Author's note: This story was written in the 1980's, way
before 'Billy Elliot' saw the light of day!
BILLY, THE BOY BALLERINA
By Sylvia Who?
1. Billy Liar
"Bye, bye Billy!" Melissa called cheerily as she closed the
front door behind her, trotting down the path to join dad
in the car for her trip to school.
Meanwhile, I was staggering down the stairs still half-
asleep after my early morning foray into the garden while
everyone else was still in bed. I could see mum out in the
garden collecting the still damp washing off the line as I
went into the kitchen to fix my breakfast. However the
sound of the letterbox rattling as the mail dropped on the
doormat had me scurrying to retrieve the large package
addressed to 'Miss Darcey Fielding', which I had been
desperately waiting for all week.
"Was that the postman Billy?" she called, so I promptly
stuffed my prize down the front of my trousers. "Yes Mum,
but it just looks like bills!"
I handed her the mail, quietly enjoying my little joke. I
was soon seated in the dining room watching the Big
Breakfast, tucking into my usual plate of cereal. I was
washing it down with the last of the milk as mother poked
her head round the door.
"That clothes line thief has stolen another pair of
Melissa's knickers! That's her white knitted crossover, she
keeps as a memento from her ballet days, a pink blouse, and
a pair of her frilly white socks all gone in less than a
month!" she sighed with frustration. "I can't understand
why it's always Melissa's things that are stolen, never
anyone else's, apart from the young girl three doors
along," she continued. At least that's what her mother
tells me."
"There must be a pervert prowling about who gets his kicks
out of stealing little girl's clothes," I responded but she
looked at me in horror.
"Where did you learn such talk Billy? You shouldn't know
about such things at your age! I'm a little worried about
you!"
"Sorry Mum, but we hear all sorts of rude talk at school
these days."
"Well, you shouldn't listen to such things and just walk
away."
'Great!' I thought, 'My pals think I'm sissy enough without
doing that!' But mother, having vented her disapproval had
gone off to get her breakfast.
"Who's used all the milk? Did you use it Billy?" she called
out as I gulped down the remains in my glass, hoping she
wouldn't notice.
"No Mum, I think Melissa took it." I could hear her fuming
away in the kitchen. She came in sitting down wearily with
a cup of white coffee made with powdered milk and a slice
of toast and marmalade.
"Are you going to ballet school tonight Billy?"
"No not tonight, just to the library on the way home," I
said. "I should back home around seven."
"Well it gets dark around then so be back before seven,"
she said biting into her toast. "Come to think of it you
always seem to go there but you never seem to get any
books. You don't have a schoolboy crush on the young
librarian with the pretty blonde hair, do you Billy?"
"No of course not!" I stammered, as my mind pictured the
dishy miss in question, My thoughts became intertwined
together with reading all the articles on my favourite
subjects ballet and one other that I would rather not
mention right now! Nevertheless, I used my feigned
embarrassment and my empty plate and glass as an excuse to
quit the room. I rushed upstairs to examine the contents of
my package, still tucked uncomfortably down the front of my
trousers.
"Yes. Yes. Yes!" I shouted with glee as my feverish hands
tore away the wrappings to reveal my first pair of ballet
'Pointes'. They'd taken a while to buy with all my savings
and money filched from my mother's purse. I examined them
closely and they were beautiful hand made creations, in
white satin, with the maker's name impressed into the
leather sole of each shoe.
My reverie was broken when mum called upstairs, "come on
Billy time for school, you'll be late again if your not
careful."
"I'll just be a second," I replied hiding them in my hidey
hole under the floor with all my other treasures.
I then dashed off downstairs and grabbed my schoolbag from
the sideboard. But in my haste I knocked a cut glass fruit
bowl to the floor where it smashed to smithereens, as Fred
our cat fled off in terror, mum rushed in to view the
damage.
Naturally I blamed the cat for the incident. I pecked good
old mum on the cheek and set out for King's School. Cock a
hoop at how easily I could fool my elders and evade
responsibility for my misdemeanours. As I sauntered slowly
towards school I remembered the recent pattern of events
that had led me to acquire my very own ballet blocks.
Melissa, my 14 year old older sister had been attending
ballet classes at Madame Olga's since for as long as I
could remember. Then last month she had suddenly packed it
in. I presumed she'd done that because she'd developed an
intense interest in swimming, thanks to Dad's decision to
build a small indoor pool onto the house.
I was bitterly disappointed by her sudden decision, because
through her I'd established a keen interest as she'd
unwittingly passed on to me many of the ballet skills and
nuances that she'd learnt over the years. Although I was
supposed to be just a casual observer I took a keener
interest during her frequent practices in our games room
than she realised. When invited I joined in with her as and
when invited but it was always in childish fun and not
seriously.
Melissa had also accumulated a sizable selection of ballet
videos, which I could secretly view to my heart's content.
It included my favourite ballet called 'Little Rascals'
that enjoyed watching again and again. I never missed the
end of term concerts and the visits of touring ballet
companies in nearby Henley, our local town.
Unbeknown to everyone else in the family, I was diligently
practising on my own account in the disused sun house at
the bottom of the garden. There with only the apple trees
of the small orchard for company I practiced often even
pressing into service an old wooden clotheshorse as a
makeshift 'barre'. Thanks to my deep interest and despite
being two years younger I was just as accomplished as my
sister.
However as time passed, I wasn't just happy dancing like
her, I felt like I wanted to be her when I danced
Incredibly out of the sight of prying eyes and over two
long years, I was able to play the part, almost to my
complete satisfaction.
2. An Unselfish Act!
When I got home from school, Melissa was in the middle of
one blazing row with mum.
"I never ever want to see another pair of ballet shoes
again," she shouted down the stairs.
"But why dear, you enjoyed it so much?" asked mum trying to
get her to reconsider.
"I realised that I have just done it to please you,"
Melissa screamed, "well I want my own life."
"But you were so good, why waste all those lessons?" Mum
pleaded.
"No Mum, my mind's made up I dumped all my ballet stuff in
a skip at the end of the road last week. I'm not going
back!" she said crying.
"Melissa how could you do that?"
"Easy because I don't want to waste any more time trying to
be something I wasn't cut out to be," she wailed.
"Darling you had talent, your teacher said so."
"No Mum, if you want a ballerina in the family Billy can be
it!" Melissa said. "It wont be me."
Although the argument ended I could see Mum was really
upset and disappointed at this change in Melissa. Her view
of the future, real or imagined was that she had mapped out
a career in dancing for her only daughter.
Over dinner, Dad backed Melissa by telling Mum, "Just let
Melissa go and let her enjoy spare time in any way she sees
fit."
"Easy for you to say," said Mum unhappily.
"Look dear as long she's not going out with pushy
boyfriends or she's not into drugs or she isn't ill then I
don't mind what she does. So long as she's happy okay," he
said.
Mum nodded reluctantly.
