A Well Lived Life Book 1 BirgitChapter 9 Revelation Part II
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March 13, 1996, Chicago, Illinois
“I’d be very interested in hearing Jon’s reaction to THIS news,” Elyse said.
“It would only confirm his opinion that gun ownership ought to be more tightly controlled. But it does point out that this isn’t a uniquely American problem.”
“What do you think will happen?”
“I don’t know enough about Scottish or UK law to say, and I think a lot will depend on what the circumstances were. It sure sounds as if some random lunatic walked into the school in Dunblane and started shooting. Short of banning guns, I don’t know how you prevent that, and even that isn’t effective unless you can confiscate ALL of them including the ones held by criminals. Chicago’s handgun ban sure didn’t prevent Wen from being shot!”
“So you think that might happen? Gun confiscation?”
“I don’t know what the incidence of gun ownership is in Scotland, but if you tried that here, you’d end up with a lot of dead law enforcement officers. And that assumes such a complete ban would pass muster. Unfortunately, the courts are treating the Second Amendment like some sort of inferior right, when it stands BEFORE things like warrant requirements and protections against self-incrimination.”
“So what would you do?”
“That question is actually part of the real problem,” I said. “Something bad happens and people clamor for the government to ‘do something’, and from that we get some of the dumbest laws with the most perverse effects. I’m not saying there is nothing to be done, but the FIRST reaction should not be ‘do something’. The first reaction should be to find out what happened, then, if warranted, take small, incremental steps, targeted very directly at the specific issue, without infringing on the rights of law-abiding citizens.”
“So in this case?”
“We wait to find out why it happened, assuming we can find out. And then address the root causes. Sadly, politicians, and a good chunk of the public, want easy, simplistic solutions, of which there are exactly zero. Well, assuming you believe the individual is over the state, and not vice versa.”
“Which rant is that?” Elyse inquired.
“I’d say #8, though it’s not specifically on target. Maybe I need to add a new one - When the public demands ‘something be done’ politicians implement simplistic solutions which always have perverse effects.”
“That would be #21, right? There are only twenty on the list.”
“Correct.”
“Is everything set for Friday?”
“Yes. Are you going to have Eduardo stay for the weekend to help you, Jennifer, and Josie?”
“He gets home from Buenos Aires late Friday night. He’ll come to the house on Saturday.”
“Sounds good.”
March 16, 1996, Apple Orchard Bed-and-Breakfast near Montpelier, Vermont
When Kara, Jessica, and I went down to breakfast on Saturday morning, we were met by a daughter with hands on her hips and an icy glare.
“You missed cuddle time!” she said accusingly.
“I stayed in bed asleep with your moms!” I protested. “We’re on vacation!”
“I got up at my normal time! You’re late for breakfast!”
“And what about your Aunts and Uncles?”
“They’re still in bed!”
“So why are you giving ME a hard time?” I asked, knowing the answer.
“Because you never sleep late! We cuddle before everyone gets up!”
“Not this weekend, Pumpkin. I need time with your moms.”
She rolled her eyes, turned, and headed back towards the kitchen.
“Can you imagine what it’s going to be like for whichever boy she marries?” Kara whispered.
“Or being one of her kids?” Jessica asked, also sotto voce.
“Nah,” I said. “The hands on hips, icy glare is usually reserved for Dad and Dad alone! The only time either of you ever got it was when you interrupted her when she was talking to Felipe!”
“She and I had words about that one,” Kara said. “And I got the cold shoulder for a week! You get the hands on hips and the icy glare and she’s right back ready to cuddle you!”
“Shall we go see what Katy has for us for breakfast?”
We walked into the kitchen and greeted Katy and Amy with hugs, then sat down at the table. Katy had bacon, ham, eggs, waffles, and toast, with locally produced maple syrup in a brown jug. Despite the sour look on Jessica’s face, I took a quarter of a waffle, slathered it with butter, and poured enough maple syrup to drown a small animal, plus some bacon and eggs.
“I NEVER do this at home, Babe,” I said in self-defense. “I’ll split and carry wood when we’re done eating to work it off.”
“You know that’s not sufficient, Tiger.”
“Consider this my weekly dessert,” I said.
“And the maple ice cream you had last night when we got here? And you’ll have tonight?”
“Jess,” Kara teased, “we’ll just have to make sure he works it ALL off!”
“You two are insatiable!” Bethany laughed, coming into the kitchen with Tom.
“What’s ‘in-say-shu-bul’, Aunt Bethany?” Birgit asked.
ALL the adults in the room laughed, hard.
“Yes, Sweetheart, what is it?” I prompted through my laughter.
“It means you like kissing so much you never want to stop! Like your mom!”
“Not just her!” Amy smirked, giving Katy a quick kiss, causing even more laughter.
“I think EVERYONE in this room likes kissing!” I laughed. “Well, except Birgit who has a few years to go before she can kiss!”
“That’s for sure!” Kathy added, as she and Kurt came into the kitchen. “What did we miss?”
“Birgit asking what ‘insatiable’ meant!” I grinned.
“Kara! Her picture is next to the word in the dictionary!”
