My InheritanceChapter 42 The Hermit
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Yeah, this is it. The perfect evening. My feet are located higher than my hips, which, as everyone knows, is essential for a serious hanging-around position. A cold beer is strategically positioned in my right hand. My eBook reader is lying on the deck at my side, but switched off, just like it should be at such a moment. No input is necessary now, mental or otherwise. Apart from a little bit of beer, of course. This is a much needed moment of serenity. I need to just - be. And most of all - be alone. Solitude is the only acceptable state in my current life. The sun is just about to set and the colors are warm. The sea is absolutely calm, there is no wind and no sound at all. This is as peaceful as it can get.
Halcyon, my sailing yacht, is anchored in a small bay off a Greek island. Well, not really an island. More like a big piece of rock. This rock has two major advantages: a population of zero and an excellent anchoring place. The small bay is deep enough for my 50 ft. yacht and it is quite nicely shielded from the open sea.
Anchoring the yacht was quite a task obviously, since I was alone. I needed a second mooring point because the bay is too small to let the boat swivel freely. But the manual labor was quite welcome after a day of lazy sailing in the Aegean Sea. Now everything is done, the beer is cool and the silence is just perfect.
Then my thoughts return to Julia. They always do whenever I´m not occupied with something. I always fight it and the more I try, the more I fail. I rarely think about the good times we had, because I have reason to doubt those too. I had lived under the illusion of being one gloriously happy bastard. She seemed all lovey-dovey too and it was just a shame that no camera was present to record her performance. An Academy Award would have been a sure thing. Anger starts to overwhelm me again.
No, stop it. The sea. Look at the sun. Beautiful. There are some doves. Very interesting and underrated animals, worth observing. Especially right now. Relax. I suddenly decide that the mooring lines need to be checked again although I know that they are perfect. I just need something to occupy my mind before the damn thing returns to her again. To Julia. To the evening I discovered the truth. No. Stop it. Shit. This is driving me crazy.
On a sudden impulse I jump into the sea, swimming a short distance. It helps to clear my mind. It stops me from getting angry again: from falling into the seething rage that made me avoid other people, especially women. I need to prevent my rage spilling onto innocent bystanders, like it did so often during the last months.
It was my sister Annette who told me I´m a ticking time bomb. She was right, of course. She always is. So I chose to live as a hermit: it´s the best solution for everyone. But instead of living in some damp, dirty cave where I would never see the sunlight, I bought a luxurious sailing yacht. I might be disappointed by humanity, but I´m not dumb.
I climb onto my boat again and decide to keep myself occupied by cooking. Julia never cooked, when we wanted to eat at home that was my task. A lot of things were my task, come to think about it. That bitch. No! Stop. I take the eggs, some mushrooms and proceed to produce an omelet. I´m not really hungry, I just need some defined task to keep me occupied.
Again, I marvel at the silence and solitude of the place. This is really my favorite place in the world right now and I´m just happy that it is public property so everyone is free to stay here whenever they want. I´ve rarely seen other boats around here, which makes it even better.
I sit on my deck and enjoy my simple meal in total silence. The absolute absence of sound is almost deafening now, as it usually is in the evenings when the wind has died down. Perfect.
I love it when the rocks are illuminated by the reddish-yellow last rays of sunlight. It´s nothing short of spectacular. The silence is broken by an engine noise. At first, I think it’s a fishing boat on its way home, but the noise gets louder.
Finally, I see a huge white motor yacht appearing from behind the island. Shit. My silent, lonely night is already history. It will be filled with loud and rude party people and it´s too late and too dark to go to another island now. Damn.
The nearer it gets, the bigger and uglier the thing seems to get. Loud techno music can be heard now. This is going to be just “wonderful”.
The yacht approaches my position until its bow is a mere five meters away. This is not a respectful distance any more. A man in a black suit appears at the bow and looks totally out of place in the Aegean Sea. He hails me.
“Hey mate. Listen, this is Fulvio Brione´s yacht. You know him, the fashion czar.” He has to shout to be heard over the loud music.
I just nod. I have no idea why he´s telling me this and I have no intention to find out.
“So be a nice little nobody and remove your tiny boat from here. We need this mooring spot and we need some privacy.”
I just laugh briefly and shake my head.
“Listen, we want to handle this in a cooperative, friendly way. But this is Mr. Brione´s mooring spot you´re in.”
“This is public property. I got here first, so it´s my mooring spot. You will just have to anchor over there. Or wherever, that´s none of my business.”
“Boy, I´m getting a little pissed here.”
I just shrug my shoulders. His strategy seems to try to piss me off, whatever he hopes to achieve with it. It doesn´t work anyway, I don´t give a shit about this clown.
He goes astern. I concentrate on my beer again until he returns a few minutes later.
“What about a thousand Euro for you if you move?”
These guys are actually funny. “Keep your pocket change.”
