Diary of a Young Slut Ch 01
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This Diary is the property of Sally Straw
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May 5: Dear Diary, I'm ten today! Can you believe it? I don't feel any different and I sure don't look different. I'm almost done with fourth grade. I'm so sick of Mrs. Beaner that I can't stand it any more. Fifth grade should be so much cooler. I hope I start to 'develop' before then. I think I'd like to have a boyfriend y'know?
May 15: Dear Diary, I'm soooo jealous! Tammy Winter is starting to grow boobs already. And of course she had to make sure everybody in school saw them. She was wearing a t-shirt that I swear was about four sizes too small and she spent all day sticking her chest out. Of course all the boys were staring at her all day too. They're so disgusting. I bet she's going to need a bra before the end of summer. This sucks.
May 17: Dear Diary, this sucks! Mom and Dad just told me that they're shipping me off to HICKSVILLE UNTIL THE MIDDLE OF JULY!! My stupid Aunt Jane and Uncle Jack live on a dumb farm in NEBRASKA. I mean, the last time I saw them I was like, 5. My cousin, Jack, is already like 13 or something but he was a total dweeb from what I remember. Now I'm not going to be able to hang out with my friends, swim, or anything else all summer long. I'm going to be stuck on that stupid farm and have to do CHORES! My parents hate me. My life sucks.
May 20: Dear Diary, LAST DAY OF SCHOOL! That part is really cool. But things still suck. Billy Cruise finally said HI to me! He is soooo cute. He even said we should hang out together some this summer! And I'm getting sent off to NEBRASKA instead. Now he's going to hang out with that slut Tammy Winter instead, I know it and I'm going to be totally nobody next year.
May 25: Dear Diary, I need to write more. I should be able to this summer since I'm not going to be doing anything else - assuming I don't die from all the stupid farm chores I have to do from sunrise to sunset all day long. Maybe I'll still have enough energy to write.
May 28: Dear Diary, Well, I've arrived in HICKSVILLE. This place is freaking HUGE. I swear we were driving through the farm for an hour before we got to the house. And my cousin is a stone FOX! This might not be all bad. There are horses I can learn to ride, lots of cats, and a swimming hole too! Maybe Jack will want to hang out some. Aunt Jane and Uncle Jack seem pretty cool too. I've got my own room and the chores I have to do don't sound too bad.
May 29: Dear Diary, OMG, they wake up freaking EARLY here! It wasn't even daylight yet and Uncle Jack was knocking on my door. I had to get up, make my bed, and then sweep the whole house and of COURSE everyone tracked in a ton of dirt when they came in from their chores so I had to do it all again this afternoon. And I got stuck doing the dishes too, which is really gross - everyone's half-chewed food all over their plates. NASTY!
June 1: Dear Diary, I don't think I'll ever get used to getting up this early. Still, once everything is swept and cleaned, I get the day to myself. Cousin Jack is incredibly hot. We haven't gotten to talk much yet though - he's been doing all sorts of really hard work on the farm. He has to feed all the animals (there are horses, cows, chickens, and even some pigs!) and he gets to DRIVE! There are a couple of old trucks and a tractor that he gets to drive when he's doing his chores. He said he'd take me for a ride some time - I'd like to ride HIM! OMG I can't believe I just wrote that! I'm so nasty! :)
June 2: Dear Diary, I got to meet a boy who's my age today. His name is Johnny and he lives next door - which is about as far away as the next county out here. Still, he seems pretty nice and we had fun talking about all sorts of stuff. He's kinda cute too, but nowhere near as good looking as Jack. He's got really light blonde hair and really pretty blue eyes and a really nice smile. He says he's Swedish and his last name is Johansson, so I guess that must be right. I think my name is English or something lame like that. Anyway, we talked a lot today. When I got home, Jack was finishing his chores and he said he might take me SWIMMING tomorrow! I wish I had a two-piece suit. This one-piece looks like something a five year old would wear.
June 3: Dear Diary, OMG! OMG! OMG! Jack is so totally hot I cannot believe it! We got done with our chores early today and we got to go swimming! I got changed into my (totally lame!) swimsuit and put my shorts and a t-shirt on over it and Jack and I walked down to the swimming hole. It's about two miles away - and is STILL on his farm! It's set back in these woods and it's about the size of a couple of swimming pools put together, but kinda shallow. It gets to about 5' in the very middle, but it's hard to tell 'cause the water is kinda muddy. Anyway, we got down there and put our towels down and Jack asked me if I had my suit on - I told him I did and he kinda laughed and said that when it was just him and his friends they SKINNY-DIPPED! I think I blushed 'cause he told me not to worry that he had on a swimsuit and laughed. I thought I was going to die. I wonder what he looks like naked? I bet his thing is really big - he's got great muscles too and hair on his legs! Janey told me that she saw her brother's thing once and she said it was HUGE and had hair on it and everything. I bet it looks like a boy-dog's or something. That would be kinda gross though. If anyone reads this I am SO going to die. Anyway, he was wearing Jams, which looked really hot on him. You could kinda see where his thing was and his butt is totally cute. So we were swimming and splashing and stuff, and I found the deep part and went under - I was so surprised! I came up spluttering and went right back down again and all of a sudden Jack was there and he grabbed me and pulled me up next to him. It was almost like we were hugging. Anyway, I wrapped my legs around him so I could get some air, and he just held me like that. It was sooooo cool. I wonder if that's what sex is like? He's so strong - God I wonder if he'd ever kiss me? I don't even know how to kiss! Anyway, after he held me for a little bit, I felt something hard poking me in the butt - I think it was his thing! I got so embarrassed that I got down and everything, and then I wanted to see if you know, there was a bulge or something, but he wouldn't get out of the water for a bit. I think it was. Wouldn't that be cool if I made his thing get hard? I bet that looks cool.
June 4: Dear Diary, I didn't get to see Jack today, but Johnny and I got to hang out all day. I met his parents and saw his farm - which is about as big as Uncle Jack's. There's all this corn they plant everywhere. We played tag and hide and seek and stuff, which was cool. I told him about the swimming hole and he knows about it - I guess he swims there sometimes so he's going to come over tomorrow and we're going to swim together. I wish it was Jack again. :( I wonder if Jack would Skinny Dip with me? I don't know if I could - I'd probably die of embarrassment and I'm so undeveloped it's just awful. Maybe Johnny would! Ha! Ha!
