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Chapter 3: San Francisco Here We Come I was sleeping soundly, dreaming of what it would be like to be Suzie fulltime, wearing nice clothes, being able to get rid of all of my boring guy clothes, being able to get my hair colored and permed without anyone saying anything, to have real breasts and to have guys check me out as just a cute girl. Gees did I say guys? Suddenly my sweet dreams were interrupted by Jennifer shaking me saying it was time to get up. I sat up and she sat down on the bed and gave me the longest and most passionate kiss I have ever had. "I thought that kissing me made you feel a little weird." "It does but, I just wanted to see if I could do it." I went over to my drawer, took out my white Miracle Satin Classic bra and matching satin bikini panties, and put them on. I put in my push-up pads and went over to the mirror to look. There stood a 16-year-old girl, with a hint of cleavage showing, looking back at me. I was amazed I could not believe it. As I got out of bed, Jennifer said. "If you are going to wear your jeans, you have to be able to hide your useless appendage." We both laughed, though I turned red with embarrassment. I remembered that mom had a panty girdle that I had tried on a couple of times. I went and asked her if I could borrow it and she said yes, and I could have it if I wanted it. I went back to my room; put the girdle and my jeans on. Laurie said, "Something doesn't look quite right. I know..." She ran into the bathroom and came back with two hand towels. She told me to take off my jeans, and then she placed the towels inside my girdle, along my hips. I put my jeans back on and she took me over to the mirror, For the first time I saw myself standing there with a smooth flat front and wide hips. "Oh" I thought, "I wish this was for real!" "Quit ogling yourself and get ready," said Jennifer. I put on Laurie's scoop neck top. I went over to the vanity and started to apply my make- up, under Jennifer and Laurie's supervision of course. They said not to put too much on because I would be getting my own make-up today and I would want to try on several before I bought. Therefore, they decided that I should only use a little eye shadow and lipstick. After I had finished, Jennifer started taking the rollers out of my hair. Letting the cascading curls fall, as they will. She took a wide toothcomb and ran it through my hair. The result was that my hair looked like it was naturally wavy and very sexy. Jennifer was already dressed. She was wearing jeans too, and a soft pink scoop neck blouse similar to mine. She had put her make-up on while I was doing mine. It was her turn for me to comb out her hair. "Now I want you to unroll my hair and comb it out like I did." She sat down and I started unrolling her hair. I combed it as she had done mine. When I was finished, we had almost identical hairstyles. Mom came into the room to see how we were doing. She could not believe how much I looked like a girl. She had Jennifer and I stand next to each other. She got this concerned look on her face. "Hmm, you two do look like you are sisters. Here Suzie, here are a pair of gold hoops that will look good on you. " We went to the kitchen and ate some pancakes Mom had made for us. At 7:45, we were in Mom's car and driving to San Francisco. On the way over, we started talking about where we wanted to go and what we wanted to do. We decided to go to the San Francisco Shopping Center first and then catch a cable car to Fisherman's Wharf or Little Italy for lunch, then finish up at Union Square. On the way over, they continually told me how to act, gesture, sit etc. We talked about the newest fashions and trends. We found a parking garage near the shopping center. It was a short walk to the San Francisco Shopping Center. It is a collection of upscale shops, boutiques and a five story Nordstroms (the worlds largest). With the $200 from mom and the $150 that I had, I knew that I probably would not be buying much here. However, it would be fun looking at, and trying on the trendy clothes, and many of the stores had back to school sales going on. We spent the morning going through Ann Taylor, Wet Seal, Victoria's Secret, Arden B, Bc Bg, Fitelle, Bebe, Chico's, Bath & Body Works, Nordstrom, J. Crew, and Kenneth Cole. I found a couple of cute tops, skirts, shorts and pants on sale. I bought a couple of demi bras and no show bikini panty sets, a strapless bra, and a couple of camisoles from Victoria's Secret. I found a wonderful Boatneck Dress at Nordstrom's that looked good on me. However, I could not afford the $80 price tag on it. Laurie said, "Every girl needs one nice dress, I will buy it for you". I was so happy I hugged and thanked her and started to cry. We went to Nordstrom's cosmetics counter and Mom, Laurie and Jennifer tried different cosmetics on me. We all agreed that the Lancome cosmetics looked the best on me and they were on sale with 25% off. I was ready to buy their Maquivelours Hydrating Pale Claire II Foundation ($25.12), Illusion Poudr?e powder ($22.50), Go Go Girl Color Palette ($24.38), Maquiglac Lumineuse Automatic Black Eyeliner ($15.75), Le Crayon Poudre Powder Sable Brown Pencil for the Brows ($15.38), Intencils Black Full Intensity Mascara ($15.75), Sheer Magnetic Extra Shine Weightless Frambosie Lip Color ($14.63) and the Sexy Rose Lip Dimension Lasting Liquid Lip-Shaping Color ($15). I was in shock when I added everything up. Even with the 25% discount, it came to almost $150. Then reality hit, a.k.a. Mom, she said "Wait until we get home, and I'll take you to Wal*Mart or someplace else. You can buy Cover Girl, Revlon or Maybelline cosmetics. They will cost you half as much as here and they will work very well for you." I was very disappointed; I really wanted to buy my make-up now. However, the more I thought about it, the more I had to admit that Mom was probably right. So we left Nordstrom's and after buying my lingerie, tops, pants and skirts, I still had $175 left. It was after 1:00 now and we were all famished. We went back to the car and dropped off everything we had bought. We then jumped on to a cable car and went to Fisherman's Wharf for lunch. We went to Nona Roses, Mom's favorite Italian restaurant. I could not believe how good it felt to sit down. I had linguine and clams, Mom had Chicken Marsalis, Laurie just had a Caesar Salad and Jennifer had Scampi. During lunch, we talked about our morning shopping. We talked about where we were going next. After lunch, we were all stuffed and had to get out and walk a bit, so we went shopping along the wharf and Ghirardelli Square. I found a couple pairs of cute earrings that Jennifer said that she wanted to buy for me. We got back on the cable car and went to Union Square. It was almost 3:00 before we got there. Because of the time and the limited amount of money I had left, we decided to concentrate on the department stores there, Macy's, Neiman Marcus and Saks Fifth Avenue. All had sales on and I bought two more tops, a skirt, pair of jeans, three pairs of panty hose, a pair of 2" heels, to go with my new dress, 2 pairs of black flats and a pair of mules. It was 6:00 and I was now officially broke. No one was very hungry yet, so we decided to start home and get something to eat on the way. I learned today that if you really shop the sales, you could get a lot more clothes. On the way home, I figured I saved $230 today. Laurie, Jennifer and I were all exhausted and fell asleep in the car on the way home. Since we were sleeping, Mom did not even stop for dinner. The next thing I knew Mom was saying, "We are home". We got out of the car, Jennifer