Compelled
Janet L. Stickney
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My best friend and I had known each other from grade school onward, but
I kept one secret from him. I kept it from everyone as a matter of fact.
I had been dressing in my sisters clothes since I was just a kid. Only
twice, when I got really careless, had I been discovered all dressed up.
Once by my Mom, and once by my sister. Both times they scolded me and I
quickly changed clothes. Now that I am 17, there is no doubt that I
understand that boys do not dress as girls, or at least, they're not
supposed to, and if they do, they are not supposed to like it. But I do
like it, and yes, I still dress up once in a while. I am only telling
you all this so that you'll understand what happened. Everyone was away,
Beth was in college by then, so I took the chance, and went all the way.
By that I mean I shaved all the hair off my body and dressed from the
skin out as a girl. My hair was long enough for me to use a blow dryer
to create a passable feminine hairdo, I used fake nails painted red and
wore one of Beth's short dresses. I was in heaven when I looked in the
mirror.
I had no idea why I felt I had to dress as a girl, I just did, and it
was one of the rare occasions I was able to do it. I looked in the
mirror, turning this way and that, admired my long silky smooth legs,
the quick sexy smile outlined in bright red, and the way the heels hiked
my butt up. In my reverie I did not hear the door open, but I heard the
result.
"Holy Cow! Larry? Is that you? Why are you dressed as a girl? Damn! You
look pretty good!"
It was my best friend Jim, and he had seen me in all my glory. He and I
had been barging into each others rooms since we started school
together, and of course, he knew where the spare key was hidden. He
knocked, I didn't answer, so he came in anyway, just like always, and
there I was, all dressed up. There was nowhere to hide, no place to go,
and there was no hole in the floor for me to sink into. We locked stares
for a moment. I had never before been so humiliated in my entire life,
but there was nothing I could do about it, not a thing. He knew me well
enough to know that I can't sing or dance, I was not being initiated
into any group, and I wasn't being punished. That left only one thing. I
was dressed this way because I wanted to be dressed this way. I started
to say something, then,
"You know, with just a little of the right kind of help, you would be
one hot chick!" Jim was grinning.
"What!"
"You heard me Larry, or is it Laura? You would look pretty good if
someone that knew what they were doing helped you. I mean, with your
hair and all."
"Get out of here and let me change!"
"No chance good buddy. We both have a problem, and I just found an
answer! And, we'll both get what we want."
I slumped into the chair at my desk and stared at him. I knew exactly
what he was talking about. In about two months he was going to join a
fraternal organization, and he and the others would be introduced when
they held their local ball. So of course, he had to bring a date. But he
was never big on dating. Girls scared him I think. His mother scared him
too, but I don't know why. She is a very tiny woman, maybe almost 5 foot
at best, and can't weigh more than a hundred pounds. Jim is tall, well
over six foot, muscular with an impish grin, dark brown hair and quick
brown eyes. He was in fact, most girls wet dream come to life. But Jim
had always been shy around girls, and never went out with one more than
twice. As for me, I am 5'7" at best, modestly built, with blond hair and
blue eyes. People always wondered how we ended up best friends, but we
had known each other for a very long time. He just got bigger, that's
all.
I knew what he was going to say, but asked him anyway. "And just what
would that be?"
"Why not be my date for the ball? You know how I am around girls. This
way, you get to go out, all fixed up, and I get a date I have known
forever!"
I momentarily thought about denying that I liked to dress this way, but
Jim had to know better. If it was just a goof, I would not have done my
nails, shaved my body or tried to manage a hair style. For the life of
me, I just could not find any kind of excuse that would get me out of
this mess. I only had one choice.
"Even if I did agree to a scheme as crazy as that, just what would I
tell my parents? I can just hear it now. --Mom, dad, Jim asked me to be
his date for the big ball, and I need a new gown, my nails and hair done
of course, and oh, and don't forget, new shoes.-- My dad would be
shocked at best, while mom would laugh until she fell down."
"Yea, maybe, if you said it like that. But if you told them it was for
my induction, they might take it better. After all, didn't your dad tell
us he had to dress as a girl for three weeks when he joined his
fraternity? He would understand that. What do you say? Want to be my
date?"
Jim had read the situation perfectly, then come up with a way for me to
go out dressed and solve his problem at the same time, and during it
all, he looked relaxed and actually smiled at me. He gave me no sign
that he didn't like what I was doing, or that he thought I was nuts. It
was an intriguing plan, and on the face of it, as ludicrous as it
sounded, might actually work. I told him I would think about it, then
tossed him out so I could change. Jim had ruined my plans, I had
intended to stay dressed all day, but I just couldn't, what with Jim
there. It took me about an hour to return to my usual self. Going out as
Jim's date sounds easy, and maybe looking like a girl isn't going to be
so hard, it's all that other stuff, like mannerisms, voice, stuff that
would give me away in a hot minute if I screwed up. It would put a huge
strain on my concentration, and I was torn between my desire to leave
the house, even once, as a girl, and not getting caught at it. I could
imagine what would happen to me, but Jim? They would crucify him. Then
there is that small item of telling my parents. The question would be,
"How did Jim know I liked to dress as a girl?"
Jim and I hung around together for the rest of the day, and thankfully,
he only mentioned it once. We were at the mall, passing a dress shop
when he pointed at the dress in the window, then told me I would look
great in that dress. He was probably right, but I wasn't in the mood to
talk about it. That night my folks came home, assumed all was well, and
we all went to bed. The next day after school however, my life took a
hard turn into the unknown.
"Larry, can I talk to you a moment?"
"Sure mom, what?"
"Jimmy's mother called me today, and asked me a very strange question.
She wanted to know if it was true that you were going to be Jimmy's date
for the Induction Ball!"
"What?" I said, stalling for time. What I got was that sharp eyed look
from my mother. The one you get when she is demanding something. With a
sigh, I told her that Jim thought I would look nice as a girl, and he
asked me to be his date. She knew about his phobia about girls, and
quickly understood why he asked me. I did not tell her he had seen me
dressed, because that would mean I would have to admit that I still
dressed up. I didn't think mom knew. I told her that Jim mentioned what
dad had said about his three weeks as a girl, and that he figured I
could do it too.
"Well, I suppose, given all the practice you've had that it would be
possible. What did you tell Jimmy?"
"I said he was crazy."
"Maybe he isn't. Did he see you the other day when you were dressed up?"
Damn it! How does she do that? I didn't say anything that would neither
confirm or deny what she said.
"You have two more days of school before the Spring break. Why don't you
and I spend some of those two weeks and see how you look as a girl? I'll
help you, then, after that, if you tell Jimmy no, we'll quit. But, if we
do quit, I want you to stop playing dress up. If you say yes, then, like
I said, I'll help you. You're probably just as pretty as Beth, maybe
even better looking. Think about it and let me know tomorrow.
Jim and his big mouth had really put me in it, but I wasn't mad at him.