June 5: Dear Diary, You are NOT going to believe this. I have no idea what got into me. I got to see Johnny Johansson naked and I let him see ME naked. I am so going to curl up and die. We went swimming like I said yesterday, right? Well, we were splashing around a bit and I thought it would be funny to you know, kinda pull his swimsuit down some. The string broke and they came right down his legs! We were only in up to our knees and there I am staring RIGHT AT HIS THING! OMG, It looks so cool, but it was SMALL! And there was this little bag of skin kinda tucked under his thing - anyway, he just stood there! I thought he'd pull them up right away or something, but he just asked "So? You wanted to see it, what do you think?" I don't even know what I think! I said something like "Pretty cool." 'cause it was. That was the first one I've ever seen! And he just said "Well aren't you going to take yours off? We can skinny-dip." I told him "Yeah, right." And he said "Hey, you're the one who pulled MY pants off - it's only fair I get to see you too." That seemed right, so why not, right? So I did! I took my swimsuit off and was standing there bare naked in front of him! He tossed his up on the bank, so I did too and we went back to swimming. That was weird, but after a couple of minutes, I kinda forgot we were naked. We played around a lot and splashed each other and stuff and then we got our stuff back on. I watched him get dressed - it was cool. I know he watched me get dressed. I wonder what he thought? I wonder what it feels like? I bet Jack's is bigger and I bet it looks a lot cooler.
June 6: Dear Diary, I went skinny-dipping with Johnny again today. We stayed out about 3 HOURS too! AND I GOT MY FIRST KISS! It sure wasn't what I expected - and it was way cooler than I thought it would be. Anyway, we met up this afternoon to go swimming again and when we got to the swimming hole Johnny just said "Do you even want to bother with swimsuits? I like swimming naked a lot better." I didn't say anything so he just started stripping down. All of a sudden, he was naked again. Wow guys look cool naked. His thing looked bigger today too. So he's just staring at me and says "Well? Or are you going to be a sissy and keep your suit on? It's not like I haven't seen you naked." That made sense, so I took my clothes off. It felt really weird with him just staring at me the whole time. No one's ever seen me naked before - well other than him for a little bit yesterday - and here he is just watching me. He didn't say anything either. I was wondering if he thought I looked weird or ugly or something. But we swam for a while and we were splashing around and stuff and all of a sudden he grabbed me and just kinda held me. He looked at me and I just knew he was going to kiss me - sure enough, he kinda leaned in and BASHED MY NOSE! LOL! We kinda turned our heads and then he did it - he kissed me. His lips were so warm and soft and WOW! I didn't know what to do or anything, but we just kinda stood there with him holding me and our lips touching. I'm glad he was holding me, 'cause I think I woulda fallen over it felt so good. After a little bit he kinda leaned back and told me he thought I was really pretty. WOW! Then he kissed me AGAIN! And he said I was a good kisser. I told him I thought he was too, but he was my FIRST KISS EVER! And he said he'd kissed a few girls but I was the best. Then I remembered we were NAKED! I was standing there bare naked with a bare naked boy kissing me! Sure wasn't what I thought it would be! LOL But it was nice. Anyway, We played around a bit more - and he kissed me a BUNCH more! I love looking at his thing when he stands there. It bounces around a lot when he runs or stuff. I wonder what it feels like? I'd think it would just get in the way when they run. I wonder what it would be like to kiss Jack? Anyway, we got dressed and went home. Talk about an adventure!
June 7: Dear Diary, I AM IN HEAVEN!!!! I got to hang out with Jack today ALL day! I followed him around the farm and helped with his chores. He's REALLY strong! He can move these big bales of hay and all this heavy food and stuff that I can't even lift. He is Sooooo sexy too. I wish it were HIM that kissed me and was naked with me and stuff. Johnny is pretty cool, but Jack is just awesome. Anyway, we talked a lot. He told me that he doesn't have a girlfriend - he used to, but he dumped her because she was a 'tease'. I thought he really doesn't like people poking fun at him or something and told him that she was probably just being funny and he laughed and said "Not that kinda tease." So I asked him what he meant and he looked at me all funny and stuff and then he asked "Do you know what a cock is?" I said, "Sure, it's a boy chicken." He laughed and then told me that it's another word for a GUY'S THING! He said that it's called a dick too. And then he said that his girlfriend would do stuff with him, but never let him 'get off'. I had to ask what that meant and he just shrugged and said that it meant coming - And before I could even ask he said that when a guy gets really excited with a girl that he really likes, his dick shoots white stuff out the end!!! He said it feels really good and his ex-girlfriend would let him get really excited and then not let him shoot his stuff, so that made her a cock teaser. I told him I thought that was really unfair and that she didn't sound very nice. He said that's why he dumped her. I told him that I wouldn't ever be a tease. I sure wouldn't with Jack - I'd let him do anything he wanted to. I think I'd even let him stick his thing - his dick - up inside me. That would be really weird. I wonder how people really do that? What does it feel like? Johnny's thing seems pretty big to me, I bet Jack's is even bigger - Would it really fit inside me? Would he ever even want to? I think the white stuff is the stuff that makes babies inside a girl.
June 8: Dear Diary, We had a really big thunderstorm last night - it was SCARY! Lightning was everywhere and the thunder was just booming constantly. I got so scared I went over to Jack's room to talk with him even though it was after midnight. He was really cool and let me in. Here's the really cool part - I started to get into bed with him and he told me that I shouldn't because HE SLEEPS NAKED! OMG! I said that I was so scared I didn't MIND!! So I just hopped into bed with him, even though I didn't really get to see anything. He was so sweet! He just held me and we talked and talked while the storm was going on. He was stroking my hair too, and that felt sooo nice. I wanted to just spend the night right there, but when I started getting sleepy, he - you are not going to believe this - KISSED ME!!!!! And told me that I should get back to my room. He is SUCH a good kisser! I thought I was going to pass out, even though it was just a short little kiss. If anybody reads this I am so going to kill myself. Anyway, right after he kissed me, I started getting SO wet down there it's not even funny. I got out of his bed really fast so that I didn't make him think I just wet the bed or something! I hope he kisses me again.
