Terri
by Kristina Ward
CHAPTER 1
"Come on Terry! You know you want to do it."
Jenny was really excited. She was sitting on the edge of her bed waiting
for me to make a decision.
"I can't Jenny" I said
"Why not" she said "It's the perfect opportunity for us. My mom won't be
back until Sunday afternoon."
What had started as a fun day was rapidly turning disastrous. My best
friend in the world wanted me to have sex with her. Jenny and I have
known each other since we were four years old and we've been going to
school together since pre-school. This year we entered high school for our
freshman year and our friendship has gotten even stronger. We spend
most of our time together helping each other deal with the pressures of
high school. We have done pretty good so far but now I was facing
something I did not know how to deal with.
"Jenny please, I just can't ok"
"Terry your my best friend" she said "I want you to be my first boy. All
of the other boys are such jerks and I really don't want them to touch me."
She stood up from the bed and she took her shirt off. She had on a really
pretty blue bra that made her breasts lift high on her chest. She smiled at
me as she reached behind and unhooked it. Her breasts weren't very big
but her nipples were pretty large and they covered the front of her breasts.
She slid her shorts and panties down her legs and she was now totaly
naked laying on the bed. I saw her pussy for the first time since we used
to take baths together when were little. The feeling started to come back as
I looked at Jenny's naked body. It was a feeling that I had been having
since I was about ten years old. A feeling that absolutely terrified me. You
see the reason that I can't have sex with Jennifer is because I don't like
girls. I've never told anyone this because I'm so afraid of what will
happen to me if someone finds out. We live in a small town in Idaho and
the people there are very conservative. I imagine if it got out that I'm gay
I'd probably get beaten up or killed. I had done very good hiding my
queerness so far but it looked like the charade was about to end.
"Terry please fuck me" she said "You've got to"
Her tone was changing a little and she was starting to sound desperate.
The smile and excitement was going away and she was starting to tear up
a little.
"Jenny" I said "why does it have to be me? I'm your friend. I don't want
to be your lover."
"Terry you don't understand. Your are my very best friend in the world
and I need you to help me."
"Help you" I said "Help you how?"
Tears were now flowing freely from her eyes and I went to the bed and
put my arms around her. I held her as she wept and we didn't say
anything for a few minutes. As we hugged her breasts pushed up against
my chest and for a moment it felt like they were mine. It was the most
wonderful feeling I had ever had. I wanted breasts so badly and feeling
Jenny's just made me want my own even more. I put the thoughts of
breasts out of my head now because my friend needed me very badly
"What's wrong Jenny" I said as I held her close to me.
"Oh God Terry" she cried " I can't tell you. Please don't ask, just fuck me
please. Why can't you just fuck me."
"Jenny please don't ask me to do this. I can't do it."
"Why not? What are you, gay or something?"
Well the moment of truth had come. I felt this huge knot grow in my
stomach and my heart move up into my throat. I moved her head off of
my chest and kissed her forehead. I looked into her tear filled eyes and
said:
"Yes Jenny I can't fuck you because I'm gay."
"Are you serious?" she said "Are you telling me the truth?"
"Yes it's the truth. I've known it for about three years now. I'm so sorry
for not telling you before but I was to scared too."
"Terry you are almost my brother what made you scared to tell me?" she
said
"I don't know" I said "I wanted to very badly but I couldn't make myself
do it."
"Sweetheart don't ever be afraid to tell me anything. I don't care what
your sex life is. I love you no matter what." she said
She pulled me to her and hugged me tightly. I was so happy I started to
cry. She held me close as I wept on her breasts. I started to get fascinated
with them again and I took one in my hand and started to look at it and
squeeze it.
"Wow" she said "That feels good. Are you sure you're gay? You sure
seem to like my breast."
"Yeah I'm sure. As a matter of fact there's something I want you to see.
So turn around." I said
When she had turned around on the bed I stood and took off my shirt and
pants to reveal a matching lavender bra and pantie set that I was wearing. I
took my hair out of my ponytail and shook it loose so that it rested on my
shoulders. I looked at myself in her full length mirror and I liked what I
saw. A cute fifteen year old girl in her bra and panties.
"Ok" I said "Turn around"
When she turned around she had this look of total amazement on her face
that soon became a huge smile.
"My God Terry your beautiful."
She jumped off of the bed and hugged me very tightly and said.
"I'm so proud of you for sharing this with me. It makes me feel very
special. Like we're sisters kind of."
"Oh Jenny" I said "I've always wanted us to be sisters. Even when we
were little before I realized I liked boys I wanted to be a girl. When you
would get all dressed up in your pretty dresses I wanted to get dressed up
with you so bad that I would cry myself to sleep at night."
"Oh Terry I'm so sorry. I wish I had known. I could've helped."
She hugged me tightly again and then we sat down on the bed. Jenny was
still naked and for the first time I looked at her vagina. It was really cute.
The hair was neatly cut in a v-shape and she had either waxed or cut the
hair away from her lips. "Jenny your vagina is so cute" I said "I wish I
had one so bad."
"Yeah, well it kinda got me in trouble last night." she said
"Oh oh I'm not sure I want to hear this."
"Honey please don't get mad at me" she said as more tears welled up in
her eyes.
"I could never get mad at you were sisters, remember."
"Yes we are and I love my new sister Terri."
"Ok so lets have a girl to girl talk about what's bothering you." I said.
"This is so cool Terri" she said "I feel like I'm sitting here talking with
another girl."
"You are Jenny" I said "For the first time in my life I feel like I'm a girl
and I love it and I don't ever want it to stop."
"Your so pretty and feminine. You're just as much a girl as I am." she
said
She reached over and adjusted my bra so the straps fit better.
"You know what you need girl? Breasts." she said "Stay here I'll be right
back."
She got up and went to her closet. After rummaging through some boxes
for a few minutes she announced triumphantly that she had found what
she was looking for.
"Now close your eyes Terri." she said "No peeking, ok."
I closed my eyes and waited for her surprise. I felt her inserting something
into my bra. Whatever it was made my chest feel heavier.
"Now stand up but keep your eyes closed." she said excitedly "Don't
open them yet."
She pulled me up from the bed and turned me around. I couldn't wait to
see what she had done. I started to open my eyes but she reprimanded me
and told me to keep them closed. She told me to put my arms up and I felt
her pull a shirt over my arms and head and then she told me to lift each leg
up and she slid a pair of shorts on me. After reminding me to not open my
eyes she starting brushing my hair. When she was done I heard her say.
"Oh my God."
"What" I cried "What's wrong?"
"Wrong, nothing's wrong, see for yourself."
I opened my eyes and looked at myself in the mirror. I was gorgeous. She
had put a top on me that came to just above my navel. It was her pink one
with the white heart on the chest. The heart was puffed out because I had
breasts. The shorts were white with pink lace trim around the legs and
they fit perfectly. My hair was brushed out and it fell so beautifully over
my shoulders. As I looked at myself I started to weep.