Of course I was upset too, so in a gallant gesture I then
selflessly offered myself up as the sacrificial lamb on the
altar of mother's driving ambition by going along with
Melissa's suggestion.
"Let me take her place in the ballet class," I suggested.
"That's very noble of you, Billy, but you don't know
anything about ballet," she replied.
My father just doubled up with hysterics at my idiotic
remark.
"Oh yes he does Mum, he's quite accomplished, I've seen him
when he practiced with me," said Melissa jumping in hoping
I would take over her unwanted role with our Mother.
However all that did was to make Dad laugh more and more. I
heard his mocking laughter as it pursued me up the stairs
to my bedroom. I wasn't going to wait for him to say
anything as I ran up to my room deeply upset. I wept the
rest of the evening away and was awake so I could hear my
parents still arguing over my suggestion through the
bedroom wall that separated us.
"Look here Laura, I don't want my son taking any sissy
ballet lessons," he said angrily. "He's never done it
before and I really don't want him starting now!"
"Why?" she asked, "So it makes you less of a man?"
"You know what I mean," he said. "In any case, he's too old
to take it up! He can't be very fit, he's never been any
good at sports and we always have to write notes about him
being excused from doing sports at school."
But mum was now taking cudgels up on my behalf, "Now listen
Harry, boys are advised not to attempt ballet exercises
until much older than girls. So why shouldn't he? At least
he can try if what Melissa says is true. You said Melissa
could spend her spare time pleasing herself what she did,
within reason that is. So why not Billy?"
Dad piped up, "That boy knows exactly how to twist you
around his little finger!"
"His last report card was good and he helps around the
house, so why not?"
"Laura he isn't interested in ballet," said Dad
exasperatedly. "Remember when I took him fishing, how he
wanted his own rod and then when I bought it he didn't go
back?"
"Yes I remember that you pushed him into doing something he
didn't want to do," she replied. "For once this is
something he wants to do."
"Come on Laura, he just wants to become more of a mummy's
pet than he already is! I don't know what his reasons are
but I don't trust him!"
I don't know what mum hit him with, but dad let out quite a
howl before slinking off to sleep in the spare bedroom!
Mum obviously won the day as usual. For the following
Saturday afternoon, after the other pupils had gone home
from their lessons, mother duly presented me to Madame Olga
for an impromptu audition.
So with Madame Olga playing the piano and me wearing one of
Melissa's old one piece swimsuits, a discarded pair of her
ballet slippers that Mum had found in her cupboard and I
stood waiting anxiously.
I didn't want to give too much away. I played along with
the barre work, and some basic floor exercises for at least
20 minutes. While I stood getting my breath back I could
tell that Madame was impressed at how polished my
performance had been.
"If you're serious Billy then I can see no reason why you
shouldn't take the place of your sister. You'll have a lot
of catching up to do," she said standing up and walking
towards me with her hand outstretched.
As we shook, mum was ecstatic when I was accepted in
Melissa's place.
"It's a great pity Melissa gave up her efforts to become a
ballerina Mrs. Fielding, but hopefully, young Billy will
take her place instead!"
So while mum went off to see about changing the name in the
application, Madame sat beside me as I changed. She asked
me discreetly, "Where did you learn to dance like that?
You've been dancing on your own, haven't you Billy? I'm
most impressed you're very fit and your small frame means
you almost a natural feminine grace."
The gravity of Madame's remark may have escaped mother, but
it certainly wasn't wasted on me. I gave a big 'hooray' to
that!
Mum stopped by a shop on the way home and bought me all the
necessary male ballet clothing and shoes on the list the
school had given her and on the following Wednesday evening
I began my first proper lesson.
That didn't worry me so much as the rest of the first year
boys at school who found out about my lessons from Rod
Carter whose sister was in my class at ballet lessons.
I remember that Thursday morning well as I had to put up
with some cruel jokes and back thumping until the bell went
at 9am. Then it went on at break and again at lunch. By
home time I was very unhappy, I'd been involved in two
fights and was nursing a cut lip and a black eye.
As I walked home I was glad it was over for the day and I'd
given two of my assailants bleeding noses. Thankfully, just
name calling and ridiculing from some of the boys became
the order of the day after that, but Tom and James; my best
friends still stood by me.
During the next few days I kept on thinking about my newly
acquired treasures waiting for me at home. A pair of
Melissa's flowery knickers and my very own ballet blocks!
Despite the snow laden skies, I stopped on the way home to
purchase four yards of inch wide white satin ribbon and
some white cotton wool. With no one around, I began the
laborious task of reinforcing the toes of my blocks with
cross stitching and sewing on the four satin ribbons.
As I sewed, I remembered the private conversation I'd had
with Madame Olga a few days earlier. I'd plucked up the
courage to ask her if I could wear ballet blocks and do
some 'en Pointe work with the girls to get a feel for it.
She looked me up and down sharply saying, "You should know
by now Billy, that boys aren't built like girls. It's out
of the question! It's hard enough getting enough boys
interested in ballet as it is. You can't all be girls,
furthermore, you want to run when you can barely walk!"
Despite my tearful pleadings, she was adamant, refusing to
be moved on the issue, and that was the reason I'd decided
to set up an agenda all of my own. So wearing just a pair
of ballet pumps, (suffering considerable pain and
discomfort) I had secretly practised my en Pointe work. My
beribboned blocks would now make the task to emulate my
sister that much easier!
It took quite some time to complete the sewing job and I
eventually finished just before my lesson on Saturday
morning such was the care I took. I had to undress,
hurriedly change into my practice gear in order not to be
late for my lesson. I grabbed my ballet bag on the way out,
stuffing my ballet blocks into my coat pocket for the
twenty-minute walk to ballet school. On the way I gave Mrs.
Kelly, that nosey neighbour of ours, a cheeky grin as I
passed.
3. Caught Out!
During the lesson Madame congratulated me on my barre work.
"Well done Billy, you are making so much progress."
However, on hearing this, Diana, her daughter who was
working next to me at the barre, made her feelings quite
clear that she didn't approve of my encouragement from her
mother. Much taller, she looked down disdainfully at me
before rushing out of the lesson with the others. But, then
she was even more of a 'madam' than her mother, so that was
no great surprise. She certainly didn't have any time
whatsoever for us boys. She was always adopting a snooty,
superior 'holier than thou' attitude in our presence.
With the class dismissed, I dived off well away from the
other dancers, grabbed my bag and coat from its hook in the
boy's tiny changing room. My plan was to dash down the
corridor to the back of the building where unobserved I
would hide in the props store. There was a huge wicker
basket in the corner of the room and I climbed in amongst a
mass of brightly coloured, elaborately decorated ballet
tutus. As I closed the lid behind me, I sniggered at the
thought that the girl's costume basket sometimes didn't
only contain ballet tutus!
I recalled the occasion when I first looked in there after
I had gone to watch Melissa in class. While she was
changing I'd discovered the room and had the idea of
looking at the costumes again.
