to be either Vicky or Mike then. Vicky's the more
literate."
"Fine," said Margaret. "Also, the rules say I have to chair the first
meeting, as the only non-executive director. But don't worry, that's
just until we can elect a permanent chairman. That's another reason I
came down early - so that we can agree the agenda. Then my only role
as chairman will be to make sure that every item on the agenda is
discussed and appropriate decisions taken."
With that, she got to her feet, stretched, and said, "Now I'm
particularly keen to see the - what do you call it? - the cowshed?
We've only had a glimpse through the webcam lens on your laptop. I
imagine that's where most of the initial investment will be going?"
"Absolutely," said Ruth, hypocritically giving no indication that that
wasn't her preference.
We took Margaret down to the cowshed. The others had managed to tidy
up a little since they were expecting her visit tomorrow, but they had
far from finished. Margaret was no engineer but she still managed to
ask lots of intelligent and informed questions. I could see that Eddy
and Mike were quite taken with her.
Towards the end of the tour, when she thought no one was looking, she
turned to me and said quietly, "Are you free tonight? I'd rather like
to talk to you. Are you comfortable dining out as Daisy?"
"Yes and yes," I said. "I'm quite used to it, for my sins."
"I'd rather like to hear about them too," she smiled, "if you're
willing to share with your new colleague?"
"I have reasons for keeping my situation confidential, but if you can't
trust a senior banker, who can you trust?"
She laughed. "I'm staying at the White Hart in Lavenden. They have
quite a good restaurant, I hear. Eight o'clock?"
* * *
I pondered over what Daisy should wear for a business dinner. My
choice was obviously limited but the previous Saturday with Ruth and
Josie I had been persuaded to buy one posh maternity outfit for evening
wear: a black, short-sleeved, V-neck top, and a long pink floral skirt.
I no longer had a waist of course. The skirt's waist band was just
below my bust.
I called Josie to ask for her help in getting ready. She was delighted
and rushed straight over. I was sitting at my dressing table in just
my slip, contemplating my make-up choices. I had laid my chosen outfit
on the bed.
"Brilliant!" she said. "Ruth will love you in this."
I realised she thought I was going out for a romantic evening with
Ruth. I had to disappoint her.
"Sorry, no. It's a business dinner with a lady from the Bank. She's
here for our first Board meeting tomorrow."
I paused. Tom and Josie were my closest friends, as well as family.
Josie was like a sister to me - closer, if anything.
"Look, you might as well know. It seems that whatever Ruth and I had
is over." I told her everything that had happened. "I don't think she
really appreciated the sacrifices I've been making for her."
Josie raised an eyebrow.
"Sacrifices? Come on, Nick, you love being Daisy."
"Hey, it's a lot of effort and sometimes very embarrassing." She
looked unconvinced. "Be that as it may," I continued, "she seems to
over-react to everything. I'm beginning to think the woman is a
flake."
Josie laughed. "Trust me - all women are flakes from a man's point of
view, and I speak as a woman. You need to stay as Daisy for a while
longer. You might start to appreciate how the other half thinks."
She started checking through my cosmetics. She ran her hand over my
cheeks.
"I see you've shaved really closely. Your skin's very good for a man.
I think a minimum of foundation, and maybe a little rouge for your
cheeks. Now, pay attention, please. You know I love doing this for
you, but I may not always be available. You need to learn how to do it
for yourself."
"They taught me the basics at Transformations, but I've never done
proper evening make-up."
She started work. Sultry evening-Daisy began to replace daytime
office-Daisy.
"You really should stay like this for a while though," she said. "I'm
sure Ruth will come around, but she might doubt your commitment if you
give up at the first sign of stormy weather."
"I don't have much choice for the moment anyway. I'm booked in at
Transformations to have my top-up on Saturday morning, but that
appointment isn't long enough for them to remove my forms and
prosthesis. Apparently, it will take them an hour to un-glue
everything. They can't fit me in for that till next week."
"You should still go for your top-up. There may be a cancellation."
As ever Josie did a fantastic job with my make-up.
"There!" she said. "I bet you're the prettiest pregnant lady there
tonight."
"Hah! Only if I'm the only pregnant lady there tonight."
"Thanks very much!" she said, pretending to be offended.
"Not your fault. Even you can't make a silk purse out a sow's ear."
She snorted. "I despise false modesty," she said. "It may offend your
masculine pride, but you know very well that Daisy is a babe - well,
two babes, in fact." She giggled.
I stood up and put my top on. The V-neck exposed an embarrassing
amount of cleavage.
"Do you think this is OK?" I asked her.
"It's fine - very impressive. Those Transformations falsies are
amazing! You really can't tell them from the real thing. You should
wear that necklace I lent you though, to conceal your little Adam's
apple, and the watch and rings that go with it.
I picked up my skirt and tried to hold it out far enough from my
distended stomach to step into it. Josie laughed and helped me into
it.
"Will there be anything else, madam?" she said. "I'm beginning to feel
like a lady's maid."
* * *
No longer being able to drive, I had to call a taxi to take me to the
White Hart. The driver, Avi, was a charming Indian gentleman who
rushed to offer me his hand when he saw I was struggling to get out of
the cab. He waited patiently while I rummaged in my handbag for my
purse and some cash to pay him. I gave him a decent tip. He smiled
his thanks and insisted on seeing me up the steps and into the hotel.
I could get used to this, I thought. It briefly occurred to me that
underneath my artificial feminine flab I was probably twenty years
younger and considerably stronger than my gallant protector, but for
now I was quite content to play the helpless female.
It wasn't a large hotel and Margaret was waiting in the bar area
opposite Reception. She waved when she saw the doorman helping me off
with my coat.
"You look amazing," she said. "I can't believe you're really..."
"That's very kind of you to say so," I interrupted her, before she
could reveal my secret. "It's not all my own work, I have to admit.
My sister-in-law has been my partner-in-crime throughout."
"Don't worry, Daisy," she said, "I wasn't going to give you away. I
was only teasing. But seriously, you are 100% convincing. That top's
lovely, but very bold, if I may so. Did you see how the doorman was
looking down your cleavage?"
"What?" I squealed, my free hand leaping involuntarily to my bosom. "I
didn't realise..."
"Oh, relax!" she laughed. "It's fine. If you've got it - and you've
certainly got it - you should flaunt it. Every woman dresses to
emphasise her best features. Seriously, I hope you can unwind and just
enjoy yourself this evening. I've got us a quiet table in the far
corner. We should be able to discuss all our secrets without being
overheard."