Since the moment mom had made her proposal, it was all I could think
about. Having her help me would be a great, and of course, dad wouldn't
be able to say much about it, given the circumstances, mom's help, and
his prior experiences. It was really a no brainer, since of course I was
going to say yes. I think mom knew it too, and she confirmed that on my
last day of school when she told me to come straight home. Since classes
let out at 10, she and I would have all day. Needless to say, I didn't
mention it to Jim, just in case it all went in the dumper in a hurry or
I looked as bad as I usually do.
I walked in the door, saw mom waiting for me, and followed her to my
room, where for the first time since I was a child she had me undress
with her in the room. I got to my briefs and quit, but it was obvious to
her that my skin was clean shaven, smooth and hairless.
"Go take a shower, shave and wash your hair, then put these on and come
to my room."
I did what mom told me to do, plus, I touched up the few spots I had
missed the other day, like under my arms. My face was smooth, my skin
squeaky clean and my hair limp from the lotion. I pulled the panties on,
noticing that they were new, wrapped the robe around myself and went to
mom's room. She was waiting, her roller kit and several brushes nearby.
I sat when she motioned, then she began to put my hair in rollers, using
a gel, making the rollers tight on my head. It didn't take her long,
then she waved her hand at the cosmetics on the counter. I looked at her
for a moment, then got up, went to my own room and got my own
foundation. Mom and Beth both used a color that was to light for me. Mom
didn't say a word until I began to apply it to my face.
"Just dab it on then use two fingers to pull it out evenly. Your not
painting a house, and thickness counts against you. Just make it light,
just enough to cover your face."
I did what she told me, and even mentioned that I had tried this before,
but she insisted, then she had me do something new. She handed me a puff
full of some kind of powder and told me to pat it on wherever I used
foundation. When I was done I had to wait for a few minutes, then, after
brushing away the excess, my skin seemed to be all one color and there
was no sign of my light beard! After that she showed me how to do
eyeshadow. I thought I knew how, but the way mom did it was easier and
made my eyes look ten times better. Black eyeliner, then a black pencil
to outline under my eyes, peach blusher, and mascara. Then, with the
rollers still in my hair, she watched as I put on the bra she had on the
bed, then pantyhose. She had the slip in her hand but I stopped her
again, went to my room, and retrieved my foam pads and birdseed breast
forms. I slipped the breast forms in the bra, then used the foam pads to
make my hips rounder. She watched as I slipped them under the panties,
then I put the slip over my head and yanked it down.
After that, mom surprised me by handing me the same short dress I had on
when Jim caught me. I slipped it on, mom zipped it up and I stepped into
the shoes I had brought with me when I got the pads. They were my only
pair. I looked in the mirror and saw a girl with a head full of rollers!
Kind of like my girl, but better, prettier than I had ever managed. As
if the rough edges had been sanded smooth. I did not have long to look
as mom sat me at the vanity and began to take the rollers out, then
brush my hair out. With just a few strokes she had created a very
feminine hair style that was curly yet full, bangs touched my eyebrows,
my ears just visible. Without a word mom took out my own earrings,
replacing them with simple red and black earrings. Around my neck went a
gold necklace that had a red and black pendant. I heard rather than saw
the spritzer, but smelled the perfume right away.
"Do your lips then join me in the kitchen, and bring your nail kit."
How does she do that?! How did she know that I had a nail kit?! I took
the lipstick from her, saw that enigmatic little smile she has, then did
my lips, went into my room, and dug out my nail kit from under the bed.
I had exactly one set of nails left, and no more tape, just the glue. I
looked in the mirror once again, and was still amazed at how mom, with
so little effort, had done so much better than I had. It just had to be
something girls are born with I guess. I couldn't do it, at least not by
myself anyway. I told mom I didn't have any more tapes, so she told me
to go ahead and use the glue, she knew how to dissolve it when I needed
to take the nails off. One by one I fitted the nails, trimming them to
fit first, then used the glue to attach them to my fingers. The polish I
had was a soft plum color that mom said was very nice, then she watched
as I painted each nail with two coats of polish. Mom never said a word
the whole time I was doing my nails and I ached to ask her a bunch of
questions, like how come she always knows everything? I didn't. I just
did what she told me to do.
"Now that we have you all dressed up, lets look in the mirror and see
what kind of girl we have created."
Mom and stood side by side in front of the hall mirror. The change was
dramatic. Before, when I tried this myself, the best I could ever do was
sooth my desire to dress up. Now there was a girl staring back at me
from the mirror. Not a boy in a dress, but a girl with well done hair,
her makeup wonderful, wide eyes with an impish grin, breasts that were
not to big or small, and long silky legs in high heels. I was
overwhelmed to the point of silence.
"What do you call yourself?"
"Laura". It slipped out without a thought. It was the name Jim gave me.
In the past I had always thought of myself as Linda, but somehow, Laura
felt as if it were the right name.
"Laura! What a lovely name! Now tell me, have you ever left the house
dressed as a girl?"
"Hel, sorry mom, no. I never looked good enough."
"What about now? Do you look good enough to go out now?"
"Well, I..."
"I'll get you a purse. I think I have an old wallet around here
someplace. I'll get those, you transfer your things into it, and we'll
go for a ride, just to see how you do. Wait here."
Within a few minutes mom returned, handed me the purse, an old wallet of
hers, and my own wallet, plus the lipstick and some tissue. I moved
everything, then mom walked to the back door, held it open, and waited
for me to gather the courage to actually go outside. It took a few
moments, but I finally stepped outside. The sun was bright, the air warm
and I was scared to death. Mom and I got in the car, then she drove out
of our neighborhood and started for the expressway. I knew where we were
going the minute she got on the expressway. Dad's office. There wasn't
anything I could do to stop her, and yet, in a way, I didn't mind at
all. If dad doesn't burst out laughing, then maybe I have at least some
chance to pull this off. I knew as well as mom did that after we both
saw my reflection in the hall mirror that I was going to be Jim's date
for the ball. All I had to do was become the perfect girl in every way.
Making me look like a girl was the easy part. Getting over my fear of
discovery and letting dad see me this way were going to be the hardest
things for me to do.
"I didn't tell your father we were stopping by, so this is going to be a
surprise. Just act natural and you'll be fine."
"Natural? Mom, you have no idea how hard this is going to be!"
"Oh, I think I do. But this has to be what you wanted or else you would
have quit this dressing up long ago. And now that we both know just how
pretty you are, there is no reason for you to be afraid. Watch how you
walk and so on, smile a lot, and pretty soon it will all become natural.
Okay?"
"I'll try mom. I don't have much choice do I?"
"Of course you have a choice! I'll take you home right now and you can
change, but if you do, this is the end of it. No more dressing up. Is
that what you want? Or would you like to do this, just to see if you
can?"
If I said to take me home, mom would see to it that I would never be
able to try this again. But if I said I would try it, then she would
know, because by saying yes I would confirm it, that I liked dressing as
a girl so much that I was willing to risk everything by going out in
public this way. She watched the road while I paused before I slowly
nodded my head yes. Now there was no doubt in any ones mind. I wanted to
be a girl.
"Now that we have that settled let's not dwell on anything but making
you into a proper young lady. We will be at your fathers office in time
for lunch, so we'll make him take us to lunch. That way he will be able
to see for himself just how nice looking you are."
