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TV Stardom - Part 1 Chapter 1 - Introduction "Honey, hurry up, we are going to be late." I raised my voice at the front door. My daughter carried her backpack and ran to me all excited about her first day at Kindergarten. "Give daddy a kiss." My husband said while he carried her and walked out of the front door. I checked myself at the mirror, put my earrings on, checked my make up one last time and I set the security alarm and locked up. My high heels were click clacking on the pavement while I walked to my SUV. I saw my husband putting Anna in her child seat and he said goodbye to her. He gave me a good delicious kiss. I didn't care if he ruined my make up; I love this man so much that I don't really want him to leave me for a second. "Honey, I love you." He said "I love you too. Don't forget, we have dinner at Brenda's tonight. I will see you there." I said and I gave him another kiss. While driving Anna to school, we stopped at the traffic light. "Honey, are you excited for the first day of school?" I asked. "Yes, Mommy." She said. "Mommy, can we go to McDonalds after school?" "Well, if Anna be a good girl today, then Okay." I smiled. "Yea..." She said happily. After we arrived at Anna new school, she was excited at first when she saw all the toys in the classroom. After a few parents starting to leave and their kids started crying, I could tell Anna wanted to cry too. "Mommy, can we go home now?" She asked. "What's the matter, honey?" I asked. She started hugging me and crying her eyes out. "Mommy, don't leave me." "Honey, look. All the kids are playing, you want to go play with them? Look, they even have your favorite game here." I held her little hand and I walked her to the rest of the kids. After she settled down for a few minutes, the teachers brought a couple of kids over and the teachers informed me it is okay for me to leave. I didn't want to leave my daughter, but I was really late. I asked Anna one last time if she was okay, she nodded. "I love you, honey." I gave her a kiss and I wiped the lipstick off her face. "We are going to McDonalds after school, okay?" "Okay." She smiled. I left the classroom and basically ran to my car. "Damn, I am going to be so late." Chapter 2 - The first mistake Life was tough when I was in college. I had to support myself throughout college because my parents found out about my small secret of cross-dressing. Since we were from a small town and they were heavily religious, they basically disowned me and didn't want anything to do with me. I had gone through some serious depression, but my desire for dressing was so strong that I couldn't help myself. I worked two jobs during the day, so that I could afford a small apartment all by myself. It took me five years to graduate from college, because I have to try fitting all my classes at night. Although I could only dress up for a few hours every night, it was the few hours that I cherished the most every day. On my senior year of college, I was one of the best design student in my. My future was supposed to bright and clear. Well, until one stupid mistake. I went to my friend's house for a party one night; I was in a good mood for socializing. Most of my good friends knew about my desire to dress up as a woman, but none of them really know about my sexually orientation. So, they just assume I was gay. The truth of the matter is, I wasn't even sure myself. I had a few short relationships with both men and women and I loved both. So, that night while I was talking to my friends, one of my friends introduced me to Stacy. Stacy was a party girl and she was hot. I had a brief conversation with her and I told her I was a design student. Right away, she couldn't stop talking about all her clothes and her shopping trip in Europe... etc. Even though I wasn't studying for fashion design, I played along and tried to get on her good side. One drink after another, I was feeling pretty buzzed, I told my friends I had to head home before the alcohol really kicked in and Stacy asked me if she could catch a ride with me. While we were in the car, Stacy reached over and grabbed my hand and she said she wanted to have sex with me. Well, how could I resist a hot woman like her? We went back to her apartment and both of us got undressed. The only problem was I forgot I had my panties on. Stacy was a little surprised when she saw me in my panties. I told her I was a secret crossdresser and I was a Bi-sexual. Not only she didn't freaked out, but she complimented me on my beautiful shaven legs and my beautiful panties. She told me she was a bi-sexual herself and she had tried many guys and girls, but she had never tried both in one person. Stacy asked me if she could see me dressed as a woman. So, I borrowed her make up and some clothing and went into her bathroom and changed. I quickly put on some make up and style my shoulder length hair. I put on a bra that I borrowed from Stacy. Since I relied on Lactate medicines to grow my breasts and the bra was a little small, the second I pull the bra strap back and tried to hook it, a small amount of my breast milk was streaming out which left a wet spot on the bra. I tugged my clitty back and I walked out of the bathroom. The second I walked out, I saw the whole apartment was dimmed and lighten up by many candles. Even though my eyes were not adjusted to the light yet, but one thing did catch my eyes bright and clear. Stacy was topless and she had an 8 inch dildo strap below her waist. She walked close to me and handed me a drink. She told me she wanted to take charge that evening. I wasn't going to complain since my pussy was inching for a large cock for stuffing. I didn't really care if it was a fake or a really cock. We passionately kissed on the sofa and the next thing you know, Stacy grabbed her stiffed plastic cock and lowered my head to it. I was surprised when my lips touched her cock, the material was so real that I thought it was a really cock in my mouth. There must be a warmer inside the dildo cause I could feel the heat burning my tongue and my lips. The vein on the cock was so real that I couldn't help myself but to deep throat her plastic meat into mouth. While I was slurping on her juicy cock, I reached my hand to the bottom of the cock and see if I could massage the balls. It was a habit that I developed from my previous boyfriend. Well, I was a little disappointed that I didn't find the balls, but as a bonus I found an opening. It was the passage to Stacy's wet dripping pussy. Oh, it was so juicy that I couldn't resist sticking my fingers into it. She moaned and screamed for more. Stacy was really turned on and after a good 5 minute of sucking and finger banging. She held my head still and she told me to stop. "Honey, stop. I am about to cum. Give me a minute, I want to cum in your beautiful sissy ass." She said. I was a little puzzled, but I went along with it. She asked me to get up and get on all fours. I obeyed and I raised my pussy up high and ready for a good pounding. While Stacy was lubricating her hot rod, I reached under my clitty and slowly stick my finger into my pussy. Oh, it was so good. Instead of lubricating my pussy with the lubricant, Stacy did it the old fashion way. She ate my pussy nice and good. At the same time, she jerked my clitty back to life. I was so turned on that I was about to explode the first firework into Stacy's hand. Stacy obviously noticed that and she stopped. She spread my cheek nice and wide. She leaned forward and whispered at my ears. "Baby, I am going to take you to heaven." She said softly. "Honey, fuck me, fuck me good, I can't take it anymore." She smiled and she slowly jammed her hard plastic meat into my pussy. Oh it