I was being dragged out of the ice cream shop with my cone in hand after
the humiliation of being felt up by Mr. Vickers. Carol and Emily were
all giggles and laughs, as they knew very well the humiliation I had
just suffered at the hands of Mr. Vickers. I, on the other hand, just
wanted to enjoy the oversized cone provided me as a girl and then get
back to the safety of our house.
The walk back was uneventful and I had almost forgotten I was wearing
the Easter dress with all its pinning and ribbons in my hair. Beth's
ice cream was melting more than she was eating as she continued her
chatter about how nice it was to have a sister, Laurie Ann, and how much
fun we were going to have as sisters. I was beyond arguing any more
with her, as she just didn't hear me when I told her I was her brother
and would never wear dresses and girls things again.
We found the safety of home as Mom had lunch set up for us. Dad had
already left for his afternoon shift at the plant. As we entered the
house Mom inspected the three of us and after a tsk, tsk shake of the
head said, "Well you girls look as if you enjoyed your outing. Lunch
will be ready in a little while. I think you had better go wipe your
faces, it would appear you have more ice cream on your faces than you do
in your tummies."
"Mom, please stop calling me a girl. Can I get out of this dress and
things now? Pleaseeeeeeeee," I whined.
"Well, Bobbi, I didn't make you wear a dress today. If I recall
correctly you were already dressed and planning on going out for ice
cream with you sister and Emily. You do what you want honey. You can
be a girl today or change if you want too," Mom responded. She wondered
why he was putting up a fuss now about being dressed and made up as a
pretty girl. She then added, "You do make a lovely looking girl, but
you should be a little more careful about going out dressed like that.
You're liable to meet some of your classmates and they'll be expecting
to see a girl in class with them, not a boy."
"Mom, I didn't really want to be dressed like this. Carol and Emily
made me, honest. I'm not ever going to wear a dress again, Mom."
"Whatever you say dear. I'm sure your Father will be glad to hear that.
Now, if you're going to change you better hurry before lunch is ready."
"Mom, why don't you make him stay dressed so he can play dolls with
Beth. He's the one who put the clothes on this morning. We just helped
him a little," Carol added.
"Carol, if your sister... I mean brother is tired of the games he can do
has he pleases. Now just go wash up and leave your brother alone," Mom
ordered.
And so I rushed to my room and in nanoseconds had the dress, slip,
shoes, socks and panties in a pile and was back into my boy clothes of
jeans and tee shirt. I kicked the frillies into a pile, not wanting to
touch them with my hands. I left them in the pile, including the fancy
Easter dress, knowing Mom would be following behind to retrieve them and
dispose of them properly.
I ate a light lunch, as I was still full from the oversized ice cream
cone Mr. Vickers had so kindly provided. Not much was said during lunch
except for Beth attempting to cajole me into playing dolls with her,
which in no uncertain terms I refused to do or ever consider doing again
in my lifetime. Emily was there with Carol for lunch and they bothered
me with their secretive giggles and whispers around the table. I
ignored them.
It was late in the afternoon mom called me from my television program to
come upstairs to my room. There she was sorting through the pile of
girl clothes I had kicked into a pile. The expression on her face was
not one of pleasure. "Bobbi, did you make this mess? What were you
thinking? This is not the way we treat our good clothes - or any
clothes for that matter. Now take these under clothes and put them in
your laundry basket and then come back here and I'll show you how to
properly hang your dress and slip," Mom said, rather annoyed.
I took the under-things and to the laundry basket but had heard her
refer to the dress and slip as mine. "Mom shouldn't these things be put
in the girls laundry? And those aren't my dress and slip, those are
Carol's, not mine."
"Laundry is laundry. They all go to the same place. Now come over here
hand straighten this dress out. Turn it right side out and give it a
shake by the shoulders to straighten it out while I find a hanger."
I did as told, but not with any enthusiasm. Actually getting a little
red in the cheeks as I had to hold the dress in front of me as I shook
it out after having to handle it to turn it right-side out. It was a
very pretty dress. Gosh, where did that come from, I hated dresses. I
would never wear one again.
"OK, here's a hanger. Slip the dress on the hanger and then lay it on
the bed and button the top button in back so it won't slide off. Now
this is a special hanger for your slip. See it has little notches to
hold the straps so it doesn't slip off the hanger."
I, rather embarrassed by all of this, accomplished the task and both
items were laid on the bed.
"Now hang your dress and slip in your closet."
"Mom! These aren't my clothes. They don't belong in my closet. I'll
put them back in Carol's closet where they belong. It's not my dress or
slip. I'll never wear them again," I retorted almost in tears.
Mom just looked at me with her hands on her hips but in a most cajoling
way, you know the ones they use when they think their kids are cute or
special and said, "Well there isn't much room in her closet anymore so
why don't you just do like I ask and put them in your closet. They
won't bite you, you know. And it might help you to remember to not be
lazy about your toilet habits. Besides you never know when you may want
to play dress up with your sister's again." She smiled as she made her
last remark.
"Mom, I told you it wouldn't ever happen again. I'm going to be real
careful. And I'm not ever going to play dress up," I replied as I hung
the dress and slip in my closet and pushed the as far back in the corner
as possible.
Later that afternoon George, Emily, and Carol were at the house. They
were playing a board game and Beth was nearby playing with her dolls. I
had been working on a model plane in my room and then came downstairs
for a break and to get something to drink. It was George who started
upon seeing me cross the room.
"My, my what pretty hair ribbons you have there little girl. They'd
look much better if you were wearing your dress," he laughed as the
girls turned to look and me and burst into fits of giggles and pointing.
I had forgotten all about the blue and white ribbons holding my hair in
ponytails when I had got undressed. I automatically reached up and
grabbed the ponytails and ribbons. My face turned crimson.
"Oh you should have seen Bobbi earlier in his pretty dress and all at
the ice cream shop. Old Mr. Vickers really liked him in all his
pretties," Carol teased.
"Well maybe he just left his pretty ribbons in so he could play dollies
with his little sister," George went on.
Emily added, "Well he's probably still wearing his pretty panties and
camisole under his boy clothes. Are you Bobbi?"
I tugged frantically at the ribbons and ponytails suffering pain as they
did not want to release. The ribbons were platted into the beginnings
of the ponytails. I turned to retreat upstairs with a parting shot, "I
don't wear dresses. Carol and Emily did this to my hair. I just
forgot."
Beth had followed me up to my room as I sat on the bed trying to undo
the ponytails and tears silently rolling down my cheeks from the
humiliation suffered once again. I would cut my own hair off if I
couldn't get a hair cut. I wouldn't care what it looked like. At least
it wouldn't be long and I couldn't ever have it in ponytails again.
Beth said, "Here Bobbi, let me help you. I know those are hard to undo
sometimes." She sat next to me as I resigned myself to expert help.
She was quite gentle as she undid the hair plats and ribbons. She then
picked up a brush and brushed the ponytails out, but little did I
realize that even with the ponytails gone she had managed to brush it
into a girly style. The hair parted in the middle and front as bangs
fell over my forehead and the hair hung round my shoulders.