I could hear the voices in the other rooms and it was very
difficult not to laugh or sneeze with the stiffened nets
constantly tickling my face and body. I was about to sneeze
but managed to suppress it when I heard someone enter the
room to apparently check that it was empty and then moments
later I heard the key turn in the front door. There were
shouts of, "see you next Wednesday girls." and then, "you
did very well Marcia!" Then there was silence followed by
Madame's old car starting up.
I quickly scrambled out of my hiding place and went over to
the second hand costume box and selected a practice outfit.
Then with frantic speed and some excitement, I stripped off
my white singlet, black pumps, white socks, black ballet
tights, and finally my white pants.
Then I took out Melissa's knickers from my bag and put them
on. I found some pink tights and after three goes found a
pair big enough and hole free to fit me. With myself
arrayed in the pair of pink tights, I put on a blue
practice dress with a tiny multi layered net tutu skirt,
and Melissa's stolen white knitted cross over which I tied
in a bow at the back.
I sat down on a chair to try on my brand new satin ballet
blocks. As I laced up the ribbons around my pantyhose
covered legs I was in sheer heaven! It felt odd moving in
the blocks after using pumps but next I headed for a long
blonde wig resting on a shelf in the back of the room. I
removed the polyethylene bag cover and looking in a small
mirror I'd brought expertly placed it on my head. I combed
out the tangles with a tail comb and tied my new hair back
with a blue Alice band.
Now I was finally ready for my 'grande entrance' but
instead I just scurried down the corridor back towards the
practice studio like a frightened rabbit. I revelled at how
daring I was dressed as a female ballerina venturing into a
now familiar place but in a different and exciting role. I
halted briefly to wipe my blocks in the rosin box, then
onwards into the studio, my heart pumping away with fear
and pleasure in equal measure.
'Yes, she was there again,' I smiled at the reflected girl
in the vast expanse of mirrored glass, the delightful
creature that filled up my dreams. I strode purposely
towards the practice barre carefully pointing my toes as
I'd seen Melissa and the girls do to repeat my warm up
exercises before trying out my new 'pointes'.
Within 10 minutes I was practising at centre: developes to
arabesques, sissonnes, pirouettes, even disastrous grande
jetes, but it was so much more enjoyable and comfortable on
blocks than when wearing sanitised linen pumps. I was that
prima ballerinas who had a huge smile of satisfaction on
her face reflected in the mirror and felt wonderful.
I was halfway through a port de bras when suddenly I saw
the door open behind me, and in walked Diana! I turned to
face her as she slowly paced the room a broad smirk on that
snooty face of hers as I stammered, "I thought everyone had
gone home."
She just ignored my irrelevant remark, "Ah so you are the
new girl here! Mummy will just love to have such an
obviously talented ballerina in her school, and oh such a
pretty one too. That's a real bonus!"
At that moment I caught sight of myself once again in the
mirror behind her, but this time the ballerina was no
longer confident and poised. She was now just trying to
pretend to be something she wasn't. She was nervously
fingering the hems of the dress, worried uncertainty etched
on her face, as she was about to be openly taunted by her
worst enemy.
"I just love your ballet dress dear, where did you get it?"
But the 'frog princess' couldn't even raise a croak,
standing there waiting for the next assault on my
sensibilities.
"I just loved your pas de bouree pique, it was so elegant I
could hug you to death!" She was now sauntering around me
as I stood flat footedly fixed to the spot watching her
circle me. Diana's face a picture of triumph while mine was
low.
"We have a boy called Billy in class who thinks he can
practise 'en pointes', but he can't and he never will!"
"Umm," I stuttered but found my voice, "but Diana, I'm
Billy and I can do it! You just saw me do it!"
"But you can't be Billy, Billy went home ages ago, I saw
him myself! Besides he certainly wasn't dressed in a girl's
regulation practice outfit the way you are," she giggled
slightly but confidently as she then held out my coat,
which she'd carried into the room. I tried to speak but she
continued.
"But Billy seems to have forgotten his coat when he left,
so you may as well borrow it!" she said leading me to stamp
my foot in frustration.
"I am Billy, you stuck up bitch!"
"Tut tut little girl such language from one so young and
dainty as you! Aunty Diana will have to put you over her
knee and smack your cute little botty!" She really had me
on the ropes now as tiny teardrops began to form, and run
down my scarlet cheeks. "There there, don't cry pet, I'll
let you borrow my old furry lined coat instead of Billy's,
since it's started to snow outside, and sensitive little
girls like you won't want to wear smelly boy's things."
With the tears welling up inside me I decided the best form
of defence would be a tactical retreat.
"Gulp! Well Diana, I'm ready to leave now, but as you can
see I must go and change." With the element of surprise, I
dashed out of the studio, and down the corridor to the
props room. However Diana had out thought me as I
discovered the locked door with my bag and clothes still
inside. Although I tried to force the door open with my
shoulder, it wouldn't give, and as I turned round I found
Diana standing behind me.
"Yes, we will have to leave now Wendy," she said, "I know
you don't mind me calling you that! But I have to lock up!"
"I do mind!" I snarled but I dug a bigger hole with my next
statement. "My name is Darcey when I'm dressed like this!"
My face went ashen at my naive admission, which pleased
Diana no end, so I wailed, "But I can't go home dressed
like this!"
"Well all the other girls do, so why should you be so
different and object, so now 'Darcey', why don't you
'Bussell' off home!"
"For a start I'm not a girl, as you well know, and I want
my proper clothes back!" I said trying to be threatening.
"Really," she said. "From where I'm standing you look like
a girl, you dress like a girl, you sound just like a girl,
you dance like a girl and you cry like a girl, so don't be
so bashful, just put on my furry coat and we can walk home.
There's a good girl!"
"I won't!" I blazed, stamped my foot in anger and then
pulled wig off my head. "You can go to hell! I want my
clothes back!"
My cheek stung as Diana slapped me hard across the face, as
she replaced my wig on my head and retorted, "You do as you
are told or else!"
With the tears streaming down my face, I took her royal
blue coat with its white furry hood and as I slid it round
my shoulders. Before I could find the armholes, Diana had
zipped it up the front trapping my arms by my sides before
bending down and sliding a pair of woolly leg warmers over
my pink coloured legs.
"There now that wasn't too bad, was it?"
She stood up and taking me firmly by the arm, escorted me
down the corridor and out into the half light of the
street, locking the door behind us.
There was no escape for me now. I was committed to an
embarrassing confrontation with either Mum or Dad or both
unless I could figure out a way of getting to my room
unobserved. Maybe I could outrun her but with my arms
inside the coat that made that difficult.
"I'll just make sure you get home safely Wendy," she said
leading me down the cold busy streets on the way home.