"You have secrets too?" I queried.
"I'll tell you mine, after you've told me yours."
The waiter had approached and led us to our secluded table in the half-
empty restaurant. Since I was now forewarned, I looked to see if he
was gawping down my decolletage, and I wasn't disappointed.
He gave us our menus and took our drinks order. Since there was no one
within range (apart from him, and I didn't care what he thought), I
risked asking for a white wine. Margaret was amused when I told her I
hadn't been able to drink in public since New Year.
"The Bank will pay for this, by the way," she said, when she realised I
was scanning the prices with some concern.
"That's very kind," I said. "It's been an expensive month."
"I can imagine. I assume everything you're wearing is new?"
"Everything I'm wearing, and everything I'm wearing underneath
everything I'm wearing," I confirmed. "And that's where it really gets
expensive."
That seemed as good a point as any to tell her my story, which lasted,
with appropriate pauses, through placing our orders and consuming our
starters. I told her everything except about Eddy being gay and
needing to keep that from his parents. That might have undermined the
Bank's confidence in the financial probity of MyOwnCouture.com.
"So being Daisy was a bit of fun that got out of hand?"
"That's right. Ruth was angry that I'd kept my stand-up performances
from her, particularly those as Daisy. When it looked like we might be
developing a relationship she said she couldn't be with someone she
couldn't trust..."
"...and making you be Daisy was a test of your sincerity? Pretty weird
test!"
"Well there might have been a little more to it than that." I paused.
She looked at me encouragingly. "On the night she came to the panto
she dragged me back to her place... in drag, as a sort of real-world
variant of Sarah the Cook. It seemed that something about her lover
being in women's underwear gives her an additional... stimulus... in
the bedroom."
Margaret laughed. "I'd heard of couples where that sort of thing
happens. I've never tried it myself, of course."
"Of course not."
"Perhaps I'm missing out..."
"No comment. You should ask Ruth. On second thoughts, don't. It
seems that our relationship is on the rocks now, and that I won't be
Daisy for much longer."
"I sensed a bit of an atmosphere this afternoon." Of course she did.
This woman was sharp. "I hope you two will make up - for the good of
the company. But we're straying too deeply into the personal now.
You've explained everything that I was curious about. I'm satisfied
the Bank is not sponsoring a nest of perverts."
"Thank you, but I will say a little more, because it could be relevant
to your support for MyOwnCouture.com."
"Okay...?"
"Ruth was angry with me because I supported Eddy's proposal to spend
the first tranche of money on further automation, rather than hers to
expand our range of products. It took her a while to see that without
new machinery we wouldn't be able to meet our existing demand, let
alone a ten-fold increase, as she is hoping for. She is very good at
what she does, and the company is her brainchild, but she's no
businesswoman. I may be in love with Ruth, but I've put a lot of
money, and even more of my own time, into MyOwnCouture.com, and I will
not let her ruin it."
"Thank you, Daisy - Nick - that's pretty much covered the rest of what
I wanted to talk to you about. My colleagues and I feel the same way
about Ruth. She's a visionary and she's created a marvellous venture
that I'm convinced will make all our fortunes, but she will need
someone to haul her back to reality from time to time. I've seen your
CV. I know you've had a solid business grounding with one of the top
firms. She needs you - one of you, Nick or Daisy - and it looks like
you've already realised that and begun on the right foot. Let me be
clear: the second and subsequent tranches of financial support will
depend on me being assured that you can control her."
"But even you and I together can't outvote Ruth and Eddy if they agree
on what to do."
"No, but I can live with that. Eddy has no more experience of running
a business than Ruth, but he has his feet on the ground, I think. If
they both agree on strategy, it's probably fine."
The main business of the evening over with, we settled down to enjoy
our main course. She had the sea bass. As the Bank was paying, I
tucked into a Tournedos Rossini with chips.
"Eating for two, I see," Margaret laughed. "You're lucky you don't
have to worry about your figure anymore."
I laughed. "Do you have children?"
I thought we were becoming close enough to ask a personal question.
Then I realised I was beginning to think of us as friends - women
friends, which was a new experience for me.
"Two: a son in his second year at Cambridge, and a daughter doing her A
levels this summer."
"Wow, you really don't look old enough!" I blanched. "Oh my God, was
that patronising? I'm so sorry!"
"It might have been patronising from Nick," she grinned, "but I'll take
it as a compliment from Daisy."
"Then maybe it was matronising. Is that a word?"
"Well It is now. It means we'll have to stick to girl talk for the
rest of the meal."
"No problem. I'm becoming an expert."
"So where did you get that lovely skirt?"
"Josie dragged me round at least a dozen womenswear shops last
Saturday. I lost track of what I bought from where. I think it was
Mothercare, actually."
"I notice that you're wearing an engagement and a wedding ring. So
Daisy's married? Who's the lucky man?"
I laughed. "There isn't one. Josie suggested I should wear these.
Not sure why. It's not like I would attract unwanted male attention in
my condition."
"You'd be surprised. Some men find a heavily pregnant woman
irresistible."
At that point the waiter appeared to collect our plates and I allowed
him to refill my wineglass. As he left a young couple approached. I
couldn't place them, which immediately got me worried.
"Aren't you Daisy Duquesne?" the man said. "We saw you at the Club.
You were brilliant! When are you on again?"
"Oh, er, I don't really know," I said, flushed with relief that I
hadn't been 'read' as a man in drag. "Probably not till after the baby
comes, and then I suppose I might be a little busy..."
"That's a shame," he said, then hurriedly added, "but congratulations
anyway."
He was clearly afraid he'd just suggested it was a shame I was having a
baby.
Margaret was obviously enjoying this, but I was aware that the young
woman had spotted my full wineglass. She grabbed her boyfriend's arm
and dragged him away.
"Did you see she was drinking?" she hissed as they withdrew. "In her
condition?"
"That's none of our business," he said. "You know these showbiz
types..."
"So Daisy is a star of the comedy club circuit?" Margaret said when
they had gone.
"I'm a long way from there. This is the first time that's ever
happened, I swear," I said.
We returned to friendly girl talk through dessert. When the coffee
arrived I assumed that the interview part of the evening was over with,
but I was wrong.
"What's your end game, by the way?" Margaret said, abruptly.
"How do you mean?"
"Well I can't believe you intend to work as Daisy, secretary to the MD,
forever, or even as Nick the FD. So what will you do when the company
is successful? Go public? Sell up, and retire rich?"
"I hadn't thought that far ahead, to be honest."