“And that’s a problem?” Kara asked primly.
“No!” I said quickly, valuing my life far too much to delay answering.
“Smart man,” Kurt said, clapping my shoulder. “What’s the plan for the day?”
“My wife thinks we need to spend all day in bed because I had ice cream last night and a quarter of a waffle this morning.”
“I wonder if that works on ALL wives?” Kurt asked with a smirk.
“I don’t think ANY of the women in this room need ANY encouragement!” Tom laughed. “And no, that is NOT a complaint!”
“It better not be, Buster!” Bethany said menacingly, but then turned to my daughter and softened her voice, “Birgit honey, please don’t use that word at school. Your teachers would NOT understand!”
“I KNOW, Aunt Bethany!” Birgit said impatiently, and I could HEAR her eyes roll so far back in her head that I was sure they’d turned white.
“Now you see why Katy feeds us in the kitchen and not the main dining room,” I chuckled.
“Oh, there’s plenty of sex that goes on in this place!” Amy laughed. “We have several regulars like that lawyer from New York who brings his mistress here. One day I want to do a special promotion where I send a flyer with their picture to the lawyer’s house, addressed to Mrs. Lawyer!”
“That might not be the wisest idea,” I grinned, “Poking the bear often has bad results! And the last thing you want is a reputation that you invade people’s privacy.”
“But still ... cheating.”
“Is between him and his girlfriend and his wife, however he chooses to manage it. If she were your friend, it might be different, but she’s your ‘total stranger’.”
Katy laughed, “You and your ‘Darmok’ style of speech! Samuel L. Jackson in Die Hard 3, right?”
“Very good! You win a cookie!” I said, affecting a certain speech pattern.
“Don Rickles in Kelly’s Heroes!” Tom laughed. “One of my all-time favorite movies.”
“Same here,” I said. “I love the theme song, too. Burning Bridges by The Mike Curb Congregation.”
That song had spoken to me sixteen years previously, when I’d foolishly allowed Becky to hug and kiss me, and royally pissed off my Sweetheart. Of course, four months later I had crossed an even bigger line, and only by the grace of whatever power ran this universe did I have Kara sitting to my right, and her daughter across the table giving me icy stares for missing ‘cuddle’ time.
“How can we help you, Katy?” I asked when the thought had passed.
“The usual. Split and stack wood, make repairs, and generally do a ‘Spring cleaning’.”
“I’ll take the repairs,” Tom said. “What needs fixing?”
“A door that doesn’t close properly, a leaky faucet, and some rails on the fence out back.”
“Kurt?” Tom asked.
“I’ll lend a hand. Steve, will you take logging duty?”
“As I have every time I’ve been here,” I grinned.
“What needs cleaning?” Kara asked.
“Everything, top to bottom. You guys have half the rooms, so we’ll do those first, and the others on Monday morning when the other guests leave. Nobody is checking in until late Monday afternoon, so we have time.”
We all ate breakfast, I took ten minutes to cuddle Birgit to get out of her doghouse, and then went out to the shed to begin splitting logs for the fire. About two hours later, Katy came out with two steaming mugs of hard Apple cider.
“How are you doing?” she asked.
“Very well, actually.”
“Jessica seems like a changed person.”
“She is. She’s finally discovered there is more to the universe than Jessica Lee Adams, MD. And now when she’s unhappy, it’s because she’s away from us, not because she’s with us. How are you and Amy?”
“Things are very, very good. Davey is so much fun, but it sure changed the dynamic!”
“Kids will do that. I take it you’re adjusting?”
“Now that he only wakes up once in the night, yes. It wasn’t too bad because Amy and I switched who got up to change and feed him when he was waking up every two hours.”
“I know business is good because you send me monthly reports. How’s your Sheriff friend?”
“Good. He’ll probably be by for dinner tomorrow. We really enjoy his company. He’ll likely bring his wife and daughter. We have a private meal after the guests have eaten, but you’re all welcome to join us if you want.”
“Whatever you want, Katy!” I grinned.
“Are you serious about that?” she asked.
I let go of the handle of the log-splitter and turned to face her.
“If you’re implying what I think you’re implying, we’d need to have a long talk, and Amy would have to be part of that talk.”
“Well, you didn’t say ‘no’ which Jessica thought you might. Kara was unsure.”
“You talked with my wives first?”
“Do I look like an idiot?” Katy laughed. “You and I don’t talk about stuff like that since Amy and I got together. I had no idea what the situation was!”
I smiled, “You’ve caught me in a transitional period.”
“If you tell me you’re going to ‘walk the earth’, I’ll smack you!”
“Nah, I already did that when I went to Japan and spent five weeks communing with nature and the «kami» in Oguni. And while I didn’t see any ‘according to Hoyle’ miracles, it was a life-changing experience.”
“That’s what Kara said. She also said Michelle moved out. You neglected to tell me that.”
“I assumed Birgit would have told you.”
“She didn’t.”
“Interesting. But yes, Melissa did move out. In the end, I couldn’t give her what she truly wanted.”
“A baby? I thought she went through in utero!”