June 9: Dear Diary, I think I'm finally starting to develop!!!! The other night after Jack kissed me I went back to my bed and. Please God don't ever let anyone read this! I kinda touched myself down there, pretending it was Jack. It felt so good! I even started to rub my chest some you know? And my boobs felt REALLY sensitive and they felt kinda puffy. I think they're starting to grow! So anyway, this morning in the shower, I was washing down there and I'm sure I felt some hair! I spent all day with Uncle Jack and Aunt Jane. We drove into town and shopped for a whole bunch of stuff. I was kinda bummed as I was hoping to spend more time with Jack.
June 10: Dear Diary, Another boring day. It rained all day today so we stayed in the house and did chores around the house and played cards and stuff.
June 11: Dear Diary, I snuck into Jack's room again last night. He just smiled and told me to wait a second - he got out of bed and he was NAKED! I could barely see, but his thing - his dick - is HUGE! And it's got hair all over it and everything! He pulled on some sweatpants really fast, and then we snuck out to the hay barn. We stayed out there for a couple of hours just talking and stuff. That was the most romantic thing that has ever happened to me in my entire life! He was sitting behind me and I was sitting between his legs and his arms were wrapped around me to keep me warm. I wish I could spend forever like that. He even kissed me again - a REAL kiss this time! - just before we went back into our rooms. I love Jack!!! We didn't do much of anything again today. Uncle Jack and Aunt Jane had all sorts of chores for us to do, so I didn't even get to see Johnny today.
June 12: Dear Diary, Jack is just so easy to talk to - I want to marry him. We snuck out into the barn again last night and just talked. He asked me if I had a boyfriend and I said no, nobody was interested (Johnny doesn't count). He said he couldn't believe that and said that he thought I was PRETTY!!! I said that I didn't think so, and he gave me the longest, sexiest kiss ever! I was TOTALLY wet down there when he finished and I KNOW his dick was hard - I could see the bulge in his sweatpants! It was H U G E! There is no way that would ever fit inside someone. I wish I could really see it some time. Anyway, when I went back to bed, I rubbed myself again. That is so embarrassing, but it feels soo good! I wish Jack would touch me like that, but he'd probably think it was gross. Anyway, Johnny came over again today, but we didn't go swimming. We just hung around the house and talked a lot. He's really nice. If I weren't in love with Jack, I think I'd be in love with him. He's cute too. But Jack is just WOW! Nothing really interesting happened all day today though... What could top last night?
June 13: Dear Diary, This has been the best summer EVER! You are NOT going to believe this, but I got to touch a guy's dick! It was Johnny's (I wish it was Jack's!), but it is the coolest thing in the world. Here's how it happened - Johnny came over again today and we went swimming - naked as always. That is just so cool. I hang out naked with a guy! Anyway, we got a little cold so we got out to lie in the grass in the sun and warm up. He thing looked really small - a lot smaller than it looked before we went swimming, and I asked him why it did that. He said that guys' dicks always shrunk when they got cold - I thought that was pretty cool. So, I'm kinda leaning up on one elbow just staring at his dick - I can't believe I did that! And he asked me if I wanted to touch it! So I just reached over and grabbed it! Well, not like hard or anything. It's SOFT! It feels almost silky, and warm. I asked him what that little bag was under his dick and he said it was his 'balls' - or 'nuts'. I've always heard that if you kick a guy in the nuts it really hurts, now I know why! There's these little hard balls inside that are really sensitive. If you squeeze 'em too hard or if you kick 'em, it HURTS. Now here's the really cool part - IT GOT HARD! After I checked out his balls, I went back to his dick. It's got this little cap on the end like a hat, and a little slit in the end - he said guys pee out of that. Yuck! But the long part under the cap is so smooth and soft and warm - I was just kinda running my hand up and down it and all of a sudden it started to just get big! I couldn't believe it. He had his eyes closed - I looked! So I just held it and it got all big and stiff and HARD. Sort of - the skin was still really soft, but the inside was like a rock. It gets really HOT too. I think I played with his dick for about ten minutes - I kept wondering if he was going to shoot white stuff, but I guess he doesn't like me like that or something, 'cause nothing happened. He started moaning and stuff, so I stopped - I thought I was hurting him. He said it felt really good though. Right about then, I figured we had to get back before someone came looking for us.
June 14: Dear Diary, Jack and I spend an hour or two out in the barn talking almost every night - I think I like that part of the day best. I just sit between his legs and lean against his chest and he holds me and we talk about everything. He's just so wonderful. I can ask him anything and he doesn't laugh - well not like a mean laugh - or anything and he'll always answer me. I love Jack. I love Jack. I love Jack. Jack And Sally - That sounds nice, doesn't it? I wish I could get him to love me too. Tomorrow is going to be boring. We're all going to some auction or something stupid like that.
June 15: Dear Diary, Long boring day today. TOTALLY AMAZING NIGHT LAST NIGHT! I think guys' dicks are the coolest things in the world - I've seen TWO now - and touched two too! I wonder how many I'll see in my whole life? I'm going to collect dicks, I think. I'll keep count of like, how many I've seen, and how many I've touched. And guess what? I think Jack loves me too! HE SHOT WHITE STUFF!!! We were out in the barn talking again, I think it was like midnight or something. But we were just talking and he was holding me like always, and all of a sudden, I could feel his thing getting hard behind me! I kinda pushed my back onto it so I could see what it felt like, and he sorta squirmed. So I just flat out asked him - He's so easy to talk to, I figured he wouldn't get angry or anything. I said "Is that your dick?" He said it was, and I pushed back on it again and asked him if it was getting hard. He said "Yah, sorry. I can't really help it." I told him "I don't mind. Is it really big?" (It felt huge!) And he asked me if I wanted to see it! So I said I did and - he just stood up and pulled off his sweatpants! There it was - My god it is just the most beautiful thing in the world. His nuts are really, really big - especially compared to Johnny's, and they've got hair all over them. His dick was sticking way up in the air, I swear it's got to be almost 4", maybe 5" long and like an inch across! And it's got hair all around the bottom of it and up on his tummy and it bobs a little bit too. It's a really dark color, like purple almost or a deep red. Johnny's just looks like the rest of him. So I asked him if I could touch it and he said I could! I am SO in heaven! I just started feeling it all over - the hair is crinkly and scratchy, but it's cool. It's kinda weird too, 'cause Jack has brown hair but the hair down there was black. Anyway, his nuts are HEAVY too. Jack was just watching me touch him all over down there and he asked me if I wanted to make him feel really good - Well DUH! So I said, sure! He told me to wrap my hand around his dick and just kinda move it up and down. It was really, really cool - His thing is hot, and the soft skin just sorta slides up and down along the really hard part - but you have to be careful. If my hand slips up it rubs the little cap part too hard and he said that hurts. So I'm just sliding my hand up and down his dick and he's moaning and telling me how good it feels. He's moving his hips like he's trying to push his dick into my hand and all of a sudden he says - really loud, almost a shout - "Oh Sally! I'm COMING!" and his dick got even BIGGER, and I saw his nuts sort of suck up like they were trying to go up in his tummy, and I could feel this, like tube or something on the bottom start pulsing and then here it comes! White stuff! The first little bit kinda flew out and hit me on my arm and then it just like, dribbled out. It's really, really thick and sticky but it smells really, really good. Strong, but good - it made me even wetter down there and I was already really wet from playing with Jack's dick. He shot out about 10 or 15 shots and it got all over my hand and was really slippery too which is weird. So he's just sort of panting and he tells me to stop, that it's so sensitive after he comes that he can't stand it. So I stopped and was looking at his stuff on my hand - I didn't know what to do with it! He smiled at me and grabbed an old rag and wiped my hand and my arm off and gave me the best kiss I've ever had - not that I've had a lot, but this was incredible! He said that his girlfriend never did that for him - he called it 'jacking him off' - I thought that was funny 'cause his name is Jack - and that maybe he should think about having ME as his girlfriend! He said he was really tired so we went back to bed - I rubbed myself again and pretended it was Jack. I hope I get to do that to him more.