People would stare but then I was dressed as a girl and it
wasn't me but at the powder blue tutu poking provocatively
from beneath Diana's coat. If anything I was more worried
about how my new ballet pointes would be affected by the
snow. I could see that despite the snow they weren't
getting wet and there was no slush to ruin them.
So I startled several pedestrians as I waddled and slipped
flat footedly alongside her in the thin coating of snow.
As we neared my home I stopped and faced Diana, my teeth
chattering in the cold," Diana I think I can make it from
here, it's snowing quite hard Diana and it's further out of
your way."
But she wasn't going to take the bait, "No young lady. I'm
going to make sure you don't try to sneak in the back way!"
So I continued to plod my way towards home in the safe
custody of Diana, who was so much taller and stronger than
me. As we went in the gate, I could see the lights were on
in the house and the car was in the driveway. I tried to
stall because I knew everyone was home including my sister.
However Diana strode purposefully with me in tow up the
steep steps to the front door, rang the bell, and pushed a
plastic shopping bag she was carrying into the frozen
fingers of one of my trapped hands.
"There you are home safe and sound," she whispered in my
ear before she beat a hasty retreat down the road as Mother
opened the front door and I immediately squeezed past her.
"Sorry Mum, I forgot my key," I shouted on the run and I
made a beeline for the stairs.
"Billy! Is that you? Come back here at once!" she commanded
and I stopped on the first step of the stairs, turned and
padded back towards her wishing the ground would just open
and swallow me. However there was no such luck as Melissa
appeared at the kitchen door to see what was going on.
"Now come in the kitchen sonny Jim, we want a word with
you!" said mum "What on earth are you wearing that for?"
Melissa sniggered as Mum continued, gesturing at Diana's
coat and its white furry hood framing my cold bright red
face.
"Take it off!" she commanded.
"But Mum, I'm cold!" I whined not wanting to be exposed.
"Where is your coat, Billy?" snapped mother impatiently,
"And where are your new shoes?" asked Melissa as she looked
down at my white satin blocks. "Oh my word blocks!" Then
her eyes opened even wider at the sight of my pink ballet
tights and the short flimsy powder blue tutu peeping from
beneath Diana's short coat.
"Get that coat off now!" barked Mum as the tears began to
stream down my cheeks.
"I can't, my arms are trapped inside!" I cried helplessly,
tears dripping down my cheeks in shame.
Melissa could now see the predicament I was in, so she
obligingly unhooked the zip fastener as the coat slid from
my shoulders, to reveal her white crossover and the rest of
my practice outfit in all its female glory! Mum then
grabbed me by the scruff of the neck and amidst loud
laughter from Melissa I was frog-marched into the lounge
where Dad was busy reading the evening paper.
"Here he is Father, he's all yours!" Dad looked up from the
paper at the sound of Mum's voice and a look of disbelief
spread over his face. I don't think he could quite
understand what was going on.
"What the devil are you wearing a girl's wig for Son?" He
threw down the paper, jumped up but when he caught sight of
my powder blue tutu, he staggered back into his chair in
shock!
"I," I started to speak in defence but nothing came out.
"What are you doing in that outfit?" he asked. "Oh God
Laura it's a girl's outfit!"
"Why do you think I brought him in to see you," said Mum.
"Do something!"
"I always said you would end up a pansy!" said Dad staring
at me his eyes were blazing mad.
"Billy's a Jessie," said Melissa from the doorway behind
me. 'Thanks Sis,' I thought, 'just what I needed.'
"I was right, ballet lessons!" yelled dad, "That's only for
sissies and girls and now look at him, he is one! I can't
bear to look at you!" Then turned his back in disgust and
walked towards the fire deeply upset.
"Where is your ballet kit?" asked mother as in between sobs
I tried to explain.
"Umm. We had fancy dress at ballet class today," I lied.
"All the boys had to dress up as girls and I left my gear
behind because we didn't have time to change back."
My lie wasn't helped when my mother opened up the plastic
bag she was carrying to discover all my clothes inside.
"Well not only is he dressed like a girl he's also a liar
because his coat, clothes and ballet gear are right here in
this bag."
I tried to collect my thoughts, "But I was forced to wear
these clothes!" I wailed, feeling hopelessly trapped in my
alter ego.
"But surely Billy, the girls wouldn't do that to you, and
in any case, why didn't you change before you came home?"
she asked but before I could think of a reply she
continued.
"After all, your lesson finished over an hour ago, unless
of course you flew into the library dressed like that! I'm
quite sure your young librarian friend would have been most
impressed!"
But even I could tell my parents were neither laughing nor
joking, I had taken the bait and was now in big trouble.
They no longer had amused smiles on their faces as they
continued their questions.
"Have you ever stolen anything Billy?"
"No Mum, of course not!" I spluttered, feeling hotter by
the minute.
"Do you tell lies then Billy?" asked Dad.
"No! Never!" I answered defiantly.
"Perhaps Mrs. Kelly next door tells lies then?"
"How do you mean Mum?" I asked groaning inside under this
onslaught.
"Well Mrs. Kelly said she saw you take Melissa's white
ballet jumper and her knickers off the line this morning,
is that true?"
"No of course not Mum, why should I do such a thing?"
Mum's eyes gleamed with triumph "Perhaps then young man,
you would kindly explain why you are wearing her crossover
right now!"
"This isn't her jumper Mum, it's somebody else's," I lied
again.
4. 'Punished!'
Meanwhile, Melissa, standing behind me moved closer and
turned back the neck of the garment to reveal a nametag.
"Here it is Mummy, my name tag!" she exclaimed showing Mum
the name.
"You've been telling us a pack of lies Billy," said Mum,
"not only are you dressed like a freak but you are also a
thief and a liar. I cannot trust you any more!"
This revelation had dad once again on the offensive as he
turned around from the fire. He strode across the room
towards me and bawled, "You little fairy, go to your room
this minute and get to bed there's no food for you tonight,
and take this with you as reminder at how disappointed I am
with you!" Then he landed me a powerful slap across the
face that sent me reeling.
The floodgates opened and I burst into tears, wailing and
crying uncontrollably. I turned and walked past Melissa and
then rushed into the hall, up to my room and threw myself
on the bed crying unmercifully. I was still crying when Mum
and Melissa came upstairs ten minutes later and despite
still being angry, sat alongside me on the bed as they
tried to comfort me as best they could.
After I had calmed down mum began to explain the
seriousness of the situation.
"Your Dad is furious with you for stealing, which is a
phase boys tend to go through, but he is even more upset by
your lying! Why didn't you tell the truth Billy?"
"I tried to Mum, but it seemed such an easy way out," I
replied simpering away still feeling my face on fire.
"I also know you've been inside my purse and stole money
and although father doesn't know, it makes me equally as
mad!"
"I'm sorry Mum, but I was desperate to buy my first
blocks."
"But little boys don't wear blocks Billy?" was Melissa's
comment as mother reinforced her argument by gently patting
me on the butt, "they're only meant for girls."
