Today was the day. Every year, Jodi and her husband Walter had a meetup
with all their friends to a place that didn't allow children there. In
previous years, they sent the children to a friend's house for the
weekend, but this year, they were bringing home a babysitter. During the
day when their parents weren't home, ten-year-old twins Tamara and
Thomas could supposedly take care of themselves, but their mother was
clear that it was was Tamara whose job it was to look after her "little
brother" Tommy, although he could be trusted to look after his six-year-
old little brother Nathan and two-year-old sister Molly.
As she often did, Jodi went into her sons' room as soon as she got home
from work and closed the door behind her, as she and Walter had already
finished packing their bags earlier in the day. Nate and Tommy knew that
this was going to be a warning lecture. She worked in HR, and sometimes
Tommy wondered if she treated employees like she treated them. "You know
what day this is, and you know that this is very, very special for your
father and I. I want you to be on your absolute best behavior for
Angeline today. She might be only sixteen, but you'll do whatever she
tells you. If she says hop, you hop. If she says dance, you dance. Do
you understand me?"
"Yes, Mommy," Nate and Tommy said together. Their mother could be both
very strict and very nice, and her rules were simple. If they listened
to her and did what she said, or even if they tried and messed up, she
would be caring and rewarding and forgiving. If they didn't, she started
taking things away from them, and she had spanked them firmly, in the
living room, in front of their sister. That hadn't happened for a long
while. They knew how to stay on their mother's good side, and one way
was to call her 'Mommy' after she told them to do things.
"Okay," she said, smiling. It was a short lecture. "That's all I wanted
to hear. I hope you have plenty of fun together." She smiled and opened
the door and went downstairs to feed Molly.
Angeline was expected to come at six, and she arrived at exactly six,
carrying a big pink suitcase through the front door and leaving it in
the corner of the room near Molly's playpen. Thomas' eyes bulged. That
was their babysitter? She looked like a cheerleader, a very well-
developed one in a T-shirt, jeans, and pink sneakers. Tommy and Tamara
had sitters before, lots of them, but he couldn't ever remember any of
them looking like that. He was only ten years old, not old enough to
have a real reaction or quite understand why his pulse was racing on
seeing her, and she definitely didn't know why her smile seemed to be
focused entirely on him.
"Here I am!" she shouted. "Hi, Nate! Hi, Tommy! Hi, Tamara! Hi, Molly!"
Tommy sighed inwardly. They were supposed to be Tommy and Tammy, or Tom
and Tam, or Thomas and Tamara, but everyone always called him Tommy and
her by her full name, and apparently Angeline was no exception.
"Exactly on time," Walter said. He was a chief auditor at a bank, and
his mannerisms tended towards the professional, at least as far as his
children had seen him. "Excellent. But that means we have to leave right
now."
"Don't worry," Angeline replied, as Jodi picked up Molly to hand to her,
a transfer designed to make the toddler comfortable with the new
babysitter. "I already know. Leftovers from the fridge the first night,
and I'll cook the rest. I've done this before... well, not quite this."
She smiled lightly.
"Just remember, call if anything goes wrong," Jodi said. "Kids, we love
you very much, but we really do have to go now if we don't want to get a
speeding ticket."
"Bye, everyone!" Walter shouted as he left with his wife.
"That was quick," Tamara remarked. Usually, her mother had much more to
say, lecturing the sitter almost as much as she lectured her boys.
Angeline smiled her beautiful smile, a smile that a part of Tommy wanted
to get lost in, even at his age. "That's because they know me." There
was an excitement in her eyes. She didn't want to mess around; there was
something she wanted to get started on immediately. "And, what's more,
they know me so well that I can do something I bet you've never done
with a babysitter before," she continued, and when she said the word
'babysitter', she looked directly at Tommy, and he had no idea why.
"We're going to look at a photo album," she said, putting Molly back in
her playpen.
"That's boring," Nate complained.
"Oh? You think so? Well, how about this? If this photo album is boring,
we'll do what you want today. If it's interesting, we do what I want."
"Okay," Tommy said immediately. To him, this bet had no downside, as he
had to do everything she told him anyway. "Okay," Nate also added when
realizing the same thing.
Their parents had a closet with a divider in the middle, and the kids
were never, ever allowed to go behind it except in dire emergencies, as
that's where the gun safe was. So it was to their great surprise when
Angeline made a bee-line for it, pulling it open in one motion. The
clothes racks behind the divider were empty, but Angeline focused on the
upper shelves. "There's a brown one and a black one, and I'm not allowed
to show you the black one. Oh, this is it. Let's go downstairs, I still
need to keep an eye on Molly and this might take a while."
Angeline sat on the couch, the twins and Nate all at least somewhat
curious as to what could possibly be interesting about a photo album,
and the question was answered with the very first picture on the very
first page.
The image had come from a digital camera, printed in very good
resolution on an ordinary, laminated piece of paper. Their mother was
wearing a business suit, all professional and polished, and their father
was wearing a very flouncy pink dress, a thick diaper under some ruffled
panties, stockings, a wig, clip-on earrings, and pink heels. He lifted a
leg as he kissed his wife with his pink-painted lips. 'Jodi + Walter'
was written in a big pink heart just below the picture. They stared in
shock as she turned pages, of group pictures of the 'Greater Area
Sissies' and pictures of their father in ways they'd never seen him
before. Their father, nursing a bottle while laying in a crib. Their
father, wearing a baby harness and crawling on the floor, held in check
by their mother. Their father, in a playpen with a lot of other men
dressed just like him, as the women in the picture cooed over their
babified boyfriends and husbands. And they all seemed so happy, even
when they were being fed in high chairs or cuddling plush dolls when
wearing giant mittens.
"This is fake!" Nate shouted after twenty minutes.
"Fake? Do you think that your parents have a photo album full of fake
pictures of themselves in their closet? I didn't bring this here. You
saw where it came from. By the way, all this stuff he's wearing? I bet
that came from the back part of the closet as well. That's why it was
empty back there."
"Then where is it?" Nate asked, not understanding, but the twins did.
"This is where they're going right now, like they do every year,"
Angeline explained. "They brought all this stuff with them. And once
they come home, they'll have lots of new pictures to add to the album."
She chuckled. "Here, take a look at this one. He is such a cutie, I
swear." Walter was curtseying for the camera, silk gloves on his hands,
pink heels on his feet, and a blissful smile on his made-up face.
Another picture showed him in the same pose from behind, a suspicious
bulge on his rear.
"What's in his diaper, is that poop?" Thomas asked, a question he never
thought he'd ever be asking about his father.
Angeline laughed. "The answer to that question is in the black photo
album. You're not old enough to see that." Technically, neither was she,
but she had every intention of taking a look once the kids had been put
to bed.
"How did you even know about this?" Tamara asked.
"Because," Angeline said, with a big smile as she knew one of them would
ask eventually, "this is chronological, so if we go up here..." She
found last year's group photo. "Those are my parents, Jacob and Melanie,
so I'm what you would call a 'family friend'. By the way," she continued
with a subtle smile, "this happens every year in May, and my birthday's
in February, just like all of yours. I wonder why that is?"
"Eeeeewwww!" the kids all replied, sparking Angeline's laughter, with
Molly joining in even though she had no idea what was going on, and the
toddler girl walked up to the side of the playpen. "Wanna see!"
"Okay," Angeline said, showing the toddler the very first innocent
picture. "This is your mommy, and this is your daddy."
"Daddy pretty," Molly chirped.
"That's right! Daddy is very pretty. And now, we have a couple of boys
with promises to keep." They looked at her. "You agreed that if this
album was interesting, you'd do what I want. But all I want is for you
boys to be just as pretty as your Dad. Well, maybe not quite that
pretty."
This was the moment of truth. If Tommy started freaking out, or running
away, she was going to call his parents and had a few other tricks
prepared, but she didn't want to have to force him. Everything would be
much easier if he went along with it from the start. Her mother had
given her lots of tutelage and instructions for this. You couldn't
strictly force a boy into dresses, even a boy as meek as Tommy, not
unless you wanted to turn him into a serial killer. No, the way to do it
was gently but firmly when appropriate. Shower him with love, withhold
the love as punishment. Iron fist in a velvet glove. Melanie had likened
it to fishing: hook him, gently pull him towards you, let the line play
out sometimes so that it wouldn't snap, and gradually reel him in.
"Softly, slowly, catchee monkey", Melanie had finished with, and
Angeline held on to every word, smiling, relishing. She was still a
virgin, but she was convinced that this feeling was better than sex.
"How?" Tommy asked instead of complaining, and Angeline's heart leapt.
"Well, to start with, I want you two to go upstairs and put on these
tights," she said, opening the suitcase and pulling out a pair for each
of them. Tamara's jaw dropped, actually dropped, in incredulity. This
didn't even make sense to her. The photo album was one thing, but how
could Angeline have possibly known their sizes before coming there?