"Oh Jenny" I said through my tears "I'm finally a girl."
"Yes you are sweetie" she said "A fucking knock out too. Are you
happy?"
I gave a girlish giggle and shook my head emphaticaly yes. I hugged her
like I had never hugged her before. We sat back down on the bed and she
held my hand and said.
"Terri you look so happy." she said "I am so glad you told me about this."
"Jenny you've made me the happiest girl in the world." I said and I
hugged her again.
Just then the telephone rang and Jenny reached across the bed and
answered it.
"Hello " she said "Oh hi, I'm so glad you called." "Yes I've thought about
it." she said "and I'd love to go out with you." "Tonight? Ok I'll see you
then." she said "Oh yea, my friend Terri will be here too." "No I don't
think that will be a problem." she said as she smiled at me. "He just told
me he's gay. Why don't you bring David with you."
"Jenny " I shrieked as she hung up the phone. "What have you done?"
"Terri relax. It's going to be ok. Trust me."
"Trust you! Are you crazy? I'm not ready for people to know about this."
I said as I pointed to myself. "and Who's David?"
"David Mason, you know, the football player."
I looked at her in disbelief. My life was ruined and ruined by someone I
thought was my best friend. I couldn't believe this. Now everyone at
school was going to know.
"Why did you do this to me, Jenny?" I sobbed "Just because I couldn't
fuck you."
"Terri stop it" she said "Wait till you hear me out."
"Oh shit I might as well." I said "Go ahead."
"David Mason, Mr Football and all of that other stuff, is gay." she said.
"Yeah right." I said "Don't lie to me Jenny."
"No lie Terri." she said "He's 100% queer."
"How do you know?" I asked.
"His sister Katie told me." she answered.
"Why would she tell you something like that."
"Because she is a lesbian and she's very interested in a lesbian friend of
yours." She said.
"A lesbian friend of mine?" I asked very confused "I don't have any
lesbian friends do I?
"Yes, you do."
"Who?"
She looked at me and smiled and then very calmly said "Me."
CHAPTER 2
"What do you mean you're a lesbian?" I said to her.
"Yeah, I am." she said "Are you surprised?"
Surprised wasn't the word for it. Total shock was more like it. I had no
clue whatsoever that Jenny was gay. She had always been Miss priss.
You know, the ultra feminine type, cheerleader homecoming court etc.
She was everything I wanted to be. Still shocked I started to think more
about it. Neither of us had talked much about dating. It always seemed
that we were to much into other things. We danced at a local dance studio
and we were both into gymnastics and figure skating. I had specialized in
ballet and Jenny in modern dance. All of our time had been taken up by
practices and recitals so there wasn't much time left for dating. I thought
that when we got to high school she would end up with the captain of the
football team and I would be left behind. Now it looked like I was going
to end up with the football player and she was going to be with the captain
of the girl's basketball team.
"I'll say I'm surprised." I said "Actually I'm shocked."
"Shocked, why?" she asked
Well I seem to remember just a little while ago you were begging me to
have sex with you." I said
"Terri I've been having a hard time dealing with this. I wasn't ready to
admit to myself that I was a lesbian until you told me you were gay." she
said "I thought that if I had sex with a boy my desire to have sex with
Katie would go away. I guess it's kind of funny that the boy that I wanted
to have sex with turns out to be a beautiful girl."
"Thank you" I said blushing "So tell me how Katie and you starting
talking."
"Well I was sitting in the bleachers in the gym after cheerleading practice
one day last month and the girl's basketball team was practicing. I started
watching her practice and the more I watched the more I realized I was
turned on by her. It scared me really bad so I got up and left. That night all
I could think about was Katie and for the first time in my life I
masturbated. I started staying after practice every day just so I could watch
her. Well I guess I wasn't very discreet about it because she started
looking my way a lot. At first I would look the other way real fast but we
made eye contact a couple of times. She would smile and I started smiling
back. On Friday I found a note from her in my locker it said 'Jenny meet
me at my car after practice, Katie."
Jenny got up from the bed and went to her closet. She started taking
clothes out and laying them on the bed. There were a couple of skirts and
a dress.
"Pick what you want to wear." she said. "It's so cool that we're the same
size."
I took a navy blue miniskirt and a pastel pink sweater and held them up
before me.
"Yeah" she said "You'll look great in that."
She went to her dresser and pulled out some navy blue panty hose and
handed them to me. She also handed me a pink bra and pantie set and told
me take off my clothes. I stood up and unhooked the shorts she had given
me and let them drop to the floor. I pulled the top over my head and stood
there in just my bra and panties. The breast forms she had given me
pushed up in the bra and made it look like I had real boobs. I cupped one
in my hand and gave it a squeeze it kind of felt real but I knew it wasn't.
"Wish they were real don't you" she said.
"Yes I wish they were" I said sadly "Ever since yours started growing
I've wanted my own."
She walked over and gave me little peck on the cheek and said "Don't
worry girl. You will someday."
"I hope so." I said as I was removing my bra and panties. I stepped out of
the panties I was wearing and started to pull on the pair she had given me.
As I was bringing them up to my waist she said to wait a minute.
"How do you hide your dick and balls." she asked.
"Well, my dick never grew," I said "It's been this tiny for as long as I can
remember," I said as I showed her my tiny penis. "I just push my balls
back inside me and push my penis back and I'm flat down there."
"That is so cool. Let me see." she said.
I sat on the bed and spread my legs so she could see my pantie clad
crotch. It was as smooth as her's and you couldn't even see what I was
hiding.
"Oh Terri" she said "you are a girl aren't you. Look at you. You don't
look anything like a boy. I can't wait to see you all dressed up and with
makeup. Shit you'll be prettier than me. David is going to go crazy when
he sees you."
"Do you think so?" I asked
"Girl" she said "that boy will be all over you before this night is over."
I was both excited and nervous as I started getting dressed. I pulled on the
pantyhose and they fit perfectly over my girlish hips. The mini skirt was
really cute and it made my legs look long and sexy. After putting my
breast forms in the bra cups I pulled the sweater over my head and looked
at myself in the mirror. Finally, I thought, I'm a girl. All of the pent-up
emotions came out at once and I started to cry. Jenny, who by now was
dressed came over and sat next to me on the bed and held my hand. I
leaned over and put my head on her shoulder and wept. I felt like I was
finally what I was meant to be. I knew that I could never go back to being
Terry because I wasn't a boy I was a girl. I thought about that and the
problems it was going to cause. My dad already suspected that I was gay
and he wasn't happy about it. I had overheard an argument that my
parents had had one night last week about me. My Dad was complaining
about me taking dance and ballet lessons.
