Samanthas Secret
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One
It was at the beginning of my junior year in high school when I met her.
I'm Pete-Pete Gilliam. I live in Amesbury, MA, a small city on the NH border. It's a nice place.
I'm an average high school guy. I'll be seventeen shortly. I get good grades but I'm not the class brain. I have a number of good friends that I hang out with but I'm not Mr. Popularity. You know, I'm just average. But I have a good life. I like my friends, I like school, my parents are cool, and my younger brother and sister don't annoy me too much.
I guess there was something missing, but I didn't really realize it. Oh, I realized it a little bit, as my two best friends, Mickey and Sean, both have had girlfriends since last year. And, they started just as I was breaking up with my one-and-only; and, yeah, I was a little jealous. But not that much. I really didn't dwell on it.
Until I met her.
It was first day of school, in my pre-calc class, when she came in.
She was gorgeous. Long curly dark brown hair, huge soulful brown eyes. She had a little button nose. She was 5'6" or so, and built. She was just perfect. The teacher introduced her as Samantha Andrews, a new student.
Right after pre-calc was lunch, so, in the hall, I caught up with her.
"Hi, I'm Peter. Peter Gilliam. You're Samantha."
"Hi," she said quietly.
"Welcome to Amesbury. Where did you move from?"
"Pembroke. Down on the South Shore. My father got a new job."
"Ah. Well, I can imagine it would be tough to move in the middle of high school, but you'll like it here. It's a nice place."
"I hope so," she said wistfully.
We had reached the cafeteria by then. "It's a good school. Well, the food sucks, but I think that's universal." She giggled at that. It was light and musical. We got our food, and I said, "Hey, would you like to come eat with me and my friends?"
"Uh, well, no thank you," she stammered. "I, uh, already got asked."
"Fine," I smiled. "Maybe some other time." She smiled back, and I headed to where my buddies were. However, it was strange-I managed to see her halfway through lunch, and she was all alone.
Two
This went on the whole week. I'd talk to her after pre-calc, and she'd try to go into a shell, but then I'd say something to make her laugh or smile at me. She'd try to keep quiet, but then she'd say something funny or interesting. And I asked her a couple of times if she had someone to eat with, she said, "Yes," but then I'd catch her eating alone.
A week afterwards, I decided to take matters into my own hands. She went to find her lonely table at lunch, and I followed her. After she got settled, I just plopped down in front of her with a jaunty, "Hi!"
She looked at me in shock. "What are you doing here?"
"Thought you might want some company."
She looked at me uncomfortably. "Why are you doing this?"
"Samantha, I'd just like to get to know you. That's all. I'm not an ogre."
"I know," she sighed. "OK. Fine. You can eat with me." I'd like to say it was pleasant, and there were moments-I said something that made her smile, and her smile, I had discovered, was one of the most beautiful things I'd ever seen. But it mostly wasn't pleasant. She let me stay there under duress and out of politeness. She didn't want me there.
It would've been easier to explain if I thought she was just shy. But I didn't. It didn't seem like shyness to me. I don't know how to describe it-it almost seemed like she was behind a door, and she was deliberately holding that door shut tightly, and every so often it'd fly out of her hand, giving me a glimpse. By watching her, I also realized it wasn't me-she did this to everyone.
After that, though, I didn't eat with her again. I'd talk to her after class, but only briefly. I didn't want to stalk her or anything, you know? But it made me sad-she was deliberately isolating herself, she did not at all look happy, and I didn't know why.
Three
About a month into school, I noticed something else about her-she was having trouble in that pre-calc class we shared. Now, I'm no math genius, but I hold my own. This time, I did say something to her.
"You're not getting this class, are you?" I said, as we walked out of it.
"No!" she said, exasperated. "I'm not getting it at all!"
"I'm doing OK," I told her. "Why don't we study together?"
I expected a no, I really did. I expected her to shoot down the idea without a thought. But I saw an internal battle flicker across her face. Then, finally, she said, "Do you think you can help?"
"Yes, I do."
"OK, then," she said with a smile, to my utter shock. She must really be worried about this grade. "We have a test in a week, though, so it has to be soon."
"That's fine. Today, if you'd like."
"OK," she agreed, and gave me directions to her house. I'd meet her there after school.
I absolutely went there to help her study. I wasn't just making the offer to get closer to her. That was a fringe benefit. I was worried that she was worried about the class. This was an innocent study session, nothing more.
I pulled up in front of her house, and knocked. She let me in, and took me over into the living room, suggesting we set up on the couch, using the coffee table as a desk. We were in the process of doing just that when a woman entered the room.
Obviously, Samantha's mother. We were introduced. And this was another worrying sign. I swear, the woman looked at me like I was sent down from Evil Male Central with the express purpose of molesting her daughter. I could just sense the waves of hostility coming from this woman. I didn't get it! I mean, I felt like I wanted to put a sign on my forehead saying "Hey, I really am a nice guy!"
The mother called Samantha into the kitchen. There was some heavy duty whispering going on, and none of it sounded pleasant. I didn't hear much, but I did here the mother say something like, "Bringing classmates here, do you know how dangerous that is?" I also heard Samantha hiss something like, "But I need the help in this class!"
Finally, Samantha came back out, un-accompanied by the mother, and gave me a feeble smile. We settled down to study. I did my best, and I do think I helped her, but my mind wasn't completely on it. What was so dangerous about me being here? ME? I mean, come on-I'm harmless.
Anyhow, we studied. The mother kept coming out and looking daggers at me. I just didn't get it. And, every time she came out, Samantha looked more and more agitated. There was something here I just wasn't getting. And Samantha was getting upset-partially at her mother, it seemed like, partially at her inability to grasp some of the schoolwork-and partially, I think, at my presence.