June 16: Dear Diary, More storms all day today, so we all just hung around the house. Uncle Jack and Aunt Jane were up really late so I didn't even get to see Jack in the barn last night. :(
June 17: Dear Diary, Where do I start?? Last night Jack let me jack him off again - and he shot more white stuff on me! He even FRENCH KISSED ME!!! He loves me! He loves me! He loves me!!! We went to bed right after that - he says that when a guy comes (that's what he means when a guy shoots his white stuff) it's really tiring. But he gave me this really long kiss, and all of a sudden I felt his tongue pushing into my mouth. I didn't know what to do, so I just opened my mouth and swoosh! Here his tongue is in my mouth! It is the most amazing feeling in the world, he was like, stroking my tongue with his and we bumped teeth a bunch, but I didn't mind... I was so wet, and so turned on. It's probably a good thing we went to bed because I'd let him do anything he wanted to me. I don't care if he puts a baby in me with his thing, even. This has been the best summer of my life! We spent all day and most of the afternoon doing chores, but when we got done, I went over to Johnny's house and we played out in the cornfields. That was cool - We got way out in the fields and the corn is tall enough that if you crouch down a bit you just disappear. We played hide and seek and had a great time. When we were kinda tired, Johnny asked me if I would play with his dick again and I said SURE! I wanted to see HIM shoot white stuff - but like I said, maybe he doesn't like me like that. SO anyway, right there in the field, he just pulls his pants and his underpants down. I swear, guys' dicks look different every single day. They feel so good though - I love touching them - they're so silky and soft and then when they get hard it is the coolest thing in the world. It's totally amazing feeling them get all hard in your hand. So I start playing with his dick and He's moaning and stuff, so I figure I'll jack him off and see if he squirts - So I start rubbing his dick up and down and he tells me that it's wonderful and amazing and he can't believe it. I thought he was going to squirt because his nuts sort of sucked up like Jack's did before he shot his stuff and he was pushing his dick into my hand and stuff and then he sorta stopped and he just shuddered. And he told me that I should stop, but no white stuff. :( Anyway, what a great day!! I'm going to get ready for bed so I can go out to the barn with Jack in a couple of hours. I hope Uncle Jack and Aunt Jane go to bed soon.
June 18: Dear Diary, I KNOW JACK LOVES ME!!! Today was boring, nothing happened, but last night I think I died and went to heaven. We snuck out to the barn again and we talked for a bit - I told Jack how much I loved talking with him and how I thought he was the coolest guy in the world, and he gives me this wonderful kiss and even frenched me again! My panties were so wet I felt like I'd peed myself. Anyway, all of a sudden, I feel him start to unbutton my nightshirt! (I sleep in an old dress-shirt of my Dad's). He doesn't even stop kissing me - really fast he had it all the way unbuttoned and he starts rubbing his hand on my tummy. Oh my GOD that felt good! I felt like I was just getting a little shock every time he moved his hand. And he was just petting my tummy and he slid his hand up and put it RIGHT ON MY BOOB! Well, what there is of one. But it's so sensitive! And he was just really softly petting my nipple. I had to stop kissing him because I couldn't get my breath, right? And while I'm trying to get so I can breathe again, I almost died. He put his mouth right on my nipple and started to suck!!!!!! I wonder if that's what it feels like with a baby? God, if it is, I want to have a dozen! I just started stroking his hair and he was moving his tongue all over my nipple and my little boob and oh my GOD - My panties were pretty well dripping by now. I thought I was going to explode! He stopped, and asked me if I'd jack him off again and I said oh YEAH! So he pulls his sweatpants off and I start rubbing his dick - and then I got an idea, I started rubbing HIS tummy with my other hand! He really seemed to like that, he was moaning a lot and sure enough, here it comes! I love watching him squirt - His dick gets bigger and his nuts get all tight and small and then it starts twitching and throbbing and gets even hotter. I think his stuff is really cool too. So anyway, we went to bed right after that and I put on new panties after I rubbed myself down there again. Tomorrow we leave for some place in Kansas for 3 days for some sort of farm thing. That's going to suck. I won't get to see Johnny and I won't be able to play with Jack either. :(
June 22: Dear Diary, We're back from Kansas - Finally. It's really late and we're all going to bed. No Jack tonight. :(
June 23: Dear Diary, Jack wasn't feeling well last night, so we didn't talk at all.:( Today though, I went swimming with Johnny again and the coolest thing in the world happened! So, I figure I'm going to get to play with Johnny's dick again, like always. We were naked, of course, and when we got out of the swimming hole, we were laying on the grass. So I reach over and start playing with his dick, right? He sits up on his elbows and asks me if he can see me down there. I'm like, "Can't you see me now?" And he went "Not really. I can just see a little bit. Can I really get a good look?" I asked, "How?" And he said, "just spread your legs and let me look at you up close." So I DID! Wow, that felt really weird. I'm just laying there with my legs open and he gets right down between my thighs - I was a little scared. But he just looks, and then he put his hand out and started just petting me there, almost like I do when I rub myself down there. Oh MAN. He started out on the outside and I knew I was getting really wet - and sure enough, he started petting the inside - he touched my little bump a couple of times and I had to tell him to stop because that was so sensitive it hurt a little bit. But anyway, he keeps rubbing lower and lower and lower, and I'm just squirming because it feels so good. And all of a sudden, he's right at my girl-hole. Oh WOW! He's just rubbing and then I felt him start trying to push his finger in me!! I told him to stop right then - I've never pushed anything up in me. I don't even know what would happen, so he stopped, which I thought was nice, and he went back to rubbing all over - and it was feeling better and better and better and then I popped! I think that's a come for girls, but it felt soo good! I was just moving my hips all over and I couldn't catch my breath or anything. When I finally got my breath, we got dressed and headed back home. I didn't even get to play with his dick. Maybe he'll do that to me again. Maybe JACK will!