“Asshole.”
I just wave him off dismissively.
He disappears again. After a while, the ship moves backwards, towards the second best anchor place, which is almost in the open sea. They anchor their ship about 30 meters from mine, which is far too close for my taste, but there´s nothing I can do about it.
I try to not get angry by deciding to regard the whole thing a free show for my entertainment. The ship is as brightly illuminated as a circus and some of the persons on her deck can only be described as bizarre. The gaudily dressed men parade around like complete morons. The women all wear high heels and black bikinis. I wonder what kind of deck they have: I certainly wouldn´t tolerate high heels on my teak deck. But they seem to be mandatory aboard this ship, like the general behavior seems to be. Men are busy finding themselves awesome, women are present for decoration purposes. I´m amazed how idiotically these people behave and how great they seem to find themselves. They probably don´t think too kindly about me either. It´s like we are from different planets.
Apart from the peacocks and the bikini girls, there are a few black suit guys aboard, obviously bodyguards. Then there are the white uniform people, probably part of the crew. The bikini girls seem to be fashion models, some of them are merely slim, while others are extremely thin. It´s like watching a conference about malnutrition. My first impulse is to help those poor famished girls by feeding them.
From time to time one of them looks down on me as I relax on my boat and I realize how far apart we are. They are in their glitzy fashion world, probably fighting hard to make a life by brown-nosing and fucking influential people on occasions like this. Probably thinking they are successful and extremely important for humanity. I, on the other hand, am just a lonely, regular guy with a beer in his hand. I´m definitely not a happy man, but I think my life is still way better than theirs.
I wonder about the women on this ship. Maybe they plan to snatch a rich guy to gain some wealth and social status by marrying him before at a ripe age of probably 22 they get too old for their job. I realize that I have no idea about their world. How long can fashion models work? 20? 30? 40? I have no idea.
I think about Julia again and her attempt to get rich by marrying and divorcing some unsuspecting rich dude - namely me. She fooled me completely. I really loved her, finding out the true nature of our relationship and losing her hurt me a lot. It still does. My whole life is still revolving around her, but in an entirely negative way.
Some shouting on the deck of the big yacht brings my attention back to the present. One of the women seems to be in some kind of argument with a small group of men, one of them Brione himself. He´s easily recognizable as he´s the only overweight person aboard. One of his bodyguards is at his side and for a brief moment it looks like he wants to hit her. It looks almost comical as all of their heads turn simultaneously in my direction. Whatever they planned to do with her, they are suddenly aware that they have a witness. I just smile and lift my beer in a salute.
The fat guy and the bodyguard drag her inside for more privacy. Whatever they have in mind for her, it doesn´t seem too good from here. She seems to have come to the same conclusion and fights them tooth and nail. The other girls and a few men watch the scene without any reaction - their lack of compassion amazes me. She´s on their boat, there´s no police around, she´s completely at their mercy. Yet nobody feels compelled to help her.
Suddenly she jerks free and runs towards the bow. Brione and his goon grin and follow her slowly. They know that there´s nowhere she can go. She´s theirs. It´s their ship. They are stronger. They are wealthy and powerful. They can certainly destroy her career. They advance on her like predators, closing in for an easy kill. Watching the situation makes me sick. This is not right. I really have the urge to intervene somehow, but I have no idea how to do it.
The girl looks around in panic and yells something at the other passengers, but these assholes just turn around and look away. Just as I decide to get my camera, the girl suddenly jumps overboard. This surprises everybody, including me. The drop is quite high, but she jumps gracefully, looking fantastic in her high heels. A brave move, but it won´t help her. She has nowhere to go.
At least that´s what I think until I realize that she´s swimming in my direction. She still looks graceful, but I can´t appreciate the sight any more. She´s about to invade my privacy. What can I do? Send her back to those lechers? Would I be any better than them? No, that is not an option. I couldn´t live with myself afterwards. The alternative is to take her in, to sacrifice my precious solitude. Worse, I´d have to be around a woman: something I´ve sworn never to do again.
Damn. Just what I need now, a woman around me. Not just any woman, but a fashion model. Probably a spoiled, bitchy brat, whining and complaining all the time, living out her bulimia to the fullest. I can almost hear her. “I can´t possibly eat that kind of salad, it´s not even organic!” “Do you have some decent Evian water instead of this San Pellegrino piss?” “I need my avocado in the morning! Why don´t you have the most basic stuff on this caricature of a boat?”
Aren´t there any places in the world without women? A cloister maybe? Would I be of any use in a Gregorian chant? Are these monk guys really eunuchs or do they just look that way?
She´s still swimming in my direction. Damn, a damsel in distress. Possible female company. I panic.