We ate supper in mostly silence. Mom did ask me why I took my ponytails
and ribbons out. I told her I had forgotten about them till this
afternoon and then Beth helped me. She simply added that she thought my
hair looked very nice even without the ponytails. Carol giggled. I
knew then I would cut all my hair off.
I didn't cut my hair. I was afraid what punishment might loom ahead if
I really botched it up. Life went on. Carol occasionally would tease
me and ask if I'd like to try on some of her other dresses or skirts.
Beth would sometimes hound me to play dolls or house with her. And
occasionally I did play dolls with her but with my action figures and in
my own clothes. The under clothes I had worn that day showed up in my
bottom dresser drawer. The mary-jane style shoes to match the dress
were in my closet on the floor. I thought about complaining but figured
it wouldn't do any good anyway. Even the ruffled rumba panties I was
forced to wear over the diaper that first day were in my bottom drawer.
Dad would occasional tease me about being one of his three daughters. I
think he was really just trying to reassure himself that I was really
his son, as I would object strenuously and vehemently to his teasing.
Mom, on the other hand, was as nice as pie to me but her teasing, if
that's what it was, was more hidden. Every time she brought new clothes
home for my sister she would always make sure I saw every item, from
panties to shorts, tops, to dresses, socks and shoes. Always with the
same dialog, don't you think these are really pretty, aren't these cute,
don't you think this color will look so nice with Beth's hair color. I
wish your clothes were so easy to buy as for girls.
I would usually make some noncommittal remark like "Oh yeah sure, if
that's what they like", or "Yeah really nice girly stuff." She was
always after me about my hair, telling me how it would be long till I
got it cut for school but how I had to keep it neat while it was long.
I was subjected to shampoo and conditioners and if I didn't insist on a
low bunched ponytail with a gum band to hold it, it was brushed much the
same as Beth had done with it. On more than one occasion with my hair
down strangers called me little girl.
Carol was in a growth spurt. It seemed Mom always had to buy her new
clothes or shoes. I think she even got her first training bra that
summer. That and the fact she didn't consider herself a little girl
anymore like Beth, but mature and looking to style herself out of girly
stuff to preteen hot stuff.
The summer had grown hot. I was now in shorts most of the time with a
tank top or tee shirt. I even had sandals on most of the time. The
girls were into shorts or sun dresses. It was a hot, late July day I
was playing outside flying my balsa wood airplane. I saw Carol and
Emily come into the back yard and paid little attention to them. They
approached me rather nonchalantly, watching the plane I was flying do
its rolls and tumbles. It was too late for me when it happened. I was
watching the planes flips as Carol reached out and grabbing the
waistband of my denim shorts and pulled them forward with the other hand
pressed against my stomach. Emily then produced a glass from behind her
back and poured its contents down in the front of my shorts. I screamed
and pulled away as liquid soaked the front of my shorts, my underwear
and ran down my legs into my sandals. "What are you two doing," I
shouted. "Why did you do that? What did you pour on me? I'm telling
Mom. Your really in for it now, both of you."
Emily had quickly exited through the backyard fence gate with the glass
still in her hand. Carol then told me my fate. "Well, go ahead and
tell Mom. Go on go in and tell her how you peed you pants again. And
Dad's still home, let's wake him and tell him too."
"I'll tell them you and Emily poured water on me. Mom will know the
truth."
"Emily? Emily here? I don't see her. I haven't seen her all day and
neither has Mom. And that's not just water. Can't you smell it? It's
pee water from the toilet. Come on sissy baby, let's go tell Mom now,"
she said as she grabbed me by the arm and started dragging me towards
the house.
"No, no, wait Carol. Please don't tell her. Don't wake Dad. Please
I'll really get my bum beat if they find out." I was crying now
anticipating the beating I would get. Put back in diapers and dressed
like a baby girl. And Dad said he'd send me to school in diapers if I
did it again. What was I going to do? Would Mom believe me? How could
I make her believe that Carol and Emily did this that it wasn't me at
all?
Carol stopped as we neared the porch and pushed me back against the wall
of the house. "OK sissy, if you don't want Mom and Dad to find out you
pissed in your pants again you're going to do everything I tell you to
do. And if Mom or Dad or anyone asks your going to tell them it was
your idea that you like what it is your doing. Do you understand?"
"I... I.. I guess so. What do I have to do? I'll do the dishes for
you or what ever. I promise just don't tell Mom or Dad," I sniffled.
"I didn't pee my pants and you know it. Why are you doing this to me?
Please let me sneak in and change my clothes and I won't ever tell what
you did."
"Oh I know you're not going to tell and yes I'm going to help you sneak
in and change your clothes. Remember I'm going to keep your shorts and
underwear in a bag just like they are now and if you don't do like I say
I'll just give them to Mom and tell her you did it again. Now come on
up to my room and be quiet so we can get your clothes changed."
Once we were in Carol's room she closed the door and told me to get out
of my wet shorts and underwear. I took off the shorts and was reluctant
to take off my underwear in front of her she simply said, "OK don't,
I'll just take these to Mom and tell her you're waiting for her in my
room."
I shucked out on my boxers and she held out a plastic bag to drop them
in accompanied by my shorts. It was then Mom called upstairs, "Carol,
are you up there? Emily's here - should I send her up?"
"Yeah Mom, tell her to come up," replied Carol. Then, turning to me,
she said, "Ok sissy get your shirt off and lay down on my bed while I
get you some clothes."
This sounded bad. Why couldn't I get my own clothes? I knew in the
back of my mind what she was up to and once again tears started seeping
out and over my cheeks as I lay on her bed curled up in a fetal position
trying to hide my embarrassment.
Emily came through the door and almost in a whisper, as she looked at me
naked on the bed, "Wow, you mean he agreed to it? Man I don't believe
it. I thought he'd be crying to his Mommy or his Mommy would be her
diapering him again."
"Oh don't worry about the crybaby, he's going to do everything we tell
him to do. And he's going to tell everyone it was his idea and he likes
it. Aren't you little sissy? Well, I can't hear you, sissy?" Carol
smirked.
"I finally had to murmur a sniffled, "Y..e.sss"
"Here Emily, you can clean our little girly baby up and powder her
bottom while I find her, her diaper and pins. Come on sissy, roll over
here and spread those little legs so Aunt Emily can powder your bottom."
I rolled over and spread my legs as told to do. I placed my hands over
my eyes as I did not want them to see me nor I them. Emily powdered me
and even lifted my legs one at a time to powder my bum. She rubbed the
powder on right over my penis.
"Look here Carol, our little girl likes getting all powdered. Her
little thingy is sticking out," Emily giggled. "It's a good thing he's
so small down there, someone might think he was a boy."
"OK girly, lift that butt, so Mommy can get your diaper under you.
That's it. Look at the pretty pins I got for your diaper with the
pretty pink bunnies on the heads," Carol instructed.
