I just recently recalled a chunk of my c***dhood that my brain had suppressed for quite a few years. Isn't it funny how your brain can store something until you have the ability to process it. Not that I feel broken or that these events that I'm now starting to think about changed the course of my life, then again, it may have. It's 2020 now, and I'm a 42 year old man, married, with a c***d leading a normal life. I have a good job, a decent house, and good friends. So I'm just a normal guy right? I think so. But I leave you to make your own opinion.
My mother and father had gotten divorced when I was two. It was just mom and I until she met a man when I was five. Then, a few years later, they got married and he became my step dad. Now I won't tell how old I was, but the movie "Back to the future II" had just left the theaters.
They had a small wedding in my grandparents house and then they were off to the Bahamas for their honeymoon. I got left with our next door neighbor. She was an average looking woman, divorced, and had a son who was two years older than me. It wasn't so bad. He was a cool k** who excepted right away when we had moved there a few years back. I had never had a sleepover with him before, but it was bound to be cool.
When they dropped me off, we went outside and hung out in the woods around our tree fort for the whole day. By the time we came back at supper we were filthy. We had been running through the woods and bushes and climbing trees and even got a bit muddy. I will take moment here to say I am not looking to implicate anyone, so I will just refer to his mom as Mrs. L and my friend will be called S.
Mrs. L told us both that we would not be eating at her table looking like pigs. She escorted us both up to the bathroom. She told us both to strip our clothes off as she began filling the bathtub. Being young both he and I did as we were told. On another side note, at this point, I had been bathing myself for a while. At any rate, she instructed us both to get in the bathtub together so that dinner wouldn't be stone cold by the time we were clean. We both sat down and she began pouring water on us using a pitcher. Then she began washing our hair with shampoo. Then rinsed our hair with more water from the pitcher.
She was alternating between S and I using a bar of soap and a face cloth. I felt like I was at the car wash. It wasn't until she had rinsed our top halves and then told us to stand up that it got really weird. We stood up and she washed our legs fast, then had us face the wall away from her. She wasted no time washing S's butt cheeks, but then it was my turn. She washed my butt cheeks with the bar of soap vigorously making a good lather then she put the soap down and used her hand to wash deep in my butt crack. I turned my head slightly towards S and saw Mrs. L was washing his butt the same. Then I felt her finger penetrate my anus momentarily then back out. This happened like ten times each a little deeper than the last until she had most of her middle finger up my butt. I again looked over and S was receiving the same treatment. After about twenty full penetration strokes, she extracted her fingers from us and told us to face each other. We both turned, and I was glad to see he was red in the face with embarrassment like me. She said nothing, just began lathering up my penis. Then S got the same. Then she put the soap down and grasped us both and began stroking us simultaneously.
She then spoke, " you boy's never wash your privates properly! "
Now, as I am adult I know it only takes about thirty seconds to wash a full sized penis and testicles . Mrs. L was definitely very thorough as she spent no less than three minutes washing our penis and testicles. Then the phone rang. She stopped and said; " here, you keep washing. I will be right back. " She grabbed my hand as she said this, and placed it on S's penis and his hand on mine. Both of us were shocked, and just stood there holding each others phallus.
She turned and shouted as she went out the door, "I said wash!" We both began slowly stroking each other. I couldn't look at him, and was glad out of the corner of my eye, he was looking at the wall. Mrs. L came back a moment later and announced.
" Your clean! Now sit down and rinse off. " S and I sat down and rinse off. Then we got up and climbed out on to the bath mat. Mrs. L handed each of us a towel and told us to dry off then go to S's room and get dressed. We did as we were told and came down to dinner.
It was a very sullen affair. Neither S nor I would look up at each other. Pretty much the whole evening was like that. Mrs. L sent us to bed around nine. She tucked us in, said good night and shut the door. We lay their in silence. He was on the top bunk and I on the bottom. It took a while but I finally fell asleep.
The next morning S shook me awake around seven and he was sitting on my mattress. " Lets go get breakfast. " He smiled and got up to get dressed. It was like nothing had happened. We had fun playing and like the previous day we got dirty. Again when we got home Mrs. L made us go upstairs and take a bath. Just like before she paid particular attention to our butts then our penises.
This time though she turned us to face her and said, " now I showed you how to wash each other yesterday, so do it now. "
S and I both hesitated, but slowly began washing each other. Again were both embarrassed. And to make it worse the stimulation of it all was making us get a little hard. Mrs. L walked over to the toilet, hitched up her dress, pulled her panties down exposing a massive bush and sat down to pee.
S and I continued to "wash" each other but I definitely recall how she was intently watching and randomly squeezed her breasts and touched her vagina. This went on for about five minutes until she stiffened and held her breath momentarily then she wiped and arose and told us to rinse off and go get clean clothing on before coming down to dinner.
The rest of the evening was like the previous day. That night, as I lay in bed, I whispered to S, " does your mom always wash you herself when you take a bath? "
"Yes. Thats normal for me, but I never had to wash anyone else before." He replied.
"Its ok. We are just washing each other." I said lamely.
It took a few minutes but S replied, " Yeah, I guess your right, just seems weird. "
I looked up to him because he was older, and obviously smarter. I remember before all this when he had come to my rescue and kept me from getting beat up by some other k**s down the road. He was definitely a good friend . After that we chit chatted for awhile about the nonsense k**s talk about until we went to sleep.
The next two days were almost exactly the same. Wake, eat, play, eat, play, thorough bath, dinner, tv, and bed. Friday came and we started the day normal but S got picked up by his dad at four pm. I was bored so I just played matchbox cars in the driveway until Mrs. L called me in. Like normal I was instructed to go upstairs and take a bath. She followed me in the bathroom and started drawing the bath.
She turned around to find I was just standing there. "Why aren't you getting undressed?" Mrs. L inquired . I started to undress but was shocked when she began to as well.
"Mrs. L, why are you taking of your clothes too?" I inquired .
She replied in a stern tone, "We are going to share the bath so as to save water."
I remember being taken a back by this but not bold enough to say anything. All the years alone with my mom, I never remember taking a bath with her or seeing her naked.
Mrs. L was pudgy woman about five foot five. Big hanging breasts and wide hips and butt. She had a massive bush, the kind that I have learned from old porn movies was normal for the late 1970's and through 1980's. It was thick with dark brown curly hair that spread out and partially down her inner thighs.