"That'll be great mother."
"I knew you would agree."
My mother can ignore almost anything, and my sarcasm was one that she
ignored on a regular basis. She parked the car as I looked at the tall,
gleaming office building where dad worked. Forty floors of polish glass
and bright aluminum glinted in the sunlight. I would have to walk in,
cross the foyer, then go up 38 floors in an elevator. Anyone could get
on. Mom did not hesitate. She began to cross the parking lot, stopping
only once to look at me as I lagged behind her. Rather than have to face
all those people alone, I caught up with her just as she opened the door
to the building. The lobby was crowded with people, but they went about
their business and we made it to the elevators without incident. The
ride up however was interesting. On the sixth floor a guy about my age
got on, and he kept his eyes locked on me all the way to 22 where he got
off. Mom merely snickered. When we reached our floor my stomach began to
do a series of flip flops, but I followed mom into the office, then to
dad's private office.
"Hello Heather, is he available?"
My dad's receptionist smiled at mom and I, then called dad before she
let us into his office. Mom went in first, then I stepped inside and
Heather shut the door. Dad smiled at mom, then, when he looked at me,
his eyes narrowed before he smiled again. I was dead. I just knew it.
"Hi Mary. Who is this?" The pleasant lilt in his voice gave away
nothing.
""This is Laura. Jimmy asked her to be his date for the Induction Ball,
and we thought that you should meet her since she will be staying with
us for a while."
That's when dad figured it out. I knew that by the way his eyes bugged
out.
"I see. Care to tell me why are you doing this for Jim? I mean, dressing
as a girl? Are you sure about this? Do you know how hard that's going to
be? And why did he ask you to do this? How would he know that you would
even consider it?"
Mom saved the day for me. "Laura has been with us for a very long time
dear. I knew about her, and that was enough. You didn't need to know, so
we didn't tell you. Jimmy has been her friend almost since birth, which
is why he knew that Laura might be available to do this for him. All we
are here for today is to let you meet her, and take us to lunch."
"What if I say no to this nonsense?"
"Then I will remind you that you spent several weeks as a girl, and it
didn't seem to have hurt you any. As a matter of fact, I recall you
telling me that you kind of liked the way the clothes felt, all that
nylon and satin I mean. Laura likes it to, and I have agreed that she
can stay for a while. Now lets go. I'm hungry!"
Mom had neatly set dad back when she mentioned that even he liked to
wear satin once in a while. It was clear that he was uncomfortable with
me dressed as a girl, but he grudgingly accepted it. I knew that when he
took my arm as we walked out of his office, and told Heather, "I'm
taking Mary and our daughter to lunch. I'll be about an hour." Daughter.
He referred to me as his daughter, which I thought was great, until I
realized that there was no other way. For him to say I was his son would
cause him ridicule. So much for that. Lunch was pleasant, however, dad
had a lot of questions for me, which I answered, everyone. When he asked
me how long this had been going on, I glanced at mom, drew in a deep
breath, and told him "since I was little. Maybe 5 or 6 I guess." That's
when he laid down the law.
" I guess, since you say that you have been doing this for this long
that I can let you do this, but as soon as Jimmy is inducted, you're
back in pants. Are we clear on that?"
"Yes sir, it's clear sir."
"Okay then. You're mother will help you get whatever it is that you
need, within reason of course. Two weeks as a girl isn't that long, so I
suppose that we can all get through this alright."
"Honey" mom said, "two weeks is all she has off for Spring break. The
induction is a few weeks after that, so she will be with us for at least
three weeks, maybe a month."
"But what about school!? She can't miss that much school!"
Already dad was referring to me as "her". It was a good sign.
"Laura" mom said, "can join Co-op. That way she will get all of her
school work by e-mail, which is how it will be turned in. That way she
can remain with us until this is all over."
"But to join Co-op, she needs to have a job!"
"Don't you do the hiring?"
Dad was clearly at a loss. If he hired me into the Co-op program, then
he would be responsible for me, and it would be hard for him to simply
fire me so I could go back to school as Larry. He would have to explain
to his bosses why he hired such an incompetent in the first place, and
that would reflect on his managerial abilities. But mom had pushed him
into a corner. His only way out was to either agree, or send me home to
change.
"But that would mean at least three months!"
"Well, maybe, but then it would be over, wouldn't it? I mean, Laura will
have graduated by then and it won't matter will it?"
Dad looked at me with those steely gray eyes of his, then, with a shrug
of his shoulders agreed to let me continue for as long as it took. But
what mom had done was make it so that the deadline was flexible. I
could, no, make that would, become Laura for at least a month, more if I
continued until school let out, just to maintain the legitimacy of dad's
hiring practices. He pulled himself upright, then told me that I had
until school started to get ready, because I would be working for his
company starting on the third Monday, as a girl, no matter how I looked.
It wasn't what I wanted, but it was better than having him make me quit
altogether, so I nodded my head in agreement. Mom and I left dad to pay
the bill, found the car, then, on the way home, she asked me what I was
using for breast forms. I told reminded her that she saw them. My
birdseed filled nylon boobs, and that made her laugh.
When we got home she told me to touch up my lipstick, then to call
Jimmy. She said it would be better for everyone if he saw me now and
wasn't surprised later. I made the call, got his mother, who recognizing
my voice, told me he was in the shower, and I should come over to their
house. I told mom I was leaving, grabbed my purse, and left by the back
door. I walked along the path to his house, then rang the bell. When his
mother opened the door she looked surprised, but she's quick, and
figured out who I was.
"Come in my dear. You must be Laura! Did you know that you're all Jimmy
has talked about since he met you? Now I can see why! You're very pretty
my dear. Come join me for a soft drink while the big guy cleans up."
It wasn't the reaction I had been expecting, but accepted her offer of a
soft drink and joined her on the patio.
"Jimmy tells me that you are going to be his date at the Induction Ball.
Are you comfortable with that?"
"To tell you the truth, no. But mom says I'll calm down in a few days,
when the novelty of dressing as a girl every day wears off."
"Maybe it will wear off, but I doubt that. I knew a boy like you when we
were in high school. He even went so far as to show up in school dressed
as a girl. They made him change clothes, but nobody ever saw him before
or after school in anything but a skirt or dress. I think he went on to
become a woman. He had the surgery, I'm sure of it. For you to be here
like this tells me that you love it a lot more than you're willing to
admit, which is why the thrill of it won't wear off easily."
I wanted to think that she was right. I didn't want the thrill to go
away, just the fear that always hung around my head like a cloud. We
talked a bit more, then Jim showed up. He wore his shortest shorts, a
muscle Tee and his sneakers. From a girls prospective, he was a real
hunk. I knew that if I were with Jim, there wasn't very many people that
would try to hurt me.
"Hi..."
"Jim" his mother said, "you recognize Laura don't you?"
"Almost. The last time I saw her she didn't look half this good!"
He sat down next to me, smiling, his eyes never leaving my face.
"I told you that with a little help you would look spectacular, and I
was right!"
"That's because you're so tall that you're looking right over my head.