I raised my butt as she slid the diaper under me, then she tightly
brought the ends together and pinned them with the diaper pins. As
humiliated as I was at the time the thick diapers did feel comforting
and at last I wasn't completely naked before them. I was still
sniffling as Carol pulled my hands away from my eyes.
"Now see, Emily even brought you a new pair of plastic panties to cover
your little diapers. Wasn't that nice of her?" Carol teased as she
began sliding the panties over my feet and up my legs.
The panties were yellow and looked satiny with row after row of white
and yellow lace wrapping around the entire panty. They squeezed around
my legs and tightened around my waist as the two of them worked them up
over my diapered bottom. "Carol, please. Don't do this. Let me go,
please," I pleaded.
"Just shut-up your whining or I'll give Mom the bag and make sure Dad
hears me too. You're going to do just what I want and like you
promised. No quit whining and dry your tears. We wouldn't want you to
wake Dad with your crying," Carol demanded.
"Here, Carol. Make him put this in his mouth to stop his whining,"
Emily said as she produced a binky on a yellow ribbon and handed it to
Carol.
"Oh great, Emily! Where'd you get it? Come on baby girl, open up and
take your binky," Carol replied as she pushed the binky between my lips
and into my mouth. I attempted to spit it out as she pushed it back in
with the threat, "Spit it out again baby and I'll tie it around your
head or tape it in."
I was pulled up to a sitting position as Emily knelt before me to roll
yellow lace top socks over my feet and rolled lace down on my ankles
slipping white mary-jane style shoes on me and buckling the straps. "I
got the binky at home. My aunt left it there the last time she visited.
It's really my baby cousin's, Vickie's. I think our little girl likes
sucking on her binky. And doesn't her little socks and shoes look so
cute on her?"
Carol in the meantime was pulling a frilly petticoat slip over my arms
and down over my chest as she straightened the lace straps over my
shoulders saying, "Well, most little girls wouldn't wear such a frilly
slip under a sun dress, but our little baby girl really likes to be all
frilly, don't you little girl? Answer me little girl or your going to
be sorry. Tell us how much you like your frills."
"Y..e..e..ss," I gurgled from behind the binky plugged in my mouth.
"Oh she even sounds like a baby with her binky in her mouth. Emily do
you see how white his thumb is? That's cause he still sucks his thumb
at night just like a little baby. Maybe she'll be able to stop thumb
sucking now that she has a binky to suck on."
"I.. I. Don't... su..c..c ..k my th..mb no..m..o.r," I babbled.
"Oh isn't that sweet. I just love to hear her talk like that. I'll
have to fix our baby a bottle so she can even suck her drinks," Emily
teased.
At this point I was pulled to my feet and the yellow and white gingham
sun-dress was pulled over my head. The slip barely came to mid thigh
and the dress hem fought a losing battle with the bottom of the slip.
The straps of the dress hid the straps of the slip and ended in bows on
each of the shoulders. I was red with total embarrassment and
humiliation. I was then sat in a chair in front of the vanity mirror
and they both began working in my hair. One on either side of me, they
started.
"Oh she's got such fine baby hair and the ribbons match the dress.
She's going to be such a cute little baby girl for Beth to play with,"
Carol teased.
They worked quickly and platted the ribbons into the long ponytails on
both sides of my head with sufficient ribbon to end the ponytails with
bows. I didn't know how I would ever get them out myself. My bangs
were combed to the front and Carol wrapped them in a hot curling iron
and when the iron was removed they lay in one large curl across my
forehead.
"There we are. Our little girl Laurie Ann is back," Carol announced.
"Now stand up and turn all around for us Laurie Ann."
I meekly did as instructed as the soft petticoats brushed my legs and
the diaper covered in the frilly panties kept my legs from closing in a
normal fashion. I was humiliated and further embarrassed because the
strange feel of the sissy clothes was not totally unpleasant.
"Gosh, Carol he really looks like a real little girl. Look, you'd never
believe he was a boy, would you? Let go give him to Beth to play with,
then we can get going without her or your new little sister tagging
along. This was a great idea," Emily said with excitement born of her
triumph in turning a boy into a little girl.
"Yeah Laurie Ann, it's time. We promised Beth you'd be here today to
play with her all day so we won't have to baby sit you two. Now come
along sweetie and better be quiet unless you want Mom and Dad to see you
all prettied up again," Carol again gave instructions. She thought, he
does make a better-looking girl than a boy. I can't believe he's so
gullible though. If he had cried to Mom she probably would have
believed him and I'd have been in real trouble. Maybe he really does
like playing at being a girl. I'm going to have to watch my little
brother a little closer. Oh well, at least Beth will be happy weather
he is or not.
Carol entered the hallway first and, when she determined it was clear,
nodded to Emily who unceremoniously pulled me into the hall and down to
Beth's room. Beth was sitting at her play table with the dolls and as
we entered looked up with a huge smile and almost shouting said, "Oh you
did it. You did it. You got Laurie Ann back to play with me. Oh Carol
you're the best sister!" She got up from the table and ran straight to
me throwing her arms around me and hugging me as tightly as her little
arms could manage. Beth wore her own pink sundress less the frilly
petticoats.
"Oh Laurie Ann! Carol said you would come and play with me and even be
my real live baby! Oh we're going to have so much fun. I'm going to be
the Mommy and you can be my baby girl."
I spit the binky out and it hung around my neck as Carol had secured the
ribbon around my neck. "I.. I'm not Laurie Ann! I'm Bobby your
brother. I.. I wouldn't be here if.." My sentence ended as I was
poked sharply in the ribs by Carol.
"What Laurie Ann means is that this has to be a secret for just the two
of you if you want Laurie Ann to ever come again and play with you. And
Laurie Ann just couldn't wait to surprise you and get all dressed up
like a baby girl for you, could you Laurie Annnnnnnn?" Carol so sweetly
told Beth as Emily held her hand over her mouth to suppress the giggles.
"Yeah, whatever," I retorted in not so sweet a voice.
"Put your binky back in Laurie Ann so you sound like a baby," Emily said
as she shoved the binky back in my mouth.
Carol turned and called Emily to follow as she issued final instructions
to me, "Now be a good little baby for Beth and make sure she has fun so
she doesn't have to have Mom looking for me. Oh and Beth we just change
her diaper so you shouldn't have to worry about that till we get back.
And here's her diaper bag with the toys Emily brought for you to play
with too. Now you little girls play nice together." And they left me
in care of my little sister.
They had no sooner left than Beth opened the bag and dumped the contents
on the floor. There was baby powder, diapers, a teething ring and a
baby bottle filled with what appeared to be milk and yet another with
apple juice. "Oh Laurie Ann look, they even brought you bottles to
drink," she exclaimed as she picked up the milk bottle and climbed up on
her bed sitting with her legs spread out and her back up against the
head board. "Come on Laurie Ann crawl up here on Mommy's bed on her lap
so she can feed you before your nappy time."
