BY THE BOOK
By Geneva
In the late fifties I was twentyone, and just graduated from college. I'd
been slow in getting a job lined up, and as I really wanted a break anyway,
I went back to visit my sister Ellen in the family home. Ellen was the only
one at home. Our father had been killed nine years previously in Korea,
and our mother had died of cancer when I was still a freshman at college.
Mom and Dad hadn't been rich, but Dad's parents had left us with some
money in their will. I had used my portion to support me while getting a
business degree at the state college, but Ellen had decided not to go to
college after high school. Instead, she had kept on with the bookstore that
Mom had started. Mom had left the business to both of us, but I hadn't see
my future in my home town at that time, and I sold my share to Ellen to
help pay my way through college.
When I returned home, I soon discovered most of my closest pre-college
buddies were no longer around the area. Feeling a bit bored, and as Ellen
found the bookstore was keeping her really busy, I started helping her out
while I was waiting for replies to some job applications I had sent out. I
had always fancied myself as a potential executive type in some big
corporation, but I soon discovered, a bit to my surprise, that I liked
working in the bookstore. We had the usual selection of current books,
hardcover and paperbacks, but we also stocked a large section of second-
hand and antiquarian stuff.
When we were kids my relationship to Ellen had been of the typical
younger brother to bossy older sister, but since Mom died she and I had
become a lo tcloser. We now got on quite well together, and our interests
at work dovetailed. She liked sales and interacting with the customers. I
was happy enough at sales, but I didn't mind keeping track of our
inventory, and doing the bookwork. What I really liked was going out to
estate sales and getting old books for the antiquarian side of the business.
That was how I met Fred Gymbal.
Fred was a midwesterner, like me. He ran a small antique business in the
Chicago area. We pretended a kind of rivalry, but we really specialized in
different areas, he in furniture, china, and so on, me in books, and in fact
we had given each other good leads. We became fairly good buddies, and
when I ran across him at any sales we would usually go out for drinks and
other entertainment together afterwards. I had had a rather innocent
upbringing and it was Fred who had introduced me to strip clubs and even
the establishment in Memphis where I lost my virginity. I suggested to
Fred he drop in on us any time he was coming through our way.
One Friday afternoon in early Spring I was working in the back of the
bookstore when the telephone rang. Ellen picked it up first.
" It's for you," she yelled. " Somebody wanting John Tully." She handed
me the receiver.
"John Tully here."
"Hi, John! " was the answer. It was Fred. He had been at a sale in
Tennessee and was driving back home on Saturday. I invited him to drop
in for a visit to our store and suggested we have supper together. I made a
note to get out a couple of steaks from the freezer and put some more beer
in the refrigerator.
It was about four on Saturday afternoon when Fred arrived at our store. I
introduced him to Ellen. She was just leaving for home to get ready to
meet her fiance Roy at six. I was showing Fred around the store when
some last-minute customers came in. I had to leave Fred sitting in front of
our old-fashioned wood stove leafing through one of our books on
antiques while I saw to them, and it was about six before I was able to
close up. Ellen had taken our car so we used Fred's old Dodge to get
home. I fired up the barbecue for the first time that year, but the coals must
have been damp and it seemed to take a while to get hot so Fred and I had
downed a beer or two before the steaks were ready. When we were
finished I piled up the dishes in the kitchen sink and brought out a bottle
of single-malt Scotch that I had got for special occasions.
We were sitting in the living room drinking and talking about business,
and or conversation got around to our successes and finds. I was boasting
to Fred about a set of antiquarian books I had picked up recently.
"That reminds me," said Fred. "Just a minute." He grinned at me, went out
to his car, and returned with his brief case. He took out a package,
unwrapped a book and held it out to me. It looked really old.
"Just a minute," I said. "I'll get some gloves before I handle it."
"Don't bother," Fred replied. " It's really in pretty bad condition. I don't
think handling it can cause it much more damage."
I put on gloves anyway and examined it. The book was bound in some
kind of thin leather, but it really was in terrrible condition. I opened the
tattered pages. They were badly blotched with mildew and yellowed with
age. "It really smells damp."
"Yeah," said Fred. "It 's been badly kept. "
I peered at the pages closely. I could make out some faint writing on them.
"It's handwritten. It seems to have two sets of writing on it. On one side of
the page I think it's German, and I think it's in a Gothic script. The page
facing it is in a different writing. It's in a kind of Gothic writing too, but I
don't recognize any of the words. What is it ?"
" I'm having a hard time reading it too. I've only read as far as the first two
or three pages, but it's supposed to be a spell book, as far as I can make
out."
"Spells?"
"Yes, you know, magic."
"Yeah, pull the other leg."
Fred grinned. "The trouble with you, John, you've got no imagination."
"Where did you get it ?"
"It was in a hidden drawer in an antique chest. I got it at a sale in an old
mansion in Baton Rouge just last week."
I turned over the cracked pages. "Well, Fred, I took some some German
at college, so let's see if I can read this so-called magic, you say, and see if
we can find treasure, cast spells, slay dragons, save princesses..."
Fred snorted, "Fat chance of finding dragons, or princesses, in your area.
Now, take Chicago, we've got all sorts of princesses there, ....and queens."
We both laughed.
It was getting on towards ten o' clock by this time. I heard a car door shut
outside, and Ellen came in the front door.
"You're early." I said. "I didn't expect you until after midnight. By the
way, your lipstick's mussed up."
She made a face at me. "Roy is going off early tomorrow, and he still had
to get packed."
She gave Fred a wave." Hi, Fred, I didn't expect to see you here still."
Then she nodded to the Scotch bottle. "You two having a good time?" She
pointed to the old book."What have you got there?"
"It's an old book Fred picked up in Louisiana. It's a book of magic spells."
Ellen rolled her eyes. " Really! How much Scotch have you guys been
drinking?"
Fred passed the book to her. She leafed through it, handling the pages
carefully. "It's pretty old. It smells pretty bad too." She wrinkled her nose.
"It's been poorly kept, and it's funny writing. Magic, is it ?" She shook her
head sadly at us.
"Yes, of course," I said. I took it from her and began looking through the
pages. "We were going to try some of the spells in it."
By this time,with the Scotch I had consumed, I was feeling few
inhibitions. I leafed through the book again. Something near the end
caught my eye.
"Here, Fred. Here's a spell. Something about a woman." I could only
translate it slowly. The Gothic script was hard to read. " 'To make...' , Uh,
It's a bit mildewed here. I can't read the next words." I turned the page to
the light and read triumphantly, " '..a beautiful woman.' That's what we
need Fred, conjure up the women of our dreams." Slowly I began to read
the incantation out, carefully deciphering the faded script. " ' Nahaa etai...'
That doesn't sound German at all. I wonder where that came from ?"
Ellen snorted. " You two losers would be better to be out meeting real
women, rather than sitting here drinking and fantasizing."