and Laurie helped me carry my new things to my room. We started going over my new clothes and they could see that I was very happy. Laurie asked me to try on the dress she had bought me. I took my top and jeans off, put on a pair of the panty hose on and then the dress, with my new shoes. The dress fit me perfectly. The way it came in at my waist and flared at the hips, made me look like I had a figure. I loved it and hoped that I would be able to wear it out somewhere soon. Jennifer said that I looked wonderful, but she had to be getting home. She hugged me, kissed me goodbye and left. Laurie unzipped me and I took my wonderful dress off. I went into the bathroom and started to get undressed to take a shower. I took my panty hose, girdle, bra and panties off. I turned around and looked at myself in the mirror. I immediately went from being euphoric and happy to depressed and sad. I stood there seeing Suzie's face, but Robert's body. I had not thought of Robert all day, I was 16-year old Suzie. Now reality has set in, I was really Robert pretending to be Suzie. I felt myself fill with emotion; I sat down and started to cry. I hated the idea of being Robert. Even though it had only been a week and a half since Mom and Laurie found out about Suzie, Suzie had completely taken over my life. The thought of having to go back to school as Robert, started me to cry again. Instead of taking a shower, I drew a bubble bath to soak in. I lit a couple of candles and lay back in the tub. I started thinking again and started crying again, I was thoroughly depressed. I was laying there and Laurie knocked on the door and stuck her head in the bathroom. "Suzie, is everything all right, I thought I heard you crying." I asked her to come in and I proceeded to tell her what I was thinking and how depressed I had become. That if I had to live as Robert I did not know what I would do. She had me sit forward and she washed my shoulders and back and started talking to me. "I just want you to know whether you are Suzie or Robert I love you very much and nothing will change that. I love having a sister and if that is what you chose, I will do everything I can to help you. Do not worry so much, you have your appointment with Dr. Anderson on Monday, see what she says. The worse case scenario is that you will have to live part- time as Suzie and part-time as Robert until you are 18. This will give you some time to learn to be a girl." "But, I hate being Robert, wearing his clothes and acting like a guy." "I know sis, but in the grand scheme of things it will be for a very short period of time." I looked at Laurie, this was the first time she called me sis. I do not know why, but having her call me sis made me feel much better. Suddenly I felt like I had hope that things will be better. I hugged Laurie, "Thank you Laurie, I love you very much, I am so lucky to have you as a sister." "You had better get out of that bath before you prune up." Laurie left and I got out of the tub and started drying off. I looked in the mirror and this time I saw Suzie with nice shapely breasts, a slim waist and full hips. I smiled and knew that everything would be all right. I put on the nightie that Jennifer had given me. Mom came in with a bag. "I picked this up for you today at Nordstrom's." I opened it up and saw Lanc?me's Gel Contr?le cleanser and Hydra Zen Night, night cr?me. Mom brushed my hair, pulled it back, and held it in place with a scrunchie. She opened the tube of the cleanser and showed me how properly cleanse my face. I thought I had thoroughly washed my face. I was shocked at the amount of dirt and make-up that the cleanser removed from my face. She said, "Cleaning your face everyday will help reduce the amount of acne you will get." I was impressed to say the least. She then opened the jar of the night cr?me and showed me how to apply it saying that it is never too early to start taking care of my skin. I was feeling so good. I knew it before, but somehow, this told me that Mom had completely accepted me as her daughter. I gave her a big hug and told her "I love you Mom, thank you for everything". She just looked at me, smiled, gave me a kiss on my cheek and left. I stood there looking at myself in the mirror and started to cry again. This time it was because I was so happy. I knew that while I would probably have to tolerate Robert for a while, that I am Suzie. I went out to the living room where Mom and Laurie were sitting, gave them both a big hug, said "Thank you I love both of you very much. Good night." I went to my room and lay down. I soon fell asleep and dreamed about my new life. I must have been very tired because I did not wake up until 10:00. Mom was sitting at the kitchen table reading the paper and Laurie had taken off with John. "Good morning Mom." "Hi dear, did you sleep alright?" "Yes thanks?" "I was just looking in the paper and I see that Rite-Aid has a sale on cosmetics. Do you want to go?" "Oh yes of course, but I do not have any money left." "Don't worry it is my treat. I bought Laurie her first cosmetics. However, from now on you are responsible for your own. That is why I suggested that you start out with lower price cosmetics. See what you like and what looks good on you. As you gain more confidence and experience, then you can try the more expensive make-up." I hugged her and ran into my room. I took my nightie off, put on a pair of white panties, my girdle and pads and matching demi bra. Next, I slipped on my new peach colored, scooped neck top with ? sleeves, white shorts and my new mules. I went into the bathroom, took the scrunchie out of my hair and brushed it into place. I had lost much of my curl, so I borrowed Mom's curling iron and touched up my hair. There was the Suzie that I had grown to love. Mom came in and helped me with my make- up, just a little eyeliner, eye shadow and lipstick. I went into my room and put in the earrings that Jennifer had bought me. We took off in Mom's car. She suggested that we go to another part of town so no one would recognize me. I agreed with her, though I was at the point I did not really care. We went over to the cosmetics section, looked at the various brands, and tried a few. We settled on Cover Girl's Smoothers All Day Hydrating Make-Up, their black Triple Mascara and 2 Piece Outlast All Day Lipcolor, L'Oreal's Line Intensifique Liquid Eyeliner, Maybelline's Ultra Brow and Revlon's Illuminance Cr?me Shadow. We went over to the hair care section; she bought me my own curling iron, blow dryer, a comb, a hairbrush, magnetic rollers, a hair net, shampoo, conditioner, mousse, and hair spray. We get in the car and Mom asks if I was up to a little shopping. "Of course!" I said. We drove to the local mall and spent the afternoon shopping, going from store to store. It was nice being alone with Mom. I had spent time, like this, with Mom before but this was different. We seemed much closer than we had ever been before. I did not care what I had between my legs I was her daughter. We hit all of the specialty shops, trying on various clothes and jewelry. We did not find any clothes that I liked and Mom approved of or would pay for. We did find several pairs of earring, bracelets and rings that she bought for me. Our last stop was Penney's. Penney's was having a blowout sale and I ended up getting 2 skirts, 4 tops, a dress, 2 pairs of pants, 2 more bra and panty sets and 2 more pairs of shoes. I told Mom that she should not have bought all of this for me. She said, "That's ok I have a feeling that you will be wearing this more than your other clothes very soon." I hugged her and said, "Thank you very much". We headed home, this had a wonderful day