"Why doesn't he play sports like the other boys?" he had said. "is he a fag
or what?"
"Don't say that Charley." mom said "He just doesn't seem interested in
sports. He loves dancing and he's very good at it. Why can't you just be
proud of him for once."
"Come on Elaine" he said "he acts like a girl."
"So what Charley" mom said "what difference does that make. He's your
son and he deserves your love no matter what. Suppose he is gay, does
that mean that you don't love him?"
"Do you think he's queer?" he asked
"I don't know and I really don't care if he is" she said "he's only fifteen
years old and I'm sure that he doesn't know himself. Do I think that he
may be homosexual? I think it's a pretty strong possibility but I don't let it
bother me."
"Well it bothers me" he said "I don't want a son who's a faggot."
With that he had gotten up and left. Mom sat there and cried for a bit
before she got up and went to her room. A while later I heard her knock
on my door.
"Terry are you awake?" she asked.
"Yes mam I am." I answered.
"Can I come in for a moment?"
"Sure mom" I said "just let me get dressed."
I got out of bed and put on a pair of shorts and a shirt to hide the bra and
panties I was wearing and I said it was ok for her to come in. I could tell
that she had been crying again when she sat next to me on my bed. She
put her arms around me and gave me a hug and she started to cry again.
"What's wrong mom? I asked.
"Terry I just want you to know that I love you very much." she said
"Wow mom! I love you too." I said "Your the best."
"Terry has your dad ever talked to you about sex or girls or anything like
that?" she asked
"You mean the BIG TALK?"
"Yes I guess that's what I mean." she said
"Well kind of I guess." I said "He gave me a book about how men and
women do it and some magazines with pictures of naked women."
"Did you read the book? she asked
"I looked at it." I said
"Do you have any questions that I could answer for you."
"No not really. I guess I understood it ok." I said
"Terry do you know what a homosexual is?" she asked
"Yes, that's when a boy likes another boy. Right? I answered.
"That's right. Did you know that your uncle Terry is a homosexual? Your
named after him by the way." she said
"Is he really? I didn't know that. That's so cool, I like him a lot. He's my
favorite uncle."
"You know you're a lot like him." she said
"What do you mean?" I asked
"When he was your age he liked dancing and music and things that most
boys don't find interesting. Many of the same things that you like. He was
always more friendly with the girls than the boys and when he was fifteen
he told me this huge secret that I have never told anyone. It's pretty
common knowledge now that he's gay but I still won't tell anyone his
secret. Just like I would never tell anyone a secret that you would tell me."
With that she leaned over and kissed me goodnight. She got up and
walked to the door and turned and said
"Terry I love you no matter what." She closed the door and I was left
there sitting on the bed. She knows, I thought. How did she know? I've
never said anything to anyone about me liking boys. I was both excited
and scared about it. My mother knows I'm a homosexual and she doesn't
mind I thought. Well at least I think she knows. She sure seemed pretty
convinced that I'm gay. The next day when I got home from school there
was a package on my bed with a note attached to it. It read:
Terry, This book should answer any questions you have about yourself.
When your ready to talk just let me know. I'll be there for you. Remember
that I love you no matter what. Obviously you should not talk to your
father about this. Love always Mom
I tore open the package and found a book. The title was "Questions and
Answers for Gay Teens". I opened the book and started reading. There
were stories and information about both guys and girls that were gay but
what caught my interest the most was a story about a boy that was what
they called transgendered. He had started wearing girl's clothes at the age
of twelve and had started living as a girl when he was sixteen. I was
amazed to read about him because I thought I was the only person like that
in the world. It was wonderful to know that there was someone out there
just like me. So I'm transgendered I thought to myself. The book said I
was a girl trapped inside a man's body. Well that sounded right to me. By
now Jenny had started to put my makeup on and I told her that I wanted to
do it myself. She started doing her makeup and I watched and just did
what she did. When I was done I looked at myself in the mirror and I was
shocked. The makeup made me look much older than fifteen. I looked like
a model. A beautiful model at that. As she started brushing my hair Jenny
continued her story.
"So I went to the senior parking lot after practice and Katie was waiting by
her car. I was really nervous as I got closer. What am I doing I thought to
myself. This was another girl and I was attracted to her. Am I a lesbian? I
asked myself. I must be I thought. Every time I see her my heart starts
beating faster and I get goosebumps all over. We talked for a while about
school and basketball and cheerleading and stuff and she was really cool.
She asked me if I wanted a ride home but I told her my mom was coming
to get me. She asked me for my number and I gave it to her and she said
she would call me. We've talked almost every night since." Jenny was
done with my hair and it looked great. She had shaped my bangs so that
they framed my face beautifully and I had to admit to myself that I was
pretty. She started on my nails as she continued her story.
"So after her game last night she asked me if I wanted to go for some
pizza with her. We went to the pizza place over on Franconia road near
school. We had pizza and we stayed there until about ten thirty. Well on
the way home she asked if it was ok if we stopped and talked some more.
I said ok so we went to the park on Telegraph Road. She had a blanket in
her car so we got out and sat on the soccer field. It was kind of cold so we
sat pretty close together. I could tell she was pretty nervous because she
was real quiet. Finally she said,'Jennifer I guess you've pretty much
figured out by now that I'm a lesbian. Please don't be offended but I
wanted to tell you that you're really pretty and I like you a lot. Actually
Jennifer what I was hoping is that you would be my girlfriend.' "
"Jenny are you sure you're gay?" I asked
"Yes Terri I really think I am. I am very attracted to Katie. When I talk to
her or when I'm with her I feel so good. She makes me smile all of the
time and I think she's incredibly sexy and I've never felt that way about
any boy."
"Girl it sounds like you're in love." I said
"I think I am." she said "No, I know now that I really am in love with her.
She was so cute when she asked me to be her girlfriend. She held my
hand for a few minutes and then she asked me if she could kiss me. I told
her that I would like it if she did."
"She kissed you?" I said excitedly
"Oh yeah she sure did." she said "and it was absolutely heaven. She is a
great kisser and she had me so turned on I thought I was going to go
crazy. I wanted to masturbate right there but I waited till I got home."
"Well did you tell her that you loved her?" I asked.
"No I didn't get a chance to. After she kissed me we got into this
discussion about you." she said
"About me!" I said "What did you say about me?"
"She told me about her twin brother David being gay also and she said that
he has this huge crush on you. She wanted to know if you might be gay."
"What did you tell her?" I asked
"I told her I didn't know for sure but that I would try to find out."
"Well now you know." I said as I stood up and looked at myself in the
mirror. I was beautiful, I thought, and the best looking guy in the school
has a crush on me and tonight I was going to be in his arms I hope. I was
so happy. I wanted to tell the world how happy I was to be fifteen years
old, gay, and to look as pretty as I do right now. I told Jenny about my
conversation with my mom and the book about gay kids that she left me.
