IBE The Days Of WanderingAddendum Houston
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I followed Cheryl calmly from the dining room, into the great room, up the stairs, and into her bedroom, the door of which she slammed behind her. I knocked on it gently.
“Off wiv yer,” she moaned.
“No,” I replied, “I’m coming in.”
She was sitting on her bed, her head buried in her hands, sobbing. I sat next to her and put my arm around her. This was a new Cheryl for me. She was always the strong one, the one who comforted me, the rock on which the family relied on. She was the rock in my life, for so long, I didn’t know she could break down like this.
“You really were in love with him, weren’t you?”
“Aye,” she said, “Oi didn’t want ter be attached ter a man, never I did. But ‘e were so kind. I went further than I wanted, I did.”
“Kelly told me once,” I said, “You can’t fail if you don’t try, but you can’t win if you don’t try, either. When Suzie brought her father to that meeting, I didn’t want to ever fall in love with someone ever again. If I didn’t love anyone, they couldn’t betray me. Except Rachel made me fall in love with her. I know what its like to lose the person you love, Cheryl.”
“This is the second one, i’n it?” she sobbed, “Oi cracked on through the first, nearly killed me. Oi don’t know if Oi can do it again, lovey.”
“Who the heck was the first?”
“Yer,” she glared at me, “It were bloody yer, yer nitwit!”
“You never lost me,” I said defensively, “I am here for you, I love you, always.”
“Oi knew yer luv me,” she said, “Yer luv Kelly more, Oi couldn’t ‘ave done for yer wot she did. Oi knew Oi couldn’t. Oi luvd yer, so ter save yor life, Oi ‘ad ter let yer go.”
“My god, Cheryl,” I said to her, “If you had just told me-”
“Bollocks,” she roared, “Yer was roit too messed up ter listen ter anyone, roit, yer was. I ‘ad ter beat the chuffin’ stuffin’ out o’ yer just ter cop yer ter go on a trip wiv ‘er, and yer know it. Yer almost killed ‘er that trip, remember, luv? She were the bloomin’ only one who ‘ad a chance o’ getting through ter yer, and she did. It were worth it, it were, it were, it-”
She was trying to convince herself, and I shut her up by kissing her very passionately on the lips. She threw her arms around me and held me and kissed back. It was a kiss from our distant past. A bit like the first one, on this bed, one December, nearly 32 years ago. We were different people then, it was a lifetime ago.
She was a lot younger then, and a lot hotter to trot, but she was no more beautiful. Her beauty radiated from the inside, as it came from the goodness of her soul.
“You have me, Cheryl,” I said in her ear, “You’ve always had me, you’ll always have me, I love you, have always loved you; you have always been one of the great loves of my life. We will get through this together.”
“Yor dad meant the chuffin’ world ter me, Johnny,” she whispered back, “I don’t know if I can make it.”
“We all have each other,” I said, “We are a family, and we will make it together, you taught me that yourself. Now lets go back to dinner; this is Thanksgiving and we should all be together.”
We walked hand in hand back to the dining room. I talked to Jason and Samantha about how she was, they all agreed to make sure there was always someone with her while I was gone on my trip.
We spent that night on the farm, and Kelly told me to spend it with Cheryl. It was a cold night, and we were both wearing wool flannel pajamas. It wasn’t sexy, it wasn’t meant to be. I just held her to me as we slept. It was the truth, I did love her. It was really nice sleeping next to her for the first time in many years.
Friday morning was back to farm work, as we all were working overtime to get enough product ready for the store on Saturday, to get the store back up and running. We hadn’t quite been anticipating quite as big a run on our store that Thanksgiving, so we weren’t quite prepared for the shear amount of stuff we had to take to the store. We had enough to fill both Sprinters and a Metris cargo van, so Saturday morning we got up before dawn, loaded them to full, and set out to Fargo.
As soon as we got the store stocked and loaded, I told Nick he was going to be running the store for the day, and I went home, and Kelly and I called Josh into the living room; Rachel came with him and insisted on sitting next to him. I think they were worried it was about them; but that was not what this was about.