"Take off all your clothes, even your underwear, before you put them on.
Relax, I'm not going to see your weiners." Nate giggled when she said
'weiners'. The boys hurried up the stairs to Angeline's delight, and she
pulled out a pre-arranged armful of items from her suitcase. "C'mon,"
Angeline told Tamara, her voice sounding just a bit conspiratorially
sinister. "By the time we're done, he'll be such a perfect little cutie,
he'll put even your dad to shame."
As Angeline was pulling out items, Tommy was helping put his little
brother's tights on. This wasn't the first time Tommy had worn girl
clothes; it wasn't even the first time he'd worn tights. He could
remember times when his mother had dressed him identically to his
sister, one time both of them wearing matching pink shirts; there was
also the time that he remembered that Tamara hadn't wanted to wear a
dress to some dumb social function at Mom's job when they were eight
years old, and so she had talked them into swapping places, treating it
like a prank as she put him into Tamara's tasteful dark blue dress.
Tommy had cared less about the fact that he was wearing a dress than how
absolutely boring everything was and how much he wanted to be playing
instead. When they got home, she'd thanked Nate and Tamara for being
good but showered her oldest son with love, congratulating him on not
giving the secret away. (He didn't want to talk to anyone there anyway,
and neither did his sister, so that was easy enough.)
Angeline knocked on the door, and Tommy opened it. She was expecting the
boys not to have done as she'd asked and was relieved that they did.
"Well done!" she complimented. "It looks like somebody's done this
before," she added, and Tommy felt too embarrassed to reply. "Okay,
Tommy. Hold out your arms in front of you, and keep your legs together
for me." He did, and, smiling, she put what looked to him like half of
an ordinary light green summer dress, the back being missing, over his
outstretched arms. He was thinking how weird it was to have one in two
pieces when she demonstrated that it was one piece, the two halves
meeting together in the back with a zipper and a tough, tricky button
that went through the zipper's hole. The garment was stiff in ways that
Tommy was not expecting, the tight fabric keeping his knees together and
some boning keeping his torso straight. He gasped as he realized how he
was restricted. (On hearing the gasp, Angeline recalled how she had
asked for a corset for him, but her parents had been firm: No
breathplay, not anything like breathplay.)
"Is this my dress?" Thomas asked quietly, and Tamara chuckled.
"No, sweetie, this is called a slip, it's just something that people who
wear dresses also wear sometimes. This kind gives them proper posture
without any effort and helps them to walk more sweetly," she said,
running her fingers through his long hair. His mother had told him that
he'd never have to get a haircut if he didn't want to, and she liked his
hair the way it was, so he kept it that way.
"Where's mine?" Nate asked, just because his brother had one. Tommy
almost said that Nate wouldn't want one, that this was confining and
didn't let him do anything, but he felt very vulnerable and kept quiet.
Angeline laughed aloud. "No, you're too little to have one of those."
She thought he'd be cute in a hobble slip as well, but her parents
weren't going to make one in his size and he might have really hated it
to the point of screaming and crying. Besides, it was better for Tommy
to become accustomed to the idea that his little brother was able to do
things he couldn't, and Angeline enjoyed the idea that Nate would help
his sissified brother with basic tasks that the older boy couldn't do
anymore. As much as he belonged as a helpless little doll, Nate would be
for some other girl to completely sissify at some point in the future.
"Don't worry. When you're Tommy's age, I'll get one for you as well. But
I do have something for both of you to wear." She pulled out matching
sets of wide, frothy petticoats, which she belted around their waists.
"Now, here are your dresses," she said, a great big smile on her face.
Nate's dress was a frilly, calf-length, light green frock of puffed
sleeves, soft ruffles, and lace that lightly rested on his petticoats,
and she effortlessly pulled it over the little boy's head as he eagerly
put his arms up, willing to play the same fun game that his dad played.
"Tamara, can you zip him up for me, please?" Still amazed at what she
was part of, Tamara did what she was told, zipping up the back and
understanding how the button and zipper worked. He'd need her help to
get it off without tearing it, she was sure.
Thomas put his arms up in the same way that his brother had, knowing
that it was always better to anticipate what his caretakers wanted, like
his mother had taught him. "Keep your arms down, Tommy," she said
instead, and she pulled a lime green dress over his head, then helping
get his arms through the armholes. It looked like it had puffed sleeves,
just like his brother's, but after she zipped him up, he could tell that
these sleeves were full of fairly solid padding and that the dress was
boned just like the slip was. He couldn't move his shoulders much
anymore, keeping him from lifting his arms up too much or reaching out
too far. He was about to say something or ask why when she gushed "Oh my
God, you are so absolutely adorable!" and kissed him on the forehead,
the very first time a female not in his family had ever kissed him.
"Okay, both of you sit on the bed," she instructed, and Nate climbed up
onto his lower bunk while Tommy sat next to him. The lower bunk was
Nate's and the top one was Tommy's, because their mother was afraid of
the younger boy falling off, but Tommy knew that he was a lower bunk kid
now, at least while he was wearing his dress. Climbing was one of the
many activities that had just become off-limits for him.
"And the final part for now, shoes to match your pretty dresses," she
said. She started with Nate again, putting a pair of low-heeled light
green Mary Janes on his feet and strapping the finicky buckles. Again,
Tamara came to wonder how she'd gotten to know their sizes. Did she just
guess? Who would have told her? Then, she put a similar pair on Tommy's,
the buckles just as finicky, only his had three-inch heels.
"Tam, I'm taller than you now!" Tommy noticed when he stood up on his
toes, feeling a bit weird and uncomfortable and trying to make light of
things. Sticking her tongue out a bit, Tamara rose on her tiptoes as
well in her socks, closing the gap, and Tommy realized that the
difference was that she could stop tiptoeing and he couldn't. He looked
away nervously, chewing his lip.
"Oh, Tommy," Angeline said, gently patting him on his padded sleeve and
gently pulling him towards her, "what's wrong? You've got nothing at all
to worry about, I promise. You're just dressed up, that's all. Are you
afraid of people finding out?" He reluctantly nodded. That wasn't quite
what his fear was, his actual fear was something he'd have a hard time
putting into words, but it was close. "No one is going to know unless
you want them to, I promise," Angeline told the boys, smiling.
"Although, Tamara, have you recorded any of this?"
"I haven't recorded anything," Tamara said truthfully. She didn't
understand why she would. Who would she ever show something like that
to? That would just make her friends think her family was weird, and her
by association, and she'd just learned that her parents really were
weird. Besides, her mother had always told her that she needed to keep
her "little brothers" safe, and showing pictures of them in dresses to
anyone was the opposite of that.
"See? Your sister's not going to blackmail you." Angeline almost sounded
disappointed, and Tamara just looked confused. Blackmailing Tommy would
be as pointless as taking a shower in a rainstorm, as he did everything
she told him anyway. Being the tattletale he was, he'd immediately run
to their parents or possibly even teachers - he was that kind of kid.
Even if she carried out such a threat and sent pictures like that
anonymously, they were still of her brother and it'd still mess with her
reputation, and it wouldn't take a genius to figure out who took them.
Besides, she didn't want to do that and couldn't imagine a scenario in
which she would.
"On the other hand," Angeline continued with a big smile, "if you'd like
me to take pictures of you, ask politely and you can start an album just
like your father's." The boys didn't say anything, Nate because he still
thought photo albums were boring in general and Tommy because he was
anxious. "If you don't want to, that's fine." Let the line play out
sometimes. "Besides, your faces haven't been made as pretty as they can
be yet. Most people who wear makeup have vanities just for that, but
we'll have to use the bathroom," she said, leading Tommy out of his own
room by the hand, as he minced along in the tight slip, swishy,
petticoated dress, and weird-feeling heels that made him feel like he
was tiptoeing everywhere.
"Why do you keep saying 'people'"? Tommy asked.
She smiled, pleased that he'd asked the question as she'd had the answer
prepared. "Because that's the right word when it doesn't matter if
they're boys or girls. Some people wear dresses and makeup to look
pretty. Your father is one of them. Today, so are you boys." Angeline
absolutely loved the modern approach to gender. She could teach him to
mince, curtsey, twirl, play with dolls, and spend his days being her
very wonderfully helpless and cute little princess, and she would keep
calling him a boy and he would be perfectly confident that she wasn't
turning him into a girl, never realizing that those were just words.
He still looked a bit nervous, this was all so new to him, so she leaned
over and kissed him on the forehead, and he saw down her shirt, and he
knew he was being allowed to see something most other boys his age could
only dream of. "Have you done this before, Tamara?" Tamara shook her
head. "See? Your sister is not a person who wears makeup. Fortunately, I
am. Watch carefully, Tamara, you might want to do this yourself one
day." She obviously didn't mean that Tamara should apply it to herself -
she meant apply it to him, or maybe some other boy in the future.