"But I like wearing them," I tried to explain. "I love to
rise up and try to defy gravity."
"Well look where your defying gravity has got you," she
replied.
I turned around and could see dad standing in the doorway,
reflected in my dressing table mirror as he contemplated
the feminine looking creature arrayed on the bed. I was
dressed in the flimsiest of attire in shades of pinks and
pale blues, my feet encased in the daintiest of footwear,
my ankles trapped in delicate bonds of white satin ribbon,
lying prone across the bed, with my face obscured by the
golden tresses of a long blonde wig.
I wondered what was going through his mind. Maybe he was
coming to terms with the fact I was just a bit 'odd' or at
least he was trying to create some sort of sense out of my
home grown fantasy. It didn't end there as mum suddenly
appeared from my dressing room holding a black bin liner
bag.
"After Mrs Kelly's information we put two and two together
and decided to look in your room," said Mum. "Now can you
explain this strange assortment of female clothing we found
in the back of your closet? Some of this is your sister's,
but we have no idea where the rest has come from!"
She said sitting down and dumping the bag beside me, "have
you been stealing from the neighbour's washing lines?"
"Please Mum," I said slowly feeling very uncomfortable. How
much worse could it get?
"You don't have to say anything now Billy but you'll have
to explain yourself to Madame Olga in person tomorrow
morning," she said wondering why they didn't make me squirm
some more. Then my parents then decided to leave while
Melissa eagerly stayed on behind to do some more digging
into my odd behaviour.
"You know, you look really sweet in that outfit Billy," she
said sitting on the bed beside me. "No wonder you wanted to
go to ballet lessons in my place, you look quite convincing
as a girl, you're an absolute doll!"
Following my sister's comment, I sat up on the bed and
wiped my eyes, "Do you really mean that?" I blurted out
without really thinking as she looked into my tear stained
eyes.
"There have been times when I would loved to have had a
little sister to play with instead of a brother when I was
younger, so if you keep all this sissy stuff going, perhaps
I will get my wish after all."
"But I only dressed like this so I could practice the
girl's parts in my ballet lessons." I said weakly in
response.
"You might say that Billy and it might look that way to Mum
and Dad," she continued kindly, but then added firmly, "How
does that explain all the other girl's stuff you've
collected in your closet and other places we haven't
discovered?"
My mouth dropped, trust Melissa but she wasn't finished
yet.
"After all you wouldn't wear a girl's nightdress like this
one to ballet class, or a school girl's blouse, or a St.
Mary's School pinafore dress, now would you?" she asked and
I was beaten when I remembered the night I'd filched that
from our neighbour's washing line a few month's earlier.
"Then what about all these grown up ladies knickers and
slips?" she asked.
"Umm. I found them in a skip"
"Now Billy, enough of the lies, you've stolen them all from
clotheslines!" she stated.
"No Melissa please," I pleaded but she was in full flow.
"Billy I know what's wrong with you, but I need to ask you,
is it because you would like to be a little girl who grows
into a big lady?" she asked.
"No of course not!" I stammered as Melissa read the truth
through all my lies.
Just then Mum came back in through the door with a supper
tray. "Your Dad has relented, so you won't go hungry after
all," she said setting it down on the bed beside me. While
you're eating, I can tell you about the phone conversation
Dad has just had with Madame Olga's husband, Mr Somers."
"What did they decide?"
"Although you're father doesn't agree with him, Mr Somers
thinks that the shame of attending ballet lessons as a girl
should nip all this in the bud," she said. "However I think
it's going to teach you to stop lying and get all this
dressing as a girl out of your system."
I ate in silence and wondered if that was much of a
punishment.
"It seems that Diana was very impressed by your dancing,
and she told her mother that you could make a wonderful
ballet dancer," said Mother ploughing on but saving the
best for last. "Your dancing abilities don't excuse your
stupid and irresponsible behaviour, and her mother also
feels you should be punished!"
Suddenly I choked on a mouthful of food and began coughing
and spluttering all over my ballet clothes. I rushed to the
bathroom to avoid being sick and to clear up the mess. As I
returned minus my ballet outfit, the meaning of Mum's
statement slowly sank in.
Sure enough, that call had sealed my fate and mum told me
that I would dress up as a girl for my confrontation with
Madame Olga in the morning in order to return her stolen
ballet dress!
Dressed just in Melissa's knickers, I was surprised when I
found that mum had lifted a pink cotton nightdress that I'd
stolen from my cousin Amanda and asked me to come close.
She lined it up against me and said, "a good fit! What do
you think Melissa?"
There was an evil smirk on Melissa's face as mother looked
at her and she nodded her approval. At that Mum just lifted
it up and told me to lift my arms up so I could insert them
in the sleeves.
"There now a good fit," said Mum as she lowered the garment
carefully over my head and fussily arranged the frilled
neckline to sit properly upon my bare shoulders. I went to
try to remove the wig that was still on my head.
"We don't want to disturb those golden tresses, now do we
darling?" she said surprising me slightly, "You look so
cute in that night dress almost like a second daughter."
"Can I take this wig off, my head itches?" I asked.
"No just leave it where it is," said Mum. "Get into bed."
"Yes we might superglue it in place," threatened Melissa.
Such a threat soon had me doing as I was told, and without
a moment's hesitation I jumped into bed and my mum tucked
the duvet all round me.
"Now there's a good girl," she said as though she meant it,
"You'd best get some beauty sleep, goodnight sweetheart!"
They both kissed me on the cheek and put my light out
leaving me in total darkness as I heard them quietly
sniggering together while they walked off down the hall.
"Maybe Billy will take your place after all," said Mum,
"looks like she's going to have to do it for the next week
at least."
"Well I am going to have such fun with a sissy little
bother," Melissa said as a parting shot as they retreated
down the stairs leaving me to ruminate over an uncertain
future. I couldn't help blaming Diana and her meddling,
everything was going great until today, now my pre-
occupation with things feminine was general knowledge and
was I going to be humiliated for it!
5. 'An eventful morning!'
"Wakey wakey sweetheart!" said my Mum the following morning
as she with Melissa in tow, bustled noisily into my room.
"To save your blushes in front of dad, we've brought you
breakfast in bed."
I sat up as she placed the tray in my lap and then she then
disappeared into the bathroom to run my bath.
"I've laid out the clothes you're going to wear on your
dressing room chair. Thankfully all the cold weather has
gone so you can wear one of Melissa's pretty dresses to
Madame Olga's.
As I glanced down at the golden tresses tickling my bare
shoulders, and cascading over the lacy top of the
nightdress I was wearing, panic suddenly set in. "But Mum,
you don't really expect me to go to Madame Olga's dressed
as a girl do you?"
She emerged from the closet with my stolen tutu and she
smiled wistfully at Melissa, "I always imagined having two
daughters around the house! Now it looks as though my dream
is about to come true, albeit briefly."
