A Time to Every Season Part II
By Tigger
Copyright 2002, All Rights Reserved
Chapter 1: Audrey's Mom
Prudence Rockwell was, as Darla had discovered on the trip from
the airport to the hospital, a formidable woman in her own right
although not quite in Momma-Jane's class. Where Jane Thompson
dominated by some internal force of will, this woman commanded
attention and to some extent deference by her physical stature.
She stood over six feet tall in flats, and carried one hundred
and sixty-five very shapely pounds on her well toned and muscled
frame. She had bequeathed her dark hair and eyes to her daughter.
Her facial features were a bit too sharp and strong to be pretty,
but she was a striking woman whose wide mouth was quick to smile.
Darla decided she was going to like Audrey's mother, which was a
surprise since she'd been half-way to disliking her after the
doll tea party.
"I still can't get over seeing Rocky in such a femininely frou-
frou nightgown, Jane. You must be the miracle worker Ruthie said
you were," Prudence Rockwell said as she enjoyed her after dinner
drink in the formal sitting room. "Lord knows that since she got
too old for her governess, she has absolutely refused to consider
anything remotely girlie in the way of apparel."
"She doesn't have much choice," Jane said with a twinkle. "And
please, we call her Audrey now."
"I know," the taller woman said with a grin. "She told me and
asked me to use that name while she is here."
"Good," Jane said, pleased. "In any case, I have assured her
cooperation two ways now. One, she's promised to do as I say and
I think her sense of honor is very well developed. You've done
well there, Pru. Second, she wants to continue training very
badly and so long as you stick to your guns about not supporting
her at home, the only way she gets to train is to stay here and
follow my rules."
"Well, that seems to work. I was pleased that she cared enough
about Darla... err...Darryl... umm...what DO I call you when
you're not on duty?" Pru asked the youngest female-looking
person in the room. Audrey's mother knew about Darla's dual-
identity because she had been taken into Jane's confidence before
Audrey was accepted at Seasons House.
Darla giggled girlishly, just for effect. "Darla when I am
Darla; Darryl when I am Darryl." she said, finishing up in
Darryl's deeper tones. "Darla will be fine for now. You don't
want to accidentally slip up while Audrey is around."
"Anyway, I am pleased she cared enough to take that kind of risk.
She never had any real friends back home." Prudence then fixed
her gaze on Darla. "Are you REALLY a boy? Maybe it is living
with my daughter who is more like a son, but you really seem too
much the fine lady to be a boy."
"Just my Momma-Jane's excellent training, Ma'am, and a set of
genes that left me way down on the low side of the manly-size
power curve."
"Jane? You're pulling my leg, right? I cannot believe this is a
boy."
"Oh, just a minute and I will prove it to you," Darla said,
standing. "Just give me a minute to take off my..."
"WAIT!!!!" Prudence screeched, shock on her face.
"What?" Darla said, turning back to her stepmother's guest. She
started to say something else, but then saw the knowing look on
Jane's face. *Guess the jig is up.* She began to giggle. "I was
going to take off my WIG, Ms. Rockwell, and then show you my
driver's license. NOTHING else! As if Momma-Jane would stand
still for such goings on in her home." Darla gave a very
insulted sniff - the impact of which was destroyed by her gamine
grin and incipient giggle. "What kind of girl do you think I am,
anyway?"
Jane permitted the laughter to die down before she answered.
"Cheeky, dear. Very cheeky."
~-~
Darla lay in her bed thinking about the night's conversation.
She had been right about one thing. She liked Audrey's mother.
Evidently, it had not been easy for the former athlete when her
husband had died, leaving her to raise a young daughter while
competing internationally as one of the top half dozen or so
female middle distance runners in the United States.
Fortunately, she'd had a sponsor, and had been able to hire a
nanny/governess to watch over her little girl while she trained
and competed. Pru had been good enough to compete as part of the
national team in her events, but never quite good enough to make
the final leap to the Olympic team.
Finally, she'd turned her knowledge of the international sports
world and her business degree to sports business. She'd started
as a figure model for their advertising shoots, but had worked
her way up the ladder from there and was now a senior vice
president for one of the many athletic shoe companies. Now, she
had the security she'd always wanted for her child.
Except that her daughter was a teenager and more than just
something of stranger to her. Most of the parenting had been
done by the now-deceased governess she'd hired right after her
husband's death.
*Near as I can tell, Pru was as surprised about the reception of
that silly horse as Audrey had been to get it. She intimated
that as a child, Audrey didn't like dolls and such. In fact, she
told Jane that her daughter refused to play with them at all.
And yet, as Audrey tells it, no one ever bought or offered her
any. Strange.*
Sighing, Darla pulled the comforter up to her chin, rolled over
and fell fast asleep. It had been a very stressful twenty-four
hours.
Chapter 2: Boys Will Be Girls
Darla was finishing up a paper on her laptop when she heard a
rather soft knock on her door. "Come," she called out as she
completed the email that would send her paper to the professor in
charge of her distance learning class.
She spun in her seat and was rather surprised to see Jane
standing in the doorway. The knock had not been at all like Jane
Thompson's signature "open the door now or else" knock, and she
usually came in and got right to the point. Darla could not
remember many times when she had seen her Mother uncertain or
tentative, but she most definitely was both of those at that very
moment. "Please come in, Momma-Jane, and have a seat," she said
indicating the one comfortable chair in the room. Then she
closed her laptop and walked over to her bed where she seated
herself and assumed a lotus position. "What's bothering you,
Mom?"
Instead of taking the offered seat, Jane walked over to look out
the window at the gardens. Now Darla was certain that something
was bothering Jane. Coming to the room before her plan of action
was firm in her own mind was not at all typical of Jane. Darla
was about to say something else, just to break the silence if for
no other reason, when Jane started talking quietly.
"We didn't really think through all the implications of taking on
a girl student, especially not those issues that are directly
impacted by *you* playing the big sister role."
"Uh, oh," Darla said. "What did we forget?"
"Diana and I were over visiting with Audrey," Jane told her, "and
then the nurse came in. She shooed us all out because she needed
some privacy."
The rest of her explanation was interrupted by a bustling Marie,
carrying in a plastic handled shopping bag bearing the logo of a
nearby drug store.
"So, is our young lady ready to play her part?" she asked, making
her way to Darla's bathroom.
"I, ah, haven't finished telling her about it yet," Jane
admitted.
"Why, Jane, it's not like you to stall," Marie chided her.
"About what?" Darla asked, becoming more concerned.
~-~
Diana was coming up the stairs to find Jane and Marie, so she
could help them in breaking the bad news to their be-skirted son.
"I HAVE TO WHAAAATTTT??!?!" The undeniably masculine bellow of
outrage that assaulted her eardrums as she topped the stairs left
little doubt that breaking the news was no longer an issue.
*Guess Janie jumped the gun. Now, why is it that I get the
distinct impression that Darryl is not all that enthused with
this particular idea?*
~-~
"You see," Marie was explaining, "when Jane and I were at
Eastmore, I would always notice when one of the real girls was...
uncomfortable, and we could help her. The special students..."