"Sounds to me like there's no doubt in her mind that you're gay." she said
"Yeah she's pretty smart I guess." I said "What about your mom?"
"There are a lot of gay people in my family and she is really cool and
accepting of them. She always says that she loves them no matter what."
she said
"Who's gay in your family?" I asked
"Well my Aunt Sarah is and so is my Uncle Tony." she said "Aunt
Sarah's roommate Emily is her lover."
"My Uncle Terry is gay too." I said
"Does he have a boyfriend?" she asked
"I don't know but he does hang around with Mr. Wellborn the math
teacher a lot." I said
"You mean Coach Wellborn, the baseball coach? I wonder if he's gay.
Wouldn't that be funny." she said
"Yeah wouldn't that be something. If they got married what would I call
him? Uncle Coach? " I laughed
"Or maybe Aunt Coach. Look at you, you never know right." she said
while laughing.
When she stopped laughing a serious look came over her face. She looked
like something was bothering her all of a suuden. She looked at me with a
concened look on her face and said.
"Terri are we weird?" she asked me.
"What do you mean Jenny?" I said
"Are we fags? You know, Queers?" she said.
"Yes we're queers but my book says that's not a bad thing. It says that it's
normal for some people to be attracted to someone of the same sex. It
explains the whole history of homosexuality and when I read it I felt really
good about myself. I felt like I finally knew what I was." I said
"I need to read that book." she said "When I was kissing Katie it felt so
natural and good. I knew that I was in love with her but this little voice
kept saying that it was wrong."
"Have you ever kissed a boy?" I asked
"Yes" she answered
"Did it feel the same? I asked
"No it didn't." she said "I hated it."
"So which is wrong? To kiss a boy and hate it or to kiss a girl and enjoy
it?" I said.
"You're right!" She said excitedly "You're absolutely right. I never
thought about it that way. Thank you so much." she said as she hugged
me.
"OK then." I said "Let's make our coming out official. Jenny I'm a
homosexual and I'm proud of it." I proclaimed.
"Terri, I'm a lesbian and i'm proud too." she said We laughed at our
silliness like two fifteen year old girls. We started gettimg the house ready
for our dates. I was so excited about seeing David. I hoped that he would
like me as a girl. I felt so feminine in my miniskirt and I couldn't stop
looking at myself in the mirrors. Jenny had done a wonderful job helping
me with my makeup. My eyes were really cute and my lips were really
sexy with the red lipstick. I was ready for David and I hoped that he was
ready for me.
"Jenny do you think I should call my mom?" I said
"Yeah why don't you ask if you can spend the night." she said.
I dialed my number and waited as it rang. I was trying to decide whether
or not to tell her about myself when she answered the phone. I could tell
something was wrong by the way she sounded when she said hello.
"Mom It's Terri, are you ok? What's wrong?" I said.
"Terry where are you?" she asked
"I'm at Jenny's" I answered
"Terry, your father went into your room today and found the book and
some other things of yours. He is extremely angry and he's out looking
for you right now." she said "I don't know what he's going to do when
he finds you but I'm really worried. Is Jenny's mom there?"
"No mam she's not. We're here by ourselves. Jenny's mom is out of
town until Sunday." I said.
Just then the doorbell sounded and Jenny started for the door.
"Jenny don't" I yelled "it might be my Dad"
She looked out of the window and saw that it was Katie and David and
she opened the door and let them in. Katie immediately put her arms
around Jenny and gave her a kiss. They looked so cute standing in the
doorway kissing. David looked at me and a big smile came over his face.
"Hi Terry" he said "You look beautiful."
"Thank you David." I said in my most girlish voice.
"Terry, who's that?" I heard my mom say over the phone.
"It's David and Katie Mason, Mom." I said.
"What are they doing there? she asked
"They just came over to hang out." I answered
By now David was sitting next to me on the couch. He could tell that I
was upset and he reached out and took my hand and held it. He leaned
over and kissed my cheek and patted my hand with his other hand. I
looked at him and smiled and leaned over and gave him a quick kiss on the
lips. Wow I thought, I just kissed another boy. I turned my attention back
to the phone.
"Mom what should I do?" I asked.
"Terry I think you should get out of there. Your father is sure to show up
there sometime soon." she said.
"Ok Mom" I said "I'll call you later."
"No don't call just get David to get you out of there. Get him to take you
to his and Katie's house." she said "I'll page Jenny on her pager when I
think it's safe for you to call and Terry, remember that I love you very
much. It doesn't matter to me if your my son or my daughter."
"So you knew all along." I said
"Yes honey I did. I know a lot more than you think I do but there's more
time for that later. Give David a kiss for me and tell him I said thank you
for helping."
After she said that she hung up the phone. I turned to David and told him
what mom had said. He quickly jumped up and pulled me to my feet. I
ended up in his arms looking up into his face. I put my hands behind his
neck and pulled his lips down to mine. We kissed for about thirty seconds
before he said.
"Come on Honey. We need to get you out of here."
Jenny hande me a pair of her shoes and I quickly put them on. They were
the ones that had a three inch square heel and about an inch wide soles. I
was surprised how well I walked in them as we went out to David's car.
We got in the car and took off down the street. As we went around the
corner I saw my Dad coming the other way in his pick up truck. I turned
my head away so that he couldn't see my face. Fortunately he didn't see
me because he kept going the other way. I looked at David and smiled and
told him thank you again. He reached over and took my hand and said.
"Sweetheart nobody is going to hurt my girlfriend."
I leand over and put my head on his shoulder. He put his arm around my
shoulder and held me tight and I felt safe.
CHAPTER 3
As David was walking back to the car from the pay phone I could hear the
sound of Katie and Jenny kissing in the back seat. I turned my head to see
what was going on. The two girls were really going at it. Katie had her
hand up Jenny's skirt and I could see that she was fingering Jenny really
hard. Jenny's face had this beautiful smile on it and I could tell she was
off in some other place. I turned my head back as David got in the car. He
looked in the back seat and saw what was going on and said.
"Hey girls" he said "there's plenty of time for that later. We need to talk
now. It seems that all hell has broken loose at Terri's house."
"What happened? I asked
"It seems that your Dad found all of the stuff in your room. Your mom
told my Dad that he went crazy and started to hit her and saying that he
was going to kill you."
Tears starting coming to my eyes as I thought about my Mom being hurt
by my stupid father I can't say that I really liked him all that much but now
I felt that I hated him. My mom is the sweetest person in the world and it's
not her fault that I'm gay.
"Is she allright?" I asked
"Yes she is Honey." he said as he took me in his arms "My Dad went and
got her while your Dad was out looking for you. She's with him right
now. They're gong to meet us in an hour at a motel in Rockville. I suggest
that we get some food and find a safe place to just sit and calm down."