It´s too late to weigh anchor now and I can hardly reject her if she wants to come aboard. Hell, it looked like she was about to get raped on that ship. Okay, okay. I can take her to the nearest port tomorrow. She has just reached the ladder at the stern. I will help her but that doesn´t mean I have to talk to her much. Women are not good for me; I need to stay away from them. I´m determined that I will never get hurt by one again. I need to keep my distance from this one. This decision helps me to calm down a little. I haven´t spent months to re-gain my mental sanity just to have it shattered by the next bitch.
She looks at me questioningly and I just extend my hand to help her out of the water. No word needs to be spoken, which suits me just fine. I might have a guest for a limited time, but I certainly don´t plan to chatter all day long because of it. The situation is self-explanatory anyway. She knows that I witnessed the scene on Brione´s ship and my extended hand should tell her that I´m willing to help.
Wait, she´s still wearing her high heels and she´s about to step onto my teak deck. I just point at her shoes and she understands immediately.
“Oh, sure, sorry.” She starts to remove them. “I´m Anna, by the way.”
“Mark.” Damn, a few seconds in female company and I´m already babbling like an idiot.
She extends her hand again. Our first handshake doesn´t seem to count as I only helped her aboard. I understand what she means and shake her hand. This is a combined greeting and thank you.
She stands up and looks around, taking her time. It´s obvious that she´s not as much taking in her new surroundings as giving me the opportunity to take a look at my new guest. Maybe she just wants to give me time to get used to her after I´ve opened my home in a less than voluntary way for her. I think that´s a sensitive gesture after having imposed herself on me this way. I wonder what a woman with a sensitive bone in her body has been doing aboard this asshole´s ship. I don´t need to hear this story, but I´m afraid I will sooner or later anyway.
My new guest is a strikingly beautiful woman, as it could be expected for one of Brione´s toys. She´s not as young as I guessed, though. She might be in her mid-twenties, which makes her only a few years younger than me.
Anna is not some kind of attractive girl-next-door type. She´s not cute. She´s not pretty. She is straight beautiful, no sense in denying it. If I just saw a photo of her, I´d immediately assume she´s an arrogant and self-centered bitch. She just has to be with such a face. Well-defined jaw and cheek bones, perfect green eyes, and a perfect straight nose. Not a cute nose, but a thin, perfect model nose. She is a little on the thin side, but she doesn´t look famished like some of the other girls. Her bones don´t stick out and she has small, but shapely boobs. Her hair is still wet and it´s quite dark by now, so I can´t tell what color it is. But it´s long, very long.
I had thought that Julia is beautiful and out of my league. But compared to Anna she´s plain and unremarkable. This woman is so far out of my league that it isn´t even funny anymore. A few years ago the sight of this jackpot in the human genome lottery would have aroused me to no end. But I´ve decided to keep women out of my life and I think I´ve been quite thorough in conditioning myself. With Julia´s evilness as a perfect motivation, of course. I can appreciate this woman´s beauty, like I would a butterfly or a flower, but it doesn´t affect me. At least that´s what I keep telling myself.
After giving me a few seconds to check her out, she looks at me again.
“Thanks for helping me.” She looks a little tentative, almost shy, which surprises me for some reason. Women that look like she does are not supposed to be shy. I expect them to just take what they need and move on. But I realize that she really needs me and lot depends on my reaction.
“Hmm,” I just mutter, nodding. I want to make it clear from the beginning that speaking is not high on my agenda. She looks at me puzzled, shrugs her shoulders and takes the towel I offer her. After a while she smiles and has probably booked me under “grumpy sea dog”, which is totally okay for me as it is not far from the truth.
I look at the grotesquely illuminated ship again and see Brione discussing something with two of his bodyguards. He seems quite animated and points towards my boat from time to time. Perhaps he’s thinking of boarding my yacht to reclaim the girl? An act of piracy in Greek waters would be more trouble than even someone like Brione would want, especially over a woman he can easily replace. He’s probably one of those people who can’t stand to lose at anything, right down to rock paper scissors. But what do I know? Don´t get too curious, old boy or you might get more involved than you want to. Just keep those weirdos out of your life.
I turn around and see that she has watched the same scene, looking worried. She doesn´t seem to be arrogant and stuck up right now.
“I hope the fat bastard doesn´t send his gorillas to kidnap me.”
“Hmm,” I say in a dismissive tone, shaking my head.
“He could, you know. He has four security apes he could send after me. Could we just sail away?”
“Tomorrow.” I try to sound curt to keep my distance.
“Okay. I can´t say that I´m going to sleep well, I´m still a little worried. Thanks again for saving me. They were just about to rape me.” She seems quite unperturbed by my brief answers. But what she says surprises me.
“They?” I ask before I can stop myself. Damn, stop it, this is none of my business.
“Yeah, Brione, his male guests, his bodyguards and the whole male crew. It seems that he has made a bet that he and every other male on the ship will fuck every girl at least once before the ship returns to Italy. All the other girls weren´t looking forward to it, but let them do it anyway. I ... well I suddenly just couldn´t stand it anymore. Suddenly - I don´t know - something snapped inside me. I´ve endured a lot, for very little gain. But today it became just too much.”