"Well, just remember, the Bank would be keen to buy your shares, and
I'm sure we could give you a much better price than either Ruth or Eddy
could manage."
Food for thought...
* * *
I was in early the following morning in my smartest 'pregnant office
girl' dress for the Board meeting. I checked out my own, Nick's and
Ruth's emails.
There was one really significant email that morning, from Rixi
Davenport, a fashion journalist. She was a freelancer but she was
often published in a national newspaper. She had heard of
MyOwnCouture.com and wanted to interview Ruth. I knew Ruth would be
very keen to grab that free publicity, so I sent Rixi some possible
dates and times.
None of Ruth's other emails required any action on her part so I
responded to them as her secretary and sent her short 'FYI' messages
explaining what I had done and why.
I was downstairs in the kitchen making myself a coffee when I heard the
outside door open and Ruth making her way up the stairs to her office.
On a whim, I broke my own rule and made her a cup, the way I knew she
liked it.
She was surprised when I knocked on her door and put her coffee down on
a coaster on her newly-tidied and cleaned desk. I was surprised to see
that she was looking even more haggard and worn than yesterday.
"Thanks, Daisy," she said in a low voice, almost a whisper.
She didn't look at me, but she wasn't looking at anything else either.
I was getting worried.
"Are you all right?" I said.
"Just tired." Something seemed to occur to her. "I'm surprised that
you're still here, as Daisy the secretary, I mean."
"Well, I know some things have changed," I began, "but most things
haven't. The company's doing better than ever. You - and Nick - still
need a secretary, and I'm still committed. So why wouldn't I still be
Daisy?"
She gave a wintry smile. Maybe she was starting to see her glass half-
full after all.
* * *
As Margaret had predicted, the Board meeting ran smoothly thanks to all
the preparation - ours and hers. We met in the open plan office with
two desks pushed together as a Boardroom table. Vicky had been a
little surprised to be asked to take the minutes. Margaret instructed
her to record Mr Nick Rawlinson's apologies for absence, and that Ms
Daisy Duquesne was present as his proxy.
I had expected that the first item on the agenda would be a vote to
elect our permanent chairman, but Margaret had put that at the end just
before 'Any Other Business'. So first we had the accounts, which I -
Daisy - had to present as Financial Controller, standing in for Nick,
the FD. This was mostly good news, in that our revenues were now
exceeding our operating costs, but of course we had a long way to go
before our net profits would begin to make a dent in our debts
(including the company's debt to me, Nick).
We then reviewed the proposals for how we would spend the Bank's
initial cash injection. Again, Margaret had already seen everything
informally and was happy to rubber-stamp our suggestions. So finally
we came to the election of the chairman for future Board meetings, and
that was when the only surprise of the day came.
"On behalf of the Bank, I would like to nominate Nick Rawlinson,"
Margaret said.
It was difficult to say which of the rest of us was the most surprised.
Vicky dropped her pen on the floor.
"I don't know why you're all looking so surprised," she continued.
"He's the logical choice. He's the only one of you with any business
or financial training; he's as fully committed to your success as any
of you - you only need to look at how he's dressed to see how
determined he is; and he already holds the balance of power, as it
were, if - or, more likely when - you two major shareholders disagree."
"But this is my company..." Ruth began.
"Our company," Eddy corrected.
"I think that rather illustrates my point," said Margaret, wryly. "And
it still is your company. Ruth is the creative engine; she owns the
product lines and our unique designs. Eddy is execution; he solves
problems and delivers solutions. Nick won't interfere with any of
that. He'll just make sure that the company stays afloat long enough
for the two of you to realise your dreams."
"Did you know about this?" Ruth said to me accusingly.
"No, I didn't - honestly," I confirmed. Ruth looked sceptical. Did
she know about our dinner at the White Hart? "I did meet with Margaret
last night... for a chat, but she didn't mention this."
Margaret quickly confirmed what I said. "In any case, the fact that
you're upset simply shows you don't understand how businesses are run,"
she said, a little cruelly, I thought. "Nothing has changed. You and
Eddy still control everything - as long as you agree. If you don't
agree, Nick decides. You should think of him as the referee, not a
player."
Margaret was now showing what a strong character she was. No wonder
she had done so well at the Bank. I was sure she would chew up and
spit out any hapless sexist male who tried to treat her like the little
woman.
Ruth was simmering, speechless. I liked to think that the logic of
Margaret's argument was worming its way into her brain, but her pride
was putting up strong defences against it.
"Well, I think it's a great idea," said Eddy. "I support Nick's
nomination."
Whoa, that was unexpected! But then Eddy wasn't interested in money
and had no wish to be in charge. Also he was no fool. He knew this
was non-negotiable if we wanted the Bank's support.
"So what do you think, Daisy?" said Margaret with a smile. "You have
Nick's proxy. Which way would he want you to vote?"
I paused for thought. I didn't hold out much hope for a future with
Ruth now, but to vote for myself would surely put the matter beyond
doubt.
"I think Nick would want me to abstain," I said, hanging my head,
because I knew what it would mean. With both Eddy's and Margaret's
shares behind me, Ruth couldn't win by herself.
"Good," said Margaret. "That means Nick is duly elected. Therefore as
you are representing him, Daisy, I will hand over the chair to you."
"Oh, er, yes," I said. "Last item on the agenda: any other business?"
Everybody was too stunned, especially Ruth. She gathered up her papers
and left. She didn't go into her office. She went down the stairs and
out of the building.
So Daisy had been promoted. She was secretary to the Chairman of the
Board now, as well as Ruth's secretary and the company's Financial
Controller. I wondered how many hats I could wear at once.
* * *
My commitment was tested most sternly at night-time when I had been
carrying my six-months-pregnant weight around all day, and that evening
I had more or less decided it was time to ring down the curtain on this
fiasco.
It was nearly half-past ten, and I was getting ready for bed. I had
removed my make-up with cold cream and wiped my face. I had just
changed into a pretty maternity nightie, lent by the lovely Phoebe
(whom I still hadn't met). I always took my wig and wig-cap off last
as - irrationally - I didn't like to see Nick's face on Daisy's body.
I was reaching for the pins that held the wig in place when the
doorbell rang. I put on a negligee and went to answer it.
It was Ruth.
"Can I come in?" she said, pushing past me without waiting for an
answer.
"Er, yeah, sure," I said to her retreating back.
As far as I could remember she had never been to my rooms at the Manor
House before, but she seemed to have no trouble finding her way. She
marched in and took a look around.
"Nice place," she said. "Very masculine. I'm surprised you haven't
done anything to make it a little more... girly."