“She did, but what she wanted was me, as her husband. Exclusively.”
“Seriously?”
“Think about the situation she encountered when she came back from the monastery. Jess was estranged from us, and Elyse and I ended our physical relationship because of Eduardo. Nearly everyone thought Jessica would divorce me, which Michelle saw as her chance. That didn’t happen, and then I continued my dalliances, though not nearly as many as before. In fact, there was a long period when I had none. But Michelle couldn’t deal with me having ANY.”
“As if THAT was going to happen!” Katy laughed.
“You might be surprised.”
“Oh? Jessica and Kara didn’t say anything about that!”
“It’s a work in progress. I’m not vowing to have no dalliances ever, but we’re working on a more or less permanent, long-term third. As I said, I won’t vow zero new dalliances, but any that occur would have to be very carefully considered before they happened.”
“New dalliances?”
“There are two or three girls from the past who might get a pass,” I grinned. “I just didn’t expect you to be one of them. What changed?”
“Nothing, actually. I still love you more than any man I’ve ever known. And you were a better lover than any man I ever had; not that I’ve had all that many.”
“Words which would warm any man’s heart. But what about your agreement with Amy?”
“Do you remember what I told you about my sexuality?”
“Of course. You needed a woman for emotional fulfillment, and the sex was good, but you also enjoyed being with a man on occasion.”
“A man. One very specific man. Amy and I have talked a lot, about both our needs, and our desires. You know she’s completely and totally lesbian. She has never been with a guy and has no desire to be with a guy. None. As she tells it, she knew when she was twelve that she was gay and has never even kissed a guy.”
“She withstood the social pressure better than Jennifer did, I guess.”
“Not really. She got the same kind of pressure and came out to her parents at fourteen. They were beside themselves and couldn’t deal with it. She moved in with a friend who had understanding parents. The friend was straight, by the way.”
“What IS it with people?” I sighed. “The message from so many people is, literally, ‘conform or die’. Jennifer’s dad and Josie’s parents FINALLY came around, but you know my mom’s take on that one.”
“The same as my mom’s. She barely acknowledges Amy when she’s here and, according to my little sister, had a hissy fit about Amy and me adopting Davey.”
“Oh, I have no doubt. She and my mom were cut from the same moralistic cloth. So what happened to the exclusivity agreement?”
“Before I brought Amy to bed, I told her about my needs and desires, and our agreement was that if I ever felt that way, I’d talk to her and we’d figure it out.”
“You know my concerns, right?”
“That it would mess things up between me and Amy? That Amy isn’t truly OK with it? In other words, your usual set of objections to people in relationships.”
“Ones I violated with you,” I said.
“Nothing could have saved that marriage, Steve. I didn’t know it at the time, obviously, but it was true. I suppose the best way to put it is that I didn’t admit the truth to myself when I got engaged. Maybe if I’d found another truly bi-sexual girl back then...”
“Don’t play the ‘What if?’ game, Katy! You’ll drive yourself nuts!”
“Oh, I know,” Katy said with a slight hitch in her voice. “And the thing is, in the end, I would have neglected you. You’d have simply accepted it, but it wouldn’t have been right. I know how hard you worked to make a true trio, and you’ve finally achieved it. But I don’t think that’s something I could have done because of who I am.”
“But you want to make love with me?”
Katy laughed softly and shook her head, “Only Steve Adams would call it that!”
“What else could it ever be between us? You still love me. I still love you. But you love Amy more. A lot more.”
“I do. She’s soft and cuddly!”
“That is NOT why you love her more, Katy O’Connor!”’
“No, but it doesn’t change the fact that she IS soft and cuddly.”
“I cuddle!” I protested.
“Strong, muscular arms, and a powerful body are VERY different. I do believe you agree with me on what you like to cuddle!”
“Me!” Birgit said, coming into the shed. “Mom says lunch is in fifteen minutes!”
“OK, Pumpkin. Let me finish talking to Katy and then we’ll be in.”
She left, and I turned back to load another log onto the splitter.
“Pint-sized humans aside, I like soft and cuddly just as much as you do!”
“She’s getting so big! I remember when she was born!”
“Me too! You feed them and water them and they grow! It’ll happen to Davey, too!”
“I know,” she said with a smile.
“Katy, here’s the question for you. I don’t need an answer right now, but you do need to answer me truthfully and from your heart. Will Amy be OK with you and me making love? Not fucking; making love. And meaning it? Think about it. Discuss it with her if you need to.”
“Have I told you lately that you’re a good man?”
“I’d say this conversation made that clear. And you know I’ve always thought you were a wonderful woman, cute freckles and all!”
“You STILL think that’s my best feature!”
“No, that’s your personality. The freckles just enhance that! Not to mention the lovely green eyes, the trim figure, and amazing breasts!”
Katy laughed, “Only Steve Adams, who has seen Cindi Spanos naked hundreds of times, would call my breasts ‘amazing’!”
“You know hers never did anything for me.”
“Literally!” Katy teased. “You never did get together with her. And that was HER loss!”
I chuckled, “I don’t think she sees it that way!”
“Of course not! How’s her fireman?”