I only note this as it was something that caught my attention when she pulled her dress over her head. As a young boy I was curious as to why there was curly hair flowing out of both sides and the top of her panties. This is probably why I have a thing for big bush now.
Anyway, back to the story. She stepped in the bath tub and sat down and told me to get in and sit down between her legs facing away from her. I remember the water was quite a bit more hot than previous days. This was one of those deep old bear claw tubs. Mrs. L pulled me back in to her as she reclined back in to the curvature of the tub. I came to rest on her abdomen and found my head to be straddled by her large breasts.
"Now isn't this nice? She said. We can just relax and soak in the hot water." To be honest it was quite comfortable .
We soaked in the water for about twenty minutes until my hands were pruned. Then she got the shampoo and washed her hair and mine. Then she had me pull the plug to let the water out and we stood up and she turned on the shower so we could rinse the soap out of our hair. Then she got the bar of soap and scrubbed me from head to toe. As usual she payed close and extended attention to my penis and butt. Then she rinsed me off. The she soaped up completely from the neck down.
"Now I want you to wash my parts good. She said. Start with my breasts." She brought both my hands up and placed them on her right breast. " Go ahead. " she said.
I began to rub the soap around on it then switched to the other and did the same. I observed her close her eyes and put her head back a little as I switched back and forth. Her nipples engorged as well. Then after a few minutes she turned around and said, "now my bottom."
I began on the outside rubbing with both hands on her wide hips and butt cheeks . "Now get in there and do the middle. Make sure you use your fingers like I do." She said in a breathy tone.
I ran my finger up and down her crack a few times . "No, get right in there!" She said forcefully as she spread her cheeks . I had a good view of her anus now. I began rubbing in a circular motion. I noticed her little butt hole clench and relax every now and then. I then used my middle finger and pushed it in her hole.
"Oooohhhh." She let out an almost inaudible moan. I pulled it out slow then pushed it back in. Each time I did there was less resistance, so after a few times I used both my index and my middle finger.
"Oh god!" She moaned out. "Now you getting the hang of it!" Mrs. L seemed to like getting her but washed. So I continued working on it until she let go of her cheeks and stood up and turned around . "Now the front. She said. Go ahead." I was reserved at first, just kind of lathering the soap in her hairy bush. She seemed to understand I was not sure what to do so she looked down at me and smiled.
"Here." She said as she reached down and parted the hair and her labia exposing her deep pink colored clitoris and vaginal opening. "It's ok honey, girls stuff is inside instead of outside. Just gently wash that little pink pea at the top with your fingers in a circular motion." I looked straight at it reached out with my pointer and middle finger and lightly rubbed . "There you go, just push a little harder." She said breathing heavily as she tilted her head back. "Oh my god thats perfect, don't stop, just like that!" I rubbed in a slow methodical fashion and then I noticed Mrs. L's inner thighs quivering and her breathing was faster and heavier. "Don't stop, don't stop, don't stop!" She exclaimed . I kept up what I was doing because it obviously made her feel good and clean. Her body began to shake violently, her mouth opened and this very a****listic moan escaped. I doubled my efforts and all of a sudden a bunch of clear liquid began gushing out of her vagina. She pushed my hands away. "No more, honey, no more." She gasped as her body continued to jerk with mini spasms. "Oh my. She said out of breath. You are a quick learner." She hugged me tight to her body and moved us under the water to rinse off. She released me and we rinsed all the soap off. Then she turned the water off and we got out on the bath mat and dried off.
"Go to your room and get on some pajamas, then meet me down stairs." I walked out and did as I was told.
Five minutes later I came down and made my way to the kitchen. Mrs. L was at the table waiting with a towel wrapped around her head the way women do to dry there hair, a bath robe, and a smile.
"What do you want for dinner? She asked as I pulled a chair out and sat down next to her. "I'll make you whatever is your favorite."
Being a k** I was by default uncultured, so I said what every k** says, "Pizza" Mrs. L laughed and ruffled my hair. " You are easy to please. " She went to the freezer and pulled out a frozen pepperoni pizza and put it in the oven.
"Why don't you go in the living room and watch some tv while this cooks." I got up and started to walk out of the kitchen when she called after me. " Hey come back for a second. "
I walked over to where she was leaning on the sink a looked up at her. She was still smiling but had more of a serious look than funny. "I need a favor from you. She said. It's very important."
" Ok, what do you want me to do? " I replied.
"At home when you wash up in the shower, is it like here?" She asked.
I thought for a moment then said, " sort of. "
Mrs. L got a surprised look on her face. "What do you mean?" She asked.
" Well, I use soap and I scrub all my parts. I said. And sometimes I wash my penis a little bit extra because I get itchy under the skin.
" Mrs. L laughed out loud for a moment. "No, I mean do you take a bath with anyone else?" she asked.
I thought for a second again. " No, mom usually justs sends me in to take a shower by myself. " I smiled up at Mrs. L. "I don't mind the way you take a bath here, it's not as boring as being alone."
Mrs. L smiled again. " Well, I'm glad to hear you say that. She said. I'll tell you what, lets make it a secret just between us, ok? "
I thought for a second. "But S knows how we do baths here, how can it be a secret?" I asked.
Mrs. L didn't skip a beat. " Well, it will be a secret between us three, ok? She asked. We won't tell anyone about all the fun stuff we do here! " She got quiet for a second, then added, "It's important that you promise not to tell anyone, especially your Your mom and dad, ok?
I smiled again. "Ok, I promise!" I said.
" Good! Now go find a good show on tv for us to watch, and we can eat pizza in the living room. " She said.
"Really?" I asked. " Yup. She said. But don't tell S because I don't let him do it ok? " I turned and began walking out of the kitchen and yelled over my shoulder. "Ok Mrs. L, It's our secret"
We spent the next few hours watching reruns of M.A.S.H. and eating pizza. I began yawning around nine and Mrs. L shut the tv off. "Come on its time for bed." She said as she stood and began picking up the pizza mess. I took the pan to the kitchen sink and we walked about shutting lights off then went up stairs. I went to the bathroom and Mrs. L tucked me in to bed in S's room. She made her way to the door and shut off the light.
"Mrs. L, do you have a fan for the window? I asked. It's kind of hot in here tonight."
I looked over to Mrs. L and she was thinking. "No, I don't have a fan, why don't you come sleep with me in my room, I have the door to the porch I can open for the breeze."
I climbed out of bed and walked over to her. "Would it be ok?" I asked .