I thought 'loser' was a bit extreme. I liked girls and usually did have a girl-
friend although I had broken up with Jane Farrel, my most recent one. Jane
and I had had some good fun together, but we'd had a fight two weeks
before, and it didn't look like we would make it up. I held up my hand to
quieten Ellen and began to sound the words out again.
"I really think you should be careful." said Ellen warily.
"What's to worry ?" I laughed. "If it works, Fred and I might get the
women of our dreams. If it doesn't, it doesn't."
Fred and I slowly recited the words together, reading them from the faint
script. When we were finished I pretended to look around eagerly ."Well,
what a swindle, no beautiful women!" I laughed."Oh , other than you, Sis."
Ellen tilted her head in an exaggerated way, then made a face at me.
I was now feeling slightly tipsy.
Fred got up and stretched. "Well, I'm just so disappointed, but maybe I
better be going, John, at least if I want to get back to Chicago tonight."
"More like tomorrow morning now," I retorted.
"Yeah," said Fred. "I'd better get a move on."
"Just a minute," said Ellen."Let me see the book again." She picked up the
book gingerly." My God, do you know what it's covered with?"
We looked at her apprehensively.
"It's human skin. I'm sure of it. I've seen it in some museums. They used
to cut the skin off executed criminals, tan it, and use it for covering
books."
"Yuck!" I said . I shivered.
Ellen handed the book back to Fred. He shook his head in disgust. He
seemed to shiver too."Well, on that pleasant note, I'd better be on my way.
I'm not sure I want the book now. Do you want it, John ?"
"It's not the thing I usually carry, but sure, for a conversation piece in the
store. How much? Thirty bucks okay ?"
Ellen shook her head at me, but grinned. "There go this week's profits."
"Okay," said Fred. "It's getting too late in the evening to haggle with you,
but I'd like to keep it for a week or two, just to read it over. I'll mail it to
you in a week or so."
"Are you sure you don't want to stay over, Fred? You okay to drive?"
"Thanks, John, but sorry, I've got a lot of work to catch up on. I haven't
been drinking as much as you so I'm okay for driving. Anyway, I really
should get into work tomorrow, even though it's Sunday. I've been away
for a week, and owners of one man businesses, like me, can't take holidays
like you guys."
I saw Fred out to the car. " Let me know how many beautiful women you
meet." I called out.
"Maybe dragons!" he chuckled and pulled his coat collar up. I gave him a
wave as he drove out of the driveway and I went back in. It seemed to be
getting colder.
I closed the door, and sat down in the armchair opposite Ellen. We began
talking. She was annoyed. Her fiance Roy was a partner in a construction
business, and was going to be away on business for the next few days in
St.Louis. I shivered yet again, briefly. I thought it must be the idea of the
human skin covering the book. Ellen and I began talking about the store
but then I began to shiver almost continuously.
"Gee," I said. "I feel really cold."
Ellen raised her eyebrows. "Well, it's a cool Spring evening, but it's not
that cold. Are you coming down with a flu or something?"
I shrugged."I don't know, I'm going to get a sweater, or maybe I should get
to bed."
I rose to my feet and stumbled through to my bedroom. All at once my
body was taken over by violent shaking. My teeth were chattering. I
collapsed on the floor. I remembered no more.
"John, are you awake?"
I heard Ellen speaking my name. Her voice seemed to be coming from a
long distance away. She was shaking me gently.
"Uhmm." I mumbled. I had difficulty speaking.
I felt her shake me again.
"Yeah, Yeah, what is it ?" My voice sounded funny, more high pitched. I
tried to clear my throat, but it felt rough and painful.
"John, do you want a drink of water ?"
"Yeah," I said groggily. I was still speaking funny. I managed to get my
eyes open, blinking at the light. My mouth was dry and I had a raging
thirst. My eyes felt as if they were full of grit.
Ellen held a glass to my mouth and I tried to sip the water from it. I
couldn't seem to move my lips properly and I had trouble drinking. Some
water spilled down my neck and soaked my T-shirt, but I kept at the glass
until I had drained it.
"Do you want some more ?"
I nodded. "Yeah. Ohh, my head hurts." I vaguely heard Ellen go into the
kitchen. I was aching all over. My brow was throbbing and I raised my
arm to rub it. The feeling was subtly different, smoother somehow.
Something had changed. I squinted at my hand, holding it in front of my
eyes. It seemed smaller. My vision was hazy. I rubbed my eyes and looked
at my hand again. It still seemed smaller. Puzzled, I looked at my wrist, it
seemed narrower, but smoother. My arm was also smoother, slimmer.
My chest felt cold and damp where the water had spilled down my T-shirt,
and I slid my hand down to rub it. Puzzled, I felt the heavy fullness of two
female breasts. Fuzzily, I wondered at first if there was a woman in bed
beside me, but then I realized I was feeling my own exploring hand.
Desperately trying to concentrate, I slid my hand down into my shorts and
found a patch of pubic hair, but - nothing else below. My penis and
testicles were missing. Instead I felt the flesh only as a set of sensitive
folds edging a cleft.
Gasping, in growing panic, I struggled out of bed and tore off my T-shirt
and shorts. I looked down. In my vision was a set of female breasts, over a
slim waist, wide female hips and well formed legs. I was completely
missing my male anatomy, yet all was still ridiculously supplied with a
generous covering of my male pattern hair. I started screaming. My terror
was made more intense by the shrill female voice I was hearing. Ellen
rushed in and held me.
"Ellen, what's the matter with me ? Tell me it's a trick." I was shaking
uncontrollably. My voice was shrill.
"John , I'm sorry. It's not. You've changed somehow. You went into a
coma on Saturday and then you started changing until you got like you are
now. It's now Monday. You've been unconscious about a day and a half,
and you only started to wake up about an hour ago. It must have been that
spell in Fred's book. Maybe it went wrong somehow, or you read it
wrong."
With horror I remembered the mildewed pages, the stains and the faint
Gothic writing. It was certainly possible that I had read something wrong,
or missed out something. I had thought I was making a new woman.
Instead the spell had changed me into one. I had a sudden desperate hope.
"Fred! Yes", I babbled. "Maybe I can contact him and see if there is
something in the book can reverse the spell."
Ellen shook her head. There were tears in her eyes. " I'm afraid not, John.
There was a report on the local radio yesterday. The police found a car on
the outskirts of town. It had crashed and burned on Saturday night. From
the license plate they know it belonged to Fred Gymbal of Chicago, but
the body, and the rest of the car's contents were almost completely
incinerated. The police are looking for help, and any witnesses to the
crash."
"Oh God, Poor Fred! Maybe the change was affecting him too, and the
alcohol didn't help." I was devastated at the news, and I sat bewildered for
a minute before my mind jumped back to my own serious problems. I was
thinking wildly. "I know, maybe I can go to a hospital and see if they can
do anything about me."