“Josh,” I said, “Your mom and me are going to be taking a trip. We will be back before Christmas, but we don’t know more than that at the moment. I need you to run the Fargo end of the business while we’re gone.”
“I’ve got exams, and classes,” Josh said.
“Well,” I said, “You can take your exams, and go to your classes. They are in town, after all. You can take your mom’s car to class, and man the store in your off hours.”
“Its a lot of work,” Josh said, “I need-”
“I need your help,” I said, “You don’t have to ride herd over everything perfectly. For now, John is going to do the supply runs while I’m gone. Nick knows how to run the store, you just have to manage him to make sure he is doing a good job, and to make sure nobody is stealing.”
“I haven’t completed college yet,” Josh replied, “I don’t know enough about managing a business to-”
“I have never even gone to college,” I said, “And I think I manage the business just fine. You’re a damned bright kid, Josh. You have both of our intelligence, and your mothers cleverness and dispassion. You have no idea how proud of you your mother would be if she was here, son. I want you to learn our business, more than learn what they teach you in college about how to run other businesses.”
“I think I have more to learn,” Josh said.
“You always have more to learn,” I agreed with him, “If you want to finish college part time, I think that’s great. But I need you to manage our store, Josh.”
“I can help,” Rachel chimed in.
“You do have school,” Kelly piped in.
“Its a waste of time,” Rachel said, “I already have studied everything they were supposed to teach us this year. All the kids in my school are so damned stupid. I feel like I’m wasting my time. I hate it.”
“Aren’t most of your classes in the afternoons and evenings, Josh?” I said.
“Yes, most of them.”
“Well then it’s easy,” I said, “Rachel goes to school, you run the store, pick Rachel up from school, take her to the store, and then go to your college classes.”
“I don’t want her to slack on her school work,” Kelly said.
“For god sakes, Kelly,” I said, “They are our children. If they can’t successfully work 12 hours a day, I’ll eat my shorts. If they want to work this business together, they can work this business together.”
“I feel like I’m being dropped into the pool to sink or swim,” Josh said,
“You are,” I said, “Except you are a really good swimmer, and John is a good lifeguard. I want you to walk in knowing nothing. I want you to see things with a totally fresh eye, Josh. I want to come back and have you argue with me about how I’m going about it all wrong. Then we can sit and discuss which one of us is right or wrong, and change things to make them better. I trust you to do a good job, and once we reconcile the differences, I trust you to do a fantastic job.”
“Any rules I need to know?”
“The customer is always right,” I said, “To their face. No matter what. And frankly, in the back room, they are still always right. The customer is why the business exists, and that is the first and biggest mistake business owners make. If you start hating the customer, its time to close shop.”
“What if they are wrong?”
“Then apologize to them for your inadequacy, honestly,” I replied, “Tell them you are really sorry that you can’t do what they want. If you start telling them off, the only thing other customers hear is you yelling at a customer. They assume you are the one who is wrong.”
“What if we are going to lose money on the sale?”
“We lose money on about 15% of the things we sell, Josh.”
“Why?”
“Imagine you have a pound of meat, and it costs us $1.50 a pound to raise, butcher, and process it into that meat, okay? Now, imagine it has been sitting in the butcher counter for two days priced at $2.75 a pound. How much money do I lose if I sell it for $1 a pound?”
“Fifty cents, obviously.”
“How much money do I lose if I throw it in the trash?”
“Gotcha.”
Like I said, he was a bright kid.
Kelly and I started packing for the trip. We were going to take the Fintail. I wanted to go to a lot of places we couldn’t go by train, especially Hornell, and possibly Corning. You remember the 1968 Mercedes-Benz 200D Fintail, right? The one that couldn’t get out of its own way on the road? Well I restored it completely, and also modified it extensively.
During the years before we started the store, I had very little to do with my free time, so I used the tools in the barn to work on my mother’s old car. I had taken out the old OM621 four cylinder diesel, which was entirely inadequate for the road, and the old four speed manual was way too limited in its ratio range. I took the engine out of a wrecked 1984 300D, a OM617 3-liter 5-cylinder turbo diesel unit, and installed that in the engine bay, and backed it up to a 5-speed manual transmission from a later European 240D.
