I should have known
Janet L. Stickney
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"You should at least try it honey. Believe me, you'll make a beautiful
girl!"
"Mooom!"
"Well, you're the one that waited so long to get set up for this party
that all the good costumes are gone. By doing this, I don't have to buy
much, since we can use some of my things and some of your sisters. Now
go in your room and we'll see how you look."
Mom was right. There was a huge party at the country club, with huge
prizes, a big dinner, a band and all that. I wanted to go because it
was always a great party, but I kept putting off getting a costume
until, you guessed it, it was too late. Mom and I had spent a whole day
looking around for a suitable costume, and found nothing. Since
everyone would be working hard to win, I had to have a costume that was
a whole lot better than just average, just to have any chance at all!
Mom was adamant about me trying this girl thing, and while it wasn't
high on my list of things to be dressed up as, but since I had put off
getting a costume for so long, I really didn't have a choice, unless I
decided not to go. With a bit more grumbling, I followed mom to my
room.
"Since," mom said, "we as a family always do well at this party, I
expect you to go along and not fight me on this. Your sister won just
two years ago, and I think that you can win this year. So, first things
first. I want you to strip and let me check to see how much body hair
you have, and I'll take a few measurements at the same time."
Well, embarrassed or not, mom stood there until I was down to my
briefs, then she began to carefully check me all over for hair, which
at age 15, was still very sparse. Mom took a bunch of measurements,
then told me to get dressed. As she started to leave my room she
turned, and casually mentioned that she thought that I would make a
beautiful girl, maybe even a bride! I started to say something when she
added, in that off hand tone she uses, that in the entire history of
this particular party, there had never been someone dressed as a bride,
and maybe now was as good a time as any to start. As she left, I
wondered why, on one hand, she said I could use my sisters stuff, then,
on the other, tell me I was going to be a bride! Lisa was only a year
older than I am, and she had never been a bride. I had no idea what mom
had in mind. I only knew that I didn't want to be dressed up as a girl,
especially a bride. Unfortunately, it didn't look like I would have a
choice.
Mom never mentioned it again, until Friday night that is, when she told
me that she had something that would remove all the hair on my body,
and after that, she had a few things for me to try on. Great I thought,
now I would be the laughing stock in gym. But mom cut me no slack at
all, and on that Friday afternoon, I found myself virtually naked,
covered with some foul smelling lotion. I had on my thong brief, which
allowed mom to cover almost every part of my anatomy. After a short
wait, I jumped in the shower without removing my thong, and saw little
hairs starting to cover the drain. Using a washrag, the rest fell away,
then I realized that my skin was smooth and hairless. I shaved and
washed my hair like she told me, then went back to my room, wrapped in
a towel, feeling really naked, and totally geeky.
The very first thing I saw was that pair of pink panties hanging from
her finger. After my shower I looked in the mirror, and saw that my
first observation was true. The only hair I had on my body were my
eyelashes, the hair on my head, my eyebrows, and a little in my groin.
Feeling more than a little naked, I grabbed the panties and quickly
pulled them on. They offered almost no coverage since they were so
thin, but it was better than nothing. Without a word she took my hand,
then led me into my sister Lisa's room, sat me at the vanity, and began
to brush out my hair, which she then held back with an elastic. Then
she started in with the makeup. I was able to watch mom as she put
foundation, then powder on my face, which she followed with eye shadow,
eyeliner and mascara, then blusher. When she was done with that, she
put some rollers in my still damp hair and had me stand up. I felt more
like a geek than ever before.
The next item on her agenda was what she called a corsolet. I
recognized that it had to be one of my sister's. It was all white, and
didn't look that intimidating, because after all, it was just some
satin and lace plus a few straps. Until mom began to fasten the hooks
that is. As my waist began to shrink I looked in the mirror and saw
that my chest was being compressed, filling the bra cups, leaving me
with what looked like some modest breasts! When she was done with the
hooks I thought she was done, but no. She pulled on the laces making
the corsolet even smaller! As my waist compressed, my chest also began
to rise, and I gasped at what I saw in the mirror. Hardly able to
breathe, mom acted as if nothing was wrong. I was shocked at the way
that corsolet made me look! I had more than ample cleavage, created by
the swelling of my chest, and my once manly waist was now compressed,
giving me sort of an hourglass figure! Mom had me sit on the bed while
she rolled the white hose up each leg, then made them secure to the
garter tabs, then standing up, I once again looked in the mirror, and
had to swallow hard. I had a full bra, with some great cleavage, a
narrow waist with rounder hips, and long, sexy legs.
"I want to try the dress on now, that way I'll have time to make
whatever alterations are necessary. Just stand still."
Within minutes I was standing there in a sea of white satin and lace,
every inch of my newly created cleavage on display! Mom helped me get
the heels on, which were white of course. As I stood there, my face all
made up, my hair pulled back and my boobs on display, I had short,
fleeting, ugly thought. "Damn! She looks great!" But I kept that to
myself of course, no sense adding fuel to mom's fire. Using pins, mom
marked the dress where she said it needed to be altered, then helped me
out of it. I was ready to get changed, but she handed me a skirt and
blouse to wear, then stood there while I put them on. After that
wedding dress, it was like wearing almost nothing, and my legs were
once again on display, since the hem of the skirt was above my knees.
"Just where?" I asked her. "Did you get that wedding dress? You said
that I would be wearing some of Lisa's clothes, but she doesn't have a
wedding dress!"
"That is exactly true! I said that you would be wearing 'some' of her
clothes, and you were. That corsolet for example is hers."
"But I thought you meant..."
"You thought I meant something like what you have on now, but I also
told you that since nobody had ever done it before, you were going to
be a bride. This dress was on sale, it was your size, and well, I just
couldn't resist! This is actually your own wedding dress!" I started to
say something when she raised her hand. "Come with me." Back at Lisa's
vanity, mom fixed my hair in a very feminine way. "Now you can come
help me with dinner. You can set the table. I want everyone to see just
how pretty you are, then we'll really shock them when they see you in
that wedding dress!"
Mom was on a roll, and there wasn't any way to stop her. Once she got
me dressed as a girl, my fate was sealed, and I knew it. I knew that I
never should have let her put that dress on me. Waiting at the door for
me, I had no choice but to do what she told me, and took my first steps
outside of my room. The skirt kept flicking at my thighs, my breasts
were bouncing, and there wasn't any place for me to put my hands. I
felt...like a girl! I set the table while mom was working in the
kitchen, and did not see, or hear, dad when he walked in, until I
looked up. I felt like a butterfly pinned to a board.
"Your mother said that you would be pretty, but it seems she was only
almost right. You're beautiful!"
"Gee, thanks dad. Just what I always wanted to hear."
"Your quite welcome Peter."
I shot dad a nasty look as he went in the kitchen, which he totally
ignored.
Lisa was gone for the weekend, so I did not have to endure her taunts,
but when mom dropped her bombshell, I almost fainted.
"Those plain white shoes you had on are totally inappropriate for a
wedding dress you know. We'll have to get you some white satin ones,
and of course, some makeup that is a better color for your complexion."
Mom sat there looking at me, then her eyes lit up. "You have a very
good chance at winning this year Peter, so why don't we just make sure
of it! When we are out tomorrow, well get you enough lingerie of your
own so that you can dress every day, and by the time the party comes,
you'll be familiar with how to wear the dress, and have walking and so
on down pat!"
"Tomorrow? Me? Shopping? Like this?" I said, swallowing hard.
"Well, yes. You'll have to try on the shoes, and of course you'll need
to be there for them to determine exactly the right makeup for you!