"Are you crazy?" Ellen hissed. "They would not believe you at all.
Nobody believes in magic now, and you can't prove it. The book will have
been destroyed in the crash and fire. They would more likely lock you up
for being crazy. Even on the small chance they did believe you, they
would stick you in a medical laboratory and you would spend the rest of
your life as a guinea pig. And can you imagine the hoopla in the
newspapers, the radio and the TV? You would never have any private
life again. You'd be in every tabloid and magazine at every grocery
checkout. Another thing, I'm sure the police would want to know about
Fred's death. You might be implicated somehow. I think you are going to
have to keep it quiet. Face it. You may have to live the rest of your life as
a woman unless the spell wears off."
I thought her suggestions were utterly ridiculous. "No! I am a man. I am
John Tully."
She grabbed me and pushed me in front of the mirror. "Look at yourself."
I only saw a young woman, with a well-shaped figure, but covered in
male pattern hair, and with a terrified look in her eyes. Her face was a
cruel joke. She had the chin beard that I had started at college, but set on
her female face it made her look like a freak. In horror I saw that she did
everything that I did. Every motion that I made, she made simultaneously.
I tried to turn away, but Ellen forced me to face the mirror again.
"Look at yourself. You have the body of a woman. You have certainly
have no male parts left that I can see. You are going to have to live as a
woman. You are hairy, yes, but maybe we can do something about that
with shaving or wax, or electrolysis. It's crazy that the spell changed you
completely otherwise, but left you with all that male hair. Maybe it's
another thing went wrong with the spell or maybe the person who made
up the spells liked hairy women ."
I grimaced. I was not in the mood for humor.
She went on. "Now, first things first. I think you probably need to use the
toilet."
At that I had an overwhelming urge to go, and I lurched to the bathroom.
Something seemed to be wrong with my balance. I stood in front of the
toilet, lifted the seat, and immediately found I had a problem.
Ellen was standing behind me. "Women sit down to pee, or didn't you
know that?"
I did so. I was almost immediately rewarded by a strong stream of urine.
With disgust I realised I also smelled of stale urine. I must have wet
myself sometime when I was unconscious.
"At least you can pee. Now wipe yourself with the toilet paper."
I gasped slightly as the paper rubbed against a sensitive part.
Ellen was still standing over me. " What about the other ?"
Sighing, I strained, and in a minute or two I was successful.
"Now " said Ellen, handing me some more toilet paper, "Wipe yourself
carefully, and backwards. Women's parts are closer to the rear than men's.
You don't want to get an infection."
Bewildered, I got up and washed my hands. Ellen handed me my dressing
gown. It was now far too big for me. It draped loosely over me.
Ellen took my hand. "Let's go and sit down, maybe in the kitchen. We
have an awful lot to talk about."
In a daze, I let her lead me to the kitchen. She poured two cups of coffee
and set one down before me. I could only sip at it, the small female hands
I saw in front of me were shaking so much. Ellen took them in her own
hands again.
"Now, John, you have had a terrible shock. Your whole life has changed.
You are feeling devastated and overwhelmed. You have trouble accepting
what has happened. I'm terribly sorry for you. I also have trouble accepting
that I have lost a brother, but unless all this is temporary, it looks as if you
are going to have to live with your changes. I don't have to tell you that
you are going to have a lot of problems with that, but you are going to
have to deal with them properly if you want to fool people and keep them
from finding out what has happened.We have to keep it to ourselves."
I was shaking my head in denial, but she ignored me.
"First, you will have to try to get a new identity for yourself, if you don't
want people to discover what has happened. So we will also have to come
up with a reason for the disappearance of John Tully. But it's you that will
have the most difficult part of all. You will have to live with your change.
I mean that you will have to adapt, adjust to life as a woman and
eventually get out to earn a living as a woman. We don't have a lot of
money and I certainly can't support you. You will have to pull your weight
in the business if you want to carry on there. Also, I am getting married in
a few months. Eventually Roy and I will be starting a family, and I can't be
responsible for you. So you'd better get used to what you have now
become. Half the world's population are women and mostly they get on
okay. You will have to manage just like them."
I was still in a state of denial. "No, I'll live as a man," I shouted
desperately. I winced at the shrill female voice.
She shook her head. "Well, it's your life, but you'd better think about it.
For instance, what do you think you are going to do for clothes ?" I got
up and stumbled through to my room, banging my hips on the door frame.
I realized now that it was the wider female hips that made me feel
unbalanced. I opened a drawer and pulled out some underwear. I tried a
pair of my shorts, but they were now loose around the waist and tight on
the hips. My T-shirt fitted me like a tent, except for the two breasts on
my chest pushing it out in front. Nowadays no one would be too
concerned with wearing loose baggy clothing, but back then in the fifties I
just looked ridiculous, like a clown.
"You see. Your clothes no longer fit you. Even if you bought a smaller
size in men's style, they would look stupid on your female body. You will
have to get women's clothes. "
This was too much. I was overwhelmed. I folded up crying. With disgust I
realised I was crying like a woman, keening in a woman's voice. Like a
woman! I was indeed a woman. I was racked with sobbing for my lost
maleness. I felt Ellen holding me. I tried desperately to stop, but I felt so
lost. Eventually I gave in and let her hold me until my crying had just
about run its course. I vaguely remember her giving me a pill with another
glass of water then putting me back to bed.
I did not sleep well. The turmoil of the terrible change in my life
continually intruded on my sleep. I kept waking, hoping, wondering if it
had all been a bad dream, but each time I was continually reminded of the
terrible reality when I forced myself to check my body and found only the
unfamiliar female anatomy. I think I must have only slept a few hours in
total. When I roused myself eventually from a tormented sleep, it was
raining and grey. Just to match my mood, I thought bitterly. I crawled out
of bed, but still unbalanced, I knocked over the bedside lamp. I sat down
heavily on the floor. Ellen must have heard me and came into my room.
She lifted me up gently onto the bed.
"How do you feel today ?"
"I am not sure how to describe it. Lost, confused, bewildered, scared." I
was almost crying again.
She sat down beside me and held me, her comforting arms rubbing and
patting my back until I was breathing more easily. She stroked my brow.
" I think the fever has gone now. Come on, and get something to eat," she
said encouragingly. She pulled me to my feet and held out my dressing
gown for me."You must be hungry. It's now Tuesday and I don't think you
have eaten anything since Saturday." She laid out juice, coffee and a
Danish pastry for me. I nibbled at the pastry.
I looked at Ellen carefully. I had used to be taller than her, by about six
inches, but now I was shrunk to about her size. She seemed different too.
She had always been a pretty girl, but now it looked as if her face and
body had changed too. Her skin was clearer, her hair more lustrous, her
lips slightly fuller, her waist slimmer, her breasts higher. A whole series
of subtle changes had changed her also. She was still recognizably Ellen,
but now a graceful radiant beauty.