was heavenly. I squeezed my pussy as hard as I could when she had the whole cock all the way in. She placed her hands on my waist and ready to pound. The second she pulled the cock out, oh, I swore, it was the best feeling I haven't had for a long time. While Stacy was pounding away, I turned my head and saw Stacy's beautiful breasts swinging up and down. She stuck her fingers into my mouth and I sucked on it like my life depended on it. After a good 5 minutes of pounding from behind, Stacy pulled her nice hard cock out and she turned me around. She lay on the sofa and spread her legs. I knew what to do next. I held onto the bottom on her cock and I slowly sat my pussy all the way down and swallowed the whole 8 inch meat. I leaned forward and I started pulling my pussy in and out of her slick cock as fast as I could. Stacy pulled me back and I wrapped my arm around her neck. She rolled her nice manicure fingers on my nipples and my breast milk streamed out like a river. "Honey, you are just full of surprises." She said. She sucked on my nipple hard and I could tell she was enjoying her meal. After a few minutes, Stacy said, "Honey, I am about to cum, I want to cum on top of you like a man." I wasn't sure what she meant, but I wasn't going to object. I quickly pulled her cock out of me and I lay on the sofa and raised my legs up all the way to her shoulders. Stacy gave me a kiss and said while she was on top of me, "Honey, I want you to cum with me." While I was sucking on her tits and jerking my own clitty. Stacy held my legs high and pound me like a lion. "Honey, I am getting close, I am going to cum." I said. Stacy quickly let go of one of my legs and she adjusted something on her cock. A few seconds later, I couldn't hold it anymore, I exploded a whole gallon of cream on my flat stomach and the second I was about to catch my breath. Stacy said, "I am going to cum." Her hard plastic cock started shooting hot cream into my pussy and my body was so turned on that I shot another stream of cum on my stomach. Oh, my god, that was great. The hot cum was in my pussy burning my anus and I love that feeling. Stacy pulled her cock out of me and she told me to squeeze the hot cum out of my pussy. She kept my legs up high and she couldn't stop staring at the cum oozing out of my sissy hole. She told me to hold my legs up high and she started licking my pussy clean, then she licked all the cum off my stomach. She didn't just stop there, she sucked on my tits and she transferred all the fluid into my mouth. I was more than happy to swallow it all. Oh what a yummy snack she gave me. Our fucking didn't just stopped there, we fucked so many times that Stacy had to refill the cream into her cock 3 times. She completely took charge the whole evening and what surprised me was that every time after I cum on my stomach, she would spoon my cum with her fingers and stick it into her dripping wet pussy. I asked her why she didn't just let me fuck her. She said she needs to be in charge when it comes to sex and she wants to have my baby. I was so tired at the time that I didn't have any energy left to freak out. The next morning when I was awake, I didn't see Stacy around. All I saw was a note on the bathroom mirror said, "Alex. Sorry, I mean Alexis. Please close the door when you leave." I hung around at her apartment for two hours hoping she would be back, but unfortunately I didn't get a phone call or anything. On the way home, I was contemplating if I should call her again. The problem was that I forgot to ask her for her phone number. I wasn't going to call my friends to ask them for her number either. So, I decided it was a good evening and I should just let it go. Chapter 3 - Baby on its way Two months passed by after that wondering evening. Out of the blue, I received a phone call one night. It was Stacy. She asked me to come out and have a coffee. I was hoping I would get another evening of fucking like two months ago. I put on the most girlish panties and lingerie under my male clothes and I carried my purse and put it in my car. After I arrived at Starbucks, I saw Stacy smoking outside. I was going to give her a hug, but she told me to go inside and get myself a drink. It was a chilling evening, so I got myself a hot latte and I walked outside. "Alexis." Stacy said. "How are you doing Stacy? I haven't heard back from you, so I thought may be you don't want to see me again." I said. "Alexis, why don't you have a seat? I have something to tell you." She said. "Okay..."I said. "Alexis, I am pregnant and the baby is yours." She dropped the bomb on me. "What?" I screamed. "Calm down, honey." She said. "What? But... I didn't even really fuck you that evening." I whispered. "Well, you didn't. But I did spooned all your cum into my pussy, you remembered?" "What the fuck? You set me up." I said. "Relax, honey. See, I am actually a lesbian. My girlfriend and I wanted a baby. So, that one night I decided you would be the donor. Unfortunately, she and I broke up a week ago. So, that's why I called you." She said. "What do you want from me? I mean, if you want money for an abortion, I would love to help." I said. "Well, here is the thing. I want to keep the baby." "You can't, that's not fair to me." "Look, my parents are rich and I am the only child. They knew I am a lesbian and they wanted a grandchild to carry our family name. We high society people are not allowed to have a child without a father. That is an embarrassment to my family. So, here is the deal. If you marry me until after the baby is born. My parents will give you hundreds of dollars and you can do whatever you want. Now, does that sound good to you?" "What if I said No?" "Well, you are a designer right? How would you feel if you can't see or use your hands for the rest of your life? Can you still be a designer? All it takes is a phone call and I will make sure that is done." "Are you threatening me? I can go to the cops." "Honey, don't be so naive, do you think they will believe you? Remember, we rich people can get away with a lot of things. Besides, all you need to do is to marry me for nine months. And during that nine months, you can do whatever you want, include bringing your boyfriends or your sissy friends over. As long as you don't get caught by the media and cause my family any embarrassment, I don't really care what the fuck you do. Plus you get to live in a big house and I will give you an allowance every months. Come on, how can you pass up such a great deal?" "Can I have some time to think about it?" I asked "Nope, now or never." Chapter 4 - Contract marriage A few weeks later, we had our grand wedding ceremony and we headed off to a private island for our honeymoon. Every night, I would see Stacy having sex with multiple girls. For the few times I wanted to join them, they told me the party is for real girls only. Although we were technically married, but we were living in separate lives. I rarely will see her even we lived under the same roof. For the next few months, there were only two things that kept me occupy. One is to doll myself up every day in the house and the other was to finish all my college classes early. For twice a week, I have voice lessons with an amazing teacher who helped many T-girls like me to overcome the voice problem. Since I was living in Stacy's house and I basically had no expenses, I spent a good chunk of my allowance on clothes, make up, hair salon and electrolysis. Beside the lactate pills that I was taking, I also started estrogen after I moved in with Stacy. The effect was slow but I was quite happy with the result. Since I am a pretty skinny girl, estrogen had given me the fuller hip and softer skin. My breasts had grown to a full A cup, which I had trouble to