The person you're looking at is your mother you dummy."
"Oh, she's beautiful too, but a little old for me. You on the other hand
are just right!"
"Thanks Jim, I think."
"I'll leave you kids alone. Just stay on the ground floor Jimmy."
His mother left us alone, and left me wondering why she told us to stay
downstairs, then I realized what it was. Boy and girl, alone in a room
equals trouble. But I wasn't a girl, so just how much trouble could I
get into? That's what I said to myself when I felt Jim's hand on my leg,
then the gentle squeeze. I quickly moved across from him, but not
without seeing the grin on his face.
"Did you tell your dad yet Laura?"
"Mom and I had lunch with him, and as it turns out, I'll be working for
him in Co-op, as Laura, at least until the end of the year."
"That's a switch! How did you manage that?"
"Mom said I would have all Spring break to be Laura, but your Induction
Ball is a few weeks after that, and rather than change back and forth,
she maneuvered dad into hiring me, and that means that he can't just
fire me. So it looks like I'll become Laura until school lets out
anyway."
"Did your mom tell you why she did that? I mean, she already has a
daughter, so there's no real reason for her to push it, is there?"
"She didn't say and I didn't ask."
Jim had asked a very good question. Why was mom letting me do this? I
had expected her to laugh her head off, get angry, something like that,
but not actually help me. Then, when mom stepped in and make it possible
for me to remain this way for a few months, she really threw me. I had
accepted it, but Jim had raised a very good point. About four I went
home. Dad was there, but he didn't say anything but hi, and I went in to
help mom make dinner.
Dinner was uneventful, and after the dishes were done I went to my room
to change. I was washing my face when mom came in and left as nightgown
on the bed. It was one of my sister's short ones, a two piece set. I
asked her to stay, then went in the bath and slipped on the very thin
panties, then the top, wrapped a robe around myself and sat on the bed.
I had to know why mom was leading the charge so to speak. Why had she
made it possible for me to remain as a girl?
"Mom, why are you doing this? I'll admit that I like to dress up once in
a while, but never in my wildest dreams did I expect you to set it up
like you did. Jim and I both want to know. I mean, this isn't like you
at all."
Her face never changed as she looked at me, and I wondered if I had hit
a nerve. I watched as she sat in my chair, drew herself upright, take a
deep breath, then she told me.
"Your Aunt Jennifer is like you honey. She used to be my brother Jeff.
All her life she would wear my stuff, got caught a lot, and suffered
when your Grandpa tried to beat it out of him. When she was 18 she moved
away, and we didn't see her for almost three years. When she did come
home, she was a woman, just like she should have been in the first
place."
"Aunt Jenny used to be a man!?"
"That all happened before you were born, and there was no reason to tell
anyone, especially you kids. After she got married to your Uncle Bob,
they adopted your cousins. They do not know either, so I want you to
keep that to yourself. When I told her about your dressing up, she and I
talked about it for hours. When you were little it didn't matter. Now
that you are almost grown up it does matter, a lot. She has convinced me
that if this is the road for you, then you should have the chance to
experience being a female and all of the ups and downs that entails. If
it isn't for you, well, after school lets out you can return to being
yourself and nobody will be the wiser. All I have done is give you about
four months to be a girl. After that you can decide. But for now, your
father and I are willing to let you explore this facet of yourself, with
some restrictions of course. You will have to live by the same rules
that Beth had to live with, the same types of chores, and also, the same
curfew. We are not going to tell you what to wear since girls your age
wear almost everything, but for the first month you must wear a skirt,
or dress, once in a while shorts, and that's it. No slacks or jeans. Any
questions?"
Of course I had some questions, but I was so shocked at what mom had
told me I just forgot them! My Aunt Jennifer is a real knockout, and
there isn't even the tiniest thing about her that remotely suggests that
she was ever a male! Nice boobs, wears about a size nine or ten, she
even sounds like a woman! And Uncle Bob? What about him? Does he know
the truth? Then there were my cousins, Kelly and Megan. They are ten and
twelve now, and they always look real nice since Aunt Jennifer insists
on it. Mom just sat there while I digested all of what she told me,
then...
"You are wondering about your Uncle Bob. He knows, he always has, but
Jenny captured his heart and the two of them never looked back when they
started going together. Laura, honey, if you decide to remain a girl it
will not change our feelings towards you, and if you meet someone that
loves you more than life itself, grab him and make him yours, but never
lie to him. Love him, care for him, and let him love you back. That is
more important than anything else I can tell you. If you want to talk to
Jenny, go over there in the morning and talk to her, but expect brutal
honesty. She isn't going to hold anything back from you, and you should
be honest with her. Okay?"
"Okay mom. Thanks. I'll see her in the morning."
"I'll call in the morning and let her know."
In the morning I got up early and took a shower, shaved as close as
possible, then got dressed. I decided to wear a skirt and blouse with my
tennies, fairly plain makeup and jewelry. It took me about 45 minutes to
get ready, and as I looked in the mirror I was very happy with how I
looked. Foundation and powder, brown eyeliner with very light plum eye
shadow, peach blusher and plum lipstick. The skirt was navy, short and
pleated, one of Beth's best ones. The blouse was a simple white top. Mom
and I had breakfast with dad, who didn't say a word, then, after he left
mom gave me the keys to her car. It was my first time driving as Laura,
but the only thing that was different was the feel of ice cold leather
on my almost naked thighs.
I pulled in the driveway and saw Aunt Jenny walk out on the porch to
greet me. I got out, and she saw me for the first time. We said hi, then
she took me by the hand out to her patio where she had a carafe of
coffee and some cups.
"I didn't recognize you Laura! If Mary hadn't called me I would not have
known! You look spectacular!"
"Thanks. Mom told me last night, and said that I should talk to you."
"Yes, I know. What I have to say isn't that complicated Laura. I knew
from a very young age that I was a girl, and spent over twenty years to
make that true. If what your Mom tells me is true, then you are about to
walk that same path, with this exception. You have a family that is
willing to listen. I didn't have that. You also have me. Being a woman
is not about what's on the outside honey. If you know that you were
meant to be a woman, then all you do is adjust the outside to match the
inside. That's easy. What is harder is admitting to someone that you
want to make a change in your life that is as severe as this one.
Telling someone you love that you are not what they think you are can be
dangerous, and unless you are honest with them almost from the
beginning, well, that can turn ugly as well. Take Bob for example. It
took me three dates before I told him, and he quit calling me. In the
end I called him. Since then we have cleared the air and now we have a
wonderful family. Do you have someone?"
The question caught me off guard, but Jim's face popped into my mind.
"Well, not really, but my friend Jim asked me to be his date for a big
Induction Ball he has to attend, and he put his hand on my leg the other
day. He hasn't tried to kiss me or anything like that though."
Jenny smiled at that, put her hand over mine and squeezed.
"It's the first sign honey. Your friend Jim is attracted to you or he
would not have asked you out!"
"Not really" I said, and told her why he asked me, Jim's shyness and
all. I told her how Jim found out about me, which is why he asked me to
be his date. When I was done she did not respond except to ask me what I
used for boobs and hips! I told her, which made her laugh, then she told
me she had done the exact same thing!