“Shit.”
“Yeah. I said no to Fulvio Brione, and with one little dive, my career is toast. That part of my life is already history.” She looks a little shaken at her own insight.
I just nod and emit some grunt that might or might not sound sympathetic. For looking so beautiful, this fashion business is totally shit.
“Yeah, you´re right,” she resumed, despite the fact that I hadn’t said anything. “Maybe it´s even better this way. Nothing I can do about it now, right? Leave the old shit behind, try something new. New opportunities will arise. Life is change.”
She seems surprisingly upbeat again. How could she just shrug off something that completely wrecked the life she thought she had? I wish I could. Or did I?
“Hungry?”
“Seriously? I´m always hungry, it´s part of my job description. I´ve been hungry for ten years now.” She laughs. It’s magical. Damn, what a woman. No, stop this, you fool! Okay? Just stop it.
To distract myself, I go below deck to get some of my omelet for her. She follows me and looks around.
Wordlessly, I offer her a plate with some omelet. Keeping my grumpy mood is surprisingly arduous while she´s around, but it has to be done. No sense letting myself like this woman, I’m quite sure no good will come of it.
“Oh yes, that looks delicious. Thanks. You live alone here?”
I nod, desperately trying to limit my communication with this woman to the absolute minimum, lest I be infected with her upbeat personality.
“Would you have some clothes I could borrow? I didn’t exactly have time to pack.” That smile is back. It’s still fabulous.
I nod, and go to my stern cabin to get her some sweats. I don’t know how long I can stay grumpy in the face of that smile.
“Take one of the forwards cabins.” I hand her the clothes.
“Thanks. They´re all available?”
I just nod again.
“Why is a man like you living all alone? How have you managed to keep the women away?”
“What?” The total shock on my face brings on that musical laugh again. Then she takes pity on my confusion.
“Never mind. I´ll get changed. It gets kind of cold in this wet bikini.” There is far more warmth in that smile than a stuck up fashion model should have, as she turns and heads forward. I watch her for a moment; she’s just as gorgeous from the back as from the front. I shake my head and try to puzzle out what she was talking about.
Julia told me time and again over the years that I was “just a guy,” completely ordinary, with nothing special or attractive about me. I was lucky to have her, she told me, and I had come to believe her. Now this incredibly beautiful woman, an actual fashion model no less, was asking me how I kept the women away? I figure I have some time while she’s changing, so I try to figure this out.
Two minutes later she’s walking toward me, making my ratty old sweats look better than they have any right to. Of course, she´s a fashion model. So she´s supposed to change quickly and to look good in everything. Still, my only comparison is Julia, who could take half an hour to change her shoes. I could get used to a quickly dressing woman, I think, chuckling a little.
“Hey, you can have a friendly face. I think you´re not as grumpy as you try to be.”
I’m trying desperately not to smile back at her. It works, sort of. Her hair is drying and it becomes obvious that she´s a brunette. It doesn´t matter, she would look good with any hair color. Damn, stop this, Mark. All it will bring you is trouble and heartache.
“Would you mind if I stayed below deck? I don´t want to remind Fulvio I’m here.”
“Hmm,” I say in an affirmative tone. My attempts to stay monosyllabic are starting to sound ridiculous, even to me.
“Okay. See you tomorrow. Would you mind if I borrow your eBook reader?”
I nod again and retreat into the safety of my cabin, feeling relieved to be alone again.
Early morning on deck. I’m always grumpy in the morning. The cup of coffee that is my only companion doesn’t mind. I could stay in bed, but then I’d just lie there and think of Julia. That’s no good. I’m thinking of her anyway, so I guess it doesn’t matter.
She hated my morning grumps. Now that she’s not here to grouse at me, I’ve come to like this mood. I can sulk all I want to about how life (really, Julia) treated me, and there’s no one to tell me not to.
The noise and commotion from Brione’s Floating Whorehouse finally stopped around 4 am. Now it looks and sounds like a ghost ship. I’m betting they won’t be up until noon. Good.
I hear shuffling below decks. My uninvited guest seems determined to break out of the ‘fashion model’ mental box I created for her. She’s over 20, she’s not bulimic, she’s not stuck up or bitchy even when I’m almost rude to her, and now she’s an early riser? What’s next, she’s a certified diesel mechanic?
“Morning.” Her head emerges from the hatch.
“Morning.” I’m sure my grumpy mood is obvious.
“Coffee?”
“Galley.”
She disappears down the hatch. It seems she’s just as terse as I am in the morning, though a lot nicer looking.
I turn back to look at the sea. The smooth surface of the bay is painted with images of Julia and her lover, intimately joined, smirking at me. Shit.