"Sis, are you changed too ?"
Ellen nodded slowly. "I was wondering when you would notice. Yes, I
must have been affected too, but I didn't get any shakes like you, or go
unconscious."
"Won't Roy and others notice the changes in you ?"
"Oh yes," she said happily. " They may, but I'll get my hair restyled and
maybe a facial and makeover. Maybe also a new push-up bra and a firm
girdle, a new dress. Then I can pretend that my changed appearance is due
to them."
I had now finished the pastry . I was now ravenous and I took another
from the plate. Despite my hunger I had to eat slowly. My mouth felt so
different. Even my voice was different and I stumbled over some words.
In the unfamiliar female tones I again asked Ellen about what had
happened. She described how after I lost consciousness, I had soon gone
into a fever. A series of continuous ripples had rolled over me, each
bringing subtle changes. After six hours I had reached my present
appearance, but I had lain in a coma for another day. In fact I had only
begun to show signs of consciousness early on Monday morning. She had
taken off my outer clothes and put me into bed but she had been too
scared of the changes to call for medical help. Although she had also
gone through periods of mild shivers, she had not lost consciousness.
Ellen stroked my head. "John, I've been thinking about things, about
getting a new identity for you. We had a cousin Rachel Grant died near
Louisville when she was three. She was about your age. Her parents are
now dead too, so maybe you could get a copy of her birth certificate and
take over her identity. Then we also have to think of a reason for John
Tully to disappear. You can't keep that identity. You don't want people
asking questions. If anyone does ask, we will have to pretend John has
gone on a trip to California or some place to look for work. I can hint that
he and I had a falling out. We will have to backup the documentation for
your new identity, so you should get a new driver's license as soon as
possible. But for now, we are going to have to do something about that
hair, unless you want a job in the circus as the bearded lady."
I did not appreciate this latest humor.
She went on. " I can do a bit of hair removal here, at home, and we can
get you looking more like a woman."
I shook my head. "I don't want to. I'll get new clothes and live as a man."
"John," she said wearily, "We have been over this yesterday. At the
moment you just look like a freak. You now have a woman's face, skin,
figure, voice. The only male thing about you left is your hair. You might
try to live as a man, but you couldn't get away with it. You've definitely
got a woman's voice and figure, not a man's, and you will need women's
clothing. If you tried men's clothing,even if you bound your breasts, even
with that hair, people would only think you are weird, or have some
medical or sexual identity problem. I certainly wouldn't want you working
in my store. So I think, considering your appearance, that the best thing is
to try to live as a woman. That may be the most difficult of all for you.
You have had about twenty years of thinking of yourself as a man, and all
the male conditioning that your family, friends and society in general have
given you. You haven't had any of the experiences of growing up as a girl,
being treated as one, wearing dresses, and other pretty clothes, talking
about them with other girls, playing with dolls, slumber parties, makeup,
getting your first bra, your first nylon stockings, even having periods. We
will now have to try to fix that. You've no real alternative to living as a
woman."
I felt my eyes fill with tears. Ellen pulled out a kleenex and wiped my
eyes.
She stressed again. "Unless you want people to think you are weird, you
have to be a convincing woman. If we get rid of the male hair we can give
you most of the appearance of one, although you will have to practice to
get the mannerisms and behaviour right. You can't stay in hiding here. It's
not like we are so rich that you don't have to work."
She patted my shoulder. " Now, first thing for today, I think it's time you
had a bath. You stink. I'll run a bath for you."
By this time I really did smell. I hadn't washed now for three days. I felt
sticky, and my arms and body smelled stale and sweaty from the fever.
I sat in the chair miserably. I could hear the bath being run. It seemed I
was no longer in control of my own life.
Gently, Ellen pulled me up and led me to the bathroom. I tried to resist but
she stripped off my dressing gown, T-shirt and shorts. "You needn't be
shy. I saw you without you clothes yesterday. Remember ? Anyhow, I've
seen naked women before."
"But I'm not a wom... " I gave up. I was too depressed to resist.
Moving carefully, still unused to the female hips and small female feet, I
stepped into the warm water and sat down. The water was scented and
covered with bubbles.
" I've run you a bubble bath. Lie there and soak a bit. I'll be with you in a
minute. I gotta get my razor and wax."
I lay back and tried to take stock of my situation. The bath felt really good.
Despite my troubled mind I even began to relax, ever so slightly.
Hesitatingly, still not used to my body, I began to wash myself with my
now small and delicate hands. The breasts on my chest were so strange.
Soft, yet firm, with sensitive nipples and areolas, but covered with my
curly male chest hair. I rubbed my chest carefully with the sponge. The
nipples were very sensitive and I tried to rub them carefully. I noticed that
there did not seem to be as much hair left on the breasts, then it was all off,
and it was loose in the bath. I rubbed my arms. The hair stripped off.
"Ellen ,"I yelled. "I am losing my hair."
I was scrubbing my face with a washcloth when Ellen rushed in.
"My hair is falling out." The washcloth was covered with the remnants of
my beard and the short specks of hairs from my upper lip.
She examined me. " It seems to be falling out at the roots. Actually, it's not
all of your hair, just the male pattern hair, so now you are going to look
like a normal woman after all. Well, at least you can be glad you won't
have to suffer through waxing or electrolysis."
I did not know whether to be glad or sorry at the loss of yet another of my
male characteristics.
"At least you've been left with the hair on the top of your head. Do you
want me to wash it ?" Ellen asked.
"Yes" I nodded.
"I'll need to get more shampoo from my room."
I lay back in the bath again. I started exploring the female body. It seemed
so different. I squeezed the breasts, feeling their fullness, their
texture.Wondering, I slid my hand between my legs. I felt the springy
pubic hair on a small mound, below it the soft folds and the sensitive
interior.
"I see you have discovered the pleasure of female parts."
Ellen was standing holding the shampoo bottle, with a slight smile on her
lips. Embarrassed, trying to keep from blushing, I took my hand away and
looked up.
"Anyway, are you ready for me to do your hair ?"
I nodded hastily.
"I'm using my own shampoo and conditioner. It will give your hair a nice
shine, but you will have to let it grow quite a bit. Your hair is long for a
man, but it's still too short for a woman. In a month or so you can go to a
hairdresser or salon and get it styled, and then let it grow out a bit."
As she washed my hair some of it stripped off as well, but fortunately not
too much. At last she rinsed me off and I stood up. She handed me a big
towel. "Dry yourself with this."
The water had now run out of the bath. The bottom and drain hole were
covered with a thick mat of my body hair.
She handed me a small towel. "This is for your hair. It helps to wrap a
small towel round your hair to dry it better and keep it out of your face.
That is, when it has grown a bit. You should get used to it." She wrapped
it round me like a turban.