What I didn't know yet was what happened to Samantha when she got stressed. I quickly found out. I was hunched over the textbook, pointing something out to her, and I noticed she stopped talking mid-sentence. I looked over at her, and she was slumped on the couch, like she had no muscle control. Her eyes were wide open, but unfocused-glassy. Her jaw was slack, and drool was seeping out of it. Her right hand was making this strange repetitive pulling motion. Her left foot was tapping up a storm.
I admit it-I panicked. "Samantha? Are you all right? Samantha? Hey, HELP!" Her mother came flying into the room at that, looked at her-and then looked at me with an expression that mixed resignation with disgust.
"She's having a seizure."
"A seizure?"
"Samantha has epilepsy."
"Oh," I said. I'd heard of epilepsy, of course, but I didn't know much about it. "Is she going to be OK?"
"She'll be fine. They last a few minutes, then pass."
Just then, the front door slammed. "I'm home!" a masculine voice announced, then a guy walked into the living room where we all were. Samantha's father, I guessed-who walked in to me and her mother staring at her as she had a seizure.
"Damn," he said softly.
Just then, Samantha straightened up. The odd movements of her hand and leg ceased, and she blinked her eyes rapidly. She came back to-well, consciousness, I guess-and looked at me with those huge brown eyes. Then she looked at her mother.
"Did I just... ?"
"Yes," her mother said.
With that, she looked back at me-with a look of complete despair. And there were big huge fat tears rolling down her cheeks!
"Are you OK?" I said, rather stupidly. She didn't say anything, just looked at me, crying.
"Peter, I think you need to leave now," the mother said quietly.
"But..."
"She'll be fine. It's best that you leave."
I wasn't going to win this one. I gathered up my books-with her staring at me and silently crying all the while-and headed for the door. As I stepped out the front door, completely upset at what had just happened, and not understanding a lot of it, I felt a hand on my shoulder.
"Peter, is it?" It was her father.
"Yes. You're Samantha's father?"
"Yes. Are you a friend of hers from school?"
"I try to be. She's very closed off. But we were studying, she's having trouble in a class we share."
"Ah. Do you understand what happened in there? Did anyone tell you?"
"Mrs. Andrews said that Samantha has epilepsy."
"Right. Do you know anything about it?"
"Not much," I admitted.
"It's a neurological disorder. It has to do with the chemicals in the brain. They misfire, and she gets seizures."
"This isn't, like, life-threatening or anything, is it?" I said, holding my breath.
"Not at all. Even the seizures are somewhat controllable, by medication. That was the first she'd had in a few months." He sat on the front steps, and motioned me to sit next to him. "The big problem with epilepsy is the stigma."
"Stigma?"
"Look, you saw her have the seizure." I nodded. "What did it look like? Pretty strange, right?"
"Yeah, I suppose. More scary that strange, actually."
"Yeah, but to a lot of people it's strange. Kids can be cruel. Samantha was pretty well ostracized at her old school. Now, part of that was that we lived in Pembroke our whole lives, so she went to school with some of the same kids every year, and she had her first seizure in school in second grade. Second grade kids can be really cruel-but it followed her. For quite a few years, her nickname was Spazzy Sammi."
"Jesus," I hissed.
"So," he continued, "Sammi's pretty used to having it be stigmatized. When we moved here, she was bound and determined that no one would know about her epilepsy."
"And I just blew that all to hell," I sighed.
"Well, I thought it was doomed to failure to begin with. I mean, she's not making friends."
"As I said, she closes herself off."
"Yes," he agreed, "which isn't any healthier than being ostracized, in my book. But she was convinced she should keep it a secret, damn the cost. And her mother, who can be very overprotective, backed her."
"Well," I sighed, "at least now I understand her reaction. The crying, I mean. She was crying because I 'caught' her."
"Exactly." He looked at me. "Peter? Do you like my daughter?"
I thought about that for a minute. "I like what I've been allowed to see. Every so often, she slips, if you know what I mean." He nodded. And then I said, not really realizing I was saying it out loud, "And her smile is gorgeous."
He chuckled, and I turned bright red. Then he looked at me seriously. "Peter, you're going to have to be stubborn as a mule. And, you also have to realize that she will be ostracized by some people. What if she has a seizure, with you, in a public place? You might have to deal with being ostracized by proxy."
"Anyone that'd do that isn't anyone I care about."
"Good," he said, clapping me on the shoulder again. "Samantha's a good kid, Peter. She could use a friend. Just remember what I said."
"I will," I said. He smiled and headed into the house. I headed to my car and drove off. I had a lot to think about
Four
The first thing I did when I got home was look up epilepsy on the internet. There was a lot of good information. A lot of it was just elaborating on what Mr. Andrews told me. It does affect people's lives-there's some medications that you can't take, Samantha might have trouble getting a driver's license-but a lot of things affect people's lives. A lot of the particular problem with epilepsy specifically was the stigma.
Well, she wasn't going to be getting any stigma from me. So, I should be able to get past that part of it, right? Yeah-wishful thinking. When I went back to school the next day, she wouldn't even talk to me. In fact, when she saw me coming, she gave me that look of despair-then ran the other way.
I understood. Really, I did-I had heard what her father said to me. But, I have to say, after a couple days of being treated like a leper-it started to get to me. I mean, I wasn't the one that picked on her! I wasn't the one that called her Spazzy Sammi! Why was I getting the backlash?
Look, I am not perfect. I know I have said and done things to hurt people. Mostly inadvertently, but occasionally on purpose. Not a lot, but enough to make me ashamed once or twice. Hey, I just turned 17, and no kid is perfect. But I like to think, basically, I'm a decent person. I like to think I'm nice. And that's to everybody-much less to someone I was interested in, and wanted to get to know better.
So, I started to get a little peeved. What it did was make me do something very uncharacteristic. I'm no shrinking wallflower, but I'm not overly aggressive either, not by any means. When I start getting the negative signals, I usually stop pursuit-and I probably over-emphasize any negative signals in my mind. But I didn't, this time. Why? Because I thought I was getting negative signals for reasons that had nothing to do with me-and, as I said, it rankled.