The engine made 123bhp and 184 ft-lb of torque, an increase of 69 hp and 97 ft-lb. Or, basically more than double. Instead of sometimes being unable to hit 60mph at all, it could do it in a bit over 10 seconds, and instead of going 70ish flat-out, I actually got it up to 103 on the highway one night. It wasn’t fast, by any means, but it was capable of maintaining decent speed on the highway.
I had the seats completely re-sprung, and replaced the totally disintegrated horsehair seat pads with new foam ones. I welded in new metal to replace all the rusted panels, rebuilt the entire suspension and steering components with OEM parts from Mercedes Classic, and upgraded the wheels from 13” to 15”, which improved the handling immensely. Most importantly I had installed a radio, a Becker Europa, with an aux-in for Kelly’s iPhone’s music list. The car drove even better than new, and was in practically new condition.
It drove quickly, handled competently, and went down the road with the aplomb, stability, and solidity one expects of a Mercedes-Benz. It would be an enjoyable and fun cruiser for our trip, and it returned about 25 mpg in highway use, so it would be fairly economical, too.
I had left the farm-side of the operations in Jason and Samantha’s hands. Cheryl had stepped back from running that end of things a long time ago, when I started actively managing the businesses, and Jason and Samantha were the ones I had normally delegated day-to-day operations of everything to anyway. It might seem strange that I mention them as a couple always, but thats what they are.
In the nearly 32 years I had known them, they had been so damned close, it was almost crazy. I mean when I first came here, 10- year old Jason and 8-year-old Samantha would finish off each other’s sentences. They would communicate by looking at each other. They seemed to intuitively know what the other was thinking. The whole Mahoney family was really close, but they stood out as being very close, even in that circumstance.
When they started being lovers about 10 years later, it wasn’t really a shocking thing to have happened, even though it took Cheryl a while to figure it out. When Samantha turned up pregnant with Jared, it was ... well, I wasn’t particularly surprised. That they loved each other the way they did was obvious, and it was the kind of bond that would have destroyed both of them if we had tried to break it.
They were the very model of a perfect fairytale married couple. They never seemed to fight much, mostly because their minds seem to run on the same track side-by-side, so they had nothing to really ... disagree over. They didn’t seem to have hard patches, and their kids were amazing. Jared, Violet, Kevin, and Serena had all been home schooled, were still home schooled, and Jared was already working on the farm, in charge of the machinery.
Jared’s girlfriend of several years, who worked at the feed-store, was almost part of the family by now. Linda Kriegman was her name, and she was fine with the way the family was. Violet was not much of a student, but she was already helping out on the farm whenever we let her. Actually, that was the only problem in the whole thing; Lenny hated Violet, and vice versa. I wasn’t entirely clear on why.
Kevin and Mary got along ... a little too well for my taste, actually, but they were still little kids. Serena was still basically a baby, although everyone was beginning to suspect Samantha might be pregnant again. She was still a hot red-head, although very much in the North Dakota plaids-and-jeans farmers mold. Jason was a bearded and baseball cap stereotype in the same mold, actually. They looked like an amazing couple.
We set out from Fargo early Monday morning. We were driving in that comfortable silence happy married couples can manage in situations like this. Rachel had been a fan of a doo-wop group of Jewish boys who, for some reason, had a thing for African folk music. They had a version of Solomon Linda’s Mbube (Lion) called “The Lion Sleeps Tonight”, with English lyrics, that hit number one on the Billboard Hot 100 in 1961.
She had a LP from the group, containing that song, and a number of folk songs, mostly African or Christian, oddly enough. Among the songs on the album was one called “Jamaica Farewell”. Kelly had developed a liking for the group from listening to the LP, which was kept in the locker in Chicago. She had a bunch of the songs from the album on her phone, including that one, and it started to play on the radio.
Down the way where the nights are gay, and the sun shines daily on the mountain top, I took a trip on a sailing ship, And when I reached Jamaica, I made a stop
But I’m sad to say, I’m on my way, Won’t be back for many a day, My heart is down, my head is turning around, I had to leave a little girl in Kingston-town.