"You mean the boys in skirts," Darla interrupted, sourly.
"You do that so well, darling," Marie chided, "Just remember to
use just that tone of voice regularly when you have your bouts of
PMS. Now, if I might continue?" Darla scowled and gave a barely
perceptible movement of her head that Marie chose to interpret as
consent. "The special students were typically put with the,
shall we say, less physically advanced regular students whenever
possible."
"That not only denied them their masculinity," Jane put in, "but
also the supposed benefits of their age. They had to act like
immature pre-adolescents or draw attention to themselves which
was precisely the last thing they wanted."
"And almost all of our boys graduated back into trousers before
their feminine personas would have had to mature in order to
preserve the masquerade," Marie resumed, "So, for the most part,
they, and therefore we, did not have to deal with the monthly
expression of femininity at Eastmore. With the students we've
had here at Seasons House, the issue never came up. The younger
boys would never think to question why their big sisters were
never, um... moody, and of course there was no real need to
fake it as part of their own training. The little darlings were
already moody enough just dealing with Jane's day-to-day
program."
"I still don't see why I have to go to such lengths, wearing
whatever it is Marie has in that bag and so forth. Can't I just,
oh, complain about cramps and go to bed early or something?"
Darla glared at the trio ranged across the coffee table from her
in Jane's comfortable sitting room. They had retreated here
after Darla had balked when Marie had attempted to show her how
to use the various appliances and pads procured for this new
masquerade.
"Of course you see why, Darla," Diana put in soothingly, "You
just don't like what that portends for you, but if I HAVE to
state the obvious, it is because Audrey might reasonably be
expected to notice any inconsistencies, and ask questions we
cannot yet answer. Heavens, we may never be able to answer
them."
Jane took up the argument. "Look, Darla, Audrey is in the middle
of what has apparently been a very uncomfortable menses right
now, made all the worse because she is not allowed to see to her
own feminine hygiene. She's got a nurse coming in at regular
intervals to do that for her, and is acutely embarrassed at
having to be handled that way. She is VERY aware of that aspect
of being a woman just now."
"Momma-Jane," Darla pleaded, "Can't we just ignore the whole
thing? I mean, IF she asks me about it, I can tell her that it
is no big deal for me."
"Only a male would dare think such blasphemy let alone say it
aloud, petite," Marie put in with just a touch of disgust in her
tone. "Trust me, Cherie, it is a big deal. Even when it is not
difficult, it is messy and annoying."
"So, I am one of those women who is really hit hard by the
thing?" Darla retorted, unable to bring herself even to say the
word aloud.
"No, dear, you're not going to be 'hit hard' as you say at all.
Those stereotypically harsh menstrual periods are, for the most
part, distinctly atypical experiences for modern women. You're
going to have a relatively easy time of it," Jane replied, her
face taking on the stern mask that had cowed many a young male
ego, but that had, unfortunately for her current goals, lost much
of its power over her own child.
"You mean all this acting irritable and wearing bulky pads and
groaning with cramps Marie threatened me with is an *easy* time?"
Darla fired back, still looking for a way out that did not
include trying to act quite THAT female.
"Of course, dear. Be thankful we don't need you to fake a really
bad menses, but that might call as much unwelcome attention to
you as would showing no real indication of having a period."
"I will get some makeup with a green cast to it and lay in bed
groaning and complaining for two or three days," Darla offered,
only partially in jest.
"Hah! As if Jane would tolerate such behavior on a regular
basis," Diana snorted. "Remember, she may well be here for six
months. That is six, maybe seven periods if the schedule works
out."
"I don't see as there is any other choice," Jane put in
forcefully. "Either you agree to become an 'Initiate of the
Lunar Feminine Mysteries' or we will have to find some pretext to
send you away for the remainder of Audrey's stay with me. The
latter is not the best course for several reasons, not the least
of which is that Audrey is starting to trust and like you. You
may well be the key in all of this for her, but we cannot have
her finding out that her role model for young feminine womanhood
is not really a girl. That would most likely put paid to any
hope we have of helping her."
"The only other alternative, Darla," Diana put in, "is for Jane
to send her home now before she can notice anything out of the
ordinary about you. It would be far worse if she were to realize
now that you are a male and more feminine than she is. I think
it would let her rationalize giving up and just waiting out her
remaining months to her majority."
"I can't do that," Jane corrected. "I made a bargain with her
and she has, thus far, done her part. I know this is your home,
darling - I made Seasons House yours when I made you mine, but
surely you can see that sending her home without just cause would
be grossly unfair of me... of US. The only two acceptable
courses of action are that Darla must simulate periods or she
must go back to school."
Darla thought about that. She had come to realize that she liked
Audrey, too. More than she had expected to like her, in fact.
There was something fragile, scared and a little bit sweet inside
the big, physically powerful and imposing girl that called to
Darla - something that made her want to protect Audrey in ways
that were both masculine and maternal.
*There's that 'best of both worlds' thing again,* she thought.
The femininely rigged out young man almost asked Jane if she was
simply saying those things to get Darla's compliance with her
plans, but knew that was not fair. While Jane was not above a
goodly bit of deceit and manipulation, and more than a few half-
truths to prod her students in whatever direction she felt they
needed to go, she had foresworn such things with her child after
the death of Darla's brother. If Jane said something to Darla,
particularly about another student, then she meant every word.
Which meant, that Jane DID believe that this was important.
"Hell," she grumbled, conceding the point. "Maybe if I look
pathetic enough and you tell me to quit moping and take it like a
man... I mean, like a woman, she'll feel more of a kinship to
me."
"Thank you, dear," Jane beamed at her child.
"Okay, so what do I REALLY have to do?" Darla asked. "Marie
showed me what she bought at the drug store and sort of explained
their... umm, application, but that's not enough for me to pull
off this acting gambit of yours, Momma-Jane. As my drama friends
at school would say, I need to get into my character's head...
or in this case, into her body."
Diana stood. "This does NOT need to concern me. I am old enough
to post-menopausal. So if you will excuse me... "
"Sit down, Daddy-Di!" Darla ordered. "If I do it, YOU do it.
Fair is fair."
"Now, I don't think..."
"Sit down, Artemis," Jane ordered. "Or I WILL make you do it.
You still owe me a forfeit for that last bet. I was going to
save it for our six month anniversary, something we might both
enjoy, but if you insist..."
Diana sat, looking very aggrieved. "I told you my name is not
Artemis anymore," but the others ignored her as they concentrated
on Darla.
"I repeat," Darla said, "What do I have to do to be really
convincing as a girl having a period."
"What do you mean, dear?" Jane asked, relief washing over her now
that Darla had agreed to this stratagem. "Marie was already
going through that when you... well, when you resisted the idea
rather vocally. That is all we ever did for the girls at
Eastmore - show them how to use those products properly."
"Not quite, Momma-Jane. What you did at Eastmore, and what Marie
attempted to do for me in my room was demonstrating the mechanics
of doing the 'girl during her period' thing, but that is not the
same as reacting and behaving like a girl who is having a period.