"That's because this is Nick's place, and there's nothing girly about
him," I said, slightly irked by her implication.
"No, obviously not," she smirked. "I love your nightie, by the way."
"Daisy insisted. Nick's pyjamas don't fit her figure - obviously - and
she's not comfortable sleeping in the nude."
"But you're Daisy," she said, a puzzled expression on her face. She
was trying to work out whether I was being serious. "Are you
developing a split personality? Should I be worried?"
"Dunno. Perhaps you should ask Nick when you see him - oh, wait, you
won't be seeing him for a while, will you?"
"You have a real talent for throwing me off-balance," she said crossly.
"I don't know why I put up with you!"
"Is that what you came here to say? At half-past ten at night?"
"No," she said, lowering herself into my TV lounger, by far the most
comfortable chair in the sitting room. "Aren't you going to offer me a
drink? You can have one yourself. I'm sure it won't harm the baby."
I sighed. "What would you like?"
"Something with vodka, please. I don't think I'll be driving any more
tonight."
Bloody woman! There had better be some sort of apology coming, or at
least a concession, or maybe an attempt at reconciliation, or
something.
Two minutes later she had a vodka and orange in her hand, and I was
nursing a scotch on the rocks. I plumped down in my other armchair,
which was much more difficult to get out of in my condition.
"I cried all evening when I discovered you'd taken all of Daisy's
things and left your key," she began. "I never cry."
And just like that, all was forgiven and forgotten.
"I hoped that it meant you weren't giving up being Daisy for me, or why
would you bother taking her things? Then when I saw you were still her
the next day... I began to hope I hadn't messed it all up after all.
Then I realised that you had no choice anyway - until you could go to
Transformations and get your thingies unglued."
"No," I said, when she paused for breath, "it looks like it won't be as
easy to give up being Daisy as I thought."
"The whole situation was a mass of contradictions. I didn't know what
to think."
I couldn't help but smile inwardly. 'Mass of contradictions' was the
exact phrase I had used to describe her expression at Transformations
when she was trying to decide whether to make me go through with this
ordeal.
She stood up and went to look out of the window into the inky blackness
of rural England in late January.
"By this time I couldn't really remember why I was angry. You and Eddy
had ganged up on me..."
"Ruth, I..."
"...for my own good. I had all sorts of mad plans for the Bank's
money, but I would have destroyed everything we had built if I had got
my way. Thank you for stopping me."
"Ruth, we..."
"And then today, you took my company away from me..."
"But we..."
"...except that it was our company - yours and mine and Eddy's. I
can't do this... I can't do anything without you."
She turned toward me. Her voice had been so strong, so forceful, so
Ruth, that I hadn't realised the tears were streaming down her face.
I got up and moved as quickly as my wibbly-wobbly body and my nightie
and mules would permit. I threw my arms around her. Though my baby
bump prevented me getting as close as I wanted, I held her as she
sobbed quietly. I felt our breasts smooshing together.
* * *
She stayed the night and it was as good as it had ever been - better.
In the morning she put on one of my - Nick's - shirts and wandered
around examining everything critically and looking as sexy as Jane
Fonda in Barefoot in the Park (1967).
"I don't know why you came to live at our flat," she said. "This place
is much nicer."
"I thought that was what you wanted. Does that mean you want to move
in here?"
"Yes, please."
"You're not concerned that people will find out you're not living with
Eddy?"
"It's fine, as long as no one finds out I'm living with Nick. But I
won't be, will I? I'll be with Daisy. It's OK if I'm seen giving my
secretary a lift home after work."
We had got down to business so quickly the night before that she still
hadn't fully explored my wing of the house. Still in my nightie, I
followed her as she wandered around.
"You have two bedrooms here, don't you?"
"Three, actually, and yes, of course you could have one for yourself."
"No, silly. I mean there should be one for Nick, and one for me and
Daisy."
I laughed. "That would only be temporary. I'll have to stop being
Daisy in another three months anyway. I can't be pregnant forever."
"No, but you can just slim down to a normal-sized secretary. You could
say you've had the baby."
"And what do I say happened to it?"
"Well, let's see... who's the baby's father?"
"Oh, he's gone. Disappeared as soon as he discovered I was knocked
up."
"So what do unmarried mothers do... if they can't manage alone?"
"Oh, give the baby up for adoption, you mean?"
"Yes, tell everyone you always planned to do that, and made the
arrangements months ago. They took the baby away from you in the
hospital. It was heart-rending, but you're slowly getting over it.
It's a wonderful story."
"OK, yeah... not exactly stand-up comedy material..."
"So you'll do it? Stay as Daisy?"
"For the moment. If that's what you want."
"It is. You're a great secretary!"
* * *
So I agreed to be Daisy Duquesne, unmarried mother-to-be indefinitely,
and my life as Ruth's secretary by day and lover by night went on. She
enjoyed bossing me around in the office, but was careful now not to go
too far. I didn't need to threaten to resign anymore. I could always
remind her that I had Nick's proxy, and he was Chairman of the Board.
I didn't pretend to understand why she wanted me to stay as Daisy,
unless it was a way of preserving some level of dominance over me. It
had occurred to me that she might have some hidden lesbian tendencies,
but her performance in our bed seemed to refute that theory.
Anyway, I didn't mind, or at least I wouldn't have if it weren't for
the inconvenience of pregnancy. I went to see Vera at Transformations
every Saturday morning for her to add a few more ounces of fluid to my
prosthesis. As the weight I had to carry around increased, the
discomfort and the awkwardness of my movements got steadily worse - as
Ingrid had predicted. When I thought about this happening for another
two months, I got a little depressed. I got no sympathy at all from
Ruth of course.
In principle we shared the housework at home, but I seemed to end up
doing most of the wifely tasks like washing and ironing. I didn't mind
too much. I was used to household chores as I had been looking after
myself alone for a while now. (At least it wasn't difficult to tell my
underwear from hers - my bras and panties were much bigger and much
less sexy.)
Ruth tried to apologise for not doing her share, but I told her I
understood. She was working long hours. In addition to dreaming up
all her new designs, she also had to work out how to make them with our
machines. Vicky could write the actual programs, but she wasn't
capable of translating a picture of a dress into a series of cutting
and stitching instructions.
Ruth also explained that her mother hadn't made her help much at home.
Determined that her daughter would 'make something of herself' she let
Ruth concentrate on her schoolwork. When she wasn't doing that she was
designing and making her own clothes. She said she had 'sewing machine
hands', rather than 'dishpan hands' from earliest youth.