I hear my unwanted guest coming up on deck. Now that she’s had her coffee, she’ll be all perky and happy and want to talk, about stuff I either don’t care about, or don’t want to talk about. And she’ll smile that fashion-model beautiful smile, don’t forget that. Shit. I don’t want anyone to cheer me up. I want to mope. Alone. Don’t I have the right to do that?
Anna (now I remember her name) surprises me again. She doesn’t say a word. She sits on the deck next to me and gazes at the calm sea. The air is still fresh and crisp, and the intense Greek sun hasn’t yet begun to scorch everything in sight. Strange: all I see now is the sea. Julia has disappeared. The silence stretches comfortably between us.
“So what´s the deal?” she suddenly asks.
“Deal?”
“You rescued me. What do I have to do?” She looks a little tense now, almost as if expecting bad news and not wanting to hear them.
“Did everyone that helped you in the past wanted something in return?” Damn, I didn´t want to talk that much and I certainly don´t need to learn anything about her past, but her question has surprised me.
“Yeah, pretty much.”
“Well, your life must be pretty shitty, then.” Yeah, right. Any woman as beautiful as she is would have men lining up to beg for the privilege of doing her a favor.
“It is.” I look at her. She is serious; her beautiful face looks completely forlorn. I turn away, not knowing what to say. This silence is not comfortable.
It occurs to me that getting out of here before Brione and his fellow revelers wake up is a sound idea.
“Is there anything on that ship that you need?” I’m surprised how gently I ask her.
“No.” She says it firmly, as if she’s renouncing her high fashion life and everything associated with it.
I nod and prepare for getting under weigh. I hope she won’t follow me around and try to ‘help.’ She doesn’t: she stands at the rail, silently gazing at the sea. Is that just how she is? Or has she figured out that’s what I would like? Either way, she seems to know me far better than I’m comfortable with.
I stow our coffee cups in the galley and get to work. I bring in and stow the mooring lines; fortunately, I can do it without using the dinghy. Getting the anchor in with the winch motor will take a while and be noisy toward the end, but there’s nothing I can do about that. Anna looks anxiously toward the Floating Whorehouse as the noise increases.
There isn’t much wind, so I fire up the diesel. I’d like to put some distance between myself and Brione just in case the anchor winch woke someone up on the Whorehouse. Halcyon has a nice turn of speed if I need it, but I’d prefer to just disappear.
I can almost see the tension leaving Anna as Brione’s yacht grows smaller and finally disappears from view. She looks even more beautiful, which I hadn’t thought possible. She sits next to me, quiet and happy, as I stand at the wheel.
With Brione out of sight, I’ve had enough of the diesel’s noise. I set the sails and kill the engine. Ah, blessed silence! Only the wind, the waves, and the sails can be heard. I trim the sails and return to the wheel. The companionable silence falls between us again.
I look over at her from time to time as she sits quietly, gazing at the sea. With Brione out of sight, she seems relaxed and serene. She doesn’t seem to have a care in the world. This is odd, I think. She doesn’t look like a woman who’s just thrown away a career most girls would kill for.
If Julia had done that – not that she would, but if she had – serene is exactly what she wouldn’t be. Nervous, shrill, demanding, yes. Serene, no. Unless...
What if this Anna is thinking of me exactly as Julia did? What if she’s decided that since I let her come aboard, I must be the sucker who will support her in the style to which she’s become accustomed? Is that why she hasn’t a care in the world? Oh, shit, I thought, here we go again. Henry Higgins was right: Let a woman in your life, and your serenity is through. I was finished with that forever.
I look at her. She has turned her face away from me, gazing over the port rail at the sunlit ocean. She looks completely innocent. Of course, I remind myself, she’s a model. Ex-model, that is. They can look like anything they want to. I look upward to check the sails, then off to starboard.
“What did she do to you?” My reverie is broken. Wait, how did she know that? I stare dumbly at her.
“Well?” Damn, the morning has been almost perfect and now she has to ruin it.
“Nothing. I´m just a guy.”
“Sure. A handsome guy, obviously well off, sailing alone on a gorgeous boat, trying to cover the fact that he´s nice by being grumpy.”
What, handsome? I´ve found the first flaw in her: she definitely needs glasses.
“You need to talk about it sometime; we’re all alone here, and I’m a good listener, but I don´t want to press.”
“Thanks.”
Damn. Am I that obvious?
“Yes, you are.” My head snaps around and she just chuckles. I can´t help but smile. Shit, keeping my defenses up is not really going well.
“Okay, I´ll bite. What will I say next?” She actually blushes a little.
“I don´t know what you will say. I do know you try to keep your distance by being silent.
She takes a deep breath and looks me in the eye. Her face registers determination, though I think I see sympathy in her eyes. Or do I imagine it?