So, let's have you two experts take me through a period day-by-
day, since as I understand it, each day is different."
"Take you through it?" Jane asked, her demeanor suddenly
cautious and wary.
"In detail," her daughter said firmly, and looking well pleased
at having passed along a bit of her own discomfiture to her self-
possessed mother. "Day-by-day, step-by-step. Diana can take
notes and Marie can pitch in with anything you forget. After
all, she's been with you long enough to know how you behave when
your time of the month comes. Like Mother, like daughter,
right?"
"In detail," Jane repeated and then cast a glance at Marie, who
was not looking nearly as gleeful as she had moments earlier.
"That is rather... well, intimate, dear. You aren't, after
all, REALLY a girl. Surely, we can do this without quite so
much...nitty-gritty."
"If I were really your daughter, Momma-Jane, you wouldn't have to
go through it all with me because I would be really feeling
whatever it is women feel, right? Only, I don't HAVE those
feelings to guide or direct my responses. And it is not like
Daddy-Di can do much for me. This isn't like when he bought me
my first box of condoms," Darla stopped to enjoy Jane's sharp
glare at her spouse before continuing. "You're the one who said
this little drama has to be done and done correctly, right?
Suppose I have the wrong pad or whatever the heck they are
called? Or react like it is day one on day three? Wouldn't
Audrey notice that?"
"Audrey evidently uses tampons," Jane said without thinking.
"Well, Darla can't," her child said with a giggle. "So, c'mon
you two. Start talking."
A while later, Darla realized that this was the first time she
had ever seen Aunt Jane tentative and uncertain TWICE in one day.
~-~
As she undressed for bed, Jane wasn't sure how she felt about the
day's activities. Being honest with herself, she had
underestimated Darla's reluctance in this case. *What is it about
a woman's period that causes such a reaction in the male?* she
wondered. Even her open-minded mate had tried to dodge the issue
today.
Of course, Darla had gotten a measure of retaliation by demanding
that the two older women describe the experience in detail for
her. For all her forthrightness and, yes, intrusiveness when
dealing with a student, Jane was still a very private person. It
had been very...well, uncomfortable wasn't strong enough a
word, but it was all she could come up with, talking about such
things with Darryl. And for Jane, it HAD been Darryl and not
Darla at that point. It would have been a good deal less
difficult if it HAD been Darla. *Except, as he said, if Darryl
had been Darla, she would not have needed to be told about things
she'd already experienced.*
"I thought that went as well as it could have gone," Diana said
as she came out of the bath, a towel turbaned about her hair and
another covering her torso. "At least Darla felt good enough
about it to joke a bit at the end, although I must admit, that
falsetto soprano of hers is atrocious!"
Jane winced at the memory. She had always liked watching old
Nelson Eddy and Jeanette MacDonald movies on the classic movie
channel, but hearing her child fracture "Oh, sweet mystery of
life at last you've found me. Oh, I understand so much I didn't
want to know," had probably ruined that little pleasure of Jane's
forever. "I wanted to throttle her," Jane growled, turning bared
teeth at her mate.
"Just think what Audrey would have done to her in the same
circumstance," Diana said laughing.
"It is NOT funny!" Jane retorted.
"Certainly wasn't funny to Darla, at least at first. At least
now, she's in a better frame of mind for the challenge."
"It should not have been that big production," Jane said,
inwardly cringing at the contradictory position she was taking.
"She is, after all, only faking it."
"I believe thespians call that 'verisimilitude' - knowing the
entire person of their character and not just the words of their
part. Face it, dear, boys don't know much about menstruation,
except to be very cautious around their girl friends a few days
every lunar cycle. Just think how you'd react if you were having
a difficult time of the month and I came up to you and said, 'Oh,
you poor dear. I know exactly how you feel, and of course I'll
help you.'" Diana barked a laugh at Jane's darkening glare.
"You'd kosh me one over the head with the nearest blunt object to
hand. Like I said. Boys just don't know much about that aspect
of women's lives. Ready for bed, dear?" Diana asked, yawning
broadly.
Jane settled herself into bed, still thinking about what had
happened that day and what Diana had said. *It's just too bad
there isn't a pill that would give males the symptoms of a
period,* she mused. *Mood swings, nausea, bloating, fatigue and
hypersensitivity. Maybe even make them leak something.* The
vision of some of her more recalcitrant charges caught in the
throes of such a finely feminine condition brought that famous
Thompson smile to her lips.
*Ought to be required by law for every post-pubescent male in the
world as part of their schooling,* she told herself as her
fertile imagination warmed to the idea, *Each one individually
supervised during THEIR period by some responsible female, of
course. And then twice a year until their wife or significant
other is post-menopausal.* Then Jane remembered Diana's remark
about "knowing just how you feel," and decided that *While we're
at it, any male making a condescending or stupid remark would
instantly get a double dose from his responsible female. Lord,
talk about sensitivity training in action.*
And with that happy thought, Jane drifted off to sleep.
Chapter 3: Darla and the Wrath of the Moon Goddess
Audrey sat quietly, considering the various offerings on the
plate before her. All soft foods, requiring little in the way of
chewing because chewing was difficult and still a bit painful.
The device she wore on her face while her tissues bonded with the
artificial nose cartilage left her little flexibility in her
upper face. It was intended to prevent her facial muscles from
putting undue strain on the fleshy areas around her nose. As a
result, she had to chew very deliberately which usually jarred
the bruised areas near her eyes. No more Subway sandwiches until
the device came off. She and Darla had caught hell for that,
too.
But it had been worth it!
The device braced along her upper lip, so she really couldn't
move her lips to make a seal on anything. As a result, she
couldn't use a spoon very well or a straw at all. Basically, all
she could do was open her mouth, pop in whatever it was she was
going to eat and chew it very carefully. Liquids had to be no
more than lukewarm because she had to sort of pour whatever it
was down her throat. No sipping hot coffee or tea or soup.
*Heck, I can't even blow on the stuff to cool it. Good thing
Miss Marie is such a great cook, or this would be a lot worse.
At least even Ms. Jane has to accept fact. No way could I meet
her standards for table manners eating like this. Still, I
really am getting tired of drinking from a cream pitcher.*
Audrey had been 'home' at Seasons House for the better part of a
week now. Ms. Thompson had insisted she finish out her
'sentence' once she'd returned home, but had cut back on the
heels and the corsets. It was clear that the device also cut
down on Audrey's peripheral vision and Diana had voiced the
concern that "she might not be able to see well enough to move
safely in unfamiliar shoes, Jane."
Audrey had blessed Diana in her prayers every night since for
that bit of unthinking kindness. Fortunately, she'd only been in
the period dress for another day or so while her Mom had been
there. That had been rather fun, truth to tell. Audrey's mother
had never seen her daughter rigged out quite so femininely and
had made quite a big deal of how Audrey had looked. Oddly
enough, Pru's compliments had seemed genuine and they'd made
Audrey feel... well... kind of nice. She'd almost wished that
she could have worn some color other than black, blue, purple and
yellow on her face, just to see how her mother would have reacted
to that.