“He’s apparently as adept at starting fires as he is at putting them out! The same goes for Bethany’s paramedic!”
“Cindi’s not married, though, right?”
“At some point, probably soon, they’ll run off to a JP. Chris is still being a jerk about William, but Cindi has Chris pretty well boxed in with the custody and visitation orders.”
“We should go in.”
I nodded and stacked the last set of split logs against the wall of the shed, then followed Katy inside. I wanted a chance to speak to Amy, even if briefly, before she and Katy talked, because I felt Amy might have one important misconception. I got my chance when Katy excused herself to use the washroom after lunch was finished. I quietly took Amy aside into the small pantry area.
“Katy talked to me and there’s something I wanted to say before she talks to you again.”
“But...”
I held up my hand, “Hang on. What I want you to consider is this: Katy’s request is very specifically for me, not just being with a man. So this isn’t a situation where you agree because you’d rather it be me than some other guy. It’ll never be some other guy. That’s all I wanted to say, and you should talk to Katy. OK?”
Amy smiled and nodded, and we got back to the kitchen before Katy came back from the bathroom. We helped clean up from lunch, and then my wives and I decided to take a walk at my suggestion.
“She talked to you?” Kara asked, once we were away from the bed-and-breakfast.
July-August 1977 Saturday was beautiful and after breakfast, I headed to the deli. I only had to work until 2:00pm, and then I was going to play D&D at Kevin’s house. We’d order pizza and play until around 10:00pm. The deli was quiet in the morning and after a quick trip with the broom on the sidewalk, I was packing boxes for a catering order. I figured it would be relatively quiet until lunch, though since they had coffee and Danish, they did get some morning customers. I finished...
June 1977 Sunday started in the usual way, but took an odd turn. I was scheduled to be an altar boy, as was Larry. We met in the sacristy to put on our robes. “Sorry about yesterday. I hope the day wasn’t ruined.” I saw a slight smirk develop. “You know very well it wasn’t!” He laughed, “Yeah, I got a call from Birgit last night and she thanked me profusely. Did it go really well?” “Yeah, it did. And that’s all I’ll say about it.” He nodded. The communication was clear and I didn’t...
June 1977 Friday ended up being a non-event. The more I thought about it, the more I was sure that there was no way on this earth I could say what happened between Birgit and me was a sin. Calling it a sin would debase it into a meaningless act. I could never do that. And the more I thought about Jennie McGrath, the more sure I was that I couldn’t call what she did for me a sin, either. If the church was right, I was going to hell. And frankly, there was no way that could be true. So I...
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June 1977 When I got home, I grabbed a Coke and some chips and went right to my room. I didn’t think I could deal with my parents or Jeff or Stephanie. I just needed to be by myself. That wouldn’t seem odd to anyone, because I often went to my room to read. In addition, I now had the TV I’d received for my birthday. I flipped it on to WXIX Channel 19 and reruns of Gilligan’s Island and Green Acres played in the background while I read. I had to get my mind clear for the final exams that...
February 1978 I slept the sleep of the dead on Saturday night. I didn’t wake up on Sunday morning until I heard car doors slam as Mom, Jeff, and Stephanie left for church. I almost never slept past sunrise, usually being up earlier than that. I slept until 9:30am. I was emotionally, mentally, and physically spent by the events of Saturday afternoon and evening. I ate breakfast, checked the pool chemicals, went for a swim, and took a long hot shower. I went to my dad’s office and asked to...
February 1978 Going to work on Saturday was actually a blessing. Most of what I did I could do without much thought. The only thinking needed was when I was running the register or packing an order. The broom and rag seemed to move on their own and stocking shelves was a matter of matching products and tags. I had a few hours to think before Jennifer arrived for lunch. In that time, I replayed the last year over and over again. I thought about things that had happened, about decisions I had...
March 1978 I dreaded going to school. I thought about staying home sick. I rarely did that and if I told Mom and Dad I was sick, they wouldn’t doubt me. I had missed exactly one day of school in the past three years. Unfortunately, that would only postpone the inevitable. I didn’t have any classes with Jennifer, but we did have lunch together as we had all year. I could only wait to see what happened. I saw several of the gang in the hallway or class, but nobody said anything or even gave...
January 1978 Mom seemed to have given up. Dad said that because he had told Mr. van Hoek that I could have dinner at their house, and because it was Mr. van Hoek who had the real complaint, and he wanted me to come to dinner, Dad failed to see how he could refuse. Dad also said he felt I should be able to decide whether or not I went to church and because the priest had basically told me not to take communion, he didn’t see the point of making me go. I offered a compromise. I would go at...
December 1977 One of the best situations in chess is when you put your opponent into a situation where they have only one possible response to each of several moves in a row. Of course, being on the receiving end was a different story. In December, I was on the receiving end. Equally bad was being of a tempo, such that you had a strong position, but because it was your move, you had to weaken it. That was, in some ways, worse than forced moves to relieve your king from check. Events were...