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Dear diary today is April 1 and Last night I was very, very . I met this guy last night at the store and he was just drop dead gorgeous. He asked if I wanted to go for a drink and I said sex being cute. We had a couple of drinks and then we walked out back of the place. We were both hot and horny from all of the kissing we did inside. He had me up against the wall my hands were in his one large hand behind my back and then other his hand was up under my skirt and rip went my thong, his hand was...
InterracialOctober 13 Dear Diary, A truly incredible thing happened to me the other day, so mush so that I'm still a little shaken when I think back on it!!! It was early Saturday morning when my door bell rang and standing outside my door was Bonnie Jenkins and a girl I had never seen before! Bonnie asked if they could come in for a few minutes, and even though I was still in my bathrobe I said "sure" and invited them inside. It was then that I really got to give the other girl the once over, and to say...
FetishThe doorbell then decided to ring. I walked to the door, frowning in wonder as to who that may be, since no one I knew lived around and I didn’t know anyone from around. Looking through the peephole, I saw a sweet looking blonde woman with sparkling green eyes, standing with her hands tucked into a tight pair of jeans, waiting. I smiled and straightened out my clothes. I didn’t mind getting to know that cute blonde though. I opened the door and smiled in greeting, ‘Hi. May I help you?’ I...
(Chapter Q) My right leg was on floor and my son put my left leg on table. Within a fraction of second, I opened in front of my son. Material of V-String was so less, that both lips of my crack goes out of panty. As if moon came out from cover of clouds. A faint sound erupted from my son’s gullet- Maaaaaaa. My little baby licked his dried lips and with faint voice ordered me to put hands back of my head. With his quivering hands, he attacks on my crack with camera. As a true (un)professional he...
IncestThe doorbell then decided to ring. I walked to the door, frowning in wonder as to who that may be, since no one I knew lived around and I didn't know anyone from around. Looking through the peephole, I saw a sweet looking blonde woman with sparkling green eyes, standing with her hands tucked into a tight pair of jeans, waiting. I smiled and straightened out my clothes. I didn't mind getting to know that cute blonde though. I opened the door and smiled in greeting, "Hi. May I help you?" I asked...
12th FebruaryI bought James the most amazing present today. Had to nip out at 11.00 to Bond Street to get it. It wasn’t worth wasting a lunch break on, and James might have got suspicious if I made an excuse to miss our ‘fun time’ together. Thank god I can come and go as I please at work. It’s not as if the boss is going to tell me off lol, and nobody else dares. They are perfect for him. Ivory cufflinks, with a small, subtle ‘£’ etched into the pearly square. He’s going to love them....
Office SexDear Doctor Lewis, I am sending you my diary like you asked me in our session the other day. It goes back about three months. That's when I got it for my fifteenth birthday from my Mom, who lives in Arizona. I thought it would be neat for me to write some of the things that happened to me each day in it. Somedays, I forgot to write though. My Daddy says that it is a waste of time for me to keep a diary. He says I can always talk to him if I ever have a problem. My Dad is a really good father. I...
Diary of the Suspicious By Xoop "Start here." "Here?" "Yeah." -- * x * -- AUGUST 26 Finally, everything's moved in! Not that there was all that much -- one of several advantages to having lived in a furnished apartment. The only really major things I brought with me were my computer desk and a couple of bookshelves. Even so, it was a real bitch. God, do I ache. Big thanks (again) to Ian. Couldn't have done it without his pickup. And, of course, he's...
The next morning, I woke up with a silly grin on my face. I stretched lightly and searched for my companion. Deep down I dreaded the morning after, knowing things wouldn't be as simple as they were last night, but I was ready and willing to face the new day head on, whatever it may bring. I couldn't even imagine how wrong I could possibly be. Jeanie, whom I had spent the night making glorious love to, was standing at the end of the bed holding her diary in her left hand, pointing it accusingly...
Dear Diary: Julie has been after me for some weeks now to find a guy and get laid properly. I would if I could. I mean, it's not THAT easy for a girl to get laid! DUH! Okay, okay, I know just about every guy on campus and beyond would like to get into my pants; well maybe I'm exaggerating slightly, but ... not a day goes by when I don't almost cream in those same pants over a dreamy guy or three. It's just ... well; there must be some sort of chemistry to attracting a member of the...
The next morning, I woke up with a silly grin on my face. I stretched lightly and searched for my companion. Deep down I dreaded the morning after, knowing things wouldn’t be as simple as they were last night, but I was ready and willing to face the new day head on, whatever it may bring. I couldn’t even imagine how wrong I could possibly be. Jeanie, whom I had spent the night making glorious love to, was standing at the end of the bed holding her diary in her left hand, pointing it accusingly...
Diary entry 6/21/11Hi diary, It's me again!!Adriana is passed out after our wicked sex fest so I thought I'd bring you up to date! Anyway diary, you'll never believe my fucking day! Weird and wild I'd say!!Anyway you remember Rod? I'm trying to forget the creep, believe me! I wrote to you about him back in the spring time, remember? As you know I stopped banging him about a month ago when I found him with his cock in that slutty ho he works with. I do miss that mans monster missile, he is good...