With a mental shrug at what hadn't been, Audrey turned her
attention once more to breakfast.
~-~
Jane watched as Audrey did her level best to eat the scrambled
eggs at least somewhat decorously, but it still looked like a
baby playing "airplane and hanger" with her food. Darla was
studiously avoiding make eye-contact with her mother and Jane
knew why. *She's trying not to see my signal to start her act -
trying to put it off to the last possible moment. Still, it has
to be done and it has to be a slow buildup over the day, soooooo.
... "
Her face completely composed, and her upper body language giving
nothing away, Jane reached out with her foot and gave Darla a
sharp kick in the shins. The girl's face flew up in surprise and
Jane could tell that her daughter had managed to stifle an
exclamation at the last moment. *Gotcha!* Jane thought, her
wicked smile slowly blooming as she regarded her daughter.
Casually, Jane raised a single brow, the challenge in that look
and that smile something Darla could not deny.
*Crazy as it sounds, it feels like she is asking me if I am man
enough to be on the rag,* Darla thought ruefully. *Oh, well, I
DID promise.*
"Darla," Jane said firmly, beginning the agreed upon gambit.
Darla spun on Jane and snapped out "What?!" at her.
"Darla, dear," Jane continued as she buttered a hot croissant, "I
expect a more pleasant expression on your face at breakfast. It
is the beginning of a new day, and should be greeted
accordingly."
"Yeah, right."
"Darla!" Jane bit out the name sharply. "That is hardly an
improvement. Perhaps helping Marie with the dishes will improve
your appreciation of the importance of this meal."
"That's not fair!"
"Darla Anne, Go to your room," Jane ordered, her voice suddenly
soft yet fierce.
"But..."
"NOT... ONE... MORE...WORD, Darla ANNE!" Jane said,
putting heavy emphasis on the child-name.
Darla dropped her napkin into the middle of her unfinished food
and said, "Fine!" Only the glisten Audrey could see in her eyes
as she stiffly walked from the room betrayed the hurt she was
trying to hide within her anger.'
~-~
Luncheon, impossible though it had seemed to Audrey, had been
even worse. Darla's behavior had not improved after breakfast.
She seemed irritable and snapped at the least provocation. Her
favorite word seemed to be "WHAT?!" delivered like a knife thrust
at anyone who dared so much as look at her. Audrey had even
heard her being disrespectful to Miss Marie in the kitchen, which
was amazing because Audrey knew how much Darla adored the French
Canadian lady. But this time, however, she had done it up, but
good.
"For the last time, fetch some ice to cool Audrey's tea, Darla,"
Jane said very coldly.
"WHY?" Darla complained bitterly. "She can WALK - I've SEEN
her!!"
"DARLA!" Jane nearly yelled and Audrey jumped for it was the
first time she had ever heard the self possessed and disciplined
woman raise her voice like that...
Darla jumped to her feet, her chair nearly falling over behind
her. "Oh, all right!" she bitched and turned toward the kitchen.
Moments later, she returned with Jane's best silver ice bucket
clutched in her hands. As she tried to set it on the table, the
accompanying tongs bumped a nearly filled glass, knocking it over
and causing Darla to dump the ice across the snowy table cloth as
she twitched in a fruitless attempt to avert the disaster.
With an audible and emotional "Damn it!" Darla stabbed the
offending tongs into the ice left in the bucket and reached for
the spilled glass. Audrey, however, picked it up just before
Darla touched the delicate crystal, which was likely the only
thing that saved it from a fast visit to the gardens - very fast,
at least, for any pieces that might make it through the glass of
the doors.
"Darla," Jane said quietly, "I think you should spend the rest of
the day in your room, starting now. I do not wish to see your
face until tomorrow or until you can behave civilly, which ever
takes longer."
Darla stared at the older woman for what felt life a very long
time, and for a moment, Audrey thought she was going to make
things even worse, but at the last minute, Darla's control
crumpled and she ran from the room. Audrey was certain she heard
a sob as the dining room door went shut, but she wasn't quite
certain.
She turned back to Ms. Thompson to find the older woman regarding
her closely. "I apologize for that display," she finally said.
"Darla is ordinarily a wonderful young woman and a pleasure to be
around, but one day a month..." Jane shook her head. "She can
be an absolute bi... I mean, pill."
*You meant bitch, and I rather agree. Nice to know Little Miss
'Just have fun with all this' isn't quite so perfect as she seems
on first glance. I can trust a girl who snarls at the moon now
and then.* "That's okay, Ms. Thompson. I understand how it is."
"Well, it usually only lasts no more than a day. She should be
over this by tomorrow morning." Jane sighed. "I really must do
something about that outburst, but I know the poor dear didn't
really mean anything by it."
For her part, Audrey was momentarily taken aback by this
revelation about the stern Ms. Thompson. *So, she does see that
there are extenuating circumstances. Was she really asking me
for an input? Maybe. I wonder?* "Can't you, well, sort of
overlook this, this one time?"
Intrigued, Jane regarded Audrey. *None of my boys would ever have
stepped into that breech. How far is she willing to go?* "Is that
what you think I should do?"
Discomfited by Jane's suddenly focused scrutiny, Audrey resisted
the urge to squirm. "Well, um, I don't know. What's the, uh,
harm? It's not like she really meant any of that."
"Don't stammer, dear," Jane said, not unkindly. "Think what you
want to say and then say it clearly. And answer your own
question, would you please?
"Oh. Ah... sorry," *What does she expect me to say? Darla was
out of line, but it's not like she behaves that way every day.
Oh, maybe that is the problem...* "The harm would be that...
there is a... slippery slope to lack of discipline. If this
justifies it now, what else will justify... impolite manners
next time her... time of the month is difficult?"
"Very good, dear. A lady must be a lady regardless of the time
of the month," Jane beamed, "Now, what do you propose that we
do?"
"Me?" Audrey almost squeaked in surprise. "Why are you asking
me?"
"The best way to learn is by teaching, my dear," Jane said
gently. "Are you not learning to behave as a lady should? That
will someday involve rearing your own children. How will you
discipline them... especially when you don't want to because
you know there is at least a partial justification but know that
some response is still necessary?"
*Children of my OWN? ME??!? Is she KIDDING?!? Not bloody
likely!* Then she saw Jane's brow rise in query, and realized the
older woman still wanted an answer. She took a deep breath and
tried to organize her thoughts. *Nothing too hard on Darla,
because dammit, she CAN'T help feeling that way! Oh, I know!*
"Oh, um... oops. Sorry again. Well, staying in her room would be
more comfort than punishment right now, but you could declare it
to be punishment anyway, sort of 'for the record'. And perhaps,
since she used a naughty word... a vow of silence for
tomorrow?
Jane clapped her hands in approval. "Excellent! That's the very
thing. Frankly, on her second day she is usually very quiet
anyway. We'll just make that official. But now I need to help
Marie with the dishes myself, since Darla is... 'indisposed'.
Will you be all right by yourself for a while?"