She pointed to my crotch. "I see the change left you with some cute pubic
hair too." I blushed again. My thick male pubic hair was almost gone,
leaving me with a neat roundish patch of soft female hair. Ellen examined
me. " You won't have to bother about a bikini wax now." She lifted up
my arms. " But I see you still have some underarm hair, and you'll have to
shave that. I'll show you how." She got out a razor, lathered under my
arms and carefully stroked them with the razor . "Much as I love you,
John, this is the only time I do this. It's your responsibility from now on."
The razor tickled slightly. "Hold still, " she commanded. " This way you'll
look better with sleeveless dresses and tops. Now let's have a look at you.
Take off your towel and have a look at yourself in the mirror."
I did so. In the mirror I saw the young woman again, now free of the
incongruous male hair. She had a beautiful oval face, flawless features,
with slightly prominent cheekbones. Her eyes were bluish grey, like mine
had been, but they now looked from under delicately curved eyebrows.
Her lips were beautifully curved, with a hint of a pout. Her head was set
on an long elegant female neck, now missing a prominent adamsapple.
She had a slim, but well figured body, a slender waist, and wide hips. Her
breasts were perfectly shaped, with just a hint of a sexy droop, and tipped
with pink nipples. Her long legs tapered from the wide hips to slim
thighs, delicate knees, shapely calves, neat ankles and small feet. I turned
slightly. The image had a well shaped female rear, just prominent enough
to be sexy, yet perfectly balanced with the rest of her figure. The only
problem was her dark blonde hair. It was entirely too short for her. It was
the same length as John Tully's had been. She had a slight look of John
Tully, yet an entirely feminine face.
"Actually, I should be jealous. You are very pretty," said Ellen, "but your
hair is much too short. So are your eyelashes, but I bet they will grow too,
with your hair. You've also got quite a nice slim figure. That kinda
puzzles me. I suppose that spell book was made up two or three hundred
years ago, and a female beauty of that time would pretty hefty by today's
standards. Be thankful you don't have to get on a diet right away. Maybe
the spell adjusts to the ideas of female beauty at the time it is used."
Frankly, at that time, my weight was the least of my problems. I looked
closely at the unfamiliar reflection again. Despite the girl's short hair and
eyelashes, I also thought she looked very pretty, but I only felt despair
that I was now this beautiful being. Indeed she still had a troubled look on
her face, a quiver on her bottom lip.
"The next thing is to get some more appropriate clothes for you. Let me
get your vital statistics." Ellen brought out a tape and carefully measured
me all over. She seemed to take so long, and I was too agitated to stand
still for very long. My exasperation must have showed.
She glared at me." John, I am only trying to help you. If you don't want me
to help, say so. Then you can do as you damned well want."
I was angry, but I knew she was right. I needed her help and I forced
myself to apologize. I was almost crying again.
Finally she was finished. She kissed me on the cheek. "I know, it's all very
strange, but I think you'll manage. Now, would you be all right while I go
out and get some new clothes for you ? Why don't you put on some
clothes, wash up and make us some lunch. I will be about an hour."
I nodded. I pulled on a T-shirt and a pair of boxer shorts, and my robe on
the top. They just looked strange on my female anatomy, but it was better
than going around naked. I washed the bath out and tidied up, trying to
keep busy to get my mind off my predicament. I opened a can of soup and
cut some bread for our lunch.
Ellen returned in about an hour and a half with a large shopping bag from
a department store in the nearby mall. She shook it onto my bed and a
number of smaller packages slid out.
" I've been shopping for some new clothes for myself, and I've also got an
outfit for you, but let's have lunch first. I'm getting hungry."
I was not very hungry, but Ellen had no trouble eating. Finally, she wiped
her mouth.
"I got you a very basic bunch of clothes, enough to do you for a day or so.
We will have to go out again tomorrow and get you more, and you should
really try on clothes before you buy them. Now, off with your clothes and
try these."
I was removing my robe when with dismay I saw her pulling a white bra
from one of the packets.
"I'm not wearing a bra."
"Oh yes, you are, " she said firmly."For a number of reasons. If you don't
wear a bra you'll find some of your clothes may chafe your nipples when
you move around too fast. And that will be uncomfortable, believe me.
Also, proper women wear bras. Finally, if you don't wear a bra, you will
eventually start to droop. With the figure you have been given, it would be
a shame not to make the best of it. Now take off the T-shirt and stick out
your arms. " She giggled, "Look on this as if you were a girl getting her
first bra. So you should be pleased, proud."
Sighing, I held out my arms and let her slip the bra straps over them, and
onto my shoulders.
"Lean forward a bit so your boobs fall into the cups." I did so and I felt her
hooking it in the back. "Now stand straight." She stood back and surveyed
me. "Hmm, needs just a little adjustment on the straps." She fiddled with
the strap adjustment at the top of the cups and I felt myself lifted and held
firmly. " Actually that's not a bad fit, but next time you should get fitted
professionally. "
I looked down. I now seemed to be jutting out very noticeably.
"Are you sure it's not too tight ?" I asked. It's confining. It feels like a
harness."
"No, I don't think so. It's just that you are not used to it. Now for your
girdle."
"A girdle! " I yelled.
She looked at me in exasperation. "John, If you want to look like an
ordinary woman, you'll have to wear a dress or a skirt. Pants are okay for
casual wear, but they are not acceptable for women working in offices or
stores, not yet anyway. Then, if you wear a dress, and you don't want
your rear poking out, you will neeed a girdle. Proper women are wearing
girdles. You will also need it to hold up your stockings and in turn
stockings keep the girdle from riding up. If you don't want to wear a
girdle you can wear a garter belt, but most well-dressed women are now
wearing girdles. Some girls are wearing pantie girdles, but I like the
regular open type, and I think it would be better for you."
She pulled a white girdle from a packet, slid down its zipper and held it
open for me. I heard its garters rattling against each other. "This one's side
zipped and it has six garters. It's slightly high waisted, so it has some small
bones at the waist to keep it from rolling over. You've got a girl's nice slim
waist, but I notice you slouch, like a man, I should say. This will help your
posture, get you walking like a girl."
I looked at it warily. "What about underpants ?" I asked.
She scowled at me. " Girls are starting to call their's 'panties'. You can
wear panties under your girdle if you want, or even on top, but it's just
another layer and more complications when you go to the toilet. You are
still a learner in that department so I think you would be best without
panties. Boxer shorts would be even dumber so you'd better take them off.
Now, with this this style of girdle, you have to step into it. Hold onto me
for balance if you want. "
Resignedly, I did so. She pulled the girdle up my legs and thighs, and
eased it over my hips. "Breathe in," she commanded. I did so and she slid
the zipper up. I gasped. My hips, waist and belly felt compressed by the
stiff fabric.