It'll be fun! And besides, you're just as cute as can be!"
"You know," Dad added, "just how special this event is, and given the
way you look, I don't see any reason for you to worry. It's just a few
weeks, and like your mother says, it will probably help you get into
the spirit of things."
"You want," I said, "me to dress as a girl, every day, from now until
then?! Are you nuts?"
"Lets have none of that kind of talk Peter!" Dad sounded angry. "Think
of it this way. Every guy you know is doing his best to get into some
girls pants, but you'll be the only one that has succeeded!" Chuckling
at his little joke, he ignored my sneer.
"You said a few weeks, but that party is almost four months away! I
can't dress as a girl for four months!"
"And why not? I wear a dress or skirt every day!"
"But you're a girl," I cried. It was no use. I knew the look. They had
made up their minds, that much was obvious, and worse, there wasn't any
way for me to change it, and that meant that for the rest of the school
year, which was about a month, and virtually my entire summer would be
spent as a girl!
Mom had me stay dressed that way until bedtime, then she helped me get
out of that rig. I hurt almost as bad to have that corsolet off as when
she first put it on me! When she told me that I would be wearing one
every day, to reduce my waist, I almost told her I was leaving, running
away from home. Without a word she tossed me one of Lisa's nightgowns.
As I lay in bed all I could think of was the reflection I saw in the
mirror, how sexy my legs were, all that bursting cleavage, and that
knockout figure. As I pictured those boobs Mr. Happy began to rise up
and demand attention! I had a hard night wondering how I would look the
next day when I went shopping with mom, but I knew for sure, without
any doubt, that when I left the house, I would be dressed as a girl,
and there wasn't a thing I could do about it, short of running away.
The next morning, right after breakfast, mom followed me back to my
room, insisting that she help me get dressed. She made me wear that
same corsolet again, but gave me regular pantyhose to wear with the
same skirt and blouse, but this time, I was able to wear my penny
loafers. Mom watched as I did my makeup by myself, for the first time,
then she used a hair comb to hold my hair back. After I put on the
lipstick, I looked just like I did the night before, which was scary,
since I was the one that did my makeup. Still unsure of myself, I
wasn't anxious to hit the stores, but mom had me look in the mirror
again, which only confirmed what I already knew. I looked nothing like
a boy. After I clipped the earrings on and added the necklace, mom
handed me a purse, told me to stuff my wallet and lipstick in it, then,
with mom following along, I left the house. The fresh air hit my legs,
but rather than being cold like I thought, it was really quite
refreshing. What was strange was not being able to just look down and
see where my foot was going to land. I had boobs sticking out front,
and they blocked my view. And of course, having a skirt swirling around
my legs was really different. For some strange reason, I didn't feel
geeky, I felt...what? Feminine?
Mom drove while I tried to hunch down in the seat. Mom said I was being
silly, but I wasn't so sure. At the mall, I had to walk quite a
distance to the building, and using mom's advice, I took the same
stride she did, and held my hands and arms like she did, but it felt so
awkward, and certainly silly to say the least. I did my best, but was
convinced that everyone in the mall was staring at me. The first place
mom took me was to a lingerie shop where she handed me packages of
panties, twelve pair in all, then three bras, one flesh colored, the
other two white. Then, to my great horror, another one of those
corselets! Then came pantyhose, two nightgowns, two gel padded
pantybrief's and a robe. It seemed like a lot of stuff for a costume
party, but between my serious concern at being found out, and not
knowing what Mom's plans were...exactly, I kept my mouth shut. Mom told
me what she had planned, which didn't mean that she told me everything,
so I just let her do what she wanted. Mom told me to put on one of the
padded pantybrief's, which I did in a changing room. The minute I
pulled the skirt back on I could see that it hung better, and it
appeared as if I had hips. By the time we left that department, mom was
almost giddy! She kept telling my how much I would like this or that. I
just let her babble.
In dresses she told me I had to pick out three skirts and three
dresses, then pointed me at the right racks. While I was mulling over
the idea that I was picking out my own clothes, so that I could dress
as a girl, she selected the tops and blouses. Then it was on to shoes
where I got those white satin heels, plus heels in black, taupe and
red, and flats in black and white. Six pair of shoes? I knew that mom
had said that she wanted me to dress as a girl as often as possible,
but it did seem like a bit to much, and I just couldn't hold it in any
more, and mentioned it to her. That's when I found out what she
expected of me. I was almost floored.
"Why honey! I thought you knew! I mentioned it last night at dinner!
Since there is so much to at stake, we both told you that we feel that
if you dress as a girl as often as possible, you would have an
excellent chance of winning! Don't you remember?" With a sigh, I nodded
my head yes. "Since that's the case, that would mean that you would
have to dress up as often as possible, and since you'll be spending so
much time dressed as a girl, there is simply no way to avoid it. If we
have somewhere to go, you'll just have to go with us, dressed as a girl
of course, and that means that you'll have to be able to look just as
nice as Lisa does! She has a wider wardrobe of course, but you can
borrow from her when you need something. I just thought that you would
want some things of your own!"
"Mooom! This is getting way out of hand!"
Mom took me to the closest mirror, stood me in front of it, and told me
to take a good look. Staring right back at me was this girl. She was
cute, with long shapely legs, an oval face with a red smile, plus a
figure that was every bit as good as any girl I know. Swallowing hard,
I knew, because I could see it in the mirror, that unless I really
screwed up, nobody would ever guess that I was really a boy. Turning to
look at mom...
"It's all in the mind Peter. You see how you look, and you know as well
as I do that you'll be a spectacular bride." Mom's voice took on a
gentle tone, and for the first time I felt as if I wanted to please
her. "After a few days of getting yourself ready, it will all become
second nature, and you won't feel so uncomfortable." Mom paused, then
told me that maybe, when school let out, I could get my hair done, and
that would make me feel better about the way I look as a girl. I wasn't
so sure, but she and dad had covered all the bases, and I had no choice
but to go along with this charade.
As much as I wanted to deny it, mom was right. I did look like a girl.
I guess I probably could have put my foot down and said absolutely no
way would I do this, and maybe, if I was lucky, make it stick, but as I
stood there looking in that mirror, something came over me. I took in
the vision in that mirror, and realized that what I had felt before was
my own femininity. It was no longer a question, and as strange as it
sounds, my newly acquired femininity had reached out and bit me, right
on my ego. Mom had wandered off to look at some other things, and I
took the opportunity to pick out a few other things that caught my eye.
After that, mom and I spent another four hours at the mall, buying
things I had never considered. Like a curling iron of my own, like
shorts, and a pair of those skinny jeans girls wear. Mom had me get my
other ear pierced, then she let me select twelve pair of earrings, some
necklaces, and two rings. By the time we were done shopping, I realized
that since nobody even considered the idea that I might be a boy, I
began to see that dressing as a girl, while not exactly my thing, might
be something I would be able to have some fun with it. But then there
was my sister. How would she take this? All I could do was the best I
could do, and hope for the best. When we got home, mom and I put
everything away, then she told me to sit. She wanted to redo my hair.
When she was done my hair was in sort of a pageboy. Without her telling
me, I touched up my lipstick, took the perfume bottle, and dabbed some
on my neck and wrists like I had seen mom do. Mom never said a word,
but she was smiling as she and I both went to the familyroom.