That, of course, took me back to a trip Rachel and I took, years ago, on a tramp freighter. We worked it for a couple of months, I think, but the part of that trip that stood out to me was the time we had in Kingston, Jamaica...
We’d been together for a while this time. We even had a farewell weekend, this time at the fascinating Fontainebleau Hotel in Miami Beach, a landmark architectural edifice which launched the entire architectural style of Miami Modern, or MiMo. But this time, somehow, as we were saying goodbye, we hesitated, embraced, and went in to Goldstein’s Prime Deli, and started plotting another way to make money.
It was early in our travels, 1989, and it was not the last time an intended end to our togetherness got prolonged. It was the first, and it was the longest. We ended up going into Miami itself, and got hired as seamen onboard a Caribbean tramp steamer called Marvelous Manatee, and off we went. I was hired as the assistant to the engineer, Rachel worked as the cook.
While we moved a lot of barrels between the United States and various Caribbean islands on the Marvelous Manatee, our main stock in trade was delivering boat loads of used American market cars to the islands. We generally returned with coffee, liquor, and fruits. The ship was quite old; I had initially thought it was a Liberty ship- it looked like one- but I know almost all of them were well out of service by 1989. The big diesels in the engine room were always needing work, hence why the owner- who was also the skipper- needed both an engineer and an assistant.
It took forever to load and unload the Marvelous Manatee, so our port calls were generally on the longer side. She was a slow ship- the reason it was named after the sea cow. Rachel and I shared a cabin, with fairly narrow bunk-beds, one of our conditions for hiring us. They wanted to hire us; we wanted $55 a day- for both of us. It, of course included room and board, so it was $55 in our pocket for use on whatever we wanted.
The Marvelous Manatee itself was about 600 feet long, 80 feet wide, with a draft of 31 feet. It was an older ship, unquestionably on its last legs. The budget for Rachel’s work as cook was quite small, and she mostly made things like stews and chowders. It wasn’t a luxurious life, but we were making decent money, and we were together.
My job was quite hard; the Marvelous Manatee had two gigantic Diesel engines, built by Caterpillar, they were extremely old, possibly original to the ship. They were so worn out, and in such poor shape, there was an odds on chance that we were only running on one of them. More than once, actually, we’d be dead in the water, running on neither. Fortunately, the water in the Caribbean is sufficiently calm that being dead in the water was usually not a safety issue.
But day or night when we were in transit, I was often called to assist with repairing the damned engines, the generators, the water maker, and a bunch of other systems that were well past their useful life.
I suspected the skipper bought the Marvelous Manatee for something close to scrap money, and was intent on trying to make a career as a tramp steamer with this bucket of bolts. The ship was almost 30 years old, rusty, creaky, and ready for the crusher. But it was a job.
Anyway, thats not really what this story is about. We pulled into Kingston harbor one morning, loaded with about 400 barrels for distribution on the island- barrels are a unit of shipping for people, and Jamaicans living in the United States often send barrels of items to their relatives in Jamaica, because products are much cheaper off the island than on. That’s true for many Caribbean countries.
The bulk of our cargo for the island was used automobiles from the American market. Clapped out big Chevies and Fords that would have trouble fetching $1-2000 on the American used market could sell for up to $7-8000 on the Jamaican market and we had a contract for carriage from an American-side buyer of used cars and a Jamaican-side operator of a car sales business. We had about 250 cars for this run. Our ship was not a Roll-on-roll-off ship; the cars had to be rigged, lifted out of the cargo compartment using one of the ship’s cranes, and swung over the side and laid on the quay. Since we were only ported on the port side, only two of our four cranes could be used, and it took time to rig them for pick up.
When we pulled in, our engines and systems were in fully functional form, for once, and the skipper gave Rachel and I the day off. While we had been taken to a few different Caribbean islands already on this trip, we had never been to Jamaica before. Anyway, we asked a local dock worker where we could experience a bit of local flavor, and he recommended the Kingston Crafts Market on Port Royal street. We walked out of the car quay, and turned right on Marcus Garvey Dr.