I reluctantly got up on the bed and lay across her lap with no intention
of ever drinking what ever was in the bottle. I said, "Come on Beth I
don't want to drink that stuff. And it's probably warm. I hate warm
milk, it will make me sick at my stomach."
To which she replied, "Laurie Ann, you be a good baby or Mommy will have
to punish you. Now you need your baba so you can grow big and pretty
just like your big sister Carol. You don't want Mommy to have to spank
you now do you? Ahhh come on. Please Laurie Ann, let me give you the
bottle. Carol said you do what ever I wanted. If you're not going to
play nice then I'll just go find Carol and Emily and play with them."
I knew I couldn't let her go crying to Mom and making Carol and Emily
babysit Beth. Carol would show Mom my wet clothes and I really be in
for it. So I succumbed and said in my best baby girl voice, "Laurie Ann
hungry Mommy, please give me my baba."
Beth's face lit up like the morning sun as she slid an arm under my
shoulders cradling me next to her and fed the nipple into my mouth. I
wasn't planning on sucking, but the nipple leaked milk into my mouth and
I automatically swallowed and sucked more. The warm milk wasn't as bad
as I thought it would be. Beth held me and began singing lullabies as
she rocked me and fed me my bottle. What! My Bottle. What was I
doing? What ever was I thinking? Then I just let go and totally
relaxed comforted in the arms of my little sister drinking milk from a
baby bottle with my dress and petticoats pushed up exposing little-girl
legs disappearing into a diapered and pantied bottom.
I was almost half sleeping when Beth switched hands holding the bottle
and then reached right up under my, I mean, the dress and was pushing
her fingers in the leg of the panties.
I spit the bottle out in shock and almost shouted, "Beth, what are you
doing? Get your hand out of there." I was attempting to grab her arm
and pull it out. Her fingers had already been under the panties and
diaper and touching my privates. I was really embarrassed. I knew
letting anyone touch your privates was a bad thing.
"Oh Laurie Ann, Mommy is just checking your panties to make sure you
don't need your diaper changed before your nap time," Beth responded as
if talking to a real baby.
Sensing another presence rather than seeing them I was startled when I
heard my Mother's voice and looked up to see her somewhat mystified look
as she surveyed the scene in front of her. "What's going on here, ah..
ah.. girls?" she kind of stumbled over.
"Oh Mommy, Laurie Ann came back to play with me today. She even dressed
up in her diapers and everything to be my baby and let me be the Mommy.
I was just checking her diaper to see if she needed changed before her
nap," Beth said excitedly as she pulled the dress and petticoats up
exposing my pantied and diapered bottom.
I was beyond embarrassment. Mom wasn't to know about this, Carol had
promised. What was I to do now? If I told Mom the truth she probably
never believe me having caught me in the arms of Beth with a bottle
stuck in my mouth and Beth's hand up under the dress. "Mom.. I, I, I
can explain," I stuttered while trying to sit up and push the dress back
down over my legs. My mind raced. What could I explain, I had to tell
her it was my idea or suffer the consequences of Carol's story and
evidence. I could hear Carol telling her that yeah it wasn't my idea
but since I had peed my pants again I agreed to do it. My goose was
cooked.
Mom had regained her composure and began, "Well, Beth I think if Bob..,
Laurie Ann needs her diaper changed you had better call me. I think you
might need some help with that. Ah, Laurie Ann where'd you find the
pretty sundress and panties? I think it's really nice of you to play
with your sister this way, but I think you both had better just play
quietly in Beth's room until Dad goes to work. You make a very pretty
little baby. Who did your hair so pretty with the braids and ribbons?"
I wanted to shout and scream, "I hate this. I don't want to be a baby
or a girl. Carol and Emily did this to me. Please Mommy make them
stop." But I didn't scream. I just let my head down and eyes down cast
not wanting to look my Mother in the eye. I meekly responded, "Mom, I..
I.. Well, Carol and Emily did this to my hair and Emily brought the
underwear over with her. Maybe I could just change my clothes now and
Beth and I could play something else."
"No, Laurie Ann you promised. You promised to be Laurie Ann all day
with me," Beth whined.
Mom just kind of smiled and said, "No, Laurie Ann I think if you
promised you should keep that promise. Anyway it looks as if you two
are having a lot of fun."
"Yeah, Mommy after lunch maybe you can find a new dress for Laurie Ann
and we can both be Mommies and have a tea party?" Beth injected.
"I think that would be very nice, Beth. I'll see what I can find for
Laurie Ann. Now you girls play quiet, OK?" Mom soothed.
As his Mother slipped back out the door, closing it quietly behind her,
she had many questions racing through her mind. Did her son have a
problem that needed professional help? Is this just a stage? Doesn't
he know the teasing and torment he could be subject to if his playmates
found out about him dressing like a girl or wanting to wear diapers?
Did forcing him into a diaper and dress do this to him? She just found
it hard to believe that he committed himself to being dressed complete
with hairstyle and diapers to play with his little sister. Well she
thought, I hope his Dad doesn't find out about this right now, anyway.
I'll find him an outfit for this afternoon and when I help him dress
maybe I can find out a little more about what's happening to her, I mean
him. Shaking her head slowly back and forth she wondered, he does look
really cute and could be Beth's twin sister when he's dressed like that
and his hair done. I wonder if he's always going to have those features
or will puberty finally push him into manhood? Oh well, that's a few
years off yet. God, I'm getting old.
Back in Beth's room she was whining again, "Oh Laurie Ann it's alright
if you pee in your diaper. You're supposed to. You're a baby remember?
Emily even left clean diapers in the bag. Come on now and finish your
baba and Mommy will let you take your nappy."
I started to reply as Beth pulled me back across her lap and pushed the
nipple back into my mouth. Of course this just made my reply sound all
the more like baby talk and Beth giggled. I tried to say, "I.. I not
pee pants.. I'm not..."
"It's ok baby. Just drink your milk like a good little girl. Baby's
getting all sleepy, isn't she?"
The trauma of the day was too much. I did drift off to sleep with the
bottle in my mouth and sucking the contents into me as any baby might.
When I awoke sometime later I found myself curled up in a fetal position
with my thumb stuck in my mouth. A pink baby blanket covered me. My
shoes and socks had been removed and replaced with knitted yellow
booties stretched over my feet. I heard them before my eyes could focus
on them.
"See Mommy, my baby is waking up from her nappy and I better check to
see if she needs her diaper changed. She even pit her binky out and is
sucking on her thumb," Beth was whispering.
"Oh your baby girl is just darling there all curled up. But you better
let me check her diaper. If she wet it you can help me change her.
Come on sleepy head, wake up, it lunch time," Mom said as she bend over
the bed and reaching up under the cuddly blanket and my dress pulled my
panties out and stuck her hand inside to feel my dry diaper. "Oh your
baby girl is growing up. I think she's ready to potty train. She's
still dry after her nap."
"Mom," I sleepily wailed starting to realize my current predicament,
"don't do that. I don't pee my pants and I'm not going to." Struggling
to get out from under the blanket and out of the bed I cajoled, "Please
Mom I don't want to play baby anymore."