So, after a week of getting the complete cold shoulder, I did that uncharacteristic thing-I showed up at her doorstep at five o'clock on Friday.
Her father answered the door. "Peter?"
"Yes, hello, sir, is Samantha in?"
"Yes, she is." He stepped out on the porch and closed the door behind him. "Is she expecting you? I'd be kind of surprised if she was."
"No, sir, she's not. I, well..." I took a breath. "She's been avoiding me in school. I mean, turning and running if she sees me coming. I can't corner her there."
"Ah," he said, with a wide smile, surprising me.
"I was going to try to get her to go to dinner with me-that is, if I wouldn't be interfering with any family dinner plans."
"Not at all," he said, still smiling, "we had nothing planned-in fact, we were all just discussing it. Come in." He opened back up the door and led me into the living room. "Samantha! You have a visitor."
"I do?" she said, emerging from the kitchen, the mother in tow. They both stopped short when they saw me. "Peter? What are you doing here?" she said, that despairing look on her face again
I screwed on my courage. "I'm here to take you to dinner. Ever been to the Sylvan Street Grill over in Salisbury? The food's great. Get your coat."
She looked at me like I had four heads. "Peter? I mean... I can't..."
"Sure you can."
"Why are you doing this?" she pleaded.
"Because I like you, and I'd like to get to know you better. Look. If you really don't think you'd have a good time on a date with me, if you really don't like me-then say so, and I'll go. But if you're going to say no because you're scared; if you're going to try to avoid me like you have all week because you're scared-well, no, I'm not going to accept that."
"But you saw it," she whispered.
"That's right. Which means we got it over with." She had been standing a few feet away from me. I walked right over to her, grabbed her shoulders, and looked into her eyes. "Samantha. It doesn't make a difference. Get it? It doesn't make a difference."
She just stared at me. "What if she has a seizure in the restaurant?" her mother said from behind her.
"Well, I'm just supposed to let it pass, right?" Her mother nodded. "I don't have to hold down her tongue so she doesn't swallow it?"
Samantha actually grinned at that. "No, that's a myth."
"Just let it pass," her father said. "If it goes longer than five minutes or if she has one right on top of the other, you need to call 911-but that's just a precaution, that's never happened to her. Oh, and if she's walking, or not supported, you might have to grab her. Don't restrain her, but make sure she isn't in a position where she could fall and hurt herself-her muscles go completely slack so she can't stand up."
"OK," I said.
"And what if she has a seizure in the restaurant and everybody starts staring-at her and you?" her mother said.
"It doesn't matter," I said, and meant it. "They can all mind their own fucking business." Samantha gave an embarrassed giggle at that-probably because I dropped an F-bomb in front of her parents!
"It's not that simple," the mother said, relentless to the last.
I looked at her. "I have a little brother, Jimmy. He's 12. He has asthma-I mean bad asthma. It restricts a lot of things he can do, he has to carry around a puffer all the time, he can't keep up with the other kids much. He gets teased about it. And he has vicious attacks. A couple years ago, I was 15, he was 10-I was babysitting him and my sister, who was like 8 at the time. He went into an attack like you wouldn't believe. There I was, dialing 911 and frantically trying to get my little brother to start breathing again. You wanna talk about scary?"
Samantha looked at me. She blinked twice. And then looked at me some more. And then her face unfolded into a 100-megawatt smile. "OK," she said, and went over to the coat rack and grabbed a jacket.
"Samantha. This is a mistake," her mother said.
"Mildred!" her father hissed.
"No, ma'am, it's not," I told her mother. "It's not a mistake at all." Samantha smiled at me again, and I led her out the door, to my car.
As we got in and I started driving, she turned to me, apprehensive again. "Who have you told?"
"Not a soul," I said. "Well, that's not exactly true. I told my mother. She knew I was preoccupied with something, so she asked me what was up. I told her the whole story. Don't worry, Mom's cool."
She nodded, and then said, "Your friends haven't noticed that something was up?"
"Yeah, they did, but I parried it. They know I like you, and they know you weren't responding, but they don't know why."
"They must think you've been stalking me," she giggled.
"Actually, Cindy-she's one of my friends, she's my best friend Mickey's girlfriend-said exactly that. I told her that, yes, I was definitely stalking you."
She giggled again, and then said, "Are you really this sweet?"
"Only some of the time, as my little sister would be happy to tell you." She giggled again.
We got to the restaurant and got seated. She'd never been to the Sylvan Street Grill but agreed to go on my enthusiastic recommendation. We ordered, and started chatting while we waited. We talked about each other for a bit, and, when she wasn't being scared, she really was delightful.
The food came, and we started eating. She said I was right, the food was great. We ate a bit, and then, suddenly, she said, "This is my first date, you know."
"Well, I'm not shocked," I said. She looked at me. "When I was leaving your house on Monday, your dad came out with me. He pulled me aside and told me some of the problems you had at your old school."
"Oh," she said glumly.
"Hey, I'm glad he did. I was so confused. I couldn't figure out why you were crying, and I was deathly afraid I had inadvertently done something. At least your Dad cleared that up."
"I just couldn't stop." She looked down and her voiced dropped. "Look, Peter, I liked you from the start. But I was so scared, and when you saw me..." she trailed off.
"You really got shit," I said.
"Oh, they called me Spazzy Sammi, they'd walk by and make faces at me, and motions with their hands-it wasn't pleasant. Not everybody, but enough-and nobody else would make friends with me because then they'd be a target, you know? I was so glad when we moved, you have no idea." She gave me a wry grin. "Of course, I thought I could keep it a secret."
"But then you'd still be isolated."