hide when I had to wear male clothing to go to school. Fortunately I graduated six months early, so I didn't have to worry about that for too long. . On the other hand, Stacy's stomach was getting larger and larger and her mood swing was getting worse and worse. It was a pretty disturbing scene seeing Stacy drinking, doing drugs and having sex with the girls in the house. One night, while I was in my peignoir sitting in the living room watching the Home and garden channel. I heard Stacy and a few other voices coming into the house. When I turned and looked, I saw Stacy's parents and her walked in. "Look what we've got here, a sissy." Stacy's dad said. I tried to cover myself with a blanket. "Boy, she is beautiful, isn't she, John?" Stacy's mom said. "Well, he is getting more beautiful everyday. I guess pretty soon I would have to ask her for beauty tips. Look at how she sway her hips when she walks, she is more feminine that most girls." I tried to leave the living room and walked back to my room. I was so angry at their comment that I hide in my bed and cried. In the middle of the night, I heard someone opening my bedroom door and I saw a shadow walking close to my bed. At first, I thought it was a theft, but before I could react, I heard a voice said, "Alexis, are you awake?" I rubbed my sleepy eyes and said, "Who is it?" "Oh, it's me, John. I thought you might want to have some company." "Why would you think that?" I tried to cover my breasts with my blanket. "Oh, Stacy said that you haven't been intimate with anyone since you moved into the house, so I thought you might be a little lonely." He sat on my bed and said. Before I could respond, he already started sliding his hand up and down my legs. Next thing you know, he took his bathrobe off and all I saw was a naked man standing in front of me with his huge erection three feet from my face. He came closer and tried to move my head close to his hot rod. "John, I don't think this is a good idea. Your wife is in another room and you are Stacy's father." I said. "Nonsense. First off, Stacy's mom and I fucked around with other people all the time. So, she wouldn't really care. If you worried about Stacy, she hooked me up with her friends all the time. So that's not a problem either." Before I could say something else, he jammed his cock to my lips and told me to start sucking. Since I haven't had any sex for quite a while, the musty smell of his cock really turned me on. I softly grabbed the bottom of his cock and started sucking. While I was slurping on his monster, he kept himself occupy by playing with my tits. Boy, it felt so good that I almost creamed my cotton panties. While I was working hard on John's cock, I suddenly heard another voice came into the door. I immediately stopped. "Oh, John, you are here. I knew you couldn't keep you hands off this sissy," Stacy's mom said. "Well, you know me best." John said. "I haven't had any sissy cock for a long time, mind if I join in?" "Not at all." John said. While John jammed his cock back into my mouth, Stacy's mom jumped onto the bed. I am telling you, she was aggressive. She quickly lifted up my nightie up and ripped my panties off of me. The next thing I know was her warmed lips around my clitty. Even though my mouth was stuffed with John's cock, I was moaning like crazy. After about five minutes, Stacy's mom climbed on top of me and started sucking my titties. "Oh, look, John, out little girl is lactating. You are full of surprises, Alexis." Stacy's mom took John's cock out of my mouth and started kissing me. Without a warning sign, she raised herself up, grabbed my erected clitty and jammed it into her hairy dripping wet pussy. "Don't worry, honey, I won't get pregnant like Stacy." She laughed. Rather than me taking action, she held me down and rode me like I was Seabiscuit. Both of us were breathing hard and the next thing I heard was Stacy's mom ordering her husband to fuck her in the ass. John wasn't going to argue; he climbed on top of us and slid his big hard cock into his wife's ass. God, it was heavenly when my clitty was in Mary's pussy and our tits were rubbing each other's. Mary was so wet that I thought she peed on my clit. After about 5 minutes of double penetrations, John pulled his cock out of Mary's ass and started jamming it into her pussy. Oh god, Mary was screaming for pleasure when both cocks were moving in her pussy. It felt so good when my clitty and John's cock rubbing each other's in such a tight space. Mary sure knows how to pleasure her partners. While we were busy drilling, she reached behind herself and rubbed our ball bags together. The pleasure was so intense that after about 5 minutes, I knew I was going to cum. "Oh, I am going to cum..." "Yes, cum in mama's pussy." Mary tired to gripped our cock together as hard as she could when I emptied my ball bag. She slides her pussy out of our cock and she climbed up to me and sat her cum dripping pussy on my face. The next thing I saw was she squirted a gallon of cum on my lips. John on the other hand, he raised my legs up and started invading his monster cock into my tight ass pussy. Since his cock was well lubricated by my sissy cum, he had no problem sliding his hot rod into me in one thrust. I screamed when he jammed the whole thing into me. Every time when I moaned and stopped eating Mary's pussy, she would slap me hard on my tits. I tried to focus my licking on her clit and it didn't take long for Mary to cum. She squirted a stream of female cum on my face and it was delicious. John on the other hand was really turned on by our action, I tried to grip my pussy muscle tight and it didn't take him long to shoot his load into my sissy pussy. After another three rounds of fucking, I was exhausted. It was the best fuck I haven't had for a long time. I inserted a tampon in my pussy to stop John's cum leaking out. I wanted the juice inside of me for the whole evening. While I was still breathing hard, John and Mary left my room and they shut my door. I was blacked out for about twenty minutes and I felt really thirsty. I was going to go downstairs and get myself a cold bottle of water. Just when I walked out of my room, I heard John and Mary were talking in the living room. "John, that sissy was good, huh?" Mary said. "You are damn right she was." John said. "Too bad she is not going to be here for long." I was shocked when I heard that, so I stopped walking. "Are you sure your plan will work?" Mary said. "Well, you have no idea how much the wealthy people will pay in middle east for a fine piece of sissy ass like the one upstairs, huh?" John said. "How much?" Mary asked. "Well, let me put it this way. Not only I don't have to pay that bitch a hundred thousand dollars, but I will get another 5 million in return. All I need to do is to knock her out, tied her up and put her on a private jet. That's all." "That's it? But what are you going to tell Stacy?" Mary said. "Well, we will just tell her Alexis left. It's not like she really care about him anyway. By the way, you need to control her spending. She has no idea how broke we are right now. With the 5 million dollars, I can get back into the game." My heart just dropped when I heard that conversation. I quietly went back into my room and I cried throughout the night. The next morning, I left the house early and I went to a coffee shop. I was contemplating if I should go back to the house. With the little money I got, I really couldn't go anywhere. I had to come up with a game plan. Chapter 5 - Get the hell out of Dodge. On the way home, I stopped by at an electronic store and picked up a video camera. After I went back to the house, I acted like nothing had happened and I said hi to both John and Mary. I went into my bedroom