"That's alright sweetie pie. You and your sister come on down for lunch
and we'll talk about it. Your Dad's left early for work so it will be
just us girls. Now come over here and let me undo your diaper so you
can use the potty like a big girl," Mom replied.
I stood immobile as Mom reached up under the short sundress and
petticoats to pull the ruffled panties down my legs. She then unpinned
the diaper on one side and let it slide down my legs. I stepped out of
the panties and diaper pushing the dress and petticoats down to try and
save some modesty. I headed straight for the bathroom to relieve myself
as my bladder was about to explode.
Beth was following close behind and as I entered the bathroom she was
right on my heels. I had to go so bad I didn't have time to argue even
for modesty's sake. I wondered why she was doing so till I entered the
bathroom and there in the middle of the floor sat her old potty chair.
"Oh Laurie Ann you're such a big girl not peeing your diaper, you can
use the potty chair just like a big girl," Beth exclaimed.
I was in shock. Where did this come from? I was holding my dress and
petticoats up around my waist looking to get on the regular toilet as
Beth took hold of me and pushed me back towards the potty chair. I
could feel the pee leaking from my thingy and rather than risk a
disaster on the bathroom floor sat unceremoniously down squeezing onto
the potty as I let it all go.
I was sitting there flushed with embarrassment but nothing like the
humiliation I was about to feel. There in the doorway stood Carol,
Emily and George. Laughter and giggling followed as Carol started, "Oh
my you really get into being a baby girl. You look so natural on your
little potty chair. Maybe Mommy will let her little girl keep it in her
room right next to her crib."
Then Emily started, "Don't hold your dress and pretty slips so high.
You wouldn't want George to see your privates now, would you?"
Tears of humiliation rolled down my cheeks. "Get out! Get out of here
all of you. I'm going to tell Mom the truth. Now get out," I screamed.
They retreated but my yelling brought Mom to the scene. "What's going on
here? You three get out of here. There are sandwiches and lemonade
downstairs. Go eat your lunches."
"Mom they were teasing Laurie Ann and made her cry," Beth, almost in
tears herself, whimpered to Mom.
"Go on downstairs Beth. I'll get Laurie Ann straightened up and be
right down. Now be a good Mommy and make sure you have lunch ready for
your little girl." Turning to me as Beth left she continued, "Well you
know if you're going to wear dresses and wear your hair in ponytails
you're going to have to expect to get some teasing. I didn't anticipate
you'd have an audience for your potty-chair experience. I only
suggested it to Beth cause I thought maybe you'd like to get out of
diapers and she'd understand her baby growing up."
"Mom," I sobbed, "I really didn't want to be a baby. Carol made me
promise to play with Beth. Then she said I'd have to be a baby for
her."
"I understand. It's all right. Are you finished now? Here wipe
yourself and stand up so we can get you into some panties instead of
diapers. Here's a pretty pair of yellow ones to match your dress and
they even have cute little bows on them, see?"
"Mom, please can't I just wear my own underwear?"
"Oh don't be silly. With such a pretty dress and all you don't want
your old boy underwear under it, now do you?"
I stood and stepped into the little satiny yellow panties with the
flowers and bows on them as Mom slid them up my legs and around my bum.
I really couldn't deny in my own mind that girl's underwear did feel
nice, nicer than boys underwear ever felt on. But I hated the idea I
had to be dressed like a girl. Why wouldn't Mom listen to me.
Mom continued as she took my hand and led me towards the stairs, "Oh
Bobby, I mean Laurie Ann, I so happy you're playing with your little
sister today. She's usually under foot all the time and I can't seem to
get anything done around the house. And you look so pretty all dressed
up. Why no one who didn't know you would ever think you were anything
but a pretty little girl. Do you like pretending to be a girl?" She
stopped at the top of the stairs and knelt down to look me right in the
eyes. "Did you ever really wish you were a real girl, Bobby?"
"Mom, I'm not a girl. I.. I..," thinking how I was going to impress on
her I hated being a girl and being teased and all with out digging
myself into real trouble from Carol, "was just doing it to play with
Beth cause I promised Carol. I'm a boy remember."
"Yes, I know you're a boy and sometimes boys like to pretend to be girls
and dress up like girls. And sometimes it's ok for boys to do that.
But those little boys have to be real good pretending to be girls or
some people will tease them real bad if they know or find out they are
really boys wearing girls things. Do you understand what I'm telling
you?"
"I.. I guess so. You mean I have to fool people if I have to wear a
dress?"
"Well Bobby yes that's kind of what I was saying. But even if you just
want to wear a dress like today you have to be able to fool people. Now
come on Laurie Ann and we'll get some lunch and then I have a big
surprise for you and Beth this afternoon."
"A surprise? What is it? What's the surprise?" I asked excitedly.
"You'll just have to wait and see."
I was starting down the stairs ahead of Mom and as I looked down there
was George leaning on the rail at the foot of the stairs looking up with
a big grin on his face. It only took a second to recognize where his
eyes were focused. He was looking up my dress! I pushed the front down
and held it against my legs in an attempt to block his view of my
pantied bottom.
George spoke, "Well aren't you just the prettiest little thing and out
of diapers and into big girl panties."
"George! That's enough out of you," Mom retorted.
"Oh, Mrs. Brown, I wasn't teasing. He really does look pretty. He
could really be a girl, I think. He could hang around with us as a girl
as long as he's not wearing diapers."
"OK George, we get it. Now I think it's time you went home," Mom
replied as I just red faced preceded to the kitchen for lunch.
Lunch was only notable in the fact Carol, Emily and George were already
gone and my little sister insisted on continuing to treat me like her
little girl and wait on me hand and foot. That wasn't all bad, I could
almost get in the mood of this play-acting in dresses and frills. At
one point I even spit food back out telling her baby was full. This only
resulted in me getting a face washing from her and a little pink and
white bib tied around my neck.
When lunch was over I still hadn't forgotten the promise of a surprise.
"OK Mom, what's the surprise you promised?"
"OK girls, you'll both find out real soon. Right after you both get
cleaned up and dressed properly," Mom responded.
"Girls", "Dressed Properly" what did that mean I wondered? I guessed I'd
finally be let out of these dresses and girls stuff and dressed like a
proper boy should dress.
We followed Mom up the stairs to the bathroom where she stripped us both
of our dresses socks, shoes, slips and underwear. A fragrant bath was
awaiting with tons of bubbles at least a foot deep. Our ponytails were
wrapped up on our heads and pinned to keep our hair dry. We played with
the plastic glasses and made bubbles with our hands curled and I was a
bit disappointed when it all came to an end as we were scrubbed and
drawn out of the tub to be wrapped in soft fluffy pink towels. I hadn't
realized it but lost in the sprit of play in the tub I had been acting
as much a little girl as Beth, giggling and playing. This did not go
unnoticed by Mom.