February 1978 I awoke long before the alarm on Monday. I lay in bed a bit and considered everything that was going on with Becky and Jennifer. I was going to have to resolve the Becky and Jennifer - or was that really the Becky OR Jennifer - situation somehow. If things progressed to me making love with Becky, something would have to give. And things were progressing. No, I thought, they weren’t progressing. I was pushing them forward. I actually wanted it to happen. But I didn’t want to...
January 1, 1978 Becky wasn’t allowed to ride with us when her dad dove me home. I was permitted to hug her and she took the opportunity to kiss me, briefly, on the lips. We received disapproving looks from her parents, but no further comment. The ride home was silent. After Mr. van Hoek left my house, I was called into my dad’s office. Fortunately, it was just him. But I knew he’d tell my mom. And I didn’t think I’d get off the hook with her. “Steve, what were you thinking?” Dad...
December 1977 On Tuesday morning I called Birgit. I wasn’t sure I should. I poured my heart out to her. I missed her. I was afraid for our relationship. I was afraid that I would never see her again. She knew something was really bothering me. Rather than ask she simply said, “I feel it’s destined to be. I told you that. For now, all you have to do is have faith. Trust me. Just have faith.” I started crying. “I love you, Steve Adams.” “I love you, Birgit Andersson,” I said through...
December 1977 I saw Jennifer at school, and she seemed much happier. Others noticed as well. Only she and I, and Melanie, who was at the High School, knew why. Jennifer and I had agreed before I left her house that there would be no outward signs of affection in public. As far as anyone knew, nothing had changed. I hoped I could keep my end of that bargain. But if I could get a repeat of Sunday, I’d pretty much agree to anything. I had pulled it off with Melanie, and nobody except Larry and...
February 1978 The rest of the week went by quickly. I played chess with Jennifer and Larry. I played chess with Mary. Mary and I couldn’t find a time to get together, much to our mutual disappointment. Even Thursday night didn’t work out since she had to go out with her parents. On Saturday, I called Birgit. I was doing that way too often, but letters with two-week turnarounds just weren’t cutting it. I broached the subject of growing up and gaining experiences and she said that was more or...
November 1977 I wasn’t really interested in sex for a couple of weeks. I didn’t even masturbate. I just didn’t feel the urge. I didn’t even feel the urge to tease. I think the term was ‘sated’. Melanie was so funny. Not a word. Not a tease. Nothing. Just 100% tutoring. I appreciated it. I had a B+ on my most recent test and it looked like I was actually going to pull out a B in Spanish. Michelle had called a couple of days afterwards and we chatted a bit. She told me that she had been so...
January-February 1978 The following Monday, I tried to keep the conversations away from sex and relationships. I was largely successful, though Kellie clearly wanted another date. I was pretty sure Mary was entertained by the situation, though Jennifer was not. I had the feeling that things were worse than I’d thought. I had to talk to someone and I decided I would co-opt the tutoring session again. I was coming to a crossroads. I had no idea if I would turn right or left or go straight....
September 1977 It took us about ten minutes to get back to the cottage. I thought of a perfect way to really get Michelle’s goat. I told Elizabeth my idea and she laughed. “Oh, that’s evil! And I get to enjoy it. I mean, I get to really enjoy it, she gets frustrated, AND I get you before her. She’ll absolutely lose her mind. Though when it’s her turn, if you decide to give her one, she might come close to killing you!” she giggled. “I’ll take my chances, but she might just have to be...
September 1977 One thing was obvious to me. I was much more at ease in school than I ever had been before. Part of it was basically being with the same kids for the third year in a row. A bigger part of it was thanks to Jennie McGrath, Birgit Andersson, and Melanie Spencer. I had a lot more self-confidence and felt really comfortable talking to girls. Jennifer Block played a small role in that as well, as my confidante and advisor. Our discussions of sex had continued, and we talked a lot...
March 1978 The next week was normal, except that Jennifer still hadn’t decided to talk to me. That was fine. All in due time. I missed talking to her, but the promise that we would eventually talk made me much calmer than I might otherwise have been. That and her sitting next to me at lunch. Mary and Kellie both were antsy. Each was waiting for the promised activities. For Kellie it was her first time, for Mary, it was her first time to have a guy orgasm in her without a rubber. I was...
May 1977 I saw Birgit on Monday in homeroom and just gave her a big smile as she walked past me to take her seat. She laughed and said “Oh stop” and smacked me on the shoulder. Life was good. I started looking at girls at school in a different light as I was walking down the hall. I had a new confidence - girls didn’t scare me as much anymore. They intrigued me and fascinated me. And I wanted more of what I had experienced with Jennie McGrath. The kissing I’d had with Susan just wasn’t...
July 1977 Saturday was pick-up day from camp. Rather than going straight home, Dad took me to see the site for the new house. It was a wooded lot on Overlook Drive that covered just over 7 acres. When we arrived, I saw that the excavation for the footers of the house had been completed. Dad showed me the design - very similar to houses we’d had in Yorba Linda and Bermuda Dunes, California. It was a U-shaped one story home with a pool in the center of the ‘U’. In this case, it was an indoor...