and I was in 7th heaven. When we got home, I had a sinking feeling in my stomach. Laurie was on the front lawn, with John, talking with two of our neighbors Joan and Nancy. Joan was a divorced mother of two girls and Nancy was a young newly wed. I looked at Mom, "What do we do now?" "All we can do is to get out of the car and introduce them to Suzie". I panicked, I knew that this day would come, but I was not sure I was ready for this yet. Mom pulled into the driveway and I sunk down in the seat trying to be invisible. Mom encouraged me to get out, but I would not budge. I then heard Laurie, "Come here Suzie, I have told them about you and everyone wants to meet you." I looked up and everyone was looking at me. I had no choice so I sat up and got out of the car. John had this look of disbelief on his face. He started to say something improper and Laurie jabbed him in the ribs with her elbow. It seems that John had seen us driving out of town yesterday and wanted to know who that new girl was. Joan and Nancy had seen me leave the house this morning and were asking the same thing. Laurie told them about Suzie. Nancy and Joan were ok with Suzie, but I had a feeling that John was going to be more difficult. Laurie had made John promise that he would not say anything to anyone. They had many questions for me. Why did I want to be a girl? Do I like boys or girls? Am I gay? And so on. Joan said, "I do not have a problem with you, but please stay away from my kids." Nancy was supportive, "You look so cute. If there is anything, I can do to help you, please let me know. I do not think Dave (her husband) will like this. So we will keep it just between us." John said, "Man, I just don't understand you, you are dating that hot Jennifer Wagner. I would have never guessed. Just do not ever think about hitting on me or I will deck you!" Suzie was officially out, to the neighborhood at least. I felt a combination of relief and terror that everyone would find out now. There are some guys, in school, that would probably beat me up if they knew. We talked a little longer, Joan and Nancy went home and we got my packages and went inside. Mom and Laurie went in first and John stopped me. "Just so we are straight, I think you are a sick little faggot. But, I will be nice to you for Laurie's sake, I do not ever want to be seen with you in public, is that understood?" All I could say was "Yes". We went into the house and Laurie asked what we were talking about? We both said "Nothing really". John left a little while later and I went to my room put everything away. Laurie came in and helped me. Neither of us said a word. The silence was deafening. Finally, she said, "Are you alright? You have been very quiet since getting home." "I am fine," I lied, "I am just a little tired and I am bummed about having to go back to being Robert tomorrow." "There is something wrong, what is it? Did John say something?" "Please do not worry about it, I will be alright". Laurie left it at that and we went into the kitchen to help Mom prepare for dinner. After dinner, I went to my room to do some homework. Before I knew, it was time for bed. I jumped into the shower, reluctantly washed the curls out of my hair and the make-up off my face. I got out of the shower and combed my hair back into a low ponytail. I put on a pair of pajamas, cleansed, and moisturized my face. I went out to the living room and kissed Mom and Laurie good night. I didn't sleep very well that night. I was having a mental tug of war between Suzie and Robert. I am Suzie but the reality is that tomorrow I have to be Robert at school. I was getting to hate Robert, but he was part of me and I had to live with him for the time being. Sometime in the early morning, I did fall asleep and before I knew it, it was 6:30 and time to get up for school. Chapter 4 What's Up Doc? I dragged myself out of bed thinking of how I had to become Robert again. I became depressed, sat on the side of my bed and started crying. Mom knocked on my door and came in. "What's wrong honey?" "I don't want to go to school. I do not want to have to become Robert again. I love being Suzie." Mom hugged me "Let us wait and see what Dr. Anderson has to say. Remember, I will still love you whether you are Robert or Suzie. Now get ready for school. Laurie will give you a ride to school and I will pick you up at 1:00 and take you to Dr. Anderson's." I said "Thanks Mom" as I hugged her back. I went to put on a pair of my old cotton briefs and just could not do it. I knew that I did not have to dress for P.E. today so I took my briefs off and put on a pair of my bikini panties. Much better I thought. I finished dressing wearing a pair of jeans and a button-up shirt. I took my fingernail polish off, but left my toenail polish on and tied my hair back in a low ponytail. I looked into the mirror and saw Robert looking back at me. But, it was not the same Robert I was used to seeing. There was a difference. The face looked the same, but somehow a little bit more feminine. I guessed that it must have been my eyebrows and stud earrings. But, the change was so subtle that I knew most people would not notice. I walked into the kitchen and both Mom and Laurie looked at me with sad faces. I said that everything was fine and that I would make the best of everything. I ate my breakfast and Laurie gave me a ride to school. When we got there I saw Jennifer standing there waiting for me. As we were walking to class, we talked about Saturday and how much fun we had. I told her about going shopping with Mom, about the cosmetics and clothes I bought. The morning dragged on. No one gave me a second look, which made me feel a little relieved. Finally, 1:00 came around and I met Mom in the parking lot. My appointment with Dr. Anderson was not until 2:00, so Mom bought me some lunch. Finally, about 1:50 we pulled up to Dr. Anderson's building. We went into the building and found her office. On the door, she had: Dr. Julie S. Anderson, M.S.W., PH.D Clinical Sexologist - Certified Sex Therapist We went in; her receptionist Diane, seeing that I was very nervous, welcomed us and told me to relax. She said that they have many transgender patients and that Dr. Anderson was very good. She gave Mom some paperwork to fill out. Soon Dr, Anderson came out and welcomed us. She said that wanted to talk with Mom, then with me and lastly with both of us. Mom went in and I sat waiting. Diane came over and we started to chat. I found out that she has a brother that is transgendered also. She was studying psychology and working for Dr. Anderson part-time. She wanted to specialize in gender related issues. She was so easy to talk with that I really started to relax. She asked me if I had a girl's name yet, and I said yes Suzie. She said that she has always liked that name. Soon Mom came out and Dr. Anderson asked me to come in. I felt my stomach doing flip-flops as I walked into the room. Dr. Anderson was an attractive warm woman, she asked me to sit down. We just started chatting and I instantly started to relax. She asked me about my life, what I was doing in school, when I started feeling as if I should have been born a girl, did I have a girl, or boyfriend, was I attracted to boys or girls. I told her that I thinking I should have been born a girl as far back as I could remember. That I started wearing Laurie and Mom's clothes when I was 10 or 11, about school and Jennifer. I told her about Mom and Laurie caught me dressing and how supportive they were. She asked me if I liked other boys. I said, "I don't know, sometimes I think what it would be like to have a guy hold me and kiss me." We talked for almost an hour when she got up and