Dad was there, and looked up when we went in. He didn't smile this
time. His mouth dropped open instead. Saying nothing, I went in the
kitchen to get a cola, letting him digest what he had seen. As I sipped
on my drink I thought about the time I had spent in the mall, and the
total lack of reaction to me. As much as I said that I didn't want to
dress as a girl, I had to admit that it wasn't that bad, except for the
corsolet of course. But with less than a month of school left, the
entire summer, and another month of school after that, all before the
party, there was no doubt in my mind that some, if not all of my
friends would find out. There just wasn't any way I could hide it! I
mean, my buddies stop by all the time, and once they saw me this way,
well, everyone would know, How that would impact the party I wasn't
sure, but the element of surprise would be gone once they saw me, and
that does not tell the tale of what some of them would do to me!
According to mom, if I simply told them that I was practicing for the
party, without telling them what I would be wearing, then they would go
along with it. I wasn't so sure, but didn't have much choice in the
matter. I would have to tell them something that they would accept. The
plain truth would be so deliciously obvious that even though I hated
the idea of my friends seeing me this way, I grinned to myself at the
prospect of it.
Having a short skirt on, I had to get used to the idea that I couldn't
bend the way I was used to. Twice mom mentioned that she could see my
panties, and reminded me to bend at the knees. When I had taken a cola
out of the fridge, I had mooned dad, and he saw the rounded globes of
my butt wrapped in panties. That night at dinner, mom brought up the
subject of a name for me. I knew that nobody was going to call me
Peter, not looking like that, but I didn't have any ideas for a name.
Both mom and dad did however. Dad wanted me to use Rita, while mom said
that she liked the name Heather. I didn't like either one, and told
them that I would think of something. Then I spent some time in my room
trying on all the clothes mom and I had bought, and surprisingly, I
found myself noting what I looked best in! I'm not sure why I felt that
way, but I couldn't stop admiring myself when I put something new on.
It was during that time that I decided on the name Kathy. I knew it was
a common name, which is why I picked it. I liked it, and it sounded so
ordinary.
In the morning, as I stood there wondering what to wear, I still had a
choice at that point by the way, I decided to try my hand at getting
dressed all on my own. Why, I'll never know, but that vision I held of
myself as a girl lingered in my mind. I started by trying to do my own
makeup. I knew that I had not done well, but I continued getting
dressed, wearing a skirt and blouse with my gym shoes, the bra, stuffed
with socks, and the padded pantybrief. I did not feel like wearing that
tummy cruncher again, and left it in the dresser. I pulled my hair back
into a ponytail, held it in place with an elastic, then went in Lisa's
room and found a red ribbon to match the skirt. Ever try tying a bow in
the back, and over your head? When I was done, I added a touch of
lipstick, and went down to breakfast. Dad wasn't there, and mom was
gracious enough not to laugh. But somehow, I was proud of the fact that
I was able to find the strength to at least try and look nice.
After breakfast mom took me to her room and gave me another lesson in
doing makeup, but made me do it myself. When I was done, I looked
almost as good as the day before. Mom said I was done, and I faced the
stark idea that I would have to leave the house. I couldn't stay inside
forever, but I wasn't sure what to do, since it would be my first time
outside, as a girl, all alone. That's when mom suggested that I wash my
car, then said that I should borrow some shorts of Lisa's. The ones she
gave me were nothing but cut off jeans. I put them on, feeling the snug
way they fit, but didn't think anything of it, although they did seem
to give me a feminine front in the groin area. I drew up my courage,
and went outside. As I stepped outside, my best friend, Bill, walked up
the driveway. We looked at each other for a moment, then I saw that
grin he uses on girls, the one that always works. He was looking right
at me, but he had not recognized me! I stood there, waiting, then he
got close enough to me to make the connection. After the shock wore
off...
"You trying to set a new style Pete?"
He was going to be my first victim. I had no choice right then, not
wearing full makeup, a bra, and those shorts. "You know that big
costume party they have at the club every year?" I said. "Well, mom got
it in her head that this year I would be going as a girl, and she told
me that in order to win, I should start dressing as one now, just to
get used to the clothes, how to walk and like that."
"Well," he said, "you're cute, but not my type."
"What do you mean I'm not your type? You would go out with a baboon if
you thought you would get lucky!"
"Yeah, but it would have to be a female baboon Pete, a female." He sat
on the porch and watched as I dragged out the hose. "Nice legs. If your
mom is telling you to dress this way, what do I call you when you
aren't your usual mangy self?
"It's sort of an ordinary name," I said as I filled the bucket,
"Kathy."
"You going to dress this way all of the time?"
"Not at school, but mom insists that I dress this way after school, and
I'll probably have to do it all summer."
"You're not going to the Prom are you?" he casually asked.
"No. You know that I'm not so hot with the ladies like you are. I
decided to skip it this year."
"Kelly came down with a case of the guilt's, and called off our date.
She's going with that fool from Central."
"So," I said, "you're not going either?"
"Maybe, maybe not."
"What does that mean," I said, getting a strange feeling.
"If your mom wants you to get a lot of practice, maybe we, you and
I..."
I dropped the hose on the ground when he said that, and stared at him.
"Are you asking me to the Prom? As your date?"
"It'll be a gas!" Bill said as he stood up, "you don't look anything
like yourself, and like I said, your kind of cute when you're all made
up like this, and besides, we have been friends for a long time...it
was just a thought, forget it."
Bill always made decisions on the spot, which is one of traits about
him that I liked so much. Mom had made it clear that she wanted me to
win this contest, then sort of forced me into dressing as a girl. I
could tweak her, get a lot of practice at being a girl, go to the Prom,
and have someone else pay the tab. I didn't even consider anything
else.
"I accept!"
"What!?"
"I said I accept your offer to take me to the Prom! What time will you
be here to pick me up?"
I was playing him as hard as I could, knowing he could just as easily
say no, and retract his offer. Then I saw the way he was looking at me.
"Seven. I'll be here at seven. You better be able to pull this off
Pe...Kathy, or we won't be going anywhere!"
"You worry too much Bill."
He stuck around for a little while, then left when I spilled water all
over the front of me, which made my tee stick to my chest, clearly
outlining my bra. After a quick look, he left in kind of a hurry. I
told him not to worry, which was bravado on my part. I was the one that
was worried.
By the time I had finished washing the car I had talked myself into,
then out of, and back into, doing what I said I would do, and that was
be Bill's date for the prom. It was rash for me to provoke Bill, even
crazier when he asked me, and I agreed to it. As I stood there I
quickly began to regret it. But, I knew Bill really well, and knew that
if he took it serious, he would never bring it up again. He would
simply appear at the door, wearing a tuxedo, ready to take his date,
me, to the prom. Just about the only thing good about it was that
school would be out three days before the prom. It also meant that I
would have three whole days to get ready, which was also three whole
days that my sister could taunt me about going to the prom as a girl. I
had wanted to get back at mom a little, but the more I thought of it,
the more I knew that I had stepped right into it, and "it," smelled
like perfume. Expensive perfume. When I was done with the car, I knew I
had no choice, I would have to tell mom that I was going to the prom
with Bill. I only hoped that she wouldn't jump to the wrong conclusion.
When I told mom she unfortunately lit up like a Christmas tree.
"See! What did I tell you? You're a very pretty girl! Even Bill thinks
so, or he would not have asked you to be his date!"
"No mom, you got it all wrong. Kelly broke up with Bill, and since he
spent all that money on the tickets, well, he asked me to go with him,
so he wouldn't have to stay at home! That's the only reason he asked
me!"
I was beginning to sound like I was trying to convince myself as well
as mom.
"Well, no matter", mom said, we have enough time to get you a very nice
dress, and since you'll be out of school anyway, we can get your hair
and nails done. We were going to do that anyway, but now you get to
have it done really fancy!"
"Mom," I said, "I'm not sure that I should do this! I mean...Bill and
I...we're friends!"
