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A Thrill Ride Ch 01. free porn video
I am shagging a jerk, I know I am. But I am not just shagging a jerk, I am in love with a jerk. I am that cliché, girls love a bad boy. Every fibre of my being screams at me to walk, no run. All he can ever cause you is pain but I can’t, I can’t give up on him, on us.
It’s not all bad. It’s not like he’s violent far from it, he can be sweet to the point of cuteness and then catch himself, scratch his balls and go back to being a bastard. He is not abusive mentally on purpose anyway because he fucks with my head more than he fucks my pussy. We get on so well, we talk for hours and hours, we fuck for hours and hours. We also argue, a lot. He creates conflict from nothing and winds me up then apologises, melts my heart and fucks me silly. He is a roller coaster with more ups and downs than smooth coasting. It never pulls in at the station for me to get off, I am trapped on the thrill ride.
Jerk, I mean Jake and I have been involved for a while now. It’s hard to pinpoint a start as we kind of evolved. Do I start the relationship timer from when we first kissed? Or when we first fucked? Or when we first held hands one night when he walked me home? Or when we started making sure we were sat together in the pub so our legs could touch under the table and he could ride his hand up my thigh. Or when we first started messaging each other and chatting on the phone. We didn’t follow a timeline, we didn’t go from holding hands to first kiss to first date to fucking. We bounced around, back and forth. Where was our first date? I realised sadly we have never been on a proper date. He has never taken me out for a drink or for dinner, or to the cinema. If we are out, we’re with friends or we meet up at each other’s flats and fuck.
Nobody knows we are together either. Sometimes I wonder if we are together. Am I his girlfriend? We haven’t told each other we love each other. We’ve danced around it. We have feelings, we’re not just friends with benefits but we are, fundamentally. Secret benefits no one else knows about. We argue over this. I get to the point I get pissed off being his secret and not knowing where I stand then threaten to walk. He doesn’t want me to walk, he feels too much for me, but he needs time. I always agree to wait. No matter how much I want to punch him in the face when these heart to hearts start by the end of it, I’m sat on his face enjoying the blissful orgasms his magnificent tongue gives me. I am weak. He makes me weak. I hate myself.
We took a long time to get to the stage we are at, well over a year. He is a slow burn is Jake. I would look forward to nights out when I knew he’d be there expecting a snog at the end of the night or hopefully more and he’d keep his distance. Sure, there would be banter and teasing our standard behaviour. I’d be more cutting in return. He’d wonder what my problem was and blame it on my time of the month (as I say, I am shagging a jerk). He was hot and cold, and I never knew if he liked me or not. But the more hot and cold he blew, the more I liked him. The more I wanted him, the more I struggled to stop thinking about him.
At some point during that year, he told me he didn’t want to ruin our friendship but there were times he just couldn’t resist me. It was then we started messaging for a little bit until it faded away again. It felt so good being in touch with him, our flirty messages. I’d float on a cloud, allow myself to get excited and then poof, the cloud would be blown from under me and I’d fall crashing down to earth. Each time I swore this time it was over, he couldn’t get away with this. Each time he’d wave his metaphorical cock in the air and I’d go running after it.
Jake believes no one knows about us. I don’t know for certain why he is so insistent about keeping us a secret. It’s not because he’s with someone, as far as I know anyway, it’s just because he’s a twat, I think.
I say no one knows but actually, I have told someone. Tom, my best friend, knows. He has to listen to me bore on when Jake’s being a prick and gush for hours when he’s being attentive.
I have the cliched gay best friend too. I’ve never got on with girls. I can’t stand the superficial bollocks girls talk about and the bitchiness. I do have girl friends. We hang out, I feign interest in what colour lipstick they’ve bought or the new miracle moisturiser that’s going to change their life, but I don’t drink gin and attend love island viewing parties.
My cliched gay best friend Tom isn’t really a cliché either. He watches football with me while we devour a twenty-four box of Stella. When City play United, we sit on opposite ends of the room and hurl abuse at each other. It’s fun. We play together in a five aside football team, there are enough of us to make two teams and we go to the gym together. He is one of the lads and by default that makes me one too, most of the time. I know there are guys only meetups I am not invited to.