She did, however, take great pleasure in being my 'husband' - helping
me in and out of her car, and carrying more than her share of the
shopping, which I really appreciated. I liked being pampered. I
thought about sending her out in the evening for pickles and ice
cream...
* * *
On my fourth visit to Transformations, Vera gave me a thorough check-
up. She used her solvent to remove my breast forms and abdominal
prosthesis to check on the condition of my skin underneath. It was a
little red, as was to be expected, but there was no sign of any
infection.
I felt self-conscious as she rubbed soothing antiseptic cream into my
groin, genitals and the surrounding area, but surprisingly I also felt
naked without my breasts. It felt like I was missing something
important. I was much more comfortable when she later replaced my
forms and prosthesis and I could get my bra and maternity panties back
on. It seems Daisy had taken over more than I had realised.
While I was there Vera took me in to see Sharon to check my wig. Once
she had taken it and the wig-cap off, she declared that my hair was
long enough for a proper style, and I allowed her to give me a tidy
bob, as similar to the wig as she could manage. I felt much better
after that. I had gotten used to wearing the wig and wig-cap, and had
almost forgotten how uncomfortable they were. I realised I had rarely
been out without them since the day of the panto Tech Run.
* * *
The Manor House was big, with a central unit and two wings. My rooms
were at the back of the East wing, the old servants' quarters. I had
my own entrance on the opposite side of the building from Mum and
Dad's, and it was quite possible to go for days without any of us
bumping into each other. In fact, ever since my first visit to
Transformations I'd been avoiding my family, except for Josie. I had
told them what I was planning to do and why, but I could hardly hide
Daisy from them forever. So one weekend, when Ruth was up in
Manchester celebrating her parents' anniversary, I had lunch with them
all.
When I waddled into their part of the house in my everyday maternity
dress and one-inch heels, and with my handbag over my shoulder, I was
met with astonishment on my parents' faces, and amusement on the part
of my brother and his wife. They had all known what I was planning to
do since that lunch the weekend before I went to Transformations, but
the reality was proving to be a shock. I was the elephant in the room,
literally and metaphorically.
"It was partly my fault," admitted Josie, breaking the awkward silence.
"When the idea of him doing stand-up in drag came up, I persuaded him
to try and look like a real woman. Being pregnant was my idea too."
"Well, maybe, Josie love, but I know my sons, even if one of them is
currently a daughter," Dad said. "Tom's easily led, as you know better
than most..."
"Hey!" said Tom, but it was true. He wasn't fooling anyone.
"...but no one could persuade Nick to do something he didn't want to
do. He's as stubborn as a mule."
"Or a pregnant woman," put in my mother, with one of her trademark
ironic smirks.
I knew that's what Dad thought of me, but I hadn't thought about it
before giving in to Ruth. Did it mean that in some way I wanted to
live as Daisy? If so, what did that say about me?
Dad turned to me. "So why are you doing this?"
"For Ruth," I said. "I must love her, I suppose. This..." I indicated
my dress, boobs and hair. "...is all about proving that."
"Bizarre! And when will it end?"
"Well, I can't be pregnant forever. I've got about two months to go.
If I can stick it out, I reckon I'll have proven my commitment to her
satisfaction." No need to mention now that Ruth wanted me to stay as
Daisy afterwards.
Tom snorted. "And what is she doing to prove her commitment to you,
little brother? This mad Northern bitch?"
Josie hit him on the shoulder. He didn't seem to notice. He's a big
lad, Tom, and solid muscle. Maybe he was still fuming about my father
saying he was 'easily led'.
"Actually, that's a good question," I replied, ruefully. "She's
promised to think of something."
"Well, it's a shame you won't be able to come with me to the rugby at
Twickenham anymore."
"What? Why not?"
"Don't be a silly girl! It's a lads' day out, boozing, swearing,
telling dirty jokes. You'd cramp our style. Besides Twickers is no
place for a pregnant woman."
"That's a bit sexist, isn't it?" I was aware I sounded like a whiny
girlfriend.
"Don't worry, dear," said my mother. "You can join Josie and me on one
of our girls' days out. We can go to the spa, get our nails done..."
"Shopping, aerobics and... ooh, the ballet!" added Josie.
I may not have thought this through...
* * *
Meanwhile the company's reputation was growing even faster than my
stomach and orders were coming through steadily. Margaret was very
pleased. She told her colleagues at the Bank that all we had to do was
'scale up' (management-speak) and we would soon pay off our debts, and
be in profit. After that, who knows? An IPO? Ruth began to hope that
we wouldn't need any more money from the Bank, but she was still
financially naive. I was pretty sure we'd need at least the second
tranche of funding.
This success meant we were still swamped in the cowshed. The new
equipment was delivered about a fortnight after our inaugural Board
meeting, and Eddy and Mike worked round the clock to set it all up and
interface it to our old cutting and sewing machines. While they were
doing that, the rest of us faced a further three weeks of chaos as
incoming orders continually threatened to overwhelm us. Even Ruth was
spending most of her time in the cowshed now.
Eddy's previous experience with linking machines and implementing
Numerical Control was invaluable, and he and Mike managed to get it all
done much sooner than they had predicted. When the new kit and a jury-
rigged conveyor to carry the pieces of cloth through the process, were
fully up and running, they made all the difference. At last a dress
could be made entirely automatically from start to finish. All we had
to do was load the appropriate materials at one end and we could watch
a finished dress come out of the other. This was true even if the
customer wanted a design sprayed on the cloth. The printing was
automated now too. We started to clear the backlog.
The only complication was if a design required a non-standard colour,
as we still had to operate the dyeing process manually and then wait
overnight for it to dry. So Vicky put a trap in the website software
which flagged a request for an unusual colour and notified the
operator, so that he or she could prioritise the dyeing process.
Ruth added more designs, still relatively simple clothes that we could
make with our existing software and machinery. Mo revamped the website
with the new designs and added testimonials from our growing number of
satisfied customers - including Margaret, the Lathams, and Polly on
behalf of LADS.
* * *
The day I had arranged for Ruth's interview with Rixi Davenport
arrived. Both the Barn offices and the cowshed were spic and span and
everything was humming along nicely. I was ready to bring in
refreshments for my boss and her guest. Could we do anything else to
impress the journalist? Was there anything I had missed? It suddenly
occurred to me to check our customer records, and there it was: Ms R
Davenport. She had bought a long-sleeved wrap dress just two weeks
ago. As far as I could see nothing had gone wrong. The transaction
was completed in good time and the dress was delivered within forty-
eight hours of the on-line order - well within our target turnaround
time. I knocked on Ruth's door.