“You’ve been hurt, badly. Your reaction is to curl up in a ball and keep everyone at a distance, because you’re afraid you’ll get hurt again. That’s okay, it’s natural; even animals do that. Sooner or later, though, you have to uncurl and start moving again. You’re walking and talking, but you’re still afraid of being hurt, especially by women. I get that. But you’ve chosen to cut yourself off from humanity, with only your pain for company. What you don’t see is that every time you choose to think about your wounds instead of other things or other people, you let her hurt you again. Your pain gets worse instead of better. You don’t even get any sympathy, because you’ve cut yourself off, so no one’s here to see you.”
I pictured myself as suffering in noble solitude, insulating myself so that no one, certainly no woman, could ever again do to me what Julia had. What if all I’m doing is sulking? I decide to give her the basics; maybe she’ll stop talking and I can think. Or sulk, or whatever.
“Okay, I was married to the woman who’d been my best friend since we were kids, but it crashed and burned.”
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FantasyWoah, did Motherless.com get a facelift? I know I suggested it in my review, so I guess they listened to me! Well, I’m not going to brag too much about it, and instead, I’m going to focus on what I’ve set out to bring you today. We’re looking at an amateur website, and I just know that many of you are begging for amateur creampie content, so that’s what we’re looking at. I know how much you think Motherless can look sickening and pretty gruesome at times, but the creampie content can be quite...
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Incest Porn SitesThanks to my usual cast and crew of Editors and Advance Readers, most of whom prefer to pretend that they don’t know me and wisely wish to take no responsibility for any part of my addled writings... Il n’est rien de réel que le rêve et l’amour - Nothing is real but dreams and love (from Le Coeur innombrable, IV, Chanson du temps opportun by Anna de Noailles) She was my one true mistress and ever faithful lover, my Green Lady and guardian of my dreams and now that I was back home...
When the car with Jake in it became a dot on the horizon, Thea turned to go back in the house. Suddenly Floyd appeared. “Mrs. Thea, how you be?” Smiling, she knew immediately what he wanted. He had that look and a glance at his crotch confirmed it. The imprint of his cock was prominent as it pushed against the material. “Looks like everyone is gone.” Floyd said. His eyes looking out over the farm. “Yes, I am by myself for at least the next few days.” She replied in an...
“Well, hell,” Thea said as she wiped the beads of perspiration from her face. “I guess ‘spring’ is here, huh?” “Yeah. It’s supposed to be cooler at higher elevation,” I replied. We took a few minutes in the shade by the rocks before rejoining our boyfriends. The four of us had driven up into the pass to hike. According to the weather report, the last coolness of a fading winter was supposed to continue through mid-week, but they were wrong. Actually, from our view from Eagle Point, where we’d...
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The Fappening‘To me it’s not really a green. When I think green, I think of grass. That’s more like lemonade color.’ Erica’s nose was far too close to the glasses for my taste. Pouring the nearly clear absinthe over the rough-cut, cane-sugar cubes I favor, I tapped my spoon for a second to get her to back up. I wished I had my full setup here like I have at home, my Absinthe fountains water drippers are missed when I began to try and slowly pour water over the sugar cube. ‘Don’t you light it on fire?’ she...
Have you ever heard about a wonderful site called “Motherless”? I have a feeling that was a dumb question, of course, you fucking have. Well, I am here to talk about Motherless, but I shall also pay special attention to their Arab category. If you think Arabian sluts are hot, well you are in for a tasty treat, believe me.First, I should probably warn you that the name of this place comes from the fact that their content might be a bit too hardcore or questionable for some of you. Back in the...
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Fetish Porn SitesAbsinthe 2: The Absinthe of Malice By Morpheus The flight from Seattle to Boston had been extremely long and uncomfortable, even with the two hour delay in Chicago where I got to stretch my legs and change flights. My book had given me something to do during the countless hours in the air, though admittedly, Collin had been my largest savior from boredom. The two of us had ended up talking for over half the flight, and by the time we finally landed, I was even starting to consider...
After tea on the Friday evening Thelma stopped me as I was going into upstairs to my room. Her eyes looked wild and her breathing was heavy. “I’m going to a party,” She said in a low voice, “do you want to watch me getting undressed?” I nodded like a puppet. “Wait in my room…I’ll be up in five minutes.” I skipped up the stairs two at a time! I nervously let myself into my sister’s bedroom. I’d been in many times before – borrowing her dirty knickers and stuff to use...
Harry and Rob sat in the local pub in their usual spot in the corner by themselves. They were having a discussion about what to do with Ethel. Rob has been adamant that he wants to hang Ethel by her ankles and butcher her. Harry strongly disagrees with him. Harry is convinced that if he talks to Ethel he can persuade her not to go to the authorities and they will be able to use her the same way the other men. Rob agrees to try Harry's way first but he says" if she wants to argue I'm going to...
kEthel sat with her tits nailed to the work table. Her tits were swollen to twice their normal size from the beating they had received from Harry and Rob and the axe handle. Ethel sobbed both from the pain and the feeling of despair and hopelessness. She knew she would not be able to sweet talk the men into letting her go without anymore abuse. Harry and Rob arrived and again Ethel begged and pleaded with them to let her go. The men laughed and told her they still had a few more things they...