Melissa was happily dressed in jeans and a short sleeve
white blouse, so while I brushed my teeth she scooted off
downstairs with my tray while mother stayed behind to help
me get dressed in Melissa's freshly laundered dress that
now laid across a chair in my bedroom.
"Take your nightdress off Billy, and slip into these."
I did as I was told and stood in a pair of Melissa's white
flowered cotton panties. The kind that the boys at school
would deliberately attempt to ogle by following the girls
up the staircase into school. Of course I had done it too,
craning my neck to peep up their skirts but I certainly
wouldn't be doing such a thing now that I was wearing them!
"The trouble with girl's dresses is when the fabric loses
its crispness, you need to wear a starched cotton slip to
give your dress some body. So hold your arms up for me now,
precious."
She held the garment above me and slowly lowered it down
over my head and arms. As the stiffened skirt descended and
the white lacy hem came to rest just above my knees, she
arranged the elasticated waistband comfortably round my
tummy.
"Do all girls have to go through all this fuss?" I enquired
"You'd best ask your sister what it's like to be a young
lady! She's older than you, and is growing rapidly, so she
has to contend with much, much, more." She replied.
However innocent little me didn't understand what she was
talking about!
"Sit on the bed, and you can put on your socks and shoes."
I looked in dismay at the short, white lacy socks that I
was expected to wear.
"But why can't I wear tights the same as Melissa does?" I
said groaning with disappointment.
"Do any of the girls of your age wear tights to school?"
she replied.
"No Mum!" I replied, biting my lip.
"Well girl, there's your answer!"
So I had to settle for the frilly topped white socks and
dinky black dolly shoes that Mum buckled on my feet. I was
wearing what Melissa would describe later as my 'Shirley
Temple' look.
Standing up, I looked over at the dress lying across the
chair. It was a short blue cotton dress with elbow length
sleeves, a Peter Pan collar and a ruche bodice. As she held
it up, I didn't need any encouragement to try the dress on
for myself. I felt quite happy as she buttoned it up at the
back. Before I turned towards the mirror for a preview, she
went to work with her makeup bag.
Five minutes later I stood still dreamily staring into the
mirror, having just had my first 'makeover ' when the door
swung open.
"Is she ready yet?" asked Melissa who dashed into the room
and gasped with delight as Mum finished tying my wig hair
into two bunches with two blue satin ribbons.
"She looks pretty as a picture, can I play with my new
sister?"
"No you don't Melissa, I've spent too much time getting my
new princess ready for her first outing for you to spoil
things for her now, and anyway, we are running late!"
The next moment I had the plastic bag containing my tutu
thrust into my hand before being propelled out of my
bedroom and along the corridor to the top of the stairs.
There I hesitated, suddenly aware of my father looking up
the stairs at my bare legs and goodness knows what else. He
shook his head as he witnessed the start of my humiliation.
Perhaps he was humiliated too. As I tried to walk down the
stairs, my legs turned to jelly as the realisation dawned
of how vulnerable I had become in my new role as a little,
innocent girl called Wendy.
Then I realised that my ordeal was about to begin and I
visualised what was in store for me in a quick fast motion
movie.
As I reached the front door with Mum holding my hand, I
realised that my second hurdle was just about to begin. It
would be a quick dash out to the car in full view of all
the neighbours. I was lucky that no one saw me hop and skip
into the back seat. My hair bouncing up and down as I went.
As I imagined sitting in the car catching my breath, I
realised that there was just a three minute drive through
the centre of town to Madame Olga's school. As the car
moved off, I wondered if any of my school friends would
spot me. I decided that I would slunk down in the back seat
as much as I could but I also hoped that with it being so
early in the morning none of them would be about.
Finally I was going to have to go past the hordes of senior
girls at ballet class and then to face up to the nauseating
experience of explaining away my stupid behaviour to Madame
Olga.
As I felt sick, I made a desperate grab for the banister
and my legs seemed to buckle under me and the tutu slipped
from my grasp and it quickly gathered speed as it tumbled
down the stairs into Dad's arms.
His face registered shock and horror, as he must have
thought I would be taking the same fast route. However I
regained my balance, and so with trembling legs and
gripping the handrail tightly for all I was worth, I clip
clopped unsteadily down the stairs. I was surprised when he
opened his arms and gave me a most unexpected hug.
"I thought you were a goner just then Billy!" he said as he
passed the tutu back to Mum.
"No Dad, I haven't fallen down those stairs since I was
three," I reminded him and that seemed to ease a sigh of
relief from everyone. It was Dad's generous hug that
restored my self-confidence, as he looked down at me and
held me at arm's length.
"Ahem!" he coughed suddenly nervous. "You look very nice...
In that dress... ahem!"
I lowered my eyelashes on to my hot glowing scarlet cheeks.
"Umm! Thanks Dad!" I replied smiling at his unveiled
compliment, which surprised us all!
"Thanks for that Dad!" said Mum as she kissed him on the
cheek goodbye.
"Race you out to the car," called Melissa happily to me.
"No more rushing around today for you young lady!"
reprimanded Mum. So Melissa took me gently by the hand as
dad opened the front door for us. Then as we skipped
daintily down the steps towards the car, we were brought to
an abrupt halt by the arrival of my best friends!
"Is Billy indoors, Melissa?" asked Tom as my confidence
took another tumble! But while the boys were talking to my
sister, I slipped quietly past them down the steps and out
into the car.
"I didn't see him indoors, do you know where Billy has
gone?" Melissa shouted and my backward glance of reproach
at my sister allowed the boys to read the guilty expression
on my face.
Recognition was immediate and James demanded, "Hey Billy,
why are you going out dressed as a soppy girl?"
Before I could answer, Mum had appeared on the scene and
spoke out to twist the knife even further. "He's being
punished, so that's the reason he's dressed as a girl,
isn't that right Billy?"
I nodded my head unhappily and John grinned impishly. "
Normally I would be grounded for a week for anything
serious but you must be in real trouble."
They chuckled uproariously at my discomfiture, "Perhaps it
won't be so bad and you'll be used to it with all the
ribbing you get at school for being a ballet boy."
"What's the frilly thing in the bag, Billy?" asked Tom
who'd spotted the ballet tutu I was carrying.
So mum kindly explained! "It's a ballerina's dress, Tom,
Billy stole it from ballet school to wear at home, so he's
now on his way to take it back to Mrs Somers in the car."
'I don't believe I'm hearing this,' I thought to myself, as
my friends looked me up and down just once more just to be
sure!
"We're taking this box to my uncle's house before going
over to the common to climb the old oak so perhaps you can
come along later?" asked James.
"Not dressed like THAT she won't!" laughed Tom.
Mum intervened as she took my tutu and before Tom could
protest shoved it in his arms "You may as well make
yourself useful Tom, you can carry Billy's tutu out to the
car for her."