"Just thought you should know, boss. This Davenport woman bought a
lime-green wrap dress from us a fortnight ago. She might just turn up
in it, I suppose."
"Thanks, Daisy," she said. "I'd like to think I would recognise my own
creation, but forewarned is forearmed."
The barn office doorbell went at that moment. I hurried down the
stairs as fast as my swollen figure would allow. I opened up to a
smiling woman in a lime-green wrap dress. I guessed that she was in
her early thirties, and to my newly attuned eye she was wearing too
much make-up, hurriedly applied. Daisy was becoming catty, Nick
observed from deep down inside her.
I welcomed our guest, introduced myself, and led her up to Ruth's
office. She met us at the door.
"Welcome, Ms Davenport," she said. She pretended to look the
journalist up and down. "So how do you like your new dress?"
"It's great, I love it! It may be a bit much for an informal
interview, but I thought you'd like to see it on. Lots of people have
told me how much they like it and asked where I got it."
"I hope you told them."
"Of course! Please do call me Rixi, by the way," she said. "May I
call you Ruth?"
"Certainly, and you've met my secretary, Daisy?"
"Indeed, but I assume she won't be your secretary for much longer?"
Rixi said. "Is that lovely maternity dress one of yours?"
"Actually, it isn't, but we will be adding maternity dresses to our
product line very soon. Please do come in and sit down."
I took their orders for coffee and withdrew. When I returned with the
tray, the interview seemed to be going very well.
"Oh, I have lots of ideas for new designs," Ruth was saying. "As soon
as we have the necessary tooling, we'll be offering coats, wedding
dresses, pyjamas, nighties, maternity dresses, and lingerie. With our
system, we can make virtually any clothes."
"It sounds like a dream come true for you," said Rixi. "Most young
designers have to wait ages before their creations get to market."
"That's right, and I intend to invite other budding designers to submit
their ideas to me, and we'll feature them on our website. Each month
we'll pick the best of the submissions and make a dress to that design
for the winner, free of charge. Also, if any other customer orders a
dress to the winner's design, she'll get a royalty."
Rixi was scribbling furiously. Later Ruth took her down to the cowshed
and introduced her to the others. Rixi took lots of photographs on her
state-of-the-art phone. I managed to avoid being in any of them.
The interview appeared the following week in the women's section of one
of the quality Sunday supplements. In addition to reporting everything
she discussed with Ruth and Eddy, Rixi also described her experience
with designing and buying her dress through the MyOwnCouture.com
website. She confessed to being completely hopeless with computers but
boasted proudly of how simple she had found the whole process, and how
impressive it was to see her animated self strutting down the catwalk
in her new dress. She also spoke highly of the quality and great value
of her purchase.
Ruth and I read the article at home and were delighted, but I could see
a potential problem. Despite it being Sunday I called our Internet
Service Provider. It was a good thing I did because orders increased
by a factor of a hundred that day. If I hadn't warned them to expect
that, our website would undoubtedly have fallen over.
And despite the new automation equipment, it was all hands to the pumps
again the next day.
* * *
It was a very busy but productive month. I had four top-up sessions at
Transformations, at two of which I had to put up with waxing again, but
these sessions were becoming progressively less painful, and there was
less stubble to remove each time - presumably thanks to the hormone
cream. Alas, after four top-ups, I was noticeably fatter and even more
uncomfortable.
Our second Board meeting was imminent. As I was to chair this, I took
a moment to think about the agenda. I sat at my desk, contemplating.
I had kicked my heels off and was staring at my nylon-covered toes, but
in this position I couldn't reach round my bloated tummy to rub my sore
feet. Pregnancy was a pain...
My monitor pinged. An email had arrived. It was from Margaret:
"Daisy," it said,
"I'm sure you're well-prepared for the Board meeting on Friday, but I
thought you might like to see a pro forma agenda that we often use with
new venture meetings. Feel free to ignore it if you have your own
preferred way of running meetings:
* Introductions and apologies for absence [I assume Nick will be absent
again?]
* Minutes of the last meeting [can you remind Vicky to distribute
these?]
* Matters arising from the last meeting [I don't think there were any
specific actions, were there?]
* Financial report [presumably you, standing in for Nick again?]
* Operations and technology report [Eddy]
* New products and services report [Ruth]
* Any other business
By the way, I intend to come down on Thursday. I won't drop into the
office this time, but can I treat you to dinner again? Same time, same
place? I think it would be helpful for you and I to have discussed
anything sensitive before the Board meeting. I think you know what I
mean.
Kind regards,
Margaret."
She knew full well that we didn't 'have our own preferred way of
running meetings', but I acknowledged that she had saved me some time
and effort. I couldn't think of anything to add or change, so I sent
it out to all the Board members under my own name (and without
Margaret's personal comments, of course), reminding Ruth and Eddy that
they would have to prepare reports. I sent a copy to Vicky too, asking
her to take the minutes again, and to distribute the first meeting's
minutes as soon as possible.
I then replied to Margaret's email accepting her invitation to dinner.
Now, what was I going to tell Ruth without provoking her paranoia?
More importantly, what was I going to wear? Margaret had already seen
my one decent outfit. Did I have time before Thursday night to nip
into town and buy an evening dress?
Margaret hadn't asked me not to tell Ruth about this meeting, so I did,
having learnt the hard way not to keep things from her. I told Eddy
too. They wanted me to promise to tell them everything, which I really
couldn't do. I said - quite truthfully - that I had no idea why she
wanted this session, but that last time it was mostly social, getting-
to-know-you stuff. Margaret had mainly been curious about how and why
Nick Rawlinson had become Daisy Duquesne.
Ruth, being Ruth, felt excluded and wasn't happy.
* * *
I managed to get away for a couple of hours on Wednesday morning to go
dress shopping. I'm embarrassed to admit it, but I think I shall miss
that when Daisy takes her final bow. Trying on dresses and twirling in
front of mirrors was great fun. While there I saw some especially sexy
maternity lingerie and a caftan gown in metallic lace, and I couldn't
resist.
I went a little upmarket and found a lovely Renaissance maxi dress in
brilliant violet for my second dinner with Margaret. I had decided
that I prefer floor-length skirts. The more of my legs I could hide,
the better I liked it. The only problem was that it emphasised my baby
bump rather than disguising it, not that concealment was a viable
option now. Are all women as big as this at 7? months? Maybe if I
wore my white lacy cardigan with it?