"Yeah," she admitted, "though that's not fun, it's better than being teased." She looked up and grinned at me. "And I got lucky, the first one that finds out is one of the good guys."
"At your service, ma'am," I quipped. "You want me to go out and buy a white hat?"
"Nah," she giggled.
"I'm not going to be the last to know, though. The odds are against it."
"Probably not," she said sadly.
"I'll back you up, though." She absolutely beamed at that! "So, is it just the stigma?"
"That's a lot of it. There's more. Hey, it's kind of scary. I've gotten more used to it, of course, but-I mean, how would you like it if you had little holes in your life? I don't remember the seizures, you know-and then I'm fuzzy afterwards for about a half hour. Hey, there are worse things-I'd rather have this than the asthma your brother has."
"Yeah. Having seen both, and now knowing that a seizure won't kill you or anything," I agreed. "Jimmy's asthma could."
"Right. So there are worse things. But there's things I can't do. I can't take certain medications, because they interact with my anti-seizure stuff." She grinned at me. "It's a good thing I've never dated-I can't go on the pill."
I almost choked at that one, but regained my composure. "That's what condoms are for," I parried.
"True," she grinned. "There are other things. I can't drive. I might be able to someday-but the state of Massachusetts requires epileptics to go six months without a seizure to get a license, and I've never managed that. Three or four, usually, but not six."
"Wouldn't driving be scary anyway?" I asked.
"Well, a bit, but I get a warning. I know when a seizure is coming, is what I mean. You ever have your foot 'fall asleep'? You know, that tingling?"
"Yeah."
"Well, I get that all over, for a few minutes, right before a seizure. If I were driving, I'd have time to pull over." She got a look on her face. "Of course, half the time I get that feeling and try to make the seizure go away. Which never works."
"Monday," I said.
"Oh, you betcha," she agreed. "Ah, well-all's well that ends well."
We finished our meal and chatted, then I took her home. When I pulled up in front of her house, I pulled out my cell phone. "Listen, I was wondering-could I have your phone number?"
"Of course," she smiled. We ended up swapping everything-regular phone numbers, cell phone numbers, e-mail addresses, IM screen names. Ah, the age of technology. Then I walked her to her door. Damn, I wanted to kiss her-but I thought it'd be pushing it. So I just said good night.
I'm not sure if she was disappointed or relieved.
Five
I woke up the next morning feeling strange.
I got up, got some breakfast, chatted to the folks. I puttered about a bit, wanting to call her, but-again-not wanting to push it. At about 11 AM, I went to my room to fool around on my computer. A minute after I fired everything up, she popped up on IM.
"Oh thank GOODNESS you're there! I felt strange about calling so soon, but I was about to out of sheer desperation," she typed.
"Hi, Sam, what's up?"
"We have a test in pre-calc on Monday, I'm trying to study, and I'm just not getting it!"
"I'll be right over," I typed.
"YOU'RE THE BEST!!!"
I laughed, shut down the computer, and told my folks where I was headed. I got to Sam's house and she opened the door-delighted (and relieved!). Wasn't that nice to see!
We got quickly to work, and she was far more relaxed than she had been the last time we tried to study together-so it went a lot better.
Unfortunately, there was still a problem, and I found out about it an hour after I had gotten there, when Sam excused herself to go to the bathroom. Before I knew it, the mother was looming over me.
"How dare you!" she hissed.
"Excuse me?"
"Giving her false hope! You don't care, you don't have to live with it! She does! Are you going to be there if she has a seizure in public?"
"Yes," I said firmly. That one took her aback a bit, so I seized the advantage. "You're talking like you think she can't live a normal life."
"She can't!"
"You know what? As long as she believes that-she never will."
"What do you know about it?" she almost roared.
"I told you. My brother. And asthma's worse, in terms of health. Jimmy can't really lead a normal life-but he gets very close, because my parents encourage that. You live every day with a little boy who could stop breathing at a moment's notice-and Samantha looks pretty normal."
The mother didn't know what to say to that-and didn't have a chance, as Samantha came back into the room. The mother shot me a look, then headed upstairs.
Sam looked at me quizzically, then said, "Hey, come here." She led me into the kitchen. "It's 12:30, let's see what we can scare up for lunch."
"OK."
She made some sandwiches, and we ate them at the kitchen table. After a few minutes, she quietly said, "She was giving you shit."
"Yeah," I admitted.
"Look, I love her, and I know she loves and wants the best for me-but she's overprotective."
"I noticed," I grinned.
She grinned back, and said, "She got the brunt of it. Whenever I'd get picked on or shunned, she was the shoulder I cried on, you know? I think she was more horrified than I was. So, that's why."
"I figured as much," I said, and then looked right at her. "Look, I can handle it, OK?"
"OK," she smiled.
"If she thinks she's going to scare me off, she's got another thing coming."
"Good!" Sam laughed.
A bit later, we'd got done studying, and were just chatting.
"I told you that last night was my first date," she said. I nodded. "It wasn't yours, though."
"No," I said. "I've had a girlfriend. Started towards the end of Freshman year, went midway through Sophomore. So, it ended, what, about 10 months ago. I've had a date or two since then, nothing much."
"What happened with your girlfriend?"
I sighed. "I don't know. What I don't know is if she changed while we were going out, or if I was blind. But, by the end, I pretty much hated her. She treated people like shit. I broke up with her after she verbally attacked one of my best friends, and for no reason."
"Who was it?"
"Linda Garriveaux."
"Oh, Jesus," Sam snorted. "That's one girl I steer clear of."
"Good choice. You know, I don't really think she was like that when we first started going out. I don't know what happened."
Sam looked at me. "She walked all over you, didn't she?"
Damn. "Well, I guess, to a point..." I said sheepishly.
"You're too sweet. I knew it the minute you told me who it was, that she walked on you. Did you sleep together?" My eyes went right open at that, and my jaw dropped. "Thought so," she giggled. "And I'd bet any money that the first few times were great-and after that she used sex as a negotiating tool."