Jake, Tom and I are all part of a large group of friends and mutual acquaintances. I am closer to some more than others as these things go. We’re mostly all single and in our late twenties/early thirties. I met Tom in my first job out of Uni, without him I wouldn’t know these people. They’re all native to our area, I’m an outsider who moved here as a student and stayed. Our mixed bag group work well, we don’t tend to sit in boy-girl groups so there’s a variety of bollocks being spoken all night. I love our nights out, I love them even more when they end with Jake and me together. I hate the disappointment when they don’t.
He can be the most attentive loving boyfriend, sorry FWB, one minute, devoting all his time and attention to me. Sweet and sexy messages all day, phone calls. Good-morning and good-night texts when we’re not together, amazing sex when we are together. Sweet thoughtful gifts, cooking me romantic meals.
To the point I know I am falling head over heels for him and this is it, we are going to come out of his closet and properly be together, boyfriend and girlfriend. I imagine the future and then boom. He disappears. It is as if as soon as he falls, he yanks himself back. The sweet sexy messages replaced with a single emoji. No phone calls. No good-morning or good-night thinking of you texts. He is suddenly too busy with work or a lad’s activity to have time for me. And it physically hurts. It’s a cycle of rejection, I never know what I’ve done. I know it’s never anything I’ve done.
The arguments always go something like this:
He’ll try and excuse himself, ‘I’ve just been busy babe. I’m sorry. I think about you all day, you know I do, you’re all I think about.’
I’ll try and push him to open up, ‘But you don’t show it, you’re hot and cold. It hurts me when you disappear.’
He’ll apologise and tell me he’ll change, ‘I don’t mean to be, I’ll think more. Now I know how it makes you feel. I never want to hurt you, you mean so much to me.’
Then he will do something to make me laugh, something to turn me on, he’ll distract me with kisses in all the right places…
And the cycle begins again. He never walks and never lets me. I think we’re done, OK this is going to hurt but this time, I mean it, I’ll see this through. I never do. I would have to walk from all my friends too and I can’t do that, I won’t do that. Because I know, the moment we go out drinking together, it’s all back on. We cannot walk from each other, there’s a magnetic pull between us. I only have to be near him for my whole body to be set alight. I think he feels the same, no, I know he feels the same…I think. See, he confuses the shit out of me.
The last few months, however, have been good. Since my last threat to walk he has been model boyfriend material. We bought each other Christmas gifts and had our own Christmas the day before I went away to my parent’s house for a week.
I wanted him to come with me, he had commitments he couldn’t get out of. I understood. I missed him that week and he seemed to miss me. We talked and messaged all the time and when I came back for New Year it was like I’d been away for months. We were so happy to see each other. We sloped off to the local park in freezing cold weather and fucked before going back to join our friends for the midnight Big Ben bongs and ritual Auld Lang Syne sing-along. We ducked out of the party invite and he came back to mine. We spent the following two days in bed, and it was wonderful. I felt like this year was our year. I was on cloud nine. I had energy to spare. Tom was even happy for me and my changed man. Things were good. Things were better than good.
We had all talked of going away for New Year, but it was expensive, and all the good places were booked up, so we had agreed to go one weekend before spring.
By the time everyone was free it was mid-March. Things were still good with me and Jake, but he still insisted we didn’t tell anybody. We had a major row because I wanted to share a room with him. We had booked a huge Air BnB and the big group of us were all going and staying there.
It didn’t have a lot of character and we were going to have to sneak people in on airbeds or floor space for us all to go but we were happy with that. Jake used this as an excuse.
‘I’ll be crashing wherever or sharing with some of the lads…It isn’t a couple’s weekend,’ and myriad other feeble excuses. I got the major hump and ignored him for a few days until he came creeping and begged my forgiveness with the promise we’d go away just the two of us. He said he liked us being secret, thought it was more romantic, sexier. Kept us taboo like we were having an affair. He talked his way back into my knickers and the air was clear before we went away. I shared a room with Tom, I was still not happy about not being with Jake, but I was getting on with it.