February 1978 I was an emotional wreck. I had hoped to sort things out. Instead, they had become ever more complicated. Was life really like this? If it was, I didn’t know if I could handle it. I added four pages to my journal trying to work out my feelings, my relationships, and my options. Once again, I had more questions than answers. I looked at the clock and saw that it was almost 10:00pm. I had been home for about 90 minutes, all of which I spent writing in my journal. I needed to...
New Year’s Eve and Day 1977 I woke up before sunrise, as was the norm during deep Winter. I really was a morning person. I wondered if I should have tried to sleep in because of a late night I was going to have, but I figured that wouldn’t work. Maybe I’d take a nap after visiting Mary. I ate breakfast, showered, and dressed. I had moved the rubbers to my locking box. I pulled out the pictures of Birgit and Melanie and looked through them. I put them back, extracted a single condom, and...
April 1978 Saturday I worked. I was still missing Jennifer. And Melanie. I called Jennie when I got home. Fortunately, she was there. I told her about the dance and Bethany and she was quiet for a minute. “You’re getting yourself into a situation that is really, really tough. You are going to have to be a perfect gentleman and expect nothing more than friendship for a long time. She’s really vulnerable and she’ll be really emotional. Just be prepared for that. Be her friend. Don’t even...
February 1978 On Saturday, following my Friday date with Kellie, I went to work as usual. Once again I used the time to think. This time I was trying to figure out how I could meet Kellie and not have to hide or rush or anything like that. I didn’t have a good solution. Even if I could drive, that wouldn’t help much. The back seat of a car just didn’t hold any attraction for me. Except for with Mary, I’d always done it in a bed. I was keeping busy around the deli but there were no customers...
Birgit is my shy sexy slave guest, I love her her tiny titties and big bums begging for some spankingI know well how she fears that ordeal over my knees and welcome Birgit with some soft sensual slappingBirgit is happy with every break between my soft spanks when my hand caresses her well warmed bottomI know well how she will get a bit more wet every time I check the sexy state of her orchis orifice!Birgit is my bride to be for this special sin-day Sunday nice naughty long night of long making...
February 1978 On Monday I asked Kellie if she’d like to go out. She was super excited about that. We agreed on Friday evening. We’d have dinner and then go roller skating. After that, we’d get some ice cream and then our parents would pick us up. After school, I walked to meet Melanie. I shook hands with Pete and he asked if we’d be going out again. “You’re not my type, Pete. And I think Melanie might object.” They both laughed. Melanie said “No, you’re wrong, Steve. I’d actually pay...
October 1977 We took the bus to Indian Hill, an upper-class village near Milford, with lots of big estates, lots of nice cars, and all the other things that really rich people owned. My parents had a decent amount of money, but didn’t like the stuck-up nature of so many Indian Hill folks. That was one reason why they built our new house in Milford. We walked into their school, found the room where the meet was happening, and checked out the pairings. This was a single-round meet, and the...
March 1978 On Easter morning we went to the sunrise service. I liked this one best because it had the best Gospel reading. Mom was happy that I had gone to church on Good Friday and Easter. I wasn’t planning on going to communion, but I was sure she was hoping I would change my mind. But there was no chance of that. When we arrived home, I called Birgit to wish her «Glad Påsk» - I had looked that up. She was excited to hear from me. I asked if she had talked to Melanie. She had, but said it...
After taking tasty teen Tamara to the train with my three sexy slaves I have a sexy surprise for themI take them from Central Station to the airport and tell them about my fine friend Birgit, my beauty!After we take Birgit to my private place I send my slaves to do their chores so we can be in privateI intimately inspect Birgit from as close as possible - as she stands bent over right in front of meAfter her sexy inspection her daily duty is to masturbate for me right in front of my eyes at her...
May 1978 The first couple of weeks in May were busy with school, work, and friends. Except for Becky, I didn’t even have any dates. But I was OK with that. Well, almost OK. I wanted to see Anna, but it likely wasn’t going to happen until school was out. I had tutoring sessions with Melanie, but she still wouldn’t talk to me about anything other than Spanish. Barely a hello. I was grateful for the tutoring, but it was maddening seeing my friend this way. I hoped someday she could understand...
May 25th, 1978 I wasn’t sure what to expect. Bethany and her mom arrived at 3:30pm as promised and we drove to a small medical office building on Route 28. The therapist was on the second floor. We went up and sat in the waiting room. Bethany’s mom would wait for us. That didn’t surprise me at all. The receptionist invited Bethany in, then asked me for the permission note that Dad had signed. When I’d arrived home from Bethany’s I decided to approach Dad first. I thought Mom would have...
October 1977 The school year was progressing. I was doing OK in all my classes, except Spanish, where nothing I did seemed to bring my grade above a ‘C’. That was the only low spot, though. The school newspaper was keeping me busy, as was Chess Club. And of course, working at the deli. I was finding time to hang out with Jennifer and Larry, and was doing my best to flirt with all the cute girls in my class. There were a couple of super cute 8th graders who were on my radar as well. We had...