"Damn," I said. "Sam, I don't mean this to offend-but how does an isolated girl who had her first date yesterday-how does she figure all that out so quick?"
"Keen powers of observation," she grinned. "Nobody talks to me, so I learned to watch, just to keep from being bored. Besides which, you're as easy to read as an open book, has anyone ever told you that?"
"Not that I recall," I said.
"Well, you are," she giggled. "It's very handy."
"Oh, thanks," I grinned.
Six
We finished studying, and I went home for supper. Sunday, the next day, we spent a couple hours on the phone.
When we got into pre-calc on Monday, she shot me a huge smile on the way to her seat. Afterwards, she met me outside the class.
"How'd you do?" I asked her.
"I actually think I did OK," she smiled. "Thanks."
"You're welcome." We got to the lunchroom, and I asked her if she wanted to eat with me and my friends.
"Uhm, well, I..."
"You're not ready for that."
"No. I'm comfortable around you, but..."
"That's fine, then it'll just be the two of us."
"You should eat with your friends," she said.
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Maggie's Secret's Secret This story is purely fiction. No corporations or names represent real people or companies in any way. I appreciate all story reviews to help me become a better writer or, from a purely selfish perspective, make me want to continue writing. If you like the story I've written numerous others that you might want to read. You can search for all my stories by using the 'author search' and typing in the author, 'Want2BaGirl'. I hope you enjoy. Part One -...
The Deep and Dark Secret. By Susan Brown It was on Paddington Station in the heart of London that their eyes met across the crowded platform. Susan's heart missed a beat when she saw him glance at his watch and then look up at her. He smiled handsomely; his gleaming white teeth brightened her day and most of the platform. She went wobbly at the knees. He was at least 6-foot tall, wide shouldered, about 29 years old, blond...
The Presidential Secret By Gigi Julianne Langworth is the first woman president of the United States. It all happened very suddenly. It was about two in the morning, local time and 30,000 feet over the Atlantic flying from Paris on Air Force Two when Langworth was awoken from her nap. "Madam Vice-President, uh, we have bad news," whispered the secret service agent, "We just confirmed that President Hunt is dead of heart attack." Julianne's eyes opened in shock. Jason Hunt was a...
A Shower with my Secret Desire I check my watch, I know I am late, bloody trains, then the traffic. I know you’re going to be getting ready, and I wanted to see your transformation with my own eyes. From tracksuit to queen, ready to walk confidently on my arm. I get to the door and I know where you keep your spare key, so I simply get it and open the door. Once inside I can hear the shower running and your music playing. “Bugger!” I think. With that I hear you walking around. “Oh I’m not to...
Part 4 I woke up the next morning and groaned deeply as I felt a pair of lips sliding down my morning erection. Even before I was fully awake I was thrusting my hips upwards to meet that willing mouth. “Isn’t your sister good at sucking cock, my little baby!” came the whisper in my ear. My eyes shot open and I would have been panic stricken except for the feeling of a pair of cheeks hollowing against the side of my cock. I looked at my mother lying beside me as her pointed nails took hold of...
IncestStory taken from SecretFriends.com forum!I'm relaxing in a luxurious motel room in Northern Florida, watching out the window every now and then and wondering what the hell I'm doing here. I realize what brought me south; a holiday trip to visit a relative in Georgia, but what made me stop here in this five-star motel on my way home? I recognize what I'm doing isn't right, but, this time, I’m just out of control. Or I must accept that I want to be out of control. And then again, my deviant mind...
Hopefully, most of you who have arrived at this story have already read “Fresh Fuckmeat in Thailand I and II”, so I won’t belabor the principles behind my Streams of Fuckmeat. I’ll just give a bit of an introduction here, and talk briefly about Thai women before diving in to Fuckmeat Stream Three. Work in international corporate and governmental consulting has placed me in the position to have fucked eight hundred three women, spread out over 46 countries worldwide. In five of those countries...
A Shower with my Secret Desire I check my watch, I know I am late, bloody trains, then the traffic. I know you’re going to be getting ready, and I wanted to see your transformation with my own eyes. From tracksuit to queen, ready to walk confidently on my arm. I get to the door and I know where you keep your spare key, so I simply get it and open the door. Once inside I can hear the shower running and your music playing. “Bugger!” I think. With that I hear you walking around. “Oh I’m not to...
Straight SexDo you have a secret stash? Of course, you fucking do! We all do! Whether you are talking about that ounce of reefer you have stuck behind your bookshelf or all those old VHS porno tapes you are hiding from your mother for some reason, we all have one! Or did have one, until we moved out of our parent’s basement like the big boys we are!Well, Secret Stash also has its own secret stack. So much that it named the premise Secret Stash! The platform has a fuck load of videos available for you to...
Free Porn Tube SitesIt was without doubt the most embarrassing moment of my life. There I stood in a back street with a brown paper bag between my feet and its contents, five dirty mags, spread out on the pavement in front of me. Not only that, but Mrs Hotter was standing there staring, hand over mouth.Mrs Hotter was her real name, by the way, which occasioned a great deal of sniggering among us boys-becoming-men, but that’s neither here nor there. Let me give you the background.It was the day after my 18th...
MILFSTREET STORIES:My Homeboy’s Girlfriend (The Secret)By WebbHe that has eyes to see and ears to hear may convince himself that no mortal can keep a secret. If his lips are silent, he chatters with his fingertips; betrayal oozes out of him at every pore. -Sigmond Freud The very best part of a secret lies in the telling. -Stephen Pinto I have contended for a long time that the best part of a secret is in the telling…yeah I’m Stephen Pinto, a.k.a. Big Webb. This story is an example of that....