We wet directly to Beth's room where Mom had already laid out two piles
of girl's clothes. "Mom, Do I have to wear girls clothes? Please I
just want to wear my boy clothes. I don't want to be a girl anymore," I
cried.
"Oh Laurie.. I mean Bobby. You don't have to wear girls clothes if you
don't want to. But don't be embarrassed if you do. It's just that
you're spoiling the big surprise I had in store for you two. But you
don't have to wear anything you don't want to wear," Mon said with what
seemed great disappointment in her voice.
Beth chimed in, "Oh Laurie Ann please be my sister some more, please. I
had so much fun this morning with you and you don't have to be my little
baby girl anymore. We'll just be sisters, OK? And tomorrow if you want
I'll be your baby and you can be the Mommy."
So there it was. If I wouldn't let Mom dress me like a girl, then no
surprise for Beth or me. It wasn't fair. I'm a boy. I shouldn't have
to dress like a girl and pretend to be one. Emily and George would
tease me and probably tell everyone I wore dresses and diapers. And
what did Mom say? Oh yes, "if anyone found out I was really a boy in
dresses that they would tease me bad."
"Mom, please I don't really want to. Can't we just have our surprise?"
I pleaded.
Mrs. Brown looked at her forlorn son and thought; I wonder what's up
with him. First I find him in dresses and diapers taking a bottle and
sucking his thumb and now he doesn't seem to want to even wear a dress.
George's teasing must have gotten to him. I like to crown that kid.
Well I think he just wants some encouragement so he can justify in his
mind wearing dresses and pretending to be a girl. Well here goes
nothing, I'll see how badly he reacts to some forcefulness. If he
really balks then I'll have a son back. If he goes ahead maybe I'll be
stuck with three daughters.
"Laurie Ann! That's about enough whining. You played in a dress all
morning of your own desire. I told you if you were going to wear girl's
clothes then you had better practice being and acting like a girl or
you'd suffer the consequences. Now if you want to spoil the surprise
for you and your sister then go get in your own clothes. Otherwise stop
whining and start getting dressed. You can surely put on your own
panties and camisole," Mom said in no uncertain terms even shocking Beth
into silence with her raised voice.
I was in shock. Mom rarely yelled at us. With head hung down I walked
over to the pile of clothes she had pointed out to me and picked the
white lacy nylon panties off the top. With my back turned to her I
stepped into the panties and pulled them up my hairless legs and up
around my waist. They squeezed my thingies down there and I reach a
hand down inside the panties and pushed them all back between my legs so
they weren't squeezed so much. I then slipped the little white nylon
lace camisole with little string straps over my head and down over my
tummy. I turned to look for Beth.
Mom was helping her into they same style panties and camisole I had just
put on. They were white lacy nylon too. She was jabbering to Mom
trying to find out the promised surprise. I looked at the clothes on
the bed more closely and recognized them. They were the sailor style
dresses she bought for Carol and Beth last spring. I only ever saw them
in them once. Carol's, that I was going to be wearing, was white with
blue piping around the bib style collar, the short puffed sleeves, and
the hem of the full skirt and the front that had the big bow tied at the
neck line. Beth's was the mirror image, but hers was blue where Carol's
was white and white where Carol's was blue. Mom slipped a very full
skirted slip over Beth and then had her step into her dress as she
buttoned it up the back. She reached up under her dress and pulled the
slip down and then told Beth, "Go ahead and put your shoes and socks on
while I help Laurie Ann finish."
I was almost in tears as Mom came over and held the slip for me. "Lift
your arms up sweety. These slips are so pretty it's almost a shame to
hide them with a dress. I'm glad you decided to be Laurie Ann awhile
longer. It means a lot to your sister and it's ok if you like
pretending to be a girl."
I was soon in my slip and dress sitting on the edge of the bed as Mom
slipped the white ankle socks on me with the turned down blue lace trim
to match the dress. Beth's were blue with white lace tops. Beth was
slipping on navy blue shiny patent leather Mary-Jane style shoes and
buckling the strap as Mom was slipping white patent leather shoes of the
same style on me. They felt a little big, but I didn't say anything to
Mom. As Mom knelt before me she whispered, "Laurie Ann you need to
remember to keep your knees together wearing dresses. You'll be showing
everyone your pretty panties if you don't."
I actually turned red as I slapped my knees together pinching folds of
the lacy slip between my legs. Oh, I thought those feel really weird on
my legs, kind of like the panties feel when I put them on. I'm sure I
turned even redder at that thought but I didn't know why.
Once we were both outfitted Mom took the ponytails out and brushed our
hair out. The hot iron was used to curl bangs over our foreheads and
matching ribbons separated our hair from behind our ears and wrapped up
over our heads to form a bow on the top. I was as yet forlorn at my
predicament and my frown should have told anyone looking I was under
duress. I should have just forgot the surprise and gone and been a boy.
Beth on the other hand was all smiles and giggles. We both stood as
told in front of Mom and the big mirror for inspection.
"Oh my goodness," she exclaimed, "you two are just adorable. Laurie Ann
if your hair was longer, like your sister's, you'd be identical twins."
My sister's hair had never been cut, only trimmed on occasion. It
reached clear down her back to her bum while mine was only at shoulder
length. This hair difference was going to play a part in my discovery
later.
Mom then handed us little purses to match our outfits. I had to admit
seeing myself and Beth together in the mirrored reflection there wasn't
any boy there. The sensation of the dress and slip hanging at mid thigh
and brushing my legs with every movement was a nice sensation that would
always remain my secret. Beth did a quick spin around and her dress and
slips rode higher up her thighs. I had to smile at her impish act and
then mimicked her twirl myself smiling as I did so. Oh the breeze under
the dress and the swish of the soft nylon of the slip were really nice.
"Oh that's better Laurie Ann. Your so pretty when you smile like that
you could light up the world," Mom praised and continued. "Now let's go
get that big surprise I promised my pretty little girls."
We were going out! I followed Mom to the door behind Beth leading our
fashion parade. I grabbed Mom's hand to stop her and pleaded my case,
"Mom, you didn't say we were going anywhere. People will see me. You
even said they'd tease me. I don't want to go out dressed like this."
Mom stopped and bent down to look me in the eyes. "Honey I said you
couldn't act like a boy or look like a boy in a dress or people would
tease you. You can't possibly believe anybody who sees you would ever
believe you weren't a pretty little girl, now would you? Come on now
I'm sure your going to like the surprise." She stood taking my hand and
leading me out towards the car. Beth and I were buckled into the back
seat and we were off to an unknown destination.
As Mom started out Beth turned to me and said, "Oh Laurie Ann I'm so
glad you're my sister today. When Carol and I wore these dresses she
complained so much to Mom about looking like a little girl that we never
got to wear them again together. I really like my dress and really like
that we look so much alike, even more than Carol and me did. Are you
excited? I really am. I could almost pee my panties. OH, Oh I'm
sorry. I didn't mean that. I mean please don't get to excited and do
anything in your panties, Mom might get mad and make you wear a diaper
again."