"Does your Dad know about me. You know, us, that we're gay?" I asked
him.
"Well being that you're all I've talked about for the last month, I'm sure
he knows. I told him that I've had this huge crush on you since I saw you
in the school musical last month. My whole family knows about you." He
said
"That's right Terri" Katie said from the back seat where she and Jenny
were sitting with their arms around each other. "You and Jenny have been
the major topic of discussion around our house for quite some time now."
"Your parents know that you guys are both gay?" I said
"Yep They know all about us." David said. "They've known since we
were in junior high."
"How did they find out?" I asked.
"Well with Katie they pretty much always knew. When she was little she
kept telling Mom and Dad that she was going to marry this girl or that girl,
never a boy always girls. They never corrected her or tried to change her,
so being a lesbian was always natural to her. I think for a long time she
thought she was a boy. Isn't that right Katie?" he said.
"Huh? What did you say? Sorry I wasn't listening." she said as she went
back to kissing Jenny. As we passed under the street lights I could see that
Jenny's skirt was all the way up to her waist. Katie had pulled Jenny's
panties down to her knees and was pistoning her fingers in and out of
Jenny's vagina. I turned my head toward David and smiled. He looked at
me and gave a laugh and said.
"Well I guess they've already got something to eat."
I again turned and looked in the back seat and saw Katie's head going up
and down in Jenny's crotch. Jenny's eyes were shut tight and I could tell
that she was in the middle of an orgasm.
"Honey let's stop somewhere and give them some privacy." I said.
David pulled the car into a park and we got out to take a walk. He had
brought a blanket and after we were a ways from the car he put the blanket
down and we sat holding each other without talking. After a few minutes I
felt myself being lowered to the blanket and David was laying next to me
smiling at me. As his lips met mine I reached behind him and put my hand
on the back of his next. I pulled him closer and kissed him as hard as I
could. I felt his hand moving up my thigh and under the hem of my skirt.
I opened my mouth and allowed his tongue to meet mine and I sucked on
it as he moved it in and out of my mouth. His hand was now caressing my
penis through my panties and pantyhose and it was starting to get very
hard.
"Is this ok Terri?" he asked
"Yes David it's fine." I said
"You're so beautiful and I've wanted to kiss you for so long. I masturbate
almost every night thinking about kissing you and touching you like this."
His hand was now under my panties rubbing my now totally erect penis. I
spread my legs some to give him more room to touch me. He started
moving his mouth down my body and pretty soon I felt him kissing my
penis through my panties.
"Lift up." he said.
I lifted my hips off of the ground and he pushed my skirt up around my
waist. Next he slid my panties and pantyhose down my legs past my
knees and he starting sucking my penis. He moved his mouth up and
down the tiny dick very slowly at first and I started breathing very
heavily. Soon he was moving much faster and my hips were bucking
upward to meet his mouth each time he swallowed my penis. I could feel
my orgasm beginning in my balls and move upward. As I was getting
close to cumming I said.
"David I'm going to cum."
He didn't say anything. He just moved his lips faster. I felt the cum move
up my penis and then I was cumming in his mouth. My hips bucked
harder as the orgasm continued and I emptied myself into his mouth. "Did
you like it?" he said.
"Oh David, It was WONDERFUL." I said as my breathing was getting
back to normal. "I've never felt anything like that. I knew that my first
time with a boy was going to be special but I had no idea it would be this
special. Thank you so much."
We were laying on our sides facing each other and he was rubbing my
now soft penis. I leaned over and kissed him and I could taste my juice on
his lips. I reached down to his crotch and felt his hardened dick. It was
huge! I ran my hand down the length of it through his spandex shorts. It
must have been eight inches long and as wide around as my wrist. I
pushed him over so that he was on his back and I put my mouth on the
spandex covered penis. I licked it up and down and I could feel David
shudder as I licked the tip.
"Take it out David, please" I said
"Terri you don't have to do this." he said
"I know Sweetheart" I said "but I really want to suck it."
"Are you sure Honey? he asked.
"David your girlfriend wants to suck your dick and she wants to suck it
now, ok" I said
He raised up and slid the shorts down past his knees and his dick stood
straight up. I put my hand on it and started rubbing up and down. David
was breathing much faster now and I heard him moan as I put my mouth
around the huge head. I moved my lips as far down as I could and I was
surpried at how much of it I could swallow. I started moving my mouth
up and down the shaft slowly at first and then as fast as I could. Each time
I went down on it David would raise his hips up and drive the penis
farther down my throat. Pretty soon my face was buried in his pubic hair.
I was amazed that I could take that huge dick all the way down my throat.
I must be a natural born cocksucker I thought to myself. Soon David was
bucking harder and faster and I heard him say he was cumming. Spurt
after spurt of sperm emptied into my mouth. There was so much that it
was leaking out of my mouth and down my chin. I gave it one last suck
and it fell out of my mouth and landed on his tummy. I looked down at
him and smiled and said.
"Well how was I?"
"Girl you can really suck a dick." he said. "That was fantastic. Where did
you learn to do that?"
"It just came naturally. Once I had it in my mouth I just knew what to do.
I've never done it before." I said.
"You've never done it before?" he said in disbelief.
"No Honey I haven't. I was waiting for the right boy to come along." I
said
"Am I the right boy Terri?" he asked as he took my hand and kissed it.
"I love you David. I feel like I've always loved you. You don't know
happy it made me when Jenny told me you're gay and that you liked me."
He took me in his arms and kissed me deeply. I could still feel his cum on
my chin and cheeks and I was proud to have it there. As he started to rub
my penis again I heard someone coming toward us.
"David?" I heard Katie say."Terri's mom just paged Jenny. "We better get
going. Jenny needs to stop and use the bathroom and I see that Terri does
too."
I was a little embarassed for her to see me with my skirt up and my panties
down. I reached down and started to pull them up and Katie grabbed my
hand and pulled me to my feet. She held my skirt up as I pushed my penis
back and then pulled my panties and pantyhose the rest of the way up. I
thanked her for her help and we walked back to the car. We stopped at a
gas station about a mile from the hotel and Jenny and I got out. I was a
little nervous as I walked in and grabbed the men's room key.
"Miss." the man behind the counter said "You took the men's room key
by mistake."
I smiled and took the ladies room key from him. I was psyched. He had
no clue that I wasn't a real girl. We went into the ladies room and Jenny
said.
"Terri I am so in love with that girl. I mean real love. She's so incredible I
can't believe what she does to me."
"Well the last time I looked it looked like she was having you for dinner."
I said with a laugh.
"Oh my God it was so intense. I must have orgasmed a hundred times.
She really had me going with her tongue." she said "I thought I was going
to have a heart attack."