April 1978 The first week in April was more of the same. I didn’t see Pete, Melanie wouldn’t talk to me about anything except for tutoring, and Jennifer still wasn’t ready to talk. The only constant was work. I had spoken to Anna a few times and we were having trouble arranging a date now that we didn’t have Pete and Melanie. She promised to try to find a way, but we agreed April was probably difficult. I told her I’d call her at least once a week. I did get to play chess with Mary on...
May-June 1978 I called Bethany on Friday for a brief chat just to see how she was doing. She asked if we could repeat the dinner date Wednesday, after Memorial Day. I told her that was fine. I asked if she wanted to come swimming beforehand and she declined as I expected. I’d ask again in a few weeks. I called Anna to see how she was doing. She said her sister was willing to drive to get me when their parents were out of town around the end of June, so it looked like that would be the...
May 24, 1988, Chicago, Illinois “Jessica was right,” my sister said as we ate breakfast together. “About?” “Chrissy. Melody said that she’s back in class as if nothing happened. And she’s denying that she has a problem.” I shook my head, “There isn’t much we can do about that. If she won’t get help, nobody can force her to. But that means she’s not allowed here. I can’t have someone who I know is using drugs in the house.” “I know. I really am sorry about all the trouble that she...
March 1978 For the first three of weeks of March, the usual pattern continued, at least for the most part. Jennifer sat with us at lunch and was cordial to me. We hadn’t talked and it was really gnawing at me. Melanie counseled patience. Because I couldn’t do anything else, I’d simply have to be patient. I had my tutoring sessions with Melanie, played chess with Mary, messed around with her a few times, and went on double-dates with Pete, Melanie, and Anna. And of course, dinners at...
Birgit und Tom hatten sich in der Disco kennengelernt. Obwohl das war nicht ganz richtig denn wirklich kennen taten sie sich nicht. Nur hatten beide immer wieder diese seltsame gegenseitige Anziehung gefühlt. Da beide ziemlich unsicher waren hatten sie sich dann aber immer gegenseitig zurück gestoßen. So war es schon einige Zeit gegangen als Tom schließlich beschloss sich in die Höhle der Löwin zu wagen: Sein Herz schlug ihm bis zum Hals als er nun vor Brigits Wohnungstür stand und es dauerte...
July 1982, Milford, Ohio On Tuesday morning, I kissed Kara goodbye and headed to my parents’ house for my usual morning routine with my little sister. She was happy that I could spend the morning with her and asked to take a walk, so we weren’t in the house with my mom. “Let me guess — this walk will end in the clearing,” I said with a smile. “Yes,” she said, taking my hand as we walked down Overlook towards Klondyke. As usual, we turned around and walked back, taking the path to the...
December 5, 2000, Mayo Clinic, Rochester, Minnesota “I had a good time last night,” I said. “I was surprised you invited a friend!” Mary laughed as we walked into the exam room, “Naomi had a good time as well. You know what a Resident’s life is like.” I nodded, “No social life.” “Exactly. You guys seemed to hit it off pretty well.” “Yes, but I’m not here for that!” “You’re everywhere for that, and you know it!” I couldn’t help but laugh. “Let’s just say that you hit the sweet spot -...
((note: story inspired by NilioJ (Harry potter spell book of desire‘s)) (Note 3. For the purposes of this story, all students start hogwarts at the age of 18, as Hogwarts is a High School/ College. ALL students are 18+. Salazar Slytherin was a pure-blood wizard, noted for his cunning and determination. He was regarded as one of the greatest wizards of the age, respectively as a Parselmouth and as a skilled Legilimens. Slytherin was one of the four founders of Hogwarts School of Witchcraft...
FantasyMay 15, 1992, Glencoe, Illinois “Join me in my study, if you would,” Noel Spurgeon said when we finished our dessert. It had been an interesting evening. Samantha and I had talked for a bit before we’d been summoned to dinner. The meal had been prepared by a chef and was served by a white-coated young man. Again, this was a far cry from Lois at the van Hoeks’ house. What wasn’t a far cry was the fact that I was having dinner with a man who knew I was going to be sleeping with his daughter...
Fem Factor By Jennifer White With the advent of "reality" TV shows, the networks scrambled to add show after show where real people are put into difficult situations, while being filmed. One of the popular ones was Fear Factor, where people had to face their fears, such as the fear of falling, wild animals, spiders, and more. However, some fears are even more extreme than what that show could offer. For that reason, an even new, more extreme show was introduced: Fem...
October 1981, Chicago, Illinois I arrived back at the apartment just before 10:00pm and saw the address for the party. I decided I wasn’t particularly interested in going so I put on some music, poured myself a glass of wine, and started reading more about Russia. I was alternating between the history and culture book and the Communist Party book, decided on the history and culture book for this time. I didn’t get much reading done because I was thinking about Tatyana, which led me to...
June 23, 1994, Oguni, Yamagata Prefecture, Japan My first week in Japan flew by, and a routine developed. Sakurako would wake me; I’d exercise and run, then shower and have breakfast, and share tea with Sakurako. After breakfast, I’d meditate, and then have my training session. After lunch, I’d work in the garden, or, as I had this day, wash the floors in the house. Hiroshi would accompany me back to the cottage and we’d talk while I washed up and dressed for dinner. After dinner, I’d spend...