We went by train, Jake and I sat together holding hands secretly under the train table. We grabbed a quick snog at the toilet, he surprised me. Our first night we all went out for drinks in the local pub then back at the accommodation sat around a massive table playing cards and drinking more. Jake and I grabbed conversations and flirted, had stolen moments together and at the end of the night, before he went to bed, we found a dark quiet corner and made out to the point we were both painfully frustrated. He told me he wished he could take me to bed, he’d been a dick, made a mistake, maybe we should think about telling people.
‘This is torture, Vix,’ he said.
With my heart melting and floating on a cloud we had said goodnight and reluctantly gone our separate ways.
And once again my happiness bubble was popped.
I climbed into bed where Tom was lying on his phone. I excitedly told him all about my night with a stupid grin on my face.
Tom wasn’t his usual self, he didn’t seem happy for me. He was acting weird. Distant. He told me to leave it, he was just tired and not as drunk as me. I know him better than that, so I didn’t leave it. Eventually, I dragged it out of him. When we were out, he had seen Jake with another girl from our group, Heather. He had watched her kiss his cheek and saw hands lingering too long on each other’s bums near the toilets in the pub. He had returned to the group without using the toilets, so they didn’t see him. I attempted to defend them, well Jake.
‘I know what I saw, Vix,’ Tom said sternly. He continued talking, ‘Then back here, I’ve been watching them, Jake’s had his hand on Heather’s thigh all night under that table. I pretended to drop my cards once and saw her, hand right up pushing against his crotch. His hand was even on your thigh. They were at it all night. I didn’t want to go to bed, I wasn’t sure whether to say something to him but then, I’m not meant to know. I didn’t know what to do but I was getting angrier seeing it and you were so happy, oblivious. I had to come to bed, I might have hit him if I’d have stayed down there any longer. I couldn’t sleep though, I’ve been churning it over. And then you tell me this, I’m so sorry Vix, I don’t want to be the one to hurt you and bring you crashing down. I didn’t want to tell you. I was just going to watch again tomorrow. Give them the benefit of the doubt. But I don’t know, I know what I saw.’
I just lay and listened to my friend. I felt my cloud dissipate and let myself fall slowly into the realisation. Then I felt sick, painfully sick to my stomach, the bile reaching up into my throat.
When he’s had one hand on my thigh, when we’ve been playing footsie, he’s had her on the other side. How long? I wondered. I didn’t have the power of speech. I was frozen in the shock of what Tom was telling me. Tom must be mistaken, things were so good, it made no sense.
‘You could…maybe…’ I didn’t have any words. Tom isn’t a fool, he’s not a liar, he isn’t a gossip and he is not a shit-stirrer. He’s only telling me because it’s true.
‘Vix, hon, I’m sorry, he’s a fucking prick, I just want to punch him in the face right now. He has you, he treats you shitty, you deserve someone so much better.’
I felt the anger boiling up through the feeling of sickness.
‘I thought I was special,’ I said meekly. I wasn’t special. ‘He keeps us secret because he’s a big massive whore bag.’
Tom and I didn’t sleep much that night. He stayed awake with me while I tried to piece events together, think of other times he may have been with Heather in front of me. I couldn’t help it, my mind went into overdrive. And what about behind my back?
We were not together all the time he had plenty of opportunities. Is that where he used to disappear off to? I had my turn with him then he’d give himself to Heather.
At some point Tom dropped off, I lay for a while tossing and turning my mind working ten to the dozen. He could be mistaken, there could be an explanation. The fucking cunt, how could he do this to me? My emotions swung back and forth like a heavy pendulum in an old grandfather clock, guilty, not guilty, guilty, not guilty.
At some point, the rhythm of my thoughts must have sent me to sleep as I woke some hours later. My initial thought was that I wished it had been more hours then the realisation of why I had not slept hit me like a brick to the forehead. In fact, my head hurt that much it felt like a tonne of bricks had been dropped on my forehead.
Tom and I made a pact to say nothing but to watch them both for the rest of the weekend. I was short-tempered with Jake at first but once the day went on my mood eased. There were so many of us it was easy to keep a distance and watch. But Jake and Heather kept their distance from each other most of the day too. He didn’t sit anywhere near her, quite obvious sometimes.