Group SexApril 11 Dear Diary, Wow, you should have been with us last week!!! Mr. Foxx took me along with him to San Francisco on business!!! Talk about a wild place, diary, I actually saw two men fucking out in the open in the park and nobody even gave it a second look!!! Mr. Foxx gave me one hundred dollars and sent me on my way to explore the city when he was at his meeting!!! I found this little place that advertised live dancing in private rooms, and since I'd never heard of anything like that...
GayIt has been two weeks since I’ve been bought by my new Master. In the meantime I didn’t have much time to update my diary, since life here is quite busy and chaotic. At the institute where they taught us to be obedient and attentive and devoted I got a lot of compliments and oftentimes they told me I was the best in class, that I would make my future Master very happy and that they would be able to sell me for a lot of money. I don’t know how much money my new Master has paid for me, but I’m...
Read (Chapter ON ROOF) Suddenly my son holds my hand and pulled me from sofa. He also took all camera and apparatus and dressed up. He simply drags me to front veranda. I was stunned and ashamed of my semi nakedness. If any neighbor awoke at this moment they can see me. But I kept quite. He opened main door and stepped up on stairs to go to roof. We came to roof. February’s 4 am is almost dark night and chilly. I shivered with cold and shame. I, a traditional Bihari lady, standing in open...
Incest(Chapter FRIDGE & HANDCUFF) Love and affection flows from my heart. I want to give him some precious gift. I know if I offer him choice, certainly he asks for mother’s vagina. My eyes are closing with sleep but with apprehension I said- ‘Beta’ I want to give you something precious, ask anything I have. Son Said- Ma’ you just gave me most precious photographs of yours. It is enough for me. Foolishly I insisted him- Ok but you can ask for anything I have. Son Said- Ma’ right now you can give me...
November 2nd, 1813 Vienna, mierda! I’m still in Vienna. Diary, I had hoped to be back in Almeria by this time. Back home, for the holiday, for the Day of the Dead. (There is no Day of the Un-dead, so I settle for the closest thing.) During the chaos of those revels, that last well into the early morning, victims are easy to come by. A woman or two disappears and no one notices. No one suspects my hand… But, I am trapped here in Vienna in this wine cellar, hiding like vermin, and I have been...
Introduction: Friday 9/20 and Monday 9/23 Dear Diary, Ethan gone. He proved himself unworthy and removed himself from the picture. I cant really articulate how I feel about this but every bit of it reinforces this.. self-awareness Im experiencing. Like, I am an entity, a whole, stand-alone person. I used to think of Ethan as a piece of me. An extension of self that I needed, but now I think I felt that way because it wasnt Ok for me to want things. Like, I only ever deserved what I needed. Not...
I bought a house two days ago. I know it’s kind of strange for that to be the first thing you learn about me, but hey, I’m still trying to get used to the idea of having a house of my own, myself. It’s not very big, more like spread out. It has one floor, three bedrooms, a kitchen, a living room and a pool…the bare essentials. I’ve only moved in today so I’m still a bit disoriented when it comes to the house and everything in it. Well actually, there’s nothing in it. It’s empty and only now, as...
I bought a house two days ago. I know it's kind of strange for that to be the first thing you learn about me, but hey, I'm still trying to get used to the idea of having a house of my own, myself. It's not very big, more like spread out. It has one floor, three bedrooms, a kitchen, a living room and a pool...the bare essentials. I've only moved in today so I'm still a bit disoriented when it comes to the house and everything in it. Well actually, there's nothing in it. It's empty and only now,...
October 17Dear Diary...You showed up in my first care package, and since I'm not doing anything else, I might as well write in you. =)Lemme tell you a bit about myself. I'm Casey, Casey Shepherd. I'm, 19, really tall...5 foot 11 to be exact (yay tall me!), weigh about 150 lbs, slender and toned from playing volleyball and softball, straight blonde hair, blue eyes, freckles, 38c, size 10 feet. In the winter I like to go snowboarding. If you haven't figured already, I'm a big tomboy. All...
Dear Diary, My name is Tilly Crawford and for the past ten years I've been the housemother for the Delta House Fraternity here at State U. Another year of school started just yesterday and the boys have been getting ready for fraternity pledge rush week by planning parties and of course the open house to allow the new freshmen to get an idea if they'd like to join Omega House. It was long summer for me diary, I really miss being around the boys and of course my pussy missed the attention it...
FetishEthan gone. He proved himself unworthy and removed himself from the picture. I can't really articulate how I feel about this but every bit of it reinforces this.. self-awareness I'm experiencing. Like, I am an entity, a whole, stand-alone person. I used to think of Ethan as a piece of me. An extension of self that I needed; but now I think I felt that way because it wasn't Ok for me to want things. Like, I only ever deserved what I needed. Not anymore. Almost overnight I feel -- quite...
Introduction: We are step-Siblings of four years and wish to share our journey. TALES OF WEEK TWO TORI-LEE We were officially one week into our life changing journey and I must have had more eye opening experiences than I could ever remember. My mind was going a million miles an hour taking in everything I was learning. Which, at 18, lead my hormones to go crazy. Id never even lived with guys before, so after 7 days sharing a 40 foot bus with my mamas new man and his son I had urges and...
My name is Barbara Luttice My name is Marla Eton.? I?m a 43-year-old Briton, currently living what I consider to be my dream life with Julio, a considerate, handsome, late-thirty-something Italian university art history instructor and avid painter, here in sunny Italy.? Ever since my stressful divorce from a Fleet Street solicitor four years ago, I?ve lived here in the beautiful Tuscan countryside, an hour?s drive from Florence, were I now work part-time as a visiting professor of...
Disclaimer: This is a work of fiction, narrated as excerpts from the diary. The excerpts narrate the secret thoughts, desires fantasies about various people in life. This story narrates the explicit incest between mom and son. Any person who is sensitive to close incest relations and doesn’t like such stories, please stop reading here. By continuing to read ahead, you agree that you are within the legal age limit and you are solely responsible for what you are reading, and neither the writer...
IncestMarch 7 Dear Dairy, Boy it sure has been busy around here for the past month or so, Mr. Foxx, he's my boss, has been entertaining a slew of clients and friends, it seems that someone's always showing up at the door!!! Of course since Mr. Foxx keeps me completely naked at all times in the apartment, sometimes the person on the other side of the door gets a big surprise when they see me standing there in the altogether, but more often than not they can't keep their eyes off my usually hard...