"Come on. Let's go." She said with a smile.
We made our way down the hall to the master bedroom . She turned on a lamp by the bed and then the tv.
"Go ahead and climb up over there." She said as she pointed at the far side of the bed. It was a large bed in a big room, there was a sliding door that went out on to a second story deck. She walked over and opened the door wide. On the other wall she had a big dresser and table with a big mirror and chair. It was nice. I climbed up on the bed and got under the covers.
Mrs. L turned her back to me and took off her bathrobe. She was naked underneath which caught me off guard seeing her wide hips and round butt. She slid in to bed and pulled up the covers to cover herself. Then picked up the remote and tuned the tv to a show she liked. "Alright young man, time for you to go to sleep."
I closed my eyes and listened to the tv for a while. I was having a hard time falling asleep because my brain was full of questions . Why did Mrs. L have S and I wash each others penis? If someone at school ever heard about it they would call us fags.
Why did Mrs. L stick her finger up my butt every time she washed it? Again this was a grey area that the other boys would degrade us and call us queers.
Why did she have me stick my fingers up her butt? This bothered me less, I just thought it was weird.
Why did she have so much hair down around her private parts? I have like four hairs starting around my balls.
Why was a vagina so different than a penis? What was that little button she had me wash that made her so happy that she peed? All this was racing around my head.
Finally I got up the courage to ask. "Mrs. L can I ask you a question?" She looked over at me with a quizzical look on her face. The light from the television was making random bright and shadows across her face.
"You're supposed to be sleeping silly. She said as she brushed her hair behind her right ear. What's on your mind?"
I took a deep breath while mustering up the nerve. " When you give me a bath with S why do you make us wash each others penis? "
Mrs. L got a slightly taken aback look on her face. "Well...... I guess its to make you both closer. Also to make you both more comfortable being touched by someone of the same sex if the situation should arise in the future. "
I thought for a minute. "But why would another boy touch me like that? I mean at school if you even touch another boys hand they call you a fag."
Mrs. L chuckled . "Well they shouldn't say that, especially because they don't really understand what that means. k**s are cruel. Don't be one of those k**s!" She took a drink of water from the glass on the bed side table and turned back to me. " There is nothing wrong with boys touching boys and girls touching girls it's just something that can happen. You never know, you may want a boy to touch you."
Again I thought for a second . "I don't think it's something I would want."
" Well, thats something you can decide later in life. " She said. " Any other questions? "
"Um, yes. Why do you put your finger up my butt when you wash it?"
She looked thoughtful for a second and then replied, " I do that to relax you butt so you can poop easier. I just want you to be comfortable and not get constipated. "
I processed this for a few moments and decided that it made sense. although my mom had never done that before. But maybe as Mrs L was a nurse this was something she learned at the hospital. I also deduced this is why she had me do it to her.
"Why do you have so much hair around your vagina? I only have like four and S has like a bunch more than me, but you have a lot?"
"Thats easy. She replied. You are just starting to go through puberty. Eventually you will have just as much hair as me. But you will also grow hair on your face, in your arm pits, your butt crack. Your voice will change."
I thought for another minute again . "Why are girls parts so different from boy parts?" Mrs. L reached over and turned the lamp on then turned back to me. parts
"You are just full of questions tonight. She said as she tossed the covers off of herself . Come over here, it's easier to explain if you can see it."
I got out of bed and walked around to her side. " Now, as you know, you have a penis and testicles. " She instructed as she reached out and pulled down my pajamas. "Take all those off." I took of my bottoms and the top so I was naked like her. She spread her legs wide and pulled her legs up so her knees were bent and her feet were flat on the mattress. " Hop up here between my legs and sit facing me and slide your legs under mine and on either side of my hips."
I got on the bed as I was instructed. "Now slide forward towards me and put your penis closed to my vagina so we can compare." I did as I was told and got so close my penis was actually being tickled by her hair . "Good. Now look at yourself. See how yours sticks out, and your balls are on the bottom?"
I looked down at myself . I was pretty proud of penis, I had seen S's and a few others when we had a contest to see who could pee the farthest, and mine was bigger than all of them. I measured it with a ruler probably a month earlier and it was five inches long and kind of chubby.
"Now look at my vagina." She said as she reached down and spread her hair and labia. "See how the only part sticking out is my clitoris?" I looked at it and noticed it was moist and deep pink and had the little button at the top and a hole down below . "Girls have a whole designed to receive the penis." She said.
Immediately I had more questions . "So a boy puts his penis in your hole? Why?" I asked .
" Geez, have your parents not talked to you about this yet? " She rolled her eyes in exasperation. "Well the primary reason is to make a baby. She said. But you can also do it to feel good too."
I got a confused look on my face as I tried to process what Mrs. L had just told me. I then remembered my aunt. "So that's why my aunt got fat for a while, then I had a cousin and my aunt got skinny again?" I asked.
" Yes. She replied. "She got big because the baby was growing in her body and then when it was time the baby came out of her vagina."
I thought for a moment again then asked , "So what is the little button for?"
" Well, remember when I said you could do it for fun? That little button is for making me feel good when a penis inside me. " I looked down and tried to see better. "Lay down on your belly with your face close to my vagina." She instructed . I did what she said and as my nose was an inch from her vagina she pulled it apart again so I could see. "You see how it has a little hood over the pea, and folds of skin that outline the hole?"
" Yes I do. " I replied.
"Now stick your tongue out and lick the folds of skin to make them move" She told me.
I licked the fold on the left from bottom to top wiggling my tongue so that fold moved and Mrs. L let out a faint moan. It had a light pungent musky smell, but the taste was ok. I licked the right folds to and she groaned a little. So I did them both one after the other. Then I licked the little pea shaped button. Her body shuttered. Then I just attacked her clitoris with my tongue licking and flicking like crazy. Mrs. L gasped and pushed my head away.
"That's enough of that for now. " She panted out.
I processed all this for a few minutes as and Mrs. L just watched me quietly. I assume she was waiting to see what I would ask next. "How could a penis go in your hole? I mean it's all floppy except when I have to pee in the morning." I asked .
Mrs. L got a big smile on her face because I must have asked the right question. "Well, with the proper stimulation your penis will get stiff and ridged and you will be able to push it in." She said with a twinkle in her eye. awhile.
"But how do I make that happen when I don't have to pee? " I asked.