and set up the camera. Then I went back downstairs and had a chat with Stacy's parents. "Looks like you did some shopping today." Mary said to me. "Well, we women have to look our best." I replied. "By the way, do you think my tits are too small?" I asked with my sexy voice. "I think they are nice as is." Mary said. "Well, you know. After your grand child is born, I will have to look for another meal ticket. I want to look my best." "Well, I guess a little plastic surgery wouldn't hurt." John said. "I was wondering if I can borrow twenty thousand dollars from you guys. You can deduct it from the money that you are going to pay me. I want to have breast implant and a face reconstruction surgery. The surgeries take a couple months to recover, so by the time when I am healed, it would be the perfect timing for me to leave the house. What do you think?" "Well, twenty thousand is not a small amount." John said. "Come on, it is chump change for you guys. I promised it's only this once. Also, if you don't mind, I would like them in cash. You know how it works, you flash a little cash, then you don't have to wait in line for appointments. The plastic surgeon that I have in mind has a 6 month waiting period, but if I pay the premium in cash, I can have my surgeries as soon as next week." Mary and John looked at each other and I knew as long as I get pass John, I shouldn't have problem getting the cash. So, I walked up to him and I unzipped his zipper and said. "I promise I will be a good girl for you." I said with my most girlish voice. While I was massaging John's cock, I pulled Mary to me and I placed her hand to my titties and I gave her a big wet kiss. "Why don't you guys talk it over and I will wait for you guys upstairs." I make sure I swayed my ass as much as I could when I walked up the stairs. I pretended I slammed my door shut and I tried to hear their conversations. "What do you think, John?" Mary said. "I think it is a good idea." John said. "With the bigger tits and plastic surgeries, we might be able to ask for more than 5 mils. Those guys in Middle East love big titties. Plus, after the surgeries, we can easily move her around without much resistance." "But it is twenty grand?" Mary said. "Well, you have to spend money in order to make money." John said. I knew they came to a conclusion, so I quietly walked back into my room and get the camera ready. During the 5 rounds of love making session, I made sure I gave them my 110%. Both John and Mary cum so hard that, they both fell asleep in my bed and John promised me the money on Monday, which gave me a whole weekend to pack. Monday morning, John and I went to the bank to get my money. I put the money in my purse and I told John to drop me off at the plastic surgeon's office. However, after we exit the freeway, John received a phone call. It was Mary. Apparently, Stacy had an overdosed the night before and the doctors were trying to save both the mother and the baby. John told me what happened and I knew that was probably the last chance for me to escape. "Is Stacy okay?" I asked. "I don't know. Mary was crying the whole time and I barely could hear her. I think the doctor is trying to save the baby now." John said. John tried to turn around and get back onto the freeway. "John, I think you should let me off here and go to hospital now." I said. "Aren't you going with me?" John asked. "I don't think I should go to the hospital dressed like this. There must be a lot of media outside of the hospital waiting. You don't want to see your son in law wearing a dress on tomorrow's newspaper, do you?" "Good thinking!" John said. "Don't worry, I will catch a cab home and change. I will meet you at the hospital." Chapter 6 - New friends I took a taxi to my car and I drove to the West coast. I called my friend that was in San Francisco and I told him that I would be in town for a short while. I arrived at a hotel where I booked on line and after I dropped my belongings, I freshen up and I drove to the restaurant to meet my best friend Allen. Allen is a sissy admirer. He is about ten years older than me and I met him in a TS function a few years ago. Allen had seen me dressed up before and we became very close friends after we know each other for a few months. Unfortunately, Allen has to get transferred to West coast due to a great job opportunity, that's why we didn't hit it off. That evening, I had my best evening gown on. After I opened the door, it seems as if all the eyes were focused on me or my legs. I told the hostess that I am looking for a friend. I spotted Allen at the bar, but I didn't approach him right away. I walked around a little bite just to see if he recognized me. He did look me up and down, but he looked away when I got close. So, I walked up to him and I put my hands on his razor sharp suit jacket and said. "Hey handsome. Want to buy it a drink?" I said. All the other guys sat next to him were all starring at him as if waiting for him to say no. "I am wait...ing, Oh shit. Are you Alex-is?" He asked. "What, you don't recognize me already? It's only a couple years" I laughed and gave him a hug. "Oh, my god. You are so beautiful. I am ...Speechless." "Thank you, you look very handsome yourself." I said. That evening, me and Allen caught up the old times. When Allen asked me the question why I was in San Francisco, I was ashamed to tell him the story. "Is it something I shouldn't ask?" Allen asked. "Well, it was a long story and I am kind of ashamed of what I've done." I said. "Are you in any danger?" Allen asked. "I was, but I think I am safe now." I said. Allen gave me a minute and I told him the whole story. I told him the only thing that is keeping me alive right now is the videotape that I have. "Well, do they know you have the video tape?" Allen asked. "No." I said. "Humm." Allen said. "I kind of have an idea, but I don't know if you should take the risk." "What? Any idea is better than none." I said. "Even though I am a producer now, but you still remembered I was a film editor back in east coast right? I bet I can modify your film and digitalize it." Allen said. "Ahh, so I can hide my face on tape?" "Smart girl. The tape is the only thing that can buy your safety." "You mean to black mail them?" "Nope. You should email them the footage. Your bargaining power is the film is in your friend's hand. If you don't check in with your friend once a month. The footage will be on the internet. For those rich bastards, their fame is more important than anything, including their money." "Good idea. Allen." "Well, the only problem is that I would see the film and I am not sure if you are Okay with that." Allen asked. "Not only if I am okay with it, but I will let you see the real thing." I laughed. "Well, thanks." He laughed. "If it was two years ago, I would jump to that opportunity, but I am with a very special girl now and I am pretty serious with our relationship." "Who is this special girl? Do I know her?" I asked. "Nah, she is someone I met here and we are very much in love. We are actually living together." "Congratulations, Allen. That is a big step for you." "So, where are you staying?" "In a hotel." "You want to come check out my place?" "Are you sure that's okay? I mean your girlfriend is at home and everything." "Don't worry, she is not the jealous type. I have a feeling you guys will be good friends." Allen, his girlfriend Brenda and I chatted all evening. By the end of the night, me and Brenda were so close that we were tagged teaming Allen on whatever he said. I had a wonderful evening with the couple and they invited me to lunch the next morning and show me around in San Francisco. After site seeing for the whole day, Allen and us two girls were pretty tired, so Allen offered