Still thinking about what she'd just done, Audrey felt the need
for a bit of solitude. "Yes, fine, thank you. I think I will get
a wrap and go sit in the garden for a while, if you don't mind."
~-~
Breakfast the following morning was a silent affair all round.
Audrey had never quite realized how much of the pleasant chatter
around the table had originated from the normally cheerful and
bubbly girl. Now, she was sitting at her seat, more playing with
the two pieces of dry toast she'd taken than really trying to eat
them. Somehow, the sun shining in through the pretty curtains
did not seem quite so bright as it had a day or two before.
Marie bustled in with a steaming cup that she set before Darla.
"Here you go, Cherie," she said, "A cup of my special herbal tea
will put you to rights." Darla turned a wan smile on the
hovering maid and then reached up to kiss her on the cheek.
*Nicely done,* Jane thought as she watched the little tableau
play out. *Darla and Marie played that well, and Darla's makeup
is perfect. It looks like she tried to use too heavy a hand to
cover up that washed out look, except the washed out look is as
much an illusion as the 'failed' attempt to cover it up.*
Audrey thought about her first few monthlies, and remembered the
vile soda crackers that her governess would make her chew until
they were a sickly sweet mush in her mouth that made her nausea
even worse. *Glad I grew out of that. God, but I hate soda
crackers.*
~-~
Darla had not arrived in the dining room when Jane and Diana
stepped through the door. They immediately took their seats and
Jane gestured for Audrey to do the same.
Surprised and a bit concerned, Audrey looked to Jane. "Aren't we
waiting for Darla?"
"She sent me a note, dear," Jane replied as she picked up her
napkin. "She is... well, she won't be joining us for luncheon,
I am afraid. Don't worry. She'll be better shortly."
*Especially after she devours the huge picnic I saw Marie packing
for her... * Diana thought as she tried to hide her grin behind
her own napkin
"This isn't unexpected," Jane continued. "Darla usually handles
this by napping the afternoon away. When she awakens, she will
find that the worst is over. At least, we all hope she will."
Chapter 4: Audrey's Secrets
Things gradually improved after that. Darla was still quieter
than she had been those first few days, and she seemed to tire
more quickly than before, but it wasn't long before the sweet
nature, quick smile and sneaky streak of mischief were back. In
fact, the girl seemed determine to make up for her nasty behavior
by showering Audrey with attention and care, until the bigger
girl was ready to choke the little brunette.
So, the news that Audrey's mask could come off was greeted with
relief for more than just one reason two days after Darla's
monthly visitor departed.
Audrey was ready to give thanks in church that she could now wash
her own dishes - anything - just so long as Darla would stop
trying to MOTHER her! However, every silver lining has its
cloud, and this cloud came in the form of the restrictions the
reconstructive surgeon placed on Audrey's physical activities.
"Nothing high impact for at least another month, and NO grimacing
either. Keep your face smooth so that you don't put any undue
stress on the prosthesis."
As it turned out, Diana's little gym had a stair climber as well
as one of the elliptical motion running/skiing machines, and that
would have been great. Better than great.
Except that Jane had sent Darla down to watch Audrey work out to
make sure she did not grimace. *I can't even open my mouth
sideways but she's calling me on it,* Darla complained as she
started another mountain series on the stair climber.
"Audrey! Don't Grimace!"
Audrey pasted a smile on her lips and panted out, "I... AM...
NOT...Grim...acing."
"I say you were, and I'm the one Aunt Jane put in charge!"
"Bitch," Audrey snapped out.
"You bet, and smile when you say that, girl friend."
~-~
Marie slipped into Audrey's room while the family was at
breakfast. It was shopping day, and Marie wanted to get a head
start on her morning chores. She had visions of a nice lunch in
town and a bit of gossip with a friend, which meant she needed to
shave an hour or so off her morning routine. *Good thing it is
Darla's morning to serve breakfast,* she thought as she moved
around the room, doing what little needed to be done. Audrey was
such a neat young lady. "She has so much going for her,* Marie
thought, *And if I am any judge, that new nose of hers is going
to make her into quite the heartbreaker.*
Because it wasn't QUITE perfect, Marie smoothed the satiny
coverlet atop Audrey's bed and then plumped the pillows. *Don't
have to check for semen stains with this one,* she thought with a
mischievous grin. She made a quick tour of the room, checking
the windows to see if the glass needed to be cleaned on the
outside again before winter when she saw a strange shadow on the
drapery of the east facing window. Moving behind the curtain,
she looked up and saw something pinned to the window side of the
drape.
She pulled it down and was amazed to see that it was a pair of
very silky white thong panties, decorated with pink rosebuds
along the waistband and outlining the edges. It was still damp
from having evidently been hand-washed. A purely feminine sigh of
sensual pleasure escaped from Marie as she examined the pretty
bit of feminine lingerie.
*Wonder why she has it up there? More to the point, why is she
washing it herself? She knows that I see to the care of this
household's delicate washables and fripperies. Why, she's been
sending me the ones that Jane has purchased for her.* At that
moment, she thought of something and frowned for a moment. Then
she checked the back of the waistband. Brenda Franson had a
trademark stitched into every piece of lingerie she sold in her
"Milady's Closet" and this piece did not. That meant that these
had been purchased elsewhere and Jane simply did not do that.
*That means that these are Audrey's own, and yet, I saw the...
foundation garments the girl brought with her from home. And she
wasn't wearing these when she arrived, so she must have somehow
slipped them in here. That begs the question why she thought she
had to sneak them in. hmmmmmmm.*
~-~
Jane watched as Diana packed her bags. "I wish you didn't have
to go back to Providence," she repeated.
Diana closed the large bag and looked up. "I wish I didn't have
to go either, love, but the fellow who was covering for me was in
an auto accident, and it is my course. The students deserve to
have someone who knows what the heck he's talking about teach
them."
"I know," Jane sighed. "It is just that you're needed here, too.
I need you... "
"Glad you know it!" Diana shot back in Art's voice, a thoroughly
and incongruously masculine leer beaming through the feminine
cosmetic artistry.
"Oh you! You know very well what I meant. I do need you that
way, but I also need your help with Audrey. Not only that, but
Darla needs you, too, perhaps even more than I do. That period
scenario really threw her for a loop."
"Well, I will call her regularly, too."
"She does tend to talk things out with you that she hesitates to
bring to me," Jane said, a bit of jealousy insinuating into her
voice.
"Well," Diana said throatily, tossing her hair flirtatiously. "I
AM her father!"
Both women giggled at that, but then Diana became more serious.
"She also knows that I understand much of what she deals with
from experiences you don't share, dear."
~-~
With Diana gone, it fell to Marie to join Jane for a late night
brandy in the upstairs office. Marie knew that Jane needed to
unwind, but her discipline would keep her from drinking alone.
It was a role Marie had filled in the past, but had relinquished
to Art since Jane's marriage.
"Jane?" Marie started, "How did Audrey react when you took her
to Brenda's place for new lingerie?"