Mrs. L looked over joyed that I had asked that question. "Do you want me to teach you how?" She asked . " It's not difficult and I think it may make you feel good."
"Ok. " I said in a hesitant tone.
"Stand up right there on the bed." She said as she held my hand so I didn't fall. " Now its easy, just grasp it in your hand like when S's penis." She said as she wrapped her fingers around it. "Then gently squeeze and stroke forward and backward. " Then
She was right. It wasn't too difficult. It felt pretty good and I noticed it was kind of tingly and it was growing.
"That feels good right?" She asked.
"Yes Mrs. L it feels nice." I said as was stroking my self with more confidence.
"Can I help?" She asked.
" How do you mean? " I asked.
"Like this." She said as she took my hand away from my now semi erect penis and leaned forward and put her mouth on my penis and sucked on it like a lollipop . testicles
The sudden surge of unexpected pleasure tore through my body and uncontrollably my head rolled back and I let out a moan. She momentarily stopped, looked up at me and said. my
"Oh, somebody likes that. " She swallowed me again and sucked with more gusto. I couldn't believe how good this felt. She was rubbing her tongue side to side under the head of my penis and it sent spikes of pleasure through me. Then she stopped. I looked down and she had leaned back.
"Kneel down right her in front of me. She instructed. Now push my legs up and rest them on your shoulders." She instructed.
I did what she told me. Then I looked down and my penis was bigger than I had ever seen it. I normally don't see the head except when I wash under the skin in the shower, but it was sticking out and the skin was like a turtle neck. She grasped it gently with one hand and lined it up with her vagina hole. Then she put her other hand on my butt.
"Are you ready to become a man?" She asked as she pulled me from behind and my penis slide inside her. It was the most exquisite feeling. It was silky soft and warm and moist. It was the best feeling I ever had. She pulled me until I couldn't go any further. ide
I couldn't hold it in, "Oh my god!" I exclaimed .
"I know, baby, that feels so good huh?" She said. "Here, now pull out most of the way, then slide it back. Just keep doing that." I started to pump in and out like piston. Mrs. L looked up at me as she started to breathe heavy.
"Your a quick learner! She gasped. That's it, nice steady even strokes. "
Mrs. L began to rub and squeeze her breasts and twisted her nipples randomly. She was getting red in the face and her head was back. I guess she really liked it. Then I remembered the little button at the top of her vagina. I reached down and gently began rubbing it.
"Oh fuck, oh fuck, oh fuck!" She screamed startling me so I stopped. "No don't stop, don't stop, give it to me!"
I resumed my thrusting and rubbing her little button . Her body was beginning to shake all over and her back arched.
"Yes, yes, yes!" She shouted. She was thrashing about wildly now. I reached up with my other had and grabbed her boob and squeezed. That sent her over the edge.
"Ohhh my fucking god, aaaaaahhhhh!" She yelled before her breath caught and she was just ridged as a board. Then the fluids started to flow out of her all over me. It was like she was peeing all over me. Her vagina was clenching and un clenching like a vise on my penis . Then something started to tingle and all of a sudden I was breathing fast and then my penis just began pulsing hard. I felt like i was out of control of my body because I had this need to just push all the way in and hold it there. I pushed in deep held there until both my pulsing and her clenching stopped. I backed my penis out and just sat watching as she was twitching and the liquid kept coming out in gushes. After what felt like forever, but was really only twenty seconds her body relaxed on to the bed and she began breathing again. She opened her eyes and looked down at me sitting there looking like I did something wrong. She reached out and pulled me on top of her. She pulled my face right between her breasts and held me tight.
After about ten minutes she picked my head up and gazed in to my eyes. "Your a man now, buddy. "She said. "If you keep learning the way you do, your going to make someone very happy later in life."
I smiled and realized I was exhausted. I turned my head and laid it down on her breasts, and was fast asleep in moments.
I awoke with a start some time later. It was thunder that woke me. It was raining heavy outside and there was a wonderful breeze blowing in through the sliding glass door. I rolled over and Mrs. L was laying on her back sprawled out spread eagle. I spent a few minutes just gazing at her. She was quite beautiful. She had chocolate brown shoulder length hair that curled in towards her neck. Her breasts were large and had a bit of sag thats expected for a woman thats had c***dren. She a little bit of a belly and wide hips and butt. Her legs were quite nice and shapely. She looked so peaceful, her head turned slightly to the side, and her breasts relaxed towards her arm pits. As I admired her I became aware that my penis had become hard again. I guess I had found my trigger to make myself hard. I gently slid out of bed and made my way to the foot of the bed. I crawled up between her legs. I gently spread her labia and began licking her vagina. Almost on cue, she let a low moan escape her lips. She had a different more pungent taste than earlier, but still nice. I decided to try pushing my tongue in the hole and wiggled it.
"Oh, honey." Mrs. L said as she woke. " That feels great, but you realize your cum is inside me? "
I pulled tongue out and looked up at her in the darkness. "What do you mean?" I asked .
"Do you remember when you got that feeling when your penis was pulsing, and you pushed deep in me?" She asked. " That was an orgasm and your semen rushed up your penis and spurted out inside me. "
"Oh, ok." I said. " Well, I don't care at the moment. I lowered back down and resumed my licking.
"Mmmmmmnnn. Your such a good boy." She cooed. " Yes, honey. Eat my pussy good. "
I alternated from licking her lips and clit to punching my tongue inside. She was really getting in to it, as her hips kept squirming and lifting off the bed. I was also getting going too. My penis was rock hard and ready to get back inside her. I pushed my self up to a kneeling position and raised her legs up on my shoulders. Then I grabbed her hips and pulled her down to me. I guided myself to her opening and sank inside in one fluid motion to the hilt. I began to thrust in and out using full strokes.
"That's it honey!" She grunted as I bottomed out over and over. "Take what you want. "
I wasn't destined to last long because I was so aroused before I got started. But I lasted long enough to feel the tell tale signs of her hips gyrating and quivering. Then the clamp and relax of her vaginal muscles just sent me over the edge. I plunged as deep as I could and held there as our orgasms ravaged us both.
When my orgasm had subsided, I eased my self out and flopped over on the bed next to Mrs. L. Both of us were breathing heavy. She rolled over and d****d her arm and leg over me. She snuggled her head in next to mine.
"Sleep now lover." She whispered in my ear. "Get some rest."
I closed my eyes as the breeze swept over us and listened to the rumbling of the thunder as the storm moved away. I remember the smell of ozone in the air as I drifted off to sleep.