to take us to a small French restaurant for dinner. Brenda was such a friendly person that I felt like I have just gained a sister. "So Brenda, are you working in the TV industry, too?" "I used to be a writer and that's how I met this handsome fellow. But I switched job a year ago. I am an editor for a fashion magazine." "Wow, that's very impressive. So, when are you going to give me a make over?" I laughed "Oh, come on. You are so beautiful already. Guys are lining up for a block just to say hi to you. Plus, you are a designer; I should ask you for beauty tips instead." Brenda laughed. "Thank Brenda. I am really happy that I get to meet you. You have no idea how lonely I was for the last few months. I felt like you two are the most important people in my world right now." "Cheer up, sister. We T-girls gotta stick together right?" "What about me?" Allen said. "Well, if you put on a dress and let me put some make up on you, then sure." Brenda said. "Forget it, then." Allen laughed. "So, Alexis. Do you have any plans yet? I mean you can't stay in the hotel forever." "Well, I am planning to go apartment hunting in a few days. As far as my career, you know, I always have big ideas on design, but my limited experience may not let me do what I want to do. Do you have any suggestions?" "My parents passed away a few years ago and they left me the house. I was going to sell it, but it needs to be remodeled. I just don't have time to do that yet. If you don't mind, you can stay there for a while until you find another place." "Actually, if you don't mind, I would like to know if you would let me remodel it for you." "That will be great, I will pay for all the expenses if you will do that." Brenda looked at Allen and said. "Actually, I have a even better idea. I might be able to get your house fix up for free." Allen said. "Oh really?" Brenda said. "You know, the home and gardening channel that I work for has been struggling for rating for a long time. That's why they brought me here from East coast. However, my hands are tied since most of the executives are so conservative. Well, just a few months ago, a new owner invested a large amount of money into the network and he is looking for new ideas to turn the station around. Since I am the producer who is in charge of that task. I am thinking may be I can put the project together like a show. Like a reality TV show. You know since Survive came out a few months ago, their rating has been sky high, I bet I can make this to work." "Wow, I didn't know you are working for the home and garden channel. I always thought they can do better than all those fu-fu shows that they put on there. As a matter of fact, I have some ideas of my own." "Really?" Allen said. "I am willing to listen." The three of us were all chipping in for ideas. We were all so excited about the project. "Girls, I think this is really going to work. But we have one problem." "What is it?" Brenda said. Allen looked at me and said, "Alexis." "Me?" I pointed at myself and said. "Even though the network is looking for a break thru, but I don't think they will go as far as putting a T-girl on TV." Allen said while he was starring at his coffee. "Come on, honey. Alexis will be great for the show. She has the beauty, the wittiness and the charisma that you were looking for. There must be something that you can do, can't it?" Brenda "In order to for me to put you on the show as a host, you would have to dress as a man again." Allen said. "That..." I said. "I am sorry, Alexis. I know it is a tough decision. I mean, we can forget about everything we said tonight and just let you remodel the house for Brenda. I am sure Brenda wouldn't mind paying the money at all." Allen said "Not at all. I would love to have Alexis re-do my house, so I can sell it. I will pay, no problem." Brenda said. "You know, the fact of the matter is. Since I haven't gotten the new identity yet. I will have to dress up as a man anyway if I want to look for a design position. Unless, I started my own business, which I don't have enough money yet. It is a great opportunity and I want to give it a try." "So, you are okay with the male clothing?" Allen asked. "Yes." I said with a smile. "Honey, if you want so private girl time, you can live in the pool house temporary while the construction is happening." Brenda said. "Wow, that will be a long commute for me to go to work." I laughed. Brenda gave me a hug and they took me back to the hotel. Chapter 7 - My career change the world The next day, Brenda and Allen met me at the hotel and I followed them to my new home. When I arrived, Brenda took us to the living room. She showed us around and she took all the covers off the furniture. While she was busy tidying up the place, I handed the tape to Allen. "Allen, this is the only evidence that I have on Stacy's parents." I said. "Alexis, I promise I will not tell anyone about this and that will include Brenda. I will only work on this at my home office. So, nobody will know." "Thanks Allen. I really appreciate that." "Guys, are you ready to see the house?" Brenda said. "Honey, I am no good at this kind of stuff. Why don't I go do some grocery shopping and prepare for dinner and let you ladies do your thing?" "That sounds good honey. I want Lobster for dinner. Alexis, are you okay with seafood?" "Yeah, sure." For the next few hours, me and Brenda went over some of the concepts that I had in mind. I could tell Brenda was a little overwhelms by the details and after a few hours, she basically gave up. "God, honey. You know, I grew up in this house my whole life. I have never thought the house can be looked like what you sketched here. I thought all women are natural designers, but I guest that is a untrue statement." "Well, that's the difference between a designer and a decorator. I still have to talk to all the contractors and come up with a budget and present it to Allen." "You know, I trust you completely. So, just go with the ideas. If the network won't give you the budget, I am willing to pay the rest from my own pocket." "Thanks, Brenda." I gave her a hug. "Honey, are you good with wine. I want to pick up a bottle of wine on the way home. Allen is very picky with his wine and I don't know what to get." Brenda asked "I have a couple brands that I like, but I am no experts on wine either. Can we stop by at the bookstore also? I want to pick up some interior design books and magazines." "Sure." After we arrived at Allen and Brenda's house. Brenda dropped off the stuff in the kitchen. Allen came out and give me a CD. "It's all done." Allen said. "That quick?" I said. "Well, I am the best in the business, you know." Allen laughed. "But this is probably the first and last time I will do this kind of material." He said. "I am embarrassed." I looked down to my heels. "Allen, can you do me a favor, can you keep this CD and just send me a small footage of it, so I can attach it to an email?" "Are you sure you want me to keep it? You are not worry that I take the CD and go blackmail them?' "I trust you. Allen. Plus, I want to forget about that period of my life, that's why I don't want to keep it." "Alright, Alexis. Come on, let's get some wine. I want to hear about the ideas for the show." A month later, Allen finally got a go from the TV executives for the show. During that month, Allen suggested me to go take some basic acting lessons. The show wasn't as big as a hit like Survivor. But the rating was climbing. After about ten episodes, for no reasons, reality TV had become a trend and I was starting to get recognized by people. After the house was completely finished, the TV executives offered me another show. Basically the plot was to renovate houses for people with limited budget. I figured it would