There were a few of us quite jaded from the night before and several of us opted for a takeaway back at the house and an earlier night while the others, mostly the lads carried on in town. We took taxis back. I noticed Heather had chosen to come back early and made sure to travel with Jake.
As the night had gone on, she was making more attempts to get close to him. He didn’t seem to be reacting. What he was doing was trying to get as close to me as much as he could. I was hurt and angry, but the alcohol had softened it and I am a sucker for his attention plus he was giving me a lot of attention.
Back at the accommodation, I drifted away on my own and sat down on one of the large sofas in the living room, away from the ruckus at the dining room table while people decided what to order. I was only there seconds before Jake joined me. He kissed me passionately before we spoke then sat next to me.
‘You Ok?’ he asked, ‘You’ve been a bit off today.’
‘I’m fine,’ I lied, ‘Just a bit jaded from last night and a lack of sleep.’
‘Not like you to not keep up with the pace,’ he teased me.
Before I could reply, Heather and another girl from the group swanned into the room. She made a point of sitting next to Jake, the other girl sat on the sofa angled next to ours.
Heather had to turn away from Jake to talk but tried to include him in every conversation, fawning over him, laughing at even the most innocuous things he said.
Jake wasn’t interested, he took every opportunity to talk to me, but Heather always pulled him back into some conversation. He grazed my hand frequently until eventually, we sat fingers interlocked between our legs, barely noticeable to anyone. The smallest connection but it felt enormous. His touch melted my anger, it always did.
People filtered in and out of the room, the conversation became more group-based and louder, but we kept our secret connection. Did he feel guilty? Was that what this attention was. Others in the group arrived back. Jake and I shouted food orders to someone at some point, I wasn’t hopeful I’d get what I wanted if anything was ever ordered. It was all a bit chaotic.
I went to stand up, to go and get a drink, Jake held me back in the seat.
‘Meet me in my room in five,’ he whispered.
I nodded and instead of getting a drink, wandered to the bathroom. I sat on the loo, head in my hands tormenting myself over what to do. Of course I was going to go meet him but should I confront him now, tonight, here.
I walked cautiously towards his room, checking no one was about. I could hear the hubbub downstairs continuing. As I approached the room, I didn’t have to open the door, Jake was there. He pulled me in and immediately wrapped his arms tight around me, kissing me firm as he kicked the door shut. We both giggled between kisses as we stumbled to his bed.
‘I’ve wanted you all day and you’ve kept your distance from me.’ Jake said softly between kisses.
His hand had worked under my top and was caressing my tit. My mind threw me an image of his hand on Heather’s tit. I dismissed it. My mind threw it back. Jake had moved his kisses to my neck and didn’t notice my wince. I shouldn’t do this till I’ve confronted him, but the truth is I want him too. I want him to show me I’m his because deep down, I believe I am. Whatever he’s done, I know, I just know.
Jake lifted my top off and pulled my tit out of my bra. He sucked on my nipple as he lightly squeezed my tit in his hand. Then he released it from his grip but held it in his mouth, sucking my nipple while he undid my jeans. I felt a sharp twinge in my pussy as it waited not so patiently for Jake’s attention. I lifted my hips to let him peel them down and tugged at them with my feet to kick them off. Jake released my tit and started to kiss me again, firmer but not fast. He began undoing his jeans while we kissed, I helped him pull them down and used my feet to slide them down his legs.
‘I couldn’t wait till we got home. Fuck, I need you, Vix. I need to be inside you,’ he gasped between kisses.
I felt his cock grazing my thigh, then sliding over my slit. He pushed against me, his cock applying just the right amount of pressure on my clit. I moaned into his mouth as his tongue met mine once more. He edged his hips back, so his cock slid back down my slit and rested a moment before pushing slowly inside me. My pussy opened and accepted him greedily, I wanted to feel all of him, feel full of him. He was mine, I wanted all of him. I wrapped my legs tight around his hips and pulled him closer into me, I tipped my hips so his cock could push deeper.
‘Fuck, you feel good,’ he gasped.
‘You feel-‘ Jake’s tongue entered my mouth again and stopped my words.