June 15, 1994, Chicago, Illinois “That’s everything, I think,” I said. “My luggage is in the trunk of the car, I have my passport, tickets, and money, both dollars and yen. I can’t think of anything else.” “I’ll see you in five weeks,” Elyse said, giving me a quick hug. “Did you see they rioted in Vancouver last night because they lost the Stanley Cup?” I chuckled, “Only Canadians would riot when they LOSE the Cup! I did see that on the front page of the Trib. Are we ready?” “Michelle and...
May 26, 1991, Iron Mountain, Michigan “Shall we see if we can find a farm?” I asked at breakfast on Sunday morning. “That sounds like a great idea,” Jessica said. “There’s a visitor’s bureau in town,” Kara said. “I saw it when we were here the first time.” “I’m sorry I ruined that vacation,” Jessica said. “Ruined?” I protested. “Are you kidding? Getting you back was way more important than a few days of vacation!” “I agree,” Kara added. “Jess, you know exactly how bad off Steve was...
January, 1985, Chicago, Illinois I arrived back in Hyde Park about ten minutes before the end of the Super Bowl. It didn’t look like it had been much of a contest, given that the score was 38-16, with San Francisco trouncing Miami. I grabbed a Coke and some chips and sat down on the couch next to Julia and Dave. In the room, besides my housemates, were Jamie, Kenneth, Kurt, Kathy, Jorge, George, Charlie, Bert, and Wen. “Julia, I got approval from both guys in Cincinnati,” I said. She...
Late on Saturday afternoon Dave shifted into his job as one of the bartenders for the Circle. Just as he was ready for a first customer, Emma came racing up to the bar. She was alone and only wearing a monokini, unlike a few hours earlier when her parents and younger sister had visited and she was dressed conservatively. She extended her body over the bar and kissed Dave. “Thank you for being so nice to my parents and sister.” “Of course. They’re nice people. I take it they don’t know a...
July 22, 2000, Chicago, Illinois “Albert, do you have everything packed?” Mom asked. “Yes, Mom!” I replied, rolling my eyes because she’d asked before I went to bed. “He’ll be fine, Babe,” Dad said. “Let’s walk to the hospital.” I usually didn’t get up early, but Dad had suggested it would help Mom if I walked to the hospital with her because I was leaving to see Jane for three weeks. Mom, Dad, Aunt Kara and I left the house and headed down the sidewalk towards the hospital where Mom and...
August 1981, Chicago, Illinois On Sunday morning, I made my usual call to Karin. I described everything in the apartment and all the things I’d done during the week, including the reception. Both of us would start school in a week and we were both looking forward to it. When we finished talking, I went out for my run, showered, and ate breakfast. I made some tea, started a load of laundry, and then turned on the stereo. I put on an REO Speedwagon album and then relaxed on the couch with the...
August 21, 1989, Chicago, Illinois “Unbelievable,” I said when I read the headline from the Chicago Tribune. “It says here that Solidarity activist Tadeusz Mazowiecki was nominated to be Prime Minister of Poland.” I hadn’t had a chance to read the paper on Sunday because it hadn’t been delivered before we left for the race track in Michigan. “So now what?” Kara asked. “We’re in totally uncharted territory. Your guess is as good as anyone’s right about now.” “Steve, do you have a minute?”...
July, 1982, Milford, Ohio I woke up early on Friday morning to make breakfast for Kara and her mom before she went to work. Mrs. Blanchard was surprised, but very pleased. After her mom left for work, Kara gave me a fierce kiss. “Thanks for staying in and cooking breakfast for us,” Kara said. “I hope that doesn’t cause you trouble with Stephanie, with you breaking your normal routine.” “Don’t worry about it,” I said, kissing her back. “We got in a bit later than I expected, and she’ll...
July, 1983, Chicago, Illinois I woke up early on the First of July, because my body clock was still set to Swedish time. The flight back had been long but uneventful, and I was happy that the businessman in the seat next to me hadn’t wanted to talk. I read, wrote some longhand journal entries, ate, and generally relaxed while the plane zipped over the Atlantic. I’d come home, taken a sauna, eaten a light meal, and gone straight to bed, not bothering to check messages, look at the mail that...
July, 1983, Chicago, Illinois After Rosie left, I stripped the sheets from my bed, as well as the cover of the duvet, and tossed everything into the washing machine. I lit a lavender candle in the room, and then swept and dusted. I did a quick spot-check of the rest of the house and noticed that the tub in the sauna needed to be cleaned. I scrubbed it, then mopped the sauna floor with a damp sponge mop. I finished cleaning the sauna about the time the washing machine finished, so I moved...
August, 1984, Chicago, Illinois The rest of the week proceeded as expected - class on Wednesday, as well as the usual visit from Penny, work on Thursday, and class on Friday. Kara and I had lunch together at IIT, Sofia practiced her driving and parking, and I hung out with Mark Agnini after class for beers. Staci and I got into a couple of interesting debates about the Old Testament that Mark had to break up to allow others in the class to participate. She was very much of the ‘directly...
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