The first thing she did was wash their faces and hands vigorously before
applying considerably less makeup than she was wearing. She didn't want
to make them overdone or garish; if they looked in the mirror and saw
clowns, it'd ruin the effect. Instead, she used very light foundation,
blush, and lip gloss, all of it made for young children. "Don't wipe
your faces, don't even put your hands to your faces," she told them.
"This is kids' makeup, it's easy to wash, so it'll smear really easily."
Then she found a pack of ten rainbow-colored press-on nails, gently
lifting one of Tommy's hands.
"Are those going to be stuck on him?" Tamara asked.
"Not really, not these kind. These are a starter brand for children who
have never worn nails before, so if you put any pressure on them,
they'll pop right off. So Tommy needs to be very careful that this
doesn't happen," she finished in a no-nonsense voice - iron fist in a
velvet glove - and he nodded submissively. She had never seen such a
perfect boy in her life, and her pulse quickened as she thought of how
much fun she would have with him, particularly after he reached puberty.
She wouldn't do anything overtly sexual with him, of course, not until
he was old enough - but that was part of the thrill, the teasing she
could do, and him helpless to stop her, even if he were willing to.
Patience. Softly, slowly catchee monkey. There was more reeling to be
done later.
She patted Nate lightly on the shoulder. "And as for you, little guy, we
have just a little bit of this." She had pocketed a small bottle of
mint-colored coloring. "Don't worry, it's not real nail polish. It's
just like the makeup, it'll come right off if anything touches it. So
it's all up to you to make sure it doesn't. Don't let it wipe on
anything and keep your fingers away from your mouth," she instructed as
she brushed it on his fingernails. Nate nodded. To him, it was all a
silly, weird game. He'd feel differently if he were told that this was
girl stuff, Angeline was sure, but he'd just been shown his dad and
older brother having stuff like this done to them and still being called
males.
"And now I have a couple of bracelets for you," she continued, putting a
pair of well-fitting, color-coordinated bracelets around Nate's wrists,
"and a couple for you." She pulled out a pair of oversized, sparkly
bangles that were wider than even his upper arms.
"They're too big, they'll fall off," he softly complained as she put
them on him.
"Not if you hold your arms up, Tommy," she gently chided him. "I'm sure
you can make yourself comfortable." She was thinking that he would put
his arms up in a pony or sissy pose, or keep them folded in front of
him, but instead he kept his hands on his upper chest, one palm above
the other, and she almost jumped for joy, exalting in just how
incredibly demure and cute he was making himself look.
"Do I have to stay like this?" he asked quietly, a well of sensations
rising up within him as he looked at himself in the mirror and seeing
how she'd adorned him. Everything she did made him feel weaker, more
vulnerable. He couldn't raise his arms or lower them, he couldn't bend
or twist very much, he couldn't run at all or even walk very well, and
she could do absolutely anything she wanted with him, right in front of
his sister and little brother. And she was so very beautiful and giving
him such close, personal attention...
"Silly. I'm not going to make you wear them forever," she said, an
enormous smile on her face. "But for now, you can stay just like that."
She finished their looks off with pigtails for each of the boys, bright
green scrunchies in their hair that made them look very sweet indeed.
Tommy looked in the mirror again and saw nothing but a pretty little
child wearing a very pretty dress, and he smiled just to see what it
would look like, and the child in the mirror smiled back at him. "See,
Tamara? What did I tell you? They're taking to it like ducks to water.
This is normal for them. Like father, like son. Okay, boys. It's time
for dinner."
"Can I even walk down the stairs?" Tommy asked quietly.
"Of course you can, Tommy. Maybe not like you're used to. Don't worry,
I'm right here." Nate was able to hop down the stairs in his Mary Janes,
but Tommy held on to Angeline's arm as he slowly walked down the stairs
sideways, putting both heeled feet on each step as he took them one at a
time, feeling very dependent and small. Maybe other boys would have
ripped and tore at the clothes, violently struggling and screaming for
help, but he was the kind of boy who did what his mother told him and
went along with his babysitter's decisions because he didn't want to be
punished and because it was just so nice being so close to her. If she
decided that he was going to be a cute and dependent child, then that's
what he was going to be, just like his dad was.
"Potty! Potty!" Molly yelled as she saw them. Thomas started mincing
over to her immediately, wondering how he was going to carry her up
there in this.
"Oh, are you the one who usually takes care of her? That's wonderful,
you are such a good boy. But Molly, today, your brother gets to be taken
care of instead. Tamara, how about you take Molly to the potty and then
to bed? I'm sure it's her bedtime about now." Unless Angeline was right
about this all being normal for them - a concept that was still
bothering her - this was the first normal thing that Angeline had told
her all day, and so she immediately went to do it. "Tommy, Nate, you two
go sit at the table. I'll bring you your food shortly." Nate took big,
swishy strides and sat on his chair, the one with the booster cushion on
it, and giggled at how slow his brother was. Tommy took short, dainty
steps, his heels clicking on the floor, to carefully sit next to his
brother, his hands still demurely at his chest. He couldn't do anything
dressed like that, but at least he wasn't expected to, and being doted
upon by such a beautiful girl was giving him indescribable feelings that
he didn't know how to voice.
When Tamara came back downstairs, Angeline had already placed glasses of
tea on the table in front of the two boys, with curvy straws to drink it
with so that they wouldn't mess up their lipstick so much. She'd put
plenty of sugar in it because she didn't think they'd like the taste
otherwise.
"Is that tea? Can I have some?" Tamara asked.
"Well, I just used the last two teabags from the pack, let me see if
there's any more up here. Oh, here we go," she said, pulling a teabag
from a half-full carton of Earl Grey. And some sugar... there you go."
Tamara was nervous and had the idea that maybe she'd do something to the
tea, but she'd effortlessly made it right in front of her and so she was
a little bit relieved.
Angeline then went to warm the leftovers in the microwave, the turkey
noodles they enjoyed, and a wide smile grew across her face as she
watched Tommy delicately eat his food, making sure not to pop off his
nails or let his pretty bangles fall. Both boys took small bites,
attempting not to smudge their lipstick, leaving only a little of it on
their curvy straws and eating some as well, although she forgave them
for that because they were trying so hard to be such good children.
Besides, as she reminded them, the little kids' lipstick was totally
non-toxic.
"Okay, boys," she said once they'd all finished, "before it's time for
you to go to bed, I think we can enjoy watching you give us a little
dance session," she said, smiling at Tamara a bit.
"I can't dance in this," Tommy complained loudly, the first time he had
spoken up.
Angeline gave a light, girlish giggle. "Of course you can. I'll show you
a simple one." She led him by the hand into the living room, his brother
and sister following, as he took the delicately mincing steps that he
was quickly beginning to become accustomed to. She popped a DVD into the
player, and the family big-screen TV started playing some Disney Junior
songs with rhythmic beats. "Dip, twist, and twirl," she told him,
showing him the limited movements he could make to the childish music,
and he followed along. It wasn't much of a dance, but it was easy, and
she spent the next few minutes complimenting the boys when they did well
and lightly correcting them when they messed up. Tommy was such a
natural at this, a born sissy, and she almost squeed out loud as she
watched him wiggle.
Tamara, her emotions rising, felt her heart beat in her chest as she
understood just how unbelievably easy it was for Angeline to turn them
into putty in her hands.
As Tamara continued to watch the scene play out in front of her, her
brothers being made to dance like puppets to little girls' TV tunes, her
growing sense of deep wrongness, anxiety, and fear started to overwhelm
her rational thinking. She was, on the whole, a sensible girl. She
didn't believe in monsters or ghosts, the way some other girls at school
did, but she also hadn't believed before that a babysitter would come in
and do that thing that she'd seen some evil women in half-remembered
shows do, that thing where they hypnotized a guy and made him fight his
friends, what was that called? Oh, right, the word was seduce, she knew
that Angeline was seducing him. She didn't really understand all that
stuff in the photo album, those were all adults anyway, and she didn't
believe what Angeline had said about this being normal for him. She
couldn't see her brothers like this anymore. She knew, with the absolute
certainty of a preteen, that this had to stop.
Angeline's focus was entirely on the boys, so she didn't notice when
Tamara snuck upstairs and opened the door to her parents' room. They had
given her and her brother the combination to the gun safe only a few
months ago. Just in case, Dad had said, while Mom frowned. Thomas had
been allowed to touch the Chekhov double-barreled pump-action shotgun
(Company motto: They Should Have Seen It Coming!) only once, a single
inaccurate shot while being held by both his father and mother, and it
had made his ears ring and he never wanted to touch it again. Tamara had
fired a few shots, but it made her shoulder hurt. They received lengthy
lectures about gun safety and that they only had permission to open it
if both something had happened to their parents and there was a bad guy
in the house. Tamara's reasoning was simple. Something had happened to
her parents: they weren't there. There was a bad guy there: Angeline.
Therefore, it was okay for her to enter the combination and pull out the
gun.