I awoke later in the morning to the smell of bacon. I rolled over and found myself alone in the big bed. The clock beside the bed said it was 7:47 and already it was hot and muggy. I rolled out of bed and put my pajamas back on and i stumbled to the bathroom to take a leak. After I went to the bathroom I looked at myself in the mirror. I had so many things running through my mind. Did I really have sex with Mrs. L? Did I just lose my virginity to my friends mom? I got all my first done in one night. I ate her vagina, got my penis sucked, had my first sex with a woman and experienced my first orgasm while I was awake. I smiled at myself, then a thought occurred to me. What if this made things weird with Mrs. L and with S? While that question was doing laps around my brain, I walked down stairs to the kitchen.
Mrs. L had her back to me as I entered the room. She was standing at the stove cooking eggs. I sat down at the table as quietly as I could. She hadn't noticed me come in so this afforded me a chance to gaze at her as she worked. She was wearing a purple satin bathrobe that barely covered her butt. When she reached up to get two glasses out of the cupboard she completely exposed her wide butt. As she turned around she looked up and had a slight start as she finally noticed me at the table.
"You should make some noise when you come in a room you know?" She scolded me with a smile. " Make yourself useful and go fill these with orange juice, please. " She asked as she handed the glasses to me.
I did what I was told and placed the glasses at the spots she had set out for us. I sat back down and Mrs. L came walking over with two plates. She placed one in front of each of us as she sat down.
"Enjoy." She said with a smile .
After eating I got up first and cleared the dishes and began washing then in the sink.
"Well! What did I do to deserve such treatment?" Mrs . L asked.
I turned to look at her with grin on my face. I winked then turned back to the dishes.
"Oh. I see." She said as she turned back to her coffee .
I finished the dishes and was drying my hands when she spoke again.
"Do you like to swim?" She asked.
" Yes I do. " I responded.
"It's so hot today, I think we should go swimming." She said. " Sound fun? "
"Yes, but I wish S was here so we all could go." I said .
"Well, this is a place thats special to me." She said.
" Ok. " I said.
We got dressed and made a picnic lunch. Mrs. L got some folding chairs and we loaded the car. We set of and drove for almost an hour up in to the mountains. We were in the middle of nowhere when she pulled off in a rest area. We were the only car. We got out and gathered our things, then began walking a path leading down a steep hill through the woods. When we reached the bottom the trees opened up and there was a small beach along the river. There were some huge rocks and the river was moving fast in some spots. We hopped from rock to rock across the river to a smaller beach on the other side that was in the sun. We set up our chairs and spread out a blanket on the soft sand area.
"Well." She said. " This is nice. "
Mrs. L began to undress. She was down to underwear when she glanced at me.
"What's the matter? " She asked. "Get undressed."
"I didn't bring a bathing suit." I muttered .
"Neither did I ! " She stated. "No bathing suits are required here."
" Oh, but... " I started but she cut me off.
"Just get naked!" She said. " Now! "
I procrastinated a bit but I took all my clothes off. Mrs. L had laid on the blanket on her back so I did the same.
"Can you rub some of this tanning oil on me, please?" She asked as she held up a brown bottle.
I took the bottle and poured some in my hand and began to spread it out over her body. I paid extra attention to her large breasts and then moved down to do her legs. I spread the oil up her legs and when I reached her apex, I couldn't control myself. I spread her pussy lips and began licking. She shuddered and her back arched a bit.
"Oh honey." She moaned out. " That feels so good, but you need to stop. " I stopped and looked up at her.
"You can't do that here." She said as I moved back over to my spot on the blanket. "Other people could be watching, and that would be bad."
I looked away frust as my hormones were raging and my dick was hard.
"You can have all you want when we get home." She said with a sad look on her face. " Sorry, I'm excited too. "
I laid back and absorbed some sun. As my excitement ebbed and my boner wilted, I thought about the sounds of the water and the breeze the rustled the leaves. It was quite soothing. I must have dozed off, because when I opened my eyes there were more people around us. I sat up and looked. There was a family of four down stream a bit, and an older couple across from us, and a lady and her dog were emerging from the woods and looking around. I looked down towards the family of four. They had a son about my age, and a daughter a few years older. They had, like us laid out a blanket and were soaking up the morning sun. Like us everyone was naked. The daughter was very cute with blonde hair. I turned to Mrs. L who was on her belly now.
"Do you want to go swimming Mrs. L?" I asked.
" Ok. " She replied.
We got up and walked over and hopped from rock to rock until we came to the big pool. We stepped in and it was almost up to my neck. The water felt cool and refreshing after baking in the sun. We had traveled down stream and were right by the family of four. Both the mom and daughter were blonde and very thin with narrow hips and almost no breasts. I looked back at Mrs. L, who had been watching me, and her large breasts were bobbing on the ripples of the water. She smiled.
"What are you thinking about?" She asked .
I got a little embarrassed and looked away for a second before I answered in a whisper.
"I was just looking at the mom and daughter and they have no boobs or butt." I said.
" Is that not appealing to you? " she asked.
"I don't get excited when I look at them." I said. " When I look at you and women your size I get all excited. "
"Good." She said. "There's nothing wrong with liking women who have curves. "
I swam over to her and looked around to make sure no one was looking and kissed her on the mouth. Then I swam away. We floated around a while then made our way back to the blanket and ate our lunch. When we were done we went up stream a bit to where the quicker water and small falls are. We went under the falls and there was a space behind the water. It was cooler in there and you could almost see through the water. We climbed up to the top and sat on the rocks. From our vantage point we could see all the different groups. The family of four and the older couple were eating lunch now. The girl with the dog was just up beyond us on a big rock sun tanning naked. The dog was sprawled out panting.
"Mrs. L, can I ask you a question?" I said.
"Go ahead." She said as she gazed at a new bunch of people the were walking down .
"Why is everyone naked?" I asked.
"They are naturist's, or nudist's. " She replied. "Basically the like to be naked in nature."
" Why? " I asked.
"Basically it's just the new hippie movement." She said with a chuckle. "And before you ask, yes I am basically a hippie."
"Ok." I said lamely. "I was just curious because I haven't seen people naked in public before."
"Are you feeling self conscious?" She asked.
"Nope, I just hope to come here again sometime." I said with an evil grin. "I like seeing all the naked ladies."
" Your such a boy." She exclaimed with a laugh. "Which one is your favorite?"