The dress was expensive, and I had a crisis of conscience about the
money I was spending. When was I likely to wear it again? I decided I
would give the dress to Phoebe when I no longer needed it. She was
planning to have another baby soon. If her maternity clothes fitted
me, then surely mine would fit her.
Both the colour and design of the dress were very striking and I was a
little concerned that I would attract too much attention, but as
Margaret said, if you've got it, flaunt it. After another month's
worth of top-ups I'd certainly got it.
When Ruth saw it, she was astonished.
"You must really be enjoying this to spend so much money on a dress
you'll only be able to wear a few times," she said. "I'm glad. I
never meant this to be a punishment for you. Anyway I suppose I can be
sure you're not planning on making a pass at Margaret - not dressed
like that!"
I asked our local taxi firm to send Avi for me again, as he had been
such a gentleman. He jumped out of the car when he saw me waiting
outside my entrance to the Manor House and offered his arm to help me
into the car. He was just as solicitous at the other end and I made
sure I gave him a good tip. In my condition I really appreciated old-
fashioned gallantry. I didn't see it as incompatible with feminism at
all.
It was nearly five weeks since I last saw Margaret and she made no
attempt to hide her surprise.
"Wow, you're really going for it now, aren't you? That's a beautiful
dress!"
"Thank you," I said. "And it shows much less cleavage, as you will
have noticed. I was mortified when you pointed out my near-toplessness
last month."
She laughed. "It really wasn't that bad," she said. She looked
quickly around her and dropped her voice. "And those fake boobs of
yours are completely undetectable. They jiggle just like the real
thing."
"Only the best," I agreed, "and they're just as heavy as the real thing
too."
I stretched a little and rubbed my sore back.
"Oh sorry," she said, "let's get to our table and sit down." She waved
to a waiter. "But how is it that you're even bigger than last month?
You don't really have anything in there, do you?"
Once we were settled at our quiet table at the empty end of the hotel
restaurant and had placed our orders, I explained about the
Transformations service. She was fascinated. For the next half-hour
our conversation ranged widely but mostly on women's subjects -
fashion, make-up and hairdressing, family life, children, babies. I
had to use my imagination at times, but I kept my end up.
"I'm sorry," she said suddenly, "you quite make me forget that I'm not
here with a close woman friend. I know you're acting a part most of
the time, but you're getting really good at this. Are you sure you're
a man under all that?"
"Positive," I said, "but it may be a while before I can prove it to
you. I had hoped that going through the rest of my pregnancy would
satisfy Ruth that I'm serious about our relationship, but it looks like
she wants me to stay as Daisy for a while longer."
"You mean she's decided she prefers Daisy to Nick? What will you do?"
That outcome had been preying on my mind.
"I honestly don't know. It can't last indefinitely though, can it?
That would be pretty strange, wouldn't it? She's not a lesbian - I can
guarantee that - and although she's a strong character, she's not a
dominatrix, and I'm certainly no submissive. This prosthesis is pretty
uncomfortable but it's not bondage in the traditional sense."
"Ah, but you do give into her most of the time, don't you? Being Daisy
is proof of that."
"Up to a point, but not about things that really matter. I will
certainly stop her from making any bad business decisions, I can assure
you - if that's what you're worried about."
"No, you've already shown you can do that. I'm thinking about your
relationship and where it's going. You have to admit, it's an unusual
situation..." She stopped and threw her hands up in a gesture of
surrender. "I'm sorry, time out. It's none of my business. I've
overstepped the mark."
"No, that's all right. I'm happy to talk about it with you. It's
healthy. I can't discuss it with my family; they've already shown that
they don't understand; and I'm scared of raising the matter with Ruth,
for fear of breaking our fragile connection. But I know I will have to
- soon. I'm thinking that the watershed moment will be when we decide
the baby must come. I need to set a time limit after that."
Our starters arrived and Margaret changed the subject. We discussed
the Board meeting. She had seen all our reports and was very happy
with our progress. We agreed that the main task for the next month
would be to decide whether we needed a second tranche of funding - I
told her I was pretty sure we would - and how we would propose to spend
it. I predicted that Ruth would insist on grabbing the lion's share of
the money to expand our product line, which might need another
specialist machine, and would certainly need some sophisticated program
development. Margaret said she could see no reason to oppose that but
we would have to prepare a very detailed proposal to get the Bank's
approval.
"I do have an item of 'Any Other Business', by the way," she said. "I
thought it would be a good idea to talk it through with you in private
first."
"Oh? What's that?" I had expected something like this, but she had
lulled me into a false sense of security with all our girl talk.
"Staffing - two items. First, you need a machine operator or two -
relatively low-level posts. It's ridiculous for Eddy to be dyeing and
printing and carrying pieces of cloth around; he's your senior
engineer! And it's not much better for Mike to be doing that either.
He's almost as well-qualified as Eddy. If you keep him doing unskilled
tasks like that, you'll lose him."
I personally thought Mike would stay as long as Vicky was still around,
but I took her point.
"Second: in addition to being Ruth's secretary you are also the
Financial Controller, the deputy to Nick the FD, and the de facto
Office Manageress. At this rate you could easily end up being the HR
Director too. Daisy the secretary needs a secretary."
"You're right, of course," I said. I thought for a moment. She waited
patiently. "Do you think it might be better if I raised this under AOB
- rather than you, I mean?"
"I was hoping you'd suggest that," she said. "I'm conscious of being
an outsider, and I wouldn't Ruth or Eddy to think I'm interfering."
"Heaven forbid!" I said with a grin.
She laughed. "One more thing: everyone in the company knows of your
dual identity and most of the reason why..."
She had clearly sensed that I hadn't told her everything. I said she
was sharp.
"...but what about the new staff? Will they be told that Daisy and
Nick are one and the same?"
* * *
Of course, I hoped that by the time we had taken on new staff, Daisy
would be consigned to history, but I was no longer confident of that.
She seemed to be more of a permanent fixture every day.
At any rate when I got back home after dinner, I was able to tell Ruth
that Margaret had agreed that we needed to support all her ideas for
new ranges and designs. She was delighted. She span me round and
started unzipping my new dress.
"You realise we will need another tranche of funding?" I pointed out.
"And that means the Bank's holding of our shares will go up to 10% - at
your and Eddy's expense."
"We'll still have 70% between us," she said.
She had now revealed my new black matching bra and maternity panties,
which drew a sharp intake of breath.
"Whoa, you little minx! No more business talk now, missy. Lie back
and drop your knickers. You have something I need. I'll help you get
it out."