"I am so happy for you. She's really nice isn't she?" I said
"Yeah, she really is." she said "Well I see you evidently had some fun.
What's this?"
She took a tissue and wiped what was left of David's cum off of my neck.
I looked in the mirror to make sure it was all gone. My lipstick was
completely gone and my makeup was a mess.
"Did you do a little dick sucking, girl?" she asked
"Boy did I ever. Jenny he's huge and when he came I thought I was going
to drown." I said
"You swallowed it?" she said.
"As much as I could. He came forever and a lot of it leaked out. Did I get
any on your sweater?"
"Just a little." she said "let me wipe it off."
She took another tissue and rubbed some more off of the front of my
sweater. We redid our makeup and returned the key and went out to the
car. Katie and David were standing next to the car talking and when he
saw me he walked over and put his arms around me. We kissed right there
in the in the gas station lot and no one who saw us knew that it was two
boys kissing. As we were finishing our kiss I saw that Jenny and Katie
were kissing also. Just then I heard someone yell.
"Hey look at the lezzies."
Katie turned to the car next to us. There were four boys in the car and they
were yelling obscenities out of the window at her. I heard Jenny telling
Katie to get back in our car but she was already moving towards their car.
"Yeah that's right we're lesbians you assholes. Why don't you get out of
the car say that shit." she said as she grabbed their door handle.
By then David was standing next to her and the two of them presented a
pretty formidable threat. David is about six feet five and easily weighs two
hundred pounds and Katie is just over six feet tall herself. Seeing this the
boy driving put the car in gear and tore out of the station. Jenny went over
and grabbed Katie's hand and started pulling her towards the car.
"Come on Honey let's get out of here." she said.
We all got in the car and drove off. Katie was still very angry and Jenny
was trying to calm her down.
"Baby don't worry about those guys." she said "They're stupid."
"I know Jenny but it still pisses me off." she said "I don't want anybody
talking to my girlfriend like that."
"Katie I love you." Jenny said "I love you very much."
Soon they were kissing again. I looked at David and smiled and he
reached over and took my hand in his. We drove in silence until we got to
the motel. When we arrived David's Dad was waiting at the entrance and
he waved us into a parking space in front of one of the rooms. I didn't see
my Mom anywhere and I started to get a little worried.
"Are you all ok?" Mr. Mason asked as we were getting out of the car.
"Yeah Dad we're fine. This is Terri and that's Jenny, Dad." he said.
"Hello girls" he said "Come on let's get you inside."
He led the way and opened the door and held it as we went through. I was
so worried about Mom that I forgot how I was dressed. She was sitting
on the bed and I could see that she had been hit in the face by my father.
Her left eye was very swollen and there were bruises on her neck. She
started to get up and I could see that she was in a lot of pain.
"Mom are you ok?" I cried as I ran to her.
"I'm ok Honey. He didn't hurt me that bad." she said.
"But your eye, It looks pretty bad." I said
"Dr. Mason looked at it and he said it'll be fine. Wow! look at you." she
said as she stepped back and looked me over. "You look gorgeous."
She put her arms around me and hugged me tightly. I started to cry as we
stood there and hugged.
"Mom I'm so sorry." I sobbed
"Honey it's ok. I've known about this for a long time. I wanted to tell you
that I knew but I decided to wait for you to tell me." she said."I figured
that when you were ready you would let me know but I guess your father
changed all of that,"
"What happened Mom?" I asked.
"Lots of things honey. We're going to have a long talk as soon as we get
settled down tonight. You and Jenny are going to stay here with me." she
said. "Jenny, you're mom is on her way back and she'll be here in a
couple of hours."
"Did you call her?" Jenny asked
"Yes and I told her to stay at her conference but she insisted on coming
back. She was going to leave right away." mom said
"Mrs. Anderson can I go back home and get some things for Terri and I.
Do you think it'll be safe?" she said "We don't have anything to sleep in."
Dr. Mason answered for her and said that it probably wasn't a good idea
for her to go home until the police found my father. He said that he and
Katie would go to the Walmart and get us some things for the next few
days. As they were leaving Katie gave Jenny a kiss and told her that she
loved her. Dr Mason told David to keep the door locked and to keep an
eye out to make sure things were safe.
"So that's Katie?" mom said to Jenny
"Oh my God" Jenny said "In all of the confusion I forgot to introduce
you."
"Jenny we don't have to pretend anymore." mom said "I think it's time for
the truth to come out."
I looked at my mother with a look of total confusion on my face. I had no
idea what she was talking about. Jenny walked over to her and gave her a
hug and said,
"Are you sure Mom?"
"Yes dear" she said "I'm ready. It's time. I'm not afraid anymore."
"Terri for obvious reasons we can't go home anymore I won't allow your
father to hurt you in any way but there's another reason also. Before I met
your father I was in love with someone else. It was while I was in college
and a lot of things happened and we couldn't stay together We've stayed
close over the years and about three years ago we realized that we were
still in love. Your father was being really abusive and I turned to this
person and we fell in love all over again."
"Who is it Mom?" I said
"It's Jenny's mother." she said
"Your gay too?" I asked
"Yes dear I am" she said
"God is everybody gay?" I laughed as I said "You, me, Jenny, her mom,
her Aunt Sara, Uncle Terry. Is there anyone else I don't know about."
"My sister Karen." Jenny said.
"Karen too!" I exclaimed "I had no idea."
"Yes, she came out to mom and me about six months ago. She met this
girl at college and fell in love with her." Jenny said. "She's asked Karen
to marry her."
"Wow! That's so cool. Did she say yes" I asked
"Yep they're getting married in April and I'm going to be the Maid of
Honor." Jenny said excitedly
"Mom how did you find out about me?" I asked.
"I always knew, Honey." she said "You've always been kind of feminine
and and I figured it was just a matter of time before you figured it out.
That's why I've always been very protective of you when it came to
dealing with your father."
"Oh yeah, him." I said disgustedly. "When did you know about this?" I
said pointing to my skirt.
"Honey you didn't do very well hiding your girl things." she said. "I've
been checking your room everyday to make sure that your Dad didn't find
them. Today he went in there and found everything. He went absolutely
balistic when he found some of your bras and panties. That's when he did
this to me." she said pointing to her eye.
"Are you ok? I asked putting my hand to her face.
"Honey I'm fine, he couldn't hurt me if he tried."
I turned to Jenny and said "I guess we really are sisters aren't we."
"Yeah isn't it cool. I wanted to tell you but our moms wouldn't let me."
"You knew and you didn't tell me." I said pretending to be angry.
"I'm sorry sis. I wanted to tell you all along but they wouldn't let me."
she said.
"I'm just kidding." I said as I hugged her "I'm not mad. Mom did you
know Jenny was a lesbian too?"