"You are. " I said.
"That's very flattering, thank you, but other than me?" She asked.
I looked around , the girl with the dog was kinda hot, and the new group that arrived was about five girls that were all a little curvy. They had set up next to our blanket.
"I like the girl behind us, but I kinda want to go get a closer look at the ones by our blanket." I said.
" Good! " She said. "I kinda want to do that myself."
I looked over at her and noticed she had hard nipples.
"Do you like girls?" I blurted out.
"Yes, and boys" She said. "I'm what they call bisexual, meaning I like both men and women."
" Oh. " I said as I stood up. "Am I bisexual?"
" Why do you ask?" She said. "Do you like boys?"
"No, I don't think so. " I said. "But I did get excited when S and I washed each other. "
"Oh." She said thoughtfully . "Only you can decide if your bisexual. But for that you will have to try it with a guy. That's a problem for you later in life. Come on, let's go."
We made our way back down to our spot. The five ladies were all laying on there backs. They were all big breasted and a little chunky. They were hot. We laid down on our blanket. Mrs. L was on her side facing the girls and me. I looked at her and she was distracted. I looked around and no one was looking. I reached out and ran my finger gently up between her hairy pussy lips and rubbed her clit. She didn't push me away so I continued. She was soaking wet inside. I must have been playing for five minutes when she came to her senses and grabbed my wrist and pushed me away.
"No!" She urgently whispered . "Thank you, but not here. Too many people."
I rolled over on my back and turned my head towards the girls. I got lost in looking at the all for a while. Then I looked at the face of the girl closest to me. She was looking at me and smiling. I smiled back. She giggled and turned away to say something. Then all five rolled on their sides to look at me. They all giggled in unison. Then the one closest spoke.
"Something got you exc little man?" She said.
It was then that I realized I my pecker was rock hard pointing at the sky. I rolled on my belly fast to hide it. I turned my head back to look again at the girl who spoke. She changed her expression to a sad smile.
"Don't be ashamed little man." She said. " I am flattered. And your going to make someone very happy in a few years with that big meat. "
I gave a shy smile. And she blew me a kiss.smile
Around three we went for one last swim to cool off, then dressed and packed. I took one last peek at the five chubby goddesses, and was rewarded with a smile, another blown kiss, and a wave from the sweet one . We hopped from rock to rock back across the river and started up the path.
"I see you have a new admirer." She needled me. "I bet if you two were alone you would have had a bunch of fun."
"Stop, Mrs. L." I said all embarrassed."She was just being nice!"
"Ok, If you say so." She said with rye smile.
We made it back to the car and drove home. On the way we stopped at market and Mrs. L picked up stuff for dinner. Once we got home she went right to cooking and I put the dirty blanket in the laundry basket. I made my way back to the kitchen and sat down at the table. Mrs. L was busy making us roast beef sandwiches.
"When does S come home?" I asked.
"Tomorrow afternoon." She said. " Why? "
"I just wondered ." I lied. I was thinking how much I liked the relationship I had with Mrs. L when S wasn't around .
Mrs. L brought two plates over and sat down, looking at me.
"I know you are curious about how we have to be when he gets home." She stated. " We have to be the way we were before he left. We can maybe fool around after he falls asleep, but thats as far as it goes. "
"Ok." I replied .
We ate our dinner and Mrs. L was chiding me about the chunky girl down by the river. After we cleaned the dinner mess we went up to take a bath. I sank in to the hot water between her legs and laid back on her. We soaked for three quarters of an hour until the water was getting cold. Then she had me pull the plug and we turned the shower on and washed each other. I attempted to get frisky, but Mrs. L was having no part of it.
"Wait a while honey." She said soothingly. "We have all night and I plan on making it last."
We finished our shower and dried off. As we walked out of the bathroom, I went to go in to S's room.
"Where are you going?" Mrs. L asked.
" I was going to get pajamas on. " I said.
"I don't anticipate your needing them." She said. " Come on, lets go watch tv in my room." She reached out and took my hand and lead me down the hall in to her bedroom. She switched on the bed side lamp as I walked around to the other side of the bed.
"Could you go open the slider, and make sure the screen is closed?" She asked .
I walked over and opened the door and checked the screen. I stood there a moment looking out at the thunder clouds forming over the mountain of to the north. Mrs. L came up behind me and wrapped her arms around me.
"Looks like we got more thunder storms coming." She said as she rested her chin on my head. "Want to watch a movie?"
" Yes. " I replied.
"Good, I have one I think you will like." She said . "Hop in bed while I put it in the VCR."
Mrs. L went to the closet, opened the door, and reached up on the shelf for the tape. After tuning the tv to channel three, she popped the movie in the machine and walked back to the bed with the remote. Climbed on to the bed and snuggled in with me.
"Are you ready?" She asked.
"For what? " I asked.
"I think this movie is going to be very different than you have ever seen." She stated .
"Ok...." I said hesitantly .
"Well, we will just go for it then." She said as she pushed play. The movie opened with a darkened room. There was a man laying on his back on a bed, with a woman bobbing head up and down on his crotch. Then the light came on and I could see she was sucking him off. Then the name of the film came up. "TABOO" a Kirdy Steven's film. I was taken aback that people did this on film, but very excited and intrigued. I got in to it very fast, my penis was hard as a rock as we watched the greatest orgy scene ever. In my opinion of course. Then the twist hit me, she had sex with her own son. I was riveted to the screen for the remainder of the movie. As the credits began to roll, I turned to Mrs. L to find her watching me.
"Well, what did you think?" She asked.
"That was cool! " I exclaimed. Mrs. L laughed.
"That's one way to put it." She said. "Come with me. "
She rolled off the bed and grabbed something from the drawer on the bedside table. I climbed down as she walked to me. She took my hand and led me to the sliding door. She opened the screen and pushed me out.
"Mrs. L, I'm naked." I hissed.
"It's dark silly, no one will see us." She said as she closed the screen behind us. "Sit down on the bench with me."
I sat down and she sat next to me. She pulled out what looked like a hand rolled cigarette and lit it. It had a funny smell, and she held the smoke in for a bit longer than I expected.
"What's that?" I asked .
"It's called a joint." She said with a devious smile. "Special tobacco that makes you feel good. "
"Oh." I said a bit confused . "Are you not feeling good?"
"No, I feel great. But this is going to enhance how your going to make me feel in a few minutes." She said with a wink.