"Beth be quiet. I'm not going to pee my panties. I mean my pants. I'm
not real excited about being out where everyone can see me. I wouldn't
have let Mom dress me like this if it weren't for the surprise. Can't
you even remember I'm your brother not your sister and I don't like
wearing dresses," I retorted.
"Well some girls don't like wearing dresses either, but I do. Maybe
Mommy will buy you some girl's pants and tops if you don't want to wear
dresses. I think you look so pretty in dresses though."
"Beth, I don't want to look pretty. I want to look like a boy."
At that Beth closed up and her smile was replaced by a frown as she
folded her arms in front of her in a pouted manner. Mom swung into the
parking area by the newly renovated downtown area of shops. The mid
afternoon sun was bright and a slight breeze blew. Several blocks of
little shops and eateries were contained in cobble stone streets blocked
off to traffic. There was a substantial crowd already milling through
the area and shops as we arrived. I couldn't believe this was the
surprise. All these people would be watching me. They'd know. They'd
know I was really a boy, I was sure of it. Frozen in fear I was almost
trembling as Mom opened the doors and unbuckled us from our seats.
"Mom," I whined, "I can't go here. People will see me. They'll know.
Please Mom, don't make me."
"Stop it right now!" Mom ordered in that raised voice, "No one is going
to know unless you tell them. Now quit being such a baby and get out.
We're going to have a wonderful time here today if you don't spoil it
for everyone."
I was reluctantly dragged from the seat and with Beth on one of Mom's
hands and me on the other we preceded into the courtyard. The warm
summer breezes played with the hem of my dress and slip. It blew my
hair across the back of my neck and tickled almost as much as the slip
did on my legs. Several people passed and not one of them said "Oh look
there's a boy in a dress." In fact they usually smiled at Mom and then
turned their smiles downward on us. On lady said to Mom as we passed,
"Oh my you've got such gorgeous daughters and I simply love their
outfits." Mom simply thanked the lady and smiled as we continued our
march.
Halfway down the block we were directed into one of the shops. It's
name said "The Princess Shop". Once in the door we were accosted by a
older woman about my Grandma's age. "Oh Mrs. Brown, so good to see you
again. Oh my, these two are absolutely beautiful in those outfits. I
remember when you bought them this spring. Oh are they identical twins
or fraternal twins?"
I was cowering behind Mom's skirt trying to hide. Mom replied to the
Lady, "Oh thank you Bea. I'm glad you think they do your clothes
justice. No, there not even twins. Actually Laurie Ann is eleven months
older than Beth."
"Well Laurie Ann and Beth you could have fooled me. You're both so
pretty." Bea smiled down at us, and continued, "What can we do for such
pretty princesses today?"
Mom spoke up shocking me, "Well the girls have been so good so far this
summer I thought I'd get them both a new summer outfit for church and
such."
"Oh you're right on time as we just got a new shipment of some of the
prettiest summer dresses we've ever handled here. Follow me, please.
And we have all kinds of accessories for them too."
Bea led the charge as Beth followed on the ladies heels. I hang back
pulling on Mom's hand to get her attention. "Mom," I said in a whisper,
"Is this the surprise? I don't want no dresses."
"Oh this is just part of the surprise. Be patient little girl. And
furthermore you can't just keep borrowing Carol's old clothes to dress
in. You're going to have to have some of your own. Now I know you have
to protest but we both know deep down you like it, now don't you?"
I considered an open argument with Mom right there in front of everyone.
I didn't want to wear dresses. I was a boy. In my mind I could see the
confrontation me telling Mom I was a boy and didn't want to wear panties
and girls stuff. Other people would hear that and point and laugh at
me. And then Mom would get mad and call me a big sissy and probably pull
my dress up and spank me in front of everyone. It wasn't hard to decide
to wait to fight another day.
Mom ushered me into a dressing room in the middle of the store. I
thought that was ok since at least I wasn't out in the store area for
everyone to see. Then she told Beth to help me get out of my dress and
slip while she and the clerk found something suitable for me to wear.
Beth started unbuttoning my dress, I mean the dress, and then started
again, "Oh Laurie Ann, I hope Mommy buys us dresses to match. I'm going
to ask her for a new dress too."
"Beth, whatever she buys for me in here is going to be yours. I don't
like wearing dresses and pretending to be a yucky girl. So you pick the
dress you like cause it's going to be yours when we leave here."
I was standing in just the underwear and camisole when Mom pushed back
into the small room with her arms loaded with dresses. "Oh Laurie Ann
these new summer dresses are unbelievable. I'd buy the whole lot for
you if I could afford it. Now I'll leave Beth to help you dress and
when you have the dress on come out here so I can see it on you and you
can see for yourself how it looks on you in the big mirror."
Beth interrupted, "Mommy can I please have a new dress too. Please
Mommy. These are really nice."
Mom responded, "Yes, I think you should have one also. Let's get Laurie
Ann fitted first and then you can try some on."
"Mom," I pleaded, "I don't want a dress. Just buy some for Beth,
pleaseee."
"Don't be silly. You really need some of your own clothes, now get busy
while I look around out here," she responded.
I was in more dresses than I ever believed possible. Frilly sundresses,
summery frocks with short hemlines and longer ones. Pink ones, blue
ones, yellow ones, white ones all combinations of materials from cotton
to satiny ones were thrust on my body. Each new outfit I was pushed out
into the main store to the ew's and ah's of Mom and the shop keeper. I
was sent back in several times to either put this or that slip on under
the dress. Finally mom had narrowed her selection to four dresses and
now I was to pick which of the four I would like best. They were all
frilly. However by this time I was kinda of numb and was resigned to
pretending to be a girl. So I looked at the selections trying to
remember each as I had worn them. "This one I guess."
I held out the white lace sundress with the lace straps and pink bows on
them. The top was kind of like stretchy tight around my chest and with
eyelet lace rows around it and a pink ribbon intertwined in the lace.
The waist had a sown in pink ribbon kind of belt that the ends tied
around in back in a big bow. In fact the bow was already tied, all you
had to do was hook it around you rather than tying it. The skirt was
very full and again had matching lace and ribbons that ended in
scalloped lace hem just above my knees. I guess if you had to wear a
dress this one felt better on than some of the others. It did require a
petty slip underneath it, but at least it didn't require petticoats. I
remembered wearing it in front of the mirror. I really looked girly and
even felt girly. Oh shit what was I thinking. I'd never wear this
dress.
"Oh honey I was hoping you'd pick that one. It looked so beautiful on
you and I've already got the accessories for with it picked out. Here
kick your shoes off and try these sandals on with it," Mom excitedly
said as she handed me a pair of white strap sandals with a pink bow on
the toe where the straps crossed. I slid them on without complaint and
knew if I were a girl that this would be an awesome outfit, but I wasn't
no darn girl!
About that time Beth came flying out of the dressing room in the same
dress but it was white with yellow trim. "Look Mommy! Don't you just
love it. It's just like Laurie Ann's except the color. Can I have it,
please Mommy?" Beth cajoled.