"Does he date girls he hates? No, of course not! That's plain silly!
Boys date girls they like and are friends with, and like you said, you
two have known each other for a long time!"
"Lisa?" I said, mentioning my sisters name, hoping that mom might see a
problem there.
"What about her? I talked to her this morning on the phone, and told
her to expect to meet her new sister when she gets home today. Lisa
said that she could hardly wait."
"I'll bet."
"Don't be like that Kathy, Lisa is looking forward to having a sister!
She said that she would be glad to help you when you need it."
There wasn't much I could say. Either Lisa would be cool about this, or
she wouldn't, then I would quit, right on the spot, no matter what mom
said or did. I was willing to try it, but not be a target for my
sister. I went to my room to take a shower and change. My skin was
smooth to the touch, and after I shaved again, my face showed no signs
of a beard. I didn't shave that often anyway, but I checked myself in
the mirror very closely. If Lisa said she wanted to meet her sister,
then I knew that I damned well better look like a sister, or it would
get ugly very fast. On the bathroom vanity I saw a new bottle. It was
skin lotion. I opened it, and began to rub it on my skin everywhere I
could reach, and by the time I went back in my bedroom, my skin felt
even smoother!
Lisa has never had any trouble getting dates, and even I have to admit
it, she is a knockout by any standard you want to use. That meant that
I would have to try and get as close to her beauty as I could get. I
wasn't going to let her get very far ahead of me on that score, not if
I could help it! I put on the same panties, then went into Lisa's
bedroom and sat at her vanity. I used the foundation just like mom
showed me, then the powder, which I let set for a moment before I
brushed away the excess. Then I did my eyes, starting with a soft blue
just over my upper eyelashes. Then a very light gray, and over that,
just under my eyebrows, a peach. I used a small sponge to blend the
colors, then came the hard stuff. Eyeliner. I rested my elbow on the
vanity, then starting right at the corner of my eye, managed to draw an
even line of deep black all the way across. Under each eye I used a
softer blue pencil, then black mascara. On my cheeks I used the same
peach blusher, drawing it out with a sponge. Once I got that far I went
back to my own room to get dressed.
I wrapped the corsolet around myself, struggled to fasten the hooks,
then pulled on the laces as hard as I could, and was rewarded with
seeing that it once again created a small but definite cleavage. I used
my hand to pull my skin up a little, then stuffed a sock under each
breast to help fill out the built in bra. The added effect was that it
looked liked my breasts were just laying in the bra cups! The padded
pantybrief was next, followed by the pantyhose. One of the dresses that
mom had picked out for me had a square cut neckline and was short on
me, well above my knees. It would do nicely. I slipped it over my head,
zipped it up the way mom showed me, and found the two inch black heels.
Stepping into them gave me the sense that I had done it, but I had more
to do. I brushed out my hair, using the blow dryer, and created the
same pageboy style that mom had done for me. Grinning, I put on a pair
of pearl earrings, the matching necklace, a bracelet, and a ring. Then
I sat at the vanity and carefully polished every one of my nails in a
soft pink to contrast the black dress. After my nails had dried, I did
my lipstick, also in a soft pink, added a dash of perfume, and stood in
front of the mirror.
If anything, I looked better than when mom had helped me! The skirt
part of the dress flared just right, my legs once again looked great,
and I was exposing just enough of the twin mounds of my breasts to
confuse almost anyone. Smiling, I walked out of my bedroom, down the
stairs, and into the familyroom.
"Mom?" I said in as feminine a voice as I could manage.
"In here honey!"
I went in the kitchen. Mom was standing there with Lisa. My sister and
I traded stares, but her mouth was open and no words were coming out,
so I guess I succeeded in getting her attention.
"Lisa, this is Kathy."
"Ohmygod! You're beautiful!"
"You expected less sister dear?"
"I knew that you would look good, but this! You look better than some
of my friends! How did you do that by the way? They can't be real! And
those hips! Mom, look at her legs! Kathy has better legs that I do!"
Clearly, Lisa had been awed by the way I looked, which was enough to
blunt any wild ideas that she might have had.
"Lisa, you go get cleaned up. Your father is taking us all out to
dinner tonight. Kathy looks fine, but we have to change, or risk being
the ugly step sisters!"
There was never any chance that mom and Lisa would look like the ugly
step sisters, but it made me feel good anyway. Dad came in, waved his
hand at me, then went up to shower and clean up. I wasn't sure who he
thought I was, Lisa, or Kathy! My sister and I bear a striking
resemblance to each other, as girls I mean. Within half an hour we were
all standing there waiting for dad. I wore black, Lisa wore a dress
similar to mine that was blue, and mom wore her white sheath dress. The
look on dad's face was worth it when he looked at the three of us, and
realized who I really was. But he didn't say anything, he simply
escorted us to the car. Like Lisa and mom, I held my small black purse
in my lap during the ride. Nobody said much.
As we walked into the country club dining room, I saw Bill with his
parents! Like his dad, Bill is tall, wide, and strong as an ox, with a
devilish grin and eyes that sparkled when he looked at a woman. He did
not see me at first, then he spotted us walking in and I saw his mouth
drop open. Smiling, I let dad hold my chair as I sat down. As we ate,
dad asked me how I felt. He did not mean to ask me if I was ill either.
"I feel fine dad, why? Is there something wrong?"
"No," he said, "but you're wearing a..."
"Dress," I said. "Why wouldn't I wear a dress? You and mom are the ones
that told me I had to do this, and all I'm doing is the best I can to
obey you."
"Yes but..." dad sputtered, "you look so..."
"Katherine looks simply beautiful dear, and you know it! You're just
not used to having two daughters, that's all! Besides, Kathy has been
asked to the prom already."
"What!" Both dad and Lisa spoke at the same time, so I had it in
stereo.
"Well," I said, "Bill broke up with Kelly, and since he already had the
tickets..."
"You're going," Lisa asked, "to the prom with Bill?!"
"He had already bought the tickets, and..."
'But you're not," Dad almost screamed, "a girl! Does he know who you
really are?"
"Of course! Dad, it's okay, really. All I'm doing is helping a friend,
that's all!"
My response sounded weak, even to me, and the minute the words were out
of my mouth, my sister snorted. We all sort of let the subject drop,
but I did catch dad looking at me funny a few times, especially after
my napkin slid to the floor. Without thinking, I bent down to get it,
which put my breasts on full display when dad glanced over. I actually
heard him swallow hard. I was hoping that when dinner was over we would
just go home, but since it was Saturday night, and the club always had
a band, our parents decided to stay. Lisa said she had a date and could
not stay, so she left to call him and tell him where she was. When I
asked her to drop me off at home, it was my dad that said "no".
"Since you went to so much trouble to look as good as you do, I think
that you should stay here with us. Who knows, maybe someone will ask
you to dance!"
Chuckling, he and mom left the table to talk to some friends of theirs.
Alone at the table, I felt abandoned, and wanted nothing more than to
leave. Then I saw Bill striding my way. Compared to me, Bill makes an
impressive masculine sight, especially in a suit. He walked up to my
table staring right at my boobs, not my face.
"I'm up here Bill," I said, just to stick in a barb.
"Wow!"
"Wow what?"
"Wow! You look fantastic! When I saw you this morning you looked good,
but now, well, wow!"
"Thanks Bill, sit down if you like."