" Oh, okay. " I said still confused. "Can I try some?"
"I don't know if that is a good idea." She said. "I have already corrupted you enough I think. Then again, im probably going to hell for what I have done already." She turned a bit and lifted it up to my lips. " Now, nice and slow suck in some of the smoke, just about three seconds worth. "She instructed. I did what she said, it tasted bad. She pulled it away and said; "now breath in a little more air and hold it. " I did as she told me. It was like my body was rejecting it, my lungs were burning and it felt like the smoke was expanding in them. I wanted to cough but Mrs. L said, "just hold it for a little bit longer, don't cough. One..... Two......three..... Ok let it out."
I blew out and the smoke came out. I began coughing immediately. My mouth tasted terrible and was dry. When my coughing finally subsided, I looked a Mrs. L. She again had a devious look on her face.
"One more!" She said as she held it to my lips again ."Then we both will be fly high for some real fun!"
I did the same as before and held it in for about five seconds this time. Mrs. L had taken a puff while I was holding. I blew out and only had one little cough.
"You really do learn so fast!" She said after she exhaled. I reached over and took the joint from between her fingers and took a good hit. She took it back with a concerned look.
"I think thats enough for you." She said. " I need you to be able to perform tonight, I'm horny as hell and need some love. "
Mrs. L let the joint go out. She stood and held her hand out. "Come."
We walked back in the bedroom and I got on the bed. That's when I started to feel weird. Everything in my vision was a little distorted, and my equilibrium was a little off.
"How do you feel?" Mrs. L asked .
"Weird." Was all I responded.
"Just lie back now." She said. " It has enhanced all your senses. "
I laid back and Mrs. L began running her hands all over my body. It felt so different like wherever she touched we had an almost electric charge. Mrs. L crawled up by my head and through her leg over.
"Here baby, just lick this a while." She said as she spread her labia and lowered herself down on my mouth. " Mmmmmmmmmm, there you go, just like that. " I was licking her clit and lips randomly as I was having a hard time concentrating. Mrs. L leaned forward and began licking and sucking my penis which felt amazing, but didn't help me concentrate. I was really getting in to it. I was doing long licks now and I accidentally licked her butt hole.
"Oooohhhh, um. That felt nice." She said.
Taking the hint I began to punch at her butt hole with my tongue.
"Oh my god!" Mrs. L moaned. "Yes! Yes! Yes! Now put a finger in my ass and lick my clit!"
I did as she told me. Her body was quivering and her hips gyrating with all my licking and fingering. Mrs. L lowered her head and swallowed my penis. She was sucking hard on it. I felt her body stiffen, then she grunted and the next thing I knew I was drowning in her orgasm juice. I closed my eyes and kept licking for all I was worth. Her hips kept spasming and her juice gushed forth a second time. Then she rolled off. I opened my eyes to see her walking across the room to the dresser on wobbly legs. She came back with tube that said KY jelly and rubber penis with web straps attached to the back. She set them on the bed and walked up on her side of the bed.
"Get in the middle of the bed please." She said as she pulled a strap up from the top corner of the bed and two from the middle. She moved my hands up to the center of the bed. The straps had wrist cuffs, that she affixed tight to my wrists.
"Lift up your right leg please." She said.
"What are we doing Mrs. L? " I asked as lifted my leg.
"Just relax baby, this will be different, but I think you will like it." She said as she wrapped the ankle cuff on my ankle and tightened the strap so my butt was a little off the mattress . Then she went to the other side of the bed and pulled an identical strap up from the corner and lifted my leg and affixed it the same as my right. Now i'm laying on my back hands restrained above my head to the head board, my legs up knees straight pulled out in a "Y" shape with my privates all exposed.
"There now your ready." She said as she went to the end of the bed. She grabbed the rubber penis and used the straps to affix it to herself. I found out later in life that this was called a strap on dildo. She then picked up the KY jelly and on her knees crawled up to where my ass was exposed.
"Are you ready?" She asked .
"What are you going to do, Mrs. L?" I asked in a shaky concerned voice. My head was spinning from what I had smoked. I was far too relaxed for my current predicament.
" Ssshhh. It's ok. " She said soothingly. "I'm not going to hurt you. I'm just going to fuck you."
"What?" I asked as she opened the tube and smeared lube on my butt hole. "Mrs. L I don't think this is normal."
"No, it's not, but you will enjoy this." She said as eased her index finger in me. "See thats not so bad."
Mrs. L took her time working her finger in and out loosening me up. Then she added her middle finger as well. It didn't feel bad, but think was still weird. She pulled out her fingers and lined up the rubber penis.
"Ok, now we're going to take this slow." She said . "When I begin to push, you need to push out like your trying to poop ok?"
"Ok Mrs. L. " I said. "Please go slow. "
Mrs. L pushed a little bit. I felt my ass stretch until the outer edges of the crown hit my sphincter then it stopped. "Now push out so the head pops in." She said. I pushed out a little , then a little more. It all happened in one fluid motion. I felt a big stretch and some pain as the head popped through, the Mrs L buried it to the balls.
"OH MY GOD!" I shouted.
" Sshh. " She said in a soothing tone. "I'm all the way in, I will just stay here until your butt acclimates to the size."
My guts were in knots. I was cramping like crazy. I was tied up with no escape . I was high as fuck. My neighbor, who is my babysitter, has an eight inch rubber dick buried in my ass. All I could think about was this has to be a bad dream. Otherwise I was doomed. I closed my eyes and hoped for it to stop. Then I realized my stomach felt better. No cramps. My ass still felt full, but my guts were better. I looked up a Mrs. L, who was trying to read my facial expressions.
"Better?" She asked.
" Yes. No more cramps. " I replied.
"Ok. Now I'm going to ease it out until just the head remains, then ease it back in." She told me. " Here we go. "
Mrs.L did what she said. It didn't hurt, and on the in stroke she bumped something that made my penis jump a little. Mrs. L smiled when she saw it, and did it again.
"Ooohhhh." A low moan escaped my lips.
" That feels good doesn't it? " she asked.
"Uh huh. Oh my god" was all I could say.
Mrs. L got a Cheshire cat grin and increased the speed of her thrusts. It wasn't long before she had increased to the point where we were making a clapping noise when we joined together. My little dick was so hard. It was like I had no control of my body. All of a sudden she stopped and eased out of me and it happened before I knew it.
"Why did you stop?" Had come out of my mouth.