This is a strange, short story that I wrote a long time ago, which is what it is – nothing will be added to it. It’s much more gentle than the usual fare that I come up with, and is dedicated to a lovely woman I used to know named Beth. Any comments, suggestions, feedback – postive, negative or otherwise – appreciated, to [email protected]~~~~!!!!!!!~~~~~I have a secret.? A little hidden treasure that I keep locked away.? Nobody knows about it yet, because if they did, I never know what...
ROBERTO'S SECRET by Spanky Dee Cody Daniels was only trying to help her country; she never dreamed things would come to this. She was patriotic and felt compelled to do whatever asked of her to aid in the capture of the terrorist known only as "Roberto." But lying in his bed, bound and gagged, Cody wondered why she let herself go this far in the Bureau's plan to nab the world's most wanted and hated man. ------------------------------------------------------------------------ It...
I close my eyes for a moment and thenreluctantly tear them open again. My desk is a mess and I start to tidy up my desk. I see the time and realize it is so late and by now I should have been home already. I leave my office and walk down the corridor and soon realize that I am completely alone. The quiet is so welcoming after a day of challenges. My iPod is a welcome companion and I put on my earphones and select shuffle. A soft slow song starts off, its just easy listening with almost no...
I'm copying this story from here: https://www.writing.com/main/interact/item_id/1884280-Girlfriends-Futanari-Secret because I prefer the interface of this site. Please feel free to copy entries from the story map, found here: https://www.writing.com/main/interact/item_id/1884280-Girlfriends-Futanari-Secret/action/outline. In the original story, underage sex was allowed, but since that is against the rules here on this site, please make the appropriate modifications to fit site rules. I tried to...
TranssexualSRU: Hank's Secret By Bashful ******************** Author's note: Many thanks, once again, to Janice Dreamer who improved this story immensely with her skillful editing and nit picking. I am deeply grateful Jan. ******************** Hank Wilson was the kind of son any parent would be proud of. He was the starting center for the Gus Grissom High School basketball team, the Astronauts. He had a solid 'B' average and he was popular with most of the kids in his senior class. ...
Victoria has her Secret (she used to be Victor), and so does Mindy. Many know what is really going on at Fictionmania, yet come back repeatedly. Thus, for the first time, a detailed expose by a victim; and a warning: "Don't do what I did!" (With "apologies" to Mindy, Jennifer Lorissa-Leigh, Jodi Anderson, Jackie, RH Music, Edith Bellamy, Ellie Dauber, and Pamela for any untruths and for mentioning their stories: acknowledgements are at the end of this story. I apologize to anyone I was...
I close my eyes for a moment and thenreluctantly tear them open again. My desk is a mess and I start to tidy up my desk. I see the time and realize it is so late and by now I should have been home already. I leave my office and walk down the corridor and soon realize that I am completely alone. The quiet is so welcoming after a day of challenges. My iPod is a welcome companion and I put on my earphones and select shuffle. A soft slow song starts off, its just easy listening with almost no...
VoyeurJanuary 2019Half an inch from clearing the history, the cursor skids to a halt when five forgotten downloads rivet her attention. What was an innocent routine of moving some trip photos between devices takes a disturbing twist as a seaside day's souvenirs are eclipsed by the radioactive, quintet wink of his name. Their viewer's carefully applied cosmetic calm dissolves as if the screen's icy flicker were a bank of thousand-watt floods, and she, the soloist whose voice had cracked on the...
CheatingAnother from me I hope you’ll enjoy. Again, as usual with this site, I wrote this in what was almost one continuous effort and, once more as per usual, because of time constraints, it’s largely unchecked and has received no edits. To that end, please forgive any typos and/or other errors in the text. I hope any fuck-ups which remain don’t detract from your enjoyment of the scene.Thanks for reading.Ricky – Cambridgeshire, UK – 12th of July 2020***“What is at about me?”I felt awkward, embarrassed...
I had only kept one secret from my boyfriend of 21 years. Or so I thought. We have a great relationship, even down to what we feel is our kinky side. And it is not so kinky from what I have been reading about others.I discovered chastity several months ago while at a pool party. My boyfriend, I should mention, travels alot for his job and is gone usually about 4 days out of each week. Anyway, while at this pool party, a good buddy of mine was in chastity and showed me his device. He was wearing...
Title: Her Dirty Little SecretRating: NC17Summary: After the Golden Globes Award Party Laura comes home to her only secret slave who nobody in the whole wide world knows about, not even her real life boyfriend.Feedback: always appreciated!Note: Just a fantasy. Not a real story. *sighs* I Wish!Mistress! You're home! Did you have fun?" the slave asked as he opened his arms wide to give her a hug, but his Mistress grabbed both filthy hands, making sure that they did not stain the expensive...
My Friends Secret It was a normal day in Brookfield High School. "Here we go, another boring week is starting" thought George. He was a 16 year old teenager not too different from other guys. He was a friendly boy, always optimistic and always ready to offer a hand to anyone who needs it. He had a best friend Michael, a boy who was in many ways like him, with the difference that while George was sociable and optimistic, he was much more timid and pessimistic. Like every other Monday...
I watched her dancing on the dance floor, I watched her watching me watch her, and I started walking toward her. She was moving sexily as she danced, so many people around us, but we never noticed any of them. "Secret" was the only one I paid any attenion to. When I got up to her, I pulled her close to me, looking down into her beautiful, sexy blue eyes. She was shorter than I am, she was only 5' 2" tall, but she was so beautiful and sexy, built like a dream, with a body made for loving...
He takes her by the hand and leads her to the far corner, a place where shadows will screen them from the eyes of smokers who come outside to sit at wooden picnic tables. It will be a place of half-darkness. They will not be disturbed.She watches him glance back, checking no one has noticed them slip away. He is a married man, his wife an old friend of her Aunt Ruth. Her eyes follow his and she sees people coming and going, but nobody she knows. She is anonymous. The knowledge releases her from...