Her father had told her that sometimes just hearing the loud CHK-CHK
sound of shells being loaded into it would scare the bad guys away, so
she waited until she left her parents' room to put the shells in and
chk-chk the gun. Angeline looked up at her, staring uncomprehendingly.
Tamara sucked in a breath of air; well, Dad had only told her that it
might work, not that it would work, and the bad person was still here.
Geared by the few times he'd been allowed to play such video games,
Nate's six-year-old mind was very simple on this topic. There was a gun,
and when you didn't have a gun, you ran away from guns. His skirt
fluttering, he ran as fast as he could in his Mary Janes into the dining
room to hide. Angeline continued to stare, mind blank, a deer in the
headlights. Thomas realized what his sister was aiming at and tried to
quickly step back from Angeline, but encumbered by the hobbling
underskirt and the awkward heels, he fell on his rear and his bangles
fell on the floor.
Tamara was panicking desperately, her hands clenched, putting more
pressure on the triggers than she should have as she aimed as best she
could at Angeline's head, rushing towards and down the stairs to get a
better shot and make sure that Thomas didn't get hit. Why wasn't the bad
girl moving?! "Run away or I'll turn your face into sushi!" Tamara
screamed, because that sounded like a cool movie heroine thing to say,
but she was terrified - what if Angeline really was a monster, the kind
of monster that shotguns didn't even work on, what if she was going to
turn into something else, or use him as a shield, what if the gun didn't
fire, what if, what if...
Angeline tried to make her brain work, she knew this was a bad
situation, but her mind was in fragments. Her primary worry had been
that Thomas might have gotten angry or scared, and she had well-
developed plans for what he might do. She had thought that Thomas' twin
sister might need some education on how to treat him, and she'd gathered
that Tamara wasn't as into this as she was, but the idea that his twin
would object to this at all wasn't really considered. The idea that she
would completely freak out and actually point a firearm at her, or that
was even a possibility at all, wasn't remotely in the list of things
that Angeline thought that she might have to be worried about that day.
Tommy was also having a hard time understanding, he couldn't even
imagine how much trouble his sister would be in, but he couldn't tell
his sister to put it down, any more than he could have told Angeline to
stop treating him like a sissy. "You're holding it wrong," he said
instead, being helpful as he'd always been taught to be, and Tamara
realized that he was right; instead of holding it out in front of her
face, she put the stock to her shoulder, right eye looking down the
barrel, just like she'd been taught.
Angeline stared at him in shock -- was he encouraging his sister!? --
and a vision appeared in her mind. The latest common Reddit meme was of
a group of Kenyan funeral celebrants that were shown as dancing to a
tune by Astronomia, usually after some accident or bad decision. She
wondered how many memes would be made about her if she were actually
blown away by a panicked ten-year-old girl. She glanced towards her
suitcase in the far corner of the room, and the dancing Kenyans grew
more visible, the Astronomia playing louder. "I'm leaving right now,"
she said, running towards the door, unlocking it in haste, throwing it
open, and running as fast as she could to her car. She slipped inside
the car in one quick motion, slammed the door, pushed the button, and
ignored the beeping seat-belt alarm as she reversed out of the driveway,
turned abruptly, and floored the accelerator on her way out. Tamara
pointed the shotgun at her the whole way, only closing the door - and
locking it, forcefully - after the car was out of sight.
Nate was sobbing and sniffling, urine running down a leg of his tights
as he shuffled out of the dining room. Tommy tried to rush over, but his
slip and dress got in the way, and as he reached for the back, his fake
nails being pushed off by his exploring fingers, he realized that he
wasn't supposed to be able to take it off by himself. "Tam, help me," he
asked, and she did, managing to slide the button through the buttonhole
and the zipper, pulling it down harshly, doing the same thing with the
slip Thomas pulled off the clothes and then tried to pull off the
shoes, but the small buckles were difficult to open, and the last
rainbow nails were flung off his fingers as he finally managed to undo
them. Throwing the shoes as hard as he could into the wall, he rushed
over to his little brother and managed to get his clothes off as well,
Tamara staring at the door.
Her phone rang then, a small jingle in the tense room, and she answered
immediately. It was her mom, of course. "Come home, just come home,
please just come home," she was crying into the phone, before her mother
could say anything.
"Are all of you safe?" her mother asked desperately, confused. "Did
anyone get hurt?"
"We're all okay. She's gone, I think. Please just get here as soon as
you can," Tamara blubbered into the phone.
"You stay right there and don't do anything," Thomas overheard his
mother say firmly. "We'll be home in an hour and a half. You just stay
right where you are. I'm going to hang up now and call again later. You
stay right there. Do not leave the house. Do you understand me?"
"We're not going anywhere, Mom," Tamara replied.
"Okay. I have to drive now. We'll be home in an hour. I'll call later."
Her voice was cracking with panic, and she hung up.
"Nate, listen," Tommy said, pulling off the boy's soaked tights, then
using the tights to wipe him as much as he could. "You know those video
games on my computer you're not allowed to play?" There were only a
couple. His parents had locked down his computer just like his phone.
"Go up there and play all of them but don't leave our room. Okay?" Nate
nodded, and ran, naked, up the stairs.
Thomas was certain that Tamara wouldn't have done this without a reason
and got the idea that his sister knew something he didn't. He was sure
that the reason had to be in that suitcase, and he ran over to the far
side of the room and threw it open. He fished through its various
compartments, pulling out a pink garment, and his eyes went wide. "The
police!" he abruptly yelled.
"Is she going to call them?" Tamara replied, not seeing any flashing
lights. In her panic, the idea that pointing a gun at her babysitter
might be illegal hadn't entered her mind.
"No, that's what I mean, she can't call them, just look at this stuff,"
Thomas said, pulling out clothes from the suitcase to show her. The
first item was a dress, the second a pair of mittens, the next a pair of
booties, a pacifier with a strap around it, a diaper cover with a chain
through it, and what looked like a bonnet with built-in headphones, only
with more straps and locks - all of it in his size. His parents had
given him and his sister "the talk" a while back, and while they never
discussed how much they were into it, they told him what fetishes were,
and what pornography was, and that pornography involving children was
highly illegal, and he concluded that locking baby clothes sized to fit
a ten-year-old constituted child pornography.
The police would have questions for Tamara, he was sure. He was even
more sure that they would also have many, many more questions for the
person who had brought the clothes. "She'll get in way worse trouble,
she's not going to call them unless she's special needs," he added,
using his school's euphemism for 'retarded'. When he said the words, he
realized that these clothes were designed to turn him into a special
needs kid. Experimentally - he just had to know - he briefly put on one
of the mittens over his right hand. It was very well made, very soft
inside and out, yet with a stiff layer to make him unable to grasp
anything.
Tamara wasn't really listening or looking at that point, as she realized
that the house had a back door, and a garage, and even windows that
Angeline might be able to get though, and she furiously ran to secure
the house.
Tommy's mind roiled. What if Tamara hadn't come down the stairs with
that shotgun? Would Angeline have made him wear this stuff? Or would he
have asked to wear it?
He pulled the mitten off, letting it fall to the ground, and picked up a
bootie. It was rounded on the bottom and had what felt like springs
inside. He put his hand in there, rather than his foot (which he
abruptly noticed was still in the tights). He pushed on the springs by
pressing his hands together, and what felt like little screwdriver heads
pressed through the stretchy sole fabric and into his palm. If he tried
to walk in those, he would be painfully pricked. He let that fall to the
ground as well.
A mad desire welled up in him to put all of the locking clothes on
before the parents came home, suckling on the pacifier and crawling
around like a cute, vulnerable little baby, letting them see what she'd
intended to make of him, but he kept looking instead. He unzipped a
compartment near the top of the suitcase and found a wrapped plastic bag
marked 'Nytol' with some crushed blue powder - he'd seen the ads - along
with teabags in a box marked 'Diuretic Blend'.
Panic, long-delayed, hit him as he figured out what he thought was the
plan. Angeline would let him and his little brother dance after drinking
the tea and then say that they were tired from dancing. They'd fall into
a deep sleep and pee themselves. Then she'd tell them what babies they
were for peeing themselves, and probably put him in the rest of it as
well. (Just him, he realized with slight relief - there weren't any
locking things in her little brother's size.) He didn't know if puking
would work at this point, it'd probably been too long, but as his sister
came back from making sure the doors and windows were as sealed as they
could be, he ran up the stairs, screaming that they'd been drugged, and
Tamara realized that there was something in the tea, just not in her
tea. He yelled for Nate to join him as he ran into the bathroom, and
almost shoved his whole hand down his throat trying to make himself
puke; both dinner and (fortunately) some tea went back up his throat as
he felt like he was choking. He urinated as well, trying to get every
drop out of his bladder before the tea hit him for real. Wait, where was
his little brother?! He ran into his room and saw his brother sitting on
his chair in just his underwear, curled up into a ball. He hadn't even
made it into a game lobby before falling asleep.