asked Mom to join us. "Amanda please come in." Mom came in and sat down. You could see that she was very anxious to hear what Dr. Anderson had to say. "Amanda, when we talked earlier you said that Robert sometimes acted more like a girl when he was very young. You said that you thought he was just going through a faze and he would get over it, and this is what happens the majority of the time. Somewhere Robert started to hide his feminine feelings and act like a ?normal' boy. However, he started trying on your and your daughter's clothes when he was 10 or 11. The older he got the more he wanted to dress. The more he dressed the more normal it felt to him. In cases like this, someone usually catches the child, because secretly they want someone to catch them. You said that you suspected for sometime that he was wearing your clothes. I feel that he was probably subconsciously, hoping someone would catch him. Actually, you did him a huge favor by confronting him. I would like to have you both come back next week so we can talk some more." I said, "Dr. Anderson, would you want me to come as Robert or Suzie?" "Come which ever you feel the most comfortable as, which I suspect it is going to be Suzie." I could not help but ask, "Do you think I can start living as a girl soon?" "Let us not get ahead of ourselves now. It seems like you are a, very focused, young person at this point. I do not see anything to suggest that you should not become a candidate for sex change. However, you are only 16 and gender identity disorders in children and adolescents are complex conditions. I simply need spend more time with you before I make any recommendations. I do not see any problems with you spending time as Suzie. Use that time to do some honest sole searching. Decide if this is something, you really want to do. Some of the therapies we do are reversible, but most are not. I would hate to see you start the course of gender change and a few years later decide that you made a huge mistake. With youths, I tend to go slow, probably much slower than you would like. Then I have had very few patients that regret their decisions. The best advice I can give you now is do not be too hasty. I would like to make a standing appointment for you for the next 3 weeks. Is this time the next 3 Mondays ok for you?" "It would be better if we could make it after school, Robert gets out at 3:30," Mom said. "We will make it for 4:00 then." We both shook Dr. Anderson's hand and said goodbye. On the way home, we talked about what Dr. Anderson had said. I told Mom that I really enjoyed talking with her and that I am looking forward to our next appointment. I was encouraged by the fact that she did not say no. When we got home, I immediately changed my clothes and called Jennifer. I told her about my appointment with Dr. Anderson and what she had said. We talked for an hour before Mom called me for dinner. Laurie had gone over to John's so it was just Mom and me. "So honey, how are you feeling? I thought Dr. Anderson sounded optimistic. Do you think you can live with Robert for a while longer?" Yes," I said, "as long as Suzie is a big part of me life and I can see the light at the end of the tunnel I can be happy." We finished eating and I went to my room and started to study. Chapter 4 The First Weeks of the Rest of My Life The rest of the week was uneventful. I got up in the morning and went to school. After school, I went bicycle practice and had a big race on Saturday. After practice, I would go straight home, draw a nice bath, and soak my aches away. I was careful to cleanse my face with my cleanser and use my night cr?me. I wore nothing but my bikini panties now and kept my toenails polished. Everyday I looked forward to coming home and becoming Suzie again. It was amazing, no matter how stressed out I had become, becoming Suzie relaxed me so much. Saturday night Jennifer asked me if I, Suzie, wanted to go to a party that her cousin Beth was having. Beth's house was on the other side of town and she did not think there would be anyone there that would know me. I asked her if there were going to be boys there. She giggled, "Probably! However, I will show you how brush them off with out hurting their feelings. Unless you do not want to that is." I blushed and said that I was not into guys at all. She laughed and said, "If one of those guys tries and take you from me I will deck them!" I laughed knowing that she probably would too. Mom said that it was o.k. with her, so we made plans to go to Beth's party. I had a 30-mile race on Saturday. I came in 3rd place and was very happy to do that, considering I was racing against one person that was All- City and another that was All-State. I got home about 4:30 and found Jennifer waiting for me. "Come on girl we have lots of things to do before we leave." We walked into the house just as Laurie and John were leaving. Laurie told me to have fun tonight, John just leered at me, and they left. Mom asked what we were going to do now. "Mrs. Marks I am going make Suzie look gorgeous, but right now she smells a little rank." We all laughed. Laurie and I went to my bedroom. I stripped down to my panties, took a bra, matching panties, robe from my closet, and went to the bathroom to shower. I washed and conditioned my hair. My face, chest and armpits were still smooth from Jennifer's waxing last week. I was almost finished when Jennifer came into the bathroom and handed me a plastic bottle. "Put this on your hair and let it sit for a couple of minutes then rinse it out." Looking at the bottle, I see that it is Chestnut Brown temporary hair color. "Your hair is a mousy brown and this color will look good on you." I read the directions on the bottle and quickly did as she said. I saturated my hair working it down to the roots. I let it set, shaved my legs and then rinsed it out. I could not wait to see what my new hair looked like. I stepped out of the shower and toweled off. I looked into the mirror and had to agree that my hair did look better. I put on my bra, panties and robe. Jennifer knocked on the door and came in. "See I told you that it would look good on you. Now I want put some temporary blonde highlights in for you. Sit down and put this towel around your shoulders." I did as she said. She combed my hair parting it on the right side and pulled, what looked like a swimming cap with holes in it, out of her bag. She placed the cap over my head and tied the chinstrap. She then took out what looked like a crochet hook and started pulling small sections of my hair out from under the cap. I was fascinated watching her do this. After about 15 minutes, she had small sections of hair pulled out of every hole in the cap. She then had me lean over the sink while she shampooed the hair that had she had pulled out of the cap. I went back over to my seat noticing, in the mirror, that my beautiful Chestnut brown hair was gone. Jennifer sprayed my hair with another bottle making sure that all of the hair, sticking out, was saturated. I could see that hair looked lighter. "This has to set for 5 minutes, I am going to change. This would be a good time to do your nails." I sat down, touched up my fingernails with a file and polished them with the Brick Red polish I had used last week. Soon Jennifer came back in wearing a blouse, short skirt and heels. She led me over to the sink and rinsed my hair again. When she finished I went back to my seat and asked me if I was ready to see my new hair color? "Of course," I said. She undid the chinstrap, took the cap off, and blotted my hair dry with the towel. She combed my hair again and I had to get up and look at myself in the mirror. I could not believe