TeenTwenty-five years ago I was in the armed services. During that time I met and fell in love with a woman who was also in the service. We never married and had a wonderful couple of years doing all the things that married people accomplish in their bedrooms. Her name was Pam and we were officers and she was one rank lower than I was. Our relationship was well known in the Mess and everybody knew and treated us as a couple.We lived in barracks so we spent weekends mainly in hotels or motels,...
Incest[A little background for this, Sam was born with male genitalia, which is one of the reasons why she doesn't like the word panties, something she can't technically wear because of her 'extra' friend. The only four people who know about Sam having male genitalia are her doctor, her mom, her s*ster, and Carly. Carly found out because the two secretly dated for a while and lost their virginities to each other prior the finale of 'iCarly', and after Sam broke up with Freddie. When she was younger,...
(This is a sequel to “Blue Eyes Crying in the Rain” which was posted on October 21) After experiencing the tragic death of my very first lover, David, and then being sodomized by the renegade cop, I swore off men. At least for the rest of the summer. It would be just me and my fingers and vibrator. So I thought. I met Victoria at the gym. Beautiful. Tall, jet black hair, and milky white skin. Early thirties. She showed me the family pictures. Handsome husband. Two children, a boy nine and a...
Bisexual"I'll fuck you so hard that you'll forget all about him..." Natalia has been lusting for her stepfather for the longest time. Suddenly, her stepfather is engaged to another women while his younger brother found out about Natalia's secret... What will happen to her secret relationship with her cousin when a bodyguard is hired to monitor her... “Ah Ah Ahh! ... Uncle please stop…we…ah…cannot do this…ahh” I panted between kisses as his tongue invaded my...
StraightVicky was fan of VS panties. She loved going into the store on her Saturday shopping trips. Usually she would save this until last, after buying a couple of short skirts to show off her long teenage legs, and some tight Capri pants to hug her perfect bottom, which would require a small thong so as not to show a VPL. Choosing carefully she took advantage of a 3 for 2 offer which meant a pretty pair, a thong and one pair for her personal secret pleasure.Actually they all pleased her. The pretty...
OccupationsI have two brothers, Bobby who is 15, and Chris who is 14. All three of us were like a spitting image of our dad, with the exception of Bobby having ear-length blond hair and my mother’s green eyes, and Chris having short, ginger hair inherited from Mom’s mother. And they are not nearly as badass and attractive as I am. Well, it was November, and those two little brats played a highly amusing prank on me at school. I acted like I was cool with it, but I really wasn’t. I resented the fact...
“So, um… Chad?”“Yes, Ashley?”“I’ve been thinking. You know I have a boyfriend, and you might be the only one that might listen to me. This is kind of a confession.”“What?”Now, let’s pause right here. A myriad of thoughts were running through my head at this point in time.Like:“Why me? Ashley doesn’t even talk to me much. What could the confession be?”I got the answer swiftly.“Chad… She told me you packing a little, huh?”I cursed to myself.“I should have known. As close as you two are... I...
AnalAs I sat in the lounge with Aunt stood in front of me in her underwear, and listening to her explain that everything would be fine and not to worry, I hadn’t realised that time had passed quickly as I looked at the clock on the fireplace shelf, crikey I blurted, its 12.30pm, if I don’t leave soon Mother will be wondering where I’ve got to,I think I should just get dressed and leave now I said.Oh nonsense “Brian” declared Aunt Sheila, and besides your trousers and ‘Y’ fronts are in the washing...
She was creating quite a stir. She always did. Amongst the endless sea of blonde, half-naked college lovelies gyrating tothe pounding hip-hop with her, she simply stood out. It wasn’t that she was tall, with full breasts and slim hips. It wasn’teven her long, wavy black hair, or the way her legs seemed to end somewhere in the vicinity of her throat. It was far lesstangible than that. Perhaps it was the way she danced; uninhibited, pornographic, alone. No matter how many bodieswere pressed...
Occasionally in passing you have seen a few different women go in and out my apartment. Today, you had to sign for a FedEx delivery for apartment A12; addressed to Allison. A few minutes ago, you saw a girl bounce up the stairs and enter the apartment, so being a good landlord, you thought you would just go up and drop off the package. You knocked on the door, I forgot to close it all the way, and it slowly creeks open on the first knock. You creep in holding the package asking if there is...
Liitle Secret. By Sweet Renu Dear readers I am not new to this site. Previously i have contributed to this site. After a long time I am gain here at the disposal of loving readers. I thank all very uch for the encouragement given by hem. Now with a new venture. I went to Vijayawada for my Anand annayya’s marriage. (peddamma koduku). He only took my virginity wheni was 17 years. I went 1 week before the marriage. That day my self anand’s own sister Jaya were alone at hme were as all the people...
"Yes, Ashley?" "I've been thinking. You know I have a boyfriend, and you might be the only one that might listen to me on this topic... since you look at it every day. This is kind of a confession." "What is it?" Now, let's pause right here. A myriad of thoughts were running through my head at this point in time. For example: "Why me? Ashley doesn't even talk to me much. What could the confession be?" I got the answer quickly. "Chad... Becky told me you packing a little,...
"Are you getting this?" Claire shouted from the top of the rickety abandoned platform. "Claire, trust me, I'm recording your every step." "OK, just keep it aimed at me, and don't stop, no matter what happens." "All right, all right, but be careful up there." "Geez, Zach, sometimes you sound just like my dad. Just do what I ask, OK?" Zach zoomed in on Claire as she stood on the dilapidated walkway. He was expecting her to drop something onto the sun-harded Texas soil below, but...
Copyright © 1997 and 2002, Phil Phantom Cindy saw that the door to my bedroom wasn't all the way closed, so the knock-before-entering rule did not apply. She opened the door and said, "Mom, I... MOM! I jumped to place my back to the wall and yanked-up the bathing suit I was stripping out of, crying, "Cindy! GET OUT!" Ignoring the order, my curious sixteen-year-old marched in, saying, "Mom, what was that?" With the suit clutched in place but not tied, I said, "That was none of your...