* * *
Our second Board meeting went well. Each of the Directors (or in
Nick's case, his proxy - me) gave their reports. Every performance
indicator was in the green and everyone was happy. We agreed that we
would need the second tranche of finance, and that most of it would be
spent on whatever Ruth needed to expand our product range. She said
that her ultimate goal would be for MyOwnCouture.com to become a one-
stop-shop for custom-made women's apparel. We all approved.
Under AOB I raised the subject of staffing. With Margaret's help I had
prepared a brief analysis of our needs and the Board approved the
immediate recruitment of a machine operator and a secretary, with the
expectation of hiring one more of each next month. As Office
Manageress I accepted an action to begin the recruitment process.
I had one more item of AOB to raise: a warning note. In the first
quarter of the year it looked very likely that our revenues would
exceed our debts and operating costs; that is, we would be in profit.
(I now realised that the Bank's funding and my original support didn't
count as debt as we received shares in compensation.) If this was
repeated in the second quarter, then the company would have to start
paying rent to my father. Thanks to Will's foresight, the original
contract linked the amount due to profits; the more profit, the more
rent, up to a predetermined limit.
Margaret asked if our premises were big enough to cope with the
escalating demand, or whether we needed to consider moving. Nobody
wanted to do that. We liked our current location and laughed about
working in a barn and a cowshed. Vicky said she sometimes felt like a
milkmaid in these surroundings. Ruth said that was quite appropriate
as I was nearly as big as a moo-cow, which she seemed to think was
funny. We all smiled to be polite and Margaret suggested we move on.
I said that we didn't need any more space upstairs. We were only using
two of the six desks in the office regularly; a third when Mo was in.
Also I often worked down in the kitchen on my laptop as I struggled to
get up and down the stairs in my condition.
We turned to Eddy to comment on the available room in the cowshed. He
said that it would be big enough for the foreseeable future. There was
plenty of unused space to expand into. The real constraints on further
growth would be the machines, he said. What we had were old and jury-
rigged and prone to breaking down. Also we could only make one garment
at a time. Admittedly each took only a few minutes, but with the
rising demand we would soon need to be able to make two or even three
simultaneously, unless we kept the machines running twenty-four/seven,
in which case they would probably break down, and so we should have
more machines in case of that. Also, any new kit should be custom-
built to Eddy's designs, not second-hand stuff that he had adapted.
We all agreed to go ahead with new machines for two additional
production lines. Speaking on behalf of the FD, I had to admit that we
couldn't realistically pay for them even on hire-purchase, or lease
them, from our current revenue stream. We would therefore have to ask
the Bank for the third and fourth tranches of funding. Margaret
confirmed that she would ensure this was approved.
Ruth and Eddy would then have 30% of the shares each, while I and the
Bank would each have 20%. In principle, this would mean that if Ruth
and Eddy disagreed over something and Margaret and I each backed one of
them, there would be a tie. I asked Margaret later how that would be
resolved and she said that as Chairman of the Board, Nick would have
the casting vote. I wondered if Ruth realised that.
* * *
As we were in a hurry for new hires, after the meeting I called a local
employment agency my father used, rather than advertise. I thought
that would be acceptable as these were fairly low-level roles. I asked
them to make sure that all the candidates were briefed that the
potential employer would be MyOwnCouture.com, a fast-growing fashion
start-up, and that all work would be on site at our location. There
would be little, if any, opportunity to work from home. Might as well
do everything I could to weed out the non-starters.
Ruth overheard the telephone call and wandered over as I hung up.
"So you'll meet the potential new hires as Daisy then?" she said.
"I suppose so. I don't have much choice, do I?"
"Is that the faint odour of burning bridges I smell?"
* * *
At the close of our second Board meeting we were buoyant and upbeat for
the future, but we couldn't sit back on our laurels. Mike and Vicky
had been keeping the machines going while we Directors were drinking
coffee and munching our chocolate biscuits. With just the two of them,
they were beginning to fall behind. So when Margaret set off for the
station in a taxi, Eddy and I headed for the cowshed to help out. Ruth
stopped me before I could reach the stairs.
"Actually, could you just step into my office for a moment, Daisy?
There's something I'd like to talk to you about."
So I went in and parked my expanding bulk awkwardly in her spare chair.
She turned her monitor round so we could both see the screen.
"What do you think of these?"
"Maternity dresses!" I said.
There were four beautiful designs: three medium-length, one full; two
in pastel colours, one floral. The floor-length dress was in black.
"They're gorgeous! I really like that mid-length floral dress. It
looks so cool and comfortable! Are you ready to add those to the
site?"
"Yes, and I've written the software instructions to make them - but
there's a problem."
"I'm not going to like what comes next, am I?"
"You might," she said cryptically. "You see our 'standard female
figure' template won't work for a woman more than about four months
pregnant. Her figure is just too different."
I saw what she meant. We could adapt for different female sizes - OK,
for skinny girls and fat girls - by just shrinking or inflating the
standard template, but that was no good for a pregnant figure. If we
inflated the tummy to the six months pregnant size, the breasts and
buttocks would swell grotesquely too. She would need to develop a new
template. I began to see where I fitted in. She saw that the light
was dawning for me.
"You will do it, won't you, sweetie? I don't know any other pregnant
ladies just at the moment, and I don't want to have to pay anyone."
I sighed. "What do I have to do?"
"The best way would be for you to strip down to your underwear and let
us cover you with those motion capture sensor things. That will kill
two birds with one stone: the sensors will give us a perfect 3D image
of your sexy preggy figure, which I can use to generate the template.
Then if you move around doing everyday pregnant woman activities, I can
make the film from it. We obviously can't use the catwalk or disco
dancing animation for a woman in your condition."
"And where exactly do I have to do this? We don't have any of that
equipment here."
"I have an old university friend in Bath - Josh. He is a junior
partner in an animation studio. They mostly work for video games
companies, but they have all the kit and he's happy to help us with it
sometime when it's not in use. In fact, it's free this coming Sunday
afternoon. We could make a weekend of it."
She made it sound tempting. I hadn't had many outings as Daisy.
"You haven't told Josh about me, have you?"
"I've just said I need to get some film of a pregnant woman, and I'll
be bringing a friend with me. Don't be so sensitive."
"Well, as long as I don't have to be on my feet all day..." I began.
"No, no, no, I'll look after you, I promise!" She grabbed me and
covered me in kisses. "Thank you so much for doing this!"
Well, it might be quite fun I suppose.