GayDear Diary, The little cunt was a no-show. I guess I need to teach him what happens when he stands me up. Had an interesting little conversation with Margo today. She basically confronted me about why stupidname was crying in her office two days in a row. BTW, I'm getting a little tired of writing out stupidname, so I think I'm going to shorten it to SN if it's all the same to you Diary. I knew you'd understand. Anyway, I pretty much came clean to Margo, we're very good friends...
There is also one brief scene of incest. Note: This is a continuation of "Diary of a Slave Merchant - 2007". It is recommended that you read it first, otherwise you might be a little lost for a while. Quick recap for the lazy: 40-something year-old Edward divorced, bought a house, kidnapped two girls, forced them to become sex slaves, sold one (Slave name: "Star") to an old college friend named Wayne who is now wealthy, fell in love with the other (slave name: "Baby") who was abused...
Today is my first day in my new studio apartment in Aunt’s house. Uncle and Father started working on it the day I was accepted in the State University here. For my 18th birthday Mother and Aunt took me shopping for furniture and curtains. I am situated in a turret in this old Victorian house. I feel kind of like a fairy princess up here. I think I am too excited to even miss Mother and Father yet! I am sure I will be happy here. I start classes next week. Aunt is going to the bookstore with...
Diary entry 6/21/11 Hi diary, It’s me again!! Adriana is passed out after our wicked sex fest so I thought I’d bring you up to date! Anyway diary, you’ll never believe my fucking day! Weird and wild I’d say!! Anyway you remember Rod? I’m trying to forget the creep, believe me! I wrote to you about him back in the spring time, remember? As you know I stopped banging him about a month ago when I found him with his cock in that slutty ho he works with. I do miss that mans monster missile, he is...
Introduction: Wednesday 9/25 and Thursday, 9/26 Wednesday 9/25 Dear Diary, The little cunt was a no-show. I guess I need to teach him what happens when he stands me up. Had an interesting little conversation with Margo today. She basically confronted me about why stupidname was crying in her office two days in a row. BTW, Im getting a little tired of writing out stupidname, so I think Im going to shorten it to SN if its all the same to you Diary. I knew youd understand. Anyway, I pretty...
Hey Guys!! I am so privileged to receive emails and comments for your appreciation towards my earlier series. It doesn’t mean anything to me..:P So here I am, with another experience which I came through recently.. Our family was so happy, except for me, as my dad had a huge profit in the business, and decided to move in a BIGGER HOUSE, fuck the size. My secret affair was going so good. Alisha and I, we almost tried every position possible, the dream of cumming on her face was accomplished,...
Diary of a Dabo girl It was a busy night at Quark's on Deep Space 9. Lira had just finished her shift at the Dabo tables, when a handsome Betazoid male approached her. He had been one of the few lucky customers that won a lot of gold pressed latinum that night. Her employer Hadron had even whispered in her ear that she should look out for signs of cheating, but she couldn't see anything suspicious going on. Being a human herself it was easy to wrap the Betazoid around finger. She often had...
PREFACE [While going through a trash bin at school looking for recyclables I found a diary. Incredibly it just happened to belong to someone I knew. Not being a friend of mine, I decided to publish it so that everyone at school would know the real girl. It starts shortly after her high school graduation and moves to State College. I edited out some of the boring days.] August 21- I’ve decided to write a diary to keep track of my thoughts and experiences since I intend to write an...
Here are the last few entries from the 2007 diary: December 12th, 2007 8:34pm Baby has a couple of promising prospects at the runaway shelter. She is working on one in particular. A blond with a streak of black in her hair. Nice body, attractive, very bad attitude. She has three or four piercings, dresses in black and is a real tough 'Nobody-fucks-with-me' hard-ass. Right up my alley She told the girl she was going to go live at her uncles house and that she would talk to him...
My intention is to release my entire erotic novel in chapters. I hope you enjoy my writing. Constructive feedback is always appreciated. Copyright 2014 by D.J. Winters All rights reserved. No part of this book may be used or reproduced by any means, graphic, electronic, or mechanical, including photocopying, recording, taping or by any information storage retrieval system without the written permission of the publisher except in the case of brief quotations embodied in critical articles and...
‘Shh…’ is all she said before she rolled on top of me and kissed me. It was then that I knew where the expression ‘seeing stars’ had come from. Jeanie kissed me senseless. Her lips were ravenous as they attacked mine. She massaged my lips with hers until I opened up to give her access into my depths. Pushing her tongue through my open lips, she explored slowly, licked and sucked until she had stolen all my oxygen. Pulling away, we were both breathing hard. ‘Jeanie, you’re hurt right now, I...
Introduction: Tuesday, 9/24 Dear Diary, So I molested stupidname again. I was actually kind of surprised that he even came in today, but as a weeks-old employee he basically has 0 vacation time accrued and he already took three days when I broke his heart (lol), so he probably figures hes already at -3 days and he needs to hedge his bets against having to quit before I corner him in a nap room and fuck him in the ass. Believe it or not, he even tried to man up and stand-up to me today (so...
Introduction: Tuesday, 9/17 Dear diary, ,tldr: Ethan Greenburg is a fucking loser. I guess its good Im finally realizing this now before he managed to knock me up or worse — marry me. He shows up last night, drunk off his ass past 3am, crashing and banging his way up the stairs, so I get up and hes sprawled out on the couch with all of his shit laying around, and Im like WHAT THE FUCK ETHAN?! Id give you three guesses diary, but youd get it in one because youve heard this story before, his...
An amazing story, read till the end you won't regret it!Diary of Sheila E.I became a hooker earlier this year. At first I just did lap dances, no touching, a bit of extra cash to spend, but my boyfriend got sent to prison and we both had huge gambling debts. The mob wanted us to pay them huge installments to pay off the debt. I had to resort to escort services and extreme hardcore pornography to make a fast buck. There was a place in town (LA) that paid out big amounts. The downside was they...
"Shh..." is all she said before she rolled on top of me and kissed me. It was then that I knew where the expression 'seeing stars' had come from. Jeanie kissed me senseless. Her lips were ravenous as they attacked mine. She massaged my lips with hers until I opened up to give her access into my depths. Pushing her tongue through my open lips, she explored slowly, licked and sucked until she had stolen all my oxygen. Pulling away, we were both breathing hard. "Jeanie, you're hurt right now, I...