be a great opportunity to show my talent, so I took advantage of it. Besides doing the TV show, I had to go to different places to promote for the channel. Although it was paid pretty well, but it was definitely hard work. As crazy as my schedule was, I still get together with Allen and Brenda once every two weeks. My Small fame has not really got in between our friendships. One evening while I was having dinner with them, Brenda told me something. "Honey, how is work?" "Busy, but it is still manageable. I am thinking of hiring an agent." I said. "That is a good idea." Allen said. "You know I have heard many things about you on the streets." Brenda said. "Like what?" I was nervous about what she was going to say. "You know, I hear people talked about your show when I go to supermarket or Starbucks. Most of them do have positive comments, but most of the ladies thought you are too pretty for a man." "Really?" "Since you are a designer, they automatically think you are gay. But the funny thing is most of the viewers are female, so they really don't care. They actually think they can relate to you better since you are not like most of those macho men on TV." "Well, that is a relief." "Actually quite a few of them have a crush on you; they think you are really cute." "Really, do you have their numbers? I mean I haven't, you know...be close to anyone since I started the show. I really don't mind groupies at this point." I laughed. "That's right; you are a rock star now." Brenda laughed. "Alexis, I realized the network has a contract with you for only one season, have they talked to you about extending your contract yet?" Allen asked. "No." "If that comes up, you might want to have an agent negotiate your contract for you. I mean, you are somewhat in the public eye now, you can ask for a lot more money. Remember, being a celebrity is very short life. You may want to take advantage of it while you are hot." "Thank Allen, I will remember that." A few months passed by, the network did try to negotiate the contract with me, but since I wasn't that big of a star. My agent hasn't really spent that much time to fight for a better deal for me. I brought that up to Allen on the phone one day while I was calling him. He told me he has something he wanted to talk to me about and he told me to go have dinner at their house that evening. "Allen, what do you think I should do? I mean the amount they are offering me is better than what I earn right now, but I think I should make a lot more, knowing that I am selling a lot of the commercials for them." "Well, let me ask you this. Are you happy with the show and the network? And what dollar figure do you have in mind?" "To be honest with you. I was really happy with the show when you were the producer. But since you left, everything we do is kind of half ass now. Also, the producers are starting to influence me toward a certain design direction, so that they can sell more products. You know, I am not really money hungry, but I kind of felt insulted that they wouldn't even offer me a six figure amount. That is kind of ridiculous considering how hard I tried to work for them. But I kind of have no choice." "What if you do have a choice?" Allen asked. "What do you mean?" I asked. "Well, this is still secret information, but I am leaving the network." "Are you sure? I mean, you are one of the highest paid producer there." "Well, in this business, there is always something better. I am wondering if you want to leave the network with me?" "Are you starting another design show? I am totally in." I said. "Well, hold on just a second. Yes, I am starting another show, but it has nothing to do with design. But I want you to be in it. I can guarantee you will be the next hot thing in town." Allen said seriously. "As popular as the reality TV is nowadays, most of them are actually garbage. But on the other hand, the TV audiences are more open minded for the next crazy idea." "What do you have in mind?" "What if I guarantee you, you don't have to wear male clothing again and I will offer you a seven figure salary. Would you be interested?" "Come on, Allen. Stop bull shitting us, just get to the point, I want to know too." Brenda said. "I want to create a show about a T-girls and their transformations." Allen said. "Oh my god, are you serious?" I said. "Yes, as a matter of fact, Brenda has to play a big part of it too. I want Brenda to put you on her magazine as a model." "Wow that is ground breaking, honey." Brenda said. "From the statistic that I got, I think it will work. Think about if a certain brand of clothes or make up can make a man look as beautiful as you are, how many ladies do you think will go buy it. For most women, once they get to a certain age, they are all looking for the miracle hoping they can look better or younger and you will be that miracle." "Holy crap. Alexis, you can be a multi- millionaire." Brenda said. "I don't know. What I do in my private life is kind of private. I don't know if I should bring it on TV." I said, "I understand your point. But with the money that you get, you pretty much don't have to worry about money for a long time and you can start your business after your fame died down and design things that you really want to design" I thought for a few minutes and I said. "Allen, I completely trust you, if you think it will work, I am with you all the way." "Yes, girl. Wow, this is revolutionary. I am going to talk to the best photographers and make you look the best in our magazine." Brenda said "Well, when do you think I can start?" I asked Allen "As soon as you finish shooting the last episode for your show." Allen replied. "Ready or not, Alexis is coming out to the world." Brenda screamed. Chapter 8 - T-girl, the new trend. Since the show touched on such controversial subject, Allen and Brenda had really put in a lot of time for the preparation process. We built up so much hype before the show was premiered; the media was actually following Allen around town just to see who was going to be on the show. As we were shooting, we had to maintain a close set, just to not let anything leaked out to the public. On the other hand, we had also received a few bomb threats that wanted us to stop the show from showing. Allen was very receptive on Brenda and my input. We didn't want the show to look like one of those make over shows. We wanted to touch on transexualism in a deeper level and let the general public know what we had to go through physically and mentally. Before the first episode was premiered, Brenda had me go into the Studio and had some beautiful pictures taken. She also gave me an interview that she was planned to be the main story of her magazine for the next month. The evening when the show was aired, Allen, Brenda and I were in their living waiting for the show to start. After the episode was over, I said. "You know what, even if the show is a flop, I am still very happy with it. I think it is the best work I have ever done." I said. "I agree, Alexis" Then, the moment of truth came. Allen's cell phone rang. "Hello...Um...Okay." That's all Allen said when he answered the phone. "Honey, what?" Brenda was so excited. "Well, the rating was so high that, they were almost as close as the super bowl." "Yeah..." Both me and Brenda screamed at the same time. "Well, are you ladies tired? I think it is time to go celebrate." Allen said. All three of us went dancing that evening and I didn't get home until 3:00 in the morning. The next morning when I was ready to leave home and go to the studio. Something strange had happened. The second while I opened my garage door, there must be two dozen of reporters waiting outside of my house. It was something I wasn't expected and hen I arrived at the