"We've talked about it but she wasn't sure. So I just listened when she
wanted to talk about me and her mother and then Katie came along and I
knew it was just a matter of time." she said smiling. "Are you sure
Jenny?"
"Positive." she said "I love Katie very much, Mom."
I looked at David, who was sitting in a chair by the door and smiled. He
smiled back at me as I got up and walked over to him. I sat on his lap and
put my arms around his neck and kissed him and said.
"And this is the boy that I love."
He put his arms around my waist and held me and I felt safe.
CHAPTER 4
"Terri I don't want to go back. I want to stay here with you." David said
as he held me in his arms.
"I know Honey but it's only for a couple of weeks." I said to him "and
we've got tonight still."
His lips found mine and he kissed me so tenderly, I could hear the waves
hitting the beach behind us and somewhere off in the distance I could hear
music. It was so romantic. As our lips parted I could see his face in the
moonlight and he was smiling at me. I traced the muscles on his chest
with my fingers thinking how gorgeous he was and I pulled his face back
down to mine and kissed him again. I felt his hand on my penis and he
gently massaged it as we kissed there on the beach.
"Promise me you'll keep this." he said as he freed it from my bikini
bottom. "I love to touch it but most of all I love to do this."
He leaned down and took me in his mouth and I could feel his tongue
moving all around as he gently sucked on it. He started to slowly move
his lips up and down it and it very slowly began to respond. Dr. Mason
had said that this would happen because of the hormone treatments. He
said that I would still be able to orgasm but that it would take much longer
because of the hormones. David said that he didn't mind because he loved
sucking me and the longer it took the more he liked it. He pushed my top
up and began to rub my tiny breasts. They were pretty sensitive and it
kind of hurt when he took one of my nipples between his fingers. Since
they had begun to grow he had become infatuated with them and he loved
to touch and suck them. He was really getting me going when I said.
"David, not here ok. Let's go in the house."
I put my penis back in my bottom and pulled the top back down over my
breasts. We got up and collected our things and walked across the beach
to my house. Mom and Peggy had taken Karen and Penny, who were
here visiting, out to dinner and Katie and Jenny were at the movies so we
had the house to ourselves. When we got to my bedroom I laid down on
the bed and David laid next to me. He reached behind me and unhooked
my top and pulled it off. I raised my hips as he slid the bikini bottom
down my legs and off. He put his leg over mine and I could feel his erect
penis touching mine.
"David I want you to make love to me." I said "I want to feel you inside
me."
"Terri are you sure." he said "I don't want to hurt you."
"Don't worry Honey I don't mind." I said. "Just go very slow at first."
I reached over to my night table and got the tube of lubricant that my
Uncle Terry had given me when we had our "Big Talk". I opened it and
handed it to David. I spread my legs and David knelt between them. He
squeezed some of the lube into his hand and rubbed it on his dick. Next he
put some on his finger and pushed it into my anus very slowly. It hurt a
little but it also felt pretty good. He took a pillow and placed it under my
ass and raised my legs up.
"Terri are you sure?" he asked
"Yes David I am." I said "I want it."
He leaned forward and I could feel the tip start to enter me. A searing pain
shot through my body and I gasped. He started to back away but I put my
hands behind him and pulled him back.
"Just go slow" I said.
He gave another push and the pain got worse. I could feel tears begin to
roll down my cheeks as he pushed the head inside me. I felt like I was
having a bowel movement like I had never had before. He leaned over and
kissed me and told me he loved me and pushed again and his penis went
all of the way in. I felt like I was being split in two and I began to cry.
"Do you want me to take it out?" he asked
"No, just give me a second." I said.
I reached up and rubbed his chest and he smiled at me. He was so good
looking I thought to myself. His dark skin glistened with sweat in the
moonlight coming through my window. Boy if my Dad could see me now
I thought to myself. Here I was beginning my transition from boy to girl
and I was in bed being fucked by a black boy. He would go absolutely
crazy if he saw this. I laughed to myself and said.
"Ok Honey I'm ready."
He started to move slowly in and out of me and with each thrust the pain
began to go away. Pretty soon I was raising my hips to meet each push. I
could feel his balls slapping my ass each time he buried his penis in me
and I could feel my own penis start to come alive. He was fucking me like
a wild man now and I could tell he was getting close to cumming. We
were both moaning very loudly as I felt my penis squirt on my stomach
and then I felt him cum inside of me. He collapsed in my arms and we just
lay there for a while breathing hard. He rolled off of me and he laid next to
me while his breathing returned to normal. Soon he fell asleep and I had
the chance to just watch him and think. He was so good looking I thought
to myself and I was so in love with him. So much had changed in these
last seven months. Back then I couldn't have imagined laying here in bed
with him after we had just finished making love. As a matter of fact I
guess it came pretty close to me not being here at all.
Eventually my Dad found us at the motel where we were hiding. It was on
the Tuesday after we had gotten there around midnight and I remember it
like it was just five minutes ago. Jenny and I were asleep in one room and
mom and Peggy were asleep in the other. The police had told our Mom's
to stay there until they found my Dad. He had been seen several places
around town looking for mom and I and people said that he was drunk
and angry. The police had searched our house and found that his gun was
missing and they assumed that he had it with him. They had an all points
alert out for him but they hadn't been able to find him. Dr. Mason had
picked up David and Katie, who had spent the day with us and Jenny and
I had gone into the other room that we had taken to get changed and ready
for bed. Since Jenny's mom had gotten there mom seemed happy. I could
tell that Peggy was very much in love with my mom by the way she held
her and kissed her when she saw her that first night.
"My God Elaine, what did he do to you?" she had said.
"Peg, it's not as bad as it looks. Dr. Mason checked it out and said that it
will all clear up." Mom said
Peggy had also made a big fuss over me telling me how beautiful I was
and how happy she was that I finally had the courage to come out of the
closet. She made me feel so good when she told mom and I that we were
going to be a family from then on. She shocked us all when she turned to
Katie and said.
"So this is the girl that my daughter is in love with."
"Mom how did you know?" Jenny asked.
"Well it sure wasn't hard to figure out." she laughed."You've asked
Karen and Elaine about a million questions about being in love with
another woman and I must have seen,"Katie + Jenny" or "Jenny loves
Katie" written on about a thousand pieces of paper around the house."
I felt David stir next to me so I decided to quietly slip out of the bed so that
he could sleep. I leaned over and kissed him softly on his lips and
whispered "I love you" in his ear and then eased out of the bed. I was all
sweaty and gross and I could feel David's sperm leaking out of my butt so
I decided to take a shower. I pulled on my bikini bottoms and David's t-
shirt, which fit me like a dress, and grabbed a bra and panties and went
down the hall to the bathroom. As I passed mom and Peg's room I could
hear the sounds of lesbian lovemaking coming through the door. Karen
and Penny were in the kitchen eating Ice cream and I stopped to say hi to
them. They were such a cute couple and when they were together you
could see how much they were in love.