It was about a two mile walk; we didn’t want to spend our money on a local bus. The way the song describe’s Jamaica you would almost think that Kingston was some kind of shanty-town island city like one imagines in the poorer islands, like Haiti. Kingston, though, is mostly a modern city, with sky scrapers, a functioning and effective public transportation system, and the hallmarks of a successful former member of the British Empire.
However, it is also a city with an immense amount of crime; Jamaica has one of the highest murder rates in the world, just below Afghanistan, and right above Iraq. The illegal drug trade is a major factor. It is a major transit point for a variety of hard drugs, and remains a source for its prized Jamaican marijuana. In addition to the hard crimes, it also is a hotbed for the common Caribbean tourist island crimes: pick pocketing, confidence scams, fake merchandise, and sex trafficking.
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Kelly was concentrating on the road, presumably while thinking over what I had just said. I sat in the comfortable MB-Tex covered seat in her Mercedes. She had bought it new, not long after getting her associate Professorship at North Dakota State. Now she was a full professor and assistant Dean of the mathematics department- at 25! She was truly incredible. I don’t know how much money she made working there, but I believe it was substantial. She had already bought a house in Fargo to use...
Or that’s what I had been planning to do. It had struck me again, as it has a million times before. I bolted for the door. I was terrified. How would it turn out? Would they fight? Would they hate me? What if I settled down? What if I had to be a parent to my children? What if I became ... trapped? It was craziness. I was already to a distinct extent a parent to most of my children. I visited Kelly and Cheryl frequently. I spent most holidays there. I probably spent an average of a month and...
I would have trouble putting into words how scared I was. I wanted to turn and run; sometimes you don’t want to know the answer to the mysteries of the sands of time. Being with Jenny made me sit and wonder- far more than I was comfortable with- what would have happened if I had just stopped. Married her, and never moved on to the life that followed it. It wasn’t an automatic binary choice. It wasn’t a choice to hurt Jenny or not hurt Jenny. I had a choice between hurting Jenny or walking...
Indru tamil kama kathaiyil ilamaiyaana magalum pinbu vithavai ammavaiyum eppadi usar seithu matter poten endru ungaluku solugiren. Suvarasiyam athigam irukum kama kathaikul selalam vaarungal, en peyar karthik. En veethiiyil oru pen ilamaiyaaga sexiyaaga irupaal, avalai thinamum sight adithu kondu irupen. Thinamum aval kalluri sendru varum pozhuthu iru velaiyilum sight adika arambithu viduven. Aval peyar nandhini vayathu 21 irukum, avaluku veetil aan thunai kidaiyaathu. Veetil oru amma iru...
Note : This story is completely fictional!In nineteen forty six Thelma Lou Anderson was married with three kids. Linda was the oldest. She was sixteen. Guy and George was ten and Guy seven. Thelma owned a beauty shop in Kansas City. She suspected her husband Lawerance was cheating on her again. She followed him one day when he thought she was at work and saw him go into a house. A woman opened the door and he went in. That was all the proof she needed. She went home and packed her suitcase and...
IncestMother Ethel always enjoyed the short walk to the train station. It was beautiful Autumnal morning and Mother Ethel took the opportunity to walk to the train station as she knew that she had a very busy day ahead. Those that saw Mother Ethel along the way bowed reverently,they knew that Mother Ethel was a Nun of the Monastery of Repentance and when a Nun or a Monk walked past it was polite to bow, for many knew what the Nun's and Monk's of the Monastery were capable of. As Mother Ethel strolled...
Dot, Dorothea, and Dick Chapter One Dear sister: I found this letter among some others, scrolled up and tied with purple ribbon, in a chest belonging to our great grandfather. The name Charles has belonged to several in our family line, but I believe I know the one who received and saved this letter, and kept it preserved for so many years. I believe the letter speaks for itself, so I will now offer it up to you. Dearest Charles: I hope this missive finds you in such good...