"NEW lingerie? Marie, dear, that stuff she brought with her
isn't lingerie. Why, I hesitate to use the epithet 'underwear'
when describing those abominations." Jane gave an exaggerated
shudder of distaste before grinning at her longtime friend and
confidante. "About the same as the boys, dear. With a good deal
of embarrassment and a bit of fear. Later, she became rather
disdainful. Sort of a 'Waste your money if you want.' reaction.
She only seems to wear what I bought when I tell her to do so,
which is a shame."
"You think so?" Marie asked, hiding a grin as best she could.
"Well, I had hoped for a different response. You know yourself
that even before we went to the lingerie boutique we had decided
that the standard approach we used on the boys wasn't right for
Audrey."
"I know," Marie did grin now, remembering the many horrified boys
who had faced that uniquely feminine bastion at Jane's command.
"It was fun to totally immerse the poor darlings in flounces,
frills and lace - fragile delicacies that would never allow them
to relax or take their clothes for granted - but we're not trying
to torment Audrey into submission."
Jane closed her eyes and pinched at the bridge of her nose trying
to ward off an incipient headache. "Just so. For Audrey, we
required sleek sensuality. Secret sexiness that made HER always
aware that she was a woman. But... "
"But she always wore the plain white armor she brought with her
unless we forced her into the sensual scanties." *At least, we
thought so, until I found that so-carefully hidden thong this
morning. Now, what should I do next? Tell Jane?* Marie
reflected on that for a moment before coming up with a plan.
"How strange when she really does have the figure to look very
nice in the pretty ones."
Jane chuckled. "Isn't that the truth. You know, Brenda Franson
was fully prepared to do her regular first student visit routine
with her. When Audrey was being fitted for new brassieres,
Brenda came roaring out of the back, with the strangest look on
her face. She hurried up to me and whispered, 'Jane! This one
has real bosoms!' Like she was afraid I didn't already know
that."
Laughter burbled up out of Marie. "Well, what did she expect for
a seventeen year old girl?"
"I...ah...well, I may have forgotten to tell Brenda that,"
Jane replied demurely, her dark eyes dancing over the rim of her
snifter.
"Oh, you sneak," Marie chided. "By the way, did you know that
all her new brassieres are two inches and a whole cup size larger
than the ones she brought with her? She's gone from a 34B to a
36C and I don't think she's grown."
"I hadn't noticed," Jane said, suddenly thoughtful. "Another
ploy to look unfeminine or something related to her athletics?"
"A properly fitted sports bra would do her more good than trying
to crush herself like that."
"True enough. The question is, what do we do with this
information? It may be nothing more than a girl who has never
bothered to be properly measured and fitted for a bra. Or perhaps
more likely, one who doesn't pay attention to such things."
"I can't believe that," Marie snorted. "She doesn't even have a
larger sized one for her time of the month. Look, Jane, since I
do the laundry, maybe I can raise the issue with her without
making a big deal of it. Hint that maybe she might want to get
some white practical stuff in the right size."
"I'd tell her to throw the things away, but we've been making
such progress by taking a less confrontational tack with this
one."
"I'll deal with it, dear," Marie replied, well pleased with her
plan.
Chapter 5: Audrey's Darker Secrets
Audrey looked into her mirror and tried to imagine what she would
look like when the bruising finally went away. The worst of the
swelling was gone down, leaving her with a Technicolor face like
a human mandrill. It felt strange, looking at that pert little
bit where her nose had been. She turned sideways and tried to
look at her profile with her peripheral vision. She wasn't sure,
but Audrey thought she might actually be kind of cute when all
was said and done.
She was trying to figure out just how she felt about 'being cute'
when a knock sounded at her door. It was too soft to be Darla
and lacked the imperious demand affected my Ms. Thompson. "Come
in," she called and then silently congratulated herself on her
deduction when a smiling Marie entered the room.
"Just gathering up the laundry, dear," she said as she bustled
into the bathroom, her arms filled with clean towels. She came
back out carrying the contents of Audrey's clothes hamper. "You
know, dear," Marie said as she started sorting the clothing into
one of several net bags she had also carried in. "I've noticed
that your new bras are bigger than the ones you brought with you.
Wouldn't you like to replace them with ones that fit?"
Marie had to stifle a giggle as she saw Audrey tamp back an
exclamation of pleasure at the thought of more, new and pretty
undies, and tried to affect a disinterested air. "Oh, they're
not so bad, and they have a good deal of wear left in them."
"I, um, noticed that the lingerie you brought with you was," and
Marie held one of the offending articles up, "well, durable at
best. That's the ONLY redeeming aspect of these things."
Audrey turned her face away, hiding what emotion, Marie wondered.
"Uh, yes, that's what I, um, well, what I was told to wear.
"Really?" Marie pounced on that. "But for heavens sake, girl, by
whom? Surely it wasn't part of Jane's instructions to your
mother. Jane believes a woman should feel and BE feminine all
the time, and delicate scanties are a big part of that. Or,"
Marie held up one of the barely-there teddies purchased at
Milady's Closet and giggled girlishly. "a very small part, as the
case may be!
"I noticed," Audrey replied, struggling to appear mature and
aloof on this subject. "Those things she made me get at the
boutique were... I guess delicate would be as good a word as
any."
"But they feel so nice, and naughty at the same time, don't
they?" Marie asked, grinning. "I just LOVE them."
"You wear them, too?" Audrey was dumbfounded.
"Of course I do," Marie sniffed, "I'm a woman and I like feeling
feminine and mysterious - like I have a special secret no one
else can know. Pretty lingerie makes me feel like that."
Barely able to swallow, her throat had gone so dry, Audrey could
barely whisper. "You really do wear them?"
Smiling devilishly, Marie winked. "Sure do, and you know what
else?" and here the pretty French Canadian dropped her voice to a
teasing whisper of her own, "So does Jane."
"MS THOMPSON??"
Marie made an broad 'X' across her ample bosom. "Cross my heart.
Remember, I do everyone's laundry. You have NO secrets from your
laundress."
Audrey thought of the pieces she so carefully hand washed
herself, both to keep them a secret, but more importantly, to
keep them pretty. She decided to check this out more deeply.
"Don't you, um, feel sort of... indecent sometimes?"
"Of course, dear," Marie said with a wicked smile, "But that's
what makes them so enjoyable. Every woman likes to think that
she's a bit more sensual than proper manners allow. Why, there
are even times we might wear something that isn't even
comfortable, even when no one else will ever know, just because
it's so deliciously, femininely sexy and, what did you say?
Indecent. Yes, that's it precisely."
"I know what you mean. Those underwire bras can be...
distracting."
"Quit bragging, girl," Marie laughed. "Though you're right, the
boys at the mall were certainly distracted when you wore one last
time we went to the salon."
"That's not what I meant, and you know it. I meant that they can
be uncomfortable."
"Oh, they're not so bad. No worse than, oh, than I imagine some
of those thong panties that are all the rage might be.
Audrey felt a chill run through her veins. Whatever made Marie
bring that up? "Thong panties?"