" Oh, does someone like this now?" She asked.
"Yes Mrs. L." I replied meekly.
"Good. Because im going to change your position now." She said. She reached up and un did my hand straps from the head board . Then she put my arms by my sides and pulled the straps down to the corners of the foot board and affixed them. The she pulled my shoulders down as she tightened the arm straps up. My butt went further in the air. She did this until only my shoulders and head and neck were touching the bed. She stood up on the bed and aligned her rubber phallus with my hole and plunged in. The sensation on whatever she was rubbing inside was ten times more in this position. She got right up to speed thrusting like crazy. My penis was jumping a lot and the sensations were insane.
"Let me know when you feel like your going to cum, ok?" She said.
"Why would I cum?" I asked. "Your not even touching my penis."
Mrs. L didn't answer, she just chuckled and increased her speed and thrusting depth. Then she changed her angle again.
"OH MY GOD! Oh my god! Oh my god." I moaned out.
" Yes, I know it feels good, honey. "She said slightly winded.
She continued for about five more minutes until I felt the tingling sensation coming to the climax point in my balls.
"Mrs. L, I think im going to cum!" I bellowed. She reached down and grasped my penis and pointed it at my face as she kept thrusting.
"Open your mouth baby." She ordered .
"What?" I said.
"OPEN YOUR MOUTH NOW!" She said sternly.
I opened my mouth and I was on the brink of orgasm. Gave one milking stroke and I spewed forth. Her aim was excellent. The first rope was directly in my mouth, as well as the second. The third was half in my mouth the rest on my chin. After that was just dribbles that landed on my chest and ran down to my neck. Mrs. L eased the dildo out of me. And released my ankles so flopped back down on the bed. She pulled me up to a seated position and used her hand to gather all the cum on my neck and chest and chin then wiped it in my mouth. Then she pushed my jaw closed.
"Swallow." Was all she said. I gagged a couple of times but I got it down. It tasted salty and the texture was sticky and a little off putting. She leaned in a kissed me deeply with her tongue swishing around in my mouth. When she broke our kiss she un strapped my hands and got off the bed .
"Come with me." She held a hand out to me.
I rolled of the bed and took her hand. She lead me to the bathroom where she washed up my parts and I brushed my teeth. We then went down to the kitchen and Mrs. L got us some cookies and milk.
"Mrs. L, what was that we just did?" I asked.
"We just did what is called dominant role reversal. I made you do what I wanted you to do. I made you the girl and fucked you with a strap on dildo." She said in a matter of fact tone.
" Oh. " I said. "But how did you make me cum with only one stroke of my penis?" I
"That was called a prostate orgasm. I rubbed against a gland inside with every stroke that's called the prostate." She said. " It produces a very intense orgasm. "
"Yes it does. " I agreed. "But why did you make me cum in my own mouth?"
" Well, that was my dominant side, making you do something you didn't want to do. "She said. "I didn't think you would keep your mouth open. I assumed you would close your mouth and it would just go all over your face. "
"Do you ever let people dominate you?" I asked .
"Yes I do, but its been a while." She replied . "Finish your milk so we can go upstairs."
"Yes Mrs. L. " I said, then chugged my milk. I got both our glasses and brought them to the sink. She stood up and we made our way up stairs, turning lights off as we went. We got to the bedroom just as it started to rain. The wind had picked up and there were flashes of lightning. We crawled in to bed and Mrs. L turned out the light. The breeze coming in the door felt nice and the rumbling of thunder was soothing. My head was still spinning from the smoking and everything that happened, but it was mere moments before I drifted off to sleep.
I awoke early to sun shining in through the door. I looked at the clock which told me it was 7:12 am. I turned my head to find Mrs. L sprawled out spread eagle next to me. Her breathing was slow and I watched her breasts rise and fall with every breath. She was quite beautiful. I looked down and realized I was hard as a rock. I sat up and crawled down between her legs. I spread her hairy labia open and licked her gently. She was wet already. So I got up on my knees and guided my penis slowly inside her. She stirred a little and an almost inaudible moan escaped her lips. I began to slowly thrust in and out and leaned forward and sucked her left nipple in my mouth.
"Oh, and good morning to you too." She said as she opened her eyes. I released her nipple and smiled.
"Good morning." I said as I increased my thrusting speed and intensity . I reached up and squeezed both of her big breasts and pushed them together so I could lick her nipples alternately.
"Oh god baby, fuck me good." She said as she rolled her hips up and wrapped her legs around my waist . I pounded away at her pussy for about five minutes until I felt her stiffen. Her back arched slightly then her pussy muscles clamped on my little pecker and it felt like they pulled me in. The sensation was too much. I began to cum as well. Her legs wrapped tighter like a vise and pulled me in deeper. Then when our orgasms subsided her legs relaxed a bit but still kept me wrapped up.
"Don't stop. Just keep thrusting!" She said out of breath . "If you keep going you won't go soft."
She like always was right. I never softened and was able to go for twenty more minutes before I came again. She released me from her legs and I rolled on to the bed.
"You are amazing!" She said. " It's a good thing I had my tubes tied after S or we would be in real trouble after this weekend. "
"What do you mean?" I asked.
"My fallopian tubes are what bring eggs down from my ovaries and when sperm gets to the egg and about nine months later you have a baby." She said. "Its called being pregnant."
"Oh." I said. "So, I can get girls pregnant? "
"Yes you can! "She said with a big grin. "If you keep fucking like you do, you will have lots of k**s. But you should use a condom for a while until you get married. Except with me of course!"
" Ok, Mrs. L"
S came home a few hours later and everything went back to normal. Mrs. L and I had a conversation where she told me we couldn't play anymore this week, and not to ever tell anyone about it. So for the next five days the most fun I had was bath time every day. On Friday my mom and dad picked me up the same time S went to his dad's house.
I went to visit Mrs. L about once a week for the next few years, always when S was away. By the time I left home to go in the service at nineteen I was spend at least two nights a week knocking the bottom out of Mrs. L. I haven't been with her since. All this has been ancient history. Until two weeks ago when I attended the funeral of my c***dhood friend S. It was a sad affair, he had depression issues and couldn't take any more. Sad really...
But what made this all come back was when I saw Mrs. L at the funeral. I approached her and she saw me. Her faced lit up a bit and her hug and kiss was warmer than expected. It was then that I realized that even now, when she is in her sixty's, I am very much attracted to her. I suppose I will always be.