Bill sat right next to me, we traded looks for a moment, then I saw his
parents walking our way! Bill popped out of his chair when he saw his
mom, then he introduced me to his parents, whom I have known almost
since birth, as Katherine. His mother had a firm yet feminine hand
shake, while his father kissed my hand and stared at my boobs, then,
when he stood up, his eyes devoured me from head to toe. I had never
been mentally undressed before, and it was very unsettling. I never
knew that Bill's dad was a dirty old man before then. He made me feel
dirty in a way. The music started, and without a word Bill squeezed my
hand while pulling gently. I rose and let him lead me to the dance
floor. As his arm went around my waist and my breasts poked him in the
chest, I realized that Bill was pulling me even closer! I let him lead,
and found it easy to follow him as the music went from one tune to
another. I saw my parents dancing, then my mother wave at me when she
saw Bill and I.
All new to me, I had no idea just how I was effecting Bill, until I
suddenly felt him against my leg! One part of me was repulsed by it,
yet another part was giggling inside. I had turned on my best friend,
simply by dancing with him!
"I ummmm, drove myself here tonight Kathy, and I was wondering if I
could drive you home myself. Or maybe, you have to go with your
parents?"
I looked up at him, he was almost a head taller than me, and...smiled.
This being a girl thing was getting to be fun, so I said that I would
be pleased if he drove me home. For a fleeting moment I thought that he
was going to kiss me, and maybe he was. In any case, I was pretty sure
that I would let him! Mom tapped me on the shoulder, told me to get my
purse, and join her. I left Bill with dad as mom and I went to the
ladies room. On the way...
"Bill seems very taken with you Kathy."
"He's merely overwhelmed by my exquisite beauty," I said, half in jest.
"That's obvious, but it looked like more than that to me honey."
"He wants to take me home mom. I said yes, is that alright?"
"Be careful dear, men have only one thing on their minds."
"Moooom!"
Bill and I danced some more, took a break to have coffee with our
parents, then he excused us, and we left. The minute we stood up he
slipped his arm around my waist, then we walked out. In the parking lot
he took my hand in his. On the way home he kept peeking at me, then,
when he parked in front of my house, he put his arm around me, pulled
me over, and stared into my eyes. I thought he was going to kiss me,
and I think he did too.
"Bill! Stop that!"
"Why?"
"You know why!" I said getting tense.
"Let's try it and see."
I did not pull away from him as his lips barely touched mine. Like I
said, I did not pull away, even though I knew I should. Bill pulled me
even closer, looked in my eyes again, then just as he was about to
touch his lips to mine again, I opened the door, grabbed my purse, and
ran inside the house. Panting hard, I started towards my room when Lisa
walked out of the familyroom. Smiling, she gave me a hug, then we went
to bed. It took me about half an hour to get back to my naked self and
slip into bed. As I lay there I wondered how I could have been so
stupid to let Bill kiss me like that. Our relationship would never be
the same again. I thought being a girl was a fun thing to do, and I had
let that emotion get the better of me when I succumbed to Bill's
advances. It took a long time for me to drift to sleep, and even then,
I had dreams of Bill and I, with me doing things that only girls do!
The next morning I wore my own underwear, jeans and shirt to breakfast.
I had shaken my own view of myself by what I had done the night before,
and wanted to be myself again. Nobody said anything, although Lisa
motioned for me to join her after breakfast. She and I went out in the
yard, back to the swings, and sat down.
"The way you two were going at it last night I'm surprised that you can
even talk Kathy."
"It's Peter, and that was not my fault! I just got caught up it in, and
Bill took advantage of the situation!"
"No it wasn't," Lisa said, "you knew exactly what you were doing when
you hiked those tits of yours up so far they looked like they would pop
out, then you played poor Bill like a violin, just like you did with
dad! Dropping your napkin? That has to be the oldest trick in the book
Kathy, and don't you dare try to tell me it was an accident, because I
saw that sly look you gave dad. You wanted him to see, and he did. Mom
said that you were dancing so close to Bill that your boobs had to
hurt! Oh no...you did all that because you found out just how much fun
we girls have with the men! What worries me the most is just how easily
you did it! You might be dressed as a boy right now, but under all of
that manly look you have right now you're Kathy, and what's more, you
like being Kathy! That's why you and Bill were sitting out there so
long last night, not because he forced himself on you. You drew him in,
then you skewered him well and proper honey, so you might as well go
change clothes, because he'll drop by sometime today. He can't help it.
He's in love!"
Lisa is quick, I'll give her that much. I had no idea that I was
playing dad or Bill like that, but in hindsight, I guess she was right.
I looked at my sister, her casual femininity did nothing to lessen her
beauty, nor her smarts. If Bill was in love, why didn't I know that,
and Bill's kissing me, while not exactly an accident, I did not plan
it. I gave in, and that's different.
"Lets get you cleaned up a bit Kathy, I have a pair of romper suits
that we can wear! Like twins almost!"
I nodded my head yes, and followed her to her room. In about an hour
she and I reappeared, me in a blue and white checked romper suit,
Lisa's was red and white. She had done our hair the same way, short
pigtails on each side of our heads, mine with blue ribbons, hers with
red. We both wore white tennis shoes, red lipstick, and pink fingernail
polish. Mine had not been removed yet. Mom took one look and merely
shook her head. Dad gaped at both of us. Since we looked to be a few
years younger than we actually were, he told us to stay in the yard! A
bit later Lisa took our hair out, and I brushed mine back into a
pageboy. I was glad I did that, because just like Lisa predicted, Bill
showed up around one.
He and I sat on those same swings in our backyard, and while I wasn't
trying, I found myself acting like a girl, giggling at his bad jokes,
and holding my knees close together. It was like another person had
taken over my body, and all I could do was watch. Bill took my hand in
his, got off his swing, came to me, and once again, his lips almost
touched mine. Only a whisper of air stood between us as we both
wondered what the other would do. He moved away, then once again on the
swing, he started pushing me, higher and higher, and I found myself
shrieking at him to slow down. Even my voice sounded different to me!
As my swing drew to a slower pace, he stood in front of me, then yanked
me from the swing, and stood still as I collapsed in his arms. He held
me there, not speaking as I looked up at him. No longer a mere friend,
Bill had become more, but what? He slipped his arm around my waist, and
we went in the house just in time for dad to see us, hand in hand. Mom
just looked at us, Lisa grinned, and dad grimaced. Bill stayed a bit
longer, then, after he left, I went to my room to return to my own
self.
I had a hard time at school because I kept wondering if I had washed
off the perfume, makeup, or hair gel well enough that I didn't stink up
the area. Of course, there was that nasty habit I had developed. I kept
sitting with my knees together. I almost started to wave my hand at
someone, just like a girl would do! I was losing my mind, and it got
worse when I saw Bill. He never acted like I was a girl, but he did
wink at me a few times, and that was almost as bad! Something had come
over me, and like a bad cold, it was taking control of my life. All
week long I kept to myself, and never did dress at home. Mom tried to
coax me into it a few times, but I refused, because I knew something
she didn't. I liked it a whole lot more than I was willing to
admit...even to myself sometimes. By the time Friday arrived I was
literally an emotional wreck. To be a girl, or be myself was the
question. I felt torn in two directions at once, and I had no answers.
I had never once in my life dressed up as a girl until mom suggested
it, yet when I saw myself that first time, it was as if a light went
on. Now, as I slowly drove home, I wondered if this would have happened
earlier, say when I was twelve, if I had dressed up then that is.
Last Saturday I had willingly dressed myself up to look real nice,
shocked my dad, then kissed my best friend, all without the slightest
thought that it was wrong. Maybe it wasn't, and if not, why was I so
nervous? In my heart I knew the answer, it wasn't wrong, because I
wasn't Peter, I was Katherine, and Katherine was an attractive girl.