"Err yes, Mrs. Fielding," was all the shocked and dismayed
boy could say as the other two sniggered quietly in the
background. As we got into the car they ran off as fast as
their legs could carry them to obviously spread the word
amongst their friends.
There wasn't much said in the car and Diana greeted our
arrival at Madame Olga's as she dashed over to the car. She
had a broad smile of welcome on her face as she excitedly
opened my door.
"Hi Wendy! I'm so pleased you came, let me take that from
you while you get out." She held my tutu as I climbed out
of the car, "My oh my, I love the dress!" she continued
warmly.
"Umm, it's only one of my sister's cast-offs," I replied an
admission that earned me a look of disapproval from
Melissa.
"Well, it's a very nice dress, for a boy to wear that is!
It really suits you, since you have such nice long legs!"
Diana took me by the hand, and led the way into the
building, Mother and my sister tagging along behind as we
trotted along the corridor past the dance studio, to tap
tap at the door of her mother's office, where Madame was
already waiting.
"Come in my dears!" she said, her voice boomed from inside.
I was surprised to see her husband Mr Somers, my head
master standing beside her as he looked strangely at me.
"Please sit down," she said pointing to the chairs in front
of her desk.
"So you are the thief that our daughter has told us so much
about?" Mr Somers asked.
I squirmed uncomfortably in my borrowed clothes under the
gaze of 4 females and Somers even though his quietly spoken
comment was a kinder than I had expected.
"Speak, girl, speak!" prompted Madame.
"Umm, Yes Mrs. Somers!" I stammered, unsure who to address
beneath Madame's icy gaze.
"I'm pleased to see that you are dressed as a girl, and may
I say, a very convincing one at that!" she said. "Your
mother's appearance indicates that your parents fully
support your punishment being meted out to you for
stealing. In fact, I believe you've brought back some of my
property."
I looked down to eye the white satin tutu, which I'd laid
on my lap and coughed uneasily before finding my voice
after a dig in the ribs from Mum. "Yes Madame, I'm afraid
it is."
"I hope you realise Billy, that a costume like that is very
expensive. Why even top ballet companies can't afford to
lose such a dress so why did you steal it?"
I fiddled with the plastic bag, as I recalled the pleasure
that wearing the dress had given me and now it was making
me feel so uncomfortable.
"Answer her Billy." Prompted Mum.
"Because, because I liked wearing it for my private
practice sessions Madame Olga," I said honestly blurting
out my true feelings for once.
However her eyes narrowed to slits, "I think the same would
be true for all my female pupils, and even some of the
boys. But only very special young ladies get to wear such a
dress in my school and in any case stealing is stealing!"
"I'm very sorry Madame, but I only borrowed it to find out
what it was like to wear it because I knew I would never
have the chance to wear such a beautiful ballet costume."
She stood up and paced up and down the office.
"Well young man, thank you for being so candid," she said,
"You have a point that as a boy you could never wear that
dress. However if you were a girl then it is perfectly
possible for you to do so and for this reason I have asked
you to come here today."
I looked at Mum and she at me.
"I have a proposal to put to you and it helps that you are
appropriately dressed for the role I have in mind, and that
you have your ballet kit with you."
Her face had now softened somewhat as she continued, "My
daughter Diana told me how impressed she was with your
unauthorized solo performance 'en pointe' last night, and
it seems that your sister is to be congratulated for
unwittingly encouraging you towards ballet."
My sister looked pleased at the honorary mention from her
former mentor as Madame Olga sniffed, "It's a great pity
Melissa passed up the opportunity I will be giving you
instead, Billy, or perhaps I should say Miss Fielding?"
Melissa's smile had now been replaced by a disapproving
scowl as I waited to hear what fate had in store as Madame
Olga continued and started her sales pitch.
"In three weeks time during the half-term holidays, our
senior class and their parents will be making the biannual
exchange trip to Madame Druon's ballet school near Paris.
This will include a visit to the Palais de Madelaine, and
the customary charity concert, featuring boys and girls
from both ballet schools."
She stopped pacing up and down and looked through the glass
screen and into the studio where Miss Jones was putting the
senior class through their paces.
"Unfortunately the Blake twins will be unable to join us on
this occasion, since their family is moving back to the
States early next week," she moving her head to the
movement of the dancers, "That places us in a bit of a
quandary."
My heart skipped a beat as I already guessed what was to
come next.
"I'd like to assess your capabilities and if you were to
succeed it would bring you on further as a dancer if you
had experience of the female movements," she said and I
listened to what she said in almost disbelief.
"The time is short and I would like you and Diana to be
assessed with the senior ballet class forthwith," she said
turning to face me.
I wanted to shout out, yes, yes, yes!" but instead I looked
at my mum quizzically.
"It's okay Billy you can do it," she said encouraging me.
"Okay Mum if you're sure," I said but inwardly feeling
delighted at this chance. I had trouble containing my fear
and excitement as Diana took me by the hand and led me away
towards the girl's locker room.
"Diana I can't go in there!" I said my voice quavering as
she walked towards the door. I hesitated slightly before
being hauled over the threshold and ordered to strip and
put on my practice tunic.
"Don't be so shy Wendy, you'll be treated just like one of
the girls, you'll see," she said leading me towards a bench
where I was ordered to sit down. "If you succeed and after
watching you last night I think you can, you'll be in our
team going to Paris."
"Yes Diana," I gulped.
"Just do as you're told and you'll be on the plane to Paris
with the rest of us," she said handing me an orange tutu to
wear. "Mummy said you should wear this."
Of course inwardly I was overjoyed at wearing such a dress
but outwardly I tried to show signs of reluctance and that
cause Diana to giggle at my obvious discomfort. Without
further ado she began to get undressed right in front of
me! I was about to follow her lead when there was a clatter
of platform shoes down the corridor and two of the senior
girls rushed noisily into the room.
They just gave me a cursory glance obviously not
recognising me and started to strip off at great speed. "We
thought we were very late but we can't be if you're still
changing," said the tallest girl to Diana.
"You are late because we are too, the class started 5
minutes ago," replied Diana pulling up her tights. "Come on
Wendy, hurry up girl," said Diana impatiently at me as I
sat unable to move. However her effort to make me change
had both Angela and Tracy looking at me curiously. I
watched them trying to put the face to a name, but it was
only as Angela started to remove her panties and she
glanced over at me that the penny suddenly dropped!
"I know who you are!" she exclaimed. "And I know what you
are not and that isn't a girl, you're Billy, Melissa's
younger brother!"
"My God so it is," said Tracy after she'd moved closer to
take a look.
"I knew there was something odd about you," said Angela
turning to complete her change.
"What are you dressed like a girl for, Billy?" asked Tracy.
"I. I. I.," I stammered as with three naked girls in my
field of view I was in no mental state to reply.
Diana explained the reasons behind my costume drama, "Billy
is going to be Wendy for the trip to Paris otherwise it's
going to be cancelled for another 6 months."