"While I was waiting for the hormones to kick in and create my boobs for
me, I bought a pair of very realistic breast forms. I wore them for
months before I began to develop. I have them packed away in the
basement somewhere if you want them. I also have a special kind of
padded panty you can have, if I can find it. Care to help me look?"
It took us about an hour to find the items she mentioned, still in the
original boxes. Jenny was watching my face when I opened the first of
the boxes that held the breast forms, grinning as I drew in my breath.
It looked absolutely real!
"Want to try them on? They should be your size, they're a full A cup.
Take off your top and let me help you."
Jenny slipped one into each cup of my bra, and when I felt them weight
of them I began to grin. Then she showed me the adhesive, which had been
tightly sealed long ago. She shook the bottle and told me it was still
good, but I should wait and have mom help me attach them. The panty was
indeed special. If I had it on it would look as if I were a real girl!
"It's non functional except that you can pee while wearing it. I
understand the newer ones will allow a person to have sex, but you're
way to young for that right now so it doesn't matter."
I didn't put it on, but took the box with me as we went back out on the
patio. Aunt Jenny was adamant that I be true to myself and not to be
deterred by people that would never understand, and also, to become as
feminine as possible, including the way I speak. She told me to sing
along with girl singers, and try to hit their notes if I could. She also
told me to pay close attention to the way I use my hands, sit, walk and
so on. Then she demonstrated what I had done all morning, and the way a
girl would do it. It was very revealing, especially when she told me
that she could take the average guy and make him look like a knock out
girl, but she couldn't make him act like a girl if he didn't want it.
She and I spent almost two hours out on the patio. The entire time was
spent simply teaching me how to walk, roll my hips and hold my arms in a
manner that was comfortable as well as looked feminine. It was harder
than I thought. Becoming a girl was starting to become hard work!
I went home at one, promising her that I would practice as often as I
could. I also told her I was going to use the adhesive to fix both
breast forms as well as the panty in place. "I know" was all she said,
but we both knew that I wanted this more than I was saying. When mom saw
me she wanted all the details, and unable to contain myself, I told her
about the panty and the breast forms. I also told her I was on my way to
my room to glue them on. She wasn't having any of that, and insisted
that she help me. It took about half an hour to get me all fixed up, but
in the end it was worth it. Standing there naked in front of the mirror
stood a girl from head to toe. Mom shook her head, but didn't say much
except that it was now time for me to get my own bras and panties plus a
few clothes of my own. About twenty minutes later she and I left for the
mall.
"Now that you have all the right parts, it's time for you to experience
buying your own bras, and making sure they fit. That's important since
wearing one 18 hours a day or more can make your shoulders ache if they
don't fit properly."
What came next was a fitting by a professional, then selecting three
bras that met with mom's okay. Panties and pantyhose, two skirts and two
dresses plus two pair of shoes were added to the pile, mom paid the
bill, and we went home. With every step I could feel the tug of my
breasts against the shoulder straps, and quickly understood what mom
meant. But I loved it. The bounce, the tug on my chest, and tightness of
the bra made me feel very feminine right then. On the way out mom told
me that on Saturday morning she and I were headed back to the salon. She
was going to have my upper lip, eyebrows, arms and legs waxed.
"It will be painful to be sure, but you should have this done if you
intend to remain as a girl. And given that the glue we used on you lasts
two months, we might as well do it now as later. Don't shave anything
but your face from now until then Laura. It'll make it easier for
everyone."
As soon as we got home I tried on one of the new dresses, and had just
zipped it up when mom told me Jim was there. The dress I had on has two
straps to hold it up, my budding cleavage just visible, the hem at mid
thigh on me. I put on new lipstick, a dash of perfume, and went down the
stairs, turning at the bottom fast enough to cause my skirt to flare out
and let Jim see my panties. Mom gave me a dirty look, but my eyes were
on Jim and his reaction when he saw me. His eyes lit up and a grin split
his face.
"Hi!"
"Hi Laura. Listen, I was going to walk over to the park and wondered if
you might want to come along. You don't have to if you don't..."
"I'd like that" I said, and opened the front door. Without a word Jim
took my hand in his and we left the house. I let him take my hand
because we both wanted it. I needed Jim to help me understand myself,
and he needed me to be his...girlfriend, maybe. I had no idea if he was
even attracted to me. We got to the park, walked around for a bit, then
went on the swings. I was on the swing when I felt him push me. My skirt
flared up again but my knees were locked together and he was behind me.
Then I felt his hand on my butt as he pushed me really high. I went up,
then down and back up. He moved in front of me, jerked the swing to a
stop, and I fell into his arms. All at once his lips were on mine, then
I unconsciously opened my mouth, and my arms were around his neck.
Swapping spit its called, and he seemed to be really good at it. His
hand held me close as he kissed me, and I could feel a strange hardness
on my leg! I had Jim on fire! I broke away.
"We shouldn't be doing that Jim."
"What's the problem? Me boy, you girl!"
"Listen Tarzan" I said as I moved away, "You boy, yes. Me girl, no. Me
boy also!"
"You look like very sexy girl to me" he said as he grabbed my hand and
yanked me close to him. "You no boy. You girl that turns Tarzan on like
a light bulb!"
"That's very nice, but..."
His lips on mine silenced me, and on the inside I loved the attention,
but I was worried. Not worried enough to quit, just worried that I had
gotten more than I bargained for. Becoming a girl in my dreams did not
include Jim, yet here I was. I ran away, then began to walk back home.
He caught up with me, walking me home. At my door, all he said was, "You
girl now. Me your Tarzan." I went in while Jim went home. The minute I
walked in the house I heard a squeal. That could only be Beth. I turned
to face her, smiling my best smile.
"Holy Cow! You look great!"
"Beth, this is Laura. She's the one that's been raiding your closet all
those years."
Beth looked me over, saw my boobs, hips, and asked the obvious question,
which was more a statement. "You got tits!"
"Beth, I look just like you do."
"Huh?"
"What Laura means" mom said, "is that she could join you in the shower
with all of the other girls and nobody would ever know that she is not a
girl."
"What! You have a, I mean, you could..."
I nodded my head yes and went to the mirror. I didn't have any lipstick
on now. Jim took it all. Mom didn't explain a thing and I went to my
room to touch up my lipstick. Beth was right on my heels, insisting that
I show her. To jerk her chain a bit, I told her we could play show me.
Beth didn't hesitate. Her skirt hit the floor with her blouse right
after that, so I unzipped the dress and pulled it off. Now we were back
to even. Her bra came loose and as she dangled it in front of me, I saw
my sisters breasts for the first time. She had what the guys would call
a nice rack. I unhooked my bra and held it out so she could see. That
made her suck in her breath a bit, then she used her thumbs to yank down
her pantyhose and panties with a single jerk, and not to be out done, I
did the same thing. We stood looking at each other for a moment before
we both started laughing. As we got dressed Beth told me she always knew
that I would end up as a girl, then she wanted to know all about Jim,
especially if he was a good kisser.