The problem was that she lived inside of me. I was almost ready to get
dressed, and never return to being a boy ever again, the school be
damned. I pulled the car into the driveway, went to my room, opened the
closet, and looked at the clothes I now had that I could call my own.
They called to me in a sweet song, and it took all of my will power to
shut the door on them. That's when I lay on the bed, my eyes filling
with tears.
"Hey!" Lisa yelled. "Get your lazy ass into my room Kathy!"
When I walked in, she saw the tears in my eyes, but never asked why,
she already knew.
"I was doing a little research for you, and look what I found!"
Looking over Lisa's shoulder I saw items that I was sure someone made,
but had never seen, like breast forms made to match your skin tone
exactly, a sort of panty that had a built in vagina as well as hip and
butt pads to give a girl the right shape, and better, the right
equipment for a girl! I excitedly looked at everything, then Lisa
printed out the sheet with directions to the store for me.
"Ready to do a little shopping?"
I looked at the sheet, nodded my head yes, and we left in a bit of a
hurry. The specialty store had everything listed on the internet, and
after I talked to the lady that ran the place, and a bit of trial and
error, she found the exact color of my chest. It took her about two
hours to make the molds, then we went back home. Lisa and I both knew
that I needed the items so, using the credit card, we paid for what I
needed, and plenty of the adhesive that comes with them. I would get
them in a few days, but I would go tot the shop and be fitted. The lady
told us that there would be no way anyone could tell thatI wasn't born
a girl when she was done. I could hardly wait.
"You going to tell mom or dad Kathy?"
"Not a chance! Hopefully I'll have them before the bill gets here, but
I'll worry about that when the time comes. I have enough money to pay
for them myself, and I will if they ask me to."
"You going to change?"
"I thought I would, just a skirt and blouse with a little makeup, why?"
"I was wondering if you and I could do something together, like sisters
do."
With a new found eagerness and Lisa's acceptance," I said, "that would
be great Lisa! I'll get changed."
Knowing I would be going out with Lisa changed how I would get ready,
so after a shower and quick shave, I managed to get dressed in about
half an hour, with my hair and makeup done, a padded bra, my padded
pantybrief, pantyhose, a pleated skirt and a blouse. I wore my brown
flats, pink lipstick, and a bit of perfume. Neither of my parents
reacted when they saw me dressed, and after dinner, Lisa and I left for
a sisters night out as she called it. The first place we went was a
makeup shop where she insisted that I get my makeup done by a pro, and
I will admit, after the woman was done, I looked better than ever. I
bought lots of what she used on me. Later, I also bought my own set of
curlers, a curling iron, brushes, and a hand mirror. I also found out
that Lisa wasn't quite as goody two shoes as our parents thought. She
told me that the first time a guy took her, it was simply wonderful,
not at all painful, and I should not be scared when Bill, or someone
else managed to get me on my back. I had to remind her that they would
be disappointed, which is when she reminded me of the panty I had just
ordered.
We shopped, laughed, had a dessert, talked about how I felt, boys in
general, then stopped at a coffee house we both liked. As we walked in
I saw a lot of kids from school, which made me a little nervous, but
Lisa held my arm, and we joined some friends of hers at a small table.
Jeff and Carolyn had been a matched set since grade school. They
dressed alike, had the same hair color and length, both wore those
funky granny glasses, and both had freckles. I was introduced to them,
and they accepted me just as what I appeared to be. A girl, and a
friend of Lisa's. Later, around midnight, we left for home. I had a
whole new outlook on my sister, and now trusted her completely.
The next morning I got a confirmation of my order by email, which said
that within three days I would have the items! I got dressed in jeans
and a tee, wearing just a bra and panties under them, and Lisa and I
helped mom clean the house from top to bottom. Bill didn't call or come
over, which bothered me a little, but both mom and Lisa told me to be
patient. He would be back. Tired, I took a shower and changed into
clean clothes, and for the first time used my own makeup. Bill showed
up just as we were sitting down to a soft drink. The look on his face
was worth every bit of effort I took doing my makeup. Mom and Lisa
quietly left Bill and I alone. He stayed for dinner, but we did not go
anywhere that night. The five of us played Monopoly instead.
The next week was easier on me, and got better when, on Thursday I went
back to be fitted. The bad part was that mom had been home when they
called, and not knowing what it was, answered the phone. When I got
home she never said a word when she handed me the message. I was
certain that she figured it out, but mom didn't say a word, and the
next day Lisa and I left for the shop. It took about two hours to get
everything on, and looking in the mirror, I was stunned to see just how
much I looked like a girl.
"You absolutely must maintain yourself the same way we do honey. Either
your mother or your sister can help with that, and I will remind you
that within a week, maybe a bit more, you will have your first period.
Again, just ask either of them for help. It can get messy, okay?"
"Okay."
"I'll help her, but our mom will find out anyway, so...."
"I'll ask her for help Lisa."
By the time we got home I was so excited that I almost could not stand
it, but when Lisa yanked me into her bedroom and pulled down her jeans
and panties so I could see her, I was shocked! We looked just alike!
Grinning, I got dressed, but later, never removed it. Even with a
rounder bottom and wider hips that made my jeans tight, I wore it the
remaining three days until school let out, which is when I went home,
showered, followed all the instructions, and attached the two breast
forms to my chest. They looked as if I grew them myself! As I was
staring into the mirror, naked of course, my mother walked into the
room without knocking, and she saw what I had done. With nothing else
to do, I turned to face her, my hands on my newly rounded hips, my
boobs poking almost straight out, a grin on my face.
"That's really a good trick Kathy! Can I touch them?"
Mom put her finger on my left breast, and while not like touching my
arm, I could feel it! I also felt it when she touched my bottom.
"Those feel real!"
"For what they cost, they better!" I said. "I also felt it when you
touched me mom! She did not tell me that!"
"Just how long does that glue you used last Kathy?"
"The bottle said between two and four months, but I bought plenty, so
I'm not worried."
With a sigh, mom sat on the bed while I got dressed. The special panty
was short, fitting in the creases of my hip joint, and made me look
perfectly natural, rounded in all the right places, and fit tightly.
The down side, which I had become used to already, was that I could no
longer stand up to use the bathroom. The upside was that according to
the sheet we had printed out, if I was very careful, and lubricated
well, I could perform like a girl, with a man. Mom didn't know this,
and I did not tell her. My panties fit better, and outlined the new me
just as they would any woman. Getting the bra on however was a
struggle. I had never had to put a bra on with boobs before, so it was
easy. As I fumbled with it, mom finally came over and gave me a basic
lesson that was so obvious I was ashamed that I didn't think of it.
Just fasten it in front, spin it around, pull it up, and adjust to
suit! Of course, with the weight of the breasts, mom had to help me
adjust the straps. Believe me, when I looked in the mirror and saw the
way my breasts looked, I was overjoyed, and it showed when I started
grinning. No longer needing the padded pantybrief, I simply pulled on
my pantyhose, stepped into the skirt, and slipped into a blouse.
I went in the bath, used just foundation and a touch of lipstick, added
a pair of earrings, then stood looking at mom.
"Now that you seem to have it all, we have to have a little talk
honey."
"About what?" I asked.
"About sex."
"But..."
"I read the literature that came with that panty, so we both know that
you can, so don't try to deny it. We also need to talk about having
periods. I know that she told you about those, right?"
"But..."
"This is the easy part Katherine. No sex! That's it!"
"I wasn't planning on it mom!"