studio, the same thing happened. It took a few securities to open the path for me to get in. "I guess the show is a hit." Allen said. "I guess so. But reporters are making me nervous." "Don't worry, you will get used to it." For the next two weeks, I was the talk of the town. Brenda called me one day and said that her magazine was sold out in one day and they had to go back and reprint another ten thousand copies. I was very happy the show was a hit, but on the other hand, I had to have a few security guards around me whenever I go and I was quite irritated by some of the questions that were asked by the paparazzi. I received a phone call one evening from a very famous movie star and he wanted to see if I could be in his next movie. I told him I was interested and he asked me to meet him that evening so he could tell me the plot. I was very interested in the project. Even though I wasn't in a leading role, but it was a great opportunity to kick start my movie career. I told him I will have my agent contact the director and I shook his hand and told him I am in. Well, next thing you know. Me and the actor were on the front page of every tabloid the next day. The rumor was me and him were dating. I thought it was ridiculous, but on the other hand, I really wouldn't mind to have such a good-looking boyfriend. I tried to deny it for a few times, but I had got into a few little trouble for saying the wrong thing. So, I decided to just keep my mouth shut and smiled. A few long months of exhausting schedule, the movie was finally done. Telling people I was hot was actually an understatement. T-girls have become such a trend that there were straight movie stars and celebrities trying to bring T-girls to the public and claimed they are their girlfriends. The most ridiculous one that I heard was, some psycho kidnapped his best friend and locked him down in his basement and tried to turn his friend into a T-girl and become his girlfriend. That was just out of hand. I guess I had changed the perspective of how people looked at us T- girls. I started to see more and more of us walking on the street during daylight. However, I do think that a lot of them do need a lot of work. Especially some of them who look like a linebacker with their legs and armpit unshaven. That was just a little disturbing even for me. Although my sudden fame had gotten me a pretty good size fortune, but my live was just a big mess. The only time that I cherished was to have dinner at Allen's. They were the only people who I could really talk to. "Honey, I heard you and your famous movie star boyfriend broke up, is that true?" Brenda asked. "Come on, Brenda. I can't believe you read that garbage." "Well, you are so busy nowadays that we barely could see you, so whenever I see you on the cover any magazines, I would buy it." "The truth of the matter is, not only I was not dating that actor. I am not dating at all. I do have some people asked me out, but most of them looked like a scumbag. I can smell them wanting to take advantage of me from a mile away. Actually, I was going to ask you guys to set me up on a date. It's been so long since I have seen any normal human being, I am getting awfully lonely." "Honey, I am sorry." Brenda said. "Allen, do you have any friends who can set up Alexis?" She laughed. "Don't look at me, most of my friends are married and have kids." Allen replied. "Don't worry, honey. I will find you a good man." Brenda laughed. After that evening, I felt like I was recharged. On the way home, I must have drunk too much wine during dinner that I needed to go pee really bad. Since it was only ten minutes away, I tried to drive really fast and I missed a stop sign and a car slammed into me. I almost pissed my dress at that moment. We pulled our car aside and I got out of my car and see if the other driver was alright. I gave him my insurance and my driver license. Before he could say something, I sprint to the gas station about 20 feet away with my 4 inch high heels and I slammed the bathroom door shut. The moment when I sat down on the toilet, the fluid just gushed out of my body like a waterfall, I thought I was going to flood the toilet. I padded myself dry, fixed my make up and went back to my car. While I was walking back, I was prepared the man was going to scream at me. Well, it was actually the opposite. Before I could apologize to the man, he jumped the gun and said, "Miss, are you okay?" He said. "I am fine. I am sorry about your car. I will pay for all the damages." "I feel much better that you were Okay. When I saw you sprint to that gas station, I thought you were breeding or something. I have never seen a lady ran so fast with their high heels on, you are amazing." "I am so embarrassed. I drank too much water the evening and I wanted to go the lady's room real bad, that's why I missed the stop sign. I am sorry, but are you Okay?" "I am fine. By the way, you look kind of familiar. Have I seen you somewhere before?" "Well, I don't know, I think you look kind of familiar to me too. Anyway, I am Alexis." I shook his hand. "I know, Alexis. I still have your license, remembered?" He laughed. "I am Mark, by the way." Chapter 9 - The second mistake. Mark called us a toe truck and we exchanged phone numbers. Mark said he would call me after he gets the estimate on the damages. I called Allen and Brenda about the accident and they were worried, but I told them I was Okay. I ran a bath and sat in the hot water for a good 45 minutes when I got home. I went to the refrigerator and got myself a glass of juice and lay down on my couch and watched some late night television. Hell, what do you know, I saw Mark on TV. He was a spokesperson for a famous financial firm. His firm just bought out another huge company that same day and he was on the news. I though he was more handsome in real person, I said to myself. A few days later, I received a call from Mark on my rare day off. He asked me if he could meet me at a Starbuck and go over the insurance information. Since it was a little hot, I only wore my tank top and my mini dress with just a little bite of make up. When I arrived, I saw Mark was sitting in the corner reading his business journal. "Hey Mark, how are you doing? Sorry, I am late." "That's okay. I can wait for a movie star." He laughed. "Oh, so you found out huh?" I said. "Well, actually I didn't know until I reported your name to my insurance company. When the person heard your name, she laughed. I asked her what's so funny. She told me you have the same name as her favorite actress. So, that afternoon, I went to the newspaper stand, sure enough I saw your pictures on a couple of magazine's cover." "Well, did the girl give me a discount on the damages since I was her favorite actress?" I laughed. " I can call her now..." He laughed. "Well, you looked very handsome on TV too. I saw you on the news that evening when I got home. How much did you spend on that razor sharp suit that you had on?" I laughed. "Well, that was a very busy day for me. I was very tired that evening and I could have avoided the accident if I was more awake. But on the other hand, I wouldn't be able to meet such a beautiful woman like you if it wasn't the accident." "Even the girl who would sprint to the bathroom with her high heels on? God, that was so embarrassing." I said. "You are not going to go tell anyone, are you?" I laughed. "No, of course not." We went over the details on the numbers and just when I was about to leave, Mark asked me if he could see me again. I was a little shocked, but I told him to call me. My work schedule was pretty horrible the next few weeks since my movie was wrapping up. I have gone on a couple of lunch dates with Mark and I had a very good time with him. Although