"Of course you can dear. I did promise and you look as lovely in your
dress as Laurie does in hers. I can't wait to see you two all dolled up
in your dresses together." Mom replied.
Beth was ecstatic and threw her arms around me and hugged me right
there. I had had enough. I asked Mom, "Can I please wait outside for
you?"
I felt really trapped in the store and figured I could find a place of
solitude outside to wait for Mom.
"Oh sure dear. Just help your sister get dressed and take her with you
while I pay for these things."
"But Mom, I really don't need a dress. Why don't you just get one for
Beth?"
"Nonsense! Now just go help your sister and wait for me outside."
I helped Beth back into her sailor dress and we exited the store in our
sailor uniforms. I headed straight for an isolated bench back in an
alcove between stores as Beth followed. They wind blew and I was busy
holding my skirt down for fear of having my panties exposed. Beth
thought it funny and was giggling about it. I had to admit in my mind
it was rather funny struggling to hold down the hem in so many different
areas. I giggled too. I sat on the bench remembering to fold my skirt
under me and keeping my knees tightly together. Sitting pulled the
skirt of the dress even higher up on my thighs than just standing or
walking in it. The lacy white slip was exposed. Beth sat down beside
me mimicking my prior actions.
It was then that I looked up across the mall area to see George and some
other boys looking directly at us. George was pointing and smirking.
The boys with him were just looking kind of dumb and then they all were
laughing and pointing and talking among themselves. Beth or I could not
hear the conversation, but I could imagine what he was telling them. I
felt the fiery glow begin at the top of my head and spread down over my
body clear to the extremities of my fingers and toes. They promised
they would ever tell anyone, but I was sure George was telling them now.
George and three of his buddies from school had been biking around town
most of the day. It was when they stopped in the downtown mall area for
pop when George happened to look across the mall area to see Beth and
yes, yes it had to be, Bobby in a dress coming out of the Princess shop.
He was a keen observer as he watched Bobby struggle with his dress
against the wind. Well he saw enough to see he wasn't wearing diapers,
but he was sure wearing everything else girly. Jeeze, he wondered, why
would a boy want to look like a girl? And man he couldn't believe it
from the first time he saw him in a dress how much he looked like a
girl. He was even better looking than his sister Carol. Well I
promised Carol and Mrs. Brown I wouldn't tell anybody, but I really
wouldn't be telling anyone if they saw him in a dress themselves, now
would I? With that justification he poked Jesse in the ribs and pointed
towards Bobby and Beth now seated on the bench.
"Hey see those girls over there?" he asked his friends.
"Ouch, yeah, I see them so what?" replied Jesse.
"Well what if I told you one of them wasn't even a girl."
"Yeah, like sure. What are you trying now? What kind of stupid do you
think we are? You want us to go over and ask which one is the girl and
have them screaming and their Mother all over us?" Jesse responded to
the supported "Yeahs" of the others.
"No, no guys I really mean it. One of them is really a boy, the girl's
brother. You know his other sister, Carol Brown."
"You're shitting me. That's a boy? Man what a fairy boat. Come on
let's go have some fun with the fairy," Jesse laughing said.
"Shit no man. Just look for right now. If we go over there now I'll be
in deep shit. I promised his Mom and Carol I wouldn't tell and I
didn't. You guys seen him yourself, right? So I didn't tell you
anything. You'll see him again and then you can have your fun."
"Well OK, this time. How old is he? Does he dress like a girl for
school too?"
"Oh, he's like 5 or 6. He's just starting the first grade this fall.
Probably St. Catherine's, that's where his sister goes."
"Well this could be a fun year at school. Come on let's go shoot some
hoops." And they were off.
Bobby watched in stark terror as it appeared they were all coming
towards them, but then they turned and headed out of the mall. He knew
George saw him and told them about him. He wondered why they hadn't
come over to him and tormented him. He was sick in the stomach just
thinking about what had transpired. The red embarrassment had faded to
the white clamminess of pure fear. It was then that his Mother turnd
up. She looked to her two girls sitting so prettily on the bench and
then saw the white pallor of her son's face.
"Oh there you two are. What's the matter Bob.. Laurie Ann? Are you
sick?" Mom inquired as she freed a hand from her package-laden arms to
place it across his forehead. "Your skin is clammy. You're sick aren't
you. Poor baby, let's get you home. Can you girls help me with these
packages? Is your stomach upset, dear?"
Taking some of the packages from her I tried to reply, still feeling as
if I had a ball of cotton stuffed down my throat. "I.. I.. I mean
George was here, he saw me and he was with some other guys. He was
pointing at me, I know he told them." Tears were forming in the corners
of my eyes.
"George wouldn't do that, honey. He promised and I've never known
George to lie. Besides he didn't come over here and bother you or your
sister, did he?"
When we got home Mom sorted the packages and sent both Beth and I to our
rooms laden with packages. This had to be more than a dress and shoes,
I thought. I piled the packages on my bed and wondered what surprises
were held in the bags. I wasn't going to look and have Mom think I had
the slightest interest in what she had bought. I would see Beth got all
the girly things contained herein just as soon as possible. The next
step was to get out of this ridiculous outfit. I had to call Beth to
help me unbutton the dress just as she had to do in the fitting room.
"Oh Laurie Ann are you going to be a boy again? I thought you'd be my
sister the rest of the day," Beth whined as she helped me out of the
dress.
"I am a boy. And I don't want to be a girl anymore. You can have all
this stuff Mom bought today," I almost yelled at her.
"I'm sorry," she whined.
I was back in my jeans and a T-shirt when Mom came back into my room.
She looked from me to the clothes I had stripped out of and the packages
still on the bed. Disappointment shown in her eyes as she addressed me,
"Bobbi, you took your pretty outfit off. I thought for sure you'd be
trying on your new clothes."
"Mom," I whined, "I'm not a girl. I didn't want any dresses. I'm going
to give all that stuff to Beth. Please Mom?"
Then a note of anger appeared in Mom's voice. "You ungrateful little
snot. I take you shopping and buy you clothes of your very own and then
you act like this. You're the one all dressed up like a girl this
morning. I didn't hear you complaining then. You let me take you to
the mall and buy you clothes and now you tell me your going to give them
away? I don't think so missy. No, these will just go in your closet
and drawers for the next time you want to pretend to be my daughter so
you can leave your sister's stuff alone."
I was shocked at Mom's outburst. I had made her feel bad. She was more
hurt than mad, I thought. "Ah.. ah I.. I'm sorry Mom. But.. I I am a
boy remember."
"Well little boy pick up those clothes you threw all over. Hang your
dress and slip on a hanger and put them in your closet. Then put your
underwear in the hamper with your socks and put the shoes in your
closet. I'll make room for the rest of your things in your drawers
while you do that."
I did as told and then watched in abject horror as Mom took the rest of
the items she purchased for me out of the bags and began handing them to
me to put in the drawer she had rearranged. Girl's panties, pink, blue
and white ones, al