"Stop complaining. You will get used to it, and anyway, it's what women
have to wear. Now for your stockings. Better let me see your feet first."
She looked at my feet and toenails. "I thought so. I'd better give you a little
pedicure to save your stockings." She looked at my fingernails."Yes, and a
manicure too. Sit down."
I immediately discovered a problem. I could not now bend nearly as well
as before. The high waist of the girdle held me upright. Even if I tried to
bend, the little bones at the waist poked uncomfortably at my ribs. I
looked at her in exasperation. "I can hardly bend!"
She was not sympathetic. "Yes, that's a better posture already." She
fetched her manicure set and started on my nails, ignoring my discomfort.
I was embarrassed with my state of undress, or maybe I should say my
partial dress, especially the view of the lacy tops of the bra jutting
prominently from my chest. The shiny metal fittings of the garters, so
typically female, sitting on my thighs under the satin garter flashes, did not
help either. The pedicure seemed to be taking a long time, and I started to
fidget.
Ellen looked at me and sighed. "Hold still or I'll put some polish on your
nails as well and then you will have to sit still another half hour while it
dries."
At last she was finished with my nails. I looked at them. She had rounded
them slightly and they looked much neater. "I've shaped them more in a
woman's style . You 'll need to let them grow a bit, but this will do for a
start. At some point you can get a professional manicure and hair styling
when your nails and hair grow a bit. Anyway, now let's get some stockings
on you." She drew out a pair of pale tan nylon stockings from another
packet, stretched them out then bunched one up. She held it to my right
foot.
"I got you some medium weight stockings. You can get sheerer or heavier
later, as you want. Now, point your foot," she commanded.
I did so and she slid the stocking over my foot and up my leg, smoothing
it carefully as she did so. "Now stand up." I got up and she fastened the
stocking to the three garters on one side. "That seems to be a good length.
When you put on your stockings make sure the garter is attached onto the
reinforced stocking top, like I've done here. Otherwise you may ladder
your stockings. Now you try the other one." She bunched up the other
stocking and handed it to me. Self-consciously, already feeling my
movement restricted, I pulled it up onto my leg. I had little trouble with
the front garter, but the others were more awkwardly placed and I fumbled
with them a bit. Red-faced, I straightened up.
Ellen turned me round and checked me. She did not notice my
embarassment, or if she did, she didn't comment on it. "That's looks fine.
You should be glad that stockings are now seamless, otherwise you would
also have to be making sure your seams were straight. Now try walking
up and down a bit."
I did as she said. The bra felt confining, and the girdle hindered my
movements, but the nylon stockings felt cool and smooth on my legs. I
looked at myself in the mirror. I saw a pretty girl in her underwear and
stockings, looking like a girdle advertisement. I thought she looked very
attractive, even erotic, my male conditioning, I guess, but yet I was
devastated with the realization that it was now my own reflection. I felt
like crying.
" How does that feel ?"
I shrugged. "I don't know," I said helplessly. "How's it supposed to feel ?
It feels tight, I guess, and I feel exposed."
Ellen smiled. "Yeah, you've really had nothing to compare with it, but it
looks okay. The spell's given you a very nice figure. By the way, your bra
size is thirty four, a B cup. Not really enough for the Miss Universe
competition, but still a nice average size for your height. Now your slip."
She held out a white nylon slip for me and slid it over my head. The
material felt really smooth on my body. The lacy hem came to just above
my knees. " I got you a fairly simple dress". She pulled out a dress in a
soft blue faintly patterned material. "It zips up at the back, but it also has
a tie belt at the waist. It will do you for a start. But, before you try it on,
we should try some makeup on you."
"I don't want makeup, " I protested
"Well, you don't need it today, but you will need some when you go out,
just like other women. Remember, I am trying to help you, get you used to
behaving like a girl. The least you can do is cooperate. Now, come into my
room." She pushed me ahead of her.
I was still not used to these female hips, and even with the restraint of the
girdle on my walk I seemed to be moving my hips more. I tried to hold
myself stiffly to stop the sway.
"Stop that." Ellen gave me a slight smack on my girdled rear. You look
like a prissy old maid. Women are allowed to sway their hips, well, a bit at
least."
She sat me down at her dressing table and rummaged around, pulling out a
number of jars, boxes and tubes.
"You have got a lovely smooth complexion, but a little makeup will still
be a nice added touch. Girls will usually put on most of their makeup
before they put on their dresses, just so they don't smear powder or lipstick
on them. Now, hold still. I'll show you some evening make up. You
wouldn't wear as much as this for daytime, but you might as well get used
to it." She then proceeded to apply makeup to my face.
She started with some cream that she said was to clean my face, wiped it
off and applied a light powder, blusher, a blueish eyeshadow and a darker
mascara. " Now,open your mouth slightly. When you put on lipstick,
make sure it follows your lip line." She carefully applied a deep pink
lipstick. "Now rub your lips together, like this." The lipstick felt slightly
sticky, but its faint scent was pleasant. "You should get your own
cosmetics, and you may want to get your own dressing table. You can use
my table in the meantime, or put your makeup on in the bathroom, using
the mirror there. How do like that now ?" I shrugged, but I was amazed to
see I had been transformed into a stunning beauty, that is, except for my
hair. It had seemed fairly long when I was a man. Now it was too short and
severe for the lovely face that looked back at me.
"Now your dress. " She slid down the zip at the back of the dress and
handed it to me. I hesitated. It made my female costume more complete,
but at least it covered up the underwear, so distinctively female."Well, go
on, put it on."
Sighing, I pulled it over my head, put my hands in the arm-holes and let
the skirt fall over my hips.
Ellen smoothed the dress on me ."Let me help you zip it up." She stood
back to view me.
"Not bad at all. In fact, fairly good. You will have no trouble passing as a
girl, as far as your appearance, anyway. In fact I can hardly believe you
were a man just a few days ago."
She pulled out a shoe box. "I also got you a pair of flat shoes to begin
with. As you get used to things you should get some dressier shoes with
higher heels. Anyway, one thing at a time."
She slid them on my feet and smiled at me affectionately. " You know, I
always wanted a sister." She kissed me on the cheek again.
I wanted to push her away. I was not in the mood for her comment. I felt
that I was unwillingly adrift in a torrent of events over which I had no
control, carrying me into an unknown future.
I did not know whether to be glad or sorry when Ellen opened yet another
box and produced a wig. "Your hair is too short for the way a woman
wears it. Until it grows you'd better wear this wig." She adjusted it on my
head and in the mirror I saw my transformation was complete. There was
only now a trace resemblance to John Tully.
"Now, I think its time for a little practice," said Ellen.
"How do you mean ? " I asked.