it. I saw, what I thought was, a perfect contrast of rich brown hair and blonde highlights. I loved it and gave Jennifer a big hug and kiss. "Just remember the next time you wash your hair it will be all gone. That is why we get a permanent color for our hair." I knew that before to long I would get my hair colored for real. She sat me down, combed some mousse through my hair and started rolling it. Before long, I had a head full of rollers. She then took an old bonnet hair dryer out of her bag and placed it over my head. She plugged it and I loved the feel of warm air flowing over my head and rollers. She sat down and asked me to touch up her hair with a curling iron. She told me how she wanted it and I must say I did a very good job. This was becoming second nature for me. We went to my room and she helped me pick out an outfit to wear. I had not realized it before, but I had the exact same skirt, blouse, earrings, necklace and shoes that Jennifer was wearing. I mentioned this to her and she just said, "I know silly, I helped you pick them out remember. Please wear them, I so enjoy it when we dress the same. Everyone will think we are twins or at least sisters." I took them out of the closet and laid them on my bed. She handed me a pair of panty hose that matched hers and I put them on. I just love the feel of hose sliding up my smooth legs. I put the skirt on and went over to the vanity to do my make-up. Jennifer just watched me do it and gave me a few suggestions. I was finished and my hair was dry. Jennifer turned me so that my back was to the mirror and took the bonnet off. She started unrolling my hair saying that I am going to look fantastic. She combed out each individual curl, softly brushed my hair in place and sprayed her creation with hairspray. When she was finished, she had me turn around and look into the mirror. I could believe it, my hair was now a rich deep brown with just enough blonde highlights to add a wonderful contrast. I loved it and was sad to think it would all go away the next time I washed it. "That is the look I am going for," said Jennifer "tomorrow I would like you highlight my hair for me for real." I said that I would love to. I finished dressing while Jennifer finished putting on her make-up. We stood next to each other looking into a mirror. We looked enough alike that no one would suspect that we were not at least sisters and perhaps twins. We went out to the family room to show mom. Mom just stared at us for a moment then started crying. When we asked why she was crying, she just said, "It is just because you two look so beautiful and so much alike." She hugged us good-bye and said, "You two have a good time and don't let the boys have their way with you. Be home before 12:00." We blushed, said goodnight, walked out to Jennifer's car and drove off. As mom watched us drive away, she picked up the phone and called Betty Wagner. "Hi Betty this is Amanda, I think it is time that we talked with them...also there is something you should know about Robert...why don't you two come over tomorrow for lunch ... ok goodbye until then." As we were driving, I could not get the look on mom's face out of my mind. I knew something was bothering her and I felt bad not knowing. I mentioned it to Jennifer and she said that she noticed it too. We talked about it for a bit then decided not to let it spoil our evening. Jennifer started telling me about her cousin Beth. Jennifer and Beth's moms are sisters. When her father left, she and her mom moved in with Beth and her mom. They lived together for almost 7 years. Beth's mom met, married Jack Roberts and he adopted Beth. To Beth, Jack was her dad. Jennifer and Beth are very close, more like sisters then cousins. They talk a lot and Jennifer told her all about me. How she was helping me find my inner girl and that, she was attracted to me because I was becoming a girl. She said that she would be introducing me as Suzie, her friend from Johnson High. Beth's parents were going to be home and they knew nothing about me. We were the first to arrive and Jennifer introduced me to her cousin, aunt and uncle. Their comment was that we looked like we could be sisters. Janice Roberts gave me the same kind of quizzical look that mom had given me earlier. We helped them finish getting ready for the party. Beth confided in me that she thought I looked fantastic and would not have guessed my secret in a million years. Soon the other kids started to arrive. Jennifer knew some of the others and introduced me to everyone. It bothered me a bit that some of the kids knew people at Johnson High that I knew. They would ask if I knew so-and-so. I would just say that I knew who they were, if I did, but did not know them. I got to know some of the other girls there and started bonding with them. I noticed one guy looking at me and it made me a little nervous. The girls kidded me saying, "Look Rodger is looking at you...Gees he is cute I wish he would look at me like that...You know he is 18 and in college now." I blushed and said I was not interested. Rodger came over and started to talk to me. I looked around for Jennifer to bail me out but could not see her anywhere. We talked for about a half an hour. I was feeling very comfortable with him. Then he asked me to dance. I politely said no thanks but Rodger was persistent and the girls egged me on to dance with him. What could I do, so I said yes? Just as we got to the dance floor, it switched from a fast song to a slow one. It felt weird and different trying to follow someone else's lead. I quickly learned and actually started enjoying it. He pulled me close; I laid my head on his shoulder and closed my eyes. I started to feel like I was in a dream state. He was holding me tight. I felt like I was an extension of him as we moved with the music. I could feel him getting hard and hoped that he would not feel me. I did not even hear it when the song ended. I was so engrossed in being in his arms. I looked up and saw everyone, including Jennifer, looking and smiling at us. I started blushing and immediately thought, "What was I doing? I do not like guys, or least I did not think I did." I excused myself grabbed Jennifer by the hand and went to the bathroom. "Well girl it looks like you have a boyfriend already," She giggled. "Cut it out, you were supposed to be there to help me fend off the guys. When we go out, Rodger will expect me to talk and dance with him the rest of the night. What am I supposed to do.?" "Just be polite, after tonight you will probably never see him again. If he asks for your phone number, just say no thank you, unless you really like him. Listen, I love you Suzie, but as a girl, it is normal to be attracted to guys. It is normal to have conflicted feelings at our age. Last Friday night, after you went to bed, Laurie gave me some good advice regarding sexuality. I am starting to rethink whether or not I am a lesbian. So if it feels good to be with Rodger, then just enjoy it. I could tell you really enjoyed dancing with him didn't you?" "Yes I guess I did. When he took control and led me, I felt like I was floating on air. I must admit that I did not want it to end. However, I cannot lead him on. When he finds out who I really am...I just would not want to hurt him or have him get mad at me. What should I do?" "Just be yourself. Tell him that you really enjoyed dancing with him, but that you are not interested right now." Then there was a knock on the door, it was Beth. "Is everything alright? May I come in?" I opened the door and she entered. "Gees, girl you are something. You are all the Rodger can talk about. I thought you did not like guys. What are you going to