Marie set down the clothes she was sorting and came over to sit
beside Audrey on the bed. Taking a suddenly cold hand in her
own, Marie looked Audrey in the eye. "Dear, I have a confession
to make. I started this conversation so that I could let you
know I found your little secret," Marie pulled something from the
pocket of her apron and laid it on Audrey's leg. It was the
pretty white thong Audrey thought was still hidden in the white
draperies. She started, her eyes wide with something like fear,
but the older woman put a gentle hand to the younger girl's
cheek. "It's okay, Cherie. Believe me, I don't mind. I'm very
pleased, actually."
"Pleased?!" the word ended on a near-squeak, Audrey was so
surprised.
"Yes, child. It broke my heart to see you so unhappy with your
femininity when you arrived here. To find out that, deep down
inside, you were embracing it... oh, Audrey, I do think you'd
be so much happier if you just accepted how pretty you really
are.
For a long time, Audrey could only stare at Marie. It was all so
much to take in and now, Marie said she was PRETTY?!? "I..."
she stuttered, and then braced herself to go on and say what had
to be said. "That's not really true. I'm not pretty at all.
"What ever gave you that idea?" Marie snorted in disbelief.
"You're beautiful, in a very elegant way that I admire greatly."
"That's not what I was told." Audrey said, turning her face away
to hide the tears that were beginning to burn at the backs of her
eyes.
"By whom?" Marie asked, while very gently pulling the suddenly
sobbing girl into her arms.
"By... by... by my governess... "
~-~
Art was sitting at the table, not-watching the television and
waiting for the microwave to chime. Memories of Marie's gourmet
and family meals made the upcoming food experience less than
pleasant to contemplate so he again tried to pay attention to
Oprah's discussion of her current book of the month.
A bell sounded and Art started for the microwave before he
realized it was his phone.
"Hello?" he said, expecting it to be some meal-time-profaning
telemarketer and ALMOST looking forward to it. *You need to go
home, son,* he told himself.
"Art?" a familiar and well loved voice came across the line.
"Jane! I didn't expect you to call tonight. How are you? Is
anything wrong?"
"Not wrong precisely, and I am fine. The reason I called is that
we've had something of a breakthrough with Audrey and I need to
talk to you about it."
"Great! What happened?"
"Well, it all started when Marie discovered that Audrey had some
special lingerie secreted away in her room that we didn't know
anything about. Things that were markedly different from the
stuff she usually wears."
"Okay... "
"Let me tell you what Marie told Darla and me this afternoon."
~-~
Jane looked at her friend and her child. Darla was just as
surprised by Marie's revelation as she was. Audrey had something
as feminine as silk thongs? Jane still found it hard to credit -
the girl had evidenced little interest or pleasure at all when
she'd taken her shopping at Brenda's place. Jane thought about
this woman, this Phoebe Elizabeth Talmage, Audrey's "Miss Phoebe
Elizabeth," and wondered what could induce a woman, a child's
care giver, to inflict such drivel on an unformed mind.
"So, as you see," Marie continued, raw anger twisting her mouth
into a grimace, "This Phoebe Elizabeth creature was apparently a
man-hater, or else, the next thing to one. So far as I can
figure from what I got out of Audrey this morning, the woman
filled Audrey with all these stories about how bad men were. She
even told that sweet girl that it was a good thing that she was
so gawky and boyish, because then MEN would leave her alone!"
Marie couldn't sit any longer and bolted from her seat to begin
pacing about the room. "OH! And get THIS! If she ever betrayed
her given name, Chastity? Well, then she'd find that sex was not
ONLY terribly painful, but was also a terribly humiliating
experience that benefited no one but the man. And then, after
the fact? The men would never be interested in her again since
men, foul creatures that they are, only wanted virgins who had no
basis for comparison between lovers."
"But she kept these delicate panties hidden from everyone," Jane
cut in, wanting to stop Marie before she really got started.
Marie did not lose her temper often, but when she did it could be
spectacular. There simply wasn't time to deal with a rampaging
Marie and a mentally abused student. And she would need Marie.
"She thought you were the same as her old governess who always
told 'Chastity' that a woman should never weaken herself with
effeminate things; no nice lingerie, no dolls, no makeup. Men
could see the results of wallowing in femininity, so the old
bitch said, and used those signs to select their victims," Marie
replied.
"Does she still think of me that way? That I am like her
governess?" Jane asked, feeling slightly queasy that Audrey might
think her similar to that abusive governess.
"Goodness no!" Marie assured her with an amused laugh. "Oh,
she's not entirely sure just WHAT you are all about, but after
you took her to Brenda Franson's Style Shoppe, and then to
Milady's Closet? No, her problem with you is that you are so
much the OPPOSITE of that Talmage woman. You are pressing her to
be as pretty and as feminine as she can manage. Why, she's more
worried that you were going to turn her into a, well,..."
Marie saw the warning look flash in Jane's eyes and reconsidered
her words "She is certainly aware that you are not out to make
her to appear masculine. In any event, I'm sure she no longer
thinks of you as another incarnation of her tormentor." Marie
walked back to her seat and took a sip of her tea. "There's a
fight going on inside that child, Jane. I just know, in my heart,
that she wants to learn to be a strong, feminine woman, to find
romance and accept and enjoy her appearance, but after all the
lies that woman told her she's afraid... "
"Afraid? Audrey?" Darla scoffed. "Audrey isn't afraid of
anything!
"Hush, dear," Jane remonstrated, a gentle touch taking the sting
out of her command. "That sort of fear is much deeper than
merely a sense of physical danger."
~-~
"Well, that is interesting," Art said. "We knew she was
repressing her feminine side and we knew she reacted very
aggressively toward large males. This could explain a great
deal."
"Do unto others before they do unto you?" Jane misquoted. "It
also explains why she's apparently been comfortable around
Darryl. He isn't big enough to pose an immediate threat... "
"And he came recommended by you," Art put in. "What are you
going to do about what you've discovered?"
"Go carefully, and that's why I wanted to talk to you. First, I
want to step up the girly-girl things for her. Have her get the
extensions at Caro's so she has a coiffure instead of that
crewcut, buy her more undies and have her ditch the cotton armor
plate."
"Okay," Art said, but Jane heard something like doubt in his
voice. She called him on it. "Well, I wouldn't make her throw
away the old stuff, and I wouldn't make her wear the frillies
everyday. Buy her some new stuff, though, so she has enough to
replace her own if SHE decides to do so. Then, if she starts
wearing it when you don't tell her to, you'll know you've made
progress."
"I see what you mean," Jane said quietly. "But you don't see any
problems with the longer hair?"
"Not so long as you don't go hard over on some big hair
monstrosity or force her to wear it styled all the time."
"Harrumph. I'd be happy with a nice ponytail if it was her
choice and looked pretty on her."
"That's a plan. Nudge her, but let her have the opportunity to
make her own decisions, too. Anything else?"
"Yes," Jane replied. "I want her to be in situations with boys.
Controlled ones, but I want her to have a chance to see them as
something other than the two-headed monster Miss Phoebe Elizabeth
Talmage told her about."