"Nate, wake up," Tommy said urgently, shaking him, afraid that his
brother might not be able to do that, relieved when the little boy did.
Tommy saw that the scrunchies were still in his hair and the bracelets
were still on his arms, pulled them off, and threw them to the floor,
before pulling off his own scrunchies and throwing them similarly. "She
gave you something to make you sleep and pee."
"I wanna sleep," Nate replied. "If you're asleep nothing's happening."
Tommy understood very well why his scared little brother wanted to be in
a very safe place where nothing was happening.
"Okay, well, you still might pee, so let's get your underwear off and
get you on the toilet..." Tommy realized both that his brother would
fall off the toilet and that he still smelled like pee and poop. "No,
I'll give you a shower, and then you can sleep in the tub."
"I'll drown!"
"I meant an empty tub." Tommy just noticed the blinking light on his
phone, texts from his father, a couple minutes apart:
---
are you ok?
answer please
---
---
She drugged us
I think were ok
Washing off nate
---
were his replies, and he set the phone down, walked Nate into the
bathroom, and got the showerhead to a good temperature before he started
washing his little brother off. He realized that he was sweating and
shaking himself, and so he hosed himself off as well, treating every
single blink as the effects of the soporific, his breaths coming out
ragged. What was Angeline doing to him, why had her mother let her do
that to him? She knew everything, of course she knew, she'd set it all
up! His mother always wanted him to be like that. She'd made Thomas
little all his life, gave him lots of praise and affection for acting
girly, and then she brought in a cute babysitter and told him to do
everything she said, and after Angeline had dressed him up and made him
into a little baby, he was going to be perfect little Tommy forever, a
boy who wore dresses and diapers.
"Tommy, is Angeline evil?" Nathan asked as his big brother washed the
makeup off his face.
"I think so, maybe," Thomas answered. "Maybe her parents are." Saying
it, he realized that he no longer trusted his mother anymore in the
slightest and that he thought of her as an enemy, a plotting villain
from the movies who lived in his house. "Maybe our parents are."
"So Tammy's not going to jail?"
"I don't think Tammy's going to jail," Thomas replied, vigorously
scrubbing his own face. "Some other people might." Contemplating
possible futures, few of them completely realistic and none of them
good, he meticulously dried Nate off before laying him back down in the
tub, went to his room and put on the most big-kid clothes he had, a
plain white T-shirt and corduroy pants with pockets (which, he realized
with fresh eyes, were nowhere near big-kid enough, not like the other
kids, not like he should have had), picked up his lame phone (he'd have
to get it unlocked after this, at least he could still call 911), and
went back downstairs. His father had texted him again - 'I know what she
did' - and he didn't reply. His sister was still staring at the door.
"It's not all her fault, and she's not coming back," he explained. "Mom
brought her here, she knew what she was going to do. It was supposed to
happen. And you stopped it." Thomas had never loved anyone as much as he
loved his sister in that moment, and probably never would.
"No way, Tom. Mom always tries to protect you! She tries to keep you out
of trouble!" To her, 'protect her innocent twin brother' and 'send a
babysitter to sissify him' were in direct opposition.
"This is her protection," Thomas replied. "Angeline's not a demon. Don't
you remember the pictures she showed us?" She'd thought that was just
Mom and Dad stuff that Angeline had happened to know about. She was a
'family friend', after all. "She was getting me ready for when Mom came
home. She's just doing what Mom said, too. She just thought you'd help."
"Help, why would I help, I wouldn't help turn you into a..." Tamara
started shaking a bit, thinking, remembering the times Thomas had
previously worn a dress, the differences in how they were treated. There
were some things that her mother had said to her on occasion, some she
didn't really agree with and others she didn't quite understand, stuff
about how Thomas was more like a little girl than a boy. She'd thought
that this was just stuff that she said when she was angry. He was right.
Holy crap, he was right, no wonder she'd known their sizes and
everything else, she'd just been in denial about it, not wanting to see
the obvious. "Mom kind of already did, didn't she? That's why
everything's like this with you and her, because that's how Dad is. It
was going to end like this." She looked at the tight, restraining dress
and slip, still on the floor, and at the locking baby clothes tossed out
of the suitcase, and her world view started to change as much as his
had. She was more convinced than ever that he needed protection; she had
just drastically changed her opinion of what he needed protection from.
She started shaking and crying, and then he started shaking and crying,
and the two of them squatted on the floor and huddled close together,
arms around each other, the shotgun still lying beside them, and Thomas
stopped fighting the drug and fell asleep.
"Tom, wake up," Tamara said, jostling him, and he groggily remembered
that he was drugged and forced himself into wakefulness. Retreating
towards the direction of the suitcase, getting as far from the door as
possible, he had the very fleeting, dreamlike thought that the shotgun
on the floor had two barrels and he had two parents.
As soon as they opened the door, his parents took one look at the scene,
and both of them sucked in breaths of air. Tamara squatted on the
ground, upset, next to a shotgun. The odor of urine permeated the room
and clothes were scattered around the floor. Thomas was on the far side
of the room next to a suitcase with pink clothes next to him, the sort
of pink clothes that Walter had worn before, and a look on his face that
had never appeared there before.
"Nate? Molly?" Jodi asked in panic.
"Molly's upstairs sleeping, Nate's In the empty bathtub, probably peeing
in his sleep," Thomas answered from the far side of the room. He had to
urinate very badly as well but held it in with anger. His parents looked
over at him. He was avoiding them, why was he avoiding them? Jodi didn't
understand. Thomas didn't do anything, it was Tamara who'd gone crazy.
"Tamara," Jodi began, trying to turn 'mother' back on and only partially
succeeding, "I understand that you were scared. But what you did was
very, very bad, bad enough that the police might get involved. If-"
"Mom, she can't call them for the same reason a drug dealer can't call
them!" Thomas shouted. Jodi blinked, looking at her son. He never dared
to interrupt her. What had gotten into him? Angeline was supposed to
ease him into the gentle, classically feminine lifestyle that he
belonged living. What on Earth had happened here?
"Tommy, Nytol and some herbal tea aren't those kinds of drugs," his
father replied.
"I'm not talking about that," Thomas replied, the reminder making him
force himself more awake, fighting off the effects of something he
wasn't even sure was still affecting him. "Here, catch!" He tossed his
father one of the booties, and his father caught it. (He abruptly,
apropos of nothing, realized that this was the very first time he had
ever caught anything thrown by his son.)
Walter recognized what it was immediately. He'd been wearing booties
just like it in the photo album; a pair was sitting in the trunk of the
car right then. If this hadn't happened, he would probably have been in
a crib and wearing them as his wife cooed over him. Instead, he turned
to her in puzzlement. "Did you know that they'd made this?" Angeline's
parents made such things and sold them online. Due to the combination of
materials and the time they took to make by hand, a pair of such booties
was worth a couple hundred dollars at least, which is how much his own
pair cost. He glanced at the suitcase and guessed that it held at least
a thousand dollars' worth of handmade goods that Angeline's parents
would certainly never want to see again. Being a sissy was not cheap.
For Angeline to come that well-prepared also meant that she'd had a very
thorough idea of what to do with them, an idea that a sixteen-year-old
probably didn't think up all by herself.
"They were only to be brought out in very special circumstances," his
wife replied, and he threw it back to his son. She walked up to Thomas-
he retreated away from her- and told him what she'd been planning to
tell him the whole way home. "She wanted to diaper you and take care of
you, so you could enjoy the experience. That was all. Tamara, you could
have just called us if you thought something was wrong." She'd never
even considered that, being in the grip of fear. "There was no reason
for you to bring out a gun!"
"You should feel lucky she had the gun. If she didn't, she would have
had to use a knife. But she's too small to threaten with a knife, she
would have had to use it," Thomas replied, feeling like he had to say
that, that it would protect his sister somehow. His parents stared at
him.
"You be quiet," Jodi said angrily, needing to reassert her authority
over this family. "Tamara, I thought that you were more mature than
this. Now I'm going to have to punish both of you."
"You punish her for this or ANYTHING and I'M calling the cops!" Thomas
screamed at his mother, loud enough to make Molly cry upstairs. "And
I'll show them this, all of this!" He pointed to the locking clothes,
pulled his phone from his pocket, and pantomimed dialing 911. "Then
we'll see who gets punished!"
"Jesus, Tommy!" Jodi shouted, aghast. He'd never dared to yell at her
before, let alone threaten her, especially not with something like that.
She still just couldn't understand how everything had gone so wrong so
quickly. Walter inhaled sharply. He could imagine what would happen if
Thomas carried out his threat. He'd that it would be Jacob and Melanie
who would be in the most trouble for making those, but he knew that this
might very well end with him losing custody right along with his job and
could even involve him and his wife both spending time in jail, and
Walter knew very well what happened to men like him in jail.