"Guess what Terri" Penny said as I walked into the room. "You're going
to be an Aunt."
"So you finally got her pregnant Penny?" I said with a smile. "I knew you
had it in you all along, you big stud. Congratulations."
They both laughed at my joke and I told them I wanted to hear all about it
but that I desperately needed to get in the shower first. As I started to walk
out Penny said.
"Hold it a minute girl. We got you something."
She handed me a box with a ribbon on it. I opened it and inside were three
sports bras and three matching pairs of spandex shorts.
"Your getting pretty close to when your going to start jiggling when you
jog. Gotta take care of those boobs, you know." Karen said
I laughed and thanked them and headed for the shower. When I reached
the bathroom I stripped off my t-shirt and bikini bottom and looked at
myself in the mirror. I was so happy at what I saw. My hair was now
almost down to my hips. It fell beautifully past my shoulders and down
my back. My hips had really changed since I had been taking the
hormones. They had widened some and I actually had a very nice figure.
What I liked the most, though, were my breasts. It seemed to me that they
had started growing almost immediately after David's Dad had given me
my first hormone injection. Some days I could swear that I could feel
them growing. I was a 34 B now and Dr.Mason said that I might get to be
a C cup before they stop growing.
Ok enough about my tits let me get back to what happened. So, we had all
settled down for the night after the Masons had left. We were a little
frightened about my Dad finding us but we were all able to get to sleep.
About midnight I awoke to a big commotion in Mom and Peg's room. It
seems that Dad had found us and he was banging on the door and yelling.
I heard Mom yelling back at him and she was saying that she was calling
the police. Jenny and I went into their room and Mom told us to get back
in our room and stay there. We were really scared. I heard the door on
their room break and I heard my Dad say "Goddammit Elaine, you too?
You're a fag too?"
"No Charley I'm not a fag I'm a lesbian and I was a lesbian long before I
met you." she said.
"Elaine I'm taking the boy with me." he said
"Your not taking him anywhere Charley. Just go away because if you
can't accept this and live with it then we don't want you around."
"You don't want me around, huh? Well I tell you what, how about if I just
end this problem right now. Why don't I just kill you and then I won't
have to accept you at all, will I?" he said.
When we heard this Jenny and I became terrified. We could hear the
police sirens getting closer but I was so afraid that they wouldn't get there
in time. He was totally out of control now. I could hear him screaming at
my Mom and Peggy calling them "dirty dykes" and "fucking lesbians" and
things like that. Jenny and I were hiding on the floor between the beds
when I heard a gunshot.
"Oh my God Jenny, he's killed Mom." I screamed hysterically.
I got up and ran to the door that connected the rooms and pulled it open.
Dad was standing in the middle of the room with the gun still pointed at
Mom. She was lying on the bed with blood coming from her left
shoulder. Peggy was now standing between Dad and Mom screaming that
if he wanted to shoot her again that he would have to shoot her first.
"Get out of the way Peg or I'm going to shoot you too." he said.
"No Charley." she screamed "I'm not moving"
I ran to the bed wear my mother was and put my arms around her. She
was still conscious but she was in a lot of pain.
"Mom are you alright?" I said.
She answered that she was ok and that I should get out of there right
away. I told her that I was so sorry that this had happened and that it was
all my fault. She smiled at me and said that she loved me and that nothing
was my fault. As I leaned over to kiss her forehead I heard my Dad yell.
"My God, he looks like a fucking girl."
I heard Peg yell "Charley don't" and then I heard the the gun go off. At
first it felt like I had been hit in the back by a hammer. There wasn't any
pain to start out with and everything seemed to slow down like it was
going in slow motion. I heard everyone shouting but I couldn't
understand what they were saying. My back was beginning to hurt really
bad as I heard the gun go off again. The second time it felt like I was hit
by a bus. I could feel myself falling onto my mother. She was holding me
and screaming, "Please stop him he's killing her." That was so nice I
thought. In all of this chaos mom still remembered to call me her. I started
to get the sensation that I was falling through space. I could sense that
there were people around me but I couldn't make them out. I was just
falling and falling. I thought about David and how upset he was going to
be about me dieing. I had a vision of him standing next to my grave
looking very handsome in his suit holding roses. There were tears on his
face. I wanted to tell him how much I loved him but before I could say it
he started to fade away and then everything went black.
INTERMISSION
OK, YOU READY? THEN HERE WE GO
I couldn't quite make out what the person was saying but I knew someone
was there. Everything was still pretty dark but I could actually see some
light in the distance. I hope that's heaven, I thought to myself. I was
walking towards the light and I could sense someone walking next to me
holding my hand and leading me there. I turned my head to see who it was
but all I could see was this brilliant light next to me. I tried to speak to it
but words wouldn't come out. It turned to me and I could see her face.
She was the most beautiful girl I had ever seen.
"You're so pretty." I thought.
She smiled at me and said. "Thank you. You're very pretty too."
"Who are you?" I asked
"I'm taking you back." she said.
We weren't actually speaking. It wasn't like I could hear her talk it was
more like I could feel her answer me.
"Taking me where?" I asked.
"Back to the living, back to your family and friends. They're waiting for
you." she said.
"What's your name?" I asked.
"I am Angela. The one who has been chosen by Her to watch over you
Theresa." she said.
"Theresa? Am I a girl?" I said.
"You are you. Theresa is the name you wish to have isn't it?" she said.
"Yes but I'm so confused Angela. I know I'm a boy but deep in my heart
I feel that I'm a girl." I said.
"Don't be confused Theresa. She has given you life and being. She has
given you kindness and generosity and love and now She wants you to
take those gifts back and share them with others. What you do with the
body She has given you is of no concern to Her." she said. "We're here.
Are you ready?"
"Yes, I'm ready." I said.
I could sense that there was someone there but I couldn't make out who it
was. I could feel whoever it was holding my hand but I couldn't make out
their face. I wanted to see who it was so badly hoping that it might be
David but my eyes weren't working very good. I heard the person say my
name and I tried to answer but all that I could manage was something that
sounded like a frog croaking.
"Theresa can you hear me?' the voice said
I tried to answer again but I could only make noises still. I tried to open
my eyes to see who it was but everything was kind of hazy. As my
eyesight started to clear I could see Dr. Mason standing next to my bed.
He was smiling down at me and saying "are you ok dear?" I nodded my
head yes and he leaned over and gave me a kiss on the forehead.
"I was so afraid that we were going to lose you." he said "but it looks like
your going to be ok now."
"Am I hurt bad Dr. Mason?" I asked in my frog voice.
"You were, sweetheart, but now that you're awake I think you'll be
alright. David's outside do you want to see him now or should I tell him