"What ever happened to that woman? Is she about to feel the
Wrath of Thompson?"
"No," and Art could hear a wealth of regret in that otherwise
simple word. "She is dead. After talking with Marie, I called
Audrey's Mother and discussed this whole situation with her. I
found out that the governess passed away when Audrey was 14 and
according to her Mother, just starting to fill out and go through
her last growth spurt."
"A vulnerable time for any young woman, but most especially for
one who already doesn't fit in with her school mates."
"Yes, and the way she died doesn't help. Breast Cancer. A
uniquely female death that the old biddy evidently blamed, quite
loudly in Audrey's hearing by the way, on being too well endowed.
Marie tried to tell Audrey that was garbage, but we'll have to
see if she accepts that."
"What about the undies she snuck into your dark, feminine
prison?"
"I will pretend, Artemis," Jane said in grand hauteur, "That I
did not hear that scurrilous remark. As to the secret lingerie
cache, for the moment, I will not give her any indication that I
know about them. She's confided in Marie once. I think it best
that she think I don't know about it. Perhaps that will
encourage Audrey to confide further or seek Marie out when she
needs someone to talk to."
"Good plan," Art replied, and then dropped his voice into a low,
husky whisper. "I miss you, sexy woman. I miss you a LOT!
There is this Jane Thompson-sized hole in my bed that I keep
falling into every night."
"You're the one who said he had to leave," Jane retorted smartly,
not willing to admit on whose side of the bed she was waking up
of late. "Maybe we can plan an outing to Providence or Boston
with the girls and find an excuse to be together."
"Sounds like a plan. How about tomorrow?"
"Oh, you." Jane said fondly. "I have to go, dear. Call you
tomorrow as planned."
"Love you, Jane Thompson-Philips.
"You too, Art. You, too."
Chapter 6: More Questions Than Answers
Darla glanced over at the glowing numerals on her bedside clock
and scowled wearily. It had not moved all that much since the
last time she looked at it. She was tired - exhausted really -
but sleep would not come to the feminized teen.
For a few moments, she listened to the sound of night in Seasons
House. The wind had picked up during the day and it was blowing
strongly now. The century-old Victorian manor house creaked and
groaned as the gusts whistled in and out of the many twists and
corners of the external structure. Normally, such sounds meant
home to Darla, and were as good as a mother's lullaby.
But not tonight. Tonight, for all her fatigue, every sense seemed
to be on red alert, denying her mind rest.
Resignedly, she tossed aside her bedcovers and rolled out of bed.
Flicking on the light, she moved to her desk to find the book she
was reading for one of her online courses. *One of the distinct
disadvantages to being Darla right now is that my desk is always
filled with more pots, bottles and tubes than the Avon Lady's
sample case. Makes it bloody difficult to use as a desk.* As she
rummaged in the desk/vanity's drawers, she happened to catch a
glance of herself in the mirror.
"I wonder what Momma-Jane would say," Darla asked her reflection,
"If she knew that I think of these cute, silky, shortie-
nightgowns as oversized t-shirts? Wonder if that is how Audrey
sees them?"
Darla made her way back to the bed, her mind analyzing that last
thought. *Guess that isn't so odd,* she mused, *After nearly five
years of living with Darla, it only makes sense that the clothes
don't seem to matter all that much anymore. Darla wears dresses
and Darryl wears trousers and neither seems all that big a deal
anymore. About all they do is remind me how to act and which
name to answer to. Wonder if I could be Darryl in skirts?* The
thought made Darla laugh, a tired giggle that sounded strange
even to her ears. *Lord, am I really starting to think of myself
as two different people? I must be more blitzed than I thought.*
Shaking her head in a vain attempt to clear away the doldrums,
Darla set her book aside and reached for her robe as she stepped
into her slippers. "Much as I hate the stuff, I think this is a
warm milk kind of night."
~-~
Darla was surprised to see a halo of light on the floor beneath
the kitchen door as she padded through the dining room.
Carefully, she cracked open the door to see who was in there,
hoping to avoid Audrey if the other girl had decided to raid the
pantry, too. *I am just not up to keeping the mask in place right
now.*
It wasn't Audrey, she soon discovered. Rather it was Marie,
sitting at her kitchen table. She was reading a book, Darla
noted, and had evidently been there a while if the empty tea
carafe and cookie plate were any indication. For a moment, she
considered leaving Marie to her book, but curiosity got the
better of her. With an loud sneeze to announce her presence,
Darla opened the door and stepped into the brightly lit kitchen.
The noise made Marie jump in surprise, her eyes wide as they flew
to Darla's. "Darla!" she exclaimed, hurriedly closing her book.
"What are you doing here?"
"Couldn't sleep, Tante Marie," the petite blonde in the brunette
wig said as she bent down to kiss Marie's cheek. She frowned
only a little bit when she saw that Marie was obscuring the cover
of the book with her folded arms. "Thought I would try the warm
milk trick."
"You MUST be in a bad way, dear, to be willing to force down that
hated potion of your youth." It had been a long standing joke
between the two. Darla hated warmed milk while Marie firmly
believed in the beverage's benefits. Darla almost always gave
in, however, unable to resist her beloved Aunt Marie's entreaties
that it was for her own good.
"I wouldn't object to it having a bit of cocoa in it, just for
flavoring," Darla said hopefully.
"Now, you know cocoa has caffeine," Marie admonished as she stood
up to fix the milk. Only a few minutes later, the milk was
heated and ready for pouring. "Maybe this will help," Marie said
with a mischievous glint in her eye. From behind her back, she
pulled a small glass bottle and added a dollop of its amber
contents to the frothy white liquid.
Darla sipped carefully at the brandy-laced milk and sighed
happily. "Why didn't you ever do that for me before?" She
complained.
"Because you weren't a grownup then, darling. Now, why don't you
tell Tante Marie what is bothering you while you drink that
down?"
*In the same sentence, she calls me an adult and then treats me
like her child. Guess being an adult doesn't change some
things,* Darla thought with a smile, *Thank God!*
~-~
The phone on his desk rang loudly, breaking Art's concentration
on an abysmally written midterm exam and eliciting a curse that
would have had his beloved wife reaching for the soap bar. Not
that she'd really wash his mouth out with soap - it was just a
reminder of the standards to which she held her students. At
least Art THOUGHT she wouldn't try to wash his mouth out with
soap.
Grumbling, Art snatched up the phone to silence its fire alarm-
bell peel. The phone, like the furniture in this makeshift
office he'd been shunted to on his return were antiques - Early
American Office Surplus if he did not miss his mark. At least
the desk didn't rock too badly. "Hello?" he growled into the
phone.
"Oops," a cheerful light alto voice chuckled on the other end of
the line. "Why do I think I have called at a bad time?"
"Darla!" Art cheered, his mood instantly improving. "Great to
hear from you! What's up at home or can't you talk now?"
"Sure can! Momma Jane has Audrey downstairs for a formal tea.
*I* was not invited because *I* might set a bad example by trying
to lighten up the conversation. I think Edith White may be
coming for a visit and Jane is trying to pre