"Nobody's calling anybody," Walter said with as much authority as he
could muster. He figured that if he hadn't been there, if it had been
just Jodi with no father, Thomas, or maybe even Tamara, would have
already done it, and all four children would have been on their way to
foster care. "Neither one of you is doing anything except going to bed,"
he continued, picking up the gun, "and Tom, if you pee yourself, there
won't be any diapers. Jodi, let's go upstairs, put this away, check up
on Nate, deal with Molly, and talk this out rationally and we can decide
what to do." The kids' father, always the peacemaker, always the
conciliator. Jodi shot the twins a look full of threat and vengeance,
that once everything had settled down, they were in for the worst time
of their lives.
Thomas tried to kick himself into gear. Think, he had to think what to
do, he couldn't just go with anything anymore- then he exhaled, walked
over to his shaking sister (he was shaking too, he realized), and
whispered in her ear. He'd realized that he needed to keep this stuff,
he needed leverage or his mother would do something to them (he didn't
care what happened to him at that moment; he was far more worried about
Tamara), he should have already done this. "I'm going to take all the
locking stuff and hide it. You take the keys, keep them separate, make
sure she can't actually use them if she finds them. Throw the rest of it
away, and we'll say that we threw all of it away."
Tamara hugged him. "Tom, that's the best idea you ever had," she agreed.
Thomas gathered all the locking clothes in his arms after piling up the
keys, praying to something that his parents wouldn't hear him after they
were done dealing with Molly and closing their door, or leaving their
room for any reason. As silently as he could, he pulled on the bottom
drawer of his dresser, the one full of his white briefs, and lifted it
to get it all the way out. There was a gap between the bottom of the
drawer and the actual bottom of the dresser. He'd discovered the
potential hiding spot a while ago but never had anything to hide in
there, and congratulated himself for thinking of it so quickly. He
looked back downstairs, seeing that Tamara was carrying the whole
suitcase out, and, angrily fighting his urge to urinate, he stood at his
parents' door, planning on distracting them if they opened it before she
came back from the dumpster. He listened in on their conversation:
"They're terrified, Jodi! They're only ten years old. Put him in a
dress? It doesn't matter what Angeline, you, Jacob, or Melanie intended,
you know what effect all this had on not just him, both of them. We'll
be lucky if both of them don't have flashbacks from just seeing a
dress!" Silence, for a bit. "This will be with them for the rest of
their lives."
"More than you'll ever know. She was supposed to help him. That's all I
wanted, for him to have the life you have, the life he deserves."
"I wanted that too! The idea made sense, okay? He'd know Mom and Dad
were into it, but it wouldn't be Mom and Dad pressuring it on him, he'd
be brought into it in a safe environment by a beautiful young girl
instead. But you didn't talk it over with Tamara, and there were things
you didn't tell me. I'm not blaming you or anyone. I'm just saying, it
didn't work out. That's what happened, and we need to learn to live with
that." Tamara came back in, silently closing and locking the door.
"Well, let me tell you what you need to learn to live with," Jodi
replied hotly, walking to the bedroom door, and Thomas slipped back into
his own room. "He'll be having sex sooner than you will again." She
opened the door and saw Tamara at the foot of the stairs. She looked
over the railing, suspicious, and saw no suitcase. "What did you do with
the stuff?"
"I threw it away," she admitted instantly. "It's in the dumpster. Where
it belongs." She wanted to draw her mother's ire, taking it on herself
so he wouldn't have to suffer.
Thomas saw his sister about to receive his mother's fury and had to
redirect it towards himself. "You want some help getting it out of
there, Mom?" Thomas asked from his open door. "I'll call for some, you
want some?" He held up his phone. "I wonder which one's going to be
Exhibit A?"
"I never should have given you that," she spat out. "Okay!" she shouted
angrily. "Okay, that's it, all that time and effort, it's all gone now.
I wanted to help you and what'd you do? You refused me and threw it back
in my face. She was going to be your wife, did you know that? By the
time she was out of college, you'd be old enough to marry her, and you
would enjoy the same fulfillment your father did. But nope! Tamara, you
decided to interfere because you thought he wasn't being treated like a
regular boy, even though we know he's not. His life is headed down a
dark path now, and both of us can watch it happen. Maybe Nate will turn
out better."
Thomas was ready for all this to be over, he just wanted to let the
exhaustion and drug win and go to bed, but hearing his little brother's
name made something snap within him. "You aren't doing shit to Nate," he
snarled angrily, the first time he had ever sworn at her, not caring
about punishment or trouble, not caring what she thought, not caring
anymore at all. "You do anything like this to him ever again and I swear
to God I'll kill you in your sleep."
"Not by yourself you won't," Tamara shouted from downstairs, to protect
him more than anything else. Whatever happened to them, to their family,
she and her brother were going to go through it together.
Wailing, Jodi opened the bedroom door and slammed it behind her, and
Thomas finally went to go pee, noticing that his parents had given his
brother a pillow and blanket as he slept in the tub.
Tamara shook her twin awake the next morning. Nate was in bed, and
Thomas realized that he had completely slept through his brother being
brought in, which worried him quite a bit. Tamara assured him that their
parents hadn't done anything else, but the twins needed to get
downstairs so that they could carefully watch them making breakfast.
Walter had anticipated this - it was what he would have done at that age
- and he had told his wife in his very serious voice, which he very
rarely used with her, that she should just accept stuff like this until
their children trusted them again. He'd even gone as far as to ask his
children which slices of toast, bacon, and eggs they'd wanted from the
pans, and he poured fruit juice out of a communal pitcher that they all
drank from. The twins sat very close together at the table, across from
their parents, and Tamara whispered in Thomas' ear, "I hope they haven't
built up an immunity to iocaine powder."
Thomas gasped, remembering the scene, but then he made a subtle gesture
towards Molly. Jodi was feeding the one child who still entirely trusted
her, giving her a sippy cup of fruit juice and some carefully mashed-up
eggs. His parents weren't crazy enough to risk drugging her. Once he was
done eating, his father tapped him on his shoulder and asked to come
with him to Thomas' room. "Don't worry," Walter quietly said as they
walked up the stairs, "I think you already know that you and Tamara
aren't the ones in trouble here."
"First of all," he said as he closed the door, "I fished the suitcase
out of the dumpster last night. The Nytol and tea are totally gone, down
the toilet." Thomas felt like he'd made a mistake. He should have asked
Tamara to cut the clothes up first, actually, he should have been
chopping some up and hiding the rest long before his parents got home
last night. Then again, it was all just evidence at this point. "I know
you have the stuff that isn't in there. I'm not asking you where, and I
won't go looking for it, I'm just saying I know you have it."
Thomas didn't reply, and Walter didn't tell him that he already knew
where it was without having to look. Thomas had been loudly overjoyed
the first time he found the under-drawer compartment at the age of five,
and the rest of the house didn't look disturbed; it was the only place
that made sense. Walter also didn't tell him that Thomas did not need to
be holding physical evidence to ruin his family. If he or Tamara started
talking to authorities about this (hell, even if Nate did, and that
thought had terrified him), Angeline's name would come up, and her
parents' names would come up, and their membership in the Greater Area
Sissies would come up. They all knew by then, he was sure, and the only
reason none of them had blabbed was because they would Become Involved
as well, which was known as a "career-limiting move". Even if he and his
wife were able to systematically erase every bit of physical evidence
from the entire house, they certainly couldn't erase everything from
everyone else's nor any text message history from the telco - and that
was if his wife knew how to lie properly. He was a chief auditor, after
all; he'd caught very smart embezzlers and other white-collar crooks
with far less evidence than what a state investigator would uncover
here.
He was quite certain that if he wanted to keep his family in one piece,
his children had to know that they were safe, and if having those
locking baby clothes in his bottom drawer made Thomas feel more secure,
then he was very welcome to them. He inwardly cursed Angeline's parents
as he had been doing for a long while: 'God damn it, what were you
thinking sending her here with that shit in that damn suitcase?' He also
cursed himself, as he often did, for being a complete sissy in more ways
than one.
"Thomas... I'm not going to try to excuse what she tried to do last
night. I just want to say that if that one night makes you do something
we'll all regret-"
"One night? You think this is about one night?!" Thomas interrupted, and
his father let him talk. "Mom was preparing me for that night my whole
life! You want to help? Unlock my phone, and my computer. Like Tamara
has." That was among the very least of the things Walter was prepared to
accept as a demand. Ashamed of himself for allowing his son to be
treated the way he was and feeling like the least mature person in the
house, Walter immediately went to work. He was the one who locked them
in the first place, at his wife's command, and it would take him
minutes.
"Okay. If you talk to anyone about what happened. I'm just going to say
it: We're going to lose custody. Not just you and Tamara, but Nate and
Molly will be in foster care as well."