do?" "I guess I will just say that I am not interested. This just is not a good time for me right now. For now, everything you see is a fake. This is me but, I am not real now. Does that make sense? But I must admit that I really enjoyed being with him and dancing with him." "Then," Beth said, "enjoy being with him. I know him and I think he would really enjoy getting to know you." I looked at Beth, and then looked at Jennifer. She smiled and gave me a nod yes. I could not believe it I was going to talk with a guy and hope he would ask me out. I checked my make-up and we all went back out. Rodger came up and asked if everything was all right? I said yes that it was. We went sat down and talked for another hour. It turned out that we liked much of the same music, movies food and such. I purposely left out many of the details. We danced a couple of more times when Jennifer reminded me that it was time to go home. We said good-bye to Beth and her parents and thanked them for a wonderful party. Rodger asked me for my phone number and I gave it to him. He walked us out to the car, opened the door for me and looked at me with his hazel eyes. Was I supposed to kiss him now or what? I looked at Jennifer and she smiled and puckered her lips. "Rodger, I really enjoyed meeting you tonight. I would like to see you again." He took hold of me, hugged me, looked into my eyes and kissed me. I closed my eyes and kissed him back. Our tongues meet and I just about melted from kissing him. I almost could not believe that I was kissing a guy and really enjoying it. I felt him grab my butt and it sent an electric charge through my whole body. I was ready to do anything for him. Then reality set in as Jennifer said we had to be going or be late. We kissed once more, I got into the car, and we drove off. Jennifer was all giggly. "If you do not beat it all, here you have been a girl for what two weeks now and you have this hot stud all over you. I am jealous, you know that don't you?" "You are the one that gave me the ok to go after him. Do you think he will call?" "I would bet anything that he does. He is so smitten with you that he would do anything you wanted. Guys are funny that way." We talked about the party and she gave me tips on what to do and not to do with a guy. Soon we were home and she stopped in our driveway. I was saying thanks for taking me to the party when she leaned over and gave me a big kiss on the lips. She then pulled back and looked at me. "This still seems strange, but kissing you just seems like it is not right. Maybe I am not a lesbian after all." "I know it is a little weird." I got out of the car and went into the house. Mom was waiting up for me. She asked, "How was the party?" I told her about meeting Rodger, and how I was a little confused with the whole thing. Her advice was to talk it over with Dr. Anderson and if I saw Rodger again tell him the whole story and let him make up his mind what he wants to do. "He might like you a lot, but not be able to accept you for who you are. It is better to find out early. The later you wait, the harder it will be on both of you." I looked up and Laurie was standing there. "What is this, it sounds like someone has a boyfriend. Tell me all about it." I retold the whole story and she came over and hugged me. "Mom it looks like my little sister is growing up." We talked for a while and I went to my bedroom. I was undressing when Laurie came in and started giving more of the low down on boys. I could not believe some of the things she said guys would try to get you into the sack. Maybe this was because I used the feminine side of my brain to do my thinking that I had no clue of what to expect. She went on to say that, someday I would meet a guy that I really liked and one that would accept me. "In that case you would probably want to, or have to, give him head sometime. Practice with a hotdog; learn to relax and not to gag. Practice until you can slid it all of the way down without chocking. Some women like to swallow cum some do not. You have the advantage to be able to taste your own to see which you are." She left and I finished getting undressed and ready for bed. As soon as my head hit the pillow, I was asleep. I was dreaming about Rodger and Laurie's advice. I was wearing a bra, panties, a garter belt, stocking and heels. I was sitting on my bed when Rodger came in. I got up, went over, and kissed him. I could feel him getting hard. He takes off my bra and sucking my breasts nibbling on my nipples. I unbutton his pants and slide them down his legs. I reach into his underware and stroke his huge cock. I feel him getting excited, he lays me down on the bed and pulls my panties off. He lies down next to me and rubs my pussy while kissing me. He moves my legs apart and moves between them. He lowers himself on to me and I feel him enter me...suddenly I wake up realizing that I had just cum into my pajamas. I lay there all wet and sticky. I could not believe that I was dreaming about Rodger having sex with me and me having a wet dream. I got up, grabbed a nightie and went into the bathroom to clean up. I was ready to wash them out when I thought of what Laurie had said. Why not I thought, so I started licking up my cum with my tongue, not to bad I thought. I finished getting cleaned up and returned to bed. I must have been tired because I slept to almost 10:00. I went to the kitchen to find mom and Laurie talking and eating breakfast. Mom says good morning, asks how did I sleep and what she can get me for breakfast? She asks what my plans are for today and I say that I am going to put some blonde highlights in Jennifer's hair. She tells me that Jennifer and her mom are coming over for lunch. I thought that this sounded a little weird because Jennifer did not mention it last night. Then I started to panic. "Ms. Wagner does not know about Suzie, what should I do?" "Honey, I told Betty about you and she is alright with Suzie." I started getting worried, was mom telling the whole world about me? She said that she only told Ms. Wagner and that I was not to worry. We then chatted about the party last night, how I felt about being attracted to boys and they both gave me more advice. Mom went to the bathroom and I told Laurie about my dream. She just smiled and said, "That is normal; I have had several of those before. I had the biggest crush on Justin Timberlake." I went to my room and got ready. I put on a blouse, pants and my new flats. I touched up my hair with my new curling iron and put on a little eye shadow, liner, mascara and lipstick. Just as I was finishing up, I hear the doorbell ring. I go out to meet Jennifer and her mom. Jennifer had an "I have no clue why mom is here" look on her face. Ms. Wagner stared at me for a moment then said, "Oh my God Amanda, you were right." She then had Jennifer and me stand next to each other, "Oh my God Amanda, you were right." Mom and Ms. Wagner looked at each other and nodded. They had Laurie, Jennifer and I sit down together. "This is going to be difficult," mom said, "but there is something we have to tell you." "What is it mom" I said. "Just be quiet and listen, Betty you start." "Jennifer I have always told you that your father ran out on us. That is partially true dear. I became involved with him, later when I found out I was pregnant with you he split and I have not seen him since. What I did not know at the time was that he was already married. His name was Jack Marks. Yes he was stupid enough to use his real name." All three looked at each other. That was my father's name. "Yes that was your father," mom said, "I was pregnant with you Suzie and your father cheated on me. He left us when I was 8 