he looked like one of those serious young executives, but he was actually a very funny guy and I was swept away by his humor and his personality. After the shooting was over for my movie, I went on a third date with Mark. I was a little nervous. You know, the third date. It was supposed to be the time. That evening, we went out to a romantic dinner and the restaurant was just perfect. We grabbed some coffee and we went to the beach after a nice delicious meal. It was a little bite chilly and Mark gave me his jacket while we were sitting on the bench. "Alexis, I had a great evening tonight." He said. "Me too. You have no idea how long I haven't had a date with someone. I have a wonderful time." I said and I gave him a kiss. "Alexis, I really like you and I really want you to be my girlfriend. But before you say anything, there is something I have to tell you. I am actually in the process of getting a divorce and I have two kids." I looked at Mark and pulled my jacket to covered myself and said. "Do you still love her?" I asked. "It is actually a nasty divorce. She cheated on me while I was on business trips and I caught her with a man in our bed red handed. To answer your question, no. I don't love her." "Well, Mark. I haven't been very honest myself." I took a sip of my coffee and said. "I am not what you would expect from a normal girl." I paused. "Alexis, I know." Mark said. I looked at Mark with Shame and I looked away. "If you already know, why do you still want to be with me?" I asked. "Cause when I saw you the first time, I thought I saw an angel. I don't really care if you were born a man. It is your feminine beauty that really attracts me to you. All I know is, I want to be with you and I don't really care about your pass." He wrapped his arm around me. My tears just flooded out of my eyes and he turned my face to him and he gave me the most delicious kiss I had ever had. We went back to Mark's apartment that evening. Mark was so turned on that he was going to pin my down on the couch and just had wild sex with me. Trust me, I wanted to do the same, but I wanted the night to be special. I told him to shower first. After he was done, I handed him a beer and to relax. I asked him if I could borrow a T-shirt from him. Instead, he gave me a bathrobe. I showered quickly and I put on just a little bite of make up. I was going to put my bra and panties back on, but I decided not to. When I walked out of the bathroom. Mark couldn't keep his eye away from me. I sat right next to him and cuddled into his warm arms. Mark turned off his huge Flat screen television and he kissed me. I was in ecstasy. I was so turned on that my small clitty was getting hard, but it was nothing compare to the monster that was hiding in Mark's boxer. While we were kissing, I breezed my hand up and down of his manly chest and stomach and he started opening my robe to the side. My natural b-cupped breasts were exposed in front of him, he broke off the kiss and started sucking on my pink erected nipples. Oh god, it felt so good. Even after all these years, I haven't really stopped taking the lactate pills. So when he had his first sip of my breast milk, he gave me a puzzled look. I closed my eyes and brushed my small fingers through his hair and let him continue his sucking. While Mark was enjoying his dessert, he ran his hand up and down my silky smooth legs. I was so turned on that I thought I was going to cum. Suddenly, his hands reached higher and grabbed my small erected clitty. I immediately opened my eyes and he gave me a kiss. He expertly jerking my clitty and he massaged my ball bag every few seconds. "Honey, does it feel good?" He asked. I was so horny that I just grabbed his face and kissed him. A few minutes later, he broke off the kiss and he exposed my body completely and said. "Alexis, you are the most beautiful girl I have ever seen." Before I could respond, he grabbed my sissy pole and put his mouth on it. "Honey, stop." I said. "Are you sure about this?" "Yes, absolutely." I spread my legs wider and gave him the full access. I could tell it was probably Mark's first time sucking a sissy, but I enjoyed every second of it. A few minutes later, without letting go my clitty off his warm lips, he turned himself around and gave me his hot firing cock. Oh god. Mark was well equipped and he was leaking so much pre-cum. He must be really desperate for relief. The second I wrapped my warm red lips around his cock head and licked his arrow point, he moaned as if he was in heaven. His cock was so hot that I thought it was going to burn my tongue. I guess it must be man instincts. While Mark was sucking my clitty, he gently spread my cheek opened and started sticking his fingers into my pussy. Good thing I have gave myself an enema and lube myself while I was in the bathroom, otherwise it was going to hurt. Without much resistance, Mark easily stuck his whole finger into my dripping wet ass pussy. I was moaning for more. When he stuck his second finger in, I though I was ready to go to heaven, but when the third finger was at the entrance. I thought I could never fit the last finger in. With my pussy being so wet, I actually swallowed all three of his fingers with just a little bite of pain. After as if eternity. Mark got up and he mounted me from the top. I automatically put my legs on top of his shoulder and he slowly slipped his huge cock into my pink sissy hole. I moaned so loud that the neighbor down the block could probably hear my screaming. The second he pushed his cock in and out of me, I couldn't stand it anymore. I grabbed my own nipple and my cock and I started playing with myself. My breast milk was streaming out of my nipple like a river and Mark would licked it off every few seconds while he fucked me on top. Mark picked up the tempo and started fucking me harder and faster. I knew Mark was stressing for relief, but I didn't want him to cum quite yet. I pulled his butt closer and I held him in that position nice and tight. His cock was all the way in me and he leaned down and kissed me on my neck. I wrapped my arms around his head while my pussy kept the sucking action going and Mark was impressed with such technique. The little break was just what Mark needed. He carried me up with his strong arms and he sat on the couch without having my pussy let go of his cock. I knew it was time for me to work. I brushed my waist length long hair to the side and I grabbed my breasts and started sitting up and down of his cock. While I was working my magic, Mark couldn't have enough of my clitty, he gently jerking me while I was enjoying his cock in my pussy. After about 5 minutes, I was pretty tired. I lay myself on top of Mark while my pussy was still swallowing his pole. Mark and I kissed while he wrapped his arm around my breasts and his other hand continued to jerk my sissy pole. His hips were pumping me faster and faster. I knew I was getting close and I told Mark to cum with me. Without any delay, my rocket took off. I shot ten spurts of cum all over Mark's hand and my flat stomach. My stomach was flooded with so much cum that I could barely see my diamond belly ring. Mark kept pounding me hard while I was cumming and right about me finished cumming, he shot his huge load into me. His juice was so thick and hot that it was burning my anus and it took a while for the juice to leak out. While we were catching our breath, I pulled Mark's cock out of my pussy and I spooned his thick juice off my pink sissy hole and I licked my finger clean, Mark didn't mind the after taste and he gave me a big wet kiss. To be continued... If you like the story, please drop me a few words to my email @ [email protected]. I am looking forward to your constructive suggestions, thanks.