As we got dressed I told her everything, and she gave me free run of her
closet. She was only going to be home for a few days, then she had to go
back to the school. She also told me she was thinking of joining the
Navy, but she asked me to keep that secret for now. Beth and I bonded
like we never had before, and I felt as if a great weight had been
lifted from my shoulders. I'm not sure why I felt that way, but Beth and
I both felt as if we had been sisters all along. I could tell by the
look on her face. As her "little sister", she told me she was determined
to make sure I turned out a real lady. We both touched up our makeup,
then went down to help mom in the kitchen.
Dad was elated to see Beth of course, yet he gave us both a hug before
we sat down to dinner. Casually, almost as an afterthought, Beth
mentioned that she and I were going to go through her closet the next
day, and whatever I could wear she was going to let me have. Mom
probably figured that would happen, but dad just grumped a bit until mom
mentioned the cost of a new wardrobe, which is when dad said that he
thought this wasn't going to last forever. I knew, that ever since I had
attached the breast forms and panty that I would not be able to just
give this up so easily. Mom knew it and Beth figured it out. Nobody had
told dad yet because he didn't need to know right then, but I saw Beth
wink at me. Later, after we did the dishes, Beth took me to her room and
gave me one of her babydoll nightgowns, the pale yellow one.
"The panty just covers the essentials Laura, and the top is made to
cover your nipples, but not much else. I'll wear the blue one."
Well, we both changed in her room, and I have to tell you that wearing
so little material for a panty was really different! Beth gave me the
yellow robe to match my outfit, and the two of us went down to the
familyroom together. Dad looked up and almost choked when he saw us
standing there. As we planned it, we both went to him, each of us on one
knee, and kissed him all over, leaving fresh lipstick prints all over
his face.
"What's that matter daddy?" Beth has that little girl voice she uses,
and we both saw dad give up.
He looked at Beth, then at me, and did not see any difference. It was
clear unless he suddenly went blind, that I had breasts, and my manhood
was now gone. He desperately wanted to ask, but held his tongue while
Beth and I settled on the couch, holding hands. Mom didn't say a word.
In the morning Beth and I spent hours in her room with me trying on
clothes, the pile for my closet growing larger as Beth handed me one
thing after another until her closet was almost empty. When I mentioned
it she told me that she had made up her mind. She was going in the Navy.
They had offered to pay the rest of her way through law school for an
eight year commitment. For her, it was an easy choice. For me, I gained
a wardrobe and became as close to Beth as I ever hoped to be. I had
wanted to do this for years with her, but lacked the nerve to tell her
how I felt. Now, well, it didn't matter. Beth and I tried different
hairstyles and looks on me, the worst was when we appeared for lunch. My
hair was in two small dog ear style tails, rolled over and held with a
rubber band, my makeup was very bright and I wore her short bib overalls
with a skimpy tee under that. I looked like a twelve year old. But it
was a fun day and mom just let us carry on alone.
Of course, Beth wanted to know, once again, how good a kisser Jim was,
and in my limited experience, I told her he was wonderful, which was
true as far as I was concerned. He had made my knees shake after all.
Beth left that afternoon, and I missed her as soon as she left. Mom
asked me if I would remove my male clothes and hang up the others, which
I spent most of the day doing. Jim stopped by, but we didn't go
anywhere. I wasn't sure I could trust either of us. He stayed until
dinner and went home. Mom told me to get up early, as my appointment was
the first one.
Have you ever seen anyone skin an animal? That's what it felt like when
that girl ripped that wax off my leg the first time. There wasn't much
blood, just a lot of grunting from the pain. Time after time she moved
up and down each leg, then each arm, and finally, she did my face. After
I returned to the chair, when my fingers managed to let go of the
ceiling, she put a very hot cloth on my face, legs and arms. She said it
would reduce the swelling. Then came a mud pack followed by getting my
hair cut and styled, and my nails done in acrylics by a pro. Lastly,
someone did my makeup. Watching in the mirror I was astonished at how
easy she made it look. I never looked this good! Mom also had her hair
and nails done, then we went dress shopping. According to her, a girls
first special event dress is extra special, and a hand me down simply
wouldn't work. That was fine with me! Our first stop however was not at
a dress shop, but a lingerie shop. Mom said I needed to bit of help with
my waistline, and that's when I was introduced to the joys of corselets.
I use the term joy in a derisive manner since it pulled my waist down to
an unimaginable size while pushing my fat all over the place. Up to my
boobs, down to my hips, and whatever was left simply pushed inside. My
back was forced straighter, bending over was a pain, yet, as both mom
and the woman in the store grinned at me, I could see for myself just
how much better my shape was. All I had to do was learn how to breath
all over again. The woman said I had a 36-23-35 figure, which according
to her, was perfect for a girl my size. When they decided that it was
the right size, I headed for the booth to take it off but was told to
leave it on!
"Just how can we fit the dress if you don't have it on honey? Just get
dressed, then we'll finish our shopping."
That's how it was. I wore that corsolet out of the store, still getting
used to the constriction. My bra was in a bag since I had no need for it
now. Mom and I wandered around. Looking here and there, not finding what
either of us would consider the right dress, then we walked into
Cindi's. All the store sold were prom and wedding dresses. We went our
separate ways, each of us looking for "the dress", and I found it. The
dress was floor length, empire waisted with a square cut neckline, a
sheer skirt of black chiffon lay over the satin under skirt. The minute
I tried it on mom and I both knew that we had found it. Dad would have a
cow when he next sees me anyway, but wearing this dress, well, hopefully
I would leave him speechless. From the dress shop we went to find shoes,
a handbag, and jewelry. It took us almost all day.
My hair had been cut shorter, blow dried and brushed to a very feminine
curly style, my makeup, done by the salon, was perfect. It wasn't until
we got home that I was able to try on the entire outfit to see how I
looked. Mom helped me get the dress on, I slipped my feet into the
shoes, added the jewelry, and stood in front of the mirror. The dress
was the epitome of feminine style, and left no doubt that the person
inside of it was a girl. The straps holding on the high heeled sandal
gave my feet a sexy yet demure look, the pale pink lipstick, some
perfume, small silver and black earrings and nothing else completed how
I looked. To say I was shocked when I looked in the mirror would be an
understatement, yet I was also excited. My breasts pushed out on the
thin material while my hips gave me shape, the dress merely accenting
the way I look.
We both heard the front door open. Dad was home.
"Shall we show him your outfit?"
I just knew that dad would have the big one regardless of the fact that
he grudgingly bought into this. Having my hair, makeup and nails done,
after he had seen me virtually naked in that skimpy yellow babydoll, and
now this, well, I wasn't sure how he would react. Hell, I was still in
shock that I turned out this way myself!
I walked behind mom, carefully holding my dress up as I went down the
stairs, then, as I walked into the familyroom, there he was, just
standing up. I made a sound, he turned around, and our eyes locked. If
ever there was a moment when I wondered about dad's acceptance of me as
a girl, this had to be it. Everything else aside and regardless of what
had been said, now he could see the finished product of my desire, Aunt
Jennifer's and mom's help. I was as complete a girl as I was going to
get.