I wanted him to fuck me hard but he didn’t, he rocked slowly in and out of me while he kissed me tenderly. He stroked my hair as we kissed, he stroked the side of my face. My body electrified, all my senses stimulated simultaneously by his loving touch. I was expecting a quick hard shag. It’s not like we hadn’t done this before, of course we had, but after yesterday, what he had done. Plus, we didn’t have time we could be interrupted, people could realise we had disappeared. Fuck my stupid mind had brought me to reality. Why couldn’t it shut up?
‘What if someone comes looking for us?’ I asked quietly.
‘I don’t care, if they do, they do. I meant what I said last night Vix, every word. We’ll tell people, it’s not right I’m hiding that I’m with you, it’s not fair. Everyone should know.’
‘I want that. I want to tell everyone you’re mine.’
‘I am yours, all yours.’
He pushed harder inside me. He took hold of my hands, interlocking our fingers and held them behind my head. Our bodies began to rock together faster as he increased his rhythm. He breathed heavy against my ear, I panted heavily against his. My mind had thankfully shut up. I was lost in our rhythm, in the sensations rushing around my body, in the shared moment, in the feeling of mutual energy combining, melding, engulfing. I felt small rushes of pleasure pulsing from my pussy through my body, I longed for the final wave, the big crash. These small ripples were wonderful, but I could sense the crescendo building. I hoped I didn’t need his fingers to reach it, I hoped the motion, his body, the friction, oh fuck yes, here it comes.
I gripped Jake tighter, digging my nails into his hands, squeezing my legs tight around him. I buried my face against his chest and squeaked out what I wanted to scream.
‘Oh god yes, oh, oh, oh…yes, oh…ahhhh…’
I delighted in wave upon wave of pleasure surging from my pussy and racing around my body.
‘Oh fuck, babe, oh, Vix, fuck, you feel good, fuck, I’m going to…oh fuck…’ Jakes words were lost to moans and gasps as he released inside me. My own body jerking with sensitivity, his body tensing, gripping me as he came.
Once recovered we kissed. We kissed until his cock softened and released itself from my pussy’s grip. Then we lay side by side for a short while bathing in our glow, stroking and caressing each other, non-verbally saying what we never said. Now wasn’t the right time.
I don’t know how long we lay there but suddenly we heard a shout about food and then footsteps on the stairs.
‘Shit,’ Jake shot up and started hurriedly dressing.
I listened whilst redressing myself, my heart suddenly thudding, anticipating the moment I had wanted. I hadn’t imagined the moment like this. The footsteps moved away, and we heard the bathroom door slam. Breathing a mutual sigh of relief, we kissed quickly.
‘I’ll go downstairs quick now, you wait for the bathroom. I’ll see you down there,’ Jake instructed.
I nodded in agreement. I didn’t want people to know tonight, I needed to know the truth about Heather first. All of the truth, in Jake’s words before I wanted anyone to know. In case there wasn’t anything for people to know.
We never saw each other much for the rest of the night, we both respectively got swallowed up by other people. I did throw a couple of glances around the room for signs of Jake and Heather together, but I never saw any. Before I went to bed, he met me on the landing and kissed me goodnight. It was sweet, he was waiting for me as I came out of the bathroom.
Tom stayed up later, as did a few others. I think Tom was a bit disappointed in me and was avoiding having to talk about Jake. I couldn’t blame him.
I lay listening to the party I don’t usually miss downstairs, wondering if Jake was down there, with Heather. I know she was still up when I came to bed. I could go back down, I could have never come to bed, but I wasn’t in the mood tonight, I felt emotionally drained. I’m not sure I’d have wanted to talk to Tom if he was here. I needed to get my own thoughts clear. I needed to talk to Jake.
My phone flashed a notification from Jake on my screen. I had been aimlessly scrolling through social media accounts as I lay thinking. He was in bed. He wasn’t with Heather. He was thinking about me. He wished I were there. Why was he such a prick? His question, not mine. Although one I often asked myself.
I turned on my side and scrunched myself in a small ball as we texted. During the conversation, we arranged for him to come to mine on Monday night. I would have my chance to confront him then, no scene, just me and him.
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