"You're kidding," exclaimed Tracy.
"No Billy and I will be replacing the twins so you can
still take the Paris trip," said Diana trying to make it
clear that we were doing them both a favour.
"Well I hope he can pull it off, I have been looking
forward to the Paris trip for months," said Angela. "If I
were you, I would get stripped fast or you'll find all the
girls in here helping you to do it."
"Yes you also don't want Madame on your case either," said
Tracey.
It was then I realised that I didn't have any choice and
they actually wanted me to play the part of a girl or their
trip would be in jeopardy. Then the three girls giggled at
my discomfort as they quickly continued to get ready for
the lesson.
I turned to Angela and asked her, "Please Angela would you
undo the buttons at the back? I just can't reach."
Angela stamped her foot in mock consternation, "Tut-tut!
Just like a girl! Always needing help with her clothes!"
The other two laughed as she undid the buttons down my
back, "shall I undo your bra too or can you manage that
yourself?"
"I can manage," I said undoing my arms from the sleeves and
starting to push the dress down past my hips.
"Wait till the French boys get a load of you Billy,"
laughed Angela. "Maybe your Mum will buy you something more
practical to wear for the trip."
"Like what?" I asked.
"Oh my top and floral pattern jeans, trainers and white
socks, much more practical and comfortable than dresses,"
she said pointing to her clothes lying across the bench.
That reminded me that I was the only one in the room who
had been wearing a dress and the others were all removing
jeans and T-shirts.
Five minutes later and I began to lace up my ballet shoes
as Diana called, "Come on Wendy."
She held the dressing room door as I eventually trotted out
to join the class wearing a classical ballet tutu and my
Pointes firmly secured in place with white satin ribbons.
It felt as though everyone was staring at me but they were
all busy doing exercises at the barre as we joined them.
"Places girls," she shouted as we found a place by the
barre.
"Come on Angela, Diana and the new girl, what's your name?"
"Wendy Miss," I replied stretching my knees joints.
"Well Wendy take up your position and follow the others
until you get the hang of it, and welcome aboard our team
of dancers," she said.
As I stretched I had a feeling as if I could conquer the
world! Until I looked up into the balcony where Madame Olga
and my family were watching.
With Miss Jones now playing the piano, I suddenly felt
extremely nervous so my ballet lesson was hardly a howling
success. However I tried very hard to emulate the movements
of the more experienced girls around me, particularly
Carlotta who was head and shoulders above the rest of us.
Her movements were so graceful and her interpretation of
the music was faultless. She was truly a natural dancer,
but she suffered from the fact that she not the most
beautiful girl in the school.
Eventually my enthusiasm and confidence returned but at the
cost of being warned not to try so soon after warming up.
So that helped me to relax even more and towards the end I
was confident of most of the moves and had learned several
new ones. I looked up at my family and Madame and they
rewarded me with a smile.
Just when I was beginning to give some good moves en
pointe, the lesson suddenly ended and the forty minutes we
had been on the floor was at an end. I felt comfortable
joining the rest of the girls in a deep curtsey before we
all trotted flat-footedly back to the changing rooms.
"This way Wendy," said Miss Jones leading me to her room.
As I entered I saw a bench and flopped down on it
exhausted. "Come on start getting changed I'll go and get
your clothes."
I undid the top and the tutu and was standing in my tights
and ballet shoes when she returned and Diana and Angela
were with her.
"Here put on your clothes, your mum and sister are
waiting," said Miss Jones.
"Yes Miss Jones," I said taking the garments and putting
them on before undoing my ballet shoes.
"Before you go," she continued as I dressed with Diana's
help. "I thought you should know that you've been picked to
go to Paris with the rest of the girls. You have a few
weeks to get ready but I'm sure we can hone all the rough
edges away in time."
"Really?" I asked.
"Yes really," said Diana, "the other girls are thrilled
that you're prepared to sacrifice being a boy so they can
have a great time in Paris."
"I'm doing what?" I asked.
"Oh did I say something wrong?" asked Diana, "Didn't they
tell you?"
"Tell me what?" I asked as she did up the buttons in the
back of the dress.
"You clot Diana," said Miss Jones, "you may as well tell
him now."
"Well Wendy, since you still appear to be a bit of a boy in
that girl's dress, your mum has agreed that you should
dress as a girl right up until after we get back from
Paris. So that means you'll need to wear a dress and skirts
to school for the next few weeks. And we want to help!"
I'd been really surprised that my transformation hadn't
prompted a more negative reaction from the other girls.
"But I'm a boy," I said.
"Well you don't look like one," said Diana as she finished
up my buttons. "The rest of your belongings are in the
dressing room and your Mum and sister are waiting."
So I followed Diana holding my shoes and ballet clothing in
my dress and shoes in what I assumed would be a terrifying
ordeal but in fact the girls were all very nice to me.
"Thanks Billy, I mean Wendy," said Carlotta she said almost
totally naked.
"Thanks Carlotta, you dance really well," I replied as I
made my way carefully across the room to my bag and other
belongings. I squeezed past young ladies in various stages
of dress and undress, as they prepared to go out and face
the world in their everyday clothes.
"Stop gawping Wendy and hurry up, your Mum's waiting and so
is mine," said Diana.
"Thanks Billy," said Elizabeth who was moving towards the
door with us.
"That's okay." I replied as if it was an everyday
occurrence for a boy to go ballet school and impersonate a
girl ballet dancer.
I tried to ignore the array of bare breasts and bottoms on
show all around me but it wasn't too easy, especially when
something weird caught my eye.
Two flat chested beauties were talking quietly together on
the bench next to the door when I could have sworn that I
saw things that didn't belong bulging their panties. As we
walked outside, I turned to Diana and talked about my
discovery. "There are others in there like me?"
"That's right, Jane and Pauline, they've been coming here
for years so you see you are in good company here," she
said. Just then they walked out in their day clothes their
padded brassieres pushing out their small chests and tight
jeans concealing their maleness and that made the two boys
indistinguishable from all the other girls. Was that in
store for me I wondered?
"Well you'd better make sure no one reads you either, those
two started here about 4 years ago as boys and now they are
adorable girls," she admitted.
"I believe you go to our school Wendy? We're both in the
same class but we're in the senior school. My name's Jane
Fleming, while this ugly cow here is Pauline!" Pauline
grimaced at her friend's joke as she slung her bag across
her shoulder.
"I, I," I stammered unable to ask them what I saw.
"We heard you are being roped into help us get to Paris,
that's very noble of you," said Pauline.
"Yes that's right," said Diana. "That's good so we can help
you get even better in the next few weeks."
As we walked back Diana as the only female was in jeans
while the three of us were in dresses. I looked at Pauline
and Jane and they seemed perfectly happy to parade outside
in very feminine dress. Both boasted matching purple and
pink minidresses, ribbons in their hair and puffed sleeved
blouses. The blouse material was semi-transparent