Tiberius licked his lips as he watched his newly bought slaves walk off stage. They would be a nice addition to his household. As he was being carried to the palace in his litter, he thought of his niece Mara and what she would be like. Just recently her mother had asked him to admit her into his clan, no doubt to gain political power over him, but Tiberius didn’t care. I will take her to Capri he thought to himself after I break my new slaves in, and he smiled wickedly at the thought....
FetishOur Last Day of School. I can’t believe it. This is my last day of school, I thought, not sure how I felt now that the long awaited day was here. Stepping out into the beautiful sunny afternoon, heading toward the group of waiting yellow school buses I breathed a sigh of relief. I was glad school was finished. Throughout High School like a ship at sea, I had plotted my course, studying hard. However, the Scholarship that many felt I had rightfully won had somehow ended up going to one of...
“What’s wrong? What’s wrong?”Anthea looked up at her mum as she sat down at the dining table. “Nothing is wrong,” Anthea responded watching as her mum hurriedly dried her hands with a tea towel.“Is the baby okay? Are you okay? Is Jack okay?” she asked as her husband came into the room and pulled up a seat at the table.“We’re all fine Mum,” she responded exasperated with her mum’s anxiety. “I have something to tell you.”“Sit down Helen,” her dad snapped. “Give the lass a chance to speak.”Anthea...
My Golden Summer with Blythe – Part 2 Josh’s childhood dream girl visits him in San Francisco. The Return of Blythe Coming from a small farming community, San Francisco proved to be everything Josh had ever imagined – and then some. He loved the freewheeling atmosphere – the friendliness – in short, he fell in love with the city by the Bay. Because of early retirements, and dedication to his work, he had advanced much quicker than he had ever expected. Arriving at his chic little Apartment...
Uther By Ellie Dauber (c) 2006 Introduction According to the legends of King Arthur, Merlin changed Uther Pendragon into a double for Duke Gorlois, so he could spend the night with Ygraine, the Duke's wife. Ygraine and Gorlois had three daughters: Elaine, Morgause, and Morgan le Faye. During their time together, Ygraine became pregnant with the child who was to become King Arthur. Uther's men killed Gorlois that same night. This is my TG (of course) version of what...
Chapter 11: Althea, the School Girl The infernal screeching of the alarm clock awoke Cal from his reverie. He had been up for about a half-hour, but he had only been lying in bed next to the love of his life. Althea's arms were still clutched about him as he stealthily clicked the snooze button, assuming that it was six o' five in the morning, his usual waking time during the school week. He had been thinking long and hard about the previous two nights. Evan... what have you become? He...
edited by Master Ken Wednesday, September 4th, 2013 "Hi, I am Miss Blythe," I said to my class, writing my name on the whiteboard with a red dry-erase marker. "I will be your World History teacher." It was the first day of the new school year and, as I launched into the course syllabus, my thoughts kept drifting to that day in June at the end of the last term, when my Living God, the Holy Mark Glassner, walked into this very classroom and changed my very outlook on life. I didn't know...
The the wind howled around the quayside as I stepped onto terra firma for the first time in weeks, the wind threw sharp shards of ice to sting our faces as we looked up at the sails as they were finally furled and stowed as our captain grinned at our discomfiture, "Au revoir!" he joked as if he knew we should soon be recalled. Those such as were left, and we were few enough, I shuddered. My best uniform packed securely in my Valise, awaited me, and just a few more duties before I...
As he approached one of the hall's long mirrors he stopped to inspect himself. It was a familiar sight, the flowing, billowy French maid outfit surrounding his body. His arms and legs were outlined in silky, white stockings and arm-gloves. He wore pearl earrings and the lacy white collar around his neck was adorned with a beautiful pendant. It was a gift from mother that he wore every day, without fail. Jon's painted red lips and neatly applied eyeliner and blush were evidence that he was...
PREFACE:There are no sex acts in the story but the patient does have an orgasm as a result of the Ther****t’s physical examination. Part 1 is the Sex Therapy appointment from the patient’s point of view and part 2 is the same examination seen through the eyes of the Ther****t. I don’t think it matters which one you read first.I hope you enjoy it and will let me know what you think in any...