Note : This story is completely fictional!In nineteen forty six Thelma Lou Anderson was married with three kids. Linda was the oldest. She was sixteen. Guy and George was ten and Guy seven. Thelma owned a beauty shop in Kansas City. She suspected her husband Lawerance was cheating on her again. She followed him one day when he thought she was at work and saw him go into a house. A woman opened the door and he went in. That was all the proof she needed. She went home and packed her suitcase and...
IncestThelma was 22 and like all of the young women at that time was still living at home with me and our parents in rural Kent; even though she had a good job in local Department Store. I was 15 and had just left school. The summer of 1965 was particularly fine so it wasn’t uncommon for me to sit around our secluded garden reading a Detective novel when my parents were at work. The difference today was that Thelma was on the first day of her annual holidays and had joined me wearing a very...
Ethel hung by her wrists while Harry and Rob left to get some rest. She nodded off from time to time but the fog of her mind cleared she realized that other than when they punched her she actually enjoyed the way they that fucked her so hard and so brutally. She enjoyed the helpless feeling as they ravaged her body. She believed that she could talk to the two men and they would release her without too much more abuse. She was wrong.As Harry and Rob drove back out to the warehouse they talked...
Ethel hated her name. She was born during the tenure of I Love Lucy. The beloved Ethel Mertz from the television show was the bane of the real life Ethel's existence. There were the jokes about her having to marry Fred. There was only one Fred in her high school class. He wasn't her type; not even if he was the last man on earth. Ethel was every bit the epitome of her name. At five feet even her looks, dress and vocabulary mimicked the character she despised. Although she fought to break the...
Ethel's Pa was telling a story. "A man comes into the garage wanting a new horn for his Dodge. The old bulb was torn. Well, we have horns; but they don't fit his brackets..." "What did he want with a horn?" Ma asked. "Dodge cars don't need them. They have 'Dodge, Brothers' written clearly on the front." "Oh, Nellie," Pa said, but -- at least -- he dropped the story. Ethel couldn't decide which was worse, Ma's jokes or Pa's stories. Pa was fascinated by anything mechanical,...
Damn Katherine and her classy fashion sense... Once again my Mother-in-law had a new skirt suit which would work for brunch, mother-of-the-bride or some other fancy occasion, it was simply lovely. Tonight was one of those other occasions. The suit was perfect for the work awards dinner that my wife Veronica has dragged me too. Katherine, on the other hand, who was looking just so, was all too happy to attend. Katherine's suit is simply irresistible to me. The color, the style,...
Let me say right up front that Gunther was definitely not a young man.I knew he had been around the Santa operation at the North Pole long before I arrived with my bright ideas for cost reduction. I was called in to promote increased toy production by the easily distracted Elves. Those little imps preferred being silly rather than busy little workers focused on their quotas like dedicated employees. As a small-sized human male, I was able to relate easily to the female Elves because they liked...
Fantasy & Sci-Fifrom my supernatural~romantic novel set in Regency England from the diary of Betsy Corning, Darlington, England, September 1815 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I am undone! I have given into temptation and trod the left-hand path. I did not tarry there long, I yet have a semblance of a conscience. But little good will it do me – I will be punished for it sooner or later. But oh, should any ladies read this, perhaps you, at least, will understand what provocation I had endured and grant me some...
When we entered the dining salon, all conversation stopped. I had changed from my travel clothes earlier, but was still in black. Esther was in a peach colored evening gown. As I said before, she was ravishing. Martha and Hatty walked behind us in their evening gowns. It was plain that everyone wondered who this girl was with the Royal Executioner and the Guild Master for companions. Certainly most of the apprentices and the other Guild members had not met, or been introduced to Esther. None...
“Are the statements, that the Lord Executioner made, true?” the Village Chief demanded sternly. “Yes, Un ... Uncle,” the young man finally answered very quietly. “A week in the stocks,” the Village Chief pronounced, “and the same for those two friends of yours.” The Village Chief then turned to me to apologize. “I am sorry I doubted you, Lord Executioner. It would appear that I need to pay closer attention to what is going on with the workers in the fields.” “An excellent idea,” I replied,...
"Language Theresa!" "But Mrs. Bradshaw, I only said..." "Hush Theresa, I will not have such rude vernacular spoken in my boarding house! Also, kindly remove your elbows from the tabletop. More over, the fork was placed on the left side of your plate for a specific reason." Theresa blushed as she looked around at the other five girls, some of them putting on airs. "I never ate before with my left hand Mrs. Bradshaw." "You are a student now in the most prestigious Ladies College in...