Diary of Valerie L. Sinclaire, & the Whispers in her ears. August 1st 2018 7:00AM First Entry Date, Part 1 of Many, Diary Arch Saga Story. Today the voices were loud to loud & the only way to make the quite again was by giving into them. But first I must tell you my story & why I have voices in my ears whispering horrifing thoughts. Few years ago I think I died or something it only felt like a split second but thats all it took. One morning I woke up used the...
© 1999, All Rights Reserved The following text was discovered on the hard drive of a used computer I purchased. It had been deleted but not permanently erased. Personally, I doubt the authenticity of the document and assume it was the creative effort of the previous owner. I submit it here with only minor editing changes. K123-347 (Local 960524) I have to write it down somewhere, and it certainly doesn't belong in official dispatches, so I have begun this diary. Mostly, I admit, it...
Saturday 24th May 2003 Well today was a shoe delight. My sister took our daughters Daisy 3 (hers) and Holly 6 (mine) to the matinee ballet, a production especially for children, Saddlers Wells Theatre, Angel Islington. It was their belated Easter treat. My brother drove them up and I tagged along as my bro’ and I were going to ‘do lunch darling’ whilst we waited for them. Twas a totally unexpected event so obviously put me into a ‘what pair of shoes/sandals/boots do I wear?’ quandary. ...
;tldr: Ethan Greenburg is a fucking loser. I guess it's good I'm finally realizing this now before he managed to knock me up or worse -- marry me. He shows up last night; drunk off his ass past 3am, crashing and banging his way up the stairs, so I get up and he's sprawled out on the couch with all of his shit laying around, and I'm like WHAT THE FUCK ETHAN?! I'd give you three guesses diary, but you'd get it in one because you've heard this story before; his roommates kicked him...
So I molested stupidname again. I was actually kind of surprised that he even came in today, but as a weeks-old employee he basically has 0 vacation time accrued and he already took three days when I "broke his heart" (lol), so he probably figures he's already at -3 days and he needs to hedge his bets against having to quit before I corner him in a nap room and fuck him in the ass. Believe it or not, he even tried to man up and stand-up to me today (so adorable!). Yesterday was yummy...
Diary of how I became a gay sex slave - Ch 1 My name is Greg Richards. I am 32 year old white male, with an Italian/English background. I am told I am good looking, but never really believed it. I am 5'11”, weigh 165 pounds, slim athletic build. Married when I was 29, no kids. Also, I have always been bi-curious, but never acted out on it. Recently been chatting on AOL, and found a former co-worker, Darren online. Darren is a very good looking black man, that I know is into men,...
My intention is to release my entire erotic novel in chapters. I hope you enjoy my writing. Constructive feedback is always appreciated. Copyright 2014 by D.J. Winters All rights reserved. No part of this book may be used or reproduced by any means, graphic, electronic, or mechanical, including photocopying, recording, taping or by any information storage retrieval system without the written permission of the publisher except in the case of brief quotations embodied in critical articles and...
This is the diary of Billy Bob McTavish, a teen boy, about he and his young girl cousin growing up, having a family and a wide variety of sexual adventures, some quite bizarre. It has ten chapters: (1) Becoming a Man, (2) Marriage, (3) House Guest, (4) Satisfying Our Guest, (5) Helping a Psychologist, (6) More Sex Therapy, (7) Mutual Therapy, (8) Our Daughter, (9) Our Daughter is 13, (10) Conclusion Billy Bob Chapter 10 (Conclusion) The girls were tired of just having sex with each other and...
Introduction: High School Fiction Diary of a School Slut – Mr.Tom Hi, I am Bianca, Bee as people would generally call me in School. Description: 57 Long auburn hair, Fair skin tone, High-cheek boned, Light brown eyes, Plump lips, Long toned legs, Curved body, Have a waxed body with no tan lines ,) A tight pussy, 36C boobs with pink nipples, A round tempting ass which made guys just want to muff drive me, Suck my boobs, and fuck and eat my pussy. ~# I was not very good at one subject, Math1....
When we were both naked, she ground herself against me, keeping my body prone on the ground with her hands pressed against my chest. She kissed and licked a slick path down my chest, torturing my breasts with her sweet mouth. I needed to touch her but she wouldn’t let me. She kept my arms firmly on the ground, pushing against my wrists as her hips moved faster. She was close, I could feel it deep inside. Her thrusting became frantic as she lowered her lips to my ear and began to whimper. This...
Diary entry #142: July 3, 2011 It’s now six in the morning. I turned eighteen at midnight, so for six hours now it has been my birthday. Happy Birthday to me! Yay! Today, I am going to give myself a birthday present. I am going to do something I have never done. Do something many of my now older friends say is “the bomb.” They’ve all been doing it for at least two years now. Many even tried to make me join in a session with them at sleepovers when we were sixteen. I just could never make...
Welcome to the Diary of Lust. Please choose a character and tell us her story, which is of course filled with sexual adventures at every turn, be it consensual or not. Now let's start by choosing your heroine. Disclaimer : The story, all names, characters, and incidents portrayed in this story are fictitious. Nobody in this story, and no outfit or corporation is based upon an actual person or outfit in the real world. PS : If this story turns you on please hit the like button, it would really...
I couldn’t believe my luck. Neighbours were going away for 10 days and asked my step-daughter to feed the cats. Didn’t take long for me to persuade that lazy slut that I should do it instead and save her the work. And it was a lot of work: I reckon that I delivered 26 loads round there that week – that’s an awful lot of meat-beating. In fact some of the days it seemed like I never really put it away: I was either beating my meat at the neighbours or having an introductory shaft-stroke back at...
My name is Sheila and I recently found an old diary, from my late teens, while I was cleaning up the house. It was from the late sixties. I read some of them and then found one with a few comments which to someone else wouldn't make sense but to me it brought back a lot of memories. I was eighteen and had just started working in a Government office in Edinburgh. There were a lot of us young guys and gals working in the office but we were kept controlled by an older woman who was the supervisor....
DIARY OF A DIRTY ANAL-SLUTIt was half past 11 on a Friday morning and I was just getting out of the shower. I’d spent the last half hour shaving my genitals totally smooth and I looked down at my hairless dick n balls admiring the job I’d done. I’d taken real care around my hole, in preparation for what was in store for me later that day, well, at least I hoped. See, for years I’d fantasised about it, and today I was determined to actually make it happen. It had become some-what of an obsession...