Katherine stepped into her elegant living room and took a book from the shelf. She sat in a plush lounge chair, specifically selecting a chair in the back corner of the room next to an old dumbwaiter that was once used to ferry delicious meals from the downstairs kitchen to the dining room table. She planned to read the book for a short while, but she already knew her attention would soon be diverted. Tonight the dumbwaiter would once again be placed into service, except this time it would be...
Do you know of the porn site Motherless.com? You should. I’ve reviewed it a few times on my site, The Porn Dude, although it was for different genres every time. This time around, I’m going back to this place and looking at a specific and niche little category many of you are just begging me to cover. We’re looking at vintage porn today. While it doesn’t have the same resolution and quality as the porn you can find today, it’s definitely a genre of porn that has a lot of personality to it and...
Vintage Porn SitesI should have known better. I should have remembered that old saying, "If it looks too good to be true, it is." I was in love. She was damned near all I thought about with the exception of my studies and it didn't make sense to me. I prided myself on my intellect and my ability to think logically, but there wasn't anything logical about the way I felt about Althea. She was beautiful, smart and very popular and I was not. I wasn't a bed looking guy, but I was nothing exceptional. I was...
Motherless. A one-word website title that says everything it needs to say. This is a site where the rules are, more or less, completely thrown out the window, morality means absolutely nothing, and there is nobody to save you from it. Hedonism is God here.The site likely is also called this due to the fact that the girls who end up on motherless.com likely have no positive female influence in their lives to keep them from it. Motherless is the place parents spend their whole lives fearing that...
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Voyeur Porn SitesClothesline[This story is part of the Leather in Lawnville series.] Clothesline By DuskPetersonYou can tell a lot about a guy from where he shops. Take my friends, who have specialized tastes. Some of them spend their time at the hardware store, while others take an interest in our town's fabric shop, which has needles and pins that make them drool. Still others hang out at the department store, eyeing the cutlery collection. Somehow all of us end up rubbing shoulders at the town's jacket...
Clayton Smithers was really glad he had listened to his mother when she told him he should become a doctor. Mom had always told him it would be a lot of work but worth it in money and prestige. She had been only part right. Hardly any work had been required, just learning the jargon and technical terms by studying books and papers written by psychiatrists who had taken the hard route to obtaining their degrees. Clayton Smithers had taken the easy route, buying his degree from the best diploma...
The Five Kingdoms of Arstoria had been embroiled in the Great Ancient War for centuries. The war came to an end when Kalace, the Wizard King conquered the five lands and brought them under his rule. Kalace, the Wizard King of Arstoria, conquered all of his opponents who were unable to deal with his overpowering magic. When Kalace had united the five kingdoms, he brought peace to the warring kingdoms and was revered and celebrated by his later generation. Kalace, however, had a dark weakness in...
FantasyWoah, did Motherless.com get a facelift? I know I suggested it in my review, so I guess they listened to me! Well, I’m not going to brag too much about it, and instead, I’m going to focus on what I’ve set out to bring you today. We’re looking at an amateur website, and I just know that many of you are begging for amateur creampie content, so that’s what we’re looking at. I know how much you think Motherless can look sickening and pretty gruesome at times, but the creampie content can be quite...
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My name is Rebecca. Everyone calls me Becca. I entered the police department right out of college. I progressed rapidly, through different divisions and assignments. I always had my eyes set on Robbery-Homicide and after six years of hard word and dedication, I finally made it. At age thirty, I was youngest female in the division for such a coveted assignment, but I was superb at my job. I made it because of my skill not my gender. It was Saturday. Dispatch called our number just after we had...
TabooThanks to my usual cast and crew of Editors and Advance Readers, most of whom prefer to pretend that they don’t know me and wisely wish to take no responsibility for any part of my addled writings... Il n’est rien de réel que le rêve et l’amour - Nothing is real but dreams and love (from Le Coeur innombrable, IV, Chanson du temps opportun by Anna de Noailles) She was my one true mistress and ever faithful lover, my Green Lady and guardian of my dreams and now that I was back home...
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