"I'm sure that's true, but men have a way of turning us women in
quivering bundles, which is when we forget the lessons our mothers tell
us about. You are quite pretty, and there is no reason not to think
that some boy, maybe, or more probably Bill, will make a concerted
effort to get into your pants, and I don't want that to happen. Do you
understand me?"
"Yes," I said, hoping she was wrong, knowing she wasn't.
Only mom, Lisa and I knew about the changes, however dad did mention
that he thought I looked more relaxed. How right he was! I spent three
days just getting used to my new shape, helping mom around the house,
and trying on my clothes. I never saw Bill, which was fine with me. I
needed the time to adjust anyway. Dad told me that starting on Monday,
Lisa and I would be working for him. He wanted me to work in the
ordering room while Lisa was headed for the computer room. He also told
us we would have to wear business attire, then handed me his credit
card. Lisa, mom and I went shopping that night, which is when I had my
very first period! Mom helped me get through that, and for the first
time I knew that I could try on anything without fear of discovery. Two
more bras, one of them a Pushemup in white lace and soft cups. More
pantyhose, skirts, blouses, heels, and of course, suits and dresses.
Lisa also filled out her wardrobe, then we stopped at mom's salon and
made appointments for the next day. I was on a high that just never
seemed to quit. In just a few weeks, I had gone from skinny boy to a
very healthy girl, and I had no regrets. Surprises yes, regrets no.
All of the anguish that I had suffered from when mom first suggested
this to me disappeared the moment I saw myself that first time, which
is why I was able to drag myself outside to wash the car. Now that I
had all of the attributes of a real live girl, and could prove it, I
wasn't afraid of discovery. I was afraid of Bill. The way he looked at
me, touched me, held me, were all new, and my reaction to his attention
is what scared me. Mom told me no sex, but I never had any intention of
doing that. It was enough for me to know that I could. Yet, I also
wondered why, in such a short time, I had accepted, then went out of my
way to look as much like a girl as possible. Mom wasn't making me wear
that corsolet because I didn't really need it now. In the time I had
been wearing dresses, I had lost 15 pounds, most of it from my waist.
Between that, my special panty, and the breast forms, I had almost as
good a figure as Lisa or mom. The revelation within myself that I
really wanted to be a girl hit me like a sledgehammer, drawing most of
my strength as I had fought back. The Sunday I had wore my own clothes,
after I knew the feeling of true femininity was a pitiful attempt to
regain my masculinity, and I lost. All it took was for Lisa to ask me
to share a sisters night out.
As I put away the new clothes I found myself removing my boy stuff,
piling them on the floor to make room for my new wardrobe, the pile
growing as I realized that it would be a long time, if ever, that I
wore them again. I kept to myself that night, changing into a babydoll
nightgown for bed. As I slipped into bed I felt a lump under my pillow.
Reaching, my hand went around an item that felt familiar. Only Lisa
could have left it for me. It took me almost an hour before I
lubricated myself, then explored all of the options that panty gave me.
My eyes watered in joy as I discovered that I could feel every
movement, each vibration, and absorbed the feeling it gave me like a
sponge. When I woke the next morning I was no longer just a boy with a
few latex items and a desire, I was Katherine Elizabeth, an adult
woman, like any other I knew. Like my sister, I knew the joy of
penetration. It made me feel complete somehow.
I wore my cut off jeans and a top, no bra, my hair in a ponytail, and
gym shoes when I went to breakfast. I didn't even wear makeup since I
felt so complete without it. It wasn't meant to shock anyone, it was
how I felt about myself. Dad took one look at me, saw my breasts
clearly outlined in the thin top, and knew that I wasn't wearing a bra.
He choked on his toast while mom pointed her finger at me with one hand
while pointing at her boobs with the other.
"No mother. Dad has a right to know."
"Know?" dad asked, "Know what?"
"That I have breasts now."
"I can see that! Just how did you manage that little trick?"
"I spent a lot of your money, but it was worth it. I can pay you
back..."
"Katherine!" Mom sounded angry. "Go get properly dressed right this
minute!"
I went to my room, took my clothes off and did it right. I did my
makeup, brushed out my hair, the put on a skirt and blouse before I
went back to the kitchen. Dad looked at me, but didn't say anything.
Mom glowered at me while Lisa only giggled. Our appointments were
early, so Lisa, mom and I left dad to clean up.
"I thought we agreed that your father did not have to know Kathy! Why
on earth did you do that, knowing what I told you about being properly
dressed?"
"Because I am never going to be his son again, that's why! I had to let
him know...don't you understand?"
"After I saw you yesterday, I knew that you would never go back to
being a boy, but your father didn't know that! Now I have to find a way
to tell him, and he may not take it as well as you think!"
"I'll tell him myself mom."
"No, you won't. From now on you'll do as I tell you, or you'll be
grounded! Am I making myself clear?"
"Yeah, I got it mom."
"Good. Now lets go have a fun mother daughter day out then."
Mom was pissed, that much was clear, and I knew better than to try and
provoke her again. She would hand me my head on a platter and tell me
to clean up the mess, after I got grounded for life! But, I had made my
point, and that's all that mattered to me. For my first trip to a
beauty shop, I was treated like a queen. After a short discussion with
Lisa, I allowed myself to fall into the hands of a lady that did the
waxing, and I was soon denuded of every unwanted body hair! stylist.
Then my hair was washed, cut, rolled, dyed, brushed out and trimmed. My
nails were made longer with acrylics, then painted with a raspberry
metallic color, then my eyebrows were rimmed with wax as well, but in a
higher arch. Everything ached, but my skin was baby smooth, and after a
lotion was applied, the pain went away. Everything about me looked
different. Auburn hair instead of brown, curls where before there were
none, wispy bangs that flicked at my forehead, curls that caressed my
ears. My nails flashed in a darker color than I had ever used, making
my fingers look thinner and more feminine. I loved it!
Lisa had her had done in curls as I did, but kept her dark brown hair
color. Mom had the color put back in her hair, blond of course, then
done in the usual style. They both had their nails done as well. Lisa
wanted to find a new swimsuit for the summer, so when we left the
salon, we went to a big department store, then found the swimsuits.
Never having worn a girls swimsuit, I was not quite as willing to try
one on, but they both insisted, so I tried on one that was an ugly lime
green. We all hated it. When Lisa tried on a bikini, mom kind of wanted
to say no, but Lisa did look good in it, so she let her get it. That's
when Lisa handed me one that was exactly like hers, but a deep azure
blue. One look at mom, who shrugged her shoulders, and I went in the
booth to try it on. I didn't even have to ask them if they liked it. I
looked every bit as feminine in that suit as Lisa did in hers! But, I
stepped out, and let them see me. Lisa gave me the thumbs up while
mom's eyes went wide. We bought them both.
"Once your father sees you in that bikini he's going to know everything
Kathy, you know that don't you?"
"Sure mom, but I was trying to tell him this morning. Maybe this is a
better way."
"No," she said, "It's not, but he knows about the boobs now anyway, so
you might as well go all the way. We'll get this out in the open where
we can deal with it like adults."
By the time we got home Lisa and I were ready to change into our
bikini's and hit the pool, so when we got home, we scrambled to our
bedrooms and changed. I joined her, and we walked down the stairs
together. Dad was in the backyard when we walked out on the patio. We
all traded stares, then mom joined us in her suit. As Lisa and I sat on
loungers, dad walked up on the patio and looked directly at me.
"Stand up Katherine."
I did as he told me, stood proudly erect, making my boobs push out a
little more against the almost nothing bra cups.
He looked me over from head to toe, then flopped in a chair next to
mom. Before he could speak, mom did.