months along. I filed for divorce shortly there after. He moved across country and you girls know the rest. Betty and I happened to meet at a group for abandoned wives and mothers." "We became pretty good friends," Ms. Wager said, "we started talking and it did not take long to realize that the man I had the fling with was your father and Amanda's husband. I guess what we are saying is that Laurie, Jennifer and Robe...err...Suzie you are sisters." The silence was deafening, no one said anything for over a minute. This explained why Jennifer and I looked so much alike and why she was feeling weird about kissing me. "Don't everyone talk at once," mom said. "That explains a lot," Laurie finally said, "I have always felt that Jennifer was more like a sister than just a friend." We talked for over an hour, trying to make sense of everything. Mom had never really talked much about our father and she filled us in with the details of how he was a controlling, abusive, scum ball. Ms. Wagner legally changed her and Jennifer's last name to give the impression that she was an abandoned wife. Shortly after Jennifer was born, her sister Janice's first husband was killed in a car accident. Both Ms. Wagner and Janice had trouble making ends meet so they moved in together. Janice stayed home with Beth and Jennifer while mom went to work. They lived together for almost 7 years when Janice met and married Jack Roberts, who adopted Beth. Neither mom nor Ms. Wagner ever really dated or had a relationship again. They did become very good friends, but decided that it would be best if the "girls" did not know of each until they were old enough to understand what happened. The way mom and Ms. Wagner looked at each other; I think we all suspected that they had been more than just good friends. Ms. Wagner told Laurie and me to call her Betty now that we are all related, well somewhat anyway. We all were very happy. Jennifer was excited because she finally had an older, by 3 months, sister and Laurie and I because we both had another sister. Mom and Betty went to the kitchen to make lunch and we went to my room to talk. "I knew that there was some reason why I felt weird kissing you Suzie," said Jennifer, "it felt like I was kissing my sister, because that is what I was doing." I had to agree and we talked of what it was going to be like being sisters. Soon lunch was ready and we went back into the kitchen to eat. During lunch, we were told that it would be great if we wanted to spend the night in each other's home. We were all caught up in what was happening, when the phone rang. "Hello," Laurie answered, "no this is her sister Laurie, one moment I will get her." She handed me the phone saying that it was some guy named Rodger. Everyone started to tease me, so I took the phone in the other room. "Hello," I said. "Hi Suzie, this is Rodger, how are you today?" "Great thanks," was all I could think of. "I really had a good time with you last night and I would like to see you again, if I could. I know it is very short notice, but would you like to go to the movies this afternoon?" "I would love to but, I will have to take a rain check on the movies. We have some things going on today and I can not get away." "Well ok then," he sounded a little disappointed, "maybe another time." "I would like that a lot." "Would you like to get a pizza and see a movie Friday night?" "I would love to. Call me later in the week and we can set the time. But, I really have to be going now." "Ok it is a date, Friday night it is." "Good bye" "Goodbye" I hung up the phone and went out to the other room. As I entered, everyone said "Well?" I told them that he had asked me out on a date for Friday night. I asked mom if it was all right if I went. She asked if I had told him about me and I said no, but that I will. She said yes but, I had to tell him and she had to meet him. We talked for another hour when Jennifer, getting a little impatient, said, "Suzie, you were going to highlight my hair for me," as she handed me a box that said L'Or?al F?ria Shimmer Strands Quick Shimmer Highlights ? Chestnut Changes. "Ok let's get started." We went into the bathroom; I opened the highlighting kit and read the directions thoroughly. Following the directions, I combed and parted her hair, as she wanted to wear it. I put the cap that she had used on me, over her head and proceeded to pull small strands of hair through the holes in the cap. After I had finished, I combed and parted hair. The instructions said, "...this is the area where the most visible highlights will fall. By placing highlights along the part, they will show off nicely when you style your hair." I put on the gloves and mix the color and developer together. I clip her hair into sections to keep it out of the way while I am applying the color. I start from the back of the crown and work your way to the front and top of the head. I unclip one section of hair and use the end of the rattail comb to pick up several strands of hair sticking out from the cap. I apply color solution to the applicator brush and brush it onto hair. I then gently lay this small section of hair on the head without pressing the hair. I take the end of the comb continue highlighting small sections of hair. I worked from the back and bottom (underneath) layers to the front and top layers. After almost 45 minutes, I am finished. We had to wait 20 minutes, so I suggested that we go and see what everyone else is doing. Betty was getting ready to leave but had to make a comment on how Jennifer looked. We asked if Jennifer could stay the night and that she could wear some of my clothes. Betty said yes and gave us a hug goodbye. She hugged mom goodbye and I swear that I saw a twinkle in their eyes. Betty left and it was time to rinse Jennifer's hair with warm water, apply the conditioner and massage it into her hair for several minutes. I rinsed her hair and towel dried it. I asked her how she wanted it styled and she said that she wanted it set in rollers like last week. I got out my rollers and proceeded to set her hair for her. Soon her head full of rollers. She was anxious to see the results so she opted to wear the bonnet hair dryer she had brought over for me on Friday. We went out to the family room and turned on the TV. Casa Blanca was on and we sat down and started to watch it. I put the bonnet over her head, plugged the hair dryer in and turned it on. Soon the movie was over, we were both crying and Jennifer's hair was dry. We went back to my room, sat her facing away from the mirror and I took all the rollers out of her hair. I combed out each of the curls, leaving her with lots of soft waves; I brushed it a bit and asked her if she was ready to see my newest creation? She immediately turned around looking at herself in the mirror. "Oh Suzie, my hair looks wonderful. It is just what I wanted. Those subtle highlights really set of the rest of my hair. I love it! I think we have found your true skill. You can be my hair stylist from now on. Maybe I will have you give me a perm in a couple of weeks." "I would love to. You know that I am jealous of you being able to color your hair. I would love to have a nicer hair color and permanent highlights. Let us go and show mom and Laurie before I get to sad." "Why don't we then? We can go to the mall and stop at the Sally Beauty Supply and get everything we need." "I don't know. What will people say? How will I explain it?" "Don't worry; we will get a color that closely matches yours, with very subtle highlights. Please just trust me will you?" "Uh, ok I guess." "You will love them!" We went out and found that our neighbor Nancy was there. Everyone fussed over Jennifer's