"I want you to get used to your clothes, and maybe you should practice
moving like a girl. I mean gracefully, elegantly. Walk up and down the
living room. We have to get your posture right." The next hour Ellen kept
me walking up and down in the room. I found my movements restricted by
both the skirt of the dress and the girdle underneath, and I was still not
used to the female hips. I was forced to move in a kind of sway. All the
time I could feel the slight yet insistent pull of the garters on my stockings.
The bra felt like a harness, but at least it kept my boobs from swinging
about.
After an hour of this, she had me practice sitting and rising, from a dining
room chair, then from the sofa .
"When you sit down in a loose skirt or dress, don't make a big deal of it,
but sit down carefully and gather your skirt under you so you are sitting on
it. Don't flop down, or the back of your skirt may lift up and you end up
sitting on the bare skin at the top of your stockings. On vinyl car seats it
can be cold in winter and it's hot and sticky in summer. Also, when you
sit, the best way is to keep your knees together and cross your legs at the
ankle. You can cross them at the knees, but it's not so elegant and if you
are wearing a short skirt it will show off more of your legs . You may end
up showing some off some of your thighs, even your stocking tops if you
are not careful. Of course, if you want to attract a man, you can try that. A
little glimpse of stocking tops can do wonders in getting guys' attention."
She gave me a wicked smile, but I was left with a hollow feeling. I was
horrified that I might even accidentally attract the attention of a man. I
remembered that at college the guys had tried to position themselves at
classes to see more of the coed's legs. It had made our day if we caught
sight of a dark stocking top or, better still, a garter or even the pale skin
above a stocking top.
After another half-hour of this drill I felt exhausted, but Ellen was still
not done with me.
"Next, I want you to make supper. That will get you more used to moving
about in the girdle and the dress. I will be watching you, and correcting
you, if necessary."
"You're worse than a drill sergeant, " I burst out.
"I'll take that as a compliment. I know, but it's for your own good. We've
got your appearance nicely changed, so we now have to keep working on
your behaviour and mannerisms so no one suspects that you were John
Tully. That reminds me. From now on we should only use the name
Rachel, Rachel Grant, for you. "
My stomach gave a lurch. It seemed so strange to be talking about my
John Tully identity in the past, as I was propelled along in a new identity.
"Another touch." Before I could object she tied a frilly apron round my
waist. I reddened. It seemed one thing after another.
At least I was used to working in the kitchen. I had done my own cooking
in college, and Ellen and I had shared the work when I returned from
college. Now I found my movements restricted by my female underwear.
It was not long before the bra began to feel uncomfortable. When I
reached up to the top shelves, the shoulder straps hoisted the cups with my
breasts in them. Eventually the skin under the shoulder straps began to feel
tender. Also, I now found it difficult to bend at my waist or hips. Either
the bones of the damned girdle poked into my ribs if I tried to bend at the
waist, or if I tried to bend my knees more to compensate, the constraint of
the stretched rear garters hindered my movement.
Ellen was watching me." Careful how you bend. If your garters are too
tight you may rip your nylons."
I gritted my teeth.
Next, Ellen had me lay and serve supper, continually commenting on and
correcting my mannerisms and movements.
I tried desperately to do as she said, but I was getting more and more
frustrated and tired with her comments. Finally I, had had enough. I was
overwhelmed and I burst into tears. She rose and held me, patting my
back.
"Rachel, I'm sorry, I know its hard for you , but actually you are doing
very well. You are already moving a lot more gracefully than some
women." She wiped my eyes and kissed me on the cheek. She untied my
apron and led me to a soft chair.
"Why don't you sit down now, Rachel. I'll tidy up."
Thankfully, but remembering Ellen's instruction, I sat down carefully into
a chair, as gracefully as I could. Ellen nodded approvingly. My crotch
still felt exposed in the open girdle and dress. Automatically I crossed my
legs, and I heard the rasp of my nyloned legs rubbing together. I shivered.
It was a sound I had associated with women.
I smoothed the skirt of my dress. It slid easily over the smooth material of
my slip. Underneath my dress I felt the unaccustomed firmness of my
girdled hips. Exploring further down, I felt the girdle's taut lower edge in
my lap, and the hard ridges of the garters, tautly fastened to my stocking
tops, pulling imperiously on them. My knees felt smooth under the
stretched nylon of the stockings. I could also feel the bra holding and
lifting me. I wriggled my shoulders but it remained firmly in place. Its
embrace was not to be denied.
I tried to take stock of the changes in my life. I now looked like a girl. I
was dressed as one, I was even using a girl's name, but I certainly did not
feel like one. I knew I would still be attracted to girls. I might be able to
have girls as intimate friends, but if I now showed sexual interest, people
would think I was a lesbian. With the guys, I might still find it easy to talk
to them as if I were still a man, but to them , with my female good looks I
might be foremost only a female sex object. I wondered if I would be
stuck this way for ever. If I was, however would I manage ?
Ellen had finished doing the dishes and came through, wiping her hands
on the dish towel. She sat down beside me.
"Why the long face ?"
I tried to explain to her.
"I don't know, Rachel, but if the spell has made you into a woman, it
would be cruel if it did not change you mentally as well. Maybe it has to
take some time for the male hormones to leave your body. You look very
female, and I know you pee like one, so I bet everything is as a woman
should be internally too. So I expect you should now be getting a monthly
cycle with some good doses of female hormones from your ovaries. If I
was a psychologist I might have some fun studying the effect of your male
upbringing versus the effects of your female hormones." She saw my
mouth drop as another realization hit me.
" Oh yes! You should be thinking about that. If everything is working
okay, you will be getting a period sometime."
This was about the last straw, to be faced with the monthly fuss and
bother of female pads or tampons. I felt broken. I closed my eyes as they
filled with tears. Ellen lifted my chin up.
"Poor little sister," she said softly. "You are having a time of it." She
hugged me again. "A lot has happened, but I think it may improve."
She was suddenly brisk.
"Now, tomorrow, we'd better get into work sometime. There are a lot of
things to be done but first we will need to get some more clothes for you,
maybe in the morning. I'd better go with you. I'm sure you wouldn't have a
clue about what to get, or what might suit you, and I'm sure you want me
for moral support."
I nodded. "What will we do about paying for all of the stuff ?"
"Yes, I was coming to that." She got a piece of paper and a pen. "Try
signing your name as John Tully."
I did so, my signature was recognizable, but my writing now seemed to be
more rounded and feminine. Sadly, I shook my head."God, even my
writing is changing."
Ellen nodded." I wondered about that. Your signature is changing, but it's
still recognizable. You can write me a cheque for the balance of your
account. I will then deposit it in my account and in turn I can write a you
cheque in the name of Rachel Grant when you have started an account.
How much money do you have ?"
"About twelve hundred, but I was keeping it for emergencies. "
"And this isn't ?"
I grimaced. I had to agree with her.
"Tomorrow you can put your new stuff on my store account and pay me
back when you get your new bank account . Maybe you should also open
your own account with the store after you have established some credit.