"That's the only reason I didn't already do it," Thomas spat out, and
Walter, knowing that his son understood the situation, had nothing else
to say. Walter had once been dressed up in baby clothes and called
Walty-poo by a dozen people, his wife among them, and he had made some
minor mistake, or nothing, it didn't matter, and his wife had spanked
him in front of all of them. He had been made to politely ask, in the
third person and with a mewling baby-talk voice, to be allowed to crawl
across a crowded room and fetch his own locking pacifier in his teeth
before he was locked in his crib for the night. Never before had he felt
as utterly emasculated and humiliated as he did in that room with his
son.
After completely unlocking all of his Thomas' permissions and gaming
platforms, even buying him World War Z on Steam, he led Tamara into her
room to tell her the same thing, and she'd wanted to talk to him just as
much as Thomas had, and she'd understood the situation just as much as
he did. He did not talk to Nate. Letting the six-year-old know just how
big of a deal this was would have been counterproductive.
Satisfied that his family wasn't immediately about to destroy itself, he
said that they were all going to the zoo together - it had just re-
opened after the long pandemic-related closure - and, fortunately, no
one complained or argued. They were mentally exhausted, all of them
except Molly, and the adults and twins were in tacit agreement that she
had not seen nor understood very much of what had happened last night.
They rode in silence in a while. "Jacob and Melanie think we're all
crazy," Jodi said out of nowhere.
"Good!" Thomas immediately exclaimed.
"They're right," Tamara added. Walter glanced at his wife at the
passenger seat and shook his head. It wasn't the time for that.
They got to the zoo before opening time, and they were surprised to see
so few people there. This was reopening day, after all, the first time
it had been open since the pandemic, but most people still didn't feel
comfortable in public spaces. Jodi didn't seem too concerned, and Walter
did not care at all. Children were almost never affected, and he valued
his and his wife's lives very little at that point in time. He almost
wished it would kill him.
The first place the kids went was the gift shop, but Walter had no
problem in buying them what they wanted: a stuffed tiger ("Hobbes!") for
Nate and a smaller, cuddly elephant for Molly, and matching, overpriced
red T-shirts for all four of them, which they went to the bathrooms and
changed into immediately. Then Nate had spotted the wolf exhibit he
wanted to see, his mother not stopping him from running off after it,
and the twins ran after him, and other than an admonition of "Stay in
the zoo!", neither Walter nor Jodi had anything to say.
They did, of course, stay in the zoo, although seeing trapped animals
made Thomas' heart uneasy. This was a modern zoo, with habitats rather
than mere cages, but did the animals know they were stuck? Would they
have objected if they had known and been able to? Or, were they like he
would have been if Tamara had not intervened, forever to stay where his
mother and Angeline put him, forever on display as a pretty little doll-
boy, and accustomed to it all?
He was musing on such things when he got a text from Angeline.
---
Hey.
First of all, I'M SORRY. I went WAY too far way too quickly. I was never
going to actually hurt you. The whole thing was planned out by my and
your parents but you probably know that already. (They don't know I sent
you this. Please don't tell them.) I know you were enjoying some of it,
but I totally screwed it up, and I did NOT mean to treat you the way I
did. Please accept my apology for everything that happened last night.
Can I meet you at your house tomorrow, just to talk?
All my love, Angie
---
For a moment, it was actually tempting to accept this invitation from a
very beautiful girl, right up until he remembered that she was the very
beautiful girl who'd bound, manipulated, belittled, and drugged him and
his little brother. "Check what Angeline sent me," he said, holding up
the phone so his sister could see. Tamara screwed up her face in
astonishment and disgust. Was Angeline completely out of her mind? "Tell
her to go to hell!", she whispered loudly.
'Do you want to get shot that bad?' he texted back instead, to his
sister's approval, before realizing his mistake. '*badly', he added, and
Tamara started giggling heavily, her sides contracting. Her brother was
definitely the kind of boy who grammar corrected his death threats.
There was no reply, and there wasn't ever going to be one. He wished
Angeline had been different, that his mom and dad had been different,
and his thought process was interrupted by Nate, who had run down the
path into the aquarium. A vision floated through Thomas' mind of his
little brother being kept in a hobble skirt so he couldn't run anymore,
and his gorge welled up in his throat.
When they caught up to him, they saw him staring at the seal exhibit,
hoping that one would come nose-to-nose with him. Thomas looked to make
sure no one was around, as there was something he needed to say. "Tam,"
he said quietly, "if they'd just... oh, woah, check that fish." A long
barracuda floated three feet from him. "Anyway, if they'd just told me,"
he continued, sniffling a bit, "If they'd just all got together with me
and asked, 'would you like to wear dresses like your dad', and didn't
try to mess with my mind or drug me or anything, if Mom had just let me
be my age, if they'd just been honest like they always told me to be...
I think I might have been okay with it." His mind was a mess of
emotions. He hated it, and loved it, and hated himself for loving it,
but he hated his parents and Angeline most of all and wished they were
on the inside of the barracuda tank, and that was not going to change
any time soon. His sister put a protective arm around him as they went
around the aquarium (Nate got to see the seal he wanted, and he named it
the Seal of Approval), only letting him go when they were out in the
daylight again.
It was a fairly decently sized zoo, but they went through it twice, and
then they got back together with their parents for lunch at the
exorbitantly priced cafe. Nate made a childish comment about eating
burgers at a place where they had animals, and then Thomas had said that
this was a zoo, so what animals did Nate think the burgers came from,
and the little boy laughed so hard he almost choked.
And then Walter, not wanting to be back in the house at that moment,
offered to take the children to a local museum that had also just re-
opened, and they had readily agreed.
Walter was relieved to see his wife at least pretend to get into the
swing of things. She made polite comments about exhibits, pointing
things out to her children, and as they ate out at a buffet for dinner,
the only comments she made were gentle, motherly admonitions for her
children to eat healthy foods and not to let their eyes get bigger than
their stomachs. Nate looked like he wanted to start a food fight, but
she simply put her hand on his and shook her head, and he accepted that.
There was no yelling on that trip and no arguments of any kind, and Jodi
didn't say much to her husband or her children at all.
Of course, they could never have known what she was writing in her mind.
The moment she got home, she went directly to her computer and began to
type. Walter would go along with it was the process was in motion, she
was very sure; he'd never been a problem when she put her foot down, and
the point of her plan was to keep her family from being broken up.
Walter was right that her children held all the cards, which was why it
was up to her to change that in a way that she knew would benefit them
in the long run. Quickly and accurately, she typed up the email to
Priscilla, the organizer of the Greater Area Sissies:
---
Dear Priscilla,
I deeply apologize for my children's conduct. I had only been thinking
of my son when I set up the meeting with Angeline and I did not realize
that my daughter might have some issues as well. I know that you are
upset with me and my husband for what occurred and that you have every
right to be angry. However, I believe that we can settle this issue in a
constructive way. If you are willing to assist and provide space, I
believe that the Greater Area Sissies have the resources, tools, and
ability to provide guidance and care for our older children in a safe
and secure environment where they can be allowed to live as young,
cared-for children, rather than remain at risk of hurting themselves or
our family in the presence of harmful influences, and I think we can
both agree that some time in diapers and dresses is better than the path
they are on now! I would be willing to pay as much as is required for
this service.
With love,
Jodi
---
She was delighted to get a reply within half an hour, but she was less
delighted to have read it.
---
What is WRONG WITH YOU you??????
You obviously have no idea how much trouble you might be in, and you
certainly don't have any regard for how much trouble you and
Jacob/Melanie could get the rest of us in!! You've destroyed us this
year, maybe forever,... People here are terrified that they're going to
lose their kids!!! I had three cancellations NOT COUNTING JACOB/MELANIE
AND YOU!!!
SAFE, SANE, CONSENSUAL. Have you forgotten those? You know that I am in
favor of children being allowed to explore their identities in a SAFE,
SANE, AND CONSENSUAL way (as well as being non sexual). I had thought
that Jacob's stunt with his MINOR daughter was borderline, but now I
know it was about to go way over. Get on your knees and THANK your
daughter for doing what she did. You and a lot of other people could be
in PRISON right now if she didn't stop it quickly. We could be on CNN,
can you imagine the headlines, I can!!!
What you have just proposed in your last E-mail is so far over the line
in disregarding basic SSC that I can't even see straight. If I didn't
know you, I would say this was a joke or roleplay. I can't believe I
need to spell this out for you, Jodi: Sissification, BDSM, or ANY other
fetish must NEVER be used as a punishment for minors, regardless of ANY
acts they may have committed. IT DOESN'T MATTER WHAT THEY DID!!! IT IS
CHILD ABUSE!!!
Existing Residential Treatment Centers are already bad enough!! If you
knew what you were asking for, you would not be asking for it,!!!! No
one is going to establish one to sissify your MINOR son or daughter,not
me or anyone else.
I am going to give you the benefit of the doubt in assuming that you
have not taken any concrete steps towards this and that most of what
happened yesterday was the result of a mistake by Melanie and Jacob's
MINOR daughter. If you commit any acts of this or any similar nature
towards anyone who is not 18 years of age I WILL call Child Protective
Services and i can't imagine they wouldn't press charges,. I am
currently considering whether to call them now. Respond immediately if
you understand,.