hair and was impressed with the job I had done. Nancy asked if I could do hers sometime, I said I would love to. She said that she would even pay me. I told everyone that Jennifer was going to color and put highlights in my hair. Everyone thought it was a good idea, if that is what I really wanted. I said that I did. Laurie said that she would take us to the mall; I really need to think about getting my driver's license. We spent the rest of the afternoon going from shop to shop, trying on clothes, but buying nothing. We went to the Sally Beauty Supply store and Jennifer asked me if I still wanted to go in there. I said yes, "But quickly before I chickened out". We went in and looked at several products, trying to match the hair color to mine. We finally settled on L'Oreal's Couleur Experte 2-Step Multi- Tonal Hair Color System, 6.3 Warm Brioche, Light Golden brown. It contained both the base color and matching highlights. From the picture on the box, the base color was very close to mine, but richer looking, and the highlights were very subtle. I could not wait. We met up with Laurie and got home just in time for dinner. I showed mom the box of hair coloring. She smiled and said if that is what I wanted, she thought it would look good on me. We quickly ate dinner and Jennifer and I went to my bedroom. I undressed to take a shower and put out of Robert's old tee shirts to wear, I guess there is some use for his clothes after all. I jumped into the shower, washed the temporary color out of my hair, and dried my hair with the blow dryer. Jennifer sat me down, put a towel around my shoulders and opened the hair color box. She put on a pair of gloves, mixed the color together. "This is your last chance to back out." "No just hurry so I won't." She then started applying the color from the top of my head to the bottom. After 10 minutes she was done. I had to wait 25 minutes so I reluctantly started taking the polish off my fingernails, knowing that I could not wear it to school tomorrow. Time was up and she took me over to the bathroom sink and rinsed my hair for almost 5 minutes. She towel dried my hair and sat me down again. She asked me if I wanted her to use the cap again and I said yes. She put it over my head and started to pull strands of my hair through the holes in the cap. When she was finished, she mixed the 2nd part of the hair color into a paste. She took each strand of my hair and brushed the paste on to it, working it in with her fingers. When she was finished, I had to wait another 25 minutes. We went out to talk with mom and Laurie. Mom looked at me and laughed saying, "I never thought I would see the day..." then she caught herself and stopped. "Have you thought of what you are going to say if the kids at school tease you?" "No but I will think of something," I said optimistically. We talked some more. Mom was concerned that maybe I was taking my transition a little to fast. I told her I had no regrets and was happy with everything I had done so far. I told her that for the first time in a very long time I feel like I am normal as Suzie. The timer went off and it was time to rinse out my hair. We went to the bathroom and Jennifer rinsed my hair for a good 5 minutes. She towel dried it and removed the cap. She took the conditioner and worked it through my hair with her fingers and comb and started to blow dry it. We thought it would be best to style it, as I would wear it tomorrow. Soon she was done and I could not wait to turn around and see the results in the mirror. She was right; the color was very close to my natural color but looked richer and more vibrant. The highlights were barely discernable, but they provided just enough contrast to really setoff my hair color. I gave her a big hug and said thank you for talking me into this. We went out for mom and Laurie to see. They both thought my hair looked fantastic, just subtle enough so not to raise any eyebrows. It is amazing how fast time goes when you are having fun. It was pushing 10:00 and time for bed. Jennifer was going to sleep in Laurie's room again. I put on the baby doll nightie that Jennifer had given me, cleansed and moisturized my face and crawled into bed. My head hit the pillow and before I knew it my alarm was going off. I dragged myself out of the bed realizing that it was time to become Robert again. I got dressed and pulled my hair back in a ponytail. Jennifer knocked on the door and came in looking for something to wear. She put on a pair of pants and a blouse and we went to the kitchen for breakfast. Mom reminded me, as if she really had to, of my appointment with Dr. Anderson this afternoon. We finished our breakfast and Laurie gave us a ride to school. The day went fast. Very few of the other students even noticed that I had colored and highlighted my hair. A couple of girls that were friends of mine, did notice and even had me take my ponytail down so they could see. They thought that my hair looked good and asked why I had colored it. I simply told them the truth that Jennifer thought it would looked good and talked me into it. One of the girls, Lynn, said, kidding me, looks like someone is pussy whipped. I just smile, if they had a clue. Before I knew it, it was time to meet mom. She took me home I went in and changed. First I quickly plugged in Laurie's hot rollers. I went to my closet and picked a ? sleeve scoop neck print blouse, denim skirt and my flats. I went into the bathroom and put several of the hot rollers in my hair. I put on a light foundation, a mauve eye shadow, black eyeliner, mascara and lipstick that matched my eye shadow. I took the hot rollers out of my hair and brushed it into a very feminine style. I was proud of my self. I thought I did a very good job getting ready and in less than 20 minutes. I went out to show mom and she was pleased saying that I had learned a lot in the last 3 weeks. Has it been only 3 weeks? In some ways, it seemed shorter in others longer. We get there a couple of minutes early, walk in and Diane is at the receptionist's desk. She smiles and says, "May I help...is that you Robert...err...Suzie? You look fantastic!" "Thank you," I said. "You even colored your hair, it looks great. One moment and I will tell Dr. Anderson that you are here." She got up and went into the Dr.'s office. A few moments later, she came out telling us that I can go right in. Dr. Anderson was as kind and gracious as the last time we were there. She said that she was pleased that I chose to come as Suzie. She was impressed that I chose to dress in an appropriate way for a 16-year old girl. Many males, especially the older they get, tend to over kill on the feminine dress. Most wear things that most women would not be caught dead in. "This shows me that you are very comfortable with Suzie and that you don't feel the need of putting on pretenses that you are trying too hard to look like a girl." We chatted for a little over a half hour. She asked how my week went, what I did and did not do. I told her that during school and at cycle practice I am Robert but other than that I spend all of my time as Suzie. I told her about the party, meeting Rodger and the wet dream I had about him. I told her that I was reluctant to dance with him at first. However, when he held me in his arms and moved me around the dance floor, it felt so right. I really enjoyed dancing with him and found myself being very attracted to him. She did not seem too surprised because I had said just the week before that I thought about having a guy hold me in his arms and kiss me. When I told her that we had a date on Friday night, she was concerned. She asked if I had told him. I said no, but that I was going