You'll have to start gettting a complete wardrobe, and makeup, toiletries,
in fact, the works, all the stuff a woman uses."
I looked at her in exasperation, but she continued.
"Another thing, Roy will be back tomorrow night so I will introduce you
to him as Rachel Grant. Remember, you are supposed to be new here. You
are not supposed to have met him before. You will need to do some pretty
good acting with him, and others. For instance, the fiance of my friend
Lois is a cop. He's called Joe. You may meet him sometime, so remember
that cops have naturally suspicious minds.Also, you'd better move
tomorrow into the spare bedroom, and tidy up the room you are using.
Remember that supposedly 'John' has now left, so we should keep up the
pretense of it being his room for a month or so."
She was getting me worried, but my eyes were now getting heavy and I
had a sudden spell of yawning . "Sorry, Ellen , but I am beginning to feel
very tired." I rubbed my eyes.
"Yes," Said Ellen. " I think it's time for your beauty sleep. How did you
sleep last night ?"
"Not very well. I kept waking up."
" No wonder. Your life has been turned upside down. It must very
upsetting and confusing, to say the least." Her voice was tender. "Maybe
you should take another sedative. There are some left in the medicine
cabinet. I had them for when Mom died. I gave you one last night."
Ellen got me a sedative and a glass of water. When I had drunk it she took
my hand and led me to the bed room .
"Come on, I'll unzip you." She slid down the zipper on the back of my
dress and helped me undress. She handed me some cream and tissue.
"First, you should remove your makeup, unless you want it all over the
bed sheets."
I was about to put on a pair of shorts and a T-shirt, but she stopped me,
and rummaged through the packages."I've got something more suitable for
you here."
She unwrapped a long cotton nightdress and, before I could object, she
slid it over my head. "This is a nice practical nightie. Maybe you can get
something more glamorous later on." I was too tired to react and as she
tucked me into bed, I fell asleep almost instantly.
Bright sunlight was shining in my room when I awoke. I listened, but I
could not hear Ellen moving around. I eased myself out of bed and went to
the kitchen, the hem of my nightdress fluttering around my legs. Ellen had
left a note on the kitchen table. I read it.
"Good Morning, Rachel, you looked so sweet I decided to let you sleep. I
have gone to the store to do some urgent stuff, but I will be back at lunch.
So you should wash, and get dressed, etc. Maybe you can start tidying up
'John's' room. Love Ellen."
After breakfast and a shower, I began to think about getting dressed. For
several minutes I sat and, depressed, contemplated the pile of women's
clothing lying by my bed where I had left it. Swallowing, I began to put
the garments back on, cursing, in turn, the little hooks in the back of the
bra, the rigidity of the girdle, the twisting and fumbling to fasten the back
garters and the zipper at the back of the dress.
I was tidying up 'John's' room when Ellen came back. I looked at the
clock. It was about one o'clock.
" I expected you earlier. Do you want some lunch ?"
"Oh, no thanks! I already picked up a coffee and a hamburger. I'm sorry,
Rachel, I should have called you. Anyway, Roy called me and I've given
him the story that John has gone off to California, and that my cousin
Rachel, is visiting from Kentucky, so when you are talking to Roy, keep
with that story. I've done the most urgent stuff at the store so when you are
ready we can get off to the stores and find you some more clothes." She
stopod back and examined me. " You look fine. Get dressed okay ?"
I scowled at her. "Yeah, if you don't count the contortions doing up zips,
hooks and garters."
She laughed. " Well, if it makes you feel any better, you look quite good,
although I see you don't have any makeup on yet. I'll help you with it."
My heart sank. "Do I need to ?"
"Yes!" She was quite definite.
She sat me down at her dressing table and handed me her powder and
lipstick.
"All right, you can try it. It's daytime and with your nice complexion you
won't need much more than lipstick, maybe just a light touch of powder.
Anymore makeup in daytime and it has to be done carefully or it may
make you look a bit cheap."
I carefully applied the cosmetics to her direction. She nodded her approval
when I was finished.
" That's good, Now your wig." She handed it to me and I eased it over my
hair.
She adjusted it slightly and examined me. "That's fine. Now, do you want
to have lunch ?"
I shook my head. "I've just finished breakfast. I'm not hungry."
"All right, let's get going. It's fairly warm, and we are driving there, so you
won't need anything over your dress."
We were out the door and almost at the car when I had a sudden attack of
nerves. This was my first time out of the house dressed as a woman. It did
not help that a slight breeze was blowing up my skirt. I felt naked and
exposed. Ellen saw me hesitating, and squeezed my hand. "You really
needn't worry. Anyone seeing you will have no idea that you are anything
other than a woman, and an attractive one at that." Nevertheless, I wanted
to rush into the car in case anyone saw me.
Ellen still kept hold of my hand. "Take your time," she emphasized. "
You are a lady. Act like one. Another little lesson." She opened the
passenger door. " When you are wearing a skirt, especially if it is a tight
one, the best way to get into the car is to back in, slide your rear onto the
seat and then swing your legs round."
She parked the car outside one of the mall entrances ."Now, remember,
you are now completely a girl in appearance. No one will think anything
strange about you. If you attract any attention at all, it will be the normal
attention that men give to a good-looking girl, or maybe some women
will be slightly jealous of you. You really are quite pretty. Now, out we
get. Keep your head high and walk confidently."
I blushed and, taking a deep breath, got out of the car.
"Stand straighter," Ellen said." Hips forward. You are starting to slouch."
I followed Ellen through the glass doors. I momentarily panicked as the
breeze ruffled my skirt. After that I did not have nearly as much difficulty
as I expected. On the way to one of the department stores we passed two
men, and I knew they were giving me a quick visual onceover, but,
remembering what Ellen had said, I hurried on with her.
She caught my arm. "Did you see those guys ?"
"Yes, what about them?"
"They were checking us over." She giggled, but I felt humiliated.
"Relax," Ellen said, "Enjoy it." To my relief, apart from that, I mostly
only got a few disinterested glances from the other shoppers.
Ellen had an account at one of the big stores. The shopping took us almost
three hours. Ellen had shepherded me through the various departments in
the store. I was exhausted at the end, but I was finally outfitted and
accessorized to Ellen's approval. In fact we got loaded with so many
parcels and bags we had to take a trip out to the car and dump them in the
trunk before starting again. It seemed that I had got about one to three
samples of everything a woman might want to wear.
First, she had pushed me, blushing, into the foundation garments
department, and rounded up one of the saleswomen to get me personally
fitted. After an hour in this alien territory, I had got out with two more bras
and two more girdles. She had insisted I get yet another in the high
waisted style I was already wearing, but she relented at my complaints
and instead she allowed me to get another in a lower waisted style on the
condition I also got an all-in-one garment she called a corselette. Next,
trailing me in her wake, she ploughed through the racks selecting a
houseco