_____________________
Princess Priscilla the Pink Principal
Domme, Sub, Sister, Lover.
Queen of the Greater Area Sissies
"The only things holding us back from the stars are ourselves."
---
Jodi stared at the screen for a couple of minutes, her eyes unfocused.
She looked at all the disconnected commas and suspected, correctly, that
Priscilla, who she had respected for a long time as a paragon of
submissive, if switchy, males, had deleted a lot of vulgar insults when
composing that email. But Priscilla had always approved of what she was
trying to do over Tommy's life, they'd talked about all the other times
before, she'd even told her a little about she hoped that Angeline would
take good care of her little boys, so why the massive overreaction?!
It did not take Jodi long to make a guess as to why: because those were
spoken conversations, and this was an email that might one day be read
by someone else. Jodi's gut wrenched as she realized that someone she
thought was her friend was cutting ties and throwing her under the bus.
One more friend lost. Why did everyone hate her? Was what she was doing
so bad? Was it so wrong to want to give her sons the life she knew they
deserved, and stop her children from acting out in a compassionate way?
Was wanting to teach her children how to be kind and gentle so terrible?
She was starting to get the idea that maybe, just maybe, she was the one
with the problem.
She realized that the email had not been an idle threat; she had to send
a reply immediately, or she really was going to be in for a world of
trouble, and she typed very quickly:
---
I deeply apologize. I did not know that Jacob's daughter was going to
take things that far. In my last email I was emotional and not thinking
clearly. I understand the rules of SSC and I will not attempt to use
sissification or BDSM on any of my children.
Jodi
---
The terse reply came back in a few minutes:
---
Message received.
Seek therapy, Jodi. Your children might need therapy after this as well.
The meetup is canceled. No one is in the mood to talk about anything
else. That means refunds for everyone, even you and Jacob. Give the
money to your children.
I just got done convincing Herbert not to refer your crazy email to the
DA's office. You're welcome.
Never, ever communicate, in any way, with any of us again.
_____________________
Princess Priscilla the Pink Principal
Domme, Sub, Sister, Lover.
Queen of the Greater Area Sissies
"The only things holding us back from the stars are ourselves."
---
Despite the lack of telltale commas, Jodi was very sure that there was
more than one deleted expletive that time. She knew Herbert; he'd been
in the Greater Area Sissies for years, and he was some kind of lawyer in
his professional life. And now he was treating her like a criminal, too.
Everyone was, even her children. Slowly, the tears welled up, and she
contemplatively looked at her husband, who was busy taking pictures of
the gun and its safe in order to sell them online at fire sale prices.
He had to get rid of it. There were at least three people in that house
who might wind up using it on him and his wife, and one of them was
himself.
Looking at what had become of her, her husband, and her children, Jodi
cried herself to sleep, and her husband, having been forwarded the email
chain by Priscilla, did not comfort her.
The next morning's breakfast went the same as the previous day's, only
with Jodi listlessly going through the motions. Even Molly could tell
that she was simply done. She kept watching the clock, even as she
finished the laundry, and she dully told her husband "I'm taking the
kids shopping," once it reached 10:45 and she'd get to the mall when it
opened. Her husband closely looked at her. "Just... shopping. The mall,
Walmart, K-Mart, whatever they need. We've got an extra three thousand
dollars lying around." Walter nodded and said nothing. She managed to
pull her son away from WWZ (Nate watching eagerly) and her daughter away
from Stardew Valley when she told them where they were going, and,
fortunately for her severely battered mental health, they readily
agreed. They all wore the freshly washed zoo shirts they had worn the
previous day; even Tamara dressed Molly in hers. For Thomas and Tamara,
those shirts represented triumph, and Nate just liked the shirt.
As Jodi drove, Thomas, in the front seat, was looking at the windows and
occasionally glancing at the parking brake. If she made a wrong turn, he
would yank it, possibly causing an accident, but one look at his face
showed that he was long past the point of caring. Walter had been right:
she really had lost all her children's trust. She pursed her lips and
forced herself to remain calm. It wouldn't do for her to start crying
while going forty miles an hour down the expressway.
But she did drive them to the mall, safely and directly, and as she
parked the SUV in the space, she said, "Listen. You have three thousand
dollars for all four of you. Don't spend it all on video games. This
isn't just for stuff you want. Think about what Nate needs and what
Molly needs." She didn't trust herself to do it, anymore, and almost
cried right there on realizing it.
"I just want a bike," Thomas said immediately. Her mother had never
bought him one that didn't have training wheels. She'd kept on telling
him 'you have a bike' even after he'd outgrown it and Nate had started
using it. Before two days ago, he'd never understood why she did things
like that.
"I want one too," Tamara added. She hadn't been interested in biking,
but she was very interested in staying by her twin's side.
"Okay, then that's where we'll go first." One of the mall anchors was a
sporting goods store, and it was the season for it. The bicycle salesman
knew his craft, and he'd also noticed that the family was stressed out,
but Jodi worked in HR, and pretending not to be upset in front of
strangers was a skill she'd mastered a long time ago. They got identical
black bikes and Thomas learned what he'd need to unscrew the training
wheels on his old bike that was now Nate's. Those went into the SUV
before they went to the local Gamestop, and they found three Switch
games, one of which was Diablo 3. Under normal circumstances, the clerk
would have said something about that last one being an M-rated game, but
he'd seen a lot of families come and go over his time working there, and
he had the very acute, very correct impression that they'd all been
through much worse things very recently. Knowing when to keep his mouth
shut was why he had been made assistant manager.
Then they went into the Target for clothes, and Jodi chewed her lip in
silence as Tamara actually helped her brother pick out decent-quality
boys' stuff, with dark colors and cool symbols and plenty of pockets,
then picked nearly identical things for herself - her body wouldn't be
'junior miss' shaped for a couple of years - and then she went to pick
for Nate and Molly as well, and the selection was such that the little
boy was able to look just like his cool older brother, whom he saw as
the ultimate pinnacle of humanity by that point. There were roller shoes
there as well, and Nate wanted them just like the twins did. Jodi
stepped forward with a concerned expression, but a single, narrow-eyed
look from the twins made her back off. She didn't have the right to call
herself their mother anymore.
As her children slowly rolled through the aisles in their new shoes,
talking about the stuff they didn't have and what Tamara thought her
brother ought to look like, an overwhelming wave of guilt washed over
her. Why had she done that to him? Why had she even wanted to do that to
any of them? Pretending to want to try on something herself, she picked
up a shirt from the women's section, went into the fitting room, and
quietly sobbed in shame.
The kids didn't even touch their new video games when they got home.
They were too busy playing outside with their new soccer ball in their
cool clothes, as Nate tried to teach himself to back-flip on soft grass
(he almost got it once!) and Molly explored the backyard in her brand
new overalls. Then the three older kids learned how to bike, the hard
and slow way, after Walter had dislodged the training wheels from Nate's
bicycle. They fell over and got dirty, but what did they care? They were
children.
Monday.
Tamara and Thomas' parents were at work by the time they got up, as
their parents really didn't want to wake either of them up anymore, and
they were still a bit sore from running around and learning how to ride
bicycles all day yesterday. The distance learning coursework was easy,
just as Friday's had been, and the twins got it out of the way quickly;
the only online class would be later that afternoon. And then Molly
asked to go potty and Nate asked Tom how to play Fortnite, but it wasn't
long at all before he got the hang of the basics and Tom was just
watching rather than offering advice. A few minutes later, Tamara
knocked on his door gently. "Hey, Tom, you want to play Diablo 3?" she
asked, smiling.
"Sure," he replied.
"And do you want one?" she asked, still smiling, and he gasped looking
at what she was holding. She held patterned pink and lilac tights,
lightweight, matching frilly dresses with lots of ruffles around the
skirts and big hearts on the chests, and matching Alice headbands in
each arm. These were from the suitcase, surely meant to be worn with
petticoats or other restrictions underneath, but he would not be wearing
those; he wouldn't even be wearing shoes, as why would he want to wear
them indoors?
Thomas blinked a few times in surprise, but this wasn't someone trying
to confine him or drug him or control him or turn him into something he
wasn't, this was his sister, someone he loved and trusted very much, and
she was giving him the opportunity to do something he wanted with her.
Smiling, blushing a little bit, knowing that she would never make fun of
him for it, he accepted the pink set and went into the bathroom to
change.
When he emerged, the pink heart prominent on his chest, the Alice band
gently snug on his head, and the light silk fluttering below his
comfortably tights-clad knees, she came out of her room as well, wearing
the matching lilac set and giggling just a little bit. She buttoned up
the back of his pretty dress, and he buttoned up hers. Hand in hand,
safe and happy, the twins bounded down the stairs to have fun together.