Thursday morning, right after dad left for work Mandy came into my room, she was crying, “what’s wrong? I asked.” “Dad came into my room again last night. I was horny, I was about to get up and go to your room so you could make love to me. At first, I thought it was you that came in, but I soon found out, by the smell of alcohol that it was Dad. I pretend to be asleep. He stood over me for a while before he pulled his Sweatpants down and off. He played with himself until he was hard. He...
Emily grew up with a rich family she was spoiled by both her parents, as she was spoiled by money, love and greed. She made very few friends cause of this as it was really hard for her to connect with someone outside off her family of corse. On the other hand her sister grew up to become popular, more popular then her as her sister had even challenged her at times. Emily became spoiled, as her sister become popular it was a rivalry between both of them. Emily however has a hidden secret that no...
(All characters are at least 18 years of age) Word count = 16K ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I'm not even sure where, to begin with, this story about my life. I guess I should start at the point things went from normal to just plain crazy! It began the night of my 18th birthday. Well, maybe crazy isn't the correct word to describe my family, but abnormal wouldn't be a stretch. It all started when I was a senior in high school. The school was about to get out for the summer, and...
Vanessa's Secret Part one By Jason Morgan A beautiful young woman is abused by her cruel master. She is hoping to soon win her freedom when a caring young man enters her life and hopes he can win her heart and help her get her freedom. The young woman does her best to hide her past and a dark secret that could shatter all everything for her. Part 1 Hey Miss Priss, our drinks are getting hot and they are hungry, Get some sandwiches too, get your swishy ass in here!" A harsh...
Secrets By Donna Sash [email protected] We all have them, secrets. We have them for many reasons, mine is to keep my self-safe from society. You see my main secrets are the kind that would cause members of my family and myself much humiliation. Ok, I'll just come out with it, I am a cross dresser. A transvestite, a man who wears the clothing of the opposite sex. Sure its ok for women to wear men's clothing, it is even looked at a sexy and it is accepted by society, but a man in...
The Writer's Secret by Ann Michelle (http://annemichellesworld.blogspot.com/) The conclusion... Chapter 13: Laura Blossoms A routine developed. During the weekdays, Kathleen would come over to watch Loren work. They would read fashion magazines, watch her favorite soap, and she would gossip about their friends. They were becoming good friends. She would also occasionally bring him more clothes and would hint that they should go out somewhere public, but so far, she hadn't...
Chapter 5: Promises and Secrets Leah furiously stormed into her room, slamming the door behind her. She didn't care to exercise the proper politeness one usually did in someone else's home, not when she suspected what had been done to her within said home. Zach's mom had to have been the one doing this. There was no other explanation that made sense, and Zach had to know. Why wouldn't he tell her? They knew almost everything about one another since the first day they had met back in...
I first start messing around with my penis when l was about 6 years old. after circumcision. It was during the school holiday. My mom caught me once while l was exploring my virgin penis, guess my quick responded was, and “mum... it’s itchy”... my mum just smiled and walked away. By this time, l was already addicted to what l was doing. As my penis erects, I just can’t stop holding and touching my penis. Little l know anything about having sex or to masturbates. A month later whilst...
It takes time ti write a good story.Follow me on instagram @raqm0900 and tumblr quemmysissy.tumblr.comIntroduction:A grandmother’s untimely demise brings to light an unexpected story about an apparently normal family.Grandma's SecretEarlier this month, my grandmother passed away in her sleep. Nan had been only 66 years old when she died, but it hadn't happened unexpectedly. The doctors had given her two months when they discovered the cancer that was slowly destroying her body, and that was...
Synopsis: First of all, I want to apologize. I konw it's been a really long time since I posted anything. I just haven't had much time to write. However, I think you'll find this story worth the wait.This story is about a young man who heads off to college in New Zealand and meets two beautiful sisters. Before long, a relationship develops between our hero and one of the sisters. Of course, if you've read any of my stories, you know there's more to this girl than meets the eye . . .* * *I want...
Note: ——I am NOT the author!I am simply sharing A woman needs a steady diet of love, tender kisses, stroking, andlove making followed by holding and sweet words. This onesometimes needs to have her ankles pinned to a mattress besideher ears and have her pussy pounded to mush by a big cock withhuge ass-slapping balls. Walter, my husband of s*******n years,gives me plenty of the former but none of the latter. For thelatter, I take it where I can get it. I get it a lot.I've been very lucky. I...
At first, Alex believed that he was the only one home. He knew that is parents were still at work and his sister Gwen would still be in school for another hour or so. With the house so quiet he decided to get in some serious study time That's when he heard the commotion from Gwen's room and heard her request to stop repeated a dozen times followed by a long drawn out, "Nooo".Alex dropped his backpack and raced up the stairs and down the hall to his sister's bedroom. He knew the...
IncestMy name is James Robertson, but my friends call me Jimmy. I recently discovered a huge secret. I can’t even believe my luck. Let me tell you about what I found out. I was at a friend’s house recently and we were all drunk and getting high. My friend David popped in a porno tape. As I’m looking at the movie, I noticed that the woman in the tape was my stepsister. I couldn’t believe my eyes. She was wearing a wig, but it was her for sure. I’m not sure when she made this film, or why she did it....
TabooWell it started innocent enough. I had been secretly crossdressing for quite some time now and had a few real meets under my belt. But it’s been a long time since I dressed. With a busy schedule and other responsibilities to tend to, I’ve been finding it hard lately to devote time for myself and my “hobby”. I’m able to still find a little time for CD/TV porn and reading sexy stories about first timers. I’ll sometimes fantasize about being the one in the video or pretending I was the one having...