"What do you think" mom said, "isn't she beautiful?"
Dad's eyes, wide in surprise, looked me over carefully before he spoke.
He could see the new nails, the new hair style, my now hairless arms,
cleavage that threatened to overflow the dress, and my subtle smile.
"You know, when this all started it was because Jim needed a date for
that dance, and I let you convince me that Larry could be his date.
Given that we all knew you liked to dress up once in a while, I figured,
what the hell. You could get it out of your system and things would get
back to normal. Then you and Beth pulled that stunt last night, trying
to provoke me with those babydoll nightgowns. Now I see that you have
new nails, your hair has been cut and styled, you have more boobs than
your mother, and a figure that is unbelievable on a boy. This is no lark
and never has been. At first I told you that you would have new rules,
just to see how you would react, but I let you and your mother go ahead.
Since then, you have begun to walk, act and even sound like a girl. No
boy could do that unless it was what he really wanted to. Just look at
yourself! There isn't a boy your age in this city that would not be
proud to have you on his arm! I agreed with those convoluted reasons of
your mothers about you needing to remain in dresses, but it wasn't for
the reasons you both think. I talked to Jenny. I know that she knows
what she is talking about, and according to her, Laura is here to stay
regardless of what I want. She told me that since you had been dressing
up from a very young age, there was probably no way to stop you. She
asked me if I wanted you to run away and do this on your own, or have
your mother make a lady out of you, just like she did for Beth."
He didn't move and neither did I. Mom stayed at my side as we all
thought about what he had said, then,
"So," dad said, "Since I probably can't stop you, and looking the way
you do, I am going to give in to the obvious, but so are you. From now
on you will be our daughter, Laura Pamela, and, after a suitable time
period, we will see if you want to continue as a girl or not. If you do,
then Jenny has agreed to help us, all of us, with the transition. By the
way, you look spectacular Laura."
I went to him and hugged him as tight as I could, my tears making my
mascara and eyeliner run down my cheeks. Dad held me close, his arms
around me tight, then, as we both realized what had just happened, I
kissed him on the cheek. "Thank you daddy" I said, then ran up to my
room, mom right behind me. With mom's help I took the clothes off, but
not the corsolet since mom told me I should wear it to break it in. That
was going to be a contest. Either I would break or it would break me. I
wore a skirt and top, helped mom make dinner, then sat next to dad that
night, his arm around my shoulder, neither of us speaking, yet I could
feel his strength flowing from him to me. I loved it.
In the morning I tried to redo my hair, and managed okay, but I slipped
on clean panties, a pair of shorts and a top without a bra and went to
the kitchen where I got blasted by mom. In no uncertain terms she told
me to go put a bra on, and never to leave my room unless I was properly
dressed. She didn't need to explain, I got the message. I was back in a
few minutes. After some coffee and cereal, she laced me back into the
corsolet and I knew that I would have to endure it for as long as mom
said so. Jim stopped by, took one look at me and broke out into a wide
grin. I knew what was on his evil little mind. How could I not know? It
was written all over his face. He and I took a walk, heading for the
park again.
"I bought my dress yesterday."
"Yea, I figured. I called and got no answer. I figured you and your mom
were out somewhere. You got your hair cut too."
"Like it?"
"Yeah, I do" he said as he took my hand. I was no longer afraid of
holding his hand since I was a girl after all, and who could say
otherwise? As we walked up the path to the park, a couple of girls
walked ahead of us. I recognized both of them. Janet and Claire. Janet
is short with brown hair, Claire is skinny as a rail, blond, and a pain
in the ass. Janet is easier going. Jim and I took the trail to the left,
leaving Janet and Claire as they took the path to the right. He and I
went down by the lake and sat on the grass, watching the fish bob up for
the occasional bug, some swimmers across the way, and a man in a canoe
paddling towards the creek. I felt his hand as he rubbed my back, then
he pulled me to him and he kissed me. Not gently, not a whisper of a
kiss like the first time, but passionate, long, and hard. Just at that
moment...
"Ahem."
Jim and I looked up to see Claire and Janet standing there.
"It looks like you have gotten over your fear of girls Jimmy. Who's
this?"
We both jumped up and faced them. I hoped Jim was smart enough to be
cool.
"This is Laura. Laura, Janet and Claire."
We all nodded at each other, then Claire said that she thought I looked
familiar. It was all I could do to not say anything that would let them
know who I really was, then I had an idea.
"I'm related to Larry and Beth, do you know them?"
"Ya" Claire said, "I know them. How come we've never seen you before?"
"I just arrived, last week as a matter of fact. Jim and I met, and well,
we hit it off."
"We can see that."
"Come on Jimmy, we have to get back. I have an appointment. Nice meeting
you, bye!"
I waved at them as Jim and I walked hand in hand back towards my house.
I wasn't nervous about my ability to be a girl, not now anyway, it was
all about what would happen if they found out where I live. Both Janet
and Claire could add that up and come to a conclusion all on their own.
But, as the fates would have it, that never happened. The Ball was just
a month away now, and I found myself becoming more and more like a girl
in so many subtle ways. Mom noticed that the way I was talking began to
take on a slight uplift in my voice like so many girls my age, my walk
now felt natural and I didn't have to work at it to get that up and
down, back and forth motion of my hips any more. I think it was that
special panty myself, and my hand gestures became less rigid, more
flexible, and for some reason I never noticed any of it. It just
happened.
I spent some time with Aunt Jenny, and learned a lot more. The minute
she saw me she told me she knew that my days as a boy were over. She
said girl was written all over me, inside and out. Then she wanted a
detailed discussion about Jim and I, including what he and I had done
together. She wanted the dirt in other words, but there wasn't any
according to me, but she thought otherwise. Just the fact that I had
kissed Jim she said, was her best indicator that I wasn't going to be a
boy any more. Then she went on to talk about hormones, surgery and so
on. It was a very interesting day, that's for sure, but I had no thought
about surgery. Having my own boobs maybe, but surgery? Not yet anyway.
Aunt Jenny wasn't judgmental since she had gone through the same thing
not that long ago herself, but she did caution me against jumping into
things quickly. It sounded reasonable to me.
Beth came home for a long weekend, which is when she told our parents
she had joined the Navy. Dad didn't like that one bit, but he liked to
watch a show on television about Navy lawyers, and finally gave his
assent. Mom thought it was a great career move on Beth's part, while I
thought that she should do what she wanted to. I showed her my dress,
and with mom, went out for the day. Beth was in a pensive mood, but got
over that when she and mom decided that I needed to get a pair of very
special panties to wear with my dress. What they selected wasn't much
more than a bundle of strings and a small triangle. I refused them, but
agreed on a pair that weren't much larger. At least they had some
material on my butt!