"Honey, Kathy has undergone a transformation, inside and out. She has
told us that she has no intention of ever going back to being a boy,
ever again. As you can see, she is quite lovely, and I can't see any
reason she should not be allowed to do this. She is almost 17, and
knows her own mind. I happen to agree with her decision."
Dad carefully looked me over, stopping at my boobs of course, but
longer when he looked at my groin. As thin as that suit was, the thin
slit that replaced my manhood was barely visible, and of course, I had
a figure just as good as Lisa's. My hair and nails completed my look.
There was no way that Dad could deny the obvious, and no matter what he
thought, he could see that I was serious. After an agonizing amount of
time, he flopped back in his chair, and waved his hand at me, as if to
say, "Whatever."
Lisa and I stayed out on the patio while mom and dad went in the house.
Lisa didn't say much for a while, then casually asked me if it was
good, and did I like it. I knew what she meant, and grinned at her. She
knew that I had tried her gift, and also, the answer to her question.
About half an hour later her boyfriend stopped by, and they moved to
the other side of the patio. I was ready to go change when Bill showed
up. One look at me was all it took to stop him cold in his tracks. I
casually stood up so he could see all of me, then waved him to the
lounger that Lisa had just vacated. He didn't say a word, so I asked
him if he wanted a soft drink. When I got up to walk in the kitchen, I
put a little sway in my walk, knowing he was watching my every move.
Now that I had the right "look", I was going after Bill. According to
Lisa, every girl should have a boyfriend, and I set my sights on Bill.
Knowing how close he came to kissing me before, I did not think it
would take much to get him...if I wanted him that is.
Bill and I talked, but his eyes kept wandering, which is when I knew
that he had lust in his heart. His grin said it all. That and the way
he kept touching me, on the leg, the tummy, the arm, and my back. Bill
just grinned, and I let him touch me. I felt as if I was about to take
another huge step, and Bill looked as if he wanted to help me. After an
hour or so, I went in to change. When I returned I had on a pair of
short shorts and a tee, new lipstick, and perfume. Bill and I went for
a short drive. He took me to "The Hill", a well known spot for
teenagers wanting to neck. Anxious, I waited for Bill to make his move,
and when he did, I let him take me to him, kiss me, hold me, and stroke
me. His touch ignited a fire inside of me, a strange fire that burned
not with shame, but anticipation as his tongue slid into my mouth. I
felt his hand on my breast and moved to make it easier for him to touch
me. Not having any reference point, I let my emotions run wild as Bill
kept kissing me. Only when he put my hand on him did I draw back. He
tried to coax me into it but I refused. My system was on overload at
that moment, and I was scared of what I might do.
He dropped me off at home, and when I went in, mom and dad were waiting
for me. Using a car mirror it's hard to fix yourself up, and I'm sure
they knew that Bill and I had spent some time exploring our options.
"Kathy," dad said, "I did not expect this to happen, and quite frankly,
I am surprised at how quickly you have decided to give up being a man.
However, it is painfully obvious that you are willing to do just that.
I cannot say that I am happy about this, but I cannot fight you. Your
mother tells me that in every respect you look like a girl, and I have
seen most of the proof of that already. Have you considered what you'll
do when school starts in the fall? You have your senior year to finish,
and I will not send you away to some private school for girls. That
said, and since you are determined to do this, I will help you all I
can, but in return, you will not be able to go back, even if the
situation seems to demand it. You want to be a woman...fine. I will
treat you like one, in every way, but that also includes your
attendance at your school, just as you are. We will change your name if
need be, and see to it that you have everything you need, but from this
moment on, you will be our daughter. Because of this, I have instructed
your mother to toss all of your boy stuff. If you would like to
redecorate your room you may do so. You will also have a curfew, the
same as Lisa had at your age, and there will be no more of that half
dressed, slut look stuff in my house. Do you understand all of that?"
"Yes sir. When can we change my name?"
"I'll see to it on Monday, now go get cleaned up."
I changed into a clean skirt and blouse, helped make dinner, then went
to my room to decide how I wanted it redone. Over the next two weeks I
saw Bill about three times a week, and each time we got closer to doing
something I had been told not to do. My name had been changed, and only
once did I feel as if I had to be my own self. But I no longer had any
male clothes, so I went during my lunch hour. I wore the pink suit. A
short straight skirt with an antique white blouse and a scalloped pink
jacket, white heels, my hair done perfectly and red lipstick. I walked
in, my heels clicking on the marble floors as I went into the office to
register for the coming school year. I was very lucky. The woman that
took care of me lived just down the street from us, and knew what was
going on. She entered me into the rolls without a hitch, changing the
name on my records as if it were the most normal thing in the world!
That hurdle done, I went back to work, confident of my future.
As the time to start school drew near, Lisa went off to college,
leaving me alone for the first time. Dad now had only me to watch, and
he was very diligent about it. I had not let Bill persuade me to submit
to him, although I had "helped" him with my hand. For some reason, I
never did get an erection of my own, but I was excited none the less.
Also just as school started, mom and I started looking for another
wedding dress. The first one would not fit me any more. I had dropped
one whole dress size along with the 25 pounds. We found one, I was
fitted, bought some better jewelry and shoes, another corsolet, white
with lace trim, white satin panties and hose to match. On the morning
of the party, mom and I went to the salon and I had my "wedding hair,"
done, as well my nails, and once again, a very thorough waxing.
Mom had to help me get dressed, lacing the corsolet of course, but
also, with the dress. No longer just a boy in a dress, I looked forward
tot he moment I would be able to see myself as a bride. I had a
36.24.36 figure with the corsolet on, and the dress flowed over me like
an ocean of white satin. I never felt quite a feminine as I did at that
moment. Mom was almost beside herself when we were done. Like most
mothers I suppose, she was giddy just knowing she was about to be the
mother of the bride. Dad, wearing a tuxedo, helped me down the stairs,
which is when I saw Lisa. She too wore wedding apparel. She was going
to be my Maid of Honor!
As I stood there with my family I realized just how much they had to
love me to let me make this change. My father, tall and strong,
handsome is ways that I would never have been, my mother, eager to help
me once I started becoming Katherine every day, Lisa, my sister, the
one I feared the most, now my best friend. I almost cried, but Lisa
saved me. Then dad escorted me to the car. Some, but not all of my
friends knew of the change, even in school. I was just another new face
they saw for three hours a day. I knew that the minute I walked into
the clubhouse on the arm of my father, everyone would know, yet I did
not care any more. I had grown inside, and no longer tolerated small
minds, and that gave me the strength I needed.
With dad holding my arm, we walked inside, only to be met by Bill, his
parents, and others. Bill was grinning like he just won the lottery,
and reached out to take my hand. Mom however stopped him, and his dad
dragged him towards the front of the hall. Then the music started. It
was a wedding march! Mom walked to the front, then Lisa, and finally,
dad and I made the trip. When we reached the front of the room, the
club President announced that being a bride was my costume, then gave
my real name! Bill took my arm, turned me to face the crowd, and they
all stood up and applauded! Then we joined everyone at the table. The
conversation was lively, the other costumes went from bizarre to bland,
in a steady stream that lasted almost two hours. Then the real music
started, and Bill asked me to dance. As I stood up, Lisa removed the
train of my dress, and I joined Bill as he swept me into his arms and
we glided away from our parents. In his tuxedo, Bill looked just
wonderful, and with his arms around me I felt safe, secure, knowing
that maybe someday, I would be a real bride.
I won the big prize, which mom kept for me. Bill drove me home where I
changed into something a lot less flowing, then he and I went back to
"the hill". Bill showed me that he loved me, and I accepted his love
without shame. He was all man that night, and I was all woman.