Esther III ? by: TamarainRubber Even though we knew we were going to be late for Lisa's party, we couldn't keep our hands off each other. For the next hour or so we grabbed each other like wild cats in heat. Her breasts heaving and her lungs gasping for oxygen, Esther still found the energy to warn me not to cum. At some point she did pull my cock out from behind my rubber bloomers and shoved every inch into her mouth. The clothes she had dressed me in only made me harder and,...
The next day I was in full Katherine mode from the moment I unlocked her door. I greeted Sunshine just like Katherine did, using the same tone of voice and gestures. Of course Sunshine reacted just she would with her female owner. As soon as I took her for a short walk and fed her, I went straight to my bedroom, well after the prior day I felt so much more comfortable there, I wanted it to be my bedroom. I took a shower and shaved everything again. I didn't know how I was going to...
Hope you like Esther's latest installment! ESTHER FOUR By TamarainRubber I obediently followed Esther down the long narrow hallway that led into an enormous room filled with the sounds of clinking glasses, soft whispers and a bevy of leather-clad women and men dolled up as maids, rubber babies, and crossdressing sluts like me. Strangely enough (and very much to my pleasure), there was little if any evidence of the S&M parties I had only read about, but never...
The front door opened and again Frank came in, a little less dramatically than the day before but no less intimidating to me as I felt timid and weak dressed in my mother-in-laws things. Frank was half expecting me to be dressed as my normal slouchy male self, ready to put a stop to all this, but he was happy when he saw I didn't have the fortitude to do that. He actually smiled at me, "There's my little wife. That dress looks nice on you." I smiled back not knowing what to do, it...
Caroline dumped her books so loudly on the table that it caused Mike to look up momentarily from his laptop.“Hi, Caroline, I take it the tutorial didn’t go so well?”Caroline slumped onto the chair opposite him.“The pompous bitch basically told me to start again.”“Look I know nothing about art, I don’t even know what I like, but I do know that you know your stuff. Why don’t I get you a drink and we can talk about something else.”As Mike placed the two pints of beer down on the table, Caroline...
Fantasy & Sci-FiEsther sat on the side of the road, freezing, she feared that if she didn't find a place to stay soon, she probably freeze to death.Lately life had been pretty fucked up for Esther, both her parents had die before she could barley talk, and this year she had run away, because her foster parents were abusive.She had no one now, and was stranded on the side of the road. Esther picked herself off of the ground and started walking again, until a huge house came in sight. "Warmth." She said, she was...
When Esther had woken up the next morning laying next to Romeo, she almost freaked out, but the all of the memories from the night before flooded into her brain."Oh god." She sat up and looked at Romeo's sleeping figure next to her, his teal hair was tossed about the pillow, and he chest heaved up and down, Damn he is so hot, she thought, I acted kind of crazy last night, her face burned, ugh, what the fuck was wrong with her these days? She felt Romeo's body shift a little and her heart sped...
Esther II By TamarainRubber I had found the woman I had been dreaming about, hoping she would be my lover for years to come. Esther was the first real lady I had encountered who actually seemed to be honest about wanting to share my passions. I prayed that I would not be disappointed. From how she reacted, I didn't think I would be, but I was the planet's biggest skeptic. For the past four hours, Esther made me try on an incredibly sexy collection of female fetish wear that...
Chapter 1 – The Birth of a Goddess Zeke cracked his knuckles and spread out his fingers. They touched the black glass in front of him and the desk lit up. A white keyboard appeared and he started to type on the touchscreen desktop. His fingers bounced around the screen, typing across the keyboard of light. You see, Zeke was a genius beyond his years. He was currently eighteen and in his second year of college. His masterful mind crossed with a youth of video games made him into one of the...
"Language Theresa!" "But Mrs. Bradshaw, I only said. ..." "Hush Theresa, I will not have such rude vernacular spoken in my boarding house! Also, kindly remove your elbows from the tabletop. More over, the fork was placed on the left side of your plate for a specific reason." Theresa blushed as she looked around at the other five girls, some of them putting on airs. "I never ate before with my left hand Mrs. Bradshaw." "You are a student now in the most prestigious Ladies College in this country...
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He stood hugging himself tightly, not that it helped keep him warm anymore. The cold had long since seeped so far into him the only thing that kept him from running to find somewhere warm was the fear that, should he leave his spot, he’d return to find it taken and his chance of seeing her, Athena, gone forever. The singer Athena had caught the world by storm, nobody a year ago, the young woman had taken to the celebrity lifestyle like a duck to water and was now breaking records with her...
It was a warm night in Georgia when I arrived for a very special meeting, This was not about business but it was very important to him as he was coming to meet for the first time his internet “friend”. Shannon his friend was a very subservient women who was proud to be just who she was and although for this first meeting they had something a little different in mind to give her master a new experience. What she didn't know was that I had a surprise for her as well, he was a bit of a romantic...