Jim asked me out for the my first real date on Saturday, and I spent
extra time getting ready. Beth and mom thought it was funny. I thought
it was critical. I wore a skirt and blouse, my best bra, and flats. My
makeup, hair and lipstick were perfect, my perfume just right. Jim was
on time, and with dad watching, I took Jim's hand and we left. He took
me to the show, I can't even remember which one now, but it doesn't
matter. What matters is what happened after the show. He parked his car
by the lake, and nature took over. In my quest to become a girl and all
the work I put towards it must have worn out my brain. After a bit of
kissing, his hand fell on my leg, and I did not remove it like I was
supposed to, and that led him to going farther, to the point that his
hand touched my panties. I saw his eyes go wide just before he put my
hand on his member. In my lust, I did not take it away. For the first
time in my life I was touching another man's privates, and I was excited
about it. Slowly I began to move my hand up and down, then, all at once
Jim went stiff and I knew that he had made a mess. I was unsatisfied,
but unwilling to do either of my two options. I made him take me home.
I lay in bed that night scared that I had done something terrible,
something that would make me into what mom called "a bad girl" or worse.
I was up early, wrapped in a robe, and met Beth on the way to get some
coffee. Unable to hold it in any longer I dragged her into dad's office
and let it all out. Beth listened quietly, then put her arm around my
shoulder and told me that she had done that in ninth grade, and when she
was my age, more, with her boyfriend at the time!
"It doesn't make you bad Laura, it makes you a willing partner. Ask
yourself this question. Is Jim handsome, and does he turn you on, yes or
no?"
"Well, yes, I guess so."
"You obviously turn him on, and as long as you don't get really stupid
and get pregnant...never mind that part, you know what I mean, but there
are a lot of ways to make your guy happy. Use one of them if you have
to. It's not as bad as you might think, and keep in mind that many girls
that I know take care of their guys that way. Who knows? You might like
it!"
"What are you girls hiding in here for?"
"Nothing mom, just talking, it's fine."
"Come have some breakfast" mom said, and we went with her.
Beth left that night, and the next biggest issue for us was my joining
Co-op without missing any school. Mom wanted to use subterfuge, but dad
said no. He made it clear that we were all going to the school and meet
this head on. We could not change his mind, and visions of being hung in
the town square came to mind. It did not take a genius to figure out
that I had to be perfect in every way if we were going to the school,
and the next morning I prepared carefully. I wore a short dress with a
flaring hem line that was at mid thigh on me. I figured that by showing
enough leg might help, and besides, many of the girls in school wore
them. I would fit in. I had my books in a sack, my purse over one
shoulder, and my nerve held in check when the three of us left for the
school. In other words I was scared to death.
Dad marched into the school like he owned the place and went straight to
the office. Mrs. Benson, the secretary was there, and dad asked her
about enrolling me into the Co-op program. When she asked my name, dad
didn't even hesitate. He gave her my male name, which stopped her in her
tracks.
"I'll get Mr. Schipol, wait a moment please."
The Principal walked out, took one look at me, then my parents before he
spoke.
"I understand you would like to enroll your daughter in the Co-op
program, but Mrs. Benson says that you gave her the name of a boy. Would
you like to clarify that for me please?"
"Our son told us he wanted to be a girl, and we have let him do just
that. This is Laura. She will work for me, in my office, and take her
course work via e-mail, which is how you do things I understand. All we
are asking is that you allow her to join the program. If she attends
school I'm not sure that you can guarantee her safety, while I can do
just that."
"I see" Mr. Schipol said, then, "Well, I see your point of course, but
we have very strict rules regarding the Co-op program." He turned to me
and asked, "Just what is your grade point Laura?"
"I'm second in my class sir. My grade point is 3.98"
"In that case, and given the circumstances, I think we can allow you to
join Co-op, but there is the question of your name. I can change it now
if you like. If you continue as a girl, and keep up your grades, you
will certainly end up on the podium at graduation. I would hate to call
you up, say your given name, and have you look like you do now. Shall we
do that for you?"
"Go ahead and change her name" dad said, "We'll take care of the legal
name change later this week. That way you'll be within your rights,
Okay?"
"Thank you sir, and good luck Laura!"
As we walked out of the school I never felt better. It was as if a huge
weight had been lifted from my shoulders, and after that scare I had
when we walked in, it was great. And then there was what dad had said.
He was changing my name legally! From now on I would be Laura Pamela! We
took mom home, then dad and I went to his office. I was hired in, which
took a few hours, then I was assigned as a glorified gofer in the
accounting department. I worked for Bill Pomerantz, a slightly balding
guy that treated everyone that worked for him as a genuine asset, and
that meant everyone, including me. As a former Financial Planner, he had
been hired away from his former company by the head hunters. He was
truly a whiz at numbers, and I never saw anyone win a dispute with him.
I liked him a lot.
Time seemed to fly by as I worked four hours a day, then did school work
four hours a day. I also got a first hand look at how women in general
react around men when they flirt with us, walking in heels hours on end,
and having to meet the dress code, which mandated suits or a dress with
a jacket. Possibly a skirt, blouse and jacket combination. It was
wonderful and tiring at the same time. Two days before the Induction
Ball, mom and I once again tried the entire outfit on. Having worn that
corsolet every day for almost a month now I have developed a somewhat
smaller waist anyway, but could not talk mom into letting me not wear
it. On the day of the Ball, she and I went to the salon and I got the
works. Hair, nails, mudpack, rubdown, sauna, eyebrow trim and once
again, the ever so much fun full body waxing. After having been plucked,
boiled, beaten, then colored and painted, I looked in the mirror. Never
had I looked this good. The artisans in the salon had turned me into a
real Princess! My once dishwater blond hair was now strawberry blond, my
skin glowed and my makeup was perfect.
By the time Jim showed up to get me mom had helped me get dressed, and
as I stood there my mind wandered back to the moment when Jim first saw
me. The change was day and night. Mom handed me a small box. Opening it
I found a small diamond ring!
"It's from your father and I honey. Put it on."
The ring looked as if it were made for me!
"Have a nice time tonight honey. You look so beautiful that I am having
a hard time remembering what you looked like before!"
Mom hugged me, then told me to wait until she called me. It didn't take
long. I heard my name, grabbed my handbag, and walked slowly down the
stairs, just like mom told me to do, and saw Jim and his Dad standing
there watching me. Both of them were smiling as I descended the stairs
to end up right in front of dad. He took pictures of course, then Jim
and I were off. It was a wonderful party, and Jim was very handsome in
his tuxedo. I sat next to his mother who was beaming as Jim accepted his
nomination and entry. But twice I saw her looking at me, smiling both
times. Later, on the way home, Jim wanted to repeat our lustful
interlude, but I didn't, and managed to get him to take me home.
He and I dated for about two more months, then our relationship died a
natural death. I graduated, and just like the Principal warned me, I sat
on the podium, then I had to speak. I kept it short, but talked about
traveling through life, accepting everything that comes our way, and
also, being true to ourselves. I worked in dad's office, was promoted
twice, and now work as the assistant to Bill. It's like having a pseudo
father nearby all the time. Bill watches me like a hawk, or a father I
guess. I met a guy that works on another floor, and he has asked me out.
Life has turned out to be just great, and after I faced my fears, it
turned out to be the best thing I ever did for myself. I'm glad Jim
caught me that day, or I might still be fumbling around in a closet
somewhere.